#Notes I'll never send

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Lan Wangji Goes To Lotus Pier AU: Part 3: Enveloping Feelings.

(Part 1, Part 2, Part 4 (soon))

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #lan wangji #Yungmeng Jiang training arc AU #I wanted to try out a different paneling style for this one - sorry I'm a day late! (there will still be a post tomorrow to keep on track) #The original 3 panel comic idea was fine but the point of this new schedule was to take time to push myself a bit more. #I was taking a look back through some comic artists I felt inspired by #and I really loved how Lynda Barry fills her gutters with patterns and doodles! #Obviously I'm not going as absolutely wild with it as she does but it was a great exercise! #I truly think the gutters are the most important and most overlooked part of any comic. There's lots going on in that space. #It's the same with timeskips. The implied movement between moments that we don't see changes depending on how wide that gap is #You're here for the funny tags so here's some that ties this time talk together: #I think LWJ was thinking about that second note from day 2 but it took him 7 days of hazing to commit it to paper. #I think he sends it a day later and immediately regrets it. Chasing down the messenger and everything. #You know if something actually happened to his brother he would never ever forgive himself for putting the bad vibes out there. #Third time skip was the hardest because there was so many possible flavours of jokes here. Day 8/9 was a personal favourite. #day 14 was also funny (week by week). I think the debate on 'how long does lwj take to catch feelings' is more or less: #'how long does it take for him to arrive at a particular stage of grief and yearning (and awareness of it all) #This is a symphony. There is an act by act structure. Every day he is fighting to keep his old sensibilities. He is losing so badly. #(I'll be returning to the main comic soon but there is more of this AU to come!)

[doodlingbot]

[gift for the speedrun champion.png] Surprise I'm drawing your Stanley for once!

Something of a bit of surprise gift art for @alexis-royce because his reply to my comment was very heartwarming for me to read.

I had actually wanted to draw them interacting like this when I saw that picture on- ...no context, but I got a bit distracted and so now you're finally getting it!

(gonna ramble more at the end of my regular tags.)

#tsp #tspud #the stanley parable #the stanley parable ultra deluxe #tsp stanley #doodles #my art #tsp doods #tspud doods #stanley doods #I know we don't necessarily talk... which I blame on my own fear of initiating things. but do know that seeing you pop up in my notes #has always been one of the biggest highlights of drawing for tsp. for me it made me feel like I was doing something right that someone with #such superb characterization for these funky characters would like my silly little comics. Oh and don't you dare think this is the last #time I'll be drawing for you. there are still scenes in advanced ludology I really want to draw. still not entirely sure how i'll get #extended feedback art to you. I may either pop up someday with a spicy link or straight up my discord to send things or use a third party #to pass things along for me. OH not to mention I downloaded a few of your games to check out. not sure if I'll be able to draw a whole lot #for them yet. my brain is awful at letting me choose what to draw and what not. but. prepare your self I suppose. #ok I have a tendency to never shut up so final note before these tags get any longer. If we ever find ourselves in the same fandom again #know that I'll be greeting you with open arms! even if its just in spirit or your notes.

[signed-someone]

To the couple who walked past me earlier,

six months ago I might have cried.

today I could only smile.

it was something about the way one of you slipped your hand around the other's waist on the inside of their coat, and the way the other leant into it.

the care in the touch, the love in the glances.

the meaning behind every smile, every word, every breath.

six months ago I might have cried.

today I could only smile.

#honesty #letter #letters #letters i'll never send #note app #note app poem #notes #poem #love #couple #couple goals #intimate #lovers #passion #romantic #romance

[northern-passage]

one last post about this, since i’m receiving multiple Essays on why people hate Merry so so much:

i’m not trying to say that you have to like every single female character. that’s silly. particularly with Merry, i am Aware of her personality, i know she is abrasive and your first interaction with her is her picking a fight with Lea - i wrote her that way, i know.

what i’m trying to say is whether you dislike Merry or not, there’s still nothing she’s done to deserve active hate and violent misogynistic messages in my inbox - hate she gets only because she’s a woman. now if Merry was a man, would her actions make you this angry, or is it just because she was mean to your male fave? is it just because she’s “competition” for Lea? if it was possible to have an m/m poly with Lea, would you like the dynamic between them more rather than how it is now, with a mean, evil woman?

it’s really okay if you don’t Love Merry. i’m not asking you to, and i’m not calling you a misogynist if you don’t like her (which seems to be what a lot of you think). it’s fine!! i wrote her to be a bit of an antagonistic character, and i’m glad that she seems to be polarizing. the point of what i was trying to say is that Merry in particular gets a huge amount of hate, despite not really... doing anything. the hunter can be just as mean (if not even meaner) to Lea in the game, and i don’t think there’s anything Merry has done that warrants the kind of backlash she has received. she gets the same level of hate as Duncan, though i’ve received more violent messages about her than about the literal villain of the game.

#i think it's telling that the immediate response was for multiple people to write me like pages long messages #detailing all the things they hate about her. lol #would you feel compelled to do that about anyone else? #i'm ending this discussion here because it's just going to go in circles because it's tumblr #and everyone is just going to misinterpret everything i say as always. this is why it's pointless to have these discussions #no one actually cares and everyone will just twist your words until they're right and you're wrong #and ofc everyone else gets to be anonymous except for me #but since im Still receiving messages about it. this is the last thing i'll say #also another note. if ur someone that dislikes merry but has never sent these kinds of messages. then i think it’s fair to say #im not talking about you. everyone is allowed to dislike characters #but maybe dont send violent fantasies abt killing them to people lol

[coeurdetout]

for mo, 21.12.2022

#poetry #poem #notes app poetry #poet #poets on tumblr #books & libraries #quote #inspiration #dark academia #light academia #academia aesthetic #love #writing #writers #missing someone #letters i'll never send

[theokusgallery]

A 15+ comic would be fitting for the characters yet it's terrifying to actually think about

And yeah, the internet DEFINITELY won't be happy about it, especially knowing the characters it's based off

Which is sad because (and it's a bit weird to say it out loud) I'm...sure Nick is not just going to cherish his boyfriend.

...I don't know if it's safe to post that anon ask.

This isn't the point I was originally trying to make with those tags— but yeah you're right

The thing is I don't really give a shit about what the internet would think of me making a fancomic of OMORI, a psychological horror video game about two teenage boys committing and covering up a murder, suicide, psychosis, and other fun things, 15+. I'd argue players shouldn't be under 15 in the first place. But as we all know, the internet simply doesn't work that way — kids will be kids and they'll look at this shit anyway. That's the point I was making in those tags. I'd make it 15+, but I just wouldn't be able to ever enforce that rule.

I do still agree with your point. I'm actually surprised people like this AU. I've been sent dubious anon asks for less! I honestly wasn't expecting positivity, and certainly not the amount of it I've been receiving (which I'm extremely grateful for. I'm so glad I get to talk about Nick. I'm rotating him in my brain like a rotisserie chicken)

#there's stuff in this AU that'll probably stay in my head just because i don't want people to be weird #i don't get involved in drama because i actually value my mental health even the littlest bit. but fuck if this fandom doesnt love it #the undertale fandom was way more tolerant than this #(...that might've also been because i was in the french part of the fandom for a long time.) #(we didn't catch up with the bullshit ive seen omori fans say until a looong time) #(i grew up in fandom culture that was older than the era i was actually on the internet for... #...just because of the language barrier.) #(which. looking back on it. was probably a good thing !) #i've censored myself about arsenic here because i dont want people to be weird #there's scripts in my notes' app i'll probably never share #im not sure how long i can maintain this to be honest. arsenic is a dark AU. its gonna get dark. #i guess i'll find out when we get to it #ask #anon #arsenic #DO NOT SEND ME ASKS ABOUT DRAMA. #arsenic and sunny are my metaphorical puppet toys to play with and ill cut them all up to look at their plastic guts #they're not meant to be pretty ! #rant

[castielsprostate]

hello i'm here to be annoying

isaac????? hello???? 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 how is this being annoying???????? you are?????? literally being so kind!!!!! THE COW!!!!!!!! YOU DREW A COW!!!!!!!!! IT'S SO!!!!!!!!! CUTE?????!!!!?!?! LEGEND-DAIRY IM SCREAMING SJSJSJSJSJSJSJS ILY you are literally being the furthest of annoying?????

#im not home rn (omw to the beach) BUT!!!!!!!! 🥺 ily<3 like sSOOOOOO much 🥺🥺🥺🥺 #you can literally never be annoying i think #i dont have words for how cute and kind you are 🥺 #ILY #isaac's notes #postcards #fav #im going to print this one out and put it in my journal <3 #I'LL SEND YOU SOMETHING IN RETURN LATER TODAY I LITERALLY LOVE YOU SM

[unadulteratedtyrantenthusiast]

why I compare them with you?

when I know I'd rather burn my hands holding you,

than feeling the absence of you being away.

t.k

#heartbreak #texts i'll never send #best friend #aesthetic #da aesthetic #poetry #dark academia lovers #dark acadamia aesthetic #dark academia #dark quotes #love #love notes to no one #spilled heart #heartcore #fairycore #mistycore #sadcore #sadnees #sad quotes #sapphic #midnights #i thought of this at 3am #3 am feelings

[causticsunshine]

hellooo for anyone interested in reading this year's momrry—if you're able to vote via twitter, please let me know if you have a chapter formatting preference here!

seeing as how i've paced things, i'll be able to break the fic up either way easily! it just depends on whether you guys would like fewer chapters that are quite long, or a few more chapters that are a little bit shorter that the former (but honestly not by much lol).

any feedback is greatly appreciated <3

#also if you cannot vote but would like to feel free to send me message anon or otherwise! #but anyway #resolved sigh back at it again being a wip queen #there'll be a note in the fic's AN touching on this but once the fic gets added onto/finished i'll remove it bc it won't be relevant #i plan to continue writing w/o breaks until it's finished bc i'm really liking it + am still really motivated to power through #but alas it's not going to be completely done by tuesday when it's still scheduled to go live so stay tuned #because i very much like it and am excited to finish it and see what people think of it <3 #(hoping it'll also help me with the huge writer's block i've had with LGOAP as a big part of why that one is still unfinished is #due to the transition from part one to part two just never turning out well enough for me? so i'm really hoping #that by writing more momrry something will finally come to me and that one will be finished at long last too 🤞)

[bylrndgm]

rant incoming: i literally asked my friend to send me/upload on a shared google drive folder some videos of the concert i've been to last saturday bcs i just love rewatching videos of good memories. literally how long does it take? half a minute to upload/press send button????? i mean no biggies. i thought she had forgotten and today i reminded her like hey remember abt those vids? i'd really like to have them and show to my siblings, and she straight up ignored my texts about that. im sorry girl but those mf videos aren't copyrighted, literally, lol, atp just tell me how much money do you want for me to have a copy of those. jesus christ, it's just a bunch of 0s and 1s and it takes zero effort to send. i really wish i could go inside of her brain and understand the reasoning behind her gatekeeping since she won't give me a f explaination. literally if she told me listen the hard drive of my phone broke down and i didn't make any backup, i would say ok great sorry about that, it's fine. it's the ignoring and thinking i am dumb that makes me so angry. i may be blonde but i am not dumb. call me petty but she can forget about me sending over pictures and videos i'll take with my fucking 4K quality camera on the gd eras tour. like srsly an eye for an eye. am i childish? yeah. but we're talking about videos not highest level security information from the secret services.

#elz's chit chats #tw swearing #edit: do i get mad over little things? yes that's my red flag but i never fucking do that #if you ask me to do something for you I'll literally drop everything just to do that for you. #you want me to explain you something? fine let me grab my notebook and send you a voice note #you want an advice on smth. ok wait let me sit down and listen

[deal-right]

Thank u for ur hard work, bots

If you follow this acc (or are a mutual/frend), send me your character/fandom blorbo and I'll make a quick mouse drawing of it. I can only promise it'll be bad. How bad? Only fate knows

Examples

#this will be open for a day or two and I'll draw them little by little #send them to me don't be shy I want easy distractions asjflkasljkfsaf #even if we never talked you can dm me something #it'd be nice to do a lil something for people I always see in my notes #I'll make them as silly as my hands possibly can #you can also send an ask instead of a dm whatever works

[murobrown]

.

#hi friends I'm dying.... doctor did a blood exam on me this morning and I don't think there's any blood left in me anymore #my lunch break is over in few minutes and I think I just became one with a couch so I'm writing this instead of getting up #my previous doctor never took so much blood i never had problems before #also I'm going to hairdresser tomorrow and I feel the urge to do something new with my hair but I suck at this #also I decided not to worry about my calories today and I thought it would feel very liberating but it's just making me nervous #i wanted to treat myself with pastries for breakfast after the doctor and now I regret everything and all i can think about is burning it #on the positive note i think I'm overcoming my fear of doctors slowly i was panicking only a little today #i really really really don't want to get up #i just heard an email notification from my pc and now I want to stay on the couch even more #four more hours and I'm done #I'm sending everyone motivation and I'm getting up #if you have any good music recommendations send me something and I'll listen to it while I work! :)) #if you're also looking for a sign to get up and be productive this is it! #we're doing this we're going to make it #we don't have to do anything perfect just get through it #have a wonderful day everyone ❤️

[signed-someone]

To her again,

I fell in love for the first time when I was 17.

and you were incredible, something I couldn't begin to explain and didn't want to.

everything about you existed as this immovable constant in my mind.

no distance would stop me from loving you, no argument would make me love you less, and nothing could stop the words from pouring out when I declared just how much...

my heart broke for the first time when I was 18.

and you left remnants of love etched into my skin.

you existed in photos and texts and everything I was desperate to forget about.

no distance stopped me from thinking of you, no time has passed that's made me think less of you, and there are nights even now I wonder whether I'm still in love...

or just miss the feeling.

#honesty #letter #letters #letters i'll never send #note app #note app poem #notes #poem #love #crush #honestly #true and honest #wlw #gay #sapphic #lesbian #butch lesbian #healing #self reflection #letting go

[flohuman]

why are you still here? get your stupid metal boyfriend and get out of my sight.

I could Ask you the same thing! 😊💜

#Oh... Youre never going To get over Any of this huh? Do you ever get Over the past At all? 🤣 #Sooo Pathetic! Really I don't know What to say that hasn't already Been said 😌 #I think I'll send some More notes! Pen Pal buddies!!! 😄💜💜

[coeurdetout]

— from "letters i'll never send" 09.09.2022

#quote #quotes #poem #poetry #poets on tumblr #notes app poetry #dark academia #writing #writer #light academia #academia aesthetic #inspiration #love #letters i'll never send

[imwritesometimes]

at this point I'd just like to write something. even if it didn't feel stellar or coherent. anything. have not even been able to muster a fckn sentence tonight 🙃

#i write sometimes #look. I am not someone who is really idk capable of abandoning a wip. if I start something goddamnit I'm gonna figure it out #esp if I get to the point where I've got a word doc and everything like. I'm past notebook notes and plot outlines. #I've got several *thousand* words already written #and look I think a big part of it is. if I start just ~giving up~ I'll never stop. I know myself. I have to work through it #and make it work and not give up or I'll end up with a fuckin hard drive full of stupid unfinished shit #which would send me into a goddamn tailspin I would not be able to handle that #that WOULD make me delete my ao3 profile without a doubt #I've only ever abandoned stuff that never made it past daydream/notebook phase #and tbh I don't *want* to abandon this anyway. I just want to fix it. whatever is blocking it whatever is just #preventing me from making ANY progress. I want to fckn fix it it makes me SO MAD. ENRAGED. LIKE WORK STUPID BRAIN.