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littlest-bugz · 2 months

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When you’re mid sentence and suddenly forget literally everything you were talking about

#for us it shows up as the AOL dial up noise #our therapist said its just a diff form of dissociation but damn blue screen moments #littlest_bugz og #did osdd #dissociative identity disorder #did #did system #cdid #cdid system #polyfrag did #pdid #osdd #osddid #system stuff #system memes #did memes #osdd memes

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lefluoritesys · 6 months

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nyctocollective · 7 months

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symptom holders don't have to be constantly, miserably affected by their symptoms (same goes for trauma holders and memories)

protectors don't have to be constantly on edge and hostile

caretakers don't have to constantly be gentle and patient

persecutors don't have to constantly hate & hurt

socializers can be bad at or avoid socializing

we are complex, we are not always the way our roles are viewed, we are also not JUST our roles in a system, we are allowed to be contradictory.

#system #actually did #cdid #did #did system #plural system #sysblr #did osdd #osdd #system positivity #system posting

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the-alice-killer · 3 months

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Advice for newer discovered systems:

A hard truth you might not want to hear: but sometimes you need to put finding things out about the system on the back burner. Sometimes you will need to just push it to the side and come back to it later. This is something I've seen other systems also express before as well.

Think you have a new alter, but you have an important school assignment to do? The alter can wait. Unless they decide to make their presence everyone's business, just leave it be and go looking for them after you do the assignment

Think you have a subsystem, but have life to be doing? You can come back to that topic when you have free time. It isn't that important at the moment

Worried because you haven't heard from an alter for awhile? Don't drop everything to try and get them to front. Just go about your day and they'll come back when they're needed

Think you're splitting? Just take some pain meds for the headache if you need and go about your day. You can figure out who split when you have more time.

Basically, don't drop everything because you want to find out about something. Don't obsess over it to the point you can't function in daily life or get stressed over it. These things will be learned when it is time. Stop trying to check all these imaginary boxes immediately.

Seriously, we've known about the system for about 4 years and we still don't know shit about how things work half the time. And we only take a look into things when we have a chance to. Our job and life are a bit more important than figuring out who the hell might be in this newly revealed layer and stuff like that. We know the time will come to learn. It just isn't right now

#alina (🦁)#did system #did osdd #did/osdd #osddid #osdd system #pdid system #pdid #polyfrag system #cdd system #cdid

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imilliehawks · 6 months

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Being a caregiver, I realized that one of the best ways to help somebody without freaking them out even more is by rephrasing your questions and offerings in a way that would give them the choice to choose. It should he obvious that when you ask, for example, "Can I give you a hug?" you are offering a choice, but that's not the case for people who are freaking out or blacking out. It's way better to ask, "Would you like me to give you a hug?" or "Do you want a hug?" instead.

Same with:

⛔️ Can I hold your hand? | ✅️ Do you want to hold my hand?/Do you want me to hold your hand?

⛔️ How can I help? | ✅️ What would you like me to do to help?

⛔️ Can I do X? | ✅️ Do you want me to do X?/Would you be okay if I did X?

⛔️ Can I see? | ✅️ Am I allowed to see?

The more you state it in the sentence that it's in the person's abilities to turn you down, the better. First sentence matters. People who are actively freaking out or blacked out would not care for a long and complicated explanation as to why you said what you said. They most likely can barely hear anything at the moment. And can barely understand anything that's happening around them.

#actually did #did system #did osdd #did #cdid system #cdid #hc did system #hc did #complex dissociative identity disorder #highly complex did #highly complex dissociative identity disorder #dissociative identity disorder #agere caregiver #age regression caregiver #sfw caregiver #caretaker #agere cg

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tomcatyowls · 1 month

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@ MINOR & ADULT Systems Still Living with Your Abusers / in an Abusive Environment — PLEASE READ IN FULL

Finding out about the inner workings of Your OSDDID when you still live with Your Abusers; is an excellent exercise in creating an inaccurate, or skewed view of yourself.

Attempting to document/detail system structures, triggers & trauma, indepth alter counts — without the help of supports like; medical professional(s) / your own place / cutting off abuser contact(s) / IRL found-family — is going to be incredibly difficult because your system is still being abused & triggered.

The combination of Your Brain & Body undergoing rapid growth changes; your system still being in a highly incognito state, and The Fact You Are Still Being Abused = You require a greater level of constant dissociative compartmentalization, and trauma responses, to survive your day-to-day.

Which makes it Damn Near Impossible to accurately assess whats going on inside; if your reaction was an fragment or an alter, if it was a cPTSD flashback, or any other Disordered Behaviours that are not indicative of OSDDID. (Psychosis, BPD states, Autism/ADHD behaviours, NPD states, etc)

Additionally; when living with your abusers, your mind is absolutely in survival mode. You are not going to accurately 100% understand when you are a different identity state VS when your having a temporary reaction to your environment. (ie; Fawn, Freeze, Flight, Fight, etc.)

Your understanding of yourself & your state of mind Will Change After Escaping your abusers/environment. EVEN IF you were able to be accurate- that is not going remain accurate.

Simply because; once you escape your Abusive Environment, your brain Will Just Start reordering its whole perception of Life & Your System, to adjust for how different life is when you are not reliant on your abusers.

Which Just to Clarify!! Ignoring this advice & and doing this the hard way; resulting in being wrong about your system- will not kill you. But like it IS a massive pain in the ass to have to choose between;

Ignoring your previous hard work & rediscover your system from scratch again

Wade up your big kid pants and start working through a swamp of teenage idiocy to find out if anything is remotely accurate to present day

Some insane mixture of the above.

The point of this is, Your DID/OSDD isn’t going to leave just because You start prioritizing Yourself.

To any Minor or Adult Systems stuck with Your Abusers, you are allowed to survive first and ask questions later. Your System means nothing if you aren’t safe enough to live as yourself- Please Prioritize Your Survival Over Understanding.

#yowling #osddid #actually dissociative #actually did #system #cdid system #did osdd #actually traumagenic #traumagenic only #sysblr #dissociative system #hc did #cdid #pdid #osdd

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sysboxes · 2 months

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[Text: This system has multiple subsystems.]

Like/Reblog if you save or use!

No alt

#userbox #this system #system #system stuff #traumagenic system #did #osdd #osddid #pdid #cdid #anti endo #endos dni #mod bugz 🐛#undescribed

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wxrmeaterz · 2 months

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throwback to when we didnt have a lot of in-system communication so the host at the time thought we all just existed in The Void

like no sweetpea thats just front , chill out u hadnt seen inner world cus u werent ready

#endos dni #did alter #polyfrag did #actually did #did osdd #cdid #cdd system #osdd #did system #osddid

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littlest-bugz · 2 months

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How I look when a trauma memory slips through to the front and suddenly it becomes common knowledge for the whole system

#littlest_bugz og #this only happened to us twice but it was the WORST #dissociative identity disorder #did system #did #cdid system #cdid #did osdd #osddid #system memes #system stuff

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lefluoritesys · 7 months

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A list of ways hosts can be hosts because a lot of systems stress about it a lot, including us:

Somebody who stays at front the most, AKA the general definition. You got somebody here who you see most often despite there being many people in the body.

Somebody who stays in the body as default. Nobody wants to front? We have a person right here.

Somebody who does school/daily tasks. Everybody else is there for backup and to fool around, and while they help out as much as they can, the host will be the person to do all the daily stuff needed to function.

Somebody who takes care of the physical body. While you have soothers and caretakers, a host can be somebody who is also a physical protector. There are systems in which alters literally cannot eat, bathe, or sometimes even walk on their own, which is when the host helps out.

Somebody who is best equipped to deal with that specific period of time. Whether the host will change when that period ends or not, there are hosts who become hosts temporarily, doesn't matter for how long. The amount of time can vary from a few days to a few years.

Somebody who manages the outside world. And no, that might not be the same as doing daily tasks and school. Whatever managing the outside world means is different for every system, and is always valid.

Somebody who's been stuck at front for an incredibly long time. Whether they are still stuck or unstuck, they can still be called hosts if they want to.

Somebody who stays being the host for sentimental reasons. Whether it be they spent a long time at front beforehand or something else, there are hosts who can stay being hosts for pure sentimentality.

Somebody who is best equipped to deal with the outside world. And again, no, that does not always mean the statements stated previously. Somebody who is best equipped to deal with the outside world may be anybody, depending ont he system's needs.

Somebody who chills at front and lets others take care of everything. Whether it be because the host is resting or not.

Somebody who wakes up in the body no matter who fell asleep in the same body before them. They might be the default, they might not be, but brain makes sure to make them switch in their sleep.

Somebody who the system decided is host, and who feels like a host. It doesn't matter how often they front, because hosts being more often than others in the body is outdated information, and a label not all systems have in the first place.

Continue the chain if you so desire.

(Note: This is not about the desire to be host or who they are as people. Hosts are still hosts if they want to be or don't want to be, whatever sexuality or race or nationality or personality, yes, however, this is all about functionality.)

-physical persecutor

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dolleyeddog · 2 months

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i feel like we don't need to keep coining new community terms for "different types" of DID. i think there being so many community terms used now rather than actual medical terms is kinda making things confusing.

i also feel like people forget DID is an actual medical diagnosis and term. you can't fit any and everything under the umbrella of DID because that's just not how it works. words mean things.

#to sum up #i wish more actual medical terms were used in this community #no hate to community made terms but theres too many #actually did #programming survivor #ramcoa #traumagenic system #cdid #hc did #ramcoa survivor #tbmc survivor #tbmc #dolleyeddog🎀

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nyctocollective · 7 months

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shout out to all the systems that formed from “unusual” trauma or trauma that's never talked about in this community - being bullied, sibling abuse or abuse from someone that's not your parent, near death experience(s), medical abuse, and anything and everything else

you're all valid. the child's brain is incredibly fragile and everyone is traumatized differently. just because your trauma wasn't from a parent, doesn't make you any less valid.

i wish more people spoke about the other sources of trauma

#actually did #cdid #did #did system #plural system #system #osdd #osdd system #osdd1 #osdd 1b #osdd 1 #did osdd #usdd #usdd system #usdd : unspecified dissociative disorder #this post is not for non traumagenic systems btw

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k9emote · 21 days

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audience test

How many disorders do you match with me

NPD

ASPD

STPD

ADHD

AUTISM

SENSORY PROCESSING DISORDER

MAN LOVING MEN (the worst one)

C-DID

C-PTSD

DYSLEXIA

LIKES PICKLES

BIPOLAR / MANIC DEPRESSION

GENERALIZED ANXIETY DISORDER

SELECTIVE MUTISM (fluctuates)

HYPER MOBILITY DISORDER

RESTLESS LEG SYNDROME

INSOMNIA

HCD (huge cock disorder. contagious so I have to be quarantined)

(all medically recognized. don't come @ me because I'm a fucked up guy) ((huge cock disorder is self diagnosed but you have to believe me))

this was actually a very vulnerable post to make but I want ableists to block me and we should not be ashamed to be disordered

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the-alice-killer · 5 months

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This is us constantly so made a userbox for it

#philip (🔋)#system userbox #userbox #did system #did osdd #did/osdd #osddid #osdd system #cdd system #cdid

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ram-like · 2 months

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caution post on ethan/dreamkingdomaine

please read the edit 2 at the bottom

a few weeks ago, in the beginning of february, ethan messaged one of my friends on tumblr to ask if he wanted to make a private discord server to talk. at this time, ethan's tumblr said he was 41 years old, which he then confirmed in a message with my friend. his (my friend's) tumblr bio says that she is an adult, but doesn't dictate his full age.

ethan messaged him on discord, again confirming that he is fourty-one, but stopped messaging & unfriended him when my friend said she was 18 & therefore they shouldn't be talking.

however, ethan then changed the age on his account to 24.

he then messaged me, asking a very similar thing, however whilst he claimed he didn't realise my friend was 18 (and in a later message, that much of the tumblr did community is <25) my age is very obviously stated in my bio (and I am 17 years old, making me a legal minor.)

ethan has not messaged any of my other friends on tumblr, who state that they are adults in their bio, & i don't know the extent to which he has interacted with members on here.

his behaviour therefore is incredibly predatory seeming, particularly the changing of his reported age, & i presume he was operating under the assumption that me and my friend didn't know each other and therefore wouldn't discuss this.

ethan's discord user ID is 339913311573245954. i advise everyone who owns or moderates a server focused on did/trauma that's available to find on tumblr to preban him, especially if there are minors in your community, and block him on tumblr. this is not the behaviour of a responsible & trustworthy adult.

* edit/note: based on the blog history, this person has likely been doing this for YEARS. there are no other accounts with that name easily identifiable online, so this tumblr is likely a burner account. they have a year long post history of disappearing for a matter of months, and then coming back to ask people to DM them or message them on discord, presumably also messaging people in a similar manner to how they are now, originally in the roleplay community but more recently in trauma communities. and a reminder that again they are lying about their age after being told it was an uncomfortable difference by a young person they were attempting to privately speak too. please watch your interactions with this person.

* edit 2: as it turns out, this person has actually been a notorious predator in roleplay communities for years, with a long history of commission fraud & repeatedly requesting nsfw or rape-based plots. here's a post about his actions: https://www.tumblr.com/traumadreaming/743234181974425600/strngher-archived-despite-having-not-posted?source=share

please bear in mind the google docs in this post are EXTENSIVE and contain triggering materials at basically all points.

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pluralcultureis · 3 months

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C-DID culture is using parts, alters, *and* fragments as language because everything is so complicated.

Like,,,,

Theres about 7+ versions of the same dude, they all identify as that single dude. They are parts of that dude.

There’s a guy whose only job is to read books, but he’s not a part of that dude, hes a fragment.

Then theres those guys who are absolutely and entirely different from that one dude, and absolutely do not identify with him. They are alters.

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#endos dni #osdd #pdid #did #did system #pdid system #osddid #actually did #traumagenic #actually dissociative #plural culture is #cdid

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