#relationshit

[6catsandanerdo]

I hate relationships and love, I hate having feelings for someone. It's really stressful and every time my effort isn't reciprocated I automatically think (it's because I'm unlovable and I'm not good enough)

#love #crushing #having a crush #crush #relationship #relationships #relationshit #overthinking #overthinker #adhd problems #adhd blog #adhd love #adhder #adhder in love

[poetrypage-for-anewage]

You do me no favors you tell only lies

Somehow I still see through deep in your eyes.

So it should be no surprise the way you act

As fickle as flies, as a matter of fact.

I see you here I hear you there

you are in everything everywhere.

But I do not smile I only tire

The way things were who you were it's been a while.

It's not happiness that I miss

or the softness from your kiss

These arent the things Id choose if I had a wish.

No it's something else all these things untrue

If it's time I have I always choose you.

But this is not something I can choose to have

You've chosen a life that drives you mad.

You drag me through it on a thin piece of yarn

You spun it from me I gladly gave you my arm.

I thought you use it to keep yourself warm

But now it's you I have to mourn.

You are not here you are not there

You are not tangible so I grab at the air.

This life can be unfair but it's you who brings us there

This life could be happy but it's you who are unfair.

We cannot blame the universe it did what it can

It's always been you who always chose another man.

You were scared I would do it so you struck first

You always knew what to say what really hurts.

I cannot give you what you will not let me

It's you for my heart who is the real enemy.

Too scared to stand here in front of me

Too scared to say too scared to be.

You become no one and nothing twords me.

You give no effort like your heart is empty

I would say soul but that's easy to see.

You lost yourself in searching for me

But you never came where I told you I'd be.

You did not look for me in me

You only searched in others you see.

One day you'll realize

there is no prize.

There is no game there is no fun

And what you've done cannot be undone.

No longer blame me for these things, I see

I'm not the only one it's clear to me.

I know you're not blind unlucky or dumb

Did you just chose dumb things like short-term fun.

You thought avoiding what was really true

Would somehow help you get past and through.

You knew the answers and showed the rest

You gave it to me and I passed with glee.

For the test was not to see if I was the best

For in it you hoped I would fail miserably.

Then you would have justification to run and flee.

To give you a reason to hate me

But I already knew the universe meant it to be.

Showed up every second throwing you at me

But in those moments you cease to be.

You had no intention no matter how it came to be

To do the opposite and do it excitedly.

I tell you now, I don't know how many there will be

These chances the universe gives opportunity.

You destroyed so many like a fire burning endlessly

You may have desire but you try and burn it in the fire.

This no longer rhymes as the end comes its time

In the future you will come across me

But do not look me in the face

don't come anywhere near me not even with space.

You had your chance you had your time

Will always cherish you but no longer after this time.

You do not try and I see the chances me and the universe give

As you throw them away stomp on them and act like we never did.

But my heart was in there and my brain All of Me.

And you stomped and you kicked for the last time

I've seen enough the signs so Grand.

And if not here if now you do not come to me

I've run out of ways to try

You've made me no longer know why

Like a bad dream maybe I should forget.

But I grow tired and weary yet

I still do not see you in front of me.

This pointless dream you will never let it be

The dream comes to close as my eyes do too

In my arms you will not be

I will not hold you while you get a kiss from me.

Your forehead stays cold as I grow old

And from what I've been told your heart is icy cold.

I do not know what's left of you

But in the end when we finally die old

The stories of you and how we met will never be told.

You are not something I will speak of

Because you are no longer something I smile because of.

You're only this thing that follows and darkens me

And in my hurt you stay with me.

But in my heart I want no hurt.

I need room for happiness to grow you see

Love will blossom it pours out of me

But you do not drink love and you do not care

I'll give it to someone else they'll have my hot air.

These poems I wrote for you are unfair

For in the words there is beauty there

But in you there's only despair.

Your words have no weight they're only hot air.

And they float away like they were never there.

#my poem #my poems #my poetry #my post #poetry book #virgo #goodbye despair #endings #you ruin you #relationship #relationshit #drunkposting #drunk poetry #poem #poetry

[youcancallme-manny]

photo dump karne ki bajaye khud dump ho rhi hoon 

#dukh #dard #kasht #peedha #pyaar #pass me the tissue #relationship #relationshit #kaho na pyaar hai #bollywood ne hopes high kiye the #ab khudh high hone ki iccha h #being desi #desiblr #desi teen

[fearless-franklin]

For all my broken people falling apart…

#i fall apart #calenraps #broken #falling apart #music #soundcloud #underrated fire #everything music #hip hop #rap #deep #r&b #quotes #alternative #indie #heartbreaks #heartbroken #relationships #relationshit

[contentwithit]

Does anyone else remember looking forward to things?

I just had a flash of memory about a webcomic I used to look forward to every week. And that just flashed me back to a version of myself that had dreams and hopes.

I'm feeling pretty defeated lately, home life sucks, work life sucks, social life... Don't really have time for that. Everything just seems hard and time for me does happen it's usually just looked at like I'm addicted to or living on my computer. I spent a few hours on my computer on the weekend, I still did chores and also spent time with the family, who didn't do chores, one of them is 3 and I don't expect them to though.

I don't even use my computer during the week most of the time. When I do it's because the shows my gf is watching are stressing me out and I don't want to see them, and I don't want to watch other shows because she won't watch them with me so why bother.

Came home at 4:30 to both of them sleeping, which means no sleep for me tonight or if I get sleep it's going to be at stupid time and she's going to go to work even though she spent all day sleeping and feeling awful so it's on me to still be a functional human and not kill everyone.

I hate how stuck I am right now.

#crohnie #spoonie #crohn's disease #mental health #life update #relationship #shitty life #relationshit

[donclairenf]

Aside from I cannot trust anyone, I cannot trust myself enough to let my guard down.

#realization #life #fear #ghosts of the past #love #career #relationship #relationshit

[youlooksodifferentthanbefore]

Final.

Muchas veces no esperas que el final de algo que comenzó como magia termine siendo solo polvo. Un día despiertas y te das cuenta que toda la magia que había en esa persona no eran más que tus expectativas, tus ideas, tu apego emocional, tu amor, tu energía y tu esfuerzo era lo único que lo hacía verse tan especial, sin eso, el es tan ordinario. Me costo mucho salir de eso, me costo mucho aceptar que no era la persona que creí que era por tantos años, pero ahora que salí y puedo ver todo desde afuera, me doy cuenta de que no quiero volver, por más que extrañe, por más que anhele, por más que quiera... Merezco más que toda su mierda, merezco todo lo que el dijo que no conseguiría, merezco amor y respeto, merezco ser feliz con alguien que si me de todo lo que deseo, merezco un amor de novela como los que me gustan. Si hay salida.... si duele.... muchísimo, pero duele más quedarte a mendigar amor donde no existe.

#toxic relationship #relationshit #sadgirl #lost love #you broke my heart

[charliesopus]

I wonder what it must be like to be with a man who doesn’t treat you like a servant. More than just a walking vagina whose sole existence to clean up after them. Like, what a fantasy that must be. I can’t even fathom it.

Leave his clothes wherever? It’s woman’s job.

Wash his dirty dishes? Woman’s job.

Clean up crumbs from food? Woman.

Throw trash away? Woman.

Generally clean up after himself like the adult he supposedly is? Nah, that’s what women are for.

Basic, simple care for child? Pffft WOMAN.

And heaven forbid woman asks for anything in return.

Please, someone give me a sock so I can be a free elf.

#fuck bro #relashionship #relationshit #what is love #cursed #miserable at best #depressing life #i’m so tired #no respect #i’m just a girl #i do my best #freedom #please just #tumblr is my diary #servitude #or some shit #harry potter reference

[afreelittlebird]

When your boyfriend talks to Google more kindly than he speaks to you.

#love #google #humor #relationshit #ha

[onefractionofmind]

There are 3 sides of me.

Me

Me and You

Me and Them

#thinking #thoughts #words #breakingpoint #break #love #relationship #relationshit #breakup #quotes

[felizzlemynizzl]

#andi dorfman #the bachelorette #the bachelor #damaged #trust issues #trust the process #relationshit #toxic relationship #heartbroken #self healing #healing #be better #better me #book quotes #its not okay

[stargatelov3r]

whenever i misspell “relationship” as “relationshit” i reconsider whether "relationshit” is actually the more appropriate term here

#ramblings #relationshit #relationship

[whathappenedtolilitkililit]

I broke up with my girlfriend today. Some people would probably say that shouldn’t be that big a deal because I have two other partners, but I’m still left feeling like crap.

I think the worst of it was when I told her that I wanted to end it because she wasn’t giving me enough time or attention (any) was that she was just like, yeah I’ve been busy. Not, yeah I’ve been busy let me try to do better, not an inkling of acknowledgment of how I’m feeling, just basically “okay”.

Like, I don’t even feel used. That would be a step up from what I’m feeling. This is just, like, dismissed. A friend of mine says at least I’ve learned what to look out for, but I really don’t know how to avoid this in the future. I guess I can hope that this particular kind of shittiness is rare?

Gods below, I need to get laid. I haven’t had sex in months. Do you know what that’s like for a succubus? I hurt everywhere, my skin crawls constantly, it’s pitiful. And it’s looking like months until anything can be done about it. Fuck.

#relationship stuff #relationshit #succubuskin

[beautiful-3nigma]

At what point in a failing relationship do you finally just walk the fuck away? Like how much bullshit is the acceptable amount of bullshit to take before you finally say “nah, I deserve better than this.”

#relationship advice #relationshit

[antimony-ore]

For the record, since I'm always vague posting when I'm complaining, I am not a bad partner...

This boy expects me to do our laundry, find him outfits, feed our animals, do our dishes, vacuum, straighten up, check the mail, mow the lawn, pour him a glass of water, make dinner etc. and then doesn't let it go once it comes to him.

If I space out and don't start like within 3 minutes of him thinking it needs to be done it's

"Jonathan 😒 I'm gonna need you to get that done now"

and then if I don't like his tone and decide to argue: when I had 50-60 hour a week job and was never home it was that I needed to do more because I'm never there and all I ever wanna do is sit around and pretend I'm too tired from work (not true), and then now that I'm not working (btw my mom is still paying my half of everything bless her heart) it's that the only reason we don't have money for basic things is me, and I need A B and C done now... only now it because I never do anything for us.

If I don't do it he gets verbally aggressive and then follows me around while I try to separate (I'm leaving out chunks of past occurances too because it has calmed down substantially)

If I just do everything though he calms back down until he thinks of something again and doesn't want to move and then it's get me a water, plug this in, get me some socks...

I am literally so on edge always from the second he is in the door... I get so happy when I'm finally alone because I can sit down and one place and stay if I want.

Oh wait... we have to go to bed at the same time or he gets mad even if he doesn't want anything to do with me.

Actually I'm going to just keep going:

I let him be in charge of our money in that we pooled it and I let him swipe for everything/pay bills when I was young and stupid, but then he flipped it on me and made it seem like he did all that for us because I was incapable of managing finances.

When I was making GM pay and made it seem like my money always ran out first and lecture me about every purchase as though he was paying for it when in reality any leftover money was from me because I make more... eventually he started acting like ALL the money was his while I just kept slaving away at BK. I just got our money separated and was fuming at how much I was able to save once he wasn't in control of it (just in time to have to spent what I saved because I left my job 🙃)

He ran up 2 credit cards in my name uh... hasn't washed a dish himself in 7 years... not sure I've ever seem him clean anything (no exaggeration) frankly... oh and I've never once said we were back together and he still manipulates me to do all this for him somehow like we are.

What's worse is I feel like he's conscience of all this, we talk about it, sometimes he's even understanding and he does mean well. I TRY to communicate, but communication is not us deciding mutually it would be best if we lived separately having a whole discussion about it and then him waking up the next day with second thoughts and then pretending the convo didn't happen over and over.

#rant #hopefully the last #relationshit

[starcat-poetry]

Snapped Strings

You light a fire in my heart Then you tore it apart I thought I was the puppetmaster Afraid of my hands catching aplaster My heart beat faster You took my hand, said it would be alright You helped me through my fights You called me your Moon Prince Now I realize something before I did not see You were the one controlling me You pulled my strings Every string that snapped and stinged You told me it’ll be alright But here I am, I’m losing the fight Here I am, alone without you I don’t even know what to do When you looked into my eyes You took the light from my soul Ripped out my eyelashes One by one    One by one       One by one When you were done,      You told me not to cry. I saw nothing wrong with it, I was driving senseless Deep down I knew, I knew, I knew But I don’t know what I knew But I did, oh yes I knew I knew all along I just went with the song It’s so hard to trust myself I trusted you And that’s all. I did. It’s true. I kept trustingggggggg you. I had so many Trust issues From the past It had made me fragile glass When I broke I said sorry You told me it was okay, but now I don’t know I don’t know Were you caring about me WHY SHOULD I CARE WHY SHOULD I CARE  But I did. It got me... Nowhere... I was afraid to become the monster Something worse happened cry imposter You ended up the monster I was afraid to become I never knew. This entire time I sometimes wished I was more like you. Knowing now, you’re a monster. Maybe that’s an insult to monsters all around... Who am I? Where can I be.... found.... Broken, broken, broken, broken Fallen down, falling down, fell down, down deep below To forge a new heart To break myself apart Build myself again There is no blueprints..... If I built myself back up again, I worry Without the blueprint Without what I knew Will I be me still? To what ends will I sew Becoming a monster, becoming a monster, Possible as it can be Why are you saying sorry You don’t know what that means GET THE FUCK OFF MY SEAMS GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY DREAMS YOU’RE NOT WHO YOU SEEM YOU’RE A LIE IN FABRICATED REAL TIME YOU’RE SO OUT OF LINE Clouds surrounding closing in Time to figure out how to say good bye Should I?

#poem #poetry #loss #betrayal #relationshit #numb #broken #hurt #depressed #lost #just 2 years of my life i lost #its k #ha #manic #fucked up #i feel like shit