#should I have? Idkidk sorry

[my-love-of-books]

hey sorry if this is weird this is my first time requesting 😭 but can you do ftm flirty reader x five from the umbrella academy where that five is fighting some guys (you can choose who) and some how the reader gets in the fight to and helps five. Also the reader calls five pretty boy and some other flirty names like btw. Andddd thats all I couldn't think what comes after that sorry 😭 but you can continue off it tho!

Noooo I'm horrible at writing fight scenes😭 we shall try tho! The first fight I thought of was ofc the iconic gridy's donuts' fight, so wish me luck!!

Paring: five x ftm!reader —(honestly reader is pretty gn here, sorry ik thats not what you wanted anon😭)

Warning: cursing, NOT proofread (sorry), gun wound, really short

I huff and pull the stupid blazer –they said there was nothing else for me to where other than one of five's old uniforms– closer around my shoulders as I walk towards the donut shop Five had supposedly gone to. A small smile spreads across my face when I see my partner though the window, I let myself in and walk up right beside him; ignoring the older-looking man on the other side.

"Alright sweets, next time, don't run off and leave me at that house by myself, please and thank you" I say, pulling out a bar stool.

"you weren't by yourself, you had my siblings." he murmurs nonchalantly. "Right, Miss famous and the Junkie did directed me here, thought the latter would not shut up about my sex life." I laughed at the recent memory and smirked at Five. He sips his coffee; the Older man nods our way before leaving. "Gonna give me some of that?" I whisper, leaning closer to the school boy.

His eyes flicker to me, then to my lips, then back to my eyes. I raise my eyebrow at him, "In here? You perv!" I jokingly whisper. He scoffs and rolled his eyes, sipping his coffee again, but I see it's just to hide his growing blush and smile.

"You said it not me"

My devious smirk only grows "Oh come on, can't help it when you look at me so pretty-"

Suddenly the door behind us swings open and multiple men in black tactical gear with guns walk in, surrounding us. One man in particular moves to stand closer to us, almost between me and five. I sit up straighter, eyes scanning the room, looking for weaknesses; my eyes flick to the brown haired boy beside me who seems to be studying the coffee in front of him, rather than the room now full of men who want us dead. "Five" I whisper.

"that was fast... 'thought Id have more time before they found me." "Okay..." the black man's voice seemed to tremble a bit as he spoke; the corners of my mouth twitched, this would be easy. "...So let's all be professional about this yeah? On your feet and come with us. They wanna talk" "I have nothing to say"

"I do" I do my best to suppress a smirk as I stand up, Five glares at me. The mans gun swiftly moves to point at me. "It doesn't have to go this way. You think I wanna shoot kids? Go home with that on my conscience?"

"oh I wouldn't worry to much about that," I say "you won't be going home" Five finishes my sentence as he grabs a butter knife from the the counter and blinks behind the man, stabbing him in the neck. Guns start going off when I grab the, now dead, man and use him as a shield from the bullets.

"Hey assholes" Five calls from across the room, allowing me to run up to the closest man as he begins to fire at me and force his gun under his own chin in one deft motion. I glance around the room, where five is nowhere to be seen. "A little help here pretty boy?" With the attention now drawn to me I jump over the counter, hiding behind it for a moment when I here the signature *whoosh* of him blinking, this time outside of the shop, drawing their fire, before right beside me "I told you not to call me that" he practically snarled. I laughed a bit; as my shoulders moved I noticed a bullet had skimmed part of my arm. *Shit... Thats gonna hurt when the adrenaline wears of*" I think to myself, watching the blood dribble from the wound.

The lights were blinking, bullets still going off. I was trying to formulate a plan on how I could help when it all when silent. "Five?" I call out, standing up from behind the counter

"yeas darling?" He asks, tightening his tie and walking over to a still-moving man, instantly breaking his neck. "N- nothing just got worried for a second" my arm began to throb.

He helps me over the counter, "you okay baby?" "Oh so you can call me baby but I can't call you pretty boy?" He gives me a stern look. "It's different, you don't go out into the field, you could have gotten seriously hurt."

"excuse you," I murmur "I used to be one of the top field agents-" "-before they shoved you behind a desk, now come on we gotta get movin'." Five kisses my forehead and brushes my wounded shoulder as he grabs a knife and begins cutting out those trackers they put in all field agents. I do my best not to react to the pain caused by the bullet, he doesn't need to know right now, it would ruin the quite sweet moment.

#I didn't like explicitly say anything about reader being ftm #should I have? Idkidk sorry #I hope you liked it! #five x reader #five ask #number five #five hargreeves #five hargreaves x reader #five hargreaves x you #five hargreeves x reader #Five x ftm!reader #Five x male!reader #five x reader fluff #five x y/n #five x you #Tua #tua five #tua fluff

[babiebom]

Completely understandable that you don't do full on smuts!!! Maybe just a Seb x autistic reader smut drabble? Or whatever youre comfy with!! I'm not picky ^_^

A/N: it took me a while to figure out what I was comfortable with that was good enough to post so I hope you like what I wrote!! Since I don’t write smut I hope this wasn’t too bad or awkward for you to read. I’m gonna try and get better at it so at some point I can actively write smut without feeling all weird about it. Also again hopefully I wrote this in a way that is like obvious that it’s autism but not in a stereotypical way? It’s kinda how my hyperfixations work? Idkidk

Tw:sexual content, cursing. Let me know if there’s anything else I should tag

Wc:0.5k

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Your mouth held still around his throbbing length as you swallow multiple times. He squirms above you, hands balled up at his sides. “H-how long are you going to do this?” He asks. You suck experimentally a couple times before coming up for air.

“I don’t know…I have to try everything out!” You move your hair back out of your face, taking one of his hands and helping him grip near your scalp. “If this’ll help then go ahead and pull”.

His eyes roll back as you put your mouth back onto him. His grip on your hair tightened and he moans loudly. You suck harshly, trying to take more of him down your throat. When you hit the back, your throat tightens uncomfortably, trying to push out the offending object.

Removing your mouth once more, you huff in annoyance. “The stupid guide said that if I practice I could do it…”

Sebastian breathes in a ragged breath, blinking rapidly. His mouth opens and closes a couple times, sucking in breaths as you continue to stroke him. Your phone is in your hand, the website you’ve been using as a guide pulled up. It was new, this hyperfixation on blowjobs in particular. Only having become your obsession about a week ago, and for that week you had been training yourself to get rid of your gag reflex, but obviously now it’s not working.

Lapping at his dick, you breathe in and take him in as far as you got the last time, breathing in through your nose. He bucks his hips up, hitting the back of your throat in quick jabs. Tears spring in the corner of your eyes. In annoyance you punch at his thighs, trying to get him to keep his body under control.

Rather than calming down, your angry little punches rile him up even more, his moans growing louder by the second. You whine, looking up at him not bothering to take your mouth off of him anymore.

“I can’t help it…” he grunts, now totally taking control to fuck your face. “You’re just doing too good”. You allow him to thrust, his head thrown back as he allows himself to chase the release he had wanted for an hour now.

Thankfully for you, his thrusting allowed you to take almost all of him in your mouth, getting farther than you had when you were focused on that and that only. Sebastian curses loudly as he finishes in your mouth, whining as you swallow around him.

Sitting back, you look up at him proudly not bothering to fix your hair as you wipe at your face. His face is red and sweaty, his eyes closed and his head tilted back as he tries to catch his breath. “I’m…so sorry…” he pants.

You shrug, moving to sit on his bed, knees aching. “Doesn’t matter…we can try again in an hour or two.”

He looks up at you, and chuckles at the unashamed smile on your face. This is going to be a long couple of weeks.

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[voidlessmaze]

003 for shigaraki? <3

hii lily omg <333

thank you sm for asking for my bestest boy shigaraki 🛐🛐

003 | Give me a character and i will tell you

• How i feel about this character:

he is my bby he is my blorbo he is my little meow meow i want to bite his cheek i want to kiss it i want to hold him gently and never let go i want to braid his hair i want to cling to him like a koala bear he is my boyfriend he is the loml he is my heart (excuse my simping lily i don’t have the means to hold back 🥲 my love is too huge pls don’t regret asking me for shiggy 😭😭)

• All the characters i ship romantically with this character:

me myself and I. shigaraki x maze. my otp for him <33. okay okay okay but in universe i guess i don’t really ship him with anyone seriously? i think shiggy x natsuo is hella funny (istg it’s the superior shiggy ship because the fanfic potential 🤌🏻 (someone ask me to explain myself please please please they’re so much fun)), also shiggy x eraserhead for the crack. otherwise i can’t really see him with anyone romantically because like?? i am right here i am perfect for him <333

• My non-romantic OTP for this character:

oooohhh alright i’ll have to go with him x spinner because they are video game besties 🥺🥺🥺 they can talk about video games all day and play together and they can just forget about everything and enjoy their time together <33 but also shiggy x the whole league <33 because in my heart they are a family <33

• My unpopular opinion about this character:

for some reason this is quite unpopular in the grand scheme of things but shigaraki is the hottest mf alive. he is vv pretty and sooo?!?!? hot and sexy and (excuse my simpery i am trying to remain normal here alright) i love him sm?? i can’t emphasise enough how gORGEOUS i think he is

look at him!!! he is perfect <3

• One thing I wish would happen/had happened with this character in canon:

for his own well being i wished he would have distanced himself from afo at some point. like that the league and him realised their goal strays from the ugly potato’s goal and just kicked him to the curb. and became a found family more. and maybe killed afo a little. i also wish he can be saved because i think he should be saved and idk how exactly that would happen and idc how unrealistic it is but i want shiggy to be happy <333 also if he ends up being saved i want him to be the biggest deku stan (after kacchan of course) snsjjssn i just think that would be cute if he says deku is his favourite hero 🥺🥺🥺 and i want him to have a dog again after all this is over

• My het ship:

shigaraki and what woman lmaoo my best boy doesn’t interact with women. the only one he is close to is toga and that’s a no-go! so no het ships for him <333

• My fem/slash ship:

i’ll go with shiggy x natsuo actually like i said they’re super funny and i am all in for the touya/todoroki drama that would ensue in that relationship. and i think that ship is a vvv rare ship and i want more people to know about them (istg if you have all the facts you realise how great they are!!)

• My OTP:

shigaraki x happiness <3333 (but also me and shiggy of course cough cough cough i would make him happy <33 i wouldn’t have let him tumble to the ground i would have caught him 🙄🙄)

• My OT3

shigaraki x hugs x a very nice and warm meal <333 i just want him to be happy fr that’s all i want for him. to be safe and happy (and in my arms,,, i AM SORRY OKAY I JUST LOVE HIM SM 💕❤️💕❤️💕❤️)

• My crossover ship:

ehh idkidk

• My kink:

???? i am confused. like my kink fOR him (is that even english shsjsj)?? my kink in regards to him??? what i think his kink would be?? just a random kink of mine?? i am sorry op of this ask game but this is not clear. anyway no context whatsoever and not specifying which one i am going for: hands. i sAID WHAT I SAID NOW LEAVE ME SIT IN SHAME 😭😭😭

• A headcanon:

okay now this will be long so buckle in. i think toga tried to braid his hair aT LEAST ONCE or put it in pigtails or some shit and he pretended he hated it but it actually made him think of his sister and he doesn’t let toga touch his hair again because it makes him sad. he is iNCREDIBLY touch-starved. this isn’t even a hc at this point there is no way this couldn’t be canon. i think he craves hugs but let’s be real, with his quirk and being partly raised by that potato looking bitch who probably laughed at his face when bby shigaraki even expressed some need for hugs he probably doesn’t think he is allowed to hug people. his favourite game is animal crossing. he keeps it a secret because it’s so wholesome and the gameplay is so uncomplicated but he enjoys building a village and making it look all ugly (let’s be real he has no sense for aesthetics and his island would be all over the place but he’d be so proud). he consumes monsters only and it’s not even one of the special flavours, it’s just the original one. he probably sends hate anons on tumblr 😐😐 embarrassing shiggy get a grip. he is in a forum for all might and other hero slander. he sleeps in fetal position with his fists pinned to his chest. he loves dogs and is one of the people who can’t walk past one without pointing out there is a dog (he also smiles and waves at them :))) the lov names IS isnpired by lol. he doesn’t shower regularly he just gives me big big having a depression hoodie vibes. he is a troll online. he has the worst spelling while texting. he puts the league of villains contact names like “do not text back” “this one’s kinda gross” “likes games” “blonde???” “wizard ordered from wish” etc. he hates emojis. ate dirt as a child and calls it a core memory. needs to be reminded to drink water. i do have more but this is getting kinda long i am so sorry shsjsjss

• My gender bend:

she’d be so hot. women who can disintegrate me with a touch brain go brrrr. 🛐🛐🛐🛐

here is the ask game <33

#thank you for the ask <333 #i realise this is the first time we like interacted interacted lily #i am so sorry this is not a good first impression #i went fERAL with this one so so sorry #shigaraki #shiggy #bnha #ask game <33 #mutuals <3333

[bakugohoex]

hey😝😝🙇‍♀️ i love ur fics sm ur writing is so good oml🤭🤭🤭🤭 can i request a jean fic where they go out and jean Likes(😏) her outfit and then semi-public sex idkidk do with that what u will😌😌 TY and remember to drink water😌🥰🥰🥰

“get in the fucking back, now”

pairing: jean kirchstein x female reader

cw: modern au, fluff, language, nsfw (female receiving oral, exhibitionism, degradation, praise, nipple play, biting, fucking (obvs), dacryphillia, dumbification and breeding), kissing and jealousy

word count: 2800+

a/n: thank you for this request and i will make sure to drink hella water, @katsuhera for out midnight simping and thinking of these kinks and ideas also i have a platonic aizawa request coming out later on so hopefully you guys enjoy them both

summary:  in which you and jean meet up for a date, instead of the coffee and cakes you find yourself in an empty car pack, bound in the back of his car ready to have his way with you

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The smell of fresh coffee and cake filled the room, Jean sat on one of the corner tables playing on his phone as he waited for you to come. You had both agreed to meet after your lectures having not seen each other since yesterday.

You both were needy, needing to at least see each other once a day to be content. It was bad enough both your schedules had fucked your time together, but your friends always seemed to drag you both away from each other. 

Finally finding time for a proper date and not just going to each other’s apartments to cuddle and watch movies. Which you had to say was an amazing date in itself. But wanting to spend the afternoon together felt just how your relationship had been. I'm the first couple of months together. 

He heard the ring of the door to your favourite cafe, as he watched you on the phone with someone. You spotted him giving him a wave, but his eyes had turned to something else. The skirt you wore, the short black skirt that pressed against your ass and thighs, the way that it squeezed your whole body. It made his head go wild and worst of all the long-sleeved shirts you wore in the spring heat had a low cut allowing all eyes to fixate on the curvature of your breasts in your white bra. 

You had put the phone down walking up to the bot with a smile, seeing a server ready to come and ask you what you wanted. But Jean had an inkling the male server would be looking at you a lot more than he should be. 

“Sorry, I’m late, our professor kept us longer to talk about an assignment.” You leaned over kissing his cheek, his eyes not daring to look down to see your breasts. 

He had missed the simple feeling of your lips on his cheek, even if he had felt it yesterday. “That’s fine, I wasn't waiting long, who was on the phone?” 

You had perched yourself on the chair skimming through the menu as he looked at you. Almost admiring his girl, the way his head was planted against his hand just watching how perfect you were. 

“Oh, my mum wanted to ask if we’re still okay to come round on Saturday.” He nodded already knowing how your mum had been begging to see the boy who she already considered her son in law.

“Eren brought another fuck round last night.” You muttered unamusingly, you both ended up just talking about the events of this morning. You explained how your mutual friend Eren had brought what seemed like the fifth girl this week back to your shared apartment. You and Eren had been friends for a while and becoming roommates seemed like the best bet when you both had first been let free all those years ago. The idea of moving in with Jean had come up and you knew by the end of the year you’d both finally have your own place together.

“Eren doesn’t tell me shit about who he fucks, it doesn’t make you uncomfortable right?” Jean leant backwards on his seat eyeing you up again, you shook your head having gotten used to it and knowing Eren had had to handle you and Jean fucking before. “What made you wear this then?”

He needed to know if you were purposely making him hard or if it was just by sheer chance. “Why? Don't you like it?”

“Quite the opposite, baby, i think we all liked it.” He spoke the last part in a whisper watching as the server had come up to you both.

“What can I get you both?” He questioned eyes fixated on you alone.

Jean rolled his eyes, hating how others were looking at what was his. “We should share the pancakes, I’m not that hungry but I want some.” 

“Pick whatever you want baby” He looked coldly to the man; your hand had been resting across the table as he grabbed it softly. You smiled at the action before putting the menu down and looking at the server. 

“Can we get some chocolate pancakes and two coffees?” You asked politely, even in the outfit that looked like you’d just come out from a night out you were ever so respectful.

“Anything else…” Jean had interrupted due to having been ignored throughout the whole encounter.

“No.” The server left, and you went back to Jean.

You remembered his question and began explaining the events of this morning. “This dickhead ran into me with coffee so i had to wear whatever i could find in my bag.”

“You just happen to have a tight skirt and low-cut shirt in your bag.” He chuckled watching you gleam out to him.

You pout at his teasing before continuing, “it’s for special occasions.” 

“Aww, is this a special occasion.” Jean teased again.

“I hate you.” 

Jeans grip around your fingers tightened, “shouldn’t I be the one hating you, coming in here looking like that, how could any man not want you?”

“Jean.” You whispered slowly.

He checked his watch, he wanted something else, something more from you and prayed that you both would eat quickly so he could let himself have you. “What do you want to do afterwards?” You questioned just as the food arrived, the same server lingering trying to hear the conversation.

“I have some ideas in mind.” Jean smirked out as he took a fork and started eating the food.

“Ooo tell me?” You pleaded hating being kept in the dark.

He looks at the server who remained close by, “walking in wearing that, what else could it be?”

Your eyes widened at the thought that your outfit could really have caused him to get this horny. “Where?”

“Don’t worry about that baby, you eat your food like a good girl.” You didn’t speak, taking a bite of the chocolate, Jean watched as you licked your lips from the stray syrup, for a man with a horny girlfriend it seemed like he had finally reached your level of horny. 

He understood all those nights he’d come home wearing a shirt and trousers. How in an instant you’d be on him, due to being, in your own words a sex god he hadn’t realised but you riled him up the same way he did too you. 

“Jean.” You had been repeating his name to get him out of his trance. You were hiding a lot more than he had realised, at his previous words a slick had formed between your walls and worst of all there was a lot more limited clothes then Jean realised.

He looked up meeting your seductive gaze, “yes baby.” 

“Come closer.” You beckoned, he obliged feeling his trousers tighten at how you moved forward. This time his eyes grazed your chest, seeing through your bra at the already hardened nipples. Your breath fanned his neck before you went to his ear, “the coffee went through my jeans, i didn’t have any spare underwear.”

His breath hitched, feeling himself unable to talk at what you had just said. You were bare between the skirt, the thought that you had been walking with your cunt on show. Worst of all he knew that if you were as horny as he would, the slick would be seeping down your thighs. “Get up.”

“But-” You were interrupted by him grabbing your hand.

“We’re going now.” He looked at the server who looked between the two of you. “How much is it?”

Jean was in a hurry; he passed the credit card impatiently tapping at where the register was. He could see eyes fixated on you, he hated how empty the place had been, with mainly uni students coming through. But in this moment the way their eyes seemed to undress you, he hated it and now knowing the extra information all he wanted to do was show you who you belonged to.

The server passed the card back. Jean in an instant pulled you out of the cafe, he walked ahead as you had been pacing yourself quicker to even keep up with the taller boy. “You’re lucky I brought my car.” He muttered as you went to the underground car park. 

There were barely any cars, being the afternoon and people still at work, the parking lot seemed more secluded than you had ever realised. Being at the furthest end, Jean looked at you seeing how you pulled your skirt down. “No point doing that now, baby, everybody already saw that pretty cunt of yours.” He mocked before unlocking his car.

“Get in the fucking back, now.” He had opened the door, waiting for you to get in. With your back across the backseats, you were in perfect view of his own body.

He moved inside the car, locking the door and car behind him. It was in these moments you were glad he had tinted windows. He gave a smirk watching as you sat upright, one leg beside his body and the other dangling to the ground. “Spread those legs.” 

You moved your leg to go onto his shoulders, feeling how his hands moved the skirt up to your hips. Your cunt dripping in wetness for his mouth to devour. “Baby.” It was muffled from your end as his hands had gripped your thighs. 

His fingers leaving indents, his mouth bite at your inner thigh. The feeling of the speckles of his hair on his face brushing against your thighs before you felt him closer and closer to your clit. “If you touch me, I’m going to stop.” It was a punishment for showing yourself off, it was a punishment, but he knew it masked the reward of being eaten out.

“Yes, Sir.” You breathed out heavily. The feeling of his hairs across your thighs sent a shock wave, his tongue gliding across your clit tasting and feeling the slick in his mouth.

He groaned at the taste of your wet cunt, his tongue doing laps inside of your blushed cunt. His hand had travelled to your shirt having pulled it to reveal your breasts in the bra, his hand went underneath groping your left boob as his mouth was at work.

“Baby…I…” You could barely think with the feeling of him giving you so much pleasure. The way his mouth would leave soft kisses against your cunt before he went back in with his tongue. 

He had told you after the first time you both had slept together how much he enjoyed eating you out. How much he loved the feeling of your cunt across his lips. He needed to feel your cum in his mouth and how it had become a mission to always eat you out before fucking you.

“Such a dirty little girl, getting this wet.” His breath was heavy, but he wanted more, pressing further into your cunt, his tongue swirling inside, the saliva mixing with your slick. His chin grazed your inner thighs, you always loved the feeling of the hairs brushing against your body. Often grabbing his chin when you both kissed just to feel the hairs brush against your palm. 

“I...I...cum.” You could barely form words through the moans and groans that filled the car. 

“Cum in my mouth baby, let me taste you all.” He whispered his hot breath against your cunt as he continued to lap his tongue in your folds. His hand had been moving along with his tongue, fingers pinching and tugging at your hard nipples.

“Jean.” You gave a final moan feeling yourself climax at the sheer power his tongue had inside of you. Cum dripped from his mouth, you saw him lick his lips to get rid of the cum that encased his lips. 

“Such a good little cumslut, want me to fuck you now?” He teased already undoing his belt, your legs remained above his shoulders, but in a quick instant he moved them to his side waiting for your answer.

“Please, fuck me sir.” Tears had welled up in your eyes, the feeling of his tongue making your cunt throb for more. How could he resist those tears, the mascara dripping down to leave a black stain down your cheeks. 

He gave a cocky grin, letting his belt fall to the ground before taking the hoodie he had worn off. The way his trousers were kicked to the front seat and he was left for you to admire sent a sensation through your body. He removed your skirt entirely, leaving soft kisses up your thighs to your stomach, before taking the shirt and pulling it over your head. “My pretty little thing.” He toyed undoing your bra to let your breasts spill out. 

His mouth attached to your right nipple, his left hand still massaging the other. You felt him swirl his tongue against the hardened tit, arching your back to make more of your breast fit inside of his mouth. “Baby, fuck me please.” You were out of breath and could feel his hardened cock brush against your thigh. 

“Are you begging, slut?” He moved his mouth to your neck, his hot breath fanning your breath waiting for an answer. 

You looked down your hands moving to his hair and back, “please Sir.”

He smirked cockily, pulling his boxers down, letting his cock curve upwards ready to skim it past your folds. His hand lazily pumped back and forth to get him harder before you felt him direct his cock between your clit, sliding up and down your cum filled hole, “Je...Jean.”

“Come on baby, moan my name for me.” Your hands had reached for his hair pulling him towards your face.

“Jean.” You gave a lewd moan into his ear before feeling his cock slam into your velvety walls. 

“You’re so tight even after I've gotten you to cum.” He mutters feeling suffocated within your walls. He brought his body down onto your own, your legs by his side as he began to move out of your cunt in a slow pace. 

“Faster.” You breathed out.

“Sluts, don’t get an opinion.” He wanted to edge you till you felt dumb, he wanted to see those tears and watch as you begged for more. He may have moved slowly out but the noise of you moaning in his hair and pulling at his hair had made his slam into you quicker. He repeated it a couple times before seeing how your chest heaved under him, his bite marks cascading across your boobs and neck. You looked bruised and broken but the moans and look of your eyes rolling back had made him realise just how much you loved it.

With a quickened pace, he felt himself go deeper and deeper inside of your cunt, the cum that had been left inside of you, helping him slide back and forth. “Doing such a good job, baby.” 

The praise was something Jean always came back too, the first time you both fucked you were unable to walk just at the sheer size of his cock. He knew to always praise you for doing so well with him, to make sure you knew that you could use his cock however you wanted too. “I… love you.” It was muffled through how Jean and you had been face to face, his mouth across your jaw, feeling the wetness still around his chin and face. 

Looking into your eyes at the comment, he saw how truly in love he was, even with the quickened pace of him fucking you raw, you truly were in love with the man. “I love you too.” He spoke capturing your lips with his own, you had missed his mouth on your own. His tongue sucked on its own, allowing for more of your cum to mix inside of your mouth, you could feel yourself coil up inside, ready to orgasm for a second time. 

He could see how your hands had stopped tugging as forcefully on his hair, how your nails had stopped scratching his back and instead skimmed across his skin. “You going to cum for me.”

“Ye…” You could barely speak at his pace increasing, wanting to fuck all the cum out of you in a matter of seconds. His mouth went to your neck, hand moving to take your own, he felt your fingers lace between your own as he sucked on the skin. 

“Cum for me.” He ordered feeling you gush on top of his blushed cock, he felt himself cum from the feeling of being able to slide even more into your body, feeling his cum shoot inside of you. A bulge being prominent through your stomach of being filled up, “such a good girl.” 

He kissed the top of your head with praise, sweat and cum filling the car, you only nodded unable to speak at the pleasure you had just encountered. He took you in his hands, letting you lean against his body. Moving the strands of hair that stuck to your body, he looked at how pretty you looked, even with the dishevelled hair and cum seeping out from your sore cunt. You looked as pretty as always, his pretty girl.

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[doctorqueensanatomy]

Hi! Saw your post regarding Oscar Isaac's english accent and I have a question.

As a non native English speaker his accent was amazing! May I ask what the accent slips were?

I'd love to know as a linguistics student.

Hope you have an amazing day!

Hiya of course I can! just as a quick disclaimer I'm not a linguistics student nor a professional, I just find accents interesting! My notes on Oscar Isaac's accent shouldn't detract from his oustanding performance and I go on to say how grateful i am for it. nonetheless here are Moon Knight's episode 1 and 2's accent slip-ups with time-stamps and a bit of explanation

disclaimer about my own accent: i'm from a borough in greater west London with working class routes, I'm gen z, and i have family from Yorkshire and Ireland, which are all factors in the way I speak. British accents are incredibly diverse depending on many circumstances. my judgement on Oscar Isaac's accent in Moon Knight shouldn't be taken as gospel as what I hear can be different from someone who has a similar background as Steven Grant in the UK. I never know what to describe my accent as apart from 'very London', so I wouldn't even begin to describe Steven's further than 'very London', which already encompasses so much i could do another post about it. but onwards and upwards.

here's what I noticed from episode 1 and 2 w/ timestamps :-)

episode one

quick Gus mention: i noticed he calls his fish Gus in an almost northern manner? I think this is a result of an American accent and London one mixing. I don't count it as a slip up as the vowel it would usually ('usually' being taken lightly) be is one i also say differently in contexts

5:14 - the way he says 'only' in "only the worthiest would be allowed" struck me as an American pronunciation. perhaps it could pass as a London one but I think only in sarcastic circumstances which wouldn't fit the context

7:17 'that' in "I only wanted to tell you that", personally, sounded more like 'thit'? if that makes sense? it sounded out of place in the otherwise perfect sentence

8:43 "why I try to stay awake at night" maybe it's because he's eating but the 'awake' has a lilt. I'm sorry I can't give more in depth things other than "it sounds like..." or "it feels..." But there are certain intonation away from vowels sounds (which he also mucked up there) that you can just hear? this is a good thing however, as in this scene Steven says "there are stranger things that people do" where Oscar has hit this up and down notion I hear all the time. it's really fun to listen to if you can spot it out. sorta like an iambic pentameter

8:49 directly following the line above he says "no?" which has this nasal quality maybe? this is the best way I can describe it with a broad American quality

21:51 I initially marked down him saying "you sleep alright?" as one but listening back i think I was wrong. I'll leave it here to see what others say...

22:22 "it was like that when I bought him" except 'baught' sounds like 'bot' which again I think is a blend of Steven's accent with Oscar's slipping in

29:22 "hello?" I've not personally heard a British person say hello like that though if any Brits wish to prove me wrong by all means

33:38 nitpicking again as listening back I'm on the fence but he says "please" and I thought I heard something but again. open to interpretation.

34:58 this one stood out like a thumb to me. "books must have left that part out" except 'that' sounds almost like 'their' in a British accent and 'that' in a southern American one? idkidk

episode two

3:07 "I should go with you" but 'with' has a lilt. Best way I can describe it. it sounds almost too delicate for the sentance considering he might lose his job.

10:35 "bit late for that" the whole sentance sounds mismatched between two contrasting accents. 'late' and 'that' stick out to me. he saves it with the "innit" though

those are all the ones I personally noted! here's a little self indulgent ramble about British accents and why I'm so grateful for this. remember I'm not a professional and these are just my obsevations

the diversity between accents in the UK are very, very vast. we say you can go down the road and someone speaks completely different but its true. accents are also very very class orientated, and we're often (subconsciously through our media and politics) what accents are "good" and what accents are "bad".

working class accents are often seen as "dirty", "uneducated" and "violent" where upper class one's are seen as "proper", "educated" and "polished". not only is it shown within our own society, but you often see it online too. when people mimicked a "British accent" they solely do 2 South-East England accents that caricature the working class and uphold the elites. I think this is why (again, personally) most British people get annoyed when people try to do a "British" accent, because they only ever do a dick van dyke esque cockney one or Queens English one. and when it comes to making fun of our accent, the only ever take the piss out of the working class one.

you mostly see in mainstream media this RP accent, with the occasional cockney or working-class coded one usually attributed to the villain or 'hard man'. a lot of British actors are from high-class families and have high-class accents (not all! there are plenty who aren't. but there is so much nepotism and elitism in the British creative industries)

so hopefully I've shown enough to give you the sense of relief I had when I heard a solid London accent, done of the actors' own volition, that is not entirely upper class and is, in fact, an accurate representation of how people talk. I shed a tear if I'm being honest. not only the accent but the mannerisms of British people: our awkwardness, humour, passive aggression. they were all taken into account and I adore that. just because I'm pointing out these minute details doesn't mean I'm nitpicking the series. I'm so thankful Oscar Isaac decided to do a British accent in this and that he cared. and as I said in my original post, this doesn't even go into detail about the representation within the series culturally and with mental health issues. I won't comment on those because I'm not educated enough nor have experience with these areas, but I am British. and I for one can say that it was fabulous.

i could go on and on about the phrases used, or his mannerisms, or the other British accents within this, but for now I hope you've found this interesting. I'll make another post for the next two or three episodes when I get to them and will ultimately make a masterpost and perhaps a youtube video but currently, it's quarter past 1 and I'm exhausted <3 have a lovely day and stay safe xx

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[izur-x]

Baking

Pairing ~ dom!nagito/sub!reader

Genre + warning ~ ns//fw , self degrading nagito 🙄 , IDKIDK , IDK REALLY 😭, nagito manipulating you, changing POV, kitchen s*x, ONLY FINGERING GUYS NDDNDNDNDNDJ

Summary ~ nagito want bagels

Note ~ JUST BAKING BAGELS WITH NAGITO GUYS!! THERE IS NOTHING WRONG IN HERE!!! also, this is ooc omg, oh yeah, the reader is fem, sorry male!

"s/o, i know this is selfish but...."

"i already told you, it's okay, no matter what it is, it's not selfish. Go on." You reassuring him, "i truly doesn't deserve you, s/o.." you eyes rolled him "oh please, you deserve." Nagito smiled "thank you....even thought i-" "omg i already told you, and go on, what do you want?"

"can we bake bagels together.... it's okay if you do not want to bake with me!" "Sure." He look at you surprised, his smiled even wider "thank you my loved!" You nodded, "we should get the ingredients from the supermarket, let's go!"

"finally we're home! Let's get started." As you locked the door, you seen that nagito closed the window and pulling the curtain down, "nagi, it's dark you know, why'd you pull the curtain?" You walk up to him.

"it's nothing, i just want to be alone with you...and i know this is se-" you shush him "no it's not, now let's get thing started."

You put on an apron, and head to the kitchen with the ingredients.

As you prepare the for the dough, for some reason, nagito is really quite, for someone who won't stop renting and talking about hope, is surely are strange.

You decided to ignore it, and continue to making the dough. After the dough was done, "hey nagi, could you knead the dough?" "Sure my hope! I will lend you my strength!"

I want to back up but nagito blocked me, "can we do it together, like, i will be behind you, my hands on your hands, and we work together! How was that sound? If you do-" "oh! Good ideas nagi! Sure we could do that."

As i felt nagito hands placing his hands into mine, we begin to works. In a moment, i feel something licking my earlobe..., "N-nagi? Why are you li—" "shh...." My cheeks begin to feel hot.

"o-okay then." We continue to knead the dough, i couldn't stay focused because nagito keep licking and biting my ear, he begin to move to my neck, "ah...nagito? Um.." "yes my love? What's wrong?" As he planting kisses onto my neck.

"we-we're in a middle of kneading the dough.." my breath become heavy, nagito chuckles, "and?" He continues to marking my neck.

"do-don't you want bagels—" "hm~ bagels can wait." He purred into my ear. I'm choosing to ignores it and continue to knead the dough, and nagito was doing the same but, he's also marking my neck.

I couldn't handle the heat on my stomach, so i bite my bottom lips, "na-nagito, uhm, can you stoo biting my neck?" "Hm...no." 'ah...whyyyy i thought you want bagels, you manipulative ass...' as i cursed in my thoughts.

I see that nagito right hands leaving my arms, and made their wait into my skirt "ah! Wait—" i felt his index fingers pressed from outside of my underwear.

I moaned, as soon i realise i was moaning, i quickly cover my mouth and grip onto nagito hands and pulling away from my skirt.

"h-hey!" I blushed, he just laugh "looking at you, you look pleasured by that." "What!? No I'm—" he place his index fingers onto my lips and whisper into my ears "shhh- we can bake later..."

"i-i—" i could answer it. "Hm? What do you think?" "I..." I looked to the ground, "hahaha! Come on, what do you think?" I stayed silent, as i made up my mind, i pull him into a hug and burried myself into his crooked neck.

"i take that as a yes..." We stay like this for a minute. I pulled the hug away, and looking away from Nagito's gray greenish orbs. "Hey, look at me." Nagito hand cupped my left cheeks and slowly turn my attention to him, "i know i didn't deserve this but..." I waiting him to continue.

"I'm asking for a consent, can we do it..?" I nervously nodded "ah...i feel like i don't deserve you..and yet, here we are." He kissed you passionately and you gladly to return the kiss.

He put his hands on you waist and asking for a permission again to enter your mouth, you battle against his talented tongue. He put you on top of the kitchen table so that it's easy to reach out to your part.

His hands placed on top of you thighs and begin to caressing it, you pulled the kiss and cover up your mouth, you looked at him, nagito just smiled and continue to caressing your thighs.

You softly moans, his hands finally enter your private part, your breath become even heavier. He begin to tease you by pocking your cvnt from outside of your undergarment.

"ngh.." you kinda mad with all of the tease he have done to you. You placing your arms to his shoulder and pulling him even closer, you were panting into his ears without realizing.

He stop teasing you and begin to actually fingering you, because of a sudden action you accidentally moans into his ears making his boner hard.

He increase the speed until you reach your climax, plug it in and out, he insert two fingers now, you trying to be quiet but this is too much.

You now reach your climax, "it's okay, don't worry to get me all wet." Nagito make sure you don't get uncomfortable by his touch, you shyly nodded.

As he continues to fingers you, and he hit your sweet spot, you shiver and came down high. Your body became tired, you were exhausted, nagito pull you into a hug and begin to caressing your hairs "thank you love for allowing me to do this selfish desire."

"i told you, it's not selfish..." Nagito chuckle, "you can rest now, i can take care of the baking." Nagito whisper a sweet comment, as such 'you did amazing'.

Side note ~ rura is blushing so hard rn THIS TOOK SO LONG BYE 💔 also, please request something :') don't forget to read fhe rules on my carrd if you want to request!

Yes he still blushing

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[mazojo]

Winter 2022 Anime Opinions

Time to rank the anime I watch for self care, I wish you all a good winter 2022 😌 this are my personal opinions btw so no need to get angry if you don’t agree self care

Futsal Boys!!!

Boring. Honestly I have just watched the first ep and I was extremely disappointed because I like soccer based sports but it was very bland and flavorless unfortunately rip I will finish it but meh

Tribe nine

I am sorry to be the bearer of bad news besties but if you say you liked tribe nine no you don’t, you like danganronpa and you are barely scraping through watching tribe nine like I am. It’s not a very solid concept lets not lie to ourselves. Maybe it’s because baseball is in on the bottom of my tier list of boring sports and they tried to sell it to me but failed or maybe it’s just the gigantic leaps of logic this show has the audacity to present but it’s definetely doing something. You go girl give us nothing assfgks points only for having wacky character designs

Baraou no Souretsu

This series is weird asiiwj because there were some aspects I liked and others I hated. I don’t know much about it and I haven’t been keeping up with it so can’t comment much but idk, I feel like it tries to do many things at once and doesn’t really succeed in most. I also find it weird that the demon analogy is linked to the whole thing but idkidk

Tokyo 24-ku

This is a bad series. I hate it because I was expecting so much for it but all Cloverworks does well is let me down so that’s that :) I do like red haired boy he is the only saving grace but the plot is a mess and I am like 7 or 8 eps in and I couldn’t tell you what the plot is about

Hakozume

This is basically copaganda the anime and I ain’t buying it. The latter episodes have been slightly more tolerable but not much so it still sucks lmao,,,,, I only like the moments were the girls are girlfriends and stuff but the story is a lot at once and I still think it should include some warnings or buildup for the triggers

Orient

I am ngl I have only watched two eps but I thought it was fine. I know it has an awful rating in MAL so take me with a grain of salt but I liked it, I didn’t think it was anything new nor innovative but I didn’t expect a masterpiece either so it was fine,,,, the character design is cute too.

Koroshi Ai

This one is weird for me because I still don’t know if I liked it or not lmaoo I think I like the idea of it and the concept but the execution lacks something for me and I still don’t know what,,,,, I haven’t read the manga for this but I think this is one of those cases were the adaptation didn’t really do it justice but not sure..... I am very on the edge about it

Akebi-chan no Sailor- fuku

I still think this is cute in a boring way ASSJWKSK Like i watch it every week and I enjoy it while at it because it’s min numbing and literally nothing happens but it’s cute at it so ig points AKSJSJW The main girl is very stereotypical main girl chan but I think it’s cute, I feel like it attracts the wrong crowd but it’s still cute while at it

Attack on Titan

Yeah I don’t know what I can say apart from the normal about aot. It’s good, I am confuse half of the time but I know it’s a good anime so watch it if you want but I don’t think you need to read this to know that SLSKKSS look at Jean thO!!! Hot girl shit

#I am still on tumblr phone because colombia hates us so I couldn’t include the cut thing sorry about that #also because of that same reason I will have to divide this in two posts #just because of the gifs but I am petty okay so I am sorry for that ASKSKS #winter 2022 #anime #futsal boys #tribe nine #Baraou no Souretsu #Tokyo 24-ku #hakozume #orient #koroshi ai #Akebi-chan no Sailor- fuku #aot #long post

[nose-bandaid]

the fragility of a petal

do you have any plan to write a sequel for camellia? i really love the plot and hope the story could be developed a little bit more where they become official then something angst happen (idk maybe something like a thirdwheel? lol) but they'll figure it out anyway

prince!Shinwon x princess!Reader | royal kingdom AU fluff + a little angst | 3k words

sequel to: camellia

synopsis: you can only go for so long without another tedious party in your schedule, but thankfully this time, you have your fiancé shinwon by your side to keep things interesting. however, your childhood friend seems to be wedging themselves into the equation, and now someone seems a little jealous...

a/n: my camellia anon,, for you !! thank you for being so kind and patient, i hope that this is what you imagined:) i was also looking back on camellia and was like wow,, my writing was quite something back then huh. i’m not so sure why i used stage names so i fixed it up here (except for hui though i think of it as a nickname),, so i’m sorry for the inconsistencies! maybe one day i’ll go back and edit camellia cause i’m a little unhappy about it idkidk BUT NOT TO TALK ABOUT THAT I’LL SHUT UP LOL ily and i hope you enjoy this<3

===== You found this situation oddly familiar as you were once again, standing in front of the mirror, checking out your outfit before entering the party.

But this time Shinwon was standing by your side.

“You look beautiful love, I promise.” He placed a gentle hand on your shoulder to pull you towards the doors down the hallway. “Stop worrying about it.”

You frowned a little at his words but allowed him to guide you away from the mirror. “Sorry, it’s just a habit I guess. I’m going to be seen by a whole bunch of people after all.” Being the daughter of the hosting family also didn’t do any good in helping you escape from the countless people who wanted to meet you.

“Well, if you keep your eyes on me, I’ll give you all the compliments you need! Just ignore the others.” He quipped loudly with a wink and held the door open for you to enter the ballroom. The music was already echoing within the large room, people milling about, chatter all around you.

“Gosh, why did I fall in love with someone so cheesy.” You laughed as you headed towards a less crowded section in a nearby corner. It was always nicer to not be surrounded by people who didn’t seem to have a sense of personal space. But then again, if you were caught up in dancing and laughing, you probably wouldn’t have cared as much about that either.

You and Shinwon didn’t get too far into avoiding the attention when you heard someone loudly call out your name, competing with the strings who were beginning to play their minuet and trio. Your head swivelled around, trying to find the source of the voice, but all you saw was a mass of colourful clothing.

“Y/n!” The voice called again, and this time, it sounded much familiar.

“Changgu…?” You muttered under your breath, eliciting a hum of interest from Shinwon.

And sure enough, there was Changgu, dressed in a tux — which was a mix of cream and white that suited him well — rushing towards you with a wide grin. Behind him was his father, walking leisurely to eventually join you guys as well (though he stopped for a moment to grab a glass of wine). Without even giving you a chance to register the situation, Changgu engulfed you in a big hug, almost tipping you over with all the energy.

“Y/n! I’ve missed you so much! How have you been doing?” He exclaimed after he pulled away to scan your face, eyeing every single detail.

“I’ve been doing great!” You smiled back. “How about yourself?”

“Oh, you know, same old, same old.” He rolled his eyes and returned to his bright smile. “But let’s not talk about me — it’s your party after all, and we don’t need that small talk. Anything special happen while we’ve been apart?” He then lowered his voice and added not so subtly, wiggling his eyebrows. “You didn’t run off and find a special someone, did you? You can’t do that to me.”

It took you a moment to find a response. You swore you sent him a message about your engagement months ago, but from the way he was acting right now, it didn’t seem like he had any knowledge of it at all. In the corner of your eye, you could see Shinwon cast a confused glance in your direction. 

Before you could respond, his father passed by to join in on the conversation. “It’s been so long since you guys got to meet, if you plan on marrying each other then we’ve got to plan more dinners like this. Though of course, a little more intimate where we don’t invite all the kingdoms over.” He joked with a hearty laugh. 

Oh. So they didn’t know about your engagement.

You chuckled along awkwardly as you watched him leave the conversation to go talk to another guest.

“He’s right, it’s been so long since we last met, we should do something together again! Like those ballroom classes, remember how we did that when we were little? We should take another class so that we can see each other often again. I love dancing with you.” Changgu rambled on excitedly and took your hands into his. His touchy antics typically weren’t unusual at all to you, having been best friends for as long as you could remember, you weren’t bothered by his love for physical contact. But today, your hands felt like they were on fire as he held them tightly, and it was probably because you could feel a certain someone staring at the two of you.

Shinwon spoke before you could. “Actually,” He put a tight grip on your shoulder and pulled you closer to his side, making Changgu step away from you a little. “Y/n already has a fiancé and the wedding will be happening this summer.” He declared boldly.

You saw the first sign of jealousy when his other hand clenched into a fist.  Now, Shinwon would never get physical, nor would he ever hurt a fly, but you could tell that he was doing so to relieve his anger. He had to do something to calm himself down.

“Ah…” Changgu stared at the two of you, mouth slightly parted as he slowly connected the dots. Then, that confusion morphed into a smile and he playfully nudged you. “You didn’t tell me you had something going on.”

“Did… did you not receive the letter we sent out?” You managed to stammer out.

“Hm? There was a letter?”

“Yes we sent one out a long time ago, it may have gotten lost I guess.” You weakly concluded. The Yeo family didn’t interact much with the other kingdoms — they hadn’t even gone to Shinwon’s party, and instead spent most of their time in the peaceful solace of the forests.

“Ah, oh well, it would’ve come to me as a surprise either way. So,” He shrugged it off and turned to look at Changgu. “You’re the man? What’s your name?” He held out his hand to shake.

“... Ko Shinwon.” He replied flatly, and firmly took his hand and squeezed it.

“My name is Yeo Changgu!” He responded back, seemingly unfazed by his cold attitude. “Me and y/n have been friends ever since we were little.”

It was a harmless comment, maybe a little unnecessary, and from the look on Changgu’s face, you weren’t sure why he found the need to say it, but his eyes still twinkled with friendliness. Shinwon, on the other hand, didn’t seem to take his statement the same way you did, and he tightened his grip on your shoulder.

-----

Shinwon seemed to lighten up a little bit when you busied yourself with talking to other guests and he kept a loose hand in yours, gently playing with it. Though wasn’t long before Changgu approached you again, now with a rose in his pocket and you silently wondered who he got it from.

“Would you care for a dance, my princess?” He joked but held his hand out in all seriousness for you to take. You hesitated, trying to peer into his mind before looking to your right to check on Shinwon, only to realize that your fiancé had already struck up a conversation with one of his friends. No matter how much you stared, he didn’t look your way. 

You huffed at his pettiness and gratefully took your friend’s hand. “Why I’m definitely up for a dance.”

The two of you swayed to the beat and you tried to get your mind off of Shinwon. You could tell he was starting to sulk a little bit and couldn’t stop the feeling of concern bubbling within you. But at the same time, his stubborn attitude unwillingly irked you a little and you wanted to push aside his unnecessary jealousy. No matter how much you tried though, the setting still reminded you of when you first danced with Shinwon. How he was the only one to understand you that day, how stunning he looked even with the mask on, how nice it felt to kiss him for the first time— 

“Ah—!”

Pulled out of your thoughts, you brought your focus back to Changgu and followed his shocked gaze to see your foot stepping fully onto his. That must’ve been a little painful.

“I’m so sorry, I got distracted.” You quickly apologized and fumbled a little as you tried to get back into the rhythm of the dance.

Your best friend lightly chuckled, though there was a slight hint of discomfort in his smile. “You haven’t changed a bit, have you?” He reminisced. “Always getting distracted during dances and stepping on people’s toes.”

He was right, ever since the beginning of your lessons, you found it hard to not get lost in your thoughts and had always ended up misplacing your steps or bumping into those beside you. As your go-to dance partner during those times, Changgu had always experienced that clumsiness first-hand, and recently, Shinwon was also starting to realize that for himself. Clearly, you only harboured so much love for dancing.

The music picked up its tempo, signalling the time to switch partners and Changgu bid you off with a happy wave. Spinning around, you almost bumped into someone else and looked up to see the one and only Shinwon who seemed just as shocked as you were.

You quirked an eyebrow. “Well, not going to invite your own fiancée for a dance?” You tried to create some sort of amendment with him through your joking tone but his eyes averted from your gaze as he licked his lips.

That was the second clue to his jealousy. He always played with his lips and looked away when he was distracted and thinking about something else. After an awkward beat, he brought his hands into position and pulled you onto the floor for a dance without a word.

In the midst of the music, your little dance was silent and disappointing to say the least. Usually, they were filled with stories and laughter — that aspect came naturally to the both of you. Though you still shared this quiet sense of heartfelt affirmations, there were still so many things missing. Like his smile. 

You wanted to draw out a smile from him so badly to ease your heart, but none of your efforts seemed to work and his posture remained rigid, strictly following the music like he was worried about others criticizing his skills. The dance continued like that until you heard your father calling the two of you to take your places at the dining table.

You gave Shinwon a quick peck on the lips before making your way to your seat where many other notable guests were already gathering. When you sat down, you spotted Jinho in the spot in front of you and gave him a small nod of acknowledgement. As the son of the neighbouring kingdom, he was a familiar face at your palace. He leaned onto the table and smiled sweetly. “Y/n, you’re looking beautiful as usual.”

As you returned the compliment with a polite reply, you flinched a little when Shinwon set down the glass he was holding a little too forcefully and he muttered a small “sorry.”  When he chose to talk to the guest beside him instead of returning your stare, you turned back to Jinho who sent you a sympathetic smile.

The night wasn’t supposed to turn out like this.

Earlier, a small part of you admittedly had the intent of playing his own game by ignoring his hints of jealousy, but now, as you watched him sulk to himself, your heart melted and you sucked up your own pride. Your dignity was the last of your worries now — your new goal was to cheer up and remind him that yes, you still loved him and that there’s no reason for him to get jealous over a childhood friend. Even if that friend was a little too overbearing.

You spent a good chunk of that dinner glancing around the table, from one end to the other, trying to see if anyone else noticed Shinwon’s sour demeanour, or if there were any opportunities to cheer him up. However, everyone was focusing on either the food in front of them or the other guests they were conversing with, and there still wasn’t an outing for you to be able to take Shinwon outside. When you looked to your right, your eyes locked with Hui’s, just like they did the last time you saw him, and he stared back at you, slowly chewing the steak in his mouth. You couldn’t tell what he was trying to convey in his expression (and you silently scowled at his ambiguousness), but one thing was sure — there was no ounce of friendliness in his eyes, and you wondered why he wouldn’t leave you alone. You just needed an excuse to be alone...

“Gifts!”

All the attention was diverted to you when you suddenly stood up and blurted out the random word. Brushing off the crumbs that had fallen on your outfit, you let out a small sigh in relief when you noticed that they didn’t leave a stain and cleared your throat, trying to compose yourself.

“I mean,” You awkwardly looked at your father. “I’ve prepared some gifts for the guest and need some time to prepare them before the dancing starts again, so may I be excused to go do that right now? I’m done eating.”

You really weren’t done eating, but that was fine. At least you weren’t lying when you said you had gifts prepared.

“I’m going to need Shinwon to help me though.”

You felt the attention shift towards him now and took a peek at Changgu, who busied himself with his drink, paying no attention to the situation. Shinwon also didn’t look at you. He almost did, but caught himself before his eyes could wander to you and opted to cast a lost expression in the other direction.

Your stomach felt queasy when you sensed his hesitation. You caught onto the idea that he was still holding onto his pride and wanted to get back at you by staying at the table out of spite, but he simply let out a small sigh and then stood straight up, giving you a moody look.

Smiling at his cuteness, you acted like everything was fine for the sake of the guests, and grabbed his hand to lead him to your bedroom.

When you arrived, you gestured at the bows and ribbons that needed to be attached to the gifts and gave him some instructions: tie the gifts up, make sure they’re secured, double check that they looked presentable — pretty straightforward. You then headed towards your closet and pulled out the first boxes full of gifts to slide them over to where Shinwon was standing, ribbons ready in hand. You caught Changgu’s name on one of the gift tags after Shinwon received the box from you and grimaced at the unlucky coincidence.

“Thanks for leaving your food to help me,” You started, trying to prevent him from reading the names in the box. “I promise I’ll get the chefs to make your favourite dessert later.”

“Sure thing, y/n.” He brushed off your thanks with a nod and you stopped pulling the gifts out of the boxes to look at him.

That was the last indicator — he said your name. 

Shinwon hardly said your name when he was talking to you directly, it was always love or princess, or some other cheesy term of endearment. But just now, he had looked at you straight in the eyes and said “y/n” like it was a challenge.

Placing the box in your hands onto a nearby table, you faced him fully and rested your hands on your hips with a sigh. “Alright, what’s going on Shinwon?” 

You played the game back by saying his name, but approached the topic gently.

“Nothing’s going on, I don’t know what you’re getting at.” He muttered with a small pout, trying to avoid the conversation by going back to sorting the gifts, but you pulled him away to the other side of the room and leaned on one of the dressers.

“Nothing’s going on? So the past how-many-hours have been the usual Shinwon I know and love? Or is there a good explanation for it?”

When he didn’t answer, you cut to the chase. “Are you jealous?”

He was pouting even more now, finally giving up on any attempt to act indifferent to your confrontation, and you almost couldn’t take him seriously anymore. “Is it because of Changgu?” You pressed.

That got him to answer. 

“When you said you were good friends before, I didn’t think you were that close.” He hesitated and then continued. “He was being too touchy, you’re my fiancée and I don’t think he got that memo. It’s either that, or he’s taking advantage of you, and it kind of hurts to just watch you know?” 

You gently took one of his hands and traced your thumb along the back of it. “I know what you’re getting at, we’ve always been pretty close, and he’s always been a naturally affectionate person… but he might’ve stepped over some boundaries earlier. I just want you to know that those advancements don’t mean anything to me though, alright?”

Standing straight up, you went in to place a soft kiss on his lips, lingering for a while as the tips of your nose brushed against each other lovingly. 

“I love you the most, and I have no plans on leaving you.” You added.

Shinwon’s smile was a little fuller this time, and he whispered back an “I love you too” before pulling you into a warm hug, hair tickling your face as he leaned into you.

“Now let’s get these gifts all packed up, shall we? Everyone’s waiting for us.” You offered, patting his back a couple times to get him out of the sappy mood.

He didn’t miss a beat. “Will I get a dance with you later in return?”

“No, you’ll never get to dance with me ever again.” You replied sarcastically while pulling away and laughed when he went back to pouting again.

“I’m kidding darling, you can have all the dances in the world with me.”

#pentagon #pentagon x reader #pentagon shinwon #shinwon #ko shinwon #shinwon x reader #pentagon fluff #pentagon angst #shinwon fluff #shinwon angst #pentagon imagines #shinwon imagines #nose-bandaid

[aresrl]

I hihi I am!!! A little nervous w/ doing this bc I've never done this b4 so please bear🐻 w// me💦 May I request a match up? A vision, a romantic partner and maybe a friend and/or enemy? If that's too much feel free to just assign me a vision + partner, ehe/// Preferably male for a romantic match-up, but either gender is fine with a friend and enemy match-up^^ I tried to be as detailed as possible but I think I ended up just ranting, so im v v sorry if it's long! I sort of fluctuate when it comes to being an introvert/extroverted. W// strangers and irl, I'm very introverted and shy!! Rarely speak and if I do it's just the usual "Hi how are you? That's good. I'm good too, thank you for asking:)" yeayea I'm not too. Keen on social interaction irl. But I always do my best to be very nice!! I never wanna come off as mean bc wow what a bad first impression that would be. But with friends / ppl ik online?? Whew I am very very friendly n chatty ^^ Either very high energy or very chill, there's rarely any inbetween. Sometimes I like to jokingly tease my friends but I'd never go too far / make them uncomfortable!! And if I do I always apologize right away!! I like to say that I'm affectionate?? My strongest love language is def physical affection, if not quality time. Idk man there's just something about vibing with someone or hugging them that just aaaaa/// Although I usually display affection w// words of affection bc. Literally most of my friends are online friends so I can't actually hug them, sad times. Idk if this is needed/important info but I just remembered: I'm 5'6 around??? Need glasses bc. Whew i am blind (near sighted), I'm poc (specifically black) anndd, hm. Actually I think thats it for this section, aha. As you can see I'm, not really all that organized. Also I don't have the best attention span - while writing this I'm circling between 4 different apps - and I'm a bit of a mess. And also a little stupid. Just a smidge dumb. But I have my moments - I solved like. 2 puzzles in Inazuma by myself so I think that counts for something. I also find that I tend to talk a whole lot when I have an idea or smthn to say abt a thing I'm super interested in!! That's info-dumping. I info dump. Yes. I also really like to listen to other people talk abt things they like!!!! Its so nice :) I'm protective over people I care about!! I've never done it but 100% would bark at someone who messed with someone close to be. Arf arf yaknow. I tend to he impulsive. I'll do something, and be all "YEAH>:D" and then regret it later. And then I'll do it all over again in a fun little cycle :) I consider myself an optimist, but quickly turn into a pessimist whenever it concerns myself. Fun funfun. Should probably mention that I am. A very insecure person w/ dangerously low self esteem, which is super fun esp when you mix that with the fact that I'm rarely ever motivated to improve. Yayayay Also sort of a pushover?? Like most often than not I'll be convinced to do something, even if I'm not too keen on doing it. Also afraid of confrontation when it comes to my friends and strangers (that is, if it's concerning me!! I'll order smthn for my friend but if I need to order for myself?? uhh stutter time aha). I'm also a mega simp ahah! Srsly though if I fall for someone/get infatuated with someone I. Will be so obvious abt it even though I try very hard not to be. Would gush over that person probably. I don't really like mean people tbh. Like yes I'll be nice and civil with them but!!! I cannot stand!!! Rude people!!! Esp when they're mean for no reason like sir??? maam??? homie??? chill pls ty<3 People who aren't necessarily mean, but moreso have bastard energy and are just really "hehe>:D" but playfully are p poggers tho!!! I think I get along with kids!! I have a little sister,, around like. Nine? And we get along really well!! I also try and match a kid's energy whenever I'm tasked with looking after them. I take pride in the fact that kids like me >:].... even if they sometimes scare me-- Ok, interest time!!

I like art!! Quite a bit!! Less of a realistic artist and more of a cartoonist!! Idk there's just something fun abt drawing cartoons, hehe. I also like self ships - I have quite a bit of them, actually ! Idk its comforting drawings your fictional crushes loving you idkidk. I like writing too! Both original stories, and one-shots or personal fics that are associated with already created media!! Writing character backstories and personalities and stuff is also fun too! I've even made my own fictional world with a full fledged backstory n everything! It's very fun to think about. I'm a day dreamer!!! Yea remember when I said I write stories? I day dream abt potential stories even more. Mmm daydream world so nice so warm so fun I read aswell!! Mostly fantasy books, or stories where animals are the protagonists. Think Warrior Cats. But my favorite book series has got to be Guardians of Ga'Hoole. Fantasy owl books, anyway! X Readers are also things I enjoy reading :) Again, s I m p Also gaming!!! Is something fun I do sometimes!!! Although it's usually Genshin Impact, or Wii Sports/Resort w// my little sister. Oh, also pokemon! I rlly like Primarina, Vaporeon, Sylveon and Vulpix/Ninetails! I absolutely adore sweet foods, and baking is smthn I'm def interested in! Don't like foods w// weird textures though, like beans or mashed potatoes. Also I. Love spice so much. Mmm love it when my mouth burns so bad. Don't have a favorite animal but I've had three cats in my lifetime (btw not important but my current cat is named Sylvester and. He's my baby boy) so I am. A very big cat fan. Probably not needed but I really like sword and claymore characters. Literally all of the characters I main are either sword or claymore users. Although I did get Diona, so I miiight start forcing myself to learn how to aimmm. I see that I tend to like people/characters that are a little more extroverted than me. Upbeat, happy type beat!!! Nice sunshine babies, :) I think thats it! I hope this was good enough? Again, first time doing this (at 2am nonetheless) so forgive me if I got too rambly or did anything wrong ^^ Thank you for taking the time out of your day to read this! And I hope your day is good / you had a good day, depending on when you read this, ehe!

Hey! Sorry if the wait has been long! I also love Warrior Cats (I promise myself, one day I'll finish it.)

You received... A Pyro vision! Optimistic, enthusiastic, impulsive, reckless, and a lot of energy are the general characteristics held by the Pyro vision. • I hesitated between the Pyro and Hydro vision, but your energy distinguishes you from the Hydro vision. • You said you were impulsive, always doing something you might regret later but still doing it. • You react quickly: as you said, if somebody hurt someone you love, you won't think twice before barking. Your partner would be... Xingqiu! “This feeling was unexpected.” • At first, you were just friends, and Xingqiu really loved to tease you. Actually, you both teased each other. But eventually, a feeling of love towards you grew into Xingqiu. And that was reciprocated. • Your relationship is filled with teases, jokes, and good/funny moments where you mostly share what you commonly appreciate. • He also knows when to get serious: for example, he does everything to support you during your moments of struggle concerning your self-esteem. Your friend would be... Childe! “Luckily, I'm here!” • You two also share funny moments, especially during situations where your “stupidity” is overtaken by his insight. • Sometimes, he finds you cute. • He likes the fact that you get along well with kids. It leads you to great moments with him and his siblings. • You're quite the opposite in terms of self-esteem. I think it's a good thing because it makes you complementary. Your enemy would be... Albedo! A misunderstanding. • You wouldn't hate each other, but I think Albedo wouldn't like the way you use your energy, and when you're more in a chill mood (meaning you're more available for him to talk), he could get pissed at how much times he'd have to repeat himself for you to understand something. • He's very patient, but he understood quickly that his interests would maybe not be within your reach. • You would just be too different. Worth to mention • You and Venti are like drama queens in Mondstadt. You are good friends. But you both know that you can't be more, as it would eventually both drag you down (because of similar problems). • Klee is also your best friend: both of you share decisions that you definitely will regret later. Or maybe not. • Hu tao and you are kinds of silently competing over who's the best tease, and she beats you. My goal is definitely not achieved. I hope I can catch up tomorrow. And don't worry, it was surprisingly good for a first description!

#genshin request #genshin matchups #genshin #genshin impact

[undeadimmortality]

Unexpected Part 2

Not really chapters, just super long parts to the story. 

Hey, smut ahead!!! I’m bad at writing smut so felt right, but might delete later, idkidk. Fluff too! Is alcohol consumption a warning?? 

Weeks turned to months, and things started to change for the better, as well as the worst. Your time in the bunker was great. You were getting pretty close to Sam and Dean, even Castiel at times, but he always kept a mental distance. After a lot of late night talks, you had opened up about your past and they had opened up about theirs too. You could tell the boys took to caring about you, and you cared about them deeply. Even with everything that had started this relationship, you’d never had anyone who cared for you a single day in your life until you got to know Sam and Dean. Even in the short time of knowing them, you knew they were great men, and would genuinely try to keep you alive if they could.

There were demon omens coming from a town close to the bunker, and the boys decided to check it out. Leaving Castiel to look over you, while they were away for a day or two. This was the first time they’d decided to act on any sort of hunt since they found you, figuring it’d be safer to keep a low profile until they figure out this Lucifer issue. But, with demons possibly this close to the bunker, finding out why they were there was the safest bet.

They’d been gone the whole day, and after no replies to your texts you started to worry. A glass of whiskey in one hand and your cell in the other, Castiel watched as you paced back and forth for a good hour, deep in thought.

“Maybe you should check on them, Cass. They aren’t texting back.” You walked over to the angel, and sat next to him, opening your texts again.

“We have a plan in place, (y/n). It’s safer if I stay here with you.” Castiel said.

“You still don’t trust me?” It was more of a statement, rather than a question.

Castiel turned his body toward you and placed his hand on your shaking knee. “On the contrary (y/n). I want to keep you safe. If I left, and something happened to you, I could never forgive myself.” You stared deeply into Cass’s eyes and saw emotion there that you hadn’t caught before. You knew Castiel was indifferent toward you, and trusting at least, but maybe you had more of an impact on the Angel than you wanted to admit to yourself.

You sighed and stood to fill you now empty glass of liquor.

“I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have assumed, I know we’ve been building up a friendship Cass, I’m just worried.” You talked as you fill your glass and walked back over to the Angel. “I’ve just never had people who were ever in any sort of danger because of me, especially you and the boys, who I’ve grown to care for. I don’t know how you do it. They’re constantly putting themselves in danger. I would’ve had a heart attack at this point if I were you.” The leather couch squeaked as you sat next to Cass.

He chuckled, “Angel’s can’t have heart attacks, but I understand your meaning” He smiled at you. The only light in the room were candles you had lit. The bunker was quiet aside from some music playing quietly.

You laughed at his response, returning the smile. The soft light of the bouncing flames gave a soft glow to Castiels face. His tan skin and almost matching caramel brown hair looked soft. Those ocean blue eyes of his vessel did weird things to your stomach as you stared into them. His light pink lips were stretched in to a soft, genuine smile and slightly met his eyes. You were sure you could both hear your heart rate picking up.

Castiel POV

Castiel watched (y/n) as she studied his face. It seemed as though she was seeing him in new eyes for the first time. Not just the Angel, but the vessel, the human side of Cass. Cass had died, been human, and lived in Jimmy’s vessel for years, but he hasn’t been Jimmy for a long-time. He was Castiel now.

Castiel studied (y/n) as a pink blush lit up her pale cheeks, and she looked down in to her drink, lips piercing in deep thought. He’d studied her enough now to know her common emotions. Her deep in thought brought on pieced lips, sometimes a light bite to her low lip, and a small crease between her eyes when her brows furrowed. Her happy, meant a bright smile that reached the eyes, a slight squint to her lids, and sparkle in her irises. When she wasn’t looking, he would catch himself staring. (y/n) was beautiful, it was plain as day. She had long, dark red hair that contrasted her soft pale skin. Her pale blue eyes matched his by just a shade paler. Her light pink lips held a feminine shape, the bottom lip slightly thicker than the top.

The guilt he felt for the way he treated her was unbearable, and little did she know, he felt the need to make up for it for as long as he lived.

When they held her captive, all he noticed was the evil that hid inside of her human soul. A bright red glow in her irises that was more evident when she was chained up. Her hatred, fear, and pain protected the rest of her that he has come to observe and see. With still no real knowledge on her or her power, all he had was his observations. Her soul was made up like a human one, but it was vastly different. A human soul usually had a colorful aura that radiated around the vessel, but (y/n)’s was much bigger. Almost the size of an Angel’s aura that radiated their grace. Her Aura could cover the whole country if you were to put it in a human perspective. A bright red glow that radiated a powerful energy. Her soul held all the makings of a human soul, but hers was torn and battered, like it was being ripped apart by the power that lay untouched at the core. It scared Castiel to no avail, she was nothing he had ever seen in the millennia he had spent between heaven and Earth. Yet he was drawn to her intensity. He’d seen the love and kindness she showed him and the brothers. Her little acts of kindness, like cooking, or tidying up after the boys every night before bed. Humming to the music as she folded their clothes. She put love and purpose into her actions. And in return was slowly stealing Castiels heart if he had one. He’d known love and intimacy in his experiences on Earth, but his pull toward (y/n) was leagues more intense. It scared Castiel, but his courage and excitement overpowered everything. He wasn’t going to let her go.

(y/n) cleared her throat and brought Castiel from his thoughts, now realizing he had been staring at her. Her cheeks were a shade pinker than before, and she looked up at Cass like she was waiting for him to break the silence.

Embarrassment covered his features, and all her managed was a “Sorry”, before (y/n)’s phone started to ring and broke the silence.

YOUR POV

You jumped at the sudden noise that broke your weird moment with Castiel. Deans name popped up, and you answered it on the first ring.

“Dean?” You asked, standing up quickly.

“Yeah it’s me, me and Sammy are alright, we’re heading back to the bunker now, it’s not safe to stay here tonight, I’ll explain when we get back. There better be beer left when I get back!”

“Okay, I’ll wait up. Also a found the bottle of whiskey you stashed, so your beers safe!” you joked, causing a line of slurs from the brute.

“They’re on their way back.” You sat back down, gulping down the last sip of your second drink. The alcohol wasn’t taking tonight, even with the call from Dean, a pit in your stomach started to grow, and left you feeling very uneasy.

“That’s good news” Cass said, “Allow me” He reached for your empty glass, and you handed it to him and watched as he made his way over to the whiskey bottle on the table.

“I’ve got a bad feeling, Cass. Like something bad’s about to happen.” You started, watching him walk back.

“We’re warded here, this is the safest place for you.” He handed you the glass, and sat down turning toward you again.

“It’s not that, it’s not for me, it’s like I have this feeling of dread. Like…He’s close…” You took another sip, cursing your nerves for keeping you more sober than usual after three glasses of whiskey. “I want you to promise me something” You looked up and met Cass’s eyes. “If he get’s to me and I can’t do it myself, I need you to do it.” You didn’t need to explain further, the dread that covered Castiels features said it all.

Cass took your empty hand, and covered it in both of his. “He will never get his hands on you as long as I live. I will protect you (y/n), as long as I’m alive.” Castiel said.

“I know, that’s what I’m afraid of. You and the boys, if you died trying to save me-“ You stopped, tears glossing over your eyes.

“It won’t come to that. Everything will be fine.” Castiel smiled, but you could tell he was trying to convince himself as well. You leaned your head on the Angels shoulder, and he wrapped his arm around your back, in hopes of soothing you. You stayed like that for a while, and only broke away when you heard the bunker door open and shut.

Dean and Sam spent the next hour going over the details of their trip. With the fear of tipping Lucifer off, they decided to keep their distance, and basically got that the demons were close to finding (y/n).

“The wards on the bunker most likely helped to an extent, but with no knowledge on the Child of Cain, were pretty sure they’re still able to track her, however faint a signal they get, we think they’re still getting something.  

“No….”You whimpered. Standing up and pacing back and forth. “I have to run! If they are this close, I can lead them away form here! What other options do we have?”

“Not this one! You ‘re staying, end of story.” Dean growled.

“You we’re ready to kill me.” Tears starting to prick at the corners of your eyes. “Maybe…”

“Not happening” Sam glared at you, “We’ll figure something out we always do. You’re part of our family now (y/n), and we protect our own. There has to be something we missed. If (y/n)’s power is “sleeping” as Cass put it, maybe there’s a way to wake it.” Sam thought, glancing towards Cass for an answer.

“I wouldn’t even know where to start. Besides I’ve seen her power. I can feel it. It isn't just apart of her, it’s at the very core of her human soul…Her soul’s already tarnished and flayed, there’s a very little chance she’d survive her power waking up, or worse, turning (y/n) in to something worse than Lucifer. It’s not just power Sam, it’s holds the mark of Cain, there’s no telling what would happen.” Castiel explained, deep in thought.

“My soul…it’s broken?” This was the first you’ve heard of this.

Castiel casts you a pitiful look. “Not broken (y/n), it’s still intact, but your power is at the source of your human soul, and it’s ripped and torn to shreds. The only thing holding it together is you. If you let that power out, I truly don’t know what would happen to you. I’m sorry”

Silence swept through the room, and you paced some more chugging down the third glass of liquor and went to pour a fourth. The only option you could see that got rid of the Devil once and for all, and left the boys and Castiel alive, was somehow finding a way to unleash your power on the Lucifer. If Castiel was right about how strong you truly wore, you were confident you could give the Devil a taste of his own medicine. The only options you saw were, continuing to run, and let the Devil run loose to kill more innocent people, kill yourself and still allow Lucifer to live, or kill the Devil yourself and take yourself down in the process. The choice was easy.

A few weeks went by, but with the wards holding strong, the Demons were only a town closer to the bunker and Castiel had secretly planted some false signals to keep them off your trail for as long as possible.

“It’s late” You stopped in your tracks, as his voice filled the silence. You’d seen a lot less of him lately, as he was out more and more trying to lead the Demons astray.

“Couldn’t sleep” You continued to walk through the library, running your fingertips over the spines of the dusty old books, a glass of whiskey in the other hand.

The tension in the bunker was almost overwhelming. After trying to flee a few different times, to no success. The boys came and went, looking for answers to anything that could give you the upper hand in the inevitable war that would soon unfold. You hadn’t been outside of the bunker in months, and it was taking it’s toll. The bunker that once held a state of content, not felt claustrophobic. You felt helpless being forced to stay here, while others put their lives at risk to help you.

You made your way over to the table, and popped the the cap off the liquor, and filled you glass halfway.

“(y/n).” His voice was soft and pleading. He placed a hand on your shoulder, and gently turned you to face him.

He looked tired, same as you. His demeaner slightly slouched from trying his hardest to lure the demons as far away from you as he could , no doubt.

“Have you heard from the Sam and Dean? They didn’t check in tonight.” You asked, bringing the glass to your lips.

“They’re fine, they’re about a day out with more research about The Mark of Cain. Sam’s hopeful about this research.”

“That’s good.” You’re eye’s only left Cass’s when you took another sip of you drink. And then back up.

Castiel grabbed the glass from your hand, and you let him. He set it on the table behind you, and with the same hand he pushed a few stray strands of hair behind your ear and cupped your check. You breathing hitched and his fingers sent sparks through your veins. His hand was soft and warm, and you reached up to cup yours over his, turning your head to place a kiss in his palm.

You’re feelings for the angel had grown immensely since the night you two had a moment on the couch, but both of you were never this forward about your affections with everything else going on. You were falling deeply in love with the feathered man, but as the Child of Cain, you never knew why he returned your affections.

You turned back forward, eyes meeting Cass’ and he swept his thumb over your bottom lip. His eyes were giving away his desperation for you. After moments of silence that seems to last an eternity, Cass leaned forward, painfully slow, eyes never leaving yours, before both your eyes fluttered shut as his lips pressed against yours.

Both of you were unaware of the fate that was unfolding tonight.

The kiss sent shivers through your body, his lips were so warm and so soft. It was light at first; passionate and innocent, but a need for you unleashed inside of Castiel, and his hand moved through your hair to the back of your head, and lightly pulled your head to the side, so he could deepen the kiss. A small moan escaped you lips and you wrapped your arms around his neck to pull him closer. You could feel his arousal press against your stomach.

Castiel was the first to break, as he swiftly gripped both your thighs, lifted you up, and carried you over to the couch. He sat down, and placed both your legs on either side of his and ran his hands up your sides, then your back, never braking eye contact. Your breath hitched as he gently pulled you in you in for another kiss, allowing your hands to roam freely over his chest. You arousal started to build, and a small grind of your hips along his arousal earned you a moan from Castiel that lit your spark.

His smell and taste mixed with yours was intoxicating. He smelt of fresh air mixed with a sweet musk, and his taste along with yours, and the lingering whiskey left your head in the clouds.

His kiss was getting sloppy, and your arousal was at it’s peak. As you started to unbutton his shirt, Castiel waved his hand and all your clothes were off, leaving his arousal to press against your sex. He broke from the kiss, your breathing becoming labored with lust, and held both sides of your faces, fingers tangled I your hair.

“Are you sure?” He asked, searching for the answer in your eyes.

“I want this, Cass.” You reached up and cupped his cheek. “I want you.”

Castiel reached down and gripped your hips, lifting your up, allowing him to line up with your entrance. His pulled you down slowly, his member stretching you to the point of pure bliss. The feeling was more intense than anything you’d both had ever felt. Castiels eyes squeezed shut, his mouth hanging open, a small moan escaping your lips, as he filled you up and stopped when you reached his hilt. The pleasure was so intense it took you a moment to get your bearings before your body ached for more friction. You started off slow, lifting up, and sinking back down on to Castiel. A knot in your stomach started to build, closer and closer, as you started to build up speed. You moans matching his, his grace shining brightly through his irises and yours shined through yours. A bright red, but not evil. You, as a being was shining through, two divine beings both human and supernatural, sharing this moment in pure bliss. Love radiating off your naked bodies.

As swiftly as before, Castiel lifted you up and placed you on your back, never breaking rhythm, he met your eyes, then lips, and then a string of kisses, down your neck, earning his name that spilled from your lips. His rhythm gaining speed, and becoming more frantic, and you both built to your releases. You name and a slur of phrases left his lips. His name escaping yours, as your moans grew louder and longer, giving him the know that you were close. One more thrust, and all the tension released, pure bliss exploded from the inside out, bringing you to heaven. You tightness clenched around Castiel, and your release brought him to the peak of his, both of your meeting eachother on the other side of bliss. The moment only last seconds but felt like they lasted years. Sooner than you wanted, you came back down, reality taking you back in its clutch. Castiel sank down next you, your breathing and heartbeat breaking the silence.

You looked up toward Castiel, him already looking down at you, a content smile gracing your eyes. You wanted to and tell him, but the moment didn’t need words, he already knew, and you knew he felt the same way. You graced him a your own smile and lifted his hand to place a small kiss in his palm. You both laid together, happily content being in each others arms, Castiel had waved his hand once more, and both of you were cleaned up and clothed. The night was late, and the candle flames were dying out, bringing the room close to darkness. Everything around you was perfectly set, and your worries would have to wait until tomorrow as your lids drew heavy and sleep soon took over as you lay in Castiels arms.

#castiel x reader #castiel fanfiction #supernatural fanfiction #fanfiction #castiel #supernatural imagine

[marskincafe]

can i get a kin matchup? umum i can describe myself as sorta “aloof, mishevious, cutesy” etcetc hehe um.. yeah thats what i would say i guess... i type with :3c icons and such um and i dont like admitting it but im a liar! i have a habit of creating ‘false identities’ to cope with whatever situation. i should actually get help for that since ive lost my real self in my lies kskfjs... uhh anyways im also an artist!! idkidk uhh OH i have a strong connection with cats :3c idk i hope this is enough!

Sure! I vibe check you with

Liu Mingyan (SVSSS)

She’s a more aloof character but can be rather mischievous when it comes to her hobbies! She’s writes novels in her spare time under a pseudonym and very good w/ a sword! She has an older brother that she’s kinda distant with but they’re still on good terms. She also strikes me as a cat person and one to use :3c as well!

Ann (Identity V)

My first thought when I saw this was Ann! I love Ann and she’s very unappreciated tbh! Anyways Ann is rather closed off and private and is very attached to her cat herald. I mainly picked her because of her affinity for cats!

He Xuan (Tian Guan Ci Fu)

Oh boy is he a mischievous one! He’s one the four great calamities (ghost Kings), nicknamed black water sinking ships. He spent years lying and living under a false identity to gain information about his enemy to get revenge. He strikes me as a cat person but he actually has pet bone fish which are pretty cool! He’s also pretty aloof for the majority of the story and only is really expressive towards the end of his arc. Sorry for not having a front facing photo, he hasn’t made is full debut in the official Manhua yet!

Buffy Summers (BTVS)

Buffy isn’t really aloof but she has that cutesy and mischievous vibe about her and can be witty with her comebacks. She’s also spent a good majority of her life lying about who she is to keep her family and friends safe, pretending that she’s a normal girl when she’s really much more than that! She also strikes me as a cat person and one to use :3c

#match up #hopefully these are ok! lmk if not and ill a give it another go! #i was tempted to add kokichi ouma but i know some are iffy about v3!

[vanaera]

HELLO! HOW ARE YOU TODAY!!!!! I dunno how to drop these asks without seeming weird idkidk,,,regardless YOURE AMAZING I FINALLY GOT AROUND READING THH UPDATE AND BOIIIIII RELATIONSHIP DEVELOPMENT WITH YOONGI WAS ALL THAT WAS ON MY MIND. uwu. Also the OC seems like she w a n t s to pick fights with yoongi but she also apologised and it does seem like shes growing into a better person consequently bUT LIL MOMENTS LIKE THESE ARE OVERLOOKED,,,UWU MOMENTS WITH YOONGI AAAHHHHH MY LIL HEART CANNOT 😫🤧

I think tumblr ate up my ask :( I was going on and uwu-ing about the heart holidayyyy ANYWAYS I JUST WANTED TO STOP BY TO LET YOU KNOW IM LOOKING FORWARD TO HOW IT ALL TURNS OUT AND HOW YOU WRITE IT ALL !!! loveu 💜💜💜

Hi hi hon! Oh no, Tumblr didn't eat up your ask! I was just off Tumblr yesterday and earlier this day bc I'm writing my upcoming oneshot, My Time, hehe.

Just drop your asks,hon, they're not weird! I actually love them!!! I'm glad you got around the recent THH update. That Act was one of my favorites I have ever written bc you're right, that's where a lot of character development has happened. I'm so happy you noticed that about OC bc that is a very important detail about her! (*cries in happiness bc you're getting the details I'm throwing around the whole story TT u TT *). And oof yes!!! Li'l fluff moments with Yoongi! I love love writing subtle fluff bc I think the little acts of affection are often unnoticed bc of so many shits in the world. And bc humans these days develop an unrealistic standard (thanks to Hollywood, sorry not sorry) of what happiness or love looks like, that's why these small acts are often disregarded as "just a basic thing" when it's not. I think they should be appreciated as much as the grand gestures of love, that's why I tend to write about them a lot. I'm sorry I'm rambling again AHAHHA

Thank you for the love, support, and anticipation for my story, hon! I'm also can't wait to show you hons what happens next bc they are a LOT. I just need to finish my deadlines, then we're back on track to THH. Again, thank you so so much for these kind words. I luv you too, hon! You never fail to make me feel so loved! 💞💓💕💗

#aera blushes #the heart holiday feedback #the heart holiday #reviews #kwonthefire #im sorry you have to worry about your ask getting eaten up by tumblr #i tend to go off social media whenever I write bc i will get distracted™️ by lots of amazing gifs #pics and videos and when I get started on them I DON'T sToP lmao ahahshhshs #thank you for always fropping by asks whenever you finish a chapter #it always makes me feel happy ☺️☺️☺️ #i hope you're having a wonderful day/night ahead!

[v-dabi]

-10/30

@p-overhaul

[OVERHAUL is online]

v-dabi

Huh.

p-overhaul

Fuck

v-dabi

Riveting.

p-overhaul

I'm out

You won't catch me

v-dabi

Fuck do you mean you're out.

p-overhaul

I mean I'm out

v-dabi

Uhuh

p-overhaul

For good this time

v-dabi

Yeah. Okay.

You're so funny.. The things you do for attention.

p-overhaul

You don't know anything about me

v-dabi

I know plenty. You're pretty simple.

And I know you want me to come and find you.

If you really managed to get out like you claim to have, I know you didn't get far.

p-overhaul

Why the fuck would I want that

v-dabi

Because you're a shitty little masochist and a whore for any spotlight you can manage.

Why announce it?

If you didn't want me to find you. Why let me know you're gone?

Might not have noticed for days. I don't come to see you often enough, do I.

Could have just assumed you were still rotting down there.

But, no. The second you're gone, you run your mouth to make sure I'm fully aware that you'll have to be punished again.

p-overhaul

I know you won't catch me

You're an idiot

The scum of the Earth

Garbage and rot beneath my fucking feet

You only want to keep me because you know that I'm more

v-dabi

Is that why.

p-overhaul

You want to feel powerful

v-dabi

Do I.

p-overhaul

Because you think you can use someone so much better than you are

You think you can get away with it

v-dabi

Haven't I.

p-overhaul

Obviously not

Check your hell hole

You won't find me

v-dabi

Lol..

@v-hawks

ahhh... hahaa... looks like somebody's in trooouble....

did your dog get out again...?

you've really done a shit job at taming him...

v-dabi

Don't need your input.

v-hawks

bet he chewed his way out.

maybe you should take out his teeth. haha.

v-dabi

Still don't need your input.

Though..

Not a bad idea.

n-hawks

out...

p-overhaul

You won't get to

v-hawks

you'd be surprised...

v-dabi

Kai. I'll give you a chance, even if you don't deserve it.

Behave yourself and I might go easy on you.

p-overhaul

Might

n-hawks

behave...

p-overhaul

...

I'll come back

v-dabi

Oh?

p-overhaul

But I have conditions

v-dabi

Uhuh.

p-overhaul

Don't keep me in that fucking cage

In that room

v-dabi

What, you don't like it?

p-overhaul

If you make a more comfortable space I won't bitch as loudly

I'll "behave"

@v-todoroki

.....

@v-toga

👀

hehehe

v-dabi

Huh.

p-overhaul

...

n-hawks

behave...

v-dabi

Mhm..

Come back, then.

p-overhaul

I want proof that you'll do as I say.

v-dabi

And how do I do that without you here.

p-overhaul

Figure it out

v-dabi

Mhmm..

p-overhaul

How long do you think it'll take

3 hours?

v-dabi

Maybe.

p-overhaul

Good

[OVERHAUL is offline]

n-hawks

good...

v-dabi

Hm.

[Dabi removed Overhaul from the chat.]

What a bother.. Lol..

@Noumu C'mere.. I need you all to sniff out a scent for me.

v-hawks

mm.. an entertaining one.

n-hawks

...

v-dabi

@Toga Go with them. I know you've been bored.

v-toga

YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY 💗💗

n-hawks

toga...

n-shinsou

...

v-hawks

toga... ❤️ ahahah..

should spend some time together soon...

@v-shinsou

[control freak is online]

...

v-toga

We SHOULD!! After I hunt down the birdman....

v-hawks

mmmhm..

v-toga

Hey hey... Dabiiiiii.... 💗 Do I get to play with him after I catch him? You never shaaaare...

n-hawks

play...

v-dabi

If you catch him. I don't care what you do.

v-hawks

bet he's fun to play with, yeah...

v-dabi

Make it hurt.

n-hawks

hurt...

v-toga

YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY

v-shinsou

@shin you dont have to listen to him.

n-shinsou

...

v-dabi

And who are you supposed to be.

v-shinsou

none of your business

@shin are you still here?

n-shinsou

Yes.

v-dabi

If you're trying to start shit with me, it is my business.

v-shinsou

is it okay if i come to you? or you come to me?

...

n-shinsou

... idkidk...

v-shinsou

thats okay... im just gonna come find you, okay?

n-shinsou

... OK.

v-shinsou

okay...

[control freak is idle]

n-kacchan

Huh...

v-dabi

You heard me.

Both of you did.

n-kacchan

Fine... I'm coming.

n-shinsou

....??...

v-aizawa

....Sorry, this one’s with me. He doesn’t follow you, firestarter.

v-dabi

That so.

v-shinsou

[control freak is no longer idle]

...

n-kacchan

Who am I maiming, anyway...

n-shinsou

... Follow...

....

Maim...

v-dabi

Chisaki Kai. An alternate of him.

n-kacchan

Maim...

v-shinsou

@shin do you want to say something, outloud or in here?

n-kacchan

Does he have a smell

n-shinsou

Hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts

v-shinsou

... im sorry...

...

#p overhaul #toga #v hawks #v shinsou #n bakugou #n hawks #dabi.log

[24hoursofdaisy]

heyaaaa it’s me again 💖 it’s ok, take your time to reply 🥰 how was your weekend? i hope u got to relax and do something fun!!! 🌼

don’t break your head too much about the bias thing, i’m sure you’ll get at least one of them right ~ you should guess the other members too, just to have a shot at it hehe 😉 i have a question abt svt members for u too: who’s a member who turned out to be very different from your first impression? and what was your first impression of him? 🌱

so true, the ttt episodes are great to see them in their ‘natural form’ but they’re not the best as an introduction, i feel the same ~ ohhhh yes debate night is a really good one to start!!!! and mafia too. the mafia ones are truly legendary ✨

oh thx so much for the recs, i’m definitely gonna check them out. i like bibi a lot but haven’t heard too much from her yet. that needs to change!☝️ for me, sunmi’s tail, wjsn’s easy and hoshi’s spider come to mind first. i really really love those releases ~ album-wise i love akmu’s next episode, twice’s taste of love, epik high’s epik high is here and hanbin’s waterfall the most so far 🌟

now on to the summer questions:

1. what scent reminds you of summer? - sunscreen, apricots, lilacs 💜

2. have you ever gone to a music festival? - yeah plenty of times! i used to be in a band and in theatre, so i’ve performed at festivals a lot. being in the audience is fun too <3 i actually prefer outdoor festivals to concert halls…

3. it’s storming right now!! ⛈ a warm summer storm ~ in general we’re having a really nice and sunny summer with around 30-35 degrees, which is ideal ☀️ i’m really hoping summer will stay a little longer this year, i’m not ready for fall yet…

instead of summer questions, here’s another svt question for you: what kind of concept or style (visually and musically) would you like to see them do and do you prefer fresh or dark concepts for them?

oh omg i’m sorry if the mwah made you uncomfortable!! it’s just something i say casually, there’s really no further meaning behind it. and no we’re not following one another <3 speaking of which. the event is almost over and it’s time to reveal ourselves soon ✨ however, i didn’t talk to u on anon as much as i would have liked, so let’s say fuck the rules and keep this going a little longer 😇 to make up for the lost time with tumblr eating the messages and stuff (and also bc this is so fun ✌️) i will reveal myself to you in one or two weeks then!! 😽

take care and have a good week ahead 💜 - carrot anon 🥕

hey you <3

i had to work on saturday but on sunday i had my day off it was quite alright :) how was your week/weekend(whenever you get to read this)

hmm good question i think my opinion on about every member in svt changed with time but the impression probably changed the most for seungkwan. this may sound mean but my first impression of him was that hes hot headed and rather annoying... but oh no i am a dumbass. hes just lovely and caring and motivational and a dork and i love him. It actually took me quite some time to really get to like the whole maknae line but now all of them are in my bias line hahaha. (ok i think 3/4 of svt are but we dont talk about that). has the impression of a member changed a lot for you too?

oh yes tail and spider were both such a chefs kiss but i think i need to give wjsn's song a listen. the epic high album and waterfall were actually ones i also thought about mentioning but i think i havent listen to them often enough yet hahaha.

it's so cool to hear you've been in a band. I always wanted to be in one too but it never worked out for me. What instruments can play and which did you play in your band?

tbh i was very ready for fall already. bcs for a few weeks it was rather chilly were i am at but now its getting hot again :/

about the concepts... hmm well i think the dark concepts fit them very well but in general prefer fresh concepts for any group. I would love for seventeen to have a mv storyline series(i know there is sth like a storyline in mansae and stuff but i hope you get what mean). I always love stuff like that. Also it seems like 95% of their mvs are always set in a studio and i would really love them to have mvs in more "natural settings"(like dont wanna cry for example). Something similar to run, like this, dramarama, etc. would be nice imo (i could think of more examples that have storylines but there are probably so many more). What about you? What kind of mvs do you prefer?

nono it make me uncomfy at all. there are just 2 moots of mine who also use mwah when they are writing so thats why i thought you maybe could be one of them.

i mean yeah its rather sad we didnt talk that much so far but thats okay it was the same(even less) with my assigned blog...but will i actually be able of waiting this long?? hahaha idkidk... we can also talk via chat or so non-anonymous if you are not uncomfortable. but whatever you feel like <3

sending you lots of love and as always hope you are well. take care <3

#carat anon #hi 🥕 anon

[ibblescribbles-archive]

bish wtf?! why is your art sooo good >~

oh thank you!! hmm proportions... i dont have any tangible tips really if that makes any sense? there’s the basics like figures are on avg 8 heads tall and the hands should be no bigger than the face but... im not gonna lie i never super paid attention to those rules and just kind of eyeball it until i get it right, so im probably not the best person to ask about stuff like that. i think just using reference points when you’re drawing, like if you have a hand hanging at someones side it should reach just past the crotch, or when an arm is bent notice how it typically bends below the pecs! idk if thats very clear but basically by observing the actual capabilities of humans and comparing different parts of your drawing you can usually end up w/ relatively accurate proportions? and from there you can learn to distort them.im sorry i couldnt help much but i do have a tag on my blog, #ibbletips, for more in depth stuff! and you can find my art supplies in my FAQ which is linked on my blog or in the FAQ tag ^^

#ibbletips #maybe ill do a more in depth study of basic proportions but its def a weak point of mine since im so used to distorting them #also you dont sound stupid at all anon! #Anonymous #askibble

[rainbowgraffiti]

Put All These Pieces Back Together

// requested by anonymous:  HI U R SUCH A GOOD WRITER I CRY okay could u possibly do a Peter Parker x reader where the reader has a crush on Peter but she doesn't know if he likes her and she used to have an eating disorder & one day they're @ a party and her drunk friend says something about her not eating today or something and Peter overhears and takes her aside and asks if she's okay and like comforts her idkIDK like maybe angst at first but then super cute by the end IDK THANKS SO MUCH ILY

// a/n: oml i feel so loved, thank you so much for the praise!! i’m so, so sorry this took so long to get up, i had a massive, unshakable case of writer’s block. i hope i did okay... it’s sort of cheesy but hopefully you’ll like it anyway. thanks for the request and the love <3 enjoy!!

// character: peter parker/spiderman

// pairing: peter x reader

// summary: “your heart’s never soared this high and you think he might just be the person to fix you.”

It's past curfew on a Friday night, and this is exactly the sort of situation you've been told to stay away from.

The party seems like something straight out of a cliche high school romance flick, with red solo cups littering the floor and hormonal teenagers pressed against each other in the corners, lips locked together and hands roaming each others' bodies.

Your senses feel dulled by the constant, heavy thrum of the bass blasting through the speakers and the strong reek of alcohol that seems to have settled into the air. Still, you haven't been to a party since--well, since before everything that happened last year, and Becca has vehemently assured you that the awkwardly clingy black top you dug out of her closet makes you look "like a total catch".

So part of you thinks that having a little fun might not be such a bad idea.

You destroy your opponents through a few rounds of beer pong, expertly avoid a game of seven minutes in heaven before one of your friends can drag you in, fail fantastically at pool and spend a lot of the night mingling and swaying to the music.

It's a little past midnight when Becca stumbles into you, a ditsy smile plastered on her face and her eyes clouded with insobriety.

"Hi," she mumbles giddily as she pitches forward and you hastily grab her shoulders to keep her from spilling to the ground in a heap.

You chuckle a little. "How much did you have to drink?" you say loudly, trying to make your voice heard over the pounding music.

A crease forms between her brows and she shrugs. "I dunno," she grins. "A lot."

With a mixture of exasperation and fondness, you sigh and set her on the couch. "God, you are going to have such a hangover tomorrow. Promise me you'll let me drive you home?"

She nods, but you know she's not really listening when her eyes glance in the other direction and she says in what you think is supposed to be a quiet voice, "He's staring at you." Your eyes follow her gaze to a familiar brown-haired boy in a Star Wars t-shirt, who quickly looks away to observe a nearby game of pool. "Who, Peter?" You laugh a little, but a hot blush creeps up on your cheeks and you duck your head. "Yeah right. Like he'd be staring at me."

Your best friend's gaze swivels from him to you and back. "You should tell him," she declares.

"Say it a little louder, would you?" you hiss sarcastically. "I don't think they heard you in Jersey." She laughs. "I'm serious," she says, though it's in a hushed whisper this time as she pulls you closer by the arm. "You've liked him for forever. And judging by the way he's looking at you in that outfit," her voice dips into a sing-song tone as she slurs, "he likes you too."

Rolling your eyes, you shove her shoulder gently. "Shut up, Bea, you know he doesn't think of me that way." you huff, and a smirk crosses her face as she stands abruptly.

"Whatever you say. I'm gonna grab some food," she says, stretching. "You want anything?"

You shake your head, but she pouts. "Y/N, you skipped lunch, too," she protests.

"Yeah, because I had to make up that test for Mr. Dewar. I ate after school," you explain. You're not lying; you don't do that anymore. You're better now. Or at least, you're trying.

But Becca, drunk, doesn't seem to see it that way. "Are you trying to stop eating again?" She makes a poor attempt at a whisper. "Because you know it's not good for you." She sounds like a scolding parent, and a few pairs of eyes around the room drift over to you.

Stop staring, you plead mentally, your insides squirming under their gazes. "Bea," you say through gritted teeth, "I'm fine, okay? Drop it."

"You can't keep doing this to yourself!" She's loud. Too loud. Heads swivel in your direction.

People are looking at you. Everyone's looking at you. I'm fine, you want to scream. It's over. Nothing's wrong with me.

But their eyes linger.

You feel like it's freshman year all over again, and you're collapsing on the gym floor and the nurse is bending over you and saying something about malnourishment and everyone is staring at you and you can't breathe. And suddenly, you're back to being the object of gossip and stolen glances and whispers in the hallway when they think you aren't listening-- she's that anorexic girl, the one who was fat until she starved herself.

You have to remind yourself that you're here and not there, that this is a party and you're supposed to be having fun but instead you're trying to remember how you're supposed to breathe.

In, out. In, out.

Right. Easy.

So why can't you seem to catch a breath?

It takes you a minute to realize that your hands are shaking and that Becca's still talking, although you aren't really listening anymore.

You mutter some excuse and slip out of the room; she tries to call out to you but you can't seem to get to the back door fast enough.

The grass is wet. The air is humid and cool and heavy with the smell of rain, the sharp contrast to the heat inside hitting you as you step into the yard, tugging at the sleeves of your jacket and trying to shove the taste of bile back down your throat.

The smell of alcohol lingers on your clothes and you can still feel the bass from inside; you wonder for a moment what you're doing here, when a book and a warm blanket seems like such a nice alternative.

Oh right, you think to yourself. I was trying to be normal, for one night.

Normal. You've spent the last eight months trying to get back there. Talking to doctors, therapists, guidance counselors, anyone who thinks they can help. You remember the before picture of it all, when you were scared and angry and you hated yourself, and now you feel the exact same way and you think that maybe you haven't come all that far.

"Why did you do it?" the counselor asks, sincere concern lacing her words. "You have such a beautiful body, can't you see that?"

You try to laugh, but think you might cry instead as you looked up at her. "Have you ever been to high school?"

She gives you the look, the one you've come to know all-too-well, that mixture of pity and disappointment that seems to be etched on everyone's faces these days. You want to tell her to stop, that you don't want her pity, that you might feel a lot better if everyone would just quit looking at you that way--

"--re you okay?"

Surprised, your head snaps towards him immediately. You didn't even notice him come out. But Peter's standing there, concern in those deep brown eyes and one hand running through his brown hair nervously.

You open your mouth, tempted to say you're fine, that there's nothing for him to worry about. But as you look at him, you feel a bit of your resolve wear away. At first, you're not sure why, but then, you think, it's Peter, the geeky science nerd you've known for years, exchanging study guides and making cheesy science jokes from the back of the classroom and maybe falling a little in love along the way. It's Peter, so instead of lying you shake your head. "Not really, no," you breathe.

"You're not...are you still..." he trails, like he doesn't quite know how to phrase the question.

Your choice of words, however, is more blunt. "I'm not starving myself anymore, if that's what you mean. I haven't done that in a long time."

Peter looks at you for a long time, as though trying to figure out whether or not you're lying, and then gives you a slow nod as he leans against the wall next to you. "What happened in there?" he asks quietly, shoving his hands into the pockets of his hoodie.

"Nothing." You drop your gaze, refusing to meet his eyes. If you do, you think you might break into tears.

"Y/N, you can talk to me."

Sighing slowly, you glare at the ground. "I just...I couldn't breathe. I--everyone was staring at us. I didn't want to-to stay in there and let them gawk at me like I was some animal in a zoo. Like I was some..." you grit your teeth, voice shaking, "some beast that they were looking at through glass."

He hesitates, and then, sounding shocked, "Is that how you feel?"

Part of you wishes he would leave, so he wouldn't see you cry. "That's how I've always felt, Peter. Why--" You shudder as your voice breaks. "Why do you think I did this?" You look up at him, blinking tears out of bloodshot eyes. Slowly, you sink into the grass, ignoring the fact that the rainwater is seeping through your tights, and draw your knees to your chest.

He doesn't say anything, just kneels next to you and holds you in his arms when you finally break into shaking sobs, your breath stuttering as you try to hold them back. But you don't think there's any part of you that can fight it anymore, and the tears just fall in a torrent of frustration that you haven't let go of in far too long. The saltwater streaks down your face and soaks his hoodie, and he runs his fingers through your hair, hugging you against his chest and resting his chin on your forehead.

"I'm sorry," you hiccup when the sobs finally slow, your voice muffled by his body.

Peter shakes his head. "Don't be sorry," he murmurs. "You don't deserve to feel this way."

"Maybe I do."

"You don't." His voice is insistent as he cups your cheek with his hands. "You don't deserve this. You're beautiful." He sounds...honest. You meet his eyes, and sincerity is all you can see. Something inside of you swells. "I haven't...no one's ever said that to me." "They should." A smile tugs at the corner of his mouth. "I don't hold just anyone as their tears totally soak my favorite shirt, you know," he teases.

A watery chuckle escapes your lips, and he grins, looking a little proud of himself.

"I guess it's a good thing I wore waterproof mascara," you joke, wiping the wet tracks away from your face with a sleeve and sniffling. It earns you a laugh.

"Do you...want me to walk you home?" he offers as you pick yourself off the ground.

You shake your head. "I think I'll stay a while. Someone's got to keep Becca from making a total fool out of herself," you say, taking a deep breath to compose yourself and then starting to walk towards the party.

He chuckles. "I'll stay for a while, too, then. But, uh, Y/N? One more thing." "Yeah?" You turn around.

A flash of nerves crosses his face before his hand wraps around your waist, the other one resting in your hair, and he kisses you. It's soft and sweet and his lips taste better than anything you've ever forced yourself not to eat, and it's Peter and your heart's never soared this high and you think he might just be the person to fix you.

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