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ghostscrown · 30 days

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Don't you understand. If I get a queerplatonic partner one day, I want a queerplatonic "marriage" but you could barely even call it a "marriage". It would be more like. A platonic ceremony. Nothing official, so it wouldn't even be an official marriage, because fuck the marriage institution. I want this to be the most chaotic, confusing ceremony ever. The whole thing would be a go to hell to the relationships norms.

It would be like. A small ceremony. With the Anne With An E flower party aesthetic, ykwim? I want NONE of these wedding aesthetic. Just... A GIANT cake, that'll be the closest thing ressembling a wedding. And flowers everywhere because I love flowers, but flowers of all kind. Multicolored. Decoration theme is flowers and stars. Because it's cool.

Not too many guests, just a few, close people to us, because there's no way I'm gathering a full social event. Fuck off "guests have to be classy but not too much to not outshine whatever". I want everyone to get their fanciest, most extravagant outfits. Theme is victorian-pirate-steampunk-medieval. I want cloaks/capes, vintage dresses, top hats, pirate shirts, everything. And everyone will get a free colorfull flowercrown.

Me and QPP are wearing the biggest, most giant flowercrowns. I'm wearing the fanciest medieval cape ever.

We do vows, but like. We say so many romance spiteful things. Like. Promise we'll never downgrade this relationship to romance. But also things like. Promising to be queerplatonic partners and best friends for life (reminder that queerplatonic and best friends aren't the same, but if I get a QPP they'll probably also be my best friend, so both at the same time, because I'm like that) etc.

Instead of wedding rings, we exchange friendship bracelets.

There's an officer, just for the sake of it, even tho it's not an official thing - so it could just be anyone really. They have to wear a fancy costume too of course. And at the end they'll say "I declare you... Best friends forever." (It would be more appropriate to say queerplatonic partners or something, but this is funnier.)

And then. Instead of kissing, even in the case we wouldn't mind kissing, we fistbump. Just because it's funny.

#my fantasy queerplatonic marriage #let me dream about this okay #aroace #queerplatonic #queerplatonism #qpr #lovepunk #queer #lgbtq

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earlyspringtranscendence · 9 months

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ok i made this post already but tumblr ate it and also it started to get far more in depth than i intended so perhaps it is good i’m redoing it with better formatting. anyway is anyone else deeply unwell about mjf and dax harwood meeting in the ring again for what (iirc, but my brain don’t work too good) is essentially the first time since the pinnacle break up or is it just me. it’s about the devotion. it’s about changing when a beloved can’t change alongside you. and THEN it’s about a whole lot of twitter drama

i think what has always gotten to me about max and dax (and specifically them, though mjftr in general is of course a large part of this and also something i’m crazy about) is how during the pinnacle days dax was part of mjf’s family and max was part of his. ftr stood in a position of higher standing than wardlow, sure, but their relative normalcy in the friendship they had with max is what made him so utterly devoted to them in a way that is truly painful to see especially now when comparing it to the whole mjf + adam cole tag team.

something that stuck out to me in that bit where they’re playing video games is when max says he’s never played multiplayer cause he’s never had friends, but the pinnacle was like... beyond anything he’s been a part of since. i think what has come closest before adam was the specific twitter relationship btwn mjf and bestsmileinthebusiness lee moriarty (remember when they were firmly flirting with each other on twit? god those were the days) but then i’m also sensitive about the pinnacle so this is like besides the point

anyway, there wasn’t dead much going on with ftr in the pinnacle and part of that is of course their recent arrival to aew and them coming into their own as wrestlers with more creative freedom than they had been afforded before. they were cast as heels because that’s what they had always been and as such is what the audience expected and what made the transition go along smoothly, but as always with wrestling you gotta pick and choose where the line btwn kayfabe and reality lies and for now i’m gonna focus all my attention on the fictional because while all that is interesting from an irl perspective, it’s got fuck all to do with the emotions i’m feeling towards these crazy kids

regardless, when max has a new friend he will do anything to keep that friend. the only line he has never crossed in friendship is the one where he trusts the other person. an interesting dichotomy in the character of mjf to me has always been how easily he subjugates himself and humiliates himself (in the eyes of toxic masculinity, ykwim) to please one of his baser instincts (winning, saving face, love) and it’s something he did with ftr a lot by the end

i’ve been thinking about that one interview he did with barstool where ftr come in at the end and it’s awkward because it’s in the stage of separation before the eventual breakup. cash is all smiles and happy to be there, max is praising them both like nothing else and dax is... starting to get a little bit annoyed. he’s bothered. something’s rubbing him just a little bit wrong.

(this already is like sending me into a spiral but thats neither here nor there)

(cash is pointing at max here btw, i couldn’t get the screenie quite right)

this subtle thing is so important to me. cash’s persona during this period (and for the most part it still is) is so like laid back. he follows whatever dax wants to do but only because he’s sort of just good with whatever. even in this video there’s an element of refereeing or messenger boy-ing he’s doing between his friend and his other half that’s so dynamic to watch. (also it doesn’t hurt that the angle of the camera cuts off dax’s eyes so you only see his slightly defensive seeming posture towards max. it’s something i’m reading too deeply into by far but it’s something that does, like, enhance this experience for me)

(yt subtitles are wrong, he said heat not hate but like. whatevs) in this bit dax thinks brandon’s talking abt dax towards himself and he’s quick to interject, but when it’s clarified he’s talking about mjf there’s a considering look and a bit of a grimace. anyone else going crazy or is it just me

DAX SAYS THIS SO QUICKLY. HE SNAPS TO THIS SO QUICKLY. I’M CRAZY ABOUT THIS DYNAMIC

ok we have to move on from this because i still have so much to cover

i wanna talk about the second part of my motivation for caring so deeply about these two and that’s the ‘changing and being spitting mad a beloved isn’t changing alongside you’. beloved may have been a big word, i’ll allow for that, but please do recall that ftr are the ones who loudly proclaims that mjf is their family in pinnacle promos

thank you cash for making me absolutely insane i appreciate it now onto dax

i refuse to be normal about them.

anyway this disgust that ftr started showing once the pinnacle fell apart (and, crucially, punk became their bezzie) because they started turning face (due in part to the wardlow sitch, the other part, you guessed it, punk) and max couldn’t follow them there is in such dire opposition to this that it feels real. like i’m a mark and all but like it feels really genuine. the (learned) masculine inclination to turn to anger rather than sadness when someone disappoints you.

then max, you know, left us hanging for a veritable fucking age and in the meantime this all happened (bear in mind that more than this happened this was just what i could bear to actually reblog bc i’m not joking i’m like genuinely very unwell about this group it made me feel like so upset when it happened so you know. this isn’t the absolute worst of the worst it’s just what i could bear):

(ngl i thought i had a little more than just this post saved but they were talking supreme shit and i guess my fragile self wasn’t having it. good on me for knowing boundaries. anyway you get the idea tho, this was all happening and there was general mjf smacktalk all while mjf couldn’t respond to it because he was on his little getaway getting built as fuck)

and this:

(post found here, idk what this is from originally) you see what i mean too though about cash being this benevolent, laid back bystander and dax being angry. what’s that sentiment about being angry because you care?

what this all boils down to at long last after many paragraphs of me making very little points is this: next saturday at collision mjf is going to be doing his shit with adam cole and ftr is going to be husbands as all get, but i don’t care about any of that in the face of this final showdown between dax and max, even if i know, in my brain and my heart, that none of this will even be all that relevant to the story anymore. pour one out.

(and also final disclaimer i’ve never actually heard of any like shoot nonsense btwn these two and i’m Preddy sure this is all just part of the narrative, but i could be wrong. if anything btwn them is real well that’s none of my business and they shouldn’t have put it on the internet then. i mean im mostly kidding but if it’s real obviously disregard this reading of that situation)

#ftr #dax harwood #mjf #mjftr #sorry about all this. it's just that i have problems in my brain.

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inventedfangirling · 6 months

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Hi! What r ur thoughts on OhmLeng's Kidnap the series?? I mean we all know Ohm is a great actor and he can have chemistry with a rock if he want. But for some reason the chemistry is unbalanced here?? I might be biased because of my now and forever bad buddy hang over, so I wanted to know your opinion. (This is not an hate ask on the series or ohm, just a genuine question)

First of all, thankyou for asking me that! I didn't know i had this many opinions about the show from that teeny trailer until i wrote this answer hehe.

And to get to my answer yes I kinda get what you mean anon. I also am supremely biased towards ohmnanon's chemistry. That being said i don't think that's the issue here. I just rewatched the trailer again, and idk what they said about the series or if they're adapting this from somewhere, but it really looks like took a bare thread plot and made the trailer and left the actual developing of the story to be done for later. And if that's the case then both actors don't have the entire background and story to give their performances the depth they should have. So it feels like a very surface level performance and not the kinda stuff we know ohm can pull off.

Also I saw this post and in the light of that and the fact that we did not get a kiss in the trailer (not that having a kiss is the be all and end all of a bl or a romantic relationship but still it) makes me wonder if it is in that queerbait bracket after all. What if the showmakers made the trailer in such a way to give us hope but not to guarantee it to us ykwim? Like if you few it from different angles you know you can interpret their actions and their implications in very different ways.

Their dynamic in that scene where ohm is asking leng to take off his brother's gift while having bl undertones, felt more bickering sibling-ey than budding lovers ( i hate that word but i cant think of anything better to use here). That scene right before the end where ohm stretches out his hand to lift leng up and then the nodding with the smiling gave such strong friendship vibes i just could not ignore it. We had the cliche (usually) romantic tending to each other's wounds scene and they ended it on a scene where their faces are super close and towards each other, but that could be the queerbait part of it.

It could also be that the story is all fine and perfect but it's just that as a cast and a pairing they're new to each other and so their chemistry is of course something that cant be compared to what ohmnanon with their years long friendship and acting experience were able to create. Maybe spending more time together working on the project will help iron any and all rough patches out.

So yes long story short i do agree that the chemistry did feel unusual. And i'm mostly attributing it to the actors (and even the showmakers/gmmtv) not knowing which direction to take and just winging it. So for all we know it could be a bl with an excellent romance. Or it could be an unlikely friendship blooming in the midst of adversity story. And ngl, i find the second one far more compelling. There's also the thing that I'd rather watch a kidnappee befriend a kidnapper (however reluctant a kidnapper he was/is) than they become romantic partners. I feel like it could be a much more beautiful meaningful relationship and story that way. But that could also just be the aro-ace in me talking :3

#thoughts have been thunk #hope this made some sense at least lol

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meirimerens · 8 months

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may I ask about your oc, i’m curious about zoichik and her relationship to the rest of the crew? unless it’s secret info ;)) in that case nevermind and carry on. they are beautifully drawn

YOU ALWAYS MAY. ask about my ocs. twirls my mane kicks my hooves etc etc. OK! so you might've seen i tagged the zoichik art as "implied death/" & the next post about her as "drowning /" so know those two are part of the #story but i'm not sure as i type this ^ in how much detail i'll go into that.

zoichik :) and crew.

zoichik was part of a 6-people crew (as depicted in the art) on a small fishing boat, the B. [name withheld] that operated within an arctic sea, something like this

none of the people of the crew (or, mostly, of the village, for that matters) are related to each other, and many have come to the village under generally shady or secretive circumstances (not all, but many). as Her Crew, she was pretty close to most of them at least in a purely professional matter, and then some people she was closer than others. her bonds with the crew went as follow:

Eve, the oldest woman, was the captain. she was generally a recluse and really enjoyed the general air of mystery the village allows her to live in, and only really brightened up at sea, which made it a bit hard to bond with her because when at sea She Was Focused. zoichik very much looked up to her, and she was like a substitute mother to zozo (who also came to the village in generally Shady circumstances + with the explicit purpose of remaking her life away from her previous life), even tho that bond was Naht reciprocated like eve did not see her as a daughter figure, but she was kind enough in her outwardly gruffness.

Maksim, the oldest man and eldest of the crew at all, was second-in-command and engineer aboard the B. he was kind of the opposite of Eve, in that he was lively and social and playful on shores but was stricter and sterner aboard the ship, which is kinda for the best since he was in charge of making sure that damned boat like. Went. on the boat, zoichik (and the rest of the crew) had to actively obey him, but them all went about it in a very "sir yes sir :saluting emoji:" like goofy way, while still very much actually doing what he asked, because they all knew that once back on the ground they go eat and smoke with him and hear his same jokes for the 20th time. he was zoichik's buddy.

Valermiye was the youngest of the crew and while he was kind and nice and a little childish and whimsical, everyone could kinda see he didn't want people in his business/was purposefully evasive about what his life before was like, so nobody pushed. zoichik was neither particularly close nor particularly distant from him, and appreciated his company, he was like someone's younger brother, just not hers ykwim.

Lora was kind of the same, as in reclusive and not wanting people in her business, but she was Not nice and kind and whimsical. she was nervous, secretive, and really disliked socializing, which was not out of the mold for people of the village so it was just kinda accepted that it was how it was for her. everyone, most people had towards her a "hey if you want to talk about anything you can hit me up" type of attitude, including zoichik.

Mimik oh mimik was zoichik's favorite. they were close, not as close as zoichik wanted it to, but she was kind of too shoy to push for more. Mimik was very social, lively and brisk and impetuous, a ray of sunshine through the arctic winters if the sun was a ardent and impulsive and a bit brash. she and zoichik had the kind of "extravert adopting an introvert" type of friendship. zoichik loved her. like 👉👈 Loved her. she'd accompany her on trips to the big town south, they were both deckhands then the double trouble of experienced deckhands + boatswains at once, and general at shore they'd spend time with each other rather than others. mimik had big plans and big ambitions but none of them involved leaving the village or life at sea, which made zoichik believe they could stick together for a long, long time, and she would daydream about like. a life together.

the B. capsized and sank in fall of 2004 from dramatic ice accumulation on the deck combined with an unpredictable storm coming onto her, and zoichik was the only survivor. 3 bodies were recovred, and the two still lost at sea are the ones of the two women zoichik felt the closest to, Eve and Mimik. the fact that they are not legally classified as Dead but are under a "presumption of death" haunts zoichik. it's a way of saying "their chances of having survived are close to zero..... but are not zero per se" and it drives zoichik mad and makes the grief even harder to cope with. she is still, 5 years after the sinking, beating herself up over not having told mimik how she felt. until the hauntings change shapes. :~3

#TEEHEE GIGGLE. thank you so much for asking..... hugging emoji sending a kiss emoji #ring ring (answers)#anonymous #oc:zoichik

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nnnyxie · 3 months

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The thing is

One of my friends went to him (WITHOUT MY KNOWLEDGE😭) and asked him if he liked me because she noticed the way we act and she cares a lot about me and just wants to protect me or smth and he said that he understands why she might think that but that’s it purely platonic and he just gets very touchy when he becomes close friends with someone

So I guess we’re atleast close friends? :) I’m just glad I get to be in his life and love him, no matter in which shape or form as long as I can support him and share this love somehow (without making him uncomfy hopefully😭)

Anyways my heart breaks each time I see him but also just overwhelms me with the love I feel for him, I can’t distance myself to move on without risking to hurt him and revealing that I like him because why else would I need time away from him

And we were hanging out with a bunch of other friends and they all started making jokes about us being in love and dating

AND HE SAID HE THINKS MY LAST NAME IS SUPER SUPER PRETTY AND THE WAY IT SOUNDS AND IS SOELLED IS GORGEOUS SO I DIDN’T THINK ABD JUST SAID “you can have it” and then we both went silent and laughed

Idk man I’m so confused I want to cry why is reading neurotypicals so fucking hard 😭

Sorry that I’m just dumping this all on you</3

no need to apologize hun!!

but i personally think that’s a bit shitty of your friend to do,,,,,, ykwim?? like i get being protective because i am very protective of my own friends— but doing something like that could set back the relationship you have with him,,, idk maybe that’s just me.

but anyways.

it is better to be something rather than nothing, even if that something is just friends. you still have him in your life and that’s the best you can do for now. or ever. i know how much it can hurt to have someone you want so bad but they’re just out of touch— sometimes you can make it happen, and other times you can’t. there might come a day where you have to force yourself to leave the friendship but, it isn’t certain. there might come a day where you may have to tell him your feelings— especially since they’re so intense. you can only keep it in for so long yk??

i’m sorry if none of that made sense,,, i have a hard time putting my thoughts into words.

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danothan · 10 months

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YOU DIDNT ASK so im sorry in advance (especially because i wont be explaining this well) But. ill be so honest i dont think the t-shirt kon is bad in a vacuum like it could be cute 😭 i do think its genuinely kinda fun when the characters wear their own little merch. the t-shirt outfit is even kind of funny because hes literally just wearing a t-shirt and jeans 😭 i love kon no matter what!!

but in the context of the transition from young justice (the comic) and the gang "graduating" into the teen titans (vol.3) i feel like it was a regression for him. idk i read into kon and transness+being lgbt too much so ive seen interpretations of it being his internalized homo/transphobia because its also a time where he has a secret identity for the first time in small-town america... and i do enjoy that, but it was Not intended by the writes (especially considering who was writing him in the mid-late 2000s)

kon's character to start off is really about identity and the reclamation of it when he was intended to be a Thing, and how he struggled under the weight of acting like he thinks he should/expectations placed on him (especially because he did not have an alternate identity or a name at first, he was just superboy. THEN kon el and conner kent) and how he expresses himself by replacing a tag cadmus put on him with a gold earring and generally dressing in a flashy and flamboyant and alternative way

so then when we transition to the teen titans kon, they sort of......strip him of that expression of personality. hes put in a t-shirt and jeans. they take away his earring. hes put in a relationship w/ cassie sandsmark (who btw. is very wlw coded to match him in the YJ comic, and both of their designs suffered what we call the cishetifcation) that is ultimately so bad for their characters (meanwhile kon is written into the most gay coded friendship w/ tim drake for like. a decade.)

and the young justice cartoon is an adaptation that was attempting to take the teen titans run from the 80s i believe? and young justice 98-2003, AND the 00's teen titans run. (decades of story to work with and way too many characters and groups, leads the cartoon to, in my opinion, suffer from a too many cooks situation)

and it does not handle kons character very well at all either </3 AND they used the t-shirt design while sticking him in a very unhealthy relationship w/ a character hes never really interacted w/ much in the comics. so umm. TL;DR very mixed feelings on t-shirt conner

i do recommend reading young justice though <3 (AND IM GLAD YOU LIKE MY DESIGN !! tysm <333 the curly hair is a must <3) sorry for the essay i just wanted to expand on why i put the t-shirt boy in the "sigh" categories 😭

ah, when i said i liked t-shirt conner, i didn’t mean the outfit, i was specifically referring to the young justice cartoon’s characterization ^^; i do acknowledge that it was a mixed bag that was forced to cherrypick years of history as an adaptation, and i get why conner fans don’t see him as Their Conner, but i’m gonna be so real with you. i liked him a lot in the cartoon 😭 as a standalone show, the first season does a rly good job of letting you understand his struggles and thought process, there were a lot of moments that endeared me to his angst while also letting him still feel like a kid. but i think i’m also biased towards characters that default to anger as a trauma response (completely unrelated to recent events believe it or not! wacky coincidence tho! foreshadowing even…?)

conner and m’gann’s relationship was def not the most interesting to me, but it’s also not the worst one. i have other biases against. other couples. but i’m curious to see how it develops bc unhealthy or not, i wanna see how it affects the characters, ykwim? like i’m not in it for the shipping, even if we All know there’s a better conner ship U__U

idk i just feel worn out by comics cynicism bc while i get it (i’m a hal fan, by god do i get it), i also don’t want to treat anything in dc too sacred. it’s more fun for me personally to view new iterations/adaptations as puzzles to work out rather than view them as character assassinations if even that. there are some truly unsalvageable things out there, but i generally think there’s smth good to gain in everything. and the young justice cartoon gave me a t-shirt conner to gain in my heart, so i can’t fault his character change too much as drastic as it is

all of this to say tho: the alt look is obviously superior. NOTHING beats a cropped jacket <3

#danswers #long post #dc #yja #conner kent #the cadmus tag > earring symbolism did make my jaw drop tho i didn’t know abt That #anyway i hope i’m not sounding dismissive of your passion! i think it’s very justified and i admire your dedication to the character #i mean if *i* met someone who only knew hal from the dcamu i’d sure as hell feel a certain way abt it #but even then… dcamu hal is the sole reason i got back into dc #and i still reference some of his characterization and ideosyncracies from those movies!#idk i think i just prefer to see comics wholly as a character map #where there’s a target at the center that you can build and identify the in-character-ness #so instead of holding any era of comics as the single truth to compare everything else to #it’s just one of many truths #if that makes sense #tbh this is smth ive been thinking abt a Lot (literally talked to f0r abt this last night) so i’m just using this as a jumping off point #i appreciate the context tho! even if i like the yj cartoon as a standalone it’s still important to know the environment it was made in #oh but also. it’s an old old show for me idr the later seasons #so no spoilers for my rewatch pls ^__^#and obviously i’m coming from a non-conner reader pov so take this with a grain of salt

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yoh-nuh · 3 years

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I read on a post about how someone would like to see the ship chika x kazusa

and that unsettled me so much

I don't wanna say they're wrong, or that they should only ship the main characters

I honestly thought they'd (chika and kazusa) suit being siblings/best friends ig?

SPOILERS AHEAD

and the screen cap chosen to show what they meant was the one where chika stopped a man from assaulting her.

this one.

I mean, just because he saved her from assault doesn't mean it's romantic now. helping someone from getting assaulted isn't something to be romanticized.

and, I mean, kazusa did get a little blushy but that might probably be due to embarassment and the fact that this is the first time chika was supportive and nice to her, and it just feels nice getting that support sometimes. especially in times when all you want is to not be alone.

she also sincerely thanked him when they met during satowa's performance and that was it

(this was something she says really nervously, so the blush mostly was because of relief at finally getting it out? or maybe slight embarassment?)

they just seem more comfortable around each other, and a good friendship might blossom, that's it

and besides,

she is the happiest to know that satowa is happy and that chika is the one with satowa

the thought of him helping her was also included in how he'd make satowa happy, and I feel like that kinda shows that she really just has respect for him and not any sort of romantic feeling.

I do wanna see them talk a bit more, bc I feel like this is a nice friendship, but I dont really want this to become a love triangle sorta storyline

(I also feel that kazusa could be somewhat of a relationship advice person for him how hiro supports satowa

(also I want to see more scenes with kazusa and satowa actually having a conversation in which they're both interested. one where it actually feels like a friendship, not just kazusa obsessing over satowa, ykwim?)

#kono oto tomare!#chika kudou #houzuki satowa #chika x satowa #kazusa ootori #i said also too much #ok bye im done

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doodlebloo · 3 years

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your fics bring plenty of comfort they are so very cool and well done. anytime i have to describe the way you write to a friend i try to say its like canon but Better in the sense that its like. all of the moments you wouldnt witness on stream, seeing every character fully rounded out and the sort of friendships and communication between them that you never see in canon because everyone is a hot mess. genuinely SO good, and the way with wedding bells and ATYFIL that you like... none of the chapters feel like cliffhangers or like there's more to be expected and it sucks to not have it? its less like a means to an end and more just the continuous build through chapters that makes both fics feel whole even though they aren't technically finished yet. with fics for beeduo and clingyduo its so easy to feel like one of the characters is being based/included because of their relationship with the other, but they always feel whole the way you write them?? your beeduo fics are tubbo centric AND ranboo centric AND do every aspect of both characters AND their relationship justice, same for clingyduo. did NOT mean to turn this into an essay im so sorry i just love your writing </333

Anon this is literally one of the highest compliments I have ever received fr... Ok I'm sorry I started rambling in response but I'm putting it under a cut <3

Literally the thing I put the most effort into when writing is characterization, like I'll go back through after I'm done and tweak anything that doesn't feel quite right to me, but also! I kind of don't vibe with c!beeduo fics that like NEVER mention Tommy not even once yk. Like if it's a one shot Okay I Guess but Tommy is a big part of Tubbo's life and it feels weird that he would just like never think or talk about him even if they aren't on good terms when the fic takes place. Cmon guys that's his brother ykwim. It's good to hear that Im doing a decent job with Ranboo tho, I really don't feel like I do cranboo justice but I certainly do try :)

Also lol I don't really like ending on cliffhangers bcos I'd feel guilty if I didn't have the next chapter out for a while (that isn't to say that None of the chapters will ever end cliffhanger-ish but I try to avoid it?) It's fine when other ppl do it tho I don't mind that I just like it better for each chapter of both fics to feel sort of Self Contained, like if you really wanted to you could read Just that chapter and not feel like you're missing out yk? :)

Wedding Bells specifically is so cathartic tho I literally wrote it bc it's exactly what I would want to read if I was having a bad day or hating canon and just wanted to block it all out for a bit :) When I'm done w it I honestly might make another work set in that universe for just one shots that will sporadically update whenever I feel like it just bc I like writing for it so much lmao. It's just fun and sweet and I like it a lot and I'm glad you like it as well! <3

#wedding bells is my Amnesia fic #and by that i mean multiple times I have reread it and come upon a scene that i COMPLETELY forgot i wrote like fully did not remember #and its like oh cool i didnt even remember this bit existed ajdjwkdka #anon my beloved i will have new chs out for you as soon as i am able <3 #asks #anon #:)

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miaxeu · 4 years

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though the mist might prevent some from seeing it, MIA STOEGER is actually a descendent of DIONYSUS. it’s still a question of whether or not the TWENTY-ONE year old MYTHOLOGICAL STUDIES MAJOR from LOS ANGELES, USA has taken after HER godly parent completely, but the demigod is still known to be quite CHARISMATIC & DUPLICITOUS.

( y’all dont deserve this real messy intro but im workin w half a bwain cell at 4am so i beg thee 4 mercy. nywyy im the excited new girl who’s hella pumped to meet all ur charas : katya ! feel free to hop in my ims to plot or drop a like and i’ll hop in urs ! x )

POWERS

natural acting abilities — her ma’s a hollywoo agent so she started actin real early & now shes a big shot actress. there r more deetz on her career below !

chlorokinesis — it wasnt as natural as acting n she only started working on it when she turned 13 n started going to camps. b4 she just noticed shes good w plants but it wasnt super crazy or nything. its p good now tho ! shes prioritizing vine binding and manipulation 4 the self defense bc awards r cool n all but they dont rlly protecc from monsters ykwim

levitation — shes trying her best ur honor

alcokinesis — she cant conjure it or anything, she’s just immune to it ffff

BIO POINTS — cw: drug use ( full biography here )

her mom raised her by herself bc dionysus the party god was out of the picture immediately. she never told mia she’s a demigod & it was always just “ wow ur so talented ” or “ aww u got a green thumb ! ” but when she saw him claim 13 y/o mia by placing a weird hologram over her head while she slept, she knew she had to spill da beanz & tell her kid

ofc mia thought her mom was jus playing sum weird acting exercise w her bc her powers r so lowkey she could highkey just be a Mortal but insert sad whistle, the realizashun & the claiming meant heightened monster threat !! so yea ,,, one ended up chasing her a couple days later rip

aside from the trauma, mia was ok. mostly bc she ended up cryin for dionysus like any child would n lo & behold he came & helped !!! as he should. nywy she made sure to go to summer camps every year after that but mostly just for protection purposes

she lowkey rlly hates this whole god business esp now that shes grown lmfao deadass thinks she got a bad deal bc life threats arent sexy !!! went to eonia eventually bc its Too Much Man. she just wants to go back to work and her life w the mortals w/o worryin for her life. would deadass fade her father if she could. may or may not be majoring in greek mythology to figure out the logistics of it all out of spite, who knows !

PERSONALITY

not ! a Drama Queen — dont get me wrong, shes hella Extra in the way she moves n acts sorta like shes always bein captured on film. is quick-witted & playful & can be a huge tease/flirt if she feels like it, but miss her w Real Feelings ! totally not sentimental. srsly she will try to rationalize away everything and is just,.,., not good w it. so soz folks, we just keepin it breezy here

ugh, she’s an Actress — aka she can act like she cares tho ! shes very much into keeping ppl on her good side. shes friendly n palatable to everyone bc its how shes been trained & while it doesnt seem fake, its def diff when its genuine

The Mortifying Ordeal of Being Known — lemme circle back to the first one, ok so shes good w emotions but only in theory. does intense character work with her roles so she thinks that counts as her having eq when rlly shes just emotionally stunted, projecting n repressing like an idiot

blonde, skinny, rich, & a lil bit of a Bitch — shes only a bitch inwardly or to ppl she trusts enuff to let in on the gossip. if anyone full on opposes her or becomes real emotional, then this lil diva will rear its superiority complex head n snap a lil. will most probably do it v underhandedly n w a smile but it will be Brutal

girls just wanna have FUN ! — shes the child of da party god, so ofc she a true party girl. officially off the rails when she parties. inhibitions ? we dk her. can be insensitive in that case bc smtms its truly no strings attached, tis all abt the fun. likes company a lot & it doesnt even have 2 be loud or particularly abt her, she just likes having people around n the escapism of it all. will make friends with everyone n make sure they have a jolly fun time guaranteed at dionysus parties

Work Hard, Play Hard — real responsible when it comes to work and commitments and if she trusts/likes u enough, she’ll give it 2 u straight, no bs. def thinks Calling Out is an act of love but maybe does it a lil too harshly smtms. v much into efficiency, sentiments be damned. not the feely words type. will sit next to u or party w u or even pay 4 ur therapist if u need sum1 to talk to. she will Be There while u work thru it, so long as u dont expect her to change n be all emotional n stuff

if she seems a lil contradictory thats bc she kinda is. tis the good ol nurture vs nature. her ma’s a real no nonsense chick n her pops is a frat guy drama geek greek god whos rlly into cottagecore so u get this lil blonde bitch whos sorta teetering on the edges

OTHER INFO — cw: drug use ( full headcanons here )

re her career, she achieved pegot status when she was 18 aka she truly b dat bitch. shes not super mainstream famous tho, more like indie sweetheart, film snobs/critics fave typa gal. if ya want a trajectory she started w baby commercials then a sitcom from 4-10 ( think modern fam’s lily ) then it was off to the big screen & the stage !

mia has a lil bit of a drug habit. its not abusive or dependent, but it is a staple whenever shes parties bc alcohol is useless 2 her. started a lil young too bc hollywoo. primarily uppers/hallucinogens. she smokes weed a lil more liberally but the rest is mostly just an on occasion thing ( which, ngl, is a still a lil problematic when u party a lot rip )

after she got claimed, mia ended up going to demigod camps in a lot of diff places n countries, depending on where production would take her. there was never an established place, more like wherever was nearest when they wrapped up shooting bc monsters afoot n wutnot

she was always homeschooled but she still managed to go to a prom and homecoming bc party is life. that makes eonia uni p much her first chance at having a normal educational environment & experience and even then its anything but. still tho this is her moment !!! im lit rally begging her to get a personality that isnt her internally rolling her eyes going “ its not that deep ”

might put up a bio/stats page if im feelin sxc but i wud jus like the records to show that mia stoeger is a bi sxc babe bc me ? write a het ? no grassy ass.

POSSIBLE CONNECTIONS — cw: drug use ( full connections here )

omg danny devito i love ur work !

,,, p self explanatory sdkjfs sum1 who loves her work ! it can be lowkey/highkey fangirl to a civil admiration

OR alternatively, y/m can Not Be a fan of her work. they might think the storyline of the projects she takes on r too out of touch n highbrow yada yada yada, but yes, we love to see either of it !

summer camp sweetheart !

someone she met when at camp when they were teens ? doesnt matter in what country/city, but mia was only visiting so it was truly a one summer romance typa thing. bc she was younger, im thinkin 13-17 or w/e she was probably sweeter n a lot more emotional then. was it either’s first puppy love ? first kiss ? first “ relationship ? ” idk, do yk ? truly, so many possibilities. nothin set in stone just hmu bub

summer camp pals !

p much the same as above but make it Platonic

party buddies !

or druggie pals. either way works but she wud luv it if theyre both xoxo

friends w benefits !

most probably ( but not limited to ) sum1 she met at a party skdjhsjk is it exclusive ? is any1 starting to develop feelings ? im down 4 nthing n evrything

alexa play true friend by hannah montana !

give mia her college bestie ! her confidant who knows her feels and can call each other out viciously with no ounce of resentment. we stan the friendships !

omg i love ur skirt !

that is the ugliest effing skirt i've ever seen. lmao basically sum1 mia pretends to like or acts civil w but rlly ,,,, Cannot Stand for w/e rzn

im p much braindead rn but those are just sum ideas !!! ofc the usual staples like the pals, enemies, wutnots are also v welcome we love to see it. if u also have a wc that u think mia would fit in, id luv to know more ! there are also a couple more detailed ones here, but pls feel free to shoot me a msg n we can get 2 plotting x

( * wipes brow * how did i type so much n say so little rip. mia is also a completely new muse so pls b patient n if i fuq up from time to time, pretend u do not see >.< nywy thnx 4 readin, sweets ! feel free to hmu here or at discord if ya wanna <3333 )

FULL INFO || EONIA TASKS

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multsicorn · 7 years

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KENT PARSON

LOLZ it’s like you know me

this is so long it’s under a cut

character: hate them | don’t really care | like them | LOVE them | THEY ARE MY PRECIOUS

ship with: EVERYONE. literally everyone. … okay to break this down:

* Jack/Parse is the main thing I write about and think about and have feelings about. however they are generally pretty sad-trending feelings. so what does ‘ship’ mean.

* Parse/OC(s) is the thing I actually WANT TO HAPPEN for him, it’s the happy place future I go to when I go that far in my mind; not to get back with Jack, with or without Bitty, but to get the FUCK OVER those wounds, that hook, finally.

* (I have a tendency to go for Parse/Swoops, specifically, cause I’d like the ‘falling for a teammate’ story to work out *well,* and, um, cause there’s a specific set of tags that I started keying that off of that I should go find again - it was on a post about ace Kent Parson, something like #he wants to be someone’s everything #in a very specific way, and. idk. it makes a compelling story-seed, for me.)

* Parse/THERAPY is also an extremely necessary thing that I’m not likely to write but I dearly hope happens someday

* PB&J/Pimbits/whatever it’s called is my favorite sort of shippy story, I think; there’s lots of Parse/OC fics that are JUST AS GOOD, but… the overlaying of multiple love triangles, and then synthesizing them into a working system, that happens in the Jack/Bitty/Parse fics that work with the setup there (rather than skipping forwards into ‘when they’re all happy together’)… gets my #feelings well enough that it dragged me into this fandom!…. specifically, I started reading first check, please! fic and then eventually the comic because touchy subject and ain’t licked yet are not only so fucking good but hit my id SO PERFECTLY. Everyone having feelings about everyone else’s relationships. Such wonderful emotional ~density!

* Patater is the only popular Parse ship I’m like… why. (I do buy des-zimbits’ ship manifesto about how they could be good together; but, c’mon, that’s not why, the reason why is cause Tater is the next-most-fleshed-out NHL character who isn’t Jack, and isn’t already fairly strongly paired with someone else, and can therefore be paired with Kent without disrupting any existing popular ships.) Basically I’ve read some good ones, but most of it seems to be the exact sort of fluff that is why I mostly don’t read Zimbits fic and mostly do read Parse fic! (And that’s before even getting into #little Russian things that throw me out of the story.)

* But really, just, anyone; I read the Parse character tag on AO3 so I won’t miss the gen fics or the random crack ships, cause sometimes they’re good! (I think this is what it’s like to be way more OTC than OTP.)

friendship them with: JACK jack jack jack jack.

Also Bitty that could be so interesting, I want to see them navigating a friendship around their separate feelings/history/etc. wrt Jack, I want to see that #blessyourheart and Parse’s probable answering antagonism (or simply antagonism born out of jealousy) morph slowly into something that’s somehow an actual friendship, that can be really interesting! And fun! And I love to see them being petty together, lol; I also love to see them commiserating over why is Jack Zimmermann such a dick, depending on circumstances. (… I suppose those two can be one at the same.)

So yeah, that’s fun, but Jack and Kent getting back to a place where they can be friends with each other? Where Jack’s not like ‘um Parson *abort* *ignore ignore*’ and Kent’s not tearing Jack into shreds at being rejected and they can have conversations and maybe some of those mutual apologies alluded to in Shinny and maybe ~closure,~ even? For the way ‘it just ended’? The idea of after years of wounds getting to put to rest the bad parts (cause I suspect their relationship was A Mess) and get back the good parts of one of your old best friendships again? It makes me more #emotional dammit than anything else about this comic.

(the lines I’ve been thinking about here, lately:i said i’d never miss you but i guess you never knowmay the bridges i have burned light my way back homeon the fourth of july~)

there’s something i can’t seem to reduce or explain any further about ‘may the bridges i have burned light my way back home’ that just GETS TO ME.

general opinions: SO MANY.

I love him. I mean, obviously. If one takes a look at my blog.

But, interestingly, I’m not quite sure why I don’t read him as abusive. (If anyone from Glee fandom remembers the way I was about Sebastian…!) Some of the things he says to Jack in Parse III - ‘you think you’re too fucked up to care about? That you’re not good enough? Everyone already knows what you are, but it’s people like me who still care’ - and ‘you’re scared everyone else is going to find out you’re worthless, right? Oh, don’t worry, just give it a few seasons, Jack, trust me’ - are ABSO-FUCKIN-LUTELY red flags, and I’ll throw down with anyone who says they aren’t. (I mean. I hate confrontation, so I probably won’t? but in theory.) Likewise, coming to Samwell/the Haus in the first place when he seems to know that Jack wouldn’t want to see him if he had a choice about it… is also an awful thing to do, if possibly understandable depending how you write the backstory and decision-making or lack thereof, but also a red flag!!!

I mean, basically, you can read ‘Parse III’ as literally one of the worst nights of his life, and when he’s behaving the worst, as something that’s not much of a pattern and so you shouldn’t judge him on it too harshly; or you can read it as HE IS SOMEONE WHO BEHAVES LIKE THIS, abort abort get away. I find trying to take what we see and still make someone sympathetic to be a much more interesting story, basically, and the bones of a very compelling one; but in my experience with other characters in other media who have triggered my own pattern matching to be ‘abort abort get away,’ I have utter sympathy and understanding for everyone who has him blacklisted to hell and back, and I’m actually still not sure why I don’t myself! (of course if I had reacted that way I wouldn’t be in this fandom at all, so I wouldn’t have much need to blacklist him… but ykwim.)

SO OKAY HM WHAT ELSE, cause if I’m listing all of my opinions on Kent Parson I could literally be here all night.

* ‘He never got over it’ may sound cruel but it just so happens to be the truest thing. Kent’s not really still in love with Jack (though I’m sure he was when they were both 18); he doesn’t really know him, hasn’t really seen or talked to him in seven-ish years, now. In which they’ve both changed. But Kent’s in all that time never managed a relationship with anyone else (… probably); never managed to reorient himself sufficiently away from the horrific failure that losing Jack in the particular way he did was. He never got over it isn’t just your stupid ass, Zimmermann, you’re not that great!, it’s the wound of finding your best friend and lover dying on the bathroom floor (or hearing about it later secondhand, that’s great too), it’s the wound of him not wanting to talk to you or hear what you have to say afterwards. How the fuck would you get over something like that.

* (so, I mean, that’s why I love Kent. His STORY is so much more INTERESTING than zimbits’ romcom or the smh team shenanigans; or, well, okay, it’s objectively a different flavor of emotions at least. And the higher drama and angst quotients there are infinitely more interesting to me.)

* I think he’s a good captain for the Aces, actually. I think he enjoys parties, getting to interact with lots of people, loves attention and flirting, etc. - and dancing/dance music too! - but I don’t think he’s ~partied~ in a problematic way since maybe his first year on the team. (Or if he has, it’s in a few isolated incidents.) He’s generally responsible trying to look out for his rookies and his teammates in trouble.

* AND OF COURSE HIS CAT, who is the love and light of his life, and also more popular on the internet than he is. There are tons of people who recognize Kit Purrson from her photos but have no idea who Kent is. He loves it, I’m sure. =^.^=.

* He is, however, really bad at controlling his own emotions. (Or should I say, himself.) It’s fine when this results in impulsive spending, cause he’s a multi-millionaire, it’s fine when this results in being ridiculous or gushing at people, and he IS actually able to keep secrets, though this would probably surprise most of the people who know him but not that well. (he’s not out yet, so.) But he says REALLY MEAN AND UNFAIR things to people he cares about when he feels rejected/abandoned (… I’m sure that time in Parse III is not the only time), so, that’s a problem, he knows it gets him into trouble, and I don’t think he’ll learn how to not until, um, THERAPY ~*~.

* HE IS SUCH AN ATTENTION WHORE THO. Also great at being ~charming. (see, e.g., the accountant sketch, as well as the epikegster) - and pretty genuine with it! He LIKES people!

* He is also a FUCKING MESS - possibly not in the #adulting sense, maybe he can feed himself, who knows, but, emotionally - I think he both longs for connection with people, and fears it going south, cause, well. The last guy he was in love with almost died (almost killed himself? I bet you couldn’t tell from the outside!) and then stopped talking to him. And very possibly also for reasons predating that incident, too. Cause if Kent had the sort of relationships he wants to have with people IN LAS VEGAS, then he wouldn’t have crashed the epikegster in the first place. So: lonely, and dealing with it poorly, no matter how well he’s doing otherwise. But not sad all the time. I think that’s all of the important things?

* (I’m not sure where the line between ‘opinions’ and ‘headcanons’ lies, so, yeah, I’m gonna cut myself off here. Maybe I’ll write ‘my list of random Parse headcanons’ next! Or maybe not, who knows. But I would LIKE to. Everyone wants to know how I imagine his sexuality, his family, etc., I’m sure; well okay, I want to write about it, anyway! Not only waiting till the times I’ve finished a fic!)

#camilliar #meme #omgcheckplease stuff #kent parson #hockey draco #anyone send me more characters if you'd like i love to go on and on #pimms #pimbits #tagging for bls etc

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what is stakh's view on peter and their relationship? what does he associate peter with? how does he deal and view his monologues about the wenches and the daemons and his internal emotional turmoil?

there are chances i've already said something of the sort in the peterstakh lore tag + also kinda here + also i've written a fic about them meeting and hanging out but i love to talk about it regardless + i carry the lore on my shoulders like atlas does the sky so see

what is stakh's view on peter and their relationship?

he loves it/him, otherwise he'd leave. mostly it's that. for a while he sees peter as. This Weirdo. and by all means it does not dissipate as he comes to know him better, but he's Weird in a way that's almost endearing (to rubin at least). he's passionate and impassioned and dramatic but all of these things make sense for him, to him. peter's the One Guy who he has no previous attachment to, who he didn't grow up with, who he didn't meet in the army, so there's this feeling of... what he sees is what he gets. peter cannot know him "how he was before", because he didn't know him before; there is no frame of reference, a "better him" to compare him to. the broken, mad, grieving rubin peter gets is all there is; for now. & vice-versa: peter is, at first, a stranger to rubin, and he has to learn to live with his quirks if he wants to keep the bond steady. their friendship starts as a meeting of two people who are Going Through It and who find in the other someone who is Going Through It in different ways. they're mirrors of each other, at first. it feels better being alone with someone who's alone with you. alone together.

what does he associate peter with?

in some maybe twisted way, comfort. Rubin's life is kinda real sucky at the moment (& it has been sucky for a while): he just got back from war (p1 canon) having had a close brush with death, lost his mentor & father figure & has to deal with the fact that said mentor/father figure gave the heritage to his cringe fail son who spent 10/6 years away while rubin the whole time was working his ass off to prove himself worthy, he struggles with his place in the Kin etc... like he's not having a very good time ykwim. so he associates peter with the comfort of 1) in a... maybe twisted way, being in the company of a guy who has like. Way Weirder Things Going On and of 2) being able to talk openly about his problems in ways he wouldn't be able to with Burakh (because he's actively fighting him for the heritage/recognition in Isidor's eyes) or with Lara of Grief (because it feels like driving a wedge in their friendship(s)). for a while, peter is a friendly (if weird) stranger Rubin feels inexplicably drawn to because he feels like he can learn from the way he copes with things + feels like he can tell him things he wouldn't anyone else + peter is kinda Magnetic in his own, kinda wet and soppy way. comfort, and a weird sense of familiarity because they're two people Going Through It in different ways. they're both kinda... hollow where the other is pointy, and pointy where the other is hollow, so when they sit side by side they seems to fit.

how does he deal and view his monologues about the wenches and the daemons and his internal emotional turmoil?

rubin is very pragmatic at first about them he's like. oh this guy has psychiatric problems. which is very much true. oh this guy has the brain eaten by alcohol and illness and guilt. all very true. then the more they talk the more rubin realizes there's something Else, something that transcends (nbc hannibal voice) Mental Illness and borders on the supernatural. rubin listens to him and his monologues and he comes to know that peter has a very chaotic inner life, and he finds it... for a lack of better word, fascinating. he's eaten and bitten and torn by Passions that rubin doesn't have. everything feels kinda flat and grey to him. and peter... for the better or worse, puts a lil color in his life. he comes to want to help him because peter, by his very like. Presence of being a guy who's Weirder. helps him. it feels good to talk about peter of what's eating them inside, and for Rubin it's very Grounded shit, and for Peter it's completely fantasque stuff, and they both kinda.. bounce off each other like that. peter nods and hums and pushes him to talk & he nods & hums & pushes peter to talk. it goes from "you're kinda weird weird buddy" to "you're kinda weird i understand baby. i didn't say that". peter's very theatrical and passionate recallings of his Problems and Issues make rubin feel safe in sharing his as well + he realizes very soon because is not Just that impassioned in Bad Feelings but also. like in general. as they kinda grow to stabilize each other, rubin gets to see he's impassioned talking about a/Art and history. and love... at their core they're just two guys who Really Need To Talk About Their Problems, and in the beginning they're that for each other, they're that for a while before they realize they like each other's company regardless of what they talk about (once they've come to know each other, they talk about a lot of other stuff than their own selves, and it's really here that the Twirls Hair Coyly begins)

tldr: him and the weird guy he pulled by being weirder

#peterstakh lore #peterstakh #ring ring (answers)#anonymous

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