WHaBFHtLA - Astarion x GN!Reader - Chapter 15: More than Friends Pt. 1
Pairing: Astarion x GN!Reader (Elf!Tav)
Genre: Reincarnation, Angst, Mystery, Slow burn
Rating: Explicit, 18+
Tags: Gender-Neutral Pronouns, POV Second Person, Canon-Typical Violence, violence, some explicit content
WC: 8k words, 15/?? chapters
Summary: Push finally comes to shove. As fun as living in the present is, Astarion forgets that present dangers are still very, very real. Afterward, emotions run high, and you find yourself in a familiar predicament.
A/N: I know I put this warning in ch 1, but warning that the smut is always going to be more about their ~feelings~ than actual smut, so like, be forewarned and donât expect too much đ„!
Also: I never play wizards in real campaigns! Iâm a filthy rogue-main and if I play a caster, itâs usually been for the roleplay of it all, so this Tav is not built optimally. Theyâre built for a chill life in Neverwinter with a few offensive spells. Iâm also sticking to 5E rules for this (invisibility, spell prep) for the sake of story as well.
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Since you rejected his advances a few nights ago, Astarion has been making an effort. Youâre not entirely sure what the effort amounts to, but itâs an effort nonetheless.
At first you think itâs to get to know you better, understand who you are, as you asked him to. But surely it isnât that. Something like that wouldnât make you feel this uncomfortable.
âOh darling, please let me embroider your robes. Theyâre simply not doing enough to flatter your alluring figure.â
âSimply exquisite. When you read by candlelight, your eyes shine brighter than even the most vivid moonstones.â
âHave I ever told you that your voice could lure a siren? No? Well, its dulcet tones make this dreadful work all worth the while.â
You think heâs⊠flirting? However, either heâs out of practice or youâre not an easy person to flirt with, because each time youâre left a bit confused and unsure how to react. Usually it ends with you changing the subject with an awkward chuckle and a thanks.
As the new week begins and youâre finding yourself inundated with these odd statements, you think this might actually be his attempt to get to know you betterâ he just hasnât gotten close to someone in so long, itâs devolved into an awkward jumble of compliments.
So when you return from your start-of-week shopping trip to find Astarion waiting, arms crossed, expression irked, you suspect you know what itâs about.
âWhy are you rebuffing my every attempt to converse with you?â His voice is annoyed and you try your best not to laugh, thinking of how long he might have been waiting for you in that very position. But youâd been expecting this, so you know better than to laugh.
âAstarion,â you start, putting your bags down. âAre you talking about your weird flattery?â
He all but sputters his next words, ââWeird flatteryâ?!âÂ
You nod. âHow else am I supposed to take comments about my âdulcet tonesâ?â
As if just hearing these words for the first time, Astarion recoils a bit. âWell, when you say itâŠâ he trails off a bit before continuing. âIâm just trying to open up a conversation, darling. Not all of us have your⊠knack for subtlety.â You ignore the insult, as itâs likely warranted anyway.
âRegardless, thank you for making an attempt,â you say, closing the distance between you. âIt means a lot to me, even if itâs been, hmmm, odd.â
âYes, well, I appreciate you saying so,â he says, puffing his chest out a bit. âGods know I deserve more praise these days for how patient Iâve been.â
You laugh and respond with a matching levity, âAny more praise and your head shall be too big for your shoulders.â Then, you donât know what compels you, whether it be the instincts of your former self or the strange lull of domesticity youâve both fallen into in the past few weeks, but you peck a light kiss on his cheek.
Both of you freeze as the gesture catches up to you.
Your mind doesnât freeze, however, already peppering you with all of the questions a situation like this warrants, Did that just happen? What have I done? Why did I do that?!
Your mouth catches back up to your mind next. âOh gods, I'm so sorry, I justâ my body moved on its own. I didnât mean to do that.â
Astarion doesn't say anything, just stands there in shock. A slow motion brings his hand up to feel where your warm lips made contact on his cheek.
Your heart drops in your chest as you continue to spew words at him, "I keep messing up, I really am sorry.â Then, seeing that no âsorryâ is bringing him out of his stupor, you feel the need to explain further, "I just can't help it. It's like caring for you is instinctual. I know you don't care about me, butâ"
"I do care about you. I think. Just not⊠the same," he says, interrupting your rampaging speech. "Itâs just all a bit⊠confusing."
Your heart leaps in your chest at the glimpse of hope. "So you don't want me to crawl back to where I came from?"
"⊠no. I don't think I do," he responds, dropping his hand. He meets your eyes once more and his tone turns teasing. "And please do adjust your fantasies. I would be much more likely to recommend you take a trip to the hells."
You donât speak for a bit, as you collect your weekly groceries, head to the kitchen and begin to sort them. Guilt still beats against your chest like a second heart and you wonder if youâll ever be able to speak to him again. That is until Astarion jolts you out of your spiraling anxieties.
âDarling, are you going to pout all day?â he says, head resting on his palm while he watches you from the kitchen table. âWhile it was so very droll at first, Iâm starting to feel like I live alone again.â
Right. Heâs not the same Astarion you remember from your dreams. While the touch had been a surprise, he doesnât seem angry or bothered by it in the slightest. He really does seem mostly amusedâ oh good, at least Iâm a source of amusement to him.
So you try to let it goâ the moment of weakness, of a habit that wasnât even yours. Thatâs not to say that you let it go entirely though.
You apologize again. And again. And again. All throughout the day.
He says you donât need to keep apologizing, but you do. You feel like youâve crossed a boundary that wasnât ready to be crossed. Youâre so worried that this carefully crafted, all-too-delicate bond would break with a mere kiss on the cheek.
Astarion assures you, it didnât bother him. He was simply a bit stunned. While he hasnât remained celibate over the years, not many have dared to do as you had done. You, the intruder, had dared to kiss the sad, broken vampireâs cheek. He says it like a joke, and you wish you could laugh with him, but worry persists even after you manage a reluctant little chuckle.
And so the rest of the day remains tainted, all but ruined in your mind.
Despite this, the day does continue. You go through plans for an expansion to the colony, more room to allow the vampires a better life. Youâre a bit more aware of his hands near yours, his head leaning toward you, but otherwise, you manage.
Towards the end of the day, Astarion receives a message on a Sending Stone from Dal. He doesnât tell you the contents of the message, but the look on his face says it all: worry. As soon as the exchange is over, he gets up to leave. He refuses to elaborate beyond the fact that his siblings need him.
You nod, not questioning his concern. âCan I do anything to help?â
âNo,â he says, lips pressed together firmly, broaching no room for discussion. âI need to go now. I should be back by morning. Remember what I asked you?â When your expression remains blank he continues, âPrepare a Mage Armour or another warding spell.â
âOkay,â you respond, and your own face is likely as worried as his is now. âAre you sure you donât need myââ
He grabs your hand in a rush. âStay put. Promise me.â
Youâre not sure that you can promise that, especially if heâs entering a dangerous situation. But with the way his red eyes burn into you, you find yourself nodding again. âIâll see you tomorrow then?â
âTomorrow,â he confirms, releasing your hand and leaving. Youâre left in a flurry of papers and growing unease.
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On your sixteenth day in Astarionâs house, everything goes wrong.
He meets you in the morning, just as he promised, but after that, your day turns upside down entirely.
âAstarion?â you ask, when you open your door to his incessant knocks.
âGood,â he breathes. âYouâre awake.â
Youâd only just exited your reverie, but the look of sheer panic on his face means your remark dies in your throat. âWhatâs wrong?â
âSomething came up,â he says before looking you up and down. âGet dressed and meet me in my room.â
Even on a regular day you would have listened, perhaps with a sly remark, but on a day like today, where his voice comes out short, clipped, and his jaw is clenched in a hard line? You comply with his orders like the model student you once were.
As soon as youâre ready for the dayâ in your best travel robe, Mage Armour cast, a variety of new spells prepared for the dayâ you head toward Astarion. You hope you wonât need the preparation, but with the way that Astarionâs shoulders were set, you suspect you might.
âAstarion?â you call, knocking on the door. âIâm here.â
He opens the door and youâre graced with a surprising amount of his bare chest. âGood,â he says, either not noticing or not caring about the blush thatâs creeping up your neck and into your face. âI need your help.â
Finally, you think, brushing aside any feelings his bare body might stir within you. He trusts you and you this is your chance to prove yourself to him. Youâre not sure with what yet, but what does it matter?
âCould you help me put on my armor?â he says, handing you a pile of leathers, straps, and buckles.Â
Oh.
âOf course,â you respond, working to lay out the armor. You vaguely recognize it, albeit with a few adjustments here and there. Different pauldrons, a few knicks marring its surface that werenât there 150 years ago, but otherwise no worse for wear. âWhat else do you need help with?â
âNothing else,â he says, pulling on a pair of boots you also recognize. âI simply donât have the luxury of asking my siblings for help currently.â
You stop midway through sorting straps. âOkay, whatâs going on Astarion? You canât leave me in the dark like this.â
The vampire sighs, but lifts his head from his task to look you squarely in the face. âA group of hunters have found the colony. A few scouts found them on our trail last night. Weâre preparing to defend it. It might be the biggest group weâve seen⊠well, ever since we relocated.â He goes back to lacing his boots as he continues, âNothing you need to worry about though. You will be staying right here, hiding.â
âHiding ?â you ask, indignant. âWhy would I be hiding when I can help?â
âBecause,â he hisses, standing up and walking toward you like a panther. âWe are frankly not in need of your help. We have our defensive plans set already, and I rather suspect you may do more harm than good.â
The words stingâ largely because of the truth in them. Why should you enter the fray when you hadnât been preparing to defend the colony? Did a few weeks of desk work amount to an honorary spot on the front lines? Still, the idea that this manâ who you had already spent so much of your life with, who you had worked so hard to findâ could be in danger? You could hardly sit by and twiddle your thumbs. So you begin your case.
âI may not be gifted in shaping my Evocation spells, but I have plenty of supportive spells,â you say, gesturing for Astarion to sit on his bed, the first undershirt for the armor ready in your hands. âI can create stone or relay messages for you. If none of that is helpful, I can always use Magic Missileâ it wouldnât get in your way at all. Please, let me help.â
Astarion sits there, silent, as you plead and place each piece of armor on his body. Partway through the process, you register that youâve never done this beforeâ but your memories of your past-life have guided you step-by-step.Â
You try to ignore the conflicting feelings bubbling up at that and focus on him, placing both hands on his now-armored shoulders. âAstarion, I wonât get in the way. I promise I will turn invisible or teleport out if anything goes wrong.â
Finally, he speaks again. âI appreciate that you care enough to help,â he starts, though he doesnât sound like he appreciates it much. âBut Iâm afraid that youâre still not invited.â
You want to shake him, do something, anything to make him see you as an asset, an ally, someone he can trust with this. âBut why not? Why teach me all of these things about the colony only to shut me out when it matters most?â
âBecause this isnât your responsibility!â he growls, glaring up at you through his lashes. âBecause you are to remain here, stay safe, and live to see another day, despite all of your instincts to the contrary!â
His anger is palpable, pushing you back, off of him. You want to see the fear underneath his words, and you think you might get a glimpse. You want to understand where heâs coming from, to see yourself through his eyes. But all of that pales in comparison to the frustration building inside of you. Why wonât he take me seriously? âI can take care of myself!â
âI donât have time for this,â he spits out as he stands up. âShall I be brutally honest, darling? Youâre too weak. You are not the Hero of Baldurâs Gate. And even if you were, I would tell you to stay here. â
You know his words are meant to injure you, to deter you and keep you hidden away in this mansion, but they donât hurt any less. Youâre not sure what to say to him, canât bring yourself to look at him as he storms out, toward the hidden entrance to the Underdark.
Just as heâs about to leave your periphery, into the illusory wall, he calls back. âI know youâre angry, but please, stay put. And if anyone other than myself or my siblings comes through that door, you leave.â
With that, Astarion is gone, body melting into the wall, leaving you standing in his room alone, emotions frayed and hands trembling with a silent rage.
You wait about thirty seconds before casting Invisibility on yourself.
You wait less than a minute after that to follow him.
He can treat me like a child all he wants, but I will make my own decisions. Even if those decisions involved diving head first into jeopardy. Watching him climb down the ladder, waiting for him to hit solid ground before you follow, you can't help but think back to your past week here. It had been lovely, born of a promise to forget the past and the spawn, focus on the present with him. But how unrealistic that truly was when faced with real danger.
So you trail him, careful to keep concentration on your invisibility, lest he catch you before you get to the colony. Iâll have to lose the invisibility sooner or later, you think. But Iâd rather use it as an opportunity to attack.
You keep a distance between you through the field of Bibberbangs, on the walk toward the keep, but when you see Astarion dashing toward a small contingent, you begin to run after him.
Once you catch up to him, you notice the group appears to be comprised of most of his siblings. Out of arm's reach but well within earshot, you stay and listen to their conversation.
âDid we get a final count from the scouting party?â Astarion asks, and you see a tiefling, Aurelia you believe, step forward.
âA dozen at least, likely more. Theyâre organized, preparing to strike. Astarion, itâs not good,â she says. From your time with Astarion, you know that sheâs been in charge of directing the scouting parties for at least a few decades.
Astarion grimaces but nods, turning to another sibling you recognize. âLeon, where do you need me?â
âThe ambush point, if youâre ready. We need to head them off before they get any closer to the colony.â The man has been in charge of coordinating the various groups ever since your past-self died, and, from what you gathered, had grown into his leadership role well.
âAs ready as Iâll ever be, I suppose. What is our final count?â
Dal answers this one. âOur numbers havenât improved much since last night. We only have about thirty in any real fighting shape. A few who are willing to fight if it means they feed, but none I would consider strong fighters. There are others on the ballistas ready for support fire though. Petras should be up there with them now.â
Astarion makes an annoyed sound. After helping him with colony logistics, you knew that their fighting numbers were low, too many had died in prior raids, too many had been without blood for too long, but you hadnât expected it to get this bad. You half wonder if you would do better to offer your body up to them, rather than your magic.
You donât have time to dwell on the idea before Astarion is asking his next question, âVery well. Violet is with the evacuees, I take it?â
Leon nods, and continues, âYes. Weâve had more than enough time to evacuate the noncombatants. Itâs now just a matter of keeping these hunters at bay.â
Astarionâs posture seems to loosen a bit at that, but not by much. Youâve not seen Astarion this serious since you were fighting a world-ending horrorâ and even then he had room for jokes. But clearly the man before you was different. Like heâd lost enough, and for the survival of his siblings, his family, he would do what needed to be done.
He turns to look down at his shortest sibling. âYousen, come with me.â
The gnome gives a curt nod and pulls out his weapon. âAfter you.â
Youâre torn at that moment. You want to follow Astarion, ensure that he remains safe above all else. But you also know that he would disapprove of you joining any type of ambush, that you may truly prove to be a distraction for him. Besides, what kind of wizard gets within stabbing distance?
So you watch him run off, Yousen in tow. As your heart sinks deep into the pits of your stomach, you wonder if the worry you feel is that of a friend. But you donât have time to ponder anything as trite as your feelings for Astarionâ you have to find a position that wonât hinder, somewhere you can help and show Astarion that you are capable of standing by his side. Metaphorically at the very least.
The rest of the siblings disperse after confirming their orders. Leon heads to the front of the keep, Aurelia returns to her scouts, and Dal seems to be heading somewhere secluded. From your dreams and learning of the colony, you know Dal to be a healer, so she ought to be heading somewhere away from the fight. You follow her.
Much as you suspected, she moves up into the battlement of the keep, close enough to provide support, but far enough to stay out of danger. Perfect, you think. You silently thank her, wishing you could send her a message without breaking your invisibility or chirp up without terrifying her. As it is, you have to take your time, wait for the perfect opportunity to be helpful.
The wait is excruciating. You may as well be in the Astral Plane for how little time seems to be moving.Â
A level below you, Petras and some spawn are preparing their ballistas. To your side, Dal sorts health potions, arranging ingredients to make more. All you can do is breathe as quietly as possible, rest your arms on the crenel before you, and hope that your spells will be able to reach.
It turns out that your hopes hardly matter in the face of real combat. One second youâre standing there, almost bored, and the next you spot Dalyriaâs head pop up like a frightened rodent. âPetras! Take cover!â she yells.
Time seems to stop. You register that sheâs diving into cover, that the sending stone sheâd been holding had fallen to the ground, and that out of the corner of your eye a burst of bright light is rapidly approaching.
Crap.Â
You fall to the floor, hoping that will provide enough protection. Hoping, beyond all hope, that for some reason the Fireball will simply not hit you. Of course thatâs not how magic works, you would know.Â
Only a split second later, the fiery burst explodes before you. You donât even have time to feel fear or to react with a spell of your own. Luckily for you, the battlements provide some cover, and you manage to maintain concentration on your invisibility. But gods does it burn.Â
You canât help the yelp that escapes your lips, and you note that Dalyriaâs head turns toward you at the sound. She seems to have escaped the blast, hiding behind a wall, but you swear the expression on her face is more wounded than you are. The womanâs face is sad, itâs scared, and so tired.
Youâre reminded of the dream youâd had, of your former-self helping to defend the vampireâs previous keep. After nearly three centuries of living in survival mode, the exhaustion in Dalâs eyes is warranted. Frankly, you donât know if you would have the strength to last as long as she and the other spawn have. But, for at least today, you would muster it.
Itâs easy enough to piece together what happened. Dal received a message from the scouts or from the frontlines, they were targeting the support lines, and you needed to get the hells out of these battlements.
You crawl forward, grabbing the Sending Stone before you make your way to Dalâs hiding spot. Making sure youâre out of swinging reach, you call to Dalyria, âDal, itâs me.â She adjusts her gaze, honing in on where you are now. âIâm here to help.â
The woman nods, clearly too fueled by adrenaline to be shocked by your presence. âI knew you would come,â she says quickly. âAstarion is such an ass sometimes.â
While you agree with her, you decide not to comment on that. He had likely told them you were indisposed or didnât want to be here, but you need her to know that that has never been the truth. âOf course I would come. Where do you need me?â
âAstarion said theyâve split their forces. The second group has a wizard, thatâs where that Fireball came from,â she says, eyes darting back out to the rest of the keep, where the sounds of battle have begun to ring. âDo you have anything that could help neutralize their wizard?â
You think to yourself, wishing more than anything you had prepared the spell Silence. As it is, you have plenty of other, far less useful spells at your disposal. But youâre not about to tell Dal that, not when sheâs looking in your vague direction with a set of hopeful, pleading red eyes. Eyes that remind you of the vampire who is also in danger at this very moment.
So you sound far more confident than you feel when you say, âCertainly, Iâll head there immediately.â
Before you go, you try to give her the Sending Stone back, in the event she needs to communicate with Astarion. She pushes the rock back into your invisible hand with a shake of her head. âNo, no, youâll be out there. You need this more than I do. Astarion has the matching stone, call for him if you need help.â
You decide not to tell her that Astarion might just kill you himself if he hears your voice through the stone, and instead thank her, pocketing the stone. âStay safe,â you say as you hurry toward the stairs once more.
âYou too,â she calls after you.
Then youâre running down the stairs, two at a time, no longer caring who might hear your invisible steps. After all, the din of combat is drowning out everything else. A few Fireballs hit the battlements youâd just left and you hear the following cries of those on the ballistas. You had known that fighting would be loud, scary, dangerousâbut gods did you still miss the comfort of knowing that at the end of it all you would wake up, untouched.
You donât know where to go or how to get there, so you find your feet moving on instinct, toward all of the sounds that should terrify you.
Once youâre finally in the fray, you see the two groups, as Dal had described. The group at the mouth of the keep is being held at bay by Leon and his forces, and you can see Astarionâs group dropping behind, preparing for another sneak attack. You hug a wall to get closer to the second group, all the while watching Astarionâs lithe form move in on an enemy.
You canât help but be in awe at seeing the man in his element.
Armor hugging his body, knives gleaming in his hands, he looks every bit the dangerous, roguish vampire he was when you first dreamt of him. The difference is that now, instead of fear, you feel an odd sense of pride. Thatâs right, you think. Stab him again!
But you canât let him distract you, youâre nearly to the second group of hunters. There are at least six to your quick count, each looking as nasty and well equipped as the last. Now that youâre close you can see the wizard, standing in the back, already preparing another spell.
Again, you curse yourself. Why didnât you prepare Counterspell, you idiot? Itâs too late for regrets though, youâd had no idea what you might be getting into when you arose that morning. All you could do was work with what information you had.
Despite all of your memories, nothing can prepare you for this moment, when you finally, truly enter a combat situation. Your mind races with possibilities, and youâre struck by the fact that none of them are the right solution. There is no right solution to a battle.Â
So you go with your instinct.Â
You run forward, directly in front of the wizardâs line of sight. At the end of your run you slide to the earth, landing a mere few feet away from the group in front of you as you place both palms on the ground.
The invisibility drops as you recite the incantation for Stone Shape and the earth beneath you bursts forth into a large stone wall, at least five feet tall, another five feet wide. It leaves a crater in its wake, pulling from the ground to materialize.
It seems to form just in time as the heat of a Fireball collides with the wall, flames burst out of both sides. Excitement surges through you as you realize your plan worked. You hear shouts behind the wall, the vampire hunters eating a face full of their own fire.
You remain on the ground, now visible, sure that the group on the other side is still alive if their shouts are any indication. Oh this isnât a good place to be, you think belatedly.
It certainly isnât, as you hear the hunters make their way around the brand new trench in the ground. I need to get out of here . âInveniam viam!â Your whole body turns to mist as you step further back into the keep, still feeling naked in how visible you are.Â
You take a single moment to assess the situation. The hunters have gotten around the wall, though if their singed armor is any indication, the Fireball certainly helped weaken them. The mage seems no worse for wear, too far back to truly be hurt, but their eyes are now trained on you.
There goes my element of surprise, you think. And they probably did prepare CounterspellâŠ
You try not to think too hard about how disastrous this wizard-on-wizard battle may prove, trying instead to find which group you may be able to support. Thatâs when you lock eyes with the exact pair of red eyes you had been dreading this entire time.
Youâre too far to hear him, but it's easy enough to see his lips mouth your name. He looks angry, angrier perhaps than youâve ever seen him, and his next stab seems particularly erratic.Â
Oh gods, heâs going to get hurt if I distract him too much, you think in a panic. I need to get out of here, give him a chance to calm down.Â
âEvanesco!â you call, trying to call forth the magic for Invisibility once more. But of course, you wouldnât get the chance to try the same trick twice.Â
You feel the Counterspell more than see or hear it. Itâs like your body rejects the magic as it tries to come out, and youâre left awkwardly standing there as the group of hunters close in on your position. Shit.
For the first time in your life you feel it for yourself: real, unfiltered fear.
You had always been horrified at this possibility. That when faced with actual danger, you would not rise to the occasion. But now that youâre here, you want to smack your legs, you want to jostle your own shoulders, push yourself into the action that you had craved.
RUN, damn you, you think, willing your shaking legs to move. All of those dreams of combat, of fighting by Astarionâs side, could all come true right now if you just moved.
Then you hear a cry.Â
Itâs not bloodcurdling, itâs not particularly painful, rather a soft âarghâ coming from the man youâd stupidly followed into danger. Heâd been reckless, gotten himself nicked in his fury. But itâs all you need to jolt into action.Â
Youâd promised Astarion that you wouldnât cause any undue damage, no Evocation in the house and what not. But all of your promises were tossed aside the second he uttered a single pained sound.
Holding out a hand, you call out your most destructive spell.
You can feel the mage try to Counterspell you once more, as your magic wavers ever so slightly. But his attempt fails and a massive wall of fire rips out of the ground, like the hells themselves have torn the earth asunder.Â
Youâd controlled yourself well enough, and youâre almost certain you havenât trapped any unsuspecting vampire spawn in a fiery blaze. The hunters, on the other hand, were not nearly so lucky. Theyâd been approaching you in such a way that they all got caught in the Wall of Fire, all save that damn wizard.
Their cries are high-pitched, desperate things, as they run through the wall, stumbling toward you like some sort of twisted Fire Elementals. They refuse to go down without a fight.
Your legs stumble back, as you narrowly avoid a few of their attacks, one glances off your Mage Armour, another catches your robe, leaving a single bleeding line on your arm. Youâre not sure how readily they will fall, but you certainly wonât let them take you with them.Â
âTormentum!â you shout, as a stream of glowing darts shoot out of your fingers. You strike each of them as you pour more and more of your magic into the spell. Distantly, you can hear Astarion calling for you.
With your unoccupied hand you grab the Sending Stone, âDonât come for me. Iâm fine.â
His response is immediate, âLike hells I will, you bloody fool!â
You donât have the wherewithal to know where Astarion might be at this point, but when a single blade bursts out of a manâs neck, you suspect that you have a good idea. A second later a second man collapses, clutching at a dagger twisting between his ribs.Â
Astarion stands behind them, silver hair streaked with bloody red strands, his face dappled with scarlet as well. He may be stabbing them, but his eyes are trained on you, fury not diminished in the slightest.
You want to thank him, tell him you didnât need the help, appreciate that heâs still alive, standing in front of you. But you canât because another spell is being fired at youâ the wizardâs Magic Missile is about to hit when you reflexively put up a Shield spell.
Turning back to the damnable wizard, you call to Astarion, âYell at me all you want later. Focus on the wizard!â
âThatâs probably what theyâre saying,â he retorts, but does dutifully turn his attention to the mage.
As he runs and vaults through the wall of fire, landing behind the stone you shaped. All the while, you shoot off a returning volley of missiles, hitting the remaining hunters and the mage in an attempt to provide cover.Â
You wish you had more in you, could summon another blazing wall right on top of the enemy wizard, but youâre reaching your limit. You can feel your magic waningâ you likely only have a few spells left in you. Better make them count.
You shoot one last magic missile, assuring that the hunters in front of you are well and done. As you do so, Astarion reaches the mage, stabbing at them in two fluid motions. You see the mage Shield in response, hear Astarionâs annoyed grunt.
I need to give him an opening, you think. Youâre growing lightheaded from overexertion, and you can barely feel the Weave as you try to summon your next spell. âNon movere,â you whisper, pointing a finger at the mage.Â
The spell overcomes them and the mage is frozen in place. Astarion takes prompt advantage of the Hold Person, stabbing him in several vital areas, likely killing him in place.
Fantastic, you think, swaying on your feet as your knees start to give out from under you. The world fades to black as the magic dissipates from your fingertip. The last thing you see is Astarionâs panicked face, slowly drifting out of your view as your body collapses.
___
You canât recall the start of your seventeenth day in Astarionâs house. At least, most of it.
Everything aches, you hear voices, you feel healing magic, but your mind retains nothing as you slip in and out of consciousness over and over again. The only things you can recall are the sensation of sheets surrounding you, pillows beneath your head and the whisper of your name on Astarionâs lips.Â
Youâre an elfâ this kind of sleep is unnatural to you. Could you be dying? You have a moment of panic during a short burst of clarity, Am I already dead? Is this it? But you fall back into the darkness before the thought can take hold.
Finally, after what feels like an eternity in a ceaseless cycle of consciousness and unconsciousness, you open your eyes to the back of a familiar silver-haired vampire tending the fireplace. Heâs dressed once more in his comfortable, luxurious attire, and you briefly wonder if the previous day had been a dream.
You blink, confused at the sudden change in environment. The last thing you remember was letting loose your spell thenâ well, you suppose you donât know what happened next.
âOh good,â Astarion says, walking toward you and sitting on the edge of the bed. âYouâre awake." Distantly, you remember him waking you up just yesterday with those words. Feels like a lifetime ago now.
You sit up, a bit groggily, stretching out your limbs. They all seem intact, and you donât even feel injured, all of your aches magically gone. âI amâ is everyone alright? What⊠happened?â
âEveryone is fine. Well, save for the vampire hunters,â he answers. âYour destructive little wall kept them from getting too far. Nothing a few nights of healing and some rebuilding wonât fix.â
Your whole body aches from disuse and you wonder how long you must have been resting. Likely longer than you ever have before. âWhat time is it?â
âItâs late,â he replies, gesturing toward the darkness outside. âDalâs been tending to your injuries, and luckily theyâre minor, but you still needed the rest. Seems like you used more magic than you were used to, mm?â
His words chastise you, but the look on his face is so muted, his posture incredibly stiltedâ you have a momentary alarm. Is this really Astarion? âI must have. Are you alright?â
âIâm fine,â he says, crossing his legs and turning away from you.
Itâs hard to believe him when he reacts like that. âYou donât seem fine.â
âI justâŠâ He takes a breath, and you can see the way his back rises and falls with a tremble. âI was worried.â
âAbout⊠me?â you hazard the question. You know youâd grown closer in the last few weeks, but you also donât want to presume.
Now he turns back to you with a glare, his red eyes sparkling with rage. âYes, you! For being a wizard, youâre such a gods-forsaken dunce. I told you not to join us and did you even pretend to listen?â
You had not, so you bear the brunt of his anger with what you hope is grace. âIâm sorry,â you whisper, genuinely apologetic despite your initial gusto at joining the fray. Youâd felt the fear in those moments, the first time in your life that this body, that you could have genuinely died. Youâre not too proud to say that you hated that fear. âI just wanted to help.â
âThatâs always the case with people like you, isnât it?â he says, leaning toward you menacingly. âAlways playing the hero and neglecting to even consider the danger they put themselves in? Did you never once consider that I was trying to keep you safe?â
Every word brought Astarion closer and closer into your space, and you start to sink back into the pillows to get away from his fury. âI know you were,â you say, voice still naught but a wisp. âI tried to be careful.â You had, you swear you hadâ why does it look like that doesnât matter to him?
âCareful isn't good enough,â he hisses, his face mere inches from yours now. You can feel the next breath he exhales as he continues, calmer now, âI told you already. I refuse to get attached to you only to lose you.â
Is he attached to me? you think, eyes darting between his ruby ones. Heâs dangerously close to you and heâs waiting for something. Your response, you idiot. You think back to what he said, trying to ignore the way his body is angled over yours. âI promise. You wonât lose me.âÂ
An impossible promise to keep, surely. But itâs exactly what heâd been hoping to hear.
âGood,â he murmurs. Then he closes the distance between you, crashing his lips on yours in a desperation you thought reserved for the starving.
You should pull away, push him off of you, at the very least protest. But after a life or death situation, you canât help it. Something in you wants the very same solace he seeks. So you close your eyes. You twine your fingers into his hair. You press your lips to his in the same ravenous fervor.
He drinks in your reaction, lips chasing yours as cages you in with his arms. A moment later, you feel the blankets that had so carefully been tucked around you tossed aside, you feel one of his hands find your hip.
Oh gods, what am I doing? I canât do this. Your mind is racing, trying its best to keep up as Astarion climbs over you.
Why not, youâve done this so many times in your dreams. Your hands move of their own accord, leaving his hair to run down his arms.
We're not ready, you tell yourself. Astarion shivers at your touch and you feel his hands pulling at the neck of your robe to expose more of your flesh.
Will you ever be? Your head rolls back and Astarion dips his head down to touch his cold lips to your collarbone.
Maybe, given some more time⊠His fingers pull at the front ties of your robe, as you begin to unbutton his silk shirt.
What's the use of more time? You could have died yesterday. You could die any day. Ties undone, Astarion tugs at your robes a bit more, leaving your chest exposed.
I don't want to ruin this. Your breathing comes out a bit erratic as his lips trail up your neck, sucking hungrily but never drawing any blood.
What's one night of passion? Your past-self had this and more before they so much as spoke a single word of love. Your hands tug at his sleeves, all but tearing off his delicate shirt in an effort to touch more of him.
I'm not them, you think. Halfway through stroking his exposed chest, Astarionâs hand catches yours, pinning it above your head as he pulls you into another searing kiss.
You may as well be. His hand in yours, the way his leg presses into youâ it all feels so familiar. So what's the harm in being the Hero of Baldur's Gate? Just this once?
Thatâs how, after years of silently judging your past-self for their loveless trysts with Astarion, you find yourself in much the same predicament. Only youâre not sure how you feel. You only know that thereâs no way that this man, whoâs driving force right now is likely fear, will love you come morning.
Who cares? the deepest, most primal part of your mind asks.
As Astarion finishes disrobing you, you wonder vaguely if this is what the hero felt. If near death had brought them to the brink of a terror that they couldnât overcome, a terror that only Astarionâs cold lips, slick tongue, and nimble fingers would fix.
And by the gods above do they feel like the solution to even the most complex of problems.
His lips suckle at the ridge of your ear, sucking on its tip in such a way that draws a soft, unintentional whimper from your mouth. "Oh darling," he whispers, voice low and taunting. "I knew those dulcet tones would be my undoing.â
You want to retort, to shut his clever mouth up, but before you can so much as collect yourself, his lips are on yours again, opening them in a single, languid movement. His tongue, like the rest of him, is chill to the touch, a refreshing burst of cold as he explores your mouth.
Complaints all but forgotten, you relinquish yourself to him. His fingers leave you squirming under him as he traces the lines of your bare body. They never seem to stop moving, searching for each new piece of your skin that requires attention.
And sweet hells is he relentless in his search. Even if you didn't already know of his vast experience, this would have been a clear indicator. His probing fingers know how to play a body like an instrument, and he was tuning yours to play only the loveliest melody for him.
Astarion finally pulls his hands, his lips away. You want to groan in protest, but youâre enraptured by the stretch of his torso, the way his shoulders flex as he removes the last remnants of his clothing. His form laid bare before you, you canât help but think that surely youâre paying witness to anotherâs lurid fantasy. Surely this beautiful figure bathed in firelight, celestial in his loveliness, could not be for you?
But he is, if for the moment.
Even if his movements are too perfect, his kisses too sweetâ he feels real in the moment, simply because the sheer desperation never leaves him. His hands squeeze, his teeth bite, his words of passion come hurried and breathy between nips. It's abundantly clear what his goal is to you, as itâs similar to your own. He wants to feel you under him, around him, alive. Youâre only too happy to oblige.
So you ensure that each of his movements is matched with one of yours. That when he bites, you lean into it; when his fingers probe between your legs, you buck into him; when he chuckles into your ear 'my, you're an eager little treat', you moan his name into his ear without shame.
You'd been with Astarion in more dreams than you would have been comfortable to admit. But, as with every experience you'd had since arriving here, it was nothing compared to living through it with your own body.
Itâs not long before you realize that this body feels each touch differently, its sweet spots new treasure troves for Astarion's searching fingersâ ones he seems eager to find for you as new indecent sounds pass your lips.
He seems to devour each sound, eager to consume any bit of you thatâs ripe for the taking. Thatâs when you see past his need to feel you alive. No, he wants you to be his. He wants your noises, your body, your soul for his own.
As he expertly strokes between your legs with one hand, the other squeezes your hip, all but pinning you to the bed. In that moment, it doesnât feel like heâs loving you. It feels like heâs keeping you in place. Like he doesnât know how else to make sure that you wonât slip through his fingers, like your past-self before you.
You wish you could reassure him, tell him that you would never make the same mistake twice, but both of you know thatâs not true. So instead you allow yourself to delude yourself, for at least this one night.
His body asks the question, âWill you really, truly stay with me, live for me?â
Yours responds with a sonorous, deceitful, âYes.â
Astarion rubs his length between your thighs, almost teasing in its slow, rolling motion, but his hand never leaves your hip.
He palms himself with one hand, ready for you, but the other never leaves your hip.
Even as he thrusts into you, setting a brutal, punishing pace, his hand never leaves your hip.
It doesnât bother you, this constant reassurance, but it does stoke the fear that already grips your heart. Despite the kisses he lavishes upon you, despite the sweet words that drip from his mouth to yoursâ you canât stop thinking about the fact that you could have died. You could very well have left Astarion alone, again, wondering why he ever let another into his life.
Something about that thought pushes you forward to seek your pleasure, to give him every piece of you that you can, lest you lose it by tomorrow.
You donât know how many times you lose yourselves in each other. By the end of it all, it all feels like another one of your dreams. But you do know that, for the first time since you regained consciousness, you donât feel that fear any moreâ only his body, your own, and the beautiful music that they play together.
The night ends with both of you exhausted, laying on your backs and staring up at the ceiling to the room you used to call your own in a past-life. After two days of some of the most youâve ever exerted yourself, your nightly meditation comes all too easily. Before you slip into your reverie, your last, fleeting thought is of Astarion: I donât know how we got here, I donât suppose it truly matters. But thank you for caring about me, in whatever way you can.
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Dishes and Kisses Part 3
Part One Part Two
Garreth Weasley x F!MC (Mrs Weasley)
This week's Weasley Wednesday prompt in the discord is: Hot đ„
Trigger: pregnancy and birth
Being a rather nice day, Garreth decided to take the kids out for a trip to Hogsmeade, where he proceeded to spoil them rotten with sugary treats and even a cheeky peruse in Zonko's Joke Shop.
As they passed the display of firecrackers, all three cherub faces looked at him, eager, pleading.
He screwed his face up with reluctance, completely understanding the gleam of excitement in their eyes, but knowing full well his balls would be in a vice if he took some home.
"You know Mummy's rules, kids," he said, with a sigh. "No more fire crackers in the house."
The youngest, Oscar, pouted, eyes looking longingly up at the colourful boxes. The eldest, Albert, gave him a cheeky smirk, eerily much like his own. "What if we didn't take them into the house? Technically, that's not breaking any rules."
Garreth opened his mouth to argue, and then closed it again. The kid had a point. But, MC would still be mad, and the baby was due any day now. He didn't want to upset her.
Unless...
"How about we strike a deal?" He said. All three sets of eyes looked up at him with interest. "We will get some firecrackers..."
All three of them proceed to jump and cheer, but Garreth held his hand up. "Let me finish," he said. "We will get the fire crackers, but, we will save them for Autumn Festival night on Friday. We can have a bonfire, some of Grandma's lovely treats, and set the fire crackers off to watch as a family. Is that a deal, Weasley's?"
"Yes, Daddy," Oscar said.
Albert and George exchanged a look, the elder of them shrugging and holding out his hand like a proper gentleman. "Deal," he said.
....*....
Over the next few days, Garreth had the boys collecting firewood to build up the bonfire at the bottom of the garden. Albert told him a funny story he had heard about Muggles making a scarecrow called a Guy they would burn on the top.
"How very Muggle," Garreth said, frowning. "Well, Bertie, there will be no scarecrow executions on our bonfire. Just good, wholesome fun."
MC waddled down the garden, her hand supporting the generous swell of her belly that was now sitting rather low. She rubbed at the small of her back as she watched them work on the bonfire. Garreth hurried to her side to kiss her cheek. "Are you alright, love? You should have your feet up."
She nodded. "Tougher than I look," she winked. "Your mother won't let me do anything in the kitchen, so I thought I would come and annoy you instead."
He nuzzled into her neck, nipping at her earlobe. "You can annoy me all you like," he growled. He rubbed his hand affectionately over her stomach, so excited to meet the little bludger. Any day now.
"Dad, that's yukky," Albert said, rolling his eyes.
MC huffed a giggle and Garreth only wrapped his arms around her more obviously. "Nothing wrong with loving your woman, Bertie," he said. "You'll understand one day."
The kid just pretended to retch and threw another log into the growing heap, his younger siblings giggling as they tried to stick twigs in each other's hair.
....*....
The sun was almost set, and Garreth took Albert and George to the bonfire to light it. He was careful to explain the dangers of fire, and he showed them how to carefully check their arranged pile for any wildlife that may have crawled in to seek shelter.
They had matches and an oil soaked rag to start the fire in true muggle fashion, however, he thought he would use a bit of magic seeing as their eldest was already beginning to show signs of his coming through. The children stood each side of him, each with a hand over his as he wielded his wand. They had stuffed the oil soaked rag into the twigs, and he made the wand movement, all their hands together, as he cast Incendio.
Their eyes glowed at the burst of flame, both of them grinning in excitement as the flames began to curl and lick around their hard work.
"This is great, Dad," George said. "It looks so pretty."
Garreth nodded. "It does, but it's also dangerous," he said. "Remember the chat we had about fire? And how we need to be mindful of it?"
His middle menace nodded solemnly. "Yep, it burns," George said.
He put a hand on each of their shoulders. "I've cast a protection charm around the bonfire so it won't spread, but we still need to keep well back from the heat of the flames," he said. He hugged them in a bit closer. "Let's go see what yummy food Grandma has got for us."
Wrapped in blankets against the chill, Garreth lit the lanterns as the whole family sat around the garden table to eat the feast Grandma had prepared. It was great to have everyone all together, and Garreth was glad to see the smile on MC's face. She had begrudgingly approved the fire crackers seeing as it was Autumn Festival season.
After the food, Garreth brought out the box of fire crackers, MC giving him a look that he returned with a wink. Grandpa Weasley had to get involved with this particular party trick, and he helped his grandchildren line up the crackers into the special pots that Garreth had set out for them.
MC came to stand with Garreth, rubbing at her lower back. He moved to stand behind her, wrapping his arms about her to keep off the chill, his hands supporting her belly. He put his head on her shoulder as they watched the children with their grandpa.
"They love things that explode," MC said, shaking her head. "Can you imagine the capers they will get up to at Hogwarts?"
He grinned. "I'm almost a little jealous. I miss that place sometimes."
She brought her hand up to ruffle his hair. "I will always be grateful for my time there, it brought me to you and some of our wonderful friends."
She winced and took a slow steadying breath, and Garreth felt the tightening of her stomach under his palms. He stilled, turning his head a little to speak quietly into her ear. "Was that what I think it was?"
She nodded, whispering back to him. "I've been getting them for a few hours now, that one pinched a bit I must admit."
He caressed the tight flesh carefully. "Our little bludger is ready to join the fun," he said. Baby number four and it still made his eyes well up. MC was a spectacular woman indeed giving him all these bundles of joy.
Garreth stood and held her, his hands gently soothing her through the contractions as Grandpa and the kids set off the firecrackers. They whizzed and popped, colourful bright sparks erupting into butterflies and shooting stars, the kids squealing and giggling, jumping about with joy.
MC smiled at them, turning to look up at Garreth. "I love you," she said.
He kissed her firmly. "Love you more," he returned.
....*....
Garreth sat in the chair by the fire, Oscar on his lap. He stroked through his soft, red hair, waiting for him to fall asleep. On the settee opposite, the other two boys were sat with their Grandpa, anxious looks lifting to the ceiling as another loud wail sounded through the house.
Grandpa relit his pipe and patted Albert on the knee. "Don't you worry Bertie boy, your mother is a strong woman. She'll be just fine, and she is in good hands. 'Tis women's business, they know what they're doing."
Garreth's face was pale, a little pinched at the sound of his wife's pain. He knew his mother was up there with MC, but he wanted to go to her, hold her. This bit was the worst part and he felt utterly helpless. He held his youngest a little tighter, awaiting the arrival of this newest Weasley.
....*....
The soft, fragile cry of the baby filled the bedroom and MC pushed herself up onto her elbows, sweat dripping off her brow, to see her mother in law hold up a squalling pink bundle.
"Oh, MC, my dear," she said, tearfully. "It's a lovely little girl."
MC felt tears well up in her own eyes. Her first girl. She held her arms out as Mrs Weasley placed her baby in her arms. She felt a kiss on her head and tore her gaze away from her baby to look up at the woman she thought of as a mum. "Thank you," she said.
Mrs Weasley nodded and squeezed her arm. "I'll go and fetch the proud father," she said. She slipped from the room and left MC to soak up the tiny precious features of her newborn.
Garreth bounded through the door, pausing to take in the sight of her with the baby. MC had got her to latch on and she was already having her first meal. MC met Garreth's gaze and smiled. "Come and meet your daughter," she said, softly.
Garreth climbed onto the bed beside them, careful not to jostle them too much as he pressed a fierce kiss to MC's forehead. He put his arm around her and stared down at his baby girl, offering her a finger which she immediately grasped.
MC heard him sniffling and looked up at her husband, smiling affectionately at the tears in his eyes.
"My little bludger is a girl," he said, quietly. "I can't believe it, and look at her hair. She is definitely a Weasley."
MC grimaced. "I know, I'm starting to feel like the odd one out."
He held her a bit tighter. "Nonsense, we'd be nothing without you," he said. "She is perfect. I love her so much, and I am absolutely going to teach her how to keep the boys in their place."
MC chuckled. "With a nickname like bludger, the boys will be running scared."
Garreth nodded. "I like the sound of that. Little girls grow up after all."
He took hold of MC's chin and pulled her in for a deep kiss. "You truly are amazing, do you know that? I fell in love with you all over again today."
MC smiled. "I should think so, this is no easy feat pushing out all these Weasley babies."
"But you do it so wonderfully," he grinned, eyes twinkling.
MC gave him a stern look. "Get that thought out of your head Mr Weasley. I am going straight on the potion until this little Weasley is at least out of her nappies."
"We can have fun practising though, right?"
At this MC couldn't help but smile. "Absolutely."
Garreth looked down and gently stroked his finger tips over baby soft skin. "What shall we call her?"
MC thought for a moment. "Well, seeing as she was born on festival day, how about Autumn? It's my favourite season too as it goes."
Garreth leant down to gently kiss his daughter's soft head. "Hello, Autumn," he whispered. "I'm your Daddy, and I'm going to love you so much you'll never, ever want to leave."
MC snuggled up against Garreth, cradling Autumn, and then Albert, George and Oscar crept into the room with Grandma and Grandpa Weasley. The boys carefully climbed up onto the bed to meet their baby sister, their hands and lips gentle as they showered her with love.
MC had what she had always longed for. A large, loving family, and she had her handsome husband to thank for all of it.
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