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rqs-arcade · 5 months
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🕹️ ⸻ transfem jameson jackson & transmasc jackieboy man moodboard
ft; t4t and soul mate themes, a mix of black and white + blue and red
► 🕹️🕹️
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shouta-edits · 3 months
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"Could I please request a ship moodboard for Bill Cipher x Alice Nakiri with themes of l being superior to everyone else, scheming, mischievous senses of humor and consensual demonic possession please and thank you." -anon requested
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illlbebetteronsaturn · 2 months
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JT in alter ego
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homeoftherevenant · 1 year
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Lady Gaga as Joe Calderone (2011)
Shot by SHOWstudio
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53v3nfrn5 · 16 days
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Cornelia Parker: ‘Alter Egos’ (2003)
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jessroxxo · 2 months
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Summer dress season is nearly here!!1
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psykopaths · 6 months
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The ego suffocates the soul.
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citygalsblog · 2 years
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How to be more confident ;)
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My favorite saying is, “ fake it till you make it”. This is always easier said than done but here are some tips on how to feel and appear more confident.
* Create an alter ego. Give your character a name and write down how they act. Whenever you are in a stressful situation you can become that person.
* Eye contact. Force yourself to keep eye contact. Turn it into game and make them break eye contact first. This is such a power move.
* Good posture. Always walk with a straight back and your head held up. This will make you appear more confident.
* Nobody cares. Remember everyone only cares about themselves. Nobody’s thinking about what u said or did. So just be you and live your life how you want.
* Make a good first impression. Be kind, polite and genuine.
* Listen to affirmation podcasts. There’s are so many confidence boosting affirmation podcast. If u have a stressful situation coming listen to it the night before. The more you tell yourself you are amazing then eventually you will start to believe it.
* Put effort into your appearance. If you look good you will feel good. Take care of your hair, put an outfit you feel good in on, do a little bit of makeup if you want and always wear deodorant and perfume.
90% of life is confidence. The thing about confidence is no one knows if it’s real or not.- Maddy Perez
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cyberianpunks · 4 months
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XXL Egoism
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csuitebitches · 1 year
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Rebranding Yourself Online using ChatGPT
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Summary from “Brand Aid: Taking control of your reputation before everyone else does” by Larry G Linne and Patrick Sitkins. This book is from the early 2010s so some things are outdated and not exactly applicable. It’s also a more corporate/ business focused book. I took away what i felt were the major lessons and were more applicable to young adults/ teens/ people on social media today (because social media in 2013 vs today is very different).
I also wanted to add my own input to the summary. I’ve added prompts for ChatGPT that you can use to help figure your personal brand out better.
When rebranding yourself online, I would highly recommend:
1. Archive all your personal Instagram account’s posts (if you have an online business, create a separate page and show very little of yourself). Remove all your stories and highlights. Deactivate your account for at least 8 months.
2. Spend the next 8 months building your social media strategy, your personal brand and reinventing yourself in any way and form you want to (mental, physical, spiritual, etc).
3. Use Pinterest and figure out a theme that defines you the best. Take a look at @mafeanzures
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* A brand is what people think of you.
Questions to ask yourself:
1. What do you think other people think of you?
2. What personal attributes would you benefit from the most if those items were well known to everyone?
Question 1 and 2 in the next few prompts refers to these 2 questions.
ChatGPT prompts after you finish writing down the above answers:
“I want to develop my personal brand on instagram (or any one social media site at a time). Currently I’m seen as a (2 of the most negative qualities and 2 of the most positive qualities from question 1). I want to be seen as (4 of the most positive qualities from question 2). What should I do to be seen as that?”
This will give you a STRATEGY that you can further modify.
Now, ask the same question again but with one change:
“I want to develop my personal brand on instagram (or any one social media site at a time). Currently I’m seen as a (2 of the most negative qualities and 2 of the most positive qualities from question 1). I want to be seen as (4 of the most positive qualities from question 2). What should I post online to be seen as that?”
This will give you CONTENT that you should consider posting.
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* It is very likely that if you are to meet someone new and you’re aware you’re going to meet them, you’ll check their social media out. Whether its LinkedIn, facebook, twitter, instagram… keep your online presence clean.
* Before you post ANYTHING online, ask yourself: “how will this affect my brand?” If you post a story about a nasty break up/ a friendship falling apart/ a negative restaurant review… how do you think other people will see you? Be extremely mindful of your brand and what you post online.
* Rather than the age old advice “just be yourself”, look at “just be your best self.”
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7 steps to a great brand:
1. Write down what you think people think of you: both positive and negative
2. Determine your goals in life (career, family, etc). What brand items do you need to get there? For example, the brand item “intelligent” to move up the corporate ladder. What will you need in order to be perceived as intelligent?
3. Gap analysis: the difference between point 1 (current situation) and point 2 (desired situation).
4. Develop action items. For example, if you want to be seen as innovative at work, start bringing ideas to meetings.
5. Influences on your brand: your dress, style, voice tone and quality, health, recreation, the car you drive, social environments, where you live, the language you speak, the subjects of your conversations, social media postings all impact your brand.
6. List what you must do to protect your brand. For example: not drinking in public; dressing a certain way; etc.
7. Review every 6 months.
Ask ChatGPT: “I am (ethnicity) (gender), (age) years old based in (City, country). Currently I’m seen as a (2 of the most negative qualities and 2 of the most positive qualities from question 1). My viewers would mostly be people from (conservative/liberal/ rural/ urban/ define audience. In case there are two audience types, ask one at a time) backgrounds. I want to be seen as (4 of the most positive qualities from question 2). What behaviours should I not engage in?”
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Using the power of “always”: 5 specific things you pride on yourself for doing regularly.
“I always take the time to be updated in my field of work.”
“I always volunteer every Sunday.”
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Things to keep in mind:
A. Are you easy to find online?
B. Is your content consistent?
C. Do your pictures, videos convey your personal brand?
D. What will enhance your brand?
E. What will damage your brand?
Ask ChatGPT: “I want to develop my personal brand on instagram (or any one social media site at a time). Currently I’m seen as a (2 of the most negative qualities and 2 of the most positive qualities from question 1). I want to be seen as (4 of the most positive qualities from question 2). What can potentially damage my brand if I’m not careful?”
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If you are willing to see what you are doing and saying on the front page of a newspaper tomorrow, proceed with it. If you wouldn’t want it on the front page of the newspaper, STOP immediately.
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More things to keep in mind:
1. The internet amplifies everything
2. Context matters
3. Consistency is everything
4. Your “at home” brand is as important as “outside of home” brand
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subpixie420 · 1 year
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𝕀'𝕝𝕝 𝕓𝕖 𝕪𝕠𝕦𝕣 𝕣𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕝𝕖𝕒𝕕𝕖𝕣; 𝕒𝕝𝕝 𝕀 𝕟𝕖𝕖𝕕 𝕚𝕤 𝕒 𝕨𝕙𝕚𝕡🎪🎩🖤
🎪my links🎪(OF on $4.88 Valentine SALE!)
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shouta-edits · 2 years
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May I have a Bakugou Katsuki (BNHA) x Chat Noir (Miraculous Ladybug) with themes of modeling, friendship and being the best with black, red, orange colors? - anon requested
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s-pyder · 3 months
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🕷️HAYATO2635🕷️
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peculiardork · 3 months
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In love with the villain in me.
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cantcatchmeee · 1 year
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paperultra · 5 months
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le festin.
Pairing: OPLA!Vinsmoke Sanji x Fem!Reader Word Count: 3,842 words Warnings: Swearing, alcohol use, toxic family [A/N: yes this is partially inspired by ratatouille. inspiration comes from many places and i am not one to question it. happy new year <3]
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cingulomania (noun): a strong desire to hold a person in your arms nemesism (noun): frustration, anger or aggression directed inward, toward oneself and one's way of living
Thunk.
Thunk.
Thunk.
“Murfus.”
“Yes, Miss?”
“Get me more darts.”
Murfus wrings his hands, glancing between you and the wall a few feet away. “I … I’m afraid I can’t get you more darts,” he replies tentatively, “on account of us being out at sea, Miss.”
“Then fetch the ones I’ve already thrown,” you snap, pointing at said darts. “Idiot.”
“Of course. So sorry, Miss.”
He scampers over to the wall and hurriedly pulls each dart out of it, rushing back to you with sweat on his brow. You snatch them out of his white-gloved palms.
Pinching the blue dart between your fingers, you hold it up to your eye and aim. With a sharp snap of your wrist, the dart flies forward and into the paper tacked onto the wood panel.
Murfus winces.
Crumpled, smudged, and pitted with pin-sized holes, one would have a hard time reading the article on the wall. But you know what it says. You’ve memorized its structure, can land a dart onto each line mentioning that damned restaurant by name. And you do.
“Murfus.”
“Yes, Miss?”
“Read the menu to me again.”
“Of course, Miss.” You hear the crinkle of paper and the sound of him clearing his throat. “The appetizers are as follows …”
You only half-listen as the man continues, the other half occupied by the wall in front of you and the starting paragraph steadily being destroyed by your hand. Your tongue draws across your teeth.
“In all our years as food critics, scouring the East Blue for any semblance of palatable cuisine in a region brimming with endless possibilities, no other restaurant has come as close to unlocking the flavor of the seas as the Baratie.”
You had, by all accounts, a privileged upbringing.
The Nouveau Blue Guide is not royalty, nobility, or military – but it is an empire in its own right, a name that’s afforded you many opportunities and comforts since you were young: a fine education, luxurious business trips, a roof over your head and plenty of food to eat. Your family’s reputation as food critics, built by your great-grandfather and painstakingly maintained up to this very day, is unmatched in the East Blue.
Such is your birthright. A birthright that, despite your toil and travels and countless, countless hours spent writing reviews, your parents say you do not deserve.
“You call this an article?” Your mother brandishes the draft you’d submitted in hopes of some constructive criticism, her voice climbing high. “It’s a mess!”
“I haven’t polished it up yet –”
“There’s nothing worth polishing. Frankly, it’s embarrassing that a child of mine has written something like this.” She passes the article over to your father. “Darling, throw this away. I’m already stressed as it is.”
Your father takes it. Gives it a cursory once-over. Your tentative anticipation dissolves in the pit of your stomach when he sighs, shaking his head at you. “You’re not cut out for this career, dear,” he tells you, folding your article in half and then quarters and dropping it into the bin by your mother’s desk. “Claudie is already taking over the Guide. Your time is better spent improving your etiquette.”
You breathe in. Keep your hands relaxed, square your shoulders. Nod obediently with clenched teeth.
“I’m sorry for wasting your time.”
You know that your family means well. They want you to live a successful life, find a successful spouse, and raise successful children. They don’t want you to waste your time because your time is valuable.
Well, today, you’re going to prove that you are not wasting anything.
“We’re ready to disembark, Miss.”
“Good.”
Standing up, you put on your gloves and hat, picking your notebook and pen up from the table before walking with Murfus down to the dock.
He accompanies you to the entrance of the Baratie, then falls back so you may walk in alone. The maître d’hôtel welcomes you and promptly gets you seated at a booth on the ground floor, not too close to the stairs to distract you from the ambience of the restaurant and not too close to the kitchen to hear the ruckus of the cooks.
In the brief space of time before your waiter arrives, you take everything in. Dim, cozy lighting. High ceiling. Few windows. Sitting in the Baratie is like sitting in the belly of a whale. Perhaps you can make a point about it being a bit too enclosed, but given that its main customers are seafarers looking for reprieve from the elements, you don’t think many would find that damning.
You make a few half-hearted but detailed notes.
“Hello, madam.” A voice from above interrupts your writing.
You look up, irritated.
The waiter before you is a handsome man, blond-haired and broad-shouldered. He flashes you a charming smile upon meeting your eyes as he sets a plate of bread rolls down, standing close enough that you can smell cigarette smoke mixed with spices and just the barest remnants of cologne.
You recognize him immediately.
“My name is Sanji, and I have the immense pleasure of being your waiter this evening. Shall we start with drinks?”
Stifling your confusion with a sneer, you place your pen down.
“Is the Baratie so short-staffed that they have their sous chef waiting tables?”
Sanji’s smile freezes for just a moment. He seems to recover quickly, though, shaking his head and chuckling at your query.
“I’m flattered you recognize me!” he replies. “No, I occasionally wait tables when the owner requests it, that’s all.”
You do not buy it.
“Then, Sanji, I will have a glass of Ithürzburger Stein to start,” you say.
He nods. “Excellent choice. I will get that for you straight away.”
His eyes dart shamelessly to your open notebook before settling back on your face. To your utter surprise and dismay, he winks at you before heading off.
Your cheeks warm without warning.
Nobody, let alone a waiter (even if he really is the sous chef), has ever winked at you before. They had the good sense not to. It’s incredibly crude, and surely, you’re more offended than anything else – handsome or not, such behavior deserves a scathing call-out –
But … what if you’re overthinking things? What if it isn’t a big deal because it doesn’t affect the quality of the food? Your parents always take context into consideration – the Baratie is beloved for its rough-and-tumble personality under the guise of upscale dining, so perhaps this is part of the experience. He may not have even winked at you at all.
“Tch.”
You release the tablecloth from your grip, grabbing a bread roll instead and sinking your teeth into it. It’s light, sweet, and perfect. You chew quickly and swallow hard.
The sous chef comes back soon after, your requested bottle of wine in one hand and a polished glass in the other.
“Your Ithürzburger Stein, madam,” he says, opening the bottle and pouring you a glass with practiced ease.
He watches intently as you pick the glass up and bring it to your lips. The aroma reaches your nose, and it takes an immense effort not to wrinkle it as you take a sip. You’ve never particularly liked alcohol. This one is sour and dry.
“It’s alright,” you say, wishing you could rinse the taste out with juice. “I’m ready to order my appetizers and entrées.”
“Of course.”
You rattle off a few items, having memorized the menu after listening to Murfus read it so many times. For the appetizers, wakame salad with sesame-ginger dressing, Sea King croquettes, and grilled plums with goat cheese. For the entrees, Sambasian crab-stuffed salmon with roasted potatoes and chickpea stew. They’re nothing particularly unique or outstanding, but you feel that they are worth evaluating.
Sanji takes your order and leaves you with another dazzling smile, and you make the excuse of drinking more of the wine to avoid it. Maybe you will be a better writer drunk than sober.
Probably not.
Alone once again, you occupy yourself by exploring different ways to describe the wine, the bread, and the atmosphere. When you tire of that, you eavesdrop on the booth next to yours. It seems to be occupied by a group of marines, each attempting to one-up the others in the world’s shortest dick-measuring contest. You tire of that much more quickly.
When your appetizers arrive, you’re examining the arrangement of the silverware and the quality of their polish.
“Is the table set to your liking?” Sanji asks while lining up the plates. He takes more time doing so than is necessary, in your opinion.
“How it’s set doesn’t matter as much as whether it’s clean and accessible,” you reply, eyeing the croquettes with interest. “Tell me, where do you get your Sea King meat?”
“The Gourmet Hunter Guild supplies us with most of the rarer meats we serve here. The Sea King meat in your croquettes was just delivered this morning, so I’d say you’re quite lucky, madam.”
“What species is it?”
“Baron of the Tides.”
“Barons of the Tides tend to have a strong taste and tough flesh. Not many people are fond of it.”
Sanji’s eye glints as he rests a hand on the table, leaning in. “You know your food,” he says. “I expected no less from the Nouveau Blue Guide, and yet I’m still impressed.”
“It must not take much to impress you, then.”
“It takes a lot, actually.” He winks at you, and this time, you’re sure of it – and it’s strange because you don’t feel leered at, not at all, and your cheeks warm yet again. “Regarding the meat, no matter what it is, a good chef can make anything into a delicious meal. You won’t be disappointed.”
“I’ll be the judge of that.”
“Of course, madam. You’re the expert, after all.”
You are glad when he finally leaves, if only because you have no idea what to make of him. It’s difficult to tell if he’s being patronizing, and you can usually tell.
You sweep your gaze over your appetizers and take a deep breath.
Starting with the wakame salad, you inspect its presentation – a round pile of rich green seaweed in a smooth black bowl – and take a small portion to chew on.
The seaweed strikes a perfect balance between tender and firm, and the seasoning is perfect.
Fine. Whatever.
Next, the grilled plums with goat cheese. You take one bite; the creamy earthiness of the cheese complements the tender sweetness of the plums, and the caramelization is obnoxiously fantastic. You eat an entire half to make sure.
It looks like your last hope for this round is the Sea King croquettes.
Plucking one up with your fingers, you cut your teeth through the crispy, golden breading. The meaty interior strikes your tongue and your intake of breath is sudden, your free hand curling into a tight fist underneath the table.
It tastes good.
All three of them are really good.
This is horrible.
When Sanji drops off your entrées, you hardly realize that he’s there, too engrossed in the scent and the sight and the taste of the food.
“I hope the appetizers were to your liking?”
Sanji somehow gets the hint when you stab your fork into the Sambasian crab-stuffed salmon. He clears his throat and leaves you to your own devices.
You eat, and with each bite, your frustration mounts.
The Sambasian crab-stuffed salmon is flaky and succulent, the potatoes roasted to crisp skin and creamy flesh. The chickpea stew sits hot in your mouth and fills your nose with a parade of fragrant spices. It tastes amazing soaked into the bread rolls. Nothing is undercooked, or overcooked, or sloppily presented. Everything is just right. Just perfect.
You spend what feels like hours in the mouth of the booth, tasting, writing, crossing out, agonizing. The sounds of the Baratie die out until all you can hear is the scratching of pen against paper and your own breathing and pulse.
No, no, no, no.
It’s … it’s impossible. Any complaint you have is simply an expression of your own personal preferences, and your personal preferences don’t mean shit.
Your writing utensil is nearly buckling under the pressure by the time Sanji comes around for the nth time, and you’re just about ready to skewer him with it along with whoever else has the luck to wander too close.
“Are you interested in dessert, madam?”
“Of course I am,” you grit out.
All you’re met with is that damned smile of his. “Wonderful. Here’s our dessert menu.” He holds it out and you snatch it from him. “Someone with such a sweet face deserves something just as sweet.”
You snap the menu shut.
“Surprise me.”
Sanji blinks while you glare up at him, handing the menu back.
“… Pardon, madam?”
“I want the famed sous chef of the Baratie to prepare a dessert for me,” you say evenly. “I don’t care what it is or how long it takes. Surprise me.”
“I … of course.” He straightens up, the most serious you’ve ever seen him this entire evening. “Whatever you want.”
You wait.
The sous chef returns, not even an hour later, with a white ceramic bowl in hand and none other than the owner of the Baratie stomping after him.
“Your dessert, madam,” Sanji says, though a bit hurriedly. “Rice pudding with mango –”
He’s interrupted by Zeff, who grabs him by the back of his collar much like one would do to an errant cat. You raise your eyebrows, watching Sanji’s expression immediately wrinkle into one of annoyance.
“Little eggplant, you stop and listen when I’m talking to you.”
“Are you serious, old man? I’m in the middle of –”
“I told you that you’re off the line. No customer can change that, no matter who they are.” Zeff casts you a wayward glance and frowns before dragging Sanji back towards the kitchen. “We’re gonna have a little chat, you and me.”
Despite his bitter protesting, Sanji leaves your table with Zeff, and you’re left with your final course and the curious eyes of several diners.
“What are you looking at?” you bark at them, and they quickly go back to their meals.
You look down at your dessert. There’s a sprinkling of cinnamon on the surface, and it’s crowned with bright, paper-thin slices of mango, but rice pudding is so … simple. You’re almost insulted. But you are also surprised, and that is what you asked for.
Scooping up a bit of the pudding, you place it into your mouth, closing your eyes.
Two seconds later, you slam your spoon onto the table and stand up.
You can feel the sturdiness of the kitchen’s doors when you fling them open, your gaze immediately falling upon a mop of blond hair in the corner.
Heading straight towards him, you seize the front of Sanji’s well-pressed shirt and drag his face close to yours.
“What did you put in it?!”
Your shriek explodes through the noise of the kitchen staff. Sanji stares at you with wide eyes and oddly reddening cheeks.
“In the pudding?” he asks, bewildered. “Not much, really. Glutinous rice, coconut milk, salt –”
“Goddammit.” You shove him away and dig your nails into the back of your neck, chest and throat tightening. You can feel your breaths beginning to quicken and your eyes starting to sting. “Shit. Shit.”
“Whoa, whoa, whoa”—Sanji puts a hand on your shoulder and it burns—“sweetheart, what’s wrong –”
“Where does that back door lead to?”
“Er, a dock? We take smoke breaks –”
“Excuse me.”
Shaking him off and pushing past him, you head straight to the door, open it, and close it behind you.
And then you scream.
Gods, you’re fucking ruined. You’re a fucking failure. Your parents were right, Claudie was right, you can’t do this and you could never do this and now you’re at the back of the East Blue’s only five-fucking-star restaurant having an emotional breakdown over eating food.
You scream until your voice breaks, until you’re left kneeling and gasping for breath on the filthy, wet dock.
You cough. Cinnamon lingers in the back of your throat, and you start crying.
Behind you, the door creaks open.
"[Y/n]?"
“Please don’t let my family hear about this,” you burst out without even turning to look at Sanji. “I’ll pay whatever amount you want.”
“Nobody’s going to be saying anything.” You feel him approaching, and then he drops down to sit next to you. “However, I’m very concerned about you. What’s got you so upset?”
“Why do you care?”
“A lovely lady such as yourself shouldn’t have to suffer alone.”
“Oh, please.” You hug your knees to your chest. But Sanji doesn’t leave, and after a few minutes, the words fall unbidden from your mouth, having nowhere else to go. “… I wasn’t assigned to come here.”
“Hm?”
“My family”—you swallow the lump in your throat—“they don’t know I’m here. I came here to write a review on the Baratie and get a … get a star taken away.”
Gods. That sounds so fucking stupid now. What is wrong with you?
“You did?” Sanji sounds baffled. “How come?”
A wet laugh crawls out between your teeth. “You’re the only restaurant my parents have ever given five stars to, you know that, right? So I figured – I-I figured if I could find out something wrong with the Baratie, they’d realize how good I can be at this job. I’m good at finding flaws. I’m good at details. This should’ve been … I should’ve found something.” You glare down at your lap. “But I couldn’t. Not even in the stupid dessert you made.”
“Oh.” A moment of silence occurs in which you can practically hear him gather his thoughts. “… I suppose I can take that as a compliment,” he says slowly, crossing his legs. “But is that really how you see food? Something to find fault in?”
“It’s something to evaluate. I’m a critic. It’s what I’ve always wanted to be.”
“But do you enjoy it?”
You frown, sniffling. Your brow furrows.
You want to tell him that it’s a stupid question. Why would you need to enjoy food? It’s work. You feel accomplished after finding the right words for a dish’s unique flavor, feel determined when you comb through the items on a menu. You feel delighted when you find something wrong with it.
But you …
“No,” you realize. “I … don’t.”
“I see. Well, I’m not one to tell you how to think,” Sanji says, “but as a cook, I believe that food’s one of the pleasures and privileges of being alive. As a critic, why deny yourself of its full potential?”
“I … I don’t know,” you whisper.
And the thought occurs to you, like a bottle that had been floating out at sea for years finally washing ashore, that you hate what your life has become.
“I don’t know.”
You can’t help it. You let out a loud sob, your head hanging down and bumping against Sanji’s arm. He doesn’t hesitate to wrap you in a tight hug.
It’s the first hug you’ve had in a very, very long time.
“I’m so sick of this,” you croak, face hot with shame and humiliation. “I’ll never be good enough for them. Ever.”
“They don’t deserve you.”
“But they’re my family.”
He rests his chin on your head. “A family who hurts you this much isn’t much of a family at all,” he murmurs.
His words are like a hot knife to the throat. What follows is cold, awful, bitter relief.
You force your eyes shut. Your arms tighten desperately around him, and you curl up, a pathetic excuse of a person in a crumpled heap on a dirty dock.
So this is you, you think. A purposeless silver spoon, miserable and starved for affection, clinging to a complete stranger outside the best restaurant in the East Blue.
It feels better to lay everything bare, actually.
“I can’t go back,” you tell him hoarsely.
“We won’t let anything get out.”
“The staff won’t, but you can’t do anything about the customers.” Reluctantly, you pull away, taking a deep breath and wiping your eyes. Clarity comes with it, hard and heavy. “But you know what? I don’t care anymore. I quit.”
“Quit?”
“Yeah.”
Reaching up, you close your hand around the small family crest resting just below your collarbone. You hesitate for just a moment, then tug sharply, and the thin chain around your neck snaps. Beads of gold glint in the sunlight as you look at it.
Yeah. Fuck it.
Winding your arm up, you fling the necklace as far as you can into the dark sea. It barely makes a splash as it hits the surface and disappears from sight.
“Good throw,” Sanji compliments.
“Thank you.”
He grins at you crookedly, and you finally return it, the last of your tears squeezing out from the motion and dripping down your cheeks.
Gentle fingers touch your chin. You let Sanji turn your face towards him, and the corner of his mouth tilts up as he takes a handkerchief out of his pocket and wipes the rest of the wetness from your cheeks and nose.
“There,” he says once he’s finished. “Now I can see your pretty face better.”
(You wonder how the world ever produced someone so kind.)
“I’m sorry, Sanji,” you say, “for being such an ass to you earlier.”
“Please don’t worry about it. It was my pleasure to serve you.”
“No, really. I grabbed you. I’ve never done anything like that before, and I feel awful about it.”
“I really didn’t –”
“Please,” you plead.
Sanji bites his lip, holding your gaze for a moment, then sighs. “All right. If it’ll make you feel better, I accept your apology,” he acquiesces. His expression softens. “And if you really have nowhere to go,” he offers more quietly, “the Baratie will gladly welcome you.”
Your lungs feel a bit emptier than usual.
“Thank you,” you somehow manage to say. “I’ll consider your offer.”
Your sudden formality seems to amuse him. He raises an eyebrow. “Oh, consider it? Anything I can do to sweeten the deal?”
His voice dips at the end, a sort of low and raspy thing, and you learn that it is much, much worse than being winked at.
You swallow and turn your head away. “T-Tell me the rest of the ingredients for your rice pudding,” you mutter.
“Join the Baratie and I’ll show you how to make it.”
“What? You’re turning it around on me.”
Sanji merely laughs in response, the corners of his eyes crinkling. Despite your embarrassment, you eventually find yourself chuckling along, and the sounds bloom together, so different yet so complementary. It’s nice, laughing with someone. You enjoy it.
Perhaps this is what food is supposed to bring, you think, this same, small, strange moment of peace and satisfaction.
You hope so.
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