#im feeling happier

[lunarr-stuff]

....

#i feel happy today #too happy #i feel like im going to explode #im not gonna lie #other then an occasional night breakdown #im feeling happier #i dont remember the last time i felt suicidal #and i dont regret it #the way things have turned out #like at all #i m glad i went thru that pain #lulu rambles #life gets easier #and i will cherish this time #becuz i love it rn #i feel loved #thank u God #for giving me the help and the good people ive met along the way #who helped me get on the right path #thank u #thank u for my beloved fo rmkaing everything feel worth it #if it takes a war for us to meet then it would have been well worth it #and thank to people who tried and those who are no longer in my life #i hope where ever they end up its good for them #i dont feel any feelings for them anymore #but #its important to rememeber them #because they were an imp stepping stone in my life

[suntails]

toot toot!

#breaking my streak of dramatic af captions bc look at this. look at it. wtf was i supposed to call it. he's tootin whaddya want from me #he go TOOT TOOT on his lil trumpet i fuckgjn LOVE HIM im maxing this card im serious #lvl 60 10/10 no expense is too much for my precious boy #i found a new brush that has this rly soft charcoal vibe and i used it on this whole thing and it was SEXY it was HEAVEN #it was fun for coloring too!!! and the outfit colors are fun to color OUGHH everything made just for me <3 feeling SILLY #twst #twisted wonderland #twst silver #his bunny outfit sweeps like im sorry but its the best card of the event and its not even fucking close #suntails #i did one 10-pull bc i wanted the paint bonus from epel's card even tho i HATE that card #and i instead got SUPER lucky and got deuce and NO epel!!! i couldnt be fucking happier #then my job interview today never called and i was miserable again but it was an internal issue and im now rescheduled for next week #so please dear god pls guys pray i get this job. i want it sooooo bad

[neonsbian]

a loser or a babygirl? 🤔

#wayv #nct #nctinc #wayvnet #xiaojun #xiao dejun #i feel like u can see me learning how to use ps thro these gifs lmao #im happier w some of these more than others lol #anyway this is the gifset ive been thinking of making since last week finally have the ability to make it <3 #gifs

[parttimesiffrinfulltimeproblem]

I LOVE BEING AROMANTIC! I love talking to my friends about stuff they like. I love kissing my friends on the face and telling them I'm in love with them and knowing that it isn't romantic, it's just us. I love knowing myself well enough to know that I don't want romance or a relationship. I love platonic interpretations of media. I love defiance of amatonormativity. I love how my experience could be completely alien to that of another aromantic person because of how personal and multifaceted it can be. I love containing multitudes. I love aromanticism and I love being aro and I love being queer and trans and I love eschewing conventional relationships. I love loving.

#aromantic #aro #lyf laugh love #im feeling very happy about being aro right now #I also love knowing that this could all change for me in the future #but im happier than ive ever been now #and thats whats important to me #anyway who wants to platonically makeout #ok to rb

[skitskatdacat63]

"We are not the easiest opponent for everybody else, let's put it that way."

#the quote i think is a ref to carlos and the penalty haha so had to add it #ah also this interview kinda confirmed what i was thinking earlier #about him keeping expectations low and taking any kind of success as a win #even if that means a few points #very pragmatic yknow #he said h'd be happy w being in the lower top 10 #WHAT IF IM NOT HAPPY W THAT FERNANDO? WHAT IF I WANT YOU TO ASPIRE TO GREATER HEIGHTS #but nah im happy as long as its in the points but....id be happier if it was top 3- #nah bcs he had me getting excited over a p5 the other race #but honestly very nice and comforting to see him so happy all the time #also god im so tired and its so late and i still feel ill so the cuteness aggression hes giving me is insane #f1 #formula 1 #fernando alonso #we do a little bit of f1 #2024 chinese gp

[lunarin64art]

That feeling when he can't stand to see you that way, no matter what you do, no matter what you say😩😭💔

#scott pilgrims precious little life #scott pilgrim vs the world #spvtw #spto #scott pilgrim #wallace wells #lisa miller #scollace #kim pine #natalie adams #envy adams #don't rlly know if I like how this turned out but oh well;;; #hope its obvious that this is based on the song “Scott Pilgrim” which the creation the comics were inspired from #the lyrics always make me think of Wallace and Lisa's feelings for Scott every time I hear it #ofc you could also relate it to Kim especially since the singers voice kind of reminds me of her #but overall the lyrics fit these two much better since Scott never truly “saw them that way” despite how long they've liked him #and they always seem happier to see him compared to Kim #Im surprised tho that I havent yet seen anyone draw these two together now that their dialogue parallels have been acknowledged more lately #also tho I wish more people pointed out that they both got cucked by red heads LOL #and Kim and Envy actually do look really similar when scott first meets them #makes me wonder if Scott subconsciously went for Envy since she reminded him of Kim (which would be fitting given that you could argue that #Envy dated Scott because he reminded her of Todd. Since he and Scott are confirmed to be meant to be seen as similar to one another #so much so that even their first and last names rhyme #last thing I'll add tho is that while Wallace and Lisa are very similar even personality wise #the one big difference is that despite that whole conclusion on vol4 of Scott not cheating on Ramona with Lisa because he loves her #the writers apparently think it would be “organically correct” for him to have an affair with wallace LMAO #but I guess we shouldn't be surprised since Wallace and Ramona are both in the front of the official valentines art which is clearly #a deptiction of Scotts wet dream or smth (oh and you could also argue that Wallace and Lisa parallel on that art since they're both #shirtless with white socks.. which could be a reference to how lisa wears skimpy clothes for Scott and Wallace often only wears boxers #to like sexually frustrate Scott for fun or smth

[starsspiral]

Oh the tenderness of Gale being under Astarion with tension rising on both sides only for him to notice that hollow gaze in Astarions eyes. For him to softly tell him its okay to pull away only to cuddle with him under starlight...

#sometimes i think in fanfic people fail to realise how scared sex can be to Asta #also how he dissociates through a lot of it #not all the time i think in the good ending he does end up taking the reigns for himself and he feels a lot happier with his sexuality #but its definitely a process #and id love for it to be explored more #late night posting #help #im normal about bloodweave #gale dekarios #bg3 #gale of waterdeep #bg3 gale #astarion #bg3 astarion #baldur's gate 3 #baldurs gate gale #gale x astarion #baldurs gate 3 #galestarion #bloodweave #headcanons #fanfic #prompt

[starryluminary]

I redesigned Ella for funsies!!

My motivation (if you must know) was to make her less of a gimmick-y, one note character and more of a grounded character. Pahkitew is special in the sense that half of the cast is stuck in heavy delusion, making them feel too cartoony for comfort. The worst offenders of this in my opinion are Ella (though she’s a bit more of a character than the others,) Max and Leonard. Lord knows if I’ll do this again with them but for now this is how I would ground Ella in terms of design

The redesigned png under the cut, also for funsies

#I need to stop letting the impulsive thoughts win I don’t have the time for this #BUT I WANTED TO DO IT SO BAD. SO HERE WE ARE #total drama #total drama pahkitew island #tdpi #total drama ella #td ella #Starry makes art #im so happy with these drawings #I feel like I finally figured out how to color shit and I could not be happier I figured it out with Ella #Ella I love you so much I really hope you’re happy wherever you are

[darkxsoulzyx]

OKAY OKAY I WAS SUPER UNHAPPY WITH HOW I COLORED ECLIPSE IN THIS POST SO I DECIDED TO RECOLOR HIM

AND WHILE DOING THAT, I JUST DECIDED TO DO ALL OF THEM SO HERE FISMCKSJFF

#fnaf fandom #fnaf #fnaf daycare attendant #the sun and moon show #sun and moon show #sun and moon show bloodmoon #sun and moon show lunar #sun and moon show eclipse #sundrop #moondrop #head in hands #im WAY Happier with how this turned out #I feel like im gonna revise these later LMAO #For now though they all look pretty good hehe #can’t wait to keep watching #I stopped around the bloodmoon backstory episode #I think I’m going to explode guys #haha

[kentopedia]

truthfully i want to back away from jjk but i don’t know how

#bc i still love nanami & want to write about him but #i don’t feel like i’m a part of the fandom anymore #& im okay w it i just want to have my own space on here #it’s just all i see allll the time and i’m kind of tired of it :( bc i don’t care anymore #i don’t get excited about it like i do bsd either :( #i also don’t just want to be known as a jjk blog which i feel like … i kind of am now maybe :/ #but like it’s ALLL people post about & i have a lot of jjk moots which i love so i’m not going to block anyone 😭😭 but i also wish i could #just like …. distance myself easier lol #it’s mostly the fandom too like idk i don’t like it #anyway sorry for the rant but if you’re wondering why i’m posting all abt bsd again all of the sudden this is why #i just realized it makes me a lot happier !! :3 to be more a part of that side of tumblr

[monstersinthecosmos]

I use TVA/B&G to backwards engineer The Devil's Minion a lot, not only as a rare and detailed insight into how human/vampire relationships tend to go in this series, but also just how many things they had in common, all the parallels, all the ways you can ask if Armand was working through his Maker Issues, and of course the final excuse that their hand is forced because the human is dying. But I think often about how much Marius struggled with it, and although he caved in the end, he changed his mind sometimes, he knew he was a monster, and it's always going to be the struggle of whether you love someone enough to let them go or if you love them too much to let them go, do you curse them with darkness or do you keep them so that you aren't alone in your own darkness, etc.

But I've wondered a lot how that journey went for Armand, how often he maybe changed his mind, if he felt tempted but then reminded himself he's a monster and shouldn't, and I'm absolutely haunted by their final separation before the concert. Lestat's book comes out, Daniel is wandering, Armand can't find him (or is avoiding him?) and there's just so much here, and how much of their relationship was violated by reading Lestat's book independently before speaking to each other, how much Daniel would've learned without Armand's consent or before he was ready, and how much Armand's abandonment issues would've been ripped the fuck open by reading about Marius and what he had to say.

"Whatever will happen will happen, but choose your companions with care. Choose them because you like to look at them and you like the sound of their voices, and they have profound secrets in them that you wish to know. In other words, choose them because you love them. Otherwise you will not be able to bear their company for very long." "I understand, " I said. "Make them in love. " "Exactly, make them in love. And make certain they have had some lifetime before you make them; and never never make one as young as Armand. That is the worst crime I have ever committed against my own kind, the taking of the young boy child Armand. " "But you didn't know the Children of Darkness would come when they did, and separate him from you. " "No. But still, I should have waited. It was loneliness that drove me to it. And Armand's helplessness, that his mortal life was so completely in my hands. Remember, beware of that power, and the power you have over those who are dying. Loneliness in us, and that sense of power, can be as strong as the thirst for blood. If there were not an Enkil there might be no Akasha, and if there were not an Akasha, then there would be no Enkil. "

It's just wow like.

Sincere advice that he never got to receive? In the same sentence as hearing he's a mistake? Does he read this and think he should make Daniel out of love, and at the same time feel all the more monstrous, and want to resist?

The choice is taken from him anyway, and he's forced, just as his own turning was forced. And as @nightislandnoveltymug pointed out recently, he treats it like a funeral.

#this was supposed to be a quickie paragrpah like HEY REMEMBER WHEN ARMAND READ TVL AND IT SAID TO TURN PEOPLE OUT OF LOVE LOL #but i got carried away #i had a long ass talk yesterday about armand's abandonment issues and whether or not he feels like a failure #and im really like suffering a lot lol #also to memeify the lestat/armand rivalry there's a happier version where lestat editorialized marius a little just to be a dick #TO HELP ME SLEEP AT NIGHT LOL #marius de romanus #armand #daniel molloy #devil's minion #tvl quotes #armand/daniel #marius/armand #vampire chronicles

[littlelightfish]

The hearts don't mean he is in love with no one. The problem with English is how vague of the word love is in his meaning. It envolves different kinds of caring in one single word. But I'll try to express here what I mean.

He cares, as a person, about everyone. This is a basic level of love that he haves towards everybody. He doesn't want anyone to actually die, that's what I mean. He doesn't necesarily cares about someone, but he loves them enough to not want them to die.

He starts befriending someone and gets to know it. He starts liking things about them and disliking others. He starts loving this people in another way, we'll call it liking. This is more a get-to-know phase he doesn't always like. The less he knows, the less reasons to get attached get attached he has. I think this are the kind of love the hearts show in the image. He has to make sure to keep a balance between how much he loves and how much he let's himself be loved. He doesn't want to have misunderstandings. He is in constant fear of "what if I made them love me more and they care more?"

And then it comes the deeply care that love is in the non-romantic way. This care a (good) parent has for his babies. The love that makes people suffer emotionally in an absolute different way from what it could be a heartbreak or a misunderstanding between friends. If something happens to the loved one, the pain is unbearable. It's one of the worst things rhat can happen. And Chilchuck knows this, he is father of three daughters, and his wife left him. She left, he knows the pain it is to come home and find it empty when there should be someone. He knows the guilt it comes with failing those loved ones. The shame. He doesn't like being this vulnerable. This love makes him suffer like no other does. So he is very very carefull of how much he allows himself to care about someone so he won't get to love like this.

He draws a line between work and private life because his private life envolves love and deep care, and he doesn't want to love nor care like this for people who's job is to constantly risk their lifes. He doesn't want to feel the anguish, he doesn't want to feel the loneliness it will come after the unenviable separation of the party.

He tries his best to not get attached to people. To not let people get attached to him. But he fails. He fails and falls downstairs with a whole drum set.

He can't help but to care about this people. He can't help but to love this people he's been living with the past few weeks in the risking of their lifes. He tells himself he's doing this for money and that he doesn't care, but he does.

Those hearts don't mean anything other than him caring about them. He cares about Senshi. He cares about Marcille. He cares about Laios. About Itsuzumi. About Namari. He cares in a way that hurts. He loves this people. He doesn't want to even imagine a world in where they are gone, or suffering, or in problems. They're his friends, they're something he, unwillingly, accepts as family.

He cares about Falin and Mickbell because he doesn't want them dead. He doesn't feel any anguish toward if they do or not get hurt after they're out of his sight. Sure, he cares, but he can live without thinking about them the rest of his days. It doesn't happen like that with Laios. He can't just simply let Laios go and follow Fallin just after he recover consciousness from a punch in the gut. Was it Mickbell, he would let him if he really didn't wanted. But Laios didn't wanted to sit and wait, and he had to care. He had to verbalize to himself that he cared. He had to let them know, so they would act accordingly. So they won't get themselves killed like idiots.

He doesn't want others to fall in romantic love with him. He doesn't feel romantic love towards anyone either. He isn't the man for this kind of love. He is, in fact, afraid of it. He doesn't want to fall in love, because he's still in love with his wife. She left him because he was negligent. But since when has this become the definitive stop for love? Chilchuck knows his wife is angry at him, and she has all the reason to be so! His husband, the one she loved and cared for, gets himself in dangerous situations, treats his body poorly and almost never is home. She loves him, and it hurts her to love like this, so she leaves. Like this she won't have to look at him get himself mistreated like he does. She would have the pull in her's stomach that tells her that he could be in great danger, that she could become a widow, but she tries to calm it with his daughter's mail to him. He could never. He can't imagine a world in wich they cease to exist. A world without his wife, even if she distanced herself, without his daughters, would be a world worthless of living. He knows this. Because he cares and he loves in such a deep level that he is scared of loving anyone else like this. To become so vulnerable to emotion. This vulnerable to something bad happening.

The fact that he is so afraid of loosing his wife, even after she left him, says a lot. He still cares about her. He is still in love with her. He wants to go back to what it was before, but he can't and he know its his fault. And he respects his wife's distance because he loves her. Now, he doesn't love her in the movie way, he isnt in love like a teenager would to his first girlfriend, he doesn't want to kiss her, or hug her, or be by her side at all moments of the day. He loves her. He cares about her deeply, deeply enough that he doesn't need to be by her side to care, to love. He also respects her. He can survive without her because he knows she's better with his daughter. For sure he wants to hug, kiss and be by the side of this person he loves, it would be ideal, but he can survive without thinking about it too much. It's just like with his daughters. They're all adults that now live far from him. And he is ok with it now. He sends mail and recieves mail, and even if he misses greatly, he can manage not to think about it. Because he knows she is allright. Because he knows he fucked up. He doesn't know where he fuked up, but for his wife to leave him, at least he knows he did. They never talked about it, because they both seem to have a problem in expressing themselves. She fell into a bad mood and then she disappeared. The amount of pain he must have felt it's... let's say it's quite big.

He keeps his guard up. He doesn't want to love deeply anyone. He doesn't want to feel the emptiness, the hurt, that comes after someone so dear leaves. He knows for a fact he'll be leaving this people. He knows that they could die. If he loves, it will hurt in a way nothing else hurts. He will miss. He doesn't like missing people he cares like this. This is why he doesn't want to love. This is why he doesn't want to be loved. This is why those hearts that are almost full are his main source of concern. This is why he makes the effort to keep this feelings at bay, to love only in the friendly way and with extreme caution.

But he can't controll his own love. And he ends up caring more and more about these people. He slowly makes him a part of the dangerous love zone that family means. He is afraid to confuse someone about his feelings towards them, so he still tries to maintain distance with his abusive remarks, but this only works so far. He loves and is loved. And because of this he will suffer.

I... I extended myself a bit I see...

#i dont even know what im talking about anymore #but i hope i made sense #as an aroace i feel the need of being extra cautious about how people think of my relationship with them #because I dont want them to like me romantically #i want friendship #because its so uncomfortablr #not #love #so this Chil here is basically me trying to figure out if saying certain things could be considered flirting or not by the other #i shouldnt care #it isnt my fault if they do fall in love with me #but i would be happier if they didnt #to know someone is in love wirh you #and that you dont love him back #but youre still friends #so youre friends but the other wants to be more than that #and to avoid that i gotta measure every interaction #maybe im a bit paranoid #but it has happened to me to have friends fall in love with me #and i dont want to hurt their feelongs but i definitely dont lovs rhem bacj #because i care abkut them in a friendly way #and i don't want them to suffer because of me. but I dont want to suffer because of them either #its all way to complicated? yes bit thing is that chil here represents me interacting with my friends #but in my case the hearts would be romantic #dungeon meshi #chilchuck #chilchuck tims #delicious in dungeon #dungeon meshi spoilers #my shit

[mblue-art]

ough,,,, you givb me lust brainrot,,,,,,, hes jbust a littol guyTM,,,,

-juni

HECK yeah 🫶🫶🫶 good thoughts, i hope ! he deserves to be appreciated 💜

mme whne,when lust sans does anything that's so very him

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#ask #mblue talks #m rambles #he's a leetol guy i wanan kis #want him to feel safe being his silly self around meee #want him 2 b comfortable and safe and happier and loveddd waugh #provide comfort and solace to him #want 2 talk with him lots and be besties and open up to eachother and #and be unapologetically ourselves and accepting of eachother's quirks #have a cute lil domestic life #silly banter and teasing #let him rest his pretty tired little skull beside me while i stare at his cute sleepy face in adoration #careful not to wake him with a cheek caress or a gentle kiss atop the crown of his skull #feeling very rom about him tbh #also want both the friendship and the relationship ykwim #(i think it's funny to me that last year i myself used to feel only platonic for him until i had a character development LOL) #(but im v happy that it happened. happy that friends encouraged and supported) #i love him and i am v gay n bi abt him #yeah i have a lot of emoceans about lust sans can you tell

[vypridae]

dorks

#god theyre cute. i needf more domestic or adorable sgk in my life im so fr #nothing makes me happier #this is really sloppy n lazy bc i just read an ongoing fic of them and im exploding in my brain i needed fluff #also yes the dialogue does not make sense i KNOOW #i wrotei t rlly fast and didnt feel like rewriting anything i just needed to post abt them #bsd #bungo sd #bungou sd #bungo stray dogs #bungou stray dogs #tecchou suehiro #suehiro tecchou #tetchou suehiro #suehiro tetchou #saigiku jouno #jouno saigiku #suegiku #saihiro #xandraws

[kanalaure]

feanorian cooking headcanons, because im tired and sad and want to think about something fun

maedhros: makes a lot of soup bc you can make big batches almost more easily than small ones, and usually when he cooks he's babysitting or his little brothers will sidle up wanting some of what he's having. occasionally his parents will wander in from their workshops after a seventeen hour creative binge not sure what day it is but suddenly realizing theyre very hungry. after thangorodrim he has this little skit he loves to do that everyone else hates where he pretends he chopped the veg too hard and cut off his hand, bc what is the point of having all these little brothers if you cant antagonize them with dad jokes and maybe guilt trip them a lil into better behavior

maglor: only knows how to make a handful of things but does them well. dump and pour cook, so everything comes out a lil different each time. has never given anyone food poisoning, unlike some brothers he could name. drives caranthir insane bc he will just throw a handful of peppercorns or whatever in there all casually because they make things taste good and dont you know how much those COST, kano??! probably invented the in-universe equivalent of a sandwich so as to more conveniently eat while composing

celegorm: overall? pretty good, but its a lot of the same things with very minor variation. him being a skilled hunter, it's a lot of deer and small mammals, game birds and fish. probably good with edible plants and herbs growing wild, bc you only need to be made fun of by your entire family for getting scurvy one (1) time before you wise up, so your food would be well seasoned. however. absolutely everything is cooked over a campfire. put him in the wilderness and He Will Provide. stick him in a kitchen with an hearth and a pot rack and he is Lost. like maglor, has never met a measuring spoon he wouldnt ignore

caranthir: will measure spices to the microgram, kano, because he does know how much they cost thankyouverymuch. he's the best (only) baker of the bunch and likes all the math involved in it. just a mediocre cook though, partly bc maedhros invariably got to the kitchen first, and he's really meh about the idea of cooking anyway so he doesn't really protest or try to get in the kitchen on his own time to improve. (exceptions to this: likes making jams and fruit butters.) despite this, has never given anyone food poisoning

curufin: no. nope. no. it's his achilles heel. see mentions of food poisoning above

amrod and amras: got a lot of their cooking know-how straight from celegorm when they were out hunting, so it's all more of the same: deer, rabbit, fish, etc. like caranthir they dont get a lot of time or opportunity to practice bc maedhros beat them to the draw, but like maglor sometimes they will go off and make their own food for the hell of it, or because they were craving a specific thing. they only gave their family food poisoning once, curvo, and that was because they hadn't really nailed the pickling process yet. speaking of, they do a lot of pickling and other longterm things like cheesemaking that have a scientific element to it. they think its neat, and also its one of the few areas none of their older brothers ever tried to break into so for once there's no comparisons to be made, positively or otherwise

#as always feel free to agree disagree and/or add on. i like having conversations about this stuff #obvs this is valinor-based. once they left everything went to hell in a handbasket and changed p drastically #but i am trying to make myself *happier* not *sadder* rn so im not going deep into that #that said i think by the time everyone else was dead and they had e&e around mags was probably doing all the cooking #for mae cooking brings up too many memories and highlights all the empty spaces and silence and its a source of pain now #silmarillion #silm headcanons #maedhros #maglor #celegorm #caranthir #curufin #amrod #amras #ambarussa #feanorians #the silmarillion #silmarillion headcanon

[honeycordials]

i wish parenthood wasn't so strongly linked to marriage and romantic relationships. like, i know that it's possible to be a single parent by choice and i think i would be happy with that, but i do want companionship and a solid coparent. my ideal relationship is closer to, like, a close friend that i live with and raise children with and maybe have sex with without all the other... stuff. and of course i know that there are people out there that want the same things as me, but how do you go about finding them?

i want to be a mother so badly and the idea of that not happening for me is crushing.

#personal #aromantic #aro tag #amatonormativity #went through a breakup recently and i won't say it didn't suck #but i have felt so much peace knowing that i don't have the pressure to perform romance for someone anymore #knowing that im happier outside of a romantic relationship than in one has made me wonder if i have to give up on being a mom #idk maybe im getting too in my feelings about it #aroallo