#getting this off my chest

[agrebel18]

i didn't ship Lokius or see them as romantic in season 1, but even i knew Something Was Up when Mobius was the only person who was visibly disgusted (rightfully) and straight up jealous of Loki and Sylvie interacting or mentioning each other and got all petty, like damn dude, you're TERRIBLE at hiding that you want Loki to kiss you and spend time with you instead

#getting this off my chest #they're so real #lokius #loki x mobius #loki #loki series #loki show #cw shipping #romance mention #loki spoilers

[julieiscurrentlyoffline]

This situation is terrible.

(IK I HAVENT BEEN POSTING MY ART I WILL SOON I PROMISE)

seriously though, these "victims" are disgusting. At some point, i actually liked Ven's art, so to me, this makes me hate them even more. It just baffles me how many immature adults there are. i knew the moment i heard about it, it was probably a witch hunt. And geuss what? it was. All this, just because of some stupid butt hurt ex. Alex, ik you probs wont see this, but i care about you. Even if you cancel tmc, ill cherish all the good times. Any way, this situation has been bothering me, so i finally can get it off my chest. Ik this is a bit odd iroduction to me but trust me, im usually not this into drama. THIS IS NOT AN APRIL FOOLS JOKE

#Alex Kister #the mandela catalogue #tmc #alex we love you #fuck the “victims” #getting this off my chest

[messiluvr]

lionel messi & pep guardiola: the greatest player/coach duo in the history of the sport

#getting this off my chest #they were insane for this #leo messi #pep guardiola

[elkitot]

Hello I’ve been thinking about posting this for a couple days and please feel free to call me out if needed Yesterday I saw the long list of celebrities who signed the pro Israel open letter to Biden and although most of the names weren’t that surprising there were a few that had me shocked. As more celebrities reveal themselves as pro Israel/zionst a question has been bouncing around in my head that I want peoples opinion on so if anyone actually sees this please answer honestly. I know that I should be worrying about more important things and worst things are happening in the world then this. The question is it acceptable to still like/support a character while disliking the actor? Or does separating the actor from the character work in this situation?

#free palestine #your opinion #be honest #I wanna do better #questions #support palestine #digital diary #getting this off my chest #actors #characters #call me out #open conversation #vent post i guess #movies #tv shows #separate the actor from the character? #i hope people see this #honestopinions #celebrities #long post #music

[butchered-icarian]

listen to hozier like half sitting, half standing at a dimly lit, gritty bar scanning your eyes across the crowd looking for someone to walk home with. like sitting in darkness on your own somewhere amongst concretes and metals in a big city, listen to the pouring and roaring of a summer storm, waiting for something, someone you know you're supposed to know, to meet. like standing on public transportation during rush hour, noisy and sweaty, wanting an escape, wanting for some glimpse of recognition like you, yes you.

listen to hozier like a conflict, a feel of unjust you feel throbbing in your chest, and listen to hozier like needing, craving, yearning to cover your hunger to shake and change everything, then to meet your destiny along the process.

#getting this off my chest #hozier #croissant rambles

[subtracteline]

I can’t wait for Alecto to come out and for her to do more horrible unforgivable things so everyone can stop taking away her agency and calling her innocent

#the John hate imo is getting INSANE #what about what she did to him? the horrible transformation she forced onto him to save her #can’t she be selfish? #johns 10000 year campaign of terror is inexorably for her and in her name #ANYWAYS. #getting this off my chest #some of the posts criticizing John are really hard to read

[eclipse-moon96]

Idc what people say, Akira Zaizen ticked me off when he blamed Playmaker for what happened to Blue Angel, and even AFTER Playmaker saved his sister's life he REFUSED to let him have the data to learn about his past.

#yugioh vrains #getting this off my chest #like even getting a bounty hunter team after him really?! #the queen sucks

[writeradamanteve]

I like how there are posts about how they’re happy about Michelle Yeoh winning, then turning around and saying Blanchett was robbed.

And then they talk about how the Oscars should do better about diversity and…

If you want Blanchett to win, that is a PERFECTLY valid opinion. She was phenomenal and if she’d won it, she would’ve deserved it.

So—stick with that opinion. Don’t go saying “happy for Michelle Yeoh” then saying “I understand” and THEN “the Oscars should do better” with diversity.

Suddenly it’s a WTF moment where it absolutely sounds like Michelle Yeoh won purely on the basis of the Oscars wanting an Asian person to win.

What a dick move. Exactly like Kanye, Swift, and Beyonce, where you’re Kanye.

Don’t you worry. With moral licensing at play, all the cis white actors will have another handful of years to win awards again, before the Oscars decide “oh! This year we’re doing Mexicans!”

#too early but I’m steaming right now #getting this off my chest #like seriously #if you think i’m not calling that shit out #oscars #michelle yeoh

[bunny-hoodlum]

This'll prolly be in my Ch 2 author notes in some variation, unless I end up deciding to rewrite Ch 1 (of "Dissolve Me"). 😅

Admittedly, I could have done the research that I am doing now before I wrote and posted the story, but at the time I wanted to adhere to my muse. 🫣 (Not that I didn't do any research, but I no longer feel I had done enough research lol).

There's quite a bit that I'm going to have tweak that don't feel present, accurate and/or logical in the third scene. Characterization, motivation, etc. How Haku and Naruto would be discussing business in general, the paltry amount that Haku smuggled over, like... That might as well have been his personal supply. 🤔 Also, for some reason I feel like Naruto came off like a newbie grower, like he just intellectually knows what he has to do but hasn't actually ever tried. What I want for him is I want him to be more experienced than I feel I presented. I want him to have his own supply of shrooms, it's just that they're just common shrooms that he doesn't feel particularly proud about or anything.

Even if it's fine and I leave it alone, I think from the second chap onwards will be markedly different. 🤔

#writing journal? #thoughts #getting this off my chest #also I totally remembered that Nart was originally a weed dealer but #after learning about the overall drug history of Japan I forgot and changed his specification to shrooms lol

[cosmicwhoresimpingismyliving]

The overwhelming guilt I feel constantly for cancelling or not doing anything because my chronic pain levels are unbearable. I’m find it so hard to enjoy life majority of the time.

#tw depressing stuff #tw depressing thoughts #tw depressive #tw depression #chronic panic #chronic illness #hidden disability #meningitis #venting #need to vent #getting this off my chest

[innermachinationsofmymind]

Forgive me past and future self for how I have been treating current me. I was simply blinded by the illusion of making sure others were okay whilst neglecting myself allowing my truest self to fade and crumble. I am slowly working on us, better us so that we may see what the future will hold for us.

#my depression #my season depression is in motion #tw depression #tw seasonal depression #depression sucks #feelings into words #mental health matters #my thoughts #seasonal depression is on the horizon #words to paper #tw #tw anxiety #is this poetic? #is this poetry? #getting this off my chest #healing #self care #sorry future me #forgive me #forgiving #forgiveness #learning to heal

[avatarofacedia]

The Elephant Crushing Me

I can't tell you I am sorry. To be so, I would need to give you a promise. That I cannot do. I have held on years too long. The number of attempts and the half-baked self-destructive foils has left me shambled at my own hand. I don't want to hurt you. That's the only reason I have made it this long.

Now... In all honesty, I don't know if I really love you. I assume that I do. Why else would I care so much? What else would be preventing me from what I desire most? I know I do not have a healthy life- I don't have a model of what love really is. I know you love me, but love over a phone leaves much to be lost. I’m not so sure what love really is, so I cannot say for certain if I do or not. I feel like a liar either way.

...

I have been hurt over Daniel. So much more than I would ever care to admit. I know you don't remember, but I stopped talking to you for three months after finding out he was calling me "it." I've been so confused since then. I felt so betrayed. And I never want to sway you into a way of thinking. I'm always so careful with how I say things because I want you to be able to have your own opinions. Maybe I tried protecting you too much; held you far too close. I could never tell you this. I feel like I lost you then. And life has been so much worse ever since. I haven't been able to find stable ground.

I feel it is best to never face you again. I don't know how I could ever bear to. Even the image of you in my head is tainted. I have lost all direction. Colorado is no longer a dream. I don't know how this will ever be mended. If it even could.

Each day weighs so much more than it ever has. I lost much of myself that day. I hoped you'd break up with him. When you did, I was so hopeful. I held back so much because I wanted you to be able to choose. I want so much for you. Every bone in my body wanted to gaslight you. Every time you ask about him, I have to avoid it. I hate him. Truly. Deeply. And I hate even more that you're with him.

Marrying him broke the barrier. I could no longer hide from the reality that I lost that part in me that valued you so much. The disrespect he showed meant so little. I don't know. It was my fault for relying on you so much. I'm sorry. I won't do that again. I guess that's why I'm here writing a bloody blog instead of a suicide note.

I still care about you deeply. I wish you the best in the world. More than what I could ever give to you.

I know this will not be held over well. I cannot ask you not to be sad. All I can ask is you do not let any grievance prevent you from living. Take all you deserve. And then some because I know you will undersell yourself.

#letter to a friend #getting this off my chest #never the same #silent letters #i feel betrayed #betrayal #you betrayed me #i've been betrayed #when i said you are the company you keep you went quiet. is it because you knew i was hinting at you? in that moment did you feel guilty? #did you ever think about me #how it would hurt? #i never wanted to hurt you #i have lived through all this pain so i wouldn't hurt you #i loved you #i guess im a hypocrite

[weaselle]

listen. There's a whole mentality shift that needs to happen culture wide here, from the schools to the public infrastructure to pet ownership to the justice system

The proper response to your dog doing a natural behavior you dislike (digging/barking/protecting etc) it to give them an appropriate time and place to engage in that behavior

The proper response to skateboarders damaging infrastructure is to build more and better skate parks, or build skate elements into the public infrastructure on purpose.

The proper response to homeless people sleeping on park benches is to build them houses.

you see how there's like, a commonality at play here?

The proper response to a disruption is to address the root of the disruption directly, not somehow attack the disruption itself -

you don't invent a muffler by swinging a bat at the engine noise, you don't relieve your hunger by punching yourself in the stomach, you don't resolve public unrest by sending armed men to control them and you don't prevent homeless people using bus shelters as a roof by removing the bus shelters.

a whole ass shift in a basic mindset, i'm tellin' you. We need it.

#just had to get that off my chest

[noesa]

i think the thing that is specifically bothering me about the conversation about the new hbomberguy video ("live your life in a way so that hbomberguy doesn't tear into you for 3 hours", "hbomberguy has figured out how to death note someone through video essays", "oh new hbomberguy video [incredibly dense paragraphs of text] i now despise james somerton") is that it really feels like people aren't paying attention to what hbomberguy was actually saying. like, as much as he wanted to make people aware of the plagiarism issue, he also very explicitly did not like the fact that he might even remotely have a financial incentive to make those sorts of videos. and rather than the last video, which was a "get mad about this" call to action, hbomberguy spent this whole video sympathizing with the people who were directly out indirectly affected, and wanted the focus of people's attention to be on uplifting small queer creators

but also, negativity drives engagement so i guess it's to be expected.

#esse.txt #hbomberguy #this is just kinda weird vomit #but i wanted to get it off my chest #10k

[groundzero-v]

I noticed that an amazing fic I read with over 60k words and over 900 kudos...didn't receive a single comment in 2022.

There were some comments in 2021, then a gap, then a few comments from this year. That is insane.

Ao3 is not built like Wattpad, it is not meant to be treated like the 'latest hits' page where you only read the new works, or where you only click on sort by number of kudos. It doesn't matter if the fic you like is not wip anymore - if you really like the story, comment. A simple heart will do. The author won't think you're annoying, in fact they'll probably be incredibly happy.

Fic authors don't deserve to have their work just disappear with no engament after few weeks pass. The fics don't deserve it either

#just needed to get that off my chest #fanfiction #ao3

[sadistic-softie]

This Google search result for mommy issues sums me up perfectly and calls me the fuck out, lol. "Feeling like you must do everything perfectly" hits close to home.

Speaking of mommy issues, I think I have a genuine unconscious bias against women because several female figures in my life abused/traumatized me over the years. It's hard to trust that people in general are being honest or well-intentioned when they speak to me and I tend to just avoid friends in general on bad days because I'm overwhelmed by the idea committing to engaging with them because I know I wouldn't be able to bring myself to tell them when I need to be alone as it would make me feel guilty. Also, when someone near me is yelling in anger or arguing, I tend to freeze up and go blank reflexively, which is usually what I would do to avoid worsening tension with my mom. It's twice as bad when it comes to women in particular. I get an instinctual, "I'm not safe," and, "She's gonna hurt me" fear no matter who it is with the only exception seeming to be doctors and nurses. I get the "If the people you have known the closest since before you can even remember are dangerous people who can't be trusted, how can you trust anyone new not to hurt you?" type of feelings. I've noticed that with women, I struggle more with responding to small talk, starting conversation, asking questions, confrontation, and, most of all, expressing opinions. I've also noticed that I tend to over-apologize for minor mistakes, physically curl into myself, and that my voice gets quiet if I feel I may have upset a woman or I feel intimidated by one, whereas, with someone that's not a woman, I just apologize casually or ignore/avoid whatever is intimidating about the situation. I've been working on my traumas, but this is just some mommy issues psychology, I guess. I dunno. Just feels good to get it off my chest.

#getting this off my chest #vent post #vent #tw vent #tw abuse #mentioned #trust issues #commitment issues #mommy issues #social anxiety #ocd #trauma response #trauma #unconscious #bias #healing #very slowly #im trying #kinda feel like a coward #lol