#what on earth was i doing may 11 2021

[highfire3]

It's my 2 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳

#what on earth was i doing may 11 2021 #2 year tumblrversary #tumblr milestone

[trickstyrss]

I lied, I am making one more post about the OceanGate discourse because I am tired of the dehumanization and jokes.

I decided to look into two of the people on board that sub because I knew nothing about them and everyone keeps saying its just a bunch of rich tourists who deserved to die.

Today we are going to talk about Hamish Harding and Paul-Henri Nargeolet. -------

Hamish Harding: What did he do during his life? Is he just some rich asshole? -In 2017, Harding worked with Antarctic VIP tourism company, White Desert, to introduce the first regular business jet service to the Antarctic using a Gulfstream G550, landing on Wolfs Fang Runway, an ice runway. Harding also visited the South Pole several times, accompanying Buzz Aldrin in 2016 as he became the oldest person to reach the South Pole (age 86) -In 2019, to celebrate the 50th anniversary of the Apollo 11 Moon landing, Harding, along with Terry Virts, led a team of aviators that took the Guinness World Record for a circumnavigation of the Earth via North and South Poles in a Gulfstream G650ER in 46 hours 40 minutes. The One More Orbit mission launched and landed at the Shuttle Landing Facility (Space Florida) at NASA Kennedy Space Center, US. Harding was the mission director and led a team of over 100. -In 2021, Harding and Victor Vescovo dived to the deepest point of the Mariana Trench, the Challenger Deep at a depth of 36,000 feet (11,000 m), in a two-person submarine, setting the records for greatest length covered and greatest time spent at full ocean depth. -In 2022, Harding's aviation company Action Aviation supplied a customized Boeing 747-400 aircraft to transport eight wild cheetahs from Namibia to India to launch the reintroduction of the cheetah to India project of the Indian Government and the Cheetah Conservation Fund in Namibia (CCF). Cheetahs have been extinct in India since independence in 1947. This conservation project was designated a "flagged expedition" by the Explorers Club with club members Harding and Laurie Marker, founder of the CCF, carrying the flag on the flight to India.

------- Paul-Henri Nargeolet: What did he do during his life? Is he just some rich asshole?

-In the 1970s, he was appointed Commander of the Groupement de Plongeurs Démineurs de Cherbourg, whose mission was to find and neutralise underground mines. -In the 1980s, he was transferred to the Underwater Intervention Group (GISMER), where he piloted intervention submarines.  During this time, he travelled the world retrieving submerged French planes and helicopters, including the individuals and weapons upon them.  Through this work, he found an Roman wreck, located at a depth of 70 metres. He also located a DHC-5 Buffalo that crashed in 1979 with 12 people on board, including several members of the Mauritanian government. -Nargeolet piloted dives to the Titanic wreck site in 1987, 1993, 1994 and 1996.  His 1987 expedition was the first to collect artifacts from the wreckage. -In August 2007 RMS Titanic, Inc., owned by Premier Exhibitions, a company that organises travelling exhibitions, commissioned Nargeolet to locate RMS Carpathia, which had rescued survivors of RMS Titanic but was torpedoed in 1918. -Nargeolet worked with RMS Titanic, Inc. to recover artifacts related to the Titanic as the Director of the Underwater Research Program. His work has included utilizing remotely operated vehicles (ROV), as well as piloting dives to the wreck site. His work has resulted in recovering nearly 6,000 artifacts over the course of 35 dives. In 2010, he was part of a mission to 3D map the wreck site and determine levels of deterioration using ROVs and autonomous underwater robots. -In 2010, he participated in the search for the flight recorder of Air France Flight 447, which crashed the previous year while en route from Rio de Janeiro to Paris

------- TLDR: They may be a couple of rich dudes, but they were more than that. They were actually qualified to be in such a vehicle with actual experience diving in real submarines and had reason to be there. They were not just some tourists. They did a lot more than any of you are ever going to do, but sure, lets dehumanize them and see them as just a bunch lazy rich people who deserve to die simply because they are rich.

#OceanGate #tragedy #discourse

[gunner-ablazing]

Honest thoughts on havertz/mount leaving

Yes I know I'm a rival fan and my club snatched havertz but i'm objective on this one. sit tight cuz this is a bit of a long one.

First things first:

hate is never okay. i am seeing all sorts of diabolical shit being spoken on mount/havertz, even though the former gave 18 years at the club and havertz in his two years gave everything for the club. they were both the producers for that 2021 ucl final goal. To slander their names to the degree they are is stupid and disingenuous asf

Okay now being fr...Chelsea did you honestly think that you could drop to fucking TWELFTH and be run the way you have this season from overcrowding the dressing room to the negative gd and not lose vital players in the end...

it was bound to happen with how many mistakes were made. You shoudl've lot picked yourselves up around january, sacked potter, and got pochettino then. You should not bought half of God's green earth in january, throwing 100 million of the queens finest to hikack our deal on a flashy ukranian winger. You should've have not got brought-everton-to-relegation lampard who dragged you to bottom half.

lets not forget the barrages of abuse both players got despite being proven players who are suffering from bad form in a dysfunctional, lopsided, unbalanced team that changed starting 11s every gw after having 1832 managers 230 trillion new signings. it was the epitome of disorganized and careless, and totally understandable why they fell out of love and favor.

You can't expect 24yos entering their prime to sit tight and complacent while a team they have no guarantee of starting consistently in with all the new signings trust a project under a manager that hasn't been in the prem since 2019, that's potentially killing your career.

at the end of the day they made decisions they felt best for their own mental health and long term careers under projects in other clubs they felt they would do better in, and yeah it may have been a beat back-stabbing decision to clubs they blossomed in and made memories in trophies that defined the club's history, but this is football. it has hard, difficult decisions like this.

And yeah both mount and havertz forced moves out but that was because chelsea tried to slap massive price tags despite having 1-2 years left on their contract...you paid 0 for mount and got what you paid for leverkusen kai

tl;dr don't hate on players for looking out for themselves before your shambolic club

#important conversation actually #chelsea #arsenal #im not mount fan but good lord the abuse even though he tried to be as delicate about it as possible

[officialyourdailyinspiration]

Giving to the Poor and Prayer

1 “Beware of doing your righteousness before men to be noticed by them; otherwise you have no reward with your Father who is in heaven.

2 “Therefore, when you give to the poor, do not sound a trumpet before you, as the hypocrites do in the synagogues and in the streets, so that they may be glorified by men. Truly I say to you, they have their reward in full. 3 But when you give to the poor, do not let your left hand know what your right hand is doing, 4 so that your giving will be in secret; and your Father who sees what is done in secret will reward you.

5 “And when you pray, you are not to be like the hypocrites; for they love to stand and pray in the synagogues and on the street corners so that they may be seen by men. Truly I say to you, they have their reward in full. 6 But you, when you pray, go into your inner room, and when you have shut your door, pray to your Father who is in secret, and your Father who sees what is done in secret will reward you.

7 “And when you are praying, do not use meaningless repetition as the Gentiles do, for they suppose that they will be heard for their many words. 8 Therefore, do not be like them; for your Father knows what you need before you ask Him.

The Lord's Prayer

9 “Pray, then, in this way:

‘Our Father who is in heaven, Hallowed be Your name. 10 Your kingdom come. Your will be done, On earth as it is in heaven. 11 Give us this day our daily bread. 12 And forgive us our debts, as we also have forgiven our debtors. 13 And do not lead us into temptation, but deliver us from the evil one. [For Yours is the kingdom and the power and the glory forever. Amen.’]

14 For if you forgive others for their transgressions, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. 15 But if you do not forgive others, then your Father will not forgive your transgressions.

Fasting

16 “Now whenever you fast, do not put on a gloomy face as the hypocrites do, for they neglect their appearance so that they will be noticed by men when they are fasting. Truly I say to you, they have their reward in full. 17 But you, when you fast, anoint your head and wash your face 18 so that your fasting will not be noticed by men, but by your Father who is in secret; and your Father who sees what is done in secret will reward you. — Matthew 6:1-18 | Legacy Standard Bible (LSB) Legacy Standard Bible Copyright ©2021 by The Lockman Foundation. All rights reserved. Managed in partnership with Three Sixteen Publishing Inc. Cross References: Exodus 34:7; Ruth 1:6; Ruth 3:3; 2 Samuel 7:26; 2 Samuel 12:20; 1 Kings 18:26; 2 Kings 4:33; 1 Chronicles 29:11; Psalm 22:28; Psalm 32:1; Psalm 38:9; Psalm 69:17; Psalm 103:20; Proverbs 20:6;  Proverbs 25:22; Proverbs 30:8; Ecclesiastes 5:2; Isaiah 26:20; Isaiah 58:5; Jeremiah 17:10; Matthew 3:2; Matthew 4:17; Matthew 5:7; Matthew 7:2; Matthew 18:35; Matthew 23:5; Matthew 23:9; Mark 11:25-26; Luke 6:24; Luke 11:2; Luke 18:11; Acts 3:12

#the Lord's Prayer #alms #fasting #charity #Matthew 6:1-18 #Gospel of Matthew #New Testament #LSB #Legacy Standard Bible #Three Sixteen Publishing Inc.

[aniah-who]

Because God is a Promise Keeper.

This is my boyfriend, Max— the guy who God had spoken to me about in the secret place and has been preparing me for for the past 3 years. This is who God has given me and he’s a pretty awesome bean. What God has spoken, what God has promised, will come to pass. None of His words will ever return to Him void, but will accomplish what He pleases and will prosper wherever He has sent it in the earth.

In April 2020, God told me I’d be getting married, and that year was full of many confirmations, though I didn’t yet know who my husband was.

In 2021, God told me who my husband was (Max), but I wavered in faith. I believed, then I doubted. Believed, doubted. Believed, doubted. And that doubt led to confusion, which God is not the author of.

In March 2022, full of frustration, I prayed to God about this one last time: “God, I’m tired of being confused. Please just make it clear to me. If Max is my husband, simply tell me yes or no; let the first page that I open to be “yes” or “no.” With confidence and desperation, I grabbed a Bible from my grandma’s closet, and with my eyes closed, opened it up. When I opened my eyes, the very first word that my eyes landed on was “yes” (Job 13 message translation). It was a little scary, but God left me amazed. From that day forward, I believed without wavering.

In March 2023, Max asked me to be his girlfriend, and I of course said yes.

Now it’s only a matter of time until we’re married just as God said we would be. When will it happen? That, I don’t know. But I believe God and I believe that I will see a performance of everything He’s ever promised me. Soon there will be a ring on my finger and I’ll be able to tell my full testimony of what God has done in my life regarding the promise of a kingdom marriage.

Who knows, maybe this time next year, I’ll be married.

I just wanted to share this for anyone who has been and still is waiting for God’s promise to come to pass in their life. He’s such a faithful God. It may seem like it’s been forever or that you’re never going to come out of the waiting room, but God is not slack concerning His promise, nor has He forgotten. Have faith in God and take advantage of your time in the waiting because God is still making the necessary arrangements and is adding in the last few touches. And in due time, you’ll see that the wait was worth it all along, because what God is about to do in your life will be exceeding abundantly above all that you could ask or think.

Isaiah 55:10-11 | KJV

10 For as the rain cometh down, and the snow from heaven, and returneth not thither, but watereth the earth, and maketh it bring forth and bud, that it may give seed to the sower, and bread to the eater:

11 So shall my word be that goeth forth out of my mouth: it shall not return unto me void, but it shall accomplish that which I please, and it shall prosper in the thing whereto I sent it.

Ephesians 3:20-21 | KJV

20 Now unto him that is able to do exceeding abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that worketh in us,

21 Unto him be glory in the church by Christ Jesus throughout all ages, world without end. Amen.

#jesus #christian #faith #god #hope #photography #christian blog #scripture #holy spirit #christian blogger #aesthetic #love #christian post #poetic #poetry #couple #marriage #don’t give up #this is love #god will make a way #promises #partners in crime #black and white #black and white photography #couple pictures #mirror pic #interracial couple #god is faithful #words of encouragement #i love you

[somethingsherrysays]

awareness of

writing a blog has been something I’ve been pondering for quite some time now…

I’ve got stories to tell. Funny stories, short stories, heartfelt stories…everyday stories. Most true to my life and or people I surround myself with.

I start this little venture on September 11th. A day of remembrance.

A day I find myself reflecting on several incidents and the people that I have here and the ones no longer here on earth but always with me. Of course ALL the families affected by the awful act of 9/11. May you realize we all are strong together. Me, personally with my awful memory I have - - my husband tells me all the time

husband: “come on Sherry you don’t remember”… such and such”

me: “ yea…uuummm… no, no I don’t”

but 9/11 I do remember. Affected all of us even if we weren’t directly affected , wait is that bad for me to say, I hope not. I do remember that day, makes me really reflect on others in my life now and the ones I hold fondly in memory. With both parents and in-laws (both) passing on within a 13 month span, May 2020 to July 2021, I miss them all. Remembering the great times together even if it was as simple as a voice on a phone call… brother gone way too soon-friends as well. Giving them their own minute remembrance in my mind…very therapeutic.

so today along with everyday …

awareness of

is what I do.

[scamanderishredmayniac]

I posted 1,397 times in 2022

That's 222 more posts than 2021!

151 posts created (11%)

1,246 posts reblogged (89%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@eddieredmayneargentinablog

@addictedtoeddie

@occamyeggshells

@bespokeredmayne

@newt-and-salamander

That’s a lie, Newt-and-salamander should be nearer the top not the bottom. Because we reblog each others things and have fun conversations, so there!

I tagged 612 of my posts in 2022

#eddie redmayne - 372 posts

#newt scamander - 243 posts

#fantastic beasts - 233 posts

#film - 79 posts

#personal thoughts - 61 posts

#theseus scamander - 55 posts

#the secrets of dumbledore - 53 posts

#fantastic beasts the secrets of dumbledore - 43 posts

#callum turner - 42 posts

#interview - 32 posts

Longest Tag: 139 characters

#here’s the thing thouygh over the past year or so i’ve been reading memoirs written by women who were later diagonosed and my own childhood

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

I just love seeing Eddie smile, I wonder what he found funny here though.

And when he laughs, he laughs with his eyes and his whole face.

50 notes - Posted July 12, 2022

#4

Every time I see this GIFF, in my head I hear Eddie going wah wah! Like a duck. I know that’s not really what he’s saying, but I can’t see details so well because the picture is so small. So it just looks like he’s opening and closing his mouth, in the way a fish would. I can’t help it. It’s just how I see it. I do wonder what he ACTUALLY said though. Lol!

ID: Eddie holds Callums hand as Callum is dangling off the edge of something. Eddie looks at Callum and then turns to the camera saying something that makes Callum laugh.

65 notes - Posted July 14, 2022

#3

I love seeing Newt smile. So glad he smiles more in the third film. Someone must have heard me making jokes about making a petition to get Newt smiling more in the films. Lol!

📸: Newtcomfort on twitter

More smiles please!!

103 notes - Posted April 22, 2022

#2

I need the next Fantastic beasts film to have these two in it. I need lots of bonding between the brothers. A scene very similar to the deleted scene in Newt’s house please. Perhaps make that scene nice and long, and sweet with the brothers singing and laughing, and having a nice time together. I’m still not happy about the scene with the brothers bonding over the qilin in Newt’s house being deleted. We the fans, the proper fans demand film 4 with more Scamander brothers!!! And don’t make me wait!!!

The film is about Fantastic beasts isn’t it? I mean that’s what the tittle says, and these two are very fantastic beasts and we’ve found them, now give them to us now!

Picture credit 📸: Newt Scamander fan on Pinterest!

106 notes - Posted July 27, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

I’ve just seen the scene called Newt’s house, and WHY DAVID WHY???!!! Why on earth would you delete THAT scene??? It’s so beautiful and oh my heart!! Theseus rocks Qilin, blows her kisses and sweet talks her. And the brothers sing together, a song their mother used to sing. They laugh about it. Pure precious scenes AND YOU DELETE IT??!!! If they’d have kept that in the film, it would have been my FAVOURITE SCENE!!! Oh my gosh! I could watch that over and over again! It was so precious. Thanks to the person who shared it. I wanted more of that scene though. Like the whole scene. Not sure if the whole scene was shown in that clip. It stopped at the brothers laughing together. I want every scene with Newt in it. Give me every scene, and every scene with the brothers together!!

269 notes - Posted May 31, 2022

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#tumblr2022 #year in review #my 2022 tumblr year in review #your tumblr year in review

[bookshelfdreams]

I posted 2,492 times in 2022

That's 419 more posts than 2021!

422 posts created (17%)

2,070 posts reblogged (83%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@swords-n-spindles

@mikimeiko

@bookshelfdreams

@snake-snack-stede

@knowlesian

I tagged 2,449 of my posts in 2022

Only 2% of my posts had no tags

#our flag means death - 1,010 posts

#esc - 340 posts

#message - 101 posts

#crafts - 101 posts

#thoughts - 74 posts

#ofmd reader - 68 posts

#german stuff - 51 posts

#!!!! - 47 posts

#anonymaus - 41 posts

#fic - 31 posts

Longest Tag: 139 characters

#baby. theres spinning wheels for over 1000€ what makes you think you're gonna be met with thousands of ppl starved for things they can buy

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

random ofmd thought: I love that Stede is so cringe.

He's just. Awkward. Ridiculous. Unapologetically weird at all times and he never gets any cooler. Every episode has at least one Stede moment that causes me physical pain and I love that.

Because usually, if a character is this embarrassing, their arc is about learning to be less so, to be like anyone else, to be more normal, and Stede never does. He learns to be more confident, yes, but he never stops unapologetically being his awkward self, and that's so good to see? He's fine the way he is? He doesn't have to become less himself, he just has to learn how to own it better and that's so healing to see

2,133 notes - Posted May 14, 2022

#4

ofmd reader

aka Holy Shit Everyone In This Fandom Is The Smartest Person On Earth

aka a collection of my favourite meta, feel free to add your own faves!

(note that most of these don't actually have titles, I just tried my best to sum up the contents)

✬ On masculinity in ofmd by @edwardsilkheart

✬ The different genres various characters are in, and how they clash and synthesize by @fuckyeahisawthat (THIS is required reading and the reason this show works so well, all these different & contrasting flavours combined into something truly delicious. If you read nothing else on this list, read this)

✬ yk that Stede didn't actually have an evil plan to leave Ed all along right by @polyamoryprincess (on what really happened in Stede's head that night)

✬ these two posts by @mikimeiko about Ed and the mortifying ordeal of being known

✬ How does Ed like his eggs? by @forpiratereasons (on mirroring, learning how to be yourself and self-acceptance as the path to true love)

✬ Listen, I know everyone and their mother disliked Ed without the beard but I actually loved it. by @ruletogether

✬ Izzy Hands and the tenderness of violence, directed at him but not perpetuated by him by @ellicler with additional tags from @knowlesian

✬ Another one about Izzy, internalized homophobia, and subtextual queerness by @knowlesian

✬ The thing that ACTUALLY made Stede run away by @quillyfied

✬ Ed and the language of face-touching by @amuseoffyre

✬ anachronistinc costume design as a sotrytelling device by @ambassadorquark

✬ The Bathtub Scene (analyzing Ed's body language) by @orangechickenpillow plus this follow-up. I also recommend their post on clothes sharing

✬ beard media by @all-chickens-are-trans

4,851 notes - Posted April 11, 2022

#3

Crocheted Important Blue Internet Checkmark. Because why the fuck not.

(Pattern under the cut)

See the full post

4,982 notes - Posted November 11, 2022

#2

A brief conversation I had with @mikimeiko on their lovely meta about the motive of loss and abandonment made me think about miscommunication some more, and how horrible Calico Jack was to Stede.

When Stede meets Calico Jack for the first time this is what he says to him:

Who's the big gal?

Off to a terrible start, and it only goes downhill from there.

As others have pointed out, this is a very mean thing to say in general and absolutely unacceptable to say to a queer man in particular, and Ed knows that. He's trying to do damage control

See the full post

7,364 notes - Posted April 13, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

oh but I adore how everyone in this stupid pirate show is just a guy

I haven't seen ppl talk about it much but. the absolute lack of shredded abs. people show tummy and cleavage and there's not the barest hint of muscle definition anywhere

obviously some of them are very fit but it never leaves "works a physically demanding job and happens to be naturally thin" territory

and guys are fat! guys have bellies and rounded shoulders and chubby cheeks and imperfect teeth and thinning hair and are styled weirdly (that's a whole different post but the crew especially look so unprofessional styled it's great)

and they are still all hot! they are hot and desirable and find each other hot and desirable and I love that

I love to see it! nobody in this show looks like they had a personal trainer. and not just the side characters, not just a token fat guy - obv Taika Waititi is the most beautiful man you've ever seen and that little bit of tummy pudge spilling out of his crop top made us all lose our collective minds. but it's everyone else too; and it's not the extend of it either. no other show would have let black pete within 10 feet of a romance arc, much less been this sweet and sincere about it

this show is so comfortable with the human body in all it's glorious imperfection and I am in love with it

29,716 notes - Posted April 3, 2022

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#omg madda!!hi! hi bestie <3 #year in review #housekeeping #lmao insane year #i knew that ofmd would be the top tag but i didnt think it'd be *this* ridiculous #10x as much gay pirates as - anything else #the only real surprise is the meta post i didnt think it had this many notes #anyway! yoho! i love everyone on this ship y'all are awesome

[theweekinarrowfic]

Completed Arrow Multichapters on AO3, October-November, 2022

NOTE: I’m now crossposting to https://theweekinarrowfic.dreamwidth.org. Need more Arrow in your life? Why not try one of the multchapter fanfics recently completed by our talented fic writers?

Olicity

Retribution by TaraB1915 (Oliver/Felicity, 17/17, 2022-10-13) - Felicity Smoak returns home to work with Oliver Queen, Captain of the SCPD. The past had retreated from the foreground but the darkness of it was still hanging around Starling City waiting for her. Then there was Moira Queen. And Laurel Lance.

so runs the world away by clarissawrites (Oliver/Felicity, 15/15, 2022-10-06) - In 2021, Felicity is abducted, pulled from her life as a wife, mother, and CEO, and forced to work for an underground organization. Oliver fights to find her, but with the threat of her death from her captors looming over him, all searches have to be kept discrete. For three years, he keeps searching. When he finally finds her, though, the real difficulty begins, as Felicity struggles to return to a normal life. (mostly canon through 4x06)

illicit affairs by SmoakingGreenArrow (Oliver/Felicity, 10/10, 2022-11-29) - Oliver Queen and Felicity Smoak do not plan on falling in love with each other. In fact, they deny it at every stolen glance, every instinctive thought, every unspoken desire. But some things are too powerful to ignore. They’re both on separate paths when they meet, but the way they’re drawn to each other is unlike anything they’ve ever felt. If only life could be so simple.

Other Arrow Ships

A New Life on a New Earth by ArrowverseFan833 (Kara Danvers/Oliver, 61/61, 2022-10-06) - Oliver Queen decides that he isn't going to go to prison, so he fakes his death and moves to Earth 38. See what happens when the Green Arrow joins forces with Supergirl.*I do not own Arrow, Supergirl, The Flash, Legends of Tomorrow, or any of the characters in this story. They belong to the CW, WB, and DC Comics along with the writers of the shows.*

Arrow Enriched: The League, Part 3 by RoczaDeb (Laurel/Oliver, 8/8, 2022-10-26) - The League would train them. Make them stronger. Give them a purpose... hunting evil. AU. Ship-Laurel/Oliver. Laurel/Oliver/Tommy. Graphic Violence. Graphic Torture. Arrow Enriched Series, Part 3 (Second part of the story).

Arrow Enriched: Lian Yu, Part 2 by RoczaDeb (Laurel/Oliver, 5/5, 2022-10-15) - It was supposed to be a fun summer trip with friends. Yeah, Dad had business, but that left Oliver, Tommy, and Laurel to explore the cities they visited. It would be good for them. AU. Ship-Laurel/Oliver. Character Death. Graphic Injuries. Rape Warning. Arrow Enriched Series, Part 2 (Start of story)

the universe may not care but barry allen sure does. by SpaceCactus19 (Barry Allen/Caitlin Snow, Barry Allen/Oliver, 2/2, 2022-10-02) - set after Crisis on Infinite Earths. gonna be honest here I only saw the scene where (spoiler) Oliver died. i still have to watch it but this is set after it. barry can't accept the fact that Oliver died so against everyone's advice he travels back in time and somehow he saved Oliver. he goes missing in their reality for a week. this fic starts when he is back with them again. and Oliver is suddenly there and all alive. leaving some very confused people.

Arrow Dæmon AU by BeanSidhe_13 (Oliver & Slade, 9/9, 2022-10-20) - Oliver is a horribly traumatized human being, and so are his friends. Here’s how I think it might affect their souls if they were visible.

El juramento de obsesión by kapiushonnn (Oliver/Slade, 2/2, 2022-10-04) - Las personas elegían ver por lo general a Oliver Queen & Slade Wilson cómo una pareja genial y poderosa. eran más que eso. eran algo mucho más oscuro que eso. algo inexplicable y de alguna manera, algo peor. era un error. un error que no iban a dejar de cometer.

Of Friends and Reflections by LadyArthem (Hamish Duke/Vera Stone, Oliver/Felicity as side pairing, 2/2, 2022-11-29) - Hamish asks for help to bring Lilith's soul back. What he doesn't realise is that he might get more than he bargained for.

Earth-1 by WeirdWolf_Fandoms (Kara Danvers/Lena Luthor, Oliver and Sara listed as characters, 8/8, 2022-10-24) - During a routine crossover with just Barry Kara accidentally gets in the middle of Earth-1 Lena and Kara's relationship.

Unthinkable: Part 1 by RamaMind (Oliver/Slade, 9/9, 2022-10-17) - Slade Wilson's plan to torture Oliver Queen takes a disastrous turn when he kills him instead. With the subject of his obsession gone, he unravels in his madness. Team Arrow and Oliver's friends and family have to band together to save his city, and with Slade out of the picture, they have a good chance of doing so. But soon they will realize the emptiness left by Oliver's passing, and someone will make a deal with the Demon's Head to bring him back.

Oliver Does Arrow Season Two by megamatt09 (Oliver/various including Oliver/Shado, Oliver/Moira/Laurel, 7/7, 2022-10-14) - More sexual encounters featuring Oliver Queen and various women featured in Arrow. Season Two.

Nightmare in Starling City by Pootamis13 (Laurel/Oliver, 7/7, 2022-10-11) - One, two, Freddy's coming for you. Three, four, better lock your door. Five, six, grab a crucifix. Seven, eight, gonna stay up late. Nine, ten, never sleep again.

Anges gardiens by Amelia_Queen (Oliver-centric, 9/9, 2022-10-31) - Après son enlèvement par Chase, Oliver est au fond du gouffre et repousse tout le monde. C’était sans compter sur ses amis extraordinaires qui refusent de le laisser sombrer.

Never Be Silent by Ray_Writes (Laurel/Oliver, 11/11, 2022-11-19) - When Curtis messes with Laurel’s Canary Cry choker to save Oliver from Larvan’s bees, a secret Team Arrow never realized existed is revealed, prompting them to take a harder look at their counterparts in Central City and the way metahumans are treated."

Estoy cansado, ayudame por favor. by kapiushonnn (Barry Allen/Kara Danvers/Oliver, 2/2, 2022-11-04) - Maldita sea, Oliver estaba jodidamente cansado. pero no ese tipo de cansancio dónde llega a la mansión y se tira en un sillón, a dormir veinte horas para ser despertado por su madre, raisa, digg o thea con una declaración cómo “ tienes una cama propia, ve a dormir a ella ”, no. era un cansancio más allá de eso. estaba cansado con la vida. o algo así. o la vez que Oliver se desahoga, y llora, mientras que Barry & Kara deciden después de entender la situación, apoyarlo.

No destinados a ser. [ Bruce Wayne/Oliver Queen] by kapiushonnn (Oliver/Bruce Wayne, 3/3, 2022-11-24) - Bruce Wayne & Oliver Queen fueron personas no destinadas a ser, sin embargo aún así lograron tener una historia llena de admiración, romance, apodos estúpidos, y problemas. [ ligeramente sigue la historia de arrow pero no el canon y/o órden cronológico alguno. varios capítulos & distintas tomas. + bruce wayne ]"

Arrow Redesigned 03.O: Demon's Venom, Sah-him by RoczaDeb (Laurel/Tommy/Oliver, 6/6, 2022-11-14) - Sah-him’s (Oliver’s) specialized field training with The Demon’s Venom. Learning to use the Ruya. AU. Ship-Laurel/Oliver/Tommy. Graphic Injuries. Arrow Redesigned Series, Part 03.O

Waverider Down by legendsstan19 (Sara/Ava Sharpe, 2/2, 2022-12-01) - Summary: When an SOS call goes out to everyone on Prime Earth they are confused why it’s the waverider when all of the sudden the waverider comes crashing down. Read as they help each other get the legends out and figure out what happened.

#arrow

[red-riding-wood]

Heroes - Chapter 2

Chpt. 1 , Masterlist , Chpt. 3

Pairing: Sgt. Elias Grodin x Female OC (Alexis Ryder)

Fandoms: Platoon (1986), Cherry (2021) WARNINGS: I'm just going to put down a blanket for the entire book/all chapters: graphic depictions of violence and gore, torture, explicit sexual content, attempted sexual assault, language, marijuana use

A.N. Thank you for the reblogs! These chapters are actually reposts from my Archive account which you can read here if you want the full thing, but I will continue to update here.

My father was a hero.

My father served in the army for over a decade before settling down with my mother to have a family. He’d been courageous, selfless, brave – everything that I aspired to be.

He was killed in 9/11, when he worked at a clerical position in the Pentagon, and one of the planes veered off and crashed straight through his office.

I was so young when he died, so young that my memories of his warm smile, his loving touch, were distant to me. But they were real.

And I remembered them as I rose the barrel of my gun to the three Afghanis who stood before me, and though my finger shook over the trigger, and something twisted my gut, something gnawed at my conscience, so did the memories of my father.

He was dead, because of them.

And I was here, because of him.

My finger tensed over the trigger, beginning to squeeze faintly.

“Barnes!” A yell split the air, and my finger relaxed, my head tilting up to view Elias and his squad converging over the hill.

Elias’ blue eyes, normally mirthful and gentle, flashed with fury, and his brows were knitted together, his chest rising and falling with ireful breath as he glared at his fellow sergeant.

“What the fuck is going on here?” Elias demanded, his own rifle held across his chest as he started towards us.

Barnes’ lip curled over his teeth, and he turned his head to me. “Do it, Ryder,” he growled.

Bunny shoved one of the Afghanis into a little line the soldiers had made them form, and he backed away, a grin pulled taut over buck-teeth that had probably earned him his nickname. He glanced to me expectantly, and I couldn’t have been sure, but in that moment, I was ashamed to think that the bloodlust in his eyes may have been mirrored by mine.

I pulled the trigger, and with each body that dropped, my rifle kicked viciously against my shoulder.

They fell, crimson bursting from their chests, raining across the earth, staining colourful robes a dark, dark red.

And then everything was just… quiet.

I lowered my gun, and let my gaze wander from the bodies at my feet to the blue eyes that caught mine over the crest of the hill.

I couldn’t really describe what was in Elias’ eyes when he looked at me.

But for some reason, whatever it was fractured my heart.

And then Bunny was laughing, high notes stringing into the air, and he threw an arm around me.         

“Looks like Sugar Tits here has some gall in her after all,” he said, and laughter from Barnes’ squad ensued, and someone else jostled my shoulder.

I teetered on weak knees, my boots digging into the earth to ground myself as the men congratulated me and hooted and hollered, celebrated the death that stained the earth only a yard or so from my boots.

And I forced one of those fake smiles over my lips, went along with this celebration. I didn’t shrug Bunny off, or scowl, or snap at them for their remarks or their callousness.

But the celebration didn’t last, because Elias was charging Barnes, those blue eyes flashing once more in fury, and he slammed the butt of his rifle into my squad leader’s stomach.

Bunny’s arm left my shoulder, and everyone jumped into the chaos, tearing the two men off of one another. I stayed put, not wanting to intervene, but also still too paralyzed, still focused more on the bodies at my feet, at the way a little stream of blood trickled from the gaping mouth of the youngest Afghani, his eyes glazed over and empty.        

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I couldn’t sleep.

Despite how fatigued every muscle and tendon was, how lethargic I was when I’d wandered to the edges of our encampment, settled shakily down among the rocks and ferns, whenever I closed my eyes to sleep, images of bloodied  bodies painted my eyelids and the howls of agony from the soldiers that hadn’t made it today echoed in my ears.

But mostly, the fracture in my heart seemed to burrow deeper.

“And nothing, nothing will keep us together,” I sang softly, my lips forming broken notes spilled from aching lungs. “We can beat them, forever and ever. Oh, we can be heroes, just for one day.”

I swallowed a rock that had formed in my throat, and I closed my eyes, allowing the beautiful notes of the song to carry me away to another place, another time.

To my mother, and her warm smile, her loving touch. The woman who had practically raised me, after her husband’s death, who had only ever done what was best for me and showed me unconditional love, despite being alone in a world of death and monsters.

“Heroes” had been her favourite song. She’d sung it nearly every morning, while making breakfast, and nearly every night, before bed.

I realized now that she probably sang it to soothe herself of her own demons.

I had given her this iPod, as a gift, when she was in the hospital battling cancer. It was the only song she had managed to download before I watched the life fade from her twinkling eyes, and felt her fingertips slip from mine as I sang her to eternal rest.    

She’d been a hero, too. She’d kept fighting, kept smiling, kept doing good for others even when her world must have been pitch darkness for the disease that had spread to her blood, for the loss that must have plagued her heart.

A tear pricked my eye, and I swallowed again, the knot in my throat building and twisting and culminating into something cruel and painful, and my lips scarcely formed the lyrics now. My spine dug against the rock behind me, and though my head was no longer burdened by the weight of my helmet and my hair now fell loose from its tight, constrictive bun, every part of me was heavier, so my chin dipped down and my skull rocked forward.

My lips parted to silently mouth the next lyric as my tear rolled onto my teeth, and I swept the saltiness away with my tongue, biting it harshly as I squeezed my eyes tighter shut.

Iron spiked my tongue as a rustling sounded from behind, and I nearly jumped out of my skin, ripping my headphones from my ears and reaching desperately for my rifle. 

Through the darkness of the brush, the broken camouflage of one of the soldiers moved, and messy locks of hair fell over a headband that read “AIRBORNE”. Bright blue eyes shone in the luster of the moon.

“At ease,” Elias chuckled, his eyes darting to where my fingers curled around the barrel of my gun, relaxing now that I realized I wasn’t in danger.

But anxiety still wove itself into my gut all the same. Was he here to lecture me? Was he here to tell me that I was a bad person for what I’d done today?

I tucked my iPod into one of the pockets of the tac rig that lay beside me, and I said nothing. I didn’t want to encourage him, still didn’t want to be seen or heard with him, especially after what had occurred today.

As Elias settled down beside me, I took note of the bruise across his bottom jaw, of the red that streaked the side of his face and the dirt that had sullied freckled, sun-kissed skin.

“What’cha listenin’ to, Private?” he asked me as his knees came up to his chest, arms draping over them and his head lolling to the side so that those blue eyes could capture mine.

It took me a moment to respond, to even gather myself enough to, but after a wary glance around, I told him, “’Heroes’. David Bowie.”

Elias smiled, and his head rolled back against the rock, eyes seeking out the stars in the black sky.

“A classic,” he said. “You’ve got good taste.”

Though he meant it as a compliment, I couldn’t help but feel a pang of longing in my chest, for I wished that my mother could’ve sang it to me now, instead of murmuring out the lyrics from tear-stained lips and a throat thick with fear and bitter self-loathing.  

A silence stretched between us, broken only by the sound of crickets and the faint rustling of wildlife along the branches of the alpine trees.

“You should get some sleep,” Elias finally said. “You’re taking next watch.”

I cast him a glance. His head was still rolled back against the rock, strands of untamed hair splayed this way and that against the surface and his eyes still fixed in the sky.

“I know,” I said, numbly. I didn’t want to admit that the events of the day were haunting me, that this knot in my throat wouldn’t wane and the moisture in my eyes wasn’t from lack of sleep but from this fracture in my heart.

“Can’t sleep, huh?” he said, and I realized that maybe this plight of mine was more obvious than I’d thought. He was good at reading people, or maybe just good at reading soldiers. “After what happened today, I don’t blame ya.”

I recalled the way he’d looked at me after I’d pulled the trigger on those Afghanis, and a flicker of confusion shot through me. My brow furrowed, and my lips parted to utter, “You don’t? After…” I swallowed again in vain against the weight in my throat. “… what I did?”

“You were just obeying orders. Weren’t ya?”

Those blue eyes flicked to mine again, head rolling across the rock, and suddenly I felt as if they were impaling me, eviscerating my soul. I felt as if they were a pair of scales, weighing my conscience.

I wanted to say yes, should have said yes. That it was Barnes, that it was only Barnes who’d been responsible for the lifeless eyes that had stared up at the sky and the blood that had trickled from bodies still warm with faded life.

But I wasn’t so sure that it had been entirely him. It was my finger that had pulled the trigger, after all. It was my bloodlust that I’d seen mirrored in Bunny’s wild eyes.

I tore my gaze from his, because I couldn’t handle it anymore, couldn’t gaze into those bright, blue scales, couldn’t bear to see judgment swim in their gentle depths.

“I don’t know,” I murmured, my voice a mere ghost in the breeze.

Thankfully, he rolled his head back to gaze up at the stars, and said, “Don’t beat yourself up over it. This war’s made every one of us do things we end up regrettin’.”

“You think I regret it?” I said, my gaze snapping back to him as the hairs along my arms prickled.

He looked back over, blue eyes once again meeting mine, observing me, dragging lazily across every feature of my face, as if gauging this.

But I didn’t want him to answer for me. So I added, “Those people weren’t innocent. They were gonna cost us lives, like Barnes said.”

Blue eyes narrowed slightly. “You really think that?”

I had to think that. I had to trust in Barnes that I’d done the right thing in following his orders, had to trust in my father that he would’ve been proud of my decision.

“I have to,” I uttered, again so numbly, but so earnestly, and I allowed my gaze to drift from his as I swallowed again against the knot that seemed to build and tighten in my throat, and forced down the tears that threatened to spill from my eyes.

“I should go get some sleep,” I said, as I stood, gathering my rig and helmet from the forest floor. “Goodnight, Elias.”

I turned my back as I twisted my hair back into its constrictive bun, and slung my rig over my shoulders.

“Goodnight…” came his response. “Alex, your name is?”

I froze in my tracks.

“It’s Ryder,” I said stubbornly.

“Alex, if you start justifyin’ the blood on your hands because of what Barnes says, you ain’t gonna like what you see the next time you look in a mirror.”

His words tore at my conscience, at the blackness that I tried to ignore in my soul, at the uncertainty that plagued me, and this frightened me, and every instinct in my body wanted to lash out. 

I turned on my heel, gathering a breath in my lungs only to expel it with a bitter intensity, a firmness that surprised me. “I don’t need my morality of all things questioned when I’m fighting for peoples’ lives.”

Elias didn’t so much as blink. Those blue eyes were still staring at me, perfectly serene, his body still lax against the rock.

“You don’t talk to Barnes like that,” he observed, lifting his head and his mess of tawny-brown locks from the surface of the rock. “You’re scared of him, ain’t ya?”

I eyed him warily, and turned again, settling my helmet over my skull and clasping its strap tightly beneath my chin.

“Goodnight, Sergeant,” was all that I said, before leaving the stars and the crickets and the blue-eyed soldier behind me.

#fanfiction #elias grodin #platoon #platoon 1986 #willem dafoe #my writing #heroes #oc: alexis #sgt. elias #mdni #there's smut in this story i'm just not saying where because spoilers but you've been warned

[limowlee7389]

Currently Watching: July.

KOREAN.

+ Revenant (2023)(23 Jun-) ~ Airing. ★★★★★

I LOVE this show! This is easily the best thing I'm watching right now. Kim Tae Ri never disappoints. I am loving the dark tones that this drama has offered for its opening week.

+ King of the Land (2023)(17 Jun-) ~ Airing. ★★★☆☆

This is the fun watch of the season. It feels more like a 2000s drama. This feels like a nostalgia trip for me. It can come off as super cliche, but the banter between the two leads is fun. Lee JunHo is always a joy to watch. I am relieved to see that Im Yoo Ah seems to be keeping up with him.

+ See You in My 19th Life (2023)(17 Jun) ~ Airing. ★★★☆☆

This may not be great drama writing, but I'm finding it very watchable. My primary gripe is that the leads are a bit mismatched. Shin Hye Sun can run circles around Ahn Bo Hyun when it comes to acting chops. She just brings so much energy to her characters. Ahn Bo Hyun is more just to stand there and look depressed and a bit damaged. I do enjoy the setup and watching what aspects of Ban Ji Eum's 19 lives have made it into the present day.

JAPANESE.

+ Rikon Shiyou Yo (2023)(22 Jun-) ~ Airing. ★★★★☆

This show is shaping up to be everything I wanted in a new KudoKan project. I love our leads as dislikeable as they are. It was so funny to me how they could go from arguing one moment to hosting Shoji Family Relaxing Kitchen the next. The timing is so precise. My hope for this show is that our leads are actually successful in getting their divorce.

ANIME.

+ Hell’s Paradise:  Jigokuraku (2023)(3 Apr-1 Jul) ~ Airing. ★★☆☆☆

I wanted to love this, but I much prefer the source material. I still feel that the opening is GOLD, but overall this adaption feels like a product of Mappa's underinvestment.

+ Insomniacs after School (2023)(15 Apr-3 Jul) ~ Airing. ★★★☆☆

This show has so much charm, but it's sometimes too sleepy for me.

Plan to Watch.

D.P. 2 (2023)(28 Jul-)

Completed.

The Good Bad Mother (2023)(26 Apr-8 Jun)(2/10) ~

Mare (2015)(8 Jan-12 Jun)(7/10)

One Day Off (2023)(12 Jun-13 Jun)(6/10) 

Suga:  Road to D-Day (2023)(19 Jun)(6/10)

Other Things I Watched.

Heartbreak High (2022)(3 Jun)(8/10) ♥ 

The Lost City (2022)(9 Jun)(5/10)

Never Have I Ever (2023)(s4)(8 Jun-10 Jun)(5/10)

Human Resources (2023)(s2)(10 Jun-11 Jun)(5/10)

BTS:  PERMISSION TO DANCE ON STAGE - LA (2022)(14 Jun)(6/10)

Taylor Swift:  Reputation Stadium Tour (2018)(17 Jun)(7/10)

Olivia Rodrigo:  Sour Prom (2021)(17 Jun)(8/10)

Homecoming:  A Film by Beyoncé (2019)(18 Jun)(8/10) ♥ 

ariana grande:  excuse me, i love you (2020)(19 Jun)(7/10)

Happier than Ever:  A Love Letter to Los Angeles (2021)(19 Jun)(5/10)

Folklore:  The Long Pond Studio Sessions (2020)(19 Jun)(8/10)

Skip and Loafer (2023)(15 Apr-20 Jun)(10/10) ♥ ~

Komi Can't Communicate (2022)(c1)(31 Oct 22-21 Jun 23)(8/10) ♥ 

Yamada-kun to Lv999 no Koi wo Suru (2023)(1 Apr-24 Jun)(6/10) ~

Tengoku Daimakyou (2023)(15 Apr-24 Jun)(7/10) ~ 

Helluva Boss (2020)(s1)(16 Jun 22-24 Jun 23)(7/10) ~

Cunk on Earth (2022)(26 Jun-27 Jun)(7/10)

Cunk on Britain (2018)(27 Jun)(7/10)

Oshi no Ko (2023)(18 Apr-28 Jun)(5/10) ~ 

Normal People (2020)(20 Jun-30 Jun)(10/10) ♥

#drama status #currently watching #revenant #see you in my 19th life #king the land #rikon shiyou yo

[roboticchibitan]

I posted 4,215 times in 2022

That's 1,580 more posts than 2021!

468 posts created (11%)

3,747 posts reblogged (89%)

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I tagged 1,869 of my posts in 2022

#v's fiber arts tag - 379 posts

#the yearning is upon me again - 112 posts

#hopepunk - 104 posts

#knitting - 98 posts

#lace rot disease - 77 posts

#v rates teapots - 74 posts

#humans are space orcs - 48 posts

#lace for the lace gods - 36 posts

#atla - 34 posts

#the joys of tea - 34 posts

Longest Tag: 139 characters

#i messaged my doctor yesterday like 'look i just want to confirm that my assumption that this doesn't require medical treatment is correct'

I sent 2 gifts in 2022

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

Alien crewmate: you talk to that small earth creature like it's a person. It must be intelligent to understand you and respond.

Human crewmate: oh you mean my cat? They don't understand most of what we say. They can understand basic commands and tone. And some of them are as intelligent as a human toddler. But they can't understand most of what we say.

Alien crewmate: but... it made noise back at you. It responded.

Human: oh yeah cats do this thing where we can have "conversations" with each other but we don't understand each other. Sometimes I meow back at her, too, but I don't actually understand her meows. It's only polite to speak her language sometimes, after all.

Alien crewmate: fascinating

1,604 notes - Posted August 27, 2022

#4

OK but humans can feel rain in their bones. What kind of stuff could aliens do similarly? Imagine another alien from a deathworld hanging out with a human and the human is like "Oh my knee hurts the weather is going to change." And the deathworlder being like "Wait, you can predict your environment based on sensory input from your body too???" Turns out our deathworlder cousins can predict the weather and things like cave-ins because it makes their tusks hurt and they've never met another species who can do that. Non predator aliens watch this conversation in the mess hall in growing horror because what the fuck why are the predators able to do insane magic shit like predict the weather based on the feeling in their bones???

1,800 notes - Posted August 26, 2022

#3

In a world full of forces that want to keep you miserable and downtrodden, the most radical thing you can do is cultivate hope in yourself. It takes practice, and it's hard at first, but it's one of those things that snowballs. First you find a little bit of hope, and you think maybe that's all there is. But as you practice being hopeful, your hope grows and grows until suddenly the world doesn't seem so bad.

And remember, maybe you can't change the entire world. But you can change your world. And it's okay to let that be enough. The entire world is a heavy burden that no one was meant to carry alone. It's okay to put it down.

2,116 notes - Posted May 4, 2022

#2

Humans understand that for a lot of alien species, baring teeth is a sign of aggression, so we all learn to smile with our mouths closed but then we meet an alien species that think "that thing you guys do with your face muscles" is as adorable as we think a cat doing a blep is and then only finding out (with horror) way later that when we smile at each other we bare our teeth and that's a sign of friendliness and happiness we do to each other among members of our own species.

Imagine being an alien recently assigned to a new ship and there's multiple humans on this crew and you're like "Yes! I hope these humans do the 'smile' thing it's so adorable" and then you watch two humans hanging out and they're baring their teeth at each other and you're like "oh no the predators are gonna fight this is bad" until someone else on the crew notices you turning distressed colors and is like "No that's what their smiles look like when they smile at each other" and the you're suddenly very intimated by the fact that the persistence predators bare their teeth at each other when happy.

2,668 notes - Posted July 31, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

Human crewmate: smells like rain

Alien crewmate: you can SMELL that???

Human:. ... yes? Some humans can feel it in their bones, especially where bones have been broken and healed or have decayed. Most of us get it with age.

Alien crewmate, aside to another alien crewmate: what the fuck

12,827 notes - Posted August 26, 2022

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[blessedwithlucky7s]

Scratch Pad | Journal Entries Vol.01

OCTOBER 18th, 2021 | 11:58AM

Sometimes the sadness I feel becomes so overwhelming that I would rather kill myself to end all of this suffering, than to stay alive, here, and feel this way.

It's so melancholic, this existence... every year it declines in substance, and the more humanity I encounter along my journey (here, on Earth! lol), the less unique or exclusive I am beginning to find  human beings  as a whole, and, the more cynical in nature am I beginning to find “the meaning life”; then again, perhaps nature’s cynicism is beginning to really rub off on me…

Whatever the answer, it’s all irrelevant anyway…  I no longer exist on a plane in which I am able to accurately judge the answer to that question.

I feel like my life started out like something from some beautiful (whimsical) fairytale. Every memory, or moment in time was something I'd liken out of the many Disney movies and story books I grew up with; and then, as time has gone on, it has began to twist out... bent unto a deformed, older and more mature (and extremely peculiar) horror-tale, near sucked-dry it's brilliance, or substance (colour), my life is currently in sepia:

greyscale "coming soon" to a city near you...!

And, as I stare at my old Facebook photos, (or, when my Facebook got deleted the first time,) the photos on my pc: when I try and look back into "how things used to be", I see not only one, but about 12 distinctly different memories about what happened back then..

And now that I've travelled so far away from that time, I feel like Dorothy, or Alice... and in that moment I want nothing more than to be in the home of my true memories, filled with vibrance again, brighter than day, and more clear than the full moon lighting up the darkness...

"There's no place like home...

There's no place like home..."

... 🌇 ...

And, just like that, all my beloved Disney-themed fairytale narratives are no more..

Princesses being swept away by a knight in shining armour, dragons fighting the king and kings men, guarding a city of thorns... Gone.

All that lay in their wake were the twisted versions of their predecessors.  The princesses became whores, the princes: deformed, scared and scary, real, versions of their former selves.. some dead before their happy ending was to come, (their long lost love and thus their lives, undone) - and the remaining? Why, swallowed whole by the dragon, of course!

Nothing but dust and cobwebs adorn The City of Thorn's gates, thick as thieves, yet to be disturbed in this strange futuristic neo-fairytale city..

And, like the lost pages of my fairytales, I too have come undone.

I numb the pain of my existence, and the gravity of my trauma with heavy drug-use. Opiates, stimulants, benzos, ghb/14b... whatever  I’m able to get my hands on.

Each day, I spend it as if it is my last; not knowing if I will wake up after the last shot of smack I had.

Like Snow-White, or Sleeping Beauty, I'm  -

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///…There is an obvious break here: I more than likely just passed out… Probably from exhaustion (due to crying myself to sleep, lol**). Anyway, moving on...\\\

OCTOBER 21st, 2021 | 11:58AM

I used to wake-up and "Carpe Diem"!

Nowadays, in my wake I see the billowing path of destruction behind me where my body collapsed the previous night (or morning), and give-up before I've even finished looking at the mess I may blame my partner on but honestly, it is my own fault for allowing things to get this way.. I just don’t know how to deal with that, though.

//__All I know now__\\ All that I am certain of at this point in my life,  is that one day, if I do not become just another statistic/number on a graph owned by the system:

If I survive this, and continue down the same path I am currently, then that means that one day (soon) the drugs are going to stop working… And when that happen’s,

I’m going to have to deal with whatever trauma guided me down this Rabbit Hole in the first place.

** Just want to note here guys, I tend to use a lot of comedy to kind of "get through" my traumas.  It helps me cope a lot better.

#kokolouisenalty #koko. #fallingdowntherabbitholeagain #blessedwithlucky7s #writers and poets #beautiful words #poems on tumblr #words #quotation #journal #natural history #I'm 12 #suicidal thoughts #depressive episodes #BPD #Borderline #drug abuse #12 steps #Depression #panic disorder #love and other drugs #heroin #dope #meth #ghb #14b #juice #crack #opiaddict #self hatred

[ellrond]

I posted 2,100 times in 2022

That's 1,284 more posts than 2021!

230 posts created (11%)

1,870 posts reblogged (89%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@frodo-baggins

@alethiometry

@klngfili

@westenra

@haleths

I tagged 2,089 of my posts in 2022

Only 1% of my posts had no tags

#rings of power - 352 posts

#elrond - 282 posts

#lotr - 208 posts

#fanart - 186 posts

#ask - 132 posts

#house of the dragon - 97 posts

#bridgerton - 93 posts

#silm - 92 posts

#anon - 92 posts

#galadriel - 83 posts

Longest Tag: 133 characters

#‘bilbo this is fingon felagund you may have heard of-‘ ‘love what you did with the caves i used to live in somewhat of a cave myself’

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

In early notes by Tolkien the marriage of Elrond and Celebrian was 2500 Third Age and he originally planned to have Celebrian travel to Lothlorien in 2600 Third Age when she was actually killed, a mere hundred years after her marriage to Elrond so anyway thanks Tolkien for revising that but also fuck him for giving her that fate anyway when it adds nothing to the story and she could have been the ruling lady of Rivendell during LotR 😭😭😭

188 notes - Posted November 21, 2022

#4

The fact that they didn't even give new Elrond the sexy long locks he deserves we really are getting robbed 🤧

Literally not to be a bitch but who the fuck is that skinny twink, Hugo didn’t put his whole Weavussy into 5 films as Elrond for this wisp of a tween to come in and not even give us 22” of lace front

288 notes - Posted February 10, 2022

#3

Galadriel and Elrond in Vanity Fair’s First Look at the Rings of Power

344 notes - Posted February 10, 2022

#2

Is Halbrand Sauron? Probably.

Spoilers ahead!

TL;DR: it’s too lazy for him to be Aragorn 2.0- they want us so badly to come to the conclusion that he’s a lost king, it is too easy for that to be the truth. He’s in the right place at the right time to fill the role of Sauron in Numenor and he is of the right, charming, slippery, calculating disposition.

My main reason is they’re laying on this idea of him being Aragorn 2.0 way too thick and it’s the biggest red herring out there. We’ve seen the ‘lost king fulfilling his fate’ story already in the Lord of the Rings and in the Hobbit and it’s tired and lazy and boring.

So what does Sauron want to do in the books? He wants to infiltrate Numenor and recruit the people there to his side and he successfully does that over years of lies and manipulation when the majority of Numenoreans are poisoned against elves, Valar, and each other because of him. Sauron’s end goal in Numenor is ultimate control.

Now let’s look at the evidence in the first three episodes.

Episode 1:

Gil Galad says that he and Elrond foresaw that if Galadriel had continued trying to stop Sauron, she would inadvertently help him

Episode 2:

When the sea monster comes towards the raft, Halbrand advises to stand still to avoid detection when no one else suggests it and it initially works as it doesnt attack them - how would someone from a landlocked region have any knowledge of an ancient sea monster?

Galadriel asked why he separated his raft from the main one to save himself and he said ‘why be part of the larger target?’ - this could be alluding to the fact that Sauron’s forces are in central middle earth while he’s in the middle of the ocean

He talks about suffering and losing his home - Sauron served Morgoth in the First Age and their home was in Angband which was destroyed by the Valar in the War of Wrath. Sauron lost his home and he lost his master

Galadriel tells Halbrand to bind himself to her which is pretty loaded language when she could have just told him to tie himself to her. It’s at this point that he could have let Galadriel die, but he may already know that she could provide him with leverage in the future.

Episode 3 is where it gets way more obvious

Sauron is a charmer - in the books, Celebrimbor is all but in love with him when he’s in disguise. Halbrand flirts with Galadriel and charms her and goes above and beyond for her, like taking Finrod’s dagger from Elendil to give back to her

The moment he gets a bit of freedom, Halbrand goes to a blacksmith and asks for work and says his work is the best the blacksmith will have ever seen. Sauron is a mighty smith who learned under Aule, the god of smithery. Why’s he so set on having access to a smithy? He goes so far as theft to enable his pathway to work

Sauron took the name of Lord of Gifts when he was disguised with the elves, and what does he do in the tavern? Orders rounds of drinks for everyone

When he’s cornered in the alleyway he fights off 5 strong Numenorians with barely a scratch - Sauron was skilled in hand-to-hand combat

He’s eager to appease Tar-Miriel the queen and be seen as trustworthy. Yes, he is captive at the moment, but he has an easy charm even with great lords and ladies that do not befit his station

The figure at the end of the episode is another red herring - it’s not Sauron himself, but a commander of his, perhaps even the Witch-King of Angmar?

It makes sense that Sauron himself would be far away from the Southlands and the centre of his power when he knows that the elves keep watch - whether that be Gil-Galad from afar, or the Silvan elves who are now withdrawing.

His current location of Numenor where Sauron wants to be, and he is developing his relationship with Galadriel who is key to the entire race of elves. If he can manipulate her, he has an easy journey ahead of him. Remember, she ends up being a ring-bearer herself and although her ring is not made by Sauron, her fate is tied to the One Ring and to Sauron.

He’s also wanting to start crafting whatever and promises his work will be the best. He’s already privy to the two factions in Numenor - those who follow the old king and those who follow the queen - and is beginning to learn more about them.

As already said, he’s a charmer, he’s likeable, he has some sense of destiny about him, and he’s good-looking to boot. That’s Sauron’s go-to disguise. To many people familiar with the lore, it seems obvious that Halbrand is not the good guy Galadriel wants him to be. I think this will also lead into conflict between Gil Galad, Elrond, and Galadriel and a decline in her confidence and place in the world over the coming seasons, along with her rising from the ashes.

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obsessed with how tidy he keeps his hair around Gil Galad versus the floppy hair in Khazad Dum. look at this

Gil Galad is like that grandmother who pulls kids close and combs their hair until they yell

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#5

Ok, Dadneto and Quickson fandom, I love you all. But I am not feeling the Peter is falling loser idiot son when compared to the more competent badass that is the Erik Lehnsherr.

Peter has the most potential to be the smartest person in room even smarter that the resident smart person Hank McCoy.

Now, why do I say this? Because of the Star Trek: Prodigy episode 'Time Amok' where due temporal anomaly the crew are each in different time dilations so for some 10 minutes seems like 10 seconds, while other in the slower 10 minutes seems like 10 months or 10 years. This was the case for Rok, the youngest around eight, where she teaches herself advanced mathematics and engineering and by the end of the episode she fixes the ship and become an engineer.

Relating this to Peter, because of his powers of superspeed time is different and the holding thing that's holding him back is his self-doubt and self-confidence issues.

Peter is damn smart just look at the recuse the X-Mansion. He has to think about force, how students are going to land, who needs to get out first etc. The dude probably has a good understanding of physics and engineering. Honestly, I think Peter plays dumb and pretends not be as smart as he is until the situation demands and helps out.

He would be a killer in strategy and give Erik and Charles a run for their money in a game of chess.

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#4

Soft dadneto is the best dadneto!

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#3

When they say that we couldn't have Peter as a Horsemen and a father and son relationship with En Sabah Nur to contrast with Dadneto and Cherik.

With Oscar Isaac and Timothée Chalamet chemistry in Dune, also in Scenes of Marriage. Isaac could have pulled it off the father figure role. In my mind he should do more of them.

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#2

Headcanon after the battle in Cairo. Charles is bald and has lost his gorgeous fluffy hair. Everyone has regrouped and Hank is checking for injuries. While Peter's leg is getting a splint to straighten his leg Erik helping him as well straightening out piece of metal to use as a splint.

However, Charles notices that Peter is distressed, and it isn't about not telling Erik that he's his son; and he isn't talking. Due to his armor and their plane crashing (woops! there goes their clothes), he cannot wear his watch. That watch grounds him in the reality that everyone else experiences. Like Peter's minutes are hours to his friends, hours are like days; in a way he lives in his own time displaced reality.

So, Charles gives him his watch and Peter gives him a hug.

Which confuses Erik.

227 notes - Posted January 19, 2022

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Apocalypse: I will rule the world. I will rule all of mutantkind. All will bow before me!

Charles: Bitch please... (rolling his eyes)

Apocalypse: What do you have that I don't? I've gathered the strongest mutants to ever walk the Earth!

Charles: I have a rebellious 20 year old speedster just given several pots of espresso.

Peter: WOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!

Erik: Dear god, Charles what have you done?!

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(Spoilers for the end of Stray)

I am this close to making an au where b12 survives, moves himself into one of the companion robot bodies, adopts the mc (main cat) and the rest of their cat family and then has to deal with being the only remaining ‘human’, trying to figure out his role in this fledgling society while mourning the loss of his own.

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The sculk has corrupted many humans before, but what if it got its hands on a dragon? I present to you, the Sentry, the warden’s even more dangerous dragon counterpart.

Brighter version under the cut:

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#3

Stray - Resurfacing Au

A lot of people liked this post and I’m getting more ideas from my second play through so let’s do this. Stray Spoilers Ahead.

When the city opened up, the zurks died and the sentinels deactivated, the Outsiders were finally able to reunite and make their way towards the surface

(Zbaltzar had to stay behind until they had a place to put his monitors and everything else, but he didn’t mind, it just gave him more time to meditate)

They reach the station. They’re off put with how emotionless the helpers are, but decide to help them out at a later date

They’re about to exit to the surface when Momo hears something coming from the main control room and goes to investigate

He finds the little outsider, curled around his drone friend who’s eyes aren’t lit up anymore

Momo comforts the little outsider, picking him and his inactive friend up then taking them to the others

Doc ends up taking B12, believing he may be able to recover him

While the little outsider goes out to find his family, Doc sets up his new lab on the surface and works on bringing back B12

He finds that yes, he can recover B12, but the small drone body is beyond repair so he ends up installing B12 into a companion body

When B12 wakes, the cat and his reunited family are there to greet him. Doc explains everything that happened while B12 is covered in cats

B12, while happy to still be alive and with his memory, struggles with his identity. Now that everyone is free and he no longer has the mission of opening the city to focus on, he’s forced to face the implications of being the last human on Earth and if he even counts as a human anymore

The outsiders welcome him into their group, even if they’re free now, they still have their camaraderie and still consider themselves the outsiders

B12 doesn’t tell them about him being human right away, he wants get a bit more comfortable in his new ‘skin’ before he does so

That’s all for now but I do have more planned for this au. Feel free to ask any questions!

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#2

I don’t know why but I find the idea of the other outsiders thinking Momo has terrible fashion sense endlessly funny, like:

Doc, after returning to the slums: Momo! It’s so good to see you, I’m surprised you’re still wearing the coat

Momo: >:(

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Zbaltazar: wait, Momo went through the sewers? Rainbow screen Momo? Terrible fashion sense Momo?

Momo, just arriving at Zbaltazar’s level: >:(

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Clementine: I can’t believe you made it through the sewers! You must have gotten braver since I last saw you. It’s a shame the coat made it though

Momo, done with all of this: >:(

Nothing against Momo’s coat but it’s just a really funny idea to me that the outsiders, having not seen Momo in decades, immediately comment on his coat and Momo’s just:

899 notes - Posted August 6, 2022

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This is their dynamic and you can’t convince me otherwise.

Also hc that Clementine can and does carry the other Outsiders around.

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