#her mom started dating my uncle when we were like 10

[be-the-glenn-to-my-maggie]

The time thing is actually something I'm glad you mentioned in your response because I've been puzzling over it myself. I can see this happening one of three ways so far: 1) the RDA have been there for longer than in canon and Grace and them ended up arriving at a later time. 2) the meshing is less organic and more purposeful. After gaining their independence they still want to keep parts of their culture but want to sort of move away from the more traditional stories told by their creators/captors, so they mesh the stories and songs on purpose to make something uniquely theirs.

Or 3) since they are just experimental versions of the recoms, it makes sense that the RDA scientists might have needed time to perfect the memory transfer, especially since around two-thirds of their test subjects are from the people who volunteered their memories way back when the science of memory transfer was just becoming a thing as to not waste more valuable memories. Therefore a lot of their memories are often muddled, and those who can remember fully are few and far between. I imagine that if this was the reason I chose it would also give me a reason as to why Paz went up so high in the rankings: she's one of the last to be made, therefor all of her memories are intact. With the knowledge she knows, it's no wonder she became the Priestess of Songs. Plus, she knows far more about the RDA than the others because of how long she was with them, which could be another part of that.

Hmm, very interesting!! I think any version could be very cool. I think it seems like you have the most fleshed out about the last one. I kind of like the idea of them all being somewhat defective memory-wise.

My best friend suffered a brain injury while we were growing up, we were about sixteen, and sometimes talking to her is just having the same few conversations over and over with slight variations. She is the same person with the same personality, she just doesn't remember that she told me this story last week, you know? It really isn't that big a deal, because she lived and she is much better than she used to be. Often with fictional memory issues or brain injuries, I feel like a repeated story or a forgotten detail is treated as a sign of the character still being broken, not quite healed. Sometimes it's every day life. I like the idea of a whole clan of characters who are... I don't know, damaged mentally, for lack of a better word, but it's just their way of life. I've read a few stories where Spider has mental trauma from the RDA mind reading machine, and the memory thing being such a major deal always makes me vaguely sad. I'd love one where he'd adjust to his new normal.

When my best friend is tired she CANNOT balance, she will fall trying to walk over something even if it's the only thing on the floor. It's just her now so it's the funniest shit in the world, we just make fun of her. Idk. That idea makes me feel warm and happy. My apologies for going off topic, you made me think about something that's really only been a half formed thought.

#my best friend is also my cousin #her mom started dating my uncle when we were like 10 #so we go on family vacations and one of my cousins is diabetic and another is on the autism spectrum #so when i tell stories of my cousins i'm trying to be like “look how normal all my cousins are we treat them as we would treat anyone else” #“we love them” #and sometimes people are like “wow you make fun of your cousin with a brain injury” #so please no one take offense lol #she fucking falls the fuck down over air #its funny #i have so many stories that i think are adorable and other people are like “why would you guys do that” #like i think i said on another post when someone asked me about diabetic lo'ak #that my diabetic cousin would refuse to tell us his blood sugar so we'd all be like alright die then #some people have not enjoyed that story either #shit like that lol #miles spider socorro #spider socorro #avatar #avatar the way of water #james cameron avatar #melissa's asks #melissa on avatar (cameron)

[watchyourbuck]

Oh god okay here we go

Why must I go into heavy detail you ask? Well, I am actually unable to shut up so here it is them 10 TOP “there’s no chance this is a straight friendship” MOMENTS

“You can have my back any day” aka the enemies to lovers speedrun. The immediate feeling we’re supposed to get from the screen is jealousy. Buck is jealous of the new recruit because he’s hot, a medic, a veteran, whatever. I’ll give it to you children, he WAS jealous. But then they go on call and they get into immediate danger bc 911 is a drama and then Eddie’s very keen on being Buck’s partner. Nothing queer til then right? WRONG. Eddie’s line is pretty normal but the way Buck reacts isn’t. I have had my fair share of “huh this person I didn’t like is actually cool” moments but nEVER have I once sucked in a breath, forgot how to blink, rushed in my words OR stared at said person like I’d like for them to be my lover. Three points to Gayfindor.

“Is your son REALLY the reason you don’t date?” This line and the dialogue that follows makes absolutely no sense from the non-queer glass. Alright he asks bc he wants to know why two girls practically launched themselves at him and he declined (such a kind offer lmao) but… why are you standing so close? Why do you bump shoulders with him as you walk? Most importantly, what the FUCK does Eddie’s smirk mean after “they’re not my type either… not anymore.” Idk about you guys but when I’m not on the market I’m actually not in it 😀 and I don’t go around looking at my best friend like I’d consider fucking her (I’m actually kinda yikes about that thought bc she’s like my sister). Bottom line is: if you’re willing to fuck your best friend, there’s attraction. That scenes oozes attraction and I’d be willing to white glove challenge a body language reader.

The Tsunami. YES okay, there are far many moments in between but I also need to make this a somewhat readable list so here we go. We’re gonna pretend for a hot second Buck wants to save his best friend’s son, and not the child that he considers his own bc I’m tired. Let’s skip to the far end of this (be GrAtEfuL I’m skipping the whole sacrifice that this episode entailed. Buck was willing to die, to never sit down again if it meant looking for Chris [& the utter fear he has to face Eddie]. It’s a lot). Now, I do not OWN a child (thank god) but if I did, I wouldn’t be particularly comfortable with a simple friend from work taking care of them. They could be my very best friend from work and I’d still feel a little icky -at least nervous- about it. Yet Eddie not only takes Christopher back A F T E R the tsunami (Chris could’ve died and Eddie is nothing short of apprehensive), but he says ‘there’s no one I trust with my son more than you’. Um. Not his wife. Not his family (CHRIS’ family), not Abuela, not Tia Pepa. Buck. Who he… just met? Surely it isn’t bc he’s uncle buck… I don’t believe even Maddie has said that to Buck, where he’s actually, yknow, UNCLE BUCK. Co-parenting is not something done between a parent and a friend, and I know this shit bc my mom raised me with a few of her friends and guys,,, she never said that to any of them. Also Chris is practically never seen with anyone else from the 188firefam alone.

The Kitchen Scene™️. I have gone on rants about this before but truth be told THIS is the scene that conveys the MOST canonically sexual tension between them. We can joke about it all y’all want but this scene is unhinged. I don’t think Oliver and Ryan were aware that they should’ve been friends in this scene. The way the conversation shifts from apologetic sad puppy eyes to “you’re throwing your punches at the wrong guy” to I CAN TAKE YOU (???) you can what? “Oh you think?” “Oh I know” HELLO? Pls don’t even get me started on how Buck approaches Eddie, the way he’s puffy-chested, his hand on his belt, eyeing him up and down, nearly biting his lip, cocky grin,,,,, explain to me in hetero. I’m waiting😐 guys c’mon exPLAIN IT TO ME IN HETERO. The way Eddie glances to the side bc where’s Chris? And h o w he sips his beer right after, smirking, tiLTING His head. I’m sorry this is not straight in any way. I’m sorry you’re gonna have to accept this.

Clipboard Buck. Alright u got me!!! This one’s a lil silly, but so is my life, so it’s fair game. Clipboard Buck is annoying as fuck, he’s so fucking annoying. The entire firefam picks up on this, no one wants to be around,,,, except Eddie. You could argue that it’s bc he likes him as a friend and he’s just indulging …. 👁️👄👁️ sure but he also hides from Interim Captain Han soooo anyway what’s fun about this is how willing Eddie is to comply with everything he says. He’s basically twirling his hair, kicking his feet, smiling & blushing and “check!” 🧍🏽‍♀️ buck is kinky (that is canon e.g the ring cutter) and he gets high on authority and Eddie does backflips to meet his kinks. Exhibit 5 complete.

The Lawsuit Arc acka the first divorce era😔✊🏼. This one makes me rage a little bit because I get really upset at Buck for acting recklessly. Like baby let yourself HEAL. Anyway,,,, onto what brings us here 🥷🏼. It’s canon that the entire team is mad at Buck, they don’t really wanna bump into him, can’t really speak to him,,, but Eddie? Eddie’s filled with wrath. I cannot stress enough the fact that he uses Chris as an excuse “do you even know how much he misses you? how could you! you’re not here”. The way he expresses himself, and we’re choosing to ignore the fact that he HIMSELF misses Buck,, that’s how you talk to someone who has a responsibility with the child, not the fun coworker that randomly shows up @ your house with pizza every once in a while. “I couldn’t even call you to bail me out of jail”. He’s so u p s e t that for the first time they know each other he can’t rely on Buck when he’s hurting and in danger. And pls for the love of Jesus Christ my lord & savior don’t tell me that it’s a 118 thing bc he calls Ronda Rousey to come pick him up 🎅🏻 that grocery store scene is.. interesting.

Eddie Underground. Alright we’re getting serious now guys,,, might as well put on your thinking caps on this one. We all know the story, this isn’t a latest ep recap soooo The wAY Buck’s the ONLY ONE who desperately calls Eddie’s name when he’s fallen underground, amidst the heavy rain and dirt. Listen to me: he starts digging with his hands. With his bare hands I tell you!!!! 😩 Bobby has to physically pull him back as he cries on his lap. Buck is a smart man, he wouldn’t do something that’s completely illogic, he knows he can’t dig him out but he’s so desperate. His voice breaks, he can’t breathe, he becomes impulsive, reckless, impatient. Do I need to remind y’all the reason he wasn’t the one getting strapped to go underground??? “You’re not going down there. So we can have two cut off ropes?” Everyone knows he’s willing to sacrifice his integrity for Eddie bc his life doesn’t make sense without him. “We’ll get him back for you”

The Shooting + “I’ve made u my son’s dad lol”. When Eddie gets shot the world freezes for Buck. He’s left standing there, staring as Eddie’s blood splatters on him. He has to be tackled down. Even then, he’s unable to move, to breathe. He just looks as he bleeds out, and theN he snaps back into reality, bracing himself to go under the truck (foregoing his own trauma - I’ve said this before) and preparing for the amount of strength it’s gonna take to pull him under it. He screams at him to hold on, and later when he manages to pull him inside the truck he tells him he needs him to hang on. He rips his uniform open, he cries and screams,,, then Eddie wakes up, and he asks BUCK if HES okay. Bc he saw blood :( also as @butraura pointed out, he can’t die if Buck’s dying bc what about Chris? He only lets himself drift off when he knows Buck’s okay. Then we got The Will Reveal™️ also so unhinged. “You knew I wouldn’t turn it down” right what is this guys??? That was a year ago. He added him to his will A yEaR aGo. Idk about y’all but I haven’t added my friends to my will😀 also Buck’s the one who tells Chris ??? (I’m being very brief on this subject). Also “Because, Evan” shut up🧎🏽‍♀️

& 10. The Lightning Strike + “She sees me”. I’m doing these together bc I haven’t watched this episodes yet but I’m an addict so I’ve spoiled myself to the brim. The way Eddie screams Buck’s name, the way he saves him, “do more” h e l l o ?? The absolute PAIN in Eddie’s eyes, “you died Buck” “3 minutes and 17 seconds”, “his humor hasn’t changed” & the fact that he listens to Buck on his super genius math theory. And then Buck goes and says “I feel like Natalia sees me” ok. I mean my feelings mean nothing but Eddie’s face ??? That’s a man that knows he’s waited too long.

I rest my case. I’m missing a lot of scenes (like a lot omg Abby comes back, Buck under the Truck, Buck vomiting blood, the Taylor Arc) & y’all can argue in the comments about them, or add shit or try to dismantle mine, honestly the floor is yours idc wHat u do, just know you won’t convince me otherwise 🤸🏽these two are in love & that’s pretty much that on THAT. PERIOD.

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[the-guilty-writer]

Can I ask a garcia daughter where Derek and her have close relationship much like his and garlic, and just cute moments between them

I think this works better as headcanons so here you go!

Penelope had always wanted to do more to help children who had lost their parents as she had and she decided that becoming a foster mom would be the best thing she could do to help.

You were 10 years old and your parents had been victims on a case that the team was working.

It was a local case and you were brought in to be interviewed.

A social worker was supposed to be there to pick you up, but they were running late and the team had to spread out to different places so Garcia volunteered to watch you.

She brought you to her lair and shared all her fun fuzzy pens and figurines with you.

After a few hours the social worker finally showed up but you refused to leave Garcia's side.

"I'm actually a foster parent. I'd be happy to have her until she settles down." "Thank you. As soon as we find her a long-term placement I will let you know."

Garcia ended up being your long-term placement.

She adopted you not long after that.

Hotch gave her lots of time off so she could be home to help you adjust, but sometimes she had to bring you to work with her.

The team didn't mind one bit. they loved having you around.

Of course you liked all of them.

But it was no secret that Derek was your favorite.

He was the first person you always hugged when Garcia brought you to work.

If Garcia was busy you would sit on his lap while he went over files (telling you to close your eyes so you didn't see any crime scene photos of course).

And at the end of a long day when you were exhausted from running around the bullpen he would carry you to the car and be super careful not to wake you up.

At school some kids made fun of you for your parents being dead and only having a mom now and no dad.

When Penelope told him he was furious.

So for career day he went instead of Garcia and he pulled out all the stops- FBI kevlar vest, hand-to-hand demonstration, cool stories about catching bad guys (leaving out the not so kid friendly parts of course), etc.

And the kids stopped making fun of you because you obviously had the coolest uncle in the whole world plus he can arrest people, has handcuffs, and carries a gun.

He took you to the dad and daughter dance too.

When you get into a sport he coaches you.

As long as he isn't away on a case he would never miss a game/meet.

You always perform better when he's there beforehand to give you a peptalk.

He was halfway across the country right before championships and he knew he wasn't going to make it so he slipped away for five minutes to call you.

"I'm always with you, little baby girl. You can do this."

The photo of you holding up your champion trophy/metal sits on his desk.

Garcia is baby girl and you're little baby girl even if you get taller than her when you start to grow.

He got you guys tee shirts with your nicknames on them.

The older you got and the more you could understand things the more inside jokes you would have.

When you go on your first date Derek pulls the big scary FBI agent dad act and Garcia has to tell him to chill.

And when you have your first heartbreak he doesn't get angry and want revenge for you. He just holds you while you cry and tells you that it's going to be okay.

Penelope on the other hand absolutely makes that person's life a living hell for a few days by inconviniencing them online in anyway possible.

She may or may not have changed the passwords to all their social media accounts and signs them up for every spam email possible.

He helps move you into your dorm room/first apartment at college.

When it was time to leave he cried more than Penelope.

She had to be the driver home because he couldn't keep it together.

"my dear chocolate thunder, she's only a two hour drive away. She can visit on the weekends."

When you've been dating someone for a while and you bring them home you know Garcia will love them, but you really hope that Derek doesn't scare them off.

He doesn't.

A few years later when they want to propose they know they need his blessing too.

He cries when he walks you down the isle.

He cries during the dad daughter dance too.

"I don't care how old you get, you'll always be my little baby girl."

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[moominofthevalley]

Sempervirens

A string of letters written by Emily through the years

emily rose

teen | wc: 1.1k | cw: mentions of grief

a/n: first drabble of 2024. sorry it took so long. hope you enjoy ♡ banner credits from airidescence

It’s been ten years and I still don’t know where to put all this grief.

Uncle Tommy suggested I see a shrink, so I told him to fuck off. I promised him I’d write these stupid letters instead. Journaling, mindfulness, yoga – all that does nothing for me. This shit better work. So…here’s a list of things in my life you never got to see.

I stopped doing soccer right after you passed. I’m sorry.

I know even when you were here I had horrible grades. But I made it. I graduated high school. I got into college, worked my ass off, and somehow became the youngest person in NYC to make the Homicide Division. I hope you’re proud of me.

…But it’s brutal. Captain Thompson is just cruel. Tommy met her at a few holiday parties and I don’t know. There’s no concrete evidence yet, but I know there’s something up with her. And the rest of the NYPD. I’ll move on to something better eventually.

By the way, Tommy misses you too. A few weeks ago, we looked through the attic and found a bunch of old photo albums and VHS tapes. We spent all day looking through them. There was a picture of us sitting on your ‘Smoke Couch.’ The black leather one in our old living room. It still reeks of cigars.

My head hurts writing this. Me and Tommy still have nothing for you. No evidence, no lead. Not any fingerprints. Even the files have nothing. I’m so sorry. There has to be something. You’ve been gone ten years and all that I have left of you are old photos and some beat-up jackets.

You need justice. I need answers.

We miss you so much. I’m going to stop writing before I throw up.

Always surviving, Emily Rose 09/10/18

* * * *

I had a fluffernutter sandwich this morning and thought of you.

Don’t know why I love it so much. I probably have a dozen cavities by now. I’m sorry it’s been a while since my last letter…a lot has passed. Anyway–some life updates as promised.

I quit the NYPD. Are you surprised? I found so much shit - probably enough to fire every cop in my precinct - but HR turned on me. So I left. I spent two weeks moping, just bartending at the Drunk Tank until Tommy made me chat with an old friend of his. Mafalda. I think you knew her too. It’s so much better at the agency. There’s this guy named Luke who does all the computer stuff for us. He’s pretty sick. He lost his mom around the same time I lost you. And there’s a forensic analyst who occasionally works with us, Ruby. I know you were never much of a gossip, but they just started dating. They’re cute together. You’d like them.

Also, I got rid of that stupid leather couch you loved. It was all ripped up and probably had mold in it. And it smelled like absolute shit. Smoke and Horse Creek. Yuck. Uncle Tommy and I spent a whole day looking for a new couch. I landed on this velvet green one with a fancy fringe at the bottom. I can already hear you calling me bougie right now.

They say this in movies, but I didn’t expect life to change so fast. I have a dog now. Twilight. I found her at some deli during an investigation. (Everything’s fine now, don’t worry). She’s adorable. I woke up this morning with her head in my arms, staring at me with her big brown mopey eyes. I love her so much.

You know, it’s annoying funny how people enter your life and stay there. I don’t think I’m complaining this time. His name is Trystan Thorne and you’d love him. Uncle Tommy does, but I think it’s because he buys him fancy donuts every morning. I wish you could meet him. I barged into his penthouse one day and now we’re partners. Isn’t that weird? He’s infuriating, but it’s nice to have him around. Don’t tell him I said that. I told him some stories about you today and it was so nice to talk about you. I know I introduced you to him the last time we saw you.

Finally, some good news. We might have something for you. Big V. I told Tommy and Mafalda about her and they both think there might be a chance she did it. I hate that it’s taken so long to come up with just one possible lead. But I’d do anything to know what happened to you. I hope you know that.

I’m sorry I didn’t talk to you more. I miss you so much. Here’s to fifteen years without you.

Always surviving, Emily Rose 10/08/23

* * * *

It’s only been a few months since my last letter and so much has happened. Trystan was put on trial for a murder he didn’t commit. We had to fly half the team to Drakovia as a hail mary. Ended up playing lawyer for a few minutes. It was weird.

I messed up so many times. Trystan and I fought over something we both knew the answer to. Sebastyan…Fuck. Vasili is dead. Every time I remember that look in his eye, I want to throw up. My head hurts. It’s 3 AM and I can’t sleep.

Trystan is sleeping right beside me. He’ll never admit it, but he drools in his sleep. I love him so much. He chops garlic for me, washes my back, and always listens to me talk about you. I want to bite him sometimes. I keep imagining all the dinners and talks we could’ve had, just the three of us. You could’ve told him all of your stupid jokes - like the one about eating a clock.

Tomorrow is my twenty-ninth birthday. Tommy told me he had something planned. I bet you ten bucks it’ll be a party at the Drunk Tank. I remember growing up, you guys would spend the entire night decorating the apartment with balloons. I hope Tommy isn’t doing that this year.

You’re here everywhere I go. I was doing laundry earlier and saw one of Tommy’s button-downs that used to be yours. It still smelled like you. I make coffee just like you did - black. I have your small, bulbous nose. I took a train to Montauk and thought of you.

I hate that your life was taken from me. But I will find you at the end of mine. I love you, Dad. Come visit me sometime? Please.

Always living, Emily Rose 3/31/24

* * * * I’ve missed writing. Fun fact, this was originally going to be called ‘someday, anything.’ Glad I didn’t go with that! I wrote this all in a day after I found the most devastating YouTube comment and just had to write something. Also, if you didn’t notice the start of the 2nd letter is a little reference to this fic. Anyway - there’s definitely more writing coming from me soon...Hope you enjoyed this angst xx

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[weird-is-life]

Glasses

Pairing: Steve harrington x fem!reader

Sumarry: You convince Steve to be your date at the Family gathering and feelings get confessed

Warnings: language, mentions of food, mean family relatives, protective Steve, use of y/n and petnames, i suck at endings

Words: 3k Masterlist

A/N: English is not my first language, so please excuse any grammar/spelling mistakes

Steve was nervously sitting in his car in your driveway and he was thinking about running away.

He'd agreed to saving you today. You basically begged Steve on your knees to get him to come with you. It was a family gathering at your house, a few aunts, uncles and annoying cousins.

You were sick and tired of your cousins's teasing about you coming alone to these family events. So you convinced Steve to be your fake boyfriend.

And Steve as the best friend he is, had said yes. He couldn't back out now, as he was already there.

With heavy legs he walked up to your door and rang the doorbell. You opened the door almost right away.

You looked stressed, your hair was a mess and there were lines of concern on your forehead. You had the most beautiful dress on and Steve couldn't help but to stare at you.

But the second you realised, it was Steve at the door, the frown was replaced by a small smile.

"Hi" you sheepishly greeted him.

"Hi, i'm not late, am i?" maybe you looked so distressed because he got the times wrong?

"No no, you're perfectly on time, c'mon in" you opened the door wider for him to step inside.

"Nobody else is here yet, so we can just go sit down at the table. They should arrive in 10" you mumbled.

"Okay, yeah. We should go sit down, you look like you need a breather" he said, looking at you with worry.

"What's that suppose to mean?" you asked, crossing your arms over your chest.

"Nothing, you just look a little tense " he explained.

"Oh, sorry. I-I just, i hate these family events. Most of the time it's the most boring thing to go through and i just don't want to hear all those mean comments from Alice or from Amanda or from Karen, well basically from any of my family."

Steve knew very well, what it was like to have mean remarks directed at him by family members. He was glad, he came , because atleast now you had him in your corner.

"Yeah, i know. But I'm here, so they won't say anything bad about you, right? And I won't let them" he said and you chuckled.

"Thanks Stevie, you're my hero" It was now Steve's turn to laugh.

"Don't mention it" he waved his hand.

He stepped closer to you and fixed your hair so it wouldn't look like a car ran you over.

"There" he was proud about the final look.

"Thanks" you uttered.

"Steve!" your mom called out. Your parents loved Steve, he was so polite and always willing to help them with anything. Your mom basically squeeled when you told her Steve was your date for the dinner.

"We are so happy to have you with us today" she embraced him in a tight tight hug, "it was about time you two started dating. It took you guys a long time, i was beginning to think, you would never tell her" she giggled.

Steve raised his eyebrows at you, asking you what was your mom talking about.

You may have told her that Steve was the one to confess his feelings .

Steve just cluelessly laughed with her and then she ushered you two to the table that was set outside.

"I'm sorry Steve, she started asking me questions, so I told her you were the one who confessed the feelings" you apologised.

"Should i be concerned about what else you'd told her?" Steve playfully nudged you by elbow.

"Definitely" you bantered.

While waiting on everybody, you made up a story about how you started dating and talked about holding hands and all the bullshit to convince your family, that you were actually dating.

It wouldn't be too hard for you to pretend to be in love with Steve, because you actually were. You've had feelings for Steve probably since you've met him.

Steve was thinking about the same thing as you. He had no problem with being affectionate towards you. He was in love with you, too. Like how could he not, when you were the kindest person to him.

You always looked out for him, took care of him, you just always made sure that he was okay. So of course, he fell for you.

Your talk with Steve was interrupted by a group of people, your family. They were all staring at you with big eyes and raised eyebrows.

You and Steve stood up and you were about to introduce him to them, but your annoying cousin was faster. "Y/N, who's this handsome man?" Alice asked and your face twisted in annoyance. Alice was your least favorite cousin.

"This is Steve, m-my boyfriend" you shyly announced.

"Your boyfriend?" she ribbed.

"Yes-"

"Hey, i'm Steve, y/n's boyfriend. It's nice to meet you" he spoke over you, because he could see how nervous you were.

Alice looked stunned. She couldn't believe, that Steve was really your boyfriend. She quickly recovered from the shock and greeted him, along with a wink. You just rolled your eyes at it. She was always like this with every boy. Always flirting badly with them, even if they weren't single.

Steve turned his head for a second to mouth 'help me' at you, before turning back to greet everybody else.

After a few excruciating minutes of getting to know your family, Steve was beggining to understand why you hated these things.

"Jesus, i thought, i'd die there. They are like some phyranas trying to eat you alive" he whispered to you as you sat back down at the table.

You let out a loud laugh, which got attention of everyone, "Steve, you can't just say something like that to me without any warning, " you whispered back.

"Sorry, sweetheart. But It's true, they are pretty bad, especially that cousins of yours" he frowned.

"Yeah, i'm sorry for dragging you into this" you felt bad, that he had to experience this because of you. You were sure he had enough family related problems without you adding to the pile.

"It's okay, i don't mind if it helps you" he softly smiled at you, " plus, i get to eat the food cooked by your mom, so that's a win."

"Oh so that's why you'd agreed" you josted. You were still talking in hushed voices, so everybody would occasionally look curious at you two, wondering what was so funny.

"Well, of course,why else would i say yes?" he grinned at you.

You and Steve were both so lost in your conversation, that you didn't even notice Alice's and other cousins's jealous eyes on you.

"So y/n tell us, how did this happen?" she inquired in high pitched voice, looking at you with annoyed face.

"Me and Steve have been best friends for like 2 years now, right?" you looked at Steve and he confirmed what you were saying with a nod and encouraging smile, "and i guess there were feelings since the beggining. But we just denied and denied them, too afraid to ruin the friendship. I was definitely too scared to say anything" you giggled," and then out of the blue Steve was on my porch admiting his feelings for me and it's been perfect ever since."

"Yeah, my good friend helped convince me to finally tell y/n everything and i'm very very happy, i did" Steve added and pulled you closer to his side. You were basically sitting on him, that was how close he pulled you to him. Not that you were complaining.

"Really? That's great" Alice gritted through her teeth, giving you the most unsincere smile ever.

"Yeah, it's awesome" Amanda chimed in. Her voice was as fake as Alice's smile.

Steve's smile never wavered, he completely ignored there insinuations.

"Wait a minute" Amanda suddenly loudly said, "You're the Steve? Steve Harrington? "

"Omg yes, King Steve. I thought i recognized you from somewhere" Alice joined her, they both had big smirks on.

"Oh. I don't go by that silly nickname anymore. It's just Steve now" Steve nervously scratched the back of his neck.

You didn't know your cousins knew him, i mean they went to different highschools.

You felt bad, that they brought this up, Steve beated himself up over his horrible behaviour everytime his highschool days were brought up.

"Just Steve? Guess your life got pretty boring after meeting our dear y/n" Alice made fun of you and everybody laughed.

"No no no. It's definitely not that. I just -" Steve wanted to defend you, but your mom brought the food and everybody ignored him and focused on the food.

You sighed in regret, " Jesus Steve, i'm so sorry for this. I thought they wouldn't behave like this around you. You can go home, i'll just make something up, like you felt sick" you covered your face in your hands.

"Hey hey hey, none of that. It's okay. I agreed to be here, so i'm gonna stay. I knew, what i was getting myself into," you didn't look too convinced,"Seriously, i'll survive. But are you okay? "

"Yeah, i guess, I'm used to it " you shrugged your shoulders.

"You shouldn't think this is okay, because it's not" he was frowning at you again. He hated that you felt like this. It took him all of his strenght not to stand up and drag you away from there.

"I know, Stevie" you tried to give him a smile, showing you were okay, but it failed.

"How much longer do we have to stay here?"

"Just 'till we finish eating and then i think we can ran away" you were looking forward to leaving.

"Good,'cause i'm dragging you out of here as soon as i can" Steve grinned at you, trying to make you feel better.

"I won't say no to that" you grinned back.

You were brought back to reality from your little talk, by your mom serving the food.

You all, surprisingly, ate in peace. You thought, that maybe your cousins gave up with trying to make fun of you. But of course, that was a foolish thought, because when you looked at them, they were glaring at you, well mostly Alice and Amanda. Altough, they would occasionally break their glaring to forcingly laugh at something that Steve said.

"You're so funny!" they flirted with him and Steve choked on his food, after hearing those words. That made you giggle, not because you thought that Steve's choking was funny, but because Steve has been literally talking about his job at the Family video store.

"Uh thanks?" he unsurely said.

"You're welcome" Amanda was the first to respond with another bad wink, it looked more like a twitch of her eye than a wink.

Steve subtly gave you a 'what the actual fuck' look, making you snort.

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Meals were eaten and you were about to excuse yourselves and leave, but your mom had other plans. She gave everybody gifts, it was chocolate with a few nice words and joke.

Everyone started reading their little texts, but you hoped to avoid it, because you didn't have your contact lenses in.

"Y/N, what is written on yours?"

"Ugh, i forgot to put in my contacts..." you thought you managed to dodge it, but it's never that easy, right?

"Don't you have glasses?" Amanda asked, looking incredibly irritated.

"No-"

"Yes" your mom said at the same time as you, "I'm gonna go get them."

"Mom, please no-" she was already gone, disappearing inside the house.

"Great" you groaned.

"Glasses? I didn't know you wear glasses?" Steve puzzled.

"Because i don't ."

Your mom quickly appeared back with the glasses and made you wear them.

You could hear the snickering of your cousins as soon as you put them on. Of course, they would make fun of you because of some stupid glasses. They were like that.

You tried to ignore the laughs as best as you could and quickly read the sentences out loud. It was already hard to focus on the words, because of the loud laughs, but feeling Steve's eyes on you didn't help at all.

Steve'd never seen you in the glasses before and honestly, somehow he thought you looked even more beautiful with them on.

"Steve..."you said his name for like third time.

" Yeah?" he broke out of his thought about you.

" It's your turn to read now" you said. You cheeks were red and Steve wondered why. Well, that was until he heard the snickering a few seats to the left from him and saw your cheeks get even more color.

"Right. Just give me a minute, i need to go grab something from the car" he was already up and inside the house. Leaving you confused.

"Where did Steve go?" your mom perplexed.

"I don't know..."

"He probably had enough of your annoying ass" Alice started laughing even louder then before and you stayed quiet. You've had enough of this dinner. You shrugged the glasses off of your face.

"Sorry, i had to go get these. I can't see a thing without them" Steve swiftly sat back next to you.

The breath hitched in your throat. Since when has Steve had glasses? And fuck, how was it possible, that they made him look even more attractive and you got to look so bad.

It seemed to shut up even your cousins, they were now gawking at him with mouths wide open.

Steve didn't seem to notice or maybe he just didn't care, that everybody was looking at him and he simply just read the words on his gift.

"Thank you so much for the dinner and the gift. I'm so glad, i could be here with you today" Steve said once he finished reading," but i'm afraid is time for me to go."

Steve stood up, bringing him up with you. At first you didn't understand what he was doing, but when you caught up you said, " Yeah mom, thank you for dinner, it was great. I'm going with Steve, we're meeting Robin at the cinema." Obviously you weren't meeting Robin at the cinema, but you'd say anything at that point to leave.

"Oh, okay. You're welcome Steve to come even next time, yeah? We're happy you could be here" your mom beamed.

"It was so so nice to meet you Steve. We could go out sometimes" Alice quipped in and Amanda nodded her head, giving yet another wink to Steve.

"I don't think we could, it was nice to meet you tho" Steve left no time for them to respond and dragged you out of there, to his car.

"Steve, that was so mean" you chuckled, after you sat down in his car and he backed the car out of your driveway.

"Yeah, well. They deserved nothing else" he shrugged his shoulders, "they were awful, i don't want to see them ever again" he chuckled, aswell.

You wished, you'd never have to see them again every single time, "Yup, me too. "

"You okay?" Steve's hand reached for yours, squeezing it gently.

"Yeah, i'm alright" you murmured, taking Steve's hand in your.

"Do you wanna stay over? We can watch some movies" he proposed, seeing through your lie immediately.

"Sure, but only if we can order pizza."

"Of course, we can. Anything you want, sweetheart" Steve said oh so softly and it had you melting.

"Thanks" you blushed at the petname, "Can i ask you something?"

Steve nodded, " What's up with the glasses? You've never worn them."

"I always forget to put them on and what about you? You've never told me about your short sight, either. "

"Steve, i've literally put in my eye contacts in front of you before. What the fuck do you mean, you didn't know?" you questioned.

"You have?"

"Yes, multiple times. "

"Oh, i guess i was always too distracted by your pretty face" he casually said. Like it was no big deal.

You were already at his house, but neither of you was moving to get out of the car.

"What?" you finally choked out.

"I said your pretty face is too distracting. And fuck, it's a whole new level, when you have the glasses on. It's like you're twice as pretty" Steve's sudden burst of confidence made him speak out loud almost every thought he had about you.

"Foreal, it was so hard not to grab your face and kiss you the moment you put them on... -"

"Steve...."

"I'm in love with you, y/n. I just have to get it off my chest and i completely understand if you don't feel the same. We can forget i ever said anything and pretend this never happened" he rambled. His anxious fidgeting made even you nervous.

"Steve!" you placed your hand on his thigh, "you should try to breath, okay? I don't want you to pass out, before i have the chance to tell you, that I feel  the same" you joked.

"Wait, what? You do?" his eyebrows shot up.

"Yeah" you shyly smiled at him. Steve couldn't believe, that this was really happening.

"C-can... Can i kiss you?"

"Please" you breathed out.

Steve didn't waste any time, he leaned down to connect his lips with yours. Your lips were so soft and that made Steve kiss you more fiercely. He'd dreamed of kissing you for so many times and now that it was happening, he didn't want to ever let you go.

You slowly pulled away, making Steve pout.

"Sorry, but i'm getting cold outhere" you giggled at his scowl.

"We should go inside, so you can't make up any more excuses like this and i can finally get the kisses i want" Steve teased you.

"What makes you think, you'll get any kisses at all?"

"I think i deserve the kisses after tonight" he definitely did.

"I guess, i can give you a kiss or two" you giggled and dragged the two of you to his house.

You kept your promise, you happily gave Steve the kisses he so desperately wanted.

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Hey guys, thank you for reading. Posting this for like 7th time, 'cause Tumblr tags hate me. Anyways, let me know what you think. Feedback is always appreciated. Also if anybody is interested in being my beta reader for Stranger things fics, dm me please.

Have a great day and stay safe everybody. Peace out ☀️

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[askbensolo]

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What’s up, HoloNet! The name’s Ben. Currently 23 years old. I’m the only son of an Alderaanian princess and a Corellian scoundrel, and I have an adopted sister named Rey.

I started this blog when I was fifteen and afraid of becoming a Jedi. To make things worse, I started hearing voices in my head…voices that turned out to be someone who wanted to control me. Luckily, my friends and family got involved, and Snoke seems to have backed off.

I did make friends with some of Uncle Luke’s Jedi students, but I ended up attending the University of Naboo (Go Shaaks!) and got my degree in Journalism, since I’ve always been interested in writing, history, and politics. (Scroll back enough, and you’ll see my cringe pro-Imperial phase from back in the day. Yikes.)

I stayed on Naboo after graduation, and now I write for The Chommell Sector Daily. In my free time I lift weights, write poetry, and fight with people online.

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[roe-and-memory]

Hello! Might I ask if you have any Headcanons on strip? He's literally my favorite yet only has like 5 minutes of screen time :'(

(Or any doodles??? Cowboy man???)

HI!! yes of course we do, i LOVE strip

im so sorry this took us so long to get to, but i wont ur time anymore ENJOY!!

DOODLE BELOW!!!

strip grew up with racing, his dad was a racer and he definitely started as soon as he was old enough to. at some point in his life, he and his dad raced side by side. i think he started racing in 1970, probably at 18, his first car was the plymouth superbird and he not only got his number 43, but with his dads winning money he got the actual showroom model of one too. his dad bought it for him as a late birthday gift/“congrats on your first race, kid” gift. he still has both of them in his shop at home.

i also believe strip and lynda were highschool sweethearts. they got married as soon as possible and have been married with no issues ever since. he LOVES that woman with every bone in his body and would throw himself in front of a train if it meant saving her life. i like to think that they went to the same highschool, but REALLY met at a local derby. she won the derby (this was maybe? grade 10?) and he was totally blown away by 1. how gorgeous this girl was 2. the fact he’d seen her in the halls at school 3. the fact that they had such similar interests but never spoke before. he found his way to where she was and striked up a little conversation by complimenting her and starting racing talk. they fell for each other right then and there, but didnt start dating until 2 or 3 months later.

he and tex have been friends for a WHILE. tex inherited dinoco from his parents when they passed on, and when the racer that had races under the sponsor previously retired, tex almost immediately sponsored strip. it wasnt just a “best friend” sponsorship though, they both thought long and hard about it and had negotiations because tex just inherited a Huge part of the sport and they needed a good racer to back them up — so he hired strip, because that man could race with his eyes closed. strip won every one of his piston cups under dinoco.

he is BLONDE. he had a sister too (cal’s mom), most people mistook them for twins because of how similar they looked, both blonde, both with a similar birthmark on their face, and the fact that they were only one year apart didnt help. they were best friends. strip was the best man at his sisters wedding, and she was the maid of honour at his.

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hi it's roe. you pulled me out of retirement thanks for the req

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i dont think strip and lynda ever really wanted kids, strip was off racing a majority of weekends every year and lynda still had the odd gig here and there — they were comfortable in their little married life wirh just one another, but when their nephew Cal was born, strip and lynda were apart of his life from the beginning - and obviously not in the overbearing way, they wanted the ultimate titles of cool aunt and uncle, but in the “we’ll always be here if you need us to care for him, we’re here if you need ANYTHING!!” kind of way too. strip took that kid to races with him, set him up in the pits with a headset and his crew chief, and even let him BE the crew chief for one race when he was 9 (with the guidance of the actual one, of course.)

when cals parents died in a car accident, the same one that left cal deaf, it was probably the worst days of strip and lyndas life. the four of them (five, counting cal i suppose) had been a family Together. they were all super close, and to just lose them both like that was destroying. in their wills, everything went to Them. Including custody of cal. so in one day they lost their best friends and had a new life to care for — a very uprooted life, at that.

strip and lynda learned things for cal, like how to help him cope with the loss and trauma he experienced, what to do if he had panic attacks or nightmares, and how to help him adjust to his hearing loss.. and never once did they try to replace his parents. they knew their place in his life would never be the ones of his parents, and they didnt ever think they WOULD be parents, he lost them at the age of 13 when he finally had a proper sense of self and finally knew them, so itd be impossible for those holes to fill. obviously strip and lynda did everything they could to be as close to parental as possible without crossing the line, because the typical aunt and uncle roles felt too distant for the situation. obviously cal lashed out because he felt scared and alone, and they refused to take any of it personally because they knew it wasnt something personal.

strip inherited the farm when his father passed away, the north carolina farm that they grew up in, so he has Acres of land and a huge shop/garage where he keeps all his classic cars and old racecars. they have horses and a forest on their property, and when cal was 14 strip taught him how to drive using the track he’d plowed in one of the fields for practice. cal entered his first “race” when he was 15 1/2, and raced for small leagues until he was 19, when strip retired and cal took his place on team dinoco. strip then replaced his own crew chief and became cal’s.

strip and doc definitely hang out at the tracks all the time, they bond over their surrogate “children” being goofy as hell and even talk about their own racing highlights. strip still cannot believe lightning managed to get THE fabulous hudson, the racer his own father told him all about, who strip had dreamed about meeting as a child until he realized it might be a high possibility the man had died, to ADOPT HIM. absolutely insane behaviour on lightnings part.

I HOPE THIS IS ENOUGH!! i have more but a magician cannot share all his secrets.. or magic tricks.. or however the saying goes..

#cars 2006 #lightning mcqueen #cars fandom #cars headcanons #memory’s headcanons #cars 3 (2017) #doc hudson #strip weathers #cal weathers #pixar cars #strip and lynda are one of THE couples ever #this was also so fun to write oh my god i adore them #sorry for talking about cal so much hes my son

[eternalsams]

To help your boredom I was thinking a family headcanon with my favorite 4 boys from top gun maverick Jake, Bradley, Bob (if you want) and Mickey on like what having a family would be like with them

Feel free to ignore this

Love ya

Okay, this is cute but I think I'll need to change some things a bit if you let me. It's still with the boys and the family plot but... rearranged. Hope you enjoy!

TW: mentions of divorced parents (wrongly called "broken family"), mentions of unprotected sex

Jake "Hangman" Seresin

when you told him your parents wanted to meet him, he'd been surprised. he wasn't really the type of guy you want your parents to meet, but you've been dating for a couple of months and he could feel himself start to deeply fall in love

when he first met them, he could practically feel his heart beating it's way out of his chest. he was so nervous.

your parents noticed how uncomfortable he was at first and tried to make him at ease, even though your dad wanted to joke around and told him he'd get the shotgun out if he ever hurt you. he didn't joke around.

your parents really liked Jake and often called whenever they knew you and Jake were off work

with you, Jake learned what in-laws should really be and he couldn't wait to pass a ring on your finger to officially call them his in-law family

Bradley "Rooster" Bradshaw

before dating you, Bradley met some of his girlfriends' parents but he never found what he thought he needed, a big new family

the holidays came after you just celebrated the three months of your relationship, this was still very new. you still needed to discover a lot about each other, and the three little words had been uttered only a couple of weeks ago.

when he told you he wanted to spend the holidays with you and your family, you were more than surprised. never a guy you dated asked to meet your parents asap. but he was the most surprised when you told him about your broken family.

divorced parents and an absent father was not the family Bradley expected. you spoke so highly of your family all the time, he thought you had loving parents with 3 siblings, minimum. but you were an only child raised by a divorced mother.

when he met your mom, she immediately reminded him of his own. and he realized at that moment how similar you two were. both longing for an absent father and getting unconditional love from an amazing mother.

and when you both came back to your place after your little trip, and he saw how much you already missed the warmth of your mom that Bradley promised himself to give you your own family, with a loving husband and father

Mickey "Fanboy" Garcia

Mickey came from a big family, you already knew that, he told you. what he didn't tell you was that he had many nephews and nieces.

the first time you joined his family for the holidays, you had to arrive early to get some rest, so you only saw his parents. but the next day...

his older sister arrived first, greeting you with a hug like an old friend from college and introduced you to her husband. and then you heard them, two little girls screaming "Uncle Mick" and jumping on your boyfriend. that was cute.

not even 20 minutes later, his brother passed the door with his fiancée and their three kids, all three of them running to greet their 'favorite' uncle. now that made 5 of them.

when you thought it was over, the door opened once again and two more kids came in running and greeting everyone, their parents, Mickey's cousins, coming in just next. now that made 7.

when you counted 10 of them, you went to Mickey and grabbed his arm, pulling him aside and asked him if there were more kids to come. he laughed and grabbed you by the hips. "would you like to see more of them?"

you and him had been dating for a bit more than 7 months and even though you already talked about marriage, kids weren't on the table yet. so when he asked you that, you were a bit surprised, but pleasantly so. "not so soon, Romeo" you patted his chest with a chuckle.

but as you went back with everyone, Mickey couldn't help but stare at you, trying to imagine how lovely you'd be with a round belly or a small child in your arms

Robert "Bob" Floyd

the day Bob asked about funding a family with you for the first time, you were cuddling on the couch, watching some rom-com. you'd been engaged for two months at the moment and it just felt right to start talking about it.

he had so many good memories from his childhood with his family that he wanted to create some more with a family he'd share with you

through the whole conversation, he'd rub your stomach, eager to see it grow with his child. so you started trying, forgetting the condom box under your bed.

his friends would tease him, calling both of you rabbits. but none of those mocking were meant to be insulting, you all knew that.

you started planning how to decorate the baby's room and what kind of toys and plushies you'd get for them.

he'd hold you tight in his arms whenever you'd get a negative on a test and you couldn't wait to see the smile stretch his lips when he'd read 'positive' on the stick.

you knew he'd make an amazing father, and he knew you'd be the perfect mother for his kids.

#jake seresin #top gun #hangman #top gun maverick #glen powell #Bradley Bradshaw #rooster #miles teller #mickey garcia #fanboy #Danny ramirez #Robert floyd #bob #Lewis pullman #eternalsams #eternalsams asks

[huggybug]

Yes always a dad fic! With either Nate or Cale

turn the lights off, carry me it home - nathan mackinnon

word count: 1.4k words

no promises that this is good. it’s dad!nate but i just kinda wrote what came to mind so if it’s a little messy don’t pay it much attention! this is just because of the win and my break is still in effect until further notice :)

The clock ticks down until it’s zero’s across the board. They did it. They won the Stanley Cup. You can barely process it before everyone’s jumping up around you. Nate’s parents are hugging, his mom crying when she turns to hug you. You look over to see your daughter, Bella in Nate’s sister’s arms, waving her arms around as she screams with the rest of the family.

Everywhere you turn, there’s someone new to hug. The rest of the girls around you are cheering while filming the boys celebrating on the ice and you’re so caught up in the excitement to even realize what’s happen.

Soon enough, your section is being escorted down to the ice and you’re keeping Bella close to you just in case. Most of the kids didn’t come to Florida but Nate insisted that Bella was here. However the few that are here seem just as excited as anyone as they wave their little flags as the group makes their way down to ice level.

The girls all hang back while the families get to the guys first and then everyone breaks up and it’s absolute chaos on the ice. Your grip on Bella’s hand is tight and you carefully make your way through the crowd in search of your boyfriend.

“Bells!” Your head whips around to see Nate behind you which makes you all but jump into his arms. Bella, feeling a little left out, attaches herself to Nate’s leg which makes him laugh.

“Congratulations Babe” Nate’s holding you up with one arm while the other hold’s Bella securely to his leg so she doesn’t fall.

“Told you we’d do it” You can see the tears in his eyes as he nods, affirming the statement he’s been reiterating to you all season long.

“I never doubted you” You grinned before kissing him. “I knew you’d bring it home Nate, we all did, it was just a matter of time”

He set you down, quickly swapping you for Bella, hoisting her up into the air as she squealed. “You wanna go touch the cup Bells?” Nate asked and your heart pounded when you saw the way he looked at her. His eyes were full of happiness and love; it had been a while since you’d seen him like that. The stress of the season and lately the cup run was a lot on him and you could tell.

“Can I go to Uncle EJ?” Bella pointed about 10 feet away where EJ was celebrating with his family.

“Go quick, if he’s busy you come back okay?” Bella nodded and you watched your four year old run across the ice, straight into EJ’s arms who happily spins around with her.

“So…” You trail off, turning back to your boyfriend.

“So?” Nate asks, clearly amused if the look on his face says anything.

“I believe there was some sort of promise you made… something about you asking me something?” You smirk when Nate throws his head back in laughter.

It was something you’d been waiting for a while now. Nate was never supposed to be in your life forever. You were originally set up by your best friend who somehow knew EJ and the two plotted to set their ‘grumpy single friends’ up. Surprisingly, you and Nate hit it off and started dating. After a year together, you got pregnant with Bella and your relationship got a lot more serious very quickly. Before that, it was more for fun, Nate was coming off a fought season and you were just starting your first real job. You were both very career driven and relationships weren’t that big of a priority for either of you which actually was what made your connection so strong.

Neither of you were waiting around for a call or text every night. You had your own seperate lives and you were okay with that. Obviously a child changed that drastically. You moved in with Nate and your lives became more intertwined than ever. He got excited that he was now coming home to you, home games that you weren’t in attendance for were few and far in between, and if that wasn’t enough, as soon as he saw Bella, he was completely enthralled.

There was no way Nate was letting either of his girls out of his life anytime soon but he had yet to ask the big question. His parents liked to tease him about it more than you’d expect really. It wasn’t that they were upset that you had a child before getting married, they loved Bella almost as much as they loved Nate. And they loved you as well which is why any time they saw Nate, they’d pester him about his plans on popping the question.

The guys liked to make fun of him too but you always stayed quiet, you understood his reasoning on waiting. He was in a crucial time in his career right now and his main focus was hockey. He loved your little family, that would never change but he always claimed there were just some goals he wanted to accomplish before getting married.

It didn’t bother you, if anything, you admired how focused he could be. His promise was always that the day he won the cup, he’d ask. When his parents found out about that, they didn’t seem too pleased but you always said ‘okay’.

You weren’t going to pressure him to do it before and it wasn’t like you were going anywhere, no ring would change that, so there was no harm in waiting.

“A promise? I don’t know…” Nate chuckled as you rolled your eyes.

“C’mon Nathan! You got your ring, now give me mine” You made little grabby hands at him which made him laugh, gently pushing you away.

“Alright calm down! I know what I promised, don’t worry”

“I touched it! I touched the trophies!” Bella comes flying into you as she slides along the ice and you laugh, steadying her before Nate picks her up.

“The trophies?” You ask.

“Mhm Uncle Cale let me touch his because he said Daddy should have won too” Bella explains and Nate shakes his head.

“C’mon Bells we’re going to go with Grandma and Grandpa while Daddy goes to celebrate okay?” You had noticed the group on the ice had started to thin out, the guys going back to the locker room while families filed out, either to head back to their hotel or to the banquet hall which was pre booked in the event that they did win.

“No!” Bella whined, clinging to Nate a little tighter. “I wanna go with Daddy!”

“Bells” Nate sighed, adjusting her in his arms. “You can’t come with me, you’ll get trampled” The locker room was going to be a mess and it was certainly not a place for kids.

“We can go find the girls, maybe they’ll want to come for ice cream before bed” Bella loved being apart of ‘the girls’. She would try to sneak out of bed whenever the wives came over for an away game watch party and you usually let her if it wasn’t too late.

“Okay! Do you want ice cream Daddy?”

“I’m fine B, we can go together when we get home, okay?” She nods and gives him a quick hug before squirming out of his arms and running off to where a group of girls were standing and talking.

“Guess we’re leaving now”

“See you at the party later?” Nate mumbled as he pulls you in for another hug.

“Of course” You smile and his easy smile back sends you for a loop again. It seems so surreal, even after you’ve done it all. You took your family pictures with the cup, watched as Nate celebrated with Gabe and EJ who had truly been through the worst of it with him. Everything that typically happened after a cup win, you had done it but it still doesn’t seem real.

“Hey, I’ve got an idea” Nate grabs your hand before you can walk away and just by the look in his eyes, you can tell what he’s thinking.

“We are not eloping in Tampa, Nathan” It was something he always joked about, that you’d just run off and get married one day but you knew his family would kill him.

“We can fly to Vegas” He suggested.

“No. Go spray your boys with champagne and I’ll see you after” Nate smiled before kissing you again and skating off, hustling to get back into the celebrations.

#nathan mackinnon x reader #nathan mackinnon imagine #nathan mackinnon fic #dad au #colorado avalanche #hockey writing #hockey fic #nhl players #nhl fanfiction

[willsimpforazula]

Sokkla Saturday Wk 3: Earth

My humble submission for sokkla saturday 2023 week 3. not quite good enough to put up on AO3 or FFN, but good enough to make it to tumblr, ig. very heavily inspired by Pictures of the Past, figured it could sorta work for when the kids start asking questions about what did mom do in the EK during the 100 years war *ps: there is the word 'earth' in the fic so that counts as meeting the theme *pps: TalesofOnyxBats is a goated Sokkla writer no cap fr anyways...... ******* It was going to happen at some point, they figured. After all, they figured that their kids had inherited enough intellect between the two of them to put two and two together. Or at least, have a good theory as to why everytime they travelled to Ba Sing Se (which wasn't often, but enough for them to have a semi decent idea of what the Upper Ring looked like.), their mother would often meet them at their granduncle's tea shop in disguise. Or why they would stay in the United Republics' embassy grounds instead of the Earth King's palace, among other questions.  __________________________________

Airship Lounge

Somewhere over Full Moon Bay

If it was any consolation, when the question finally came they were travelling in their private airship instead of on the ground in Ba Sing Se itself.

"Mom?" 

"Yes Miska?"

"Why do you need to put on disguises every time we go to Ba Sing Se?"

"Well…-"

"Also why can't we stay at the Earth King's palace? Aunt Katara and Uncle Aang and their family always stay there." Risa asked. 

Turning to her husband, Azula shot him a glance, which Sokka immediately understood. Taking a deep breath, she answered "Meet me in our room in 10 minutes.". 

"But wh-"

"We'll answer your questions then." Sokka cut them off, his voice taking on a serious tone that Risa and Miska understood to mean I will not repeat myself.  _________________________________

Azula and Sokka's bedroom

"Sokka?" Azula asked, her gaze fixed on the carpet of their room. 

"W-what do I tell them?" Azula asked nervously, simultaneously wanting to tell her kids the truth while not wanting to tarnish their image of her. 

Taking her hands in his, Sokka replied "As much or as little as you think they need to know. It's your story to tell, not mine."

"You were there when…-"

"We didn't know any better, Azula. Whatever you choose, know this: I will always still love you." he replied, kissing the back of her hand. __________________________________________ __________________________________________

Meanwhile, outside their room…

"Riri?"

"Do you think mom and dad are mad at us?"

"I-I don't think so." 

"You saw how mom reacted right? D-d-do you think we shou-"

"If we did they would have shut it down immediately, not ask us to see them in 10 minutes."

"I suppose you have a point."

"Once again, your big sister proves that she is always right." 

"Uh huh…like dating both Min Seok and Sakura clearly wasn't going to lead to…whatever that was."

"A momentary lapse in judgement." she handwaved, not eager to relive that particular set of memories.

"So you say, so you say. I suppose there is no reason to delay any longer?" Miska replied, giving their parents' cabin a quick few raps.

"Mom? Dad?"

"Come in."

Closing the door behind them, the twins waited with bated breath for whatever their parents had to say. "First off," Azula began,  "both of you aren't in trouble. That said, please stay back after this Risa, your father and I have some things we would like to discuss regarding how you conduct your…relationships.", to which Risa swallowed a gulp.

"But back to the topic at hand, what I am about to tell you is only for your ears alone and no one else outside this room. Do I make myself clear?"

When the twins nodded, she continued, giving Sokka's hand a squeeze as she did so. "How much of the Hundred Years War did your teachers tell you about?"

"Um…only that dad was part of the team that defeated the Fire Nation and ended it? Oh and that the Fire Nation staged a coup that toppled Ba Sing Se in a single night and occupied it for six months." Miska answered.

"Mom?"

"Yes Risa?"

"Were you the one who staged the coup and overthrew Kuei?"

"I wasn't alone in that, but yes, I was the one who planned and carried it out, among other things." Azula replied, before briefly explaining what had happened that night in the palace, though there were details that she omitted, choosing to set that aside for another time. If nothing else, they deserve to at least hear my side of the events, she thought.

With bated breath, she leaned against Sokka, a fluttering sensation in her stomach as she hoped against hope that her kids wouldn't outright disassociate themselves from her given her past or worse, hate her for her actions (who could blame them, really, she thought).

As the silence continued, Azula felt the urge to fill the space growing within her and just as she could no longer resist, they stood up and wrapped her in a hug, taking her by surprise as they let their simple action speak on their behalf. At this, her eyes started to tear as her worst fears proved unfounded and she hugged her kids tightly in response, even as Sokka wrapped his arms around them all. 

"Thank you Risa, Miska." she whispered.

#sokkla #sokka x azula #steambabies #oc #sokkla saturdays 2023 #hope you enjoyed it

[pleasantlycrazyworld]

That damn cat

Summary: Y/N’s cat runs outside and is hiding under her deck. Her boyfriend Eddie and his uncle Wayne were over for dinner and the cat run out as they were leaving. Wayne and Eddie help her get him back home. The reader is a cat mom lol.

Fluff, Eddie saves the day!

Authors note: It's really cold in Ohio right now and this happened to me last night around 10 at night. What Eddie does it what my father did to help me get my cat last night lol. 

Eddie Munson x reader

Y/N lives across the street from the Munson family. She lives in middle to low class housing that’s across the street from the trailer park. Eddie and you have been best friends since they were little kids and they've been dating for a few months now. Tonight is the night she meets Wayne for the first time since they started dating. Both the Munson men have been assuring her that it isn't a big deal. Wayne knew Y/N when she was tiny, he already loves her but he went along with the "meeting the parents" dinner that Y/N prepared for the two boys.

Everything went great, just like Eddie assured her it would, Y/N pulled out the big guns though just to make sure. She made Wayne’s favorite meal and made a homemade dessert as well. Just as the night was winding to a close and the trio said their goodbyes to one another the night took a sort of turn. 

Now Wayne doesn’t really know much about Y/N cat. He knows that she got one a few years ago but that’s about it and honestly, up until this moment, he forgot about the cat. Eddie didn’t though. He can’t forget about that damn cat. This cat seemed to hate Eddie. No matter what Eddie did to try and pursue the cat into liking him nothing worked. The cat was like Y/N's baby so of course, Eddie wanted it to like his company but the cat would hiss at him, and it started to nudge him away from Y/N while the two of them were cuddling. Eddie swears this cat is out to get him. 

Y/N starts to finish up the dishes with Eddie as Wayne finishes his beer. He has to admit it is nice to see the couple finally be together. Wayne always knew the two of them would end up together. This is the first time Wayne sees the cat. He watches as the furry thing struts across the floor and to its food bowl. After the dishes are done and the beer bottle is empty the two Munsons decide it’s probably time for them to leave. Kissing each other goodnight and goodbye Eddie reminds Y/N of their date the next evening before Wayne hugs the young girl goodbye. 

Wayne opens the back door to head out right as it happens. The cat ran outside. In the dark. “Oh shit! (cats name) get back here!” Y/N runs out to go grab them but it's too late as they are already under the deck. “Shit!” Eddies eyes widen and he goes running after the cat too. Wayne is frozen, How the hell is that cat so damn fast??? That’s the only thought in Wayne’s head before he grabs a flashlight and goes to help them find him. 

With the flashlight, they all can see the little thing under the deck catching bugs and playing in the dirt. “I can’t tell you the last time they did this, I thought they were over-running out” Y/N frantically explains. “Well, it's too cold for them to stay outside and they could get more lost so how do we get them out?” Wayne asks the girl. Eddie then remembers all of the little fur ball's favorite things and runs back inside. Confused Y/N just watches Eddie leave before deciding to try and reach for the cat from under the stair but sadly they’re too far in the middle for her arms to reach. 

Eddie comes back out with a can of wet food, the cat's favorite toy, a broom, and a bag of cat treats. Eddie opens the can of food to try and trick the cat to come out by himself but it doesn’t work. Then Y/N tries to get the cat's attention with the toy but they’re more focused on the bugs than the toy. Wayne is trying to push the cat to an opening with the broom but every time he touches the cat, it runs away to the other side. 

Seeing Y/N get desperate and seeing her and Wayne start to shizer due to the cold Eddie gets desperate to save this damn cat. He starts to take off his jacket, drapes them over Y/Ns shoulders and he gets onto the ground. “Boy, what the hell are you doing? Get up before you hurt yourself. Can’t we just get the hose and spray the little thing out?” Y/N thinks for a second, “maybe but he might just run to the neighbor's bushes and it would be even harder to find him then” Stumped Wayne and Y/N start to think of other ways to get the cat. 

What they don’t notice is Eddie crawling under the deck. He’s cussing out the cat as he does this and is thinking of how much he must love Y/N for rescuing a cat who hates his guts. Finally gripping the cat he starts to shimmy back out from under the deck. With the cat in his arms, he hands them off to their mother. “Here” Eddie grumbles “now I’m filthy and the cat is too” Staring at him with awe Wayne and Y/N both come to the same realization. This boy must really love me/her. Y/N kisses Eddie before running inside cussing at the cat and going to wash him off. 

“You did good son, that look she gave you was the look of pure love. But damn are you crazy for crawling under a damn deck like that” Wayne chuckles and shakes his head.

This is my cat that inspired this writing lol

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#eddie munson #stranger things #eddie munson x reader #eddie munson imagine #eddie munson x you #stranger things imagine #eddie and wayne munson #cat mom #eddie munson fluff #eddie imagines #eddie imagine #wayne and eddie munson #uncle wayne #wayne munson

[mythicaldemigoddess-of-deltarune]

The SAP Squad: Spinel, Adam & Pink-Pearl (2024)

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[Note: Mature Audience Readers Only, Because I will be mentioning Lilith (Charlie's Mom) by her new Nickname in this post...the nickname will still be censored though.]

Credit for Hazbin Hotel goes to Vivienne "Vivziepop" Medrano

Credit for Steven Universe goes to Rebecca Sugar

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Pink Diamond/"Rose Quartz" and Lilith might be different characters, but they sure as heck have hurt others… even if the reasons they left those that loved them are a bit different, but they both were still not 100% good.

yeah I still think the Lilith from our universe needed space, but Adam made the mistake in trusting those three angels in handling it… I can't really bring myself to 100% hate Adam of Hazbin Hotel, and yeah as weird as it might be, I can't help but view him being a bit like Spinel & Pink-Pearl/"Vollie"…

all three of them were badly hurt by Pink Diamond and Lilith, even if that story book plays it out like Adam was fully the bad guy but sometimes there are more to the story. and for all we know, the Lilith from Hazbin Hotel, could seem sweet and loving to her family…

but she has the dark side of being a lying, cold-hearted, manipulative, two-faced b**th who needs a good old punch to her face.

also I kinda hope that the story "The eve of Adam" that is by well someone who goes by "Anonymous" (but they go by another name on tumblr, and well I did have it wrote down on this of course but then I wasn't sure if they would want me to mention their name on here or not...and well if they don't mind it, I can edit this sometime later and say what it is. ) over at Archive Of Our Own, a part of me hopes it will be like with Kris eating all the pie in Chapter 2 of Deltarune…

of course I still think there was more that happen before Kris ate all the pie.

before I found "The eve of Adam", I had read another story that was like it but there seems to be some differences, but the one who wrote "Adam/Eve" doesn't go by "Anonymous"

but they go by "BeckyHomeEcky", I know by looking at the dates, the story "The eve of Adam" was published on April 10, 2024. and the

other "Adam/Eve" came much later on the same month. and I think we shouldn't jump into a misunderstanding.

it can be possible they had the same idea or like they could know each other and well the stories might still have Adam in that whole surprising situation, that I would love for to become canon.

I would love to write a fanfic with Adam and Eve's dark secret that appears in those two, but I guess I should wait to see if it will be okay.

both stories are interesting, of course when I did read that Adam/Eve story, I was inspired to draw a bit of fan art that was inspired by it…..it has to do with Eve and a wedding dress.

but I think I will wait a while before I post it. and well, I wonder if they know each other…? well I still like both stories, and makes me want to protect Adam (from Hazbin Hotel) like hug on to him and glare at Lilith The First B**th, and tell her to "Stay Away From Him…"…….

I wouldn't be surprised if "The First B**th" lied to Charlie's Dad about how Adam treated her, like throwing in a bit of truth but like a mix of half-truth with lies, making things worse than how they appear…….

wouldn't put it past her if she did.

and yes, I'm going to call her by the nickname "The First B**th", she isn't the boss of this "Eveningstar Princess"…also if Cain is anything like Adam (in those two Hazbin Hotel Fan Fics),

I can make a guess how Cain (from both "The eve of Adam" & "Adam/Eve" Stories) was able to have children and become a parent…I'm still gonna call both Cain & Seth by the nickname "Grunkle-Paw" because they would both be my Uncles & Grandpas.

and once again, reasons why I started to call myself "Eveningstar Princess" has to do with the weird thing with my Mom, and how she NEVER got Morning Sickness…

she only got Evening Sickness when she was going to have me, and I was even a weird little baby even before being born. XD the other weird thing was that I was a really big newborn, and I looked like a 2 week old……my Mom couldn't walk very well after having me….

but at least she got better after it, so that's good.

another name to call Cain, besides his shared nickname with Seth, which is "Grunkle-Paw"…

is to call him either Peepaw Cain or Grandpa Cain, and yeah the whole "Earth Angel Princess" thing is a weird thing that pop into my head…

(also if you want to skip some of this talk, well…just keep a eye out for the bold words.)

well blame it on some Royal Ancestors, some to which are King David and his son King Solomon (me being in the line that can't take the throne is still a blessing to me, so still not a curse.)

also even if it does turn out to be true, that Asmodeus did throw King Solomon to another part of some far away land…

that would mean that he accidentally caused this Earth Angel Princess's Birth…in other words, he caused my Ancestor-Grandparents to meet, fall in love and have their son who's line I will end up being descendant of.

well I'm pretty sure I was already a weird little accident anyway, I mean I'm pretty sure my Mom and Dad in this life had me on purpose in this life…

but as for the whole birth of my Soul, I'm pretty sure I was a unsuspected accidental surprise.

I don't know if some Eon-Boomers will listen to me, I mean I find some info about Jesus & Antichrist really messed up…it was thanks to a video I watched that talked about a possible what if future…

that made me not really happy with those two, cause no matter what choice a person makes, they are doomed either way…

this is why Earthly-Mother needs to stop those two, and protect this world…to stop a terrible future, and well that, and if Jesus and his Army are planing to do that stuff that is talked about in that video.

wouldn't it be better to do a type of cleansing that heals instead of taking a life, I mean I hope that kind of messed up future that has to do with those two sides doesn't happen at all.

I never want to take that mark, and well I had some unladylike

thoughts about where the Antichrist can well……shove it to… one thing that those of the Masculine Energy, and have been influenced by the Toxic-Masculine Energy that has plague this world since the dethroning of the Goddess.

you can only push around and mistreat the Feminine Energy so much before she grows tired of it and will push back….

and even if not all the Masculine Energy is bad, and there is that whole small Toxic-Feminine Energy (which once again isn't as high or as super dangerous as its counterpart, but it is still dangerous.) but the Toxic-Masculine is still a problem, and the whole messed up stuff those two would want to do in a possible future, it is REALLY messed up.

I mean, even if ya do that mark (BUT DON'T EVER DO THAT) you will only be given a game over by Jesus's Army, and even if you don't take it you will still be harmed in some way. I think we should at least try to stop those possible futures, to protect this world even if it isn't perfect, it is still our home. and well I still want to try to pray for Jesus, and hope he wont do that kind of messed up stuff in the future.

Other Earth Angels (who are also Humans) can't truly be okay with that kind of future or see it as "perfectly normal"…that isn't normal. when you really think about it, both sides what they want to do to a person who either does or doesn't get that mark……..it's messed up, I can't be the only one who see that right…?

and hopefully we wont have to do a whole "Neo-Messiah" thing at this time of the present, it could be possible that could be a thing in a far off future. like both The Heavenly-Father & Earthly-Mother having to make a "Neo-Messiah" as a last resort, because well how bad the Toxic-Masculine Energy has been.

so long as Jesus can still be saved from himself, and make sure he and his Army never does that terrible stuff in a possible future, we might not need to have a Neo-Messiah…

well at least not in this century, and what we should at least try to do is make sure the Antichrist doesn't do that whole messed up stuff either… when I'm able to, I would like to watch that Good Omens, even if that boy in it is suppose to be a "Antichrist" it doesn't mean he has to be. and yeah, I seen a clip and it had do with how some lady couldn't see his aura. but the reason being that, it was there but she just wasn't able to see it.

I'm not sure if many will agree with me about the whole thing that is messed up about what both sides want to do, and I know some might think what Jesus and his Army will possibly do in a possible future is "okay" and "right", but I don't see it that way…it is just not. and in my view, it would be no better than the possible messed up stuff the Antichrist wants to do.

like I can still believe, ya know in the good side of Jesus and hope that he doesn't ever cross that line. it's not like everyone will wake up to the truth on how messed up it is, like you get a game over either way.

but once again, hopefully that kind of future that has to do with those two can be stopped…

excuse me if this Defective Earth Angel, doesn't agree with those two when they want to cause some form of harm that could by end up causing trauma to the soul.

plus what those two want to cause in the future, could be a type of Domestic Violence on The Feminine Energy.

some might say "no it isn't." and yeah it is possible I can't change the minds of those who believe that, so I ain't gonna force them.

but I'm not okay with what the Antichrist wants to possibly do, and I'm not okay with what Jesus and his Army want to possibly do to people even to those who felt like they see no other choice because they felt they had to do so to still live in some form of happiness with family and friends, but even with that happiness, they could still end up feeling not very good about it.

I'm going to at least hope those terrible possible futures can be stop, and people can try to hope things get a lot more better… and for Mammon to stop with the Toxic-Greed already, a little greed is normal so long as it doesn't cross a very bad line….

seriously ya Eon-Boomer of Greed, Stop Misbehaving.

and that goes for any of the other Eon-Boomer or Eon-Boomers that have had a hand in some messed up stuff that has happen. and yes the whole "Eon-Boomer" is a bit like "Baby-Boomer" but it also means that the Eon-Boomer would be WAY older than the whole Baby-Boomer thing…

anyway hope some can understand my feelings about that whole possible future hot mess that is like really messed up, and well anyway this drawing just seems to speak for itself.

not like it is really speaking, but more like…I think that in a type of Fanon Timeline/Crossover AU…those three would become friends when they share a bit of their past with each other.

even if Adam can still be a bit of a, jerk and full of himself just because he is the "First Man"….

but deep down, he might of been hiding a deep hurt.

we know that Pink had hurt both Spinel and Pink-Pearl aka "Vollie" (Vollie seems like a better nickname than Volleyball to me…even if "Volleyball" is still okay, but I like "Vollie" better.)

and she did so on purpose, same goes with what The First B**th did, plus I wouldn't be surprised if that book that Charlie read, is full of only half-truth and half-lies. because The First B**th wanted Charlie to see her Mom as the "Misunderstood Good Guy" when really she is just a two-faced lying woman and she is no better than Adam.

she better have a good reason why she left, because if she did so because part of her never loved her family, I hope she gets her butt kicked.

also the reason why I kind of like Susan from Hazbin Hotel, like maybe a little…like besides her being like a grumpy Great-Aunt or Grandmother….

well one of the reasons I like her, is that she gets Alastor to call her a certain word. as weird as it seems, I just can't help but find it funny he says that about Susan.

also besides those two stories I can't wait to read the next chapters of that is "The eve of Adam" and "Adam/Eve" there is other stories that I'm also reading that has to do with Alastor. of course I'm reading some other stories as well.

The Queens of Sloth and Gluttony from Helluva Boss, just reminds me of stuff that went on when I was really little. one of them being that, I was always tired and the whole always having to be taken to the hospital whenever a seizure ended up happening.

I still think my seizures, may have been caused by some bad energies coming from those around me and even the places I had been living at before.

the reason why they seem to stop when moving to the town we live at now, might have to do with the energy being less dangerous. but I still should try to be careful, and I know not everyone will agree that I believe my seizures had been because of the energies that was coming from both people and a place.

so yeah, Bee and Bel from Helluva Boss kind of remind me of that…so far we haven't seen Bel yet, but we might see her in the future.

anyway I think that Adam, Spinel and Vollie would get along great as friends, even if Adam can be a jerk and has a very big ego of himself… but for all we know, he might not be as heartless as he plays himself out to be.

and even he can agree what Pink did to both Spinel & Vollie, was crossing a line and super messed up.

Adam could see a bit of himself in Spinel, because he was left by his first wife and well there could still be more to the story, even we the fans of the show and Charlies doesn't know about.

those three were badly hurt by both Pink and Lilith, and for all we know, Adam was really badly hurt by what Lilith and Lucifer. but it could be possible that both Adam & Lucifer are victims of Lilith. and the reason why Lucifer can't truly see it, because of his feelings for her. and who knows what could of caused them to split-up from each other.

Lilith wanting some freedom and be her own person is good, but her being possibly a terrible person to both Adam and Lucifer, and making herself seem like a "hero" to her daughter, is a different story. we just have to wait and see if it all turns out to be true, and if it is true that the Lilith from the show is who we think she might truly be.

then the whole nickname I said before that has to do with her being "The First B**th" would fit her perfectly, and no I ain't spelling it without placing some censoring in there.

and once again, I kind of hope that the whole Eve thing ends up being canon, because those two stories I read that has to do with Adam, makes me wish it was canon.

like it being like the few ideas that were put in Deltarune AUs and it turns out it ends up being accidentally predicted canon events of Deltarune's Chapter 2.

it wouldn't be the first time a fan when making some fan stories ended up predicting future canon… like the whole Ice King being in the Fridge in Adventure Time…but it may have been in a chapter of a fanfic first before it happen.

in real life, that could be dangerous of course…Ice King is of course what we know as a "Toon" and he has Ice powers so he will be fine. in a Crossover that is a Fanon Timeline, Adam and Lucifer should just throw Lilith to the Ice King….

also if you have ever wrote a fanfic that has Ice King doing that weird thing, where ya find him in a refrigerator and then some year or so later, in the cartoon he is in the refrigerator.

so of course some will end up freaking out, that would be like one of those accidentally predicting canon events even if the scene is slightly different from the fanfic.

and even if the chances are low and might not happen, but a part of me kind of hopes that the thing with Adam and Eve that was in those two stories, ends up being one of those accidental predicting of future canon events.

and yeah, while I can still view Charlie & Emily as a bit of kindred spirits, but even they should learn there is just some Sinners that are too far gone to be redeemed… some who are far worse than The Vees and any other Sinner who is either a Overlord or not.

who knows if they will show the much darker side to Sinners in the shows, but if they do then it would mean that both redemption & extermination day is needed.

but the whole Extermination Day, might have to change the way its done and not go after every Sinner.

like don't know if that will really happen in the show, and if it doesn't, well there is always the Fanon.

we just have to wait and see what happens in the future.

also, I thought it be a good idea to have the option for those to skip the whole talk about the messed up logic and twisted form of justice that has to do with that whole possible future with Jesus and Antichrist, and yeah what they both want to do does peeve me off.

I can still try to believe in the good side of Jesus, but I refuse to let him or his Army hurt people who might make mistakes that made them believe there was no other way...and that goes double for the Antichrist as well. (I still think that NO one should take that mark...)

hopefully The Earthly-Mother and The Feminine Messiah, can stop those two...well them helping stop them, as well as hope the Heavenly-Father helps as well.

anyway, I still think Adam would get along with Spinel and Pink-Pearl.

and as weird as it might be, I think they have some things in common.

even if some of the bad experiences the three of them faced are different, but they were still hurt by Lilith (Charlie's Mom) & Pink/Rose (Steven's Mom)...

I'm gonna keep a eye out for the updates for those two stories "The eve of Adam" and "Adam/Eve" because I can't help but fall in love with the idea that has to do with the true story about Adam & Eve.

and I know the chances of what goes on with Adam in both of those stories, is a small like super small chance being one of those times when fans accidentally predict canon events of either a future chapter of a game or like in a future episode of a new season of a show.

no one could of guessed that some fan animation and audio would accidentally predict that Kris from Deltarune, would eat the whole pie.

but I still think they had left the house first, broke into the library, open a dark fountain in the computer room, and then once they were done they came home and ate all the pie...which would be their perfect cover for what they were really up to.

Kris is obviously Nonbinary in the canon.

so in any AU of the Fanon, they could be a Enby, Enboy or Enbirl.

if they are a Nonbinary-Girl in some AU, they would go by She/They and if they are a Nonbinary-Boy they would go by He/They.

but in the main timeline of the Delatrune Universe, they go by They/Them.

and yeah, no one could of guesses while playing Chapter 2 pf Deltarune, another fan work would end up accidentally predicting the canon events that would appear in that chapter...

that is why I love it, at least it is better than the whole Simpsons Predictions, and I hope someday that series will just...you know, it can still do reruns and sell DVDs and stuff of all the seasons.

but I think I would rather have another season of Futurama and Disenchantment, because of certain reasons...

and yeah, I'm talking about the predictions that are talked about that happen in the show, and NOT by fans.

I still would rather that show stop being worked on so much, and just put a bit more focus on Disenchantment, but the chances of that might be really small...hopefully they will have a final season of the Simpsons at some point, and maybe someday make a Spin-Off that doesn't make creepy prediction.

one of the things that should change, is that they can't just kill off a character just because either something bad happens to the character's voice actor, either that something bad happens to them or they quit.

I can't be the only one who thinks there is something seriously wrong with that messed up sugar honey ice tea...

I mean in that old cartoon of the House Of Mouse, they could still have King Louie appear but he lost his voice, so his brother has to do most of the talking, and King Louie has to wait until a new voice he orders comes in.

I get that the lady hated the lost of her husband who voiced King Louie, but she shouldn't stop the character that her husband gave some life to with his voice, from appearing in a episode.

that is selfish and insensitive, that just hurts the Toon that was given a voice by those who put their hearts and souls into the work, either it be a cartoon, movie or video game.

like it can turn out when a Toon loses their voice, before the completion of their series, and even before some spin-off of the series.

if a Toon loses their voice way too soon, it means that the one who gave them their original voice has left this world.

in some cases, it can be when they quit and leave, but in some cases it can be when they leave this world a bit too soon.

and some characters who live in a Cartoon or Video Game or the mix of Live Action/Cartoon Worlds, they do deserve better.

and some people who have made great shows like Red Vs Blue, Hazbin Hotel, Helluva Boss and any others who had change voice actors for some of their characters, do a bit more better than what the Simpsons series are known for, as well as the whole King Louie situation from one of the House Of Mouse episode.

we know that Caboose's voice actor had to change, because of some info about his original voice actor.

like whenever a character, either it be a 2D, 3D or even a CGI character.

whenever they loose their voice, it can be either when the person who gave them their original voice had quit, or when they go to the afterlife...

for some characters we can think they get a new voice from some kinda of voice ordering system, but in real life it has to do with finding the right person to replace the previous person who gave them a voice.

I guess I can still like the Simpsons, but I haven't been watching much of it but maybe I can find the time to once in a while.

I just am not a big fan with the creepy stuff that has been going on with it...

it be nice if others ended up drawing The S.A.P. Squad as well.

don't know how many would end up falling in love with it though.

anyway I'm going to go and find the tumblr of the one who wrote "The eve of Adam" and once again, also I'm still gonna keep a eye out for the next chapter of that, as well as that one that is "Adam/Eve"

and yeah I know it is wishful thinking that might end up being one of those accidental canon prediction, but if the thing that happens in those two stories doesn't happen in the future season then we can just be happy it does in the Fanon.

but anyway it might be thanks to reading a bit of "The eve of Adam" and "Adam/Eve" over at Archive Of Their Own, that made me realize a bit more on how Adam is a bit like Spinel and Pink-Pearl.

even if he still has that whole jerk side to himself, but him hiding that hurt and fragile soul that could turn out to be canon, it makes one just want to protect that First Adorkable Goober.

give that man a hug, and have him watch Steven Universe Movie and have him watch the whole series of Steven Universe, even the Steven Universe Future which even if some fans don't like, but I still love it because it shows some truths about Greg Universe we have been ignoring the whole time and if we re-watch the start of the series we will understand that the episode where it shows the truth about Greg's Parents, just shows that he is no better than them.

even if Greg might have some good points, he might not of saw the full picture, I mean one of or both of his parents could of suffered from that one thing that I forgot the name of...

that has to do with not being able to handle really loud sounds to the point it can become painful for them.

and like Steven said, Greg's Parents probably gave him meatloaf for a reason...and if they did have to change it up a bit, they could put some mustard on top of the meatloaf, have different stuff mixed in there if Greg was tired of the same type of meatloaf.

I can still like the good side of Greg, but he couldn't see that him and his parents were both in the wrong, and he was probably just being a insensitive spoiled brat, who couldn't think that maybe his parents couldn't get him all that he wanted, because they just didn't have the money for it.

or the fact that the reason there was a freaking curfew for him, as well as chaperons was to keep him safe and out of danger.

and the fact they made him take up wrestling, was for self-defense so he could better protect himself.

if Steven learned all that from either his Honorary Uncle who is his Dad's Cousin, or by his Grandparents or all three of them.

he would learn that his Dad didn't have the full picture, and things could of worked out better if Greg and Steven's Grandparents just sit down and talk it out.

if Greg's Parents were going through some Money troubles, and one or both of them had that one thing that has to do with them not being able to take very loud sounds, like when Greg turns his music up way too loud to the point it becomes painful for one of them or both of them, and it has to be either the Dad or Mom or both to go to Greg and get him to either turn it down or turn it off...but with how Greg is, he likely either ignores them or doesn't hear them.

and if there is going to be another series of Steven Universe in the future, I hope they will have Greg's Parents side to the story added in there.

and as weird as it sounds, I kind of want to try meatloaf with some guacamole on top.

after trying guacamole for the first time in April 2024, I found that I liked it.

so after talking about the whole meatloaf thing, and thinking about that.

I want to put some guacamole on meatloaf and eat it.

anyway hope some like this crossover fan art of The S.A.P. Squad.

I hope others end up drawing those three characters together as well.

like them being like "I bud it" cause not all ships are romantic and some are platonic but with some platonic ships, you don't call them ships or use the whole "I ship it"

you either use "I bud it", "I fam it" or "I sib it"

the "I fam it" & "I sib it" being Family and Siblings.

Frisk and Chara being adopted by The Dreemurr Family, is a "I Fam It" type.

also I hope some understand about my thoughts and feelings about not to misinterpret, when we do misunderstand something without getting all the facts, sometimes hurt feelings happens.

of course that thing that happen a few years ago with that Toxic-Religious person who hurt my feelings really badly, was anything but a misunderstanding...they just couldn't accept I believe in a Goddess now, even though I can still believe in God as well.

and maybe when I'm able to, I will post that drawing that was inspired by that "Adam/Eve" story, but it might not be happening right away. and anyway, I will keep a eye out for the future chapters of that story as well as the one that is called "The eve of Adam"

as well as keep a eye out for other future chapters of the other stories I'm reading as well.

anyway hope some like the whole S.A.P. Squad and the idea of Adam from Hazbin Hotel becoming friends with Spinel & Pink-Pearl from Steven Universe. :)

and once again, it is thanks to reading those two stories, that made me see even more that Adam is just a misunderstood bad boy, and Lilith may not be all as she appears, and she might be a two-faced, lying witch who has Lucifer and Charlie fooled.

and if there are more than one Lilith in our universe, there being like The Matriarch (which would be Adam's first wife) and The Lesser-Lilith who is the youngest...

if that happen in some Fanon Timeline, The Lesser-Lilith who is the youngest could be like seen as the older sister figure of Charlie maybe. who might not agree with some stuff that the Elder Lilith has done to both her ex-husbands.

well if some info is true, then right after The Lesser-Lilith, would be The Small-Lilith...but we don't have to get into that at the moment.

even if the name S.A.P. Squad doesn't make sense to some, but it came to me when wanting to do this drawing that has Spinel, Pink-Pearl and Adam.

you could say they have a Sappy Friendship. XD

#do not reblog without permission #mature audiences only #crossover fanart #crossover au #spinel steven universe #pink pearl steven universe #adam hazbin hotel #steven universe fanart #hazbin hotel fanart #april 2024

[crowsblogs]

I feel like my story with accepting I'm a lesbian is a tricky one, and it only took until mid/late last year to truely accept. I came out at the age of 10 or 11, telling my mom I liked both girls and boys, but she told me I was too young to *choose* that. I came out about two more times over the next year or so, and when I was 12 or 13 I came out to her as transgender (male), and she automatically didn't fully accept it. She told me I was too young and I didn't really KNOW. Well, I wrote her a letter about it and she talked to my uncle's (married, who are gay) for advice, but they really couldn't give any. She accepted it, but it was hard for her. She didn't really use he/him pronouns and also didn't really try using my preferred name, but did make attempts.

When I was 15 I told my therapist that I was being abused by my father, and my mom had been told as it had to be reported. She then thought the only reason I wanted to be a boy was because of the abuse, but it took another year and seeing a doctor to get onto testosterone to tell her otherwise. Around that time I had been friends with/dating a guy that we were not compatible at all with, we were horrible for each other and nothing would've worked out, so my mental health was at a bad low. I identified as gay to bisexual, I think I was too scared of coming to say I only liked girls because that person had also been transmale, and I didn't want him to assume I saw him as female, which I never did. A part of me was also too scared to admit it because, my mom didnt really see me as male, and I didn't want to let her further down by saying I only liked girls. It was hard, I felt as if, even if I didn't identify as male, I still had to like guys.

At 16 I started testosterone hrt. At 18, my mom died. A lot of shit happened and I couldn't handle life basically. I continued to say I was bisexual to gay and then identify then as transmasculine non-binary around 18 as well. Again, I was too ashamed to admit I like only females, also because I absolutely loved male fictional characters (so that had to make me gay mlm, right?)

Then in 2022 I realized I'm not transmale, and that's okay, it's how I thought I identified and that's valid, but I did identify as masc nonbinary. Then I tried to accept that I loved only girls, but I was ashamed because I didn't want to let anyone down by liking them, so I went and said I was bisexual so it'd seem "better." (I also do not care what's in their pants, as long as they identify as female. So yes ily nb and transfems <3 I prefer personality and actions more than anything.)

Something happened late 2023, I'm not sure what, but I set in the fact I'm a lesbian (and also genderfluid). I felt shame, but I have amazing friends who keep me solid, and also joked about being a lesbian. I never had such a strong friend support system before, and they all mean the world to me. I still feel like I'm letting people down by not liking men, but I'm happy now. My little genderfluid and lesbian self can't be happier.

It took a LONG time, but I'm glad.

Thank you for coming to my book reading lol.

#crowtalks #lesbian #coming out #story #lgbtq #sapphic #genderfluid #non-binary

[sharkneto]

any random hcs/thoughts you have that dont fit in your JT/HT fics? something you think is cool but cant explore or dont have time for?

Oh boy, I have lots of little odds and ends that don't fit and probably won't turn into anything.

Lots about Rob and Sarah (some of these details can be found HERE) as I've figured out their backstories and history together. It's turned into quite the tooth-achingly sweet romcom.

Outside of general Rob and Sarah romcom, I think about random scenarios that just don't fit into HIT canon all the time. Amanda meeting our Five (touched on HERE). A fun one where Amanda gets kidnapped with Five (JT Five - Number), Five gets drugged heavily to keep him from doing anything, and Luther and Diego save the day through unwilling team-work while Five is drugged-up but actually pretty pleasant deadweight. Generally, more mixing and matching of siblings with Rob, Sarah, and/or Amanda are things that are thought about regularly.

And then there's the HIT canon stuff that just didn't make it. I should write a little one-shot or something sometime of Amanda running into Five at a house party before the whole Alley Incident because I've only written him when he's a sad, angry drunk but when he's just letting loose he's a chill, fun drunk. He drinks to not think and he is Not Thinking.

Random specific headcanons... - Sarah doesn't want kids and is bad at them, not a maternal bone in her body. She does her best but she just has no clue what she's supposed to do with them. This does extend to pets and she doesn't actually like Mr. Pennycrumb much outside of that he's good for Five and Five adores him. She thought she had a kindred spirit in Five with all this until he fell head-over-heels for his silly little dog. Rob is actually pretty good with kids but doesn't feel strongly about having any and he's a little... just this side of clinical when hanging out with them. How brains develop and kids figure things out is just so cool. He at least has experience with them with his nieces and nephews. - A tangent of the above is Rob's family. Sarah is an only child. Bam, easy, done. Rob is the youngest of three (brother 10 years older, sister 7 years older), and those siblings started having kids when Rob was in high school. Those kids are now starting to grow up and the first one now has a kid of her own. Christmas with Rob's family is A Lot and includes Rob's parents, his siblings and their spouses, his siblings' kids (two and three each, respectively), and his brother's first grandkid. The niblings all think Rob is Super Cool because he was Cool, Young Uncle Rob when they were little and that doesn't just go away. Rob's mom loves all the grandkids (and the great grandkid!) but would really love to have some grandkids from her youngest. Sarah is already overwhelmed by being surrounded by Walters and does not appreciate this pressure and how the Children Conversation is a conversation that somehow happens every time they see Rob's mom. Shout-out to @non-plutonian-druid for the deep dive we went in on this lol. There is a fun potential holiday fic somewhere in here. - Rob doesn't like classical music. It's on constantly at the hospital psych ward and at his office's waiting room for a Calm Mood and he's sick of it. I haven't actually thought about what music he does like. Sarah does 80s rock, but Rob... I like the idea of him listening to Dad Rock (despite not being a dad), but it could also be some truly random 90s stuff from his college days (of which I am not very familiar with despite being alive then because I was young and my dad was partial to the 70s and my mom was partial to classical). - Rob and Sarah broke up exactly once while they were dating, for three weeks. Sarah did the breaking up because she realized Rob was probably the Real Deal after they'd been dating for a year and a half and she Panicked. Rob was crushed but tried to respect her decision and space and hope she'd come back. She did in the form of falling off her bike and getting a concussion and Rob was still her hospital emergency contact. He takes care of her until someone else can come because he's still in love with her and their life is a romcom. Sarah cannot actually remember why she broke up with him because she's concussed. In trying to figure it out, trying to tell him he can be a little overwhelming in how there he is all the time, she says she broke up with him because he's "too Midwestern". Rob is understandably upset that they only broke up because he's from Iowa. They figure it out. - That post went around a bit ago about "what does your blorbo's phone look like" and that legit got me out of a no-words-funk thinking about Five's phone. I think it has exactly one catastrophic crack across the screen from when he first got it, went "I don't need a case", and was good without a case for like a week until he got too drunk and did drop it and it immediately cracked. It now has a Really Good Case - dark blue and slim but was really expensive so that you can practically drop it off a building and it will be okay without being obnoxiously bulky.

That's probably enough for now. I can ramble about my silly little blorbos forever lol

#thank you for the fun ask and the invite to ramble :) #ficblogging #sarah #i should have a rob tag #homemade blorbos #ask response #long post #i was going to put a readmore for the specific headcanons but tumblr isn't cooperating and i can't be fucked to figure it out

[emancipationofa]

wow. can’t believe that I’m here right now. this blog was honestly forgotten about. its been 3 years. and a lot has changed. i honestly think that the only reason i’m back is beacuse i feel alone again. and weirdly telling my problems to strangers on the internet makes me feel less alone. like maybe someone out there is listening and cares how all of this ends. where do we start?

i guess we can start with the realtionship to get that out of the way. so i was with iman. it was a rollercoaster. things were so good before we officially got together. honestly i say that but the whole realtionship was built on my fear that he would leave me again. once that fear was gone, it turned into me feeling stuck and unloved. from the beginning people told me to not go out with him but i didn’t listen. i never listen. we started dating in november of 2020. that’s when he finally asked me out. in december we both got academically dismissed from our college. my home life was toxic at the time so moving back didn’t seem like an option. so i got an apartment in my name and he moved in with me. it was fine in the beginning but things turned sour fast. i was working for a maid company and it took him a long time to find a job. the honeymoon phase was over. real life was starting. and i was working 8-10 hours a day and then having to come home to a “dirty” apartment full of unpacked boxes. to add insult to injury, most days he just sat at home doing nothing while i was working. eventually, he got a job and i got a new job. but still things weren’t good. i was now working better hours and woking from home but it was 10000x times more draining. getting yelled at on the phone for 8 hours a day by rich people because they wanted to go on vacation sucked. but it was good money and the job he had barely contributed. but we made it through. the finacial struggles really hurt our realtionship. i was resentful because no matter how hard i worked, we always sturggled because he wasn’t working enough. and then i got sick. II was diagnosed with Ulcerative Colitis when I was 16 and stress sends me intobad flare ups. and thats all that my life was. stress. my falre up started in augst of 2021. i had to go on medical leave from work which resulted in me having to quit in december after being hospitalized for the second time. Eventually, i started having problems with my heart and joints. I was diagnosed with a few other chronic illnesses. My doctors theorize that because my Ulcerative Colitis was so bad for so long, it affected/damaged other parts of my body. so then i was 19, with no job, and iman had started being responsible for all the bills. he tired really hard but he just couldn’t get a handle on it. Our relationship was so up and down at this point. things would be good for a little bit but then we’d fall back into being short with eachother. i started to feel like i’d never be good enough and that we would never be happy again. i was crying constantly and in the lowest mental state i had been in, in a very long time. panic attacks every other day and i didn’t know how to fix it. but i stayed until june of 2022. i had so much faith in our realtionship but it was misplaced. i should’ve been putting all that effort and love into myself instead. but in june i left for a fmily renunion and the space away from him and being around my family made me realize that i needed to get out. so i asked my mom about moving back in with her. me being out of the hosue for a few years really helped our realtionship. so after the family reunion i went back for 2 weeks and packed some stuff.while i was there, my mom called to let me know that my uncle bruce had passed away. it broke my heart. i was 20 at tis point and at the family reunion i got to hang out with everyone for the first time as an adult and really get to know them. my whole life i loved and adored all my great uncles but eing around them as an adult changed everything. the love i feel for them now is what i imagne the people who say family is everything mean. so being able to drink with him and really talk to him and then him passing away two weeks later broke me. his funeral was hard. i cried almost the whole time. but my family is beautifl. it was a beutiful service. and the party we had afterwards to celebrate his life was even better. i got to meet one of his sons that i never met and now that boy is my heart. i love talking to him and he makes me feel so seen and heard with my queer identity. (oh yeah still non binary if you were wondering.) we got bracelets at the funeral and i haven’t taken it off. it says help someone today. he was always helping people. he even sent me money because of me being sick and not being able to work. rest in peace uncle bruce.

i moved back home after the funeral. it was hard at first but evntually it got easier. my confidence skyrocketed. i feel like the prettiest mf on this planet. idk if its bc im mentally unwell but i literally am in love w myself. i’ve also been getting a lot more attention. idk if its the confidence but the men r coming from left snd right. its pretty wild if u ask me. no girls though which is kinda wack but i guess thats the nice thing abt being bisexual. more options. when i first moved home i was talking to my ex caleb. but i wanted it to be just me and him and that wasn’t happening. so i moved on. i started talking to his friend chris. it was a short little fling but it was fucking crazy. he did his girlfrind bogus over me and i was fine with it at first. they say hurt people hurt people. and that what i did. idk her but if u ever read this im sorry. no one deserves what he put u thtough even if yall weren’t doing good. and i’m sorry for my part in it. then there was kam. i liked kam but it was alway just as a friend. we had sex a few times and it really wasn’t for me. it was fun but idk sex with no feelings just doesn’t scratch that itch for me. and then he got me pregnant. i didn’t know i was pregnant. im on a lot of strong meds which pretty much made my birth control obsolete. but i had no clue. so i was till taking my birth control which caused me to miscarry. i wasn’t sure if i was actually miscarrying for a while but then i was positive. i had a misscarrige when i ws 15. i didn’t know it at the time but having one at 21 made me certain thats what happened back then. im lowkey terrified that i’m not able to have kids. it scares me everyday. and sometimes i think about getting pregnant on purpose but i push that thooght out of my head as quick as it comes. but fter the miscarrige i didn’t really wanna have sex with him anymore. that was too much truama to go through with someone who i wasn’t even tryna be with. and eventually he stopped hitting me up. which i don’t really care about but i do miss being his friend. after that i wasn’t really talking to anyone for a bit until zion popped up. i met Z in the 6th grade. I had just tranferred to emerson and he was a drum major. I immediatly liked him but he had a girlfriend. i may or may not have beat her up because she tried to say something to me about my crush on him. i was alittle crazy back then. but i transferrd and moved on. years later he transferred to my highschol and i was instantly falling for him again. but ntohing ever came of it. but now we’re grown. and im on him baddddd. i like him so much and we haven’t even been talking for long. i really want to be with him. and i haven;t felt this way in a while. i feel like a lovesick puppy. but thats enough for now. enjoy th typos. its almost 5 am and i’m not going to edit this lol

-M

[into-wonderland-caroline]

Not that anyone is asking or I think many if any at all will read this but I want to write a blog giving a short overview story of my life so far. Here goes: My family is originally from new York. My mother lived and grew up there with her parents and younger sister and my father grew up in new York only in a different way. He never knew his bio parents and spent his childhood-the age 18 in and out of foster homes and group homes . My parents met in high school - oddly enough my mom is actually a year older than my dad. They began dating her junior year his sophomore year. Both were good A B students their entire highschool career and both athletes my mom and dad both ran cross country. Dad played basketball mom played volleyball. They both enlisted to serve in the armed forces after they graduated high school and they both graduated high school with honors. They got engaged middle of my dad's senior year of high school and were married at the courthouse that summer following his high school graduation. Fast forward through each of them completing basic training and now they start a family. Theo was the first child. Two years later came Liam . Mom and dad knew they always wanted three children but for whatever reason they had trouble getting pregnant after Liam so I was not born till 5 years after Liam. When I was 2 we moved to New Mexico and Dad was sent over seas. At the the age of 4 we had to hire a live in nanny because mom was being sent off as well. This nanny lived and moved and stayed with our family from the time I was four until I was 11 almost 12...in those years she abused me mentally, physically and sexually (actually she brought men into our house who sexually abused me while she watched). To this day my brothers swear they had not a clue our nanny was being so horrible to me and I do believe them that they didn't know. I finally told at age 11 and that situation blew up and ended with chaos and police reports and it was horrible. I was diagnosed with complex PTSD and reactive attachment disorder. Later I would also have added generalized anxiety disorder, OCD, Anorexia, and Orthorexia . Also I forgot to mention from 4 - 11 my family did move a few times. We moved from New Mexico to Michigan then to California then North Carolina. We spent a good bit in north Carolina when I was 11. That is where my mom's sister, Aunt Mel lived and Uncle Bryan had just recently died suddenly and unexpectedly of a heart attack . It was truly awful. My aunt Mel is 4 years younger than mom and here she is already a widow with 2 little girls. My cousins, Kenzie who was only a year younger than me 10 and then Grace, 8 years old. Our family spent a good couple years in north Carolina. I liked it there and I got to get really close with my cousins. The summer I was 12 my whole family- my dad, mom, brothers, aunt and cousins we took vacation and went to Hawaii. It was incredible and beautiful and the best 2 weeks of my life! On that trip is when the plan was developed for Aunt Mel and her girls to basically just move with our family. Aunt Mel has a mobile work from home all on the computer job anyways so that way we could be there for them since uncle Bryan passing and Aunt Mel could be there if my parents got deployed or something they'd have someone trust worthy. Not nanny. So that has pretty much been life since. Shortly after vacation (like 2 months after) we moved to Florida. I developed anorexia and Orthorexia and did my first stint in residential treatment at 14 years old. It is very difficult for me to talk about life and relate to others when I feel like I have lived a kind of life most do not relate to. Home school, both parents in the service so they are both gone very often, nannies, moving a lot, am I spoiled with nice houses and things and animals yes.....do I have a very fun close bond with my brothers, cousins and pets also yes. Do I have crazy respect for what my parents do? Yes. Doesn't make it easy.

Other than that some other randoms about myself I love vintage fashion 20's-80's . I want to be a novelist. I love to read. Love black and white photography. I 'm a music enthusiast pretty much listen to everything from jazz to rock to classical piano to hip hop to pop to punk. Anything except country music please. I love nature...going for runs, walks, hiking, biking. I also enjoy playing soccer and volleyball and tennis. I enjoy dance. I take a couple classes. I take ballet, jazz, lyrical, and hip hop. I play piano . I want to learn to play the cello I think that would be so cool. Anyways that's it for now

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