#just an overdramatic vent about work

[ihaventsleptinweekz]

Sometimes I think I'm a normal person then the 11 pm thought kicks in and suddenly I'm insane

#Going to mildly and vaugly vent in the tags to buckle up ^_^ #Will not clarify on any of this because it's more fun not to. Hope that helps #Anyway I'm kind of just. Weirded out by myself rn. Like I'm fine but I'm side-eyeing myself a little bit #And recently I've been believing thay I think really I was more immature a year ago #and while I do think back at her (year ago me) and kinda laugh at her for being overdramatic I feel kinda bad about it because yknow I was #But then I got kind of weirdly slowed down? In my being less freaked out process #Mostly because of Hellenite everyone say thank you hellenite (sarcastic love those fics so much) #But reading the fic kind of reminded me of the emotions that were going on at that time #And while I don't really miss or regret what happened too much anymore I think the general emotions of it started popping up again #Like idk how to say this but I'm over IT as a whole- but the emotions are still kinda left over? #Man really do NOT know how to put this #Cause it's kinda old news and frankly I am wildly happy with where I am right now #And I'm kind of thankful?? But also just a little :I about the whole thing. Which is making me inwardly side-eyeish #And I do think that I probably wouldn't change much if I could- and honestly I'm a little more embarrassed than anything else #Sorry for the weird long rambling tags just didn't want to call either of the like- maybe 3 friends I'd consider bringing this up with #I probably should check in with them though #Ough and I have work to do tmrw #Ew ew ew ew #Feel like this week has gone too damn fast and also not fast enough lmao #I'm also kinda nervous because I might have to take the ASL placement test soon to see if I qualify for skipping a couple ASL classes #Which would be nice cause I would LOVE to graduate quicker #And with all the AP classes I took in high-school it'd be nice to knock a bit of time off my college thing #Although admittedly I DID get that scholarship so it couldn't hurt??? #It might actually give me more time to get EIPA certified and check out some internships?? #Which would make getting jobs out of college WAY easier #Although maybe it'd be easier to get NIC certified if I retook a couple classes instead of trying to skip them??? God maybe I'd be behind #Ofc that wouldn't be a thing until after college #I'll probably have to save up money soon to start thinking about taking the test since it's so damn hard and so damn expensive #At least from what other interpreters have told me #Which is good!!! The it being hard thing anyways. Makes sure Deaf people get GOOD interpreters thst they deserve!!

[rosesradio]

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#i don't mean to vent when i just got back on here but like #so i haven't had a midnight snack in months--just didn't feel the need-- #but the night before last & last night i got a sleeve of saltines each--these were short sleeves of like 10-15 #i got the box for my dad when he was sick because he asked me & it had been sitting there for maybe 3 months since & no one wanted them #but then tonight we had soup & my parents asked about the saltines & basically found out #& my dad kinda chewed me out--not about eating the last of them because there was another box they used-- #but that that was way too much to eat & i eat too much & will get diabetes #which i feel just isn't true ? #without divulging too much i eat two meals a day (i don't like breakfast)--like a sandwich at lunch & then whatever me and/or my mom-- #makes at dinner #maybe a snack in between but not often #& then some (like a serving size) of ice cream for dessert #like a get a lot of cravings but it's not often i act on it because food is expensive #anyways i felt so bad about what my dad was saying i started crying & he said i was being overdramatic. but i didn't finish my dinner #& now i don't even want to eat around him #i should probably just ignore him--i love him but he's one of those dads that gets so involved at work that he just wants to watch tv when-- #he's off. & he thinks i'm basically the same person i was when i was eight years old--like i love mac n cheese & my favorite color is orange #but honestly i did suffer some disordered eating/body image issues in hs & i'm sure my relationship with food isn't completely healed #but it still hurts to see people think things about me that aren't that accurate #tw vent #tw disordered eating #rose.txt #To be deleted

[kruxton]

beware of tags for real. BOO.

#me when things at home are kinda... peepeepoopoo 😀😀👍 amiright gang #just jokes its kinda pretty really bad #hope my parents work things out #in the meantime? i'll make sure my youngest siblings never have to hear what me and my brother did in the car this morning #i pray that im being overdramatic about the current situation #i pray that im overreacting because this has got to be temporary right. right? #peepeepoopoo feelings right now #FUCK YOUUUUU!!!!! #im done im ok its going to be alright #sike #just kidding shits going to be fine #text #vent #personal

[three-moving]

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#wish my brain would just fucking stop with the bullshit #first it was the taking very small and reasonable shit personally despite there being no need to #then there was the re-internalizing a bunch of shit i worked through a year ago (thanks for being the catalyst for that one mom! 🙄) #and now it’s the taking xyz action friends do as an insult #despite the fact that i logically know it isn’t #like. friend doing xyz thing doesn’t mean anything bad. brain why have you decided that bad things will happen to me because of it #and why can’t i make brain shut up about it #anyway. being overdramatic. gonna go to sleep soon and hope that tomorrow morning the feeling is gone #...i just. god. am i gonna feel like this forever? i don’t want to. #oh and if it could stop with the telling me over and over that my mere existence as an aro person is going to be painful i’d be grateful #like. we’ve been over this. i know. i’m preparing for it. you don’t need to remind me that i’m in for a world of hurt real fuckin soon. #vent #not even putting the talk tag on this one. i’d like to forget i made it

[hoseokspudding]

Author notes: Hello babies. This all I got. Love you. Bye. Comment if you want to be tagged.

-cw: f!reader, shanks giving head.

Shanks

Shanks has a unique quality that distinguishes him; he is the type of person with whom you can openly chat about any subject under the sun, and he will attentively lend an ear while you passionately express your opinions, regardless of the subject matter. His seamless ability to weave his words together has a mesmerizing impact, causing your heart to quiver uncontrollably.

Thinking about how good of a listener shank is always there if you need to vent or just to talk. He would tell you that your troubles are important and that it is normal to be unhappy since we all do. He has an instinctive capacity to affirm the gravity of your issues, reminding you that your concerns are genuine and that it is totally natural to suffer moments of grief, as sadness is an emotion shared by everyone.

However, there are instances when Shanks may playfully tease you, referring to you as a tad overdramatic or silly if you become overly worked up about something seemingly trivial. It is his way of injecting a lighthearted perspective into the situation, reminding you not to take life too seriously and to find humor even in the smallest of matters. Nonetheless, his intention remains rooted in genuine care and understanding, as he continues to be a reliable source of support and empathy.

Small/NSFW Dribble:

- He's the kind of man who will practically purr and coo at you, pushing you to cum. He'd lick you up and down, your juices spilling on his tongue as he nibbled on your burning core. You'd grab his hair, exposing the scar on his left eye. "You look so pretty underneath me Y/N," he'd say before returning to kiss your core, moving his thumb up and down your clit. As his tongue swirled around your cunt that was now oozing out honey, it was as if he had discovered a hidden treasure of honey-like delight. The glaze of your precum clung to the edges of your thighs, providing a sight to be seen.

- “Oh come on, Y/N, I know you're dying to cum right now." He taunted you as you squealed from beneath him.

-Shanks seems like the kind of guy who would go easy on you, but as you continue your affair, his love becomes as deep as his strokes inside you.

-Shanks is very much into positions that force you to face him; he enjoys seeing your gorgeous face make various faces while attempting to take him.

#dee࿐ #dee's thoughts #one piece #fanfiction #shanks #red haired shanks #one piece x black!reader #one piece x y/n #one piece x reader #onepiece smut #shanks x reader #shanksx female reader #shanks x you

[hestiviea]

Part 2 of Scott Pilgrim Swap AU

Seven Evil Exes and Their Relationship with Ramona

continuation of this: scott pilgrim swap au but i can't draw

considering the fact Ramona made a comment that Matthew only became evil when he got into high school, meaning that Ramona still kept in touch with Matthew or Matthew was there in the same School with Lucas and Todd. So in this AU, Matthew and Ramona are still friends and basically are supposed to be Kim and Scott roles. Matthew becomes depressed but hides it well by making it seem like he's just being emo and overdramatic, cause you know, theatre kid

Lucas like I said before, was probably just going on with the other exes' evil plan thing and without the revenge thing, he basically got better for himself, making a name as an actor and getting strong. so in this AU, Lucas is basically Ramona's Wallace, kinda, he gives genuine advice coming from someone who worked to improve and get better for himself, But the moment he meets Scott, he vents and talks about how heartbroken and how hard it was when Ramona cheated on him

Envy had enough of Todd being a like a man-child and also being a douchebag, so She kicked him out. Todd in this AU is kinda like stephen but without the anxiety, he works to improve and explore himself, but that only starts to happen after Ramona remeets Gideon, because Todd really gets a reality check and also breaks down when Gideon belittles him

Roxy tries to do everything she can just so she can meet Ramona, like coincidentally having an art show in Toronto or passing by town, to me, Roxy is Ramona's version of envy Because after meeting with Scott and after a few weeks or so, Roxy snaps and tries to kill Scott

Since the Twins don't have much character, I'm just going to use @ken-katayanagi Headcanons, thank you for feeding the Katayanagi Twins fans for so long. Ken and Kyle have an estranged relationship because everyone assumes that since they're twins they basically are the same person, so they try to be as individual as possible but in doing so cause their relationship to be strained, it was only after Ramona dated both of them since in her mind it was just a fuck buddy situation but to the twins, they thought it was more

They reconcile and realise that they never truly knew eachother, so they swear to always have time for one another. They get over Ramone pretty quickly and after Ramona breaks up with Gideon, She calls them to get a drink but it's so she forgets about Gideon. In this AU, they're kind of like Julie, Stacey, and Wallace in two, they're aware of Ramona's flaws and call them out, they're not subtle or kind with it either, they bluntly say it. When they first meet Scott, Ken basically whispers for Scott to run, also have the best relationship with Scott, they provide alot about Ramona's past whenever Ramona tries to hide it and they genuinely care for Scott's wellbeing, while Scott was temporarily out of Sex Bob-Omb, he also temporarily joined the twins music career things

Gideon was already over Ramona when she left him, he isn't going to get her back for his harem, instead he just plays around, he only cryogenically freezes people he considers as partner material and people that genuinely interest him plus can deal with him, Ramona isn't suitable for his standards of a perfect girlfriend, so he didn't truly care when he saw ramona again

but he does insult and mock Ramona when he finds out that she's dating Scott, aka his lead bassist of the band he recently is working with (but also/probably plot twist scideon, cause i find that to be hilarious and fun to explore)

#scott pilgrim #scott pilgrim takes off #scott pilgrim vs the world #scott pilgram takes off #matthew patel #lucas lee #todd ingram #roxy richter #roxie ritcher #ken katayanagi #kyle katayanagi #gideon graves

[steam-beasts]

How I'd adapt TTTE BWBA s22 ep 2; "Forever and Ever"

Original summary; Gordon has a tantrum about all the changes being made to the railway and is sent back to his shed in disgrace, Gordon insists that he is happy to stay there forever but his new friend Nia from Kenya helps him to see the changes in a different light.

My adapted summary; Ever since Edward left the sheds, Gordon had been quite bitter about the changes. Now that Nia has moved in and Henry suddenly announcing that he's moving into Vicarstown, Gordon becomes enraged. In retaliation, he takes his frustration out on Nia and causes an accident.

Plot

A year had gone by since Edward's departure from Tidmouth Sheds, and despite how long it's been, Gordon still can't stop being bitter about it. Since Nia's arrival, Gordon had been disrespectful and belittles her often, bumping her out of the way and calling her a "weak little tank engine". He just directs his grumpiness on to her. One day, he hears a conversation between Henry and Sir Topham Hatt and is horrified to learn that Henry wants to move out.

(Not my art btw, it's on DeviantArt)

He confronts Henry the next day, and Henry tells him "Going to Vicarstown is my choice, Gordon. I don't need your say in it!". Gordon then goes to Sir Topham Hatt about the changes, ranting to him about the changes, but STH just says;

"Edward left Tidmouth to mentor Phillip and Rosie by his own choice, Gordon. Henry is moving away by his own choice as well, nothing can stay the same forever, you know. Just deal with it, and move on"

Sir Topham Hatt doesn't realise how much the changes are actually stressing Gordon out and agitating him.

When Gordon is getting his coaches shunted, he finds that Nia is shunting instead of Percy or Thomas. He's already angered by the sudden announcement of Henry moving out, and Nia, the one who (in Gordon's eyes) replaced Edward, decides to try and calm him down.

Gordon yells back at her, and Nia just retorts by saying;

"Ugh...I wonder how Edward and Henry put up with you, you're such hard work!"

Nia never means this in a rude way, she's just annoyed by Gordon. This remark upsets Gordon even further, so he decides to pull a trick on Nia... the same trick he pulled on Thomas decades ago.

He goes along with it and heads off with the Express early, and doesn't give Nia time to uncouple from the coach.

As Gordon speeds down the line with Nia in tow, he doesn't listen to her begging him to stop and just laughs it off.

(Imagine he's laughing maniacally)

My version of Nia was built without a proper safety valve, so she is a boiler explosion waiting to happen. Her boiler is heating up fast, luckily, her driver manages to reach her coupling rod and uncouples her. But as she's uncoupled, Gordon had reached a junction at that point and Nia ends up going off the rails and hitting a tree at full force, denting her buffers.

Later on that evening, everyone and STH find out what happened and confront Gordon about his errant behaviour.

Gordon is quick to defend himself, claiming Nia "replaced Edward and forced Henry out". This is when he tries venting his hatred of the changes. STH and everyone else just assume he's making up excuses and is overdramatic; he's not.

STH; "Excuses, excuses! I am sick and tired of your whining, Gordon! Nia is staying in this shed and that's final! We must not be so rude!"

Thomas; "You're definitely a big fat Galloping Sausage now, Gordon! You just can't go a day without complaining! Bother, even pulling the same trick on her like you did on me? That's pathetic!"

James; "Just disgusting, Gordon! I don't remember you being so horrible towards tank engines like you were today!"

Emily; "Shame on you..."

After this argument, STH tells Gordon that he's banned from pulling the Express until he gets his behaviour sorted out and is being locked in his berth. Gordon desperately begs him not to, but STH doesn't listen. He is shut up in the sheds, where he has a nightmare about Edward and Henry getting scrapped and wakes up in the middle of the night, unconsciously tearing up and reflecting on how everyone treated him and his dream.

The episode ends with Gordon whispering;

"....N-Nobody cares how I feel...my own controller doesn't c-care how I feel... why does nobody care about me?"

The episode ends.

Yeah, if I were to do Forever and Ever, it would be pretty dark and angsty. It's all hurt for Gordon and no comfort. Plus, it would show a bit of Gordon that's vulnerable and no longer all pompous and arrogant, instead all self-conscious and soft.

#thomas and friends #thomas the tank engine #ttte thomas #ttte gordon #ttte henry #ttte edward #ttte james #ttte emily #ttte sir topham hatt #ttte nia #ttte percy #gordon the big engine #james the red engine #edward the blue engine #henry the green engine #percy the small engine #emily the stirling engine #adapting Bwba episodes #forever and ever

[schro4444]

thank u I'm gonna now rotate all those specific Family Shenanigans my mind like a rottisserie chicken

but YES!! EXACTLY!!! like ik the (boring) answer as to why we weren't shown the learning curve was ANIME but his parents are genuinely so weird and extra and THIEVES THEMSELVES I'm 1000% certain that the answer was HIGH-OCTANE CHILDHOOD like...look at bby kaito...in one (1) panel w Toichi and already popping up right in front of his Professional ThiefTM dad without Toichi realizing, what a menace, I love him.

About Toichi though...... I would ALSO have wanted to see THAT learning process and I'm kinda bitter it was never mentioned actually. gimme the Chikage training Toichi montage!!! like, weird penchant for standing inside tower exhibits in the dark and memorizing laser grids to impress ladythieves aside, as far as we know he was just a weird little magician man who suddenly decided to become a thief, and while his being an escape artist would have useful applications on his budding career as a thief there are lotssss of things being a magician doesn't cover. Plus it was Chikage who was known as the Woman of Twenty Faces! why did they suddenly make TOICHI the expert in disguise who taught Vineyard and Yukiko! like yeah I buy Chikage being gleefully retired (izumi curtis "I'm a housewife!" vibes but like gleeful instead of menacing) until Toichi's death but like...waste of potential man...at least a mention abt her teaching Toichi would be nice...........

no boring answers in this household, only SHEER SHENANIGAN POTENTIAL!!! like, what else are you supposed to do as two (2) happily married overdramatic phantom thieves/theater kids with a super genius baby who has an improbably high iq and a photographic memory? OBVIOUSLY you train him in the family business without telling him that's what's going on. and OBVIOUSLY he gets ridiculously good at it by the time he's in first grade. quoting some old tags of mine: shapeshifting nightmare baby that can already pick locks. he's impossible to babysit!!! my favorite gremlin.

YOURE SO RIGHT. i want this prequel so bad. oh my goodness. he was just a Really Good Magic Nerd, that'll only carry you so far!! eventually my guy had to learn from his beloved wife how to break open safes and avoid snipers!! I kinda like the idea that maybe they combined their knowledge on disguises--maybe toichi was more on the acting side of things while chikage had the latex, lol--to make the Ultimate Disguise (enter kaito, stage left). the woman of twenty literal faces + some guy with a mustache who could probably convince you that the sky turned green, through sheer charisma

chikage: so what was your plan for getting out? have you memorized the blueprints yet? I've counted at least twenty potential escape routes for you, as long as you're feeling agile enough to get through the vents, hehehe toichi: well you see toichi: I was going to. um. talk my way out chikage: chikage: sweetie you were going to What toichi: IT ALWAYS WORKED FOR ME BEFORE

#IZUMI CURTIS COMPARISON IS GENIUS BTW #gosh i love the kurobas theyre so insane (beloved) #i want the prequel so so so badlyyyyyyy #gah #dcmk #magic kaito #mk #schrasks #kuroba family sitcom

[monkeychief1904]

GIVE ME MORE OF YOUR FREEHOUN THOUGHTS

HI SORRY THIS TOOK SO LONG I WAS BUSYYY

Ok so I told you most of my thoughts already lol

I was recently thinking about maybe how they first met. I think them meeting because Gordon got lost in the vents trying to help Kleiner with getting into his office would be really funny. Gordon wanted to be helpful and Kleiner mentioned how some guard named Barney would go in the vents and help so he tries and gets lost. Barney goes in the vents after and Gordon accidentally scares him and they get to Kleiners lab together. Then after this encounter they slowly become friends and the next time Kleiner loses his keys Gordon is able to get them before Barney since Barney showed him the way, and their races in the vents become a thing they do.

I still can’t decide if I prefer that they dated pre res-cas or not cause the office romance is sooo cute BUT the idea that they both had what they thought was an unrequited crush and neither being able to get over it. Barney because everyone kept insisting Gordon was coming back, hard to get over someone when everyone’s talking about them and you’re wondering what could’ve been. And Gordon because for him it’s been like 2 weeks (idk the freaking timeline) so he’s still got it bad. The idea that they both confessed their feelings and then like, didn’t start dating or didn’t talk about it properly is also just mmmm drama. Still adore all the pre res-cas stuff people come up with tho so freaking cute.

I also love the idea of Barney only knowing a tiny bit of sign language when he first meets Gordon, then taking time to learn it properly so they can talk easier. Barney still knows ASL after the combine and everything cause being able to communicate without talking is very helpful for a rebellion that doesn’t wanna be discovered. Since most of the rebellion leaders worked with Gordon they all knew at least some sign language, but Barney was the one who was the best and maybe got fluent in it? I’d imagine they’re all pretty fluent/good with it by hl2

OH I didn’t say much about post-canon ideas cause I don’t have many but basically Gordon and Barney are just fun uncles to Alyx and they hang out often. Alyx definitely overdramatically like gags or goes “ewww” when they kiss or whatever as a joke lmao but they know she’s just messing with them.

I really love Gordon being like an older brother to Alyx btw they’re friendship is sooo well done in hl2 specifically the episodes.

#ask #half life 2 #alyx vance #gordon freeman #freehoun #barney calhoun #headcanons #half life #I get so worried about posting ship stuff idk why #I think it’s cause people can get so heated about shipping sometimes #Alyx Vance my beloved #I need to make more fanart of her #but I have no time!

[sophieinwonderland]

It turns out, I'm still not done venting about the SN's smear document and the grievances with my November posts they used to defend contextualize the fakeclaiming and misgendering posts from the admin about me.

A recent post from Lunastus reminded me of this bullet point.

This threw me for a loop because this quote isn't even mine.

It was from the Lunastus Collective who coined the term.

Sure, I reblogged it and defended it, but it wasn't my quote and it's so weird to see this attributed to me.

But with this latest round of drama SAS started, I also want to talk about the drama surrounding the word endogenic and its coiner.

Recap for those who missed that ridiculous drama: The LC coined the term in 2014. In 2021, SAS found a 2015 article that loosely associated the word "endogenic" with Freud supporting the fantasy model. SAS specifically claimed that "the term 'endogenic' can be traced all the way back to Freud's work in 1956!"

But on further investigation, every paper prior to that used a similar but different term, endogenous.

In the end, "endogenic system" is a term 100% coined by the Lunastus Collective.

Endogenic was never used to refer to systems before that.

Now, rather than admit they were wrong, SAS and their entitled cronies doubled down and claimed the words were still too similar, then had the gall to demand an apology from the LC for the baseless made-up manufactured drama.

I've seen some argue that their issue was less with the term and more with the response. That they felt their feelings were being dismissed. (And that part, yeah, was mostly me.)

The problem is that not all feelings deserve to be validated. Not everyone who feels they're in the right actually is. Sometimes in life, you're just on the wrong side, and humoring your feelings will do more harm than good.

Personally, I think The Lunastus Collective deserves an apology for the harassment they received over SAS's smear campaign.

Now, coming back to the latest round of manufactured drama today... let me tell you what these experiences have taught me.

These people don't have "morals." They have friends and enemies.

If you're lucky enough to find yourself on the former list, expect them to loyally turn a blind eye to your wrongdoings for as long as they reasonably can. And when they can't, you can depend on them to make a 20-bullet-point list of things your victim did to deserve it. (Much of which will be fabricated, twisted or taken out of context.)

If you're an enemy, expect them to comb over every word you say. Expect them to twist your words and outright lie about you. Anything to justify their hate of you and manipulate others to feel the same.

This is, unfortunately, their modus operandi.

The thing is, I think they overplayed their hand this time.

I don't think people are really buying the whole "wanting anti-endos to be ostracized is literally worse than death threats or suibait" talking point they have going on.

It's comically overdramatic and, frankly, minimizes the real harm of death threats and suibait in favor of a cheap talking point.

Obviously, people who hate me will continue to hate me and the usual suspects are jumping on it hard as always.

But their posts about this aren't generating much engagement, which SAS's usually do. Usually a couple days into one of SAS's smears, I might have lost a few followers that will take me a whole day or two to regain or I'll get a couple hate anons relating to it.

This feels different. Especially if people were buying the severity of the allegations SAS and pals are trying to push. I have no doubt everyone would be rightly enraged if I were sending actual threats of violence.

But I'm not seeing that here.

I hope this means people are waking up to the lies and manipulation tactics they use, and will start thinking critically about SAS's past smears of both myself and other systems. Admittedly, this might be too much to hope for.

Anyway, you can all can go home now.

This one's a bust.

But maybe you'll get me next time. 🤷‍♀️

#syscourse #pro endo #pro endogenic #survivor's network #survivors network #survivors' network

[k-tarotz]

Can you read about how the members and the industry view Sunoo? I liked your reading jungwon.

Thank you from now 🥂

aww thank you, i am glad you enjoyed it. <3

how people in the industry view him: bright, kind, light hearted, pale (adoration for his skin tone), overdramatic, sad, anxious, protective, curious, adventurous, friendly, extroverted, loving, sweet, gentle, supportive, polite, someone who carries a lot of responsibility (personal life), sensitive, cold, hot (looks wise), easy to play with but hard to approach, lonely

disc.: there are multiple peoples energies and everyone seems to have a wildly different view on him because they all see different sides of sunoo rather than his whole personality. so 'overdramatic' could be by someone that dislikes him that saw him in a vulnerable situation, 'protective' by someone who saw him stand up for x, 'easy to play with but hard to approach' could be someone who wishes to take adventage of him but knows sunoo has members & friends who are overprotective of him since he has a big heart and so on. I thought these are important to clarify to avoid worry.

now onto the members~

heeseung: so in heeseung's eyes sunoo is someone sensitive he has to be careful around in order to not hurt him. he doesn't walk on eggshells around him, rather sunoo is someone that has a hard time with expressing his boundaries and desires, he needs to have a specific comfort level met for it, so heeseung goes out of his way to be attentive towards him. he has this deep desire and wish to understand him better and to be close, he seems to have a fear of sunoo isolating himself so that's something he could do when his mental health isn't the great. so overall heeseung wishes to always take care of sunoo and his feelings in order to see him be himself. bright and playful and not just while pretending.

jay: his view on sunoo is pretty similar to heeseung's, but rather his concern seems to be focused on sunoo being hurt by other people. in jay's eyes sunoo is someone that is in love with the idea of being in love so he gets crushes easily. which also causes him to be hurt really easily since sunoo has a big heart, he feels things really deeply and once he gets hurt he has a hard time getting out from the mindset those feelings and emotions come with. even if it's something small. (like a fan he has a crush on biasing another member, or an idol he has a crush on getting into a dating scandal.) sunoo has really strong personal views on things which could add to this since he has a lot of passion in his heart. so overall jay wishes to protect sunoo from getting hurt by being next to him, listening to him, being playful with him and just being close. he seems to look at him as a little brother so seeing sunoo in pain even if it's emotional could make him hurt. he also looks at him as someone sweet, kind, helpful and bright.

jake: he views sunoo as someone that is really talented in acting, both in a professional and personal sense. he could be really impressed by sunoo's attitude towards work and how he does things. he adores how well sunoo can tap into the emotions he is supposed to portray and how good he is at it. he thinks of him as hardworking. he, also could adore how good sunoo is in hiding his emotions. sunoo doesn't seem to be the one to do that a lot off cam, however in front of cameras sunoo could hide his true emotions when he or the group goes through something that effects him deeply. jake seems to wish to have this ability as well as he sometimes gets misunderstood for showing certain emotions. also, he could find sunoo an exhausting person to argue with because he will always win whether he is in the right or not. this could be something that bothers jake a lot because when it comes to arguments he is a logical person rather than emotional and he just wishes to be listened to rather than listen to sunoo venting. though he still has a lot of love for sunoo, which helps them make up lots of times if not all.

sunghoon: so, i would like to start with saying he seems to share the same view with jake when it comes to arguments. he thinks sunoo is someone who is pushy when it comes to arguments because he is too passionate about being right and making points, not actually resolving the problem at hand but "winning" even if he is in the wrong. this could make other members help them resolve issues which ultimately ends in sunoo only saying why he was wrong and not involving anything he did wrong in his side of the story so sunghoon could find this exhausting and wish for him to have a bit more emotional maturity. although this isn't from hate, so don't misunderstand please. they just both seem to dislike living together with too many people. sunghoon still views sunoo in a positive light. as someone that is good in getting along with people and making friends. that is something sunghoon looks up to him at because he wishes to be as good in socialising as sunoo. he could also look at sunoo as someone very spiritual and in tune with his emotions so he could be really curious about his hobbies and ask a lot of questions at times even if it's just watching videos or collecting things. he could also recognise that sunoo is really good with kids, or just interacting with younger engenes which he finds really cute.

jungwon: he looks at sunoo as someone full of hope that always does his best no matter what he does. he thinks sunoo is very good at everything he does let that be singing, dancing, acting, facial expressions and so on. he might look at him as an all rounder and wish for him to have more confidence in himself, since if he were to take full adventage of his potentials he could be even better than he is right now, even if he is already talented a lot. jungwon adores sunoo a lot from an artistic stand point and sees a lot of his strengths. on a more personal note, he thinks sunoo is a lot more introverted than people think and wish people would treat him more gently. for example not assume about him and let him express himself freely. so in this sense he might take a lot of care of sunoo in silent ways that are hard to notice but regardless make a huge difference. he looks at sunoo as someone very misunderstood.

ni-ki: riki views sunoo as someone who gets hurt easily too, so he wishes to take care of him. more importantly he wishes sunoo would take more care of himself as well. he already seems to take good care of himself and appearance but riki wishes he would not allow certain people to talk to him or steal his time. he views sunoo as a very intelligent, kind, polite and sweet person even at times where he is very sad so he feels sorry for him. not in a pitiful way, rather he wishes to be there for him as a friend and take care of him. be a person sunoo can lean on and have fun with without overthinking and having negative thoughts.

disc.: these are based on current energy and can change anytime. some of these are shorter than others because it depends on the members current energy (exhaustion, well being ect) as well as their comfort levels and what their guides allow me to channel. remember this is tarot for entertainment, don't send hate to anyone, be mature.

-Candy

#kpop #kpop reading #intuitive reading #tarot reading #kpop tarot #kpop related #tarot #enhypen #heeseung #jay #jake #sunghoon #sunoo #jungwon #ni-ki

[deludedcrayon]

really trying to make excuses for my friendd because they’re the only ones i have but am i being overdramatic for this interaction in our groupchat?

me: *talking about how negatively i feel about my body, horrible anxiety about work tmrw, about to have a panic attack*

my friends: should i buy this dress😋

i understand not knowing how yo respond to someone going thru it, but even a “im sorry” or “i love you” would be nice. my friends vent about their problems or insecurities or anxieties and i reply to every single message with advice or even jusy kindness to hopefully help them. but the minute i vent its ignored? im so tired of this. its been like this in every friendship ive had i have no other reason but to believe im the problem. why cant i just d1e already. if i could sh at least without getting institutionalized that would help to but i have nothing. what am i even living for at this point? i dont even know.

#actually paranoid #actually traumatized #mental health #trauma #anti psychotics #neurodivergent #vent #bpd vent #adhd #actually borderline #actually bpd #bpd mood #borderline thoughts #tw vent

[sotwk]

Nanaaaaa, I have a TOTALLY random question…

when did you first realize you loved your husband?

it’s okay if you’d rather not answer, I’m just in a situation I’m kinda confused about and thought about you and how wise (and totally amazibeens you are) :)

Hello my darling Jordie! <3

That is a great question, but also a tough one! I am of the belief that there is no single moment where you have a magical epiphany in realizing you're in love. I think there just comes a point in the relationship where you stop to really consider your feelings for the person and your behavior around them, and then you realize the summation of it equates to love. Sorry if that sounds so mathematical! XD Love looks and manifests differently in people; that's why it's so hard to define!

As to my personal experiences with my husband, here are some details that might give you some insight:

We met through online dating but lived six hours away from each other, so we had a long-distance relationship for two years before we got engaged and then married. We've been married for 6 years now.

I found him very physically attractive, but what got me hooked on him was just how easy it was to talk to him about anything. Even when we were just exchanging messages online, we would never run out of things to chat about.

When we met in person about a month later, there was zero awkwardness. It was just like meeting up with an old friend. I just remember being so smitten by how charming and outgoing he was, and it was just so fun hanging out with him.

It didn't take us long to realize that we wanted to be with each other all the time, and even if we video-chatted for hours everyday, it still made us sad to be physically separated.

He was very determined to drive 6-7 hours to come and visit me for a few days, even though in those 2 years he had a ton of challenges with work/family that made it so difficult for him. He had to jump many extra barriers to keep our relationship going, which made it obvious that he loved me.

Eventually I started crying each time his/my visit was over. Seems kind of overdramatic, but my anxiety and depression would get triggered by just the thought of being apart. I think I was terrified of even the remote possibility of it being the last time I see him. You know those clichés about missing a piece of yourself when your other half leaves? Apparently they're true!

Looking back, I think I fell in love with him pretty quickly, and we both knew it, but we didn't verbally acknowledge/define it until about 5 months of dating. I'm convinced we're soulmates, and as soon as we found each other it was a done deal.

If you're going through a situation where you are trying to decide whether you are in love with someone (or vice versa), this is something that only you can figure out, but talking it over with a neutral party helps! I am always available to chat with you about it if you want to share more! <3 I wish you the best and all happiness in whatever you're going through.

Relationships can be hard! My Asks are always open for advice or venting. <3

Turned off the reblogs for this post since it contains more personal info than my usual posts. ;)

#sotwk answers #personal #sotwk husband #marriage #dating #relationships #love

[stormyoceans]

Monica I'm really scared. It's ep 11 next week. We haven't got Mork crying. (Sam mentioned to me that we haven't even gotten the day bawling scene from the trailer?) This eye donation thing seems a little bit too happy and hopeful for an ep 11.

I know this sounds bad but I really hope day doesn't regain his sight. Because everything the series built up about how blind people also are able to experience this world will all go down the drain. And some part of me knows p'aof will not do that. But then. It's so cruel. To give Day the eyes, the hope of vision just to yank it back so heartlessly. It's so mean. I am scared for next Friday monica.

i feel like i should probably wait to answer you because rn the episode is still too fresh in my mind and i don't have the emotional detachment necessary to be, if not positive, at least not utterly and embarrassingly overdramatic about this but. my mood really flipped a whole 180 degrees because of that ending and ngl. im not doing too well ;;;;;;;

FAIR AMOUNT OF NEGATIVITY UNDER THE CUT I ALREADY APOLOGIZE FOR IT

the thing is. i don't think the surgery next episode is gonna be successful, but i still so deeply dislike this eye donation plotline regardless of how it's gonna end because what's the point of it? if the surgery is successful and day gets his sight back, then it's gonna defeat the entire message of the show. if the surgery fails and day remains blind, then it just feels completely purposeless since he didn't need this to accept his disability and learn that he can still have a fulfilling life: he had already accepted this at songkhla, and it was perfect. honestly the only reason i can think of for them to go down this road is to have the surgery be unsuccessful now, only to end the series with day getting it again after some years and this time working out to show that 'you should never give up hope'. and i can't even begin to explain just how much that wouldn't sit right with me. and i mean i don't have a disability so i obviously don't have any right to say this, but still

not to mention that i actually still feel like those two moments with day and mork crying that we have yet to see are both related to the two of them breaking up because mork doesn't feel like he can take care of day, so they're gonna make him leave until he can prove to day's mom that he can provide for day. which is another thing i would hate

i just don't understand why would they choose all of this when, instead, p'aof could have had mork and day figuring out their future TOGETHER and BOTH trying to prove to day's mom that they can take care of EACH OTHER. like the show made such a point of making day become more independent and empowered but now they're not allowing him to be. i wanna see him walking outside alone with a cane, i wanna see him go back to school and finish his studies, i wanna see him open up his little bookstore while mork works as a cook. it can still happen, i guess, but i still wish it would have been given more focus

im also the kind of dramatic person who can't be like 'at least we have the first 9 episodes, they were perfect and nothing can ruin them'. unfortunately that's not enough for me. unfortunately i need them to stick the landing or it WOULD ruin the entire show for me. and not being able to get back to it and find comfort in morkday would honestly be heartbreaking for me. and you know, obviously the message and the representation of the show is the most important part in this, but also i would be lying if i said i didn't want to have a damn DVD box set of a jimmysea series to actually hold and enjoy since we won't ever have one for vice versa, but what would be the point of buying the last twilight one if i dislike the ending

ANYWAY. im really sorry ismay, i ended up ranting because i needed to vent but im afraid im only making you feel worse with this ;;;;;;; maybe after i sleep on it i will be a bit more optimistic about this but. im really scared too ;;;;;;; for what is worth im holding your hand and im here for you whatever is gonna happen

#none of this is gonna change my love for jimmysea but it still making me feel like such a bad nomnom #sorry again for the negativity i guess i should probably leave for a while ;;;;;; #ismay 🤍 #m: ask

[anti-endo-haven]

Venting again cause i need to know if I'm being overdramatic or if this is an okay reaction TwT

Maybe important note???: We have BPD, and i've also been dating my partner for over a year

Okay so I have a partner, and I really really love them. Like a lot. And today I was stalking scrolling through their blog, and noticed that they had gotten a couple of those positivity asks (like "i love your blog, share to blogs you like to spread the positivity")

and at first I was a little hurt because he didn't send me any sort of ask like that, and then i scrolled a little further and saw that he had sent an ask to someone else. and i know this because he had reblogged it with a message

and then i sent him that exact same message, cause i really like them and their blog does make me happy! but i also wanted to see if they would send it back. and he hasn't.

and now i'm just really really hurt and betrayed and i feel like he doesn't love me anymore, and we also haven't talked (like had any meaningful conversation) in forever, and i know it's cause they love the show they're hyperfixating on and it makes them really happy but i don't know what they're talking about at all and it's literally the only thing we talk about. the only times the conversation branches off is when they've had a terrible day and want to talk to us about it or because we make a really concerning post on our blog and it shouldn't have to get to that point

and even when we share something, he just brushes it off and goes back to talking about bsd. like we wore a dress last friday and we were super, super excited, and we told him about it and his only reaction was "NICE" and then showed a ss of a bsd post and began to talk about it. we got more of a reaction from strangers on the internet than our boyfriend of over a year. we can scroll back and find messages where we told him we were wearing a dress or skirt and he would ask for pictures and be super happy and be a complete dork and now he didn't even ask for a picture or say that we must've looked so pretty. he couldn't even type out "OMG THAT'S AWESOME" or "OOO LEMME SEE" or "THAT'S GREAT!!".

and they also haven't asked us "how are you" since february 2nd, and checking the chat log I'm 99% sure he only asked that because we weren't really acting normal, and checking the chat logs again i can't even find the last time he said "i love you" without us initiating the exchange or because we did something for him

actually we just found it. it was when i couldn't message him for a couple days because i was literally too depressed to do so and too tired to pick up my phone, and literally going back to the messages the only reason it was even brought up was because i asked if he was okay because he was acting weird

i just feel like he doesn't care about me anymore, let alone love me

Hey, anon. Gonna get really deep and to the point here.

You 100% need to make it to where you and your partner have a talk together with no outside distractions. This is serious and it can really put a dent in your relationship, which it already is. You are absolutely valid for feeling this way.

I know that being hyperfixated on a show or game can take a lot of time, but it’s also super important to be able to make time for loved ones in the middle of it.

There needs to be boundaries and telling him how you’re feeling. The best way to also communicate is to be assertive and use “I” statements as well as throwing ideas out on how the two of you can work on it together. An example:

“I don’t feel like you’re interested in spending time with me right now, and I want to do something together to get the spark back in our relationship. I think it would be better for us to work together again than sitting this out and letting the wound fester.”

Relationships aren’t all that easy sometimes, and there’s bound to be bumps in the road along the way, but open communication, boundaries, working together is much better than letting things fester. Even if you think something is small.

Talk over your fears that you have with how the relationship is going.

If you’re both able to find a day to sit down and talk even if it’s over a phone call, make sure to take breaks and come back to the conversation if emotions become strong. Make sure you also do something for yourself.

And if you really think it’s necessary, breaks in relationships aren’t a bad thing. Especially when it gives you time to focus on yourself. My partner and I had a lot of breaks and we’re finally on a path of healing together.

The best thing you can do right now is communicate how you feel. Don’t let him shut you down, allow him to communicate back, work together.

I hope this helps for some of it! You’re doing what you can! ❤️

[stargazer0001]

:o bro bro vent below be warnedd its a bit silly sorry

I can be manipulative sometimes

"Oh damn thats not good you must be bad then!"

nah bro I was just raised (and ig still being raised??? idk I don't have my own house tho so uh yeah) in a household where I had to manipulate and worm my way into and out of situations or else I would have to deal with an alcoholic mother calling me the devil and hitting me with her wine bottle then completely forgetting about it in the morning like it never happened which lead to bottle up everything thinking that no one even remembers the ways that they have harmed me and that i was just being overdramatic and a burden on everyone who knows me

so yeah im working on it im sorry

im sorry

please forgive me

i dont know what i did wrong but I'm sorry

#Star.TXT document #vent #Mental health: decaying. #Absolutely: Slaying