If you are struggling right now I promise you that things will get better, if the only thing you did was breath all day I’m so proud of you for getting through this. Please keep going.
we're in english class reading a funny story and this white ass stanley cup havin pick me girl goes "omg hes so retarded" (about the main character). My teacher says "hey dont say that"
"no its fine i have a personality disorder so i can say that"
oh right hahaa sorry girl i forgot you're the only one who is neurodivergent haha sorry bestie i forgor that ableistic slurs rock and no one else matters as long as YOU have a mental disorder right bestie right <3
sorry im just sick of hearing people say that kind of thing because even if YOU think its okay, youre not the only person whos in the room and words like that can trigger other people.
That's the point. I don't want to be awake. When I am awake, all of the pain comes back. All of the thoughts come back. All of the trauma comes back. I just want to be free of it all and sleep is the only time when I can be.
I apologize for not posting in abit...I would like to address why:
My mental heath has be deteriorating as of late and I've been feeling less and less happy,
I've been trying to hide if from people but it doesn't seem to be working... the more i want to connect....the more I feel distended..cold, and I dont want to feel like that.
And it usually shows in threw my art ( most with the abstract pizza tower au or eclipse goemon)
My aus arnt just for fun, they're usually how I feel or what's going on in my mind.
I hope you understand, and again I apologize for not posting sooner.
Don't demonize the emotions that you are feeling. You are feeling something for a reason. The same way you would show compassion to a child that you were upset with. Is what you need to show yourself. No emotions are bad.
Your emotions are always trying to tell you something. You feeling a certain way is a sign that means you should look further into what you are feeling.
Maybe you're feeling triggered or a repressed memory was brought up? It's ok! You are not going backwards. Your attention is being pulled there as a way of your body trying to tell you that there is more work to be done.