#this made me want a little sib so bad

[sinner-sunflower]

P.2 HH Lucifer-centric AU 13/?

STORY 1, PART 1, PART 2, PART 3, PART 4, PART 5, PART 6, PART 7, PART 8, PART 9, PART 10, PART 11, PART 12, PART 14, PART 14.5, PART 15, PART 16

Luci is the older sib among the Sins but he's the youngest among the Archangels.

I guess technically, he's the suffering middle child.

If y'all see a mention baby bro or little brother in the Prequel, pretend like you didn't see it ;laksldakl;

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Perhaps Lucifer should've requested a 1 visitor per visit rule just like he should've expected that he's going to get tackled and suffocated in physical affection by the Sins and Charlie as soon as Belphegor opened the door.

Not that he doesn't like the hugs but he's just one tiny guy and he's pretty sure he's about to be buried alive under these giants.

Thank fuck for Belphegor for prying them off of him before he actually suffocated.

Belphegor: What did I say?! What did I just say?! What are you all? Children?!

A gasp and a coughing fit later, he finally calmed down enough to get his breathing steady. He thanks Alastor for the water, taking huge sips to fix his throat.

'Not to self: don't get buried alive. It's not a fun experience.'

He looks over at the now kneeling Charlie and Sins, head bowed as the Sin of Sloth relentlessly scolds them.

Belphegor: -powers in Hell and you can't follow one simple rule? May I remind you all what happens if I'm disobeyed while I'm treating someone?

All: Visiting rights will be stripped off.

Belphegor: That's right. And I am not above putting a ward on any of you to make it stay that way.

Never mess with Dr. Belphegor. As much as Lucifer is amused, he takes pity on his kids (his kids!) and speaks up to save them from the doctor's wrath.

Lucifer: I think they get it, Bel.

The kneeling demons cower as Belphegor sends them one last glare before huffing and went to typing something in her tablet again.

Beelzebub: Sorry for getting carried away, babe. We just got scared.

Asmodeus: Charlie's call really scared us. Did something happen in Heaven?

Satan: Tell me if that bastard Michael did this, I'll go to Heaven myself and beat his ass! In fact, I'm going over there right now. Open a portal.

Leviathan: Christ, Satan. Can you do one minute without thinking of doing something impulsive?

Satan: Don't say that name here! And fuck you! You're one to talk. Which one of us almost obliterated their ring in anger earlier, huh??

Lucifer: Wha- Levi??

Leviathan: I have no idea what you're talking about.

Mammon: Wait, is that why the elevator took so fuckin long to work? I thought I was gonna be stuck there foreva!

Charlie: At least you're all here now!

Charlie's wholesome sentiment made her aunts and uncles coo, wholeheartedly agreeing with her.

Lucifer: My duckie is right. Even though I said I was fine, you all still came for me. I'm starting to feel bad about making you all rush here every time I get hurt.

Satan: Don't you dare. No one is forcing us to be here.

Beelzebub: Right! Plus you always did the same for us.

He remembers those moments. When the rings formed and the Sins grew enough to move and handle them on their own, he was pretty lonely. Sure, he had Lilith, but children brought a different kind of joy with their company.

Plus, he loved indulging in others and all the children wanted was his attention, which he was always so happy to give.

The last person he would've thought to call him for help first was, believe it or not, Leviathan.

Levi had always presented himself as independent, acting like he's not as young as he was. Lucifer saw the aquatic demon's admiration for him, often mimicking how he talks, walks, and even dresses.

Lilith says it's envy (Because what else could it be, Luci? Isn't he the Sin of Envy?) but Lucifer knows better. He knows that Leviathan only looks at him in admiration. He looks at him like he hung the stars. Like Lucifer means something. Like he deserves to be looked at that way.

He doesn't but he's not going to tell young Leviathan that.

Anyway, Levi couldn't get the raging storms of Envy under control despite trying so hard. He was crying, begging Lucifer to believe that he did everything he could but nothing was working.

So he did what every good sibling/pseudo-father wouldo.

He drops everything and headed straight to Envy. In fact, he ran so fast he forgot to tell Lilith he was leaving.

Instead of fixing the situation himself, Lucifer chose that moment to teach Leviathan. He stayed in Envy until the other got it and not once did he berate Levi for not knowing something that wasn't even taught. It was his fault after all that Levi couldn't control it as he should've known that it doesn't come to everyone that easily.

The little scolding he got from Lilith when he came home super late was worth seeing a proud face on little Levi.

Lucifer: And I always will.

When it doesn't look like they're leaving him anytime soon, he figures he could just tell them now. He sat up a little straighter and internally braces himself for the expected uproar.

Lucifer: Heaven is on the verge of a civil war.

He winces. 'Way to rip off the bandaid, Lucifer.'

The room halted. They stared at him as they try to comprehend what he said just said. Then all at once, everyone bursts into screaming and panic, asking questions at him, at each other, at no one, at everyone. It was chaos and Lucifer can feel something rumble inside him. He figures Roo is enjoying all this unfold.

To be fair, he should've thought better than to say something like that out of the blue.

Lucifer: Sorry from dropping a bomb like that suddenly.

Satan: A bomb???

Mammon: Mate, that's a fuckin' nuclear one if I know one! The fuck you mean a war??

Lucifer: A civil war.

Charlie: What? How are we roped in it?? It's not because of the last extermination right?

Belphegor: You couldn't have told us this the moment you arrived?

Satan: Are we involved? Is that why Michael shot a freakin' laser through the sky??

Lucifer: No but-

Beelzebub: Oh god.

Lucifer: Guys, if you just-

Leviathan: Ozzie, how is our forces? Do you think we have enough manpower?

Lucifer: Guys-

Asmodeus: If it's only our fighting forces, then no. I'm sure a lot of demons would be willing to fight. Plus we have the firepower.

Lucifer: I-

Belphegor: Do we even know if angelic weapons would harm a higher ranked angel?

Oh for fucks-

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The room rattles from his voice. He stop his horns and halo from coming out. Lucifer can't see it but everyone else is staring at him in abject horror as his skin turned into a dark, glitchy mess.

He calms himself by taking in deep breathes until the fire in his mouth extinguishes.

Lucifer: Can I speak now?

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[am-i-the-asshole-official]

aita for not talking to my sister?

we both currently live in the same house with our mother and youngest sister, who is in elementary. the sister i don't talk to is about two years younger than me. dont want to give exact ages but we are both early adults now. we haven't spoken in about six years, just small talk that is mostly just me giving her a message or asking if she wants something to eat.

now, i stopped talking to her because we got into a fight because i told her she could not hold my little sibling (at that time my mom was the only one working and i was the one caring for my three siblings, including the eldest who is disabled, and i was the only one who knew how to care for a baby.) and she told me basically to die. and a lot of her words were just stuff she was repeating from my mom who has like this weird thing against me since ive been young, never really knew why. she would yell at me in front of my siblings and still does sometimes, though not as much since shes older. anyway, i didnt speak to my sister for about two weeks because of that and also it was not the first time she spoke to me in such a hurtful way, until some family members noticed and scolded me for it being as i am her older sibling.

i didn't feel like what she said was right but eventually i realized i do love and care for her so i did try to make it up by walking her home from school and hugging her and buying her snacks from the gas station that was near our house at the time. but i guess my actions afected her and ever sense she had no interest in speaking with me, which my mother does still constantly blame me for.

i feel bad and i did try many times to fix things and even still currently although i know she doesnt care for me i do little things for her. but she doesnt want to talk and at this point i don't feel obligated to even want to keep trying to mend our relationship when she doesnt even care.

then recently things kind of went bad, which i won't go too much into detail about, but she ended up going to a mental hospital for a few days for running away and threatening to kill herself. and she made some comments about me to my mom saying that i didn't care about her and its my fault she did those things, which my mom agreed. then she came home after begging my mom to get her and pretended as if nothing happened. i soon found out from my eldest sib (who this sister is closer to) that she only did that in hopes that she could get somethign from my mom but idk what and why she even mentioned me because then some people came around asking me if i abused her or anything and why i didnt talk to her.

but it made me angry and hurt since i have been working to be a better sibling even in this awful household, ive been trying to treat my baby sibling better too so at least she knows she's loved and not alone. i am working and going to school while she (sibling i am not talking to) gets to sit at home. i get her gifts and she doesnt even thank me. i still love her even though she hates me so much, even though i know she was just manipulated by our mom to feel that way about me. and for her to say that after ive constantly tried to be there even when she didnt want me it just hurted.

now i am so tired and im preparing to leave the house because i cant do it anymore, although i would hate to leave my younger siblings with my mom. and i think i will give up trying to mend our relationship, because i thought she could change but its becoming to much and i cant be here. i know i should not have stopped speaking with her and i regret it, but i feel like my efforts over the years should be acknowledged too.

and i just need to know am i a bad person for feeling this way? should i even keep trying?

What are these acronyms?

#aita #am i the asshole

[cosmicladyy]

low tide

dating wesley wizard

your first date was literally just a fishing trip

but you actually had a great time, wesley would tell you interesting facts about each fish he’d catch and what lure was best to use

you caught a big ass fish on your first throw and couldn’t stop bragging

he thought it was cute

(howell was horrifed when he found out and made him take you to this rlly fancy restaurant he had reservations for) “ON WHAT PLANET DOES FISHING QUALIFY AS A DATE???”

on the off chance you don’t go fishing with him, he’d send you pics of some of the fish he’d catch

‘took 4evr, but i finally caught him’

‘he kinda looks like u :)’

hc that he likes to bring home pretty shells he finds on the beach for you

you have a shelf dedicated to all the gifts he brings you

when ya’ll finally move in, he brings all his fish buddies with him

congrats! you now have your very own aquarium !!

love the man to bits, but i feel that bc he spends so much time in the ocean, he’s used to the smell and doesn’t realize a majority of his clothes stinks

which is bad news for you bc he likes to be held after a long day of fishing and you don’t wanna be near a smelly fish man

“Wes, I’ll hold you after you shower.”

“so you’re saying you don’t love me anymore?”

“WESLEY GO TAKE A SHOWER.”

when ya’ll first started dating, he was a little hesitant on officially introducing you to his sibs

he knows his family does it to protect him, but they can be a bit much at times

but after much convincing, you both arranged a small dinner to get to know them

you kinda already knew Crispin, considering he’s the only mechanic on the island

it started off with you getting back to back ‘interviews’ from each sibling but at the end they all came to the realization that you’re actually pretty cool

he thought that was goods news, but it backfired tremendously

prepare to never have any alone time 

bc you’ll always have a wizard sibling glomming onto you

you don’t mind, but wesley gets tired of it quick

“I wanted them to help me with this new recipe I found.”

“Yea right, they clearly want to check out this new computer game I found.”

“Dream on! They obviously want to sculpt with me, let’s get outta here (y/n)!”

*cue tug of war*

he’s not really into pda

instead of holding hands, he likes to link pinkies

when ya’ll are alone however..

you like when he kisses your cheeks bc his stubble tickles in a good way

before he heads off for the day, he waits for you to brush his bangs to the side and give him a smooch on his forehead

he refuses to leave without one

he’s actually really clingy behind closed doors

you absolutely love it, but it definitely has it moments

“this is really nice, but i need to use the bathroom.”

*grunt*

“I’m like three seconds away from pissing my pants pls let go.”

“I have a bucket you can use.”

“THAT”S SO GROSS WESLEY LET GO.”

after his clothes have been thoroughly washed, you like to steal his sweaters

“Are any of the clothes dry yet?”

“no.”

“is that my favorite shirt?”

“...no.”

you buying him those dorky dad hats that read somethin’ like “women want me, fish fear me” as a joke but they become a major part of his wardrobe 

sometimes when wesley gets tired of talking, he’ll slowly go from one worded responses to low grunts

when you pick up on this, you just hold his hand and sit with him in silence

he appreciates it and squeezes your hand to let you know

he’s really glad he met you, it makes him feel like you’re the only person who really gets him

#mmm my favorite #needy men <333 #wesley wizard x reader #wesley x reader #bapc x reader #cosmicwrites #bee and puppycat

[aroaceconfessions]

I understand that this is a loaded word for the community, but I never minded thinking I was "broken" before I discovered asexuality existed. The only thing I didn't like about that was the knowledge that sometimes broken things can be fixed, and the lowkey terror that someday whatever little toggle had switched over in all my friends' heads to turn them into people who Liked Other People Like That would switch on me, too, and I desperately didn't want it to because I liked being me; liked being ace, even before I knew that was a thing. Learning about asexuality was a relief and a delight because it meant that I would be safely "broken" forever, and I'm so sorry for all my ace sibs who were ever made to feel like this sort of "broken" was a bad thing, because I'd never been happier than to discover that there would never be any "fixing" me. Being ace is awesome; being "broken" is awesome. You're awesome too my fellow aces and I love you all (platonically!).

Submitted May 31, 2023

#asexual #ace #aspec #acespec #pride

[crusty-chronicles]

The Moon and Sun (Big Sib Reader x Gon/Killua)

Chapter 4: The Winner and The Loser

Synopsis: Things go from bad to worse as Bisky is eliminated from the game. You watch helplessly from the sidelines as both boys are drained and injured. And just when you think you've won, Razor pulls the rug from under you with shocking revelations. 

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Razor stared curiously at the injured young adult. Twice now, they thwarted his attack. And twice, they had been very successful. You weren't a normal nen user. Your speed was unusual and precise. Like you'd spent years perfecting it.

And your nen...

It wasn't Ko you used to deflect the ball. You weren't protecting your leg, you were amplifying the power already there.

A very interesting turn of events

But the most interesting part was despite the power you displayed, you were still holding back. Whether it was knowing or unknowingly.

And that made the game all the more fun.

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"Estimating the ball's drop point, the game will continue. Team Gon has possession," #0 announced.

"And since Y/n is no longer able to play, they're out!"

"It's almost as if my leg's broken or something," you muttered, still bitter about the current situation. Bisky smiled down at you.

"Yeah, almost." Her tone shifted into a softer one. "You sure you'll be fine here on your own?"

You gave a huff of irritation.

"I don't have a choice, but if it makes you feel any better I can finally catch up on sleep."

You felt a thump on the back of your head.

"I'm being serious you dolt!"

Aww she cared.

"I'll be fine. Just make sure to keep Hisoka away from the boys." You did not trust that clown's intentions whatsoever.

"Of course. Just sit tight. Everything will be over soon, okay?"

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With that, you were seated a little aways from the court. Razor's nen beasts had offered you crutches to use, but you didn't want to get up quite yet. You wouldn't put strain on yourself if you didn't have to.

Killua and Goreinu started off by passing the ball toward one another. It ended with Goreinu deciding to enact his revenge on Razor for traumatizing him.

"Just so you know, I'm the type to hold a grudge. It's time for payback, Razor!"

He threw the ball with all his might and switched his nen beasts around, along with the beefy ex-convict.

It was a miracle he caught Razor off guard, leading to the ex-convict getting hit square in the jaw.

"That's what you get! You mess with me and I'll take you out!" Goreinu sounded quite proud of himself.

But there was just one small hitch, the ball never got the chance to hit the floor.

You see, after the ball hit Razor, his nen beast #2 threw itself outside the court, and tossed the ball back inside to #13. And just to pour salt in the wound, #13 lobbed the ball back at Goreinu, knocking him out.

Goddamnit.

"Wait a second! What the heck was that!?!" Bisky exclaimed. Razor turned to her with his forever grin.

And he was so close too.

"There's no rule against passing the ball to an opponent. And if the ball had actually touched the floor, I'd be out now." He explained.

Then his eye caught yours.

"It's all about having the right speed for it."

You growled at his jab towards you.

He dismissed your agitation and prepared another throw.

There were only four players left: Gon, Killua, Bisky, and Hisoka. Whoever Razor had his sights on would surely be out, leaving your team with three. It was unfortunate you couldn't use Back.

"Tell me, who wants to be next!" And just like that, Razor loaded the ball with his murderous nen. It's trajectory heading straight for...

"KILLUA!" You screamed, immediately forcing yourself up despite the pain. Goddamnit, you weren't close enough to help.

Damnit Damnit Damnit.

It was last second the ball changed it's course and swerved left. It narrowly missed the small assassin, passing him and then passing Bisky. You held your breath as Hisoka barely dodged it by bending backwards.

Luck was not on the clown's side as #5 rebounded the ball and threw it back. Hisoka, having no other option, used his Bungee Gum to catch the ball. Just like with you, the force from Razor's nen pushed him back.

Miraculously, Hisoka kept his grip on the ball, actually catching it in full. As he stood straight his predatory nen skyrocketed.

With the adrenaline finally wearing off, you struggled to keep standing and hesitantly reached for the crutches. That was too close. Way too close.

"Biscuit is out!" #0 announced.

"Bullshit!" You shouted. She dodged it, you saw her. And your eyes never missed anything.

Bisky looked down at her dress. The corner of it was scorched, just like the back of your shirt.

"I'm out...So that means clothing counts as part of your body..." Bisky sounded pissed.

"Yes."

Then why did-?

Why the hell had-?

"My ass she's out! If we're going by that rulling then I should've been out the first turn!" It didn't make sense. And you'd be damned if you didn't argue your case.

"Why did I get to stay and Bisky doesn't!"

Razor's grin widened.

"Why? The first three turns we let you make mistakes. A way for the opposing team to get used to the rules. And an exception for you was made because your nen is very interesting. Amusing if you will."

Amusing

Like you were some toy.

How dare he have the nerve.

Your aura spiked momentarily, anger seeping through.

"What you have is a gift, little one. So very special and unique, even Father envies you. You're lucky he finds your tricks amusing enough to keep you close."

Then you remembered where you were. You needed to calm down or else everything you'd worked towards, everything you sacrificed would be for nothing. And everything you gained would be lost.

You could feel eyes on you as you finally relaxed, or became as relaxed as you could. You didn't look up yet, not wanting to see their reactions at you losing your cool. But you could feel them.

You could feel Razor's satisfaction from getting a rise out of you.

You could feel Bisky's concern as she approached your shaky state.

You could feel that damn clown's lust after finally getting a real look at your aura.

And you could feel the darkness from both boys leaking through. Combined it was angry and defensive.

You felt vulnerable.

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If looks could kill, Razor would be dead ten times over with the way both boys were glaring at him.

In the six months they'd known you, you had not once lost your cool. Always staying level headed and cautious. Always having a watchful eye. Always remaining collected, even when something was bothering you.

But ever since Razor had entered the picture, your lazy demeanor shifted.

He made you scared.

He had hurt you.

And now he disrespected you.

The last and final straw that sealed the fate of this game.

"Gon," Killua addressed.

"Yeah?" The other boy answered, determination unwavering.

"Let's beat this guy no matter what."

"Not no matter what. We're not gonna let him off by getting a cheap win. You think he deserves that after what he just said to them? Well I don't. I'm gonna crush him and make him apologize. It's a promise. Are you with me?"

Gon's nen had spiked with his rant, letting Killua know he was going through with it whether or not the assassin was on board. But Killua didn't need much convincing anyways.

Friends stood up for each other. They protected each other. And they always looked out for each other.

"Always, one hundred percent. Now let's teach this bastard a lesson."

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"You're not even playing anymore and he still taunts you. What a creep," Bisky commented from besides you. She had a hand on your back, giving your body more support.

You said nothing, eyes staring blankly at the court.

Bisky gave a sigh at your unresponsiveness.

"Thank you though, for trying to keep me in the game."

Still nothing, so she decided to redirect her attention to where you had been staring so intently.

"Are you worried about them, or just focusing on suppressing your aura?"

Not a word

With no other option, she waved a hand in front of your face to try and gain your attention.

You grabbed it and moved her hand to the side, unblocking your view of the court.

Then....

"Why are they so mad?" It was more of a whisper really. But at least you said something. Bisky assumed you were talking about the boys' shift in demeanor. The answer was obvious really, but perhaps the lack of sleep and constant stress had muddied the water for you.

"Watch and see."

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Gon ordered Killua to the front of the court and had him hold the ball, knees braced for impact. Then Gon started pouring his nen into his fist.

His aura spiked erratically, resolve stronger than ever.

"Show me rock!"

So much determination

So much power it was almost scary.

"JAN-KEN-ROCK!"

He used as much force as his body could give and punched the ball straight from Killua's hands. It flung at such an incredible speed, you could barely keep up. It landed in the grasp of #13. But even though the nen beast had caught the ball, it didn't mean it could stop the sheer force from flinging it out of the court.

You let out sigh of relief. They'd done it. Smart kids. You just hoped Killua would hold out until they beat Razor.

Was it a good idea not to use Ko to protect his hands?

No, no it wasn't

But the alternative was having Gon's attack be reduced. And they were gonna need every ounce of power they had to win.

You would scold the both of them later.

"# 13 is out!" #0 announced. "Catching the ball while your body is touching outside the court is illegal. Possession goes to Team Gon."

Your teammates cheered besides you. And you wanted desperately to join in on the celebration, but the disappointment from Gon's aura held you back.

Why would he be-

"Damnit! That one wasn't nearly good enough! It needs to be strong enough to make them proud!"

Killua, who had just caught the ball with his injured hands, encouraged Gon further.

"Then don't hold back! They're watching, remember? So hit Razor with everything you got! Make him sorry like we promised!"

Gon smiled and nodded at him.

"You get it now?" Bisky asked you as Gon charged up.

You did.

You finally understood what had those boys so riled up. It was almost enough to make you cry. Almost.

Bisky then turned her attention to Razor.

"I think you picked the wrong sport. Nothing in the rules limits the amount of time he can take to build up his power. You also picked the wrong person to mess with. Might wanna get out of the way."

But Razor payed no mind to her warning. If anything his aura radiated more excitement.

"You're kidding me, right?" His aura output spiked to match Gon's.

Although you were scared for the boy, the resolve in both his eyes and aura gave you the reassurance he'd be okay. That he would beat Razor and then some.

And that small feeling of pride was back.

"Okay, show me rock!" His nen busted a few lights with it's power. Then it seemed to envelope the whole building with it's light.

"THIS IS FOR Y/N, RAZOR! TAKE THIS!!!!"

Gon's entire fist was aflame with power as he struck the ball with everything he had.

"JAN-KEN-ROCK!!!"

The ball went spiraling in a mass of flames. And despite the speed, the power, Razor's expression hadn't changed.

That damn bastard was still smiling.

You could see the quick flicker of doubt in his aura. Then it was gone as he braced his feet and hands to volley the ball.

He was the one skittering back this time, but like you, his determination hadn't wavered. His will to win was strong. Strong enough to stop the ball from spinning and bumping it upwards.

What was this dude made of???

"The game's not all about dodging and catching. I'm sure your friend over there knows it. And had they actually used Ko, they would've been completely fine."

You hated that he was right.

But whereas Razor planned to volley the ball from the start, you were in a frantic state trying to figure out how to protect your kid. Not exactly the time to stop and think about what you were doing.

You were snapped out of your thoughts by a panicked Gon.

"Wait!" He was waving his hands frantically at you. "Pretend you didn't see that Y/n!!! That was, uh, a test throw! That's it! A test throw! Next time for sure it'll-!" You cut him off with a soft laugh.

He really thought you would be disappointed after that? That you wouldn't be proud?

It was absurd really, to think someone could be so cruel as to not appreciate the sentiment. So you laughed. You laughed because Gon wasn't worried Razor had deflected the ball, he was worried that you'd be mad he missed.

"Don't worry about it kid. You did just fine." Then your eyes caught the small assassin's behind him. The one whose hands you were sure hurt like absolute hell. "Both of you."

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With the ball still in the air, Hisoka took the opportunity to use his Bungee Gum to grab it. Because Razor was the last person the ball hit, he was out. Temporarily of course. Nothing would ever be that easy with him.

He used Back shortly after.

A damn shame.

Everyone on the court was either injured or drained. Tsezguerra seemed to realize this and called a timeout. Bisky helped you hoble over on your crutches to hear what he had to say.

"Gon, if just step outside of the court before you strike, I can hold the ball for you. Killua's hands must be totally ravaged by now. I sincerely doubt he's in any condition to hold the ball, or anything else."

It was a good idea in theory, but Tsezguerra failed to realize one thing. This match was personal for the two boys. It was their battle to fight. And no matter how much it hurt or how much energy was spent, they were gonna make sure they finished it.

"I know a way that'll allow me to protect my hands with a lightning fast coating of aura. I can hold the ball while you take out Razor from here. It's the only way that we can win this."

And just as you suspected, they'd denied Tsezguerra's help.

"We can't do that." Killua argued. Gon nodded his head in agreement. Tsezguerra floundered about for a rebuttal.

"But why not!?! What's the problem with that!?!"

"It feels like a copout. And we promised we'd get a real win." Killua glanced at your shattered leg.

But Tsezguerra wasn't done protesting.

"You're kidding, this is not the time to be thinking like that!" Then he doubled over as the pain from his ribs flared.

"Take it easy old man. You took a hit, you're only gonna make it feel worse. Besides, I'm feeling fine. I'm not hurt nearly as bad as to might think."

Killua's aura radiated deceit. He was lying, and as he looked over to you again, he knew that you knew.

"Show me your hands," Tsezguerra demanded.

Killua tensed.

"I said I'm fine." But nobody was buying it.

You looked away as Bisky tugged on his arm to reveal his hand. You'd seen enough carnage for today. But that didn't mean you couldn't sense the leftover nen covering his hands.

"Like I thought. I bet you he can't feel anything but pain. Y/n, right? Can't you talk some sense into him before he hurts himself worse?" Tsezguerra pleaded.

You leaned further on your crutches, circles under your eyes seeming to darken.

"I'm not his mom, and I'm not his dad. If he thinks he can take it, then who am I to stop him." You found the strength to look up, trying your best not to let your gaze linger on Killua's scorched hands.

For the first time in years, you flashed your real smile at the white haired boy. It was crooked and tired, but it was yours.

"What can I say, the kid's tough as nails. As long as he doesn't get himself killed from one of Razor's throws, it's not my problem. Right, gremlin?"

You could see blue eyes beaming up at you. Joy and relief flowing from his aura.

"Right! There you go, old man."

But Tsezguerra was still not assured.

"Gon, c'mon. You know you can't let him do this!"

And yet again, the boy in green refused.

"I'm sorry Mr. Tsezguerra, but I won't move out of the court. I need him to hold the ball for me. I can't do this without Killua." It was said with so much affirmation. So much so that it caught Killua off guard.

"If Biscuit or Hisoka held it, I probably couldn't use my full strength. There's only one reason I can focus everything I've got on hitting the ball... It's because I know Killua is the one holding it."

You softened as you saw both auras shift into contentment and trust.

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Bisky was able to get her revenge on the nen beast that had gotten her out. She threw a curve ball at Razor, hitting #2 on it's foot.

The only one left was Razor, and unfortunately he had the ball. He watched in silent interest as Gon, Killua, and Hisoka came up with a plan.

Fate was not on your side as Razor called back his nen beast to him. His aura increasing as he absorbed them.

Your body trembled slightly at the power increase, not used to feeling so much bloodlust, nevertheless being able to see it swirl around him.

Then he poured all his nen into the ball, throwing it up afterwards.

Oh God.

He was gonna spike it.

You looked over frantically towards your side of the court. Your panic subsiding for a brief moment with protectiveness.

"WATCH THOSE DAMN HANDS HISOKA!!!!!!" You threatened.

He stood over your boys, with his arms outstretched in front of Gon. You realized shortly after that they were gonna try and catch Razor's throw. It didn't mean you trusted that damn clown to be so close to them.

Your panic was back as Razor slammed the ball straight towards them. All three of them immediately went skidding down the court, dust getting kicked up in the process.

You focused your eyes, seeing Gon using as much nen as he could to protect his hands from the ball's aura. You also saw Hisoka use his ability to make sure the ball wouldn't go bouncing off. And then your attention focused on the boy sandwiched between them. His aura being distributed perfectly between his back and legs.

The dust cleared and you let out the breath you'd been holding in. They were still inside the court.

"Hell yeah! Now don't miss this one, ya hear!?!?" You cheered. Look at you be all proud.

Both boys nodded over at you.

Gon and Killua got into the position from before, with Killua holding the ball and Gon throwing. Something seemed to snap inside the boy in green. His aura starting off small, then exploded out in a fiery glow. It radiated confidence. Like he knew this would be the the throw that defeated Razor.

He channeled all his power into his fist once more. If Killua's hands were damaged before, they'd be unusable when this was over.

Gon mumbled something to him before launching into his attack.

"Now, show me rock!" All at once a bright light filled the court. And the power you felt from it had you stumbling forward.

"JAN-KEN-ROCK!!!!!"

The force of it was stronger than anything Razor had produced. And one quick look over told you that he knew. For the first time since this game begun, Razor was nervous. You could see the gears turning in his head. Then relief as he seemed to come up with a solution.

He used every ounce of his nen to bump the ball, not upwards, but towards Gon.

You let out another involuntary screech.

"GET THE HELL OUT OF THE WAY!" You tripped over your crutches trying to get to him. You could feel him fading fast. He wasn't in any position to dodge, let alone move out of the way.

You couldn't hear anything else besides your heart thudding in your ears. You couldn't force your body up this time. You could only watch.

You could only stare in mortification as Gon passed out right on the court. The ball missing him by a hair. A small feeling of relief that it had passed him, but not enough to soothe your frantic mind. You tried and failed to get up on your feet.

Not seeing Hisoka catching the ball with his Bungee Gum. And certainly not seeing as he flung it back towards Razor, finally ending the game. You didn't even hear #0 announce the win.

All you could focus on was making sure Gon was okay.

So you stumbled and fell as you inched closer to the unconscious boy. Already on the ground, you pulled his head towards your lap to cradle.

"Kid! Hey kid! Get up okay!" You gently shook him. "Give me a sign, anything! Just wake up!"

After what seemed like an eternity (it was just a few seconds really) Gon opened his eyes, sitting up from his passed out position.

"Huh?" He said as he noticed your presence. "What happened? I missed it." You gave an airy laugh and pulled him into a hug. Relief that he was okay passed over, and you preceded to grab his shoulders and shake him.

"YOU ABSOLUTE IDIOT!!! DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA THE EMOTIONAL ROLLERCOASTER YOU JUST PUT ME ON!!!! I THOUGHT YOU GOT HURT YOU BIG DUMMY!!!! AND WHAT IF YOU DID!?!? WHAT THEN, AM I SUPPOSED TO JUST MOVE ON WITH MY LIFE!?!? DON'T YOU EVER SCARE ME LIKE THAT AGAIN OR I'LL NEVER FORGIVE YOU!!! DO YOU HEAR ME!?!?!"

You stopped your shaking of the poor boy and let him regain his bearings.

"I'm sorry, it won't happen again." He said as his world continued to swirl.

You noticed Killua's presence from behind you and turned to face him.

"You really shouldn't shake him like that, you know," he commented.

You reached up and pulled him down, repeating your previous actions.

"DON'T YOU THINK I FORGOT ABOUT YOU!!!! HOW COULD YOU BE SO CARELESS!?!? YOU THINK JUST CUZ YOU WERE AN ASSASSIN THAT YOU'RE IMMUNE TO PAIN!?!? CUZ BIG NEWS DUMMY, YOU'RE NOT!!! WHY WOULD YOU EVER THINK IT WOULD BE A GOOD IDEA TO LEAVE YOUR HANDS UNGUARDED!?!? YOU THINK I LIKE WATCHING YOU GET HURT OVER SOME STUPID GAME!?!?? I DON'T GIVE A DAMN ABOUT HOW HIGH YOUR PAIN TOLERANCE IS, YOU WILL NEVER DO SOMETHING THAT STUPID AGAIN!!!! DO YOU HEAR ME!!!!"

You released Killua, watching as he tried to process your words like Gon.

"It won't happen again, I swear."

"Good, now then, all things considered... Good job boys. Couldn't be prouder." You could feel both auras shift into contentment at your words. Then you felt the predatory one next to you.

You let out a groan before deciding to be nice. He did help them win after all.

"You did great too Hisoka," you begrudgingly praised.

"Aww thanks. We only won because we worked together. That makes this a team victory." He said as he placed a hand on your head and ruffled your hair.

You let out a small growl.

"I can still kick your ass with this broken leg, ya know!" Your threat caused the small group to burst into laughter. You were so focused on the boys that you didn't notice Razor walking up.

"I lose," he started. "As I promised, we'll all leave this town immediately. But first, you asked about Ging, so I'll tell you." His words were directed at Gon.

The boy in question looked over at you, silently asking if it was okay. You flashed him your tired smile.

"What're you waiting for, munchkin? Go on, we'll be right here when you're done talking. Alright?"

He beamed up at you and followed after Razor.

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You watched as Bisky bandaged Killua's hands. He let out a shriek at the harsh contact.

"Don't be baby. If you can take the injury, you can take the healing," You chastised.

"Says you! You can't even use your crutches properly!" He argued.

"I was panicking!"

"Excuse, excuses, excuses!"

Bisky thumped the both of you an the back of the head.

"Can you two stop arguing for one second!"

You were about to give a rebuttal, but were cut off by Gon sprinting towards you. He looked rather giddy. Whatever Razor told him must have been pretty special to have him this happy. He started ranting to Killua, excitedly waving his arms as he spoke.

"Y/n," Razor called out. You looked up at him from your place on the ground.

"May I have a word with you?"

You focused your eyes on his form, trying to pick up on any malice that may be lingering in his aura. Nothing, except for content.

Weird.

"Sure?" You had no clue what he would ever want with you. And you weren't exactly fond of him as it was.

You hastily got to your feet, both boys helping you up. You grabbed your crutches and followed after Razor. When you were far enough away from the others, he finally spoke.

"For starters, I'd like to apologize about your leg. I hope it heals well."

You gave out a small huff.

"You and me both...Look, I know you didn't just call me over here just to apologize, so out with it." At least he hadn't turned out to be a complete ass afterall.

"Right. You've been here for two years, correct."

"...Yes..." You had no idea where he was going with this.

"Well just about two years ago some people arrived on the island through unconventional means."

They tried to get in from the outside.

"And said they were apart of [REDACTED] and were looking for a child that had run away from home."

You froze in place.

"Don't panic, I did my duty as gamemaster and shooed them away. But I'll admit, I was curious to know if one of their own was truly here.

"When I saw your nen ability, I had my suspensions. But you're reaction just now confirmed it. Am I right?"

You gave a shaky breath.

Demons from the past just couldn't leave you alone, could they.

"No...No you're wrong. I'm not one of them and I never will be." You looked up and stared straight into Razor's eyes, unwavering hatred on full display. But it wasn't him who your rage was directed at.

And it was then he understood. He understood very well now why you were unknowingly holding back earlier.

"Let me offer you some advice, then. When you leave the island, be very careful with your aura output."

"Who says I'm gonna leave." You knew it was a futile argument, but you just wanted some semblance of control right now. You wanted to have a choice. You wanted anything but to face the cruel reality before you.

"Those boys, they look up to you so much already. All it takes is one person who believes in you to change. And perhaps you already knew that. Perhaps you've already started noticing little differences in your everyday life."

The smiles

The laughs

The fear

And the protectiveness.

"It's just something to think about."

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"What did you talk about?" Gon questioned.

You forced a smile. One that clearly wasn't yours

"Don't worry about it. It was nothing important."

"Not buying it," Killua interjected. "If it wasn't important you wouldn't have been over there for so long."

"Fine, fine. Badger the injured person will you." You tried to tease.

"Well I'm injured too, so you can't use that excuse!"

"You can walk, I don't want to hear it."

"WH- HEY!"

"They're right Killua, you can move around just fine with your legs, but Y/n? They might never walk again." Gon joined in on the teasing.

"Hey! Whose side are you on!?!"

You'd successfully changed the subject.

Good, you'd have time to process everything later.

For now, you just wanted to enjoy what you had while it was still here.

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Fun fact #5: Y/n is in the specialist category.

MASTERLIST

#hxh #hunter x hunter #hunter x hunter x reader #hxh x reader #hxh x y/n #hunter x hunter x y/n #gon x reader #killua x reader #mayhaps a kite x reader??? #x reader #platonic #older reader #big sib reader #found family

[lazirayxi]

hi neli!!!! you probably noticed how i was going crazy in my tags over ur art jghkkjg, i just now remembered that asks exist and that i should drop in to say smth first of all, i LOVE your art!!!! ur style is suuuper cute, and your silly little mice drawings are some of my faves in the patb fandom💕 i'm especially happy abt seeing a bunch of sleepy snuggling ones, i literally think about pinky and brain cutely sleeping together all the time but couldn't find any fanart like that, so ur blog is like a dream come true to me!! like honestly i saw them and went 🤯🤯🤯😫😫🥺🥺🥺🥰🥰 i genuinely love all artists in the patb fandom bc there's a tooon of wonderful talented and original ppl, but ur style is definitely one of the cutest imo, i looove when ppl draw mice fluffy and with huge ears!!!! i think it partially reminds me of bunnies, so they end up looking like two coolest rodents at the same time!! aand that also makes ur dark pinky fanart cooler, because dp looks adorable but is still a bad bitch so it kinda creates a contrast of sorts jgkhj i love that sm but like mice aside, ur woy fanart is so cool?? AND YOUR WARNER SIBS ARE ACTUALLY AMAZING???? i kind of wish you would draw warners more just because they look so nice in ur style (its okay tho if u want to just draw gay mice i totally respect that💯💯) also this is a bit unrelated but i was sooo surprised to see someone reblogging m&m stuff kljklkjljl (as in мастер и маргарита), не каждый день тут встретишь ценителей русской культуры 😌 anyway, amazing blog, amazing art, amazing taste in music (against the kitchen floor is literally pov brain realised that he's way too avoidant and you can't change my mind), u are very cool and i'm glad i found u on here👍👍 with love from blooky💜

OH MP GOD. For your information im not used to receive so many compliments at the same time and I’m kinda overwhelmed, but in a very positive way. THANK YOU SO SO SO SO MUCH ???? Drawing eepy snuggling mice is something I’ve been made for, that’s kind of my favorite genre of brinky art </3 I’m glad you love my art style, too, i love drawings the mice with huge ears, they’re so silly <3

I actually want to draw Warner sibs more, i just still didn’t completely develop an artstyle for them, but i miss them so much.

Also THE MASTER AND MARGARITA APPRECIATOR??? I literally FELL IN LOVE with this book the second I finished it, not to mention that I’m a huge Russian classics enjoyer in general, but Bulgakov has some books that i can reread many times and not get bored. Кстати русский я тоже неплохо знаю (8 лет жизни в России дают о себе знать) :3

Anyways. THANK YOU. SO SO MUCH. YOU LITERALLY MADE MY MORNING, MIGHT AS WELL A WHOLE DAY. IM LITERALLY SOBBING /POS. PLANTS A SMOOCH ON YOUR FOREHEAD THROUGH THE SCREEN /p

#im actually so dead right now /pos #AAAAHH #qna

[blood-injections]

pssssst

i would like to respectfully ask for venom sibs hcs

Of course of course

Just. My love and my hate for you are infinite. Yeah. Classic case of siblings that have been through hell. They want each other dead but they'd die for eachother, theyd kill themselves before letting the other one die.

Deadly fucking fighters, they're an awesome team, like if youve ever seen, idk, guardians of the galaxy movies, the newest one especially, this is just the first example that popped into my head, but like i remember the fight scenes were choreographed really well and theyre just. A fucking team. And they move around eachother and can fight without talking because they know eachother so well and understand and they move like one being, like they share a mind, all twisting and ducking around eachother and taking out enemies and its all seamless. Kobra and Poison are like that and are fucking deadly, especially with the mix of their abilities, Poison's deadly shot and Kobra's close range process, like theyll be back to back but twisting around eachother and poison shoots down the dracs hiding behind cover or shooting from furthur, while Kobra moves around like a serpent and takes out those who run in to try their luck, just getting cut down by his blade or boot or his power glove, if they manage to get that close. Fights seem to be over in seconds and they've laid waste to many a squad of dracs together.

Neurodivergent as hell. Kobra autism/bpd, Poison adhd

They're both naturally blond but while Kobra likes his blonde hair Poison HATES theirs, so they dye it every color under the sun, expect for..

If its a story where its less diluted by death spells and they love eacother, then they have matching hair streaks, Kobra the same red dye that Poison uses, and Poison just doesn't dye a strand of theirs, since their blonde matches.

Usually Poisons seen as the more dramatic one, but kobras just as bad, they're total bitches, nobody can gossip and shit talk like they can, and Kobra might actually be sassier than Poison is.

Trans in opposite directions and they find it so funny, Poison hates that Kobras taller though, because "You're my Little brother, you should be shorter than me :("

They both have a crippling addiction to chewing bubble gum.

They know everything about each other, like everything, even things unintentionally, like poison will completely fucking make up a fake situation and use it as blackmail against Kobra as a joke but then kobras like HOW DO YOU FUCKING KNOW THAT and poisons like wait you actually DID that???? I made it up?? And its like the most weird absurd thing ever that they just came up with for fun and. This has happened like several times. Where it turns out its real, they just guessed it, probably unconsciously mind read it, because they're like that. I think they do that a lot, like sometimes they have no clue what the other is thinking or going through but sometimes they're fucking mindmelded and can like read everything theyre thinking and communicate with just their eyes and shit and have entire silent conversations.

#the venom siblings #kobra kid #party poison #asks #danger days #ttlotfk #the true lives of the fabulous killjoys

[barrenclan]

WOOO NEW ISSUE!! i began reading this earlier, but couldn’t finish due to me rereading what i had just read and focusing on the pictures!!! so yeah, finally finished it, and GRRR GOOD ISSUE

first off, throws thrasher in the cootstorm pit too, they can share. no transphobic kitties allowed (obviously not literally, but i love how like.. natural it is? it’s just cormorantpaw’s life and what he’s been raised to think). egrettail should deck him

also egrettail!!!!!! favorite kitty therapist!!!! i assume maybe asphodelpaw asked about her being aroace, maybe brought on after daffodil was like “oh!! ur just like me and asphodelpw!!!” to pinepaw, and that made her think “wait am i into men even?” but. yeah. she just wants to help and she’s such a sweetie

SEVEN. SILVERS. SHE’S MADE IT!!! SHE’S IN AN ISSUE FR!! ULTIMATE ALLY INVENTED HRT TO SUPPORT EGRETTAIL. THE MOST BASED CAT EVER. I LOVE HER SHE’S JUST A LITTLE KITTY. I HOPE SHE’S OKAY. IM GONNA SAY IT METHINKS EGRET, HUSH PUPPY, AND SEVEN SILVERS R FOUND FAMILY JUST A COUPLE OF CHOSEN SIBS. UNLESS THIS IS A NO. SORRY IM EXCITED ABOUT SEVEN SILVERS

shoutout to cormorantpaw for getting his 2nd issue. kinda a crime that i only bring him up now but its ok. i love the goofy early cartoons titlecard image with the literal lovebug and him just thinking it over before going “oh fk im bi” and i love how egrettail was like “it seems like it to me, but it’s up to u” bc she can’t really like. force him to think he has a crush, something about that was really gentle- back to cormorantpaw!!! now he’s a blushy mess and i love him for it. also WHAT DO U HAVE TO DO BOY. WHAT IS YOUR ANGST

yes i know daffodilpaw was hardly here but she still gets her own section bc that’s my favorite community hc collection. cormorantpaw doesn’t seem to want to be involved romantically with her, saying how she’s nice but also noting how she doesn’t tend to listen to him (which doesn’t make daffy a bad person!! just something they gotta communicate as buddies) but also mentioning how she puts her paw on his, and also in the sleeping shot cormorantpaw is staring past daffodilpaw, who sleeps next to him, and at pinepaw. i’m just. babey noooo. break out of ur toxic mindset its okkk. unless u actually do like cormorantpaw then i’m. sorry. how did i make the daffodilpaw section the longest oops

rate this issue 5 mysterious end birds out of 5!!! thank u for another great issue :3

So sorry not answering this ask for awhile! All that trouble with my account hit at a bad time. I'm glad you liked the issue, though. :)

Egrettail had the patience of a saint for not beating the absolute shit out of Thrasher when they were in Defiance, and I'm certain she gave him what for on more than one occasion after Hush Puppy died.

Yes, she and Asphodelpaw may have had a conversation about similar realizations she was going through just like Cormorantpaw, heheh. We'll get there someday.

I was so excited to finally include Seven Silvers in an issue!! When I first created her character I wasn't planning on it, but she's just too fun not to use. Hell, I'm allowed to invent magic cat hormone therapy if I want to, who's gonna stop me. Seven, Hush Puppy, and Egret are any manner of close friends you like, and found family/siblings are as good a way as any.

The POVs from other characters are not going to be very common, since Pinepaw is the protagonist in the end, but it's always nice to dip back into Cormorantpaw's thick little skull. I was pretty pleased with myself for thinking of the rubberhose style joke with "lovebug", honestly. Don't worry about his angst, I'm sure it's nothing.

Good catch on everything with Daffodilpaw in this issue! It's something I did intentionally include, and did want to draw a comparison between Corm describing her as not really listening to him with Pinepaw always listening to what he says (which as you said, doesn't mean Daff is a bad person, just that she's got her own things to work out).

#ask #cormorantpaw #egrettail #seven silvers #thrasher #daffodilpaw #pinepaw

[brotherlysuggestion]

Hey, for any of my little sibs trying to learn to eat salads/vegetables but running into a lot of unhappiness/failure/sensory issues, I recently started learning to eat veggies after a lifetime of struggling due to autism and sensory issues, and I have some tips that I’ve collected along the way!

Forget all about the “healthiest varieties” or “most nutritional salads” elitism.

A lot of that talk is based on bogus science or half-truths to begin with, but even for anything that’s true, you’re trying to eat in a way that is sustainable for you. You don’t need to be like anybody else. If you like iceberg lettuce, screw the people who say “well that doesn’t have any nutritional value”. It’s fiber and roughage if nothing else! You like a lot of dressing or add ins and people tell you that isn’t a real salad/isn’t a healthy salad? It’s more vegetables than no vegetables! It gets the greens in your body! Do your thing, you don’t deserve guilt (external or internal) for figuring out your own path.

This is about habit forming and breaking bad associations to form better ones.

Think of this as practice! I eat salads nearly daily when available because I genuinely look forward to them now, but I used to want to retch at just the thought of salad. When I used to think of salads, I always thought of being a kid and trying not to gag while forcing sensory hell so that adults wouldn’t get mad at me. It was punishing for me, and it took a lot of gentle work to change that association! So if you hate salads, really try to identify why. Are they bland and tasteless to you? Conversely, are the bitter flavors too strong? Is it a textural thing? Do you have some highly negative experiences with them in the past?

Don’t force yourself to keep trying something you know you hate.

I personally can’t stand a lot of “ultra healthy” salads that have a lot of different textures/flavors mixed in, and years of trying to suffer through salads like that never made me like them more. Back to the first point again, forget about what you’re “supposed” to be eating and eat what you find the least repulsive tbh.

The greens you choose can make a massive difference, so try a lot of different things!

This is especially important if texture or flavor is an issue for you. Personally I find iceberg lettuce the “easiest” because it has a very mild taste. I started out my adventures in learning to eat salad eating EXCLUSIVELY iceberg lettuce. Butter lettuce or romaine (especially romaine hearts) are others that are popular for being pretty palatable, and I’ve come to love them! And you don’t even HAVE to have lettuce! You can have cabbage, beets, carrots, whatever! Pick a vegetable you like and search for salad recipes using it!

Find a dressing you really like and drench that bad boy if you need to!

Some people really like ranch, or poppyseed dressing, or vinaigrettes, or even sweet dressings with honey and fruit! You can use mustard or honey in dressings! Look up different types of salad dressings and try them all out if you want. Personally, I really like zingy dressings like Italian vinaigrettes or blue cheese, but everyone’s different. You can make a lot of dressings at home, too, and if you have the stuff already it can be a cheap way to find what you like. I know dressing freaks some people out, but referencing my very first point again; some salad is way better than no salad. You may even eventually find yourself able to use less and less once you’re more accustomed to eating salad! So use as much as you need, whether it’s just for now or forever.

Toppings! Salads are allowed to be goodies with obstacles!

Use a protein like chicken or fish (I like tuna a lot) or crumbled bacon, use croutons, hummus, little cubes of cheese or shredded cheese, sliced hard boiled eggs, whatever! If there’s vegetables that you know you like, put those in! I love some sliced cucumber or shredded carrots in my salads. Some people do nuts like almonds or cashews in their salads, some people use chickpeas and corn from a can, and if you’re feeling super adventurous you can try some fruit to sweeten things up! If you like variety then mix warm foods and cold foods, creamy textures and crunchy textures! Make it totally your own. Personally, I’ll sometimes eat around my croutons so that once I’ve eaten all of my greens I have a big, crunchy reward. There’s no rules for how you have to eat something!

Conversely, be as simple as you need to be.

If you need to get used to salads by eating just iceberg lettuce and ranch for a while, you don’t need to be embarrassed! You don’t have to throw the kitchen sink at your salad, even if that’s what helps some others! This is about what works for you.

Don’t be afraid to have salad ingredients… not as a salad!

You can make a green smoothie by blending ingredients if texture is your big issue! Or make a fruit smoothie with some spinach or lettuce thrown in to help you ease into it. Or try dicing up some lettuce, cabbage, and a preferred vegetable or two (avocado, bell pepper, tomato, or cucumber would all work!). Drizzle that with a generous amount of dressing or sauce, and you can use it as a chip dip! Tortilla chips work especially well for this. Or maybe make a vegetable wrap in an actual tortilla? Or throw some chopped up vegetables in your next soup. Even if it’s as simple as putting some lettuce, carrots, or tomatoes into a sandwich, that’s awesome too!

Even outside of salads, experiment with texture for vegetables!

You can roast most vegetables on a sheet pan in the oven (or in an air fryer) for a crispy and crunchy experience! Or you can boil or steam them on a stovetop (or in the microwave) to different levels of softness; you can get most vegetables pretty mushy with enough time, if crunchy textures are hard for you! Looking up vegetarian versions of your favorite meat-including dishes can sometimes also offer great ideas for getting different textures out of vegetables! Try everything that you think you might like: grilling, griddling, roasting, steaming, boiling, sautéing, braising, stir frying, and blanching (which also helps reduce bitterness!) are all different methods to look into, and different methods have different results with different vegetables!

Big takeaway…

Be patient and kind with yourself. Working through food aversions is hard. The goal is gently pushing/testing your boundaries and expanding your comfort zone, NOT forcing yourself. Forcing yourself into extreme discomfort, distress, or pain typically only makes aversions worse! So it’s in your best interest to be patient and go as slowly as you need to. Be proud of yourself for trying, and don’t let anyone (including yourself) make you feel shame for doing what you can.

And obligatory disclaimer:

Please don’t get discouraged if none of these tips work for you! This isn’t an exhaustive list, and I’m not any kind of professional. This is just a mix of tips I’ve seen online, and what worked for myself and my own sensory issues, and I’m still learning more about myself all the time! If you’re struggling, there’s still more out there! You can achieve your goals, I believe in you. 💖

#mod static #food tw #food aversion #autism #sensory disorders #healthy eating #nutrition #long post #text heavy #please let me know anything else that you’d like this tagged as! #I know that this is a sensitive topic for a lot of people #I hope that I address it with enough tact that nobody feels bad #also to anyone looking for ideas for preparation methods #I really like Nutrition By Kylie on YouTube! #she’s a dietician and she is EXTREMELY positive in her outlook and doesn’t shame anyone #and her content is some of the only Healthful Eating type content that not only doesn’t trigger any of my disordered thoughts with food #but actively helps me combat my struggles with it #I really hope that this helps someone. and thank you for reading all of this if you do! #any of my followers with other positive and non-shaming resources or tips that I missed are very encouraged to add onto this btw!!

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hw question!

you’ve told us about the otori family dynamic in this au, so how about the rest of hw and their family? whats it like? is it different from your regular hcs for them/what little we know in canon, if so, how?

idk if you’ve already explained this but yeah-

YAYYYYY THANK YOU!!!

i wil be honest i dont think the tenma parents have changed much from how they are in canon. i think i’ve mentioned saki before too. tldr for tenma sibs saki gets worried about tsukasa but tsukasa is allergic to vulnerability especially with her cause he feels the need to be this ideal reliable big brother for her. so saki feels helpless bc of how much she *wants* to help her bother but he won’t allow her to yk. any opportunity he has to leave/redirect a conversation thats getting too focused on him and if he’s feeling bad he takes. and saki finds it frustrating as hell.

do you know that one fanart featuring rui’s mom and the caption is smth like “when you have to watch your child go through the same thing you did as a kid and there’s nothing you can do about it” yeah its that kind of feel with his parents i think. caring so much about their kid and not knowing how to help him.

i cannot remember for the life of me if nene’s parents ever show up in canon. i think its a similar thing to rui’s parents though. nene just has her mom though hashtag divorce. incorporating something from my friend’s fic though: after the Incident nene’s mom didn’t let rui see nene for a bit, saying maybe it’d be better if he give her some space. she didn’t have Bad intentions but since those two were young she’d known about rui’s reputation as a weird and dangerous kid. she heard stuff like “oh what kind of parent is she to be letting her daughter hang out with him” but she tried not to pay it any mind cause nene seemed happy with him. and then The Incident happens and she has a worse impression of him and thinks nene might be better off distancing herself from him. (*cough* contributing to rui thinking nene probably hates him bc surely nene must have told her Something that made her think rui should leave her daughter alone *cough*) when nene finds out thats why rui hasn’t been coming by her house though she is Fucking Livid. and it doesn’t cause this big argument or anything but nene now keeps away from letting her mom in on her own problems and her mom avoids interfering with nene’s life but isn’t really sure what else to do abt it. so like she’s not intentionally harmful but when she did try to help she didnt take nene’s feelings into consideration or even ask her and just did what she thought was best. so theres a bit of a distance between them? im having trouble explaining i think but i hope this makes sense

i think. that is it. but i could be wrong my brain is being weird. ty for the ask though yayayayy!!

#asks #hollow ☆ wonderland

[miss-atena]

Hiya! I saw you were taking twst writing requests and liked rarepairs...I might have one for you. I will go down with this ship...but how about Vil x Trey? Superstar model with just a "normal" guy, girlboss/malewife, the amount of interaction in vignettes? SO SLEPT ON!

General hcs are cool, or if you want a writing prompt...maybe the two of them trying to understand each other more? Poke around and find out their hidden quirks?

Ooooo! I never heard of them together, and also I have basically no Trey or Vil cards, so I haven't seen their vignettes either. But I dig a girldboss/malewife relationship, I gotcha covered, anon!

Vil Schoenheit X Trey Clover - Hidden Quirks

Meanwhile, while dating, Vil and Trey felt so comfortable in their relationship that they didn't really have any curiosity about what could be hidden.

They were getting used to this relationship, and as two of the most level-headed people around them, they wanted to make the other feel comfortable with sharing when he wanted!

... But it was taking a while, and curiosity did peak, after all.

The first to prod was Vil, asking about Trey's family. Trey seemed happy to share about them, and how as the oldest sibling, he took care of his younger sibs a lot.

It did reach a weird point about how Trey knew a LOT about brushing teeth, but Vil could only chuckle, imagining a little Trey brushing his baby sibling's teeth.

As soon as that convo happened, we had an interesting one coming from Trey. Asking when Vil started to be all sappy for him.

Both knew when they fell, but not how the other fell, really.

It was certainly an interesting way to see Vil lose a bit of his pristine composure, as he explained the Housewardens and Vice-Housewardens unbirthday party Riddle threw after the Interspelldom competition.

And especially how Trey seemed so handsome while he served everyone's tea and complimented their dorm uniforms.

It was only during the time Vil judged for the Culinary Crucible he found out that those delicious treats were made by Trey himself, and not bought from somewhere.

At the mention of his baking, Trey got even a tad bit bashful at the many compliments, even though he didn't enjoy being called out for how many calories they held.

This questionnaire turned into a sleepover in Vil's room on Pomefiore, where Trey and Vil shared not only their experiences in life but what they wanted to achieve.

Trey was almost embarrassed to say that he only really wanted to continue the lineage of bakers in his hometown. Baking and Pastissery are his passions, and even though he likes the idea of being a powerful mage, he is just a guy who wants to keep a warm house smelling of fresh bread.

While that, Vil stated how he wanted to be finally a good guy in a show or movie. And show that besides this pretty face, he can and is a great guy. To see children look him in the eyes and not feel scared he will curse them, but feel happy that he will protect them. It is what would make him happy and show he succeeded.

That sleepover, where they shared their good and bad, their loves and hates. That was when both made a promise that they would help and cherish the other, till he reached his goal.

Vil even said that if they were lucky, he could come home after a rough day of memorizing lines and re-acting a scene, to find a comfortable home smelling of delicious pastries, handmade by the best baker in town.

Isn't love so cute? Some could say their love is tooth-rotting because of how sweet it is. (Rook. Rook said that. Many times actually)

Hope you enjoy it! It was fun writing for them since I'm still learning a lot about Vil. I guess Schoenheit is growing on me lol

Have a great Day/night!

#disney twst #twisted wonderland #twst #vil schoenheit #trey clover #vil x trey #viltrey #treyvil #i dunno how to tag them ;-; #tena writing #anon ask #thanks for the request!

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✨🍋Bullet Train Agere Headcanons: Flip!Lemon🍋✨

Hey y'all this one is coming out too cuz I felt bad about the lack of content so I hope y'all will enjoy this. Idk if it's actually gonna be as well written as I want it to be but I sure hope it is. Okay enjoy!💜

(I don't own any of these pictures. I found them all on Pinterest so if you know how mades these, let me know so I can add credit)

✨🍋Little!Lemon Headcanons🍋✨

(y'all I couldn't find any good pictures that made sense for a Little!Lemon so forgive me😭)

Unlike his brother or Ladybug, Lemon has been regressing way before the events of Bullet Train

He started unknowingly regressing in his early twenties and it took him a good couple of months to understand what was happening to him, but after a shit ton of googling he finally found out that what he was doing was called age regressing

After a little more research (and by that I mean he took a bunch of Quotev quizzes) he concluded that he regresses from ages 6 to 8

After a long stressful mission, when he was sure that both he and Tangerine were safe in there safe house, and Tangerine as preoccupied with doing something else like taking a long shower or sleeping, Lemon would go to one of the bedrooms, lock the doors, and regress there.

During missions, he unfortunately couldn't bring his toys or comfort items with him so he'd just put on some comfy clothes and binge some Thomas

Poor Lemon was afraid to tell his brother about his little secret in fear of Tang being weirded out by his predicament. Though it may not seem like it at some times, Lemon really does value Tangerine's opinion of him

Lemon knows his brother like the back of his hand so he was able to hide his regression from him easily without Tang ever suspecting a thing

Tangerine eventually would find out after Tang unknowingly regressed in front of him after waking up from being shot in the throat and freaked out when Lemon told him what was happening

Tangerine got so offended by the thought needing to regress, he yelled and screamed at Lemon, pretty much insulting regressors saying such horrible things that I can't even write not because I'm too lazy and brain dead to think of anything but because it was just oh so horrible 😩

Lemon eventually got fed up with Tangerine and confessed that he was a regressor too and proceeded to leave the room to allow Tangerine to cool off

This threw Tangerine for a loop.

On one hand, he didn't want to accept that his brain was causing him to regress to cope with what had happened to him. I mean Tang had been shot before so why is this any different. I mean maybe it's a little different because he's never been out in a coma because of it so there's that. He's also never been so close to thinking he's lost his brother so theirs that too but still he should be able to get over it!...... Right?

But then again on the other hand, Lemon apparently regresses too. And Tang hadn't even noticed so it can't affect his work that much. He also doesn't think that Lemon is weak for needing to regress. I mean Lemon was one of the toughest strongest, badass person Tangerine knew so if Lemon could regress...... I guess Tangerine could too

Tangerine eventually calls Lemon back into the room so he could apologize for his outburst

Lemon accepted his apology and it's been history ever since

Lemon regress from 6-8. He's definitely the oldest regressor out of the group

While Tangerine is usually the one who looks after him the most, he's not really Lemon's caregiver

I headcanon Tangerine as a Big Sib and he just does fall in caregiver space

That doesn't mean that he doesn't take care of his brother cuz he totally does he's just not a caregiver

His caregivers are however, Maria and Ladybug

Maria is there universal caregiver in the group with Ladybug coming in last place for caregiver

(I feel so bad for Ladybug😭 he's always in last place 😭 at least he's first place for Maria's littles)

This boy is an overall kid through and through

His closet is obviously filled with Thomas shirts but he does have some other solid colored ones too

I headcanon my mans as autistic so sometimes is he's overstimulated, it can cause him to regress

When regressed from overstimulation, it can cause him to go non-verbal which sucks when your a regressor because it's hard for you to communicate with your caregiver what's wrong

Thankfully Tangerine and Lemon have developed a way for communicating when Lemon can't do it verbally

Whether it's through drawing, pictures, yes or no with nodding, or sign language, Tangerine can and will find out what's going on with his brother and he will do everything in his power to help him

Lemon will sometimes flap his hands really fast and Tang likes to call him his flying Lemon

For shows, I think we all know it's Thomas the Tank Engine but he also likes watching wrestling

But only old wrestling for some reason

His favorite wrestler is The Undertaker and Andre The Giant

He loves play wrestling with either Big Tang or Ladybug

Ladybug will wrestle with him big or small it doesn't matter (Little Lemon does know to be more gentle when Ladybug is regressed as opposed to when Ladybug is big)

He has a bunch of wrestling action figures as well as multiple wrestling rings to play with

Speaking of toys he also has a bucket filled to the brim with different Thomas ones

From hot wheels, to stuffed animals, to wooden toys, he has them all and loves every single one of them

But their is one he loves in particular

It's a old, scratched, wooden train with small dents Tangerine bought for him on his 10th birthday when they were still in the orphanage

He loved it so much he didn't sleep without it for years, which was really uncomfortable for him but he didn't care at all, until his first mission that required him to leave for more than a day

He wasn't happy at all and Tangerine noticed but Lemon refused to tell him why because he was embarrassed. Lemon was so pissy during the mission which confused the hell out of Tang cuz he was usually the pissy one. Tangerine eventually chalked it up to Lemon just being nervous about this being their first over-night mission and let him be

But this just kept happening during all their over-night missions so Tangerine ended up getting fed up and yelled at Lemon, demanding to know what was wrong

Upset and slightly distressed, Lemon told Tangerine the truth albeit being super embarrassed about it thinking Tang was gonna making fun of him

But Tangerine didn't really say anything.

He just starred off into space, taking in what his brother just said. Then let out a loud, exasperated, almost over exaggerated sigh and left the hotel they were staying at

Lemon thought his brother had had enough of him and left him alone and this made him super upset and that lead to him regressing :(

He sat in his own bedroom in the hotel and curled up under the covers and cried

After what felt like years (but was actually two hours) Tangerine came back into the hotel seeming super pissed off and soaked head to toe in water

Tangerine: God damn stupid fucking rain! Fucking sunny as can be when I left but of course it just had to fucking down pour when I'm coming back and I don't have a fUCKING umbrella!! Oi Lemon, where are ya?!

Lemon: *still regressed and under the covers, wipes his eyes and puts on his best Big voice* uhm in here mate!

Tangerine: *walks into the room and stops for a second at the door* you been cryin? You drunk or somethin?

Lemon: OH um.... Yeah a bit yeah dats-thats it

Tangerine: well if your gonna drink yourself half to death.....or at least to the point of being a drunk suburban mum watching the notebook than you should have something to keep you from losing your fucking head *takes something out of his pocket and hands it to Lemon* here

Lemon: *takes the item and examines it* are.....are these stickers?....... Are these Thomas the Tank Engine stickers?!

Tangerine: *now kind of bashful, scratching the back of his head and facing away from him* yeah I know it's nothing like the train you've got a home but it's the best your gonna get. Went to about fucking eighty different fucking stores and not one had any small train nic nacs so I just got you that. Thought you could just have the stickers cuz it wouldn't matter if ya lost 'em and 'sides you can just put 'em in your pocket and nobody would notice

Lemon: *about to cry again but is holding it in* w-wow um...... it's a...... It's nice..... Great no freakin fantastic, thank you Tangy

Tangerine: *slightly red in the cheeks* yeah well whatever there just stickers calm down * quickly walks out of the room* And don't call me Tangy!

You know the ones where their kind of like coloring books but you just place stickers on them

And Lemon kept stickers with him ever since. They weren't as good as the wooden train he loves so much but it was better than nothing. Plus his brother gave it to him so it means something to him. Eventually Lemon started using them to help out on missions and tell Diesel's apart from Percy in a way only Tangerine would understand so they do have a helpful use

He also really likes using the stickers and putting them in sticker books

Again their gonna be Thomas the Tank Engine themed books but let's be honest are we really surprised lol

One of his favorite things to play is with nerf guns or water guns

Obviously he's gonna be pretty good at it since it kinda is needed for his job but still it's kinda impressive for someone who regresses

He loves swings too. Like seriously he'd kill a bitch to get on one and be pushed (jk but not really)

His nickname everyone calls him when little is Lemonade btw

He's kind of embarrassed by it but he does love iy

Okie dokie that's all for Little Lemonade. Next up is Cg! Lemon!

✨🍋Caregiver!Lemon headcanons 🍋✨

(I know y'all it's terrible but it's the least none threatening one I could find don't judge😭)

Is such an amazing caregiver

I know I say that about every caregiver but it's true Lemon really is

Very encouraging especially to his little ones interests

Will get a little sticker booklet with his little one’s favorite characters and give them to them as rewards

If the character is from a TV show you can 100% be expecting him to watch that show with you

He’ll try and get as much information about that character as possible so he can talk to you about them

Will also get you plushies of toys of said character so you can always feel like you have them with you

Is big on you playing with toys and not just something on an iPad or watching TV all the time

Will get you any toy you desire (I mean he makes a lot of money with his missions and all) but just really doesn’t want you sitting around

Toys like legos, dolls, action figures, puzzles, all kinda of stuff can be found from him and you’ll probably get more lol

Will also 100% play with you

Great at playing pretend

Likes to play dress up too

If you want this man in a too-too, your getting him in a too-too and even a tiara if he can find one

Or dresses up like a pirate with an eye patch and fake hook for a hand along with a horrible pirate accent

Also really enjoys coloring with his little

Y’all have like hundreds of coloring books littered all throughout your home

Gets Tang any coloring book he wants and will just sit their coloring how him

Encourages any type of stimming too

Flappy hands, verbal, rocking back and forth, hopping, shimmying, you name it’s he loves it

Never wants someone to feel ashamed that they need to let go and express there emotions through movement or sounds

Likes taking Tang on walks around a park as long as he knows their aren’t many people

So usually it’s at night

He also thinks it’s the best way to get Tang calmed down enough to go to sleep no matter how much Tang denies it

Lemon: alright just a few more laps and we can go home and you can finally go to sleep

Tang: *pouting* I’m not tired

Lemon:* amused at this but not believing it at all* Oh really? Your not tired? Not even in the slightest aye?

Tang: NO! Only babies get tired from walks and I not a baby soo *sticks out tongue*

Lemon: *laughs* Right of course my mistake. Anyways let’s just continue the walk huh? Sound good?

Tang: *calming down slightly but still huffy* I guesss

Lemon:*relieved that Tang didn’t put up to much of a fight* Good now let’s get going

Ten minutes later-

Lemon:*is literally carrying a knocked out cold Tang back into the house*

This man is strong as hell so don’t think he can’t pick someone up cuz let me tell you he can and he will

Really likes physical touch unlike his brother when I’m an older headspace

Hand holding, hugs, cheek or forehead kisses, you name it

He’s usually the one to initiate it especially when it comes to his brother but doesn’t mind at all

He can be kind of strict sometimes but the one thing he seems to be kind of laid back on his eating healthy foods

Obviously he isn’t going to allow you to eat ice cream for dinner (god I wish)

But he also doesn’t mind if his little wants a cookie as a snake or something

As long as he thinks it won’t spoil their appetite for dinner or lunch then he doesn’t mind

Honestly he might join you on your little snack adventure

Really likes doing Tang and Littlebug’s hair for some reason

He doesn’t even know why but he just really like running his finger through their hair I guess

And they definitely don’t complain

He won’t even really do anything different to their hair

He kind of just like playing with it or messing with it

Won’t do anything that they might find embarrassing though

He always puts how they’ll feel about something over about how he’ll feel

He’d feel horrible if he made them uncomfortable

He’s kind of a fuck around and find out kind of caregiver too

If he’s seen Tang or Littlebug doing something the shouldn’t be (and he knows they can’t harm themselves from it) he’ll kind of just supervise what’s going on

Bing believer on them having to see what happens so they don’t do it again

But again only if he knows they can’t get hurt

Speaking of he had a bunch of bandaids with different colors or your favorite character/thing on them

It’s kind of like the stickers

He wants you to feel better after you hurt yourself so having something that makes you happy on you to cover the wound makes him think you’ll feel better ya know

This man cannot cook to save his life let me tell you something

He burnt boiling water one time

So you’ll be eating a bunch of store bought foods instead of homemade ones

But that’s okay

He can’t be good at everything

HOWEVER

He’s strangely very good at baking

Cakes, cupcakes, cookies, scones, all different things

He also loves to bake with his Little

He’s not gonna let you near a hot oven or knife but he’ll definitely let his little one mix some ingredients or crack an egg or two

One time when he was trying to bake some brownies with Tang, poor Tang got into the bag of flour and the literal SECOND Lemon turned his back, flour was everywhere including Tang

Poor Tang had to take a LONG bath afterwards but he got bubbles so he sees it as a win

As for Lemon though

He almost cried but all in the days work of being a caregiver

He’s really just one of them most laid back out of all of them and I love him for it

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I FINALLY FINISHED ATE TALL PROUD OF ME?! I’m so sorry this took so long again. I’d write more but it’s almost 4 and I have to get up around 5 so I’m gonna try and get as much sleep as possible lol. See you guys later💜💜💜💜

@softchonk @thenarryparable @thorin-baby-bear @koala-fluff

#my post #bullet train #bullet train age regression #bullet train agere #Lemon #bullet train lemon #agere lemon #lemon agere #lemon x reader #agere hcs #agere headcanons #my headcanons

[rueitae]

Season 2, Episode 8: the Stockholm Syndrome Caper

Liveblog for @csweekly

I’m so normal about this episode.

WE MADE IT TO THE ANGST. My serotonin is on full blast right now. I apologize right off the bat I might be so taken with this episode that I may not pull together all of my thoughts. This is the episode that made me go from “oh this is a fun iteration of CS!” To me sitting up wide eyed and going “the French Connection Caper was not a one off you have my full undivided attention CS 2019”

Since we are on my favorite episode, I want to stop at the title sequence for a moment and point out one of my favorite things I forgot to mention in week 1. It’s so neat that on the title card with the silhouette of Carmen with her voice actor credit, that she literally tips her hat to Player when they show his credits. Bestie moment, and homage to all of the players that came before this one.

Maelstrom is Done 24/7. He just wants to be evil and they have to make such mundane decisions such as MOVING and blowing up their current home 😕 I love how fierce Brunt and Cleo are about staying they are the definition of stubborn in the looks on their faces. Bellum doesn’t care she’s got a state of the art facility in the Himalayas.

Okay but Bellum is right about relocation being invigorating. After a change of scenery I’m always reinvigorated to write fic.

“Only a matter of time before invading forces come rowing to our shore” knowing what Devineaux is about to do makes this so funny.

Look at Julia being assertive at the beginning here! The Fashionista caper really gave her the confidence she needed after what happened at the end of s1. It…stings knowing how quickly it’s about to go down the drain.

Love that Chief’s obsession with catching VILE is her early downfall. Her single mindedness prevents her from patience and seeing the whole picture as Julia suggests. It’s her undoing in the s2 finale.

The way Carmen shows up at the perfect time. And she is NOT pleased.

“Those suits” the way Ivy is so smug about leading ACME on when she literally joins them at the very end. May you and Zack never change.

Okay, so Zack says that this is Carmen’s actual coat? This means that Zack and Ivy have their own haha. And I really love how Ivy responds “little tight in the shoulders, but powerful” please the way Ivy looks up to Carmen literally slays me.

Zack: does a bad imitation of Player info dumping

Player: laughs dryly, rolls his eyes, and then proceeds to do said info dump

Me: this will never get old

Honestly, it’s stated so many times that Player chats with the sibs during capers almost as much as Carmen. If this conversation is any indication, I’d have loved more. Just to hear how they fill the time. Talking about software and hardware updates for red drone maybe? Where are the forbidden video game nights?

“That’s a ton of bridges for trolls to hide under!” The best troll comes in s3.

Also good time to point out that the geography brief in every episode foreshadows future events and dialogue in the episode.

Lol Carmen has the pen. Also! She learns Chief’s name!

I love Julia this entire scene. She’s trying to be SO coy, playing to what she remembers of Carmen, that is a confident and witty thief, with her own wit and lighthearted banter. It’s the first time she’s had an opportunity to speak with Carmen sorta on her own terms with enough information. But Carmen for once isn’t having it because of the nature of this particular caper. It’s like, one of the few times Carmen is not excited about a caper. For good reason considering they’re NUCLEAR LAUNCH CODES. This screams Dr Bellum, though I see Maelstrom enjoying the psychological power play that he could work with, once again coming in clutch for heists that endanger literally everyone on the planet. Go big or go home.

And then Chief spoils everything. Again. And it’s literally right after Julia says trust me. I think she and Devineaux both have bad luck, but in different ways. Neither can catch a break when it comes to Carmen. The difference is that Julia can’t control hers where Chase’s is one of his own making.

The move Carmen pulls off the wall and over the agent and the agent knocks themselves out with their own gas. One of my favorites.

Zari right at the top, coolly giving Carmen a dose. *chefs kiss* revenge for Milan. Zari as an agent character is so cool.

It begins it begins it begins IT BEGINS. Carmen is drowsy and Cornered at the top of the bell tower. The PERSPECTIVE from Carmen, showing how heavy her eyes are, jumping from scene to scene as she takes each desperate step. That’s the kind of imagery writers dream of.

PLAYER’S MUDDLED and INCREASINGLY concerned voice from Carmen’s perspective. She can’t concentrate on anything.

Whump/Angst Tally:

Carmen: 2 (gassed/falling unconscious and chased/“betrayed”)

Player: 1

The way Ivy invites trouble by staying in character is delightful. Do it again.

Moose Boy and Otter Man are such underrated VILE operatives. TASER

Whump/Angst Tally:

Carmen: 2

Player: 1

Ivy: 2 (tased and kidnapped)

MORE ANGRY JULIA. You tell her.

Carmen unconscious in the snow.

THE SCENE

Quite possibly my favorite scene in the whole show.

“But if Carm’s MIA, too, who do I support?”

***Anguished silence***

“Go get your sister, Red knows how to fend for herself in a pickle”

This scene kills me so much. Player speaks with confidence and sureness but that brief silence and anguish on his face tells us all we need to know about his feelings. He lost his best friend for a whole semester while she was Black Sheep having to retake her classes. And now he’s faced with potentially losing her for good. He knows how serious the situation is. He knows she’s probably unconscious in the cold and he’s sitting at home in his room in front of the computer instead of being there physically. He could have told Zack to go after Carmen, but he knows he can’t. Ivy is the most important person in the world to Zack. And of the two, Carmen has the better chance of rescuing herself. He knows what decision he needs to make, but he can be sad about it. He takes the guilt and gives Zack his marching orders quickly and confidently, so that he can’t question Player’s pause or true feelings. Player, who has been ultra protective of Carmen since she left VILE island, is faced with the prospect that he might have failed her.

Whump/Angst Tally:

Carmen: 3

Player: 2

Ivy: 2

Zack: 1

The shot of Carmen banged up and lying in the snow unconscious. Super dangerous. Super amazing shot. The pen is intact but the communicator that was in her ear isn’t. So. Possible head injury/concussion then if she landed head first.

First thing she does is reach out to Player for help. 😭 “it isn’t getting any warmer” disconnected from her friends, cold, injured.

Whump/Angst Tally:

Carmen: 6

Player: 2

Ivy: 2

Zack: 1

This entire scene with Ivy is great. She really comes in clutch despite her situation. She’s cold and tied up and found out exactly what VILE is about to sell. And she is rightfully terrified.

She’s so clever though to figure out exactly how to manipulate Moose Boy and Otter Man both! And tease them! Either these two are fresh from VILE academy or they never hung out in the commons. This scene is simultaneously a comedy and so serious. Otter Man thinks he’s so smart but Ivy has him completely fooled. Where Moose Boy simply takes orders he’s willing to take Ivy at face value. It’s amazing to watch.

Also Ottoman LOL nicely done Ivy. "Sweden's coolest resort” idk Ivy, you kinda SOUND like Carmen. And very quick thinking to ask for the coat! Ivy knows the tools are there she made (assumingly) all of them.

Whump/Angst Tally:

Carmen: 6

Player: 2

Ivy: 4

Zack: 1

Carmen. Almost makes it to the top. : D and falls! :D immaculate. Counting that as two because not only is there the angst of almost making it, she adds to her injuries with the fall.

Whump/Angst Tally:

Carmen: 8

Player: 2

Ivy: 4

Zack: 1

And the geography brief comes in handy. Ivy uses the knowledge that Player gave her to earn rapport with Moose Boy. The great part about Otter Man is that he’s so focused on stopping Moose Boy from spilling the means, that he doesn’t realize that he can use that as his advantage. He’s basically confirming everything right now. But what if he were to give Ivy a lie? Then she’d be wondering which is true. It’s a great VILE character flaw. Otter Man does not see Moose Boy as a partner, just a lackey. They’d be terrifying otherwise.

Carmen realizing her choices are get arrrested or die. “Either way, VILE wins”. Absolutely screaming I love this stuff.

The horror on Ivy’s face when she finds out what the data crystal holds. Excellent dramatic effect.

LOL the chair does NOTHING

Literally ivy through the show:

Ivy: Carmen would do this.

Also Ivy: I am terrified

Also also Ivy: it’s the right thing to do *does the thing*

I love her for it so much.

The cool thing about Ivy’s part here is that she does it all her way. She took notes from Carmen but she ultimately succeeded because she’s herself!

Cool donning the red montage. Immediately slips and falls. Ivy ily

Whump/Angst Tally:

Carmen: 8

Player: 2

Ivy: 5

Zack: 1

Dgfggg the resigned and heartbroken look on Carmen’s face as she activates the pen. And she’s back in character as soon as Chief pops up.

Interesting to note that Chief must have reflected on Julia’s anger, because she is far softer on Carmen here than i expected the first time I watched this episode. Yes she’s professional, but she attempts a half hearted apology, which eventually devolves into genuine worry. Maybe it’s the cynic in me, but I wonder how much of that is caring about Carmen as a young person in trouble, or Chief’s ticket to finally catching VILE.

On Carmen’s side. It is interesting that she doesn’t trust ACME can take on VILE. I wonder how much of that is knowing Roundabout exists and just plain not trusting them to do it right after all the attempts to capture her. And then of course how much of it is Carmen putting it on her shoulders as her personal responsibility. Because it is telling that Carmen gives Chief the NASTIEST look when she points out that it need not be Carmen’s burden alone. She’s not even as angry at being chased that Chief is actually apologizing for.

In any case, Carmen waits until the last possible moment to contact Chief. Not only does it show her stubbornness and how much she values her freedom, but just how aware of her own body she is. She has just enough time to get information from Chief about how close they are to finding her…and then she can’t anymore. As soon as she knows they are coming, she gives out. Carmen plays her intel close, knowing now that’s her bargaining chip to stay alive, even if it’s in prison.

VULNERABILITY. : D in front of a not-ally (yet) Carmen can’t hold on she drops to the snow. And again it’s a bit hard to tell if Chief is legitimately concerned about Carmen or just the intel she has, but staying with her, talking to her, until help arrives most likely saved her life.

Whump/Angst Tally:

Carmen: 10

Ivy: 4

Player: 2

Zack: 1

That bartender is totally watching Ivy fall and not reacting at all like it’s a daily occurrence for guests to do that.

IVY DUBBING THE SALE PLEASE YOU ARE ALREADY PERFECT IVY you DID NOT have to go so hard so EASILY

LOL the lady just scoots away as Ivy crashes into the back of the chair 😂😂😂😂

SHE MISSED. And Carmen would be proud she covers it up.

Ivy has such a keen eye! She finds that data crystal so quickly. I think it’s because she’s used to working on small parts, like Carmen’s gadgets, and also the literal car she built from scratch.

Ivy: I need to summon courage

Ivy: SCREAMS as she does the thing

Moose is so great. The second Otter needs him he stops struggling and is like “okay I’ll just take the infrastructure with me”

“This is not what Carmen would do!” You’re right. It’s not. And for all you know, that’s why the caper succeeded. Because Ivy did it Ivy’s way.

And because Player told Zack to get his sister, he’s right there to pick her up and get away so she isn’t recaptured.

THE SIBLING HUG. One of the greatest scenes ever. Zack’s hopefulness and Ivy’s joy.

Ahhh and Zack is so focused he’s ready to go after Carmen. Look at Ivy’s increasingly horrified face. She had nO idea that Carmen was missing. The GUILT as she’s about to find out is so delicious

Angst/Whump Tally:

Carmen: 10

Player: 2

Ivy: 6

Zack: 1

Fhghcb Carmen’s resigned and peaceful face as the helicopter finds her.😭

And you think the siblings get there just in time but no.

It takes 44 minutes to drive from the airport in the northern end of Stockholm to the forested area to the south with water on both sides. Carmen is probably fortunate she didn’t glide long enough to get to the ocean. So, from picking up Ivy, estimate 45 minutes to get to Carmen. Add in half that time for Zack to get from the city center to north Stockholm. That’s the fastest, not counting traffic. Carmen was unconscious and alone in the cold for perhaps a little over an hour, as the sun is going down. That is PLENTY of time to get severe frostbite not wearing appropriate clothing for the weather, as she does.

Zari please she’s down 😭

Carmen can barely speak let alone put on any defensive airs. She tries to sound angry but she’s clearly not well it doesn’t work. She’s steeling herself to never be happy again. And at this point, it’s very possible Roundabout can pull the strings and get her to VILE. Gets my hurt/comfort loving blood boiling.

And things turn for the better. That’s a lovely last look that Carmen has as she looks Julia’s way. It’s not hateful or angry, it’s very reflective. As if Carmen is realizing ‘okay, Julia was actually trying to help. There is some merit here. I understood why she did what she did. This was not her fault’ after Chief offers to let her go. It’s a far more peaceful look than Carmen had just a bit before.

Ivy wraps Carmen up in her coat and holds her to keep her warm and talk to her I’m emotional here’s the comfort part! She and Zack are so worried for her I’m eating it up.

“What, by who?”

Ivy’s tears and smile as she says “Carmen Sandiego who else”

Carmen does nothing this caper. She successfully leads ACME off of VILE I guess so that Ivy can work but that was NoT the plan. This episode is all character development for Carmen. Slowly opening her eyes that she CAN trust more people. Ivy and Zack (building off of their two parter), Julia, and maybe Chief. And this trend continues in s3 and s4. There are even more civilians of the day, and Carmen leans on their help more than in s1 and s2.

And Ivy is so sweet. She’s letting Carmen know that even if she wasn’t there, her team completed the caper. “What would Carmen do” was Ivy’s single motivation. And it saw her through. Carmen wasn’t on screen at the caper but her presence was felt. That’s my takeaway anyway. It’s building on the ‘anyone can be Carmen Sandiego’ message that the finale comes to.

Whump/Angst Tally:

Carmen: 12

Player: 2

Ivy: 6

Zack: 2

These are completely arbitrary numbers I’d love to see how you all scored it.

And the end with VILE announcing their decision. It’s a good thing they decided to burn the Academy, I don’t think Le Chevre would be comfortable in burning the goat lol. I love the lightning effects though! A good thunderstorm always makes the mood.

Such a good episode. Excited to follow up on the comfort part next episode.

#carmen sandiego #carmen sandiego 2019 #carmen sandiego netflix #cs liveblog #csweekly #cs weekly #carmen sandiego weekly

[apompkwrites]

Frick I’m so bad at recognizing and remembering faces and appearances and I’m trying to put together who is who in your drawings and it’s painful for me. It’s not your art that’s making me confused, it’s my own brain :( Sometimes I have to wait to hear my brother’s voice to know who he is. Sometimes I have to see how my brother’s girlfriend acts when she puts on makeup to know if I recognize her. I kinda have to rely on same hair styles or accessories like jewelry in order to recognize things/people sometimes.

It’s also okay if this is too much to ask, but could the black sheep maybe have accessories that could help keep track of who is who? Maybe the accessories could be the only thing of color besides the text? Ex. Lil lion having a hair band or hair clip that is dark yellow. Lil Al Asim having some kind of body tattoo/ink that’s dark red around their neck area. Things that’ll fit into their character but also the colors being that of their brothers’ dorms? Again, it’s totally okay if this is too much! It’s just hard for me to keep track of things >.<

- Heartbeat Anon

waaa dont worry i get it!! tbh the designs for the black sheep were just kinda on the fly? but now i have an excuse to make proper refs :D

++ giving them lil accessories would def help with differentiating them, esp when im drawing their sibs :O

fun fact, this ref sheet actually has 8 designs! one lil black sheep has an extra design that i won't be showing until much later ;))

so here’s the og 7 plus my little design notes for them utc ;) gonna use these designs from now on for drawings only, so not in fics and stuff <33 so stuff, esp skin tone, are not canon to the fics

rosehearts (lil rose):

gotta go with the obvious of giving them a rose :D the placement could change but for now its in their hair :)

and i wanted to lean more into a hearts aesthetic without making them blend in with heartslabyul students like ace so i put it on their neck! thinking like albedo's design but its a lil heart instead of a star <3

kingscholar (lil lion/cub):

so i already had markings on their face since their first appearance in the comic just bc i liked the look of it? but i did add the marks closer to their nose in this new design.

thinking about adding a lil feather behind their ear/in their hair. mainly them post mwezi miji because i can see nuru giving them one of his feathers :)

also i made their hair short! i liked the idea of how leona and (probably) falena have longer hair that (name) cuts it after running away.

ashengrotto (lil octo):

so obv they have the same lil beauty mark as azul <33 i also wanna make it clear that they don't all have the same body shape? just used a pose that i use to get a full look at a character's design. so, yes yes, lil octo is on the heavier side.

also their accessory is the shell from the movie! got inspired by the anon that talked about it keeping their human form :)

asim (lil scarab):

I GAVE THEM HENNA-LIKE MARKINGS LIKE ASIM AND NO ONE CAN STOP ME >:))

so they have very intricate design on their neck/collarbone area but bc it wouldn't be visible a lot, i gave them lil dots under their eyes :) i did steal lil bits of kalim's design because i thought it would be fitting :D

schoenheit (lil gala/galaling):

so they have the unqiue eye shape where i gave them lashes :) ofc because they would have 11/10 lashes like vil :D ++ eye shadow but that's only in colored drawings.

i gave them the hair clip with a lil mirror design to hold back their bangs :DD and a ring because i like to think they would wanna wear lil rings :)

shroud (lil flame):

so gonna address their skin color first. i made their skin a bit more gray to mimic how the overblot characters look? i mean, they live on the same floor as the overblot monsters so i feel like it makes sense for their appearance to also be affected by them?

also!! their flame hair is dimmer than idia and ortho's! i thought it'd make sense for it to be like that to mimic a sort of dimmer light? like how they're slowly deteriorating or smth. ++they have an ahoge that i wanna draw in diff poses depending on their emotions >:)

gave them a mask that kinda mimic ink/blot? wanna stick with that motif for them :)

draconia (lil dragon):

so i wanted to keep a close resemblance to malleus? bc i feel like the idea a lot of people have come with where lil draconia doesn't entirely understand that their related despite their very obvious similar appearances.

the main factor i wanted to tell them apart from the others was lil scale like things on their face? idk i just liked the idea while browsing for refs. it was that or!! more branch-like horns?? idk we'll see :)

#a pompk answers #black sheep #a heartbeat anon's rambles #a pompk's art

[outrunningthedark]

Right there with ya on the way people label the Buckley’s grief as wrong! Yes, impact does matter, but sometimes you have to take into account intent. This doesn’t mean the Buckley’s haven’t done anything wrong and there is no reason for their kids to be upset with them. There is. There are many reasons for them to be upset. But it also doesn’t mean they can’t be forgiven. They can’t do better. Or that Buck and Maddie shouldn’t want them in their lives. Maddie and Buck both realize this. They both realize why their parents were the way they were. It’s even been said, they weren’t bad people BY MADDIE. It’s like these people just want Buck to kick his parents to the curb and say “ya know what, fuck off and fuck you.”

[TL;DR. This always happens with this story line. Oof.] It’s like these people just want Buck to kick his parents to the curb and say “ya know what, fuck off and fuck you.” - This is the heart of it, for sure, and I can definitely understand the fandom (made up of younger viewers compared to the GA) wanting to have their own complicated feelings towards their parents validated; there's plenty of people who have that "I'd cut you if I could, but you're my ____ and it's not that easy" mindset - myself included! Being physically disabled means *having* to depend on people that didn't/don't always like me. But the redemption arc isn't the problem. It's that Kristen didn't follow up on that family dynamic for TWO YEARS. She didn't accidentally come to the conclusion that the Buckleys should to be better the next time around. She made a deliberate choice not to even give them a mention for TWO YEARS so the audience could get a status update and be more prepared for the version of the Buckleys we would see in 6x10. Her explanation was that 4x06 (the therapy detail) clued us in to the effort happening off-screen: "They've spoken on the show about Buck and his parents trying to do some therapy. And so we just wanted to revisit those parents and see how that relationship with their children has progressed." I don't know what's going to happen with the Buckley parents a year from now, but if even Oliver has no current reason to assume things are gonna go to shit (and he's gotten all the scripts) - "Just because their relationship has been so fractured in the past doesn’t mean that there’s no room for reconciliation, and certainly seems to me like they’re on a path moving forward now where they can slowly start to build a really healthy parent-child relationship" - then I'm sticking with *my* current belief that this story line isn't about the parents as much as it is a (definitive) shift in the story and a lesson on not taking time for granted: - Buck and Maddie are no longer those little kids trying to live up to their parents' expectations, trying to do everything "right" to earn their approval. Holding onto that pain is not going to help them be the best versions of themselves. Buck cannot fully embrace self-love and self-worth if he still dwells on whether his parents regret his birth. Maddie can't raise a daughter to the best of her ability with Margaret's voice in her head making her second-guess her capabilities/decisions. These are their lives and they're finally taking control. - What Oliver said relates to my second point, that the show makes a habit of using the parent-child relationships to say "It's never too late to change." You don't have to hold on to grudges. You don't have to keep hate in your heart. And you certainly shouldn't act as though there's "no point" in reconciliation just because the thought of confrontation or showing vulnerability scares the crap out of you. If mending fences is important (as it appears to be for the Buckley sibs' peace of mind) then...take a chance before there's no time left. (Buck forgiving his parents NOW is because his subconscious feared he was dying. It might have been his only chance.) And ftr (because I feel like this is also part of where the annoyance stems from) I'm gonna repeat that unless the Buckley parents become mains - which they won't! - the standards aren't changing, and this episode told us that. Buck forgave his parents in an episode where the father-son dynamic between he and Bobby was on full display. That's still who he's gonna go to when he needs advice because Bobby is a CONSTANT presence, Bobby will ALWAYS be able to understand Buck in a way that Phillip cannot because of the years that family lost to trauma. Choosing not to revolve his life around the ways his bio parents did him wrong/influenced his behavior does not and will not in any way lessen or alter the already-established bonds he's created with the 118. It just means he's READY TO LET GO.

#anonymous #tina speaks #911 spoilers #tv: 911 #tv: 9-1-1 #evan buckley #maddie buckley #margaret buckley #phillip buckley

[crusty-chronicles]

The Moon and Sun (Big Sib Reader x Gon/Killua)

Ch 6: So Long Greed Island, Hello...Not Ging???

Synopsis: After healing everyone's injuries, a contest for the final card is held. Gon gets to find out a little more about Ging, leaving you to figure out what exactly it is you want. (Spoiler alert: it might have to do with your two boys)

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It didn't take you long to reach the meeting place, even with the extra weight you were carrying (and dragging). There were of course questions from Killua and Bisky about what the hell had happened to Gon. All of which you made the injured boy explain himself, in great detail, about how careless he'd been while you lined up Genthru with his goons.

It was decided the four of you would wait until the bombers woke up to fix any damage taken in battle.

God you couldn't wait to have your leg working again.

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A few hours later and Genthru finally awakened. Malice gone from his aura, replaced with a sense of defeat.

"You awake? Hurry and get your binder out," Killua ordered.

"That's right. We want you to return all the cards from the people you betrayed," Bisky added.

Betrayed was putting it lightly, very lightly.

"On one condition," Genthru's voice was weak. Gon must've done quite the number on him.

"Use Angel's Breath to heal Barra of his injuries."

You wanted to laugh.

How absolutely ridiculous.

This man, who had killed hundreds, and was about to do the same to your kids, was asking for his partner in crime to be healed.

All the people who died for this man's greed, he killed with a twisted smile on his face. But one beating and he's begging for his friend's injuries to be healed.

It wasn't fair and it sure as hell wasn't right.

They deserved to suffer

Your relaxed expression turned into a grimace. They deserved to be left the way they were: suffering in agony. And yet....

And yet you knew the boys had made the right decision. They wanted a fair fight with no casualties from either side. Because killing or leaving them to fend for themselves with their wounds, would make them no better than the bombers.

They were good kids.

You were not

"We have a Clone card," Genthru tried again.

"Don't worry about it. That was always apart of the plan," Killua dismissed.

"We already prepared 7 copies of Clone for just such an occasion," Bisky said.

Genthru's eyes widened in shock. Seems he wasn't expecting your group's kindness.

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Bisky summoned an Angel's Breath. The first one to be healed was Gon. (it definitely didn't have anything to do with your insistence.)

A beautiful woman emerged from the card.

"What manner of aid do you wish of me?" Her voice was soft as she asked.

"We need you to heal his hands," Killua started. "And while you're at it, maybe fix that eye too"

"Just heal every single injury he has, got it?" You butted in.

"That is a simple task, and so I shall restore his body to its former state."

A bright light surrounded Gon and his injuries were healed in an instant. He stared in amazement at his new arm before cheering.

You hardly had time to react before small arms wrapped themselves around you. You stood stiff for a moment as Gon jostled you around.

This was new.

Not necessarily bad, but new.

"Okay, you're all better. Now let's fix tweedle-dee and tweedle-dum before we can get too exited, okay?" You slowly pried the boy's arms off you.

"Sorry, I'm just really happy right now!" Gon ducked his head down in slight embarrassment.

Next up to be fixed was Barra from Genthru's team. Whatever Bisky did to him had his face all sorts of messed up. His nose was completely broken and his face had splatters of blood. With Angel's Breath, he was as good as new in a few seconds.

It would have been Killua's turn next if Goreinu hadn't messed with the cards to stop your group from healing Genthru's.

"If you use Angel's Breath to heal these murderers, then the trade is off," Goreinu threatened.

"Could I use it?" Killua asked.

"Yeah, of course."

"But I'm an assassin."

Oh, you knew where this was going.

Killua had a point about that, one that you hadn't considered because of your own personal biases.

"Sure they've killed, I've killed more," Killua continued.

"Every player in this game risks their life in one way or another. That doesn't mean it's okay to kill people...but all the people I killed weren't nearly as ready to die as these guys did. I'm way worse than they could ever be."

Worse than them, maybe. But worse than you? You were scum compared to his entire family.

"You're wrong, you're not at all like them," Goreinu argued. "I mean, I like you, but these guys, I hate their guts."

"You can hate somebody with everything you have, it still doesn't make it right to have them suffer for your peace of mind." Your tired eyes met his.

It was something you had a hard time coming to terms with yourself.

"Yeah but-!"

"Let me level with you here. I'm not exactly a good person either. I'd love nothing more than to leave them here for everything they've done, but is that really justice? What's separating us from them at that point? It just doesn't make a whole lotta sense that way."

"Forget sense, it's how I feel!"

"Y/n's right. It's not our place to leave someone to die just because we hate them." You were thankful for Bisky backing you up. It gave you more time to think.

Damn, just how soft had you gotten.

"Both sides risked their lives in battle, and both are prepared to kill if necessary. But when the fight's over, well... Those rules cease to apply," she explained.

It was Gon who spoke next.

"I still haven't forgiven Genthru for killing all those other players, not yet at least."

And you'd never forgive him for almost killing your boy.

"But before the fight even started, the four of us agreed we'd bring 7 clone cards with us just in case. I don't really remember why we decided that, but I do remember one thing: it wasn't based on logic and reason."

No, no it was not.

But you remember in that moment feeling the auras around you. All of them determined, and none malicious, even when the possibility of leaving the bombers behind came up.

"It just made sense to us," Gon continued. "Once the fight was over and we obtained the Angel's Breath card, we would use it on whoever was hurt. We made the decision together, so we wanted to stick to it....But I get how you're feeling Mr. Goreinu, guess it can't be helped."

Then he turned to face both you and Killua.

"Sorry guys, do you think you can wait a little longer?"

"Not a problem. My hands will eventually heal on their own," Killua assured.

"I'll live but I'll probably need some assistance from a boy who likes to be reckless and show off. Whaddya think Mr. Jan-Ken-Rock?" You lightly teased.

Gon flashed the both of you a grateful smile.

"It's a promise then."

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It was decided shortly after that the final Angel's Breath would go to Genthru. When he was all healed up, the four of you prepared to leave for Masadora.

"Wait!" Goreinu stopped all of you before you left.

"All right you can have Angel's Breath! Whatever you guys want!"

"Really!?!? You're sure???" Gon questioned.

"Well, to be honest, even before you told me everything I wanted to give it to you. And not just Angel's Breath, but all the cards that we gathered in the game."

A collective gasp of shock came from your group. You focused your eyes on Goreinu, sure enough he seemed genuine. He went on to explain that Tsezguerra and his team agreed to it, and they were all officially quitting.

After making a few more Clones, Killua's hands were finally healed. He threw a few punches in the air to get a feel for them. And being the gremlin he is, he then proceeded to zap you from his finger tips.

Then it was finally your turn.

"What manner of aid do you wish of me?" The angel repeated for the sixth time. You lifted up your throbbing leg.

"Fix this for me, will you?" And before she could grant your request, Gon and Killua quickly pushed their way in front of you.

"And make them not tired anymore!" Gon shouted.

"Yeah, and while you're at it, get rid of those bags under their eyes too!" Killua added in.

You stood shocked for a moment before you started sputtering over your words.

"Now hang on just a second!!! I didn't ask for all that-!!! You're both goblins!!! Absolute goblins!!!"

Then you were engulfed in the bright light and all the pain from your leg vanished. And for once, you didn't feel so exhausted.

You placed your full weight on what had been your injured foot. Once you were sure it was fine, your head snapped up in the direction of your troublesome kids.

"Ah man, they've still got those nasty circles under their eyes," Killua huffed out.

"You've got until the count of three before I chase you two down for being little menaces." Your tone was playful enough that it let them know you weren't really mad.

Gon took your warning a rushed off while Killua stood where he was.

The duality of goblins.

"Ooh! I'm so scared!" The mini assassin taunted.

"I gave you a head start."

In the blink of an eye, you appeared in front of him and tossed him over your shoulder. He let out a small screech and lightly pounded on your back.

"No fair! You didn't even start counting!"

"Boo hoo, cry me a river why don't you....Now for the other one."

You spotted Gon a little ways away. He was hiding behind a pretty stable boulder. Too bad you could see his aura anyway.

You jumped on top of the rock and leaned over him.

"Found you!"

He jumped, started and before he could take off again, he was already hauled over your other shoulder.

Killua stopped his previous assault on your back and waved at Gon.

"Hey, just got here huh?"

The boy in green nodded.

"Yup, but at least I did better than you."

"Did not!"

"Did too!"

You were close enough to Bisky and Goreinu to hear part of their conversation. It was something along the lines of splitting money? Eh, not like you needed it anyways.

You were, unfortunately, barred off from hearing anymore of the conversation thanks to the shouts of the boys on your shoulders.

"Y/N!!!" They both shouted.

You paused your fast steps.

"What?"

"Who did better!!!!"

You shook your head in disbelief.

"What???"

"Just say it was me, I stood my ground. Unlike somebody!" Killua gave a fake glare at Gon.

"Oh yeah!?!? Well I didn't scream like a girl when they caught me, unlike you!!!"

You should've dropped both of them right then. But you were just so damn flabbergasted. They were not actually arguing for your approval, were they?

"Here's a tidbit, you're both the absolute worst and suck." You answered. It was silent for a second, then-

"Are you still upset about the eye thing?" Killua broke the silence.

"We just didn't want you to be tired anymore, and it was Killua's idea. So don't be mad at me," Gon tried to sway you.

"Hey! Traitor! You said you wouldn't tell them!!!"

You let out a loud laugh.

They were such boys.

Then you got a brilliant idea. A very brilliant idea. If they could see your aura right now, all they'd see is mischief.

"We're going down!" Then with no other warning, you flopped forward, effectively crushing both boys under your arms.

"Hey! You're heavy! Get off!!!" Killua whined.

"Is this one for the eye thing? Come on, Sib we can't move!!!" Gon complained.

You stilled for a second, in thought.

"Sib, huh? What's that about?" You flopped your head to Gon's side. Said boy was currently trying his best to avoid your gaze.

Killua, seeing an opportunity to get back at Gon, decided to out him.

"Yeah, Sib. He came up with it. Short for sibling. He wanted to give you a nickname like the ones you have for us."

Your head flopped over to Killua's side.

"All by himself?"

The small assassin's aura was mischievous like yours.

"All by himself."

You lifted up your right arm.

"Okay, Gon. You're free to go."

"What!?!?" Killua panicked.

Gon on the other hand jumped up, and when he caught Killua's gaze, playfully stuck his tongue out before rushing over to Bisky.

"How come he gets to go free?!?!"

"Because I don't hear you coming up with something that considerate."

"Oh I have a few names I'd like to call you right now, but you won't let me curse!"

"I can roll over, you know?"

"And I can bite you."

"Gremlin."

"Eye bags."

"Okay you know what-" you were cut off by a sudden weight on your back. Causing you to lift up your arm and for Killua to squirm away.

"Gon! You didn't leave me in the trenches after all!" Killua celebrated.

You turned over and caught sight of both of them.

"Betrayed by my own boy. How cruel. After I carried you to safety."

"Boo hoo, cry me a river," Killua parroted back to you.

You shot back up.

"Round two?" Gon nervously laughed.

"Round two," you confirmed.

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It was about an hour later that you finally quit terrorizing the boys. They were eager to start filling up their binders with the cards Tsezguerra left behind. As Gon put the last one in his binder, something strange happened.

An announcement was made to every player that someone was one card away from winning the game(Gon) and a special quiz event would be held for the final card.

You tensed up as you felt several new auras approach. Bisky and Goreinu were caught off guard by them as well.

You quickly took a protective stance in front of Gon and Killua as best you could. Two of the uninvited guests walked forward.

"Don't worry, we didn't come here to interfere or anything." The bigger one said.

"You might say we're here to assist," said the other.

"Assist from a distance then," you warned. You could feel something was off with their aura. It was disingenuous somehow.

The duo held up their hands in surrender and stayed put.

"To assist?" Gon questioned.

"That's right. If we get the top score on the quiz and obtain the final card, we'll sell it to you for 2.5 billion." The taller one answered.

Money again?

God, these bozos were only proving your point about hunters. At least you didn't feel any bloodlust coming from them.

"That's just 5% of your total reward. A pretty reasonable price don't you think?"

Gon and Killua nodded to each other.

"Sounds good to us, if you guys win," Killua answered.

You let out an irritated sigh.

"Don't let them extort you, dummies. There's nothing stopping them from just taking the card and running."

You glanced down at Bisky, silently pleading with her to help you stop the boys' from being stupid. Thankfully, she took the hint.

"With the game coming close to the end, they're probably hoping to get some, if not all, of the reward for themselves. It's tricky for sure, so...What should we do?"

"Well, I think that we outta do it by ourselves!" Gon answered.

Killua's eyes lit up at the idea.

"Yeah! And whoever gets the lowest scores gets punished!"

Gon beamed right back at him.

"Yeah! I'm in!"

You really should have been prepared for this by now. It happened so often, you should've seen it coming. But you were still completely caught off guard when they both looked back at you with huge smiles.

"And Y/n can be the one who decides the punishment!!!" The mini assassin exclaimed.

Before you could give a rebuttal, the other boy hurriedly spoke.

"And the winner gets to get carried for the day!!!!"

"Now you're talking! Ha! I'm gonna be a giant!"

"You wish!!! There's no way I'm gonna lose now!"

You bonked the two of them on the back of their heads.

"Now hold on! I don't remember agreeing to these terms! And I don't recall volunteering to help the vertically challenged!"

"Aww come on! Don't be like that, sib!" Killua whined.

You felt embarrassment creep back up.

"Don't you 'sib' me! Like hell I'm gonna let you butter me up!"

Then you felt a small tug on your arm. Looking down, you were met with the most powerful puppy dog eyes you've ever seen.

Gon was staring up at you, a small pout evident on his face.

"Please!"

And damn him and those honey colored eyes. And damn the other one for wearing you down with just one word.

You heard a chuckle from the side, and gave a small glare at the person who it belonged to. Bisky waved back in response.

"You know they won't leave you alone until you agree, right?" She teased.

You let out a very exhausted groan.

"Fine." You were immediately met with cheers.

"But, I get to decide what day. Got it, goblins?"

They nodded excitedly and plopped down on the grass to start the quiz.

Gon seemed pretty confident with his answers while Killua got stumped by a few. It was only a matter of time before the winner was announced.

"With a total of 87 out of 100 points, the winning player is...Gon."

You couldn't contain the smile that broke out across your face, nor could you contain yourself from cheering alongside the two boys.

You were just so glad he was able to beat his father's game.

"That means Killua's gonna get punished by Y/n," Gon teased his best friend.

"And I know just what we're gonna do: speed training," You jazzed your hands for emphasis.

"Demon," Killua muttered.

Gon stuck out his tongue while you laughed.

The peaceful moment was interrupted by the screech of an owl that dropped down a letter. Inside it was a Non-Specified Slot Card.

It was called Ruler's Invitation and only the one with the card could go to the designated location. Which meant, Gon would have to go inside the building by himself.

While the three of you were discussing, some more goons came by to try and take cards.

"Okay, then. Let's have a competition. Winner gets all your cards." You didn't have to be close to that idiot to know his breath was rancid.

"Sorry, but you don't have a choice," his buddy backed up.

You were so sick of these people. For fucks sake, these were kids they were trying to steal from. Were they mental?

It seems you were at your breaking point because before you knew it, you kicked off your shoe and into your hand. You covered your eyes and threw it as hard as you could towards the buffoons.

This didn't count as fighting, right? Surely you earned yourself a freebee after dealing with so many of these creeps. And your eyes were closed, totally non-fighting behavior.

Two loud thuds were heard, and like a boomerang your shoe flung back in your hand. You uncovered your eyes to see the two men laying face down on the ground. You focused your attention on putting your shoe back on as you noticed a trickle of blood come from one of their noses.

You turned your attention back to the two boys who knew better than to ask what just happened, lest they risk your wrath next.

"Sorry, munchkin. Think you could repeat that?"

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It was decided that Drift would be used first, then Accompany to get the rest of you there. The four of you arrived as the sun started to set. Gon went in by himself, leaving you, Bisky, and Killua behind.

"Wonder what he's feeling?" Bisky asked.

"What do you mean?" Killua questioned in return.

"I mean, he might actually meet Ging, right? The father he's been searching for all this time." She answered.

You doubted that was the case, but you didn't want to say anything.

"Oh, Y/n," Killua called out. You nodded to show you were listening.

"I've been meaning to ask you. You kept calling out a name in your sleep."

You immediately stilled. Had you been so careless in your sleep that you let something slip? Had you been letting your aura slip?

"Let's see, what was it? Oh! Kari! You kept saying 'Kari' in your sleep. I wanted to ask you who that was." Killua didn't notice your tense posture, but Bisky did. Was this it? Was she finally gonna get answers from you?

Silence.

A little more silence.

Then, in the softest voice they've ever heard, came your answer.

"She was someone very close to me....Hey Killua?"

At last, the small assassin sensed your discomfort. Maybe he shouldn't have brought it up after all.

"Yeah?"

"Don't ever ask me about that again."

Your eyes looked so empty in that moment. They were devoid of any of your usual laziness.(softness) They weren't your eyes.

You got up without looking at either of them.

"I'm going for a walk."

They didn't stop you.

And when Gon came back with great news, they didn't tell him about your sudden coldness. Even as he suggested they look for you, they told him it was best to leave you be.

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You didn't know where you were going. All you knew was that you needed to get away. It was just too much for you.

You wanted to scream, to cry, anything that would take your mind away from things. But you didn't deserve relief. You deserved to suffer.

Goddamnit!

You could control what you said and did when you were awake. But the fact that you had slipped up in your sleep. You were an idiot, a disgrace.

Were you really that careless, or was it because you had let your guard down so much?

Whatever the reason, you were pathetic. You shouldn't have been that cold towards Killua. He didn't know, he couldn't have possibly known not to ask that.

It was just something you weren't ready to talk about, or ever talk about. No that wasn't right.

You didn't want to remember.

You let out a tired sigh.

God, you really messed up, didn't you? Maybe you could apologize? Would they even accept an apology from you? Could you even go back?

You still haven't even decided what you were gonna do. Stay here or leave.

What was there for you if you stayed? An eternity of loneliness? You supposed you deserved it anyways.

But what was there for you if you left? You could tag along with the boys if Killua agreed to forgive you. But what then? Gon would find his father and then what?

You'd have to face reality again.

You clenched your fist.

You weren't strong enough to protect them if something happened.

"I don't like it when it rains." The older one huffed out.

"How come?"

"All the bugs come out and they're sooo scary!"

"Ha! Well, I'll save you from them. You do so much for me, it's time I protected you."

You let out a pitiful laugh.

Maybe you could play pretend just a little while longer. Look out and protect each other. Do what you can do so they can do what you can't.

Your mind was made up.

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The sun was up and there was still no sign of you. Both boys were worried sick about you. Bisky did her best to console them, saying you'd be there any minute. As a last resort, they used an Accompany to find you.

They landed at the bay area, much to their surprise. You weren't just gonna leave, were you?

"We were looking everywhere for you!!! Why'd you just leave like that?!?" You didn't look up as the boy in green tried to lecture you.

Gon was the one who found you. He shouted to alert Bisky and Killua, then hurried towards you. You sat near the edge of the water, legs folded to your chest.

You could feel nervous auras from the other two, Killua's especially.

"I'm an idiot, that's why," you mumbled. "That and I needed to think about what I wanted."

"What you wanted?"

After what felt like an eternity, you raised your head up and looked behind you.

"Yeah...I'm sorry for leaving. I didn't mean to make you worry." Your words were directed at Killua and Bisky.

The white haired boy crossed his arms and avoided your gaze, embarrassment flooding through his aura along with relief.

"Whatever, just don't do it again."

Bisky's eyes softened.

"You're fine. The only ones you worried were the boys."

You gave a tired smile at that.

"Hey, when you said you were thinking about what you wanted, what was it?" You sensed hopefulness from Gon.

Maybe he knew the outcome before you did all along.

"I want to stay with you and Killua. At least until we find Ging. Someone needs to keep you two out of trouble, you know?" This time it was you who ducked your head down in embarrassment.

"That is, if you're okay with me tagging along."

You felt yourself being pulled up and into a hug. But unlike last time when you stood stiff, this time you returned it.

Something else you hadn't done in years.

"We wouldn't have it any other way, right Killua?"

"It's not like we were gonna leave the game without them."

Well, didn't you feel special.

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Beating Greed Island meant Gon got to choose any of three cards he wanted to bring into the real world. Bisky got a gemstone card while Gon and Killua chose the other two.

They did feel a little guilty and asked if you wanted anything, to which you replied they'd owe you a favor that they had to do no matter what.

You took your first step out into the real world since 2 years ago. It didn't feel any different, but you knew you had to be more careful. You glanced to your left, seeing Bisky get all happy with her new gemstone.

Which begs the question, what exactly did the boys get?

You could sense some mischief from Gon as he exited the game.

Your suspicions were confirmed when he brought out the Paladin's Necklace card and used it on the Strip of Beach. It transformed into an Accompany.

Strange.

Bisky thought so too as she questioned them about it.

"It's just, if I hadn't been the first to enter the game, then I wouldn't have noticed," Gon explained.

"Noticed what?" You didn't get it quite yet.

"Do you two remember when we played rock-paper-scissors?" Killua continued.

"You mean Jan-ken?" Bisky clarified.

"Yeah."

Then Gon took over explaining again.

"See, I was the first person to enter the game. And while I was standing there waiting for Killua, there was nobody else around. That means the first person I met in the game should've been the second to show up: Mr. Goreinu.

"But it wasn't. When I checked my binder, it said that there was somebody I met before him...Ging is spelled G-I-N-G."

And then it clicked. His father had used an anagram:Nigg.

Still weird, but kinda clever. It meant he did leave behind a clue for Gon after all. And with the Accompany card, he could meet his dad right now.

"Maybe this was his way of trying to tell me if I'm ready to give up everything I have and go find him, then I have to get strong enough to clear the game."

You bonked the boy on the back of his head.

"Don't be stupid and say things you don't mean. You'll do what you can to find him. You're not gonna give up anything important to you for a man who wasn't there."

Gon giggled slightly.

"I guess when you put it like that...But you know what I mean."

"You're a tenacious one. It's impressive," Bisky said. "Well, what're you planning to do once you find Ging?"

Gon's face lit up once again.

"That's easy! I'll introduce him to Killua! I'll tell him he's my best friend in the world!"

The other boy quickly became flustered and stumbled over his words.

"You what-!?! Shut up!!! That's embarrassing man!"

To which you laughed at before Karma got you.

"And then I'll introduce him to Y/n. I bet he'll be glad to hear about how much they've helped me, and I'll make sure to tell him that they've been a really great big sibling.

Your face felt scorching hot as you hid behind your hands.

"What did I say about talking like that? You can't just say stuff like that out of the blue, you know!"

You were caught off guard by Bisky's sudden crying.

"R-really?!?! O-oh stop!?!"

It was kinda funny to see someone so headstrong and strict break down from a few soft words.

"I-hiccup- can't take it! It must be my age, but it's so easy to make me cry!!!"

"Oh hey! Why don't you come with us to see Ging, Bisky," Gon offered.

She stood silent for a moment before answering.

"Thank you, but I think I'll pass...I'm not interested in men with kids."

WHAT????

The hell did that have to do with anything????

But unlike you, Gon and Killua just brushed it off.

"Okay! I guess that's it then. Take care, Bisky!"

She smiled brightly at the three of you.

"I will. And you guys too, okay?"

With one final 'thank you' for Bisky, the three of you'd used Accompany to find Gon's dad.

You would never get used to the sensation of that, or how much faster it was compared to your speed. In just a few seconds, you'd landed in a foggy area.

Having previous PTSD from Hisoka, you guided the boys behind you and used your eyes to scan the aura ahead of you.

There was some shock(no doubt caused by your abrupt entrance) but other than that they seemed calm.

They were sitting under a tree with their back facing you, fishing pole in hand. So far so good right?

Tentatively, Gon took a step forward.

"G-Ging?" You could feel his hesitance to call out. Like he couldn't believe it was true.

But something wasn't right. As soon as Gon had taken a step forward, the person sitting down got up and their aura shifted.

In a speed that rivaled yours, the man who you could see clearly now, hit Gon to the left and Killua to the right. He met your panicked gaze and before he could make a move towards you, you jumped back with a skid.

What the hell was going on!?!?

Your eyes widened as he summoned what appeared to be a small clown.

"In my mouth is a roulette containing the numbers 1 all the way through 9. You get a different weapon for each number on the wheel. I AM THE GREAT MAD CLOWN, CRAZY SLOTS! HOPE YOU GET SOMETHING GOOD!"

The thing, it spoke!?!?

Then it's tongue started to spin.

"FOUR!"

The clown then turned into...

WAS THAT A GUN!!?!?

"Damn, bad roll," the man muttered. Then he aimed the gun towards Gon's direction.

Oh no

No

Not again

You summoned all your nen towards your legs and were in front of Gon in an instant. As the trigger was pulled and the sound of shots filled the air, you were already over to Killua.

You covered both boys with your body until the shots stopped. Upon further inspection, you could notice the small bodies of what looked like ants get blown over in debris.

"Are ya hurt?"

You stiffened at the man's voice. Your previous fear now replaced with anger. From under you, both boys could see a very familiar look that crossed your features during the meeting with Asta.

You were already up and stomping towards the assailant.

"Cover your ears!" You tossed your head back as you addressed them. Not wanting to upset you further, they did as you asked.

Well they half covered their ears, but you didn't need to know about that

"YOU FUCKING FUCK!"

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Fun Fact #7: Y/n doesn't fight because they can't. They don't fight because they made a promise not to

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