#but now i have plenty of things that i could genuinely get lost in in order to wrap them up !! and i just want to know where to begin đ€
hello all, happy wednesday ! đâšïž
the writing has been good during the break, and i am knee deep in plenty of things right now that i plan to return with !! knee deep enough that i'm willing to share a bit more about them. i originally wasn't going to mention them until i fully returned, but i like where i am with many of them !! and therefore â almost want a bit of guidance on what to wrap up first !!
would you mind if i made a lil poll, with what i have ?? đ€ and i can go in order on where everything ranks ??
still no determined date on when i will come back but !! i want to be here before summer !! đ€đȘ»
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It wasn't the first time Eddie woke up to an empty bed after having someone spend the night. But it for sure was the first time it caught him by surprise.
He had been pretty sure things were different, with Steve. There was a real, proper date before they ended up in Eddie's bed together, after all. They held hands, they cuddled, they did all the romantic shit that Eddie used to scoff at and skip right past, before he got to know Steve Harrington. It hadn't felt like it was just about the sex: there had been tender touches and sweet words and soft kisses, and falling asleep in each other's arms afterwards had felt more intimate than anything Eddie had ever experienced before. So it didn't make sense to wake up and see no trace of Steve. No note, not a single piece of evidence that Steve had been there, not even something as dumb as a forgotten sock. Nothing.
As he went through his morning ritual of coffee, cereal and cigarette, he felt confusion make place for anger. By the time he was dressed and looking at himself while brushing his teeth in front of the crappy old bathroom mirror, he wondered how he could ever have been stupid enough to think that Steve would stay. The realization that Steve had apparently only used him to get what he wanted and dropped the act as soon as that happened, made him feel gross. He spit out his toothpaste with way more force than necessary and jumped in his van to tell Steve exactly that Eddie wasn't the kind of guy who tolerated being toyed with like that.
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When Eddie barged into Family Video, Steve was standing at one of the shelves with a big pile of tapes in his arms, the store empty and quiet except for some movie playing on the big screen in the background.
He looked up at the sound of the bell, and actually had the audacity to smile a soft, almost tender smile when he saw Eddie coming in.
"Hey there."
And, well, that truly did it for Eddie.
"Hey there?!" he repeated in a loud, shrill voice. "Seriously, Steve? What the hell, man? You sneak out of my bed after making me think what we did actually meant something, and now you greet me with a "hey there" like nothing has even happened?!"
Steve frowned; he looked genuinely surprised. Seriously, had none of the dozens of girls he probably pulled this on ever told him off? Or were they all worth staying for, contrary to Eddie the Freak Munson?
"Wha- What do you mean, making you think it meant something?" Steve stuttered. "It meant something. At least," he shrugged lightly and his cheeks colored into a light shade of pink, "to me it did."
For obvious reasons, Eddie found that a little bit hard to believe.
"Then why the hell did you sneak away at the crack of dawn like it was just some goddamn one-night stand?!"
Steve stared at him for a couple of seconds, his mouth falling open. Eddie had seen him look confused plenty of times before, but never like this - like he was missing something huge.
"I - I was allowed to stay?" Steve finally uttered. And it sounded so genuine, so small, so lost... All Eddie's anger easily got knocked out of him with that one question.
"You thought you weren't allowed to stay?" he asked, in a much softer voice this time.
Steve shrugged, suddenly avoiding Eddie's gaze.
"Yeah, I mean... I just assumed..." He swallowed visibly, seemingly searching for words. Finally, he fixed his eyes back on Eddie's face. "You actually wanted me to stay?" It sounded equal parts confused as hopeful, and the look in his brown eyes was so soft and innocent that it almost broke something inside of Eddie.
"Why the hell did you think I wouldn't?"
"I dunno, I just thought..." He looked away again, to a point just behind Eddie's shoulder as he continued, "Whenever a girl would come to my place, they'd always leave right after we finished. Or when I'd come to theirs, they'd have me leave through the window before their parents would notice. Some of them wanted to cuddle for a bit afterwards, but not, like, the whole night, y'know."
"Fuck, Stevie... I -" Eddie could barely believe what Steve was saying; it truly blew his mind that there were so many people who could have Steve Harrington in their bed and not want to keep him there forever. It made him furious - not at Steve, obviously, but at those girls who had made this perfect boy believe that he wasn't the kind of person people would want to keep around for what came after the sex.
"Falling asleep with you last night... That was the best thing that ever happened to me," he told Steve. It felt vulnerable, to say it out loud, but he knew he had to get it all out in the open. "I mean, don't get me wrong, the things we got up to before falling asleep were also pretty damn mind-blowing..." He couldn't help but chuckle. "But of course I wanted you to stay. I thought that would speak for itself."
"Oh," was the only thing Steve said, just blankly staring at Eddie for a couple of seconds. Then, his eyes widened as Eddie's words finally seemed to sink in. "Shit, Eddie, I'm so sorry, I didn't mean to -"
"It's okay," Eddie cut him off. "Can you uh," he nodded towards the video tapes in Steve's hands, "Put those away, please?"
Steve placed the pile on the shelf behind him and Eddie immediately launched himself into his arms, pulling him as close as humanly possible without crushing his bones.
With a surprised Oomph! Steve took a few stumbling steps backwards before he caught his balance again, and hugged Eddie back just as tight.
"I'm really sorry, I messed up," he said, his mouth close to Eddie's ear. "I had no idea. If I had known, I would never have left, seriously. I would've called in sick and made you pancakes, and I would've stayed with you in bed all day."
"It's okay," Eddie repeated. "I mean, it's frankly ridiculous that you'd assume I wouldn't want you around every single fucking morning from now on, but -"
"So can I make it up to you tonight?" Steve interrupted him, an eager undertone to his question. "Or actually tomorrow morning, I guess?"
Eddie leaned back slightly to see Steve's face. He was hesitantly smiling at him, and Eddie gave him a beaming smile in return. Then, he leapt forward again to press an impetuous kiss against Steve's lips.
"How 'bout you make it up to me every day from now on, big boy?"
"I dunno, making you pancakes every day from now on is a bit much, don't you think?"
Eddie laughed. "Then the deal's off, sorry."
"What if we take turns?"
He pretended to think for a moment. "Alright, I think I can live with that," he finally concluded, letting Steve pull him closer again to steal another kiss. And as long as he could taste Steve's lips, he couldn't care less about pancakes.
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Hazbin Hotel x Sick!Reader
A/N: Hey guys! I wanted to do some more x reader headcanons just because theyâre so fun! I love the idea of the characters caring for you when youâre sick, itâs just so cute. I hope you enjoy it!
Pairing: Hazbin Hotel x Reader
Warnings: None (if you don't count tooth-rotting fluff)Â
Characters: Alastor, Charlie, Vaggie, Angel Dust, Husk, Sir Pentious, Lucifer
đŠđ»Alastorđ»đŠ:
Essentially hides you away in his room: wants more than anything to take care of you, but refuses to expose this âsofterâ side of him to anyone else. If anybody knew that you were the Radio Demonâs only weakness, not only would that put him in danger, but you as well.
Will prepare any food that your heart desires - his mother brought him up to be an excellent cook! His recommended feel-good food is his motherâs jambalaya, but you absolutely love when he makes etouffee!
If anybody dares to try and disturb your well-needed sleep, he broadcast their screams to remind them just why the hotel has a radio towerâŠÂ
Will suggest that you take advantage of the bayou-side of his room for the fresh air, but of course will not force you to do anything against your complete comfort.
The best thing that he knows to do is what his mother did to him whenever he was sick: Sit in bed with him and tell him Creole folk tales. They always enamored him, and just the fact that he was allowing you to see this personal side of him made you feel better.Â
At the end of the day, Alastor would take advantage of the beautiful setting that the dark bayou side of his room provided and conjure up a lovely scene of fireflies, all while softly playing his piano and singing his favorite songs to guide you to sleep (You are the only person he will let hear his singing). While Alastor may seem heartless from afar, you wouldnât trade this demon for all of the money in the world.
đïžđCharlieđđïž:
Would definitely notice that you were sick before you did and insisted that you get plenty of bedrest. When you refused, insisting that you were ok, she would monitor you until you finally accepted that you were sick and let her take care of you. She would say, âIâm not saying I told you so, buuuuuutâŠâ
Takes care of you to the point where some tasks of the hotel were neglected, but to be honest, it was a win-win for everyone in the hotel. She was happy that you were being taken care of, and everyone else was happy that they didnât have to participate in trust exercises.Â
She would crack open her book of the story of Hell - it always calms her down during an extermination, so hopefully it could calm you down as you try to sleep.Â
If she absolutely had to leave the hotel to do/get something, she would most definitely buy a little keepsake and bring it back for you.
She would use her love for singing to lull you to sleep, singing sweet lullabies that her mother used to sing to her as a child.
You have to constantly remind her to take care of herself as well, as she will literally remain at your bedside, not caring to eat or sleep, until you get better. She often gets so caught up in caring for others that she forgets to care for herself! You tell her that it would genuinely make you feel better to see her taking care of herself as well.
đȘœâïžVaggieâïžđȘœ:
Gets more defensive over you than usual, which honestly scares everyone. Nobody wants to so much as speak to you wrong in fear of Vaggie literally attacking them. Having Vaggie around is the definition of scary dog privileges.Â
Sheâs honestly extremely dramatic when it comes to you getting sick, which may seem ridiculous, but think about it: she was thrown away by her âfamilyâ in heaven, and now youâre the only person that she truly has. You confide in her, you allow her to let her guard down. If she lost you, she doesnât know how she could even exist. So whether you have a cold or something more serious, she will automatically jump to the worst conclusions and get worried as Hell.
As tough as she seems, Vaggie loves to cuddle. She will literally lay in bed with you all day, not caring if she gets sick as well. Youâre the only person that she can be vulnerable with, and if you have to be in bed all day, you better bet sheâll be right there next to you.Â
Her love language is absolutely telling you about all the things that she would do to defend you. She will go into immense detail about the things that she would do for you, and you will always listen in awe. She has been through so much, and this is the only way that she knows how to express her true love for you.Â
The last thing she wants is for somebody to feel abandoned in their struggle like she did when she fell from Heaven, especially you. She will make sure that you know how much you are valued and loved, not just by her, but by everyone at the hotel.
When youâre finally ready to get out of bed and start participating in hotel duties again, she monitors you the whole time to make sure that youâre not over-exerting yourself.
đ·ïžđAngel Dustđđ·ïž:
Is very upset and on edge - Valentino forces him to work everyday, no matter the circumstances, and not being at the hotel to care for you or at least watch over you makes him feel horrible.Â
Basically forces you to sleep as much as you can, even better if itâs in his room so he can see that youâre okay immediately when he gets home.
Encourages you to cuddle with Fat Nuggets - heâs essentially a cute and cuddly heating pad. (He actually gives Fat Nuggets this adorable pep talk about how he needs to take good care of you while âdadâ is at work)
He wholeheartedly believes in the power of comedy, so he essentially treats your bedrest as a stand-up comedy show for him to perform in order to make you laugh. Heâll tell stupid jokes, put together horrible dances, or even just hide in places and scare you in hopes that making you laugh will help you forget how bad you feel.Â
Loves talking to you after work. Youâre essentially the only person that he takes off his hypersexual mask around, and he knows that he can be himself around you, that you would never judge him. So, sometimes he will get home to find you already asleep and get in bed with you, holding you tight, whispering all of the things that he wanted to tell you about today, hoping that at least some of his words wiggle their way into your dreams.Â
Loves sappy rom com movies and will 100% force you to watch them with him. He claims itâs because the âgood vibesâ of the romance will make you feel better, but to be honest, he just wants someone to watch his dumb movies with.
âŠïžđ„Huskđ„â„ïž:
Will blame himself for your sickness, claiming that he shouldnât have let you drink so much over the past couple of days (He literally cannot comprehend the idea that people can be sick NOT from being hungover lol).
When you insist that itâs not his fault, heâll ease up. Heâll use some of his bartending skills to make some sort of juice mocktail for you and will definitely sneak in some vitamin C to heal you faster.
Everyone - specifically Angel - will wonder why the fuck the bar hasnât been stocked in days (Itâs because Husk has been chilling in bed/taking care of you nonstop).
This is the only time that he will completely surrender to the idea of being one big stuffed animal to cuddle with. I mean, heâs warm, soft, and he purrs! Whatâs more therapeutic than that?
This is also a great time to get uninterrupted talking time with Husk. Heâs a great listener, so youâve always opened up to him, but it took him a while to open up to you too. He had told you that you were one of the only people that he trusted enough to confide in, but always seemed to air on the side of caution when sharing his personal struggles because it always seemed that someone would just pop up at the bar asking for a drink whenever it happened. This was one of the few times that the two of you could be completely open and vulnerable with each other without the risk of outside judgment.Â
Given the fact that he was such a gambler, Husk has a knack for all sorts of card games. If you get too bored, just give him a deck of cards and the possibilities for entertainment are endless. Want him to teach you how to play poker or rummy? Done. Want him to embarrass himself while he tries to relearn some card tricks that he used to flaunt? Done and done.
đâïžSir Pentiousâïžđ:
The second you told him you were sick, he would waste no time in finding one of his many inventions that could help you in some way. He definitely has some complex medical screening device hidden somewhere that he could use⊠he just has to remember where he put it.Â
If you complain about being sore, he will insist that you snuggle up next to him. Because heâs a cold-blooded reptile, his body is one big ice pack! On the other end, if you feel yourself coming down with some feverish chills, he has you covered! His bedroom ceiling is essentially one huge heat lamp, so feel free to chill under there, too!
Has assigned himself as your personal nurse and will provide anything that your heart desires. If it for some reason cannot be found within the hotel, he will travel to any ring of Hell necessary to make sure that you are well taken care of. This man is DETERMINED.
You can tell that heâs taking this seriously because he actually neglects his âevil dutiesâ for a couple of days. The airship isnât even mentioned until you heal (unless, of course, you feel that taking a ride on the airship would make you feel better. Then, of course he will set it up for you!).
Despite literally voicing his complete and utter devotion to your every flight of fancy, this man is still as awkward as ever. He will still struggle to ask you if you want to cuddle, quite literally fluttering around the subject until you bring it up for him.Â
At the end of the day, though, Sir Pentious is probably the sweetest sinner you couldâve ended up with as your caretaker. He may be awkward, but boy, does he love you!
đčđŒLuciferđŒđč:
While you are resting in bed, he will conjure up the most delightful images of anything you request (his favorite, though, is a group of ducklings waddling through a golden lake together đ«¶)
Being the King of Hell, he has so many interesting stories to tell you if youâre willing to listen. He will gladly tell you stories as you lay in bed with him, slowly lulling you to sleep. (His daughter clearly got her love of storytelling from him).
He loves that you trust him enough to let him take care of you - he doesnât often have people around, let alone people that he truly loves. Just your presence in his room truly fills him with so much joy.
He didnât want to annoy you with his ramblings about his many rubber ducks so he was ecstatic when you asked him to give you a tour of all of them. This man was telling you each and every duckâs name, backstory, etc. and honestly, it was adorable. When he quickly glazed over one of the ducks anxiously, you asked why. He then shyly revealed that it was, in fact, a rubber duck that looked just like you.Â
His love language is definitely gift-giving. This rubber duck would lead to him showing the many, MANY gifts he has created for you in his free time. He always has a ton of downtime, so making gifts for people is his favorite hobby. These gifts include, but arenât limited to: various duck items, binded storybooks, music boxes, paintings, etc. This man is TALENTED, to say the least. He just hopes that looking at these will distract you enough from being sick.Â
Also, his room is by far the comfiest to sleep in while youâre sick⊠the mood lighting that is naturally provided from his glowing light shows is simply unmatched.
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Eddie had heard plenty of stories about Steve losing fights.
He had the concussions to prove it.
But what Eddie saw with his own two eyes was far more impressive than whatever version of Steve had let Jonathan Byers and Billy Hargrove win.
Heâd seen how quick he was to defend the kids, defend Nancy and Robin, even defend Eddie when he barely knew him. Heâd thrown himself head first into the mix, nail bat in hand or not.
So when Eddie asked about it, Steve shrugged it off.
âEveryone loses fights.â
Sure, everyone does. But heâs seen Steve win against literal alternate dimension monsters.
No way a human teenage boy or two could be harder to beat.
But he let it go. If Steve insisted on it being a couple of genuine losses, so be it.
But Eddie doesnât let things go. Especially not when it comes to Steve.
âI guess I just donât understand how you lost to Jonathan. I mean had he ever even been in a fight before?â
âNo. But neither had I.â
âBut you shouldâve won that fight with no effort. No offense to Jonathan, but heâs scrawny and doesnât even punch right.â
âI donât know. Why are you so hung up on this?â
Well, because this wasnât simple. Eddie could tell Steve was hiding something, he just didnât know what.
âI guess because no one else ever asked you.â
Steve stared at him, probably trying to figure out how to avoid answering.
âNo one seems to ever ask you about you.â
Steve looked down at the floor.
âThey donât need to.â
âYou deserve to have people care. So Iâm gonna care for now and then Iâm gonna have a chat with your idiot kids about relational reciprocity.â
âWhat?â
âThey have to show they care about you as much as you care about them. Thatâs kind of the deal with friendship.â
âOh.â
Oh? Did Steve genuinely not know that?
Jesus Christ.
âSo?â
âI think I just wasnât good at fighting.â
âNah. Thatâs not it.â
Eddie could see Steve thinking.
When he finally spoke, he wasnât making eye contact. Eddie reached his hand out towards his face, cupping his chin and lifting his face so he had to look at him.
âTry again, Stevie.â
Steve took in a shaky breath.
âI wasnât good at fighting for me.â
Eddie nodded. âWhyâs that?â
âJust didnât seem like I deserved to win. I deserved the hits I got.â
âWhy?â
âBecause I was awful. I said shitty things or did shitty things. Or with Billy, I knew I had to let him take it out on me and I guess I thought I deserved it. I dunno.â
âMm.â
He released Steveâs chin, watching as his head dropped back down and he seemed to curl in on himself.
Eddie couldnât allow that to happen.
So he pulled Steve into his lap, smirking to himself just a little when he let out a yelp of surprise at the manhandling.
âSo all this time, youâve put your body and mind and future on the line for everyone else without a second thought, but when you had to protect yourself and only yourself, itâs not worth the effort? Am I understanding correctly?â
Steve didnât respond, but then again, Eddie hadnât really expected him to. He was too busy hiding his face in Eddieâs chest.
âThatâs what I thought. So who taught you that youâre not worth fighting for? Who told you that anything youâve done wrong should be considered a debt owed to whoever wanted to raise their fists? Who made you believe that your mistakes could only be absolved if you let them get punched out of you?â
Steve was crying; He could feel the cold wetness seeping through his shirt.
âYou tell me who it was and Iâll make sure they know how it feels to lose a fight.â
âJust me.â
âI donât think thatâs true.â
He let Steve sit with the words for a few minutes before speaking again.
âYou did some not great things as a teenager, as many teenagers tend to do. Have you seen the way Mike talks to people? Heâs a shithead. But do you think he deserves to get concussed from a punch to the temple?â
Steve shook his head.
âDustin gets an attitude anytime we donât immediately bend to his will and calls us names all the time. Do you think he deserves to get a plate smashed over his head?â
âOf course not.â
Steveâs voice was quiet.
âYou have more than made up for any mistakes you may have made in the past, even without the punches being thrown at you. If I have to tell you that you deserve to be treated with kindness and respect every day, then I fucking will. Hear me?â
âHear you.â
Steve was staring at Eddie, tears still silently and rapidly falling down his cheeks.
Eddie wiped them away and gave him a small smile.
âYou have no idea how special you are. But thatâs gonna change.â
âOkay.â
Eddie placed a kiss on his forehead before he wrangled him against his chest again, moving his legs so he could relax completely.
âJust relax, okay? I got you. Youâre worth protecting.â Eddie sighed softly. âYouâre worth everything.â
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Please, Stay
Pairing:Â MK1 Syzoth/Reptile x F!Reader
Warnings:Â Sexual themes (+18), breeding, two cocks, angst and fluff, self-esteem issues, jealousy, friends to lovers, mentions of violence.
Authorâs Note: Did I buy a ps5 just to play MK1? You bet. He needs all the loving in the galaxy and we'll give it to him no matter how much it costs! Please the way his family was taken from him was just so cruel, baby boy didn't deserve it...
Shattering noises reached my eardrums as I stepped into the kitchen of the academy, watching Syzoth sigh in desperation while his emerald eyes stared at the broken cup on the ground. I felt my heart breaking at his lost expression, yet I ceased all desire to touch him and walked away as silently as I could.
Since meeting Liu Kang and the others my seemingly normal life took a toll, transforming me into a 24/7 killing machine with 0 possibility of my enemies ever escaping Kombat. According to the Fire God, I always had this in my blood, now I just have to balance it⊠I just didn't expect that coming to a different realm and being incarcerated by a maddened sorcerer was the way to do so. That's where we met him, that's where we crossed eyes, that's where I fell enchanted by him.
Perhaps it was the anxiety of meeting someone new, or maybe I wanted to punch someone for the horrible things done to the people of Outworld, but there was no way of knowing I was attracted to what Baraka called a 'Zaterran', at least not at the time. Seeing Syzoth in his real form was surprising because I had never seen his kind, but the reptilian didn't know this, and in the beginning, I was sure he hated me to the core. He kept a certain distance from me unless I engaged against someone, he had my defense just like I had his, I didn't think much about it to be honest, I was sure he wanted to stay on the good side of the rest.
So when I spoke with Ashrah about our teammates in the gardens at tea time, she made it clear that she wanted me to talk more about Syzoth, indicating how protective he was over me when our battle against Quan Chi and Ermac took place, or when Li Mei chased after me when I made a mistake. I mean⊠I am practically a child compared to them, I found it normal that even Johnny would aid me at all times. I did notice their growing friendship as time passed, I was happy Syzoth could grieve his family in peace, and that he can have a joyful life from now on, yet after so much I don't think he's comfortable with me, don't think he'll ever be.
"Sometimes, people need to reflect on their past to come to peace with their mistakes."
"Thanks Ashrah, not undermining your achievements, but just because you did it doesn't mean others can do it as easily."
"Then why not come with me and Syzoth to Outworld? We will have a chance to speak our minds while we have dinner."
I declined, didn't feel like being the third wheel.
Realizing I was jealous was quite easy, but I swallowed it down, it's normal for me to get my hopes up to then be crushed mentally and emotionally. I was in silent rage, and I almost broke Raiden's skull in a friendly kombat so I decided to retreat to my accommodations with Liu Kang's permission who, weirdly, didn't stop smiling at me as I left. Following my encounter with Syzoth, I sprinted to my room and screamed into the pillow with genuine self-hatred for not asking if he was okay, and with regret in my mind, I drifted off to sleep.
Subsequently, waking up in the middle of the night to knocks on my door scared me, I thought there was some sort of emergency and I hurriedly opened the door to freeze immediately at the sight of the reptilian, he looked stunned at the speed in which I answered that he visibly gulped. "Syzoth, hey⊠I-Is something wrong?" Don't take me wrong, I did try to have conversations with him plenty of times, but he either avoided or ignored me, so I just gave up. "Do we have an emergency?"
I jumped in place when he changed into his reptile form, speechless at the action, we stared at each other in silence until his human form came back with a deep exhale. Even then, Syzoth refrained from saying a word for a good minute and turned to walk away before stopping and muttering something under his breath, cursing slightly. "Can I-- Can I come in�" He questioned loud enough. With a furrowed eyebrow and with a growing heartbeat, I let him into my room and closed the door gently, once I glanced at Syzoth, his back was turned to my figure, and his head hanging low.
I cleared my throat, getting his attention, but he wouldn't budge from his position. "Did something happen? Is Johnny bothering you with the whole movie thing?" It's 3 a.m. but I'm sure Cage is still awake doing whatever an actor does in hopes his movie would be a success. "I can speak with him." I finished. Frowning at the lack of answer, I crossed my arms and my anger built up fast in my body. "Look, if you only woke me up to stand silent in the corner of my room you might as well leave, we'll speak in the--"
"Do you hate me?" I shut my mouth and widened my eyes at him.
Hate him? How could I? He's saved me more times than I could count. "Why⊠Why would--"
"I've seen how you watch me, how everyone watches me." There was so much sadness in his normally soft voice, his beautiful eyes staring into my own with every emotion he could find. "Do I look that monstrous, (Y/N)? Do I look so hideous you can barely withstand me to be in your company? You turn away every time I try to be with you in the same room, is it because of my true form� Do I scare you? Or is this human skin just as mundane for you?" Syzoth transformed into his Zaterran form again. "Will I receive hate from you no matter what sort of shape I possess?"
Nothing came out of my lips, mostly because of the shock from his unexpected outburst, Syzoth looked away and took a few steps back from me, his whole demeanor changing into one of desolation. The room got darker when the moon hid behind clouds as if to make the reptilian a cruel favor. "SyzothâŠ" I called but got interrupted.
"Someone like you will never see me as an equal, and I should have known, but you⊠Looked so innocent in that cell that I couldn't resist securing you from harm. I beg of you, forgive me if I intimidated you as far as not accepting a dinner invitation, I want you to know you are the last person I ever want to hurt in any way. I'll stay away, just⊠Don't look at me with those eyes, the eyes of someone frightened, not youâŠ"
Without thinking, I placed my hands on his reptile cheeks, his pupils dilating under my touch, he felt cold but I didn't let that bother me, there's nothing about him that could bother me. "I don't hate you, okay? And I'm not scared." I uttered to him, and in a flash, his human shape graced me, staring down at me with a glow in his eyes I'd never seen before. "But, you were--"
"Syzoth, you are the kindest soul I've met, you did everything you could to protect your family, you helped us defeat Shang Tsung and saved our lives countless times. Besides, I couldn't care less about your appearance, you are so handsome, soft-spoken, and courageous." I pursed my lips as I saw something shift in the way he looked at me, maybe I should've said something more worthy of being seen as his friend instead of stating the obvious, I have a crush-- No, I am full in love with him. I felt as if the world was torturing me all this time, and I failed to see I was the one torturing him with my avoidance of solving my own problems. "You mean it� All of it?" Syzoth's hands rested on mine, his body slightly closer to touch mine.
"I do. I was surprised the first time I saw your true form, I'm not gonna lie, but I've grown accustomed to Outworld's unique beauty⊠What I did not like, on the other hand, was being called 'freakish'." I smiled brightly when he chuckled, the tension between us quickly evaporated, but I knew something changed. "I am sorry, you are anything but freakish." He paused, and my cheeks grew hotter as my hands were held by calloused ones. I gathered the little braveness I had and spoke. "I actually thought you hated me, you observed and followed after me everywhere, I was sure you wanted to kill me at some point."
"Oh, I didn't mean--" With the light of the moon, I saw his expression turn into a nervous one. "No! (Y/N), have you seen yourself in a mirror? You look so lovely, so breedableâŠ"
Both of us stopped to process what the reptilian said.
Syzoth covered half of his face with his hood while I stood in place, screaming internally. "Fuck⊠I didn't want it to come out like that, I wanted to take you out first." I was thrilled at the thought of him having me how he desired, so I shut my mind from judgment and gulped down my anxiety, and kissed his cheek. He gazed at me with widened eyes, letting go of his hood and leaning closer to me, pecking my lips experimentally, so delicately as if I was going to break in his arms. I felt hot at the sensation of being wanted, and kind of ashamed for judging his relationship with Ashrah.
The Zaterran halted all movement to gaze at me. "I need your mind right here, baby. Please." I almost whined when he pulled me to him, kissing him as our clothing came off and sitting on his lap while he moved his head down towards my stomach and pressed open-mouthed kisses against my skin. "Your mouth feels goodâŠ" When I looked into his eyes, which were already staring back at me, I felt myself relax, his eyes were so soft and held so much love, that I felt like my heart was going to burst at the sight. Syzoth pressed his lips against my breast, squeezing the flesh of my thigh, enjoying how I shivered underneath his fingertips. I gasped when he bit my chest, breath hitching when he snapped away my underwear, inhaling my body as if it was the sweetest flower he found.
I kissed his forehead and embraced him by the neck, receiving a groan from him promptly. My breathing was turning heavy as his hands traveled from my thighs to my buttocks, pressing me against his clothed manhood. "W-Was that dinner supposed to be a setup?"
"Yeah⊠Truth be told, if you had gone I would have bent you over right then and there." Dammit Ashrah, you should've given me a hint. I shoved away the thought of her and planted a kiss on his neck, a breathless 'more' left his lips, sliding his remaining wear down and I gave out a wail when I felt two hard cocks on my behind. "Syzoth, you--"
"You don't have to take both, it's fine. I know this isn't something humans see every dayâŠ" He's going to be the dead of me, and the worst thing is, he knows about this by the expression he's wearing now. A soft mewl echoed in the room when one of his cocks brushed against my hole, he almost salivated at the sight of our bodies prepared to join together. "I promise I'll make you feel good, extremely good." Syzoth smirked as he laid on my bed, his thumb playing with my clit as his tip kept teasing my entrance, choked moans leaving my mouth and my fingers went to grab his short hair.
I let out a desperate whine when he suddenly entered me, my lips shaping an O as his finger abused my clit. "SyzothâŠ! F-Fuuck!" The sound of my wetness made me feel so self-conscious, but the way he looked so lost in pleasure excited me to no end. He retreated his finger when I arched my back, my walls clenching around his still-entering cock. "So warm⊠So perfectâŠ" His piercing, green eyes kept eating at the scene, and his lips let out a sound of thrill for being able to be completely inside me, pushing my body against his as I shook above him, the moan that left me was unholy.
"Yes, yes, shitâŠ" I heard him utter nonstop, his tail appearing to grasp around my thigh.
"Y-Youâre stunningâŠ" I told him, and the reptilian groaned deeply at my words, sitting once more and kissing me hungrily as he began moving. Syzoth bit my shoulder and spread my legs further apart so he could thrust deeper, he smiled weakly against my trembling skin, hugging me tightly as he felt his other cock rubbing against my asscheeks. I pushed his torso into mine, tears brimming in my eyes and both moaning between kisses. "Just like that, pretty⊠Take me all inâŠ" I managed to nod, pulling Syzoth into another kiss as my legs wrapped around his torso. I was becoming desperate, the feeling of his cock stretching me out felt heavenly, I could feel every inch of him as he moved inside of me.
Syzoth grunted, tightening his hold on my body so it would become impossible for me to escape. "FuckâŠ!" He cursed loudly, forehead pressing against my neck. "(Y/N), please (Y/N)! Let me cum insideâŠ!" His tip pressed against my cervix, and I attempted to shift my position a bit but his hold was unbreakable. He looked so needy with that fucked expression of his, so gorgeous with sweat running down his muscle, and purely swallowed by pleasure and pain alike. My forehead rested on his and he gasped, finally moving his hips faster, he was trying to reach the deepest depths of my being.
I could feel the love radiating off him in every action, the way he kissed me, how he embraced me, the affection in his eyes⊠I could feel it all, tears cascaded down my cheeks, kissing his lips. "Don't let go of meâŠ" I whispered, holding onto him as my hips moved in sync with his. Syzoth whispered my name like a mantra, followed by many words of adoration amidst our lovemaking. "I will never let go."
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re: those fic ideas always going around about roy bidding on jamie at the next for the children gala
i like imagining sheryl is out for fucking blood this time. she lost jamie that year, then he wasn't there the next (two?) year(s), so now she's fucking determined. she's going to get him god damn it.
so sheryl bids like ÂŁ6k or whatever, and then keeley as a sort of nostalgic thing bids ÂŁ8k, and then sheryl bids ÂŁ10k and there's no bex this year so it seems like maybe that's going to be that, but then roy bids. (he would have stayed out of it if keeley kept bidding, she is an acceptable winner.)
and roy. he's not lazy, obviously, but he hates tedium, he hates repeating himself, he hates attention except for what he wants attention for specifically lmao, and he's got plenty of money to burn. he has something to get done and he wants it done quickly and decisively. so instead of doing normal bids like a normal person, whatever sheryl bids he fucking doubles it.
so he bids ÂŁ20k. she bids ÂŁ25k. he bids ÂŁ50k. she's getting frustrated, she's not into paying this much, but she's fucking determined!! she wants him!!! so she bids ÂŁ51k. roy bids ÂŁ102k. everyone's like.... bro omg.
jamie up on stage is like that's so much fucking money. hey, rebecca? hey? that's so much fucking money, actually. that's enough. call it. he gets it, he won. that's so much fucking money. (and like it's part genuine, that really is SO much fucking money, and jamie may be rich now but he grew up poor and that is a lot of fucking money!! but also it's a great excuse to wrap this up, to say okay roy won it's over! and get down.)
and rebecca - slightly shell shocked tbh, but also kind of reading how eager jamie is to get down - is like okay yeah he won that's it. a date with jamie tartt sold to roy kent for 102,000 fucking pounds. and she sends jamie on his way, and there's a lull between him and the next person because everyone is sort of stuck here.
because obviously, no one in this room knows why roy bid, nevermind why he would bid so fucking much. they don't know he didn't necessarily want to win so much as he wanted to make sure no one else did. they don't know he's been haunted by the joke he and keeley made back then ever since he figured out why it was so upsetting to jamie - even though, to be perfectly frank, jamie hasn't figured that out himself, and anyway it didn't make a lasting impression on him, like, it honestly was not that big of a deal in reality, but you know roy kent, any chance he gets to feel like a bad guy he's taking it. so to the outside point of view, roy wanted jamie so bad he was willing to spend ÂŁ102k to get him. which is honestly a wild bid from anyone, nevermind a) a man and b) a man who could just ask jamie to hang out whenever he wants.
jamie goes right over to him as soon as he gets down from the stage, and he thanks him, and roy tells him he's just making up for last time, and jamie hardly even remembers what he's talking about but it's really fucking nice of him to even care, so he gives him a hug and he says thanks again, not just for this, and roy says he's been fucking honored, and jamie tears up and calls him a prick because they both know he knew that would happen if he said that, and roy does his sinister little laugh because he meant it but he did also do that on purpose, yeah.
and then jamie's like move i'm gay to whoever is sitting next to roy so he can take that seat, because roy just paid ÂŁ102k (and made quite the grand gesture) so his date with jamie starts right now and goes for as long as roy fucking wants it to thank you very much.
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You Can't Go Home Again
I'm someone who walked away from my childhood religion almost twenty years ago, and I'm very firmly at a place in my life now where I am very happy to be through with it and have zero lingering desire to go back. I've also been out as some kind of queer person for the same almost-twenty years, and I've been out as trans for almost fifteen of those years.
If you knew absolutely nothing else about me or my life except for those major plot points, and the fact that I'm a Good Omens fan, it would be reasonable to assume that I would identify with Crowley far more than Aziraphale. At least at this point in my life. And in fact, I've seen many fans with backgrounds similar to mine say that they used to be much more like Aziraphale when they were younger, but nowadays they see far more of themself in Crowley. Which makes sense, as a trajectory for people who grew up in controlling religions and then left!
I've been trying to figure out what it is about me that makes me so automatically take Aziraphale's perspective when watching this show, even though the most aggressively Aziraphale time of my life was literal decades ago now. And I think that's probably a very complicated answer, but I realized today that I see an emotional struggle happening in him that I still wrestled with for years and years after leaving the church before I was finally able to completely put it to restâthe struggle to accept that some things can never go back to the way they were.
I seriously suffered so much over this for so long after I left the church. Despite all the damage it had done to me, my entire life had been intertwined with the church and a lot of things that were goodâor at least deeply comforting in their familiarityâhad also been a part of that. I had plenty of genuinely happy memories all mixed together with the harmful ones (which, in case you were wondering, is confusing as hell). There were fundamental human needs that I had only ever gotten met through the church, and as double-edged as what the church provided was, it was all I knew. Learning to get those needs met in new ways was much healthier, but it wasn't what I had always known growing up and it was a loss.
And I spent a long time refusing to fully accept that going back to any version of Christianity or the church just...wasn't ever going to be in the cards for me.
That is in the cards for some people, I know. Some folks who leave or get kicked out of ultra-dogmatic and controlling churches eventually find new homes in much more progressive and nurturing ones. And that's great! But that was never going to be my path. The process of seeing my childhood religion for what it truly was, losing my beliefs, leaving everything the church was to me further and further behind, and gradually learning who I was without it, changed me too much for me to ever be able to go back again.
I am fine with that now. More than fine. I'm healthier and happier now than I've ever been. Over time I grew into a version of myself that no longer has a church/religion/faith-shaped gaping wound in my life I'm trying to fill. But it was hard and painful and it took a really long time for me to get there. I spent a lot of my twenties and even a bit of my early thirties trying to find something...some new church community that I could be connected to in some way, that would give me back some of what I'd lost when I left my childhood church. But none of them ever did. I was never going to get the same things out of belonging to a church again, because I wasn't the same.
You can't go home again.
I see Aziraphale on that same journey and that's part of what makes my heart automatically go out to him and hurt for him, over and over again. He's still desperately holding onto the idea of a hypothetical version of Heaven and being an angel that can be home again one day. One where all the good things he remembers are still there, and still every bit as good, and all the bad parts have been fixed or gotten rid of, so that being there will be like the old times, only even nicer.
Except that even if he actually succeeded at somehow making Heaven the exact flavor of like-the-old-times-only-even-nicer that he is imagining, it wouldn't matter. Heaven is not his home anymore. He's already changed too much to be able to go back. He just hasn't accepted that yet.
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Burgers and Lilies
Reth x Reader one shot
(canon compliant, no spoilers, ft. Shepp!Hassian)
Rated Teen for some spicy stuff at the end ;)
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Y/Nâs hands were steady as she pulled the arrow back, feeling the pull of the bow deep in her shoulder, just like Hassian had taught her. The wind was gentle, rustling her hair and the grass gently as she focused on her prey. She knelt there, still as a tree, lining up the shot. The unsuspecting chapaa wouldnât feel a thing.Â
She heard a rustle in the grass behind her, and the chapaa must have heard it too, because it perked its ears, chirped, and ran in the opposite direction.Â
âSorry.â She heard a sweet voice behind her, and she could never be mad when he sounded so genuinely remorseful.Â
âIts okay, Reth.â Y/N lowered the bow and put the arrow back in its holding case with the rest. She stood then, and turned around to face him with a smile. âThere are plenty of others.â
Her smile only grew wider as she saw the picnic basket he was holding, and he held it up a little higher as he spoke. âWhen you didnât come in for lunch like you usually do, I figured you were lost in the hunt again.â
âI never know how much time has passed when Iâm out here.â Y/N said sheepishly.Â
âI know. Should we sit?â
âDonât you have to get back to the Inn? The dinner rush will be starting soon.â
âAshura told me to take my time.â Reth was already getting comfortable in the grass, so she followed suit and watched him take out the sandwiches carefully.Â
Y/N was glad for Rethâs company. Reth had been one of the first people she properly met after materializing in the ruins. She didnât know much about what was supposed to be normal for humans, but she figured by how Jina, the resident Human Expert, had reacted, it wasnât normal to appear in a cloud of pink mist and sparkles. At least, thatâs not how the Majiri operated. Most of what she had learned about their way of life had come from Reth and his sister, Tish. They had taken a special liking to her almost immediately.Â
âCopper for your thoughts?â Reth said, with his mouth full. She smiled at his boyish nature.Â
âJust thinking about how much has changed for me since coming here. Iâm sure my life before was very different than this.â She could tell this from a number of signs. Her hands had been soft, and her arms lithe when she first came into Kilima. Her body had not known a dayâs work like she had grown accustomed to. Y/Nâs hands were worn and rough with calluses now, and her muscles, while not much compared to Sifuu, were still visible. And she could run faster and farther and haul sernuk much easier now. She was sure the magic pack Zeki had given her, plus Kilimaâs fresh air and pleasant weather was helping as well.
He nodded thoughtfully, considering his words before speaking. âHave you ever thought about what your life was like before? Not just human life in general, but yours specifically?â
She had heard the word âmemoryâ before, and while she was sure she had some memories, they were not the kind Reth was talking about. Like she could remember watering her plants this morning, and she could remember shooting her bow for the first time. But these memories were vivid in her mind, having been so recent. She was told older memories got fuzzy with the passing of time.
âI have.â She said shortly, not feeling like she wanted to get into it. âI really like my life now, though.âÂ
She leaned over and nudged her shoulder against Rethâs, pushing him slightly. He exaggerated the gesture and dramatically fell back into the grass. She placed her sandwich down on top of the basket and laid next to him and looked at the clouds.Â
She could feel an uncomfortableness radiating from Reth, though, like he wanted to say something but was holding back. Turning her head to look at him, she found him already looking at her, and he quickly looked up and away.Â
Reth was⊠something. She wasnât sure what this feeling was in her chest when he was around. It was different from the feeling of wanting to gossip or craft with Tish, or the feeling of wanting Hassian to be proud of her for hunting a large animal all by herself. It was deeper, and made her anxious, and made her feel warm all at once.Â
Like she needed Reth to understand her, deeply, deeper than she knew herself.Â
She was sure this was a purely human emotion, because Reth always seemed calm and collected. At least, now he did. When he had first spoken to her, though, he had tripped over his words greatly.Â
âWhen I first met you,â he started, seeming to read her thoughts, âI had never seen a human before. And it surprised me.â
She let that hang there for a moment, feeling like there was something he still wasnât saying. âWhat surprised you?â
She was still looking at him but he was none the wiser, his eyes locked on the sky. His cheeks slowly darkened to a magenta color.Â
She felt something soft and gentle on her fingers, and upon looking down she found it was Rethâs own hand, slowly sliding in the grass closer to her own. She took in a quiet deep breath to calm herself, even as it felt like pure Flow was shooting up her arm at the contact. She was very confused, but allowed him to take her hand in his and intertwined their fingers. She didnât understand the purpose of it, and yet she found it was quite pleasant and didnât want to let go. So she relaxed into the grass, and gave his hand a small squeeze. He reciprocated the gesture, finally turning his head to look at her. He smiled at her then, a wide smile that made her toes curl in her boots and ingrained itself in her mind. His eyes sparkled in a way she had never seen before.Â
Y/N looked away first, pointing out a cloud that looked like a star. Reth chuckled and squeezed her hand once more, agreeing with her, before he suddenly gasped and sat up, looking towards the basket.Â
âOh! I brought you something. Caleri waived my late fees so I could bring you this. Iâm lucky she likes you so much.â
He handed her half-eaten sandwich to her, which she took another bite of as he opened the basket and produced a book, handing it over. Y/N sat up as well, taking it from him gently. Their hands touched briefly, and a burst of warmth blossomed in her chest. Ignoring it, she studied the strange writing on the worn red cover. It looked like English characters, but it was too worn to make out the words on the cover.
âYou found this in the library?â
âI know, right? In the small Human section. I think itâs a cookbook. Look inside.â
She looked at him and shared his excited smile, then opened it to a random page. The pages were old and stuck together, and made a pleasant crackling sound as the spine expanded. Near the middle of the book, at the top of the page, was a full color picture of a cooked dish. It looked odd, it was a stack of bread and what looked like vegetables and meat. The writing at the top of the page read Burger.
Reth peeked over her shoulder, scooting closer to get a better look. Their legs were pressed together as he mouthed out the foreign word.
âBur-jer.â He said confidently.
Y/N repeated the word. Jina would get a kick out of this. She wondered if she had read this book. She must have, but then again, Jina had never mentioned any human foods before. âI think itâs pronounced âbur-gurâ, actually. Feels better in my human mouth.â
Reth laughed and threw his hands up. âHey, youâre the expert. Do you want to try and cook it?â
âBut we can barely read the recipe!â
âWonât it be fun? Iâm sure we could figure it out.â
The idea did sound very appealing. She would love to get closer to her roots, and she would never deny spending time with Reth.Â
âLetâs do it.â
He nodded, putting a handkerchief between the pages to mark the place.
They sat in the grass and talked a little while longer before Reth announced he had to get back to the Inn, so they packed up and parted ways.Â
Back at her housing plot, after Y/N had washed the chapaa meat and furs in a bucket of pond water, she wondered about her odd feelings for Reth, and the tightness in her chest when she thought about him. She stood at her stove, grilling the savory meat and letting the smell fill the air. Sometimes, when she cooked, she felt sad, and wished she was cooking with others. Cooking alone felt deeply wrong to her, and she could not explain why. She let herself feel the sadness, and then let it wash away when she was done, just like Jel had taught her. And by that time the meat had finished cooking. But as she reached to grab a plate (from the set that Elouisa had gifted her) she accidentally hit the hot pan and burned her hand.Â
All at once, her mindâs eye was filled with the sight of a kitchen that wasnât hers. The wallpaper was different, and there were many plants, and more cabinets. A woman whom she had never seen before, and yet felt so familiar, with skin tan like her own, fawned over her.Â
âOh dear, did you burn yourself, button? Come to the sink.â
The woman grabbed her wrist gently and led her to the sink, and turned the handle. Cool water started flowing from what she recollected was called a âfaucetâ. The woman, her mother, put her hand under the cold flow of the water until the burning sensation stopped.Â
And then Y/N was standing alone once again, holding her injured hand to her chest. Luckily, her sink basin was already filled with fresh water from the pond, so she submerged her hand in the cool water until the familiar burning stopped once again.Â
Was that a memory? Was that what remembering felt like? Her mother looked so similar to herself. She had so many questions, and she knew that no one else would have answers. Suddenly she felt so alone, even in this village of kind people, she felt totally isolated.Â
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The next day felt very weird. After her odd kitchen experience the night before, Y/N had tossed and turned all night and didnât get a wink of sleep. She ended up chopping many trees to take her mind off it, and after that didnât help, she figured she would head into town and see if Hassian wanted help filling his meat supply for sale. The hunting in silence seemed to help a bit, and she always enjoyed his company, but every time she pulled back an arrow in the bow, the burn on her hand ached, and she remembered her motherâs face. And after that, she spent some time with Tish and Jel in the square before their shops opened. But as Tish complained of washing her cotton in pond water and finding a tadpole in her fabric later, the memory of the convenience of running water came flooding back. So she spent the day on her housing plot, alone and wallowing, unsure of what to do with herself.
When she didnât show up for lunch again that day at the Inn, Reth thought at first it was because she was hunting. But after speaking with Hassian and learning she had already been hunting that morning, worry took over. It wasnât like her to run off without telling someone where she was going. Everyone worried over her, being the only human any of them had ever seen, and having just materialized just a few months ago, the village as a whole didnât want her to get lost or injured or worse. He couldnât leave the Inn and go all the way to her house himself, but he could do one better.Â
So late that afternoon, Y/N was surprised when she got a knock at her door, and was even more surprised to find Auni at her doorstep with a small paper bag. Usually he just left packages in the mailbox or on her porch, even if she was home, so she found it odd that he knocked.Â
âHeya! Reth sent me with some food for ya. Wanted to know where you were.â
She smiled at him. Even though she didnât feel like smiling, Auni was just a little ray of sunshine, and it was impossible not to be amused in his presence. And it warmed her heart to know Reth was thinking of her.Â
âHey Auni, long time no see. Do you want to come in; I caught a few new bugs I wanna show you.â
He nodded enthusiastically, and when she was done showing him the butterflies and beetles, she sent him on his way with some fresh crab meat for his mother. Now she was left with her lunch (now, she supposed she could call it dinner), some carrot soup. Her favorite. When she was done eating the warm meal, she laid on her bed and smiled, kicking her feet and giggling that Reth would be so kind.Â
There were a lot of things she didnât know, but maybe talking about them would be a good start.
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âSteady⊠SteadyâŠâ Naiâo hushed to the ormuu, patting itâs head while Y/N knelt beside the large animal, getting ready to milk it. She had never milked an ormuu before, and Naiâo was kind enough to offer to teach her after she had offhandedly expressed her curiosity about it a few sun cycles prior. Delaila even offered to share some of the resulting butter for her work.
He had taught her the hand motions, and once she started, it wasnât so bad. Naiâo stood and watched and gave her encouragement as the bucket slowly filled with the good milk.
But her mind was elsewhere. Last week she had come around the corner of the City Hall and found him and Kenyatta behind the wall, doing what Tish called âsucking faceâ but had learned the official word was âkissingâ. It felt like an intrusion and she had pretended not to see them and had quietly snuck away, but the sight (and the curiosity) had stuck with her.Â
âCan I ask you a personal question?â She said, sure to say it loud enough to be heard over the mooing of the ormuu.Â
âGo ahead,â he replied instantly.
Y/N felt awkward bringing up the subject, and she wasnât sure why. But she pushed ahead in the pursuit of answers.Â
âWhen you first met Kenyatta, what did you feel?â
âThatâs tough. Kenyatta and I grew up together. Weâve always known each other.â
That made sense, but it wasnât what she meant. She took a deep breath and turned away from the ormuu for a second to meet his eyes.
âWhat about when you started dating?â The word âdatingâ was still new to her, but she had heard Kenyatta use it, so she was sure it applied at least to her and Naiâo.
âWell, when I realized that I had feelings for her, I tried everything to get her attention. I just wanted to spend as much time with her as possible.â
âHad feelings? What did those feel like?â
âWhy, are you feeling this way? I wonder who the object of your affections is?â Naiâo teased.Â
She blushed, and went back to milking in hopes that Naiâo couldnât see her dark cheeks. âAffections?â she asked, when she had found her voice.Â
Occasionally, the Majiri would say a word that Y/N did not recognise. It felt childish to have to ask what a wordâs definition was (even if Y/N couldnât remember her childhood). She had heard this word before, but not used in this way.Â
âAh, how to explain itâŠâ Naiâo said, mostly to himself as he thought for a moment. âIf you have affections for someone, you like them more than you like everyone else. We call it love. Itâs different than the love you feel for your parents or siblings or a close friend. You want to spend the rest of your life with that person.â
She thought about this for a moment. She didnât have parents that she could remember, but Sifuu had joked many times that she had adopted Y/N and was her makeshift mother. And Y/N would do just about anything for Sifuu, so she guessed that was love, in a way. But she certainly did not want to kiss Sifuu. And she felt a camaraderie with Hassian, which Sifuu had also mentioned that Hassian, her Shepp, worried over her like an older brother (Hassian was not thrilled that his mother had mentioned his concerns, much like when he found out she had told Y/N about the poetry). And the mere thought of kissing Hassian made her want to throw up. And she felt proud of him in ways similar to how Tish described feeling over Reth. Now that she thought about it, she figured that Sifuu and Hassian were like her family, similar to the Daiya family. But what did that make Reth?
âYouâve been spending a lot of time with Reth lately,â Naiâo continued when she didnât say anything.Â
She had brought up the subject thinking about Reth, but now felt like she should be doing more for Sifuu and Hassian. But she liked finishing what she started, so she circled back in her mind to her ultimate concern: the weird pressing in her chest when she was with Reth.
âWhat are you suggesting?â
âIâm suggesting that you want to kiss Reth, donât you?â
Her words stuck in her throat at his bluntness. Did she? âI donât know.â
âI know what you can do,â He said, looking very proud of himself, âGo to Zekiâs and buy a box of chocolates. And then give it to Reth. See what he does.â He said with a wide smile, and he leaned down to pick up the now full bucket of milk. Y/N took the cue and followed him into the house, leaving the ormuu with a small pat.Â
âI thought chocolates were gifts for married folk only.â
âI give chocolates to Kenyatta all the time, and we arenât married. Donât you want to be like her and I?â
Y/N wasnât exactly sure that she did, as the image of him and Ken with lips locked resurfaced, but she guessed it couldnât hurt. âAlright, Iâll try it, and let you know.â
He clapped his hands and jumped up, in a demeanor she had never seen on Naiâo. His nosiness surprised her. âGood, tell me all the details. Ken is gonna love this.â
They went into the house and Delaila showed Y/N how the churn worked, and let her try her hand at churning the butter, but ultimately Del sent her on her way with some jam, and promised to have the butter delivered when it was finished.Â
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It wasnât for many sun cycles that Y/N and Reth could work their schedules around and meet up to try the recipe. Anxiety bubbled in her chest at the thought of what she was going to do, but she also was apprehensive to cook again. After burning her hand, she had avoided her kitchen like it was tainted with the plague. As much as she had relished and replayed the memory of her mother in her head multiple times, she was scared it was going to happen again. Even though she was slowly growing used to recalling such an old memory, having it spring up so suddenly that first time was alarming.Â
She had already spoken to Jina about it, and she had urged Y/N to continue trying new things in hopes of triggering another memory to resurface. Y/N wasnât exactly sure that she wanted that to happen, but maybe she could learn more about her own past, and about what happened to the humans in general.Â
So when the time came where Reth was on his way to her home, she was a little out of sorts. The box of chocolates was hidden in a cupboard until the right moment appeared, the ingredients (what she had) for the recipe were laid out on the counter, fresh water in the sink basin, and her home cleaned and reorganized. She had only had time to build two rooms since coming to Kilima, but her living-kitchen-entry was tidy and her bed was made in the next room. Even Eshe would be proud of the decorating.Â
After what felt like ages of pacing the floor, finally she heard a knock on her door. Wiping her sweaty hands on the new dress she had bought from Jel for the occasion, she opened the door.Â
There he stood, in a crisp blue button-down shirt, a bouquet of heartdrop lilies in hand, and a nervous smile on his face. âHey, sweet-tooth. Ready to make Majiri food history?â
The sight of him alone was enough to make her swoon, but the flowers were something else entirely.Â
âOf course, come in, make yourself at home. Shoes off, please.â Y/N said hoping she masked the nervousness in her voice, and she accepted the flowers from him while he took off his boots. They were beautiful, and she had just bought a new vase the week prior too, so the timing was perfect. ïżœïżœïżœThank you for the flowers, theyâre lovely.â
âNot as lovely as you.â He replied all too quickly, causing Y/N to blush profusely.Â
âThank you.â She whispered, reaching into her cupboard for the vase and filling it with water. The flowers sat pretty on her table for two (she had crafted the second chair just for Reth that day), and the two of them washed their hands in preparation to cook.
âSo first the recipe says to make the⊠the patty? I think it says.â Y/N said, looking at the open cookbook on the counter.Â
Reth came up behind her, putting an arm on the counter next to her and looking over her shoulder to attempt to read the book. She blushed at his close proximity. She could feel his breath gently on her neck.Â
âSounds about right. Iâve never ground up meat before. How do you think we should do it?â
âMaybe we should just mince it and hope for the best.â She looked at him and was surprised just how close their faces were to one another. Despite her pounding heart, she liked being close to him.Â
âI can do that, easy peasy.â Reth smiled, locking eyes with her. âWhere are your kitchen knives?â
âUm⊠Iâll get one.â Y/N sputtered. She had to get ahold of herself! She should be cool.
It was increasingly hard with the heartdrop lilies on the table, seemingly watching her.Â
While Reth minced the chapaa meat, Y/N worked on washing and cutting the tomatoes, lettuce, and onion. The recipe also called for something called âcheeseâ, but neither of them knew what that was, so they decided to just leave it out. They seasoned the minced meat with spice sprouts, wild garlic, and an egg, formed it into round patties, and grilled them on the stove. The recipe was worn over the part talking about the onions, so Reth suggested putting the onions on raw. And they didnât have any âburger bunsâ, so they made do with hot hound buns instead.
"Hey, Reth, I have some news."
"Oh? Like what?" He asked, flipping one of the burger patties in the pan. She watched the action, and got distracted for a moment watching the muscles in his forearm ripple.
She twiddled her hands in anticipation. "I think I remembered something. About my past life, I mean."
At this, Reth perked up and gave his full attention to her. "Really? What did you remember?"
"It was odd, it just came so suddenly," Y/N started, then backtracked. "I was just cooking last week and burned myself, and I remembered a time when I was younger and had also burned myself while cooking, and my mother had taken me to the sink and run my hand under cold water to relieve the burn."
He thought about it for a moment, then replied, "Do you think you'll remember more things?"
"I don't know. I kind of hope so, but it was a little startling. Maybe next time it won't be as surprising."
He nodded, understanding. He could only sympathize with her since he would never experience losing all his memories and waking up in a strange place, but he was sure this was a new and exciting time for Y/N.
"Thank you for telling me. I hope you get to remember more about your past life."
"Of course, thanks for being here for me. No matter what I remember, though, you'll still be my favorite part of my new life."
Reth blushed at this, and went back to tending the meat in the pan, lest it burn like his cheeks.
The result of their efforts was a little oddly shaped, but upon sitting down to eat, found it was absolutely delicious. They enjoyed their meal together with good conversation, about Tishâs latest creation, Y/Nâs new dress (Reth told her she looked absolutely stunning, cause her to nearly choke on her human burger in surprise), and Ashura mentioning something about a raise for Reth. And after, they washed the dishes together, standing too close together, arms touching, laughing and splashing water everywhere.Â
It was the best night Y/N had had in a long time. And it was all thanks to Reth.Â
âHey, Iâm having such a good time, do you think I could stay a little while longer?â He asked, when the last dish had been dried and put away.
âOf course, I donât want you to go home yet either.â She admitted.Â
âWhat would you like to do?â He asked, plopping down on the couch and sinking back into the cushions.Â
âActually, I have something for you.â Y/N admitted, feeling nervous and excited. Reth made her feel like she could do anything, and like she was on top of the world, and she hoped her gift would instill similar feelings in him. âBut you have to close your eyes.â
He closed his eyes immediately, and her heart leapt at the sight. âAlright, I do love surprises.â
With a wide smile and shaking hands, she carefully pulled out the heart-shaped box of chocolates and sat down on the couch next to him. He sat up as he felt her weight on the couch next to him, and instinctively, she scooched closer to him until their legs were completely pressed together.Â
She placed the chocolates on his lap gingerly. âOkay, you can open your eyes now.â
She watched as he opened his eyes, looking down at the box in his lap, then turned to look at her with such boyish joy in his eyes. Nothing could have prepared her for the energy in that room, filled with tension and joy and pure happiness and nervousness all at once. It was nearly overwhelming.
âYou really want me to have these?â He asked, his voice not much above a whisper.Â
âOf course, all for you. You deserve them.â Y/n said simply, though she wanted to proclaim that he deserved so much more than a simple box of chocolates.Â
But he looked at her like she hung the flaming moon, like she was all he had ever wanted. Because, simply put, thatâs exactly how he felt.Â
âY/N,â he started, carefully placing the chocolates on the coffee table in front of him, never taking his eyes off of hers, âYou are the most generous, kind, beautiful soul I have ever met,â Now that his hands were free, he reached for hers. Gently caressing the backs of her hands with his thumbs, he gazed into her eyes with all the adoration in his heart. âIâm honored you would gift these to me. Thank you so much.â
Y/N was so happy she could cry. And she nearly did. Reth made her feel so safe and appreciated, and she knew he reciprocated everything she felt by the way he looked at her now. She glanced at his lips and wondered what they would feel like pressed to her own, and now she understood Kenyatta perfectly.Â
He seemed to read her mind, moving one hand to her face, gliding his thumb over her cheekbone as he pressed his forehead to hers. With eyes closed to fully savor the moment, he whispered gently, âMay I kiss you?â
Her heart was doing flips in her chest now as he moved ever closer, and she mewled out a meek âyesâ, feeling the faint brush of his lips against her own due to their proximity.Â
He wasted no time once she had consented, and he pressed a gentle kiss to her lips. His hand on her face held her in place, and his other hand moved to her back to pull her closer. Her own hands rested on his strong forearm, and one on his shoulder as she deepened the kiss. He was all over her, invading her senses, and all she could think was more, more, more. She wasnât sure what âmoreâ entailed, but she would happily spend the rest of her life figuring it out. She needed him impossibly closer, and he seemed to be thinking the same thing by the way his hands gripped the fabric of her dress. His tongue gently opened her mouth, allowing himself access to her. The sensation was foreign but she found it wasnât unpleasant. She allowed him to explore her mouth for a little while, and just enjoyed the feeling of him pressed against her.Â
Reth was ecstatic that Y/N returned his feelings, and was even happier that she was content to sit in his arms. He had dreamed of this moment ever since he first laid eyes on her, that first day she came into his world. He relished in the feeling of her so close, her warm body pressing ever closer, her hands wandering across his arms and back. She touched his neck at the base of his hair, and he simply melted into her touch. She was everything he could have ever wanted.Â
He got so excited that he scooped his hands under her legs, chuckling at her gasp of surprise as he lifted her into his lap. Warm hands settled on her hips as she gazed into his eyes with all the love in her heart. He just wanted her closer, so he pulled her to his chest for a deep hug. He pet her hair, gently carding his fingers through as she sighed into his shoulder. Nuzzling her nose into his neck, Y/N sighed contentedly. She could sit like this forever, legs on either side of his, as close as she could possibly be, and wondered what she would have to do to make this a daily occurrence.Â
âReth?â She asked, after many minutes of just sitting in each otherâs presence.Â
âYes, Y/N?â
âWill you be mine? Only mine?â
âYes my love, Iâm already yours.â
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"Hancock has no regrets about becoming a ghoul"??
It baffles me when some people think Hancock has zero regrets about becoming a ghoul. Absolutely none at all apparently. Like yeah, he plays it up when you first meet him before he's a companion, but let's be real he plays up pretty much everything in regards to the whole "sexy king of the zombies" image he projects.
It takes travelling with you away from Goodneighbor to give him some time to be introspective for him to finally realize that him becoming a ghoul was just another escape route from himself again. He's got several lines of dialogue that literally reiterate this. It's a key point of his character:
Hell, running from myself is what made me into⊠into a damn Ghoul.
Well, I mean, I didn't always look this good. The drug that did this to me, that made me a Ghoul, I knew what it was going to do.
I just couldn't stand looking at the bastard I saw in the mirror anymore.
The coward who'd let all those Ghouls from Diamond City die. Who was too scared to protect his fellow drifters from Vic and his boys.
If I took it, I'd never have to look at him again. I could put that all behind me. I'd be free. Didn't seem like a choice at all. Turns out it was just me running from somethin' else in my life.
I mean, after reaching max affinity with you, he realizes that maybe it wasn't such a bad thing after all (because he's finally got an honest friend he can be open with now). He now feels comfortable where he is - but to imply that he doesn't have at least the tiniest amount of regret? Heck, if you go onto romance him (or attempt to), he stops referring to himself as handsome and literally starts calling himself ugly, which naturally goes entirely against the image he projects:
Why don't we just agree to keep it friendly for now or till they find a cure for ugly? Heh.
You don't want to wake up to this mug every morning. Never wish that on anyone I cared for.
You sure you want to be stuck with this ugly mug?
(You could even say he implies it beforehand with another line of dialogue elsewhere in-game when he says "I'd be mad too if I was that ugly." But that's a stretch I guess.)
Combine that with the fact that 99% of ghouls donât choose to become ghouls. Hancock did. But he didn't do it for a fun experience. He was already in a bad place when he became a ghoul. He didn't turn to be cool and edgy like he pretended he did when first getting to know him.
He lost his appearance, any connections to his old identity and old friends/people he mightâve been associated with (for better or worse), and in return gained hostility from bigots towards him for merely existing, from an overwhelming majority of the Commonwealth population that hates ghouls. There's the Institute and Brotherhood who want to kill anyone like him on top of that. Plenty of people out there who think he and other ghouls are monsters for just being alive.
Not only that, but something which adds onto this is the fact that he's a client of the Memory Den, and they're very selective with their customers. And what's the whole point of the Memory Den? Reliving past memories. Irma's terminal entry about Hancock, as well as the other two ghoul clients Kent and Daisy, all imply the memories they go back to relive are primarily from their human days. (The one on Hancock straight up says "if you thought he was handsome and dangerous now, you should've seen him before he turned ghoul.")
I genuinely refuse to believe that Hancock has never had any regret whatsoever about becoming a ghoul. The man who's spent a decent chunk of his life running from his own problems instead of confronting them, has NO regrets about taking a drug that alters his entire being and functionality on a biological level and will force him to outlive everyone he knows? This man is FULL of regrets!
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Kinktober Day 23: Deepthroating- Sam Winchester
Summary: You show Sam something new youâve wanted to try
Word count: 824
This latest hunt had meant that the time youâd been able to spend with Sam alone was a lot less than usual. Normally hunts were a week at absolute most but this one had taken almost three weeks. Sam, Dean, Cas and yourself were all exhausted but it was finally over.
Castiel and yourself could see that Dean and Sam were starting to get on each others nerves, so Cas took Dean to a bar to celebrate, whereas Sam and yourself had your own way or celebrating in the small motel room. Having to bunk in the same room as Dean during the hunt meant that you and Sam had not had sex for three weeks.
As soon as you could no longer see the lights of the Impala, you closed the curtains, locked the door and jumped into Sams arms at an almost inhuman speed. Luckily he was able to catch you in time and with a chuckle he returned your heated kiss. Backing up he sat you both down onto the edge of the bed, squeezing your jean covered ass as your hands tugged on his long hair.
Beginning to kiss down his neck and what you could reach of his chest, you lowered yourself to your knees and began to unzip his jeans. Both of you being too impatient to fully remove his clothes, you quickly pulled down his jeans and underwear all in one pull.
Wasting no time, so desperate to hear his pleasure filled moans once again, your mouth attached to his already throbbing head as your hand worked what you couldnât fit in your mouth, yet.
âOoohh fuck, baby, you make me feel so fucking good. Your mouth is amazing.â Sam praised between gasping moans of pleasure.
Reluctantly, your mouth left his hard cock, as you begin gently stroking him. You wanted to tease him while you told him what you had planned for your little âcelebrationâ.
âBaby, Iâve been thinking. We have a lot of fun together but there are some things I still want to try with you.â You confess as you look into his lust filled eyes.
âYeh, baby, whatâs that? Iâm happy to try anything with you.â He sweetly replies, trying his best to stay genuine while heâs falling apart under your soft touch.
âWell you keep your hand in my hair like that,â you told him, bringing his hand to hold onto your hair, âand Iâll just show you what I mean.â
Smirking up at his curious face you took him in your mouth once again. Remembering to breathe through your nose and relax your throat, you took him into your mouth further than you ever had before. Once your nose touched his pelvis, you kept him in your throat for a moment before you started to suck, lightly moving up and down.
âOoohh! Oh-oh! Fuck, baby! Oh shiiit!â Sam incoherently moaned above you, his body now laying fully down on the bed as both of his hands in your hair guided your head.
It didnât take long for you to get comfortable with a rhythm, lightly bouncing on your knees while you worked your mouth up and down his large member. Lost in pleasure Sam now holds your head while his hips move with your pace.
Your hair was roughed up and frizzy, your eyes watered and spit mixed with pre cum dripped out of your mouth. Sams head was thrown back in unbelievable pleasure, a quick glance at the state you were in only intensified his bliss-filled state as more curses left his lips. To him you looked like a sexy vision from late nights alone with just thoughts of you.
âOh fuck, baby! You look so fucking sexy!â He managed to grunt out as the image of you burned into his brain.
You could tell by the way he grunted and his hips moved that he was close.
âIâm gonna cum, baby. Come up so I can cum, sweetheart.â He warned you.
Even though you had given Sam head plenty of times, he had never actually cum in your mouth and with how far his cock was down your throat he worried you might choke.
Instead of pulling up like he thought you would, you simply worked him faster as you looked into his eyes. It only took a few more seconds before you felt his warm liquid pump into your mouth and down your throat. His grip on your hair tightened as he gave your throat a few more shallow thrusts.
Coming up from his cock, you swallowed his load and lewdly stuck your tongue out for him to see. Your face covered in tears, spit and his cum made him almost finish again as he growled at your feral state.
âCome here, sexy.â He growled lowly as pulled you up from the floor and threw you back onto the bed.
âAny other new things you wanna try, baby?â
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NRC staff and their guardian status with MC~đč
Notes: personal headcannons cause I absolutely cannot get enough of the NCR staff being caretakers/parental figures to MC. Itâs just so wholesome to me, and a lot of this isnât new info just my take on said renowned info.
Inspired by: @wolken-himmel @hunniepotts @adrianasunderworld @mashed-potato101
Dads: Crewel and Crowley
Itâs basically canon at this point that our dear professor would assume the main dad role.
He would have a long history of taking care of âunruly pupsâ, and having you come around like a lost stray in need of proper training. Well he just couldnât help himself now could he?
Spoils the hell out of you, yes he would take you out shopping for actual clothes and necessities, yes he would pay for everything, and no you absolutely do not owe him anything in return. Would probably get genuinely upset if you insisted.
Would be the dad to actually remind you, in a reassuring way, that you are in fact a child/young so you really shouldnât carry the world on your shoulders at least not by yourself.
Fairly overprotective and strict, he only wants the absolute best for and from you. Which means unfortunately you wonât get a sliver of favoritism in class, and no amount of batting eyes or cute little excuses in baby talk is gonna change that. âWell you shouldâve thought of that when I specifically gave you a weeks notice before the assignment went out pup.â And then he pats you on the head with his stick(affectionately).
No dating no boys no nothing, in fact no friends. Just spend your time with your loving father figure, heâs sure thatâd be much better for your mental health. âI hate men.â âBut you are one.â âMy point still stands.â Heâs spent more time around the student body than you have so he knows, LORD does he know, that plenty of them will leave you worse for wear despite how nice of a person they are. And if anyone, no matter who they might be, leaves his little pup sad and whimpering. Heâll make sure to remind them why he adorns the name of Crewel.
But at the end of the day he absolutely loves you, and you bring a special light in his life too. He may be a little young for it(in his words), but a set of adoption papers happen to make his way on his internet browser more times than he can ignore. Only if youâd like, perhaps he could bring the proposition up in conversation during your next shopping spree.
Oooooh Crowley, honestly this is mostly because he was the first adult to find you. We all know how this man operates, and yet heâll insist that he takes care of you like his own child! *looks into the camera*
The man is on the complete other end of the dad spectrum. Ya know instead of responsible and nurturing heâs more so flighty and excitable. Literally just- âWe gon need nutrition.â âSo your kid likes apple juice?â âOh no they love orange juice, but theyâve been bad this week.â âWhat grade is your kid in?â âSixteenth grade.â âThatâs not even a grade!-So they graduated college?â âNo theyâŠwhere is my kid??â He left you in the grocery storeâŠagain.
Donât get him wrong though, he can step up to the challenge when need be, heâs still a whole principal. If anything heâll at least make sure your academics are in line and your school life is decent, and thankfully he does play favorites!
However he definitely values independence, and just tends to think you can handle things on your own and believes a ton in your potential. Much to both your favor and detriment, sure thereâs nothing you canât handle but that doesnât mean you should handle it all at once!
Does get serious when the situation calls for it. Like if youâre legitimately broken up about anything, or just in a bad place the secret dad switch in the far reaches of his brain finally switch into hyper gear. He can catch the slightest wind of it, and heâll be the first one there to comfort you which heâs surprisingly good at. Both in physical comfort and advice, it gets you every single time.
He would never let you know this, nor could you really guess, but he would do anything for you. You mixed up his life in a very unexpected and interesting way, and even if heâs not good at showing it he does love you very much. Man would kill for you. Die for you though? Hmm, give him a sec to think.
Uncles: Vargas and Sam
To me he comes off as someone who definitely cares about you but doesnât show it on as intimate of a level if that makes sense. Heâs a gym bro, he shows his affection more in words of motivation and making you run just a few more laps. Cmon, he believes in you!
Obviously he values your physical health, but also because he knows that can translate into mental health. He may not be there for everything but he does what he can in the time he has with you.
Honestly he probably just figures that you already have a lot of people looking out for you, and he doesnât want to overstep. So heâll stay in his lane and make sure youâre working at maximum efficiency.
Of course that doesnât mean he wonât be there for you when you need it. Is also ever so slightly protective, but aims to lift you back onto your feet more than anything. He knows your someone deserving of respect so heâs gonna remind you of that every time he has the chance, and wonât stop until your confidence is through the roof. âCome on, youâre really gonna let them tear you down like that! Remember what I taught you, no oneâs strong like Y/N!â
But if you need a hug then maybe, just maybe, heâll sweep you up and jostle you around until youâre too dizzy to even remember you were sad. Youâre a rarity in this world, and youâre just as capable as anyone else. As long as heâs around heâll never let you forget that.
Also, head pats for days and 100% calls you kid.
I feel like I barely have to even explain this one. Itâs Sam, heâs younger and more extravagant. Not rly dad material, he gives off more older relative/big brother vibes.
Heâs got his own stuff going on plus a shop to run, he may not be around you 24/7 but would definitely encourage you to stop by and visit literally anytime. He absolutely loves your company and showing you all his little tips and tricks.
You can guarantee heâd sometimes let youâd off the hook when paying for supplies, for no particular reason at all of course. âIâm closing up shop for the night anyway, now run along little imp âfore the shadows get ya!â
Likes teasing you, just playful little pranks and jabs to keep you on your toes. Would never dream of doing anything remotely malicious, even does check-ins if your reaction isnât the happiest.
Speaking of check-ins, I feel like heâd ask you about how things are going every single time you visit him. Since heâs on the younger side too heâd definitely be more in the know about how to deal with certain things, and give you more down to earth advice. The jump from free spirited shop keep to serious guardian is wild.
Also for any of my black/poc MCs out there, he has your back(especially if you were homesick). Another fully welcomed slice of culture, I have a personal headacannon that heâd be extremely helpful on hair days too. Not to say no one else is, but he would take pride in you sticking close to your roots(heh, get it). As well as picking out really cool styles for you. Maybe even have some spells to let you color it, the possibilities are endless.
A little protective but he doesnât outright distrust anyone neither believes in shielding you. You gotta fight youâre own battles, but that doesnât mean he wonât be there every step of the way. When youâre knocked down heâll pick you right back up, now equipped with a few new tricks up your sleeve. And perhaps on some days many may notice that you have more than one shadow following behind you.
Loves you to death and beyond that, heâll make sure everyday is full of laughs and you have what you need to stand out from the rest.
GRANDPA TREIN
This man has gray hairs, years of wisdom, and put multiple kids through college. He has earned this category.
I want to say since he already has a family of his own he wouldnât completely take you in, but heâd definitely put you under his wing. Simply put he owns most the brain cells between all the staff, so heâd know not only how to but for your own sake that he should take care of you.
The amount of times heâs had to steer you away from the advice of a certain principal, and to be the guy to refute the extra baggage anybody put on you is ridiculous. âBut Crowley wanted me to get the supplies from the town this weekend, and then I have to host a tutoring session with the guys, and run another errand-â âYouâre not doing that.â âBut-â âNo buts, none of it. Now sit down and finish your tea, I fear youâll collapse if you think for another second.â Firmly believes no one as young as you should be dealing with the sheer amount of bullsh!t you deal with. And trust that heâs seen a lot of it in his time working at that place.
Heâs the epitome of responsible caretaker, will set your priorities straight and be very transparent with you. If your getting too distracted to focus on your academics, or putting yourself last after everything/everybody you have to deal with. He wonât hold back, youâre apart of the equation, the most important part.
Heâs also very well versed in the emotional aspects of a young ones life too. Sure heâs not the most touchy feely type, but on like a psychological level he understands and gives arguably the best and most proactive advice.
This isnât his first rodeo, honestly a lot of it is just second nature to him. He just has a lot of sympathy for you and your situation, and despite his demeanor heâs not one to leave a literal stranded child to fend for themselves. Heâs a professor not a monster, and of course you remind him a lot of his prime parenting days. Which heâs secretly very fond of.
He wonât say it out loud, well at least not in front of other people. Perhaps during a nice quiet evening in his office heâll tell you how genuinely proud he is of you and your progress. Youâll always have a means of support in him, but donât misunderstand him he doesnât play favorites.(yes he does)
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Trapped
OK so most of you have probably reached my story on Quotev but since i havenât really worked on the story here is the already published chapter from there.
WORD COUNT: 1.7K
Immediately you wake up from what feels like an extremely bizarre dream. Except the weight on your waist tells you otherwise. youâd think sleeping upright would leave your bones feeling groggy and gross. It really only felt like a heated blanket. The current position would most definitely be mistaken as one of intimacy with the way youâre practically laying on the Goetia. Did no one ever teach you what boundaries are. This is crazy for only just meeting but what can you do about it now.Â
In hell you canât really tell the passage of time looking into the sky. The galaxy themed castle most definitely did not help.Â
This moment mightâve been the most comfortable that youâve ever been in. Though pursing your lips, getting more chapped the longer your eyes adjust to being awake. itâs probably time to head back home. The only thing that could tell you how much time has passed was the lack of music booming in the background. Â
âDid you have a nice sleep, your highness?â Hearing the voice from merely hours previously still left you with such wonder.Â
âSorry, this was probably extremely uncomfortable for you. I really didnât mean to fall asleep on youâ you snorted
âDonât be!â he squeaked out âThe party was a little overwhelmingâ Why was this man filled with such genuine niceness. It was definitely prevalent; he's never really had any outside interactions before. With the way heâs constantly avoiding eye contact but simultaneously staring into your eyes. âIn fact Iâm happy that you were comfortable sleeping with me!â well if that wasnât the most innocent thing ever.
In fact it immediately broke you.
âHA bloody heavens are you bad at this.â you almost felt bad giggling at him.Â
His flushed face was so satisfying as you got up from the cloud seats.
âWell⊠I think itâs time to take my leave.â you stopped before even thinking anymore. âActually, could you take me to the gates. Iâm afraid iâll be lost the minute I leave the roomâ
âOh dear me, apologies for that. Right this way!â The flush now being taken over by embarrassment was such a sight to behold.Â
No one in hell royalty can you think of has ever been this timid. You could only assume with Paimon as his father you couldnât blame him for stepping on eggshells. Him being a few steps ahead was very much awkward in all possible ways.
Flashing back to a few years ago when meeting paimon was not something youâre happy to have lived.Â
3 years ago
âDad there really isnât any point in us being here.â A small Charlie complained.Â
Heading towards a restaurant in the Pride ring in honor of Charlieâs birthday was a given. But having some princes and other minor royalty come into the picture was not on this year's bingo card.
âYeah! you donât even like any of these peopleâ you shrugged looking through the window of the limousine.
Lucifer sat facing his kids with the most wicked smile. Him bringing them here was technically in honor of Charlie. But this was more of a lesson to her that her dream of redemption shouldnât even be an option.
âYouâll have plenty of funâ
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âWell well well, what fine demons youâve brought to us tonight!â This large avian creature came out of nowhere and stood in front of you to give a small bow.
Now you werenât any pompous freak like the rest of the nobles here at this party. But from the mocking tone of his voice and the way he held eye contact with you the entire time made your skin crawl.Â
âSo Iâve heard you sympathize with the poor now? dreadful thing isnât itâ Paimon swooped in and connected his and Charlieâs arm to their seats at the party.Â
As the designated âgrumpy pantsâ you can take the cake about hating this bird.Â
âActually I was more into the idea of protecting the sinners that came from earthâ Charlie awkwardly whistles out.
Though Charlieâs face of discomfort only got worse by his next sentence.
âYouâre a woman, donât think too much itâs not worth the timeâ
â-
With that man being the embodiment of all things bad. Youâre extremely surprised at how courteous stolas came to be.Â
Approaching the door made you kinda not want to end this night out. Which in hindsight is really stupid. Like you barely even talked to this man but something about him had made you feel so comfortable. Looking at him it really hurts to see him like this at the celebration of his daughter.Â
âThank you for coming to this party, I hope the next time you come to one of our parties that you have an even more splendid time compared to this one.â He looked embarrassed but not like when you first started talking. It felt more full of shame instead of the playful blush that you shared throughout the past few hours. Wow this really does suck. He's trying so hard to be put together even after that whole thing.Â
âIt was my pleasure!â you excitedly exclaimed. Now taking a proper look at him. He looked so tired. A little broken the more you looked at him. âI don't think anyone actually enjoys large parties other than extremely shallow people. Well Bee-lzebub throws awesome parties, sometimes it's a little crazy but you have so much fun at them all the time. It's almost a health issue-â
Stolas chuckled looking at you.Â
âI'm sorry I'm rambling.â what the fuck was wrong with you. Weren't you classified as the grumpy sane one?
âDon't worry about it. Im very happy to have spent my night with youâ however a person can be so fancy all the time is genuinely impressive. Maybe teasing him one last time wouldn't hurt too much.Â
âWell i had such a fun time sleeping with you, we should do it again sometimeâ the minute you said that you turned away and booked it to the limo. You kinda wished that you had stayed to take a look at his reaction but other than loving logic the most, leaving with a dramatic flare kept the un alive blood pumping.
â
The ride home was filled with many random thoughts.
It was really now time to unwind after that whole thing. Even if it's the supposed middle of the night. Which never really did make sense to you. Hell always had a gloomy night time effect to support the night life. As a hellbourne citizen it really never set in to what was happening half the time. It's been a long night. I know having baths too often is not good for the environment but weâre not on earth right now. They can solve their climate crisis by themselves.
âYou sure took a whileâŠâ the last person you thought would greet you. Lilith Magne stood at the staircase by the front door. Her and your father never treated you like you meant anything. You were the youngest. Really the only reason you existed was if Charlie fucked up. Since recently she's been more vocal about it all, your parents have been kissing your ass in hopes you'll do something about it.
You may not follow the same morals of most of your family. Like with Charlie you probably thought she made the most sense. Because if she's allowed to mess up and get a second chance from your parents then why don't the sinners from earth get a second chance? However, what are people without impurities? If that involves killing once and a while should that really be a problem? As much as he liked to disagree, Lucifer performed an act of free will when he thought humans didn't deserve to have that.
âUh huh that's obvious with the way that im coming into the houseâ You really did care about her but her pretending to care now can only get on your nerves.Â
âFeisty are we today? I just came to greet you because cant I worry about my own child?â the little sass from definitely wasnât a pretty look. My dramatic flare probably came from her. She said while hugging herself in delight.Â
âOk you do that, i'm going to go take a bath now. You have fun with your delusional ass.â passing by her going up the stairs.
âYou know you don't have to go to those partiesâ words full of matter a fact emotions. âCharlotte never ever gets asked to go, you're more popular than you let yourself believe.â
âThat's bullshit and you know that it isâ Of course she'll be saying stupid things like this. When does she ever make sense? âYou guys trap me here. Half the time I go out for Charlie is the only time that I get to go outside.â
âNo one keeps you here. At least I know I don't want you hereâ ok harsh. Your Mom and Dad only cared about themselves. Whatever, you just kept walking up to your room.
â
Splashing into the hot water never felt better.
After the snoozefest of the party and then of course your mother being an actual asshole. At least the small meeting with Stolas was carrying the night.Â
Pop pop pop
It was so warm, maybe if you close your eyes just a bit it wouldn't hurt too much.
â
âYou're exactly where you're supposed to be right now.â a voice whispered out.
âand what do you mean by that?â where even are you at the current moment
âNot a lot of folks typically come here but you, you are something special.â in a void this feels really weird.Â
âWhatever this is, this better not be one of those things where a weird dream demon tells me i'm built differently or something like that.â ok maybe you're a bit of a pessimist but that doesn't change the fact that you were right in that statement.
âYou resemble the most beautiful angel that existedâ ahh my dad âYou're about to change many people's lives.â
âJust remember not to keep yourself trappedâ
â
Gasping out of the water from that dream. The inability to drown is something you possess but the feeling of it is so gross.Â
Before leaving to your room you cant help but think about one thing
What is it with this story ending scenes with ominous ending lines?
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Reader goes into the tide pools and meets Belos like with Lilith and Luz in that one episode
giving me an excuse to rewatch Elsewhere Elsewhen AND write 1600s Philip?
IM ON IT.
Part 2
Philip Wittebane x Reader
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You didn't think the time pools would actually work.
The topic of them came up during a conversation you were having with a store owner and reminded you of the days you used to pretend to find them. You had some makeshift toy that didn't really work, you would crawl into one side of a hollow log and exit out the other side acting like you were in the future.
It was fun as a kid so you thought to go back to that place and revisit those memories. You didn't expect to fall into the sand and end up centuries into the past. Your immediate reaction was to hop right back in and back away. As you scrambled out of the time pool you took a second to breathe.
Once the initial anxiety had died down a bit, a thought crossed your mind.. why not?
How many witches could really say they had been in a time pool? Most demons you knew didn't even believe in them and that included you until now. You had considered the risks, but the tide wouldn't be coming quite some time.
...Fuck it.
You stood up and peeked your head back in. The beach hadn't seemed to different too the one you were currently on, yet you had spotted a group of witches celebrating something. With what you remembered from your days at school you recognized the outfits as those from the Deadwardian era.
Then you realized you'd probably stick out a bit with your modern clothing, not to mention the bloody fly effect.
After you pulled yourself through the portal, you moved to the trees to grab a few large leaves and makeshift yourself a hat. Once you adjusted your clothes to look a little more aged and you were satisfied, you headed into the town.
It was so surreal to see things that you had only read in history books. What was even stranger was how calm and kind things were in this era. You were pretty sure that these were considered the savage ages, wasn't wild magic dangerously rampant?
Before you could dwell too much on the thought, the sound of a door slamming made you turn swiftly in the direction. You looked to see a man kick at the door before stumbling back and yelling at the person inside. He adjusted his jacket and began stomping off, too angry to notice that he had dropped something.
You rushed over to pick it up and tap his shoulder. The man audibly groaned before turning to you and as you held out the pen that he had nearly lost, your eyes widened.
"You're human." You spoke before you could stop yourself.
He paused before sighing and taking his pen from you harshly. "Here to poke fun? I'll have you know that I have no intention in wasting my time-"
You waved your hands panickedly. "No, I've just never met a human before."
You couldn't help but have a genuine fascination in meeting someone from a completely different world.
There was a look of confusion, maybe conflict before it fell and he turned away. He wasn't sure what you were looking for from him but he wasn't going to fall for those sparkling eyes. There was clearly ill intent behind them, even if he couldn't see it just yet.
The man forced a smile and turned to leave, not expecting you to follow him. He looked over to you as you shoved your hands towards him and told him your name.
The human stopped, staring at you hard. He could see a determination in your eyes that told him he wasn't getting out of this easy.
He sighed before taking your hand and shaking it. "My name is Philip Wittebane."
You two had begun walking together, you were mostly taking in the sights while pointing at things you found interesting. He had tried several times to sneak off from you but you had stayed resilient.
Philip had decided to not waste his opportunity by asking you questions and you had plenty for him as well.
He wouldn't admit that he was sort of enjoying the company, it was simply a by product from traveling alone for as long as he had been.
That was it.
Philip had sat on a bench with you joining in the seat right beside him. You leaned into him and peeked at his journal, then you noticed that he was drawing the bird a few feet in front of the two of you.
You looked back and forth between it and then pointed excitedly at his sketch. "Hey, that's really good!"
He shot up and his voice stuttered. "Oh, uhm- Thank you."
It was a challenge trying not to react at how close you had gotten, he tried to force his focus onto his journal.
You seemed to be rather comfortable around him, the whole walk you spoke so passionately about everything you told him. He was trying to understand why you were so excited around him even when his answers had been cold and short.
Then he heard you gasp lightly and looked up to see what the issue was. He followed your eyes to a sketch he had done while you two had been walking. It wasn't anything impressive by his standards, a simple silhouette drawing of you and him.
"Is that me?" You questioned.
He nodded and felt his face grow red at the genuine smile on your face.
What is this?
What were you doing to him?
This curse that you had plagued him with forced words out of his mouth. "Do you.. like it?"
He didn't understand why he cared, in fact he shouldn't care what a witch had to say about his work. He didn't care.
He didn't have to force down a smile when you nodded and asked to see more drawings, he didn't purposefully scoot closer to you while you two looked through his book and he definitely did not sneak peeks at that adorable look on your face as you awed over his things.
Then came nightfall and you explained that you had to go and that you weren't sure that you could come back.
Philip nodded and held out his hand, he ignored the twist in his stomach and realized that it was for the best. Lest he fall to the temptation that had twisted his brother.
Instead of taking it, you pulled him in for a hug since you probably wouldn't see him again. The chance that you could find another time pool was incredibly rare and not to mention that this was four hundred years in the past.
You felt him slowly put his arms around you until you pulled away.
"Goodbye, Philip." You called out as you began to run towards the beach before the tide came in.
He waved to you, memorizing the sound of your voice and the look in your eyes. Perhaps he could not have you, as you were a demon and he would never see you again, but he could have your memory.
You made it to the time pools and took a couple tries before you had found your time and hopped back into it. As you got out to the other side and landed on top of the sand, you felt the tide hit your ankles. That was it then. You wondered if you could find something about Philip in the library somewhere.
Just to check if things had fared well for him.
The next week had been much calmer for you compared to the adventure you had gone on, but you still smiled at the fact that not only had you met a human but you befriended him.
No one would believe it.
As you carried your goods to the Emperor's castle and helped unloaded packages with a few other workers, you felt eyes on you. You looked behind you to see the Emperor himself, the fact that he had been there at all had surprised you.
It had even surprised you enough to miss the recognition in his eyes as he whispered your name under his breath.
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Easter with König
It's another holiday, which means I'm going to make my favorite fictional Austrian go through the holidays as well. First was Fasching, now it's Easter! If I have to celebrate it, then so does König, except he gets to have a better time doing it!
I wouldnât be surprised if youâd meet his family during Easter. Itâs a tradition of his to go to his parentsâ home during that time for a visit and a chat, he only sees them maybe twice a year, so he can appreciate having a small get together with them. He normally gets along well with his parents, but heâs lost most of the contact he had with them ever since he hit his mid 20âs, but he does look forward to seeing them. Naturally, heâd take you along for the ride, regardless of whether you actually know German or not. He can play interpreter for you, itâs not a problem for him. But if you know German already? All the better, that way his parents and you can just talk to each other with no problems. He does hope that youâll get along with them, they did play an important part in his life when he was younger.
König genuinely hopes that you will like the traditional Osterjause*, though. Heâs loved Easter for that reason, and for the freshly baked lambs, but mostly for the best Brettljause*. In fact, heâs probably called his mother two weeks before his visit to let her know what kind of meat and sausages to get for him and you as well so that there shall be plenty to go around. If youâre not from around, then you likely donât know what a âGsöchtsâ* or âSchweinsbratnâ* is, but he will assure you that itâs something delicious. König could rave on and on about that one farmerâs âHauswiaschtlâ. In fact, if he can, heâd love to go to the farmerâs market on Friday with you just so he can get you something to eat. Not above grabbing some Bauernbrot* and Krenn* either while heâs at it. Mans needs his Krenn when eating his Osterjause. Although it will have been a while since heâs seen everyone, he will introduce you to all the farmers there since he knows a good chunk of them growing up.
Naturally, heâll be drinking a few beers here and there as well. Heâs Austrian, itâs in his blood. Will have you try everything off the plate, from the Nuss* to the low-fat Karree*. Loves having you with him and will actively try to involve you in any conversation there may be so that you get to talk as well. Again, it might be a bit awkward if you donât know any German, especially since heâs not the most reliable translator, but youâll get by somehow. His parents have been curious about you for a while now anyway and have been wanting to meet you.
Although he claims to be far too old for that sort of thing, he wouldnât mind looking for an âOsterkerberlâ* with you. Itâs a nice tradition that he used to love as a child and he wants you to experience Austrian Easter with him, so he likely asked his mother to hide one for you somewhere around the yard so you can go find it. She wonât give you any clues as to where it could be found. Itâs childish, but itâs a lot of fun. In fact, if König were to ask her to prepare a Kerberl* for you, then chances are she prepared one for him as well, for old timeâs sake. And then the both of you, two fully grown adults, will run around the yard, looking for the basket. Once you found it, you had to admit it was rather cute, filled with a few hand painted eggs, some colorful chocolate, a baked lamb and some crafted chicks and bunnies. Clearly, his mother put in a lot of thought into what goes into such a small basket. In fact, even the âgrassâ was made of edible paper, it seemed.
König would feel somewhat stupid, looking for a basket of all things during Easter, but it did remind him of his childhood, so he wouldnât outwardly complain. Besides, you walking up to him, all happy with your little basket, does something to him. The sight was just too adorable, so heâd likely ask you, the master sleuth, to assist him in his hunt. Once youâve both found them, youâd return back to his parentsâ apartment and continue just chatting while occasionally eating a bit of the Jause*.
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Osterjause - Food thatâs been prepared for Easter. It usually consists of meat, sausage, cheese, tomatoes and horseradish.
Brettljause - Same as Osterjause except it can be eaten at any point during the year.
Gsöchts - Geselchtes - Salted and smoked meat.
Schweinsbratn - Schweinebraten - Specifically prepared roast pork, eaten cold in this context.
Hauswiaschtl - HauswĂŒrstel - A hard sausage.
Bauernbrot - A special type of bread.
Krenn - Horseradish.
Nuss, Karree - Types of meat
Osterkerberl - Osterkörbchen - Easter basket, a basket filled with easter themed food. Sometimes has a gift in it as well, mostly for children.
Kerberl - Körbchen - A basket
Jause - In this context it refers to the Osterjause.
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when your gut hurts â kyojuro, sanemi, giyuu
Authorâs Note: wasnât sure how to title this in a way that would accurately communicate the subject matter and show up in tags. đ
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when your gut hurts â kyojuro, sanemi, giyuu
Rengoku Kyojuro x Reader, Shinazugawa Sanemi x Reader, Tomioka Giyuu x Reader
Word Count: ~500
CW: explicit language, poop, vomit
Emergency Request Fulfilled: Hi iâm not sure what this constitutes as a pick me up, emergency or wtv- iâve been having a lot of abdominal pains and a lot of bowel issues(I havenât gotten off the toilet in 10 minutes and I keep going between pooping and throwing up) recently and I was just wondering if I could get a HC List on how the Hashiraâs would deal with their s/o being stuck in a similar position. I totally get if this is a bit too gross- and itâs 100% ok if you donât do it but I hope to see it đđ€
~faqs~
Since this is an emergency request (aka ~shorter than ânormalâ fanfics), Iâm going to focus on Kyojuro (fan fave) â€ïžâđ„, Sanemi (my fave) đ€, and Giyuu (also my fave) đ
Very methodical and attentive âșïž
Genuinely unbothered bc he approaches your situation as
âTheyâre sick, and I get to take care of them.â
Remember how well he handled Tanjirouâs abdominal injury?
Thatâs him w/ you and your pain + bowel movements đ„ș
Among other things, Kyojuro: makes sure thereâs plenty of toilet paper in the house đ§», cooks a simple broth to replenish lost fluids and nutrients (dw, itâs hard to mess up a recipe thatâs primarily water), happily unclogs the toilet if/when need be đœ, willingly takes on emptying-the-vomit-bucket duty đ
, and constantly switches between rubbing your stomach or playing cards/watching shows w/ you â in other words, keeps you company đ
Depending on how long your symptoms persist, heâll eventually gently recommend taking you to the hospital
But if you decline his recommendation, then heâs content to continue monitoring you at home instead â€ïžâđ„
Worried out of his fucking mind đ
Gives zero fucks about how âdisgustingâ you currently are
Will immediately shush you and kiss your forehead/nose/cheeks đ€đ€
Altho, Sanemiâs equally likely to tease you, âWhoa, that one sounded especially wet đđ„Žđ©,â if you seem to be in the right headspace for banter
Mostly, heâs attempting to lighten the mood so he doesnât slip back into worrying đ
Anticipates + takes care of your needs (i.e. liquids, meds, toilet paper, etc) before you do
But in a sort of stoic-nearly-grumpy manner đ
*cue Sanemi unceremoniously handing you a glass of lukewarm water*
*cue Sanemi staring at you until you take at least a couple sips*
Again, he isnât upset
Just worried đ„Č
Has to resist asking every other min, âHow are you feeling?â bc obvi youâre feeling shitty âčïž
And he trusts you to tell him if youâre approaching the get-me-to-the-hospital lvl of concern
Ngl, Giyuuâs a lil lost đ”âđ«
He doesnât mind the pooping and vomiting
Albeit part of him winces every time (he wishes he could take on your pain and discomfort đ)Â
But he is bothered by how ill prepared he feels đ
Like, is holding your hair back while you puke really helpful? đ
Does sitting outside the bathroom as you poopâto keep you companyâactually comfort you? đ Or is it just weird of him? đ
Should he prepare something for you to eat, or would that prolong your symptoms? đ
At what point does he insist on taking you to the hospital? đ
Ofc, he doesnât voice his self doubt đ«
Instead, Giyuu does what he would want you to do for him đ
Admittedly, it takes him a long moment to think about what he would want in your positionïżœïżœ heâs used to taking care of himself, and gets a lil emotional when he realizes he gets to lean on you now â and you on him đđ
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Do you have a dislike for media universes that "rewards" people for watching/reading all of it in general?
Or do you think there is one that executes that idea well?
I'm answering this 5 months late, but I'm pretty sure I still remember this ask being prompted by a post making fun of the MCU.
Do I dislike story universes that reward people for reading all of it? Not at all. I mean, I'm a fan of both Middle Earth and Star Wars, I fucking love big, big universes with plenty of stories in them. When they intersect in some small way it's a delight to me, I love those little personal winks from the author for having read their other works or recognizing the most obscure names only a nerd would know.
However, there's a difference between a little reference in a story meant for people who can connect the dots, and making something almost required reading for your enjoyment. It's the difference between an acknowledgement from the creators that you liked the setting enough to come back for a new yet familiar ride, and a company realizing they've found their cash cow and can't wait to milk it for all its got until it's dead.
And dead the cash cow will be, eventually. It's been said before that the reason why the Big Two of western comics have ceded more and more ground to manga over the years is that Spider-Man has 10 different starting points while Naruto starts with Volume#1. That's not just a funny joke. Onboarding new readers has genuinely been Marvel and DC's problem for decades, which is why it was both incredibly predictable yet shocking all the same that this is what the MCU turned itself into.
Sure, early on you could ask the audience to watch a couple movies before the big Avengers crossover, but now they've got all these TV shows on top of the movies that you have to watch in order to "catch up", and it's not even about the cool characters anymore. More and more of their fanbase is going to stop caring once the barrier of entry gets too high, and it's ridiculous to me that Marvel went this road with their movies when they know this is what happened to their comics first.
I mean, are you serious, their next big bad is Kang? I am not watching several TV shows and an Ant-Man movie that's somehow worse than the second one all to see how the currently left Avengers meet goddamn Kang the Conqueror. He's in both the TV shows and the movies, which means they're somehow giving Kang more buildup screentime than Thanos. Why? Either I've been extremely out of touch with Marvel comics or the MCU picked a wild choice to headline their next billion dollar franchise when Doctor Doom is actually available to them now and barely needs an introduction.
Sorry, got lost for a bit. Back on topic, yeah I know I know, all art right now exists under capitalism which means every setting that becomes a wider story universe is an author trying to milk their existing fanbase. Whenever a creator makes a thing that I like, and then announces they have a new thing set in the same setting as their first thing but isn't a direct sequel so they can keep gaining a new audience while keeping their existing one, I know I'm being suckered in.
Just, don't make it so blatant. And don't make it so hard. I am the exact target audience for these shenanigans and even I'm starting to feel like it's homework because it's all fucking required now.
If I, a lifelong Star Wars fan, want to watch the newest Star Wars thing, I have to see a hundred hours of other Star Wars media first. If I want to watch The Mandalorian Season 3, I can't just have seen Season 1 and 2, oh no, I have to also see The Book of Boba Fett too, because halfway through that show became The Mandalorian Season 2.5. Well I did see Boba Fett, and the combination of my dislike for turning it into required homework AND the show itself just being kinda dogshit meant I never touched season 3 of the Mandalorian. That show used to be so great because it wasn't tied down to any existing story arcs or characters, so it stood on its own and made for an amazing watch no matter how much Star Wars you've actually seen. And then it succeeded and so had to become the new spine for the entirety of Disney Star Wars afterward. Fuck. Now if I want to watch their latest show Ahsoka, I have to have seen the Clone Wars animated series AND Rebels, because the Rebels cast are in it too! I mean I did see Clone Wars and Rebels, but that still sucks!
That makes me worried now! Andor was also really fucking good and it stood on its own so hard you didn't even need to see Rogue One, the movie that introduced Cassian Andor in the first place. But now that season 1 was a success and everyone sang its praises, it certainly means season 2 is suddenly going to get real cramped with Ahsoka and Luke Skywalker and whatever guys are currently alive in its timeframe. Shit, they're probably gonna add Cal Kestis in season 2 of Andor. The Respawn Star Wars games are still doing their own thing which means it's time to connect to something else.
I hate what all this has become. It was fun to read the Silmarillion and see what kind of fuckery one family of elves got up to that eventually turned Sauron from minion to big evil eye parked next to evil mountain, but you didn't need to read all that before The Lord of the Rings. LOTR didn't assume you knew anything at all (and oh boy did Tolkien never miss an opportunity to explain shit).
Let me repeat. I am the target audience. I live for the ridiculously nerdy habit of reading things set in the same universe as other things and connecting all the dots. If /I/ feel like it's become homework, I can't imagine what the average person thinks of all this. Make it stop. Stop running everything I once loved into the ground in the name of endless profit. Star Wars was already doing this to itself before the Disney acquisition and yet it didn't feel this bad.
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