#I do have *some* self control

[squeeze-lemons-in-my-eyes]

Can we all just take a moment to appreciate that I don't act on at least 30% of the impulsive/intrusive thoughts I have...

#sure #i act on some #but you should be gratefull i dont act on ALL OF THEM #i mean #you should be thanking me really #imagine if i didnt #see #i do have some self control #i may have bitten in to your bar of soap #but at least i didnt steal that baby #things could be worse #i could be worse

[khaire-traveler]

Let me make this very clear:

When it comes to Hellenic Polytheism, there is no human religious authority, especially not one that stands before or speaks for the gods.

It does not matter what someone tells you. It does not matter if they claim to be a priestess/priest of X deity or a messenger for Y deity. It does not matter what their supposed past life was like. It does not matter if they claim to be the literal fucking Oracle of Apollo.

No one has the right to tell you how to worship the gods. No one has the right to assert their authority over your religion.

And most of all, remember that people can and do lie.

#helpol #hellenic polytheism #hellenic pagan #deity worship #hellenic worship #deity work #tagging this with non-helpol tags because i feel this is a message even the wider pagan community needs to hear #the amount of people I've met who pose as some religious authority is genuinely disgusting #many of these people claimed these things in order to control others in some way #i think that's honestly fucking revolting #as a disclaimer: if you have it in your own practice that you are a “priestess/priest” that's fine #but do no attempt to assert some sort of self-given authority over others #because at the end of day your experience is just that: YOUR experience #do not force others to conform to YOUR experience; they have their OWN experience to learn from #paganblr #polytheism #paganism #pagan #reminder

[akidachi]

Heya Doc

#tf2 #team fortress 2 #medic #medic tf2 #emesis blue #i drew this the better part of a month ago lmao #i want to just be able to draw consistently again at this point #stuck between apologizing for not doing comm work and not turning into a broken record (failing) #ah well have a doc #trying some more painterly stuff every now and then #my art #theres a lot of other colors under the effect layers that you legit cant see anymore bc i have no self control

[absoloutenonsense]

When the Trouble Comes by nonsensedarling

Harry Styles/Louis Tomlinson | 90k | Explicit

The Queens Trafficking case is the biggest one of Louis’ FBI career so far; eleven reported missing girls all disappeared under a similar set of circumstances. Louis has done everything he can to try and solve this case over the last nine months… while also absolutely ruining his marriage. Harry has been co-host of Banter at Breakfast for five years, and finally has the opportunity to create his own radio show with the network. Unfortunately, it comes at a time where Harry’s thoughts are consumed with his impending divorce from his (caring, loving, infuriatingly thoughtful) husband of eight years. Harry and Louis have both been willing to lose themselves in their work… but are they willing to lose each other?

Or a story of (almost) exes-to-lovers.

✨Art by @dearlou✨

Posts on Tuesday and Friday each week.

1 📁 | 2 📻 | 3 📁 | 4 📻| 5 📁| 6 📻| 7 📁 | 8 📻 | 9 📁| 10 📻| 11 📁 | 12 📻 | 13 📁 | 14 📻 | 15 📁| 16 📻 | 17 📁 | 18 📻 | 19 📁 | 20 📻| 📁 Epilogue 📻

#hlcreators #tracksintheam #hljournal #📁(case file) will note Louis chapter #📻 (radio) will note Harry chapter #my fic #look at this sick-ass art Jo created like hot damn #she really outdid herself like I can't even believe #(almost) exes to lovers #wish me luck on writing the epilogue! #happy halloweeeeeeen #*screams louder than before* #did end up deciding to post twice a week - I do think it makes sense to do it this way #esp since some chapters are shorter #and i have no self control

[autisticlee]

"just be yourself" has always been one of my most hated things to hear from someone. it may sound simple and easy to you, but when you grew up never able formed a single solid personality (because you grew up autistic or for some other reason) and/or have always felt more like 20 different personalities in a trench coat who fight over who is supposed to be in charge, that "simple" advice is so much less simple.....it can even seem impossible.

#autistic #autism things #autism #actually autistic #neurodivergent #adhd #audhd #dissociative disorder #dissociative identity disorder #did #osdd #not sure what all to tag #disclaimer. not formally diagnosed with did/osdd but currently being evaluated for it because therapist says #i have “concerning levels of dissociation” and feels its negatively impacting my life and these little freaks in my head need controlled #well she didnt say that last part but there needs to be some order in here #anyway. WHO AM I. WHO IS LEE. IS LEE A REAL PERSON. WHO IS THIS SELF YOU SPEAK OF AND HOW DO I BE THAT. IDK. #lee rambles #big imposter syndrome when considering a dissociative brain thing. been super exhausting working on it with therapist. is that normal?

[bitchthefuck1]

The thing that really kills me about Logan is that his kids are disappointing and ultimately unfit to be CEO, and it's not just that they're like that because he made them like that, but that they're like that because he wants them to be that way.

For all his talk about them being spoiled or coddled and his rant in the S3 finale that getting cut out of running Waystar is their chance to "be your own man" and build something themselves, he has spent the entire show actively undermining any attempt of theirs to do that. Shiv stays out and works in politics, but as soon as she joins a big campaign that could actually distinguish her from her family, he tells her he wants to make her CEO. He offers to buy Kendall out of his shares, but as soon as Kendall tries to take the offer and cut himself out, he refuses. He says he wants them out of the business and doing their own thing, and then as soon as they start actually doing that and buy Pierce, he tries to get Roman back.

The fact of the matter is that as much as he might claim to want a "real" heir, what he really wants is to never need one and for his children to stay children: incomplete, incapable, and under his thumb.

#something something the purpose of a system is what it does #i feel like the 'they are the way he made them' thing is pretty self evident and understood but it's important to distinguish that it's not #just a question of him being bad at raising kids or that he just can't produce the outcome that he wants: he is 100% producing the #outcome that he wants he's just lying about what that outcome is. he doesn't want them to be their own people or worthy of the position #because that would mean he wouldn't be able to control them and (more crucially for him) it would mean he'd have to give up control #of waystar. he doesn't want a legitimate successor because he doesn't want to be succeeded. he wants to deny his mortality and stay #in his spot forever. if his children grow up that means he has to grow old. if he can keep them trapped in childhood forever then he 'has #no choice' but to stay in power because he couldn't possibly leave it to them could he? they're not ready. it's a kindness to keep the #burden of the crown to himsef. #like imagine for a second if he did have a kid who was a perfect CEO candidate and exactly what he claimed to want. do you #really think he'd step aside and let them rule? #or would he see them as a threat and try to find some other way to cut them off at the knees and sabotage them the way he's been #doing with his other kids this whole time. #logan roy #kendall roy #connor roy #shiv roy #siobhan roy #roman roy #succession

[slavhew]

Hello!

If you're not too busy, would you mind listing some of the things you think count as death flags for Mr. Spender?

There's the obvious fact that he's the "old" mentor to group of young protagonists, but what else do you think would count?

OHH BOY ok so I'd think I'm a crackpot for this but since we're talking about Zack "Foreshadowing" Morrison. I have some thoughts

No harm in leading with the (chronologically) first thing that jumped out at me:

This one IMMEDIATELY made me antsy whenever I came back to it after my initial read, and considering Zack has referred to it on twitter in the past as one of their favorite jokes it's definitely not been forgotten about.

Second, the sheer amounts of near-misses, jokey or not, of Spender narrowly avoiding specifically lightning

Again, not much, but it's weird that it happened thrice, latter two of which had real gravitas rather than an one-off joke.

And third, Spender himself. He's repeatedly shown himself to be kind of a self sacrificing idiot, as well as prideful to a fault. Granted, it's both him and Mina trying to take on all the responsibility of saving Mayview and its inhabitants from their fate.. But Spender is exactly that right measure of doesn't-value-himself-enough (chest footprint aftercare or lack thereof), having an obscene amount of power (enables his loner act + pride) and poor judgement that has the capacity to put him at great risk. And it has!

Spender has not only shown low enough self-esteem to view himself as the de-facto scapegoat for the safety of the town, but also prideful enough to make very bad calls that end up in people, often himself, hurt (COUGH FORGE INCIDENT COUGH)

This is all conjecture, but it's definitely enough to make me worried about him :') Even if all this doesn't mean he'll necessarily die he's definitely getting (even more) seriously injured at some point. I love the guy but he's so far doing a horrible job of convincing me he wants to live bad enough to circumvent at least that

#not art #admin answers #paranatural #pnat #richard spender #pts-fic-notes-and-blog #before i continue on with tag ramble i just want to say tysm for leaving an ask! #none of my friends read this so ive been stewing on these thoughts for some months and i loved finally sharing them #this isn't exactly proof but the hijack possession seemingly being the final nail in the coffin for his and isabel's relationship. #idk it feels significant to me. thats one more tether to support kinda gone. someone who knows him well enough to know he's unwell #he seems not exactly content but fr incapable of not burning bridges as he is now. and considering how rashly he acts he REALLY needs those #to not do stupid shit all the god damn time with no buffer other than Lucifer. who for his measured approach to rick's hotheadedness #has honestly shown himself to be pretty lenient and kinda bad at controlling spender's more (self) destructive tendencies? so he dont count #to be clear i love spender to bits but he is dumb as rocks and has all the self preservation of a fruit fly. it needs to be said #also the lightning man... idk its WEIRD like especially on the reread its the thing that most consistently threatens him! it repeats #sure he gets chewed by a bat and banged up by forge but?? he somehow always comes back to lightning. catnine has it out for him #its something i didnt even really put together until i continued reading the flashback chapter AFTER getting this ask and went OHHHGNHF #which the only reason lightning is such a non issue is lucifer's powers. which belong to his sunglasses and not to the spirit in him #so its not like they can't be taken away he's just got a really good excuse for having those on all the time #TAGS GETTING SO LONG. ANYWAYS. i hope this is comprehensible lol

[craycraybluejay]

You said in tags once that pedophiles and child predators aren't the same, can you explain why? /GEN

For the same reason that people with any kind of attraction to anyone ever aren't all rapists/don't all pursue romantic/sexual feelings that could or definitely would hurt the other person. Because paraphilias are simply the morally neutral state of experiencing attraction and rape/grooming is Not That. Because people *choose* to hurt others, but not what they feel. Because a good majority of child sexual abusers aren't even pathologically/paraphilically attracted to children, they *just want to hurt them because they can.* Because they're dissatisfied with something in life, or want a punching bag, or want to feel powerful, etc etc.

It's not really different conceptually from physical abuse. Do people do it because they have icky feelings about liking blood or violence? No. They do it to feel powerful. Sexual abuse is not about sex but about power. Hope this answers your question. I've answered it a good million times on this blog but eh I'm in a generous mood.

#anon response #pro para #girl imagine if ppl blamed randomass sadists for me getting beat up as a kid #like. no. thats not how that works. if they got off on hurting me in a literal sense they mightve been a little nicer ab it. #honestly its just flat out offensive to equate thoughts and feelings with abuse #regardless of someone's pathology you can always choose to do good and always choose to do evil #what you do with that ability is up to you. but rather than focusing consequences on random 'freaks' maybe focus them on #'normal people' who decide to covertly abuse their kids. or the priest who got tired of being godly and did some fucked shit #it is not the freaks you should fear but those who put on a face of normalcy while treating others like garbage and hurting people #also mostly those that are self aware know how to Be Good so to speak and im saying this broadly ab all 'dangerous' thoughts #ppl who know they can get triggered into violence will usually avoid sais triggers. ppl who spiral out of control during an episode will #have someone watch over them or find some way to offset any possible damage #even for people in whom some sort of harm is an instinctive reaction and not a conscious decision #steps can be should be and are taken to minimize problems and recover from anything that needs it #i trust a big 3 paraphile easier than an unstable person in power with no self awareness #because ive met both and only one has ever seriously hurt me. guess.

[blueskittlesart]

also to everyone contacting me about the tiktok--I have seen it, the reposter did not contact me before posting on tiktok but has since contacted me on instagram and they obeyed my repost credit policy so i'm tentatively ok with it!

#im so conflicted about reposts lmao bc on the one hand i have like concrete proof espc with this tiktok that it draws more people towards me #bc several people have specifically told me they found me via that tiktok. which is cool obv i love getting more engagement #but on the other hand it does remove a certain level of my autonomy over my work yknow #like when i post on my self-run social media i have the ultimate control over my audience--who sees it who comments what is being said etc #and when it's reposted even with credit it removes some of that control. which is like. not HORRIBLY bad in the context of fanart #but i know also that i am a person with polarizing opinions and given how much of ME is tied up in my art i am sort of conflicted about #allowing people to remove me from my own content. yknow #like from personal experience whenever i get a popular credited repost on instagram i do get a ton of new followers #but i also usually get a huge surge of transphobic comments. so. yknow. 2 sides of the coin ig #anyway as for this specific repost they didn't violate my policy and i'm not going to change my policy just yet so were good #thank u all for pointing it out to me tho! #personal

[somegrumpynerd]

Started reading The Bad Wingmen by @topazshadowwolf and @paddie-ut and it utterly possessed me for a few days so I needed to draw some of my favourite bits

#UTDR #UTMV #Dadmare #Dust Sans #Killer Sans #Nightmare Sans #Balance Toriel #You ever read a fanfic so good you have to draw 4 pages worth of moments from it? #I think I probably could have done more but I needed to have some self control so this post wouldn't be enormous lol #I didn't expect to get so invested in this one but the Dust and Killer interactions really fascinate me #They're so chaotic and they get at each other's throats even though they're not that different but they have each other's backs deep down #I'm just. They're brothers your honour and I love to see it #Almost all of these are from one chapter but the whole thing is so good #Fuzzynight is growing on me I'm excited to see more of these two #And don't get me started on Nightmare's unruly kids trying to set him up because they want him to be happy #It's eternally sweet but also hilarious #The real question is are they still grounded now that Nightmare and Lyra have agreed to date? #The answer is almost certainly yes but I feel like they'll still argue they should get a reduced punishment for being right (and helping) #Also I tried to do the dappled sunlight effect you described with the last picture because it was so vivid to me #And I love to see a rare moment of Dust and Killer at peace with each other #Oh my god there are four million tags I'm sorry tldr I love this fic I want to print it out and eat it okay goodbye!! #My Art

[fuckyeah-bears]

you know 99% of the time i get nice, totally reasonable, polite, and frequently kind asks on bearotonin. but every now and then i get some asks that just make me wanna reply snarkily so badly lmao

#the weird shit people send me #like unsolicited 'helpful suggestions' about how to run my blog better #or 'concerns' about the way i run it or some of the photos i post #and it takes a significant amount of self control not to be snarky #because i am not allowed to break brand continuity #but like #people really gotta learn that it's not cute or helpful to come into a stranger's inbox and critique/suggest they run their blog differentl #and i get that most of these (admittedly not that many but still frequent enough) asks are probably not meant to be obnoxious #like i'm sure the person who sent them doesn't have bad intentions #and probably just doesn't realize what they're doing is irritating and a basic etiquette no no #but it's still annoying #sometimes people just gotta learn to keep their opinions to themselves #not every opinion should be shared #just being clear 99.9% of the many asks i get are totally fine and nice #but because i get a fuckload of asks the 0.1% of annoying asks i get is substantial enough to get annoying and tiresome #don't mind me im just vague post venting here as a stress relief so i don't reply snarkily on bearotonin #okay im done ranting now #please ignore me lmao #Posts about bearotonin

[abombihoney]

A smile is a valuable tool, it ensures that no matter waht comes your way, you're the one in control

#hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel spoilers #i thought perhaps that alastor couldnt NOT smile cause his face is just shaped like that #but after the finale im 100% convinced he that he did some fucked up shit like say SEWING his face into a permanent smile #cause self harm is always an easy way to regain a semblance of control and ALSO it psychologically fucks with his enemies #two birds one needle #anyway i dont really have the technical skill to pull this off as viscerally real/gorey as i want #but you understand my vision yes? #gore #self harm #hh #my art #painting #anyway i know its like about intent or w/e but why did he do like. ladder stitches across the center of his mouth #bro those are for like. closing up stuffies and pillows #alastor

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

:/

#prayer request #just... some mental stuff and sin issues that I am perfectly capable of working through #but I'm still a bit stuck in the loop of ''if I do anything wrong in my mind I have to confess to my parents'' #like... no I'm in my 20s now I don't have to self report on everything. I can handle it myself with self control prayer and repentance #I KNOW THIS. I just spent so long depending on my parents for emotional absolution that I get stuck in it #anyway. yeah pray for me?? #idk how to explain it but yeah. I have slipped into some bad/sinful habits mentally lately? and got hit with it this week #so. yeah

[textsfromthetva]

#Loki #Mobius M. Mobius #Lokius #Loki series #MCU #lokiedit #texts from last night #this is it guys #might as well gather my things and go home now #nothing will beat this #well maybe if I'd made it widdlewow but ya know #I do have *some* self control

[shirogane-oushirou]

Out-of-Control

* . ⊹ a villain!ren moodboard

💜 🩷 💜 🩷 🧬 🩷 💜 🩷 💜 * . ⊹ div

so like... there's this guy infected with a hivemind organism... smile... twirls hair twirls hair...

so much of v!ren's aesthetic is just Villains Hot... this was all doc!ren initially, when i first dreamed him up almost a year ago, but the dream had a couple of "plot holes" that i wanted to fix. and before i knew it, i had a complete story with Themes and Motifs in place of "hehe supernatural eye glow hehe evil laughter hehe weird creature goo" :( so obviously i had to bring it all back as an AU and silence the part of me that needs everything to make total sense. 👏🏻✨

he's also VERY much my exploration of some of the symptoms of my various illnesses. he was even a parasitologist in the original dream, and i thought that was a little too on-the-nose so i changed it KJSNDFKJN ;;;

#i talk broadly about being disabled but i don't think i've mentioned specifics here? i'm not SHY about it. i just don't bring it up. #and the tags of this post isn't the place to do that LMAO but we do definitely share a lot of symptoms even if the cause is different! #for ref wrt his symptoms: some friends and i joke that i have hina.mizawa syndrome. and v!ren's issues are very similar to mine. so! #📌 [ my posts. ] #🫧 [ 046 moodboards. ] #🧃 [ who is in control. ] #selfship #self ship #selfshipping #self shipping #blood - #mind control -

[unopenablebox]

i'm fighting demons but the demon is making biweekly posts about how perfect 🌸 is

#i hear your objection but right now those posts are weekly at MOST. #girlfriend tag #box opener #does everyone else have really good impulse control to only say things online that have content or are interesting #or is the intense degree of my interest in and emotional responses to my girlfriend itself some kind of weird problem unique to me #they're just. so charming and great. yesterday i got really excited #because after about two hours of being apart i walked to the location where i had arranged to meet them #and they were there‚ in the location. #not like doing anything. we didn't have plans. they were wearing a jacket? and sitting on a ledge swinging their legs cutely? #but i also sometimes get that excited if they're just standing still and not wearing a jacket. so idk. #i know other people have blogs and also partners they like! am i just discovering that i lack the facet of self-discipline that everyone #else uses to avoid inventing the tumblr version of a wife guy