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gonzo-rella · 29 days

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Headcanons: Being Married To Old Man Ray Stantz

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Relationship(s): old man!Ray Stantz x gn!also old!reader (romantic)

Warnings: Possibly inaccurate science words, because I'm a simpleton. (Let me know if I need to add any)

(A/N: Here's my first Ghostbusters thing! I've got a few other Ghostbusters fics in the works, mostly Ray-based reader-inserts because I'm in love with him, but I've also got a Phoebe-centric character study in the works that's based on part of her storyline in Frozen Empire. By the way, I loved Frozen Empire! I've already seen it three times, and it's such a joy. I'll try to catch it a couple more times at least before it leaves cinemas. Anyway, I haven't included any explicit spoilers for Frozen Empire in this, so you're safe to read this if you haven't seen it yet. I'd love to write more old man Ray Stantz fics, especially something involving Phoebe. I'm really excited to write for Ghostbusters, so feel free to send in requests! I've only seen the movies, but I plan on watching the Real Ghostbusters at some point soon. Also, even though I took my mum to see Frozen Empire the other day, I still don't have anyone to talk to about this movie, so please feel free to talk to me about it!)

It’s evident that, even after all of these years, Ray is still madly in love with you.

The adoration with which he looks at you is clear as day.

Venkman has always loved to tease you both about how sickly sweet your relationship is.

He will make fake gagging when either of you are affectionate to one another when he’s around.

(He won’t admit it, but he actually finds your relationship to be kind of cute)

It’s not like either of you are overly lovey-dovey, especially now.

Ray’s naturally a very passionate and expressive guy, but he’s rarely mushy.

Still, you show one another how much you care.

I have this idea that your silent way of saying ‘I love you’ to each other is holding the other’s hand, stroking their knuckles with your thumb and smiling at them.

It just seems so cute to have this thing that you’ve been doing for your whole relationship.

Ray knows you like the back of his hand, and you know him just the same.

It’s almost scary how well you know one another.

I can imagine that there’s been a time that someone’s asked one of you a question, and the other has been able to answer it with ease.

I love the idea of Ray being with someone who’s not a scientific mind like himself.

So, if you’re not as knowledgeable about the supernatural as Ray, you’ll still have picked up on plenty of information against your will, and Ray will always be impressed with and proud of you when you manage to regurgitate or understand his ‘science-y word salad’ (as you have referred to it).

He will also find it very attractive when you talk supernatural or science to him, but he tries not to make it obvious.

His eyes still light up like he’s a kid on Christmas when he explains supernatural stuff to you or tells you about a new psychically charged item he’s bought, and you find it so endearing.

Also, I can imagine him practically forcing you to listen to Podcast’s podcast when he discovers it, and you both end up getting really into it.

As devoted as he still is to his work and his supernatural endeavours, spending time with you is his greatest priority.

He might miss being an active Ghostbuster, but the silver lining of it is that he gets more time with you than he ever used to.

Even if you both used to be Ghostbusters, it’s nice to spend time together that doesn’t involve being covered in ghost slime and shouting over nuclear accelerators.

If you’ve not got anything else to do, I think it’d be sweet if you kept him company in his store.

Phoebe and Trevor are your honorary grandkids and you and Ray are beyond proud of them, especially Phoebe, who you’re closest to of the two of them.

Phoebe will always remind the both of you of Egon, so whenever she does something particularly Egon-like, you will exchange a knowing glance, and when she’s gone you’ll end up reminiscing about your old friend.

If Phoebe or the other Spenglers ever want to hear about Egon, you’re both more than happy to talk to them about him.

Even in his golden years, Ray is still the same sweet, passionate, excitable man you married all those years ago.

Sure, the regular excitement that came with Ghostbusting is long behind you both, but you both cherish this quieter time together just as much.

#ghostbusters x reader #ray stantz x reader #ghostbusters #ray stantz #x reader #x gn!reader #x gender neutral!reader #x gender neutral reader #x gn reader #phoebe spengler

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iamthat-iam · 8 months

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Hi Bry ("Bry" 🤔 lol you know), I hope you're having a lovely day! Thanks for your patience with me as I always send a thousand questions haha 💀 I wanted to send this one over asks in case anyone else is wondering about it. No worries about getting to this ask if you can't, I know you probably have a bajillion and I am grateful for your time!

I wanted to ask you a question related to something I see ND blogs talking about a lot, related to the ego's desires (don't worry, this is NOT a manifestation related question but rather a clarification question on ego vs Self). I see a lot of ND bloggers talking about how once you drop the ego and realize Self you can then experience anything and everything you want and dream any beautiful dream because you know that you are everything and are absolutely, 100% limitless. But the phrase, "anything and everything you want" is a confusing phrase to me, because Self doesn't have any preference towards the ego's desires and instead feels lovingly neutral and blissful towards everything, including suffering. So then why do people say you can have everything "you want" once you recognize Self in reference to becoming aware of the ego's desires? Even the idea of changing the channel if "you" don't like the show you're watching, that's still the ego wanting to be free of itself and not liking the show. So why would Self ever want to change the channel once it has been realized, or, why would Self want to dream a specific dream if it has no preference towards that dream?

My interpretation of it is that once you realize you are the lovely, limitless Self, manifesting the ego's desires for the ego's enjoyment is just a bonus FOR the ego. You (as self) have the power to give the ego that You used to identify with anything it wants. This is because You absolutely love Your creation (the character You used to be identified as), because Self loves all of Its creations, and it is fun to give the sweet character You've been playing the gift of everything it wants, because it's fun to love it up. Or maybe You as Self want to give the ego a little boost of everything it wants before identifying with it again, because it's all part of the fun game of awareness and getting lost in the play. These are the answers I've come to myself, but I wanted to ask another person to see if they had a different interpretation.

I guess what the question boils down to is this: why would one want to "become aware of a different channel/dream/ego/character" once you realize Self, if Self is lovingly neutral towards it all? Isn't that just re-identification with the ego? Ultimately I know it comes down to love and fun and enjoying the play and I should probably just relax and have fun haha, but this definitely has confused me a little when I see ND bloggers talking about it. Maybe it's just because a lot of us come from LOA and that's where the need to address it comes from. But yeah! Was just curious what you think about this.

Anyway! I hope this makes sense, it's a little hard to put into words but I am hoping it is clear this isn't a manifestation question and more a question of clarification question haha. Thanks for your time and energy and I hope you are doing so, so wonderfully!

Hi "Bunny"! 💙

So it seems that we have similar interpretations. The Self has so much love for it's creations so why not give them all better circumstances to live under?

The Self wanted to experience life in all sorts of ways possible, including the suffering aspect, and it's done it, billions of times. The goal has already been accomplished right?

Now that you are awake and you aren't attached to anything that is going on because it isn't you, the illusion is gone. You no longer think that it's you going through circumstances. The game is pretty much over. You won 😂 At some point you go, "well that was fun. Time for me to do something different."

So it's not exactly changing everything so the ego is satisfied, it's more like, "well... What more is there to do here?" If you DID choose to create a new dream or change the channel. You do it because you can.

#non dualism #nondualism #consciousness

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practicalsolarpunk · 1 year

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Do you know any herbology books that aren't. . .idk, mostly only theoretic?

I took a long time to answer this question for a couple reasons. First, I’m not fully sure what you mean by “theoretic,” but I’m assuming you mean you’re looking for herbology/herbalism books that are more practical and less “this herb heals depression because it elevates your kidney vibrations” type of stuff. Second, if that is what you’re looking for, there’s unfortunately not a ton of books that I’ve found like that.

The one herbalism book I keep on hand is Penelope Ody’s The Complete Medicinal Herbal. It does have a lot of the more “woo” stuff as well, but I like that it provides photos of the plants, lists the actual botanical and chemical compounds in each plant that does stuff, and points out when a plant might not be safe for certain people. The other book I keep on hand is Sharon M. Herr’s Herb-Drug Interaction Handbook, which tells you which herbs are safe and which are dangerous/deadly or could mess with dosages if you want to try herbal remedies while also taking other medications.

I have heard good things about Body Into Balance: An Herbal Guide to Holistic Self-Care by Maria Noel Groves, The Modern Herbal Dispensary: A Medicine-Making Guide by Thomas Easley and Steven Horne, and The Nature Cure: A Doctor’s Guide to the Science of Natural Medicine by Andreas Michalsen, MD. Since I haven’t personally read any of them, I can’t unreservedly recommend them, but they might be worth a look. I DO recommend “The Science of Integrative Medicine” from The Great Courses, which is a series of lectures from an MD with the Mayo Clinic discussing a variety of alternative medicine remedies (both herbal and other types) and the science behind them. It’s more from a patient perspective than from someone who actually wants to do some herbology, but I found it helpful. I listened to it for free through my local library.

Herbology/herbalism resources are pretty scattered and often in the realm of the less-than-scientific. Studying botany is a good foundation for herbology (and “pharmacology” is a good keyword for further information about a specific plant), and absolutely avoid anything that talks about “energetics.” An unfortunate fact of herbology is that a lot of these herbal remedies and cures just haven’t been studied. So it’s very possible that some of the remedies do actually work, but nobody has done the research to figure out how or why. It makes being interested in herbology but not interested in “clearing your liver energy” or whatnot very difficult.

I hope this helps! If I misinterpreted your question or you have additional questions, please feel free to send in another ask. (And followers, if you have any ideas/suggestions, please leave them in the notes!)

- Mod J

#asked and answered #herbology and herbal medicine

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narcpocalypse · 2 months

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Speaking of that post I hope it's ok for me to send this ask in!

I have some OCs myself that also have NPD(+other PDs as well, like ASPD AND BPD for example) and I was wondering how to realistically portray NPD without unintentionally stigmatizing/demonizing it?

*also some are also POC as well and are my Elder Scrolls OCs also, if this helps.*

Feel free to delete this ask, if you don't feel like answering!

AGHHH MY FIRST ASK!!!!!!!!/pos

Fair warning, this is going to be a LONGGGG ass post and it will mention ableism towards NPDers. I want to make sure I cover as much as possible. If you have NPD and want to add anything, pls do so in a reblog or the comments! I am also super delirious so if what I say makes no sense I'm so sorry 😭

I think a full, completely in depth understanding is the key to not writing something stigmatizing/demonizing. It sounds obvious, but in the case of NPD, there's so much misinformation so I am hoping this post can guide you in the writing process. You never know what little thing can cause accidental mischaracterization.

This is a super important topic for me because honestly, I'm trying to figure out the same as someone with NPD myself, even with all the info available. I feel like there's so much grey area because so much is still unknown about the disorder (fuck the psych system/narc abuse believers). A lot of us have to go from our personal experiences and figure things out on our own, which brings me to my first topic:

Self Diagnosis And The Criteria!!!!!!!!

A LOT of us are self diagnosed, including myself. Whether you're officially diagnosed or not, most of us can agree the DSM5 is booty ass. I bring up self diagnosis specifically because due to the DSM5 being shitty, it's suuuper difficult to get diagnosed or even want a diagnosis. I personally don't want one.

If that's a theme you want to bring up in your work, I would definitely follow blogs here that break down the diagnostic criteria and re-define it in a realistic way. Having this is super important because the DSM5 is MADDD confusing even if it wasn't ableist.

Your characters might resonate with that confusion and even anger. Rage is such a prominent emotion with us narcissists, so its highly encouraged you tap into that. The stigma is so impactful to most of us and personally keeps me hidden.

If you went off the official criteria, you could innocently and accidentally write an ableist trope based off the DSM5. For example, the DSM5 has a very vague and "I do this just because I can blah blah blah and there's a name for it" narrative of narcissists. There's no nuance. They state accurate symptoms but don't accurately explain why we have them. Without context, it makes our intentions ultimately one size fits awful.

Here are some resources that have been super helpful to me!

Some extra specific things I keep in mind when writing my narcissistic characters:

-“Bad behavior” is such an important phrase to emphasize when writing narcissists negative symptoms and being mindful on how you approach the impact. Make sure that phrase is clear, even if they will not redeem themselves and are a piece of garbage. They did xyz because of bad behavior due to symptoms, they hurt john doe because of bad behavior due to symptoms. They make the conscious choice not to change their bad behavior because abc or they make the conscious choice to do better because blah blah blah.

-Depending on what communication style you want two or more characters to have, make sure the outcomes are accurate based off of symptoms. My examples don't explain narcissists as a whole, but they are based off of my symptoms:

Lack of Communication: Increase in superiority symptoms, increase in rage, increase in invalidation and inferiority feelings. Other parties, specifically egotypicals may have a misconception of the narcissist and believe their symptoms are how they really are and can't be redeemed due to stigma. In the situation involving a narcissist however, in my experience when this happens I'm always so confused. Nothing makes sense and nobody is explaining anything to me. I need outside perspective as to why my actions are wrong and lack of communication will sink me deeper into my delusions. Communication is so important coming from the outside perspective to snap me out of my spiral. Lack of communication on my end will cause me to bottle up my feelings, convinced I’m better alone. Not explaining my intentions (or lack there of, to be completely blunt and vulnerable.) to someone I hurt can cause them so much more pain too. I don't want to hurt anyone, and even if I don't FEEL sorry, I can acknowledge I don't want the people I care for to be hurt by my bad actions.

Proper Communication: Honestly in my case, usually the damage I caused isn’t forgiven however rebuilding that trust becomes so much easier accepting that and opening up to the person/people I hurt. The narcissist usually knows they can prevent xyz going forward, and the other party is prepared on how to handle the situation in case it happens again. In my experience, communication is super beneficial in terms of receiving supply too. ESPECIALLY when the other person involved is also a narcissist, they know that pain of not receiving praise/admiration and we can understand each other moving forward.

Other narcissists I encourage you give your experience w this too bc I have seen very diff ones!

-If you want to implement characters who are ableist towards the narcissist, some things I would do are:

Show the narcissists internal monologue after the trauma and put your main focus on their emotions, the ableist person’s actions second. The weight of their words will be shown more in the trauma response, less in the moment (although super important). Focus the context on the narc crash, anxiousness, surprise, grandiosity overcompensation, etc.

Have other characters defend the narcissist, preferably being other narcissists because we are the ones who understand each other the most and back each other up no matter what

Show the importance of proper education and lack of education

Ask yourself how this is relevant to the plot and your character/characters

-Ask yourself, why does/doesn't my character want to be redeemed? Is it a symptom or is it genuine? Do they want to do better but don't recognize it? Why don't they recognize it? What symptoms are holding them back from xyz (social connections, self care etc.).?

Examples of answers to these questions:

My character doesn't want to be redeemed because they are convinced they are justified in their actions. They genuinely believe they did the right thing and need time to get out of that mindset. What's stopping them from getting out of that mindset is the delusion they are stuck in. Working on their trauma triggers can help lessen the blow and onset of psychosis. If they recognize they are wrong, my character is the type of person to crash and have suicidal urges. There is a slow build up before the crash that spirals into madness. What may help is getting supply from their friends/partners reassuring them that recognizing their bad actions are a first step followed by praise for things outside of the situation to bring them back to a solid baseline or narc high.

My character has a hard time socializing because when having an episode of grandiosity, they feel like they are better than everyone and no one is at their level. In episodes of insecurity, they feel like they don't deserve friends because they feel worthless. This is followed by perfectionism and seeking unwanted friendships, only to self-destruct and hurt those around them. Their ego impacts everything they do.

-SHAMEEEE is one of the most important emotions (in my experience) to write about so pls make that an important part of how your character views themselves!

-I know I have been only focusing on negative aspects, but also do highlight the positive aspects. For me, NPD has motivated me to work on myself. It isn’t the healthiest way, but given my circumstance, it is the healthiest I can do right now. Even my most wild and delusional thoughts can lead to great opportunities for self improvement. Thinking I’ll become famous? Gave myself tools to work on my executive dysfunction and be consistent with a project I love. Narc highs are also absolutely incredible. Finding folks who understand me and receiving praise has kept me going. I genuinely feel listened to. Narcissists are some of the nicest people you will ever meet because they know what it feels like to hate themselves. No matter how little empathy some of us have, that doesn’t mean we can’t acknowledge one another (even if my symptoms make me feel so singular in my experiences/contradict the point of acknowledging others).

More info to represent different kinds of NPDers:

Some common comorbidities are:

Autism Spectrum

Bipolar Disorder

Schizophrenia Spectrum

DID/OSDD

All Cluster B Disorders

Eating Disorders and Addictions

So many of us are autistic. SO MANY. This small survey statistic doesn’t scratch the surface but it’s important to look at!

As an autistic person myself, I feel like a lot of the trauma I faced growing up highly contributed to the development of NPD. I was othered, shunned, invalidated and shamed for just existing. Still am. That made me overcompensate with erratic attempts to be wanted and loved and just acknowledged in any way possible. I want to be SEEN.

If anyone wants an in depth post sharing my experiences with bipolar disorder and NPD I will absolutely do so if asked too!

How NPD affects my gender itself, dysphoria and sexuality:

In my experience as a fat trans man, a lot of my dysphoria is rooted in narcissism, internalized fatphobia and internalized toxic masculinity. I want to be the ideal boyfriend that is praised for existing. My male privilege definitely contributes to that want and I can acknowledge and dislike that part of myself. I expect this certain level of respect for being a man without realizing it sometimes and make sure to hold myself accountable when doing so. My dysphoria makes me feel inferior to other men because I don't "pass" and I feel the need to compete against them. The insecurity is consuming me and I do my best to be aware if I cross any lines.

What I have noticed about gender and sexuality in NPDers is that a lot yall are aroace and nonbinary! Like based off of my survey alone and people I know!

I asked one of my mutuals if it wanted to share his experiences of being a POC with NPD and it agreed!! He wanted to stay anonymous (aka super duper awesomely cool and mysterious) so I’ll just be posting the ss of what he said!

I do not have much to say on the response from my mutual because I feel like what it said speaks for itself and because we've spoken in private about the topic already! If you want to write an Asian character with NPD, this is really useful information!!!! One day I will make a post elaborating on being a POC with NPD myself. But, for now, this will help you understand an experience from an Asian perspective.

I hope this post wasn't all over the place and makes sense, if you have any more questions please ask away!

#npd awareness #writing tips #writing characters with npd #writing npd #npd solidarity #ask giles #narcposting #narcissistic personality disorder #npd #actually narcissistic #actually npd #actually cluster b #npd safe #cluster b #cluster b safe #narc

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avi-on-jumblr · 1 month

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Do you know if jewishppl can marry non-jews in israel? My bf is jewish and we're thinking about moving, but I've heard a lot of rumors that theres no religious miscegenation there. I dont want to move if I cant marry my hubby :(

hi anon, thanks for sending the ask! prefacing this by saying that I'm not Israeli yet and so my answer might be missing some things, so if any of my Israeli followers want to chime in it would be welcome!

from what I know, marriage in Israel falls under the jurisdiction of religious authorities from different groups in Israel (so different for Jewish, Muslim, Druze, Christian, etc), and you generally can't get married by the religious authorities if you aren't the same religion.

however! Israel still recognizes marriages done abroad. so if you get married and then move, it would be recognized (and you'd get automatic citizenship by being the spouse of an Israeli citizen, depending on which country you're from). Also I'm not 100% sure about this, but I think if you're American and wanted to get married while in Israel, you can video-call in an officiant who's in Utah. that's newer, and still not totally clear-cut legally, but possibly an option.

so essentially you can be recognized/registered as married, you just can't get married via the rabbinate unless you converted.

Common-law marriage contracts are also fairly common, not just among interfaith partners but even among secular jews who don't want to be married in a religious ceremony. that covers many of the same legal rights, but not all of them.

so yeah, unfortunately israel still lags pretty behind in this area, but there are definitely ways to get married regardless. if i've missed anything, israelis please feel free to correct me!

wishing you both luck, whatever you choose to do. and would love to hear an update but no pressure ofc!

edit: check the replies for more info!

#avi answers #israblr #jumblr #ישראבלר

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cinnamontoastcrunch-15 · 1 year

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Happy New Year

Happy New Year’s Eve/New Year everyone!

Have a oneshot that I wrote last year and didn’t post (but with some minor editing to fit with my current writing style)

Sirius was stood against a wall at the New Years Eve party, celebrating the end of 1979 and the start of 1980. James walked over to him. Well, walked was a generous word, he more stumbled over.

“Padfooooot!” He slurred, and Sirius reached out and grabbed his arm to steady him.

“Merlin, Prongs. How much have you had to drink?”

“S’fine, it’s nothing.”

“Whatever you say, mate. Whatever you say.”

“So. Who you kissing at midnight?” He asked, raising his eyebrows suggestively. “I heard Edgar’s got his eye on you.” Sirius glanced over at Edgar who was, indeed, watching him from across the room, suddenly shy as he turned away. The thing is, he knew exactly who he wanted to kiss. His boyfriend and one of their best friends, Remus Lupin. Not that anybody else knew that they were anything other than friends, and he wasn’t even fucking there, on a mission infiltrating the werewolf pack. So, Sirius had resigned to his fate, and stayed at the back of the party, knowing that if he drank too much, there would be a real possibility that he would out their relationship without Remus even knowing.

“Nobody.” Sirius answered simply, lifting his glass and draining what remained of it, before putting it on a table nearby.

“C’monnn! You have to kiss someone, s’bad luck!”

“Then I guess I’ll have bad luck for 1980. I’m good, honestly.” James frowned.

“Fine. Sssuit yourself.” James went to leave, but almost fell again.

“Please go and sit down, Prongs!” James clearly wasn’t listening, as he walked in an entirely different direction. He watched Dorcas and Marlene wistfully, making him miss Remus and worry about him even more. The countdown started, and Sirius looked out of a nearby window, ready for the fireworks.

“10!” Wow, he was really spending New Years alone.

“9!” It was times like that that he really hated that Dumbledore sent Remus on such a long and dangerous mission.

“8!” He thought about his last letter from Remus.

“7!” It was incredibly dangerous to even begin to send letters, so Sirius kept every one safe.

“6! 5! 4!” He tried to imagine Remus’ touch on his face, running through his hair. Every day hurt more without him there.

“3! 2! 1!” He shut his eyes, ready to listen to the fireworks and joyful cheers from the busy party.

“Happy New Year.” A gentle voice came from behind him, and he froze. He didn’t hear any of the other shouts, the fireworks, the music. Just the voice he knew better than any other. The voice he missed every day. He turned around, and Remus smiled at him.

“Oh. Oh my god, Moons.” Soft lips met his, suddenly feeling like nothing at all had changed. Like the gaping hole in Sirius’ heart had been healed the moment he saw the mess of golden brown curls, the eyes like honey, the familiar orange jumpers that felt like home. He pulled Remus even closer, as Remus’ hands moved, one on his cheek, thumb stroking his cheekbone, and the other running through Sirius’ hair. “I love you. I love you so much.” Sirius mumbled against Remus’ lips.

“I love you too.” Remus breathed, pulling away to smile at him. James cleared his throat, and neither of them looked at James, eyes locked.

“Kind of in the middle of something here, Prongs.” Sirius said.

“So, were neither of you ever going to tell us?” He said. They turned and realised that their friend group was staring at them. The rest of the people at the party didn’t see anything out of the ordinary, not actually knowing the two of them.

“Alright, this isn’t a free show!” Sirius called to them, watching as they all slowly turned back to their own celebrations.

“In our defence, we’ve been apart for months. We were planning on telling you next time I was here.”

“How long are you here?” Sirius asked.

“I’m not sure, but let’s not think about that, okay?” He wound his fingers through Sirius’, gently squeezing his hand.

“Yeah, yeah, let’s not.” They could pretend everything was fine for an evening. “Happy New Year, Moons.”

“Happy New Year, Padfoot.”

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callsign-relic · 6 months

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First of all, feel free to delete this, I dont want to make anyone feel uncomfortable with this ask, that being said I need to dump my thoughts of the Tasty AU and I dont know where else to go

Okay so, I'm 1/3 through the tasty au tag and I just... am so confused?

Like, yes, I understand the concept, I just dont know how I feel about it. Because it's not bad, the concept it's great and has incredible potential for horror and angst in cybertronian x human relationships (platonic or otherwise even) that's not the thing that makes me confused, again, it's amazing, please continue the AU

I just,,,, I feel weird about it,, but not necessarily bad?? and I dont know what to do with that information,,,

Best way I could put it is when you find a weird niche fetish/kink (safe vore in this case) and get confused that you dont particularly hate it, so now you're wondering if you should indulge in it to figure out if it's a yes or a no

Again, if this whole rant makes you feel unconformable just delete it, I have notifications on so if this isn't answered I'll just send another ask saying sorry (🌾 as an identifier)

In the meantime I'm just going to continue reading in hopes of clearing the confusion tbh, hope you have a good day either way

Hey! Thank you for sending an ask about this!!

First of all I totally get the confusion HAHA. Stuff like safe vore is an incredibly niche/hit-or-miss thing, so I totally understand not being a hundred percent certain on how you feel about it! I know a long time ago I was literally disgusted by it hahah, so it’s crazy to see how things have changed for me

The most I can do I guess in this case is express what I enjoy about it so you can maybe understand your own feelings about it better! In my case I really enjoy the fear/thrill factor. The sort of idea in this story that other beings have such power over you and you can’t do anything about it— and yet, despite that fear, sure there’s angst and conflict between characters and the like, but there’s never actually any real damage done. Thus why I never really enjoy violence or gore or like actual death in these kind of scenarios haha.

I appreciate the fact that you went through the tag to gather your feelings and that you sent a really respectful message about it! You just wanna learn more and I totally get that! I was the same way, and still am the same way about a lot of things!

So if anything, I say if you’re comfortable, maybe explore it some more! Hone in how you feel about it in whatever way works best for you! There’s no judgement either way, and again I appreciate the fact that you reached out about it rather than like send hate HAHA or (which would have been totally valid too) just blocked an move on. You wanted to know more and explore a possible aspect of yourself you didn’t consider otherwise and that’s really admirable!!

Sorry this was long winded hahaha! TLDR, explore these things in the way that works best for you, and I appreciate the time you took in reaching out and being respectful about it anyway :)

#relic answers #tasty au #keeping this in the main tag since I think this is important for everyone to keep in mind

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homestuckshipcesttournament · 6 days

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Hello! Could you possibly post advice or any useful tolls to making a tournament with brackets. I'm interested in doing this for another fandom. Thank you for any help you offer and thank you for hosting this tournament. (I was rooting for DaveDirk, rip DaveDirk.)

I can do my best! This is my first real tournament, though I'm running some smaller ones on @postinghomestuckpolls, and your mileage may vary depending on what exactly you got going on. This is going to be just as I think of things rather than in any particular order. Feel free to send another ask if you have follow up questions! And anyone else reading this feel free to add your own tips!

Are you doing this manually or using a bracket generator? I'm going to figure out a way to do it manually for the next time, but as of now, I don't have any good tips for that As for bracket generators, there are only two I really recommend, depending on the size of your tournament

Dunia Games is what I'm using for this one. It's an indonesian website primarily aimed at esports. It's got a bunch of functions I'm not using because this is just for a poll blog lol You can create up to 256 entries and shuffle the bracket once it's created. You can make a single elimination, double elimination (what I'm doing), or battle royale. One funny thing is I have not figured out how to delete a bracket. If you figure it out let me know lol

Bracket HQ is one I prefer, but it only allows you to add 32 entries for free and 64 for their paid membership. It allows single elimination, double elimination, round robin, and group stage. I do prefer this because it's easier to move around the entrants -- there's a drag and drop, while with DG you have to retype things.

If you're doing more than 256 entries.... I think you're going to have to do manual. Dunia Games was the only thing I found that allowed that many for free after some research.

Seeding Honestly I did not do a great job with seeding, but I didn't do the worst. The problem is, with the two bracket generators I mentioned, you can't manually change the seeds. You have to adjust the order the entrants are entered. What I tried to do was look up all the fandom heavy hitters -- I searched on AO3 for the most popular ships based on tags and grouped all those ships together so they wouldn't be against each other first round. Then I kinda grouped on themeing after that, but honestly I think I should have done more research. I'll def have better data to work off of with this tournament

Get things prepared ahead of time If you're anything like me, you're going to want to jump in as soon as you have the idea (I blame this on adhd lol), but you're going to want to have the first round drafted before you start posting. This might lead to you realizing you filled out some of the entries wrong, or that a seed is really lopsided, or that you don't have all the assets you need, or something is really weird so maybe you want to poll about it first. I jumped the gun on mine which led to Calcest vs Rose/Roxy in the first round.

Starting Polls Starting polls are a great way to figure out how to structure your tournament and generate some interest! I'm still getting plenty of new followers as we enter the semifinals, but you want to start your tournament with as much of a following as you reasonably can so fewer people are coming in late and missing out on earlier rounds. Also, again, it's great to see what direction you should take on certain things, though to me a poll result doesn't mean you absolutely have to stick with the winning answer. Sometimes it's like a coinflip -- there to see what you actually want to happen. Though what sort of starting polls you may need is highly dependent on your tournament. Homestuck is so fucking wild I have to figure out what counts as incest lmao

Make your rules clear from the jump A rule I didn't think to add until the late game and only because someone was doing it on my previously mentioned other poll blog is no cheating/no using alt accounts for votes! Some blogs do allow this, so it's important to let people know where you stand on it so they either no to not or, if you allow it, how much you allow it, like if you're okay with people programming their own bots to create accounts or not (big point of discourse in a shipcest tournament that concluded a couple months ago). Also other rules! I don't know what they may be for you! Maybe how much character/ship/whatever hate/flaming you'll allow. I'm honestly thinking about making those little end of the post forum signature ass banners for my other poll blog and for this one for the future, but I don't know if seeing them feels inherently obnoxious? Maybe something for a starting poll!

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Oh! Having a tagging system is helpful!

Tagging each round of your tournament is so helpful especially for yourself so you can go back and see the results of specific rounds without just having to scroll through the whole dang thing. Make those tags and links for yourself. Just. Never hurts to have a lot of organization lol

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That's all I can think of for now, though like I said, any more questions or any tips from anyone else are always welcome!

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an INDIE. SELECTIVE. CANON DIV. AURA GUARDIAN RILEY from POKEMON D/P/PT + ancestor verse ft. Sir Aaron written by leche! Multiverse, crossover, and oc friendly. please read rules under cut before following!

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✧ Very canon divergent. A lot of history, headcanons, and even in-game events are explored differently here. While in some realm canon complimenting this iteration greatly diverges from the norm.

✧Triggering content containing NSFW both sexual and intensive themes. I do write smut but all of the above is put under a read more and tagged accordingly. Please be 18+ to interact.

✧ Selective, crossover/oc friendly, mutuals only etc etc. I only interact with mutuals and wait to be followed first before following back if I can see our characters and writing meshing well. This is just so I can have an active dashboard that I can freely interact with.

✧ You do not need a verse to interact with my muse. If anything I prefer general crossover to see how they interact in their various worlds.

✧ While open to shipping and discussing possible connections with my muses I will not insta-ship. It’ll have to be chemistry and interaction based with buildup and note the blog is not ship-focused.

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✧ I’m not interested in poly-shipping. Nothing wrong with it ofcourse but Im only really comfortable shipping with friends or mutuals I know and on the same space as I’m in. I’d ask for a single-verse for my muse or we can go through a platonic route if your muse is exclusively poly, but as with anything please come talk to me for anything.

✧ You dont have to ask to reply to an ask. Please do! If anything I ask if possible to follow through on a meme or ask you’ve sent be turned into an interaction unless the point is moot or its a drabble. Not required of course, it just helps start and build interactions!

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FAQ

Events can be confusing, so hopefully this FAQ answers any questions you may have. If it doesn't, remember you can send us an ask or a message to clear any problems up for you!

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It can be whatever you want! Fic, art, a playlist - anything. Please just make sure that it's complete - no one wants an unfinished present, or one that has had no effort put in at all.

How does my Secret Santa know what I like?

That's up to you! When you sign up, send us a list of your preferences along with it (there's a space for this on the sign-up form, or include it in your ask). This can be anything - a particular trope you like, a AU you like etc. You can also include things you definitely don't want, if you like. On November 3rd, everyone's preferences will be posted on separate posts to this blog, where you can find them by searching for their URL.

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What if I need to drop out?

Send us a message or an ask! We'd prefer it if you dropped out before November 3rd (where you are assigned your giftee!) but if you do it afterwards, we'll get a pinch hitter to take your place!

What's a pinch hitter?

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aloeverawrites · 5 months

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Hello so I got an ask from a system who wants to go vegan but can’t because their family is making it unsafe for them. I want to say I’m so sorry I accidentally hit the delete instead of answer ask button bc I am an idiot, but I have read the ask so I’m still going to try and answer it and I hope you see it. And always feel free to send another one that I will take better care of-

So I want to start off with the definition of veganism which is a “philosophy and way of living which seeks to exclude — as far as is possible and practicable — all forms of exploitation of, and cruelty to, animals for food, clothing, or any other purposes.”

I know that for your alter it is the disgust around eating meat that is a big part of why I went vegan so I do understand. But I also want emphasise, if it helps at all, that you trying so hard and doing everything that you can in your situation is vegan we all have different limitations on what we practically and possibly can do as vegans. And if these are some things you can’t get past right now then it wouldn’t be fair to say you’re not doing enough.

Being vegan isn’t just about food, if you think you could get away with buying clothes that is made of animals products, things that aren’t tested on animals, soaps that don’t contain milk and things like that you can start with a non-dietary veganism. Most vegans become plant -based first and then eradicate animal products from other parts of their lives you could start that process in reverse. And hopefully that can help ease some of their guilt about eating meat products. My family was also very unsupportive at the beginning of my journey but I had a different situation and it was eventually okay. I’m not quite sure how it will be for you but I want take your word for it I think you would know better than me. We share a family computer so because of my searches they started getting recommended vegan videos and began to understand, I’m not sure if the same can happen for you but I do hope they change. You don’t deserve to feel like this in your own home.

If you can when you are if you are separated from your family and eating out on your own, maybe you can choose is vegan options. The best vegan options in mainstream restaurants are like accidentally vegan like chips or salad or just anything that is naturally made out of plants. specialty things that have a lot of nuts and replacements are usually for if you order like a vegan meat burger or something like that and they are often better at home anyway. I personally don’t buy meat or cheese replacement unless I’m cooking because then I know it’s vegan, sometimes restaurants can mix up your orders.

Also if it can help maybe you can, if you’re able to try and cook your own meals or family meals that are vegan, if eating meat is really wearing on you all, but don’t worry about it if you aren’t able to do that.

Sorry my solutions are mostly compromises, but yeah I don’t think most vegans would blame for you for eating what your family does especially since it sounds like you’re in a kind of volatile situation here.

As for dietary requirements that is a blocking point for a lot of vegans so that’s very understandable. Personally I don’t eat nuts as well and I don’t like dates, I forgot what the third thing was but yeah there are ways to be vegan or plant based without eating those things. I would recommend eating a lot of beans, potatoes, rice, quinoa things that are high in protein but not necessarily nuts or anything and maybe tofu if you can. (Fried soy tofu is the best, I just buy I preseasoned because it isn’t worth the trouble-) If ordering vegan drinks maybe you could use the soymilk or even pat milk and avoid nut based milks and try and be very clear about that.

I think exploring with plant based foods even while you can’t completely cut away from animal products would be really helpful for you when you transition to full plant based if you’re able to get away and make that step if you want to. I do understand some members of your system focusing on your safety and some focusing on animal rights and I think if you both learn more about each others sides hopefully you’ll see eye to eye on it. I definitely understand where all of you are coming from though. It’s important to protect animals but it is also important to keep you safe. As a society we are failing animals but we’re also failing people who are in toxic environments and can’t get out yet. Your rights and safety are important too and it’s okay prioritising that.

I’ll try to look for more resources for vegan food you can eat outside of family meals.

And I have access to a pretty good vegan community on here so if you like I can try and contact some of them and see if they have any advice. I really hope things go well for you, I’m sorry you’re in this situation. I appreciate you thinking about the animals while you’re all having a hard time as well.

#vegan for the animals #fell free to reach out at any time as well dudes #animal rights

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Courts of Love and Hate. CH 6

I’m posting the next several chapters now, but they’re barely edited and may have plot holes. Feel free to comment any big mistakes or plot holes :)

Nyx x Juniper (Tamlins daughter)

WC: 1596

Juniper

It’s been another boring day, and while trying to convince our parents of an arranged marriage, Nyx and I’ve barely been able to write to one another; I haven’t gotten a letter from him in what feels like ages.

Climbing the stairs as fast as fast as my legs allow, I move for my room, intent on sending a note to Nyx to meet me tonight, even if it's only for a few hours. When I open the door, though, he’s already sprawled out on my bed.

The ache in my chest instantly eases at the sight of him. “Nyx,” his name is a sigh on my lips. “What are you doing here?”

“I missed you. And I could tell you missed me too.” He tugs on the invisible bond between us, making me nearly fall in my haste to get to him.

“Nyx,” I say again, unable to say anything else. I crawl over him and sprawl across his body, rubbing my nose into his neck to smell him.

“The meeting went well,” he says, wrapping his arms around my back, “your father is prepared to agree, and my parents are just on the cusp of it.”

Confused, I think back to Nyx’s recent letters, but no mention of a meeting comes to mind. “What meeting?” I ask, moving to have a better view of his face.

He appears to hesitate for a second, then a flash of anger crosses his expression, and his arms tighten around me. “He didn’t even tell you?”

“Nyx,” I rub a hand up and down his arms, trying to soothe him. “Calm down.”

His eyes flash to mine, the blue brighter than usual as his skin heats beneath my hand. He tenses against me but, after a moment, relaxes back on the bed and pulls me close, the heat receding. “There was a meeting between courts to discuss an arranged marriage treaty. Your father agreed if my parents agree to have a daughter who’ll marry one of his sons.”

“Oh.”

“Are you upset?”

“I don’t know. I feel bad for dragging my brothers into this.”

“But just think about the peace between our courts.”

I nod, laying my head back against his chest. “You’re right; it will all work out in the end. I’m just glad we’ll be able to get married soon and be together.”

“If they agree,” he says, leaving everything uncertain between us.

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Nyx spends the rest of the day and night with me. We lay in bed the entire time and talk about everything to come. For a few hours we even talk about what we want our life to look like in Velaris.

“It’s the most beautiful city in all of Prythian, I swear. You’ll love it.”

“I’m sure I will, Nyx.”

“We can get a house in the city and decorate together.

And get a dog. Or a cat.”

“You want pets?”

“Absolutely.”

“How many?”

“I don’t know. As many as we have room for. I love animals.”

“Alright, as many as possible then.”

“There are shelters we can rescue from.”

Nyx leaves early in the morning the next day and I already miss him and spend most of the day in my room, imagining Velaris and the life I may soon have with Nyx in his beautiful city. I don’t actually leave my room until after dinner.

Oak came to hang out with me for a few hours but no one else has stopped by all day so I’m curious to see what they’re up to.

When I open the dining room doors I’m greeted by Oak again as he shovels chocolate pudding into his mouth. “Hey,” he mumbles around his full mouth.

“Where are Father and Kai?”

He swallows his full mouth and speaks after a long moment. “They went to the study. Something important they needed to talk in private about,” he answers, shrugging and turning back to his dessert.

Leaving then I make my way to the study but stop just short of opening the doors. The arguing inside is clear enough from here.

“You can’t just sell her!” Kai’s voice is practically a roar, but a quieter one interrupts the arguing.

“You shouldn’t be standing out here, your Highness,” it’s one of the guards at the door. “Your father wouldn’t want you eavesdropping. But more importantly, your brother wouldn’t either.”

More importantly? I wonder, and can see on the males face that he seems to realize his mistake. Why does this guard think Kai not wanting me eavesdropping is more important?

The guard looks away from me, staring down the hall instead.

“What’s your name?” I ask.

“Aleksander,” he says, still not looking at me.

There’s something in his eyes that I can’t decipher and I know he’s trying to hide it from me so I decide to turn around, knowing it wouldn’t be a good idea to interrupt their arguing, and go to bed.

The next morning I get up early, intent on talking to Kai and convincing him I understand the circumstances of this arranged marriage, and that I’m okay with making this ‘sacrifice.’ I get dressed before my ladies maid even shows up to wake me and leave my room silently, wanting to catch him before breakfast.

“Good morning, Aleksander,” I say, noticing the guard in the hall near Kai’s room as the same one from last night.

“It’s a little early, no, my lady?”

“I want to see my brother before breakfast. I’m sure he’s already awake.”

The guard says nothing as I knock on Kai’s door and open it, letting myself in, but listening for an objection.

“Alek?” My brother's throaty morning voice asks from somewhere in the still dark bedroom as I open the door more.

“Nope. Juniper.”

He doesn’t say anything but I make out his silhouette rushing from the bed to pick something up from the floor, and as I turn on the lights I notice it’s a shirt that he’s quickly pulling on.

“Juni, what are you doing here?” He turns toward the bathroom, still not looking at me, and grabs something from the cabinet. That’s when I notice the bruises; they’re faint, but he’s rubbing a salve on them to heal them faster.

“What happened?”

“It’s nothing, just an accident during training yesterday,” he says, but he still hasn’t looked me in the eye. “What did you need, Juni?” he asks, spinning around to face me.

“I wanted to talk to you about your argument with father yesterday.” He immediately tenses. “I heard enough of it and I don’t want you defending me. I’m willing to marry the Night Prince if it means uniting our courts,” I say, trying to watch my words so I don’t let on that I know more than I should.

“Juniper, you don’t know what you’re talking about.”

“I do! I’m not some helpless child, Kai. I can take care of myself so just trust me on this.”

Kai doesn’t speak for a long moment. “Juniper-”

“No. There's nothing for you to do about it, so don’t argue with father on my account.” I turn to leave, having said my piece, and walk for the door. “I’ll see you at breakfast.”

Nyx

It’s a long day of mindless hobbies, since mom and dad still won’t let me work, and wondering if the small note I left on their desk was enough to evade punishment. Hanging with a friend on a boat in international waters, be back soon, it had said.

“Nyx,” my mother’s voice rouses me from my thoughts. “Your father, Azriel, and I talked a great deal and have decided to agree to Tamlins terms.”

“With him raising an army, tension’s are growing,” dad adds.

“And though we’re sure we could beat the Spring Court in any war,” mom starts.

“We don’t want to risk any lives for something that we have a chance to prevent right now. It would be selfish of us to ignore this opportunity.”

I nod, not knowing what to say while I internally rejoice at the news.

“I did background on the sons,” Azriel informs. I hadn’t even noticed him come in, though it’s impossible if he doesn’t want you to.

“Right,” I say, taking another bite of food. “What’d you find out?”

“Nothing. They’re both squeaky clean. The younger one, Oak, is innocent enough. He spends most of his time reading or roaming the woods. The older one, Kai, is everything you’d expect from a young man who’s going to be highlord someday.”

“Meaning?”

“He’s a lot like you. Hard working, intelligent, quiet with no obvious friends, and protective of his loved ones.”

“Did you just call me a loser?”

My uncle smirks but it vanishes when my mother asks a question. “You don’t think he’s too much like his father?”

“I don’t think he has a reason to respect or like his father much, and no, I don’t think he’ll be like Tamlin at his worst.”

“That’s rather specific,” Mom says what we’re all thinking.

“There’s no need to share the details,” Az evades.

“Azriel,” Dad pipes up, his tone questioning with a hint of authority.

“Trust me.” Az looks Dad dead in the eyes when he says it, and something in his expression must convince my father because he nods and turns back to me.

“There’s going to be another meeting in the Spring Court a few days from now. Just to discuss details; the deal won’t really be made until the wedding.”

I nod, understanding, and wish the day would arrive sooner.

#Courts of Love and Hate #a court of thorns and roses #a court of mist and fury #acotar #nyx x female reader #adult nyx #nyx x reader #nyx acotar

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drabbles-mc · 2 years

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Better Now (1)

Eddie Munson x OFC (Casey Cunningham)

Summary: Just because his name was cleared legally, doesn’t mean that life got any easier for Eddie Munson in the wake of the Vecna Killings. Despite being innocent in the eyes of the law, it’s obvious that Hawkins doesn’t really believe what they’d been told by the police, but Eddie knows that they’d believe the truth even less. He doesn’t care what most people think, he never has, but when he comes face-to-face with Chrissy Cunningham’s older sister, he realizes that there is at least one person in town that he needs to make amends with, needs to know that they know he wouldn’t ever hurt Chrissy.

Better Now/Stranger Things Masterlist

Warnings: light angst, language

Word Count: 2.1k

A/N: This is my first time ever writing for Stranger Things, and by extension, Eddie, so please go easy on me! I finished season 4 today and immediately decided that I needed to buckle down and start writing. This is going to be a series, how long of one I’m not sure. I love hearing people’s thoughts, though, so feel free to comment or even send me asks/messages about it! Also, if you’ve never read for any of my other fandoms before, please note that canon only matters when I want it to hahaha

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Things in Hawkins weren’t good, per se, but they were better than they had been. Although one could argue that that wasn’t really saying much. The rage had died off for the most part, but the tension remained. People got answers that they were willing to accept for the sake of moving on with their lives, but the grudges born out of the series of murders that had taken place still remained. No one had their pitchforks and shotguns out anymore, but it was still a topic that people avoided unless they were looking for an argument, looking to get loud.

The last thing that Eddie Munson wanted these days was an argument. He was finally able to go out in public without guaranteed confrontation, but he worked very hard to make as little eye contact with people as possible. He could still feel the stares, but unless he made a spectacle of himself, most people left him alone now. It was difficult knowing that people would believe the actual truth even less than the lie that Hawkins PD and the FBI fed everyone, but Eddie still wished that they knew. He gave up the hope of people ever finding out now, though, taking the little win of no longer being on the run and wanted by the whole town for murders that he had nothing to do with.

He had offered just about everything for his uncle not to force him to go to the store. The grocery list wasn’t that long, and Eddie all but begged the man to go instead, Eddie would even chip in extra. His uncle was adamant though, exhausted from an unexpected double-shift. So there Eddie was, standing in the bread aisle with a crumpled-up sheet of paper clutched tight in his hand.

He was just about to reach and finally grab a loaf of bread when he heard a voice from the past from the other end of the aisle. His eyes grew wide as he turned to look, and, sure enough, there she was—Casey Cunningham.

The last time the two of them had had anything resembling a real conversation was well over a year ago. He’d seen her in passing when she came home from college, if they ended up at the same gas station they’d say a quick hello in passing, but that was the extent of it. Despite growing up in the same small town, despite the fact that Eddie was supposed to graduate the same year as her, close friendship had just never been in the cards. She was never cruel to him, though, not like everyone else. She and her sister had that in common.

But Eddie had only caught fleeting glimpses of Casey since her sister died. She came home after it happened, of course, but between being on the run and getting dragged into the police station, Eddie really hadn’t had much time to try and talk to her, to offer whatever condolences would’ve been appropriate. He wondered if Casey blamed him like everyone else did. She hadn’t tried to hunt him down and gut him like the rest of the town, which was promising, but he also didn’t think that she had a violent bone in her body even on her worst day.

That didn’t mean that he was ready to talk to her, though.

He pushed the cart quickly, the need for bread long forgotten as the loaf fell to the floor and he tried to quickly make his way around the endcap of the aisle and out of her line of sight. He didn’t risk looking back over his shoulder to see if she was watching him, wasn’t ready to see if anger filled her usually warm and inviting brown eyes.

Getting his cart enough into the next aisle over to not be blocking the way, Eddie tried to strategize and plan an escape route. He had too much in his cart to just leave it without causing an issue for some poor kid working there who already didn’t get paid enough to be dealing with the general population of Hawkins as it was. If he moved fast enough, he could cash out and book it to his van hopefully before Casey also finished shopping. But he had to be somewhat calm and collected about it or people were going to start to give him looks, start to cause problems for him. And that’s exactly what he was trying to avoid.

Taking a deep breath, he gripped the bar of the shopping cart and was about to push when he heard someone else’s cart roll to a stop behind him. His blood went cold in his veins and he knew without looking back over his shoulder exactly who it was.

“You dropped this,” she pushed her cart and stopped so that the two of them were right next to each other, a small, awkward smile on her face.

Eddie’s entire body felt shaky, like it was taking every ounce of effort to not sprint down the aisle away from her. She looked just as beautiful as she had when she had graduated. Her hair was longer now, much longer, and it looked even redder now if that was even possible. Although Eddie wondered if it was the adrenaline in his system making things seem different than they actually were. Her big doe eyes were looking at him, not through him, and he didn’t know what to do with that.

“Did I?” an awkward chuckle slipped out of him as he reached to accept the bread from her, hoping that she wouldn’t notice the tremble in his ringed fingers, “Didn’t notice.”

She tilted her head, finding herself fighting the urge to smile despite the tension and awkward energy of the situation, “I figured. You seemed a bit busy trying to run away from me.”

His heart dropped into his stomach despite the fact that there was still a hint of a smile on her face. His fingers wrapped tightly around the plastic packaging in his hand but he couldn’t quite make himself put it into his cart. He opened and closed his mouth a few times but no words came out. He wished he could make himself say something, anything. Of all the people in the world he owed it to, Casey was at the top of the list.

“I, uh,” he finally got some words out, “I don’t know what you…what you mean.”

“Really?” she crossed her arms over her chest, giving him a disbelieving look, “So it was just a coincidence that right after you saw me you took off in the opposite direction faster than anyone needs to go in a grocery store?”

“Yes,” he nodded, “Total coincidence,” he saw the small smile on her face as she rolled her eyes and continued, “I’ve never avoided you, Casey Cunningham.”

She laughed and made a fake gagging sound, “God, please, don’t call me by my full name. Makes me feel like I’m back in high school again,” she paused, eyes widening when she realized what she said, “Sorry, Eddie, I didn’t mean—”

“No,” he waved off whatever apology she was going to try and give, “Don’t. Third time’s the charm. This is gonna be my year—I can feel it.”

She smiled, giving a nod, “Right.”

There was a brief pause, and then both of them started to speak at once, both of them stopping at the same time as well when they realized they were about to be talking over each other. Quiet, slightly uncomfortable chuckles filled the space between them before silence took over once more. Clearing his throat, Eddie gestured to her, “Ladies first.”

She gave a half-hearted smile but there was a sadness in her eyes that hadn’t been there a few moments before. Raking her fingers back through her hair, she took a deep breath, “I know this isn’t really the place for this,” she gestured vaguely to the store around them, “but I just, I want you to know something, okay?” she waited and she could see it in his eyes that he was expecting the worst, “I…I never…I never believed them. About you, I mean. I never believed that you did those things to anyone, to Chrissy.”

He let out a shaky breath, one he had been holding for much longer than the duration of their conversation. The constricting feeling in his chest lessened ever so slightly as tears pricked the edges of his eyes. He didn’t want to cry in the middle of the grocery store, definitely not in front of Casey Cunningham of all people, but it almost seemed like he wasn’t going to have any say in the matter.

“Um, shit,” he quickly wiped at his eyes as he let out a quiet laugh to try and lighten the mood and cover for himself, “sorry. I mean, thank you. And also,” he paused, really looking at her, “I’m sorry. About Chrissy. About…everything.”

She sucked in a long breath as she gave a nod, “Me too,” there was a long stretch of silence, and rather than trying to force a conversation, Casey attempted to give Eddie the out he had been looking for since the moment he spotted her in the last aisle over, “Well. Don’t forget your bread again,” she offered a lopsided, half-hearted smile before continuing on her way.

Casey got a couple strides away before Eddie managed to get up the guts to speak up, “Casey,” he pushed his cart, closing the distance between them, “I, uh, I know I’m probably not the person you would ever want to talk to about everything. But if you ever want to talk…”

The sadness in her eyes lessened a bit as a soft smile curled her lips, “Thank you, Eddie. I appreciate it.”

“Are you home? For good?”

She shrugged, “For now. I’m not sure what’s next.”

“Right.”

“You should go,” she saw the hurt and shock on his face and she gestured to his cart, “Before your ice cream melts.”

“Right!” he let out a relieved laugh, “Uncle Wayne needs his cookies and cream.”

She cocked one eyebrow, “Yea, I’m sure it’s for your uncle,” she shook her head, “Bye, Eddie Munson.”

He chuckled as he started walking away, “See you around, Casey Cunningham.”

She lagged behind as he walked away. Her heart felt like it was racing inside her chest. For weeks she had been wondering what that conversation was going to be like. She knew that eventually she’d have to see him, have to speak to him. She wondered if she would be able to get the words out, if he would even want to talk to her at all. She wondered if he had ever blamed her for how people treated him, if he thought that she had any part in all of it. She hadn’t. She’d been too busy mourning the death of her sister to be part of the riot-squad against Eddie. And she meant what she said, that she never believed that he was capable of such terrible things. He’d always been a little off-beat, but never hurtful. She wasn’t sure how much she believed what the police had told her and her family about what happened to Chrissy, but just about anything was more believable to her than the thought of the young man who was toying with the shopping list in his hands hurting her baby sister.

It was taking all of the self-control that he had, which wasn’t much, to not look back and see if Casey was still watching him, if she looked like she was alright. He thought that things were going to be so much worse between them. He was fully prepared for her to ream him out in front of everyone, and he wouldn’t have stopped her. He wasn’t expecting the kindness, even if it was duking it out with the sense of awkwardness between them. The jitters in his hands persisted as he fussed with the cart, with the list in his hand, but he couldn’t deny that he felt a little better. He wondered how soon Casey was going to be taking off for school again, or just taking off in general. He never blamed anyone for wanting to get out of Hawkins, but Casey had more reason to want to leave than most. He wondered if he’d see her again, if he’d be able to ask her.

Before walking over to the cash register to finally check out and head back to the trailer, he gave in to the urge to look back down the aisle. He expected to see her shopping, or staring at him, but she was gone. His lips twitched into a frown for a moment before he forced himself to focus back on the task at hand.

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rubysunnday · 2 years

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totally feel free to ignore this or answer privately!

i don't want to stir up fandom drama or put you on the spot, lottie, but if you feel like sharing, might i inquire as to why you don't like edwina sharma? this is a genuine question, asdfghjhgfdssdgh. as someone who enjoyed edwina's character, i'm interested as to why you don't.

(and don't worry, i'm not going to send you anything on why you ShOuLd StAn mY fAvOrItE cHaRaCtEr AnD bLoRbO. (1) edwina is not that important to me, and (2) i think sending stuff like that in the attempts to "change your mind" when completely unsoliticted is bad internet etiquette.)

Ohoho, get ready, olive for you have done it now

In the books, Edwina is my absolute favourite and I was so excited for her in the show. I made edits of her, my icon was her - she was my girl. I adored her and at the start of the show, I still did.

But when the show came out and we got passed the first episode I was like, alright, so, she's not going to be exactly like the books since she clearly liked Anthony and was happy to court him. I can cope with a love triangle.

But then we get the whole "i want all of it, Kate" scene which was then hypocritically countered by "i didn't ask for any of it, kate". Edwina, hon, you literally just said you wanted it...

And then there's the whole completely and utterly oblivious to anyone who isn't called Edwina. In the books (I'm going to keep saying that) she doesn't like Anthony and can tell that he is more suited for Kate and that Kate has feelings for him.

It's not like they were subtle about it.

Then she gets Kate and Anthony to dance together and has a hissy fit when there is obvious chemistry and Anthony storms off. Anthony only proposed to Edwina because he wanted the whole thing to be over with so he could fulfil his duty. He never loved her. He made it very clear to her that he did not love her and he wanted a wife out of mere duty to his family and had no interest in being in love.

Edwina conveniently missed this part despite it being said in ep2 in front of numerous other people - including Kate, Eloise, Colin, Penelope, Lady D, Violet, need i go on?

What I did notice during the proposal scene was how Edwina says "yes, I shall be your viscountess," and not "yes, I shall be your wife" which shows, to me, how they were never a love match.

Then we have the dinner scene with the Sheffields...

Edwina does not say a word against the Sheffields. She sits there and lets it all happen. Now, I don't know about anyone else, but if that was my mother and sister being berated like that, I would have said something. Why does it take Anthony stepping in for them to stop?

Now, Edwina obviously knows that something happened between Mary and her parents because there is a reason she hasn't seen them in ages. So, tell me why, she accepted their compliments and attention and said nothing about them completely ignoring Kate? It is so obvious there is tension, there - as someone who has experienced a similar situation, no matter how old you are, you know - yet she is just happy as a daisy.

And then she has another hissy fit about Kate lying to her. I understand this, but once Kate explained it, surely Edwina would see why. Kate wanted her to marry for love and not for duty, hence why she didn't tell her about the Sheffield's deal in an attempt to protect her.

And then we have the wedding.

Half - sister - oh, you little shit.

For this so-called sibling bond, even when angry at something that was so obvious - I do not know how Edwina didn't see Anthony smelling Kate or staring at her by the lake, or holding her hand with the engagement ring or anything like that, but I digress - I would not call someone I hold dear to me something like that.

Half-sister is the lowest blow you could possibly wield to someone who is not your full sibling. It's like referring to mother as step-mother when you've only called them mother for your entire life.

In the books, Edwina and Kate were devoted to one another and yet in the show, Edwina does not give two shits about Kate.

After the wedding, we have her being a bitch

Exhibit A)

Like, girl, don't be so rude to a man who knows he's fucked up and is trying his hardest to make amends. Urgh, it fills me with such anger because whilst she hasn't "technically" done anything wrong, and has somewhat of a right to her anger, at least try for the sake of your family.

And then the ball scene where she sees Kate and Anthony finally getting to be happy with one another, she throws another tantrum because apparently, no one can be happy when she's miserable.

Never mind the fact Kate and Anthony have never done something for themselves and the one time they do, the little sister throws a hissy fit.

I'd also like to know why they all left without Kate? They all arrived together, did they just assume she left and didn't think to check? WHAT HAPPENED?!

It isn't until Kate almost fucking dies that Edwina somewhat resembles the book!Edwina. She listens, to Kate, with no anger and explains to her how she feels. And Kate listens and explains her feelings and if THEY HAD JUST DONE THAT IN THE FUCKING BEGINNING LIKE THEY DO IN THE BOOKS WE WOULDN'T BE IN THIS SHIT.

Ahem, anyway, Edwina is a selfish brat who cares about no one but herself and hates that her sister is finally happy and has to make everyone else miserable because she is.

Fin.

#don't even get me started on mary #i adored edwina #and i am always gobsmacked at how much i now hate her #how is that even possible #they fucked it up in so many ways #AND EDWINA DOESN'T GO TO KANTHONY'S WEDDING #and where was this so called sister in the epilogue?#and her mother?#lady danbury was more of a mother than mary was #jesus christ olive you set me off big time

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