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thecosmicminds-blog · 1 year

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For I was so enamored and devoted to you, the devil instead focused on deviating me from your path.

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grxceful-ly · 11 months

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peter bringing mayday with him to do spider stuff because yeah, he had things to live for before--but now he has a child and he is going to raise this child and be there for her and maybe if she’s there, strapped to his chest, he’ll be more careful. he’ll consider his life almost as precious as hers. maybe bringing mayday to work is a precaution.

#disclaimer: it's like 2am and i don't know what i just wrote because my brain won't function enough to read it over again #i also have read like zero spiderman comics so if this doesn't make sense because canon already speaks on it #i'm sorry #atsv spoilers #spiderman: across the spiderverse #across the spiderverse #peter b parker #mayday #i am having thoughts #PLEASE BLOCK APPROPRIATE TAGS IF YOU DON"T WANNA BE SPOILED PLEASE IM BEGGING YOU #miles morales #into the spiderverse #spiderman #spiderman spoilers #this thought came about because i think swinging around with a child is the stupidest/coolest thing ever #and i feel like peter wouldn't do it without a reason #anyway sorry for the random change in fandoms i saw the movie tonight and it was fantastic #also #catch me crying in the theatre because peter wants his daughter to turn out like miles #OKAY IM DONE SPAMMING THE TAGS NOW BYE #across the spiderverse spoilers #spiderman across the spiderverse

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willczek-art · 2 years

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are you okay, little lawyer??

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kingofthecapybaras · 8 months

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brief lil fic i wrote bc i was having too many thoughts about landduo hurt/comfort

obvious warnings for mentions of missing eggs and general angst

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foolish walks out of his tower, having just finished organizing his loot from the dungeons he did today, and pointedly not dwelling for too long on anything other than the chests in that room. he still has a bit of time left today, and he's certainly not looking forward to trying to go to sleep and being left alone with his thoughts, so maybe he can finally squeeze some work in on the titan, or he'll go to spawn and run into someone else to goof around with and distract himself.

foolish gets halfway across the path to his warpstone when he finally notices bad on the shore. he's sitting on the ground outside his and dapper's first house, with his arms wrapped around his legs, knees tucked up to his chin, staring off blankly into the water as it waves and ripples against the land.

foolish pauses for a brief moment, and then turns to walk along the shore over to him.

"hey," foolish greets softly. bad turns his head to look up at foolish, but doesn't say a word. foolish notices the bags under his eyes. bad turns back to staring out at the water.

it's not an outright 'go away,' so foolish takes that as invitation enough to sit down next to him on the ground, curled up similarly to bad with his hands resting on his knees. for what feels like the first time all day, foolish lets out a deep breath, the full weight of his thoughts washing over him like the sound of the waves.

he thinks of leo. he thinks about how in the days leading up to the eggs' disappearance he didn't even get to see her, missing her by mere minutes. he thinks of the note she left in the chest in her room, he thinks about the totems left there and how wherever she is now, she doesn't have them. he thinks of vegetta, how he's probably going to come back and find out their daughter is missing. he thinks of all the other eggs. surely they'll all come back, right? the last time they went missing they came back. they have to come back, it's not fair for them to just be taken without any warning, without any explanation, without any closure.

foolish feels tears start to prick at the corners of his eyes, and tries to push the feeling away. bad is still sitting next to him, after all, and foolish can only think however he's feeling, bad must be feeling it worse, he practically took care of all the eggs. he doesn't need to add foolish having a breakdown in front of him on top of all of that.

foolish takes another few deep breaths, listening to the sound of the waves, letting his thoughts wash away with them, and he thinks he might be somewhere close to feeling normal again. and then he feels bad lean his head against his shoulder.

he looks down to find bad already looking up at him, and they share a brief glance before foolish wraps an arm around bad's back, pulling him in closer, and bad moves to fully wrap his arms around foolish's chest, and then foolish moves his other arm and they're hugging each other so tight foolish worries he might crush him.

and then foolish notices bad is crying- shaking, silent sobs with cold tears landing where bad has tucked his head near foolish's shoulder- and then foolish's carefully put up wall cracks, every last thought and emotion foolish had been bottling in rushing out in the form of tears that trail down his cheeks and fall against bad's back.

they stay hugging even after they've both stopped crying, until finally foolish feels bad push back against his hold and he releases him. bad pulls away, wiping at his face with one hand, still saying nothing. foolish has the impulse to poke fun at him just to regain a sense of normalcy, but quickly pushes it down. he has the feeling bad needed that just as much as he did.

they sit in silence again for a little while longer, staring out at the water and the now mostly set sun just barely dipping below the horizon, before bad stands up.

"uh, i should go… i have stuff i need to work on."

foolish stands up with him, feeling that whatever moment they were having before has now passed.

"yeah, yeah. me too," foolish says. bad turns to leave, and foolish puts out a hand to stop him. "uh. thanks, though."

it's doesn't feel exactly like what foolish really means, but it's close enough.

"oh. thank you too," bad says.

they go their separate ways, and they don't mention it again, aside from the knowing glance they share when they see each other the next morning.

#idk if this is worth putting on ao3 and either way i cant b bothered to fix it up enough for that rn so its just a post #qsmp #qsmp fanfiction #qsmp fanfic #foolish gamers #qsmp foolish #badboyhalo #qsmp badboyhalo #landduo #land duo #foolhalo #vaguely. you can interpret it however u want #i just have many thoughts about them being constants in each others lives and relying on each other for stability #but also never really actually saying or addressing it or even really thinking about it #also i am posting this at 2am if its shit thats my excuse lmao

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yanderespamton78 · 14 days

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me bc i had to go ahead and hyperfixate on a bunch of minor background characters with about 3 lines of dialogue each so literally no one else gives a shit about my fav ship in the whole fandom

just warning you the tags are very rambly and dont include anything important so you dont really need to bother reading them lol

#cough cough addisons cough cough #ok the thing is its hard with addisons since they dont have a canon relationship with eachother some people think theyre siblings and other #ship them and i KNOW its not proshipping to ship them bc their relationship is down to preferences and interp not canon #but i always feel bad for liking it bc it FEELS like proshipping #(even tho like half the fandom for these guys ships them)#askjjhkjafahskjhasd #i feel bad basically lmfao #i even remember doing a poll abt it a while ago basically saying “do you think shipping addisons is proshipping” and although 40 people-#voted none of them thought it was proshipping #basically just me feeling bad for things that i shouldnt really feel that bad about (as usual)#debating what i should tag this with #hmm #fuck it we ball #addisons deltarune #hyperfixations #shipping #fandoms #fandom #im tired its literally 2am why am i still awake ;-;

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toasty-owl-arts · 1 year

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the hyperfixations are COLLIDING

#doki doki literature club #amphibia #six the musical #doki doki natsuki #sasha waybright #katherine howard six #doki doki fanart #amphibia fanart #six the musical fanart #admittedly i havent drawn natsuki before #which is a tragedy she is SO FUN TO DRAW #but i just #had this brain thought at 2am of how all my favorite characters in the pieces of media ive fixated on of late #are all p i n k #and m e a n #and i like them so much for that #makes it even funnier when you think about how all three also have blue and green coded friends in their respective medias as well #i guess i really like my fixations color coded huh #ive been replaying ddlc and i am being so normal about it/j #i forgot how much i loved everyone i am too attached i think #maybe i should draw the rest of the dokis hmm #we'll see if high school lets me lmao #also some of these are my headcanons please dont freak out at me over them thank you <3 #FinchDoodles #my art

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twilightarcade · 1 day

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that's a weird dog

#wordstag #notwordswordstag #neptune wgen it's being normal about that eclipse thing #drawn at late oh clock it's like 2am right now . I think I'm gonna darken the eyes in the morning #or I won't. You never know with this guy.#anyhow I'm in bed now and I'm sooooo cozy.#ok so [mr beasts] this drawing was a 'let's use all the brushes in the sketching section & see what happens' thing #I think we're going 2 do another one w/ a smaller canvas size because I wanna . Try something. & this canvas was way too big #(<-I've been using the same canvas 4 like . Ages. And some IDIOT refuses 2 just move the sketches over(#literally whoever invented patterns on clothing should go explode . Do you have any clue #it's ok though . Fun exercise in whatever it's called. Perspective. If it was evil. ( I am failing the exercise)#ummmmmmm I thibk that's all. Spent way longer on this than I meant to. But the REAL criminal here was anzu because #That was supposed 2 be a warm up. Of sorts. I don't really do warm ups much if I'm going 2 be honest #trying 2 get into the habit but me drawing is more like . I'm going to draw 5 things in one sitting take it or leave it #ok guess who just . Fixed it.#I could point out like a million other things wrong but I'm not going to [smug cat picture] I'll leave that up to your imagination #ok umm how many tags is that . Not enough ? I want 2 do those whatever u wanna call those things again #yyou know. Peeks in my inbox.#ddude I might want to uh. I might want to crop this thing.#landscape is fun and all but seriously I can't #whatever. Officially a tomorrow me issue. Guess who's headed to sleep baby.#tomorrow neptune here I ended up cropping it after all.cod bleAmerica.ca.#anyhow I don't think I mentioned the . The Animal?

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spottedenchants · 6 months

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'he would never say that'? what if i examine the reasons why that may be and craft scenarios in which it is feasible for him to say exactly that

#sincerity disregarded if only for the words to leave his lips in some manner #because how strong is that never #i'm thinking popsickle stick at its thinnest #this is honestly and earnestly not about anything i am just rotating the thought of 'never's when it comes to #characterization vs character-as-a-piece-of-the-narrative #like in-universe vs out-of-universe #he Can never say that because the story has closed and he did not say that... but what if he could?#ooc-ness is the greatest sin? what if it is the point? what if he is contorting himself into a shape never intended for him #and seeing where and how it does and does not fit?#what if his narrative arc heavily focuses on change?#is he bound to stagnate based on his last living breaths on the page?#is it a disservice to imagine him revived a little to the left?#to breathe life into him with the air of your own lungs?#*STARES AT ORIGINAL TIMESTAMP* SAZDXFGHVJBKHCG HEY 2AM CHANSE YOU GOOD??#chanse chatters

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painless-innit-colourful · 6 months

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there are two wolves within you. one of them wants your best friend (squeamish) to be able to read your fics. the other wants to write the most messed up, grisly sht you've ever seen. they are both surprised any time you actually do anything like that.

Techno appeared at his shoulder and shoved him from the plateau he was standing on: he landed hard several metres below, with two sharp cracks and a blossoming of white-hot agony that told him both his legs were broken.

#surprise surprise the doomsday fic got grisly. actually i am kinda surprised i was more expecting this from the logsted chase fic #man. doomsday!! pain in the arse to watch back there is. SO MUCH going on #oh hey the final night. i haven't listened to you in years #i am very tired i did not intend to be up this late but unfortunately i hit my stride with only half an hour to go and i wasn't about to #waste that when i'd been struggling with it before. i think i'm going to move my writing slot earlier #dream smp #someone take away crim's keyboard #another charming word spaghetti from nearly 2am crim. goodnight everyone #tw broken bones

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thecosmicminds-blog · 1 year

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Say that you'll detach yourself from me physically . . . . .

Emotionally, you've scarred me enough to never truly forget you.

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fiendishartist2 · 9 months

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nvm turns out i just bring more tma doodles

(image 1): "maybe if i pretend to have a nervous breakdown elias will let me leave" "i think im in love with my boss"

(image 2): "DRUGS GIVE ME DRUGS GIVE ME DRUGS-" "can you feel the love tonight~"

#im so bored bc its like 2am but i cant sleep bc i had a nap in the middle of the day #so im just like sitting here... wide awake.......#whatever #to no ones surprise i am once again drawing jon in a fancy little outfit #this time its a jumpsuit #they're so sillay to ME. to you its a tragedy but im different #im rewatching tma rn and i just started s3 and ik i posted about ut yesterday but martin is so so so funny #all jon does so far is: be a little prick to martin specifically. stalk his coworkers. and get accused of murder and then disappear #and martin is like 😳😳😳#i believe that they only really started building a connection after prentiss trapped martin in his flat bc jon is noticably nicer to martin #and even in s2 when everything is falling apart btwn jon and tim and jon is becoming more irrational- martin cares about him #so i think s2 is when martin was like oooh okay. so im in love with him. esp with daisy's interview like thats proof to me that he was-#-at least crushing on jon at that point lol #and his continued faith in jon leading up to and proceeding leitners murder is just extra proof that martin cared a lot about jon from-#-prentiss onward #oh also that song martin is singing is na na na by mcr and jon is singing can you feel the love tonight by elton john #in my heart i believe jon went out for drinks at least once with the s1 crew even tho i know in my brain he probably wouldnt </3 #my art #doodles #tma #the magnus archives #jonathan sims #martin blackwood #jonmartin #sorry if they're hard to see im allergic to good phones and its dark in my room rn

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lazaruspiss · 6 months

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sigh. i dont know if this is popular opinion or not but i love AKverse babs. she caught me so off guard, ive never read or watched or played anything where i felt like she had a personality that wasnt just "the girl" or "insufferable bitch (but the writers think they wrote a #girlboss)". shes cute and smart and passionate. i might love her a little bit. on one hand i wish she did more in that series but on the other hand literally every other female character in AKverse has such dogshit writing that they mightve ruined her if they did more lol

#i was sooo excited when she replaced alfred as the home base/intel person towards the end of knight #SUCH whiplash tho. at best i Strongly Dislike her in every other media shes been in. but she was fun a the arkham series #which is insane bc have you seen what that franchise does to women. its so annoying and bad all the time except with babs #other female characters get like one personality trait each its so weird #theres also only 3 other women. 4 if u include nyssa but i think shes dlc tied #anyways its 2am im on a walk and writing a tumblr post about how down bad i am for Fictional Woman #nyssa wasnt too terribly written tbh #but again shes just tied to one side quest. less opportunity to screw it up

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paging-possum · 6 days

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Who up listening to good luck babe by chappell roan and having it resonate not in the way intended but resonating nonetheless. About to go ham in the tags about the overlap of being a lesbian and being aromantic...if u even care....

#my art #gore #organs #its 2am so not a lot of this is going to be very coherent but this song makes me feel a lot of things about it all #like. its the Expectations #the expectation that im going to date men and the expectation that im going to date at all have always felt equally stifling #theres that feeling of not trying hard enough or not realizing it at first or trying to lean into what you're told you should feel #and having it not pay off time and time again and wishing you could just make it work #because everyone else around you has it just fine and you dont get why you're struggling with it so much #THERE ARE MORE SIMILARITIES BETWEEN THE TWO IS WHAT IM SAYING #like obviously figuring out aromanticism is especially weird because its a lack of something BUT THEYRE PRETTY SIMILAR #realizing I dont want to date anyone mirrors realizing I didn't like boys but like. idk man its worse sometimes?#I wouldn't trade it for the world it means a lot to me but its almost like people go out of their way not to understand it sometimes #at the end of the day I am the you in that song #it was a very very long road to being okay with never falling in love because that was something I wanted for a very very long time #at the end of the day I will never have to be someones wife and I think its better that way #but its also hard not to get jealous sometimes #like I know its irrational I know I get physically ill at just the thought of being asked out but like #sometimes ill see my friends with their girlfriends and ill feel like clawing my own chest out with want #but also if anyone asks me out I will have to dig myself into a pit and never come out. I think.#I want to be with women but I dont want to Be With Women if that makes sense #its another layer of difficulty that I dont think I'll ever be able to get past #I feel like at this point I should just be trying to conditioning myself out of any form of desire because its just not an option for me #which definitely isn't true and like chappell roan says. you'd have to stop the world just to stop the feeling.#but its also so tiring to have to sit here with the feeling and feel bad for having the feeling.#I dont know #I think if I felt a little more or a little less I’d be fine but I’m stuck in the middle #it feels very weird talking about this openly but also its very difficult to talk about with friends because most of them dont get it #anyways something something Josies monologue from bottoms #im going to bed

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rosicheeks · 26 days

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Unfortunately relatable. I grew up in the church and have a lot of Christian trauma from that. I show up for special occasions for my parents… sometimes. But it’s uncomfortable from the moment I step through the door. Bigoted pastor, the self-righteousness disguising the prejudice, the political comments from the altar. Shots at young people left right and center as if the hell on earth wasn’t caused by the same older generation 90% of the congregation belongs to..

I miss being young in the choir and the youth groups and not struggling with it. It’s wild to look back at the younger version of me who was unshakeable in his faith and honestly just saddening.

I was texting my sister today about it and she said

“I 100% think ALL of us have a ton of religious trauma and everyone else in the family just doesn’t realize it cause they’re still drinking the kool-aid.”

I ran out of tag room and didn’t want to delete any 😭 seriously not lying I could write a book about all my thoughts and experiences

#I relate to all of this so much #and it’s so sad how many people truly have religious trauma #I still find myself lucky and privileged cause I know there are stories MUCH worse than mine #it’s really hard cause my parents still think I’m a Christian #honestly at this point I have no clue what i am #even if I end up still being a Christian that doesn’t help or heal all of the years of church trauma #but the hard part is still acting the part for my parents #growing up I always tried to fit into the good Christian girl mold #cause I know that’s what my parents wanted and I didn’t want to disappoint them #but once I started smoking weed and they found out? it went all downhill from there #their perfect angel fell from heaven #and I feel like ever since I haven’t been really their daughter…. I’ve just been living on the outside looking in to everything #it hurts looking back at all the years I spent brainwashed into believing that was the ONLY faith #it genuinely makes me sick to my stomach thinking about the fact that I went to a pro life rally #the thing I was talking to my sister about was how mental health was never talked about in the church #when I started dealing with it and went to my parents or the pastors or any adult really and told them what I was dealing with #wanna know what the first thing they would ALWAYS say? well have you prayed about it? the way they treated mental illness was that it was #YOUR fault cause God is punishing you for something…. that you need to pray or go to church so then God will eventually take it away #and the thing is I don’t necessarily blame my parents (which kinda sucks cause I want to blame someone)#but honestly it’s just the environment they grew up in too… like I’m 99% sure my dad has dealt with depression his entire life #but won’t get diagnosed or anything cause they always believe faith has something to do with it #which makes me incredibly sad cause I just think about how much my dad has suffered and how he didn’t need to #^^ I was typing this out when I was late to my family gathering hahaha but then I think my sister called or something so I had to stop #sorry this post is all over the place - I swear I could write a book about religious trauma #yesterday went ok surprisingly but today? TODAY is going to be so much worse #sure I’ll make a post about it later but I guessssss I should go to bed now? it’s 2am and I have to get up at 5:45 🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃#and I have a fuuuuull day of fun Christian festivities while I’m dealing with all of this bottled up and unresolved crap from my past #please don’t get me wrong I love my parents and like I said I don’t blame them - they did their best #it just really sucks wondering what my life would have been like if I didn’t grow up in the church or in a super religious family #I wonder if when I told my parents I was depressed if they would have instantly brought me in to get help

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that-spider-fan-over-there · 1 month

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I can picture after Izuku gets through Tomura in the vestige world, the trump card ends up being AFO's Quirk vestige, trying to grab Tenko with the vestiges of others (symbolized by hands, because. Horikoshi gonna Horikoshi) and using what he did in chapters 285, 359-362 as a way to distract Izuku, while he tries to save Tenko the same way he tried saving Katsuki in Chapter 1, and this time there are no heroes to help him, and he falters for a bit, maybe because he's reminded of his first setback that haunted him through his life, until he starts remembering his origins - his actual origin, as someone who wanted to help others regardless of Quirk, and then OFA manifests as his Quirk like the end of Heroes: Rising, permanently? for the last time? it'd be neat if that was the one thing left ambiguous, also represented by hands trying to help Izuku and Tomura instead of restraining both, and he uses those embers he can feel to push Tomura out of AFO's hands, with a paralell of either Chapter 94 or 405's last page being recorded for everyone to see.

Anyways that's kinda how I picture "Midoriya Izuku: Rising". I don't think it's how it's gonna happen, I'm just throwing it out there, Idk, I think it'd be neat. If you do have a different vision, tho, I'd like to know!

#Boku No Hero Academia #BNHA Spoilers #MHA Spoilers #Midoriya Izuku #I'm excited the more I think about Izuku's future Rising chapter so I've been thinking about it a lot #I'm trying to keep expectations down at the same time because I don't want to be disappointed by it but. Idk I thought I'd share this one #Maybe we'll see Katsuki being involved one way or another as well. but as a booster rather than an active player. Cause of Chapter 362 #and because he's down on the ground. if he /actually/ has a vestige that one's confused as hell as how he popped up there XD #I wouldn't be mad if he was but in that case I am biased even if I want Horikoshi to break my expectations in a good way #Anyways this was a 2AM post by yours truly. Thank you for reading! :D #spider.posts

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eenochian · 6 months

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STRANGLING MY BRAIN

#WHY has my mood been in THE ABSOLUTE DUMPS SINCE 2AM #3 1/2 HOURS OF THIS #i’ve had a GOOD day. a GREAT day even.#have i felt well?? no!! i’m in pain and tired!!#but have i had a wonderful day nonetheless?? YES!!#i’ve talked to so many friends whom i adore and even done some writing…#*gripping shoulders* so why. why am i obsessively thinking about my father. why am i feeling disgusted w/ myself and guilty for eating #‘oh you ate TWO meals and a snack instead of one meal and nothing else. disgusting.’ like HELLO⁉️#*sigh* i’m really trying to cheer myself up. it works for 5 mins before i crash again. fucking hate it here. hate my brain. hate my body.#<- both are bitches. why can’t i just have a normal day and be happy.

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