#god let me die pls

[futureless]

i’m beginning to think my entire purpose in life is just to be a step for people to use and walk on so they can level up into the next chapter of their lives bc that’s all it’s ever been & i’m rlly tired of fucking being here :)

#wtf is the point #why do i exist #literally nobody would even notice if i was dead for at least 3 days #borderline tag #talk tag #tag #bpd tag #text tag #diagnosed bipolar disorder #borderline personality disorder #take care #substance abuse #cptsdwarrior #i don’t get it #why do i deserve this #i love too hard #nobody loves me back #why am i here #suicide never works #god let me die pls #god hates me #wtf did i do #why do shitty people live the best lives #pls fucking kill me #i’ll pay you #pls

[girlyteengirl16]

life is starting to feel like praying to god to kill me again

#i want to die #it’s getting bad again #i want to relapse #i want to bleed out #i’m not okay #i want to die so bad #pls kill me #trauma #i wanna kms #im still traumatized #tw depressing stuff #mentally unstable #god why am i being punished #god please let me feel okay for once #mental abuse #tw depressing thoughts #mentally tired

[inpursuitofnunchi]

THE FIRST THING SHE SAID TO HIM AFTER WAKING UP IS I LOVE YOU 😭😭😭😭😭

#someone stab me pls theyre so cute #THEY FINALLY COMMUNICATED #oh god i hope she doesn't die #but with the elaborate explanation of her tumor “cloud cytoma” i wonder how they will come up with a consistent resolution for that #but anyway pls don't let hong hae in die #i want these two to have a happy ending #jebal writer nim #queen of tears #kdrama #netflix #kim soo hyun #kim ji won #hong hae in #baek hyun woo #tvndrama

[napping-sapphic]

You should make me fall so deeply in love with you that it’s embarrassing

#wlw #wlw mood #sapphic #sapphism #lesbian #and BEFORE any of yall say that ‘oh um actually love is never embarrassing’ shit— fight me #respectfully we cannot vibe #half of love for me is goinn around KNOWING that i would eat a cardboard box if it meant i could see the person i love smile at me #and it is my god given RIGHT to cringe at myself for it #also love in general is so fucking embarrassing #having the feelings doing the in love thing expressing it #it’s all EMBARASSING #the whole POINT is that the love makes me do it anyway #like if i love you enough to EXPRESS it??? like damn i love you A LOT #like obviously it’s different for everyone but this is what my post is about #and i am choosing to say in advance that NO this is not where we’re doing any of that ‘love is never embarassing’ business #let me watch someone trip and think it’s hot so my brain can go: :/ #in PEACE pls #embarassment or cringe isn’t always a bad feeling and yes i WILL die on this hill😤😤😤 #im gay and i like sleeping

[zerodaryls]

it's so funny (read: sad) that if bigoted fuckheads didn't insist i was a woman simply by virtue of my body at birth, i'd probably be chill with she/her pronouns in addition to he/they. if my mom didn't insist i was her daughter, i'd probably let her call me that, and we could still have a relationship.

i'm nonbinary and 'gendered' words are hypothetically meaningless, but because there are so many people who are more interested in telling me who i am rather than lovingly and curiously letting me express my own sense of self, those words carry trauma.

there's no reason a nonbinary person like myself can't be a son and a child and a daughter. there's no reason a nonbinary person like me can't go by he, they, and she.

'she' is not a slur. 'daughter' is not derogatory. 'beautiful' 'pretty' 'gorgeous' 'feminine' are not insults.

to the contrary, they're parts of language that express certain facets of a multi-faceted human existence, like mine.

and i have this sad, mournful feeling that if it weren't for unloving, condescending people, i'd probably be down to be called any of those things alongside my usual masculine/neutral terminology.

but i'd rather die than let anyone tell me what i have to be called.

#i try to reclaim 'feminine' words for myself in private #calling myself 'babygirl' when i need to chill out. or saying i feel pretty. or going 'she needs help' when i'm struggling lmao. #but there's still so much fucking trauma in those words from the people who've forced them on me #who've snarled in my face that GOD made me ONE THING and ONE THING ONLY and that's a WOMAN (stepdad) #who've guilted me for taking their precious perfect daughter away as if i'm fucking dead (mother) #who've mocked me and everyone like me as if we're not the experts on our own sense of self (general transphobic public) #like. i'm not a fucking man. i'm not a fucking woman. i'm nonbinary. gender is absurdity as a concept. i'm done with it. #but being called a man or a son or a guy or 'he' or WHATEVER in that vein is fine and dandy because i've never had anyone say #'that is all you can EVER be'. or worse: 'that is what GOD made you to be and you have a ROLE to fill' #(christianity pls die approximately yesterday thanku 💖) #so yeah. idk. ranting yet again about Cis Audacity. #the complete lack of empathy. the lack of curiosity even. #the condescending bullshit. the 'i understand you better than you do'. the fucking AUDACITY. #i am the expert on myself. i am the ONLY expert on myself. period. no contest. not a debate. #i understand myself better than anyone else is CAPABLE of understanding me. #i could call myself 'she' and understand that i meant it in a nonbinary way. #in fact i could even see myself letting other trans people call me feminine terms at some point in the future. when i've healed more. #but cis people? probably not. they can call me 'he' or 'they' or they can fuck off & never get to know me because they don't wanna know ME #/end rant #any terfs/bigots that try to touch this post will be swiftly blocked and quite possibly cursed. have the day you deserve <3

[nothing-behindher-eyes]

guys kiss the girl from little mermaid literally had me gripping the theater chairs pls gof let jonah hauer king give me 10 minutes

#god damn #that body of yours is absurd #literally loosing my mind #pls let me hit #im genuinely begging rn #jonah hauer king #little mermaid 2023 #any man can be a baby girl #but it takes balls to be a wife #i would die for this man #look at him #hot damn #i'm a little obsessed

[bonniedodo]

Lingering Thoughts

Aka i got bored attempted to draw SOAP and failed multiple times

I also forgot to add gloves for ghost in the last panel :)

#cod fanart #ghost cod #cod mw soap #ghost fanart #ghost mwii #john soap mactavish #simon ghost riley #soap fanart #ghostsoap #ghost x soap #soap x ghost #soap cod #soap mw2 #ghost mw2 #ghost call of duty #god i wanna die #pls let me sleep

[scarlettroubles]

I can't stop thinking about that one Sukuna finger left and what Gege Akutami has in store for that. The fear that that one eyed cat can fill me with isn't a fucking joke.

#jjk #jjk spoilers #jjk manga spoilers #gojo satoru #ryomen sukuna #the fact that gojo is stated to be the one that possibly has it too is just making me think of the worst possible outcomes #gege pls for the love of god let my man live I can't do this shit anymore #if megumi ends up getting rescued only to watch the man that raised him die #gege lock ur fucking door #gojo has done some real crazy shit and the thought of him just straight up pulling that finger out mid fight and eating it to save megumi #only to off himself right in front of his own son keeps me up at night #scarlet rambles

[lil-vibes]

im exploding this fuckass cat with my mind every wednesday

#its NOT chosover or so help me god #LEAVE HIM ALONE 🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️ #higuruma is so goated tho #also nanami mention :((( ino has his blade :((( i miss him sm :((( #i hate it here pls dont let another yuuji loved one die right before his eyes #love how they b talking abt how megumis soul can survive the execution blade but like. megs is a gonner one way or another #jjk spoilers #jjk 246 #also where is yuuta bc istg if i see kenjakus midass stitches on his forehead next time we see him im rioting #jjk

[sncwonthebeach]

Also, while I'm thinking about it, Lourdes leaving solidified her leaving her friendship with Michaela.. which in turn means that Mick's now lost a second best friend (at her own hands again, she thinks).

Jared couldn't give less of a damn though, Michaela is clearly in distress over Lourdes and understandably wants to keep her distance. Jared never ONCE respects that. He's uncaring to the fact that this is the second best friend she's lost in such a short time (for her at least, that's something that again he doesn't really seem to care about). Instead, he barely even checks in with her.. he borderline blames and gaslights her.

Especially in the aftermath of Evie, this wasn't the time for Michaela to lose Lourdes- the three Amiga's have successfully been parted and part of me feels as though Jared did this to get Mick mostly alone so she'd be more open to going to him.

Speaking of Evie, it's obvious that Michaela is still reeling from the accident. It's clear that she's still carrying all this guilt. Jared's response? "𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘸𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘤𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘦𝘥."

Like, sure buddy, legally she was cleared but personally? Internally? Morally? No way.

Michaela's guilt isn't about the legalities, it isn't about the black and white- the pen and paper. It's about the fact that she was driving the car that killed her best friend, it's that she knew she shouldn't have been driving but she was. It's the fact that two girls went out that night and only one came home alive.

That's what Mick can't shake. She can't shake that she got behind the wheel, knowingly, and it resulted in the death of the woman that was practically her sister. She can't justify that she's alive and Evie isn't. That's what the guilt is. Not whatever the fuck Jared was on about.

Contrast this with Zeke who, similarly to Mick, was in some way responsible for someone's death. In his case, it's Chloe. Chloe and Evie have next to nothing in common, except that their respective companions harbor relentless guilt for their deaths. Zeke understands her pain, not only because it so closely mirrors his own but also because he's understood Michaela from the moment he met her.

Jared may have loved her once.. but it feels more like now, she's just something he covets. What she wants, and what she feels, no longer matters. Her happiness also no longer matters to him "he was supposed to be gone, Mick."

He said that despite and regardless of the fact that Zeke clearly makes Michaela happy, he'd rather her be in agony than let her go. That isn't love.

#manifest #melissa roxburgh #michaela stone #ben stone #manifesters #olive stone #saanvi bahl #josh dallas #its like 1am #so forgive me if this doesn't make sense #but like.. how wrong am i? #this is a jared hate account #anti jachaela #fuck jared #anti jared vazquez #hes so annoying #if anyone has to die this season pls god let it be fucking jared #mick will get over it #at this point im done with his entire character #sometimes you gotta throw the whole character away and start over #the universe saw how bad Jared was and really needed five and a half years to find someone who would be the exact opposite #even the callings were like 'i know you're not marrying that pos' absolutely not #lourdes deserved better #lourdes should have slapped jared #because i would have just 😤👊 #i cant believe lourdes blamed mick for that #like.. come on now #im sorry #i just have a lot of thoughts #this show has consumed me

[donghuamuqing]

My unpretentious, anachronistic byler playlist for the average byler enjoyer. Based on vibes.

#stranger things #will byers #byler #mike wheeler #sorry for strange formatting if i put them next to each other thr words were too tiny to see #songs line up with their writers/bands on the bw side #im proud of this? kind of. #at least im proud of the playlist #the covers took me forever #it was gonna be yellow but it just didnt work #pls ask me about these songs im certain about most and the others r there for fun #please god let there not be typos 🙏🙏🙏🙏 #i will die. like actually. #ok enjoy ❤️ #theres a fleck above the g in lightning. jesus christ. its begun

[lesbianyosano]

still thinking abt dazais last line this chapter i feel like throwing up ngl

#he cant die right??? right???? #i wanna think it makes no sense for his story/character arc but idkkk #bc on one hand his story should be abt finding a reason to keep living #but this isnt suicide hes sacrificing himself to save someone else #hes fullfilling his promise!!! hes on the side that saves people!!! #but also its not like the story is really wrapping up #and ig this depends on how you look at chapter 101 #on whether that really was a last goodbye/a conclusion to their relationship #but also what abt atsushi?????? they never got to say goodbye #but atsushi has been seeing him instead of the directors #im losing it and i just know were getting airport pov next month #but god can you imagine if dazai actually dies????? the havoc this would cause #txt. #somebody pls pls reassure me lets form a prayer circle or sth

[ciceroballtorture]

#.text #fucking hell pls god no #i know its on me bc i refuse to set fire to the rooms in MY house but come on let it DIE

[diypup]

i wanna cum so bad i could burst into flames .

#but i have FAMILY visiting and they r SHARING MY BEDROOM #barks #im going to die #pls god let me touch myself please just a moment alone

[twpsyn-who]

Not trying to make Steddie a straight ship (cuz gosh I know how annoying that could be, even tho neither of them is confirmed as part of the LGBTQ yet) or anything, but fem!Eddie... been thinking about her for a while. With her dramatics and love for DnD and guitar. Having a monologue in the cafeteria about the unfairness of them being the freaks just because they enjoy a game and not sport or parties or stuffs like that (cuz that scene??? With fem!Eddie???? I have been thinking about it and found it very very hot for some reasons)

With her tattoos and many rings and black nails and messy makeup. And her hair is always in a ponytail but is very messy so most of the hair is free and she plays with it a lot. She's still wearing that leather jacket + denim vest combo and is KILLING it my queen.

Omg and her and Steve? She flirted with him once, saw his transfixed face and made it her mission to keep flirting because she loves every reaction she gets from King Steve Harrington. Always getting in his space while talking. Making fun of him. Being a menace to society. And Steve is loosing his shit over it. Definitely hates past him from never talking with her, cuz she's funny and full of energy and a little bit dramatic but also brave and sweet and beautiful-

And she's so good with kids and would do anything for Mike, Lucas and Dustin. Just like Steve would do anything for them.

Bonus : Robin telling Steve that if he doesn't go for fem!Eddie, she will cuz damn that girl is hot while fighting for her life.

#not me simping over fem!Eddie #but pls queen you can step on me thank you #I would let that woman kiss me. And I didn't kiss my own boyfriend yet #actually she could do anything with me and I would thank God #omg if Eddie playing the guitar in the Upside Down was hot.. fem!Eddie playing the guitar in the Upside Down????? with her hair loose????? #also wouldn't be funny to have Steve get a crush on fem!Eddie just for her to fucking die before he could ask her on a date? #stranger things #fem!eddie munson #not tagging it as steddie for oblivious reasons #yk she's literally Eddie but a girl but that's the point man #ik*

[mrs-kelly]

having a mini breakdown /lh bc Charlie has perfect pitch oh my God

#he's like 'let me listen to that smoke detector; yeah that's a g sharp' #and i went and checked and. yea. that's a g sharp. that's definitely a g sharp #HHHHH i cannot explain to you how attractive it is that he can play music and write music and he has perfect pitch and oh my god #his singing voice is so pretty too #here i am. drunk off a couple of gin and sodas. and crying because my husband was able to hear a smoke detector and know it's a g sharp #pls i love him so goddamn much im going to die #ren speaks #im gushing out here folks #renlie #alcohol ment tw