#need to vent

[emerald-star-productions]

My Thoughts on James Somerton [RANT]

Before I begin this post, I highly recommend watching Hbomberguy's new video about Plagiarism. It's the main reason I'm discussing James right now & it provides a more detailed breakdown of what he did.

So for those of you unaware, Queer YouTuber James Somerton has recently been revealed to be a full on plagiarist, having done so for SEVERAL of his videos and isn't exactly the nicest to other queer creatives in the same video essay field as him. Got it? Good. Again, watch the vid.

Upon watching the video and learning about what James did, I was in such shock. My eyes widened. I had begun to see other essayists I follow "feel vindicated" about him being called out. Unbeknownst to me, it's the second part of the video where he's called out.

Having finished the video, I'm not angry. No, I'm PISSED. When one of my best/trusted friends recommended James' videos to me back in 2021, I was immediately hooked. I was inspired by him to further my own craft as a queer video essayist at the time.

To now learn that James is nothing more than a plagiarist who steals other people's content and doesn't even have an original thought to begin with? I'm hurt by this. In my rant video about queer rep, I referenced & linked one of his videos.

I can't even look at this video anymore. I don't even make essays anymore but I can't even look at one of my favorite essays in good faith anymore cuz the man I referenced may have plagiarized in said video I referenced. Do you have any idea how angry I am about this??

In a time where it's getting harder to be openly queer and to not feel scared by literally everything around me, James was that light in darkness that gave me hope. A queer creator who seem to be well-spoken and knew his shit. Come to find out that was never the case. I feel betrayed. He was the sole reason I kept making video essays in 2022. I almost stopped after The Glass Scientist vid but kept going cuz his vids inspired me to keep pushing to be a better creator. I donated money to his fucking production company. I was even one of his patrons for a short period of time. I left the patreon after he got into two different conflicts that pushed me away for the second half of 2022. He made some...not so great comments about Beyonce and her place as a queer icon.

And then he made a whole stink about not being a creator on Nebula. These two reasons, among other minor things, are what pushed me away from James for a good 6-8 months. I only returned to his content literally last month. Last. Fucking. Month. I thought maybe, just maybe, I could give him one more chance. His video on Red, White & Royal Blue was great...and then we get to Hbomber's vid...where apparently he plagiarized in that one too. I was suffering from second-hand embarrassment as Hbomber clocked everything James plagiarized and all of them happen to be videos I watched or took a look at. I felt cheated, betrayed and hurt. Cuz I thought James, at the very least, came up with his own shit. And as someone who works very fucking hard to write/rewrite their own works to near perfection & and takes writing very seriously, I was pissed off. I'm still pissed off now. I got sleep but struggled to stay awake cuz this was weighing on my brain. To now know that James is nothing more than thief who can't write his own shit, I'm disappointed. I pointed to him as one of my inspirations to push for more queer rep. No, he's not the reason I made Roomies...thank fuck for that. He didn't taint my one good thing. On the topic of Roomies, which has a lot of queer POC, I now question if he actually gave a fuck about other queer poc that didn't benefit him for a video. Cuz if we're gonna keep it a buck, most of his queer analysis has been mostly about yt folks. And let's not forget how this man regularly shat on women, both queer & straight. I know there's a discussion to be had about gay men being fetishized, but looking at it now, his views on women in general seem to be very...narrow-minded.

To wrap this up, I no longer support nor stand by James Somerton. Easy thing to do since I barely got back into his shit last month. To say I'm disappointed in you is a fucking understatement. No amount of apologizing is gonna fix this shit.

Good riddance.

#james somerton #hbomberguy #need to vent #queer #bi artist #queer artist #Youtube

[yournormsimp]

:(

#vent #need to vent #:( sad #:( #not okay #me need vent buddy #original art #my art <3 #help #art block #i got called weird by my bf and we broke up 😞 #someone 🥺

[bear-ylee-stable]

The problem is, if I asked you

to hold me

I think you would

I think you

would hold me in your arms

but I would still fall apart

#i swear #i’m fine #i just #need to vent #vent art #vent poem #venting

[gregmarriage]

lot of feelings about being disabled and bedridden and housebound etc, and the disappointment and sadness, etc that comes with it. especially, bc a girl asked me out for coffee and i don’t know how to let her down and say, ‘yeah, don’t hold your breath’

#i’m being very upfront and clear about things and she says she doesn’t care but like #i’m not like other girls #in the sense that i can’t go out with you super easily and we can go on dates #and hang out like non disabled girls #like sorry x #i dunno if a rando girl who doesn’t know me who i’ve been talking to for five minutes is gonna wanna be all that patient imao #idk feelin shit #i keep missing out on stuff and feel like life is passing me by and i keep trying to catch up and i keep getting kicked down #trying to have fun with a girl and immediately getting reminded why i can’t have this #i mean i CAN it’s just awkward and harder #just genuinely feel like it’s not gonna happen no matter how hard i try #oh you don’t feel like a relationship rn? well great bc you’re probably not gonna have one! #ughhhhh! #anywayssss i know i’m in my own head butttt #literally a massive fuckin buzzkill #like wow super cool of you to bring down the mood gwen! #whatever!! #need to vent #might delete this later

[thesschesthair]

Someone I grew up with was killed a few hours ago.

Saw them on my way to work last month and he was his usual ray of sunshine, in perfect health and happy-

I'll never ever get used to how sharp the shock is of finding out someone is dead. The disbelief is real.

#personal #need to vent #this guy was genuinely one of the nicest happiest people #he was never careful when driving bikes tho #and now look #i'm gutted #was always in my house as a teen and always bumped into each other #never will again

[a-femmefatalist]

Starting the week with an ear infection and on top of feeling like shit, one of my dogs has been sick too. Life is too much at times it feels unbearable.

#personal #need to vent

[jessmarianoswife]

Please please please tell me someone… anyone has watched the bedford diaries. I have the incessant need to talk about shows when i finish them, anyways lmk if you've watched it/want to watch it/are watching it and want to talk or just talk in general

#milo ventimiglia #i love it so much #talk to me #message me #need to vent #richard thorne #the bedford diaries #jess mariano

[motionlessxgirl]

Gareth banging you to Van Halen😏🥴

Random thoughts I have during work when I should be working

#gareth stranger things #gareth the great #gareth emerson #need to vent

[emerald-star-productions]

I've been hooked on My Adventures With Superman for 3 weeks now and you know what, I now know why.

This is the first superhero/action media I've been obsessed with in a long while.

To be clear, I've been obsessed with The Spider-Verse films thus far and the MCU's last hold on me was WandaVision. But outside of those, not much else has caught my attention. And I finally understand why.

I'm fed up with cinematic universes.

There's a reason my relationship with the MCU broke off post WandaVision. After that show, I pretty much lost interest in having to watch what's next cuz shared universe lol and how they'll try really hard to convince you to see all the films & TV shows just so you can keep up with the universe.

Between the fact that I'm a broke bitch, movies being expensive and having spent 10+ years keeping up with ALMOST every fucking film the MCU has offered...I may be a bit burnt out ngl.

Combine that with my immense disappointment in how Young Justice S3 turned out or whatever the fuck the DCEU ended up being as of it's recent offerings and you just have me facepalming repeatedly for the past couple of years.

The studios wanna keep making these interconnected films but keep forgetting the most important part when creating their 10+ films & TV shows: They're all reliant on what's coming rather than what's in front of them.

There are exceptions but not by much. Regardless, I'm genuinely tired of hearing about plans for a rebooted universe or how the MCU plans on giving us more shows & movies but can't be bothered to pay their workers fairly and rush their CGI artists to near death.

Which brings me back to My Adventures With Superman (or MAWS as I'll be calling it going forward cuz long title lol.) This show was the first time an action/superhero show has me hooked. Action shows used to be my shit and I'd obsess over them. Young Justice was the last show to hype me up. And sadly that show fell into mediocrity as well due to it's inability to know when plots should end and having too many characters on screen.

MAWS however is solely focused on Superman characters and has a much smaller cast as a result. It's not focused on expanding any bigger universe but instead focus on Supes' beginnings and how he becomes the great man of steel who protects Metropolis. For once I don't worry about anything beyond what's being established in said show's plots.

I can't wait to see what's coming next at the moment cuz I know the season finale will tie up most of the plots established while leaving us hanging with what's coming for S2. And honestly, that's all I really want. More self-contained media that isn't reliant on having a shared universe.

"But what about the DCAU back in the day???"

All those shows worked and ended up coming together for Justice League quite nicely cuz EACH SHOW WAS MOSTLY SELF-CONTAINED AND FOCUSED ON ITS CORE CHARACTERS FIRST. They weren't entirely worried about Justice League. Even then, the crossovers were solid cuz they were often one-offs and damn good ones as well.

If they choose to have MAWS be the start of some DCAU reset, I'd be down for that but I'm also ok with just having self-contained superhero projects from here on out. I am completely burnt out from shared universes and the severe case of FOMO I get when I choose to save money.

TL;DR Go watch MAWS and support this lovely cartoon. Superman is back y'all and he's amazing (so are Lois & Jimmy too.)

If you made it this far, I shall leave you with this meme-worthy pic of my son Jimmy from MAWS. Enjoy <3

#my adventures with superman #some thoughts #need to vent

[whattheresidentdidtoday]

Summertime Sadness - 4/18/23

Went to get my helix downsized today and talked to the piercer about what's involved in getting into piercing. She said she'd love to apprentice me, which is cool. Talked about her experience with the guy she apprenticed from, and how he didn't teach her that much so she kinda ended up teaching herself with practice and a lot of youtube videos.

She'll have to check if she's able to yet, but she's down to teach me. Told me to do research on some things, and then get back to her, I guess if I'm not squicked out by all the info (doubt I will be).

Annnnd, the bf. The inspiration behind the title. Idk if we're making it to the end of next month. Ever since he was fired he's been noncommunicative with me, idk why because he doesn't tell me what's wrong. Claims things are rocky between us...like just because it's harder for us to see each other doesn't mean it's "rocky".

And I try, I send texts. So many in a row I get annoyed at myself for having 4 texts to his 1. And I'm tired...tired of the one sided conversation, of being ignored and feeling like he's discarding me, tired of being the only one seeming to put in effort to keep the relationship going.

He used to claim he liked me, a lot. But he's not acting like it now. Not treating me like it. I've been crying myself to sleep and being mopey, it feels like I'm going through a break-up that hasn't explicitly happened.

He needs to decide if he still wants me or not. And then act accordingly. I can't keep waiting around for the crumb of affection. It's hurting me, and I need to protect myself, much as I loathe the idea of parting ways...

#helix piercing #body modification #piercer #youtube video #lana del rey #summertime sadness #heartbroken #im hurtin #gonna cry myself to sleep tonight #not even joking #bf #one sidedness #idk what to do #sorry for the rant #im just sad #need to vent #need advice

[bonesofhoney]

.-.

#hnfacyzhpgyn #pls ignore me again #but doing something to make yourself feel pretty #and then feeling the complete opposite of pretty immediately after #is so defeating #but the good news is #I’ve probably cried enough for another long while #thought I was broken for a bit #but nope ! #just had to realize just how much I hate myself :D #not looking for validation #or anything #pls pls pls ignore my dumbass #I just blhkkk #need to vent #🙃😪🤧

[cm1031sr]

Do you ever just sit back and think about how the rest of your life is going to be like this?

How every single day is just gonna be a constant struggle that is filled with nothing but pain and exhaustion and fear. And that no matter what you do or what you say or who you say it to, it is never going to get better and no one is ever just going to listen to you or believe you. It's been over 10 years and nothing has changed.

#tw depressing thoughts #rant #mental health #need to vent #real life #mental breakdown #help

[doll-full-of-joy]

Christopher needs to just disappear, why is he back? God, what the heck is going on in this season??

#need to vent #Gilmore girls season 6 #chris.just.go.please.

[cosmicwhoresimpingismyliving]

The overwhelming guilt I feel constantly for cancelling or not doing anything because my chronic pain levels are unbearable. I’m find it so hard to enjoy life majority of the time.

#tw depressing stuff #tw depressing thoughts #tw depressive #tw depression #chronic panic #chronic illness #hidden disability #meningitis #venting #need to vent #getting this off my chest

[ms-meredith-caine]

I’m sitting in the lounge if anyone needs to just talk, hang out or say nothing but just know you’re not alone!

#mentalheathawareness #talk to me #need to vent #hang out #mental health #safe space #safe zone #itsoktonotbeok #tell me #peertopeer

[im-like-if-a-girl]

Stayed up til 1 am to decorate just for my dad to get home and be like "oh, you decorated. Nice." And then immediately go to bed like. Thanks dad. Do you wanna help me put these boxes back in the basement or....?

#and i think i heard him complaining about the 'mess [I] made' while decorating because he 'just vacuumed today' like sir. #i will clean it up jesus christ #i decorated the whole house for christmas and this is the thanks i get? a 'nice' and 'i just vacuumed whyd you have to make a mess :('??? #just when i think things are getting better between us. #granted he was at a birthday party all day so hes probably wiped but. cmon man. complaining about the mess? really??? #and he didnt even ask me how my day was. i went to goodwill for your information. i fed my brother because you were gone. i bought a teapot #and i decorated the whole house you ungrateful-- *(sigh)* #whatever #i just #need to vent #venting #personal #my *(through gritted teeth)* father