#i am simply. sad

[the-faultofdaedalus]

Wait, WAS Tony even trying to make Iron Man anything like him? Like yes in the “the best parts of me are in Iron Man” kinda way, but he’s so focused on making him GOOD, would he even expected for there to be any identity crisis' from either the Robot or his friends? His friends who feel like they know Iron Man somehow? Like, we know can make (when he has the tech) basically a 1:1 version of himself he makes an alcoholic and everything, but that wasn’t the goal here but he left some of his soul behind

Like how sometimes a writer or artists pours so much of their heart and soul into a work and people see it and are like, oh it’s you! And no, the poem/painting/character/song is not about/is them, it’s a universal thing! But no it's them oops. Like the artist thinks, no I would know if it’s a self portrait, but the face you know best is usually your own and oops you gave every character your own nose.

i think he was intending for iron man to be like... enough of him to continue doing his work. like building things. to keep the suit in repair, to keep upgrading it. i think he'd want him to be close to him, just so that he knows that like... iron man is going to have the same drive to keep being iron man that tony did.

i also think that like, you need to start from something, and the something he has on hand is... himself.

i dont think a lot of it is intentional, in that i do not think tony would've made the AI exactly like him, or tried to make it too much like him (see: not putting in the alcoholism like he does when he is Just making an AI of himself) i think he can't help but put in enough of his own values that... it does turn out like him. he's the one making it. of course it turns out like him.

i think.... honestly i think a lot of the consequences that the AI faces due to being what he is are things that tony just. did not have the time or bandwidth to consider. he was dying. he did die. he had the time to make sure that the thing he considered most important could continue on.

but yeah!!! there is definitely Something his friends notice, about him being similar to tony. i don't think it ever crosses their minds that, like, they're the same person (kind of, again, not really) because, like, iron man was at tony's funeral. but there is this kind of quite... awkwardness. about this man who maybe knew their friend better than they ever did. who knows things about him that no one else does.

and yeah!!! there are issues about it, but it isn't like tony intended any of it. which is almost worst, in a way. there isn't anyone to blame. it's no one's fault. no one intended for this ai to turn out like how he did. the way he is isn't anyone's fault.

it's just how he is.

#i am simply. sad #i love him love him LOVE this funky lil robot lad #especially if like. everyone just assumes that like... iron man was with tony in captivity and knows what happened there #that they both saved eachother #in a way. they're right. just not in the way they think #it's just.... knowing that pieces of their friend's life only exist in memory. of a man they don't really know. #and also like. just... outside of the iron man thing #tony's death IS so tragic. because it's so early in canon. he's so *young* #he was so bright. he was so brilliant. he had just *survived* the most awful thing in his life #and then he was just. gone. #nothing anyone could've done. #just. dead. dead in his home. collapsed trying to call for help. #with his body guard and friend preforming CPR on his corpse #right up until the paramedics show up. #and its like. god but tony's story only starts with iron man #there's so many gaps between his life before and his life after that #and like. i think he only ever meets rhodey immiedietly after vietnam #AS iron man! #pepper and happy and jarvis are likely the ones who mourn him the most! and then rhodey and then... well who else even knew him? #who else but iron man? #who else but his own ghost? #AIron man au

[vaguely-concerned]

when obi-wan said 'I won't kill anakin' and then spent the entire rest of his life following through on that. fuck everyone else obi-wan I respect you yoda should've taken you at your fucking word

'boohoo why did he walk away and not kill anakin this time either even with all the suffering he'll go on to cause if he lets him go' he's told you why very clearly you just didn't believe him I guess!! desperately not killing anakin is obi-wan's main export. it's his universal constant, his life's work, his magnum opus. he gets creative about not killing that guy. he tries to send anakin's teenage twink son to do the job for him because he simply can't. he fucking... peaces out and dies to avoid killing anakin. that's like his whole deal. whether he's right to be like this is another entirely separate conversation but it is what he is

#also it's a prequel and I think we would have noticed if obi-wan killed vader before luke even met him lol #star wars #obi wan kenobi #if anything it's a thrill to me that he had the chance again and. didn't do it. like I said universal constant #'What if I simply. didn't'. and then he didn't. and was sad about it forever. it's the good stuff #this is entirely performative indignation btw I am not vagueblogging at anyone I'm just waxing histrionic for fun lol

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Lan Wangji Goes To Lotus Pier AU: Part 5: Flip Slip.

(Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4, Part 4.5)

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #mdzs au #Yungmang Jiang Training Arc AU #lan wangji #wei wuxian #digital art #Trying out some digital techniques to see if I can get closer to feel/style of my traditional comics. #So far the biggest difference is *colouring* Digital colouring feels...not good. I have complained about this before and I'll complain agai #Before we get into the sad stuff with Yungmeng Jiang in the PD-MDZS comics lets have some lighthearted fun! #Remember that if anything bad happens to these Jiang disciples in the canon comic - they are happy in this AU B'*) #I think one of the funniest things about the teenxian dynamic is how WWX accidently finds things that get LWJ to feel flustered. #My guy wwx goes 'I'm going to lightly bully/tease this nerd 'cause his reactions are funny.' and LWJ goes “My god. He's everything to me.” #Part two of the fun part of this dynamic is that LWJ is ever so lightly self aware enough to LOATHE THIS CRUSH. #Hence why I have been marinating on this 'Accidental Lan headband miscommunication' concept. #This is how LWJ assumes that WWX knows what the band means in this AU. This will be relevant later. #And YES! I am still going to be making comics for this AU. I have so many ideas I simply can't hold onto forever.

[yourwagonisaflame]

ted and paul genuinely have the funniest relationship in all of hatchetfield. ted considers paul his best friend and paul just does not like ted. hilarious

#its a little sad too but im ignoring the implications #i am choosing simply to not think about them <3 #idk why its so funny to me. like bitch thats ur best friend!? he cant stand ur ass #ted spankoffski #paul matthews #starkid #hatchetfield #tgwdlm

[saint-end]

"Yulia is the keeper of the hooks I may use to take hold of Eva’s soul."

#yulia lyuricheva #art #fanart #pathologic #digital art #i simply do not have the words to express just how much i love yulia she is just soooooo everything #i am so sad you never really meet her in artemys route in classic #i want to write her the most down bad melancholic love letters (and get rejected over and over)

[stickylizardcave]

I'm well aware that I'm probably alone on this hill but this is basically my ideal dynamic for them. Sorry not sorry lmaoooo

#goldenheart #ballister x ambrosius #ballister boldheart #ambrosius goldenloin #nimona 2023 #nimona #alors art #suggestive #literally everyone else sees Bal as the perma-bottom and i am so so sad bc they were both so switch-coded to me </3 #and I KNOW that if A/B/O gets popular enough that its gonna be omega Bal all the time every time #so i will stake myself on the alpha Bal hill and simply perish here by myself rip me #(also yes im well aware of the omega Am fic thats on ao3 rn i am kissing it so deeply you have no idea)

[bobmckenzie]

women selfshippers who aren't stereotypically feminine, whether in physical features or personality or anything, your f/o loves you just the way you are 💚 you are their ideal woman ! :)

#posts ive been meaning to make for months LOL #reminded bc my friend just said my hands look masculine LOL... SORRY FOR BEING A SHORT BARE NAIL ENJOYER I GUESS!! #made me laugh but also a bit sad sdkjflsjkfd like. is it not feminine enough to simply exist as a woman? #ive been trying to stop thinking like 'my f/o would like me in spite of the way i dress/my body type/the way i carry myself/etc' #bc they love me FOR all that stuff!! they love me BC I AM ME!! #selfship positivity #self ship #selfship #selfship community #f/o community #caitiechat

[sporeclan]

how do you handle genetics if you do at all in your art

Great question! I'm actually quite the cats genetics nerd and typically when I design my own cat ocs, I go for accurate, realistic genetics. Genetics in ClanGen don't _quiiite_ work that way though, and since I like staying pretty close to the in game sprite's patterns, I'm forced to do the genetics for SporeClan with body/fur shape only.

Since we don't have any SporeClan cats with two in game generated parents as of yet, I made a brand new clan and picked a family from there! I usually try to take a mix of traits from both parents, or go somewhere in between. These two parents here are pretty different, so combined with their already wildly different coat patterns, the siblings look pretty different from eachother. I hope you can still see what I'm trying to portray, though!

One of my FAVOURITE things to do when designing families is giving some of them a unique trait, like the fully pink nose Aphidpeak has passed on to Bubblingspeck, or the full back stripe that both Softrock and Jellyfishfeather inherited from Cypressplume. Also, when cats have parents that are agouti(ticked)/bengal but doesn't inherit the pattern, I still like to include things like the dark feet. I also do this sometimes with white spotting, such as the rings on Softrock's tail.

LASTLY, I do sometimes mess with how I portray the patterning.

Usually when I draw most patterns, I'll draw their underbelly colours with my regular brush, giving them harder lines. But with Softrock, I opted to airbrush in her lighter underbelly, a thing I usually only do with agouti cats, as a nod to her parents. I'll also often mess with just how much the lighter colour goes up (for example, Mousegrove and all her kits have a high amount of the lighter colour, while Dawnpelt and Minklake have barely any)

Anyways, I think that's all.... it's all I can come up with for now, at least :') Hope my ramblings are at least somewhat coherent!

#you all have no idea how much i wanted to instantly burst into tears when i saw jellyfishfeather for the first time #looks EXACTLY like one of my irl cats <3<3<3<3<3 #got extremely attached to him so i want everyone to know he turned out to be transmasc and also became jellyfishstar <3<3<3 #chitchat #ask #i had another family and then a kit from this and that one had kits and i wanted to draw them all for Ultimate Examples Gallore #but i am simply too busy right now to do that :[ sad....... #i will do it if theres any interest though

[larapaulussen]

#gif #why do I have to spend every christmas and every birthday alone #for what am I being punished #I am a good person #and I don’t think this suffering has any sense #it’s just that in life the happy people have good things coming their way #and the sad people always just get more trauma #I know I could have a relationship if I didn’t have such a traumatic childhood #my trauma lets me reject the good guys and waste my time with the aholes #but i don’t know what to do about it #every nice guy I met absolutely wasn’t attractive to me #and we also didn’t have anything in common #so I’m not even regretting rejecting them cause it wouldn’t have worked out #and they deserve someone who actually fancies them #i just wonder why I never met a nice guy that I have common interests with #or who matched my preferences lookwise #it really feels like I’m simply not allowed to ever meet the right person #and gotten to the point where I swipe for hours have a lot of matches and then ghost everyone #as I just know it either will be someone nice but not attractive to me or an ahole #I just don’t have any energy left anymore #I just want to experience love so bad but can’t do these dates anymore #I’m so so tired

[notbecauseofvictories]

today I discovered that this amazing article about a doomed attempt to create a seafaring haven for bitcoin miners, is by the same journalist as this other article I love about people so wealthy they go to therapy about it, and now I absolutely want to know how Sophie Elmhirst finds these people.

#if twitter goes down I am going to be so sad to lose all the great journalists I follow #I simply need to know all the ways being wealthy gives you brainpoisoning!!! #for uh. research. and definitely not gleeful rubbernecking. #celestial emporium of benevolent knowledge

[papa-evershed]

TOP FIVE FAVORITE RJC CHARACTERS as voted for by fandom in the RJC birthday poll

» Happy 47th Birthday to Robert James-Collier «

#robert james-collier #rob james-collier #robert james collier #rob james collier #mine #thomas barrow #martin evershed #saul silva #hutch hutchbert #alex #yes i'm simply posting the poll results in place of a proper birthday gifset 😬 #happy birthday 🎈🎈🎈 #am I a little sad we didn't get to include daniel watson on the poll options? yes #am I also sad Kevin didn't make the cut? also yes #but it's still a very good list so can't complain #here's hoping the universe rains down nothing but the very best it has to offer onto his precious little head today 🍻

[ghostlydeanbailiffcloud]

The live with Etoile really reminded me how much they know each other.

Pierre and etoiles have known each other for yearsss and that appears in all the conversation they had with each other in the server like when they would reminisce the past, talk about past friends and things they did together ( the fact that etoiles often asks pierre about things in private about minecraft or not) they have a relationship of trust, they know how the other will react because of everything they went through already.

All in all I feel like their friendship is often overlooked which pains me a little because in my own little headcannon world, I saw them as like older figure/prof and in some way student because pierre factually and in qsmp cannon continues to teach etoiles little things here and there about the mods or things like that even though etoiles is very independent and likes to make progress on his own and strives to get better he still always goes back to pierre to discuss or for help, for him to teach him new stuff ( like when etoiles asked pierre to teach him create), they also make each other's gifts like stuff or when pierre gifts farms to etoiles. Etoiles knows he can say anything to pierre, that he can ask him anything, that they are always available for each other and we saw it happens so many times already.

(I see people talking about etoiles link to philza in the way I see his link with pierre when I clearly feel that Etoiles and Phil are simply people that can connect over past experiences and trauma)

Their minds work alike and I know their two characters are very morally neutral and will accept a lot of stuff ( like they already did by the way) coming from the other, we could see their complicity in the prison and I was so excited for people to see them as a "them" but not at all I mostly see people talking about things they did together as if there was only etoiles... so obviously when Etoiles said he was pushing pierre to come on qsmp v2 and said he would give him stuff or when he said he would spend a day with him I foolishly thought that the new viewers will finally see their friendship for what it is.... let me tell you how disheartened I felt when I could not find a tweet or tumbler post talking about them, so yeah, I'm sad bros

( I know that it's probably because people dislike pierre so they just erase his existence when posting but I feel particularly bad when people give all the credit of some ideas to etoiles when it was pierre that gave them to him (it used to happen a while ago a lot not something that recent) don't be a hypocrite, just don't say anything if you're gonna overlook the one he had the idea with please its just disrespectful ( it's not etoiles fault, he always brings up pierre this is mostly addressed at the pierre haters))

#please #i beg on my knees #was there an account posting about it and i simply didnt see it or i am doomed #like did i somehow miss the posts or.. #anyways #i want people to see them for what they are #that is mentally unstable cubitos that found a form of unstable stability in each other #im sad when i see people overlooking the bond that pierre and etoiles have in game and irl #qsmp #qsmp aypierre #aypierre #qsmp etoiles #i wrote that in one go so my ideas might be wonky sorry #might have to take this down and rewrite it once my braincells start working #the typos man theyre everywhere its crazy

[forestofsprites]

to attempt to categorize aziraphale & crowley's actions into the simple dichotomies of 'correct' and 'wrong' or 'good' and 'bad' is to employ the exact same fallacy that the show warns of. throughout season two we see aziraphale struggle with morals and their ambiguity, no matter crowley's assertion (and demonstration) that there is no true 'good', no true 'evil'- that the lines are not only blurred but frankly non-existent- aziraphale can't move past the principles he was raised on. good actions are good (inherent to angels, inherent to heaven), evil actions are evil (inherent to demons, inherent to hell). aziraphale's decision to try to 'fix' heaven is the perfect representation of the reality of the universe. he believes it to be a simply good decision, something angels do and heaven is all about (he'll get heaven back to normal! back to being good!) but the reality of his decision is so much murkier than that. it isn't that aziraphale did something bad or evil, nor is it that he did something correct or good, he did something that, like many things in the universe, embodies both.

#i haven't done meta in a year guys i am so sad and rusty #i just mean that #you can't define the show that seeks to reject the good/evil fallacy by employing that fallacy to denote their actions #i mean absolutely aziraphale thinks he is being good. he made that choice in the faith that it was a good one. something inherent to him #as an angel #but that decision was never so clear cut. there was no right or wrong within it. he was given a choice and he chose it #it's not going to achieve what he thinks it will. it isn't the path to his happiness #and i definitely think crowley is closer to that path in terms of understanding the reality of heaven and hell- good vs evil #but neither are simply right or wrong #neither is a simply good or simply bad option #the whole point is an 'us' #a middle ground #an understanding that choices and actions are not good or bad or wrong or right. they're just choices. they're inherently made with a bit #of both #good omens #good omens s2 #good omens season two #good omens spoilers #rambling #that tag hasn't been used in sooo long #good omens meta #good omens rambling

[nerevar-quote-and-star]

Dangerously close to plotting a real Skyrim/Lord of the Rings crossover for after Keeping Count because my secret desire for Leara/Glorfindel has reared its head again

Shhh Don't question it.

#look look now i must explain #the explanation is that leara simply works well with literally every male character I like at least for the most part #anyway #it'd be funny #i wish i could write a leara/astarion fic but i do NOT understand d&d at all alas #I understand lotr/silm on a crazy level so i guess sunshine hero elf it is #this is fine actually #actually what i really need to do is edit and finish my funny Skyrim/hobbit crack fic but that's a ten year old project #no really #I do NOT KNOW i am just having thoughts and i'm sharing them on my blog because it's mine and I can #also i was in the glorfindel/ofc tag on ao3 like five minutes ago and it looks empty and sad #so Leara can fix it #one day there will be more leara ships than there are for hermione granger jk maybe #i should make a list #I am talking out of my hair it is unlikely that i'll ever do anything the fact that keeping count even exists is a bloody miracle #mod post #oc: leara roseblade

[socialc1imb]

The urge to open asks again so i can do ffau and jash asks versus people are so so unkind in my asks

#i have none mental stability atm to simply ignore it unfortunately #which is what i would normally do #however i am The Big Sad. if you know what i mean #and everything eats away at me. #agonies. #but i miss silly asks too :((

[midnight-moth]

Mushy May will heal ghumblr. I know it will. I believe in it. I’m manifesting it.

#raindrop month was so… disappointing #and it’s maybe a little my fault #but not entirely #I get it everyone is busy #I’m a little sad about it though #I am just so confused as to how fandoms for shows that were done like a decade ago are going strong #but we all fall apart while waiting for the next album #I would like to say I’ll just hop skip jump to something more active #but I simply do not want to #how the fuck would I deal with all that canon lore anyway #making it all up is what’s fun #some of you are keeping ghumblr alive daily with chest compressions and epi #using the defibrillator and doing mouth to mouth #no body call it tho it’s not dead yet or something