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minccinoocappuccino · 2 years

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What's the worst take you saw in this hell hole about a twst character?

Mmmm It’s hard to say that I've seen bad takes about characters and more like I’ve seen bad takes about one character only since I don’t go into tags or engage with the fandom outside of what's on my blogs or who talks to me first.

I won't message someone first to talk ….mutism

But If I had to say the worst take I’ve seen its’s def the Leona would treat a female mc better than a Male mc. I think it has a lot to do with ppl not understanding what respect means tbh.

Respecting women doesnt mean treating women better than men Respecting women doesnt mean worshiping a woman

And it feels like all the time someone says this for Leona this is what they mean. I’ve seen lots of Leona would change the way he behaves if he found out the Mc was a girl or Leona would start trying to make it up to them for the way he treated him when I don’t think he would at all.

I see a lot of ppl using the painting as a example of why Leona would do a complete turn for his character and act diff towards a Female Mc and It sit kinda odd with me since they never use his interactions with Eliza as also something to go off of. Leona had no preconceived notion about the painting before he was told about her so he was ready to treat her with respect while he did have one about Eliza and didn’t like her.

Leona already knows the MC we have interacted and talked to so he isnt going to change how he acts towards us now. Even when we first met him we stepped on his tail so right off the start he had an annoyance towards us Male or Female doesnt matter.

The respecting women thing doesnt mean women are always right or held above men as Ive seen ppl say he would. And this is one reason why I dont go into the Leona tag anymore that and other things

A lot of the stuff made in this fandom is made by women. The fandom is female dominated. I get that and respect that. That being said because it’s stuff by women for women it doesnt scratch my itch as a gay man. And thats ok! I dont expect everything to be made with me in mind or that ppl should cater to me and my interests. Most of my mutuals fall into this and I dont mind it. I like and reblog there stuff when I see it on my dash. I have no problem with this content at all.

But when I used to go into the tag it's all the content I would see so I dont go into the tag anymore and if i do its just to reblog the character fan art I see

This is nothing against the writers in the fandom who write femaleMC x canon there aloud to write what interest them and this isnt a call to action for the fandom to include more MaleMC in there stuff this is me just saying that content doesnt appeal to me I’ve tried to look at the BL tag but again most of it is by Women for Women and as a gay man its easy for me to tell when something is rep gay men or when it’s just for women to enjoy and again its just not my cup of tea so i dont look at it. I make my own MLM content and stay in my corner of the fandom.

I also don't want anyone to take this as an attack or a diss cus it's not. Its me just saying im not a fan of this kinda content i don't care if it's out there i just aint going to b looking at it

And if u r someone who writes Leona as acting diff towards a female Mc and thinks he would treat them way better than a Male Mc ur allowed to write or depict this but im also allowed to say i think its a shit take nothing against you just ur take

Sorry that this rambled on long sjsjjssjjsjjsjsj I dont usually state my opinion on things but this is sumthing i see a lot and i think its so stupid but to each there own ya know

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drkcnry67 · 2 years

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my secret is...

title: my secret is...

pairing: jared x reader

fluff: superhero au

h&h: anti possession tattoo

tags: smut, lots of smut, more smut, implied smut, fighting, bruising, revealing your secret to the woman you choose to spend the rest of your life with, reader figuring it out before he says anything, shooting, fashion design implied, tech showcase, speeches, silent auction, I don't think there is anything else.

rating: maybe 18+ not sure how this will go yet

created for @spnfluffbingo @heavenandhellbingo @sweetness47

summery: nope

jared: i have a secret, my identity is for your ears only incase something happens to me, or you. in case something goes wrong tonight...

Yn: tonight, babe this is crazy talk just come to...

Suddenly a red dot is on the wall behind you, Jared pushes you to the ground just as a shot is fired, the window in your penthouse apartment shatters into a thousand pieces

You lay under your loved form, but something strikes you. Why would he... How... Oh my god... Were just some of the things you wanted to say but what you asked your love was something the inner you had wanted to ask for a while now..

Yn: are you the dark avenger?

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Wait wait wait I'm ahead of myself again, let's go back to 5 months and 4 hours before the events above with a brief history review...

It all began on the anniversary of your first day in Texas, the day you had moved to get a fresh start(bad break up needed a fresh look on life.)

That day who knew a accidental bumping into someone would lead to a first date never mind them finding you a place to live, his only thing was you were never gonna be in danger with him around.

you were not paying attention and tripped over your own two feet as you landed against a chest, spilling your coffee on this nice mans suit jacket...

jared: are you alright miss?

you shiver at that voice, but you shake it off as you gently say...

yn: im so sorry about your jacket... its gonna be stained im so sorry...

jared: its all good, come this way i am sure we can find you something else to wear cause if im not mistaken your jacket also got ruined by this little accident.

yn: its not little, its everywhere ugh im such a clutz...

jared just laughs as the airport pages the janitor as you and jared move off to the side, your luggage on the ground in front of you and your jackets layed out on the bench.

you kinda laugh but it fades into a sigh of shock as jared's hand reached to pull a piece of your hair away from your eyes.

jared: we havent been introduced yet...

you take his hand in your own as you smile lightly.

yn: im yn, i am just moving here....

jared: well its very nice to meet you yn, im jared let me help you...

yn: do you know of any hotels with cheap and i mean dirt cheap availability long term...

jared just kinda stared at you your question kinda bothering him. so before he spoke again he picked up your bag and his own...

jared: you will not be staying in a hotel, you are gonna be my roommate.

you were shocked and then you kinda giggled but were stunned by jared's hand on your own leading you both toward the door, and into the parkade.

yn: i am so sorry agin about your jacket... are you sure that letting me live with you is a good idea.... i mean its not that i dont particularly think it is a good idea, thats not it at all, its more the fact that I've never ever had a actual roommate before this is also my first time in a city that I didn't grow up in... I'm rambling aren't I?

Jared: yes you are and it's cute!

yn: thank you for letting me stay with you... i was gonna have a hell of a time trying to find somewhere free to live in. especially with no job and being very new to town.

jared just laughed as the car stopped at a stoplight.

jared: so welcome to san antonio... it is not as large as dallas, but its still a great place to live. we will get you settled and then we will worry bout finding you a job. but mi casa et su casa.

you couldnt hold back from trying to find out more about this mysterious stranger who basically came out of no where just as you were trying to hail your way out of the airport.

yn: what do you do for work? if you dont mind me asking...

you blushed slightly as jared pulled into a parkade and put the car in park.

jared: i run my own company its a family business, my parents left it to me when they were killed when i was a kid. i like to spend a few nights after hours to prep papers and stuff for the following days. its apart of the billionaire bachelor life. though i could tell you more over dinner tonight.

You smiled slightly blushing, he invites you to live with him and then he asks you out on a date... Subtly and very suave but never the less a date is what he asked and a date is what you said yes too.

Yn: I would be honored though if it's somewhere fancy I should warn you I don't have anything overly formal.

That's when he revealed that we were at a mall. It didn't look cheap either. He simply smiled and got out of the car coming round to open your door holding his hand to you.

Jared: well that's most certainly what I figured which is why a shopping trip is in order. Course it's on me so please anything you find nice I'll get it for you. Plus it gives us a chance to learn something bout eachother.

You took his hand and your purse as you both walked to an elevator coming into the 2nd floor of a 3 story mall.

Jared: oh and just so you know I will not judge your outfits I'll simply print out poloroids of our outing for a scrapbook of memories for you. Now what's first...

You had to think and you smiled slightly.

Yn: well no outfit starts without a whole new hair do. You don't mind do you...

Jared: not at all, I'll take you to the finest salon here, they do your hair and your hnails all at once. I go there for my hair, they will help you out for anything you want to do.

Yn: how would you feel about me doing the under side of my hair funky and the upper side normal.

Jared could only smile as he spoke.

Jared: I think that will do some good for your new beginning. Now let me do the talking first.

You stayed by his side as you both walked in, a woman standing at the desk approached you both when she saw Jared.

Rebekah: well if it isn't my favorite customer and my best tipper how ya doing Jared?

Jared: pretty good, may I present my new roommate yn, yn may I introduce my oldest friend and sister from another mother Rebekah. She is also my stylist.

You and Rebekah hugged it out as she caught the glint to Jared's eye.

Rebekah: so what brings you both in today.

Yn: I would like something done that says fresh start. Something normal on top and funky on the bottom. Maybe some feather extensions. Along those lines and have fun with it. And I would also appreciate a manicure, acrylic color of your choice.

You basically told Rebekah what you wanted, Rebekah you and Jared were all sitting in the back at the station while Rebekah prepared and mixed the dyes for your hair, grabbed the correct extensions, and began with the low part of your hair.

After an hour and a half of leaving your hair in the hands of this new friend. You were not looking in the mirror while she did your hair, but instead into the eyes of the man who was your Savior.

Jared: that looks amazing Rebekah...

Rebekah: it's some of my best work!!! What do you think yn ready to see your new look?

You look at Jared who is just grinning cheek to cheek. As you are spun round to face the mirror. Your eyes went wide with wonder at the vision before your eyes.

Yn: it's so blonde and purple with hints of the rainbow in a sea of longer hair and it is absolutely gorgeous. I love it. Thanks so much.

Rebekah: no problem now do you still want your claws done?

You simply nodded your head doing a hair flip and ending up looking at Jared, his eyes beckoning you to approach.

Jared: feeling better?

Yn: much better this is exactly the fresh start I was hoping for. you know i have a good feeling bout tonight. but lets do my claws. short stelleto is the nail shape and length i would like.

rebekah and you sat at the nail table. jared put his hand on your shoulder while he checked his phone.

jared: i gotta make a phone call real quick. its work stuff. i will come back in a bit when i sort this out.

jared gave you a quick kiss to your cheek, you blush as he walks out of the salon and around the corner disappearing from your view. rebekah's voice brought you back out of planet jared.

rebekah: alright girl, spill. that look in your eyes, i know you are crushing big time on jared. and for the record he likes you too. he texted me just before you guys got over here. he said he was bringing a new crush over here

You couldn't believe it, Jared had pre warned Rebekah that you guys were coming. Geez, this man really was in love with you.

Yn: I can't believe someone like Jared, well a billionaire owner of his own company hottie who saved my life hunk of a man would ever be in love with me. Rebekah, I feel just blissfully happy but something's eating at me.

Rebekah held onto your hand for a split moment to make your gaze meet her own.

Rebekah: what happened to make you want a fresh start?

You wanted to make it as short and brief as possible but knew it would only bite you more in the ass if you did.

Yn: my asshole of a father that's what. He tried to sell me to some other family so I could marry one of their sons for money. But when I refused he hired some guys to jump me as I was coming home from work one evening. They put me in the hospital with a broken rib. I moved in with my best friend and boss. Gave my notice that I was leaving the city for good. She helped me get away. needless to say I got out and I'm never going back.

Rebekah: so your still hurting from what happened to you. That's where the doubt is coming from. Not to worry Darlin, if there's one thing I know is when Jared likes someone he will do anything to protect them at all costs. now lets finish your nails before jared comes back.

meanwhile jared is pacing back and forth in the mens washroom so he can have a stressful conversation with his partner behind the scenes.

jared: i dont know how to explain it dude but i think this girl is the one for me...

jensen: really hung up on her arent you?

jared: ya right now she is in the salon with rebekah... just getting a fresh look for her new start, i dont know how to explain it. jay i feel something a spark between me and her.

jensen: ya but what about your whole double life thing.

jared sighs for he hadnt given that much thought.

jared: guess ill have to tell her at some point. sometime soon. but for right now we go on exactly how we have... ill see you later.

jared hangs up the phone and straightens up before he heads back toward the salon. where you and rebekah were just finishing your girl talk and your nails.

jared: well thats a nice sound coming out of here. what did i miss?

you and rebekah could only smile.

yn: just some girl talk and lots of giggling. i feel like a brand new woman.

jared, you and rebekah walk back to the front counter.

jared: how much do i owe ya for this.

rebekah: nothin absolutely nothing. im not gonna charge ya for something that literally was to help someone gain a fresh start. thats just not how i roll. now you both go and enjoy your time. and yn come back anytime to chat or to get touch ups nails or hair...

you and jared leave the salon and head to a few other places where jared buys a few new things for you and for the place where he lived but zomething wasnt right.

thats when it happened... right there in the middle of the mall. jared pulled you back to hold your form against his own, as he kissed your lips. calmly and coolly he smiled once the kiss broke.

jared: woah, that was..

yn: breath taking?

jared: ya...

yn: i know what you mean. now lets...

before you both could say anything else you both were alerted to a disturbance by loud gun shots ringing in the air. getting down low it was like nothing ever seen before. or only in a movie.

Jared: shit... Not here not now... Let's just stay down maybe we won't be seen.

You stay down and stay silent staying close to Jared as you both heard this loud voice echoing up the floors. Neither of you wanted to get caught in this mess.

You and Jared crawled slowly back into the salon, where Rebekah was hiding in the back behind the counter.

Jared: Bekah we need to get out of here. I can't put her in danger.

Rebekah: ya well maybe it's time you trusted someone else with your secret...

Jared: maybe one day I will tell her but today is not that day. Now where is your service elevator.

Rebekah: you mean the emergency one. Just let me lock the door at the front first.

rebekah crawls and locks the door with a remote its silent and makes it look like the store was never open in the first place, then she goes back to you and Jared.

rebekah: alright quick and quiet lets go.

You stay close to Jared as the 3 if you made your way into the elevator and Rebekah hit the button to the parkade.

At that moment you all took a breath. Jared held you against his chest as he kinda smiled.

Jared: are you okay?

Yn: I'm a little shaken but I'll be okay. Where are we gonna get me a outfit for dinner tonight now...

Jared: Bekah do you think...

Rebekah looks at Jared.

Rebekah: it's possible but first we need to get to one of our vehicles, second a severe helping of police presence is needed. I've already pressed my silent alarm. And sent a text to Fred who said alright I'll take care of this. I also told him about the people still trapped in the mall but that I and you guys got out. He will probably want to speak with us later but right now let's go see Sheryl.

jared, rebekah and you made it to the jeep, you got in the passenger seat, jared got in the driver seat and rebekah got in behind you.

jared gripped your hand in his own as he drove you all about 30 minutes away from the mall, to a little boutique called "Sheryls howling dresses"

yn: what kind of boutique is this?

jared: one ran by another old friend. she was the same person who was tailor to my parents. she will whip you up some new outfits in the short span of 2 hours. trust me.

you were amazed..

yn: but how...

jared: you will see, now lets go inside and get you fabulous. plus it will help you to forget all that just happened and just have some fun. and dinner just became a charity dinner, i just recieved a reminder about a company benefit for tonight.

yn: ooo let me guess as owner of the company you have to make an appearance and give a speech?

jared: as unfortunate as it is, its not how i pictured our first time in public eye together going...

yn: really and how did you picture it going?

jared glances back at rebekah who gets out of the car and goes into the shop.

jared turns his gaze to you and smirks darkly.

jared: well i imagined we would go out for a romantic candlelight dinner, then back to my place, get you settled in, find a nice restaurant and order delivery then we would spend the evening dancing round here, laughing maybe cuddle up on the futon and watch a bunch of movies, mushy ones if you so desired, there would also be wine, and kissing, and so much more. anything you would have wanted. then at the end of the movie watching we would stay curled on that futon for as long as we wanted till we both fall asleep in eachothers arms to wake the next morn happy as can be.

You were lost in each other's eyes, but Jared saw a twinkle of something in your eyes that made him make his move.

Jared and you were in a fierce make out session. One that would have led to sexual endeavours except that Jared's phone interupted the session about 10 minutes into it.

Yn: let me guess it's Rebekah telling us to get our asses into the shop?

Jared: pretty much. Though I would like to continue this let's call it a conversation a little later perhaps after the party?

Yn: you mean where we won't be interupted?

Jared: exactly. Don't move I'll come round and hold the door for you.

You watched him straighten out before getting out of the Jeep. He walked over to your door but as he did you refelcted silently on what had just happened, What was just said, and what you were ready to do.

Jared reached your door, he opened it and held his hand out to you, you took it and gracefully got out of the Jeep, bringing your purse and cool with you.

Jared: relax it was new for me too. Now let's go and get you some new stuff.

Yn: I look forward to after the party when we can continue with what happened in the car.

Jared: ya know many nights I have spent sleeping in my Jeep, it wouldn't be a bad place for some sexual endeavours.

The tone to his voice changed once more, those last 2 words he almost growled, would have made it more romantic if they were said while you both were still in the jeep.

but none the less you are both walking through the door into the shop, into the world of glam and fashion. there were sparkles everywhich way you turned, you followed the sound of voices one voice in particular caling out your name.

Jared: yn this is Sheryl, Sheryl this is my girlfriend YN! She is new in town and is my new personal assistant for my company. unfortunately my other one just gave her resignation. so what do you say YN wanna come work for me and reap the benefits of being both my girlfriend and my assistant?

you were stunned you were honestly taken back, what with the things that happened and said in/out of the jeep, his look it was like it pierceed your soul.

yn: yes but i think i need some new outfits to fit the profile. as im sure the assistant needs to be flashy to make a statement. Something that says fresh start and new beginning.

Sheryl: hunny say no more let me take you to the back room for some measurements and for you to try something on deary. Rebekah and Jared don't even think about disrupting us during the process.

Jared: yes ma'am

Sheryl leads you to the back room and she smiles delightfully at you.

Sheryl: oh dear, Ive never thought I'd see Jared so happy. Must have been a shock for you eh?

Yn: you have no idea, I mean I came here to start over, a brand new life, but something went wrong, and I couldn't find a cab or anything for that matter then I spilled coke on Jared and now we are here. The rest is as you say history.

Sheryl: well that's a true love story if i ever heard one. i am just happy that he brought you here, to see me. now lets find you something fabulous to wear.

she goes to the desk and pulls a remote from the drawer as she spins both of your chairs to face the blank wall, which with the press of a button the wall opens up and several racks come out of the wall.

sheryl: okay girl, lets start with some shirts... if you see something you like i can stop the machine, and it will show the pieces one at a time slowly so you can see front and back of each piece. just remember all you have to do is say the word and the pieces you like will be put aside for you onto the nearby empty rack. lets begin.

one by one the pieces came out you picked out 20 new tops, 10 skirts, 15 jeans, 10 capris, 10 shorts, 25 dresses both business, casual and pleasure.

sheryl: are you happy with your new starting wardrobe?

yn: yes but i think i need accessories to match everything. don't you agree?

sheryl: of course, now lets get you some of those...

sheryl pressses another button and makes the racks of clothes switch with smaller racks of jewellry, bags, shoes and a few other small but cute accessories. you picked out 16 necklaces, 16 bracelets, 13 earrings, 5 rings, 20 various bags, purses, and briefcases, 12 scarves, 15 different types of shoes, a few hats, pairs of mitts, and some nice jackets for those nasty type weather days.

sheryl: well dear i think i can have my assistant bag these for you get them ready for transprt while we go back out and see your new beau.

you give sheryl a hug and when you pull back she smiles at you.

sheryl: oh dear no need to thank me its my honor to do this for you. your situation must have been something really terrible for you to leave your previous dwelling.

yn: lets just say i was through with letting my father try to use me for his own gain. my father was ready to sell me off to marry some rich investors snooty son who would have made me miserable, so the day before i was supposed to meet the douche bag i went with my boss after work and she took me to the airport and bought me a few things from the gift shop clothing wise and thats all i came with today. but if it wasnt for my general clumbsy nature i wouldnt have bumped into jared. sheryl i dont know how i can thank him for all of this...

sheryl: im sure you will know what to do when the time is right. i can tell from your aura when you walked in here with him that you and he were meant to be. I read psychic energy and tarot. It's a gift, one of natural cause nothing more nothing less.

You smile at Sheryl as you both exit the back room and go to stand with everyone else.

Sheryl: this girl is gonna look fabulous and I have a extra surprise for her too one that wasn't in the little showcase we just did. It's something she can wear tonight to your party benefit thing. Yn go over to the fitting room it's all in there for you, just change and sort your self out it will be all right honey.

You went to the fitting room where you shut the door locking it and took a look at the outfit that Sheryl had picked for you. The outfit the accessories oh man Jared was gonna flip his lid and probably wanna skip the outing but this is what she picked:

a sequined candy apple red off the shoulder, high low a line with bits of lace around the shoulders and waist. For the shoes she picked a nice black sandal heel about 3 inches to have you closer to Jared's height but not too close. A simple set of diamond dangle earrings, a drop diamond necklace and the best part of this a bracelet with a attached ring. Oh and a bonus a new bag, one that was alot nicer than your current one.

You figured you would swap your bags first then put on your new outfit. Once your new bag was all set up, You started taking off your current clothes and bringing your new dress off the hanger, it fit you like a glove it was so soft and pretty it made you spin round a few times before you put on your jewelry, and the last thing you did was put on your shoes.

Taking a bit of time to finish straightening yourself out, it seemed very very likely that Jared was gonna have that same look in his eye that he did back at the Jeep.

But grabbing your bag you walked out of the fitting room confident and comfortable. You twirl and go over to stand on the show platform so Sheryl can see you in full.

Sheryl: well baby girl how do you feel?

Yn: Sheryl I feel amazing, this is such a gorgeous dress, comfortable too. And my favorite color. This is perfect. But what does my new boss/ boyfriend think of my new outfit.

Jared came up behind you and stood there with a crouching smile crossing his features he simply says.

Jared: it's positively delightful and you look absolutely ravishing in it. How much do I owe?

Sheryl: Jared, when is the last time I charged you for anything?

Jared: well it's my honor then to fully pay your bills for the next while to keep your lights on and your shop safe.

Sheryl: Jared you are too sweet.... Now go you got a dinner to attend. And Jared show her the tattoo... It's bad enough you are going to the dinner with no flare to your outfit but you shouldn't keep that from her.

Jared goes to the rack and switches his shirt with one that fit his suit well.

Sheryl: that's better

Jared faces you and you catch eye of the tattoo on his chest.

Yn: what's this?

Jared: call it a family crest of sorts. It means you are in control at all times no matter what happens you are protected.

Yn: maybe I should get one too just in case.

Jared: maybe one day you will but today and right now we need to go. We have a benefit to attend. Thank you so much Sheryl, for everything. We owe you so much for this.

Sheryl: it's my pleasure now you kids go and have fun. I'll drop the wardrobe off at your house.

You Jared and Rebekah all left the shop, arriving back at the jeep a little conversation took place between the 3 of you.

jared: are you sure you dont wanna come to the benifit with us?

rebekah: nah i have to go give my statement about the mall incident and finish my cash out for the day and do some paperwork, but ill stop by tomorrow or something if thats alright...

jared: of course just call first ya know...

yn: i hope to see you again soon bekah...

rebekah comes and gives you a hug when she pulls back and smiles and then gets into the cab that pulls up behind her.

but speaks one more time before she shuts the door.

rebekah: oh by the way, for a first appearance as a couple you two are gonna have front page story of the paper tomorrow. trust me it will be a night to remember. I'll call you both later.

You both waved as Rebekah closed the door and the cab left. You and Jared kinda glanced at the sky.

Yn: the sunset is so gorgeous.

Jared: it always is, now let's get into this Jeep and go to the benefit before we don't leave this road like at all.

Yn: and what would we be doing in the road

Jared: well I would take you and I'd set you down on your back in the back seat of the Jeep while I hike up the bottom of your dress and I slide my hand up to your bikini line, where I would slide my fingers along your line till you beg me to stop, till you beg me for more. Do I need to continue?

He could tell what he was saying was getting to you. He could tell he was making you hot and bothered.

Yn: can we go to the benefit now before I take you up on your idea.

Jared: we will continue that later.

Jared smiles as he leads you round to open your side of the Jeep for you. He closes it behind you as he goes round to his side and starts the Jeep as he gets inside.

Putting on his seatbelt, he puts the Jeep in gear and begins the drive. Upon arriving at the conservatory he gets out of the Jeep first, then shoving through the press he comes round to open your side.

The photographers and press were all up in your faces.

Press 1: billionaire Jared Padalecki who is this beautiful young woman on your arm?

Jared: this is my girlfriend/new personal assistant for my company YN she is new to the city and comes for a fresh start.

Press 2: well well yn care to comment on what you think of our beautiful city so far? How has your first day as Jared girlfriend made you feel?

You were about to answer but Jared spoke for you.

Jared: she will make a statement inside the benefit please no more questions at this time. If you will excuse us.

Jared ushered you out of there and walked inside the building together.

Yn: they are intense...

Jared: it's all good, I'll do most of the talking up there and all you have to do is make a statement formally announcing your new status in my company and as my girlfriend... Just breathe as you do it I will be with you up there the entire time.

Yn: you out of the corner of your eye catch a glimpse of a man ocming toward you and Jared. You cling closer in a not scared looking way.

Jared: Jay over here!

Jared pulls out the silent auction tickets for you to go put in the bags.

Jared: yn, this is Jay Jay this is yn the girl I had told you about...

You shoke Jays hand and then Jared turned to face you.

Jared: here take these silent auction tickets and place them where you would like. I have a feeling not many people are here for the silent auction... They are more interested in the new tech plans for the company's r&d and what the budget looks like and how I am doing and the food... So you go do that I'll find you in a while and if anyone approaches that with a ress pass just tell them no comment.

You leaned up and gave Jared a kiss, it was one thing that felt right. Then you with the tickets in hand walk over to the silent auction area upon which you begin carefully thinking about what packages you wanted for you and Jared.

There was one package called business you threw a strip of tickets in there after you broke them apart...

You came accross a hobby package with new laptops and a graphics tablet you felt that would come in handy you broke apart 2 strips for that one.

You then came across a romance package you threw a strip of broken tickets in that one.

And you also threw some in other random packs. Then you went to grab a snack. Standing by the refreshment table you take a glance around the room, people shuffling and bustling about, no one saying anything except for how much they were excited for what Jared had to say.

That's when you heard footsteps behind you, you felt arms slide in behind you.

Jared: miss me?

Yn: you know I did. So many people just complementing the designs for the plans your company is putting out... There was a fair amount of tickets in each thing but the ones I put our tickets into were the lowest amounts.

Jared: am I gonna like the ones you picked if we win them...

Yn: you will be pleasently surprised if we win them and you will enjoy them definately...

Jared: hmm, we should take our seats for dinner and so you can meet the board officially before we go up to speak.

Yn: you mean we get to eat first...

Jared: never give a speech on an empty stomach it's a company motto. One of many, helps us to remember the important stuff. Jensen also following us as we go to the head table or what you presummed was the head table.

You stayed standing to shake some hands before sitting down.

Gerard: well Jared how did you meet such a lovely young woman?

Jared ushered for you to answer the question...

Yn: I kinda bumped into him and spilled coffee on his shirt and we'll things kinds clicked.

Gerard: well well that's quite the ordeal, and uh tell me yn what brought you to our fair town this day?

Yn: easy my family has been struggling with finances and my father tried to sell me off to marry into a rich family for more money... So my boss at my previous job was kind enough to book me a one way flight to the first available flight she could get. She packed me a single bag of belongings and dropped me off at the airport and now I'm here ready for a fresh start.

Gerard: so you literally left your entire life behind cause of your father...

Yn: yes I did, and if it wasn't for Jared I probably would have been sleeping in a shelter tonight.

Rachel: that's such a horrid ordeal, but good thing is now you have a new life and a new family. The job you have accepted as Jared's assistant is one we have had difficulties finding the right person who would stay long enough and not complain about all the meetings and note taking and business type stuff.

Yn: I'll stop you there say no more my bachelor's degree was in business administration, it was phenomenal. If you guys want proof of my studies I can get my former boss and best friend to send over my diploma.

Rachel: nah that won't be necessary. We trust you Besides if Jared thinks your a good fit that's good enough for us. So yn how does tonight compare to a normal night before your craziness back home.

Yn: for one thing back home I wouldn't have been at a fancy benefit dinner i would have been at my boss'place having dinner and a work meeting before our meetings the next morning. I was her assistant and that's why she was so inclined to help me... My boss was my best friend and if needed my gay love... But that was if we went to the bar and stuff... Cause we weren't gonna let those creeps in the bars get all up in our grills. To be honest though I lived more at her place than my place with my family. But what's done is done my father made his choice now he has to live with the consequences. i regret leaving my mom and my brother but i know they know by now it was for the best. i know i can't change what happened to me, all i know is i have to keep moving forward and settle into my new life here with you guys, the company and jared.

rachel: hey yn wanna come with me to the drink table i think we should surprise the guys with drinks.

yn: of course, ill be right back jared...

jared kisses you...

jared: i miss you already love.

you and rachel got up and went to get drinks... Standing there grabbing drinks you decided to reveal what you were truly feeling.

Yn: can I be honest with you?

Rachel: of course

Yn: i know i havent been here long, like literally since this morning when my plane landed and i spilt coffee on Jared and things just kinda happened from there, but i think ive already fallen in love with him. and i know its crazy to even think that that could be possible, but something inside me is telling me that this is where ive been meant to be this entire time, like this is my destiny.

rachel: yn i can say this, i dont think ive seen jared this happy in a long time. i think this is the start of a new beginning for you, for the company for us all. but i can say this in the 6 years now that ive been helping out at the company ive never ever seen him this happy like at all.

yn: we should probably get back to the others, but i hope sometime soon we can chat some more.

rachel: i would love that... maybe if there is a bunch of papers to stamp, fill out and file it would be alot more fun with 2 people.

yn: you know what that does sound like fun. it was the one thing at my previous job that no one liked to do except for me. i really enjoyed it, i still do...

Rachel: well I know whose helping me father the tax stuff this year...

You both laughed as you both carried the cups back to the table. Laughing on arrival to the table, Jared takes his cup from you and kisses you again as you sit back down.

Jared: you ladies seem to be very smily... Did you ladies have a good chat?

Yn: we did and we have a plan for how to make the filing and paperwork more efficient. So we are gonna get it done and started as the days go on.

Jared: you ready love?

You were kinda confused, but then it clicked, it was time to go up with Jared and make your statement and his speech.

Announcer: and now the man of the hour himself coming up to present another spectacular speech and make an announcement, Jared come on up!!!

You and Jared made your way on to the stage, where you let Jared stand at the mic first...

Jared: thanks you all for coming out tonight, our goal for this next year is to make our prison more secure the super criminals in that prison who are more likely to escape will be more securely locked down, in return to the please of the city's parents our company is proud to announce that we are increasing school funding for those who want to give their children the best education possible especially if they can't afford to in the first place. Basically the plan is to make the entire city affordable to everyone. To provide more work opportunities for people just starting out so teenagers will have better options, options for apprenticeships and better options for those just coming out of high school those guys will each receive a base fee of 10,000 per graduate that will help them be able to go into whatever field of education they wish to pursue. Hunters Inc we are also gonna offer apprenticeship programs run by my new personal assistant/new girlfriend and my head receptionist so here is my new personal assistant and girlfriend YN to make a formal statement declaring her status as my new assistant and my new girlfriend.

You switch places with Jared who smiles lightly as you clear your throat standing nice and tall composing yourself as you begin to speak.

Yn: thank you Jared for that wonderful introduction, my name is yn and I am the new personal assistant to Jared, I swear to uphold and perform my duties as they will come and I will probably stay with the company till the day I die. As for my new status as Jareds new girlfriend I promise to love him as faithfully as I do my work for as long as he will allow me to do so. This is where I belong, this is my new home, this is my future, this is my new life. Thank you.

as you and jared now moved to exit off the stage the announcer stopped you both...

announcer: alright now if you both will just pose for 10 shots for the photographers, no qustions to be answered at this time, photos only.

You and Jared stand in several poses, before being allowed to exit off the stage and back to your seats where you both are greeted by Gerard and Rachel.

Gerard extends his hand to you as he speaks.

Gerard: yn on behalf of Hunters INC let me be the first to Welcome you to the company i look forward to working with you.

as the evening went on you and jared were approached by so many people from all over town and around the different parts of the company.

after half an hour of shaking hands and speaking with several people you and jared finally had a few moments alone. jared sat on a chair and pulled you to sit in his lap.

jared: finally we have some moments alone... how do you feel after being on the floor basically meeting the entire board for the company...

yn: i feel a bit overwhelmed but nothing i dont think a hot steamy shower couldnt fix when we get back home.

Jared: hmm I like the sound of that although I was more thinking a dip in the jacuzzi, then a nice hot session in the shower then chilling in bed till sleep overtakes us and we wake in...

You put your finger to silence him as you spoke again...

Yn: say no more I'm in when can we leave...

Jared waved Jay over and smiled happily at you.

Jared: hey man, can you give Gerard and Rachel our regards we are gonna head home I still have to help yn settle in... Can you also make sure to have the car at the house for around 11 so we can give yn the proper tour of the company and introduce her to her job... Oh and any auction prizes me and yn may have won bring them to the office tomorrow.

Jensen: of course bro, I'll see you both tomorrow.

You and Jared were soon out the doors and down the stairs to the valet where the Jeep was brought to the landing, just as you and jared made it down the stairs.

valet: have a safe drive home mr padalecki, madame... have an amazing rest of your night...

you catch the jeep keys and playfully run to the drivers side of the jeep, jared runs after you and pins you to the door of the jeep for a few stolen moments.

jared: give me the keys or we wont ever get out of this parking lot fully clothed with all our decency...

Yn: fine but I'm all hot and bothered... So you owe me when we get home...

Jared just smiles as he opens his side of the truck and you just climb gently in throwing your shoes in the backseat with your purse...

You sit in the passenger seat, putting on your seatbelt as Jared gets in and shuts his door... Jared begins to drive you both home... the drive was quick and smooth cause there was no one on the roads.

pulling into this gated yard, it was in your view, a huge mansion one that you were now so thrilled to call home. jared pulled the car into the underground parkade... and you went to open the door, instead he got out of his side and came round to yours... after grabbing your bag and shoes...

jared: come on lets show you your new home...

you went to get out of the jeep, but instead jared pulled you so your legs wrapped around him and he began to kiss you, he kinda kicked the door to the jeep shut and was able to slightly push the button for the elevator, but that was it, once inside the elevator, your dress was undone, your back pressed against the mirror, jared was kissing you with a heep of passion...

you made quick work to open his shirt, bascailly tearing it open, ripping some of the buttons, but your hands now had some nice actual view...

yn: let me guess we are heading right for the bedroom?

jared: correct its just easier when i come home late... or am running late for work, this way i can just come straight down here to the jeep and go...

yn: nice... then take off the dress we can pick them up later... its all good...

jared: well then let go of me we will do this properly...

you loosened your legs and set your feet back on the ground, jareds hands still on your hips, as the elevator came to a slow stop... jared facing your back toward the door, he walks you out of the elevator clothing pieces from both of you falling to the floor before you fall gently on the bed...

jared then smiles as he suddenly remembers what you said to him before you left the party.

jared: ya know i believe i said i would show you the jacuzzi.

Yn: then what are you waiting for...

Jared: absolutely nothing...

In moments Jared helped you gently off the bed and walked with you to the jacuzzi... But holy cow the washroom or ensuite I guess you could call it that was fucking massive...

Jared: just let me start the water...

You stood there looking around till you come to face the mirror... You hear the water turn on and are instantly engulfed from behind by Jared who kisses you...

Jared: damn, how did I get to be so lucky..

Yn: right time right place fate destiny whatever you want to call it...

Jared: that should be good enough for water level, it fills pretty quickly... How bout I show you what fun truly looks like...

Jared picked you up carrying you so your legs were wrapped around him. he went into the tub, with your own body on his, the water didnt even phase you but neither of you stopped.

this was what you both had been waiting for since you met, this was the moment you lost your virginity to the best man you have ever knownn

The second he sat down his hard cock slid right into your pussy, giving you a few moments to adjust before he began to pound you. Water going every where, your moans and screams of pleasure echoing everywhere.

the voice commands from jared made the jacuzzi change into a shower, man this was the greatest experience of your life. the water now running over you and jared as the shower just made the pounding last a while longer.

the orgasm overtook the both of you, the water was turned off by voice command once more and the arms of your new boyfriend placing you on the ground as you both use the nearby towels to dry off.

jared: do you want to walk or do you want me to carry you?

yn: carry me

jared picks you up into his arms and you hold tight as he places you in the bed, to which you scoot in under the covers, then jared crawls in beside you, allowing you to cuddle into his chest his arms embracing your form.

jared knew in his heart of hearts that tonight he was normal, but tomorrow night would be a different story but he spoke softly to you as he felt you smile.

jared: rest now my love. tomorrow is a new day...

with those words, you and jared were happily cuddled and sleeping in seconds. there is a peace that fills you both, your dreams taking you to far off places, your mind only with thoughts of you and jared.

*time skip: the next morning your routine began, the waking up, the morning shower sex, the smell of jareds cologne driving you insane. the dinner meetings, the charity events, the auctions, the building projects and soon 5 months have passed, this shortly after you had been rescued by the mysterious dark avenger. the hero of san antonio, the mysterious hero who apparently had a fascination with making sure you were safe. but as the nights went on and the late nights jared spent supposedly at the office were timed around the dark avenger stopping some sort of problem, the timing of the nights jared spends at the "office" and the dark avenger in the city were too coincidental. but your brain wasnt gonna give up processing that thought. meanwhile jared as the dark avenger was preparing to strike down a dangerous new threat, one that was smart enough to figure out who he was. who seemed to know enough about you, him, his life, your daily routine. this threat knew every single detail and he was using it fully to his advantage, by that of he called jared while you werent with him and basically threatened you. to which jared decided he was gonna brake his one cardinal rule of NO KILLING just to keep you safe but little did he know that this night would be the worst night of his entirety s the Dark Avenger, this would be the day he would tell you the truth, today he was gonna reveal his secret identity to you but something else was aloft, we go to the end of the work day where you and jared are just finishing up in the office...*

yn: so where are we going for dinner tonight?

jared stands up from the chair he was sitting in and comes up behind you..

jared: ill have our driver pick up something, tonight we eat in cause i want to talk to you about some of my personal life... like some of it is from before i met you and some of it is fairly recent... does that sound good to you?

yn: of course it does but what could you possibly have to tell me that i dont already know...

jared: be patient my love. all will reveal itself in time.. but are we ready to leave the office?

you nod as you pick up the crate of paperwork and jared grabs your purse and coat as you both walk out to the valet where the driver is waiting. jared once the car starts moving gives the driver instructions, as he and you go through some of whats in the crate, making labels for the file folers and didnt notice the car stop outside the chinese place where the driver was ordering your food and waiting for it.

jared: i hope that this will make up for a long day at the office today

yn: it wasnt that bad, it was a slow day, today we are just a normal couple. today we forget the world outside and just be us, sitting in this vehicle, and to be together no matter what. what is it we said the first day i started working as your personal assistant....

jared sighed and grasped your hand...

jared: it is you and me, always and forever, no matter what

yn: exactly so whattever happens tonight, tomorrow, next week or hell next year, it doesnt matter, you and i are gonna conquer anything that gets in our way...

jared kissed you just as the driver came back into the car. this didnt bother the both of you as you guys started just making out in the backseat the driver took the smoothest way home.

once at the house, he pulled into the garage, the driver took the food into the house, you and jared take your time to get the papers get out of the car and into the house. both of you going up into the bedroom to get out of your work clothes and into something more comfortable.

you chose your tank top/short shorts and robe set with comfy slippers, while jared went with a pair of lounge sweats and no shirt, while you both sat in the lounge area to eat your food, something was bothering jared, hell something was bothering you...

what was bothering jared? well ever since that threatening phone call he had recieved well he hasnt been able to think straight about anything else.

what was bothering you? well the fact for one that your boyfriend and the mysterious dark avenger are never in the same place at the same time. your mind putting this together like it is a complex not so complex puzzle ya know what i mean.

anyway be that as it may, neither of you really said anything over dinner till post dinner a bout 2 hours after when you had just finished sorting the rest of the paperwork, and jared was doing his think pacing...

this was how you knew he was doing majior thinking or getting ready to tell you something... well this should be interesting if not eventful cause usually during these conversations you and jared were pretty heated...

yn: love are you alright?

jared: yn i have to tell you something...

jared stopped for a moment dead in his tracks before speaking against his voice slightly raised but not to much...

jared: it has to be tonight that i tlel you or something worse might occur

yn: what could possibly go wrong my love.

jared: several years ago, i was considered dead, but in truth i was on a mountain side training with some monks or something like that anyway they taught me how to fight, this gave me a new purpose a new sense of direction for my life.

you now had nothing in your hands and were sitting on the edge of your seat.

yn: your scaring me

jared: what i have to tell you can never leave this room, it can never leave your lips or this house... if it is spoken about outside of the 2 of us it could be compromised.

yn: whatever it is, it cant be that bad...

jared: i know you are a good person yn, but in truth i lie to you or myself anymore.

you continued to stare at him, the windows behind him beaming with the lights from the fountain turning on...

jared: i have a secret, my identity is for your ears only incase something happens to me, or you. in case something goes wrong tonight...

Yn: tonight, babe this is crazy talk just come to...

Suddenly a red dot is on the wall behind you, Jared pushes you to the ground just as a shot is fired, the window in your penthouse apartment shatters into a thousand pieces

Yn: are you the dark avenger?

jared: this is what i was afraid would happen... this is what i was afraid of...

yn: so i was right...

jared: you knew

yn: i mean i had my suspicions with the disapperance of you and the appearance of your other half.

jared breathed a silent sigh of relief as the sound of the front door being broken down echoed through the house. but the sound of heavy footsteps now too echoing through the house.

jared: just stay low and dont leave my side...

yn: never... whats the plan

jared: get to my secret lair and go from there...

But before you and Jared had a chance to think you were grabbed away from Jared... Now was your turn to reveal your secret...

You used your free arm to elbow the guy in the gut before pulling him by the neck over your shoulder and flipping him to the ground.

Jared upon seeing this was suddenly very impressed.

Jared: my love where did...

Yn: I learn that I was also trained by a group of secretists, but these were assassin's, they taught me what they knew and I haven't used my skills much here but over there well I killed alot of people.

Jared: alright then let's fight our way out of here, then we can discuss what this could mean for us...

The conversation once more interupted you and Jared turned to see a bunch of guys running toward you. you slid under one of the guys flipping him over and onto the floor...

jared was throwing guys out of the windows and into the walls, breaking the tables and stuff with the bad guys heads...

yn: hey babe, lets make a promise to change the floor to something more slip and slide friendly..

jared: consider it done babe... and maybe we will put whatever you want when we make it out of this babe. jared struggled those last few words as he punched a guys lights out...

you were pushing a guy toward one of the unbroken windows and pushing the guy back a bit he staggers before you spin kick him out the window..

jared reaches for your hand and pulls you toward him, as you both make a mad dash for the stairs, where making it at the top of the stairs where the 2 of you threw a vase and a vase stand down the stairs, bowling over any men trying to get up the stairs...

making it to the bedroom the room with one word from jared went into lockdown, the doors and windows were plated over with metal plating.

finally you both had a moment to breathe... jared and you were relieved, almost blissful to say the least. but something was wrong...

a sound that neither of you were nor had expected not ever... the sound of the floor beneath you both... beginning to crumble. you both grabbed hands and dove into the elevator... taking it down down to the secret basement basement...

like deep deep nderground. where the place was armed, alarmed and locked down... now trapped safely in the dark avenger's base of operations.

jared comes up beside you and spins you to look at him...

jared: are you alright my love?

you nod with your head but your eyes say something else as tears start pouring from your eyes. jared wipes them away and slightly kisses your forehead.

jared: hey hey its okay... look they cant get us, its all good...

yn: good, good, no its not good, this is a disaster... so much for peace and quiet... you were eventually gonna find out about my secret, what i did back there, those guys are dead, they are fully 100% dead... its just how my skills work... thats why i stopped using them.

jared: look yn, i know this is not how this was meant to go for me either... the attack i thought was not gonna happen, course i planned for the day that it could, but thats not the point the point is we are both safe, and we both have the strength to survive anything.

yn: but what are we gonna do, we cant leave, they have probably burned down the house looking for us already... and those repairs are not gonna be easy to do without money and stuff, which oh ya they also destroyed the crate of paperwork so that...

but before you could continue jared lifted you onto the table nearby and began kissing you... the tears from your eyes flowing down your cheeks as the kissing continued.

As the kissing was in full swing neither of you noticed that Jensen was coming up from a hidden underground lift system...

Jensen clears his throat making you and Jared go defensive.

Jensen: cool it guys it's me .. I saw the fire burning so I came up through the under under ground passages. The ones that run from Sheryl's to the office to here and back again...

Jared and you stand up right, you stand in between Jared and Jensen looking between the 2 of them and then it dawns on you ..

Yn: wait wait wait Woah babe how is Jensen connected to all this?

Jared: he is my guy in the chair or rather tech genius! That's why he is head of R&D... He is always building plans for new weapons for me depending on the villain of the week.

Yn: well can he fight?

To answer your question Jensen took off his shoes and his jacket going to the training area.. you on the other hand removed your overlay and slippers now standing on the mat.

Jensen: now come on buttercup let's see what you got...

Those were Jensen words before he was faceplnted in the mat... But he quickly got up and low kicked your legs from under you.

Throughout this battle, the 3 of you could all hear the explosions and smell the smoke from the house burning.

Once Jensen had called defeat he and Jared went to check the feed from the camera on the flagpole at the edge of the property line.

You found what seemed to be a 3d machine of some kind. You clicked a button and it began to give you choices for building your own suit, starting with a mask.

So you selected what pieces you wanted, what colors, what styles, what it all appeared on a maniquin beside the table. Both Jared and Jensen could see what you were doing.

Then it let you fabricate your very own personalized weapon... This one was a tough choice but for you it came down to dual blades or bow staff.

Jared: having trouble deciding which weapon you want my love.

You turn at that question.

Yn: how did..

Jared: I kinda figured this would be something you would do... What are your choices.

Yn: dual blades and bow staff...

Jensen: well which ever one you don't take I will cause my suit should be coming up any moment now...

You ended up choosing dual blades that turned into a bow staff you ended up creating your best of both worlds so to speak.

Jensen: yn you are extraordinary, I saw it in you the moment I met you. What is the plan Jared?

Jared had to think for a moment both of the most important people in his life were standing right in front of him waiting for his judgement call...

Jared: alright heres the plan... Suit up and deal with them the way heroes are meant to...

*type the suit up description on PC*

You run your hands over your body a few moments and stare at your self in the mirror, fixing your hair around your mask.

Jensen: ya know this is gonna be a whole lot easier to do if we could see the extent of the damage to the property...

jared: jay are those hidden drones still functional?

jensen goes over to the computer system and stands at the keyboard tying a few different key swipes before he exclaims happily in a loudish voice...

jensen: woohoo, i got it... this is it, this is how we can see what those monsters and invaders have done to our home. lets hope its not too extensive of damage...

the cameras feed up on the monitors, the house is almost completely in rubble, the walls almost completely burnt down, the worst part was the fact that those guys were still in the burning rubble searching for either signs of you and jared or your burnt corpses.

jared: the house

jensen: the grounds

yn: all our stuff, gone... those monsters are gonna rue the day they ever decided to mess with us...

you went over to the vehicles and choose a motorcycle. you kickstarted it and were preparing to get on it... jared and jensen watch this and come blocking you.

yn: get out of my way guys this is what i was trained to take care of... this is what i was trained to do...

jared brings you against the bars on the ledge...

jared: babe if you go there it will be bad, very very bad... you said it yourself a bit ago, you thought you were not being heard... well we heard you... no you are not going to reach your all time low... not through this, you will never kill again yn i can promise you that these guys will get justice served to them, just not through death.

yn: jared let me go these guys need to be taught what happens when they destroy a home that belongs to people. you guys can come along if you want but i cant promise none of them will die.

you get on the bike and straighten out your mask as you speed through the tunnels and discover the weapon system... your weapons set to stun not kill, you were ready for action.

jensen and jared do the same thing getting on the other 2 bikes and doing their absolute best to catch up to you.... their looks ones of concern for you and your wellbeing.

long story short the 3 of you were stunning the rest of those guys on the property edges, then getting off the bikes there were 5 guys left. right near where the front of the house would have been.

jared, you and jensen all standing in the dark of the brush, out of sight for now you all exchange a few small words.

jared: once we do this, there is no going back..

jensen: all the way together united.

yn: those guys will pay for this... this is our home and i refuse to stand by and let this happen any longer.

*this is really corny but i had to put this in here... it just seemed like it fit... *

jared: AVENGERS ASSEMBLE!!!!

you jared and jensen were all running into the line of fire... those guys didnt have a chance to use their guns before you 3 threw disrupters making their weapons useless.

the fight was going smoothly until a few more guys got out of a black suv that had just driven up. one of the guys clapping loudly, nothing to be heard except your own heartbeats and the sound of this guy clapping.

darius: well done little people...

jared: its over mccarthy... surrender now and i can promise the first spot in the newly renovated wing at the super max.

darius laughs and pulls a hand held out and shoots the disrupter before pulling the trigger shooting you in the leg... you fall back crumbled to the ground screaming.

jared: thats it, silver wolf tell the surrounding surrounding party to move in. we are going to need medical assistance to get merciful assassin patched up... ask for nathen for her medical assistance.

jensen: on it... ill shock them into unconcious and you go take care of your girl.

you were using your pocket knife to cut your pant leg around where you got shot... but you screamed in pain as you rolled over and dirt now infected the wound.

you removed your mask and tore off your boot on that side to remove the rest of your pant leg.

yn: son of a bitch...

jared slid on the damp grass in his final approach to you.

jared: woah woah woah, looks like it didnt go straight through. babe, lets get that leg elevated... use my legs for the elevation.

you let jared place your leg on his own as you both wait for Nathan to show up... but things were about to get alot worse or better depending on how you look at it...

after you and jared sitting in the still damp grass for 10 minutes, there were 2 sets of footsteps approaching you. through the clearing you both diserned the faces of jensen and nathan.

jensen: there they are...

jensen and nathan run over to you guys just as the blood loss slips you into unconciousness. the voice of nathan saying that they needed to move you to a secure area so he could get the bullet out.

neither jared nor jensen were gonna leave your side till they knew you were better... once back underground at the base, jared and jensen were drawing up plans for the new model design for the house. so they had one to show you when you woke up...

jared: no if its gonna be 3 stories the top floor needs to be like a master bedroom big enough for a punching bag, a double desk for both our computers and printer and some book cases, we are also gonna update the secret entrances to down here... at least 2 on each floor, one coming from the garage which has to have enough room to accomodate the numerous vehicles we have stashed everywhere. and that the pool area in the back is connected to the back of the house by a insulated glass walkway, and that the pool area itself is contained in the same insulated glass surrounding... floor heaters built in all the way from the doorway in the house, to the pool and back... the tiles on that pathway and surrounding the pool in the glass walls have to be reflective and multicoloured.. something fun for painting each wall in the new design. it needs to be wild and different and unique. it needs to reflect me and yn as a whole, as a couple. ya know before all this craziness tonight, i was thinking about asking her to marry me...

jensen knew jared was crazy about you but he didnt know he was that serious about you... he had no idea that his best friend and partner in crime fighting was thinking about settling down.

but before jensen could respond nathan came up behind them and the sound of the floor behind them made them a bit jumpy.

nathan: well good news i got the bullet out, but she needs fluids and probably a blood transfusion or 2, the bullet tested positive for poison... dont worry i will have the supplies for that back here in a little bit, unless one of you is a universal donor, then i dont need to leave... but another thing, jared you said that yn trained with some assassin type people as well?

jared: ya what about it?

nathan: there was an abnormality actually 2 in her bloodwork, one of them is a cause for celebration the other is not... which would you like to know about first...

jared: doesnt matter you choose...

nathan pulled them to the laptop where the results were...

nathan: for starters, jared congratulations you and yn are gonna be parents, she is about 4 weeks... the baby is healthy and is not affected by the bullet or the poison.

the expressions on jared's and jensens faces went from worried to concerned to slightly overflowing with silent joy...

nathan: the other thing is...

but before nathan could continue what he was gonna say the monitor attached to you beeped as though you were waking up... and that you did cause you sat straight up and your eyes were blood red... and you spoke only one word...

yn: venifica (*latin means poisoner, witch, sorcerous*)

an energy burst knocked everyone back as they all watched you just expell energy burst from your body... but no one could do anything... till jared managed to make his way closer to you and jab himself with one end of a transfusion line and the other end into you...

at which moment the energy stopped floowing, you went back into unconciousness, jared was given a chair as the transfusion did its thing.

7 hours later, passing in and out of conciousness no where really for anyone to go, jared jensen and nathan had not really slept. except what little they all snuck drifting in and out of concious.

another few moments passed and nathan removed the transfusion line and finish patching you up...

nathan: dont worry buddy she will be fine. look i know this is all overwhelming for you guys but i have a feeling that this wont detour her for long... whatever those guys did to her is coming out to play and it doesnt look good. that word she said before her first energy burst is latin in basic terms meaning witch...

after a few moments of being un hooked from the blood transfusion you groan, attempting to stretch out feeling the cool metal surface beneath your body.

jared, jensen and nathan all turn round in time to see you open your eyes.

jared: babe your alright...

yn: minus my leg but im sure my boss will understand... how bout you guys? did we win?

jared: we are all fine, perfect even... babe what kind of people did you train with again...

yn: they called themselves the lethalstrikes, they are a group of supernaturally based assassins, the supernatural bit is a serum a random serum that they make each recruit injest the first and last time they walk through those doors, once its in your system it takes till your 150th kill to fully activate and reveal your supernatural trait. the assassin skills and training combined with the basis of supernatural dna makes all trained by them lethal and very very deadly... i have no idea what i am though.

thats when jared played the audio and footage back to you...

yn: so im a, a witch? what the hell... those guys need a serious lesson in messing with people. though im not thrilled with this i want to know who was my 150th kill...

nathan: one of the guys in the field, according to jensen where you were coming through didnt survive at all, he died whatever you did you killed him, and that must have triggered your witch side.

long story short after some much needed rest and relaxation the plans were drawn up and finalized for the redone manor. extra rooms, expansions everywhere desks in every room, so many book shelves, secret entrances, elevators, each wall a different color. but no one had told you about the pregnancy yet... for nathan, jared and jensen were keeping the pregnancy news secret from you till you go for your follow up appointment for your leg/regular check up.

but no one spoke of what happened that dreadful day, you all managed to keep it out of the papers, and away from the snoops of the town, jensen finished fully moving into the manor...

now first night in the newly finished manor, you were just finishing up some paper work on your computer when there was a set of hands around your eyes...

jared: hey babe...

yn: hey, how was your run with jensen?

jared: it was good... i have a surprise for you though... will you allow me to spin you around to face me... so i can show you this surprise that is right outside our window here...

you were now curious why on earth was he trying to spin you round to bring you to the window... what the hell wass going on...

Yn: babe will you just tell me what is going on I have a doctor's appointment today...

Jared: I know and I'm going with you for it but before we leave our home I want you to see what I have had people working on for a while now...

You look out toward where the rose garden is and you see the words marry me made out of rose bushes.

You look over at Jared to see that he is kneeling on one knee with a 24k rose gold diamond engagement ring the stone in the center the size of a mini mini baseball.

Jared places the ring on your now extended toward him left hand...

Jared: is that a yes?

Yn: yes yes yes a thousand times yes!!!

Long story short again you and Jared after a short but sweet make out session got dressed, went downstairs to the garage where you both got into the car as Jared drove to the doctor's office. once in the room, all that was left was to wait for nathan to come in.

nathan comes in a few moments later you are up on the table on your back and waiting for him to begin the routine examination. short and sweet is not how this was gonna go... but for you, this news was about to be a huge shock.

nathan: alright im just gonna make sure that your stomach isnt hurt, after the fight and things like that i just want to make sure everything is ok... time for an ultrasound.

yn: your the doctor, just please warn me before you announce if there are any harsh or shocking socking surprises.

you hold jared's hand as you pull up your pintrest to show him some wedding ideas. when nathan suddenly stopped moving the wand around your abdomen and held it in one spot...

yn: nathan is everything ok?

nathan begins jotting things down in your files and then clears his throat...

nathan: well this is certainly an interesting development. i wouldnt start anything major project or diet wise any time soon... well i mean you guys should see it for yourselves.

he turned the monitor toward you and jared...

yn: is that...

nathan: yes that is a baby... that is your baby... congratulations!!!

you were about to have a panic attack...

yn: a baby... that.. we... what does this mean?

jared: breathe baby, do not let your emotions run high... remember breathe and keep the bracelet on you wont release your power without control...

you breathe in several deep deep breahts before you try to use your words. once the breathing had done its job, jared ran his fingers over your power control bracelet... the one specifically designed for you to help you control your new bestowed never before unleashed powers....

yn: im.. i mean we are gonna be parents.. we just got engaged... we need to prepare, there is so much to do, yet not alot of time left to do so...

jared: can we just live in this moment, the here, the now... we have time... lets just take and be happy with these happy happy moments...

jared kisses your forehead and then turns his attention to nathan...

~so thats our tale, our tale that started as a call of fate, turned into something wonderful... remmeber love finds you when you least expect it.~

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callmepippin · 3 years

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ok so i was tagged by the lovely @lexiklecksi for the 11/11/11 tag, the rules are: answer the 11 questions she asked me, make up my own 11 questions and then tag 11 ppl to answer those (so if you want you can skip to the questions at the bottom lmao). however as a fair warning: this got Way too long probably bc im rambly today. i tried to limit the stream of consciousness but….

1. current musical obsession: Frank Ocean and related sort of neo-r&b stuff - while writing this im also discovering Childish Gambino’s “Awaken, My Love!” (and also the song Golden Brown, but not bc im listening to it but bc im learning it on both guitar and piano)

2. 3 things i always take with me:

- wallet (or at least my id)

- phone (&earphones)

- cigarettes&lighter

3. what (or who) i miss most in lockdown: i dont rly remember? im so used to the situation by now that i kind of forget to miss what i did when things were “normal”... but i guess going to bars w/ friends, and just being able to go shopping when i need smth

4. pick: either only read 1 book or only read books picked by someone else: i wouldn’t be able to only read one book for the rest of my life! so definitely the second option (esp if i can pick the person who picks the books)

5. why i found your blog/followed you and if i intend to stay: uhh you followed me and when i checked your blog i liked the vibe i guess? also you were v nice in the tags of my music stuff! also ya i like it here, so im staying for a while

6. when and why did i last cry: i genuinely dont know for sure.. the last time i specifically remember crying was my granddad’s funeral, which is three yrs ago this month, but i do know ive cried once or twice since then, i just dont remember for sure when and why.

wait i do remember, i think the last time was when i saw Richard Says Goodbye (live music and movies or books are basically the only reason i rly cry, im not an emotional crier, dont know why).

7. who holds the key to my heart: my partner of five (and a bit) years, whom i love Very Much! (although ofc my heart is not locked, i have so much love to give, just romantically i am very much taken)

8, pick one: star wars/star trek, dobby/gollum, white/black magic, flying/teleportation, time travel: past/future?

- Star Wars

- Gollum (even though i have read hp but still havent read lotr, ive read the hobbit like 4 times tho)

- i think the hard dichotomy btwn white/black magic or like light/dark and good/bad in most fiction is often v flawed bc thats not how the world works, everything is grey areas (e.g. the Jedi are not better than the Sith, both have deeply flawed philosophies). the Force (or any magic for that matter) is not inherently good or evil, it just is. nature isnt abt good or evil, isnt abt opposites but abt balance.

and especially if you work with the occult and magical, i think thats all abt walking the edge between light and dark, life and death, night and day, good and bad etc…

so to answer the question: grey magic lmao, its all abt balance

- teleportation i think, bc while flying is very cool, i think teleportation has more practical uses (although also has danger involved, such as what happens if you teleport into a space that is already occupied by a person or an object? but for the sake of argument, prolly teleportation)

- do not even get me started on time travel.. the implications of time travel to the past are…… complicated to say the least (it only works if you believe in hard determinism, which i wholly do not). so in a practical sense, def to the future (although that is also Problematic within the constraints of our four-dimensional universe/experience).

in a philosophical sense though, ignoring all the paradoxes and laws of time and space, id still pick the future (or maybe no time travel at all), bc i think the past is the past for a reason. we remember it, we learn from it, but ultimately we must leave it behind.

my philosophical problem with traveling to the future is more that you cant just. skip life. so if you travel to the future, it has to be way beyond your own life and direct influence, or youll interfere with yourself and your own future, and thats scientifically, psychologically /and/ philosophically a v bad idea all round, i think.

9. which thoughts keep me awake at night: almost never specific thoughts, but quite often anxiety abt the near future. but theres no like, lingering issues that keep me awake.

10. what id do with you if we were locked up together for 24hrs: i think i’d really like to write with you! make poetry, song lyrics, make art! bc we could rly learn from each other i think and also we could just rly pick each others brain abt mundane, important and transcendental stuff ya know?

11. ask anything: do you have concrete, long term plans for the future, maybe even backup plans? a clear vision of how the rest of your life is going to go? or are you more the type to do what makes you happy now and figure it out as you go along?

my own questions (large variation in vibes and weight, i know):

describe your favourite colour using other senses (like what sound, smell, feeling or w/e do you associate with it)

what’s the best thing that happened to you in the last week, last month and last year?

what’s the one thing/what are the things that help(s) you get up in the moring and keep putting one foot in front of the other?

are you a leftie? (warning: there is a correct answer)

do you play/have you ever played a musical instrument? (and for the sake of completeness, yes i am counting singing as well)

do you have one thing (e.g. a song, movie, book or smth else) that never fails to bring you joy?

do you have one (or more) person(s) you feel you could still hit up after ten yrs of radio silence and you’d still vibe?

what’s your favourite song lyric/line from a poem/quote? and why?

who was your first celebrity crush? (if you’ve ever had one obvsly)

what’s smth you’re looking forward to? could be specific, could be a general thing like a driver’s licence or your own apartment or w/e

this one is specifically to feed my curiosity, indulge me: why did you follow me?

congrats, you’ve managed to reach the end! again, very sorry for the rambles, thanks for sticking around. im tagging @alt-heidi, @terdiscussie, @a-soul-to-cling-to, @ontvreemd, @sarahhnghae and i guess whoever fuckin feels like it? i literally can’t think of 11 ppl on this hell site, so if i forgot you its not personal. if we’re mutuals you’re especially tagged.

#this was v fun actually #i was tagged to do this like 3 weeks ago but ya know #adhd and stuff #i actually have another one in my backlog as well #i think ill look into that as well now

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bunnis-babes · 4 years

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Can you give us karasuno mafia au Hc's pleaaaase

Karasuno as a Mafia

Okay, this was just kind of sitting here for a while, mainly because I didn’t see it until now? Idk man, but I know I can write this shit and I should’ve had it out like fifty years ago bc I know exactly what this AU is like to me. So I hope its enjoyable!

Brief Karasuno History: Karasuno, once one of the most powerful households in the prefecture, fell after the passing of the then Godfather. Eventually causing strong members to leave and join more… profitable organizations. It went through several different heads, before the position was just dropped on Ittetsu Takeda. It was on the brink of totally collapsing when Sawamura — alongside his close comrades Sugawara and Asahi — joined. He quickly became one of the best men Karasuno had seen in years, and he was determined to make Karasuno the Powerhouse it once was, again. To do that they had to find members, but they couldn’t just ask high ranking men to join, they’d be laughed at or smothered out. So with some sweet convincing from Suga, Takeda okayed taking in scrappy kids off the streets was the best idea - they had nothing to loose, especially not when they were offered a place to stay and food just for some work they’d already been doing. Thus began the rise of the Powerhouse. Karasuno.

Specialties: Karasuno is more of a Jack of all trades, but they do specialize in paid services, such as: Selling/Making of drugs, Buying/Selling of guns, Assassinations, and Bodygaurding.

Takeda: The current Godfather of Karasuno. He has no clue what he’s doing, this whole operation just handed to him out of nowhere because the former leader had given up on this rough group of kids. He was always just a lowly underling who hardly even did any dirty work - and yet this position was placed upon his shoulders, and damnit if he wasn’t gonna do his best. So luck must’ve smiled upon him, when three scrappy boys stumbled into his house holding the same fire and passion to save this place that he did. He even gets one of the former Godfather’s grandson to help him out - as he can’t help these kids in anyway when he hardly knows what’s happening.

Ukai: He didn’t want this. He was trying to avoid this lifestyle, but something about Takeda’s persistence really made him crack. So, this poor man, agrees to join on as Takeda’s right hand - though he winds up doing way more work than him anyway. He has far more experience, coming from a family filled with high ranking members, so he learned from the best. While Takeda handles more of the mild planning and business, he’s hands on with the boys and teaching them everything they know, as well as setting some things up behind the scenes.

Daichi: He’s pretty much the big guy that everyone answers to before going to Ukai or Takeda. Before Karasuno he specialized in the making and selling of drugs alongside Suga, as well as the occasional underground fight for just a bit more money. It was initially to help his family get by, as his mother couldn’t support three children on her own. He came to Karasuno when business was low, and he knew he would need a few extra hands, but had been denied by ever other group. When he joins he become the go to guy to do whatever dirty job he’s needed - and he isn’t afraid to get dirty. Also, he becomes the honorary dad of the house (even in the mafia he is still Dadchi).

Sugawara: He’s more or less of the hitman/nurse of the group. He knows how to make all kinds of medicine - legal and illegal - as well as how to patch up all different kinds of injuries. (He had to with the fights Daichi was going through.) He’s incredibly skilled with a gun, he just hasn’t really used one all that much so he’s sloppy at time. Damn if he isn’t brutal. By far Sugawara is the most brutal killer at Karasuno, especially if his target has wronged him or his house in anyway. He sees everyone at Karasuno as family, and you don’t just mess with Suga’s family and live.

Asahi: He is the muscle. Those fists alone do some serious damage - he does a lot of the disposing and intimidating. He’s an amazing fighter too, knows how to move just right from all those years fighting illegally on the streets just to survive and get by. He fought Daichi a few times when he still participated in underground fight clubs, and kind of became friends with him - as well as Noya who thought so highly of him(we’ll get into that soon). Now if only he didn’t freeze up in super high stakes mission. It still rings true that he’s a gentle giant, and he doesn’t like hurting people unless he absolutely has to, so he gets nervous easily. He earned himself a reputation that’s to be feared, and also to be challenged.

Nishinoya & Tanaka: These two little shits are a tag team that grew up side by side. Both their families were poor so they lived in the slums, and the two boys grew up around violence and had to learn to fight from a young age to stay alive. While Tanaka only learned to fight solely to survive, Noya learned not just to survive but because his father was part of a rather large house and valued having his son know how to fight. They trained themselves to fight side by side, and became a scary double threat. Noya and him fought in the same ring Daichi and Asahi did, and Noya made rather good friends with Asahi, even learning some moves from just watching him - he was pissed when he left the fight club. Thats how Daichi knew about the two, and he approached them - of course they joined and became a kind of wild card in house - a rather dangerous tag team that can pretty easily get out of any situation they’re stuck in. Plus, Tanaka is really fucking good at intimidation.

Tsukkishima: He’s a jack of all trades who was raised by a small gang with Yamaguchi. He left the gang when he found himself bored with it, Yamaguchi following him with his tail between his legs. Joined Karasuno on a whim after witnessing one of their fights and deciding ‘why the hell not?’ He is, like previously stated, a Jake of all trades. He’s smart, fast, strong, and sneaky. His performance, however depends on how many shits he’s giving that day… Which is typically zero. Not to say when he doesn’t care he’s bad, he just doesn’t do his best because he doesn’t see the point in trying all that hard. Also, he despises Kageyama and Hinata - not only are they annoying, but they’re stupidly talented on accident (well in one case) and that pisses him off.

Yamaguchi: This poor boy is so nervous like all the time. He follows Tsukkishima around like a kicked puppy because he’s the only person this poor boy can truly trust. (Some really bad shit went down in his life, he needs a hug). Yam’s, though nervous, has pretty amazing aim with a gun he’s just so shaky that he can be off. He would be a fantastic sniper for the group, and Ukai pushes his training hard because he knows he can do it, he just has to be a little bit more confident. That’s easier said than done with Yamaguchi.

Kageyama: He used to work under the Seijoh house, but was cast out for being too difficult to work with (plus the new leader hated him *cough*Oikawa*cough*). He wasn’t exactly too keen on working with any other houses, but he ran into Daichi who made Karasuno seem so enticing that couldn’t resist it. Only when he got there, he found one of the kids he fought and beat while working under Seijoh was there. The little squirt whom he hated so much after he dared to challenge him with a face beaten to a bloody bruised mess. He was supposed to work alongside this guy. Bullshit. Once they get over their initial dumbassery and fighting, they’re probably the scariest tag team in Karasuno. Fast and unpredictable, building off each others intense energy to beat the ever living fuck out of whoever they’re against. Kageyama alone is scary too, he’s calculating and strong and fast - he knows his enemy better than they do sometimes. He’s also scarily calm even after he’s killed an army of grunts.

Hinata: He’s new to the whole thing, well kind of. He grew up watching all this go down from outside his window, trying his best to keep his mom and sister safe from all this horrifying carnage as best her can with his small untrained body. His first real experience with the whole mafia world was when he and a few of his friends were in the wrong place at the wrong time, and had a run in with Seijoh. He and his friends were nearly beaten to death, but were kindly spared as a warning. Still he found the strength to stand and promise to their leader that he would beat his ass right back when he finally faced off with him again. So imagine his surprise when at his first official house, he realized he would have to work with the guy who he both challenged and was nearly killed by. He’s a rookie for sure, everything he does is clumsy and sloppy and needs work, but he’s fast. He works on instinct that gets him in and out of trouble. He’s a real risk factor, but he’s also one of their strongest contenders.

Kiyoko & Yachi: They were both children of businessmen who tended to deal with less than favorable people. Kiyoko joined first after gaining permission to do so from her parents, and became the first person to work for intel at Karasuno. Yachi joined shortly after Hinata and Kageyama, only doing so after Kiyoko expressed her affections for the household and how she could really use the extra help. Their job is purely to gather information on other houses, clients, and potential job opportunities. They help everything flow smoothly between the heads of the house and the boys who do all the work.

A/N: This is less of a head cannon thing and more of my messy ramblings on something that I got too passionate about. I really hope that this was like… okay? It’s really really messy, but this is kinda what I imagined this would be like. I hope that like… you liked this, and that all their things made sense. Idk man I’m tired. (Also, hope you don’t mind I excluded the other boys ;-; I was getting sleepy)

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madeintimeland · 3 years

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im oversharing this got long sorry. just reminscing on shit ive thought about a million times over again

theres so much art i want to create and so little motivation. i should start smoking weed again bc every time im high i get my best ideas or at least like, it takes away the layer of film over my brain that stops me from being able to come up with creative ideas, but also im scared its going to send me into mental hell again. like i need to be in a perfect state for it lest i fear im going to invoke my months long existential crisis again and i Cannot be doing that shit rn. but also i wonder if its going to be worth it anyways if i can create something to leave on this earth again. like ive been so bad at creativity lately like i want to draw and produce things and im bubbling over with energy and i feel the ideas fermenting in the deep recesses of my brain like theyre nestled into the grooves and folds but i cant access them yet. and i know i can if im stoned. i might turn into a hermit hunched over my tablet all hours of the day just making shit tbh. i absorb so much of the things around me and i know if i try to make something now its going to basically be direct copies of the things i saw but if im high im sure i can actually create something new and beautiful. im scared of being intoxicated again but i was scared to drink again too and i got drunk and proceeded to love it and want to drink every single day because surprise surprise i have alcoholism coded into my dna and consequentially have an addictive personality in general. which is why i felt like my life was useless without weed. all up until i was finally able to get my hands on a stash that would let me smoke whenever i want versus when i would get a small amount every couple of months and completely and utterly fail at ratioing it out and binge it all and then have ridiculously introspective trips where id start to go a little crazy at the end (i have a distinct memory of looking at a meme that had a woman on it and thinking ‘jesus christ... what the fuck is that’ and then spiraled into thinking about how life is pointless but i didnt have enough weed to continue with that train of thought and if i did i may have had my crisis a lot earlier, it was just inevitable) i just felt like being high was the only time i could actually get in touch with my inner self again. like i used to before the thick clouds of depression and psychosis settled in. but then i finally was able to get high for longer than short bursts of time and it all came to a head where my brain broke and i have existential terror now that i feel im going to not be able to deal with confronting again. but every time i say that it never ends up staying permanently, it comes in waves, it all comes in waves. back and forth. i feel beauty in life and then i feel fear. i feel like its all worth it and then i cant stop thinking about the inevitable heat death of the universe and the pointlessness of it all. and then i get a hug or listen to a really good song and i feel like its worth it again. i wonder if this is just a period in my life im not a total stoner or if its actually permanent. anyways point is i want to make so much stuff that my hands ache and my brain rots when i think about how many things inspire me. thats why my aesthetic tag is #inspiration, its been like that for many years now, its stuff that inspires me. but at what point am i going to turn that inspiration into reality? im bad at initiative. my initiative is going to be when i pick up the pot again because im too lethargic and procrastinatey to create the things i want any other time. but when will that be? i cant see a therapist or anything rn and working it out on my own has been mildly successful, not bad, im not spending every single day in terror like i was at this point last year. it started all going away around august after starting in march. march 30th in fact. from then on its been a constant battle with dissociation. funny because just earlier in march was some of the best experiences of my life. i think if lockdown never happened this never would have happened either but at the same time im left wondering how anybody can go through their life without wondering about the meaning of it all and coming out the other side with purpose and resolve. mine was to enjoy myself and find as much beauty and love in life as i can before i die and enhance the lives of the people around me while i can because i feel too small to do anything on a grander scale. and im fine with that, for the most part, but i still get attacked by these waves of thought where i wonder what the purpose of reality is . i always have to smack myself and remind myself no dumbass you already went over this a million times, just enjoy yousrelf while youre here. but when im high its a million times worse cuz the only time i can get my mind off it is when im replacing it with horny thoughts and thats not the only thing i wanna do when im high ofc i want to experience and create and listen to music. but i mean i havent smoked since june. i think the 15th ? i could go back and read my journals to tell exactly when it was but yeah its been almost a year now and i feel like i might have it in me again. i used to love getting high and working on shit so much. some of my best works and most creative projects and honestly just most enjoyable periods of my life were when i was high. going back to what i was saying about early march 2020 being the best time of my life, idk what it was about me but i was just having a grand old time experiencing absolute beauty playing ark with my friends, feeling so creative and developing new ideas and experiences, and using the freedom and motivation i felt ingame to also want to explore the world irl. i seriously was close to actually finally reading my survival manual and start camping and shit and i wanted to visit my relatives in their hella secluded farmhouse in the middle of fuck nowhere kansas, cuz i did visit there during that time period and i loved it to death, i felt so free. two different relatives actually and they both had that same aesthetic about them. of course they were horribly racist but i mean, thats rural kansas for you. i just wanted to camp in their woods. its funny because that month was simultaneously the best and worst of my life. all because of weed! if i never started smoking or rather never found a reliable source at that point in my life i wonder how i wouldve turned out? id like to chalk this up to fate that im like this, maybe its for the best, maybe smoking again wont help me but maybe it will. i have a way to ease myself back into it i just need that leap of faith and bravery like i felt when i was drinking again. its funny because i used to be such a fucking druggie and i wanted to get high all the time and then after my existential crisis that all just. stopped. i feell ike everyone i know is sick of me talking about it but it really fundamentally changed me on the inside even if it doesnt seem like it much on the outside so i feel its right of me to talk about it sometimes. it makes me feel better at least. like this is jsut a thing t hat happened, not a fated break from the universe i cant come back from yknow? i dunno. ive rambled on way too fucking long and idk if anyones gonna read this. tldr i want to draw and create so many things and i have too many ideas to deal with but i only feel ill be able to unlock my creativity and motivation if im high but due to bad past experiences im terrified to get high again. i mean ive done and made some pretty cool stuff since then but the motivation and ideas are much fewer and far between compared to the absolute deluge i get when im stoned , whether any of my ideas are actually any good or if they were just high ramblings is up to debate but i think it gave me a really good way of looking at things and i made some pretty cool stuff and i miss it a lot but i dont know if going back to it is going to be a mistake or not and im not brave enough to find out if itll hurt me again or if im ready. yyyyaaaayyyyy hahahaha ✌

#this is literally just all about drugs and dissociation

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barnesandrogersfanfics · 5 years

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Baby Love -Part 6

Pairing: Chris Evans x Reader

A/N: Apologies my read more isnt working! WTF??

Chris had held my hand the entire the time we walked the red carpet, where as usually my arm would casually be linked with his when i attended events with him. When he stopped for photo's he pulled me close, his hand either resting on my hip or the small of my back. The press covering the Charity Event had been all over us as soon as it was apparent that i was now more than just a friend. This news had blown up on social media and gossip columns of course!

"Will you put that down and eat" Chris mumbled as he walked into the kitchen to find me on the ipad again.

"Its been days and their still going on about it! Your fans hate me now by the way!"

"Babe we knew they'd be some hate, just stop looking at it. Remember its not good for the baby if you stress yourself out" he said sitting next to me and pulling the ipad from my hands "no more of that"

"Fine" i rolled my eyes stabbing a piece of fruit and popping it in my mouth"

"It will calm down i promise"

"Yeah eventually, then we're gonna drop the baby bombshell and all hell will break loose again"

"It will be fine, im sure theres plenty of nice things being said. Its just your only looking at the bad"

"Your lucky i love you Evans" i shook my head as i stabbed another piece of fruit, when I looked up Chris was looking at me with a huge cheesy smile "why are you smiling at me like that?"

"You just said you love me" he said smugly, i instantly felt myself start to panic..... shit, was it too soon to admit that??

"Well of course i love you...." i shrugged casually even though my heart was racing "your my best friend...."

"I love you too" he said quickly stopping my nervous ramblings as he leant forward pressing a kiss to my lips. We were soon interrupted by my cell phone ringing "ignore it" he mumbled against my lips making me laugh.

"I cant its probably your mom"

"Way to kill the mood sweetheart"

"Im sorry baby" i reached for my phone and quickly answered before it cut off.

"Hi Lisa"

"Hey sweetie, the girls and me are going to take you out for lunch today"

"You don't have to do that, I'm fine i promise"

"Shanna said she had been texting you and you seemed down so we're taking you out to take your mind off it"

"I don't even have anything to wear, I'm still at Chris's...."

"Well, we'll pick you up at your place at say 13:00? That gives you plenty of time to get home and dressed for lunch"

"Yeah okay, i guess that works"

"Okay, well i'll let you go and i'll see you at 13:00"

"See you then" i ended the call and turned to Chris "i gotta go"

"What, why?"

"Your mom and sisters are taking me to lunch to cheer me up apparently"

"So why do you have to leave now?"

"Because i haven't got anything to wear here, everything i had is dirty and i cant go to lunch in your shirt" i rolled my eyes at him "id better get my stuff together and get home. Their picking me up at 13:00" i gave him a quick kiss and walked out heading to his bedroom to get my things.

After shoving my dirty clothes back into my bag and pulling on my shorts i headed back out to find Chris sitting at the dining table staring out the window.

"You okay?" I asked running my fingers through his hair and placing a kiss to the side of his head. Chris looked up at me nodding with a smile before pulling me into his lap.

"I don't want you to go" he pouted making me chuckle.

"I gotta go baby, you know how difficult it is to tell your mom and sisters no"

"Move in with me" he suddenly said, i thought he was joking but when i leant back to look at him he was obviously being dead serious.

"What??"

"It makes sense that you move in, i mean your here with me more than your at your place anyway. Plus i want you and the baby here with me"

"Your serious aren't you...."

"Of course i am, it feels right when your here"

"Okay...." i nodded with a smile "if your sure thats what you want?"

"Yes!!"

"I still gotta go now though" i laughed before kissing him quickly and jumping up "i love you!" I called as i neared the front door.

"I love you too!".

Lunch was at a little place called 'Lou's' it was a small family run Italian place Chris and I found years ago and absolutely loved. We were seated in back as soon as we arrived and the four of us were soon eating lunch and chatting away.

"I still cant believe you and Chris are finally together" Carly said taking a mouthful of her wine "and... pregnant" she whispered the last part.

"Yeah i know, it came as a bit of a shock to us too but I'm glad it happened. His honestly the best man i know" i said feeling myself blush.

"I think you make a cute couple" Shanna added smiling at me, we'd always gotten along well she was one of my closest friends.

"Thanks Shan, that means alot" i picked up my glass of water and took a sip.

The waitress approached our table offering to top up the wine glasses, as she got to mine i stopped her quickly and just asked for some more water. She looked at me with raised eyebrows, her name was Debra and she was so used to serving Chris and me and me usually drinking too much wine!

"Your not drinking?"

"Jesus Debra, you say that like Ive got a drinking problem" i joke with her "no, I'm just not feeling too great today so avoiding the alcohol"

"Your not pregnant are you!?" She laughed.

"Oh god no! Im fine really"

"Okay just checking" she winked and walked off.

"When are you guys gonna announce the news?" Shanna asked quietly from beside me.

"If i had my way? Never!"

"Sweetheart you'll be fine" Lisa added trying to be supportive, the truth was there was nothing anyone could say that would make me believe it would be okay.

"Im terrified, the things ive read online since that Charity Gala.... i can only imagine what will be said about this"

"We're all here for you both, you can always come to Boston and stay with us if you need a break"

"Thank you Lisa, when do you all head back to Boston?"

"End of the month, we'll come back nearer the time of.... you know" she nodded at my stomach.

"You don't have to do that...."

"I want to, your gonna need family around you"

"Im coming too!" Shanna added taking hold of my hand.

"You guys are the best, I've always thought of you as family.... you know i don't have anything to do with my own family...so I'm grateful for you all"

While we were eating desert i got a message from Chris.

Hey sweetheart, your coming back here tonight right? Xx

"Is that brother of mine texting you already?" Shanna nudged me playfully.

"Yeah" i smiled as i replied to the message.

Hey babe, yeah i'll be back tonight after I've picked up some clean clothes and things xx

You need me to pick you up? Xx

Sure, i'll text you when I'm home. We're just finishing up desert shouldn't be much longer xx

I'll be waiting for your message, i miss you! Xx

Your so needy! :p xx

Miss you too though xx

"I'll be right back, I'm just gonna go to the bathroom" i told the girls before getting up and making my way out back.

Once i was done and was making my way back to our table i was suddenly approached by a guy holding a camera who was constantly snapping photo's of me.

"Excuse me sir you cant be in here doing that!" I heard Lou say loudly and start to lead the guy out, even then he didn't stop snapping photo's. Lisa, Shanna and Carly came rushing over hearing the commotion and got me back to our table hidden in the back.

"You okay hun?" Carly asked sitting me down in my chair.

"Yeah, just wasn't expecting that as soon as i stepped out of the bathroom"

"What an asshole" Shanna muttered making me laugh.

"Y/N I'm so sorry, i didn't see him come in" Lou said as he approached our table.

"Its fine Lou, you can't keep them away all the time" i smiled at him, once he could see we were okay he got back to work.

"Well so much for cheering you up" Lisa scoffed picking her wine glass up and drinking the rest in one gulp.

"You did cheer me up, I've had a lovely afternoon" i said truthfully even though i couldn't wait to get home to Chris.

We settled the bill and got back to the cars, 30 minutes later i was home and packing my bag ready to head to Chris's.

Hey, what the hell happened at lunch? You got papped?? Xx

Yeah, guy just started taking photo's as i came out of the bathroom. It was fine Lou got him out xx

Your sure your okay? Xx

Im fine, come get me? Im Just finishing up packing my things xx

Im leaving now, wont be long xx

While i sat waiting for Chris the notifications on my social media accounts started going crazy! I opened one and saw a photo of me sitting having lunch with Chris's family, the caption stating how things must be getting serious if I'm having lunch with his family. The comments were mostly people saying how i didn't deserve to be with Chris and how much better he could do than me, that i was only with him for the fame and money.... i couldn't stop the tears that ran freely down my face.

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ohvalleyofplentyyy · 4 years

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Chamomile - Chapter 5

A/N : hello people, hope you are all staying safe in these scary times! please stay in quarantine but if you must do out and don’t have a mask, get creative and use scarfs! gloves! mittens! anything to cover up!! i’ve been having bad writers block so thats why this have been taking a while! love y’all

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Chapter 5 : The Book

Geralt woke up to something poking him in the back, (no not like that you dirty thinkers). He turned around to see a small twig floating in the air, twirling around when it finally got his attention. “What is it?” He said the small piece of branch. In the soil below, the twig carved out the word breakfast.

“Hmm.” Was all the man said, he stood, gathered his things and walked back to the house.

…

“Y/N please teach me how you make this all happen!” Jaskier exclaimed as he watched the kitchen work along side her. She smiled and tapped her finger on a bowl, making it magically sprout little ceramic legs and walk over to the pan, pouring the batter into little circles.

As the two chatted about rituals, Geralt came in through the already open door that had been letting in the morning breeze.

He watched as Y/N made no notion to acknowledge that he was there and continue to show Jaskier something. The bard smiled at him but then immediately turned back to the Wiccan lesson he was being taught.

“—so then you just circle your finger around it and will it to do what you need. Simple right?” “Can I try?” He asked, Y/N moved out of the way and watched as Jaskier drew small symbols in the flour that had been sprinkled out on a wood board.

Her face crinkled a bit when something was wrong, so she wrapped her self around Jaskier and took his hand in hers to trace the correct symbol.

For some reason, Geralt didn’t like this at all.

“There you go! Look, its working.” She exclaimed as the small mug waddled over to the pitcher that poured some fresh tea into it. The bard smiled and triumphantly picked up the cup and took a sip.

“Your twig said breakfast?” Geralt interrupted, disturbing the sweet mood that had over taken the house. The Wiccan’s back stiffened at the proclamation and Jaskier rolled his eyes at the sour tone his friend had.

“Sure, you can pick up that apron and start slicing the strawberries or would you like us to do that and also braid your hair?” The musician quipped, earning a stifled laugh from Y/N and a surprised expression on the Witcher’s face.

The two went back to working on breakfast and Geralt’s sour face made him look like he was scorching a spot in the small wood chair he sat in.

A few minutes later, Geralt watched plates float over to the table, glasses bounced on an invisible trampoline over to sit next to the plates that had now settled down in front of each seat.

Forks and and knives flew straight over as well, one knife flying particularly close to the monster hunter’s face. Probably not much of a coincidence, considering the faint chuckle that emerged from the Wiccan as the blade almost sliced a tendril of his hair.

Y/N twirled around with a plate of pancakes for the table and eloquently sat them down on the table. “Bon appétit!” She said while the pitcher poured water into a couple cups. Jaskier and her sat down and started putting food on their plates, Geralt looked at the set up before him.

Strawberries were cut to look like little flowers, scrambled eggs in a large bowl that was the shape of a daisy and the stack of pancakes sat in the middle of the table, already being dwindled down by the group.

After the plates had been emptied and bellies full, the three sat to chat and tease— well, Geralt watched as Jaskier and y/n chatted and teased each other. He felt like an outsider in the conversation and decided to get on with the real reason they were there.

“So what you planning to do about the demon attacks?” He asked, finished off his cup of ale that Y/N had begrudgingly given him when he requested it. Not a breakfast drink if you ask me, she had mumbled setting it down in front of him.

The Wiccan paused for a moment as if to collect her thoughts and then spoke, “Well, I’ve been on the run for so long that it would be very easy to just go into hiding again.”

Geralt gave her an unimpressed look and she continued, “But, the body count is becoming to high to turn my cheek this time, so I guess I’ll be forced to deal with it.” “What does that exactly mean?” Jaskier asked.

Y/N snapped her fingers and the door swung shut and ice started to cover over the windows.

“Just precautionary measures.” She stated.

She stood up from the table and went over to the couch, she tapped a specific wood board on the wall and it popped open, she reached into the small opening and pulled out a giant book from its weird angled hiding place.

She dusted it off and came back to the two boys sitting at the table. She rose it into the air over the table and dropped it with a smack!

All the items that had been used for breakfast had scatter to the far edge where no one was sitting before being crushed with the book thankfully.

The book in the center of the table was very old, years of use could be seen in the bindings and edges. It was covered in a dark brown leather that had metal sculptures in four corners of an old atlas that was printed into the cover and in the dead center, a strange compass with a gem stone embedded.

“This is what I’ll use.” She said, Jaskier skimmed his fingers over the marks that went around the compass and then flipped it open to the first page.

It was blank.

The bard looked up at her with a confused expression adorning his facial features and Geralt’s wasn’t far from it, the Witcher flipped a few more pages and they were all the same, empty.

“What are you going to do, draw the enemy away?” He scoffed, this seemed utterly ridiculous. How could a blank book do anything?

Y/N pursed her lips, the faint inkling of a smirk hidden. She closed the book and then simply reopened it, this time it was definitely not blank.

Jaskier gasped as the three of them saw the pages come alive. It was like a map book but, alive.

The page they had flipped to was a small town on the coast, the paper had little names moving around it as though it was following the human assigned to the name.

Y/N ran her finger down the center of the page and then touch a building that was labeled Stakel’s Pub.

Magically, ink covered the page and then soaked back down again, revealing the inside of the store like you were looking in from the ceiling. Geralt watched in disbelief as the bartender cleaned out a glass before pouring beer into it and a couple sitting at the far table make out.

“This is— these haven’t been used for—“ “Centuries?” Y/N quipped, with a raised eyebrow. Geralt continued, “These books are myths, legends. It’s not possible that you have one.”

The girl stretched her arms up and looked toward the ceiling, “Are you seriously doubting that this isn’t real? Isn’t it sitting right in front of you?”

“Yes but—” “Is it maybe possible that I have items from my father?” “Possible but—” “Couldn’t I have been keeping it safe till I intended to use it?”

“Fine alright, but how do you plan to use it? How will this find the demons? It doesn’t exactly seem to show what spirits are wandering around.”

With a roll of her eyes, she flipped the page and took three fingers to drawn a circle in the left corner, all the human names disappeared from the paper and lots of other names popped up, also with a date underneath each.

“The date is the year they died.” She said, clearing up Jaskier’s confusion as he mumbled does thing have a key or something?

Her eyes returned to the Witcher sitting at her table, “I’m going to find the Gate to Hell and sneak in.”

“What?!”

Both men had gob-smacked expressions, “I need to access the pool of knowledge and submerse myself in it for 10 seconds, that will give me enough time to search through and find who is sending these knights after me.”

Jaskier sputtered, “Find the—Gates of Hell?! Oh god, How did I get myself into this mess?! I can’t—” Geralt talked over Jaskier’s rambling, “This atlas knows where it is?”

She scratched her eyebrow and went to sit down across the table from the two. “Not exactly, I need to first find a few things and then it will.” “What things…” Geralt pressed.

“I need the last words of a dying person, a four leaf clover found by a magical child, and the blood of a loved one.”

The Witcher slouched back in the chair and rolled his head back, “Fuck.”

He took a deep breath and then stood, “Let’s get started.”

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lareinenoir · 5 years

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∆Milk and Honey∆

Tom Hiddleston x Black! Reader

Pt 2/?

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"Pam, you have no idea how sweet he was. Like...I didn't know he'd offer to drive me."

"Aw, I'm jealous. So jealous, Y/N! I can't even get Rick to open a door for me." You could hear her rolling her eyes. "Don't get me wrong, Rick is a sweetie when he wants to be but driving you back to the hotel is absolutely wonderful."

"So...uh...did he call?" You ask after you both laugh over the phone again.

"Patrick? Yeah he did. He wanted to know where you were. He sounded worried."

"Tell him to stay in Dubai and do whatever he has to do."

"Oh come on, Y/N. You can't still be mad at him?"

"I am. I really am. He said he'd be home to make up for missing my birthday. He never showed up."

"Hes tryin', girl."

"Yeah, tryin'. Cute little bracelets won't make up for that. Thats what I get for marryin' a city boy."

"You can take boy out of the city but not the city out of the boy."

"Shoulda listened to my Gran. She said I could do better then Patrick Reginald St. John."

"He's a hard workin' man. He just wants the very-"

"I don't care. I just want him to be there for me. Seriously, I can't remember when the last time I had sex. Like good, body aching, heart stopping sex."

"Just do what I do, watch porn."

"Hell no. Why would I want to watch people have sex when I ain't havin' sex. Its torture of the highest order."

"Just tryna help."

"Sorry, I'm just a bit frustrated. Lets stop talking about this and talk about clothes. I have no idea what I'm gonna wear tomorrow."

"Whats the occasion?"

"Tom invited me to his house. And before you get your bonnet in a knot, its just to meet the rest of the team. Thats it."

"Have I mentioned how jealous I am." Pam asked giggling. "Did you ask what attire he was lookin' for?"

"I did and he said to come as you are." You answer "Imma face time you. I only brought so many clothes."

"Alright." Pam hung up and you quickly face timed her and showed her your closet. "Oh sweet pea...I mean where is the rest of it?"

"Oh come on, Pam. Please help." You beg and give her a pouty face.

"Sweet pea, I think your gonna run outta clothes. You packed for only a couple weeks. But there is hope. If he said come as you are then...maybe you could get away with a nice blouse and a jeans. Add some pointed shoes and call it casual."

"Pamela Francine Ruth, you are absolutely the best friend in the world!" You sigh making a kissy face at the camera.

"So I've been told. Don't forget about us little people in Mayfield when you're all famous. I gotta go and start making dinner. Tell me all about it tomorrow after the party, m'kay?"

"Yeah. Bye." You say and she blew a kiss and hung up.

*******

The next day, she woke to a text from Tom.

°Tom Hiddleston°

Tom: Good morning! I don't know how good hotel food is but would you like to go out for breakfast? I'll come pick you up.

You: Breakfast? Sounds great. I've been dying to try a traditional English breakfast. All I know is grits and eggs with toast

Tom: Maybe we can switch breakfast. I've never had grits

You: You have no idea what you're missing.

Tom: I was hoping that you and I could talk a little more. Maybe actors and actresses you have in mind.

You: Fantastic!

You: I will be down in five minutes.

"I'm spending the day with him! So...do I wear the same outfit?"

Not wanting to stress, you put on the outfit Pam helped pick out and start getting ready. When you walked out side, Tom was near the car smiled when he sae you.

"Y/N, you look lovely this morning." He tells you, taking your hand and kissing it lightly

"Thank you. You look great as well." You say back, trying not to show how heated your cheeks were getting. He led you to passenger side and opened the door.

A couple minutes later, you were outside a somewhat private restaurant. He had on sunglasses as you walked in.

The hostess sat you down in the back and he finally took them off. "Is this spot ok?"

"Its fine." You nod as he pulled out your seat.

The two of you ordered and the topic of comfort foods. "What's yours, Y/N."

"I have to say burgers with grilled pineapple. Its so good. My friend Pam makes the best burgers and I always grill the pineapples sprinkling a little cinnamon on it." You answered and Tom was laughing a bit. "I know, it ain't the most healthiest food choice."

"Oh no." He shakes his head "I'm not judging. I honestly don't think I have a comfort food. I eat whatever looks good and for my diet."

"Right. I forgot. You are an actor and actors have to keep their bodies looking sexy." You giggled taking a sip of your sweet tea watching him bit his lip and blush. "Speaking of actors, who did you have in mind?"

"Y/N that's a choice I think you should make. Its your script-"

"Tom, you're directing and producing. I don't know Hollywood like you do." You say

He pauses and then nods his head. "Fine. We'll do it together. You tell me who you have in mind and I'll suggest a few things that will help guide your final decision."

You nodded your head, agreeing as the food came out. Tom thanked the waiter and you looked at the food. "Wow, it looks great!"

"Tell me how it is after you try it." He chuckled

Tom really liked hearing about Mayfeild. He was laughing and smiling at your stories. He was actually listening and paying attention to what you were saying.

"Don't get me wrong, Mayfield is great but I could go without the Baker's. Donna and Gerald have nine kids and all of them get on my nerves! The little one, shes about five and let me tell you, shes the devil incarnate. Daisy is a feisty little thing, but at the same time I don't blame her. She's the only girl in the Baker family. That's assuming Donna doesn't pop out another one- I'm sorry." You say picking up a fork and looking down. "I was rambling won't I? You probably have something you wanna-"

"No no no." He shakes his head reaching across the table taking a hold of your hand. Instantly the fork drops and you hold your breath as Tom gives you a very kind grin. "I ramble too. I like hearing you talk. Please keep going."

Tom's hand slips and you grin back, shyly trying to hold it together. Your chest felt a bit heavy and your eyes began to water. You were about to cry.

"Y/N?"

"Excuse me." You scramble to get up and kept your head down not really caring who you were running into.

You were glad the bathroom was empty. Trying to not cry out loud, your hand goes over your mouth and you sob in the bathroom stall. You didn't know why- no- you knew why. Deep down you knew why you were sobbing. You just didn't know why at that moment.

"Y/N? Y/N?"

Tom followed you to the bathroom. The womans bathroom and you definitely knew it was him because of his shoes you saw under the stall.

"Are you alright in there? I'm so sorry if I said anything to upset you. It wasn't my intention to hurt you-"

"Tom please stop." You say, trying to sound like you were fine. Failing miserably, you cover your mouth again to keep from crying out loud again. "It wasn't you, I promise it won't you. I just-"

"Let me in? Please." He asks

You didn't want him to see you cry but here he was in the stall. Taking in a breath you inhaled Tom's scent as he held you in his arms. Warm and that feeling of someone holding you made your body quiver. You hadn't been held in a mans arms in long time.

You didn't want him to let go of you.

"Do you wish to talk about-"

"No. Thank you though. I...I really needed that."

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spideymybucky · 5 years

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Make it stop 2

Peter Parker x MJ Peter Parker x Reader Tony x Adopted!Daughter!Reader Steve Roger x Reader Avenger x Reader

Warnings: Depression, sadness, angst, crying a lot, invasion of privacy.

Word count: 1.2k+

A/n: So I had to take it down, no kid, like five times. People were not seeing it or it would be posted on the tags. It’s really frustrating when you put hard work on something and you want it out. Hope everything goes well this time and y’all can read it.

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An annoying beeping and vibrating sound woke her up. Stretching her hands to find the source of her annoyance, (Y/n) grabbed her phone and turned the alarm off. It was 6:30 am, if she stayed in bed any longer she would be late. She wanted to be late, scratch that she didn’t want to go. Facing Peter was going to be hard, but facing Peter, MJ, Ned and Betty together was even worse. So, with a swift movement, she threw her phone across the room and cocooned herself into bed.

“Why the hell aren’t you in school, (Y/n)?” More than an hour and half passed when Bucky entered her room screaming. He looked at her tranquil body, wrapped around her black duvet.

“You better have a good reason, (Y/l/n).” (Y/n) groaned at Buckys annoying voice, waking up from her deep slumber. He sighed and stat at her messy bed, grabbing her homework and putting it on her bag.

“Bucky, let me sleep.” Her hoarse voice broke the silence. She sat up looking at Bucky, and he broke a little. Her eyes were swollen, her lips chapped and her skin dried; in other word she looked like shit.

“You should’ve called me when you decided not to go to school, instead of Principal Morita having to inform Steve. I think he’s scarred for life, y’know Steve almost killed the man when he didn’t know where you were…” Bucky rambled on. He didn’t seem mad, and he wasn’t mad, he was just worried.

“I’m sorry, I’m just not in the mood to go to school. I think I’m coming down with something.” Tony nodded at her, getting off of her queen sized bed.

“You should tell that to Steve, not me Doll. Hell, you need to talk to Tony before he finds out; I don’t want to fight’em” She heard his faint voice, as he strutted out of her room. God, she hatted this feeling of uselessness and dread. She shouldnt’ve skipped school today, all she’s doing is causing more problems within the avengers. _I just wish that everything would be like before all this happened. _She looked at the mirror in front of her and sighed. _I’m such a weak person, get a grip of yourself. _ She closed the sink tap and changed her clothes quickly, she grabbed her phone and car keys and jogged out. She ran through the common floor, seeing Tony and Steve.

“(Y/n), what the hell?” Tony screamed after her.

“Stop running and get back here, kid. We need to talk” Steves stern voice resounded on the floor.

She ignored all of their calls and left in a hurry through the elevator. Sure, Tony and Steve ran after her but it was in vain. She went to the black slick Ferrari and got in. She turned on the car, as Tony and Steve, followed by the rest of the gang, screamed at her to stop. With one last look she took off, sealing her fate with them. She was in trouble but she didn’t care, not anymore at least.

“God dammit, Tony, what the hell are we gonna do with her?” Steve screamed.

“You’re not the one responsible for her, Steve.” He jabbed back. Steve sighed and looked back at the team.

“She’s gonna be ok, Tony. She’s a responsible kid.” Natasha said, walking back to the elevator.

“Thats not the point Nat, she’s just a kid. I don’t even know why she skipped school yesterday.” Tony sighed.

“I might know why…” Wanda announced in a small voice. Bucky turned and looked at her, his blue defiant eyes were enough words for her.

“Might as well tell us, she’s not gonna talk anytime soon.” Tony pushed through Bucky and Sam.

“She’s gonna come for you, if you speak. I’m out, she’s scarier than Nat.” Sam said stepping into the elevator with Bucky.

“It’s called privacy, Tony.” He snarled at him. His posture was tense, as he stood with Sam. “She’s a teenager, she might want some of that.” Tony rolled his eyes and dismissed them. He was worried about her, which made him paranoid and that led to bad decisions.

“Go on, Maximoff” Wanda tensed up next to Vision. She shacked her head in distraught and bit her lip.

“It’s been going on for weeks now, y’know? She hasn’t been the same girl for, maybe, a month now. It started with little things like: missing game night or movie nights, not going out with her friends as much, or just ignoring Peter from time to time…” Tony nodded, remembering the little signs he dismissed as her being moody or just herself. Sure, sometimes people wanted to be alone and with this line of work, it was bound to happen.

“I saw Peter and MJ together, might have to do with that. She always had for him and know her best friend is dating her other best friend, on top of that something is hurting her. She’s a ticking bomb, Steve; kind of like Buck when he first came.” Steve looked at Tony with worried eyes._ What the hell is going on with this girl?_

(Y/n) drove past the small areas of the compound as fast as she could. She wanted to get out, she need it to. It was like she was in a cage, all small and defenseless. F*ck, she couldn’t stand that. She stepped on the breaks and, with a loud screech, stopped the car.

“FCK!” (Y/n) slammed her head on the steering wheel, repeatedly. Her phone bleeped consecutively. She grabbed it and turned it off. The car stopped roaring, after a few minutes, and then everything was silent._ Fcking hell, god dammit, why can’t I just be ok? _

Getting out of the car, she slammed the door shot, leaving everything behind. She ran past the trees, for minutes. It was a sea of green and brown. Twigs would break under her steps. Her loud breath would scare the small animals away. The wind was blowing through her hair, making it dance. She was going as fast as her feet could, until she was in front of an open meadow.

Yellow flowers adorned the grown, with some red and blue ones. The wind rustled the trees, making them whistle out their secrets. She sat down, in the middle of a flower patch, taking in the blaring sun. In this moment, for only a few minutes, she felt at ease. Everything was ok. The world could stop and end, and she would be fine with it. This tranquility and ease, something she hadn’t felt in a long time, was recharging her.

“Then you’re left in the dust…” she started humming out Sunflower. Closing her eyes, she let the warmth and wind lull her to sleep, forgetting everything that happened. A few hours passed when the cold wind woke her up. She rapidly sat up, feeling dizzy for a minute, and looked at the darkened surroundings. The sky was a beautiful pink and purple color, signifying the end of the day. _How long have I been out? _She thought to herself.

Standing up was a mere problem. Her arms were sore from the sun and so was her face. It was a bearable feeling, something she had experienced before but she wasn’t used to it. Her lips felt try, and no amount of licking would wet them. She turned around, hearing steps and voices, but she wasn’t ready to leave. She didn’t want to leave this beautiful place, even though right at this moment it was creeping her out.

_Please, god please, just give me a few more minutes. _She pleaded to herself. The voices were getting stronger and the footsteps faster. She took a few closer to the woods, when brown doe like eyes found hers. Her breath caught itself on her throat, her had started sweating every step he got closer. She just stood there, with her beating heart. Run. Run. Run. Run. Her legs didn’t move an inch until he was near her.

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the-everlasting-dream · 5 years

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The Easiest Thing In The World - Dallas x MC

Summary: Dallas has been through some hard stuff and what shouldn’t be, suddenly becomes the easiest thing in the world.

A/N: Idk what compelled me to write this but I felt i had to after the latest chapter of BSC. I dont even like cowboy stuff so I have no idea where all of this came from. No one asked but idc this had to be done.

Word Count: 2200 (this was supposed to be 500 words!)

Warnings: None.

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Running takes a lot of guts, a ton of fear and a dash of luck to be exact.

Dallas James knew that well.

Leaving hadn’t been easy. Leaving his mama, his friends, his whole life back in Tulsa and everything he knew because some jackass with attachment issues didn’t know when to quit. He’d been happy with Alex. They had that good old fashioned romance that played on Grandpa Wilbur’s worn out records that'd play on the brass gramophone when he'd coax to life every Saturday afternoon as he’d sit on the front porch watching the kids play jump rope. Alex was a good girl, pretty too, with that kind of smile that just warmed you up from the inside every time she looked at you. Dallas thought he was gonna marry her, he did. Heck he would have married her and by now they’d have given his mama at least two grand babies to chase round the house for bath time.

Dallas was a God-fearing man, like his mama had drilled into him since he’d been in diapers. But he couldn’t understand for the life of him, why God put men like Leeroy Davis on this earth. With a permanent sneer on his face and a shiny Glock glued from his belt, the star quarterback strutted around like he owned the place, doing whatever he wanted to whoever he wanted with a bunch of cronies worshipping the ground he walked on. That’s what you get when your daddy was the head council man and owned half the businesses in town.

Dallas couldn’t imagine how someone as sweet as Alex could have ever been with a jerk like that. He’d asked her once and she admitted she thought she saw something different that no one else did and she was determined he could change, determined to prove everyone wrong and show them that there was a good side to Leeroy Davis. Alex’s heart was always too big for her own good and thats blinded her to Leeroy's emotional manipulation. They’d been over for almost a year before Dallas had worked up the courage to ask her out and she’d agreed to see a movie with him at their local community theatre. He remembered neither hide nor hair of that film, he’d spent the whole time watching Alex instead, fascinated by how keenly she felt everything and how openly it showed on her face. By the time the credits were over, he knew he was smitten and by some miracle, she agreed to a second date and a third and a fourth.

He remembered the last time he’d seen her, dark hair tangled by the wind, tears pouring down those rose cheeks of hers, big eyes urging him to go, to take the best shot at escaping Leeroy and the jail sentence he’d placed over his head, while simultaneously she also pleaded with him to stay. She held his sobbing mama close, silently promising she’d take care of her and that last image, a final look thrown over his shoulder haunted him every day he was away.

Leaving sure as hell wasn’t easy but life on the run hadn’t been easier. He learned keep his mouth shut, not to ask questions and take work where he could find it. Doing odd jobs for almost no pay, picking up slack where they needed him to, he was never in one place long enough to get attached. Each place he’d been, he’d been treated with caution, kept at arms length, never trusted with anything other than manual labour. He was a black man in Midwestern America, it was nothing he wasn’t used to but that didn’t make it any easier. It wasn’t easy but he managed.

By the time he’d worked his way up to Montana, he’d been in more places that he could have counted and it was only by some miracle that the Oakleys had taken him on as a desperately needed farm hand. They were more than happy to take on someone who would work for the meagre rate they were offering. Dallas didn’t mind, work was work and as long as he had a roof over his head and something in his belly at night, it was enough. Cliff and his boys didn’t ask about his past and Dallas didn’t share. It worked that way and for a few months he was content. Not happy, just content. Sawyer was nice enough, Duke was tolerable, Cliff was, well, Cliff but together they had a lot of heart, something he’d missed since Tulsa. In the back of his mind, he knew he’d have to leave soon and it was the most sorry he’d been to leave. He’d been on the run from a past that would eventually catch up to him. He also knew that the further he ran, the sooner he’d run out of places to run to.

In fact, he'd been gearing himself up to break the news to Cliff that he was leaving when Jo went over to the Mendozas and he found himself needed more than anything. Sure Sawyer knew the farm like the back of his hand, Curly could handle the mechanics even Duke could hold his own with the herd with Cliff there to oversee everything but Dallas knew that losing him would be a huge blow to the Oakleys. He couldn’t in good conscience leave like that. Even with that city slicker, Dominique, whom Sawyer had picked off the side of the road, helping out, it still wouldn’t be enough.

Dominique was something else however. When he’d first rescued her from trampling Bessie, Dallas had given her two days before she was out of there, screaming for sparkling water, ducted air conditioning and a toilet that flushed without you thumping on it a few times. With a name as pretentious as that, he’d dismissed her immediately, being quite rude, almost hoping to put her off but she’d pushed back. She’d proved him wrong over and over through stubborn persistence or sheer volume of luck, he couldn’t quite comprehend how but there was no denying that the perfumed manicured city girl had cleaned out cow pads next to him, despite the risk of getting hay in her perfectly dyed brown blonde ombre locks. She hiked the Lonely Pine Trail — a hike not known for its easiness — with them all as per Cliff’s request without a single complaint. Wherever she was from, they were certainly made of harder stuff than he’d first assumed. Dallas had glanced over at her, taking in the lush scenery and the look of wonder on her face almost brought a smile to his own.

Smiling never came as easily as it did since Alex anymore. More important things like looking over his shoulder, avoiding the cops, landing a stable enough job had taken priority but he’d found his lips curving up more times in these last few days since he’d left Tulsa. There was something about her, he couldn’t quite put his finger on it, but she radiated a hopefulness that he hadn’t felt since Alex. For so long he’d abandoned any thought of a future other than one on the run that he’d failed to see the possibility that existed in the spaces in between. Dominique brought a fresh perspective to everything, a different mindset and viewpoint than the rest of them and perhaps it was part of her charm but Dallas caught himself looking forward to seeing her around.

It was when they had made camp for the night and everyone was laughing at Juliette’s latest antics that Dallas realised how easy this suddenly felt. He watched as Broolynne frantically waved the flaming marshmallow she’d been roasting while Asha’s brother Miles scurried to prepare another one for her as Duke and Sawyer watched on in interest, half listening to Juliette’s ramblings. Dominique was listening with rapt attention, her every emotion playing out on her face and he almost smiled at the sight. For a moment, there was no weight of a potential jail sentence hanging over his head, no risk of being discovered just a few friends hanging out around the campfire at night.

That’s when it hit him. This wasn’t a permanent reality. Leeroy Davis was still hackling for his head out there, his poor mama probably worried sick that he hadn’t written in ages and Alex… he didn’t know what to think about Alex…

Not wanting to ruin the mood with the scowl on his face, he’d slipped off for a walk to try clear his head before realising he’d been followed.

Dominique.

Dallas wasn’t surprised that she’d come after him, she seemed to be great at reading people, far better than he ever would be. He was surprised however at how easily they fell into step together, walking quietly, the only sound being the leaves and twigs crackling gently underfoot. He tried to keep his thoughts on track, his current rumination being how soon he could move on from Oakley ranch after surpassing his usual five month timeframe. Cliff’s condition and the financial situation hung in the balance leaving a great many factors unaccounted fo-

Dominique’s hand had slipped into his at that point, derailing his train of thought, bringing him back to the present.

‘You okay?’

After she’d hesitantly affirmed it, he gave her hand a gentle squeeze to reassure her. Not long later, they reached a small cliff over looking a huge lake lined with trees silhouetted against the brilliance of the night sky. The last light of day could be seen peaking over the horizon and above them, a crescent moon hung amid the glittering stars, spilling soft light onto the water below.

‘Its so beautiful,’ Dominique breathed as they took a seat, legs dangling over the precipice as they looked out at the scene.

‘Yeah…,’ he agreed, his eyes on her and the way the moonlight reflected off her dark hair. ‘Beautiful.’

She glanced over, blushing when she realised he was already looking at her before doing what she always did, guiding them into an light conversation that immediately set him at ease. Dallas was just beginning to enjoy himself when he caught himself too late replying with a vague comment that definitely piqued her curiosity. He should have realised she wouldn’t have let him get away with it and as she waited for his response, he raked a doubtful glance over her. He knew that spilling all his secrets to some newcomer was a bad decision, it formed an attachment, the last thing he needed right now, with thoughts of moving on and all. But her green eyes compelled him and he eventually gave in.

Sighing, Dallas related the real reason for leaving Tulsa and bringing up Alex was as painful as he’d predicted. He’d been holding on to it for so long, hiding it away in the deepest part of his heart and now bringing everything to the light was just such a relief. He found himself revealing all the details about his biggest secrets to a girl he’d barely known for two weeks. There was no logic in it but once he started talking, it felt kind of cathartic to finally share the burden with someone else. He kept his eyes on one patch of grass inching its way between the boulders they were sitting on as he talked, not wanting to meet Dominique’s gaze until he finished his story with edge to his voice.

Her eyes were filled with empathy and concern when he finally looked at her. ‘I’m sorry Dallas. I wish there was something I could do to help.’

He should have recognised her willingness and generosity to want to help out even if she’d barely known him but he was feeling too jaded to notice, leaning back to stare out at the lake for a long moment.

‘Thanks for telling me…’ She put in after a long moment. He simply nodded, not trusting his voice but recognised her empathetic tone.

Sharing so much wasn’t in his nature and after basically baring his soul to her, Dallas knew needed something to smoothen the mood so he produced his harmonica, the one his mama’d given to him when he was young. He hadn’t played in years — he’d had no reason to — yet he kept it with him all the time. Soon enough he was telling her about his dream to be a singer. His mama had had the music in her and she passed that down to him.

Dominique’s rapt interest was more entertaining than anything he’d ever witnessed, the way her face lit up when he announced he’d sing her the song he’d written and how her expressions changed with the lyrics. He never took his eyes off her, wondering how in the world a random girl from the side of the road had gotten him to open up like he’d never had with anyone else before. He didn’t know how and he could’t begin to guess how she made everything in his crazy, mess of a life seem so easy…

‘You’re something else, Dominique,’ he told her, unable to find words to properly express himself.

A grin grew on her features and as if by some magnetic force, Dallas found himself leaning in closer, the strange desire to kiss her on his mind. And when she leaned into him, a part of him hesitated a little, reminding him of his past again, who he was and all he risked by getting attached, but when her soft lips met his, kissing her back suddenly was the easiest thing in the world...

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h-o-l-l-i · 6 years

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A New Normal

Sam Winchester/Dean Winchester X Reader

Word count: 920

Author’s Note: Requests are open!

Warnings: None

“It was a vampire.” Sam said to you in a gentle but deep voice.

You sat there clutching our coffee mug, staring down at the streams of syrup that were beginning to drip from the short stack Dean ordered for you.

What? This couldn’t be real, there has to be a logical explanation to what attacked me. It was just someone who was having a bad trip, not a freaking vampire, you thought to yourself after they told you what goes bump in the night was real.

“No, it was just a person having a bad trip or something…” you shook your head, taking a bite of your pancake.

“I know thats what you want to think but, what attacked you it wasn’t exactly human…” he paused when he saw your eyes laced with confusion, “Many monsters can look like regular people, like this person that attacked you tonight. It was a vampire, Y/N.” He paused looking at you to see if things were finally clicking in your head.

“So, everything is real? Like really real?” You asked them, both of then nodding in unison. “Am I going to turn into one of them because he bit me…” your heartbeat increased at the thought of turning into a monster, like a real one…

“No. They can only turn you if their blood mixes with yours.” Dean said taking a large bite and starting to chew the pile he just loaded into his mouth. You chuckled slightly seeing Sam’s face, a mixture of disgust and amusement of his older brother.

“So, why was he trying to turn me and not just drink my blood?” You curiously asked Sam, Dean busy with chewing.

He sighed, “Well, Y/N. We’re hunters, our job is to hunt these monsters and all others kinds of them and kill them. And to protect people like you.” He paused. People like you…those words hitting you hard. “We were following his nest, its like a family of vamps that live and hunt together. And uh, Dean and I got almost all of them, except for this one. Since we killed everyone else in his nest, he was trying to,”

Both of you said together, “build another nest.” You nodded, understanding finally.

“Yes.” Sam nodded, taking a long sip of coffee.

“You know, this is a lot to go through in 5 hours. And a lot to wrap my head around at 3 in the morning at Josie’s Diner, drinking stale coffee in Montana on a Tuesday.” You rambled smiling allowing the realization to sink in, frustration slighting your voice. “I was a completely normal person with a normal job, a normal house, a normal life and now.” You sighed “Hell, I don’t know what I should do now, knowing what really is out there.” The boys looked at you nodding, having heard this speech before.

“I know, it’s a lot to take in at first.” Dean said, taking a large bite of his eggs followed by a piece of bacon. “But, if you ever need anything, you can always call us. If it’s our type of job then we will either help or send someone who can.” He affirmed you, grabbing your hand and placing a fake FBI card into your palm.

You smiled a half smile, “Thank you, for all the two of you and all of the others do, it must be hard to do this and the rest of the world being completely unaware…” your voice trailed, you reached for your wallet, Dean stopped you.

“You’re right, it is a lot to go through in 5 hours. A lot to wrap your mind around art 3 a.m. at Josie’s diner drinking stale coffee in Montana on a Tuesday. It’s our treat, Y/N.” He finished, smiling at you and throwing cash down on the table. The three of you walked outside into the cold Montana morning air, “You got somewhere we can drop you off?”

“Um, yeah actually. I can stay at a friends house for a little until I figure out what I’m going to do about everything now.” You answered back to them.

You climbed into the front sitting in the middle seat between the brothers tall and large frames.

Dean roared the Impala’s engine to life and drove you to your friends house. You leaned into the passenger window, “Thank you guys, so much. I owe you…everything.” You smiled and stood up straight backing away from Sam’s window.

They smirked back to you, Dean yelled out the window, “You call us if you need us. Anytime. Anywhere. Got it?” You had your hands inside your coat pockets and nodded, the car soon disappeared and you retreated to the front door of your friend, Kelly’s house.

“Y/N? What are you doing here? Is everything okay? Come inside, it’s freezing.” She said upon answering the door, moving aside allowing you to enter.

Is everything okay? Ha! Yeah that’s what I would call it too, Kelly. Instead you just nodded, “Yeah, Kelly everything is fine. But um, there was an accident at my house and I can’t stay there until it gets fixed, so I’m going to need to stay here for a couple days. Okay?” You asked, knowing that she would allow you to stay as long as you needed.

“Yeah of course, Y/N! C’mon let’s go to bed. The guest bedroom is —”

“I know, I think I’ve been here a couple of times.” You laughed, heading to bed.

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wallysbestie · 6 years

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Question Tag

So I was tagged by both @felegs and @stayuwu to do the 11 Question tag and a different one but ill probably make that its own post as well so minimize the size on these but yeah im gonna go ahead and just answer their question together and then,,, i dont know if ill be tagging people ill decide at the end lmao

but yeah ill put it under a read more because i dont want yall to deal with my long ramblings. if you just want my questions and want to ignore all my answer than just scroll to the very bottom!

Stayuwu’s Questions:

Are you a daydreamer? If so, what do you dream about?

I am~ I typically day dream about fic ideas like how I would imagine them to pan out or if I’m in class then I’ll typically day dream about this is nerdy as hell let me be how like the psych topics were learning about could be panned out in a story like we learned about this specific condition in my cog class and i just immediately wrote the concept into a fic story lmao

What’s your favorite place in the world?

mmm depends. at home its the beach but specifically this beach by my house because its a very calm beach that also has a super cute little center with small local shops and stuff and minimal seagulls hate those fuckers but here at school its my departments building because every floor has a big staircase thats dark and quiet and has huge windows facing the forest and the other side has a balcony facing the campus and you can see the ocean if youre high enough and its just hgvfsd i love

What’s home to you?

not be like,,, cliche i guess but like,,, i dont? think i have one? i dont like feeling tied down so i dont typically think of anywhere as “home”

This is not a question but quote a vine.

shawty i dont... mind

Grey’s anatomy or House?

House hands down i watched grey’s for a while growing up and its just,,, too much lmao house is so dark and unapologetic and i love it

Do you have any pets?

i have one (1) dumb dog that i love so much and can never stop talking about to showing off photos about

What kind of friend are you? (You know, the mom friend, the meme friend, etc).

the distant mom friend

Do you hate someone? If so, why?

nah i dont have the energy to give someone that type of passion. im more of the if you fuck me over ill completely cut you out of my life within a blink of an eye type of cap not the ill hold a grudge against you type of cap

What’s your dream job?

working in a hospital with kids with mental disorders and terminal illnesses

What MCU character resembles you the most? (not physically, more like mentally and emotionally).

i,,,, dont know??? i know mayhaps 3 characters from MCU and thats only through like 1 or 2 movies lmao

I won’t use this eleven question as an actual question, use your right to answer to this to talk about whatever the fuck you want. Rant, fangirl, talk about what you did today or yesterday or whatever. Just talk.

last night i went to sleep at like 1 am which is the earliest ive slept in so damn long and yet my body still decided it needed 12 hours of sleep. 12 hours? in this economy? please we dont have time for that i have articles to read

My Moon’s Questions:

what’s one thing that helps you relax?

being cold and listening to music helps me a lot so if im like freaking out or super upset ill usually go outside and either sit on the stair case or go walk around especially at night

what’s your favorite novel and author?

mmm its not a novel but my favorite short story that I’ve ever read is What We Talk About When We Talk About Love (but the original version) by Raymond Carver

are you an affectionate person? if so, how do you show affection?

kinda? I’m not a big fan of pda so the most I’ll do is like give hugs or if its something real special like my sun or my ex roommate then I’ll give them kisses on the cheek or forehead but aside from that I’m more of a silent affectionate person who will just like,,, pat your arm or bring you some water when I know you need it

are you an early bird or a night owl?

oh definitely a night owl whether I want to be or not lmao

if you’re comfortable with it, do you have a song you connect to something or someone, and if so, what is it?

mmm I have a lullaby that when my best friend moved back to their home state, they had me listen to it because they knew I was going through a really hard time and wasn’t not like,, in the safest of spots and I remember crying for like a solid 30 minutes and like even now to this day if I’m in a really bad spot I’ll listen to that song and just think about my best friend and like it just gives a small hope that things will be okay again

if you could go back to a place you’ve been to before, where would it be?

Florence, Italy the only place I’ve actually felt safe ironically considering its hours away from anything I could ever consider home

what does your favorite piece of clothing - that you own yourself - look like?

i have a shirt from this show that i love so much to the point my aunt stole it and hid it somewhere so now i have no idea where it is and will likely never get it back :’)

who’s your bias and why?

hgfds i have too many biases this is hard but uh honestly most of my biases are such for the same reason that being that they’re very strong capable people who have been through hell and back adn yet still always find a reason to bounce back and give life their all (ex: Yongguk, Young K, Taeyong, Bang Chan, Hanbin, Amber)

do you believe in luck and miracles?

finding you was a miracle but aside from that not really? i like the concept of them but i dont actually believe in them. i believe things happen for a reason yknow

what’s your favorite type of decorations?

christmas lightssss i own so many omg i think i have like,,, 8 strands with me currently?? with only 2 not being put up on some wall??

do you prefer being outside or inside?

definitely outside which is funny because I’m inside so much but I love going out adventuring and just being a menace to society tbh

My Questions:

What’s the “weirdest” song that stands out from your library?

Do you have a piece of clothing or jewelry that you hold dearly?

Have you ever gotten something autographed? How’d you get it?

What concert/festival did you really want to go to this year but had to miss?

What’s the hardest thing for you to do alone?

Would you rather stay in your hometown for the rest of your life but have everyone you love and appreciate live near you or move to your dream location and have a stable life but leave everyone you know behind?

Favorite thing to do during this lovely month of Halloween?

Are you a trick or treating kind of person or someone who would rather hand out the candy?

Do you have any crazy Halloween stories? Break into anything? Throw an insane party? Spill.

What’s the craziest thing you’ve done that when you look back you;re just like “wow who possessed me and made me do that?”

If you could spend a date night on Halloween and just eat candy and watch horror movies, which idol would you want to do it with?

Can you tell I’m excited for Halloween? it was hard to not make all 11 of these spooky themed lmao but anyways let’s get to tagging

@newkids-thefinal @gayforjiwon @tangerine-jinani @taecheeks @devilji @kxmwoojxn @junheeart @kuromatoki @minhosgf @shen-anakins @minbebee @mias97

#kjhbiunoji this took so damn long #i almost just closed the tab and said fuck this tag #who wouldve thought 22 questiosn would take almsot a full hour #im bad at putting my thoughts into words lmao #this post was also so fucking long i had to go back an edit a lot of it #oops #tagged

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crystu-cii · 3 years

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Thank you!! I had a lot of schoolwork so that's why I was so busy(cough and I definitely did all of it and didn't leave any of it for today since I stayed up til five am being productive, most definitely. Yep.) 💕💕

Moodd-- XDD

Oh wow-- okay but that reminds me of something- I've heard of adults taking on a "worksona" to get things done so you?? Basically did that?? You took on a persona that caused people to take you more seriously! I don't think it's cringey at all, it's actually super cool!! Especially taking on the attitude/mindset of a character? That's so interesting and neat!!

See that's ALSO cool, and evidence of it having a desired effect :3c

OOOOH-- me too tbh- or like a video game protag? But if I were a video game or anime protag, I'd better have or recieve animal ears XDD MAKE IT FUN AT LEAST XD

OMS XDD That's p h e n o m e n a l -

!!! ;w; aww I see what you mean- damn you're getting rhcb on your dash? Why am I not getting rhcb?? XD NOOO YOUR BLOG ISNT BORING-- I love it with all my heart and I think it's great, and even though breakfast seemed a little long that's cause transitioning is difficult and stuff, so that's okay :3

WAIT THAT'S SO SMART CRYS.... YOURE SO SMART WH??? YOUR INTELLIGENCE CLEARLY SURPASSES MINE-- XDD

Ahhh I wish I had an au ;w; but I d o n t, and I definitely don't have an ellie-centered one ;w; I really want to make an ask blog I'm just like- ah- no thoughts, head empty-

Also dw advice is g r e a t l y appreciated!! ✨💖💕💞❤️

omg same- i have a crap ton of work that i can literally do NOW and get it over with but im like "NAHHHHHHH" xD but i at least did some work of it- even tho im sure its not even good but its my teacher's fault for saying "something is better than nothing" a whole dam lot XDD

and ohHHH that might be what it is- yeah ! thinking back on it i also do find it hella cool- i was able to be the teacher's pet for some of my classes xD- but then if any of my classmates see me during lunch time i would be here loud ASFFF and also saying the weirdest nonsense ever- omg i can ramble about how cool school was WITHOUT the work yknow? like all the events- friends- and ALL that is awesome xDD and also thanks for thinking its neat! i kinda had fun messing around with people- god i feel kinda mean- XDDD

and HELL YEAH GIVE ME ANIMAL EARS GOD-- XDD omg whats funny is that i am in LOVEE with animal headbands- headbands are literally my comfort item at this point- when i go outside without one- i just dont feel the same xD one time at christmas my bro gave me a cat headband that has switch so it lights up- and i was OBSESSSED with it that i wore it literally everyday at school- and OMG YKNOW WHATS FUNNY: thats how people know who i am- because of my headbands- which is actually convenient cause NO ONE KNOWS MY NAME- like they would know me as a smart girl but they would have no clue who tf i am (because i am soooo not social in school xD)

and cause i wear the same headband everyday- people have kinda known me for it- and kinda just started calling me "cat girl" or "cat ears" or SMTH along with cat in it- it was funny XDD but also my brain tells me "people call you this because thats what happens when you dont have many friends-" and im like "yeAh i KNOW-" xD but after like a semester i stopped wearing the cat headband cause got new headbands! they are like pom poms! i had white ones and the other headband is black ones- i switch between them usually to match my outfit or how im feeling today xD

and AS YOU KNOW IT- i got crazy nicknames- and little did i know it WAS WAYY FUNNIER than with the cat headband- omg- i can list you all the things i remember:

"snowballs" "fuzzy ears" "white/black fuzz" "RABBIT TAIL EARS-" (THAT one was what my teacher called me before knowing my name and my friend witnessed it- in fact i got the audio recorded xD) and also names something along the line of "bear ears" or smth- gosh it went wild- i felt popular xD i would also have friends that would softly bap on of my pom poms just for the sake of messing with me- xDDD

but anyways- with rhcb OH BOY OH BOY- YOU SHOULD SEE THE HENRY STICKMIN CHARACTER TAGS ON INSTAGRAM- the cat ears on characters was WIILLLDDD- there were also so many neko reginalds and shit it was crazy but awesome xDDD

and yeah the breakfast arc i felt like it was the oppurtunity for the triple threat themselves to answer lotta questions- kinda a filler arc- but thank GOD the questions i got now were just boring- or it would be better for the toppats to answer- youd never know! and yknow what- ill just say it now- yknow how henry doesnt know all that much of stickcats? yeah- but guess what- reginald knows a whole lot more ( or well- supposed to) so i wished the people viewed it as reginald the master of knowing stickcats- i even thought of a spinoff comic series where when someone asks a good question about stickcats- it would trigger a class lesson as a jokey concept XDD with sensei reggie! BAHHAA sadly i think i, as the mod, already answered a lot of those questions- so sadly it might not become a thing xD

and YESSS I FELT BIG BRAIN FOR IT- and i think sending myself questions was what made the blog spread easily- cause when you make a blog- its going to be hard for someone to ask you questions first- especially since your post will takes days til it finally shows up on the tags- so may as well make your own questions! at first- i created the blog on my phone- and sadly on my phone it wouldnt let me ask my own blog( but i didnt know you CAN send yourself asks just by going on a computer or laptop- xD) so i yelled at two of my friends like "HRYHEYEHYEHEY THIS IS SOO OUT OF CONTEXT BUT CAN YOU GO ON TUMBLR FOR ME-" XDD and those two friends were the first asks of the whole blog! when henry woke up! (this is all- what i call- a pro gamer move-- /hj XDD)

and awhhh- i feel that- i literally also have the power to make an very suspenseful story with an interesting au- but what i decide to do? "HEY- WHAT IF WE ADD CAT EARS AND TAILS ON STICKFIGURES- " and what i tell myself? "OH- GENIUS- gonna start a whole ass blog-" XDDD but ALL of my AUs are just comfort AUs- i wrote stories of three of them(if you count the stickcat au) while the rest i just daydream- xD i could list them in the next post if you are somehow interested XDD

and thank gosh! i hope what i say would be considered advice- even though im just stating what i do and all xD but thank you!!! 💞💞❤️😭❤️❤️😭💞

#the rambles of crystu #WOOO long post long post :OO

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