#cdd community

[the-habitat-sysblog]

shout-out to people who fit the demonised DID stereotypes seen in movies & other media:

if you have violent &/or aggressive alters, i love you.

if you have complete blackout amnesia between alters, i love you.

if you have little to no communication between alters, i love you.

if your switches are overt & "distressing to witness", i love you.

if you've ever been called "scary", a "freak", or even "evil" for how your DID presents, i love you so much.

your experiences are real. you do not have to sugar-coat your disorder to make it more palatable for others. your brain helped you survive as best it could, so i hope you will find peace & healing when the worst is over. 🤍

#i say DID because media rarely talks about other CDDs #but of course other CDDs are included<3 #blurry❔.txt #; #🤍 #💬 #[ #did positivity #traumagenic did #did system #did osdd #actually did #actually dissociative #traumagenic system #actually traumagenic #cdd #sysblr #system #cdd community #system stuff #ableism #endos dni #]

[councilsys]

system ask game for traumagenic systems <3

I: basics

❤️ - what type of CDD do you have?

🧡 - are you medically recognised/diagnosed? if not, do you plan to? (no judgement either way!)

💛 - if you are comfortable sharing, what is your headcount? do you keep track of it?

💚 - do you have a high or low split tolerance?

💙 - do you switch frequently or do you go longer periods between switching?

💜 - does your system have introjects of any kind?

🩷 - do you have any subsystems?

II: alters

🎥 - who are your frequent fronters?

📼 - do you have any non-human alters? if yes, which species are the majority of them?

🎞️ - do the alters in your system use more medical coined roles or more community coined roles? or both/neither? do you find them useful?

📽️ - are the alters in your system more distinct or less distinct from each other?

📺 - do you make/buy gifts to other alters in the systems?

🎙️ - does the taste in music vary a lot between different alters?

📻 - does your system have any type of in system relationships? (familial, romantic, platonic etc.)

III: switching

☀️ - how much amnesia do you experience?

🌙 - do you experience black out amnesia?

⚡️ - what does switching feel like for you? does it vary between alters?

☄️ - do you experience quick switches or does it take longer to switch usually?

🌈 - do you get frontstuck often? what do you do to try to get ‘un-stuck’?

☁️ - do you ever not notice you’ve switched, and suddenly realise that ‘you haven’t been you’ for a while?

💦 - can you switch ‘on command’ or is that something that is hard for your system? does it depend on the alter?

IV: headspace

🌱 - do you have a headspace? if yes, describe it! if no, do you want one?

🌿 - how easily accessed is your headspace?

☘️ - is there a place in your headspace where dormant alters go?

🌳 - do alters have their own rooms/areas in your headspace?

🌵 - is your headspace big, or smaller? is it complex/less complex?

🍃 - do you have specific alters that cannot access headspace at all?

🪴 - did you have to build your headspace over time, or was it just there?

V: general

🍭 - how did you pick your system name?

🍪 - do you have a collective name/identity/orientation? if yes, how did your system make those decisions?

🍬 - what’s the funniest thing another alter has said to you? (internally or externally communicated)

🍫 - how does your system handle in system disagreements in general?

🧁 - is there anyone specific in your system you don’t get along with?

🍰 - are you ‘out’ as a system to anyone? (online friends/partners etc. count!)

🍦 - how good is your communication with the rest of the system? does it vary much between different alters?

🍡 - are different alters part of different subcultures? which ones? (we are!)

remember that this is just for fun, and if anything feels invasive you do not have to answer the question! feel free to replace any question with a fun fact about your system or anything if you don’t feel like answering something! take care🫶🏻

#also this was done quickly so if any questions are weirdly worded or something that’s why! #endos dni #non traumagenic dni #did osdd #polyfrag did #actually dissociative #dissociative identity disorder #dissociative system #actually did #actually traumagenic #actuallydissociative #system ask game #ask game #cdd system #actually cdd #cdd community #cdd #complex dissociative disorder

[delphientropy]

mmm another term...behe

THIS TERM CAN NOT BE USED OR CLAIMED BY ENDOS, THIS IS AN ANTI-ENDO/NONTRAUMAGENIC TERM >:/

edit: since i saw a pro endo reblog and passive aggressively say that they "aren't going past thr boundry" and tagging this as syscourse, PRO ENDOS CANNOT USE THIS TERM. youre on our DNI anyway???? fuck off.

keyhost

term and flag made by me!

a keyhost is a host in which they are the "main alter" and rarely can leave front. oftentimes whenever they do leave they always come back in a short amount of time, as if they are bound to the front room/control room. this is similar to being permanently frontstuck, though not quite.

other alters tend to have to control the body through the keyhost, so outwordly it can seem like the keyhost is doing or saying something, when really it is another alter.

without key symbol

i havent seen any terms like this, other than an antiendo one that has some similarities so i made my own thing! tell me if this has already been done aha..

#osdd #did osdd #osddid #did system #did #osdd system #pdid system #actually did #system #pdid #actually pdid #system terms #system flag #did flag #osdd flag #udd #cdd system #cdd community

[littlest-bugz]

How it feels when you split off an introject of a character you have a hyperfixation on

#littlest_bugz og #me with kinitopet #i just think hes neat #system stuff #system #dissociative identity disorder #did #did system #traumagenic system #didosdd #did community #did osdd #cdid #cdid system #cdd system #cdd community #actually cdd #actually did #actually dissociative #<- The actually tags are not for being gatekeepy and are just for reach iykwim #system things #dissociative system #system memes #osdd system #osddid #osdd #did memes #polyfrag did #polyfrag system #polyfragmented

[sys-polls]

- finn & ill.

#finn🍄.txt #illonya🍷.txt #• [system polls] • #( #cdd #cdd community #endos dni #sys polls #system stuff #traumagenic system #tulpas dni #did system #system #)

[jokestersinmyhead]

DID/OSDD can be so utterly frustrating because we'll be blurry and dizzy at work all day and exhausted only for the alter who is constantly restless and angry to front at the end of the day so the body gets no rest whatsoever and everyone ends up just feeling worse. Like idk I guess I just wanna say that alters often will front at really inconvenient times and systems don't usually just work seamlessly and perfectly

#blurry #did osdd #traumagenic did #did system #actually did #actually dissociative #traumagenic system #actually traumagenic #cdd #sysblr #system #cdd community #system stuff #endos dni

[chaos-in-one]

One thing I wish was talked about a little bit more in CDD spaces is how these disorders can make it harder to maintain close relationships. How they can make it way easier to drift apart from people.

Sometimes amnesia barriers can cause people to not remember people well or even at all, which can cause a huge rift in a friendship or even a relationship.

Sometimes the alters/parts/etc. that were attached or close to someone stop frequently fronting for a variety of reasons. And sometimes the ones that start fronting after have emotional amnesia that causes them to not feel the same way and not really want to be around the person as much as the previous fronters did.

And yeah, that really sucks. Both for the system and the other people. It's not anyone's fault, it's a part of how CDDs function sometimes. But it does make it a lot easier for people with CDDs to end up isolated and/or lonely. And I wish that effect was talked about more.

#amnesia barriers suck #cdd system #cdd community #dissociative disorder #dissociative amnesia #actually dissociative #did #osdd #did osdd #actually plural #actually osdd

[tales-from-syscord]

Joined an endogenic server and they said in their rules "Please if you get triggered… don't … ask them to cancel conversations". The main rule was about trigger regulation but that fraise really fucking pissed me off. Because they clearly do not care about trauma survivors. It's almost like they were saying "You can be traumatised and triggers, but don't bother us with it, do it over there we want to keep doing the triggering thing so just go away" They really do not understand or care about trauma survivers.

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#tales from syscord #tales from anon #tales from the queue #low spoons no commentary #discord #anti endo #c did #community #did #endo dni #endos dni #anti endogenic #osdd #cdd #cdd community

[cdd-swag-bracket]

The Complex Dissociative Disorder Swag Bracket

A series of polls to determine who has the most Complex Dissociative Disorder swag

Complex Dissociative Disorder refers to dissociative disorders that are characterized by the presence major Identity alterations resulting in the presence of a system. It is used as a catch all for DID, OSDD-1, P-DID, and some presentations of U(S)DD.

You may ask "why specifically CDDs?"

Our answer is we like disability headcanons. If this was a system swag bracket, many of the character submission would be supernatural multiples(e.g. possession). Rather than disability headcanons or characters that have a CDD in canon.

Character Submission

Submission rules (submissions are closed for now)

-They have to be a character. So no celebrities, friends, some guy from down the street, ETC.

-Both characters that have a CDD in canon, and headcanons are allowed -The character does not have to be good representation

-You may submit as many characters as you would like. However if you are not submitting multiple character as being part of the same system, they must be submitted separately.

-If you want to submit characters as being part of the same system they have to be from the same media. Sorry.

-Some degree of supernatural nature of experiences is fine. Particularly if it's considered very normal for the world the character is from.

-Submitting your own OCs is not allowed. You can submit characters are not well-known, but they cannot be made by you.

-Please give actual reasons for why you think the character has a CDD in the explanation section. So no "I don't know just vibes" or "because they are in our system" or anything like that can't be your only reason.

-You do not need to have a CDD yourself to submit a character.

General rules

-Don't be an asshat

-If you bring up "syscourse" here we will block you. This not the fucking place for that.

#cdd swag bracket #cdd system #cdd community #actually cdd #did osdd #dissociative system #disability headcanon #neurodivergent #osddid #osdd system #did system #Complex Dissociative Disorder #system stuff #sysblr

[the-habitat-sysblog]

guy who has the doesn't-feel-real disorder: idk why but i don't feel real :-(

guy who has the major-memory-loss disorder: idk it just feels like there's a gap where yesterday is supposed to be :-( weiird

guy who has the different-person-every-hour disorder: woa h guys idk why i said that yesterday that doesn't rly sound like me :-(

DID: the disorder you know you have but it still surprises you every time! only $9,99 (childhood not included)

#i am so blurry i am losing my sense of reality #let's shitpost about it! #blurry❔.txt #; #💬 #[ #did system #actually traumagenic #cdd #cdd community #traumagenic system #system #system stuff #sysblr #system parts #amnesia #dissociative amnesia #dissociative system #actually dissociative #dissociative identity disorder #dissociation #]

[thecoffeecrew404]

Would anyone be wanting to be friends on SimplyPlural?

If you send a friend request, just put in the description you're from Tumblr

For the comfort for people in system, only friend if CDD (traumagenic) please

SP; GoldenError404

#simply plural #cdd system #actually cdd #cdd community #did system #actually did #did osdd #osdd system #actually osdd #osdd #osddid #osdd 1b #osdd 1a #usdd #☕️tcc ;; talks #☕️tcc ;; posts

[delphientropy]

i am thankful so much for my boyfriend. ive been getting such awful imposter syndrome lately and god i love him so much hes the best at reassuring me

"were ___ and ___ even real...?"

"i sure hope theyre real. they felt real. they all did. they all acted different from you"

stop making me SOB in a GOOD WAY im gonna GET YOU/dir

hes so sweet. hes so patient with me god hes so perfect i love him so much i want to cuddle up to him and fall asleep in his arms rn 💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔 but he is cursed with FAR AWAY

#osdd #osddid #did osdd #did system #did #osdd system #pdid system #system #actually did #pdid #cdd system #actually cdd #cdd community #dni endos #endos do not interact #endos fuck off #endos dni #anti endo

[7grandyears]

i wanted to share something new we're doing to attempt to increase communication.

personally our alters are in pretty divided groups and usually stick to only those groups for everything which causes some issues with communication; these groups never really talk to or interact each other even if something's up. also we spend a lot of our time doing jack shit nothing and we are trying to not sit around all day lol. we're just using this for Our Situation(tm), but i think this could help other systems who would like to have alters interact more in general.

teams of alters are created. these teams can choose their team names, like so:

then, a list is set up of activities or daily tasks. the most important part is that double points are given when collaborating (whether that be with co-consciousness, co-fronting, some form of passive influence, etc.)

you can choose to tally up points weekly, monthly, etc. "winners" can be determined at the end of these periods, and "prizes" can be given out to winning teams (although, i think it would be nice to reward everyone for making an effort :) )

#dia.txt #did osdd #osddid #cdd community #cdd system #dissociative identity disorder

[littlest-bugz]

Resolution ; A Sigh Of Relief

a [polyfrag] DID system's experience with resolution (functional multiplicity)

please do not bring syscourse to this post. this post is about our own personal healing journey and is not intended as advice or professional info

TWs: Isolation [heavy], abuse [heavy but not in depth], self harm mention [brief], suicidality mention [brief], unsure of other triggers

In Mid June of 2022, I was diagnosed with DID for the first of two times. Flashback to 2021. I had been in and out of therapy, in my teen years, but after researching my symptoms to try and find a proper care plan for my mental health, I ended up self diagnosing myself with BPD. The view I have always had on therapy and self diagnosis is that it doesn't take a real diagnosis to get the help you need, just use the resources that help you regardless, so I wasn't really hesitant to self diagnose myself [after research obvs]. After i self dx, I decided I would find a trauma informed DBT therapist, since I saw DBT mentioned often as treatment for people with BPD. After a while of researching, I found exactly that in my first therapist as a young adult. She was an amazing mental health professional tbh. She taught me skills that still have use today, and helped me grow, so so much. However, a year into therapy, she asked me to consider the possibility of having DID, and she asked me to reach out to my [potential] alters just to see what would happen. Ofc, I did exactly that. I made a dinky little journal for anyone to write in, as long as they used a sign off or different colored pen. That was when the flood gates opened, alters expressing themselves in the journal, and system awareness was achieved for the second time in our system's history.

Yes, you heard me, for the second time.

The first time system discovery starts for us actually starts sometime in October of 2016 [when I was 12-13]. It was the peak of my abuse, and because of that, I attempted to create an imaginary friend to have someone who knew me, just,,, period tbh. I wanted someone to know me down to my own memories because I was afraid of being alone, and I was tired of having my trauma further ignored and disregarded, even encouraged, by the adults in my life.

I was a deeply, deeply isolated kid, and had no one in my life i could trust or depend on until I was into my late teen years. I didn't have any real friends [and was, instead, abused by my peers], didn't have a family that actively cared about me, the church i was going to had and was abusing me profoundly, and the partner I had treated me like less than human. It was abuse coming from all angles, all facets, of my life. I could not escape the abuse no matter where I turned, so I turned inwards. I wanted someone, anyone who could understand me and listen, especially someone who knew what was happening to me for a fact and wouldn't gaslight every experience I had.

That's when I ''created'' 💙, but mind you, I didn't actually create him. He was, actually, his own whole dude before I ''created'' him, and he was NOT someone who would comfort me gently like I had wanted him to be. He was, instead, a sarcastic, blunt guy who only comforted me when things got actively tough. At that time, he had even fronted more than once to prevent stupid decisions I did, and it actually marked the first period of concerning black out amnesia. HOWEVER, through ''creating'' 💙, I got in contact with more of our system members [specifically 🎸,🧣,🌵 and 💤, who all are active members to this day, still fronting from time to time]. Our communication flourished back then, and everything was well documented, down to journal entries I had written about 💙's ''creation''. We had drawings and journals, which were all thrown away or deleted in 2019.

Speaking of, our communication with the system fell apart in 2019, shortly after the body's birthday [which is usually very traumatic for our system]. It was a complete host change brought on by the CEO of our system that ruined communication. It left that new host, 🐛. Confused, and without any memory of our life before then, 🐛 forgot everything about the system. Literally down to the name of 💙. All communication was cut, and all prior knowledge of our system was disposed of because our journals and drawings were thrown out by an alter who was heavily influenced by the CEO. CEO did not want us to know we were a system, and he had been dormant for years at that point. At least until he [somehow] got triggered and saw what was going on. 🐛 was the alter that later got in contact with everyone in 2021 and got us diagnosed the first time. Thankfully, the supposed creation of 💙 was what made communication pick up again smoothly, and we were, once again, a tightknit group of alters sharing a body. We're still like that, for the most part.

Our upbringing heavily impacted how we go about our recovery process, and how we will continue to recover. So when we entered therapy with a DID specialist, we had already radically accepted our systemhood after being diagnosed once. We have a very much 'your opinion of me doesn't matter to me' type of thinking, at least in regards to anyone other than a medical professional. Ofc, DID specialist was like 'yeah, I can tell lol' and diagnosed me shortly thereafter. After being diagnosed with DID a second time by the specialist, we were asked what path in recovery we wanted, and to think and talk about amongst ourselves. The big question every recovering system faces. Did we want to pursue final fusion or not?

Overwhelmingly for our system, we wanted to aim for resolution [aka functional multiplicity]. HOWEVER, there is nothing wrong with final fusion. A lot of people actually fear monger about it amongst the CDD community. So let me say that again: Final Fusion is NOT a bad thing and is a valid way to recover. Just because it is not our path doesn't mean it isn't someone else's. Here are two posts that give some decent info on Final Fusion: [post one] [post two]. I can find more if need be, but that isn't what this post is about. This is simply to reaffirm that final fusion is nothing to be scared of, and a 110% valid path of recovery. Our experience doesn't align with final fusion, but since I mentioned it briefly, I thought I would talk about it for a second.

Fusion moment aside, We have, since mid 2022 for sure, felt like we don't have a solid host, and we have always felt that way because of the cycle of hosts. The body holds a good number of us, that's for sure, and because of how many of us there are, we have no solid one host. There are frequent fronters, sure, but nobody is a host in the traditional, typically talked about sense. For this reason, we feel that we have no core alter [which we don't, unsurprisingly], and we found it unfair to each other that we take away our freedom to express ourselves as alters. Like yeah, we are parts of a whole, but there was never a 'core' individual. There was never an 'original'. We were pretty much destined to form DID. It is what it is, but because of that, we feel we don't have an alter from which all the others split from. I'm just a collective of parts that never even had the chance to connect to each other. Most of us feel so individual from each other because we were a highly partitionary system with no memory sharing or knowledge of each other. I honestly think if what happened in 2016 didn't happen, I would've only known my system through the 2021 diagnosis, and it would not have been as easy to pick communication back up. Things are wildly different now in regards to amnesiac barriers, but when we did find each other, we were our own people expressing ourselves through different [covert] means.

Due to feeling so separated and individualistic, Resolution was, ultimately, the best decision for our system, and since having made this decision and began recovery, our life has actually become something worth living, if that makes sense. I mean Internally and mentally. We function together as a team, and it's a great thing to witness tbh. It's taken a lot of hard work with a lot of disagreements in system, but for a life time ahead of me, it's worth it. I'm finally starting to love all of me, all of us. It's been hard, so incredibly hard, and we still don't always get along. There are still disagreements, votes that spark heated discussions, but that's just what happens when you're sharing a body with so many folks.

Of course, u see me use I/Me pronouns because we all acknowledge the body and the role it has in our collective life. When I say I, when I say me, it is the acknowledgement of the body's role in our life. The Body is the part of us that makes us whole, what we live through, and what makes us a team and family [in-sys family members at least because as a whole we don't see each other as family]. We are so incredibly grateful for the body and the collective Identity we live through. It is a sigh of relief to finally have come this far into our healing where things are finally getting better for us. I'm healing all parts of me, and I am authentically myself by being a system. We love the life we live finally. Even if we're still living with abusers, we know that once we're out of here, it's the final step to our trauma recovery and what will make us free to be ourselves.

Trauma is bound to happen again in my lifetime, re-traumatization will happen too. I'm young [for an adult at least], and, like I mentioned briefly, I'm still in an abusive situation. For this reason, we are learning to cope with day to day stress, as well as preparing our coping tool box for future traumas. At this stage in our healing, we have attained near entire co-consciousness, and have learned to share daily and important memories or notes from alter to alter, subsystem to subsystem. Sometimes its just one fronter and the CEO or the whole Crew and Co., yet CEO makes sure things get to everyone. No longer do we live our day to day confused on what's happened, what our past is and who we are, if we've eaten, taken our meds, showered, if we have an appointment ect. Now when switches happen, things are not confusing, and smooth with no sort of amnesiac barrier. Afterall, a good 97% of us are co-con in some capacity, and even then, we're able to memory share day to day memories. It's like whoever is best equipped to deal with a situation fronts.

Some of us don't want to share our trauma memories with each other entirely due to it's intensity, so we instead talk about it amongst ourselves and make peace with our trauma that way [with the help of our therapist]. It's like group therapy lol. Most of us are just content with the knowledge of not fully knowing everything, and having worked in trauma recovery for years now, our past traumas affects our day to day a lot less [any disruptions now are from the collective disorders we have and our living situation]. The peace that comes from being okay with not knowing is relieving, and the alters who hold the bulk of the trauma have started to work through their traumas.

Sharing trauma memories in our system can cause body and other kinds of flashbacks, panic and extreme distress, and can even trigger self harm and suicidality in some of our alters. Almost always, with trauma memories, its more than one alter getting triggered. I like to think of it like sculk sensors from Minecraft [minecraft moment]. When one is triggered, nearby alters in front and co-con get triggered like a wave effect, but it has a lot to due with similar types of traumas or being fragments of the same trauma. It doesn't stop it from happening. What we've done is worked on helping trauma holders cope and making them 'unstuck' in the trauma. Memory Sharing with trauma was once, and still is to an extent, dangerous for us, but the memory sharing via talking with each other, rather than give up the memories themselves, has caused us to even out and begin to work through the actual trauma, work through everything we have been through. It may sound flawed, but it works for us.

After having achieved a grasp on resolution, we've taken notice to our collective disorders and experiences, like our psychosis symptoms [from an unknown origin] and OCD. A lot of what we thought were persecutors ended up being our OCD, so things got quieter in that way. This helped us to work on those mental health problems and cultivate a further sense of peace. We also were able to start to work on other therapy methods that cater to our flavor of personality disorder. Achieving Resolution to even the degree we have has been phenomenal, and it only gets better from here once we reach full resolution.

None of this is to say resolution will or should be your path in healing, so please take what I say with a grain of salt. This is our experience with our healing journey, and nothing is the same from CDD system to CDD system. I just wanted to post and ramble about my progress because I am proud of myself and our progress!!! Obviously, I am not a representative for anyone other than myself. It's just so nice to be able to actually see my progress, see our progress. I also feel like I don't see many people talk about late stage DID recovery in any way, resolution or final fusion. Honestly, its even nice to just label our progress as being in late stage recovery. I'm glad to be me, as a system, while also dancing my way down the path of healing [lol].

Not sure if anyone is curious, but I'm always open to answering questions about my experiences with resolution as a polyfrag DID system. nothing intrusive about trauma, but I'm down to talk about the aspects of resolution and stuff. Just know I'm not a psychiatrist or other professional, and I don't speak for any other system but my own.

#littlest_bugz og #system posting #system stuff #system #dissociative identity disorder #did #did system #traumagenic system #didosdd #did community #resolution #osddid #did osdd #did stuff #dissociative system #traumagenic #recovery #did recovery #osdd did #traumagenic did #cdd system #cdd community #sysblr #system things #healing #healing journey #self reflection #mental health #actually did #actually dissociative

[444meat]

do any other cdd system hosts (?) experience way worse identity issues than the majority of the alters in the sys. i assume this is not a weird experience i just don't know many other systems.

like i think we have multiple hosts but i'm one of the main ones and the one using the body's name, and i also never know shit about myself. i don't know how i act or what my personality or likes or dislikes are. i don't know how i feel about people we know. most of the time when i'm fronting i don't realise it's me, or the fact that it's me feels distant, or i don't know who i am at all.

i don't know very much about my system. i do know that many of the alters i am aware of don't have this problem. they know who they are and when they're fronting; they have pretty concrete identities and visualisations of themselves; these identities and visualisations are stable over time. sometimes i am literally jealous of this

meanwhile i feel like i'm a feather floating in the wind. i'm just some guy. i can't identify my emotions. i get stressed out thinking about my identity. i'm just tired all of the time. most of the time i try not to think about the fact that i am an alter who is fronting because it just feels so weird.

i feel like as the host i should be functional in some sense, like i'm meant to be an ANP right? but i feel like im not. at all. even beyond the things that disable all of us, like our mental conditions and physical disability, i just feel so much more directionless and emotionally exhausted than plenty of other alters. i feel like they have jobs to do and i dont. im just some fucking guy Idk what's going on in here. it sucks

✂️.

#systuff #mental health #words #did #osddid #did system #sysblur #dissociative identities #dissociative identity disorder #cdd #complex dissociative disorder #cdd community #✂️