#but only if u sleep over 😑

[ickymichi]

more love life updates ig

#🥁 came over bc he wanted me to cuddle n kiss his beat up face🥺🙄🙄 obv i said yes #so we’ve gone past the stage of sneaking only in his car #he was acc okay with coming to my house while my dad n brother were home #we just cuddled n fucked #then we’re talking n he was like i’m gonna have to go home #cause he wanted the ice pack for his face 🙃 #n i was like i’ll get u some frozen peas bby boy don’t worry 🥰 #but only if u sleep over 😑 #n he was like go get them bby #so u now i RAN to my freezer #n we laid there for another little while nnreggie was like 😜🥰 #we’re so cute ✌️🥰 #then he was like nah i acc have to go home #n i tried to make him stay but i did feel bad for him like #baby boy beat to shit n he just wanted a good sleep #n tbh my tiny ass single bed isn’t the best sleep #so i let him go home n he was like i’ll come over again tomorrow bby #so reggie can’t complain but like #that was such bf n gf activities reggie rlly felt loved okay #ik he a bitch but reggie will suffer later

[koshifairy]

𝐨𝐧𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐞 𝐜𝐥𝐚𝐬𝐬𝐞𝐬 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐜𝐫𝐮𝐬𝐡

kuroo, atsumu, bokuto and tsukishima having online classes with u, aka crush of them :)

imagine the we are in 2019 - 2020

𝐀𝐓𝐒𝐔𝐌𝐔

lmaooo atsumu is gonna pin ur screen and pays attention to only u

ok... discreetly trying to flirt with you...

making the face 😏 just to look hot and u fall for him... 💀

and y/n answer me is this working? 🤨

he be like ☺ seeing u

and if u smile or laugh

he is like 😁😆 !!

osamu is sending messages about this

“so simp look at ur face” *sends screenshot of atsumu*

“how can i not be? look y/n's smile!”

but after atsumu is like 😳 bc the teacher asked him something about whatever they were studying and he didn't know.

when you start talking he puts his volume at 100%. he doesn't care !

and if someone starts talking over you.. oh gosh

osamu is already waiting to see atsumu make a bad face

and trying to get back to the subject you were talking about

“sorry but y/n was talking 😑 u can continue now y/n!! 🥰”

atsumu is going to be so so so upset if dont open your camera. he likes to appreciate u :(

so open this camera y/n !

and if u aren't in the class atsumu is just going to sleep while is having class

camera off

mic off

𝐓𝐒𝐔𝐊𝐈𝐒𝐇𝐈𝐌𝐀

he is happy about online classes

now he can watch you without anyone noticing and find it weird

because c'mon if he does that everybody would notice it and thinks he has a crush on you

yamaguchi already knows tho

but he pays attention to the class !!

but he is also unable to hold himself and ends up looking at your camera 🥺

HE IS TRYING SO MUCH TO NOT SMILE OKAY

is because tsukishima thinks u r so cute

but sometimes he can't handle so is he like 🙂

he kinda gets sad when he’s not in your group

if he had the courage he would ask to change to the teacher and stay with you !!

he is observant, he perceives when you cut your hair even when it was a little <3

he gets so soft when he sees it on the camera that you smiled because the dumb guy of the class told a joke 🥺

ayo tsukishima is finally seeing your beautiful smile !!! 🙏

he is mentally thanking this guy 🙄

also he wants you to always have the mic on, he wants to hear your laugh when this happens

he is missing your laugh y/n 😿

also, if he sees that you are stressed because of online classes, he will definitely ask for your number and try to help you

because besides wanting to help you he wants to talk to you :( <3

𝐊𝐔𝐑𝐎𝐎

nervous

“kenma am i pretty? i need to know if i am rn i cannot be ugly y/n is in the class !!”

no but really, kuroo wants to be really handsome for u

is he late for class? yes, but class can wait, he's not showing up with messy hair ✌

lol sometimes he uses really pretty clothes

just for u. 😼

kuroo is like 😳🥺 seeing u with the face of someone who just woke up

bc u look SO CUTE

if u don't appear in the class kuroo is gonna be v v v worried and he is gonna ask the teacher if he knows where are u

he hates when u aren't there

nothing to appreciate

but he pay attention to the class

he heard about that u like smart guys so 😏

kuroo realLY wants to ask for ur number but he is so shy

already asked to yaku if he can have your number or even some social media

but yaku is not doing this. unfortunately 😢

so he is like waiting ( like this 🤞 ) the teacher says that you and he are together to do a homework together

and he will finally have ur number 😼

𝐁𝐎𝐊𝐔𝐓𝐎

definitely fix ur screen too/2

he is never late for class

bc he is so excited to see u

if u miss class. bokuto emo modo on.

everyone can see him through the screen him like that 🥺☹️

ok this is gonna be a little but scary but -

he IS taking screenshots of you and sending to akaashi after or while the class

“look akaashi 😿💔 so pretty today 😫”

and yk, bokuto is not ashamed to show that he is proud of you when the teacher ask something and u know the answer !!!

“y/nnnn !!! so smart wow 😲🤩”

and if the teacher complain u

he is going to agree with him.

if you have a high grade bo will congratulate you

“ congratulations y/n !!! i knew that you could do that<3 ”

lol even if you say you are not going to turn on the camera because u look messy.

“y/nnn u are not ugly !!!”

also he just open his mic to say something really dumb or tell a joke just to see your smile or listen to your laugh :)

yep we can see that bokuto is a simp for u.

#haikyuu x you #haikyuu x reader #hq headcanons #hq x reader #kuroo x reader #kuroo x you #atsumu x reader #atsumu x you #tsukishima x you #tsukishima x reader #bokuto x you #bokuto x reader #kuroo hcs #atsumu hcs #bokuto hcs #tsukishima hcs #haikyuu headcanons

[newtkive]

pixels [newt x reader - modern text au]

ch. 4 - agoraphobia and burger king on 5th street

summary: a personal experience provides a way for newt to connect to y/n.

warnings: strong language, mental health talk, depression, medication (its my literal prescription i mention oops this is like a self insert fr), mutual pining, none really.

➥ m.list

--

THE GLADE

[ 10:52 am ]

y/n: it’s official yall

drugs saved my life

tommy: huh??

minho: same

newt: wow, i’ve never seen your name on my screen before 12 pm

y/n: shut the hell up bitch

newt: ouch, touchy

minho: woah

touchy 👀

are yallll..?

y/n: you’re sick

tommy: are we going to ignore the drugs statement??

like hello are u ok ??

newt: you’re annoying minho

minho: yea <3 😊

notice how they didn’t say no

y/n: you guys just don’t understand how a girl like me needs beauty sleep..

and no we aren’t

gally: all that beauty sleep and ur still walking around with that mug.. yikes.

y/n: 😑

i hate you i haete you i dhateoyifu

minho: great she’s having a fit

y/n: no one cares about me

and you think i’m ugly

this is so sick

and you don’t even care that i’m on drugs

☹️😭😭😭😭 done.

newt: no one said that love

gally that was rude

minho: BRUHHHHH

here she goes

tommy: I CAREE????????

DO I NEED TO COMEGET YOU????

y/n: yes 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

before i do something crazy 😭😭💣

minho: THE BOMB IS WILD

tommy: stay where you are

i have your location

newt: uhhh

y/n: pause what

minho: tommy why would you admit to that

tommy: im On my way! what’s the issue

sorry autocorrect

y/n: WHY DO YOU HAVE MY LOCATION????

gally: can you guys shut the fuck up

minho: the drama queen is here 😍

gally: stop

alby: I have it on Life360, I imagine Thomas does as well. In fact I have all of your locations.

y/n: oh

i forgot about that app..

minho: i didn’t. i get a notif that newt’s phone is at 5% all the goddamn time

even tho he said he deleted it

newt: just turn it off then

i redownloaded it don't track my app intake

minho: no it makes me feel less lonely

y/n: awwwww

idk how you do that newt

newt: do what?

y/n: not charge your phone

if my phone gets below like 15% then the monsters will get me

tommy: omg me tooo 🥹

newt: i was about to say you sound like tommy.

tommy: don’t say that!

she’s on drugs i don’t want to sound like an addict 😔

newt: she isn’t on drugs thomas

tommy: she literally said she is newt :/

5 mins and i’m there y/n

y/n: are you actually fr

thomas..

we live very far away sweetie

newt: i mean

if you were in trouble you don’t think we’d come get you?

tommy: ^^

but life360 says you’re at the burger king on 5th

minho: no that’s me LOOOL

y/n: NEWTTT ☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️

tommy: wtf

i’m the one who’s coming to get u

why does he get the credit

minho: no tommy you’re coming to get me

tommy: oh yippee i get to see my friend 🤗

newt: ewwwwww

y/n: EWWWWW

tommy: OH STOP IT

y/n: why burger king of all places min

minho: why drugs of all things y/n

gally: she’s not doing drugs are you guys fuckin insane

y/n: yes i am

it’s 10 mg of fluoxetine 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

ONCE A DAY!!!!!!

IM ADDICTED

newt: no you aren’t, 10 mg is the smallest dose

minho: told y’all she was on drugs

y/n: ???????

minho: over the year

you’re too hyper to not be on some crack shit

tommy: oh stop that’s not nice.

newt: it’s not drugs like that minho stop.

tommy: uhoh he brought out the . at the end

y/n: it’s just for anxiety cuz i can’t leave the house without going into a breakdown

minho: she got acrophobia

told y’all she was mental

newt: what the fuck are you talking about

tommy: oh i know that word

fear of spiders 🕷️

minho: wtf no

fear of outside

y/n: i’m not afraid of outside

newt: that’s agoraphobia you fucking dumbass

y/n: 😍

i did NOT mean to send that lol oops

newt: ??

oh, okay

minho: when he’s a know it all 😍

when she’s agoraphobic 😍

y/n: when he’s at burger king on 5th because he has no food in his fridge and can only afford a $1.99 whopper with the coupons from the newspaper 😍😍😍😍

minho: 😒😑

newt: LMFAOOOO

GOOD THAT

minho: british people be so annoying

saying shit like gormless minger and good that be sooo real rn

newt: i have never said gormless minger in my whole 26 years of life.

y/n: you just did bro

newt: call me bro again

y/n: bro

brosive

brother

stepbro

minho: laughed until i saw the last msg :/

newt: 😑

y/n: ok youre the perverts

minho: cant you take your prozac and turn back to normal now

y/n: so you DO know what it is..

gally: wym 'back to normal' like there was smth before this??

y/n: real i been like this for life

tommy: i got whopper and two large fries and mozzarella sticks

newt: wow

y/n: wow just call him a fatass newt.

newt: i would never, stop

y/n: 2 large fries is kinda crazy tho

tommy: i have to get enough to share with my friend

minho

gally: surprised you have friends

tommy: yeah you are not one.

gally: RUDE?

y/n: WELL LMFAO

minho: i literally already ate also gally ur not my friend either

newt: same

alby: same

gally: well why tf am i in here

y/n: well you're my friend!

gally: great.

y/n: not with that attitude..

tommy: y/n you're ok though right??

y/n: yes tommy im fine sweetie

go eat your food

tommy: okay i wish you could share these fries with me

y/n: me too :(

minho: i don't

big back would eat em all

y/n: i actually hate you

__

newt

[ 11:45 am ]

newt: hey

y/n: hiii :D whats up??

newt: idk why but this feels like secretly texting you across the room at a party

y/n: actually tho

picture me giving u a look from across the room

newt: you would blow our cover immediately

i just wanted to let you know if you needed any like,, advice or something with your new medicine i'm here for you. i take the same stuff on top of lexapro

y/n: oh really?

newt: yeah i do

y/n: newt :( thank you

i am a bit nervous to start it tbh

newt: i understand, i was too

but hopefully it'll change things for the better

y/n: i hope so

i didn't realize you dealt with anxiety n stuff

newt: more than you know

you aren't the only one and you aren't alone w it

y/n: you're sweet newt, thank you

newt: don't mention it :))

sorry the smiley was creepy

y/n: lmao no i like it

if you need to talk or anything too i’m always here

newt: yeah?

y/n: of course ): you’re my pookie

newt: one day you gotta let go of that word lmao

y/n: but you love it tho

newt: you tell yourself that

actually are you free rn?

y/n: yeah! i’m just about home what’s up?

newt: i’m bored so pick up the phone

y/n: NEWT LMAO

ok fine 😒

#the maze runner #the maze runner fanfic #tmr #tmr newt #newt x reader #newt imagine #the maze runner newt x reader #the maze runner newt imagine #the maze runner newt #thomas brodie sangster #thomas brodie-sangster #thomas brodie sangster x reader #dylan o'brien #reader insert #text au #modern au #newt x reader au #fanfic #the maze runner imagine #newt tmr #thomas brodie-sangter x reader #hi #idk #reader is funny #tbs #tbs x reader #tbs imagine #thomas the maze runner

[uzumakiramen]

𑁍 they walk in on you changing [team guy] 𑁍

team kakashi ver.

gn! reader.

warnings; cursing (I believe I cursed once or twice in here so yeah beware!!

NOT PROOFREAD!!

a/n; what if I make one of these for all the squads🤨⁉️ Its very possible that I might at this point 😭

neji

neji technically didn’t walk in on you…

he saw you changing through the wall 🫣

it was all because of lee’s stupid idea to test the true scope of neji’s byakugan🙄 that kid doesn’t rest man

he wanted to use the village as the training grounds and see how far neji could see to find him

and against all of neji’s protests, guy sensei agreed becuz just like rock lee that man doesn’t rest either😑

anywayz neji has his byakugan activated and his head on a swivel searching for lee

and he just so happens to stroll into your part of the village🙃

and as he looks up at the rooftops of the buildings and stuff his eyes land on you stepping into your room in only a towel

neji tried to tear his eyes away cuz he felt weird for staring but for some reason he couldn’t

it wasn’t until he saw the towel drop that he finally tore his eyes away and ran in the completely opposite direction of your house.

he was red in the face for the rest of the day and his team just couldn’t figure out why😭😭

and they never would becuz he def taking this to the grave

rock lee

as we all know rock lee is very loud😭😭

I mean it’s not his fault!! with the power of youth surging thru his veins he can’t really control his volume!!

but as you can probably imagine when rock lee walked in on you half naked changing out of your ninja gear he just like…… started screaming😭😭

it was silent for about 0.5 seconds when he first walked in because like “wow😧 y/n no clothing🤯” yk

but then he just started screaming in shock

HE JUST DIDN’T KNOW WHAT TO DO

and then when you started screaming in shock he screamed even louder😭😭

this went on for like a whole minute before he screamed out an apology and ran out of there🏃🏃

and even tho u’ve told him that it’s fine and u aren’t mad at him he hasn’t made eye contact with u since

tenten

tenten is normal 😌

she doesn’t freak out or start screaming or something like her squad mates and sensei 🙄

she tries her best not to make huge deal out of it lol

it’s not often she walks in on you but when she does it doesn’t become some traumatic experience

like one time you were over at tenten’s house for a sleep over

and she had walked into the room at the same time you were putting on your pajamas 😃

she just wanted to know what movie you wanted watch but she was met with the sight of your bare chest and legs

and you can’t help but smile at the way her face turns pink and the way she quickly covers her eyes✨

tenten is just cute ok you really can’t help it💕

“oh😳. sorry!! I just wanted to know what movie you wanted to watch, I’ll just ask later!!”

she says as she backs out of the room, closing the door behind her hoping that she didn’t scare you or anything

but in the end it’s fine becuz you both just kinda just don’t care about it

it’s not like she hasn’t seen it all before anyways 😉

might guy

see cuz…

neither you or guy know how to react at first😭😭

you’re in shock becuz how the fuck did manz get in there⁉️⁉️

and he’s in shock cuz the most attractive person he knows is n a k e d in front of him‼️‼️

he was so shocked actually that he was absolutely silent 😳

and we all know how out of character that is for him

you end up breaking the silence first and ask him what he was doing there

and he can’t even answer because he’s just frozen in the door with his jaw on the floor and his eyes as wide as dinner plates

all you could do was close the door slowly and hope that he would just forget this ever happened🫠

he doesn’t tho

that moment kinda just rattles around in his brain like that one floating DVD image on the tv

and now he can’t even look at you without his face turning neon pink😭

© 2022 copyright. all rights reserved. @uzumakiramen.

#naruto headcanons #naruto fluff #naruto crack #naruto angst #naruto imagines #naruto x reader #neji hyuuga x reader #tenten x reader #rock lee x reader #might guy x reader #neji hyuga #might guy #tenten #rock lee #faithwrites🌱 [anime vers]

[ivysenpai3]

Decided to do a Tokyo Revengers gc😂, hope you like it.

Desc: Smiley accidentally spills readers crush so now she's pissed.

Chaotic GC

Mikey: Hey everyone

Ran: Hey Mickey✨😌

Mikey: It's Mikey, not Mickey😐

Ran: I know, just wanna get on your nerves 😌

Draken: You just had to, didn't you, Haitani? 🙄

Ran: Leave me alone 😤

Smiley: Has anyone talked to Y/N-chan since my slip up? 😅

Mikey: You fucked up big time.

Emma: Fr, fucking dumbass 💀

Y/N: Guys!!! 😭

Smiley: Y/N-chan!!! 😭😭

Y/N: Don't you dare, I will end you😐

Mikey: Dayum😂

Draken: She mad, good job bro👍

Y/N: You have no idea what you made me go through 😐😐

Emma: Utter humiliation?

Ran: Total disgrace?

Y/N: Precisely, gold star for you both😗✨

Ran: I'll cherish it forever 😭

Y/N: I even lost my phone 😭

Rindou: How is that his fault? 😐

Y/N: Story time Mfs😗😌

Chifuyu: Oh oh, start with once upon a time.

Y/N: It's quite long so.... Yh.... Once upon time, there lived a blabber mouth, called Nahoya, who couldn't keep his mouth shut and blabbed an unnecessary information about girl named Y/N.

Mikey: We know this part🙄

Y/N: Hush😪. Anyway, to sum it up, I went for a walk, yada yada yada, I met Inupi and Koko having such an adorable date 😭😭✨✨✨

Mikey: Ewww😐

Y/N: Inupi terrified me, but Koko was really nice and took me shopping.

Koko: Ya welcome 😌😌

Y/N: So in the process, my phone went missing. That is the end of my story😪😪😪

Draken: So wtf are u chatting with😐?

Y/N: Turns out it was with Koko, my mum called it, he answered and he dropped it over at my house.

Ran: Hold up, he knows your house now? 😐

Koko: Indeed I do😌✨

Chifuyu: So how much you want, Koko? 👀

Mikey: Aren't you broke? 👀

Chifuyu: No😐

Mikey:But when I asked you to buy me dorayaki, you said you were broke😭😭😭😭

Chifuyu: That was then😐 besides, Y/N is a girl🙂

Smiley: Wanna get a makeover, Mikey? 👀

Mikey: Yes I do, that's gender inequality right there 😭😭😭

Taiju: Do you idiots realize how late it is🙄?

Y/N: Oh shit.....

*Y/N has left the group*

Mikey: She left? 😭😭😭

Rindou: Your fault, Smiley😒

Smiley: I apologized 😭

Emma: No you didn't 😶

Shinichiro: You're all noisy, for fucks sake go to bed😑

Taiju: Yo Shin

Shinichiro: Yo Taiju

Waka: Yo

Mikey: Why are the old people coming now😶?

Waka: Tf😑😑

Emma: Shin-nii, I'm hungry 😭😭

Mikey: I'm hungry too

Izana: Same here😪😪

Shinichiro: The fuck😶? Y'all just ate😶😶

Mikey: We did not 'just' eat....

Izana: Yeah, that was like 30 minutes ago 😐😐

Ran: I'm so glad I don't have any younger siblings 😌😌👍👍😗😗

Rindou: Excuse me😐😐😐

*Rindou is Offline*

Ran: Holy shit, what have I done😐😐😐?

Koko: So there's only 1 Haitani left, right? 😂😂

Draken: Looks that way, Rindou's probably gonna drop Ran on the streets.

Ran: Shut up.

Izana: I'm still hungry😶😶

Waka: Young Kurokawa, we say 'hangry' not 'hungry'👍👍😌😌

Taiju: Fucking dumbass

Waka: Aye, aye, don't insult your elders.

Mikey: Big deal, you turned 22, we won't have peace of mind anymore 😐😐😐

Ran: So.... Um....

Chifuyu: How did it go? 😂

Ran: Whose house can I stay in at under short notice for two day😅😭

Shinichiro: It's a full house

Emma: Tell me about it

Waka: Takeomi and Benkai are already at my place 😪

Draken: Not enough room

Chifuyu: Baji-san and Kazutora are crashing at mine😗

Izana: You already heard it from Shin and Emma so I don't owe you an explanation ✨

Taiju: I would let you stay

Mikey: Plot twist coming 😪

Taiju: But I just wanna see you suffer and sleep on the streets😌

Mikey: Called it✨

Ran: Anyone, please 😭😭😭😭😭😭, I'm too handsome to sleep on the streets 😭😭😭

Mikey: Coughs in Spanish 💀

Ran: Got something to say midget😪

Mikey: No no, anyways, good night Haitani, have fine sleeping with the rats👍✨😌

Ran:

Hope you liked it😗😗🙂🙂, I originally got this gc idea from @mulletmitsuya so go check out their work.

#tokyo rev x y/n #tokyo revengers #tokyo revengers gc #ran haitani #haitani brothers #tokyo revengers crack

[nightqueen1221]

i know you hate the phantom troupe and stuff so im requesting phantom troupe general headcanons 😋

...😑🖕

Please watch all of York New City Arc before reading. Also please send in requests, I have none.

0 Chrollo Lucifer:

- Look, I may hate this man with a passion.

-But he's honestly a gentleman.

-...Who commits mass genocide.

-...

-He'll pick you up over puddles or if something sharp is on the ground.

-He kisses your hand when every he sees you after a while.

-He loves to talk with you.

-He could spend hours hearing you talk about your day.

-Rather than hugging or giving gifts (tho he wouldn't mond doing that.)

-His most preferred way of affection is quality time or words of affirmation.

-Seeing you laugh or smile makes his day a million times better.

-Not even that, he can just sometimes look over and smile.

-He likes to have his hand on your shoulder or holding your hand while walking.

-This might be weird, but he likes to watch you sleep.

-More of just the way you look relaxed.

-He like to do your hair as well.

-Even just brushing it he finds it very calming.

-He more or less wants someone who is calming to him.

1 NobunagaHazama

-You were of course one of the few people how actually comfort him after Uvo's death.

-He is pretty calm in general, but he opens up a bit more when its around you

-He tends to keep more to himself unless something interferes.

-He likes cuddling you and just holding you close to him in general.

-He'll usually cuddle with you to sleep.

-He actually really likes forehead kisses, giving or receiving.

-His headcannons are short because I don't really remember him a whole lot.

2 Fetain Portor

-Since of his poor grammar and ways of speaking, you sometimes have to tell people what he's saying.

-Of course the troupe knows what he's say.

-He likes to get you gifts from time to time.

-Sometimes it something normal like, flowers, chocolate, or just something nice.

-Other times it's something that doesn't really make sense.

-But none the less, it's the thought that counts.

-He's still quite regardless if you two are dating or not.

-That part of him really doesn't change.

-He prefers affection shown in a physical way rather than a mental or emotional way.

-If you're near someone he doesn't like you have two choices.

- 1. He kills them.

- 2. He pulls you close to him by the waist. (It's probably the only thing he can reach to pull you in.😂)

-The only reason he wouldn't kill them is if it could jeopardize a mission or something else important.

-He'll also tease you quite a bit.

-....Girly girl

4 Machi Komacine

-She just happy by looking at you.

-and sometimes if you're lucky, you can see her smile, just a bit.

-She's more or less a INCREADIABLY protective tsundere.

-Not saying she won't say that she's with you.

-but she doesn't want to admit that she still has a crush on you.

-She thinks it's childish to have a crush.

-Like, she still gets butterflies when she thinks or looks at you.

-She tries laughing more at your jokes.

-She just puts more of her effort into you.

5 PhinksMagcub

-He likes to wear Egyptian clothes so he'll want to match with you and make you look like a prince or a princess.

-Sometimes, when he's proud of you he'll ruffle your hair.

-F o r e h e a d k i s s e s

-He like to pick you up and hold you in the air.

-He thinks it's romantic.

-He prefers speaking rather than anything as his way of love and affection.

-He's also a bit of a gentleman.

-Opening doors for you...

-Maybe grabbing something you can reach...

-He'll do something you can't since it's...

-1. It's nice

-2.He cares for you more than anyone in the world.

-(I don't care for any of the phantom troupe so I am kinda half hearted to writing them I'm sorry.)

6 Shalnark

-He prefers cuddling or touching over anything.

-he realty doesn't how he needs to but he will hug you.

-sitting on the couch watching a movie?

-cuddles.

-going to bed after a long day?

-cuddles.

-You think you can escape him?

-no, M O R E C U D D L E S.

-...

-He may have a problem.

-(I don't like this dude either...)

8 ShizukuMurazaki

-She likes to see you wear her glasses if you don't have any. (Or if she can even see.)

-She is somewhat clueless to a relationship.

-She has a basic understanding of what to do and how to do it.

-Yet she just just doesn't a lot.

-She likes to spend her free time with you.

-She really likes to just sit and listen to you talk.

-She isn't the biggest cuddler or really big on touching in general.

-None the less, she is REALLY into kisses.

-forehead, hand, shoulder, neck

-Anywhere is game.

9 Pakunoda

-(I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO WRITE FOR HERRRR!!!!!)

-Like Shizuku, she is big on kissing.

-She has pretty decent experience with dating.

-But she'll need more help than most of the people on this list.

-Her way of affection is gifts.

-She like to tell you little jokes from time to time or puns.

-After telling you the punchline she'll elbow you softly in your arm.

-And the jokes are so cheesey.

11 Illumi Zoldyck

-Illumi is the only member of the Phantom Troupe, or even just antagonists I like.

-Illumi is pretty emotionless so it's a miracle you two even got together in the first place.

-He is trying to learn more ways to be affectionate towards you.

-I mean this is his first time being in a relationship.

-He more or less hugs you from behind but it's really creepy since he's a assassin meaning he's completely silent.

-He'll never say it, ( mostly because he doesn't know it ) but he really likes to hold you close to him.

-He doesn't kiss you, basicly at all

-If he's leaving for a long mission, MAYBE, just MAYBE, you'll get a kiss on the cheek.

-He likes to hold you into his chest while his hands are wrapped around your head gently.

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Meant to Be — Bucky Barnes (1)

Chapter 1 — Stalker's Tango

Pairing: mafia!bucky x innocent!reader

Word count: 7,030

Summary: The reader and her friends are introduced. But who is that mysterious figure watching her?

Note: What do you guys think of Nathan? Such a dreamboat!... Right?

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“The best liar is he who makes the smallest amount of lying go the longest way.”

—Samuel Butler

April 22, 2018

He was but a shadow. One of many. But that was his job, to hide and stay hidden. To be unseen and unheard, and most of all, to watch her.

The girl had been his target for the better part of the past few years, and oh, was she trouble. Though that was to be expected, considering her pedigree. He did not carry any false pretenses, he knew his task would be difficult, but he had overestimated the degree to which he would struggle getting close to her.

In the end, however, he found a way. A tricky, slightly dangerous way. Dangerous to both his heart and Hers, but a solution, nonetheless, to the problem currently sleeping in her seventeenth-floor dorm room, completely oblivious to his presence just outside her building.

She had been upset, yesterday, over something he paid little attention to, but if he were any good at his job and his intuition was correct, then she would awake any moment.

And there… he was right. Light joined the various others scattered across the building—students pulling all-nighters. A head peeked up from that one specific window he had his sights on. There she is.

The girl stayed there for a moment, and he thought briefly, with an amused smirk, that if she looked down, she would see him.

He imagined the surprise on her face, the initial shock and confusion slowly setting in, taking over her body and freezing her limbs. She tended to freeze under the threat of danger, and that was what he would become if he were found looking up at her.

Danger.

He pondered on it for a beat. No, he did not want her to know. He did not want to upset the girls and cause them unnecessary harm. Something painful stirred in him at the idea.

Betrayal.

And he did not want to lose Her trust—more than he already had, though she was blissfully unaware of it. But he didn’t have much of a choice in the matter, now, did he? An unfortunate consequence. If not him, then somebody else. If not now, then never.

He decided he was not ready to let go of all he had gained. Some time passed as he waited. Then, like clockwork, he saw her, head down with a towel clutched in her arms. Alone. He frowned, and when the girl left, he left with her, blending in with the shadows—watching her, always watching her.

So, he followed, memorizing everything she did. Every falter in her steps, every heavy exhale of breath. It was his job, after all.

He followed, knowing there was only one way this would end. But he ignored all the warnings. He told himself the end justified the means, that she would understand why he had to do what he did. That she would forgive him.

He blended in with the shadows, stopping when she stopped, moving when she moved. He hid when she looked around—Ah! There was that paranoia, though it did not last very long, for she was walking again, oblivious to the fact that he was watching. Always watching.

He watched as she plunged herself into the water, held his breath when she stayed submerged for a minute too long, and watched again as she hummed an old tune while drying herself off.

Only when she was back in her room did he let himself relax. He pulled out his phone to type a quick message.

All clear

There, and he was done for the next few days. He was about to put his phone away when he noticed an unopened message.

It’s the least u could’ve done 😑

Immediately, he began to type.

Sorry about that. Let me make it up to you tomorrow.

Her response came right away. 

I have some good news!

It made him smile. It seemed the only time he smiled now was when he was with Her.

With one last smile and one last longing look, he disappeared back into the shadows as if he were never there. Though, he left his heart behind, as he always did.

She awoke in a cold sweat, the remnants of the nightmare still flashing behind her eyes. For a few moments, she was back in the dark and musty room, holding her brother’s limp body in her small arms, shaking him periodically and willing him to open his eyes.

“Someone’s coming! Wake up. We have to go!”

There was not much she remembered of that night, but the parts she did? ...well, they were not pleasant.

Not pleasant at all.

The girl blindly felt around for the lamp on her side table, finally able to breathe once her room lit up in a soft orange glow. She was safe. Safe in her dorm, surrounded by her books and her haphazardly strewn clothes. Safe from prying eyes and threatening men.

Despite the terror clinging to her skin, she could not help but feel disburdened—reliving her nightmare in the privacy of her own room. Guilt still brought hot, shameful tears to her eyes whenever she remembered disturbing her roommate due to her night terrors.

At least now she could be miserable in peace. Her two-bedroom dorm—while on the pricier side, gave the girl the freedom to keep her secrets just that, a secret. She had to pick up extra shifts to afford it, robbing her of any social life she could have had, but she was close with her friend and was living comfortably for the first time in years.

She tossed her blanket from her burning body and turned towards the floor-to-ceiling window, leaning slightly to take in the view from Founders House. The North Pacific stretched out in front of her, the waves shining under the glow of a full moon, and she instantly felt calmer, though the slight tremor in her hands remained.

A reminder.

She reached for her phone to check the time. Three AM. Her mother would be awake right now, tending to the garden, watering her precious azaleas and roses. The girl instinctively dialled her mother’s number, needing to hear her voice. She would calm her down as she always did, would understand as she always did.

The call went straight to voicemail. The girl called the number again, frowning when the automated response answered her instead of the silvery and soothing voice she was usually greeted by. Anxiety settled in the girl’s gut, something she was not used to anymore, having left that turbulent part of her life behind.

Mrs. Burgundy always picked up her daughter’s call. It wasn’t often they were able to talk, and so Eleanor Burgundy took every opportunity she could to check up on the girl. It could be the middle of the night in New York or just before the crack of dawn, and her mother always picked up before the last ring.

No matter what.

The shrill sound of the girl’s ringtone broke the deafening silence. She answered immediately, sweaty fingers sliding against the cold screen. “Hello?”

Silence greeted her on the other end. “Mama? Hello, are you there? I've been calling you all week. Was starting to get worried.” Then the rhythmic inhale-exhale of someone breathing, slowly rose to the surface.

She checked the caller ID and, sure enough, it was her mother. “Mama?”

A low voice murmured her name, a man, with raspy breath and clipped words. Then, “end the call,” sounding urgent and panicked. And silence once more.

The girl shook as fear crawled up her spine. She called her mother back, but alas, it went straight to voicemail.

“Hi, this is Eleanor Burgundy. I’m most likely busy right now, so please call again later, and I’ll be sure to pick up this time. No promises though! Bye!”

Could it be? No, it couldn’t. They had been so careful. Yet, paranoia began to fester in her mind, making her doubt her reality. She chalked the disturbance up to her nightmare. She was fine. Safe. Her mother was fine too. Most likely busy with an affair of her father’s, she must not have realized she picked up her daughter’s call.

It was a pocket dial. Yes, it must have been that. A mere accident.

Water. She needed water. The girl made her way to the kitchen on shaky legs and grabbed a cold bottle from the fridge. She gulped half of it in one breath and the other half in a second.

“Pass me one, Kitty Cat?”

The girl turned towards the dining table to see her roommate sitting cross-legged on a chair, surrounded by various cups of half-finished coffee and piles of paper. “I hate when you call me that,” she mumbled under her breath, though her friend heard her clearly. “I have a name, you know.”

“I know,” her friend replied.

“Dove, you should be sleeping,” the girl answered with a sigh as she sat down next to her and passed her a water.

Dove checked the time on her laptop before shrugging carelessly. “Whatever, it’s not that late. It’s only three AM, and besides, I have an exam in the morning which isn’t gonna learn itself.”

She cringed, pulling at the ends of her dirty blonde hair. “Ew. Did that make sense? I don’t think that made any sense. ‘Isn't gonna learn itself?’ What the fuck does that even mean? I swear to God, this shitty coffee is literally making me lose brain cells—not that I had any in the first place. I'm so fucking stupid. Who—”

“Dove.” the girl gently interrupted her friend. “It made sense.”

Whereas Dove was fast-paced, both in her manner of speaking and in how her brain processed information, the girl was the opposite, and not just in that same regard. 

The girl was quiet compared to Dove. Softer and more gentle. The difference between the two was clear as night and day after only a single conversation. The girl did not like confrontation and did not let herself get angry if she could help it. Every day was a struggle to keep her emotions in check. Nothing about her could stand out. She needed to be as inconspicuous as possible, which, evidently, did the exact opposite for her. Instead, she stood out like a sore thumb beside her friend.

Dove was loud and extroverted. Free-spirited, much like her given name, she flew past words and ideas. She spoke her mind and spoke it fast, her tongue in a constant race against her thoughts. She was taller than the girl, with longer legs and poutier lips. Paler and more confident, whereas the girl was meek and docile.

However, their correlating characteristics were not without cause. Their pasts had shaped their futures. Dove was a middle child of eight, forced to be loud to be noticed and heard, and it had done her well for university life, making her the center of every party. Everyone wanted to be friends with Dove Rivers. Her contagious charisma brought both attention and confidence to those around her.

The girl, on the other hand, had suffered something quite drastic compared to Dove. She became discreet and quiet because her surroundings demanded so. And so far, it had worked. There was no unnecessary attention surrounding her. She was not popular or at the bottom of the social hierarchy. Save for a few things, like her academic standing, she was, for all intents and purposes… average.

Not very pretty, but not too bad to look at either. Smart, but without a claiming reputation. And she was forgettable, which suited her just fine.

Dove smiled brightly, white teeth peeking through her lips. “You're right. It did make sense.” After a few moments of silence, she abruptly closed her laptop, turning her attention to the girl beside her. “Why are you awake?”

The girl looked away, shame taking over her delicate features. “No reason.” For God’s sake, she was in the final year of graduate school. There was no reason for her to still be having nightmares.

Dove paused, pursing her lips in thought. Her friend’s non-answer was answer enough. “Another nightmare?” she asked.

The softness and concern behind the question made the girl burn with even more shame. She merely nodded, unable to meet Dove’s eyes, unable to bear the pity that no doubt resided in her green irises.

“That’s the third one this week.” Dove’s voice was hesitant. Soft, as if she were talking to a wounded animal.

And the girl supposed she was one. A kitten, trying to survive in a world run by vicious wolves. She gave another nod.

“Kitty… are you alright?—”

“Perfect!” she interjected hastily, supporting an overly fake smile, and winced at the desperation lacing her words. “I’m perfect. Just stressed about work.” She hoped Dove believed her, that she saw truth woven between all the lies.

And she did. Dove rose a skeptical brow before relenting, moving on to another issue. “Yeah? What’s up? I’ve barely seen you this past month.”

It was not as if it were a complete lie. Though it was not the reason sleep evaded her, money was turning out to be a bigger problem than the girl anticipated. Expenses were piling up, and if she wanted to keep living in Vancouver after graduation, she needed an efficient savings plan, especially with all the loans she would have to pay.

“I had to pick up extra shifts at work. I, uh—I won’t have enough for a place to live after graduation.” It was discouraging to think this was where all her hard work led her. And it was embarrassing to admit as much to Dove. Dove, who was bright and perky and pretty, without a care for the world.

“Kitty…” Dove began, her voice filled with pity.

“Maybe if I skip grad and try applying to that cleaning job posted at the student centre, then maybe I’ll have enough to make ends meet.”

“No,” came Dove’s firm reply. “Money is not going to be an issue for you. I told you I’d take care of you.”

“And I told you I won’t take your charity.” The girl sighed and took a sip of water. “I’m not helpless, Dove. I have options—granted, they’re not the best, but they are viable. There’s a place in Chinatown I found for cheap. I think I’m gonna take it.”

“And?” Dove encouraged the girl to continue.

She didn’t want Dove knowing the details because she would object, but what other choice did she have? “And I saw an ad on the SkyTrain looking for a roommate. It’s only a thousand for the month, and I’d be sharing with three other guys—”

“No fucking way!” Dove exclaimed. “Fuck that!”

“Okay,” the girl snapped. “I get it. You don’t like the idea, but there’s no need to swear.”

But Dove wasn’t listening. Spurred on by rightful indignation, she let out a few more choice words. “Are you crazy? You wanna live in a house filled with strange men?”

“No, of course, I don’t. And besides, it’s an apartment, not a house.”

Dove scoffed at the girl’s attempt at a rebuttal. “That makes no difference. Chinatown? Really? Just last week some woman was found raped and killed in an alley near Victory Square.”

Dove tucked a loose strand of hair behind her ear and began to fidget with the pen in her hand. “God! Vancouver’s turning into a Francis Coppola movie. There’s mini Michael’s popping out everywhere.” At the confused look on her friend's face, Dove asked, “Haven’t you seen The Godfather? It’s a mobster movie. Kinda graphic, lots of blood.”

The girl paled significantly, shocked by the words leaving Dove’s mouth. “What?” she choked out.

“Yeah. It’s pretty cool. It’s based on a book about this crime family in New York. Michael—he’s the main character—he doesn’t want to be a part of the ‘family business,’ but after some drama with his father, he’s kinda forced to get involved. By the end of the movie—”

But the girl wasn’t listening anymore. Her ears rang, and her palms became sweaty. “—a book about this crime family in New York.” “—a mobster movie… graphic… lots of blood.”

Her thoughts kept getting stuck on the same thing. Crime family. New York. What were the odds? She was almost four thousand kilometres away and still wasn’t far enough.

She could feel abrasive rope digging into her wrists, metal digging into her back. The scent of blood was thick in the air as it dripped down from the ceiling and pooled at her feet until she was choking on it.

As the ringing got louder, a deep voice called her name from a distance. Moving closer and closer, until—

“—Kitty, are you listening?”

The girl nodded numbly, blinking as the room came back to focus.

“So, you’ll do it? You’ll move in with me?” Dove asked hopefully.

“Dove,” the girl frowned, feeling duped. “I can’t ask you to do that.”

“You’re not. I’m offering. What else is daddy’s credit card good for? He’s so busy with his own shit he won’t even care what I do.” There was an underlying tone of resentment in Dove’s words, and the girl would've mentioned it if she was not shaken up. “As long as I don’t bother him at work,” Dove laughed, “he won’t bother me. So?”

A refusal was right on the tip of her tongue, but Dove interrupted her. “And don’t even think of saying no. I’m not letting you stay alone in a neighbourhood filled with mobsters. And I’m not going to bed until you agree.”

Mobsters. There was that word again.

“Okay.”

“Okay?”

“I’ll move in with you.”

Dove shot out of her seat and wrapped the girl in a bone-crushing hug. “Yes! We’re gonna have so much fun!” Her sight landed on the wall clock, and she cursed under her breath. “I have to wake up early tomorrow. Oh, and I have to call Peter. He’s gonna be so excited. I promise we’ll keep the PDA to a minimum around you, okay? There will be no awkward interactions.”

The girl nodded numbly, not quite understanding what she agreed to.

“You gonna go to bed soon?” Dove asked, walking backward towards her room.

“Yes,” she lied.

“I’ll see you tomorrow during your shift, then. Love you! Goodnight!” And the door slammed behind her.

The girl didn’t like lying. It was a nasty and horrible thing. She hesitated only slightly before grabbing her suit and a towel, leaving her dorm, making sure not to disturb Dove.

Nowhere was far enough anymore.

It started slowly, a tingle in her spine, crawling up her shoulders and towards her neck. The feeling of someone watching her. She surveyed her surroundings, once, then twice, then seemingly happy with the absence of any other soul, the girl turned her back towards the sand.

The water was freezing compared to the warm air surrounding her, and the girl ran her hands down her arms to conserve her body heat. This was so unlike her, venturing into the open ocean all alone. Dove usually accompanied the girl on her midnight dips, but something felt different this time.

Crime family.

New York.

 Dove’s words kept echoing in her ears. She was a business major on weekdays, a Lifeguard on weekends, and a musician during the days in between. Dove always waited out on the sand, making sure the girl was not swept away by the waves.

She supposed she was crazy—at least that’s what any passerby would think to find a young woman, who could not swim, alone in the middle of the Pacific Ocean. Except, the only peace she found nowadays was when water pressed on her from all sides, burning her lungs and forcing her to hold her breath. The act bordered on being almost suicidal in nature, but the truth was she did not want to die. In fact, the idea of death scared her so much that she could not think about it for more than a few minutes at a time.

She just sometimes wished to be able to turn back time, to keep her mother from meeting her father. And if that meant the girl’s birth would have never come to pass? Well, it wasn’t something that particularly bothered her.

There weren’t too many opportunities in her childhood for her to learn to swim, and she was much too indifferent in her adult years to start a new skill. But the waves were tame, the tide was low, and she would be safe if she did not venture too far.

She submerged her legs in the water, then her stomach and her arms. When it reached her shoulders, she stopped, looking for a moment at the moon. It was a beautiful night, and she wished she could have enjoyed it, but she did not know how to. The girl had not enjoyed much of anything in the past ten years.

She found there to be a vulnerability in standing under the open skies in nothing but a flimsy swimsuit,  surrounded by cool water and wet sand. Anyone could be watching. Anyone could see the crazy, lone girl out for a swim in the middle of the night.

Maybe that is what she liked. The vulnerability—the control despite the danger. She could not very well scream her woes out into the open night sky for fear of someone overhearing her. And she could not let herself succumb to her sadness with no one to catch her.

Yes, she had Dove, Peter too, but she did not want to burden them with her past. She would never willingly drag them into the life she ran from. So she would never cry or complain after a bad dream or after a memory of her brother resurfaced. No. She would walk the short distance to the beach and submerge her head. She would let the water obliterate the world outside and let herself be surrounded by complete and utter silence.

It started slowly, a tingle in her spine, crawling up towards her neck. The feeling of someone watching her. She surveyed her surroundings, once, then twice, then seemingly happy with what she found, the girl turned her back towards the sand. She was tired.

She took a deep breath and bent her knees. The ocean enveloped her, washing away all her thoughts, and the ringing in her ears that seemed to follow her everywhere... subsided. She closed her eyes, resisting the urge to inhale a lungful of water, finally feeling calm after weeks of unease. She could feel only the cool water, hear only her heart beating away in her chest, and see absolutely nothing. She relished in it, and only when air turned lava in her lungs did she straighten her knees and take a desperate breath in, letting all her troubles invade her mind once again.

The nightmare, long forgotten.

April 23, 2018

The smell of coffee was strong in the air, the richness cut through by the faint aroma of sweet bread and savoury pastries. The daily rush of students and faculty alike, all in need of a hefty dose of caffeine, had dispersed with the start of the morning classes.

It was around noon when the girl got a slight reprieve from making latte after latte. She was sitting on a small crate towards the back of the café, stretching her limbs and flexing her numb fingers. She could feel the beginnings of a migraine tightening behind her eyes, forged together due to the stress of the past week. She had a presentation due yesterday for her Principles of Investigative Journalism class, one she had been working on for the better part of the month. The grades were to be released that day during class, and the anticipation was keeping her on edge, making her confuse coffee orders and make silly mistakes.

She heard the little bell over the door jingle, alerting her to a customer, and she shot out of her hiding spot to attend to them. “Hi! What can I…” her words trailed in a startled gasp.

The man in front of her was beautiful. Medium built and an average height for a hockey player. Long lashes framed his dark eyes, and a smile graced his pink lips. “Can I get a small Irish coffee to stay?”

The girl stumbled back a step, grabbing a mug from the counter behind her. “Yes, of course.” Her body took too long to catch up with her brain, and she suddenly remembered one very important detail. “Oh!” She turned around. “We don’t actually serve that. Sorry.”

The man in front of her looked perplexed. “Why not?”

“Because we’re not a bar. W—we’re not licensed to sell alcohol.”

The man huffed in mild annoyance. “Alright. Can I just get a cappuccino then?”

She nodded an assent and began to prepare his new drink. Shoot! Coffee splashed onto her hands when she was filling the mug. The girl groaned under her breath and ran her hand under cold water from the tap. She was all too aware of his eyes watching her every move.

In the background, the muffled laugh of her friend reached her ears. Dove was sitting at a table near the front, nursing a green tea latte and working on a resume for a job at a marketing company. The two linked eyes, and Dove gave her friend an exaggerated wink.

“Go for it,” she mouthed silently.

Frazzled, and embarrassed by the extra attention, the girl rushed to finish making the drink. “Here you go. A small Cappuccino to stay.”

The man hummed. “Are Cappuccinos supposed to be so… dark?”

To her horror, she realized she accidentally served him an Americano instead of a Cappuccino. “I’m so sorry! I’ll make you another right away.”

Dove couldn’t keep silent this time and snickered. Thankfully, the man didn’t look too bothered, if anything, he was amused by her blunder. “Okay, I’ll be sitting over there,” he pointed to a seat near the window, a few places down from Dove.

Spurred on by embarrassment, the girl was sure to not make any mistakes this time. She grabbed a blueberry scone from behind the display and made her way to the man. “Your Cappuccino, and a scone on the house. I’m really sorry for the mix-up.”

“It happens. Whatever.” He shook off her apology with a little shrug, then he smiled. “I’m Nathan.”

“I know.” Her mouth opened before she could stop herself. Mortification flooded her body, and it took everything in her not to scream and fall over right then and there.

“You know?” he smirked.

Of course, she knew. How could she not? The Nathan Acosta, the boy she had secretly been pining over for more than a year, was sitting in the café she worked at, smiling at her. It was both a dream and a nightmare at the same time.

The girl made an incoherent sputtering noise, unable to look him in the eyes. “We were in the same class last year,” she shrugged.

“I remember,” he said casually, making the girl look at him. “Kitty, right?”

She opened her mouth to disapprove and told him her real name.

“I’m surprised you can fit anything other than hockey terms in that stupid brain of yours,” Dove called out.

“Fuck you, Rivers,” Nathan laughed.

“You wish, Acosta,” Dove quipped.

The girl listened to the exchange with wide eyes and slight mortification. She knew the two were acquainted but was surprised by their frankness.

A heat grew in her chest, one that she identified as jealousy. Of course, Dove was close with Nathan, and of course they bartered back and forth like best friends. Dove was everything the girl wasn’t.

Nathan didn’t notice quiet girls like her. Though, it’s not like it mattered anyway if he paid her any attention because nothing could come of it. She would always be alone, and she was fine with that. Truly, she was.

This crush she had on Nathan was fleeting and inconsequential. It would fizzle out once they graduated, and he wouldn’t spare her another thought.

“When does your shift end?” Nathan asked the girl.

“Three-thirty,” she answered.

He smiled, so bright and big that she couldn’t help smiling back. “I wanna take you out.”

And just like that, her smile fizzled.

“What?” she asked, mortified.

“Let’s grab a slice of pizza after your shift. Around five, five-thirty?”

Nathan’s words were so casual that it took a moment for the meaning to set in. Though they were mostly alone in the café, the girl looked to the left and then to the right, making sure there were no cameras trained on her, or wandering eyes wanting to catch her in a moment of bewilderment.

“Pizza?” she questioned.

“Yeah,” Nathan shrugged. “Unless you’re one of those girls who only eat salads.”

“I’m not,” the girl said, only because she could say nothing else.

“Good.” Nathan took a sip of his Cappuccino, pursing his lips at the strong flavour. “No sugar?” he asked, gesturing to his cup.

“Cappuccinos don’t have sugar traditionally.”

“Right. So, it’s a date?”

The girl wiped her sweaty hands on her apron, thinking of an appropriate response. Surely there had been some mistake. Maybe Nathan had her confused with someone else—unlikely, because she looked nothing like the girls he hung out with—or maybe he hit his head during practice and got a concussion.

“I don’t know if I can—”

“She would love to!” Dove interrupted.

“Great!” Nathan exclaimed before the girl could say anything. He grabbed his drink and put his sunglasses down. “I’ll be outside your dorm. See you soon, baby.” And as fast as he came, he left.

The two friends looked at each other. Dove, with a wide smile and the girl with wide eyes. “I feel sick,” said the girl.

“You’ll be fine,” Dove reassured her.

“No, I—I don’t…” she lowered herself on the chair Nathan previously occupied. “Oh my God, I—What? What just happened?”

“You got asked on a date by the captain of the hockey team,” Dove pointed out the obvious.

“No,” she whispered.

“And you said yes.”

“No,” she said louder. “I didn’t.”

Dove took a long sip of her latte. “You didn’t,” she agreed. “I said yes for you.”

“Dove,” the girl grimaced, “I feel sick.”

Dove was amused. “You said that already.” Her features suddenly softened. “I know you don’t date, but I promise it’s not hard. You just ask questions and get to know one another.”

Alarm bells rang in her head. She wasn’t someone who opened up easily to others, and her past was to blame for it. What would she say if Nathan asked her why she chose journalism? What would she say if he asked about her family?

But she didn’t voice any of her thoughts. She took her insecurities and shoved them as deep as they would go. Instead, she wiped the fear off her face and gave her friend a tentative smile. “I felt like I was going to die when he started talking to me.”

Dove replied in earnest, recalling her first date and comparing it to her relationship with Peter. She eased her friends' nerves and convinced her to wear some makeup before Nathan arrived. And before the girl knew it, her shift was coming to an end.

“Pizza,” he had said, though the place she found herself at was fancier than she imagined. Waitresses wore short black pieces and showed enough cleavage to entice the men to give a larger tip. Tables were dressed with silverware and white napkins, and the lights were dimmed to give a romantic feel. The girl felt extremely underdressed in a plain top and a pair of boring bottoms.

“Fuck, you’re pretty.”

Nathan himself was also dressed casually, wearing a simple shirt with khaki trousers. However, Nathan was able to look good in anything, unlike the girl, who blended in with her surroundings. He received appreciative glances from most of the women around them, some of which were on their own dates, and the girl couldn’t help but think again that Nathan had made a mistake. He couldn’t possibly want to be with her.

“Thank you.” She blushed under his gaze, which seemed to burn brighter with every second that passed. “The food is amazing.”

“I know,” he replied. “That’s why I picked this place.”

The girl waited anxiously for the dreaded questions about her life, the ones that would help them to know each other better, but they never came. Nathan didn’t ask her anything of substance, and she was too nervous to initiate the conversation herself.

Instead, he threw compliments her way like they were trifle occurrences. “You look hot in that shirt.” “Your height matches mine perfectly.” “Fuck, your lips.” Mixed with a healthy amount of praise for himself. “I bench pressed a hundred fifty yesterday,” followed by a wink. “Coach said any team would be lucky to have me.” And on he went until the table cleared and the cheque was brought.

The girl insisted on splitting the bill, only slightly regretting it after she saw the price. It was a wonder why people went out all the time. Dating was expensive.

Nathan drove her to her building and walked her to the door. Two hours spent together and the girl had learned nothing about Nathan she didn’t already know. It was doubtful if he learned anything either since he kept calling her Kitty after forgetting her name twice in a row.

She stopped outside the building and turned to face him. This was where the girl thanked the boy for a nice time, wasn’t it? They would say farewell and he would pretend to have enjoyed her company. They would depart as mere acquaintances and never speak to each other again.

“Thank you for—” She paused, surprised to find Nathan standing so close to her.

He grabbed her chin and tilted her head until she could look at him properly. The girl took an impulsive step back, and Nathan followed, trapping her against the wall with an arm on each side of her head.

Nathan was standing only inches from her, and his closeness caused heat to rush to her head. He smiled and leaned down, letting his breath wash over her. This was the closest she had ever been to a boy before, and that boy being Nathan Acosta wasn’t doing her rapidly beating heart any favours.

They were breathing the same breath, lips mere inches away from each other. She could feel the heat of his body radiating through her skin, warming her, and she burned like an inferno under his gaze.

Nathan’s nose brushed hers, and she let her eyes close naturally, nervousness running through her veins like a drug. Hands grabbed her waist, pulling her flush against his body, and she sighed. Any moment now…

A voice in the back of her mind shook her out of her daze, and she realized with a sudden ruthlessness that Nathan was about to kiss her. Alarm bells rang in her ears, warning her that what she was about to do was wrong. Their kiss could lead to more, and she had read enough books and seen enough movies to know that emotions usually got involved at that stage.

 That was not something she was willing to risk.

She turned just before Nathan could kiss her, and his lips awkwardly chased hers until he gave up. His eyes opened with a frown. “What happened?”

Oh. Oh no! How would she explain her feelings to him? She did not think so far ahead and was now faced with an embarrassing situation. She opted to go for a half-truth. “I—I’ve never…” the sentence was too embarrassing for her to finish.

“What? You’ve never slept with anyone before? I already know that, and I don’t care.” Nathan shrugged nonchalantly and moved in for another attempt, which the girl immediately thwarted. She pushed at his chest to bring some distance between them.

God. She felt sick to her stomach. If she were thinking clearly she would wonder how Nathan knew she’d never been with anyone before, but she wasn’t. The girl was mortified at the turn of events and was trying to keep his lips away from hers.

“No, I don’t mean—I mean I haven’t, but that’s not what I—What I meant was, I—” She took a deep breath and decided to blurt out her answer. “I haven’t kissed anyone before.”

There, the secret was out. Nathan would laugh at her and tell her to lose his number. However, what he did instead, surprised her.

Nathan frowned and said, “Okay. Why?”

His question stumped her because she wasn’t sure. There were quite a few reasons: she didn’t have the time, she didn’t have the energy. She wasn’t the sort to be able to become intimate with just anyone. And then there was the reason she ran from home. She didn’t want to drag any potential romantic partners through her dreadful past.

In the end, she decided on a simple answer. Something easy for Nathan to understand. “I’m waiting for the right person.”

And she wasn’t hopeful about her odds, though she did not tell him so.

“Okay,” he said simply.

“Okay?”

“Yeah. We don’t have to do anything tonight. It’s all good.” He leaned away from her, dropping his arms.

She was not prepared for Nathan to be so understanding. He was used to girls throwing themselves at him, but there he was with her, and she wouldn’t even kiss him.

“That’s good, I think,” Nathan said. “I actually just came out of a serious relationship.”

The girl ignored the pang in her heart.

“She cheated on me,” he said quietly.

“I’m sorry.”

“Nah,” Nathan clicked his tongue. “I’m over it. She didn’t respect me or our relationship, so I’m not gonna spend any time grovelling over her. She’s not worth it.”

“Right. Respect—respect is important.” This Nathan was a lot different than the one at the restaurant. That Nathan was shallow and condescending. His conversation was dry.

This Nathan… This Nathan was compassionate and introspective. His conversation was deep, and his thoughts were receptive. Maybe he had been nervous during the date. He was only human, and while the girl clammed up under nerves, maybe Nathan did the opposite and said things he hadn’t meant.

“I—I like to think everything happens for a reason,” the girl contributed. “You and…”

“Marilyn,” Nathan supplied.

“You and Marilyn were meant to be—for however long—no matter what. And who knows, you probably learned something meaningful from the betrayal.” She finished with a shrug, trying to dismiss her words in case Nathan felt offended.

He furrowed his brows in contemplation. “I did,” he exclaimed quietly. Then Nathan looked at the girl with such intensity that she stopped breathing momentarily. “I learned not to take anything for granted.”

Oh. Oh.

Words failed her, so she nodded.

“There’s a party tomorrow night,” Nathan said, “at Delta Kappa Epsilon. You should come.”

The day was just full of surprises, was it not? Did he want to see her again? 

“I don’t go to parties,” she wanted to tell him. “I can’t give you what you want.” But instead, she said, “okay.”

“You’ll be there?” he clarified.

“Sure.”

Seemingly happy with her response, Nathan smiled brightly and laughed. “Awesome.” He winked teasingly, unironically throwing in some finger guns, and jogged to his car.

The girl stood outside the building for a few more minutes, clutching her frantically beating heart. The sun was beginning to set, which cast a soft, orange glow over the landscape. Was this what love felt like? Warm and kind, and encouraging?

Eventually, she found herself inside on the seventeenth floor. Sighing deeply, and with a dopey smile on her face, she used her access card to open the door, collapsing against it on the other side.

Her smile widened, and she bit her lip to contain her emotions. Nathan invited her to a party. That is to say, she did not particularly like parties or large crowds, and kept her distance from places that might bring any attention to her. But it was the end of the school year, and the boy she was infatuated with finally noticed her. So, no, she didn’t do parties or large crowds, but if she got Nathan to smile at her again as he did earlier, then she was willing to do almost anything.

The girl’s insecurities washed away with Nathan’s invitation because while he could have been fooling her in the privacy of the café, he would never parade her around his group of friends if he were not truly interested in her.

Nathan was intent on the Vancouver Canucks—almost as much as they were intent on him, and he planned to sign with them as a free agent a few months after graduation. This was well known throughout campus. Even the most ignorant of people had some idea of who Nathan Acosta was. So, while Nathan would travel during the season, he would spend the majority of his time in British Columbia. Long-distance relationships were not common, but those who put in the effort made it work.

The girl couldn’t help but let her thoughts run free, picturing a future where she was happy and very much in love. Nathan was by her side, and maybe she had a kid or two. A cabin in the mountains and a pet to keep her company while he was away.

Is this what happiness feels like? She loved it. She looked at her clothes. Plain and boring, much like everything else in her closet. What did one wear to a party? A dress? The girl didn’t have any.

She smiled again. Tomorrow she would buy a dress for herself and wear it to her date with Nathan. She bit her lip at the thought of seeing him again. She couldn’t wait.

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[silviakundera]

The Spirealm episode 8 reaction

fair warning: in these episode reactions I'm not gonna pretend I haven't read the novel. in fact, I purposely finished the novel before viewing, to get The Full Experience. thus novel spoilers, including twist end, included.

Human Skin Drum door!!!! Yay!!!! I loved this creepy ass door in the novel.

"I need you."

"What do you mean?"

"I mean literally. You can't die."

"... Can you be more specific?"

Another scene where RN is very intense about LQ and LQ is both wrong & right about asking RN to be more upfront. Like, yes, in a way you could say, he said he needs you so don't die. He's been making heart eyes at you since a day after you met. How much more clear do u want the man to be?? But also to be fair, RN isn't throwing all his cards on the table. In both the novel and here in the drama, LQ isn't wrong that RN is still holding back.

"Some people are born to belong to the door."

Cheng Qingli and his horror movies training ! ❤

Ruan Nanzhu and Cheng Yuxie relationship is always interesting to me. They have an understanding. Yuxie is upfront that he only cares about his brother and so can't be expected to prioritize LQ. RN doesn't agree with his methods (at least in the novel) but lets him make his choices.

The bracelets to enter the doors together! Yay!! I wanted to see them. I'm excited about this door.

LQ meets a mysterious girl with amnesia, Xu Jin. At least he's hiding his identity.

Li Dongyuan (pretending to be Meng Yu) wheeeeeeeeee ❤❤❤❤❤❤

Drama sprite Ruan Nanzhu, delicate since young 😂.

But not LQ inviting the mystery girl to sleep with them. The other two are like, "..."

Some hurt/comfort caretaking in the night, oh no u have a fever! let me feel your neck and pull your covers back over you!

Fondling a human skin flag, as you do.

"Don't look up." -> camera pans up

me: no! ..... silvia, wyd 😑

lmaooooooo when New Girl plays the oh, ling-ge I'm so scared and then Ruan Nanzhu shamelessly plays up at well 😂😭 "Ling-ge, I'm scared TOO" "who says men can't be easily frightened?" and claiming he's younger asdfghjk he's being so catty.

LQ's actor is clearly playing him as repressing his amusement.

So hyped to see the drum ceiling!!!!!!!

The bloody handprints on his back!!!!

It's really fun to see my fav doors adapted. This is why reading the book first is the best experience for a person like me who doesn't readily imagine pictures in their mind.

LQ is so doting in this episode, inspecting RN for paleness and caretaking him asdfghjk He's clutching his arm protectively for so long.

Yeeessss dude go get wrecked in the rain! Loved this bit. Sad they couldn't make it as horrific as the novel

The way RN immediately pushes LQ back ❤ and note he takes the front when walking out. Suddenly way less frail when there might be a threat.

#the spirealm spoilers #the spirealm #silvia watches the spirealm #cdrama

[rotisseries]

the pack plus theo and quinn and jiang and tierney are about to go outside. scott asks lydia if shes ready, she nods. scott turns around and malia flashes her fangs, liam flicks out his claws and then everyone turns to theo whos like 😑 and puts his claws up petty asf . but then stilinski stops them and says "nobodys going anywhere" and lydia is like "i can get through them" and he ssays "we're not gonna fire the first shot. now get back from the door. all of you." and tells parrish to get jiang and tierney back to their cell. scott asked stilinski what happened with monroe. "she gave us til midnight" she wants them, dead or alive, she wants them brought to her band of rebels. anyway everyone helps barricate the doors . monroe is also jamming cell phones and the radio . and its clear that the person who was recruits by monroe is in the station bc ... who else would ahve access to something that can jam a law enforcement transmitter. anyway then the power goes out and someone asks "how easy is it to cut off the power to a police station?" and one of the deputies says "too easy" and shoves nolan into the center of the room. and liam immediately says "Throw him out." and nolan is like "no-no you cant . okay please dont. she'll know i screwed up." and liam says "hes with them." and scott gives him a warning little "Liam.." then liam says "hes a liar and hes sick in the head." and scott is so fucking concerned he doesnt ask right awsy but he looks at liam and nolan ans hes like . what the hell is making him so angry? anyway then sheriff throws nolan in the lock up. turns out nolan and jiang knew each other. idrc ab that. i feel bad for nolan to an extent but like bro. you are highly susceptible to peer pressure and you have anxiety in your eyes. go to therapy and dont beat up your classmates i feel as if that is simple. anyway. for some reasom it cuts to theo dragging liam into the bathroom....? i never understood the point of this scene. have they been talking before this? did theo notice his mood change when nolan came around? things we'll never know. anyway convo goes like 

theo: monroe's not gonna stop. nothing we say is gonna make them get in their cars and drive away. those two losers killed hunters. 

liam: who killed their pack

theo: so what? i mean, monroe's gonna tear through anything standing between her and them. that means you, lydia, malia, and scott. You gonna watch your friends die? 

liam: are you gonna watch hunters murder them? jiang and tierney werent the only ones that were apart of satomi's pack

theo: yeah...right....the hit and run. sorry if im not losing sleep over some random roadkill!

liam: THEY WERE MURDERED. BRETT AND LORI. THEY DIDNT HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH THIS. 

theo: so what you think saving those two is gonna make everything feel better? (scoffs) your dead friends are dead. and theyre gonna STAY DEAD no matter WHAT you d- 

and then liam punches the fuck out of him. literallt mean i heard something break he dropppppeddd to the fllooorrr. literally caught the wall and started sliding down it until he was on the floor lying down. effectivelt shutted him the fuck up.  and then liam steps over him and says "by the way im still working on my anger." and theo raises a hand as liam walks out the bathroom and says "good to know." <-hoarse and raspy. 

hope u know during the whollleee fight they were getting closer n closer to each other so like they literally went into the bathroom for a quickie argument to release the tension ig. now that i think about it theo probably dragged him in there bc hes the only one he trusts to talk to besides the fact liam gets so worked up around him sometimes. funny how he talks about not losing sleep over brett n lori but hes for sure losing sleep . my bad

#ask #ghoultaffy #hi jayme!

[tomorrowillbeyou]

ahhh ok 5 hours on the train but i am back at uni now! the bad news is i am once again sick at the exact same time as last year apparently u can contract freshers flu without even being in the same city or even country 😑😑😑 so hopefully i get better soon bc i had a LOT planned for this week and i need to catch up on some stuff before class starts because i got a really bad grade last year and i was going to study it again over summer and only got like 1 chapter done 😭 and i need to practice cycling to the maths building as well because it is really far away and idk how long it will take and there is no bike lane outside this flat . i am going to sleep tonight for like 14 hours and then take it super easy tomorrow and also i need to get a new sheet because the one i brought is too small.. 😑😑😑😑😑 maybe i will play some guitar or something or do some chill maths just something calm and low stress. and i have a compulsory meeting on thursday but idk if i will be well enough .. i kept freaking out on the train because idk what to do if i get a fever like i dont even know anyone i would have to deal with it all by myself. i probably won't it's not that bad but still. ANYWAY the train was beautiful i had my cds and it was really quiet and i got a mozzarella sandwich and hot chocolate at the station. the only evil bit was they cancelled one of my trains like an hour before so i had to reschedule half the journey. ok anyway that update got wayyy too long . hi everyone i love u all and i hope ur all doing well <3

[heavyhitterheaux]

“Well, I mean there’s pros and cons to both. Pro, I can keep an eye on both of you and kick Jack’s ass as needed and the con? Well, living with your baby daddy who at one point wanted nothing to do with you or his child.” NO LIES WERE FUCKING TOLD!!

“A title that I embrace. I can’t stand his ass and how he did the both of you. Wait until I get my hands on him. Send me the time and place I WANNA WHOOP SOME ASS TO!! & and I’ll even record 🤭

“Okay Harlow, you listen and you better listen good. Y/N is my best friend and I swear on everything that is within God’s green earth that if you even think about going back on your word that I have no hesitations to kill you even if you are my goddaughter’s father.” YESSS JESSS PUT👏🏽 A👏🏽 WEAK👏🏽 BITCH👏🏽 IN👏🏽THEY👏🏽 FUCKIN👏🏽 PLACE👏🏽

“Hmm, you are tall. She wasn’t lying about that part. But I will bring you to my height if I have to. Anyway she’s still sleeping, take care of my girl. Nice meeting you in person finally, I guess.”I love how she told his ass off before they even met IRL 😭 like YESSS BITCHHH LET THAT HOE KNOW U AINT PLAYIN ABT YO GIRL!!

“Well if things had gone a bit differently, she wouldn’t have had to do that. But anyway, moving on.” TELL HIM!! Jess took it lightly HE LUCKY HE AINT GET HIS WHITE ASS BEAT!

"You've seen the latest sonogram. Only thing she might have is your forehead.” God bless YN’S VAGINA 😌 THAT BABY BIG HEAD FINNA TEAR IT TF UP 😭

"But babe…" Boy don’t babe her, you lucky she even thinkin abt it and not js sayin NO FUCK U!

"I'm not trying to have this turn into an argument." Jack said while looking at you. It don’t seem like it JACKMAN 😑

Jess, I haven't felt her move in two days." Please don’t make me cry, REE I CANT DO THIS TODAY 😭

"But you know what I've noticed? Any time we're in Atlanta he disappears for days at a time and he used to not do that. So I'm thinking if anything that's where he's going." Jack is soooo fuckin dumb, like did you rlly think they wouldn’t notice 😒

"Family emergency. Something's wrong with Clay." Honey just stop lyin 😐

Jack- He's fine. Will stay with my parents for a few days. This is really really embarrassing for you Jackman 😕

"His location is saying that he is at the hospital."THIS IDIOT DIDNT TURN HIS LOCATION OFF?!?! Jack did you wanna get caught?? Cause like sir wtf

"Thank you and almost 7 months." H- h- HOLD THE FUCK UP 6 MONTHS THIS WHITE BOY HAS BEEN HIDING THIS FOR NEARLY 7!MONTHS?? I’m thinking maybe 3, 4 if I wanted to push it. BUT SHES ABT TO POP AND THIS BOY STILL HASN’T TOLD ANYONE!? Is he fucking mental 🤨

“He really wasn’t even there for the first four.” You heard Jess mutter, but Clay heard her. WAIT WAS THIS ADDRESSED IN OTHER PARTS & I DONT REMEMBER?? Cause now I’m pissed off all over again 😕

“Jess, please stop throwing me under the bus.” If you wasn’t bullshitin there would be nothing to throw

“They checked on her and said she’s fine, and that she really was sleeping. I just don’t ever remember her sleeping for that long. Like I said, any time she hears his voice, she’s active.” She said I’m tired of my daddy’s shit, wake me up when it’s my time to come out & he stop playin games ✌🏽

“Nope, they were friends with benefits and they met on the Creme De La Creme tour in Atlanta and have been fucking ever since.” Okay damn just put they business out they like that 😭

OKAY PART 2 COMING!!

Jess plays absolutely NO games with him and she'll probably continue to threaten him on a daily basis 😭

Yes he has been hiding her for that long!

The first 4 he was being an ass and started to act like he had some sense in the middle of month 5

Clay was just like... do not include me in your shenanigans lmao

Urban knows Jack like the back of his hand and knew something was wrong the entire time

Oh yeah baby girl is definitely tired of him acting absolutely wild and she is not here for it

And just because Jack designed the cute nursery means nothing lol she is still on the fence about living with you lol

#awhore4moree

[iridescent-x-pixie]

Went out for a drink wit mates n only ate a slice of toast over the past 2 days. Tbf all I've done lately is eat n sleep since being rly sick feel like I'm functioning again but now I'm realising I get really bored of tryna b healthy n thts worrisome. I've spent so long a time not being healthy tht it just leaves me anxious n stressed n rly restless when I do, it's such a slow process n I have no patience lmao I'm well enough now tho, I won't be blacking out anymore so gonna stop pussyfooting about n get bk to walking n as long as I don't eat any proper grim or unhealthy foods I should b okay. For clarity I didn't eat past 1,600 -1,800 was surprisingly less bad than I thought, I get rly scared of anything past 1000/2000 cal it's so fkin stupid like wtf u playing at brain let me existtt 🧠 😑

[gionarrating]

courtney luxenberg

she been reading 📖 - has a rbf. when she does - (pic she'd send anyone if - smile, she looks soo - my fav smile pic 🥰 asked whatever) - happy 💓🥺 -

... - - oh- 😳 def brian behind THE (1st) PIC - princess vibezzz - the camera. prob told her😩 ... - - to pose lol.

backstage. she's a mood - no sugarcoating. luv her 😁 - good morning pics 4 brian lol her skin so clear tho 😩 -

whitish 🤍🤍 🫦

blackish-partyish 🖤 🫦#2

golden interview/sponsorship lol

gf🫶 - strawberry. brian def took her -

. - 🍓 after taking this pic w/o her - dis is so courtney w/

. - permissio. 🙄 - literally everyone👇 🙄😁🫶

-14yo courtney 🥺💓 she grew up so fast 🥺💓😢 gf😁

aww 🥰 she's so cute aka gf material

that stare mami 😫 kylie (back when they were bffs😑)

. def dragged her to a game & clicked it

. cue her being moody lol

video :)

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#her mom had her at 14yo 😳 oh yea, ik. and obv her mom's parents kicked her out. her mom came from a middle class family. courtney's bio dad (some rich guy who was 20 at the time -yup, he was w a minor as a legal adult 😧-) left to the USA the moment her mom told him the news. cuz his dad had connections, and obv didn’t want ANYONE to know his son had seduced and had been sleeping around w a minor 🙄. technically courtney's bio dad's father bribed courtnye's parents to try to convince them to get rid of the baby (courtney) b4 it was born. courtney's mom refused. so she obv got kicked out and eeryone abandoned her. so her mom, now having absolutely NO ONE, worked real had and made it to the US as the foreigners say "to have a better life" lol. they got there. they ver dirt poor. literally. they could afford food prob 2-3 times a week. it was barely anything. but if they wanted to afford that small, absolutely so small 1 room apartment, an excuse of a home they were in, and have a roof over their head, they had to compromise food. so that's how it was. until courtney, lil by lil started modelling, acting, appearing on ads and stuff. 1 day at a time. 1 year at a time. she didn’t go viral overnight. it tool years b4 she finally broke through and became successful and rich. and now here she is :) love u COURT. ps. she loves her more than ANYONE in the world. ofc she has every right to. she was the only person there for her thru everything. and now she wants to give her mom the life she lost because for her 🥹. best mom-daughter duo in der world 🌍. courtney while in school would usually get picked on a LOT. it started getting physical and that's when she started fighting back. from there she learned self-defence. thus the "brian-punching" queen she is now. 😁

#jun 14 '01 #1.79m #please get back w/ brian 😩 #i love you i love you i love you x100000000000 #my sis kylie's ex bff (dont blame me u lost a gem😒. u 2 brian🫵) #y so gorgeous??? 😩💓🥺😮‍💨😳🤯🙌🙀 #dark hair #brown eyes #white girl lol #🇱🇺🇺🇸 #Courtney Luxenberg #model #actress #influncer #hs cheerleader #fairly light olive skin tone #does get tan every now & then #slim as heck model body

[star2sworld]

I need to rant. 🙄

Today started off good. I woke up at 6 let my cat out and went back to sleep. I woke up at 7:40 and my cat and I went outside together then my brother came shortly after ( why is he up so early ?? ) anyways I tell him about my crazy dream and head back inside. I go do my morning routine. I made my bed, did my gratitude journal, morning yoga, journaled, & 13 min mirror affirmation. I then ate rice and eggs & 10 piece chicken nuggets ( still going good). I went to shower after and I hear my sister yelling for me to hurry up because she needs to deficate. Mind you this was less than 10 mins of a shower 😐

I was told we were going to my sisters school last night ACTUALLY was insisted to go so I said ok. After the shower I did my after shower routine and hurried to put makeup on and get myself ready. I put lotion on and layered a few perfumes. After I rushed tf outta my makeup I ask my sister are we going for the second time and she says no I told u that and I said no u didn’t ??? Like wtf?? And then she said my brother told me like omg if he had I would’ve fucking known. I’m so pissed lol I could’ve took my time to do my makeup. I wanted to do a good eye makeup today to make my eyes pop.

I literally hated the way my makeup came out. Maybe it’s good just didn’t look good on me. So stressed a school starts in a week. My eyebrows are literally effed as well. I don’t know what makeup suits my face. Hell I don’t even know how to do makeup anymore. Now I’m laying in bed complaining.

I suppose this is better for me. I don’t have to waste my time going to a college for 2 hours doing nothing there. I can continue working on myself. I’m afraid I’m going to make working on myself will be my personality. Or my entire life. I need to relax and chill too. But right now I can’t lol. Im literally sooo tired. I think I’m going to have a Power Nap ( 30 mins ) although in psychology a nap is only 20 mins because after the 20 min mark your brain thinks you’re going into a deep sleep 😴 Idk if I should sleep tho.

Let me just create a list of things I need to do asap today😐

- vision board

- pictures for room

- mediate

- learn how to manifest

- learn how to astral project

I think that’s it lmao I can’t think I’m still upset no one told me like tf literally was forced into saying yes and then no one cares to inform me 😑

Whatever I’m still mad over the fact I hate the way my makeup came out like I don’t want to look ugly bruh bye asf

[allisonlol]

hello :D congrats on 1k!! could I request tecchou and/or jouno (or any other characters u want) with a s/o that has insomnia? i really love everything you’ve written so thank u for ur work <3

a/n: tysm for the compliments :') u absolutely can!! i love my boys and this is a v relatable req. it's ironic that u ask this actually, since i'm literally writing this at 3am when i know damn well i got a lecture class at 8...

warnings: none!! super fluffy

(Tecchou, Jouno) With a S/O That Has Insomnia

Tecchou

pls the first time he found out you had insomnia, he was so confused

^y'all were sleeping in the same bed (or rather, he was asleep and you were wide awake) when he was woken up by a tiktok audio blasting from your phone

(you hadn't realized the volume was so loud when you'd opened the app, it happens 🤷🏻‍♀️)

literally wakes up all ready to fight someone but then he sees you peeking over ur phone at him like 0-0

glances at the clock to see that it's 4 in the morning before slowly turning towards you to ask just what tf you're doing??

you admit that you have insomnia and sometimes it's practically impossible to fall asleep even when ur super tired

at first he's v confused and doesn't really understand how it's possible to repeatedly stay up so late

but he takes it extremely seriously (maybe a bit too seriously) and starts researching for ways to help

goes to the pharmacy after work and comes home with like 15 different sleep aids that are supposed to help??

you play trial and error with them to see which ones work best, and tecchou "enforces" a rule that u gotta consistently take them

makes you warm tea, soup, or hot chocolate before bed so u are more relaxed

also cuddles u and plays with your hair etc which really helps to lull you to sleep ٩(˘◡˘)۶

stays awake until he's seen that you've fallen asleep first <333

Jouno

finds out ur an insomniac literally the FIRST night y'all sleep in the same bed together

he strikes me as the type to be a bit of a night owl so he's usually up late himself, but you're a whole other story

^due to this i feel that he also knows of several methods that can help you fall asleep faster tho

is pretty strict about his methods of trying to help lmao?? but that's just how he shows that he cares

HOWEVER he does make you some nice n warm tea before bed to help calm you down <33

also gets u those little melatonin pills which work wonders & actually make you tired

jouno is the lightest sleeper in all of existence so he'll wake up immediately if you try to go on ur phone

hell, even if you move in the slightest, he's waking up and asking if you're "trying to be annoying on purpose" 😑

dw he's just jk...kind of

snatches your phone from you and says that the blue light from the screen is only making it worse (and he's not wrong...)

forces you into a set bedtime schedule where u gotta go to bed and wake up at the same time every day/night

except he purposefully makes it an annoying time; like going to bed at 10 and waking up at 6am???? um 😐

jouno isn’t entirely evil tho. he’ll still snuggle u and trace gentle shapes on your back to soothe you

can tell ur awake by your breathing and heartbeat so don't even try to pretend to be asleep around him

despite all your initial protests, the methods actually work wonders and you find yourself able to fall asleep at a reasonable time and not...y'know...7am??

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