#actually cdd

[unstablemotions]

Hey, you! You who suspect you might have PTSD, DID or another trauma disorder, but you think you didn't experience trauma "bad enough" to have developed a mental disorder from it? Let me suggest looking at it differently:

"If there's smoke, there's fire"

Do you experience symptoms of PTSD, such as hypervigilance, trouble sleeping, flashbacks, memory problems, dissociation, ect? Then yes, it was "bad enough". Maybe you don't remember anything "really bad" happening or you don't "feel like" it affects you, but listen to your body. The body remembers and the body doesn't care if you think it is "stupid" or "weak" to have a panic attack when someone touches you or that you still have nightmares about that thing you saw when you were 4 years old

Trauma isn't what happened. Trauma is the reaction to what happened. So what I'm trying to say is that if the reason you think you can't have PTSD/DID/OSDD/ect is because you didn't go through anything horrific enough for that, then maybe forget about what happened to you for a moment and just look at the evidence your body and mind are showing. And then, most importantly, be compassionate with yourself. You're going through a lot and it's gonna be okay in the end. Take it easy, okay? <3

#posting now instead of forgetting it in a draft per usual #actually traumatized #actually ptsd #actually did #actually cptsd #actually cdd #actually osdd #actually dissociative #actuallytraumatized #actuallyabused #actuallydissociative #actuallydid #actuallycdd #actuallyptsd #actuallycptsd #actuallyosdd #personal #my posts

[chemicalcarousel]

It's fucking funny when you start to notice the "tells" of certain alters, such as speech patterns, posture, voice pitch, accent, hand gestures, ect.

Like "wait a minute... why am I fucking man spreading like a fucking clown.... oh.... oh it's him."

#idk if this makes sense lol #ours #actuallydid #actually did #actuallyosdd #actuallypdid #actually cdd #actuallycdd #actuallydissociative #actually pdid #actually osdd #actually dissociative #did things #did stuff #cdd things #cdd stuff

[councilsys]

system ask game for traumagenic systems <3

I: basics

❤️ - what type of CDD do you have?

🧡 - are you medically recognised/diagnosed? if not, do you plan to? (no judgement either way!)

💛 - if you are comfortable sharing, what is your headcount? do you keep track of it?

💚 - do you have a high or low split tolerance?

💙 - do you switch frequently or do you go longer periods between switching?

💜 - does your system have introjects of any kind?

🩷 - do you have any subsystems?

II: alters

🎥 - who are your frequent fronters?

📼 - do you have any non-human alters? if yes, which species are the majority of them?

🎞️ - do the alters in your system use more medical coined roles or more community coined roles? or both/neither? do you find them useful?

📽️ - are the alters in your system more distinct or less distinct from each other?

📺 - do you make/buy gifts to other alters in the systems?

🎙️ - does the taste in music vary a lot between different alters?

📻 - does your system have any type of in system relationships? (familial, romantic, platonic etc.)

III: switching

☀️ - how much amnesia do you experience?

🌙 - do you experience black out amnesia?

⚡️ - what does switching feel like for you? does it vary between alters?

☄️ - do you experience quick switches or does it take longer to switch usually?

🌈 - do you get frontstuck often? what do you do to try to get ‘un-stuck’?

☁️ - do you ever not notice you’ve switched, and suddenly realise that ‘you haven’t been you’ for a while?

💦 - can you switch ‘on command’ or is that something that is hard for your system? does it depend on the alter?

IV: headspace

🌱 - do you have a headspace? if yes, describe it! if no, do you want one?

🌿 - how easily accessed is your headspace?

☘️ - is there a place in your headspace where dormant alters go?

🌳 - do alters have their own rooms/areas in your headspace?

🌵 - is your headspace big, or smaller? is it complex/less complex?

🍃 - do you have specific alters that cannot access headspace at all?

🪴 - did you have to build your headspace over time, or was it just there?

V: general

🍭 - how did you pick your system name?

🍪 - do you have a collective name/identity/orientation? if yes, how did your system make those decisions?

🍬 - what’s the funniest thing another alter has said to you? (internally or externally communicated)

🍫 - how does your system handle in system disagreements in general?

🧁 - is there anyone specific in your system you don’t get along with?

🍰 - are you ‘out’ as a system to anyone? (online friends/partners etc. count!)

🍦 - how good is your communication with the rest of the system? does it vary much between different alters?

🍡 - are different alters part of different subcultures? which ones? (we are!)

remember that this is just for fun, and if anything feels invasive you do not have to answer the question! feel free to replace any question with a fun fact about your system or anything if you don’t feel like answering something! take care🫶🏻

#also this was done quickly so if any questions are weirdly worded or something that’s why! #endos dni #non traumagenic dni #did osdd #polyfrag did #actually dissociative #dissociative identity disorder #dissociative system #actually did #actually traumagenic #actuallydissociative #system ask game #ask game #cdd system #actually cdd #cdd community #cdd #complex dissociative disorder

[iwillbreakyourfuckingskull]

when the dissociative identity disorder dissociates your identity

#cant believe that this keeps happening #what utter bs #cdd alter #did alter #actuallycdd #actuallydid #did things #cdd things #did memes #cdd memes #did stuff #cdd stuff #actually did #actually cdd #levi.speaking #my.posts

[littlest-bugz]

What it feels like when one of the trauma holders experiences peace for the first time

#shout out to our trauma holders healing #its been so hard but the peace and content that comes from healing is worth it #littlest_bugz og #system posting #system #traumagenic #traumagenic did #traumagenic system #actually polyfrag #actually cdd #actually dissociative #actually did #didosdd #polyfrag did #polyfrag system #polyfragmented #dissociative identity disorder #dissociative system #osdd did #osddid #did osdd #did stuff #did memes #did system #did community #did alter

[cdd-joy]

We volunteer, and one of our coworkers is a lovely, chatty person who feels comfortable enough around us to share bits of their life and experiences, and they recently told us they're a system

They're in their mid-70s

They're married, they have kids, their partner takes care of them when they regress or switch

I know stuff can be hard and this disorder is going to affect us for the rest of our lives, but it's possible to live and be happy and functional and find people who understand and care

We get to grow old, y'all

- Sleepless sys

<3

#sleepless sys #cdd joy #; #system #traumagenic system #system stuff #did system #sysblr #osdd system #actually cdd #cdd system #osddid #endos dni #tulpas dni

[teacup-captor]

Sometimes DID is

Me: *points at box* Me: YOU'RE IN THE WAY Me: ... Me: *in British accent* we can move it.

#did #actually did #did system #osddid #actually plural #cdd system #actually cdd

[abnormal-sys-culture-is]

abnormal system culture is basically only ever experiencing nonpossessive switching and not being able to relate to how other systems describe switching, like 99% of the time we're figuring out who's fronting based on Vibes because every alter has a specific Vibe. and then it gets confusing because some alters do have a similar Vibe so it can be hard to tell which one of them is fronting. i never see anyone describe their switching or fronting experience like this and i fakeclaim myself for it a lot

!

#abnormal sys culture is #; #system #traumagenic system #system stuff #did system #sysblr #osdd system #actually cdd #cdd system #osddid #endos dni #tulpas dni

[unstablemotions]

Every book about PTSD will repeatedly mention how your personality will change after the traumatic event. How this is an indicator that you have the disorder. How this is a universal experience for everyone who suffers from post traumatic stress.

But I never got to have a life before trauma. That person was killed before they were alive. All that remains is a broken shell from where a child was ripped out with violent teeth.

I didn't change from my trauma, because I never existed before it began.

#actuallyptsd #actuallycptsd #actuallytraumatized #actuallydid #actuallycdd #actually ptsd #actually cptsd #actually traumatized #actually did #actually cdd #child abuse #actuallyabused #actually abused #childhood trauma #trauma vent #tw vent #tw child abuse #my post #personal

[delphientropy]

i am thankful so much for my boyfriend. ive been getting such awful imposter syndrome lately and god i love him so much hes the best at reassuring me

"were ___ and ___ even real...?"

"i sure hope theyre real. they felt real. they all did. they all acted different from you"

stop making me SOB in a GOOD WAY im gonna GET YOU/dir

hes so sweet. hes so patient with me god hes so perfect i love him so much i want to cuddle up to him and fall asleep in his arms rn 💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔 but he is cursed with FAR AWAY

#osdd #osddid #did osdd #did system #did #osdd system #pdid system #system #actually did #pdid #cdd system #actually cdd #cdd community #dni endos #endos do not interact #endos fuck off #endos dni #anti endo

[chemicalcarousel]

"Suffering builds character" well for me it built multiple characters who are all carrying a part of that suffering we went through, so idk man you got it kinda right ig?

#actuallydid #actuallycdd #actuallydissociative #actually did #actually cdd #actually dissociative #did memes #cdd memes #ours #yo its sof #levi here

[councilsys]

i love you polyfrag systems

i love you poly frag systems with high alter count

i love you polyfrag systems that switch often

i love you polyfrag systems that split often

i love you polyfrag systems who never truly knows who’s fronting

i love you polyfrag systems that have no clue how many parts they have

i love you polyfrag systems that have no clue how many fragments they have

i love you polyfrag systems who are constantly dissociated

i love you polyfrag systems who are constantly exhausted from being polyfrag, because we are too.

#endos dni #anti endo #polyfrag did #polyfragmented dissociative identity disorder #polyfrag #polyfragmented #actually polyfrag #polyfrag system #polyfragmented did #cdd #actually cdd #cdd system

[iwillbreakyourfuckingskull]

"I wouldn't wish that upon my worst enemy" well I fucking would

#angercore #actuallyabused #actually abused #actuallytraumatized #actually traumatized #did protector #cdd protector #actuallydid #actuallycdd #actually did #actually cdd #actuallycptsd #actually cptsd #levi.speaking #my.posts

[littlest-bugz]

How it feels when you split off an introject of a character you have a hyperfixation on

#littlest_bugz og #me with kinitopet #i just think hes neat #system stuff #system #dissociative identity disorder #did #did system #traumagenic system #didosdd #did community #did osdd #cdid #cdid system #cdd system #cdd community #actually cdd #actually did #actually dissociative #<- The actually tags are not for being gatekeepy and are just for reach iykwim #system things #dissociative system #system memes #osdd system #osddid #osdd #did memes #polyfrag did #polyfrag system #polyfragmented

[cdd-joy]

normalize DID (!!!) systems with no amnesia BETWEEN alters and shared memories but big amounts of amnesia in every day life

<3

#we're this way as well! #there's amnesia between alters for sure #but daily life amnesia is much worse for us #cdd joy #; #actually cdd #cdd system #sysblr #endos dni #traumagenic system #system #tulpas dni #did system #osdd system

[wxrmeaterz]

hey! CDD system community

lets please stop forgetting that there are different thresholds to trauma that can cause systems to develop past the age of just 9/10 (meaning into early teens)

developmental + cognitive disabilities play a big role in this too remember, as well as neurodiversity

(not low support needs audhd but those with higher support needs- i do not have the knowledge to expand on this further but will be researching more)

there is nuance here some of yall are forgetting and it excludes a lot of people

#endos dni #actually did #polyfrag did #did system #did alter #did osdd #osdd #cdd system #osddid #endos fuck off #actually cdd #actually osdd