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[dolleyeddog]

As someone who is a programmed PF-DID system, we need to stop using the term HC-DID. Here’s why ⬇️

1. The system that coined the term is a groomer and is anti-semitic. There is evidence(some screenshots included below) of the MayMay system(The 20y/o coiner of the term) being sexual towards minors up to 5 years younger than them. In MayMay’s discord server, 15 year olds are allowed in NSFW channels that have sexting in them. MayMay has joked about sexually assaulting a 16 y/o. There is a 15 year old that seems to always be with MayMay, and constantly talks about interacting with MayMay in a NSFW context. Etc etc etc. There have also been screenshots of MayMay using the term “Jew” as a derogatory insult.

2. The term excludes programmed systems that do not have a highly complex case of DID Many programmed systems can not use the term “HC-DID” due to having OSDD, not having PF-DID, etc. All programmed systems have distinct differences from non-programmed systems, but programmed systems without a highly complex case of DID don’t have a straightforward term to describe their experience. I’ve seen a lot of people use the term HC-DID and programmed interchangeably, and imo that’s not fair to other survivors trying to find community.

3. You can have a highly complex case of DID and not be programmed. You can have trauma that is just as extreme as the trauma experienced by programmed systems, end up with a highly complex case of PF-DID, and not be programmed. I’ve met some non-programmed PF-DID systems with insane system structures. One system I knew was not programmed, but had hundreds of different alters, all with very specific roles, hierarchy, and layers, that all fronted to do very specific tasks. They told me they had a specific alter who fronted to wash their hands, and another specific alter who fronted to sleep on wednesdays. Their case could absolutely be considered highly complex, but again, they weren’t programmed.

4. We have terms used/created by professionals, that don’t have any of these issues. The terms mind-controlled DID (MC-DID) and Torture based mind control DID (TBMC-DID) have both been coined by professionals, can be used with other plural disorders(MC-OSDD), or to describe all plural disorders at once(MC-system), can’t be used to describe non-programmed systems, etc.

Overall, I don’t have an issue with individuals that use the term HC-DID, I just think it’s annoying that it’s the default way to say “programmed system”. I honestly think the term is a fine way to describe systems with a highly complex structure, and should still be used in that context. But if we do that, the term should be open to non-programming survivors as well. There is absolutely no reason to fight over this term. It’s really not that deep. But if you’d like to debate respectfully I am happy to.

#rb #ty for this op

[dolleyeddog]

hey, if you take any bit of system related advice to heart today, please let it be this: do not tell people the positive or negative triggers of certain alters if you do not absolutely one hundred percent trust them not to misuse that information.

#THIS. #rb

[dolleyeddog]

tbh with you guys im tired of the ramcoa tag being 99% posts about radqueers

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[dolleyeddog]

Experiences I have related to DID that I forget are literally because I have DID

- Feeling like my identity / sense of self is fluid & ever changing

- Being absolute ass at a specific thing and then being good at it later

- Thoughts / inside voices being fuzzy , distant , like a distant conversation

- Having fluctuating feelings toward friends/families/my partner

- Getting suddenly dizzy and finding it hard to move

- Realizing I’m not wearing what I originally put on

- Feeling zero emotions or feeling every possible emotion amplified 100x

- A lot more that I can’t remember right now, also because of DID

Me after realizing everything I do and feel is related to having this dissociative disorder 😦😦😦😦😦

#rb #relatable

[dolleyeddog]

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[dolleyeddog]

dating while being a programming survivor is so insanely difficult, maybe ill make a more in depth post about this later on, but it's just something that's been making my relationship harder and harder. im lucky to have a very understanding lovely partner, but it's still insanely difficult to navigate

#programming survivor #ramcoa #tbmc survivor #dolleyeddog🎀 #more personal shit #begging things to stop getting triggered

[dolleyeddog]

wait i can abuse substances instead of feeling things

#rb #substance abuse tw

[dolleyeddog]

i feel like we don't need to keep coining new community terms for "different types" of DID. i think there being so many community terms used now rather than actual medical terms is kinda making things confusing.

i also feel like people forget DID is an actual medical diagnosis and term. you can't fit any and everything under the umbrella of DID because that's just not how it works. words mean things.

#to sum up #i wish more actual medical terms were used in this community #no hate to community made terms but theres too many #actually did #programming survivor #ramcoa #traumagenic system #cdid #hc did #ramcoa survivor #tbmc survivor #tbmc #dolleyeddog🎀

[dolleyeddog]

friendly reminder that the vast majority of people who have experience in a programming/mind control setting *will not "have" any scripts* and that's okay! you don't need hyper complex programming to be valid in any way as a survivor.

it's much more likely than not to lack things like scripts because they're incredibly complex + multiply faceted which makes them very difficult to create and reinforce compared to "simpler" programs. most abusers simply don't have those resources. please don't feel invalid for not being scripted. thank you 💞

#rb

[dolleyeddog]

bruh i hate when you’re blurry and you feel like your identity is right on the tip of your tongue and you just can’t figure it out but you’re so close it’s like edging for DID

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[dolleyeddog]

I'm so tired of joining syscord servers and seeing "fusion" and "integration" and "dormancy" on blacklists. Those terms are quite literally indicative of healing. It means I'm healing and I'm not as traumatized from being thoroughly abused. Why the fuck do I need to censor my healing? Why do I need to censor when GOOD things happen to me? Fuck syscord for having this notion that fusion, integration, and dormancy are bad things

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[dolleyeddog]

controversial take of the day:

having more than one script is not common nor is it commonly practiced by programmers/abusers because it gets fucking confusing for the victim IN A DYSFUNCTIONAL WAY, not in a “oh well they wanted me to get confused!” way AND its time consuming.

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[dolleyeddog]

having short-term memory is like. this book profoundly affected me. that show bared my soul. i don’t remember a single thing about it. but it did

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[dolleyeddog]

Watch me get better *gets worse*

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[dolleyeddog]

me deleting my posts cuz my other personality saw it and didn't like it

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[dolleyeddog]

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how to look in the mirror and see the same person every time theories explained

how to look in the mirror and see the same person every time reddit

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[dolleyeddog]

people with RAMCOA trauma do not need to use the term HC-DID. we are allowed to use terms like polyfragmented and C-DID if we choose. stop trying to force the HC label on people when they don't like using it.

#ramcoa #actually did #programming survivor #traumagenic system #cdid #hc did #ramcoa survivor #tbmc #tbmc survivor #dolleyeddog🎀