#body horror but in a trans way | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

asoftepiloguemylove · 9 months

Text

Cameron Awkward-Rich THEORY OF MOTION (4): ANOTHER MIDDLE-CLASS BLACK KID TRIES TO NAME IT (via @sweatermuppet) // Wayne Koestenbaum "Figure;" My 1980s and Other Essays // Mary Lambert "Why I Slept With Makeup on for Five Years;" Shame Is an Ocean I Swim Across // Keaton St. James DYSPHORIA CREEK // Richard Siken "Birds Hover the Trampled Field;" War of the Foxes (via @newvision) // Greta Moran Slow First

711 notes · View notes

soldier-poet-king · 9 months

Text

Thinking abt body horror as romantic. Body horror as intimate recognition of the self and the other and the other as the self. Body horror as an encounter with the divine.

#franposting #uhhhh sorry to all my homies who dont like horror but i am going thru it #and coming to some realizations about the grotesque and the bone deep body horror of the world. and its beauty and trust #is it a byproduct of an Overmanicured aesthetic obsessed culture or i am just Like That. maybe both #anyway. viktor arcane augmentation machine herald as both wonderful horror and terrible grace #smthn smthn the presger and translation state anne leckie #smthn smthn im from THE weekly divine cannibalism religion and we honestly don't talk enough about that and its implications #in a literal physical not vaguely spiritual allegory sense #honestly tlt gets at this too but it doesnt hit as much #anyway. read a trans persons thoughts on body horror and its like. fuck. you get it.#maybe not for the same reasons I get it.#but there is this. this core here.#anyway anyone have good body horror recs but like NOT visual. text. im weak stomached unfortunately to visuals #and like not in a gratuitous way. its gotta be philosophical body horror. the existential exploration of it all #horror as a genre of genuine art and contemplation. babygirl im so sorry i overlooked you for so long #not that the examples ive listed are horror #but are tapping into that thread im seeking #perhaps its not truly horror. it sure is smthn tho. and as always remains beyond my grasp #smthn smthn see in a mirror dimly etc etc

349 notes · View notes

tigergirltail · 2 days

Text

Haven't gotten that far in Dunmeshi yet, have only seen clips and screenshots, but it sure is an experience to see all of transfem tumblr either wanting Chimera Falin or wanting to be her

Meanwhile my mind is seeing the concept of someone being forced into a body that isn't truly theirs and flashing back to everything that disgusted me about male puberty, every terrifying thought I've had about losing all my progress and being forced to live as a man again.

#dungeon meshi #falin touden #chimera falin #trans #transgender #dungeon meshi spoilers #one person's hot dragon lady is another person's visceral body horror #feeling about this some of the same way I felt about Nina Tucker

85 notes · View notes

sciderman · 10 days

Note

Sometimes i remember a comics moment i randomly came across somewhere, where Sam Wilson mentiones a musical and Steve Rodgers says he doesn't like musicals, to whitch Sam goes "Guess that means you really are straight" and even tho i don't care about Cap America or the Avengers, the moment stuck in me for that quote by Sam. And like....Sci, any ideas if straight men actually don't like musicals or is that bullshit?

actually i think i know more gay men who hate musicals than i know straight men who hate musicals. i've had a drag queen stop me point blank when i was about to sing a barbra streisand song, and i know so many gays who pointedly hate abba. so based on my experience i think the inverse is true. most of the straight men i know are kind of impartial about musicals, but gay men? hate.

my theory is that a lot of gay men don't want to fall into stereotypes, maybe. but thaaaaat's just a theory! a gay theory.

#sci speaks #i'm trying to understand the gays. they are a mystery to me.#i've seen a lot more toxic masculinity coming from gay men than i have from straight men.#i think it makes sense. they have less women in their lives. so they reckon with a lot more masculinity. more dick measuring.#also gay men have some of THE most unhealthy romantic relationships i've ever seen in my life.#this isn't a blanket statement on everyone but just from what i've seen. it's such a strange pattern i've observed.#lesbians? healthy. straights? usually healthy. gay men? universally a tire fire that makes me say “if you hate each other so much ??”#“why are you together??????????”#i have never met a cis gay mlm couple in real life that was healthy. every single one of them made my eyes widen in horror.#i want them to be healthy. please treat each other better.#the number of bitchy bitchy fights i've seen between mlm couples in public that make me so terrified #but i know mlm relationships in general are usually less... affectionate than wlw relationships. even and especially friendships.#just an observation.#i hate to say that there is a definite difference between amab vs afab experiences when it comes to relationship dynamics but.#of course there is. there is. as much as i want to say gender and sex do not matter. it really does.#it makes a difference. it does.#which is kind of why i'm glad i was born in the body i was. when people say “trans means you feel you were born in the wrong body”#im like.. i don't think that's true. i don't think that's true for me.#i wouldn't be me if i wasn't born the way i was. and i want to be me. but i'm a boy. i'm a boy but in the body that i have.#my body is still a boy's body. because i live in here.#sorry this went off on a tangent.#but yeah i know my brain would be different if i was amab. and i don't want all those other issues.#i think the only reason i'm so peaceful and serene is because i'm afab. and afabulous.#i see cis guys and im like.. yeah i don't want what you got.#once again! lucky to be me! i'm lucky. im lucky i have a vargooba. thank fuck for that!#couldve been so much worse off. could've been born with a dick and would be fighting for my life right now.

36 notes · View notes

origin-spirits-of-the-past · 2 months

Text

Agito + Plant Body Horror

#body horror #agito #origin spirits of the past #giniro no kami no agito #screencaps #plant body horror #plant boy #anime #shapeshifter #early 2000s anime #this is still the coolest shit #ok it’s body horror techically but the movie’s narrative doesn’t see it as destructive #it places this transformation as a new way of existing in the world #i could scream about how cool his powers are for hours #at first he’s caught off guard by the changes to his body but he was prepared for becoming enhanced and wanted this transformation #i can’t remember another example of a character who choose a body horror transformation who was also a hero #me sitting here like: Was this a trans transition allegory or am I just unhinged??#me at myself: dumbass thats what the essay you’re writing is for

7 notes · View notes

nonbinarymlm · 2 years

Text

I feel like trans people and disabled/chronically ill people and neurodivergent people should be natural allies. Our struggles are so tied together. It's about bodily autonomy, the right to access healthcare, the intense stigma and villainization set against infantilism. The way people make fun of our existence and our activism. We are hand in hand against the social norms of what bodies, identities, and minds "should" look like. And that's just really sexy of us and we should stand together.

#ableism #transphobia #solidarity #trans #transgender #disabled #neurodivergent #sanism #that's a word right #social norms #allyship #shared experiences #have you noticed how many horror movie villains are trans coded and/or disfigured or portrayed as crazy #or multiple at the same time #the way people treat our bodies and sexuality #the way we are infanilised and demonized at the same time #the way ableism is wielded by transphobes and disabled people are degendered/denied autonomy over gender #look all i am saying is that our oppression and liberation is tied together #loving queue

222 notes · View notes

lunarharp · 3 months

Text

wip thing...

of my bg3 avatar hellebore. i also did some casual nude studies of my 3 characters which i'll put under a cut... rather unlike me after all. (so WARNING for abrupt non-sexual full Artistic nudity lol...,,,,) (< won't be making a habit of this)

they mean the world to me

#bg3 spoilers #?? idk. gith look so..Emaciated. And long. i guess we don't eat on the astral plane :) anyway..well..too much to say.....#it is very very very depressing having to live in the Real World after that final playthrough meant so very much to me.#i normally feel Hope & suchlike after finishing a highly immersive emotional game..but it's too hard this time and it hurtsssss lol yippee #i appreciate bg3 very much for being a place where i could access the concept of nudity & such like in a way that finally felt comfortable.#bodies are inherently non-sexual. they just Are a Fact of Life. this game being NORMAL about nudity from the character creation screen #makes it possible for someone like me to actually have a chance at accessing sensuality in a way that feels comfortable from there.#dont feel like putting it into words further. im ace. just very grateful to this game. even despite the horrors i will never ever forget it #augoh..gugf.. want to go back. my friends & love are in there.....i'm supposed to just move on? in the real world??? THIS place???? UHH????#my characters canonically look like that too!! i see them as intersex and not so much trans. They just look that way.#Diversity win!!! the people who enacted horrors upon you and are trying to kill you again respect your pronouns!!!! <3 #I FAILED HONOUR MODE IN THE STUPIDEST WAY POSSIBLE..ACCIDENTALLY TOUCHED AN ITEM. MY LOVER TOUCHED SOME BLOOD-TOUCHED RAG ITEM @ THE CRECHE #AND MY PEOPLE MASSACRED US... YOU BELOVED PRAT. OF COURSE IT WOULD BE YOU AND IN THIS WAY #grateful for love triangle chaos...INTENSE EX DRAMA... IT HAD MAJOR REPURCUSSIONS THIS TIME...ohh so very much happened ohh my dear #truly don't know how to face the Real World now for real. I Don't Know. something has snapped. ive realised twt just makes me feel sad lol #if something in my spare time isn't at least half as fun as bg3....like.. it's not good enough. god we only have one wild and precious life #being Online makes me feel a loneliness so wretched and painful and horrible i really don't think this is the answer.#Why did you even start drawing in the first place? Why did you start this?#For real..the need to work this out and decide what on earth i'm going to do now has presented itself. Why try to get better..why be online #someone who has an imagination that can keep them so happy and fulfilled...has no business also feeling a loneliness as profound as this.#why was someone THIS introverted and withdrawn and anxious also cursed with such a restlessness?#What are you going to DO now? because hellebore and their lover are fine....... So what about you...?#hellebore..😭😭 AUUGHH!! I JUST WANT TO GO TO MY BED IN THE INN...PLAY ON MY VIOLIN THAT'S WHAT I'D DO!!!! i'd drink some ALE DAMNIT!!!!!#i was rereading My Lesbian Experience With Loneliness- the only time i've seen this level of emotional isolation depicted-and was grateful.#but then i read her latest book and now she has a debilitating substance abuse situation and it's upsetting.#I hope she finds what she was looking for. I hope we all make it. kind of wild that i dont do such major self-sabotage at this point myself #I truly think anyone who manages to find dear friends and achieve fulfillment and happiness with others outside themselves are amazing.#I see it happen from my tower. i hope we all make it. I hope we can make it through everything to come.#Why did i say all this on drawings of my characters naked. ah who even cares any more......

18 notes · View notes

grayvveyard · 1 month

Text

From the flesh of a girl it was created,

Flesh cannibalised by itself and everyone it met

It rose and formed from the organs, bones and flesh,

Scarred, stretched skin covering muscle

Same blood, same bones yet reborn after the world consumed it,

The cannibal boy

#grayves brainbugs #gore #based purely on one reblog about cannibal genders #poetry #totally not about being trans or queer in any way noo #writing #flesh #meat #horror #body horror #blood

3 notes · View notes

royaltrios · 4 months

Text

chsc and willingly surrendering bodily autonomy… both of them exhibit forms of self harm through becoming monstrous. foul legacy being difficult to maintain, (parts literally peeling away in that last fontaine cutscene?? falling to pieces..) + sc tearing himself up physically from shouki no kami? (immediately giving up and going limp upon the strings snapping?) both so against the concept of weakness it manifests physically… thinkge.

#sc’s thing w dottore that i like feel a lot over but dont think i have exactly the right words down to describe accurately #and ch choosing to actively harm himself to become more powerful/bigger than himself #ch is very like hit them and hit them hard before they can hurt you or anything u care abt #sc is defined by how tolerant he is to abuse! ! (and kinda so is nahi )#but both ch and sc have like . body horror themes going on tbh.#ntm theyre both trans which also plays into how they feel abt their bodies #honestly i dont think ch really has a lot of dysphoria but i think he also doesnt *allow* himself to feel it. in a way??#if he feels strange abt his body he has the power to change it . fantasy world fantasy solutions imo. and therefore he doesnt dwell on it #hes like that w most things #theres something abt sc being trans and dottore experimenting on him i just have to extract it from my feelings to put into succinct words #allowing someone else to define you to yourself… maybe? volunteering the chisel bc youd rather just get it over with?#going along w things bc you believe yourself a tool so much that even your body youd let be defined by someone else’s image #of what you should look like how you should be #but then like wanderer just feels much more in control of his body.literally fighting the made-up form of yourself ie what dottore created #idk lol aaaaaa #chsc

4 notes · View notes

hee-blee-art · 1 year

Text

rebooted sige (featuring raphael)

[image ID: two digital drawings featuring sige (any pronouns), a thin person, in various outfits. the first image is a character sheet, showing a full body drawing of sige in a hoodie with the hood up, a flannel, grey pants with a carabiner and keys attached, boots, and white full-face mask covered in stickers. beside the full body is a two by two grid of busts showing: 1) sige in an orange and yellow wig and their mask; 2) sige in just their mask without the wig, revealing it is also wearing a bright beige ski mask underneath the white mask; 3) sige in just the beige ski mask with a black and white section over the eyes; and 4) sige with nothing covering their head or face but with a white heart shaped censor imposed over most of its face, showing its grey buzzcut and several scars. below the grid is a chest-up drawing of sige only wearing his mask as he stretches his arms up behind his head, showing that dark veins and heavy scarring extend down his body, including a prominent Y-shaped autopsy scar on its chest. the second drawing shows sige in both masks, their wig, and an outfit with a rainbow sweater standing casually next to and looking at raphael, a tall shadowy shapeshifting monster with large goat-like legs long arms, a short tail, shaggy hair, and short antlers. raphael is twisted at the torso to lean over and look at sige, saying, "hello brother." end ID]

19 notes · View notes

comfymoth · 4 months

Note

On that note, what were your thoughts on Coraline? Specially on that scene where the beldam counts down from 3 as she transforms into her true form.

Because to me, it made me realize that I love horror movies and their concepts, and what I didn't like of other specific transformation scenes was that they were... too real to me? Like they made me think about "if people could really be turned into animals how horrible would it be to leave every single thing you know about life behind and never get to do the human things you like and nobody knowing that something unnatural happened to you, they'd just see a weird dog or cow or chicken" and that was too terrifying of a thought to me

that specific scene didn’t really bother me the same way! i thought it was scary, sure, but that’s just because the beldam looks scary. a monster turning into a monster because they’ve always been one didn’t make me queasy the way other stuff did. she’s choosing to change shapes, no one else is making her, and it’s one she seems to like!

like you said, a part of it for me was being so upset at the idea of losing your original life and not being able to go back, being separated from people or just not being recognized at all. i really didn’t like the idea that it might be painful, or embarrassing, or that you could have absolutely no control over what was happening. the loss of control was HUGE for me.

in a weird way that’s probably what drew little kid me to werewolves though. because they do have to go through all of that, but in the end they can change back. and they don’t have to be alone because of it, you know, wolves are such social animals, it doesn’t have to be completely isolating. and also wolves are just fucking cool!!! so it was a way to explore all of that discomfort without it being so horribly overwhelming. it was cathartic!

and now i’m just Like This. so. haha. oops?

#if i can psychoanalyze for a minute—#i think part of it might have had to do with being a little trans kid. because as soon as i could conceptualize gender #i kind of knew that mine wasn’t right #the way people saw me and the way i looked wasn’t quite right #and as soon as i found out my body was going to *change?* that i was going to have to go through something uncomfortable and embarrassing #just to end up looking even more like i *didn’t want to look*#i completely freaked out #not that puberty is the same as getting turned into a fucking rat or whatever #but when you’re six it kind of seems like it might as well be #which is probably why i kept looking for media that had shapeshifters in it!#i was trying to figure out why i felt that way and how to process it #and eventually instead of just being scared i wound up really obsessed with the idea #because if you could change shape at will? that was comforting. but even if you couldn’t that was cathartic #idk i’m just fucking rambling now haha #and probably totally overthinking it #i don’t think that’s the ONLY reason i was scared there were definitely others #like. it *is* also just scary because it’s body horror and that is always scary #and i became so fixated because i was *also* just exploring what fear felt like and where my limits were #but i think that had to be at least a little part of it #sorry okay really i’ll stop now

4 notes · View notes

hes-a-plant · 7 months

Text

Is being trans and going through the wrong puberty technically body horror? It’s a transformation of the body in a terrifying way that’s really distressing for the person inside of it

#you can tell I don’t watch many movies #but like as a concept #I feel like this is body horror #trans #queer #and not in a “trans bodies are weird””’ way #more in a “it is really distressing to go through the wrong puberty when you’re trans and have your body change out of your control ‘ way

2 notes · View notes

vulpinesaint · 8 months

Text

oooh don't wanna jinx it but i think i've got a little wip maybe. need to think about it more but i've got sooo many themes i love in this babey and i think i am very excited about it. me when i can have all the elements i love from dracula and castlevania and edgar allen poe all in one place and ALSO have awesome characters for it. can't wait for one of them to turn themselves into essentially a half-demon in pursuit of transness it's gonna be fucking awesome

#valentine notes #my problem usually i think is that i don't put enough focus on character creation!!! but i'm doing that now!!! doing it well i think!!!#between kyrie and celestyn/celestine for the trans character who's into occult rituals and is gonna be soo happy with their fun new body #'fucked up' is a positive attribute to have for some people #gotta really think about how i'm going to incorporate what i want to say about religion in this.#cause i want to use religious elements but i kind of have to make a point if i do that.#but either way this is going to be soooo bracken core (red and black) (blood) (demons) (catholicism) (vampires(?)) (horror atmosphere)

4 notes · View notes

thatwitchrevan · 9 months

Text

The thing about armchair diagnosing cis people as trans is that if you accept that everyone's understanding of gender is deeply personal and that you shouldn't tell someone they're not trans or not trans in the right way, you should also accept that you can't tell someone they are trans or that they're not cis in the right way. Or that they have to either identify as trans or cis.

These are all just words and there's never any excuse to argue with someone over who they are.

I don't think most people are genuinely trying to overrule the 'cis in a gnc way' perspective but even being flippant about it is not helpful. Also I think cis people talking about gender in complex and fun ways is very cool.

#everyone is allowed to have their own gender #it's not like 'trans people get to do whatever they want and cis are boring and default'#cis just means you generally identify with the gender you were assigned or don't strongly identify with something else #not that you never think about what gender means to you or that you think you're a woman BECAUSE you have a certain body #everyone is capable of understanding the difference between sex and societal gender roles and gender identity #if we try to say that only trans people have this forbidden knowledge that's just another way of alienating ourselves #and suppressing discussion of gender #gender things #anyway i said this bc i was watching a video essay about transness in horror #and she talked about a mangaka who writes trans narratives and has this really complex relationship with his own gender #but doesn't openly identify as trans #and i think we will lose a lot of interesting stories and people if we tell cis people to either be quiet about gender identity or be trans #and i know it's like. 'no one's telling them to shut up they're the majority'#yeah yeah but like. being cis is such an ephemeral state of being #you could just as easily not be cis within a moment #so it makes no sense to me to act like every cos person individually is An Oppressor #they're literally not they're just other people under the same stupid capitalist imperialist society as us #that wants them to be stuffed into tiny marketable boxes just as much as it wants us to be #so not they're not an elevated class and they're not barred from the table #the reason we have community is for support and understanding but some cis people support and understand us and some trans people don't #everything has nuance #anyway i want to engage less with labels and more with people and let them tell me who they are

3 notes · View notes

lokidokeyartichoki · 1 year

Text

Episode 4 of Cabinet of Curiosities did a number on me in ways I did not expect. Those of you with body dysmorphia, body dysphoria, and emotional scars from social exclusion or general otherness might want to tread with caution. It’s a very good episode it just… brought up a lot in ways I wasn’t expecting.

#izzy at home #me #that late night bullshit #it’s very what would you endure to fit in and it brought up a lot of shit from my childhood #also so much of it was tied into looks so of course I had all these trans feelings about it too #but like at the end of the day what does it cost to be one of them and are you changed enough for that to feel right #also there’s some body horror there too so beware that #I just have a lot of thoughts and feelings about that episode #I don’t think people who weren’t othered or weren’t a certain level of passable to society will understand the story the same way #I feel like they’ll still get it but it hit me somewhere I don’t think those people can be reached #as a concept it’s terrifying and sad but I know how badly it hurts to want those things and know you can’t get it #I can’t even say it’s a cautionary tale it’s just… wish fufillment in a djinn kind of way

2 notes · View notes

nearisqueer · 6 months

Text

sometimes struggling to write is a good thing. If you're trying to finish a piece you started in a really bad frame of mind that is all about how miserable you felt at that moment, how hopeless and dire things seemed like they would always be. If you take a break from that and come back a few months later and find you cant occupy that space anymore, that might be a good thing

#just some thoughts from ally #was expressing this to rach just now #im writing a short body horror story about being trans and it was WAY easier a couple months ago #and now im like. how does one feel sad about the body they have. im too sexy to do this #writing #writers on tumblr #transgender

1 note · View note