#but not letting it dictate their life

[pitch-locke]

There's something so visceral about The Blue Eyed Samurai that really resonated with my identity as someone non-binary, aromantic and asexual.

It feels very genuine in its expression of the experience of a purpose outside romance and love, despite how much everyone insists those are the only options.

Allowing their assigned gender to dictate their life experience is just not an option.

A moment, brief and bitter, where Mizu forces themself to play the role they was born into and trying to find their peace in it, even succeeding in those momentary joys.

But as always, those moments are tainted by dissatisfaction, knowing that that life, that future was not made for them. Or rather they were not made for it.

No room for love or romance, no craving for power or money.

In the moments where carnal instincts could take precedence they will turn their head away as many times as it takes.

They will find their peace in nature, in the sound of crashing waves and soft breezes, make physical contact only when it truly matters. Mizu will never waver. They will never look back.

My body will not dictate the life I choose to lead. It will not sway me from my purpose. I see myself in that.

#stream of consciousness #The Non-binary representation really struck a chord with #not denying their body #but not letting it dictate their life #never acting like a man #never acting life a woman #It just doesnt matter. #it never mattered #born any gender at all #their purpose would be the same #and i see myself in that #mizu blue eye samurai #non binary pride #nonbinary #The Blue Eyed Samurai #Blue Eyed Samurai #lgbtqia #Rainbow Mafia #Queer folx #Asexual Squad #ace pride #Aromantic Homies #aroace #aromantic

[pyjamacryptid]

‘The forest is forever because it dies and dies and so it lives.’ - Tales from Earthsea: Dragonfly, by Ursula K. Le Guin

#bbc merlin #merlin #merlinedit #merlin emrys #arthur pendragon #morgana pendragon #mordred #YOU EVER THINK TOO HARD ABOUT HOW TRAPPED BY FATE AND DESTINY AND PROPHECY MERLIN FELT #THAT HE FELT SO CORNERED AND DICTATED BY IT #AND FEARED SO STRONGLY FOR ARTHUR'S LIFE #WHICH HE BELIEVED TO BE JUST AS DICTATED BY THE DESTINY HE'D BEEN CONDITIONED TO ADHERE TO #THAT HE LET IT ERODE AWAY HIS MORALS. HIS BELIEFS. #(not entirely. he’s still merlin. but he made so many choices or non-choices out of fear. and I feel for him so terribly) #ESPECIALLY WHEN IT ONLY FELT PROVEN RIGHT EACH TIME HE WAS BURNED #AND THAT HIS LACK OF CONFIDANTS (AND THE DEATH OF A CONFIDANT) MEANT HE WAS NOT ONLY TRAPPED BY FATE BUT HIS OWN PERSPECTIVE AND FEAR #it must've eaten him alive until he was so hollow that the fear just spread and made a home #anyway #i'm Normal about this of course #:)) <- evil. but in pain. full of thoughts. #merlin meta #scheduled #ren edits #merlin photoset

[yourleftpinkytoe-blog]

Fuck it. If this post gets 69 notes I will draw literally anything of y’all’s choosing. only rule is it has to be aftg related. (By anything I mean mostly everything it it makes me uncomfortable I will not do it :D)

#I’ll make a poll with the suggestions #idk I’m out of ideas and feel like letting the tumblr masses dictate my life again #aftg #all for the game #the foxhole court #the foxes #andrew minyard #neil josten #aftg fanart #all for the gay

[silvantransthranduiltrash]

Out of all the siblings, legolas is the slowest to anger (this is a hc about my au). Unless you legitimately do something to piss him off, like put his loved ones in danger, he will take everything in stride with an air of nonchalance. It’s not that he doesn’t care, it’s just that he’s immortal and thinks it’s way to exhausting to get mad at every little thing. Especially given the circumstances of him growing up in greenwood/mirkwood where there’s always something happening.

As a result, on the quest legolas comes across as very casual about the quest to those who don’t know him. Bc on one hand, yeah it’s an important task, but on the other hand he isn’t really afraid or interested in fucking up bc he let his emotions get out of control.

Besides, outside of Aragorn, Legolas liked the questers well enough, but not to the point where he’d rage at someone threatening them. That changed more over time, obviously, but the fact of the matter is that in the beginning he would have sacrificed any of the walkers, minus aragorn, in a heart beat if it meant succeeding. Thankfully, he isn’t so paranoid or malicious that he felt he would need to, so he just stayed the nice, casual, chill elf he is throughout the quest.

I cannot stress enough how, on one hand, yes, legolas knew and thought the quest and subsequent battles important, on the other hand: fuck it, it’s just a normal day for him. What’s one more battle?

Not enough troops? Outnumbered? Dirty and tired and hopeless? Well damn, that’s happened so often at that point he doesn’t bat an eye.

Legolas is intimately familiar with the death and despair the likes of sauron causes, so he chooses the act positive, he chooses to be casual and happy. He’s not oblivious to the growing shadow, he just refuses to let sauron dictate his life any more than he already is.

It does result him in looking very flighty to his cowalkers though.

*at aragorn and Arwen’s wedding*

Faramir, musing: you know, legolas is much less serious than i would have thought an elf to be. He’s a very light hearted and happy individual and i don’t think i’ve seen him mad at all during the time that i’ve known him. Even during the battles against sauron.

Silvan elf, who overheard him: no one’s managed to piss him off in over a century, and that’s a good thing. Trust me, that’s not an elf who’s temper you want to test, because once you do, it’s quite terrifying.

Eomer, approaching them: really? Because i know i made him mad when i had threatened gimli during our first encounter on the plains.

Silvan: *snorting* trust me, if he actually felt threatened, he’d have lobbed your head off before you even finished drawing your weapon. It’s just a good thing it wasn’t one of his siblings on this quest instead of him. The rest of them are not only 10 times as quick to anger, but are also a lot more vicious and deadly.

Faramir: is that so?

Silvan: yeah, don’t get me wrong, legolas is definitely strong even for most elves, but his family’s just straight up made up of monsters, and he is the weaker one. Not weak, just the weakest of that family.

#lord of the rings #silmarillion #lotr #the hobbit #lotr elves #thranduil #legolas #mirkwood #greenwood the great #silvans #trans thranduil #shamelessly pushing my ‘miriel and thranduil are twins agenda’ #legolas lore #legolas is a very upbeat elf bc he refuses to let sauron dictate his life any more than he has to #this in turn confuses many elves bc they’d think elves were supposed to be solomn #one thing the silvans prioritize is not letting themselves fossilize and reminding themselves to live #legolas is a chill laidback elf who hasn’t been pissed off in over a century #so noone knows exactly how pissed he can get when pushed #not wven aragorn #legolas isn’t *serene calm* he’s *life’s fucking shit so might as well appreciate what you can get* #i need people to understand that legolas wasn’t that attached to the walkers at first #that it came later #and that at first legolas absolutely would have sacrificed them for the goal in a heartbeat #no one suspects him of this though because he acts like a bit of a ditz

[shineemoon]

230506 dlstmxkakwldrl: じぶんをかんじて、 うたいがいのいやされるじかん！ comment: 나를 바라볼 때 노래 외의 힐링의 시간! (A time of healing apart from singing! // © trans: pieciub)

#SHINee #onew #lee jinki #dlstmxkakwldrl #jinkistagram #yoga jinki #posting yoga pics with a jpn caption... yeah #never let anyone dictate how to live your life

[thegreatcrowdragon]

Ok so I need to get this out before I implode or something

Long (rambling) post incoming

So I’ve been seeing a few scraps of vampire Simon… and it got me wondering, what would his card be? It’s been a while since I’ve really done anything with tarot, but I vaguely remembered The Tower had something to do with stagnation/refusal to change, so I looked it up and I hit a GOLDMINE.

The Tower card represents mostly chaos and destruction, but also sudden change/upheaval, which fits well, with Golbetty and everything. Mostly though, I wanted to talk about The Tower Reversed. The general meaning behind the reverse is resisting change, but most importantly, avoiding loss. This one is quite obvious, the entire series is basically “Simon can’t get over his wife”.

And one more thing that I only noticed once I looked at the card.

It has a crown.

#adventure time #fionna and cake #fionna and cake spoilers #< just in case #simon petrikov #if you don’t know me I am VERY. invested in stuff of this nature. not in a way where I let it dictate my life tho

[duusheen]

Thanks to the study session with Miracle, Jay managed to pass the exam with a good grade. He thought that would be enough to convince his dad that he could balance music and studies just fine, but Leif didn't want to hear it. Instead of the usual arguments, it seemed like such a heated fight that Leif had to leave the house to cool off and avoid saying something that would probably make things even worse with his son

#ts4 gameplay #ts4 challenge #ts4 legacy challenge #ts4 screenshots #I think Leif and Jay clash so much because they not only have similar personalities but also identical aspirations 🤔 #With the girls it was easy because they all seemed determined to pursue a college career and basically do what he wanted lol #But Jay is not willing to let Leif dictate his life and especially his future #and Leif is determined to tell him what to do because he doesn't want Jay to go through what he went through when he was young #Making a name in the music world is even harder than becoming a famous painter and Leif doesn't want to see Jay's dreams crushed #pollock legacy #gen3 #jay pollock #leif pollock #fuck you tumblr hiding my post 😑

[lexa-griffins]

How did Lexa react when she found out about Clarke's dick

Okay okay so about this I have thoughts!

Because of the way June has such a view about men being inherently violent and given her trauma, Lexa was taught that their violent ways, especially their sexual violent ways, came from their dick.

Now, being a lesbian like her grandmother Lexa, both never thought she'd sleep with someone with a dick unless there was violence involved. She was sheltered and fed narratives from a deeply traumatized woman, and as much as she sometimes down right hates her grandmother, she knew there was some truth to her view from the life experiences of the women around her and her own father.

So I think Lexa is at first shocked, like a bucket of cold water was thrown on her. Almost like a fear of what being with a woman who she loves has a dick could mean for her - as if Clarke was to end up hurting her for the simple fact of her having a dick.

It's clear from her reaction to Clarke that Lexa might not want to do this with her anymore, and while the reason /why/ is clear, Clarke does try not to act like it affects her.

Their first time would be desperate and slow as well. When Clarke starts getting dressed and telling Lexa it's fine if she is having second thoughts, Lexa feels panicked at the thought of ruining things with Clarke. Not sex, but the idea that now that her and this amazing woman are finally developing their relationship, she is about to ruin it for a trauma that isn't even hers to carry.

Lexa pulls Clarke back to bed and kisses her, apologizing to her about her reaction. Maybe Clarke would have had a different attitude towards Lexa after her reaction if Lexa didn't look so damn honest and vulnerable and so in love with her. Because when Lexa apologizes she never once looks down, instead staring right into Clarke's eyes.

It is different from what Lexa was accustomed with Costia, but Clarke is gentle with her, reminsing her she does not have to do anything she doesn't want to, but Lexa has this burning need to be as close as possible to Clarke. And that kind of surpasses all the things she was told over and over again by her grandmother because even with their relationship just starting Lexa is most sure of something and that is that she loves this woman more than she ever did anyone and that she feels a safety with her she last feel in her mother's arms.

#letter opened #do i think june and the flowers are outright transphobic? no #but i dont think thornfield would be a place where a trans woman would feel fully safe tbh #and June would definitely be VERY untrusting of Clarke #but Lexa refuses to let her grandmother's trauma dictate her life #she loves Clarke too fucking much to have June try to poison her against her #even if at a distance #is thay makes sense #i have a lot of thoughts about June and how she'd handle a trans woman at thornfield #traumatized woman with a deep fear of men who all but seem to believe men are biologically made to be violent #surrounding herself with women with rhe same experiences as her #who raised her son always expecting him to show his true colors and when it did she felt like it was just confirmation of her thoughts #she couldn't even take her grandson in #thats why i love how June is portrait #because you see the way she acted with her son and you dont support her #even knowing how he turns out #she was a woman traumatized by men who surrounded herself with women traumatized by men #who has such a hatred towards men #im rambling

[oathkeeperoxas]

So @frostbitebakery tagged me in a last line meme, but in the spirit of six sentence sunday I am instead posting the last six paragraphs I wrote because I think they're chewy and tasty and deserve to be seen and likely otherwise won't be. Thanks Frost!

And Ice in turn looks undeniably, deeply sad. Not grieving or mauldin or hopeless or another dozen emotions that Maverick has seen of him that are shades of that feeling, but simply, obviously, incredibly unhappy. Ice carries an dissatisfaction inside him – different to the one that Maverick has, the one that has him burning like a star coming through the stratosphere, but there all the same – and there’s an underlying sorrow that accompanies that, always, but that’s not what this is. Now, he’s just sad, and Maverick has done that to him.  “We tried, didn’t we?” Ice asks, and somehow, even through that sadness, he smiles. Maverick wants to claw through the suddenly huge chasm of distance between them and cup his face in his hands, turn that smile into a true laugh, to make everything right again. To do anything to make Ice happy again. It’s intolerable that anyone hurt Ice. Even him. Maybe especially him. “Yeah,” Maverick says through a thick throat, voice catching. “We gave it a red hot go.”  “I still would do it,” Ice says, eyes deep, seeing, knowing. Not moving from Maverick’s face. Like he wants to savour every second left they have together. “I’d still want to try, even if I knew we couldn’t make it work. I’d still want to know what I know of you, Mav.”  And it hurts like a bitch. Like Ice has stood up and suckerpunched the air out of him, except that would only be a physical pain, and this one instead scours itself deep onto Maverick’s heart. “You can’t say shit like that,” Maverick says, breathless, almost choking on his grief, and Ice closes his eyes, that shade of a smile disappearing from his face. Now, he just looks tired.  “It’s the truth,” he insists. “I don’t usually get to tell the truth, but I’m not going to avoid it here. Even if it was only for a summer – I’d want you to be mine.” 

#icemav #still interrogating these characters. this is a bit of an exploration piece instead of part of a fic but still so delicious #anyway. breaking up due to circumstances out of your control. wanting so so bad for things to be different. but they can't be. #how do you act and how do you feel and what do you say... #mine #my writing #I think Ice has the itch of never being good enough despite what anyone says - he has to prove it to himself but never quite manages #which is what drives a lot of his behaviour in so aggressively following the rules and being at the top #chasing a career as a form of finally trying to be happy with who he is and what he's done with his life and then oops #turns out that letting someone / something (the navy) dictate your life path isn't the way to being happy. sucks man. #go and kiss the man you've been pining for for 30 years about it #anyway that's not totally relevant to this snippet but thinking about character motivations and i think that ice is just. depressed. #lowkey about it. but it's there. and it's never going to entirely go away

[midnight-stormm]

I just want to say this and make it short.

I find it disgusting how some people are using technoblades name to hate on certain ccs who decides on whether they want to continue with dsmp s2 or not continue.

so what if tommy and dream want a fresh start? so what if niki and phil don’t want to start over without him? it’s not our place to say anything besides having a mutual respect for their decision. We are just fans. We mourn technoblade passing and so did his close friends. They are allowed to mourn and grieve differently.

Dsmp s2 is not erasing technoblade and his legacy. Technoblade never dies, and he lives on with us. They will NEVER let him be forgotten.

#people are allowed to grieve differently #just because some move on quicker than others doesnt mean that they arent still mourning #they are allowed to move on and do new things #but that doesnt erase the impact technoblade had in their life #and who are you to decide who should move on or not #who are you to dictate a friendship that you arent even apart of #some fans needs to know what staying in a fans place mean #truly sickening #i get tired of this fandom everyday #dsmp #dream smp #technoblade #dreamwastaken #tommyinnit #philza #nihachu #let them be

[merevide]

people who wanted (and still want) killmonger to somehow return and be black panther instead of just accepting the possibly and fact that it was going to be shuri were so goofy i’m sorry

#like did y’all not watch. the first movie. #he’s an interesting and well written villain but there’s no way they’d let him lead after that and rightfully so #like what made him a villain wasn’t even just the fact that he killed t’challa #the fact that he was consumed with vengeance overrides all the good points that he made #also he ruled wakanda like a dictator and thought about constant world domination #plus why would he come back from the dead. he chose to die in his final moments instead of spending the rest of his life in jail #and even in the ancestral plane he still hadn’t changed even goading on shuri for vengeance and bloodshed (which is what she was feeling in #the moment. but killmonger was a shadow of way she could become and served as a way in her character development) #but yeah tldr shuri deserves the mantle and she’s gonna keep the mantle until further notice stop bringing up how killmonger would be better #because that is a lie #black panther #wakanda forever #erik killmonger #n’jadaka #shuri #shuri udaku #micheal jordan #letitia wright

[emeryleewho]

This Valentine's Day, I am once again asking publishing to stop treating me as a romance author when I've written 29 books and only 2 were romance and those just so happened to be the 2 that trad pub bought from me okay, thanks, bye

#I regret publishing those books so much sometimes #I never wanted to be a romance author and I'm sick of pretending I'm okay with being one #I am not #MCD was literally a fluke #I was like 'let me waste some time before i get back to the stuff i really care about' #and now it's dictated my entire public life for the past SIX years #I am SO fucking tired #personal

[beachesgetpeaches]

saw a few posts be like "but why did the people mag have to state she was not swayed by fans wtf"

bcs she wants you to know that you cant bully her in or out of her private relationships (be it romantic or platonic), but no one is picking up on that.

you've been told you were wrong (whether it's bcs you don't have all the facts, or any other reason) twice so far:

the "ive never been happier" - which could have been anything; her addressing Joe breakup cryptically and hoping people would stop hoping he'd do something, her addressing Matty rumours and how she is happy (and between the lines we don't know the whole story), or just trying to get everyone to back off speculating about her private life...

and now with this people sentence/quote/statement you are once again being told that the level of energy you've directed there has been misplaced, for whatever reason. be it that matty healy is not in fact all these horrible things you have all decided to call him, or that it wasn't that serious, or maybe it was serious but there was no need for such public vitriol.

either way - I think thats what that people magazine statement was for. to very indirectly say "hey guys that was fucked up". but as always, there are people going "wtf why would they put that out as well"... it's for you.

#taylor swift #im just going to chill in the part of the fandom which is actually not this invested in her private life and does not think we as a fandom #hold the power to dictate peoples private lives #stalk people at their homes #and demand all of our celebrities run extensive bakcground checks on everyone they date or fuck or breathe the same air as #oh and demand that our celebs stand up for every issue that affects us #instead of idk maybe letting their activistic actions come from an organic place #everyone is so fucking annoying tbh with performative activism this and that #like just speaking up and not donating and ahit #thats performative #for all i care taylor could have just been happy pride month on stage #and then donated to a good cause #either way

[dogboots]

blog that makes me happy vs nobody will ever take me seriously here as long as I post the way I do

#mousetalk #im aware that a lot of my biggest interests are for children. thats why this main blog looks like a seven year old designed everything #im also aware of how silly i tend to look to anybody who isnt myself. 'adult who likes things for children“ isnt really something you Want #to be known as because this makes you look stupid to folks who do not have or understand the childish stuff #which is pretty understandable. i do look silly taking cartoon dogs seriously and being converned over toy rabbits feelings and whatnot #im not so oblivous as to pretend that i dont lol #i just wish i could enjoy these things and still be taken seriously! im not angry at people for deciding they wont or deciding they dont #like me or deciding im some sort of strange freak who will never grow up. its valid when you consider the everything else about me. #just wish it didnt have to mean that any and all footholds i have in adult spaces werent null and void you know #itd be nice if the two things could coexist. #im really only rambling in the tags like this because having this childish blog as my main ends with me being blocked a Lot #which again! im not mad about! people can choose to interact with who they like and form whatever opinions they want #im just a little sad is all. i have plenty of (mature even!) interests outside of things like stickers or stuffed animals but i cant really #interact with these things here without somebody inevitably looking my way and going oh. another immature person. goodbye #or just assuming that im a child trying to wiggle my way into adult spaces by claiming i am one. according to 1 ask i recieved a while back #i dont know. this really isnt much of a complaint is it. 'people dont take my stuffed animals seriously' is about as stupid of a problem as #it gets haha #maybe someday ill suck it up and rebrand and stop talking about baby animals on my main blog #so i could finally follow a blog for something like a horror game franchise without being blocked on sight #or greeted reluctantly and with an eyeroll haha #TLDR; if this blog stops being happy funtimes it is nobodys fault but my own for being spineless about my own interests lol #i doubt anybody is reading this wall of text (hello if you are) but dont take anything i said in here personally #enjoy what you want to enjoy. dont let me or anybody else dictate that when your life on earth is so short #this is more just me with my own trivial issues that dont matter in the grand scheme of things #okay goodnight everybody thats it for the time being

[musclesandhammering]

If the Loki writers absolutely had to have an unnecessary romance baked into the plot and weren’t cowards, they would’ve paired Loki and He Who Remains together.

He could’ve made it to the Citadel at like the beginning of episode 5 and had more time to build a dynamic between just the two of them- whatever dynamic it would’ve been.

And then that would solidify Loki a major role in the Kang storyline in the main mcu, because in addition to being the one to open the multiverse (sylvie doesn’t exist in this au shh) he’d have an emotional history with the only “good” variant of him.

#also I’m imagining the two having a nice sentimental time where HWR shows loki all the different ways his life could’ve gone etc #and Loki surprises HWR by recognising his loneliness and melancholy hiding beneath the manic mask #and like yea sure HWR paved the road for Loki to get there bc he (supposedly) wanted him to takeover as time lord or whtvr #but he had no idea what would happen once loki got to his castle #all of this is new and exciting and fresh and emotional for him #it’s the first time he’s had a spontaneous interaction with anyone in literally all of time #and Loki empathises with him and feels drawn to him and tries to convince him to work out some sort of compromise #where people can have free will yet the evil Kangs don’t get released #(which is what I think he was gonna suggest to sylvie when he said ‘hang on a moment-‘ but ofc we know how that went) #but kang is tired and just wants change and for his time as ruler to be over so he refuses to compromise #and says either loki can take over as dictator or kill him and let it all loose #and we know which option loki the god of chaos would choose #I haven’t even thought this out rly I just think it had potential #loki x he who remains #loki x kang #loki x hwr #loki series #loki #kang #anti sylvie #antisylki

[stromer]

just watched like 10 stupid innings of baseball while feeling immense hate and bad vibes vibrate throughout my bloodstream just for my beloved team to WIN! local woman experiences repeated crazy bananas level of wins moment

#hEy!!!!!! #in honor of this win i will force my dear friends on tumblr dot edu to gaze at my baseball bff pat SORRRYYYYYYY #we actually didn’t have to do that extra innings shit also . like what about my happiness.... #did we forget that i let sport dictate my joy levels???? (so what if i choose to support teams that aren't objectively good) #anyway thank u sf giants and my bestfriend patty barrels. u fawking losers. i owe u my life