#and im only sane rn because of

[notthesacrifice]

who needs television when there are hour-long team fortress 2 subclass guides

#tf2 #lazypurple #has my godDAM heart #and im only sane rn because of #uncle dane #solar light #etc

[strwbrymlkshake]

It's difficult dealing with so many people who think we aren't meant to be with eachother. I don't get why someone else's relationship can mean so much to bystanders. Can't you find something else to do?

#mine #yandere #yancore #irl yandere #yanderecore #yandere vent #yanposting #i just. self confidence can only get you so far. surrounded by people who are saying awful things wears me down so much #i hate them so much and i wish they never existed. its making me stronger supposedly but the only thing i feel like its actually doing is #making me violent and miserable and angry and nauseous. please stop saying those things about him #i try to block it out but its literally everywhere. this is all i have. this is ALL I HAVE. BUT IT DOESNT MATTER HUH #and it feels like theyre all against me. and the only thing i can do is cry and hate them more and more #and the only thing i can do is love him the most. but only by myself. because no one can comprehend the lengths i would go #and no one takes it seriously and appreciates that its the only thing keeping me sane and the only reason why im here rn #but then again. they dont matter do they? #i just need to permanently kill that part of me that cares what they think. because nothing else and no one else matters!! ok??

[fruit-of-infidelity]

// Relating to this post, I have more updates for just over the past two days huehuehue:

Completed Shuu’s “mini chapters”. Only 5 more boys’ to go (narrowed it down to 3-5 chapters per boy)

Completed up to Richter’s Dark 6

Redid two CGs for Ryuuto’s route ending and after story, because I grew to hate how they looked

#(( productivity when im sad goes brrbrbrrrbrr #(( sad bc im having a crisis about life moving too quick #(( & because of the diaboys :(( #(( I literally read through some more blood routes and got set off when Laito went: #(( ‘fine i guess I’ll mess about at school then :3’ BC I DONT GO TO HS ANYMOREEE #(( how tf have I been out of high school for two years?? #(( anyway lil rant lmao #admin #(( Diahell are ryuuto are the only things keeping me sane rn

[timegears-moved]

last post about this i prommy but like i said earlier people are acting like scvi is a broken mess when it really isn't. sure some polish was needed and i definitely don't agree with yearly releases but like. it's playable and very fun and that's all i ask for in a video game.

i feel like people have forgotten that the purpose of video games is to entertain and nothing more. the rising prices suck yes but that is an industry-wide issue, not just pokemon. maybe i just have low standards but idc im satisfied.

and honestly the glitches that do happen are more funny than anything.

#bwark #ive put 60 hours into it so far and im not even done with the post game #like that feels worth my money to me #it's also really the only thing keeping me sane rn because everything else sucks

[metagalacticx]

.

#it’s really fucking cold rn #also i’ve been sad for like a week and it’s got better sometimes but things keep happening so every time i think #im okay it’s fine… something else happens and it’s like well fuck now i have to deal with this exhausting ordeal again why do i have #to suffer so much #but it’s okay because everything happens for a reason and maybe this is the universe trying to tell me something #like keep taking your fucking meds #but also stop being so emotional and stop wearing your heart on your sleeve #but i refuse to regret thinking i was ready to be a real person again #I wasn’t ready but i refuse i simply refuse to regret believing that i was okay? #anyway it’s kind of unfair how i tried my best and january still turned out awful #like i just wanted one nice thing #but anyway this month has always been for life-changing decisions and i made one today as i do every year #so everything’s fine now #i can’t believe i’m saying this but i can’t wait to go back to work lmaooo #if i’m busy i won’t have time to cry right?? i won’t have time to dwell on stupid inconsequential things i can’t help but notice #sometimes i wish i couldn’t read wish i was illiterate i’d be so sane rn if that were the case <333 #i would feel so secure and everything would be fine <333 #anyway i’m thinking about morey because they are the only thing worth thinking about atm and they’re everything to me also 💖💖 #morey supremacy i wish the teen wolf movie weren’t real skdjdjdj #STAND BEHIND ME COREY 💖💖 i won’t let them hurt youuu 💖💖

[crunchycrystals]

fantasy high sophomore year saved me a little bitt

#crunchyposts #d20 #fh #the only reason why im sane rn is because i hyperfixated on d20 for 5 months #i only got dropout for sophomore year i genuinely felt like i was gonna explode if i couldnt watch it

[sanjisboyfie]

one piece smau: vacation edition

— strawhats being a cute friend group once again

— male reader, everyone having the tiniest crush on him too but thats only if u swuint (im a very selfindulgent writer sorry)

— also i imagine robin, franky and brook to be older than the rest of hte crew, but not like crazy older. its probably not really relevant, but like mid twenties insead of their thirties and forties LMFAOA the rest of the crew is young twenties

liked by ._.[name], princesanji, and 10k others

dni_nami: pre-7hr flight question, how long until we all start killing each other? everyone place your bets

tagged: ._.[name], freeluffy, and princesanji

uso_pp: we barely made it through the airport without losing luffy, so i'm placing my bet on one hour.

[liked by ._.[name], roro.zoro, and 20 others]

-> dr.law: i'm surprised you even made it through airport security....

-> freeluffy: TOORRAOO YOU SHOULD'VE COME IT WOULDVE BEEN SO FUNNNN!!!

-> dr.law: hard pass. good luck everyone else.

._.[name]: i think it's gonna be fine !!! what's the worst that can happen tbh

-> dni_nami: i could list 100 reasons why this is gonna go bad and all of them involve luffy.

-> robinkills: [name]'s right, i think this trip is going to be very fun !

liked by roro.zoro, robinkills, and 11k others

freeluffy: [name] rented bikes for us, but he won't let me drive :/

tagged: ._.[name]

SUPERCOLA: good job [name] for saving his life, much appreciated

dni_nami: i'm begging you two to not crash and make the expenses of our trip go up even more

-> princesanji: always thinking logically, nami, this is why i love you so much <333333333333333

roro.zoro: pick up some sake otw back

-> ._.[name]: yesyesyes we all know thats the only reason why you came anyway, i'll pick some up

-> roro.zoro: what. no way. i definitely wanted to be sat on a hours long flight next to luffy and be living in a small apartment with all of my friends who dont know how to speak quietly and wont let me sleep even when its already early morning. what. i am so excited to be here.

-> uso_pp: alright we get it please stop

liked by princesanji, SUPERCOLA, and 8k others

robinkills: thank you [name] for winning me the prizes :)

tagged: ._.[name]

._.[name]: anything for you robin <3 aka the person thats keeping all of us sane right now <3

princesanji: HOW DARE THIS BAFFOON STEAL YOU AWAY ROBIN PLEASE LET ME TAKE CARE OF HIM, I WILL MAKE SURE HE NEVER BOTHERS YOU AGAIN

-> uso_pp: when is sanji going to accept the fact that [name] is actually apart of this friend group and that he is also more favored by the women we interact with

-> ._.[name]: dw usopp he only puts on a hard front, he ltr begged me to room with him so he could cuddle w me at night. he's just being shy rn

[liked by dni_nami, roro.zoro, and 40 others]

freeluffy: [NAME] [NAME] DID YOU GET ME THEONE I WANTED TOO??!?!?! REMEMBER I SHOWED YOU

-> ._.[name]: yes luffy :) we are otw back and i have the one you asked for as well.

-> SUPERCOLA: [name] the absolute goat in dealing with luffy and his absurd requests so the rest of us dont have to

liked by freeluffy, roro.zoro, ._.[name], and 9k others

uso_pp: morning debrief where we all share embarrassing stories, like how [name] almost stripped completely naked drunk last night because an ice spice song was playing on the karaoke.

._.[name]: alright genuinely why the fuck did that have to be the caption you put on the internet for the whole world to see

-> roro.zoro: no dont be embarassed [name] it was funny watching you try and copy her signature pose

[liked by dni_nami, robinkills, and 90 others]

-> dni_nami: don't think about even crossing me in the future, i have a video of the whole thing bby

-> ._.[name]: GOD FORBID A GUY HAS FUN

skullnsoul: i found [name]'s dancing and singing quite endearing

-> ._.[name]: thank you brook :') you're so sweet

-> skullnsoul: yes, although i feel like you're much too old to be wearing underwear with hearts as the print, [name]. i suggest buying new pairs of boxers :)

-> ._.[name]: what the actual fuck

liked by princesanji, uso_pp, and 11k others

dni_nami: i really wish you could hear sanji cursing [name] outin this photo

tagged: princesanji and ._.[name]

._.[name]: me when im literally following the instructions that hes telling me and i somehow still get yelled at

-> princesanji: do you even understand hwo cooking meat works? everyone would have gotten salmonella and food poisoning if i didn't teach you how

->._.[name]: yelling is never the answer sanji

-> freeluffy: I THINK [NAME]'S COOKING TASTED REALLY GOOD

uso_pp: they acc cookeedddd tho like our food was so tastyyy

[liked by princesanji, ._.[name], and 9 others]

robinklills: sanji almost shoved [name]'s head into the griller, it was funny

-> ._.[name]: HE WHAT ??!?!?! I DIDN'T EVEN REALIZE THAT HE TRIED DOING THA TWHAT THE FUCK

liked by princesanji, ._.[name], and 12k others

roro.zoro: [name] told me to post this photo he took.

tagged: princesanji and ._.[name]

dni_nami: awww look all the boys finally getting along

[liked by robinkills, uso_pp, vivi, and 50 others]

-> princesanji: i would have much rather been in your presence my queen, i love you so much

-> ._.[name]: sanjii give up the bit for fucks sake

uso_pp: where was me and luffy's inv ??? ig its like that now ....

-> roro.zoro: you guys were playing mermaids in the pool at the apartment and explicitly told us to not interfere with your serious business

-> princesanji: and then you started getting mad at us for invitig you again right before we left

._.[name]: damn zoro u lookin mad fine in this photo shiiiitttt #smash

-> roro.zoro: i need you to make sure your door is locked later tn or else i cant promise you will wake up the next day

liked by dni_nami, vivi, roro.zoro, and 12k others

._.[name]: thank u nami for the photos

tagged: dni_nami

._.[name]: btw nami made me post this w that caption so it could "scare away the hoes"

-> dni_nami: im doing them a favor, they just dont know it yet cuz ur fucking insane

-> uso_pp: LMFAOAO

purrrona: can i bite it?

-> ._.[name]: BITE WHAT?????

-> purrrona: so is that a yes or a no?

-> uso_pp: professional dick rider alert !!!!

roro.zoro: why is your thirst trap the first thing i have to see when i open this app

-> ._.[name]: why are you acting like you weren't the first person to like this post???

[liked by dni_nami, robinkills, and 57 others]

portgasace: WHY THE FUCK WAS I NOT INVITED ON THIS TRIP?????

dr.law: id also like to thank nami for the photos

#≡;- ꒰ ° smau series ꒱ #one piece smau #one piece imagines #modern one piece #modern au one piece #smau imagines #one piece x reader #one piece x male reader #x male reader #male reader #male reader imagines

[narwhalandchill]

oh my fucking god i feel. SO stupid rn at How i didnt make the (super sane very normal just absolutely. Yes. Surely) connection earlier but uhh

so anyway im now like 89% certain that whatever the "traces" of the narwhal that remain on ajax and facilitate their (ever-growing) innate connection are like. an actually fundamental aspect of it (them?) more or less.

why? because if you consider its pov just for a moment. the narwhal was literally about to depart teyvat for good. it had nearly finished consuming the primordial sea and preparing to breach surface to finish the job by eating the french for the leftovers their human bodies were made from. its an interstellar voyager it does not linger on planets it devours. it goes glug glug and it leaves.

and like if it wasnt for traveler intervening its confirmed through narzissenkreuz and renes world formula that teyvat wouldve just been destroyed. no one could have stopped the narwhal not neuvillette not focalors not anyone.

so what was the one other thing it did right before going for that french brunch? calling for ajax. getting them reunited in the primordial sea. like all the possible implications aside bc theres many different ways to speculate on the exact reasons why and the nature of that link. the point remains.

it wasnt leaving teyvat without finding him.

like the narwhal is about to fucking Dip from this cringe planet and whatever part of it that ajax carries within himself his narwhal Absolutely wanted to be reunited with. what the fuck am i supposed to read from that. hoyo???????!??! answers?!?!?!

and its not only the calling from the narwhal side itself either bc this is ALL coinciding with the growth of a 'restless power' within ajax and his vision malfunctioning (the things celestia is literally confirmed to harvest energy thru to repair its damaged authority) and his connection with the narwhal reaching an actual conscious level (arguably subconscious n emotional too bc i find it Curious his mood is poor right as the narwhal is repeatedly described as positively malding to the point its boss fight mechanic is literally a rage meter). ajax' power is growing. his destiny is starting to shift and something is drawing him to fontaine... right as the narwhal is getting close to finished with the primordial sea. funny how it overlaps eh. how it aligns 🤨🤨 why are they orbiting each other like this (they should kiss)

(& not to even Mention how ajax just Happened to get that absolutely exponential and borderline unbelievable feat of power spike in extending his foul legacy endurance as massively as he did. while. within the primordial sea. with his narwhal. who had at that point all but incorporated the power of that sea into itself. i s2g if childe was getting passive home turf co-op bonus exp with a 4x multiplier automatically the whole 40+ days 💀💀)

#man the way its lovely reunion but tjen ajax fucking ATTACKS IT ON SIGHT you couldve gotten married!!!!11!1 fucking unbearable i am in agony #anyway contrary to popular belief we still have no fucking clue whether ajax' link to the narwhal was innate #skirk saying the traces remain on him after meeting it isnt saying tht much. the parts he shares w it couldve well been innate but dormant #instead. also just the fact that he woke it up already shady #then like. monoceros caeli being his from the beginning is completely plausible despite ppl acting like its been confirmed his const change #and like them being halves of the same entity on some lvl would make the narwhal being so weak without him n until ajax found it again #make very much. sense. anyway ajax toxicity jokes aside if the narwhal was just trying to eat him point blank without even a hello #i do get why hed react aggressively. but also bros been telling everyone n their mom hes fighting his narwhal the seconf he finds it again😔 #so i feel somewhat confident in assuming he started that 40+ days brawl #anyway if ajax Isnt the celestial narwhal on some level or possibly becoming it as their link grows. #riddle me this atheists. why is his 3rd phase boss theme. the song about His individual murderous rage at us #bc he thought he was outplayed by us. His personal wrath #whys the song for that called the wrath of the celestial narwhal. of the star swallowing whale. Hmmmge. his individual rage. #why does tusk of monoceros caeli speak of him embracing the narwhals innate qualities as embracing mere parts of Himself #funny how tjat goes!! (the OST n boss drop is not 100% serious theory but it does drive me insane. bc why would they phrase it like that) #anyway either theyre 2 halves same original entity or theyre soulmates idgaf . they should fold teyvat in half and eat it for brunch #aaand im going to be consumed by this realization for the next month wish me luck #WHY DID IT NEED HIM THERE SO BADLY???? HUH?????? #i mean relatable dont we all. but its sooooooooo inch resting. Curious indeed #rambles #genshin #childeposting #childe #narwhalposting

[kenlvry]

reader as kennys, tweeks, and butters older sibling!!

an: someone requested this but i accidentally deleted the request i panicked so bad and im sorry!!! butters colour is only on laptop and my laptop is at home rn so for now butters is

gn btw!

kenny mccormick

you and kenny were inseparable even though you were a year older than him you would still talk to him during recess, even sometimes dropping by his class to annoy mr garrison. when things got tough at home esp when mom and dad is fighting you and kenny would always protect kevin and karen, you two are the most sane people in that house fr.

you were always protective of kenny and would travel to the world and back for him, when he introduced his friend group to you, you were..... shock to be honest. esp the one whos a disrespectful racist sexist person who mocks the jew friend. the others was decent, the most normal friend out of the three of them is definitely kyle, you'd trust your little brother anywhere with kyle. but with cartman? you might have to spy a little.

you sometimes hang out with them! just to protect kenny of course, they dont mind tbh. but you were worried on how stan thinks of you because whenever he sees you he pukes, you tell your little brother but he says to not worry and laughs abt it, you wonder whats so funny about it??

sometimes kenny also follows you around with your friend group, they dont mind, they think hes the most cutest thing ever. they would surround him and compliment him, he definitely likes it.he was protective of karen and you were protective with kevin, you two always try your best to support your other siblings. doing extra shifts just to buy them toys they never got as a kid.

whenever kenny wants to do something you were always there to support it, it doesnt matter how stupid and dangerous it was, you were there to help him no matter what.

you dont remember when kenny dies so whenever he does you'd go livid, you'd cry all day and mom wasn't helping either. who was going to help you support the other two now? who's gonna accompany you when you feel like getting food? you were crying 10 buckets but then just like that you were okay, you didnt even know what you were bitching about.

in conclusion he's definitely your bestest friend. even if he kills someone you'd defend him with your life, you'd do anything for your little bro.

tweek tweak

ever since tweek was born you'd swore with your life to protect him, he was the cutest thing ever, everyone calls you the perfect older sibling. you were two years older than him, 6th grade.

you were really famous amongst the school, everyone liked and respected you. anyone knows that if they mess with tweek, they mess with you. you'd act all tough infront of your friends but then your lil bro came along and you were all soft petting his head comforting him, giving him coffee candy to calm his nerves. almost every 6th grader loved tweek bc of his older sibling.

at home if he had a panic attack or would get really anxious you'd calm him down with coffee (that you bought yourself so no weird shit in it) you knew what your parents put in his drinks thats why you always tell him to only drink your coffee and not to drink them, he doesn't get it and would still drink it but only if he is realllllyyyy stressed out, he trusts your opinions

he trusts you alot, if he gets worried about north korea attacking again you would def help him.

every morning when he buttons his buttoned up wrong you wanted to help but he'd freak out, boy hasn't had his morning coffee of course he's freaked out. you'd forget to fix it by then so you just let it be.

you love him so much and wouldn't ask for any different younger brother, and he is very grateful to have a older sibling as nice as you.

leopold "butters" stotch

butters was the sweetest angel and the best younger sibling you could ask for, although you hated your parents you cared for him so much.

whenever your troubling with something he'd always try to help out anyway he can even though he cant help but he'd try anyways. you hated how unfair your parents was towards butters, he'd get grounded for the stupidest shit and you always argue to your dad about how unfair he's being but instead you'd get grounded too.

you always took the blame for him because he's still a kid and needs to enjoy the outside world, not be cooped up in his room. everytime that eric cartman tricks your sweet angel brother to do something stupid, you hold in the urge to murder some 4th grader, you try talking him out of it but he insisted saying cartman was a good person and hes a good friend, oh how naive butters was

he was very grateful to you and whenever he had doubts about something you are the first person he'd go to, it didnt matter how stupid the doubt was you are always trying to help your sweet younger brother <333

#sp kenny #kenny mccormick x reader #sp kenny mccormick #kenny mccormick #south park kenny #tweek tweak #south park tweek #sp tweek #sp tweek tweak #south park tweek tweak #south park kenny mccormick #butters stotch #leopold butters stotch #south park butters #sp butters #south park x reader #south park x y/n #south park x you #south park

[kdramastrix]

One thing we know about TDJ is that it's INCREDIBLE when it comes to foreshadowing and parallels and while i was rewatching this scene i noticed this:

Interestingly, the professor literally quotes Yohan's mindset when it comes to the corrupt justice system here. Yohan LITERALLY says later on "There's no justice in real. It is all just a wicked unfair game."

Which tells me that he DOES agree with Yohan, he just doesn't agree with his ways. But then he goes on about how Yohan has illogical rulings & stances and has passed weird impractical laws. Which has no substance, only Bias and i really like that Gaon is witty enough to recognize that little undercurrent of dislike & tinted passive aggressiveness the professor has for Yohan.

Onto Gaon's intuition and his ability to understand the subtext here. I like that he recognizes that MJH not only despises Yohan, he also harbors injustifiable abbhorence for his ways which further leads to him suggesting that Gaon infiltrate Yohan's space, that too, not just by playing spy but by being Yohan's JUDAS.

Judas who was one of the most important people to Jesus, a companion, a devotee, a lover, a lifeline. and because he was so much, his betrayal wounded all the deeper, fatal even.

Gaon is aware that his professor is not only asking him to dig dirt on Yohan but to actually INDULGE & blend into Yohan's life to find his ultimate weakness (that is so fucking gay OMFG im trying to stay sane, wise and political here but jfc, pun intended). For him to actually UNDERSTAND and USE the word of Judas for his role is so. Yeah. Okay. Let me take a moment here.

Additionally, i would also like to point out THIS foreshadowing.

Even as Gaon & the Professor essentially stand on the same side rn, they are still standing at odds with each other IN Yohan's court, faces away, eyes set at different points, different goals.

While the professor is looking at the Balance (symbol of justice), Gaon is gazing into the darkness, a void unbeknownst to him, a field he is not certain of, unbiased yet unafraid.

Which basically translates to how they will oppose each other & that force which will compel them to disagree with each other is going to be none other than Kang Yohan.

I just really. Love this bit. And i was so gagged when i watched it so i had to come and talk about it hehe.

#the devil judge #kang yohan #tdj #kim gaon #kdrama #ji sung #the devil judge meta

[boywifesammy]

im sure everyone’s seen the argument by non-wincest shippers that canon weirdcest moments can be explained off as particularly close brothers. i’ve seen wincesties respond by straight up denying it, but honestly, i see where they’re coming from. they do TECHNICALLY have a point, yet still, it fundamentally doesnt sit well with me.

if you isolate all of these little incidents they could be perceived as purely brotherly. its got me thinking about what exactly makes wincest so appealing, and why i as a wincest shipper immediately have an exasperated reaction to people insisting that sam&dean are purely platonic.

i also see this argument frequently bundled with the stance that “weirdcest isn’t a justification for shipping wincest” (which is a whole other can of worms altogether— the puritan culture of ship culture rn), but you gotta take a step back and just ask yourself… why am i so intent on seeing these characters as platonic?

the prevailing argument ive seen is that siblings CAN be terribly close without being incestuous. this is totally fair. i’m not saying that if you are particularly close with your siblings in a sam & dean type manner that you are incestuous. obviously relationships between family is vastly complex & changes with the culture you grew up in.

the only problem here is that people try to go so far to explain sam&dean’s relationship as to not paint it as romantic. if they weren’t related, it’d be insane to think they weren’t romantic. they are consistently and repeatedly put in situations and exchange dialogue that’s used to convey romantic tone in western media. my point here being— the writers know that they are doing. and they are doing it INTENTIONALLY.

yes, certain cultures find extensive physical touch and kisses between siblings platonically acceptable. yes, you can be very close to your siblings without wanting to fuck them. but that is such a reach given what you are being presented with. you are missing the fundamental thematic point of supernatural: family horror!!

by so steadfastly arguing that sam&dean cannot be read as romantic you are purposefully ignoring the the text. you are glossing over the repeating themes of generational trauma and incest that are touched on time and time again, with john’s father abandoning him, mary’s parents being hunters, the struggle she went through to get out of the life but how family trauma & the past permeates itself into your being. you are ignoring the benders, the ghost pregnant with her fathers child, and the time azazel KISSED MARY in HER FATHERS BODY.

supernatural pushes incestuous themes SO HARD. it purposefully plays with & explores the double-sided blade that is family. it touches on a REALLY TABOO subject without being overwhelming or heavy handed. of course its going to attract people who enjoy these themes. OF COURSE we’re going to look at the two homoerotic brother leads and see something between them! it’s intentionally placed in the script! its a valid reading of the text!

this is why i get frustrated when people say that wincest shippers are twisting canon for the sake of shipping, because we’re not. when people say this they are taking a piece of media that is intriguing in how it handles a socially unacknowledged part of the human experience and forcing their viewing of it on others. they are saying that you aren’t allowed to enjoy those themes because it is inherently wrong or shameful to EXPLORE THE TOPIC. i dunno. that sounds pretty authoritarian to me.

it’s totally fine to be grossed out by incest or avoid wincest because it makes you uncomfortable. what ISNT okay is to say its an exaggerated reaction to canon, because it really isnt. in fact, its a pretty normal & sane conclusion to come to after seeing those two. the fact that they aren’t explicitly incestuous might even enhance this idea. it touches on the unspoken secretive nature of family trauma and the complicated, messy reality of crossing boundaries with blood without being cliche or overdramatic.

im going to incite occam’s razor here: yes, they could just be brothers. yes, you can explain it all away as particularly close siblings. yes, you can argue that it isnt explicitly canon. but really, why would you do all that when the show incessantly implies that they’re more? and more importantly, why are you so quick to say that a topic cannot be explored because it’s complicated? is that really the sentiment that we as a society want to hold regarding media?

#oc #supernatural #spn meta #dean winchester #sam winchester #wincest #samdean #fandom discussion #anti censorship #<- will not be using the word pr/shp because im not a fan of it #it does the idea injustice because it isnt just about shipping but media censorship & social literacy as a whole #but yeah. this has been floating in my brain and i needed to get it out #if any of you have thoughts pls reply or elaborate in tags!! #this is something thats very important to me and i wanted to put it out there

[tojisun]

biker!simon is the only thing that's keeping me sane rn luv the softness need him fr😩😭♥️

HELP NO BECAUSE ME TOO

i adore how much he loves you :(( the effort on his part to always ensure youre safe and if you feel like you arent, then hes calling all quits and driving you around his car instead. the way he does those ‘little’ things – buys you a matching helmet, customizes his gloves so he can always drive around with your initials, drove away to rent a helmet so you can do little donuts at the park??

its so simon :(( yes its just an au but i love thinking about how simon loves so deeply. simon whose love language is acts of service and words of reassurance (totally not because im hc-ing this as a ‘i never got this when i needed it so now im giving it away to you because i always want you to know i love you’ trope on his end). simon who is so so patient and gentle. who is passionate and fiery.

i love him ur honour. i so love him its insane

#biker!simon #anon #ask #simon ghost riley x reader #simon ghost riley #he deserves the softest love ever <33 a type of love that he doesnt have to die for yk :( #suns

[ifidiedinadream]

since bc's new song is dropping tonight, im kindly asking you not to send me asks about how much you don't like it/don't like the band('s music) anymore

as much as i respect your opinion and think it's valid (i even agree with many of the points usually made in posts about it!), reading about it brings me down and makes me sad since i still love them with my entire heart and they're the only thing keeping me sane basically

yesterday was spotify wrapped day and i participated in a few games on my other blog and i guess it kinda hurt to see how many people fell out of love with them because of their latest few singles. i know it probably isn't healthy and im too sensitive and too impressionable and whatever and im obviously not saying you shouldn't express your opinion and criticize the band's new direction if you don't like it. all im asking is for you not to send me personally negative asks about it since i know i'll be very excited and i fear it could ruin it for me

thank you so much and sorry im so, idk, in italy we say "heavy", a burden i guess. i know i shouldn't take it to heart. guess it's a vulnerable moment for me in general and im fragile rn idk

#only posting this cause it happened when deadzone came out and i got a little sad #again i understand the critiques but im trying hard to keep this blog my safe place and i want it as negativity free as possible #ideally

[flango87]

I’m thinking about how we are seeing, and will continue to see, major media and zionists paint Aaron Bushnell as insane, but really this has been the most sane reaction we’ve seen. I want to clarify that I think it’s incredibly important to not glorify Aaron, as I’ve seen some people do, because a) he’s just a person, glorifying is a form of dehumanization, and b) despite any other good work he did, he was still incredibly complicit in this genocide, being a part of the US military. He literally said this. He knew this. So just so we’re clear that I do not intend to glorify him with saying this. But this really was the most sane reaction we’ve seen. He was a person of clarity. Learning about the other work he was doing in community organizations, seeing his posts online, and just all of the thought and preparation put into his self immolation. Not only in the way he did it, so that it was explicitly clear the message he was sending, so that major media couldn’t ignore it, so that the video was sure to be seen, but the act itself. The clarity of it all. And this is exactly what he said, “this will be seen as extreme, but this is what the ruling class has decided is normal”. I’ve been having moments of feeling insane, questioning if I’m losing it because of my reactions to everything happening rn. I’ve been having people question me. I’ve had the general reaction of, ‘yeah, things are bad, but life goes on, you need to find ways to cope’. After Aaron’s protest im questioning my sanity in the opposite way. How am I not doing more? How is everyone not doing more?? Obviously there are a lot of people working hard and doing everything they can, but that’s a select few. The vast, vast majority of people are doing far from enough. Things are continuing as normal, jobs, events, all of it, because we are letting it. Major organizations and people with influence are hosting fundraisers, saying ‘ceasefire now!’, and calling It a day. Idk. I know there is a lot of work going on, and it’s just difficult to see. I know we can’t riot tomorrow and shut it all down, and there is so so much work that needs to happen before the bigger stuff. We need mutual aid programs, education, organization. But still…. Aaron was right. What he did was not extreme at all. We need to be more extreme. And maybe I’m just projecting here, because I know that I should be doing more. But given the extreme weight of our collective situation… protests and workshops look comical next to it. That’s not to say they’re not necessary, or important, but we need to remember the gravity of everything. We need to never allow ourselves to get used to this. We need to never allow this to be normalized. Idk, this is a very messy attempt at sharing my thoughts, but Aarons self immolation has shaken me to my core. I think it has for a lot of people. What he did was intended to be not only a wake up call, but a call to action. Let it call you. Question and push what our society calls ‘reasonable’ every day. Do not become desensitized. Act urgently, but not frantically. Talk to everyone in your life, learn about mutual aid and get involved, join organizations already advocating for justice, and be extreme. Let people think you’re extreme. Reacting in an extreme way is the only sane reaction to an extreme situation. If you’ve read this all, thank you for reading my ramble. I hope you take something from this.

#free palestine #ceasefire now #palestine #aaron bushnell

[zoeykallus]

im feeling really fukibg sad rn so tbb’s reaction to your passing on the battle field? no need to do it but i just love ur writing 🤧🤧

So sorry you feel down! Are you sure reading something sad is the right thing to do about it? Well if it's your wish I'll give it a try.

The Bad Batch x Reader - Mourn You

In battle you were mortally wounded and drew your last breath...

Warnings should be obvious: Death (a lot) / Sorrow / Hurt / Angst /Depression / Mental Breakdown Nothing sweet and fluffy here. If you want your heart to break, keep reading.

Hunter

He saw the fatal shot hit you, right in the chest, as you went down. His heart beats incredibly fast and hard. The last opponent is finally on the ground and Hunter can rush to your side. The closer he gets, the clearer it becomes to him that you are not moving. He knows even before he feels for your pulse that he won't find one.

His heart clenches in his chest. He swollows hard, trying to not lose it right here and now. There are still enemies nearby somewhere. He calls for help. It hasn't really sunken in yet, he only knows he wont leave your body here, he can't. As soon as he is back with the others, when they come to get the two of you and he sees the looks on their faces, that's the moment he finally realizes, that's the moment when it sinks in and it feels like lead filling his bones, tearing him down. He can barely stand upright, but somehow he does. His thoughts go heywire, he wants revenge. Hunter will be bitter for a long time, hard to be around for anyone and more determined than ever before, to take down Separatists. The only reason he at least tries to stay sane and reasonable is Omega.

Echo

He's already lost so much in this war and as he sees you fall, his heart skips a beat, he feels like falling as he hurries to your side. Feeling your pulse and not finding it he starts to panic and hyperventilate. He can't lose you! Echo is shaking as he calls for help, shaking and crying, feeling disengaged with reality.

When the others arrive he is still holding you in his arms, crying over your dead body, cradles you like a baby. His brothers have a hard time taking you out of his arms, he curses, and screams at them, trying to fight them off. He is very emotional, losing you is the last drop, after all he's been through, this one more thing he can't take.

Echo starts to distant himself from everyone, most likely not to recover from this loss.

Wrecker

Wrecker has a hard time realizing you are gone. He brings back your lifeless body and the others are trying to comfort him, but he is no where near understanding that you really are gone. Denial is his companion for a long time. Waking up in the morning and expecting you to be next to him in bed is a regular thing, one that breaks his heart, again and again every morning. Some nights he doesn't sleep at all, afraid to wake up just to be heartbroken again.

It takes a long time for him to get better. But he tries to go on, because he thinks that's what you wanted for him. He is slowly coming back to who he was before, but he still never is the same happy giant anymore, but he tries, for you. He'll always hold you in loving memory.

Tech

Your tragic end seals his as well. The moment he sees you fall his brain goes into overdrive, thinking of everything he knows that could save your life. He thinks after all, what is his exeptional mind worth if he can't save you? He is willing to try everything.

Tech hurries to your side, he's trying every trick he knows about, cardiac massgae, mouth-to-mouth ventilation, adrenaline shots... he's desperate and fully focused on you, trying so hard to bring you back, slowly but surely losing hope, starting to panic. What else could he do?

He is not aware of a few left over enemies approaching him. When his brothers arrive, they sadly have to pick up two dead bodies, not just one.

Crosshair

He sees you fall, shoots down rows of enemies with his rifle, fast and precise as always. When he reaches you and realizes that he has lost you, he feels rage, he is incredibly angry. He refuses to be sad, anger is so much easier to deal with. He tries to suppress the feeling of loss, he can't allow it, he knows it will eat him up.

You were such an important part of his life, he can't stop thinking about you lying on the ground, lifeless. He clings to his anger like it's a lifeboat in a storm.

But anger also makes him headless. In one of the future missions, he will have gotten in over his head, will no longer be able to control his anger, will only want revenge and make mistakes that will ultimately cost him his life.

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Author's Comment:

I just feel like I went through a meat grinder.... geez

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#this one hurt me too #hurt #angst #death #star wars #the bad batch #headcanon #tbb #sw tbb #tbb tech #star wars headcanons #tbb headcanons #hunter #hunter tbb #wrecker tbb #tbb wrecker #bad batch #crosshair #star wars the bad batch #wrecker bad batch #echo #tbb echo #echo tbb #echo x reader #the bad batch echo #crosshair x you #tbb crosshair #tbb crosshair x reader #crosshair tbb #asks

[mossmurdock]

mosss!!!!! do you have any songs that remind you of knight!sugu??? or maybe just knights overall?? i'm so curious heheheh

- @softgirlgonehaywire

oh my god mickey the can of worms uve just opened,,,this is such a goood question!!! ive had knight suguru in mind specifically for these along with butcher!reader in mind

divine loser by clem turner

tongue & teeth by the crane wives

sane by haley heynderickx

weak for your love by thee sacred souls

how i get myself killed by indigo de souza

i now realize nearly all of these are very angsty songs but i promise the fic itself wont be so awful!! (so far...) this is a very short list atm, but i am for sure going to update it eventually this was so fun to think about i cannot believe i hadnt before!

i didnt just want to list these so here r some specific lyrics that particularly hit for me while thinking about the au. (its taking everything in me not to include all the lyrics rn LMAO)

first up is divine loser by clem turner!!

dear god this song guys. this song. it is so suguru geto, it has his name written all over it!! i really do overuse it in any writing i have for him because this guy is so truly a divine loser. a wet ball of eurgh but in an almost religious way i hate him (lie)

here are some of the lyrics:

My bad habits don't heal They wear a different dress I'm coming down with something I lost my own respect

I bit my fingernails Until I tasted bone So my body remains But my purpose just stopped

DEAR GOD DO YOU GUYS SEE THE VISION??? he's so..he's so....i cant anymore yall. (spolier!! this is also such an amazing song for preist!suguru I MEAN COME ONNNN)

anyway next is tongue & teeth by the crane wives!

this one is angsty<33

And I know that you mean so well But I am not a vessel for your good intent

You gotta know that this won't last Desperation will erase the fact

I will only wring you dry of everything But if you're fine with that If you're fine with that

there are so many more lyrics i have in mind here but these are the ones that make me go "HURRAY HUZAH!!" for this one specifically, im seeing it as from the pov of the reader and addressed to suguru (i hope this doesnt spoil much LMAO)

next is sane by haley heynderickx!

another one where i had the reader in mind, though it was a bit more difficult somehow. im not sure how to explain it, but the significance of this one is a little more complex? hopefully that makes sense

Why am I frightened if it's all just a game But the look in your eyes Oh the look in your eyes Oh the look in your eyes kept me sane

Why am I childish, oh why can't I make sense If everything's certain, well I'm certainly offended

(this lyric in particular has me thinking of both of them!! themes of struggling to understand the world around you. DO YALL GET IT!??!)

next is weak for your love by thee sacred souls!

oh this one is so sweet, it is wonderful and warm and i love the sound of it i highly recommend it. the repetitiveness of the lyrics really get to me here because repetition is such a love struck thing isn't it? and that's a huge part of the beginnings of their relationship (at least what i have in my head so far<3)

Pretty lady, you have me so weak Pretty lady, you have me so weak

You have my heart inside your hands (you have my heart) Baby, be careful what you do with me (be careful, baby) You have control of all the strings (ooh) Baby, be careful what you do with me, me (be careful)

Oh, baby, I go crazy for your love Oh, baby, I go crazy for your love

TEARS THIS SONG APART LOVINGLY RAGGGHHHHHHH MUNCH MUNCH MUNCH CRUNCH SNAP TEAR

here comes the very last one!! how i get myself killed by indigo de souza

oh and we r back to angst :'0 ++also this is by one of my very favorite artists pls check them out!!

on another note! this is a song i also used for my fic "more than living" which again, seems very redundant, but i can't help myself. reduce, reuse, recycle is my very best motto.

This is probably how I get myself killed This is probably how I get myself killed This is probably how I get myself killed This is probably how I get myself killed (more important repetition are we seeing a pattern here? LOL)

Oh, come when you're called If this all we've got to work with, then it's all we've got to blame

I'm lovin' your skin darlin', I'm lovin' this hot morning I need to be kicked, maybe fucked, maybe told I'm in the way

the initial meaning of this song, if im correct, is based on a very toxic relationship. which still somewhat applies to this au, but ive sort of expanded on it another way. i had suguru's responsibilities and duties as a knight on the mind! the beckoning!! come dog, and heel while you're at it! <- that sort of thing if yall catch my draft and ofc the reader picks up on this,,,and is maybe a little mean about it :o

anyway WE ARE FINALLY AT THE END LETS GOOOO!!! this was soo much fun! thank you so much for the ask darling i loved it<33

BUT IM VERY CURIOUS NOW!! ur such an inspiration do have any fic playlists of your own, or any stray songs floating around reminding you of certain fics or characters or even interactions?? I WILL TAKE ANYTHING AND PLEASE DO TALK ABOUT IT (if u have the time ofc)

i unfortunately have yet to get through much of your longer writing but i would absolutely love to have something to listen to when i can!

#this got so unbelievably long i am so sorry mickey #but thank u again this was such a treat!! #moss answers #ch: geto suguru #the way i correlate songs gets very iffy btw so i completely understand if some of these make zero sense LMAO #i catch a vibe and half the time it will only make sense in my own head #there r probably so many mistakes in this post but im too excited to post it !!