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I just can't and won't ever refer to Shadowheart as Shart, I just cannot do it. You cannot make me. I will not do it.

#bg3 #baldurs gate 3 #shadowheart #fandom

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Okay, but why is he so pretty and soft yet fierce?

Current BG3 Character

Sylfir Quatholenn

Race: Wood Elf Gender: Cis Man [He/Him] Age: 140 Years Class: Druid, Circle of the Moon / Cleric, Light

Background: Outlander / Acolyte Personality Trait: I have a lesson for every situation, drawn from observing nature. Ideals: I see omens in every event and action. The gods try to speak to us, we just need to listen. Bond: An injury to the unspoiled wilderness of my home is an injury to me. Flaw: Once I pick a goal, I become obsessed with it to the detriment of everything else in my life.

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I am planning to have him multi-class with light cleric at level 7, so we'll see how that goes! I abandoned the aasimars that I had planned to do that with because fiddling with those mods gets annoying for me - it's enough to use what I have and need to manually update them every hotfix lol.

I received my copy of the collector's deluxe edition last week! I've put the map and the poster on my wall, and blasted the soundtrack on my boombox haha. It saddens me that my recently passed best friend cannot celebrate these things with me, but I still have those joys. And that joy is important.

I am hoping to do a redeemed durge playthrough eventually, as it would have been very meaningful to that friend, and it will be meaningful to me. I just don't think I am quite ready for something that emotionally intense right now ahha.

Naturally, I'm gonna romance Halsin this playthrough - gotta tap the bear.

#bg3 #tav #my tav #oc #my oc #baldur's gate 3 #Sylfir Quatholenn #dnd #rpg

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Friendly reminder to not use alt text for jokes, it's literally there as an accessibility tool.

#alt text #accessibility #disability #disability rights #disabled #social justice #leftist feminism #friendly reminder

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Pink was my best friend's favorite color - this is for you Alex. He always loved when I did the big dot eyebrows (he called them momo eyebrows), so I made sure to do ones that matched the pink hair. 💗 The Wake was this past Saturday (closed and private), the ashes of his memories and letters from loved ones burned and divided. We listened to his big music playlist that he had curated for a lifetime. We watched some of his favorite YouTube videos. We ate well, and consumed too much of his favorite candies. 🍬 He sought peace in his final moments, perhaps now he can finally rest. He has a home in many of our hearts, the urn I have for him is placed on my altar. It's time for me to begin the long work of grieving, and eventually I will have peace. 🕊️

#me #nonbinary #queer #transgender #transmasculine #femme #dyedhair #dyedbeard #curlyhair #pink #grief #death #urn #pagan #druid #piercings #alternative #goth

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Current BG3 Character

Sylfir Quatholenn

Race: Wood Elf Gender: Cis Man [He/Him] Age: 140 Years Class: Druid, Circle of the Moon / Cleric, Light

Background: Outlander / Acolyte Personality Trait: I have a lesson for every situation, drawn from observing nature. Ideals: I see omens in every event and action. The gods try to speak to us, we just need to listen. Bond: An injury to the unspoiled wilderness of my home is an injury to me. Flaw: Once I pick a goal, I become obsessed with it to the detriment of everything else in my life.

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I am planning to have him multi-class with light cleric at level 7, so we'll see how that goes! I abandoned the aasimars that I had planned to do that with because fiddling with those mods gets annoying for me - it's enough to use what I have and need to manually update them every hotfix lol.

I received my copy of the collector's deluxe edition last week! I've put the map and the poster on my wall, and blasted the soundtrack on my boombox haha. It saddens me that my recently passed best friend cannot celebrate these things with me, but I still have those joys. And that joy is important.

I am hoping to do a redeemed durge playthrough eventually, as it would have been very meaningful to that friend, and it will be meaningful to me. I just don't think I am quite ready for something that emotionally intense right now ahha.

Naturally, I'm gonna romance Halsin this playthrough - gotta tap the bear.

#bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #tav #my tav #bg3 oc #my oc

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#durge #the dark urge #bg3 #boop

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Mad with boop power! I felt inspired.

#boop

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boop!! :3

#boop

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boobs is how you make friends in 2024

#iconic #this will be your legacy #boop

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Me, a lonely person on Tumblr, finally receiving the dopamine hits via the boops:

#boop me please #boop #boop o meter #me

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Reblog if its ok to spam you with boops

#please boop me #boop #boop o meter

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The heart is heavy, and it aches so very much...

#depression #grief #sadness #heartache #personal

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PSA: If you post anything containing suicide, jokes or otherwise, and you don't tag it, I will have to unfollow you for now. I just can't handle that right now.

#psa #important psa #self care #personal #vent #friendly reminder #reminder #mental health #this is your warning #it's not personal #but I don't have the strength to DM people to beg for it

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For the love of God, stop asking the BG3 voice actors to say weird stuff for you on Cameo. It is so creepy and such a violation of boundaries. They are not their characters! Yes, do I want more stuff from Rolan's VA? SURE! IN THE GAME! Where it makes SENSE! Where he's consented to it in a logical, safe environment!

People have said such hyper sexual stuff to poor Neil Newborn that he had to issue a polite but firm request to knock it off. That is mortifying. He should never have been made to feel uncomfortable enough to do that. And of all the characters, too! Astarion's story is about him NOT being a fetishized sex object. I think the only thing Neil had legitimate fun with is that video where he's pretending to be Astarion doing a wake up call. That one is amazing and pure and hilarious.

Don't tweet the VAs your NFSW fanart. Don't ask them to read aloud parts of your fanfic. If you absolutely HAVE to have "official" input on your hyperfixations, go talk to Larian and the writers.

Just leave the actors themselves alone unless you're going to tell them something polite, respectful, and kind.

#I hate fandom #so much #what is wrong with you all #Does no one remember the time someone literally handed the MCR band members a fanfic written about them??? #bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #friendly reminder

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Please please pleeeease tag posts containing "kill yourself" jokes.

#please tag #tags #friendly reminder #kill yourself #kill yourself joke #trigger warning #tw #personal

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Vent Post TW: depression, grief, despair, suicide, eugenics, genocide.

My best friend killed himself. My province is killing disabled people. My province is killing trans people. We are literally watching history repeat itself, and go so much further, and my country is doing fucking nothing to help Palestine.

My disabilities currently prevent me from working. My disabilities currently prevent me from going to school. I cannot save or make income on the side, or I lose my disability benefits (and I am lucky I have them at all). My "benefits" are not enough to live on, and my needs are not met, nevermind aid for my disabilities - and I feel such guilt about it.

This isn't what I wanted. I know it takes time. I know, somehow, things will get better. But gods above, how...

#vent #vent post #personal #tw suicide #suicide #disabled #disability rights #eugenics #genocide #palestine #free palestine #depression #grief #despair #pain #hellworld #hellberta #abpoli

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Unwelcome DMs

Hi, I am a disabled and utterly impoverished individual that would be homeless if not for barely getting into the housing program I am in. I am always behind on my bills, I cannot afford enough food, and I do not have equitable and equal access to most things.

Do NOT message me asking for donations.

It's insulting, insensitive, and triggering. No, I cannot help you. I can't do any kind of fundraising for myself because the government would count it as income AND I cannot save or I will lose my disability benefits. I literally cannot ask for Mutual Aid for myself. And even when I have tried, no one has helped me (apart from close friends who are all passing the same money around).

I am pro Mutual Aid, but this is the one place I do not campaign for it. This is the one place I do not actively reblog all the MAs of queer and POC. I have places for that, for when I am able. But also, like, my best friend just died? Give me a break?

TL;DR - Anyone DMing me for mutual aid will be blocked on this account.

#personal #vent #rant #dms #mutual aid #disability rights #mourning #grief #triggers #tw mutual aid