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xhanelia · 3 months

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I’ve discovered your blog and it’s single handedly feeding my current valorant obsession, I love your writing so much. With that said, could I please request a some fluffy confession scenes with Sova or possibly Chamber? Thank you so much!

I will abandon this page istg i hate tumblr but this is a request i can write in one go so here i am at 00:43. Lets see when i'll finish it. (Im done and its 03:00)

<<<The reader is another agent in the protocol in this fic. Sova part is GN and Chamber part is female reader. >>>

Hope you like it! And thank you sm!!

Confession headcannons with Sova and Chamber

He is the hollywood star of hiding emotions and pressing them in so no one can tell what he really feels or who is the person he has eyes on. Exept himself ofcourse.

He is not some kind of "i'll built up my emotions inside so i wont hurt anyone" kind of person. He knows he shouldnt hide them too long or it can cause damage. He talks about his problems to Brim like everybody does. But not love, ofcourse.

He thinks that he shouldnt feel like this to a coworker. Not that there isnt any couples in the HQ. There is Raze and KJ and he knows that Brim allows it.

He is probably scared of you rejecting him. If so, there will be a moody aura between whenever you two need to team up for a mission. He cannot allow that. That will effect both of your morals and the performance.

But every second he is not speaking about his feelings is like a torture to him. Like all of his energy is drawn out of him when he returns from a mission or just from trainings.

Spending his day at his room, not practising archery, not having conversations much often, sitting in the plane and looking out of the window while going to a mission rather than giving courage to people is not like him. Something is bothering him. Clearly.

You went to sit next to him. He immediately turned his head to you. "Did something happened?" He asked.

"I should be the one asking you that." You said. He stared at you for a good 15 seconds.

"Lets have this conversation after the mission." He suggested with the pressure of his own feelings. It was getting too much for him to handle. You did not pressed on it. The mission was a short one after all. Everyone did good and went back to the HQ with the same plane.

He immediately regret his choice of words when you stood infront of him when he tried to get out of the plane. He was planning to found an excuse but he didnt had the time to think about that.

"Umm..." he said trying to get some time to think. You lift a brow, implying that you both know why you are in his way.

"Lets talk about it when no one is around, shall we?" He said while bending over you a little.

"There is no one around, Sasha. You took unexpectedly long to leave the plane." You said. You were not letting him escape again.

He sighed. Looking around, really no one was left at the landing field. He grabbed your arm and getting you two both out of the plane. The sky was open and orange with the sunset of the beautiful winter.

He held both of your hands. You could feel the shake of them. It was ironic that the sniper of the protocol's hands was shaking that easily before you.

"You dont have to say anything, its better if we pretend that i said nothing, but..." you tilted your head and frown at the words. "I am in love with you." He says.

He is too scared to look you in the eyes or hear the words that will come out of your mouth so he continues to speak.

"I was too scared that our friendship will never be the same after my confession so i kept this feelings inside but they didnt stop growing. I felt like i was drowning and couldnt hide it anymore. I am sorry if i ruined our friendship and-"

He stopped after hearing your laugh. Did he said something stupid? Was this so childish for him to do? Why were you laughing?

"You were hiding this from me? For how long?" You said. He got confused. "Uhh... for... over 4 or 5 months?" He said, unsure about when he got this crush over you.

"You should have told me from the start silly. I like you too!" As you said, his eyes lit up with the happiness. Holding your hands tighter, he asked. "Really? Are you real? You are not saying that because you dont want me to feel bad, do you?"

With your head shake as a no, he hugs you while both of you laugh with joy. And there goes your first kiss with him. Under the orange sky with the blow of an air like a celebration of the nature for both of you.

Mhm. We all know this man aint hiding nothing. He shall show you and everyone that he has eyes on you so that nobody can steal you from him untill he officialy takes you out.

Yea i feel like he would take you out to an extra expensive restaurant to confess, even the offer itself looks like the confession already.

"Chamber, you really dont have to." You say while hanging the vandal back to its place. Training was over and the french man knew your schedule from head to toe. It was impossible for him to miss any of your free times.

"Please, the randevu was made from weeks ago. Plus, if it isnt going to be you then who is it?" He says while giving you the card of the restaurant. On the card, it was written the place of the restaurant (i will die from this stuffy nose istg i cannot write) with the date and time of the randevu with his fancy handwriting.

You gave a smile to him. Not often you got this kind of... um... take outs? (I forgor the word in english) He was generous to offer you this. Altough it was clear why he did this.

You contact Brim to clear that day but he said that Chamber did it for you. Then you discover that nearly everyone knows about the "take out" that you guys will have.

"O. M. G. You know that he will confess you that night, right?" Jett said while cutting cucumbers to put on her eyes but Phoenix eats them trying not to get caught. The girls night is getting little heavy on you. (Pho is one of the girls idc.)

"Yea, yea, i know. Who doesnt." You said while rolling your eyes. Trying to not pop the conversation much.

"I mean, i didnt got a confession in a fancy restaurant." KJ said while looking at Raze. Who has no idea whats going on.

"Well, im okay if he wants to do it this way but im not sure if i'll fit in that kind of atmosphere. Everyone and everything is so expensive. You know." You said while shaking your shoulders.

"Are you kidding me? That french has his eyes on you. You think he will matter if you fit in or not?" Neon lifts the cucumbers from her eyes and looks at you from the couch. You lift your hands sideways as to tell you dont know.

"We will make you fit." Phoenix says with excitement. "What is the date?" He asks while everyone awaits the answer from you.

Eventually, the date comes. Everyone you gave the date is more excited than you. Preparing your dress, makeup and everything like its a doll dressing game.

When it comes to Chamber, he was ready more than ever. It was like classic Chamber yet so different. He had his 'special occasion suit' on him and a smug smile on his face. He offers you his arm and you take it.

(You go to the restaurant but its getting too late and i need some sleep so imma skip that part.)

"So..." he says while you both sit face to face, eating dinner. He had studied this for over how many times and yet he is still nervous. You turned your look at him and raise a brow.

"We both know why we are here, Vincent. I like you too. You dont have to give me a whole speech." You said. Drinking some of the wine to cover your face and overexcitement.

He laughs at your boldness. "Its open like a book, isnt it?" He looks straight into your eyes. You feel like they could pierce through you. "Thats my girl. Bold and smart as always" He says. "You dont need a brain to see that you have eyes on me." It was your time to laugh.

He looks at you with that stupid smirk on his face. Like he truly fell in love if you. "I love you." He says. Giving up on the talk he had prepared. He felt like it was the only thing he needed to say.

Even if that three words was the only thing he said, they made your heartbeat race up immediately. With a giggle, you hold his hand that is on the table. "I love you." You said. The only thing he said and the only thing he needed to hear from you was the same nontheless.

#valorant #headcanon #sova #sova valorant #valorant sova #sova headcannons #sova x reader #valorant x reader #chamber #chamber valorant #chamber x reader #chamber headcannons

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ilovepannacotta · 2 months

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Hello!!! (This is Kat lol, I can't send my from secondary blog, sigh.) Totally hijacking the Ling talk, but that train scene with Ed getting all frustrated over Ling being taller than him is a fucking HOOT. 10/10 fav. On another note on the manga... I might be supremely biased against Brotherhood cuz I'm an 03 girlie, but I have to agree about the manga being better than brotherhood too. I esp prefer the Elrics' and Izumi's relationship in the manga. They have all these little moments together that show she's more than just a teacher to them. Like, one of my FAVORITE moments is when Ed and Al start bragging to Izumi, as a child does to their mother, how they've been following her teachings of "to train the mind, train the body," and the panel then cuts to Izumi smiling proudly at them. It's fucking EVERYTHING to me.

Omg hello!!! Sorry to answer this late 😔

YES, completely agree with you! I love that scene, it just wkdhejfbsjsakandjaa how Ed was about to kill everyone and then himself while Ling was just so happy to be there. They are so stupid!!! I love them jdjfbakdnhjna.

Talking about fma03, I need to be honest and said I used to be a die-hard hater because I'm a Ling Yao fanboy sorry Im guilty BUT few months ago I began to become very fond of it and to understand that there really is nothing wrong with it being so far from the original story. I'm a new person now, a fma03 defender and fmab hater 🗣️ But I am glad that we all agree with the manga being top.

I'm dying to read the Dublith arc!! I want to see more of the Elrics and Izumi because if I remember right, in fma03 they feel more like a family than just teacher-student and I miss that. I want to see the moment you are talking about!!! It sounds so 😭😭😭 they are just kids who want a mom 🥲

Thank you so much, it's always a pleasure to talk with you!!

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babygirlbondage · 6 months

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Hi, hope your vacation was wonderful! I just stumbled across your page and could not look away for hours. You’re very skilled!

As a thank you, I wanted to say the fantasy which took me over the edge (the asks telling for reduced time got me thinking). Oh btw, they/she/(maybe it) trans fem nb, but no worries if you’re at capacity for ask subs. Regardless enjoy :).

I want to be clicker trained when right on the edge. There’ll be more things integrated as time passes (giving a pathetic “arf~” at every click, making sure my collar is on, etc), but the main focus remains a step below satisfaction, fully submissive to my master. Every click erases all human thoughts, leaving me extremely horny and with begging eyes. Absolute putty.

One night, after a few denial filled days, I’m told i get to top and, if well behaved, even cum. positioned behind her, chin near his shoulder with my ear next to his mouth. hips shaking, pleasure shooting everywhere, being told how good a pup i am and how good i’m making my owner feel.

eventually, finally, given permission. However, they starts clicking at every thrust. no matter how hot and frustrated i am, relief never comes. i start begging through whimpers, but the only responses received are faux pity “cum puppy, you’ve been so good.” “Aww, what’s wrong mutt?” and eventually “It’s ok, you’ll get another chance pet. Eventually.” After clean up is a well deserved snack and drifting off in a tight cuddle.

And yes I see the humor in that this is what took me over lol.

-♾️ if it’s available

im never at capacity for subs honey, i love adding new ones to my little collection and teasing you! especially fellow trans subs, you guys hold a special place in my mind. also thank you for the compliments on my blog im really happy you like it!!

and youd be the perfect puppy to clicker train with fantasies like that in your head. watching you whimper and shake as you got so close but never getting the sweet release you crave would be a divine and pathetic sight.

youd look so needy, giving me your best puppy eyes and silently begging to cum. of course the you would be denied longer because i find joy in your torment. teasing you for not being able to cum when you hear that click.

such a simple noise yet it holds so much power over you, doesnt it? the press of a button and you cant control yourself anymore? what a dumb mutt.

dumb is perfection though when it comes to pets. with time youll be so well trained that youll beg for the clicker to be involved, itll be better than anything you could ever long for. no orgasm would be able to top the sound of the clicker when you get close. the click will resonate in your stupid puppy brain, like a song you cant get out of your head.

youll be fully reduced to a barking, needy, denied mess. serving your master will be the only thing you want. and of course on special occasions youll get to cum, but it certainly wont be often. youll be praised frequently though for being a good girl. i think all good puppies should be told when they make their masters proud after all.

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beyondspaceandstars · 2 years

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hiii, i've been binge reading your blog for a while now and its AMAZING, really, anyways, i've finally gathered the courage to make a request and I was wondering if you could do something, like, drabble, hc, idrk, writers choice, with Bucky dating a Widow, I think it would be a pretty interesting dinamic :)))

The Widow

a/n: omg thank you for requesting !! I think this idea lended really well to a headcanon post (it’s like a ramble of thoughts, vague plots and such) so I hope that’s okay! I’m so so glad you’ve enjoyed my work, that means the world to me !!!! I love writing and im so glad others like reading it. Hope you enjoy this as well :) I hope it's not too short or anything idk it was kind of all over the place but that's what HCs can be sometimes lmao

.・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・。.

When you and Bucky first met he hadn’t realized you were anything but a normal, average woman living a normal, average life

You two had met at a little coffee shop just around the block from Bucky’s apartment. He saw you there often and finally, one day, the stars aligned —

Well, actually, what happened was you had accidentally spilled your iced coffee on Bucky because you were distracted by your cell phone.

Little did Bucky know at the time, you were engrossed in your phone because you just never had one before, you never had anything of your own, and technology immediately pulled you in.

But, anyways, after spilling your coffee and apologizing profusely nonstop for a good minute or so, Bucky assured you it was okay and even offered to buy you another drink. You agreed after some protest.

He then invited you to chat for a bit.

And that was that. A couple months and many dates later, you two were officially a couple

All was going pretty well until you got to the stage where you two really opened up about life and family and friends and everything.

It hadn’t taken Bucky long to realize that you were incredibly vague about your past.

On top of it, you held a keen fascination for certain things in a way that reminded Bucky of, well, himself.

Technology was a big one.

You enjoyed your phone and laptop and were very protective over them. They were encrypted just so, along with your smart home devices, which scared Bucky the first time he visited your place.

There was also the thing you had for fashion and decorating.

Much like technology, you were protective of your style and tweaked everything so it was just so. You appreciated it all, everything the shops had to offer. Bucky never missed how your eyes would move and your hands would glide.

Bucky couldn’t help but notice how you two could be so similar in that way. Things just seemed to surprise you both

Bucky found this a bit peculiar. He understood his situation but with you he couldn’t help but wonder what happened? What laid beneath the surface for you?

The answer was finally revealed one night when you two were out at a bar. You had had one too many vodka martinis and Bucky made a teasing remark about how you’d need assistance getting back to your apartment.

"I was a Widow, Buck, I think I can hold my own just fine," you had shot back. "Tipsy or not."

Once you made your comment, you went back to sipping your drink like nothing happened.

But Bucky had a hard time getting past this little factoid your tipsy brain decided to drop on him.

A Widow. You had been a goddamn Widow.

The lightbulb suddenly went off in his head. It explained…everything. The reason for your fascinations. The technology, the protectiveness, the indescribable past, the fashion. You were just starting to figure out your life.

Hell — you probably never even dated someone before him.

Bucky kept all these thoughts to himself for the rest of the night and for the next few days. You were oblivious to what you had let slip and Bucky, being a trained assassin himself, had no trouble keeping it a secret.

At least, that was until he was ready to confront you about it.

In hindsight, it was kind of a stupid, maybe cheesy idea, but Bucky had one day suggest you two work out together. Have a little gym date. You weren’t shy about the fact you worked out and neither was Bucky so the idea wasn’t weird. In fact, at the time, you wondered why you hadn’t suggested it before.

But when you arrived at the gym you realized it wasn’t going to be a normal workout full of cardio and weights.

Bucky had taken you to a boxing ring.

You looked at him weirdly. "We’re boxing?" You asked.

Bucky hopped in the ring and shrugged. "A little sparring."

"Oh, Buck… I—I’m not really—,"

"Humor me," he said with a smirk.

And you did. You didn’t hold back no matter how confused you were about this situation. You used your fight, pulling up moves from the deep depths of your brain. It was like riding a bike. You were surprised — and a little scared — to see that you still had it in you. But why would Bucky suggest this, you thought you had done well…

It wasn’t until you had Bucky pinned to the ground did it click for you. He muttered out a little, "I knew it" and all the puzzle pieces came together.

You rolled off him to catch your breath. You sat beside him in the ring. "I told you I was a Widow, huh?"

Bucky nodded. Your face went red with embarrassment as the memory finally came back to you. You could never be trusted around vodka.

You apologized for telling him that way but Bucky didn’t mind. In fact, he apologized for bringing you to a boxing ring but admitted he was greatly curious about whether you were telling the truth or just letting out drunken lies.

You said you weren’t lying and went into some vague version about how you were freed and struggled to begin a life that wasn’t about…your skills.

When you told him you haven’t done anything like that in years, he apologized profusely again, but you assured him it was okay. It was…interesting to see what was still up there, what you still possessed. Frankly, you didn’t think you still had it in you.

From then on, you became Bucky’s workout buddy. You two regularly sparred together, helping you keep sharp and helping to keep Bucky on his toes. The sparring actually became very therapeutic. You were able to release your training in a safe, positive environment. Much different to the…facility.

You didn’t feel like someone’s weapon. You felt like a girlfriend working out with her boyfriend. And that was great, that was something you hadn’t realized you had been craving.

But it wasn’t just your fighting moves that intrigued Bucky — it was your mind, too.

Your interest in technology ran deep, having likely begun during your time as a Widow. There was…a lot of revolutionary technology you came across in your time and you had subconsciously formed an interest that was finally able to bloom in your newly discovered freedom.

This allowed you to assist Bucky with any missions he was assigned to. You didn’t formally work for anyone and instead operated as his independent contractor.

"Jesus," Bucky swore as he watched you work, "what else lives in that brain? Can you tell me the lottery numbers for next week?"

You just laughed. "Bucky, if I knew the lottery numbers, I wouldn’t be living in an apartment, would I?"

But sometimes it wasn’t always good. You could suffer from nightmares from time to time as memories never seemed to want to leave you alone. Bucky understood this very well and had no problem comforting you in the night. Often you both would be awake and need to lean on one another.

"I got you, doll," Bucky would mutter as he held in bed.

"I got you, too," you’d respond, placing a kiss on his cheek, making him blush.

Sparring with him, for as safe as you usually felt, could also be triggering and you’d have to walk away for a while. Bucky knew to leave you alone during times likes these as you could get quite intense. But he was always happy to welcome you back a couple of days later and you’d pick up like nothing happened.

"Ready to kick my ass today, sweetheart?" Bucky would teasingly ask.

You’d have to muster up a smile but wouldn’t be shy to respond. "Always, honey."

Really, you two would make such a good couple. You had more understanding for each other than any regular person could ever have. It wasn’t all smooth sailing and you would need different support from one another at different times but humor and some bit of optimism kept it all going.

Because every day was a reminder that you both were out of your situations. Free to make a life, especially together.

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the-woild-is-y-erster · 7 months

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OUGH OK HI

this is kind of mostly for @chases-main-blog because you're probably the only one besides toff who'll read this but everyone's welcome xx its abt my ocs and just newsies in general btw babes so if you aint interested dont read it

ok so i got back from an airshow in my city (yes yes i know government propaganda galore, planes are cool ok) because my dad was in the air force for twenty-odd years and is a huge nerd, which he has passed on to me and my brother slightly

my point being!!

the entire tme i was thinking of. uh. basically a top gun au. of newsies. OK BUT HEAR ME OUT HEAR ME OUTTTT

(im gonna use some terms that if you didnt basically grow up on an air base like i did you might not understand but bear w me ok)so you need to trust your squadron with your life, right? what do the boroughs do? exactly. and they have callsigns in the AF (not sure abt any other branches, lmk if you have that info but i dont think they get callsigns hah boring losers >:P) WHAT DO THE NEWSIES HAVE??? STUPID NICKNAMES THAT DONT REALLY MAKE SENSE!!! DO YOU SEE WHAT I MEAN!!!!

so consider

theres no war because i say so and theye all just goofing off on base as all the different squadrons (OHGOHGOHOOHO BROOKLYN WOULD SO BE HELICOPTERS OMGGGG) and they just have a jolly old time until they get this super important super top secret mission where they all have to work together and it would be so cool

ok wait now i gotta

manhattan-F-16s, little guys that go NYOOOOM n shoot stuff

brooklyn-HH-60G pave hawks, theyre big helicopters, search n rescue (hey manhattan the calvary's comin WHO) and pararescue but they also have turrets i think and obvi everyone on board is armed so theyre like super cool

queens-A-10s cus they get to blow stuff up but theyre really slow so pick your poison, i think they'd do A-10s in the field and hang back to train on the T-38s but i know queensies would love A-10s cus they have a rotating gun on the front that shoots super fast and is just an all around cool plane ALTERATIVELY they would also be F-16s because go nyoom shoot stuff

bronx-T-38s, trainers for the big jets and only used sparingly (sorry bronx xx) i think they'd be ground control as well

harlem-C-5 galaxy, MASSIVE jet used for transportation of troops and cargo n planes n stuff and when i say massive i mean m a s s i v e like they drive wholeass tanks and jets n stuff in there, and the nose swings up aswell as the back hatch so you can just. drive straight through this giant plane, its so cool

long island-F-35 theyre pretty fast and can go pretty high so all around a good jet, not much else to say

can you tell i basically lived on base until i was like eight?

ive had a scene for if i actually wrote this stuck in my head all day abt eel n shoe and i just ughhhh ok now i have to write it but i'm gonna put a read more so if you dont want to read it you dont have to xx

a crackle and a ding came over the intercom, soft breathing following. "heya harv, it's just me n' you right now." eel rasped. harvey swallowed, bile threatening to rise in his throat.

"no no no, please-" another burst of static in his ear. "hey this is monkey to shoe, are you ok? i know-ah shit!-sorry, there's a lot goin' on, but no one was talking to ya before-?" monkey trailed off, waiting for shoe's answer. he blinked back the tears he knew were going to come, tilting his throttle up to get him higher. "i-uh, it's- it's fine, i-"

"harvey, i ain't got a lot of time, i ne-i need you to listen." eel's voice wavered, but it was still strong in harvey's ear. he nodded. "m' listenin'."

"monkey to shoe again, are-" "gimme a second, blake?" shoe snapped, maneuvering around the sky as projectiles screamed past him, missing him by mere meters. using the first name in the field was a big no-no, but it made monkey shut up, though shoe could hear him over the comms talking to the other pilots, asking if they had heard shoe as well.

his comms were messed up, he realized; he was supposed to be on a private channel with eel, and it had glitched and made it so only he could hear eel, but the entire squadron-and everyone on the ground, he thought-could hear him.

he drew in a shaky breath. "i'm here, zeke. talk to me."

eel chuckled dryly. "don't go all top gun on me, you'se the one makin it out of here."

harvey's heart seemed to stop, the air around him seeming to compress in and choke him.

"what?"

eel sighed and sniffed, the shuffling from his end telling shoe he was moving his helmet around, wiping tears. "harvey, my engine's blown and we're on enemy territory. i'm miles away from everyone else on orders from boss, it was s'posed to be a sneak attack but they got to you faster than cowboy thought-" "no, do not say what-" harvey interrupted. "harvey liam sellers, will you listen to me for once in your stupidly beautiful life?"

shoe sobbed quietly, watching his radar on his display, praying to any god who might still have love for him that it would pick up anything but the others in the squadron and the MIGs.

"we both knew deep down when we got orders i wasn't coming back from this one." eel sounded surprisingly calm for a guy who was talking about the possibility of his own death. "no, please, you can't do this to me right now, what about-" shoe sniffed, knowing he was arguing with a mind made up.

"ground control to phantom four, are you alright?" it was comforting to hear another familiar voice, the message poker carried not so much. "peachy, ground. i- everything's just kosher." harvey knew he sounded extremely far from fine, and hoped his friends on the ground wouldn't comment.

"your comms seem to be malfunctioning, i'll get saz on that asap, but are you sure-" poker seemed hesitant, like he didn't want to push buttons but was genuinely worried.

"fine, poker." shoe flipped the manual switch to cut comms with ground, before flipping it back on a moment later.

"still there?" he murmured, knowing full well there was at least twenty people besides eel who could hear him if they listened.

"never left, sweetheart." harvey almost started crying at the sound of eel's voice, and the knowledge of what he was going to say next.

"you gotta listen here, harv. you n' i both know i ain't gettin out of here alive-no, do not argue, i know you want to i know, sweetheart-you have to get home to charlie and fia, you gotta-" he swallowed, the sound audible through the headset. "you gotta tell them what happened to me, and tell them-"

the scream of a missile and the unmistakeable sound of an implosion blocked out eel's voice.

harvey's heart stopped.

"eel? eel, are you there? this is phan- phantom four to ra- raven two, are you-" the panic in his head and the pounding in his ears made it nearly impossible to see. he tried to breathe like eel taught him, but his throat seemed intent on making him stutter and practically asphyxiate.

"hoarder to shoe, what is going on? are you alright, do you need backup?" his friend sounded alarmed. for good reason, thought shoe through his panic.

"ground, i ne-i need co-ords on- on raven two, i-i've lost comms with-"

"ah, merde! harv, i'm here!" the sound of eel's voice was garbled, but it was there.

"eel? ezekiel cattaneo, where t-the hell are you? give me your coord-coordinates, i'll be right there." the relief that flooded shoe's body was instantaneous, but short lived.

"no time! they got my other engine, i've put them post on standby and i'm usin' the propellors, but they blasted those too. i think there's three MIGs, but it's hard to tell."

the sounds of the entire rest of the squadron and ground control trying to get shoe's attention faded as he absorbed the information his lover gave him.

"i know i'm goin out, so i'll say this before i die.

"harvey 'shoe' liam sellers, you are the most incredible and amazing soul i have ever had the pleasure of meeting. my life has been so much better since i had you in it, and i know charlie and fia can say the same. i need you to tell the kids i love them, and i need you to remember to take deep breaths when you get overwhelmed, okay? can you do that for me, tesoro?"

"ez, i-i-"

"i love you, you know that? you're the first man i've ever truly believed that i've loved, and the first to have loved me back." eel was clearly out of breath and choked up, but shoe could hear him as clearly as if he was standing next to him, despite the delay on the comms and the static overlaying eel's speech.

"zeke, ple- please, y-you gotta tell me whe- where you are, i can get th- there in t- time i promise, please-" harvey was sobbing. he knew he couldn't reach his lover in time before his engines failed completely, and the risk of hitting the canopy on ejection was so high there was such a slim chance of survival it was almost laughable, if shoe had felt like laughing.

"i love you, ok?" screaming missiles and static filled shoe's ears again.

he sat in shock.

"eel? c'mon, y- you c- can't do thi- this to me, baby, i-i can't..." silence and more static.

"g- ground, y-you got a- a locat- a location o -on raven two?" he muttered, his brain feeling like mush.

"negative, lieutenant."

#oops! :)#sorry not sorry #i've got the military au brainrot rn #it was all that propaganda at the airshow X(/j #i've had something like this in my head for a few days i just finally fleshed it out a little xx #lemme know if this is actually a thing i should write and you would read !!#newsies oc #ezekiel 'eel' 'zeke'#harvey 'shoe' sellers #newsies #livesies #92sies #zee's scribbles!

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hiraya-rawr · 1 year

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hello! i've been following u for quite some time now and i rlly love the way u write!! 🫶 i'm a fellow writer but i'm still comtemplating if i should open a writing blog bcos english is not my first language. sorry i feel like this suddenly turned into a rant/vent message 😣 anyway, the reason i wrote to u is to share smth that's been on my mind for a lil while now! have u watched kimi ni todoke? i recently finished the anime + manga and i rlly loved the whole series! i can't stop myself simping for sawako and it's kinda ironic since in these kinds of romance anime, u typically get hung up with the male lead but it was the opposite for me! kazehaya is sure charming but my little darling sawako is so adorable im willing to burn the world for her 😞 okay i got sidetracked again sorry for my simp ass jdkwkxiw

so i've been thinking of sawako!reader that works for the kamisato clan. long, black hair that usually hides her face — she's kinda feared amongst the workers inside the kamisato estate. always mistaken as a ghost or spirit that roams around the estate when in fact, she's just trying to finish her job. rumors about her seem to worsen everyday that even the loyal and trusted retainer of the head, thoma, thinks it's kind of ridiculous. of course, our ever charming blonde boy tries to interact more with the reader but he feels like he was hated. don't get her wrong tho, she admires thoma so much! who wouldn't? he's lively, respectful and always seemed to be the center of attention, even amongst the maidens that work for the kamisato. she strives to be a person just like him but the reader understands that she somehow scares the people she tries to talk with. worry not, she isn't discouraged by this! she simply has to try next time right? there's always a next time (tho she couldn't help but wonder, when is this next time? why does it take so long?). little did she know, her life's going to be changed when the gentleman himself took it upon his hands to properly talk and get to know her. little by little, her life changed and she even managed to befriend the lady of the house, lady ayaka! the ever kind and loving younger sibling of the kamisato household, ayaka made it her life mission to try and make the reader smile. no one had seen her smile genuinely, and frankly speaking, even thoma and ayaka felt the chills run down their spines when they tried to force her one time to give them a smile. it's safe to say that they never tried it again. ayaka did succeed and it took only a game of hotpot to see how much of a beautiful maiden the reader was, especially with that eyes filled with stars. and archons, the way her lips curl into a small and satisfied smile, thoma suddenly had the urge to keep this smile, only for him to see because gods this girl is so heavenly he was sure others would stop and stare. his eyes widen when he realized his train of thoughts, cheeks burning in embarassment as he berated himself because why would he even try to keep the reader for himself? he's so stupid (and whipped yes, don't tell him i said that), he thought as he silently squirmed in his seat. no one but ayaka noticed the whole ordeal, hiding her own smile behind her fan. oh the fun she would have watching these two, especially her retainer. the pining, the awkward yet satisying interactions, the stealing and fleeting glances—oh, she's so excited! (ayaka is me fr). she can't wait to spill all of these to her brother!

so yeah haha that's all for now, i think i got carried away with this brainrot im so sorry kwkxiwjd

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I haven't watched kimi ni todoke! i actually haven't been able to watch anything lately other than bungo stray dogs and moriarty 😭 but this is a scrumptious brainrot, dw about the rant, thank you for sending this in!

#hira - soleicexx #ayato #kamisato ayato #ayato x reader #thoma #genshin thoma #genshin ayato #ayaka

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i-cant-stop-fandoming-help · 4 months

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2024 wahooo...............

Name; Mika

nicknames; uhhh idk.

Titles i have given myself; Another series lorekeeper/drasdra2 lorekeeper, ceo of rei mekaru angst, ceo of chubee garcia angst, local woman liker

Pronouns; She/he/they

Sexuality: uhhh i consider myself to be a lesbian.

Age is private because. yknow. SAFETY. Highschooler atm though

Side-blog or whatever; @the-church-of-rei-mekaru

AUs; Death-dreaming au and the warrior cats au.

Interests; DRA/SDRA2, DRDT, P:EG, M:SS, other fangans, How to train your dragon, warrior cats, and wings of fire.

things i do; writing and art. and also just rambling in random posts.

Tags that may be used in a fic so you can blacklist them; tw suicide, tw gore, tw death, tw pregnancy.

^will add more tws to that if i post a fic and somebody asks a tw for something.

Tags for ships i may post about so you can blacklist them; Terurei, Tsurei(as a divorced couple), Ayakane, Kiyozuna, Kinjomae, Satsurei, reihiko, kakenata, Satsuhiko

^theres also kinji x kakeru x yuki but idk the ship name for that.

Characters I really like; Rei mekaru, Mikako Kurokawa, Astrid Hofferson, Kasumi Izumo(DRRB), Misuzu Aisaka(DRRB), Teruko Tawaki, Aloiki Kahale(M:SS), Chubee Garcia(M:SS), and Ayumu Fujimori(DRRB)

Uhhh DNI; the basics. and also if youre a proshipper. please and thank you it makes me genuinely uncomfortable.

Also, i feel like i should clarify this; I do not have much care for what you ship as long as it isnt incest-y, illegal, or abusive. If i'm uncomfortable with a ship, i'll say it. I'm not going to say a ship I dont like is a "proship" because. eh. its not. BUT. Dude please just respect this boundary. I dont feel like im asking for much. I just want boundaries to be respected online. PLEASE.

ships i do not like; Uhhh. uhhhhh. hajime x emma. idk why i dont like it i just dont. i also do not like yuri x either of the twins. I have strong opinions about akane x utsuro, and i bear a strong hatred towards it. i do not remember any other ships but i will update if/when i do.

I think thats all? uhhhhhhh i should get back to writing my lesbian fic now.

oh wait i also have stupid little tags i think. Mika rambles and Mikas art. and mika does a thing.

Also also, if i unfollow/soft block you, you can ask why. Most often it could be because somethin was said or reblogged that made me feel uncomfortable somehow. I am trying really hard to not get uncomfortable so easily, but i if i get extremely uncomfortable, i tend to get somewhat of a sinking feeling in my stomach? I guess? I dont onow how to describe it, but i feel really off.

Also, for mooties n stuff, please tag posts about religion with #religion ? I have the tag blacklisted as things about religion are discomforts.

#mika rambles #mikas art #mika does a thing

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somehowmags · 9 months

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NAND THANK YOU 😭😭😭😭 VIL, IN FACT, WOULDN'T FORCE THE BODILY STANDARDS HE HOLDS HIMSELF TO ONTO YOU!!!! i once saw someone write a fic entailing epel's development of an ED as a result of vil and it genuinely did make me sad. epel and vil's bond is so beautiful. epel, despite his lower rank and duties to vil as his protégé, still has that strong spirit. he probably would just have another outburst at vil, attempt to challenge him, and/or run away. not to mention, vil genuinely cares about epel and loves him. he learns to embrace epel literally and figuratively, especially in chapter 6. sure vil would maintain a diet for epel and is extremely adamant on it, but vil isn't stupid. he wouldn't deprive epel of his right to eat sufficiently, or hold him to the strict diet vil maintains. vil would personally curate a diet suited to epel's needs and tastes. vil's watchful eye would probably sense if epel was struggling with his diet and would ameliorate that by either making changes to it, or talking to epel himself. rook is also there to gently chide vil if he ever did come to this (NO HE WOULD NEVER...) it's just. rggrgrhrghr. vil just wants you to make the best of yourself. follow basic hygiene. plus size? doesn't matter to him, as long as your body serves you healthily. skin full of scars? if you want a serum that helps clear marks, he'd readily provide you some. if you don't want it, atleast hydrate and keep your skin clean. crooked teeth? just remember to brush and flush regularly; if it impedes your health or self image, braces would help. point is, he wouldn't care in "fixing" these bodily "flaws" or other traits that do not personally align with what he holds himself to, but rather a general state of wellness and the effort in taking care of yourself so you are both satisfied with yourself and make the progress you are capable of. sure, he'd recommend it, but if you don't want to, he likely wouldn't bother to press you. because he just. wouldn't!!! do that to you!!!!!! if it's not in your interest to change that part of YOU, its not in HIS!!! and if you have any sort of mental illness that impedes your ability to take care of your hygiene, he would NEVER think of you as lazy! he'd very likely want to help you out of your rut! he does not like people who have every right and ability to make a change, but do not. or people who intentionally wallow in their own shortcomings. he does not have anything against people who are struggling mentally and emotionally! you are facing obstacles out of your control and as long as you make the effort to overcome them, even if it's the smallest step, even if you stumble and fail, even if you need time first, that's all he needs. that you try. if you do, he will, and he won't give up and as long as you won't. he's so pookie bear i want to roll him up like sushi and sell him on the conveyor belt for 2 dollars and 90 cents

YEAH i think people are like. a little too quick to make characters ooc for angst. like longtime followers of somehowmags dot tumblr dot edu will know that i am a frequent complainer about people making characters ooc for cheap angst but damn ive seen Some Shit. not as much in the twst fandom as in other fandoms that will be immediately apparent if you scroll down my blog for two seconds but there have been some abysmal takes from twsties as well.

i think people who have this take are misinterpreting vil putting nrc tribe on a diet for vdc (im NEVER calling it sdc my deepest apolocheese to the eng localization) which...i'm going to be honest with yall. granted i am not a dietician i read that in the same way that people do diets when theyre participating in athletic competitions. if you were training to run a marathon, you would probably try changing your diet a little to help you build up your strength, which is the same thing vil is doing. i think its intended to be more of a strength building diet, not a weight loss one. and again as a fat person and as someone who has been put on diets i get the kneejerk reaction of disliking diets, but i don't think that's whats happening here

ultimately i get why people think about vil but by god i do not have to like it alkdsjdfhlaksdfh

#asks #twst #tw ed mention #tw diet mention #tw fatphobia #<- pls ask if u need me to tag more alkdshflkashdf

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slowdripsunrise · 10 months

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BOOK REVIEW AGAINNNNNNN yippee i have actually been reading... not a lot but well i am ! kinda forgot about this blog ok thats not true i was just lazy and didnt want to write a post. well anyways heres a big post for all the stories i read there are 4 - things have gotten worse since we last spoke by eric larocca, paradise rot by jenny hval, soft science by franny choi, and the country will bring us no peace by matthieu simard ! spoilers under the cut

ok first i read things have gotten worse since we last spoke because i wanted to go on a little kick of reading weird crazy people books at 3 am. and i did! chose this one because i saw it was very short so. anyways i thought this was.... okay. i think what made it a little worse off for me is that i already knew about the whole parasite thing from tiktok, so it wasnt that crazy to me when it actually happened. gonna be honest i do Not remember how the book ends at all so i dont even know if it was satisfying or not. was my experience worsened by it being 3am and me not having any thoughts at all? probably. would i do it again? yeah. i was a lil bit disappointed in the apple peeler part too... i thought it was going to be more relevant than it was unless there are some hidden symbolism meanings motifs going on that i didnt get... actually now that im thinking about it big long unbroken peels of apple + a big long probably worm-like parasite? next to each other thats kinda cool. other than that thought i literally just had now typing this out i didnt see anything else. omg speaking of seeing the tagline and also its mentioned in the book, "what did you do today to deserve your eyes?" crazy ass fuck sentence. i kinda love it actually and this is maybe where i would have like to see the apple peeler come in. she takes the apple peeler to her face and peels her eyes out of her head idk. also i feel like either on tiktok/goodreads they were supposed to be ballerinas? but that wasnt mentioned at ALL? i might be misremembering but that also could have been a cool little anecdote. anyways all this to say i thought the book was alright. i was entertained for like 2 hours. my favorite part of this experience was going on goodreads after and seeing a one star review of the book that just said "men stop writing trauma porn about lesbians." which is SO FUCKING FUNNY. because 1 im pretty sure the author is nonbinary, so hes not a man. 2. WHO IS GETTING OFF TO THIS. sorry i do absolutely not see any fetishization here, and also i think they write stories like this in like collections,, so there are probably people other than lesbians in them. idk i just thought that was funny. jesus christ this is getting long and i'm only 1/4 done. i pity anyone who opens this.

next i read paradise rot by jenny hval, which i had heard was dubbed the "bisexual piss book" intriguing and also a short little story i read at 3am. i did like this one, i thought it was fun and interesting and im a big fan of rot. just in general. vibes were on point. this book was moist. however, not as much piss as i expected. as in like quantities on page. they did talk about piss a lot and by they i mean the narrator. not as horror-esque as i thought it would be but i did like it! ohhh to simply rot away...... would not recommend this to normal people and i like that about it.

soft science by franny choi !!!! really liked this! im going to be honest i do not remember more than one poem from this collection. but i do remember liking them !!! sorry i think i need to train my brain to like and remember poetry more. and not just like the ones from tumblr webweaves even though all of them slay.

finally i read the country will bring us no peace by matthieu simard. i liked this, thought it was super interesting,,, ok i didnt think it was super interesting i thought it was good. god i am trying to program myself out of academic reviews of stupid dumbass books i was forced to read. this isn't like that at all. anyways i thought the whole grief aspect was done very well, the sadness at knowing literally nothing will work or come together to make your life go back to the way it was, go back to being whole again. and that deep deep sadness of not only losing their daughter but also the life they had before, the life they had with each other,,, losing all hope. it definitely got to me i did almost cry i think. i think i have more to say about this but i don't remember it. oh well. i thought the vibes of a hostile small mountain town were cool ! i think one of my favorite scenes was when the lavoie's kid falls from the antenna and they are just standing there doing nothing and simon has to go save him... idk the fact that they were shown as perfect parents for their perfect children and how not great they actually were <- this thought is dumb and obvious you get what im saying. one of my main issues is that the ending did feel rushed... and i was a bit confused,,,, the last line "a bird starts to sing" i couldn't tell if that was meant to be marie and simon hearing birds in the afterlife, in the woods by the bowling alley? or was that just the birds in the town finally starting to sing? because if its the latter i don't really get how simon and marie dying would bring the birds back.. the town is still dying and tragedies will still happen... idk its probably the birds in the afterlife but oh well. ok final thought i think but i think the title in french is interesting. it's called "ici, ailleurs" which means "here, elsewhere" or more like "here, something better. here, a new beginning." i like that, obviously it's what the book is about, and idk i think the translator did a good job at conveying the message. i think i would read this book again but in french, mostly to practice because my french is shit but i think since it only really stays in one setting, there's not a lot of characters, concepts are pretty easy to understand, i think it would be fun !!!! ok im done those are my reviews of all the books ive read in the past week or so thanks to anyone who reads this whole thing you are crazy. peace and love

#thoughts.txt #book review #things have gotten worse since we last spoke #paradise rot #soft science #the country will bring us no peace

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hecksupremechips · 2 years

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Those who know my blog would know I make a fuck ton of infinity train art, which is mostly what I’m known for. Butttttt i also love shit like zero escape, the letter vn, persona, danganronpa, atla, heartstopper, Sam and Max, and even ai the somnium files! If you like any of that shit and you’re just so desperate for some guy named hecksupremechips on tumblr to draw your blorbos, GET YOUR ASS OVER HERE 👺! You can check through my art tag, which is literally #my art. Holy shiiiiiiit bro

When it comes to whether or not I’ll draw a certain thing, don’t be afraid to just ask! However there are certain things I won’t draw no matter how much you beg!

NO ART THAT PROMOTES BIGOTRY IN ANY WAY

NO INCEST SHIPS

NO PEDOPHILIA SHIPS

NO REAL PERSON SHIPS

IF THERES SOMETHING NOT LISTED HERE, THAT DOESNT MEAN IM COMFORTABLE WITH IT. IT JUST MEANS YOU HAVE TO ASK AND ITS MY RIGHT TO SAY NO

That’s about all I have to say to you wieners. I’ll always be here, waiting 😳

#the klock keeps ticking #yay i did it gang #infinity train #zero escape #sam and max #persona #danganronpa #aitsf #ai the somnium files #heartstopper #avatar the last airbender #the letter vn #i uh.need money 👉👈

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alleycat4eva · 2 years

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look im not planning on like, stalking you and sending an essay refuting every radfem or radfem-adjacent post you rb. that would be patently ridiculous and i'll most likely just unfollow but regarding the "surrender linguistic boundaries" thing... what on earth is the point in that? thats just (broadly) a compilation of people talking about folks who can get pregnant. yeah theyre like, really clumsy about it- plenty of conservative women are anti-abortion and frankly are just as ghastly about it as conservative men. tons of horror stories about pro-life nurses actively traumatizing people who miscarried and had an emergency procedure removing the dead fetus before it starts to rot them from the inside out. theres always going to be marginalized people who are also... kind of stupid and choose to be compassionless even when their own issues are rooted in the same source. the thing about those posts is that my guess is theyre still learning. i bet if you asked any one of those people theres a solid chance they would thank you for the correction and reword it. one of them looked to be about a specific individual desiring a surrogate(?) so refering to him as a man or a dad is fine. some of them are reductive or performative in that you can tell they still have that "ugh, men" mentality trained into them and havent questioned that yet and just labeled all nonbinary people as woman-lite. some of them use "men" because primarily cisgender men benefit from and cannot be hurt by forced birth and they didnt think to use the addendum of "not trans men/gay men/infertile men/pro choice men". whatever. nobodys perfect and even if they were, society is imperfect and so even then theyre gonna slip up sometimes, its fine.

now all that said, what even is a linguistic boundary??? "i just dont want other people using any of this specific terminology to more accurately describe affected demographics"? if its your linguistic boundary then like... dont use them. say "women" and people will understand your point entirely. maybe someone qrts with "*uterus havers" and you go about your day. cisgender women are little under half the global population i think we'll be fine. this is not at all an issue of erasing women, "pregnant people" even still defaults the average mental image to that of a woman. including trans men just... doesnt hurt anyone. if the health article headlines prove anything it is once again, as it so often is that trans women are erased. really the only issue with those examples isnt that theyre denying that women exist its that they use "men" and dont elaborate. transphobia is the current default state of society, and i dont see the point in cisgender women rallying themselves against an already marginalized group when a) achieving transgender equality also hinges A LOT on gender equality between cis folks and b) even if trans people existing was a threat, we kind of have bigger fish to fry in the centuries of actual structural and societal oppression and those who uphold it. and in that the trans community can only be our allies.

if youre looking through radfem tags to see where your beliefs lie i would also reccomend "transphobia" or "cw transphobia". since transphobes arent likely to tag their bigotry as it is, thats where you'll find trans people talking about it of their own volition. those definitely get heavy so maybe "transphobia mention" if you want generalized discussion and not news articles about hate crimes. you'll also be more likely to find someone open to taking questions so long as youre in good faith and dont rock up to the first trans flag icon you see and like... harass some 18 year old stim blog about their stance on medical terminology.

I think you have a good point that maybe this needs to be a boundary I draw for myself and possibly not in general

I really do appreciate the tag recommendations. That really helps get aspects I wasn't able to view searching trans or trans ____

And this is maybe where it get controversial is that I see this language used to divide? Like are you here affected because of organs in your body? Then society sees you as x and you're captured here under this umbrella term because language is not precise.

But it also feels terrible to be reduced down to uterus haver and like . I never see it as testicle haver, never see legislation on that, or religious veneer using that. And I'm here talking trying to get what I'm missing and it's that language that is policed which is weird because I thought we were all stuck

I have been looking through more sources than just radfem blogs as I have been trying to inform myself. I can screenshot my search history if receipts are needed

#tw transfobia #trans

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richardsphere · 1 year

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Crunched Cost IceQueendom Blog S1E12

Final episode as of writing, (i only used Season markers to futureproof this stuff) With the plot resolved in the last episode, go into this season expecting some wrap-up and perhaps some hijinks. --- Wait we’re having the Ruby writes a letter to the folks back home scene now? (and adressed to her dad instead of “the friends at signal” we never got to meet in cannon, it has been expanded on to include Spin-off exclusive things though) Oh and weiss’ letter to winter (i think also cannon? though details changed to refer to the “bind” she was in) im fairly certain that wasnt actually an apology for the racism either, (so cannon compliant). Blake’s apology for running away and promise not to run away again is also here. OC-Please Dont Sue is leaving. Their pendulum reveals a last shot of Bunnyjaune, (no i will not shut up about bunnyjaune, the V9 finale did us goddamn dirty in not letting him become his true self) but not before expositing that “semblance evolutions” are a thing. Ozpin wants to talk to Ruby and Blake, (individually) He sort of vagues at Ruby to figure out wether she’s aware of her eyelasers (she isnt yet) then vagues about it until he can get her to leave. Oz talks with blake about the fight at the docks and vagues his awareness of her terrorist past and tries to guilt her into removing the bow. (im fairly certain that, if a real-life equivalent exists, it would be illegal for a teacher or headmaster to make such requests of a discriminated minority. Bad on you Ozpin.) before makig a token statement he has no intention to force her hand on it. Then does the little “who are you really” scene to her. Weiss is waiting at the elevator and points out that oz isnt stupid enough not to know. Im only now noticing this version of blake has purple eyemakeup. I dont know if his is an anachronism from S7/8 or if its just a thing i never noticed. Ruby puts her face on some pancakes. Its adorable (and i miss when ruby was the kind of character who would do stuff like that.) Ruby, im sorry to say that you’ve pretty much made all the friends you’re going to make (except possibly neptune but he’s more an aquantance) at this point. From this point its going to be exclusively enemies. Sorry to dissapoint. Sun in a scene without Blake? Thats rare. Blake, if you want to start a new life stop going by your extremely recogniseable sirname. Its a cliche joke to make about your character but its obligatory at this point. Pyrrha is training Jaune. Its honestly almost weird to see Ren and Nora present during a Pyrrha trains Jaune scene. Team Sloth handholding moment achieved. and the episode ends on the beginning of the Best Day ever, cutting off just before the best scene in the entire show. (the one and only Foodfight scene, uneclipsed even in its now 9-season runtime) which is actually recreated (at least in part) --- Things i hated. DreamPyrrha. I know i was praising her, but the fact that one of the few times they brought Pyrrha “back” since S3 they make her speak almost entirely in hums and nods is annoying. (i get its meant to show Weiss’ noting Pyrrha’s deference to her leader. I still dont have to like it). I also liked that, unlike what i feared, this show did not have any Whiteknight bait. I didnt feel the “victory in simpler things” speech needed to be ported though. Final conclusion: this spin-off was a nice litle diversion, and a great timecapsule for the era when RWBY was actually allowed to be fun.

#rwby #rwby ice queendom #rwby ice queendom spoilers

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transinclusionary · 2 years

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None of that means they can't be/aren't secretly terfs. It's easy af to pretend not to be

no im sorry not me. I am definitely a good judge of character. No one is perfect and I don't always make correct assumptions about my compatibility with friends, but I talk about my attitudes towards life way too much to not weed out terfs. My best friend is a trans woman, and my partner has trans family. My parents also are trans competent, otherwise I would no longer speak to them.

But seriously it kinda sounds like y'all silently go about life being afraid to voice your opinions when they're not online. It's probably because deep down you know that no one would accept your reasoning. Not trans people, not conservatives, not mainstream feminism, and most certainly not the lgbT community.

In my time lurking on those awful tags I've learned two things about terfs: 1) you all are some of the most miserable, hateful people on the planet. The average terf rhetoric is so beyond disrespectful. Before you say "but "TRAS" 🙄 also say hateful things to us!!" Probably, but one is a political group and the other is a demographic. Thus they are not equal in terms of the discrimination you get for both. Trans people can be bad just as much as cis people, same with straight, gay, black, white, etc. But terf is an mindset, which you can absolutely control, thus it is not discrimination. It's similar to the concept that black lives are real but blue lives are not. You cannot make the same generalizations about trans people that I can make about terfs, because it is not an identity that you were born with. You do not have to have these opinions. You do this to yourself with asinine assertions that if you identify as trans you're INHERENTLY a certain way. That's so fucking stupid bruh I can't even lie. It's literally the exact same shit European Americans pulled on African Americans. No one is inherently bad because of their gender. People are bad because bad people are inherent to humanity. Sometimes a group can be emboldened by societal messages of superiority. But that still does not mean that cishet white men are inherently bad people, they just have a lot of societal conditioning to unravel. And guess what, same with cis people. The messages we receive in a Christian influenced society (no sun ever rested in the British empire) influences the way we perceive the actions of minorities we don't have much contact with. But people in your demographic of course get to be individuals. Bad radfems don't speak for you but every trans criminal speaks for all trans people right? That sounds stupid doesn't it? That's because it is.

The second thing I have learned is 2) terfs will wait a really long time to reveal their beliefs because you know how isolating your believes are outside of Tumblr and Twitter (maybe even irl but I doubt y'all go outside besides going to work). It is not for your safety, it is because no one likes you. And you not being liked is no one's problem but your own. I am a very polarizing person (as evident from this blog) but there have been people in my life now and in my past who adored me/who I adored. I have never struggled in life to find at least one friend. Can you say the same? Your hatred makes you lonely, and I'm sorry to say but I can sense hatred in a person from a mile away. I am training to be a therapist and if you really pay attention to the people around you, a lot of them wear that shit on their sleeves.

So basically, y'all carry that antisocial energy everywhere you go. Most people will subconsciously avoid you and never put the time into you. People like me sniff out your bullshit from an anon. That leaves the other hateful members of your little clique. Do you think your Tumblr radfem compatriots will ever be a true friend to you? Will they be at your wedding, birthdays, or funeral? Or will they ditch you the second you say something too dodgey for the hate group.

If you read this whole thing and STILL don't understand I'll spell it out: if they make fun of others, they will absolutely do it to you eventually, without fail. Bad actions do not lead to good people in life. So next time you're miserable, think about this post and know you were told exactly what's wrong with you by a random internet stranger who you sent an anonymous message to. Couldn't be me ✌🏾

#ask answered #terf tw #radfem tw

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m4r13l3y · 3 years

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Oh no, she likes another boy

Sirius black x reader , Reader x Theodore Nott

(explanation to the fic) << plz read!

Warnings; angst, unrequited love, mentions of cheating, fluff ending (?) (open ending)

“Where the fuck is he” You barged into the gryffindor common room, rage laced into your words, “Who?” James looked up from his homework with brows furrowed

“Who fucking else” You groaned, running up the stairs to the boys’ dorm

You knocked, no, pounded on the door. Sirius opened looking confused “What’s the matter?”

“Whats’s the matter?” You scoffed, “The fucking matter is that some girl just told me you cheated” The last three words coming out more like a whisper as a knot tied in your throat;

“Hello” you smiled at the 5th year who sat next to you, “hi do you know Sirius black?” She questioned

“Yea” you replied, eyebrows furrowed as to why a fifth year wanted to know if Sirius and yourself knew each other

“You guys are dating right?” you nodded, feeling like you could throw up at any second. The young girl explained how her upper-class friend and sirius had relationships,

you wanted to believe that she was lying, but how could you? This was the third time someone told you that he had done something like this and you still stayed with him, why? Because you are a fucking dumbass. You believed his witty “I love you’s” you believed when he said they were lying, but you were done.

Done with him treating you like you were nothing but trash off the sidewalk.

“Y/n its not that importan-“ Sirius deadpanned at you “not that important? Sirius I keep forgiving you because I’m so fucking stupid and you know that I am done.” You furiously wiped your tears, “I’m so done with you I promise”

“Sure you are” he rose his eyebrows, unbelieving of your statement, “fuck you Sirius black I don’t know how I ever loved you” you picked up your bag and slammed the door

It was no secret that everyone in Hogwarts, school of witchcraft and wizardry that you and Sirius black had broken up, news had spread around quickly as you broke up with him because he cheated with some Ravenclaw

He never realized how much he had loved you until you left. Until guilt ran through his veins weeks after he realized what he had done with the girl and how wrong it was, until you were sobbing in his dorm the night you finished everything with him.

The first week was alright, it hadn’t fully hit him yet, he still joked and smiled even though he thought you’d forgive him the next day, like you normally would.

The second week was tougher, he finally saw you coming to dinners, but you wouldn’t talk to him or the marauders, James and Remus had gotten mad at him because they missed your witty jokes and caring remarks when they felt down

And then it was summer, he wrote to you almost every day. He knew you were in Italy with your family, but he still wrote, you never replied. That’s when it really hit him. On a cold winter night when he saw his owl come back with a letter, his letter. You hadn’t even opened it.

So here he was now, first night back from school, he hadn’t seen you anywhere. Not on the train, not at dinner, and now he was moving around in his bed trying to figure out an apology

The next morning he finally saw you. You had a bright smile on your face, one he hadn’t seen in so long and Merlin he missed it. You had made your way to the marauders, he knew you were not one to hold grudges and he was excited to know you were ready to forgive him

“Remus” you smiled “James”

Maybe not

“How was Rome?” Remus asked, “amazing!” You beamed “we went to this Italy city and it was so cool they had such nice stores..”

Your voice sounded muffled as he saw you talking to his friends. God how he fucking wished it was him you were smiling at, though his day dream was brought to a halt when your voice stopped at you stared at the hall entrance

“Oh my god” you whispered, the three boys turned around to see a brown fluffy haired boy with glasses and a gryffindor crewneck walk in, someone he definitely didn’t know

“Who’s that?” James furrowed his eyebrows, “that’s theo” you whispered with a smile “my boyfriend”

Sirius let out a laugh “y/n okay this went on for too long you don’t have to get me jealous..” he trailed off as soon as he saw you stand up, ignoring him, and rushed to theo

“Y/n!” The brown haired male beamed at your presence as he held your waist tightly

“I didn’t know you were transferring here!” You pulled away, “well yea, wanted to surprise m’girl” he chuckled

You kissed him briefly, missing the way Sirius’ clenched his jaw at the sight. And much to his dismay, you decided to bring the stupid boy over to their seating space

“This is Theodore” you sat down “he’s my boyfriend”

“That’s Sirius and Remus and James” you introduced the boys as they all gave curt nods

“Howd you two meet?” James rose an eyebrow, “Italy” you smiled “I don’t mean to leave so fast, but I have to say hi to the elves I’ll be right back” you kissed your boyfriends cheek and waved

“be nice please!” You shouted as you ran out of the hall

“Listen here pretty boy” Remus rose a brow as you walked away “if you hurt our y/n I promise you, the least of your worries will be a little jinx yea?”

“Ofcourse mate” Theo chuckled “I like her, like really like her she’s special”

Sirius stood up angrily and walked out of the hall. He went to the kitchens, were he knew you’d be, so he could ask for forgiveness along with maybe convincing you to break up with the bloody bloke he now hated

“Y/n” he whispered as he saw you, “hey Sirius” you gave a curt smile and waved goodbye to the elves

“Y/n Im sorry i don’t know why you’re with that kid but I promise you I’ll do better-“ he went on

“No Siri” you cut him off “you didn’t love me, I’m not going to break up with a guy that really likes me just because you’re jealous. You treated me so badly and I’m not okay with that. Sorry if it hurts your feelings, but I’m happy with him” you gave him a sympathetic smile and made your way out of the kitchens

So that day he spent up in his dorm, crying and dwelling on how he could’ve changed everything in your relationship with him

The next few nights were the same, as he watched you and that dense Theodore roam the hauls with your hands in a lock

He watched him ask you to the winter ball, he watched him ask you to be his valentine, and much to his liking; he watched you break up with him when the two of you agreed it’d be for the best

He still watched though, the way you and him hang out as friends, he wished the two of you could’ve ended on good terms so that you could be hanging out with him as friends

“Mate you have to stop this” James put a comforting hand on his shoulder “she’s moved on and you should too”

“S hard” he whispered “I loved her”

“Ofcourse you did, but things happen and it didn’t work out” James comforted, Sirius shook his head and went to bed

Years went on, a war started and finished, he took care of his godson when Peter was arrested, and he got his life on track. No more slouching and sleeping around with any girl, he was caring and he was a changed man, for the better

His thoughts too, went on. His mind, even years later, always came back to you. Your y/e/c irised, your loving kisses, and your smile. Your damn smile, his favorite feature. How you always smiled when he would kiss you, how you smiled at him one last time when you departed ways at the end of school, and how it was 1986 at grimmauld place and you were smiling brightly at the kids that were running around

“Y/n we are so happy to have you!” Molly beamed, “The pleasure is mine molly” you hugged her

“Harry!” You picked up the young boy into a hug “missed you aunt y/n” he nuzzled into your neck

After greeting everyone, dinner went on. The young kids played for hours before going to bed in their respective rooms, and you had walked into the dining room after putting harry to bed and Remus calling it a night,

“Hey Sirius” you smiled at him

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words-for-holland · 3 years

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Always Yours

Pairing: Tom Holland x Reader

Summary: Sometimes dating a celebrity is hard...but Tom & Y/N have always said no matter what happens they could get through anything. Some angst but a lot of fluff.

A/N: So sorry for leaving yall hanging! Life is just crazy right now and this blog needs a lot of TLC tbh!! Also ehh I def dont think this was my best work but enjoy?

“Oof” Y/N lets out as she plops on to her boyfriend who was lying comfortable on the couch. Tom groaned at the impact with a cheeky smile on his face, his arms instantly wrapping around Y/N’s frame.

“Y’know..there are empty seats right there.” The soft brown-eyed boy gestured with the flick of his thick head as Y/N raises her eyes looking down at him, pretending to be slightly offended.

“Oh I see how it is then. It’s cool...Ill just cuddle with Tessa instead. I know she would welcome me with open arms instead of—” As she slowly starts getting off his chest, Tom is quick to pull her back in, securing her with his strong arms. “No baby, I was just kidding. I want you right here, and Im never letting you go.” he pleas.

The only thing Y/N could manage was letting out a fit of giggles into his chest, a sound that Tom adored and would do absolutely anything to hear every minute of every day. They stay like this for a while enjoying the feeling of each other as they both run their hands into each others hair, the feeling of their chests moving up and down, the subtle thumps of their heartbeats, and the little slips of adoration that came out of their mouths. It was peaceful. A moment that nobody could really take a way because it was theirs.

Y/N casually pulls up her phone, and scrolls through Twitter when she noticed a particular tweet on her timeline. Her eyebrows furrow, as she read the 160 character message.

Why Tom Holland Should Be With Aaliyah Cole and Dump Y/N: A Thread.

She knew it wasnt a good idea to open up the thread. She knew very well that everything within the shallow string of tweets would be a complete waste of her time because it was made up by fans who just wanted to satisfy their fantasy of shipping Tom with his co-star. Who can blame them? They always had great chemistry, but it was part of the job and thats all it would ever be.

“You’re awfully quiet.” Tom murmurs, as he places soft kisses at the crown of her head. “Whats going on?” She was lucky her phone was facing away from Tom, quickly closing the app and pretending to be on one of her many tabs in Safari.

“Mmm..nothing.” Y/N lies softly, a tight-lipped smiled plastered on her face.

“Absolute bullocks. Youre not a very good liar.” He chuckles. “Tell me darling. Whats on your mind?”

Y/N rolls her eyes in response. She’s heard that comment one too many times in her life from everyone shes known. After not giving it much thought, she gives in, sighing heavily. “Dont judge me for what Im about to say.”

“Mmm...I think it might depend on wha— Ow” Tom reacts as he playfully rubs the side of his chest that Y/N hit. “Okay too soon for jokes. Go on.”

Again, Y/N sighs as she props herself up. “Its just ... well a lot of your fans keeps talking about wanting you to get with Aaliyah.” She looks down trying not to make eye contact with Tom, who she’d imagine was looking at her with annoyance.

Tom rolls his eyes at the ridiculousness. Not so much at Y/N but the fact that some of his fans just didnt want to accept the fact that he was happy with Y/N. If it had to come from his mouth to stop the stupid rumors and give his girlfriend peace, then hed gladly yell it from the rooftops for everyone to hear. “Thats it Im making a statement about it.”

Y/N’s eyes widen in fear, scrambling to prevent him from grabbing his phone on the table next him. “No no no no.” She repeatedly declines. “You’ll only make it worse.”

“Darling, Im not going to stand here and watch you get all insecure because of their delusional ship.”

“Yeah well Im not gonna be the reason your fans hate me because Im getting in the way of your friendship with Aaliyah Cole.” She fires back.

Tom was ready to open his mouth only to be cut off once again. “And you know better. That is how your fans will always see it.”

“Okay, are you done?” He calmly asked, cautiously observing her. Rarely did Y/N ever get worked up about anything, but when she had her tangents, Tom always made sure she got off everything she needed to say before he becomes her voice of reason.

“Yeah, I guess.” she says feeling defeated. “Look its whatever and Im tired, can we just let this go and forget this whole conversation even happened?”

Tom was unconvinced, but didnt want to push her further. So reluctantly, he gave in and wrapped his arms around Y/N as they both tried to lull themselves to sleep.

***

Y/N wasnt sure how she ended up in the Tube. It was strange how the lights flickered off the rusted tile floor. The train was no where to be seen, but off to the side of the railroads was pitch black, she could hardly see beyond. To her right she noticed herself standing in the corner of the room, and to her surprise Aaliyah was there. Her milk chocolate kissed skin, and fashionably long frizzy hair dropped down past her shoulders. Her figure long and poised, as she wore a rain jacket and sweats. An outfit only she could pull off and make it look like she was a model for Vogue. Aasliyah smiles brightly at Y/N.

“Hey Y/N.” She says cheerfully as a genuine friend would.

To Y/N’s surprise she greeted her back in the same tone. “Hey Aaliyah...uhh whats going on?” Y/N wasnt sure if she wanted the answer of how they both ended up in the Tube or if she truly wanted to know how her day went.

“Well Im getting ready to present at the Oscars.” She replies, a smile plastered as if she was so excited about it, almost too excited like she was keeping a secret.

“Really? Oh my god, that’s amazing! Im so proud of you Aaliyah! Who are you taking?”

Aaliyah pauses for a few moment looking back and forth, making sure no one else was around. “Okay can you keep a secret?” She whispered.

Y/N nods her head slowly, not having the slightest clue of what was going on. “Im taking Tom. I think he really likes me, and well...I like him too! Do you think maybe I should ask him when we go?” Aaliyah asked genuinely. It was almost like she had no recollection of Y/N and Tom being a couple. “I think we would look good together. Everyone is already making rumors and ships about us.”

Y/N backs aways lowly only to bump into a broad figure. As she turns around she sees Tom, emotionless and almost sad. “Y/N.” He speaks out. “I dont think this is going to work out. Im leaving you.”

Y/N’s heart quickens, and her breaths become shorter as she tries to find a way to run. Running and running into the darkness, until all she could hear was Tom’s faint voice calling out her name.

***

“Y/N! Y/N! Baby wake up please.” Tom cries as he gently shakes his girlfriend from her disturbed sleep.

Quickly Y/N opens her eyes and clutches on to Toms hoodie firmly. Back home, and in Toms arms. It was a dream was all she thought. A sigh of relief escaping from her mouth.

“Darling...” he speaks softly, worried about his girlfriend. “Are you okay?”

Y/N looks up at him and nods frantically. “Mmm..bad dream.”

“Yeah it seemed like it. You were so frightened...I was scared. What happened?” He’s looking at her, trying to read her saddened eyes, wanting to desperately understand what scared her so he could make it all go away for her.

Y/N looks down at her fiddling hands, as she sits on the couch. “I uhh...” she lets out a chuckle, thinking of the ridiculousness of it all. “I uhh...dreamed about Aaliyah going to the oscars and saying how she loved you and how you two are perfect for each other. When I turned around I saw you but you werent happy and said you were leaving me.”

Tom doesnt say a word, all he could think about was how sorry he felt to put Y/N in this position. Though both of them knew, It wasnt Toms fault, or anyone’s for that matter. Feelings are feelings and that was okay. No human being was ever born perfect and without insecurities.

Y/N always tried to be a good sport with situations like this knowing every shippers theory and evidence were hardly ever true, but at some point there was only so much she could take before it all came out like an oil spill. Maybe it was a sign that she wasnt good enough to be with Tom if half of his fanbase thought this way as well.

Tom cradled her into his arms again, holding her tightly and kissing the top of her head. “Darling, I know youre still doubting yourself about all of this, but please believe me when I tell you that I love you so so much and no matter what happens...Im always yours.” He whispers gently in her ear. “It was only a dream and these ridiculous rumors and theories are just that. No one woman in the world could ever make me feel the way I feel for you.”

Y/N blinks softly, as she stares into space. Afraid and in a weird way ashamed, its funny how something so small and so minimal could affect her self-esteem so greatly. Tom gently brings her head up, so her eyes can meet his. He rolls his thumb on the bottom of her soft lips. “Hey, I love you.” Tom smiles.

Time stopped for the both of them the moment Y/N looked into his eyes, she felt safe. All the bad words and thoughts slowly disappear. Tom was right, none of the things that anyone said about their relationship mattered. She knew Tom loved her, and how much she truly loved him. Isnt that enough? Of course not. It was more than enough. A smile slowly forming on Y/N’s face. “Theres that smile I love so much.” He comments.

“Im sorry, for being such a —”

“No. Its okay. You have a right to feel the way you did.” He picks up her hand and leaves a gentle kiss.

“I love you so much Tom.” She says pressing her lips to his. “I dont deserve you.”

“Darling, its me that doesnt deserve you. Im always yours.” Tom proclaims as he kisses her back.

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