#just thinking my little thoughts

[spnintheyearofourlord]

Thinking about Sam and how central autonomy and violation is to his character. How many times and ways he had his choice taken away throughout the series. All the things we don’t know about his time with Lucifer, but are also so heavily implied that we do.

Imagining he eventually gets out of The Life and becomes a victim’s advocate. He ultimately decides not to try and pursue law school at this stage in his life—it’s been so long and so much has changed—but finishes his bachelor’s and pursues a master’s in social work. He never expected to end up here: the boy with the demon blood, no longer living out some doomed and twisted fate, helping people. He’s passionate about representing those made most vulnerable and unsafe in their own skin, supporting others as they come out the other side survivors, lending the compassion he’s always struggled to have for himself. Every time he listens to someone else’s story, helps connect them to resources, advocates for their case, he heals a little bit too.

#just thinking my little thoughts #sam winchester #supernatural #bodily autonomy #tw sa implied #cw sa implied #idk the best way to tag this?? just vague passing thoughts but I don’t want to trigger anyone so #sam posting #i just think it would be a fitting job for him #one of many great options #but i think he would find this fulfilling. and depending on why you think he was pre-law it would give him similar space to represent people #even if not in a court room #though who knows what type of law he planned to practice #I really think the show dropped the ball on exploring this particular facet of Sam’s trauma #they kept hitting the nail on the head with the autonomy theme and it *being the trauma* #but not enough follow through on Sam’s emotional damage™️ aside from tasty morsels here and there #sammy #<- for my own tagging system

[devilry-revelry]

One of my headcanons for friendship Astarion is that he’s physically affectionate. Like touch is his love language. Not in a sexual way, but in a “I crave genuine connection/love/care”/“Oop maybe I’m a little touch starved” kind of way.

Like at first he doesn’t really realize because he’s never had the proper agency and rule over his body, and avoids contact until it’s absolutely necessary. But eventually the accumulation of these very casual but wayward touches gets him to realize.

It’s shoulders brushing during travel. It’s moments in battle when he’s offered a helping hand. It’s the friendly commaradary found around the camp fire. It’s the warm steadying hand when his nerves are frayed…

And then he’s coming up with ideas to initiate touch, because gods forbid he just come out and ask for a hug.

He comes up with a rather cunning ruse where he pretends that he can’t manage his own hair, and so he gets Tav to brush it and help tame his waves and curls with a casual and slightly annoyed, “Fix this for me, won’t you?” And then that turns into him returning the favor with an almost rebuking, “No, no. Let me. You’ve somehow created quite the rats nest.” As he brushes Tav’s hair. This turns into a sort of unspoken ritual. Tav doesn’t realize when it does or how it does. They just know that Astarion brings the comb and they take turns brushing.

It evolves from there with the help of time, and trust. Holding hands in moments of uncertainty or loneliness. Warm inviting hugs when he’s feeling particularly frazzled as the city of Baldur’s Gate comes into view. Sometimes him and Tav share a tent and share a quiet space reading books and mending clothing. After encountering Cazador he can’t find rest unless he’s holding Tav’s hand…

And he’d put on a show of being put out and annoyed for every ounce of it, but in reality he’s thankful for Tav’s acceptance and soaks up every ounce of it like a greedy cat.

#baldur’s gate 3 #Bg3 #bg3 astarion #baldurs gate astarion #astarion #headcanon #friendship #touch as a love language #but not in a romantic way #touch starved #just thinking my little thoughts #Tav as a security blanket

[fluentisonus]

He added, after a pause: “Remember this, my friends: there are no such things as bad plants or bad men. There are only bad cultivators.”

Les Misérables, Volume I / Book V / Chapter III, trans. Hapgood

#is this anything? idk I've been looking at it too long to tell. anyways I just really liked this passage #^ the text here is a little abridged tbc bc i couldn't draw all the uses of nettles he lists etc #I think I might also color that last panel separately bc I'm really pleased with it tbh #thoughts #my art #les mis #jean valjean

[uncanny-tranny]

I think so many people are so deeply alienated from themselves that they have no clue how to exercise their free will and autonomy. For some, this alienation runs so deep that they are afraid of their own autonomy and humanity. It is completely understandable why one would have those feelings, but it can be worrisome.

I want to help others who feel this way, so here are small things I have done to exercise my free will:

Add "guilty pleasure" songs to playlists and actually listen to them (I have a ton of late 1990s-early 2000s music I listen to now proudly that I never listened to in the past out of shame)

Getting the décor item, bath set, bed spread, ect. in the patterns you like, even if it's "childish" (I got a dinosaur-themed wastebasket from the kids' décor section and I adore it)

Taking a new route to get to a place you go to often

Eat dessert first

Celebrate well, and often

Collect things that are "odd" or don't seem like an "acceptable" thing to collect (somebody on my "for you" page collects dandelion crayola crayons and it was so cool!!!!!!)

Incorporate one new piece in an outfit you wear frequently (e.g., a new chain, a necklace, ribbons, bracelets, ect.). Challenge yourself to add onto the outfits if you feel up for it.

Sing along to songs without worrying that you sound "good" or your intonation is completely accurate

Read a book from a genre you weren't allowed to read as a kid (comics, thrillers, mysteries, anything!)

Walk without having a specific destination or goal

Pick up a new craft without expecting yourself to master it or to ever be "good" enough. Get your hands messy.

I don't want to shame anybody for not feeling as though they have free will or that they are exempt from exercising it. However, I wanted to give ideas so that you might read this list and find your own ways to express your intrinsic autonomy and will. You deserve to be a person, to feel alive, not just living. That is what our lives are for.

#mental health #mental health support #positivity #if anybody has ideas of their own definitely include them! #i just think being stuck with this feeling that you don't have autonomy and that you ultimately aren't an equal person or a person at all.. #...in comparison to other people can be a really troubling and dangerous place to be in... #...and that isn't the person's fault for feeling that way. they didn't pluck those thoughts out of thin air... #...like i have felt that exact way all my LIFE because i have been abused for. probably 2/3s of my life... #...only within these past few years have i even FELT alive. frankly it's going to take a while to repair what i have been left with... #...so i know the feeling and i want to help others feel even a LITTLE bit alive. you deserve it... #...you deserve to take in a deep breath before slowly realizing 'oh my gd this is what it feels like to be alive' and SMILE about it #i want that for you even if it is brief. even if it is small. even if it is a whisper. i want you to feel alive #unironically getting rid of the idea of 'guilty pleasures' has made my life SO much better

[pineapple-frenzy]

Book 2 au: sparring sessions and short hair katara

They like to have sparring sessions in order to keep their bending skills sharp. They allow themselves to go all out and not hold back at all cause they know if anyone got hurt, Katara could just heal them

But anyways, wouldn't it be kinda funny if Zuko accidentally burned Katara's hair tho? Aofkqldkkajfjd

The "I think we can save the hairloops" line is from @linnoya-writes thank you for that!! :>>

#zutara #zuko #katara #atla #book 2 au #my art #i mentioned in my last book 2 au post that i wanted to include short hair katara into it and y'all were so supportive of it!! 😭😭😭 #so this is how i think it would go #it would happen as katara is trying to evade one of zuko's fire balls #she manages to avoid it but since her hair is long it still caught on fire #she'd be pissed so she water whips the hell out of zuko #and then promptly forgets about it akfhkakdkakdj #even after the sparring session she still hasn't remembered cause 'oh no zuko's in pain i have to help him!' #it isn't until zuko even mentions it that she remembers #zuko thinks she's more calm than i thought she would be after burning her hair so he mentions it to her #little did he know katara just forgor aldjlakdkaljd #n e ways zuko does feel bad so she offers to help fix it up for her #i think after the haircut katara would find herself looking in mirrors when there are any around cause 'zuko thinks i'm beautiful?? really? #zuko doesn't know this tho and he thinks katara is till sad about the unwanted haircut so he keeps telling her that she looks beautiful #and katara just keeps losing it aldjlakdlald #in conclusion they are idiots your honor

[tawnysoup]

The one eyed Siffrin Wink™

#i wanted to know how it'd look so i animated it (a still image doesnt rly do it) #i ended up going way cleaner than i usually do for animation so it took a couple days #but im really pleased with him - im quite proud of my style matching - just the lineart is too thick but thats ok #little scrunko winks for u #what mischievious thoughts are they having? probably sadder ones than u'd think #my art #my animations #isat #in stars and time #isat siffrin #animation

[puppyeared]

learned something about myself lately

#i dont think its even the fact almost all my characters are somewhat beasts in one way or another. i just #really like tails and wish i had one myself #and then my oc designs are a little tame theyre mostly human shaped with animal features. but they always have tails #my eyes have recently been opened to the appeal of long whiplike unicorn tails.. so flowy and curly #something about the tuft at the end being long and swirly just does something for me.. #maybe it would make sense to change auggies tail shape so it looks like a meteor. her design is mainly pink with hot pink accent #so it would be cool to use that and orange to make it look like a fire meteor.. maybe itll help complement the blue/green in her design #head full of ocs today so expect a ramble later #if i had a tail i think it would be long with a kink. so it kind of folds over once but not in a curl #when it wags its kind of a swaying motion. i have thought about this a normal amount #yapping

[todoyamas]

February 3rd

#shuake #akeshu #goro akechi #ren amamiya #akira kurusu #persona 5 #p5 #rina draws #haha oops i was a few hours late but it's the thought that counts #and it's the count that thinks #just a little something for my blorbos bc i think about them too much

[spnintheyearofourlord]

Okay Dean “You know I am not much for prayin’ ‘cause in my book it’s the same as beggin’” and “I prayed to you, Cas, every night” Winchester, I see you.

#destiel #deancas #dean winchester #supernatural #just thinking my little thoughts #don’t look at me I’m having a moment #something something no greater devotion than that to his brother who he’s praying for in the former yet this implies #the same love and desperation fueling that must apply to Cas too #do y'all see what I'm saying? does the connection make sense? #especially s8 going forward Dean often takes the cake for toxicity I’m sorry it’s just true. HOWEVER. we need to talk about the softness #that man shows to Cas in this season specifically. #for ex: after Cas sternly shuts him down in 8x08 he doesn't get defensive and snap back like Dean often does #he goes over and sits on the bed across from cas and softly says 'talk to me.' like i'm sorry? has dean ever said that?? #not that i recall. usually it's smthg like 'are you ok? no? that's rough buddy. shove it down.' bc that's what he was taught #and mid-end of the prior season though his ‘don’t tell Cas the truth’ plan was not great it was pretty clear imo how deeply happy he was #just to have cas back. broken or not he’d rather have him. . #I don't know exactly what I'm trying to say that's why we're in the tags but it's just something about how Cas deeply betrayed them and we #know how intensely Dean can hold a grudge yet when they get Cas back Dean's softer with him than he ever was before. #and then searches monster land high and low for him even after Cas abandons him #and connecting the former and latter quotes up there it's pretty clear how deep that devotion runs #(platonically or romantically. to each their own reading. and not always healthily.) #because he's as well as admitted he begged for Cas in purgatory. every. night. #Dean 'I don't pray bc i don't beg and I'm not weak' #Dean 'I would do anything for sam so i'll beg for help' #Dean 'I prayed to you. I killed my way to you. did you hear my prayers?' #it's just really somethin'. #I have to wonder if Cas knows how big that is. He must right? #(for my own tags) #dean #spn s8

[devilry-revelry]

Act 3 Romanced!Gale and Tav arguing over the Crown of Karsus, fighting and disagreeing over its use to the point where Tav gets frustrated and leaves, teary eyed and angry…

And then Gale’s eyes cut over towards Halsin, who already confessed his feelings for Tav. Halsin who meets Gale’s stare head on, unbothered, as if daring him…

And then that little bastard Astarion at the mid-point between them, just absolutely DELIGHTED about the drama. Looking back and forth between them, gasping so loud people in camp turn to look…

#baldur’s gate 3 #Bg3 #just thinking my little thoughts #Halsin #Gale #Tav #Astarion

[egophiliac]

lostinthebookwithstitch.jpg

this is all I can muster right now, too busy having my brain absolutely melted by the September schedule, what is happening

#art #twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland spoilers #lost in the book with stitch #so if i understand this correctly the next episode 7 bit is dropping in like a WEEK?! #and this is just going to be happening during the extra stitch pickup?! #i thought it was weird that they were doing such a long post-event pickup I DIDN'T EXPECT THIS #and they just snuck that little announcement in there before the absolute madness of OH YEAH AND NON-NRC GUYS CAN HAVE CARDS TOO NOW #the POSSIBILITIES this opens up #i did not think i would be so glad not to get a new episode 7 card but i need these keys for my second chance at masquerade malleus #and this is before we even know anything about the new halloween event except for johnny honestman and gidenyan #or the details on the platinum birthday cards #twst please you CAN'T do this to me #by which i mean yes please keep doing this i am loving every second of it

[aliosne]

Saw a post about working class butches in physical labour jobs and wanted to make my own, so: I love you butches who do childcare or early education. I love you butch nurses. I love you butch house cleaners and janitorial staff. I love you service industry butches. I love you butches who do sex work. I love you working class butches who do “feminine” jobs you are cool as hell

#butch #lgbtqia #lesbian #its me im butches doing stereotypically feminine work #when I was nannying full time I kind of thought of it as I was doing Nanny Gender #like especially bc I wore mostly dresses then for practicality reasons #which gave me The Dysphorias but yeah. my way of navigating that was to get a little fluid with it. #also even tho they don’t get perceived as such: all of these jobs are as physically demanding as many ‘physical’ jobs #like girly at least when I worked in a warehouse/delivery bay I got to sit down #look I could probably think of a better term than ‘physical labour’ but like. you know what I mean. #anyway. sometimes you have those I am uncomfortable when we are not about me moments #and then you remember that you can just go talk about your experience

[heartorbit]

holy quintet looks kind of different

#project sekai #emu otori #nene kusanagi #tsukasa tenma #mizuki akiyama #rui kamishiro #pjsk #prsk #proseka #pmmm #i tag then i scream #UAUUUGUUUUU im tired. smifnfile. I didnt mean to draw finish this i kind of just did and now its 2am. and i have #9am lifedrawing class. sniflfmelfle. Goodnight. IM TIRED. #this is my way of practicing rui i think i finally got him down. ambrose im coming to get you #here comes emunene doomed yaoi and mizurui doomed yuri and tsukasa doomed in general #fun little things: emus hair bows r based on her kirapipi card #mizukis hair bow is the one from the ribbon event and tsukasa hat is torpe card #nenes soul gem is a shell for her mermaid card and ruis is an hourglass for his curtaincall card. and i thought it was funny #and i couldnt draw the balloon nice. LOL. he gets ramune candy for compensation #didnt draw it yet but like when homura takes out her braids i thought nene could take out her front hairties. cg/o hair style. you know. #I got my cat a laser pointer and im so glad it fucking tired her OUT chasing it she sleeps like a rock. me next. OK FUCKING GOODNIGHT. #STUPID 9AM CLASS. EXPLODES. #i know its kind of funny to just have mizuki be there but im a wxs oshi and nenerobo wasnt going to be here sorry. cant draw her a mech. L #but to me they arent just there. thats MIZUKI. theyre a celebrity to me. wxs is just next to them.

[frownyalfred]

Broke: Dick hates being Batman because he’s his own vigilante and doesn’t want the responsibility of the cowl

Woke: Dick hates being Batman because he has to bulk for a few weeks beforehand in order to look convincing in the suit

I feel like Dick gets the heads up text from Bruce, groans, and turns around to hit Costco for chicken breast and greek yogurt.

Because he’s muscular as Nightwing, absolutely, but he’s not carrying as much muscle on a given day like Jason and Bruce are. He needs to be more agile than them, and as a result he’s a little leaner.

Taking on the cowl, even temporarily, means bulking up as quickly as possible. Because even if he pads the suit, the goons don’t know that. They’re still gonna hit Batman like he’s carrying the same amount of mass.

#thoughts #as I hit the gym thinking about a bulk #bruce wayne #batman #dc #batfamily #dick grayson #nightwing #me on my ‘Jason is a more convincing Batman in the suit but he would never wear it’ hc again #dick is phenomenal and a fantastic actor #but maybe he’s just a little short and lean #fic ideas #hmmmmm

[wizzard890]

So there’s a trend that I absolutely hate in online discussions of (non-satirical) genre, particularly genre that’s influenced by the gothic. This trend makes my eyes roll back in my head until I can see through my own skull. It makes me want to bite a car in half. It makes me want to step into the jellyfish tank at the New York Aquarium and beg for the sweet sweet annihilation of a thousand stings. 

I call this trend: Oh Just Be Sensible, and it goes like this:

“Why do vampires always end up covered in blood when they feed, I don’t spill soup all down the front of my shirt when I eat dinner. Real toddler energy.”

“Why do people always cut their hands to swear oaths, everyone knows it would hurt way less on the [insert body part with fewer nerve endings]”

“Vampires shouldn’t be feeding from people’s wrists, it damages the tendons, if doctors don’t take your blood from your wrist, vampires shouldn’t either! No one will be able to flex their fingers the next day.”

(This comes up a lot with vampires, I mention, as I stride purposefully into the glistening mass of jellyfish.)

There are direct answers for some of these when it comes to the practical visual language of a particular medium (for example, you cut your hand on stage / on set because you can hold a blood pack in there, and even if you don’t have an effect, the gesture and its purpose can be discerned from the nosebleeds) but what really gets me is how thematically boneheaded this sort of observation is. 

Like, let’s go down the list here. 

Why do vampires end up covered in their victims’ blood? Well Scoob, do you think it could maybe have something to do with their bestial, inhuman nature? Or with the erotic and sensual abandon with which they can approach violence, now that they’re untethered from human morals? 

Why do people cut their hands to swear oaths? Aside from what I mentioned above, do you think maybe it’s because it adds a layer of gravity to see two people swearing an oath to one another with blood dripping from their clasped hands? Do you think it’s maybe to evoke a unity of body, something greater and more primal than a unity of word? Or maybe to remind us of the dire consequences of breaking a blood oath?

Why are authors having vampires feed from people’s wrists if it damages their tendons? Damn, maybe that’s because it’s where the pulse is. You know, the pulse? The heartblood, the thing that races when you’re scared or turned on or both? The thing that stutters when you’re close to death and could, should the author choose, ring in the vampire’s ears like a chime or a great pounding thunderclap. Maybe in a story about undead beings who drink blood, we can sacrifice a bit of sensible reality in order to enforce the emotion and thematic heft of a scene? 

Images like these communicate what is happening between two characters, not just the events that are transpiring! No one making stories forgot to consider ~sensible~ little observations, because it would be absolutely inane to consider an observation with the creative value of a wet paper towel. This stuff is part of our visual language for a reason! Themes also need to be communicated! 

God, like, okay, I’m exhausted and the aquarium staff keeps yelling at me when they find me here, but let me just wrap up by saying that relationships, character and meaning are expressed in so many ways beyond dialogue or internal monologue, and those expressions are so rarely sensible. 

(Also all this shit looks cool as hell, do you really want your protagonists swearing to die for one another by dabbing their slightly bleeding elbows together, grow up.)

#me: don't make me tap the sign #sign: fun allowed #(thematic clarity and character relationships should trump sensible realism every time) #(realism is fine! but monocle popping smirky little 'hmm I think dan brown was an idiot' smugness is just....bad!) #(it's bad and it makes for bad writing!) #my thoughts about books

[puppyeared]

wanna see a magic trick? 🪄🎩

#YEAYYYY i like drawing this guy #now that i think abt it i cant remember the last time i saw a furry with tattoos.... ive decided not to think too hard about how it would #work but i think i like the idea of him getting playing card tats on his ears would be cool ^_^ #apparently anthro species on furth include birds and mammals and i think fish amphibians and reptiles are non anthro #so instead of whipping out doves he would make white butterflies appear out of his hat :o) #its sort of meant to tie in with the ruffles on his shirt resembling a butterfly!!! i thought id make it close to a swallowtail so #that way its easy to see at a glance. i think that would look really cool irl #he looks a lot like joker p5 now that i look at it... it wasnt intentional but the red eyes and black messy hair is obvious huh #oh but the way his hair curls in the front isnt strictly in one direction just so that its easy to draw lol. its meant to curl around his #hat brim a little bc i thought it would look cool #my art #myart #my oc #oc #sleight #laika's comet #laika's comet oc #fan character #furry #furry art #fur