#why do i deserve this

[futureless]

honestly bro i have no fucking clue what to do w my life & it’s so weird but growing up suicidal i always just had this idea that one day i’d finally succeed & end it all so i didn’t really plan for a future & now i’m 24 & still have no desire to do this shit & i feel like im just existing in a world where nobody understands me & i always get the shit end of every stick & always end up with the broken parts of people that i didn’t break & i never even planned or wanted to be here …

#borderline tag #talk tag #bpd tag #text tag #diagnosed bipolar disorder #borderline personality disorder #take care #substance abuse #cptsdwarrior #life is happening #life is confusing #life is complicated #what do i do #what am i doing here #why do i lose everyone tragically #why do i deserve this #why do i exist #why doesn’t anyone care about me #why don’t i have anyone #why don’t i matter #what’s the point #what’s the truth #who am i

[cosmojjong]

losing sleep over a break up has to be one of the most soul consuming things ever

#these days have been... hard. #it's just me my mind and i #i can't tell if i am purposely isolating myself or if people just don't care like that #a lot is going on and i wish time went slower #i actually wish i got a break from it all #i am so upset over a bunch of different things that i just don't even want to come on here #tumblr used to be my safest place but now i am reaching such a dark state of mind that i don't even know what to post #i don't even feel like reblogging things or opening the app #why do i deserve this #this as in EVERYTHING wrong that's happening

[imfrom-neptune]

I’m one more minor inconvenience from just letting it all fall apart and letting myself die cause at this point it’s the best option.

why do I deserve this?

#vent post #im not coping well #don’t worry I won’t do anything stupid #but honestly #why do i deserve this

[hit-the-dirt-and-get-back-on]

I give and I give until I have nothing left to give....

#why do i deserve this #what did i do #seriously #iowa girl #this is me #inside my head #your blogger

[trollochtomtar]

Tumblr has started to show me these kind of posts whyyy

This is like the third one I saw today.

#why do I deserve this

[bisexualpercyjacksons]

pjo tv show episode 5 alignment:

#percy and annabeth mighttttt be switched but grover as gaslight is undeniable #grover lying through his teeth captivated me I was like sweetie WHAT are you doing #annabeth said either help me or leave to a GOD amongst other things which is why she deserves girlboss #percy gatekeeps everyone (but himself) from sacrificing themselves which is as always true to character #pjo tv show #pjo #pjo tv spoilers #pjo tv #percy jackon and the olympians #percy jackson #annabeth chase #grover underwood #character alignment #a god buys us cheeseburgers #like no one has posted content yet so I’m making something and going to bed #mine #gaslight gatekeep girlboss #humor #no one bully me on the image sizes I’m on my phone at midnight using photoshop without an account #which means I can only layer one photo at a time so each time I have to make it a new photo #I’m bullying myself don’t worry

[comradekatara]

2 kinds of grad students (both massive nerds)

#id in alt text #avatar the last airbender #atla #sokka #zuko #zukka #<- seems like i may as well tag it. considering #sokkaxzuko #(secretly this is sokkaxsuki tho. just look at sokka’s hoodie) #modern au #art #mart #if you’re wondering why there’s only one pile of graded papers it’s because sokka saved that paper for last #bc the handwriting was so illegible #(and zuko is responding even tho sokka isn’t talking abt his work bc he’s touchy. bc he knows he isn’t ocean vuong) #also before anyone’s like ‘shouldn’t sokka be the one writing poetry?’ YES sokka also writes poetry but it’s like. #silly little rhyming poems #he would never do an mfa art is a hobby to him and he thinks getting a degree in it is a waste of time #but he doesn’t tell this to zuko bc zuko wasted so much time suffering in undergrad trying to pursue a ‘respectable’ degree #so sokka’s just like ‘okay. well he deserves this’

[pollyanna-nana]

Thistle’s last act was to revive Marcille.

Even while his desires were being fully consumed by the demon, he recognized the threat it posed and, in his final moments before ‘disappearing’, reached for Marcille’s hand. And in the process… seemingly revived her, given the winged lion’s reaction. Wagh…

Incidentally… this is also part of why Marcille and Laios say this in the second to last chapter. She needed to be revived to revive the rest of the party + break the seal on the demon (which also caused problems… but it all worked out in the end.) Man.

#polly speaks #dungeon meshi #dungeon meshi spoilers #dunmeshi #delicious in dungeon #thistle dungeon meshi #laios touden #marcille donato #dungeon meta #sure I’ll make that a tag #also #thistle posting #aaaaaaaaauuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu I’m not normal. #he ended up doing good in the end…. wagh #also they want him to be ok 😭 this is why I cannot accept that he’s dead he deserves to live and get and be better

[twinstxrs]

so much happened in this whole episode but i’m still on fig infiltrating ruben’s dream, making it look like the place where his friend was murdered, and then disguising herself as kipperlilly & repeatedly saying different variants of “somebody needs to take the fall for this, and it’s not going to be me. it’s going to be you.” while adaine as the elven oracle shows up next to her. can you imagine waking up from that, the idea of a horrible truth being pinned on you by your friend to save her own skin while the personification of fate and destiny stands there, almost as a promise that this is GOING to happen to you. we don’t even know if this kid is guilty. my god.

#fantasy high #dimension 20 #fhjy #fhjy spoilers #fantasy high junior year #fig faeth #ruben hopclap #lucy frostblade #the rat grinders #adaine abernant #kipperlilly copperkettle #watching fig terrorize him like girl!!! we don’t even know if he’s guilty!!!! #this might just be for me but i do not think 5 teenagers willingly brutally killed their friend idk #like there just has to be some other element to it and i am very scared to find out what that was #what if they were put in a position where they felt there was/there was no other choice… like oh my god #my comedy brain is having fun but my ‘this is a teenager’ brain is in such deep distress all the time this season #the rat grinders i trust brennan to not make u cartoonishly evil so i am holding u as gently as i can in my confused shaky hands #also with the devil’s nectar i’ve been wondering why they all seem so well-adjusted & now i’m curious if they’ve been intentionally- #changing their memories in a way so that either the trauma is lesser or they think they aren’t guilty. idk #but it seems like from how gertie was talking she was making it more recently so the well adjustedness from early jy doesn’t quite add up #they could have another source maybe??? idk i’m just low stakes 4 a.m. spitballing here #there’s also the strong possibility that they’re aware of what happened but they weren’t the ones who killed lucy. idk who knows #the way you could probably devil’s nectar yourself into believing it wasn’t your fault someone died… CRAZY IMPLICATIONS!!! CRAZY IDEA!!! #anyways the bad kids & the rat grinders don’t ever have to like each other but i do wonder if at least some of those kids deserve a chance

[futureless]

i’m beginning to think my entire purpose in life is just to be a step for people to use and walk on so they can level up into the next chapter of their lives bc that’s all it’s ever been & i’m rlly tired of fucking being here :)

#wtf is the point #why do i exist #literally nobody would even notice if i was dead for at least 3 days #borderline tag #talk tag #tag #bpd tag #text tag #diagnosed bipolar disorder #borderline personality disorder #take care #substance abuse #cptsdwarrior #i don’t get it #why do i deserve this #i love too hard #nobody loves me back #why am i here #suicide never works #god let me die pls #god hates me #wtf did i do #why do shitty people live the best lives #pls fucking kill me #i’ll pay you #pls

[opikiquu]

#he is being a good big brother #go lyney!!! gooo!!!!!!!! #★ my art #art #genshin impact #genshin art #freminet #lyney #lynette #fontaine siblings #<- i didnt know that was a tag. #i have a headcanon both lynette and freminet are taller than lyney #i donr CARE her model is shorter than his!!!! #if i dont see it it isnt real 🗣️ #lynette is sitting thats why he looks taller dw i wonr ever do it again #he deserves to be called out for the shortstack he is

[saewokhrisz]

final victor...?

#i am feeding into my own hc that ren is also a bit unhinhed and kinda not well in the head cuz why do you like akechi sm... #theyre so sicko4sicko #also im not big into ratiorine but this lc is rlly...smth...i just had to!! #idek if this deserves a caption on its own considering its not that original and is a redraw #but ah well #shuake #akeshu #ren amamiya #goro akechi #persona 5 #joker #crow #persona #hsr #i guess #my art #fanart

[inkskinned]

one of the things about being an educator is that you hear what parents want their kids to be able to do a lot. they want their kid to be an astronaut or a ballerina or a politician. they want them to get off that damn phone. be better about socializing. stop spending so much time indoors. learn to control their own temper. to just "fucking listen", which means to be obedient.

one of the things i learned in my pedagogy classes is that it's almost always easier to roleplay how you want someone to act. it's almost always easier to explain why a rule exists, rather than simply setting the rule and demanding adherence.

i want my kids to be kind. i want them to ask me what book they should read next, and i want to read that book with them so we can discuss it. i want my kid to be able to tell me hey that hurt my feelings without worrying i'll punish them. i want my kid to be proud of small things and come running up to me to tell me about them. i want them to say "nah, i get why this rule exists, but i get to hate it" and know that i don't need them to be grateful-for-the-roof-overhead while washing the dishes. i want them to teach me things. i want them to say - this isn't safe. i'm calling my mom and getting out of this. i want them to hear me apologize when i do fuck up; and i want them to want to come home.

the other day a parent was telling me she didn't understand why her kid "just got so angry." this woman had flown off the handle at me.

my dad - traditional catholic that he is - resents my sentiment of "gentle parenting". he says they'll grow up spoiled, horrible, pretentious. granola, he spits.

i am going to be kind to them. i am going to set the example, i think. and whatever they choose become in the meantime - i'm going to love them for it.

#writeblr #i was doing a lot with high school students. over and over again #other teachers kept asking me what i was doing differently - why the kids listened to me. i am not particularly foreboding #and i have a pretty firm personal policy of never reacting in anger #godhelpme. #i was always kind of taken aback #because in general the kids were pretty easy. i explained i needed to keep everything “PG-13” because this was my workplace #and it was kind of their workplace #too. besides #i love swearing #and since i couldn't swear #neither could they - so if they were going to say “fuck” or become violent #they needed to choose a really specific time #because we only get “the one”.. sure enough - nobody wanted to waste the one very specific “fuck” utterance. kids listened. #i think just because - that rule makes sense. the kids understand that i don't want to be unfair to them #that censorship is stupid #but that i'm under these rules too so like let's ride it out together #also i look young and tbh between me and u nobody wants to make the nice english teacher cry #the way these kids defended me to their friends was really genuinely so heartwarming bc the Grouchy Frat Boy #would be like MISS RAQUEL DOESN'T DESERVE THAT KIND OF AN ATTITUDE BRO DON'T TALK BACK TO HER

[andy-clutterbuck]

Black T-Shirt + Sling | requested by Anonymous

#*gnawing on him* #Rick Grimes #* #rg #The Ones Who Live #*runs hand down his arm like it's a staircase bannister* #H A N D S #why do you get hands that are big and manly AND deft and elegant #that sounds like a crime #tbh #F O R E A R M S #yes biceps obv but forearms don't get the attention they deserve #also his arm hair but i'm not gonna be that weird right now #v e i n s #tag yourself i am under the desk #investing in those kneeling pads people who garden a lot use

[otaku553]

Quite frankly still obsessed with the three of them

A little procrastination doodle

#one piece #portgas d ace #sabo #monkey d luffy #it’s 5 am and I do not have the time to be spending on procrastination doodles but that is neither here nor there #ft. my headcanons for their outfits as kiddos but not really because I think this is pretty close to canon #oversized jacket for sabo because I refuse to believe he has worn the same clothes after being a runaway for at least a few years #like kids grow so fast and I can see undersized jacket for that as well but I feel like undersized would just be uncomfy and restricting #straw hat is definitely too big for 7 year old luffy so I hc it goes around his neck more often than not #or sabo or ace gets annoyed at luffy for having his eyes blocked all the time while they’re fighting each other or hunting so they #eventually get luffy to wear it around his neck more #also you can’t convince me that the fuzz on luffy’s shorts is like… actual fur #I think it’s more like very frayed edges of denim if you know what I mean #ace with baggy pants because it’s what he deserves. baggy pants ftw #also probably bigger pockets for his pickpocketing #sabo complains about noble clothes like girls complain about small pockets #‘what are they even supposed to hold. why are they so tight. this is just them trying to get us to buy expensive bags’

[bixels]

Cozy Glow is such an interesting litmus test for die-hard bronies. I was checking r/mlp to prep a post and there’s a discussion post about how she deserved what she got and. How do I tell bronies that children should not be tried as adults. How do I tell bronies that psychopaths and sociopaths deserve human rights and treatment and support. How do I tell bronies that cruel and unusual punishments are bad. How do I tell bronies that the death penalty is wrong. How do I tell bronies that a ruling body should not have absolute say over putting someone to death, least of all a 6-year-old child.

These are all my recent google searches.

#delete later #personal #these are all arguments I saw of why cozy glow deserved it btw #“if she was human she’d be tried as an adult for her felonies idc if she’s a child’ ok but she shouldn’t #“clearly she’s a psychopath so it makes sense she’s evil’ do you even hear yourself #reminder that they redeemed the racist politician trying to keep schools racial segregated because he believed in pony superiority #and not the 6 year old child villain #I don’t even really care about cozy glow she’s not gonna be in the AU but people are so fucking weird about her #“some people are just born evil and can’t be changed’ < actual arguement in the thread. do you hear yourself