"But you look so chill!"
Thanks it was the fact I had to have silent meltdowns or not have them in the presence of adults responsible by me in order to not get berated or abused and now I am physically incapable of breaking down when anyone is around
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Pay attention to what makes you feel on edge. If you’re feeling angry try to stop and assess what is triggering that anger. It doesn’t have to make sense. Is the sound of shoes squeaking on the floor grating? Is the way someone is asking you for something upsetting even if the ask isn’t? Understanding what is bothering us is the first step to diffusing our anger.
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I hate that I'm considered "high functioning". I barely qualify for any "level" of disability in my country and I will never get a disability income. Yes. I'm able to go to work. But I will not be able to hold it for more than a few months before getting burned out and having daily meltdowns. No, having 10 minutes extra work break won't help me. Neither will wearing headphones or carrying fidgets. I'm literally not able to work 40h a week without severe negative consequences... How do i fucking exist in this society!
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Hey, i see that you're drowning. Here's some arm floaties, hope they help.
Oh, I see they are really helping huh?
"Why is that person using arm floaties? they're not drowning..."
I see that you're not drowning, you're doing good so I'm gonna take the arm floaties away from you. Wait, why are you drowning again? You were fine one second ago, you must be faking it.
"Can I please have some arm floaties?"
"But you haven't entered the pool yet."
"Yeah but I can't swim, I know that I can't swim, so some arm floaties would really help me not to drown."
"You're asking for arm floaties without even trying to swim, you're just lazy and you want more help than the others have, the others are doing just fine..."
"I don't need to get into the watter to know that I can't swim. You're telling me I can't have arm floaties unless I'm actively drowning? You won't give them to me even though I warned you I will drown?"
This post was never about arm floaties.
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i am so fucking burnt out and constantly tired and overstimuated and on the verge of meltdown its insane
the worst part ? i’m undiagnosed and wont be allowed or believed when i ask for accommodations so i just have to live like this until im on my own, which is in three or four fucking years. and thats IF things work out the way i hope for them to.
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The M is for Meltdown.
I've had these meltdowns all my life and it's hard to describe what it's like. I tried to capture it the best I could.
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i have question for neurodivergent (ND) allistics and autistic people, please read all option.
pls reblog for more response <3
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constantly fatigued autistics, we see you
being autistic can be really hard. too much at once. autistic can easily be triggered for meltdowns, shutdowns and burnout and fatigue is a big part.
a lot of autistics are disbaled in mutiple ways, usally with medical and mental health issues.
we are a chronically disabled autistic system and we have a huge list of medical issues and it sucks. .
you're valid. you are seen. you deserve support. - The Dreamdrop System
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Hey babes, sorry I've been dead, but I coulda been literally dead if I had not gone.
I didn't hurt myself and we're still figuring things out. I would love to share but I've already forgotten what I've learned. I hope I get more guidance and time for healing and learning on how to lead my life in a better direction than where I was. But that takes time and effort.
I hope to get some rest, get some support, and get it together. But right now, I don't think it's healthy for me to worry about art in the way I do now. I may not express it here, but trying to maintain my art endeavors/projects while there's so much bullshit going on backstage is not helping me. Especially since I'm not even obligated to do so. But trying to force myself to do something I am currently unable to do will just make me feel worse. I'll follow my dreams and passions one day, but I've been putting off the healing process for years.
So I guess it's better to get better now so I can get the ball rolling again. Why drive on a flat tire?
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The moment when you're sick and crying and just blurt out "I need my mom" and people look at you confused because she's right there in the next room and you're also confused because that's not the person you're referring to..? Just some abstract form of a mother figure that wouldn't tell you to "just deal with it", a mother that would comfort you when you're in pain. But it's not her. It will never be her.
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After a long day with a lot of emotions and arguments and me crying I finally admitted to myself how much I hate having autism.
I’ve tried putting a positive spin on it and I don’t think I can live with that lie anymore.
It makes my life harder, it’s made me do things I’m not proud of and upset people I love. I hate having this disorder.
Idk if I’ll ever be “ok” with having it but maybe one day I’ll at least learn to live with it
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After your meltdown remember that…
You’re safe now
It’s ok not to be ok
It’s not your fault
You’re beautiful
Lil Penguin Studios/Autism happy place
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