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redysetdare · 4 months
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I don't know who needs to hear this but... You don't need to finish that WIP. not everything you create has to be a Work In Progress. you can just sketch something or write out a draft and then never go any farther than that. you don't have to finish everything you create. not everything is meant to be finished.
also, starting a new WIP when you have another isn't bad. it doesn't stop you from going back to the old one. sometimes you get excited for an idea, sometimes you just need to get that idea down. Do it. start another WIP. nothing is stopping you from going back to the old one later.
the only one putting these barriers up is yourself. Stop holding yourself back. You'll find yourself a lot happier if you stop forcing yourself to follow these invisible rules on what you can and should be focusing on finishing.
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blackpearlblast · 5 months
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[ID: drawings of a golem animated by a palestinian flag painted on its forehead. it is seen: holding out its arms protectively in front of a crowd of children, the children also hold each other supportively; catching an air strike missile from the air and throwing it away or crushing it in its fist; turning its back so that a child can warm her hands by the earth oven built into its back, food in a pot is cooking on the fire and a boy holds a cup of steaming tea to his face and enjoys the aroma; clearing away rubble so a man can help up his wife who was buried underneath, she is clutching a baby to her chest; stooping down to look at a kitten a young boy is holding up to show it; and dissolving small flakes of clay from its finger into a glass of water, purifying it. end ID]
@fairuzfan asked people to create and share art for the strike. i wrote an artist statement and then set about trying to draw what i envisioned. artist statement below.
This golem is a protector that I wish I could gift to the children and adults in Gaza. The flag on its forehead is to show that love for the Palestinian people is an animating force for people fighting for a free Palestine all over the world, especially for those in Palestine who are trying to free themselves and their people. Love is the motivation for the call for a free Palestine, not hatred like people try to claim. It is very strong and fast and can catch air strikes out of midair and crush them to dust or throw them back in the direction they came from. It can lift all the rubble of a collapsed building very quickly so nobody can get trapped underneath. It has an earth oven in its back with an ever-burning flame that people can use to warm themselves and cook food and heat water to use to bathe themselves or make tea. Pieces of its clay can be crumbled up and mixed into water to make even the most brackish and unclean water pure and safe to drink.
The golem is always a bit of a tragic figure so I don't imagine it staying around forever once Palestine is free and it is no longer needed. I think it would use its great strength to help rebuild the destroyed houses, churches, schools, universities, hospitals, and mosques and then dive into the Jordan river and dissolve. It would clean the river of all pollution and make the water splash up over all the newly replanted fruit trees, causing them to grow big and strong. Its love for Palestine and its people can be tasted in the fruit they grow for generations.
I choose a specifically Jewish icon of protection because of how it feels to witness such horrors done in the supposed name of Judaism and the Jewish people. For many anti-zionist Jews, we feel like we are acting directly within the teachings of our stories and communities by opposing this genocide. It is difficult to understand how the very people and institutions who taught us these values now fight against them so fiercely. While obviously I would still oppose Israel were I not Jewish, the way I oppose Israel is directly informed by my Jewishness. I hope that someday, somehow, Judaism can bring as much joy and support to the Palestinian people as it has brought grief and destruction. That Jewish symbols used in the name of love and justice will bear more significance than the ones used in shows of hatred. Knowing the depth of the harm caused, I do not know if this is possible. But this artwork and everything I have dedicated myself to these past few months and continue to dedicate myself to in the future is born from this hope. I love you. Thank you for being on this planet with me. From the river to the sea, Palestine will be free! And it will be beautiful.
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flowerandblood · 5 months
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The Man in the Black Crown
[ Amor • Aemond x Psyche • female ]
[ warnings: sex content, oral sex, smut, angst, violence, mention of the murder attempt, trauma, mourning ]
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[ description: After she is attacked in a fair by a strange man and narrowly avoids death, her father the king decides that from now on she will be watched over by one of his ‘ghosts’, a assassin acting on his orders, wearing a black mask. The man follows her like a shadow, accompanied by their past, which keeps her awake at night. Gothic horror love story, angst, sexual tension, verydark Aemond. ]
This story is several requests combined into one: sworn protector x female; Amor x Psyche; Phantom of the Opera! Aemond x female. I took the liberty of creating a completely new story from this, having only elements of each of these requests.
Series & Characters Moodboard Lady Walford Moodboard Gothic & Horror Sensual Moodboard
Part 1 - The Man with the Black Mask | Part 2 - The Man with the Empty Heart | Part 3 - The Man with the Lost Soul | Part 4 - The Man with the Cold Mouth | Part 5 - The Man with the Deep Scar | Part 6 - The Man with the One Eye | Part 7 - The Man with the Golden Gift | Part 9 - The Man with the Bloody Sword | Part 10 - The Man in the Black Gloves | Part 11 - The Man in the Death Cloak | Part 12 - The Man with the Pearly Hair | Part 13 - The Man with the Fiery Gaze
* English is not my first language. Please, do not repost. Enjoy! *
Next chapters: Masterlist
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Never before in her life had she felt such happiness and such relief as when she saw her mother, alive, smiling, standing in her chamber. She dreamt of it in solitude, heartbreakingly trying to come to terms with the fact that she would only see her and convey everything she wanted to tell her in the next life.
Instead, she could burst out crying like a little child, find herself in her arms again, smelling her wonderful, calming scent, her hands stroking her head and her back. For a long moment she couldn't calm down, sobbing loudly, apologising to her for everything, babbling about how scared she was, how much she was suffering, how she was dying every day at the thought of not protecting her.
When she calmed down at last she sat with her on her bed, realising that someone must have led to this miracle, that something had happened that had completely escaped her attention, that there was someone else in the coffin or no one at all, that someone had helped her flee.
"I helped the Prince escape when he was a child. He offered to help me run away if I secured my brother's support for him. When he found out what your father wanted to do to me, he arrived at his call." She said calmly, stroking her head, and she swallowed loudly, remembering that Vhagar's real name was Aemond, that he had taken her on the table a moment ago, her thighs sticky from her moisture and his seed.
All this time he knew her mother was alive.
I gave her poison, after which she just fell asleep.
She's free now.
She stared in disbelief at her mother's lap, realising with a rapidly beating heart that he had never said that he had killed her.
That he had never lied to her.
She felt a wave of heat, a wave of gratitude, of devotion, of tenderness surge through her body. She thought she would do anything for him, that she would never repay him for this miracle that had just embraced her with his arms. She lifted her gaze, recalling with fear her younger brother, the fact that he was officially the heir to the throne.
"What about Loras?" She asked in a trembling voice, her mother stroking her head reassuringly and tucking a strand of her hair behind her ear.
"He has seen me, he is in shock. My brother remains with him in his chamber so that he is not alone, but for now he cannot leave. Before the coronation, he will have to give up his rights to the throne in front of everyone, agreeing that you should become Queen instead." She said calmly, and she breathed a heavy sigh of relief, hugging her face to her chest, hiding in her embrace as she had when she was a child.
"…are you willing to do it? Marry him?" She asked uncertainly, and she nodded.
"Yes."
That night she waited impatiently for him, knowing he would come, knowing what she wanted to give him. She surprised him with her directness and initiative, the low groans of his pleasure as her mouth clenched and sucked on his manhood made pleasant shivers run through her, her walls throbbing greedily around nothing.
Both of them were surprised at how quickly she managed to bring him to the edge, his noises were full of desire and vulnerability and when he came in her mouth with a loud sigh of pleasure as she swallowed bravely everything that came out of him, wanting him to be satisfied with her.
When she released him from between her lips with a loud splat and looked up at him from below she noticed that his face looked completely different − he was panting loudly, shuddering, stroking her hair, his healthy eye wide open, his lips parted, his length still twitching, swollen from his fulfilment.
"− you will make a fine Queen −" He whispered with some kind of recognition, and she felt his words deep between her thighs. He pushed her wanting her to lie on her back, clearly planning to spend the whole night with her, but she stopped him with a movement of her hands, tightening them on his shoulders.
"− no − no, we can't −" She whispered pleadingly, her eyebrows arched in pain.
There was nothing she wanted more after seeing her mother whole and healthy than to give herself to him, however, if she was to become his wife, she could not allow him to do so.
He furrowed his brow, shocked, looking at her in disbelief.
"− are you mocking me? − I have no intention of pulling it out of you all night −" He said dryly, grabbing her hips and pulling her closer − she squirmed quietly when she felt him rub his manhood between her thighs, an amused smirk appeared on his face when he felt how wet she was.
"− you fucking want this −" He hummed; she tightened her hands on his tunic, shaking her head.
"− I want this − but the court will think I am your whore − I will never be respected by your side − is it not enough that I am the daughter of a traitor? −" She asked in a trembling voice and saw that he froze, looking at her in shock, his lips tightened into a thin line.
"− I will kill with my own hands anyone who dares to insult my Queen −" He hissed. She raised her hand and stroked his cheek − she saw him hesitate, his gaze softened slightly.
"− I ask this of you as your future wife − let us not spend the night together until our nuptials −" She whispered, stroking his scar with her fingertips − she heard him sigh heavily and curse quietly, furious.
He stood up, tying his breeches, staring at her with a clenched jaw and she raised herself up on her elbows, covering her thighs, looking at him gratefully.
"You're going to finish me off, woman." He said with annoyance, and she swallowed loudly, lowering her gaze. She felt his fingers grasp her chin and forced her to look at him.
"Tomorrow, you will accompany me during my council with the lords. You will stand by my side when I tell them of our decision. Do you understand?" He asked coolly, and she nodded, feeling hot in her heart at the thought that he really wanted this.
He really wanted her to be his wife.
The next day, new servants walked into her chamber, looking at her with trepidation, apparently afraid that if they offended her she would tell everything to the dreaded One-Eyed Prince, who would cut their throats.
In silence they helped her to dress and combed her hair − even though she should be wearing mourning, she put on a light navy blue gown with exposed shoulders and long red sleeves reaching to the ground, her and her future husband's colours.
In accordance with his wishes, she was led into the small council chamber, where lords loyal to him over the years as well as those who had joined him later were seated at the table − she was relieved to see her uncle and her mother among them.
This time, as soon as she spotted her future husband sitting at the head of the table she bowed humbly, causing the conversation to fall silent.
"My King." She said softly and lifted her gaze to him − his sapphire now covered by a black eye patch, his healthy eye looking at her with satisfaction and contentment. He nodded at her.
"Come closer, my Lady." He said in a firm, dry voice, and she headed towards him obediently, surprising most of those gathered by the fact that she stopped beside his chair − Criston Cole moved restlessly, keeping his hand on the hilt of his sword.
"Conquering a city and regaining the throne is one thing, however, maintaining it and keeping the peace is another. The simplest way to appease the terrified citizens, in my opinion, would be a union between the feuding families, heralding a new beginning. That is why I have made decision to take Lord Walford's daugther as my wife and that she will be crowned with me during our nuptials." He said lowly − an uproar and dissenting voices echoed around her, her heart beat hard in horror as one of the lords stood up and pointed a finger at her.
"This is treacherous blood, my King. It passes from generation to generation, it cannot be trusted. Send her back to the monastery, my daughter would be a more suitable candidate for your wife." He said looking at him with outrage, however her future husband's face remained impassive and indifferent.
"I declare my will, my Lord, not to ask your opinion. Have you supported me only to have me marry your daughter? Will you turn against me if I do not?" He asked coldly, with emphasis, wanting to push him to the wall. The man swallowed loudly, shaking his head.
"No, of course not, my King, however you must not be fooled, she will want to avenge her father and put her younger brother on the throne, she…" He didn't finish as a fiery argument broke out around her − her uncle stood up from his seat, furious, saying that it was thanks to him that they had taken over the city and he didn't wish anyone to speak to his niece in such a way − the other lord said he only did it because he wanted to be King himself.
"Why would I want to avenge my father?" She asked, looking straight into the eyes of the lord who had insulted her earlier − the man fell silent surprised that she had the courage to interrupt the men's discussion and interject.
"Because I believed he ordered my mother to be killed? Because if it wasn't for our King I would have took my own life? Because my father wanted to sell me like a mere whore to whoever would offer more?"
She asked in a trembling voice, a tense silence fell around her.
"I wanted nothing more than his death. Our King can attest that when I realised that my, what I thought at the time, ghost had connections to your cause I offered to help the Prince and do whatever he wanted, if only he would agree to spare my little brother's life. I told him this without knowing who was hiding under the mask."
"You could have done it because you sensed something was coming and wanted to warn your father!" Said one of the men, slamming his fist on the table.
"That's enough." Growled their King, but she wasn't about to leave that comment unanswered.
"If I loved him so much, why didn't I warn him? Why, after discovering the shelter under the bed in my mother's chamber, did I not inform him that the Prince might have taken refuge there, that he had survived?"
Silence answered her − the lords looked at each other uncertainly with grim faces. She heard her future husband sigh heavily, running his hand over his face.
"I appreciate your devotion, my Lords, but my decision is not negotiable. Let us proceed with the details of the coronation so that we can get it over with. I understand your concerns, fear not, you will fill your purses with gold."
Despite the extreme distrust and coldness with which her husband's decision was received, it looked as if his allies must have struggled to accept it, seeing that he was taking it seriously, not wanting to lose out in his eyes, hoping for close and important positions in his future council.
She watched from the sidelines with the ease with which he set them up like pawns on his chessboard, seeing exactly what they wanted, the greed and vanity behind their grand words of allegiance.
He knew that he could not trust them completely, that he had to control them.
Even though he didn't have a mask on his face, he somehow put it on in front of them, not letting any of his emotions or thoughts come to the surface that he didn't want to share with them.
She saw his greedy, thirsty gaze, knew he was dying of rage and irritation, struggling to keep his promise not to go near her since that night.
He craved her and couldn't touch her.
When the day of the coronation finally arrived her maids prepared her bath in the morning, dried and combed her hair, helping her put on her beautiful new black and red gown, a gift from her future husband, the colour of his house.
She felt a kind of pride when she noticed that the shade suited her − her dark hair contrasted with the ruby long sleeves, her hair partly pinned up in a bun at the back of her head, partly loose, flowing down her bare back.
She walked out of the fortress for the first time in weeks, accompanied by guards, and was led to the carriage that would take her, escorted by Criston Cole along with her mother and her brother, to the temple where the nuptial and coronation ceremony was to take place.
"Do you remember what you are supposed to say?" Their mother asked Loras, correcting his robe, also the colours of red and black, proof that he too was from now on relinquishing his father's lineage to his new house.
"Yes." He muttered, looking at her in horror, pale, his large, dark eyes glazed over from tears. "If I say all this, won't they cut my throat?"
She pressed her lips together at his words and reached out with her hand, grasping his fingers, squeezing them, looking at him tenderly.
"No one will hurt you again. I will become the wife of a Prince, and then a King, and you will retain the title of lord and inherit the estate that once belonged to our father. Everything will be as it should be." She said calmly, for the first time sincerely believing that their lives would finally be at peace, that her husband would keep his word.
When they arrived there were crowds of onlookers waiting around and in the temple itself, horrified people not knowing what to think about what had happened, watching them in silence.
Her younger brother was led onto the podium with their mother, much to their consternation − she heard shouts that it was a miracle, that the Queen was dead. Her mother placed a hand on his shoulder as he began to recite what he had been ordered to say.
"I, Larys Walford, as the son of a traitor, renounce my claim to the crown in favour of its rightful heir, Prince Aemond Targaryen, and my sister, his future wife, retaining by their grace the title of Lord." He said in a trembling, childish voice from which she felt a tightening in her throat.
He came downstairs, standing behind her, heading with her to the entrance, where her uncle was waiting for her to lead her inside instead of her father. She grabbed his arm and nodded that she was ready.
When they went inside all eyes were fixed on them, but for some reason she felt no fear or panic. All she looked at was the man who stood in front of the huge altar, behind him the tall windows through which the sun fell, illuminating his pale face, his eye patch, his long, almost white hair.
He stood upright, proud, prepared for this moment for many years, confidence, calmness and determination beaming from him − she saw that he swallowed hard at the sight of her, a barely visible grimace of satisfaction and contentment on his lips, from which she felt heat in her lower abdomen.
He craved not only the crown, but also her.
It was all about to become just his in the eyes of the gods.
Her uncle gave him her hand, which he grasped in his own, looking down at her, his gaze seeming soft to her despite the coldness, her fingers tightening lightly on his skin.
"We are gathered here to unite, bless and anoint these two people entrusting the fate of us all into their hands. Do you, standing here before the face of the gods, wish to join in holy matrimony of your own free will?"
"Yes." They both replied in a confident, clear, calm voice.
"Have either of you, standing here before me, made a commitment to someone else that might stand in the way of this sacred union of marriage?"
"No." Again they both answered, she saw his gaze change with each passing moment, as if he was slowly realising that this was really happening, that they were just becoming one.
"Therefore, I, the envoy and servant of the gods on earth, call upon you to take an oath:
In the face of the gods and all assembled witnesses, I vow that what was empty becomes full, what was broken becomes whole, and what was separated becomes one, now and for all eternity.
They said with difficulty. She felt tears gather in her eyes with each word, her throat tightened, their fingers clenched on their hands − she saw his lower lip tremble slightly.
There was a complete silence around them that made her hear their accelerated breaths perfectly − they let go of each other's hands when the priest ordered them to face him and kneel.
She closed her eyes as he anointed first his forehead and hands with holy oils and then hers, while saying that by the will of the gods they would rule this kingdom.
She heard Ser Criston Cole take a black steel crown, adorned with rubies, from the altar and walk over to her husband, placing it on his head. He went back and took another crown from it, which was in the form of a diadem with ringing ruby beads − when he placed it on her head it would fall on either side on thin strings, connecting to each other at the back.
Her husband stood up, and she rose with him, Criston Cole shouting behind them.
"Long live the King!"
"Long live the King! Long live the King! Long live the King!" His lordship cheered, and behind them the other assembled people began to chant, simple folk who had watched everything from afar.
Loud applause echoed all around them, and she thought that people, like her, were relieved at the thought that the worst was behind them, that perhaps there would be peace at last.
They returned to the fortress on horseback so that all those gathered could see them − she rode a little way behind and heard the people shouting her name, calling her their queen, running after her.
She looked at them with some kind of emotion, remembering how they had thrown flowers at her feet when she returned alone to the keep, thinking that her mother was dead.
They were welcomed in the fortress with a huge feast of dancing and revelry, seated behind a large wooden table, receiving congratulations from the lords and their families along with vows of allegiance, which they accepted with a nod.
She knew they were both dyingly exhausted and dreamed only of rest and respite. Her husband did not ask her to dance, however, she did not mind.
She felt no need to do so, although to her surprise, she was filled with contentment.
She looked at her husband out of the corner of her eye − he was sitting with his profile to her listening to the words of another of the lords, the black crown on his head looked noble.
It seemed to her that he was born to wear it.
When at last they were able to retire to bed, her husband ordered her to go with him to his chamber, so she did so without a word of objection, and her servants followed her.
He watched sitting in a chair as they helped her to take off her gown, trying to remove the diadem from her head first, however, he immediately protested.
"No. The diadem is to stay." He said coldly, in a slow respectful movement pulling the crown off his head, placing it beside him on the table, looking at it thoughtfully.
Her servants walked out when she was finally left in just her nightgown, closing the door behind them − her husband raised his eyes at her, his gaze expressing displeasure.
"Shall I rip it off you?" He asked lowly, so she pulled at the ties of her nightgown and slipped it off her shoulders, letting it fall lightly to the floor.
She saw her husband-king lick his lower lip involuntarily, seeing her naked body at last in the candlelight, able to admire her shamelessly without having to rely solely on his sense of touch.
He rose slowly from his chair with a creak of wood, approaching her unhurriedly, towering over her. She shuddered as his hands ran gently over her shoulders, up to her neck and cheeks, a pleasant, warm shiver passed through her even though she was cold.
He surprised her when he leaned down and brushed his lips against hers, barely rubbing against them without giving her a full kiss. She sighed in delight as she felt his familiar touch and scent, her fingers ran over the soft skin of his cheeks reciprocating his caress.
She moaned quietly as he grabbed her with his arm around her waist and pulled her closer, his lips greedily pressed against hers in a loud kiss as if he were tasting the fruit − they both gasped as the tips of their tongues licked each other tentatively.
"− I'll lick you good down there before I slide it into you − hm? −" He murmured running his nose over her cheek and she felt her insides throbbing hard at his words. She nodded quickly, running her fingers through his hair impatiently, looking up at him pleadingly.
She squealed quietly as he grabbed her hips and lifted her with ease, walking with her towards the royal bed that had once belonged to her father, and his father before that.
She sighed as her warm body collided with the cold sheets, her husband taking her thighs in his hands and spreading them in front of him, looking down at her with slightly parted lips.
"Mmm."
He murmured, and then leaned over her, nuzzling his face into her warmth between her thighs, with shy, tentative movements sliding the tip of his tongue inside her, teasing her deliberately, a moan of pleasure escaping her lips, her body arching backwards as his nose rubbed against her bud.
"− please − please, my husband −" She mumbled out, feeling her whole body burn with desire − for the time he hadn't visited her she had satisfied herself with her own hand, but it wasn't the same − she needed and wanted only him. She heard him hum with satisfaction at her words, watching her reaction with contentment.
"− so impatient − I was thinking only about this listening to those fucking fools −" He muttered between one lick of his tongue and the next, making her body tremble in his hands.
"− about what I'm going to do to my wife tonight −" He breathed out − she moaned loudly, surprised, clasping her hands in his hair as his tongue suddenly burst deep inside her.
He began to eat her like a starving man with a loud click of their mixed moisture, the tip of his tongue rubbing and pressing the spot inside her from which her walls throbbed wonderfully, her hips began to push desperately against his face.
"− my King − right here, yes, please −" She was panting and whimpering with pleasure when she felt the shockingly intense fulfilment shake her body, waves of heat flowing through her one after another − she was writhing in front of him, thinking only of the fact that he was her King and she had just come on his face.
She heard him sigh in contentment, with slow, lazy flicks of his tongue licking off everything that flowed out of her.
She looked at him with misty eyes when she heard him rise up on his knees, wiping his face with the back of his hand, reaching up to clasp of his tunic, staring at her as if he was about to devour her.
"− as your King and husband, I swear to you that you'll fall asleep and wake up with this inside you −" He murmured with a grin as he untied his breeches, releasing his hard, swollen erection, its tip glistening from his own wetness.
She spread her thighs obediently in front of him as he leaned over her, placing one hand at her head, the other guiding the fat head of his cock against her entrance, still throbbing from her fulfillment, and he pushed into her, a moan of delight escaping from their throats.
He slid deep into her with one sure thrust and immediately began to slam into her, panting loudly along with her, imposing an intense, fierce pace, his thighs slapping again and again against her buttocks with the loud click of her juices.
"− oh gods, yes − fuck, I've missed this −" He breathed out, rooting into her with sure, deep thrusts of his hips, sliding into her with ease − she reached her hand up to his eye patch and pulled it off in one sure motion, startling him completely.
He groaned low as she grasped his cheeks in her hands and pulled his face to hers, their lips colliding in a sticky, loud kiss, their bodies hitting each other fast and hard.
"− yes − please, yes, fuck me, my King − I'm yours, I'm yours, I'm yours −" She mewled meeting each of his thrusts with the bucking of her hips, one of her hands clamped down on his buttock allowing him to pound into her harder. She could feel him twitching all over, close to fulfilment after such a long separation, her insides sucked desperately at his cock, wanting to keep him inside her.
"− gods, stop clenching − stop, oh, fuck-fuck-fuck-fuck −" He muttered before fulfilment shook his body and his hot seed spilled inside her − they were both panting, looking at each other with misty eyes, trying to prolong this sensation with the motions of their sweaty bodies.
She sighed quietly as he leaned in and kissed her deeply, pulsing hard, still moving inside her with involuntary rocking of his hips.
"− you are made for me −" He sighed in relief, his voice filled with calmness, as if stating a fact he had read about in some book.
"− you were born to be mine −"
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fandomfucker · 4 months
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Space-Poly!TJD x Fem!Reader
Request: poly relationship between judgment day and reader. The reader is keeping a secret from their partners. The secret is that she is a little. The reason why she is hiding it is because she thinks that they will hate her and leave her like her last partner did. One day when they are all out and she is home by herself she slips into little space and she is in little space for an hour until they get back and Damian goes to check on her and he walks in on her in little space. She's all freaked out. Damian is the only one who knows what little space is. They all explain that it's adorable and that they love her for who she is. Her main caregiver is Damian but they all take care of her when she is in little space. She has a stuffed tiger named Maengho.
A/N-I want to preface this by saying that this is NOT SEXUAL however it is about little space so if you don't want to read it, don't. I would also like to go ahead and apologize for any incorrect information/misrepresentation, I did research on it and tried my best. Please enjoy and sorry for the wait ❤️
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Reader's POV
Alright, Love. We'll be back later, okay?" Rhea informed me as she held my cheeks between her hands. I nodded and smiled up at her as she bent down to kiss my forehead before grabbing the keys to her truck and walking toward the front door.
Finn, Dominik, and Damian, my other three partners, all filed after her. They all gave me a small kiss and a quick goodbye as the four of them left to go film some Judgment Day promos.
Once the door had been shut behind them and I had seen Rhea's truck speed away down the road, I breathed a deep sigh of relief, a small weight being lifted off my shoulders.
Work had been really stressing me out lately but with my partners all unaware of my strategy for coping with stress, I hadn't been able to do anything about it. But now they were out of the house for at least a little while and I was free to do whatever I wanted.
After going and grabbing one of the little bottles of apple juice we kept in the fridge, I happily skipped back to my own room, immediately heading for my walk-in closet.
Shortly after we had all moved into our house together, I had set up a small space for me to be a little in. Basically, somewhere for me to decompress while acting and having the same overall headspace as a child.
The closet wasn't massive but it was just big enough for me to set up what was essentially a giant pillow fort.
The walls were lined with fluffy pillows, half of them the really big tube ones, and the floor was littered with thick fluffy blankets.
I had only a few stuffed animals but they were all my favorite ones. There were about 12 in total, my favorites of favorites were ones from Build a Bear that I'd made with people special to me, my number one being Maengho. He was a tiger I'd gotten all of my partners to build with me a couple of months ago after we first moved into our house.
Fairy lights hung from the ceiling and walls, creating a homey effect that I adored. I also had a small TV mounted on the wall, above a nightstand type of dresser I stored my little clothes in. It was mainly just Disney Princess nightgowns but I also had some My Little Pony pajama sets and a Rainbow Brite sweater for if I was cold enough or just wanted to be extra comfy.
I had some tutus and dress-up jewelry for when I felt like it, but I just enjoyed wearing pajamas more than anything.
Ripping my hair out of the ponytail I'd stuck it in, I plopped down onto a flower-shaped pillow on the floor, beginning to dig through the dresser for a specific Tinkerbell nightgown I knew would be in there.
Not bothering to stand up, I just changed into the dress while sitting on the floor, opening the closet door only for a minute to throw my regular clothes out into my room.
I grabbed the small remote off the dresser, and turned on the TV, turning it to Disney+. My favorite movie of all time since I was a baby was actually The Many Adventures of Winnie the Pooh so I turned that on as I adjusted the pillows and blankets around me, making myself comfortable.
Sitting criss-crossed apple sauce, and laying a fluffy pink blanket across my lap, I sat Maengho on my lap before setting my little lap tray that had all my coloring stuff stored in the side pockets in front of me.
Opening up the Lisa Franke coloring book, I flipped to a new page, deciding on a picture of two baby penguins in a basket.
For over an hour, I sat in my closet, fully immersed in my little space as I half-paid attention to the movie, coloring in my penguins with vibrant colors.
I was so immersed in fact, that I hadn't heard the garage door open or the calls from my partners soon after.
The door swung open, making me jump and causing me to draw an unwanted line down the center of my paper.
My eyes were wide with fear as I looked up to see all four of my partners looking at me in the doorway, confusion and concern etched on all of their faces.
Damian's POV
Y/n sat on the floor with a stuffed tiger, wearing a Disney princess nightgown, coloring. We all just kind of stopped in our tracks and stared at her in confusion as she looked up at us.
Her eyes were wide and slowly started to become filled with tears. She curled into herself, hugging the tiger, Maengho I remembered, tightly to her chest as she dragged her blanket up to cover her entire body and half of her face.
The tears started falling as she silently cried. I realized what this all was as I gently crouched down to better get on her level.
She began to bring her knees all the way to her chest and curl into herself even further as I reached out a hand to her. I retracted my hand before I scared her to death and took to just speaking to her softly instead.
"Y/n? It's sweetheart, we're not upset."
She lowered the blanket slightly from her face as she looked at me. Her lip quivered as her gaze shifted between me and the other members of the Judgment Day.
"You're not?" She asked timidly.
I shook my head 'no' in answer, glancing back to the other three to see that based on their facial expressions alone, they had no idea what was going on.
Turning back to Y/n, I spoke to her softly and quietly so as to not scare her any further. "Tell you what, us four are gonna go back down to the living room for a few minutes to talk, okay?" I made a circular motion indicating us wrestlers as I spoke.
"Do you want anything in the meantime? Or do you want me to bring you anything from the kitchen?"
She slowly shook her head at that, speaking so quietly I almost didn't hear her. "We don't have anything here."
I gave a nod in understanding a gave her a small smile before standing back up and turning around to push our other partners out of the way as I shut the closet door behind me.
None of them made any move to leave the room until I started making shooing motions with my hands.
Once back downstairs, I had them all sit down on the couch as I stood in front of them to explain what exactly was going on.
Reader's POV
Curious, I waited until I couldn't hear my partners' footsteps anymore before quietly retreating from the safety of my closet.
It was me and Maengho against the world as I held the top of his head to my mouth and tiptoed towards the stairs. I went down as far as I could, keeping to where they wouldn't see me.
I leaned my back against the wall, holding Maengho tightly as we eavesdropped on my partners and their conversation about me.
"Okay, so it seems to me that Y/n is a little. I don't know her specifics but basically, she gets in the headspace of a child to escape reality." I heard Damian explain to them.
There was silence as the others absorbed that information.
"Wait, shouldn't she be a part of this conversation then?" Dominik asked him.
Damian took a second to think about it before responding. "Yeah, we'll have a larger conversation including her, obviously, but I wanted to go ahead and give you guys a basic understanding of what we're getting into. If anyone has a problem with it they can leave."
"That makes sense, but I'm still in." Finn agreed.
"Me too, but I think the first thing we need to do is take her to the store and get her some food and whatever else she wants. We don't want her to feel uncomfortable and like she has to hide this part of her." Rhea vocalized.
"I second that." I heard Dominik speak up, ever the Mami's boy.
"Let's go then!" I heard Damian exclaim as they then all began to make their way back upstairs to my room.
Panicking, I shot up from where I was sitting on the stairs, making a beeline back to my fort.
However, in my haste to make it back before they realized I'd been listening in on their private conversation, I somehow missed the last step entirely.
My toe caught the edge of it, sending me sprawling across the rough carpet of the second-floor hallway. "Fuck!"
Four sets of footsteps pounded up the stairs and the sound of my name being called in a panic was all I heard.
Feeling a warm hand on my shoulder blade I rolled over with a groan, seeing Damian kneeling next to me. "Are you okay, princesa?"
I managed to nod my head with only a slight grimace before I asked the question that burned me the most. "Are you guys really okay with me being a little? Because I know it's a lot and it's fine if you hate me and my last partner left because of it and-" I was cut off just as my eyes began to fill with tears again.
"Of course, we're okay with it. We just don't know that much about it yet and need to learn." Finn told me softly.
Dominik nodded along, "Yeah, we all love you no matter what. But, first things first, we need to take you shopping."
"I don't have any clothes I like to go out in," I spoke, my voice muffled slightly due to my face being pressed against Maengho. I was a bit taken aback and overwhelmed by the amount of utter love and acceptance they were just immediately showing me.
"That's okay, Love. Do you wanna borrow some of mine?" Rhea asked me. She was crouched in front of me, with one of her hands rubbing my knee soothingly. I perked up at this, my head shooting up to meet her gaze and nodding enthusiastically. She laughed slightly as she stood up and then held out her hand to pull me up as well.
I loved wearing Rhea's clothes any chance I got because not only did they just look cool but they actually fit for the most part, unlike the boys' clothes. And they smelled like her.
Borrowing just a pair of her sweats, I paired it with an old Muppets t-shirt that I had.
After I had finished changing, Damian gave me a piggy-back ride downstairs, having me take a seat on the second to last step of stairs as he put my shoes on for me.
I giggled and kissed Maengho goodbye, not wanting him to get covered in Walmart germs before grabbing Damian's hand and skipping out to Rhea's truck.
I sat in my usual seat, the middle in the second row with Damian and Finn on either side as Rhea drove and Dom rode shotgun.
Once we got there, Dominik, ever the gentleman, helped me up into the cart so I could sit in it as they pushed me around, following my points and vague gestures toward the things that I wanted.
They got me cookies and cream ice cream, paired with gummy bears of course, along with dinosaur chicken nuggets that I had to promise to share with Dom. Rhea had even snuck off at one point to surprise me with bubbles for the bath.
We picked up some other snacks and stuff for me to have when in little space before making our way back home.
Upon returning home, I changed back into my princess nightgown before giving my partners puppy dog eyes for ice cream, to which they eagerly obliged, just wanting to make me happy.
So, happily, I ate my ice cream, doing wiggly happy dances in my seat as my feet swung back and forth beneath me.
When we had been looking at new furniture for the house, my partners had thought it hilarious to get dining room chairs just tall enough that my feet couldn't reach the floor.
My partners watched on from their own seats at the table, each of them with a smile on their face. They were all so different from my last partner it was insane.
There were still conversations to be had but for now, everything was perfect.
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rustingcat · 7 months
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Love
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Kara loved weddings.
It was a great opportunity to celebrate love, with food and dancing and touching speeches. She especially loved weddings that included people she loved. Being surrounded by their friends, celebrating the reunion of two people she loved so much and clearly love each other more than anything was a touching event.
They included both earth traditions along side Nalturian and Coluhan traditions to make a truly unique and special ceremony.
The machine was not yet ready, but Kara promised them it would be by the time they both decide to bring a child. If they chose to of course. But they would be working on Brainy biological problems, so he would be completely free from the future and free from any family responsibilities.
She made sure to reassure them both, yet she had her doubts on her chances. It was eating her from the inside. She felt like she was lying, but she tried her best to ignore those feelings to allow herself to fully enjoy the weddings.
A lot of food, some dancing and making silly faces with Esme later, Kara found herself sitting in a corner, observing the party from the side. Kryptonian ceremonies, not that they were not special in any way, were not about love, they were about finding your perfect partner. She could never remember a time her parents showed any romantic interest in each other. Then again, she was thirteen when she left, yet she could clearly see the way her aunts and uncles were acting towards each other. Romanticism and sex were not really important to a species that procreated asexualy, so most often than not your partner for life would be someone you would get along with and would bring out the best in you, like a best friend that in rare cases developed to something more. 
She wondered if she would've been matched with Lena. She hoped she would have. On Krypton their ceremony would be a big affair, considering they both come from big houses. Kara would create the perfect bracelet for Lena, sturdy and strong like her determination and will, shiny and intricate like her beauty and grace, and colours… she'd have to check if the Luthors had any colour associated with them. A representative from all of Krypton's important houses would be there. Rao's light would shine brightly on them as they recite the Holy prayers, then after thanking a lot of people they would go to their new house and plan their future together.
On earth of course it would've been a whole different ordeal. Kara wondered if they'd combine traditions like Nia and Brainy, they probably would, wouldn't they? Combine human and Kryptonian traditions along with Lena's Catholic side and the Danvers Jewish traditions. A plethora of cultures to celebrate their happy union with only the people they really love surrounding them. Kara would make sure they'd had all their favourite foods regardless of tradition. It would've been the best party, that's for sure. Maybe it's not a bad idea, they do get along great and bring out the best in each other like all the Kryptonians ideals. But humans have other ideals. They sure do love each other, but their relationship is not romantic. Would it mean that Kara would stand in Lena's way to find true love?
"Hey you." She heard Lena's voice approaching. "Are you okay? Lena asked, taking a seat opposite to her on the table.
"No, yeah. I mean I'm okay." She smiled back at her best friend. Unsure why she found the task so challenging all of a sudden. "Just thinking." She quickly added. "I promise I don't have a habit of sulking at weddings."
"Want to share what's on your mind?" Lena asked gently.
Kara thought for a moment, unsure what to say. "Are you happy?" She asked eventually.
"Me?"
"Yes. Are you happy?"
She chuckled. "I am. Kara, are you really sitting here in the corner pondering the state of my happiness?" Lena arched an eyebrow.
"Yes? I mean, you're my friend Lena, and I want you to be happy, you know that right?"
Lena chuckled again and studied her with a confused look for a moment before getting up. "Well, if you want to keep my happiness at full power, I can't have my best friend sulking in the corner." She reached out a hand towards Kara. "Come on, they were just about to bring out the desserts." 
Kara smiled and reached out for Lena's hand.
It may have been a selfish thought, but Kara wished she could just marry Lena.
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delicatebarness · 17 days
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winters child | pilot
Summary: How it all began.
Warnings: Slight MCU Spoilers. Talks of Young Pregnancies Against Will, Mentions of Still Birth. Mentions of Physical Fighting. It is a story about a child born into Hydra and The Red Room, just expect the worst. You are responsible for your own media consumption.
Word Count: 1278
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A/N: There are three POVs in this story. Natasha's, Bucky's & Reader's. Each has its own respective emphasis'. As shown previously, Natasha's POV will be Italic, Bucky's POV in Bold, and Reader's POV will be the regular option. Any 'Talking Heads' will be in 'Small'. I hope you enjoy this story as much as I have come up with the idea and written it! As always, feedback is welcome and appreciated. Side Note: I am posting this chapter now to collect thoughts/feedback. If it is requested for more then it will be weekly on Wednesdays when new chapters are released.
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Act One
The Red Room. Every corner harbored secrets, and whispers. They echoed a weight of betrayal. She was one of many Black Widows trained there to become the best of KGB spies. As well as Ballet but that was only a cover. That was where she met him.
"Meeting The Winter Soldier was, chilling, he was an enigma. I remember the room would go silent, and the air would feel heavy like every breath was a reminder of the darkness that processed him. He sent shivers down my spine."
The products of manipulation and trauma, forged with purpose, get information and kill. She did see the echoes of herself within him, and the longer he trained her, the more she saw. The Red Room watched closely as they dodged each other's attacks in a delicate balance. Seamlessly. Watching their crafted weapons and experiments working together in harmony, they couldn't help but wonder.
"I was different, I watched every day as each girl would be taken and come back... sterilized. With each passing day, more of them would go and I would be left behind, still a working machine. Until it was my time."
Another violation of Natasha's humanity was what they did next to her. Turning her once again into another one of their tools for twisted agendas.
"It wasn't until I released the Hydra files that the lies began to unravel. I carried a baby, a baby girl. They used me as an incubator, to produce another Black Widow. Or so I thought. My pregnancy was if you take out the how it happened part, normal. I had morning sickness, stretch marks everything. It was her birth that was the issue."
Nashata had nine months to prepare for the motherhood she expected to experience at the end. Nine months believing that she would be free, no more ballet, no more spy work. She could be a mother. Unfortunately a mother to a child destined to become the same as her. It would be different, she would protect the child. She would use the skills she has already learned to free them both.
"I never got to see the child I carried. I didn't hear a cry. Medics and Scientists surrounded me, surgical lights were blinding me, and my hormones were everywhere. I asked for her. I kept asking for her."
The baby's existence had been concealed from Natasha, more lies and manipulation had her believe that she had lost the child at birth. Her hope was lost. She no longer could see the freedom she had been dreaming of.
"I worked hard. I became the best spy The Red Room created and then, I got out. When I released the files, I knew I had to find out more about what happened all them years ago. Even if it was just why it happened. What was their end goal? I never expected to find out that all this time, she was alive. "Дитя зимы" was what she was referenced as in all their files. Winter's Child. She was nameless, her only identity was a reference to her 'father'. That was when I realized my child was also his. They were breeding soldiers."
Act Two
After the fall of Hydra, everyone fled. The baby who had grown into a worthy assassin was now an average 21-year-old, who had no idea how to take care of herself unless it was in a fight, fending for herself. She didn't know what was happening, there were too many conversations, yelling, and rushing happening at once for her to focus. Watching all these workers she had grown up around in chaos, scrambling to protect whatever information they could, she saw the opportunity and she ran. They failed to conceal their biggest secret, their deadliest weapon.
"One thing I think everyone is forgetting is, I wasn't brainwashed. I never forgot who I was after a mission or a trigger like The Winter Soldier did. That was all I knew, I never had a life before that. I didn't have any triggers. Yet, at the same time, I was still a child, I was still a teenager and now, I'm learning that my upbringing wasn't 'normal'. I just want to explore life as a 'normal'."
Betraying her years of training, she ran as far as she could. Not stopping until she could no longer hear hurried footsteps or the cacophony of echoes. Taking a moment to catch her breath, her thoughts kept running. The only life she had was currently crumbling around her.
"All I could think about was my life is over. Again, I never had a life before Hydra. And, that realization kicked in pretty fast once I was outside for the first time without someone else or a comm in my ear. For the first time, I was curious about what life was beyond my bedroom, the training room, or his office."
After continuing to run, she found herself trying to navigate her way through unfamiliar streets. How was this so close to where she had lived for two decades but never knew of its existence? She couldn't help but feel excited over the newfound freedom, a possibility she never had dared to dream about before. While lost in thought, she almost missed the News broadcast playing on a storefront TV. "Hydra's Reign of Terror Over - Natasha Romanoff speaks on releasing secret files..." She read along with the 'Breaking News' segment.
"Yeah, I read the files. That was how I found out who my parents were also. It was a strange experience reading them and having flashbacks of training with my dad but knowing that wasn't the knowledge I had at the time."
Act Three
The soldier, even though it was against his instincts as a trained assassin, always felt protective over the girl and a type of responsibility. She was small yet incredibly powerful. As they sparred in the training rooms, he would watch her throwing punches toward him, hitting his ribs perfectly. He began to admire her movements, using her ballet training to always be able to get around him. He couldn't help but recall an older widow he trained who moved extremely similarly.
"As a kid, she didn't half give back as much as she took. She was determined in every training session to impress everyone who studied her. No matter how tough of a challenge they threw at her, she never backed down. Funny, I knew another punk who was just like that."
While he was tasked with training her, a dormant side of him was learning from her too. The man he was inside would begin to reach out, she was only a child, and the voice would echo this in his mind as he began to awaken. As the years went on and he watched her grow under his guidance, it became easier for the soldier to come back from the brainwashing. Which, was causing problems outside of their training bubble.
"I believe if I could have controlled it, I would have stayed as The Winter Soldier in that moment. They were worried that I was 'waking up' and that she was the reason why. I mean, it was true. The more time I spent with her in the training room, the more our bond grew and it did start to feel more human."
Although the soldier was unaware that the girl was in fact, his flesh and blood, something in him believed she was his in spirit. He grew a paternal instinct to protect her, and their bond grew fiercely, just like father and daughter.
"No, I didn't know she was my kid."
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The central theme for you this month is to spend time around those who keep you afloat.
It's also important for you to assess how you feel around, during and post interacting with some people, places, information and situations.
Additionally stay hydrated this month.
Infact your body might crave more fluids in the form of soups, smoothies, juices etc
Expect new friends who are more supportive and compassionate towards you given you return the same energy.
Some of you may be starting a business or work of some sort or maybe even investments. Might be slow initially but will be successful in the long run.
Anything that you have started with determination towards the middle or end of May or the very start of June will pay off by the end of this month. This could be something very physical related goal either body, health, studies of any kind, business, finances, creating something tangible etc
You might feel indecisive in regards to something this month. Go within for clarity you don't have to have to make the choice till you're sure. Alternatively, priotrize meditation and detachment instead of overconsuming media or information.
By the end of this month you'll feel more confident in yourself and your leadership qualities, more stable in your health and life aswell. Might even get a tattoo that means something to you.
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Relationships is the central theme. Be it romantic, platonic, familial, interpersonal and self.
There is grief here that you have been suppressing and carrying. You may resort to comforting yourself with food for this.
Some of you might have gone through or will be going through some inevitable endings. Although rough will make room for the fresh start that you have been avoiding because the old felt too comforting.
You'll see a silverlining in your circumstances. Infact if you've been going through a sense of loss and disappointment for a long time this will finally come to an end. Some past traumas and experiences might mentally resurface for you so you can acknowledge and heal yourself as well as your inner child. Infact, this will be an excellent month to cater to your inner child the most. You deserve joy.
There will come a time you'll start feeling at peace. Some of you might even start getting proper 7 - 8 hrs of sleep.
You'll realize any form of supression and isolation that you've been feeling is mostly mental. But soon enough you'll break free from it too.
By the middle of June things will start speeding up as you feel more lively and renewed. Allow yourself to move forward, things aren't stagnant as they may have been.
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Perfecting the balancing act in your life is the central theme this month. You're a great multitasker but for this month fixate on what's been you're calling for the longest time.
For a lot of you it's been all work and no play or you stretching yourself too thin trying to cater to strangers or people who take too much from you. You'll be pushed to drop it.
There is something that will bring you financial reward. Enjoy it without guilt.
You'll be priotrizing your success. It's all a matter of focus. 'I am successful' not, 'I'm working towards my success.' it's time you realize you can't constantly treat yourself as a 'work in progress' for so long that you end up associating yourself with the narrative permanently.
More focus on aesthetics and personal style too this month. Followed by team work and proper partnerships.
Keep some things personal to you not everyone has the best of intentions.
For some of you, there's someone who admires you deeply but you can't seem to open up or trust them even though they mean well. Give them a chance.
You'll be mastering your emotions and channeling them into creativity.
By the end of June you'll see that the universe has been looking out for you all along. Something unexpected that makes you enthusiastic and allows you to be free spirited. Seize that chance and let it take you where you've desired to be.
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yanderes-galore · 11 months
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Could you write the yandere alphabet for Lady Dimitrescu? Thank you for your work! :D
Sure! No problem, I'm happy you like my work ^^ As with most people probably Lady D makes my Bi heart go brrrr-
Not sure how this came out but I suddenly thought I should write Lady D and just... did, lol- Hope you like it!
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Yandere Alphabet - Lady Alcina Dimitrescu
Pairing: Romantic
Possible Trigger Warnings: Gender-Neutral Darling, Sadism, Blood drinking, Manipulation, Obsession, Kidnapping, Forced relationship, Death, Forced family dynamic, Overprotective behavior, Murder, Violence, Jealousy, Cannibalism.
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Affection: How do they show their love and affection? How intense would it get?
Alcina is capable of showing love and affection. She has daughters and is very protective of them. When she eventually takes in her darling, as a servant soon turned adorable little lover... she can be affectionate.
For the most part Alcina is rather calm. She's capable of being enraged and breaking that facade. She's vengeful and holds her darling close to her heart when she eventually obtains them.
Alcina could be seen as an intense yandere due to her sadistic desires and how she fights to keep her darling obedient by her side.
Blood: How messy are they willing to get when it comes to their darling?
Alcina literally drinks blood so I'd assume she'd get messy for her darling. It's either her or her daughters but if anyone tries to "save" you from her... then they become their next meal.
Cruelty: How would they treat their darling once abducted? Would they mock them?
She would try to treat you well. You'd go from a servant forced to work in her castle to her lover. She'd give you your own lavish room and make sure you're well taken care of.
She wouldn't mock you unless she felt you deserved it somehow.
Darling: Aside from abduction, would they do anything against their darling’s will?
Alcina wouldn't frame it as "against your will". If she wants you to do something for her she simply has to order it and you'll listen. If you don't... then there's consequences. She likes to coax you in the right direction.
In reality she really is just making you do things against your will, she's just disguising it as the illusion of you having free will.
The short answer is yes despite what she says.
Exposed: How much of their heart do they bare to their darling? How vulnerable are they when it comes to their darling?
She wasn't expecting to feel so vulnerable towards a human such as you... yet you managed to worm your way into her heart somehow. She's surprisingly open with you in private and a bit vulnerable despite how she normally acts.
Fight: How would they feel if their darling fought back?
Alcina finds your feisty behavior cute.
She'll allow you to have your way for a little bit before shutting it down. By the end of your little rebellion, Alcina is carrying you back to your room like a helpless child.
Game: Is this a game to them? How much would they enjoy watching their darling try to escape?
She finds it cute and a bit amusing when you try to escape from her. She'll play along, maybe even get her daughters in on it, then catch you easily when she gets bored.
Sometimes she takes it as a game, other times she can find it annoying. It depends on her mood.
Hell: What would be their darling’s worst experience with them?
I can think of a few...
- Watching her drain someone's life in a feeding with her daughters.
- Being fed human blood/meat.
- Seeing her kill anybody.
- Seeing her mutated form.
- Being fed FROM for the first few times.
Alcina has potential to create bad experiences for you. Depending on who you are, any of the above could be the worst.
Ideals: What kind of future do they have in mind for/with their darling?
She wants to try and prepare you as her lover. She wants to dress you in elegant clothes, keep you in her castle/room, and make you a good parent for her daughters.
You can be your own little family... if she makes you behave by the end of it.
Jealousy: Do they get jealous? Do they lash out or find a way to cope?
Alcina's territory is very isolated and she isn't usually jealous of her daughters with you.
If you were seen with another Lord or outsider, then she may feel threatened and jealous.
Depending on who it is she'll either lash out or cope. If it's another Lord she knows she's supposed to cope but she'd get into an argument quickly.
If it's an outsider then things are so much more simple!
She'll cut them to ribbons then feast on their blood.
Kisses: How do they act around or with their darling?
When you are a servant her attraction is subtle. She'll call you to follow orders and her daughters are rather teasing. You may even be subjected to more cruel treatment until Alcina decides she likes you.
When she declares you as her lover then she treats you better. She's affectionate and loving, although she has tendencies to get intimate during feedings. She adjusts things to your needs and her daughters begin to accept you as their second parent.
She's calm and poised as always, but with you she can't help but keep her eyes on you.
Love letters: How would they go about courting or approaching their darling?
Compliments, wine, gifts... she gives you luxury and in returns only asks you reciprocate her actions. She manipulates you and she feels so threatening. Other than her purposefully being sickeningly sweet and passionate there isn't much courting.
You don't decide if you are in this relationship or not...
She's decided for you.
Mask: Are their true colors drastically different from the way they act around everyone else?
She's about as affectionate with you as she is with her darlings, if not more. She's protective and obsessive with you. Which is better compared to how she usually treats humans.
Naughty: How would they punish their darling?
She locks you away, that or she could make feeding more painful.
Honestly... sinking her claws into your flesh is so satisfying. She loves your sweet crimson and laps at it as though she's starved. When she notices you're close to passing out, she waits until your blood loss is too much.
You could easily die this way. Yet she has solutions. She can either save you right before death takes you, or make you similar to her daughters.
No use escaping, dear... she has things all covered.
Now stop fighting family.
Oppression: How many rights would they take away from their darling?
When you first meet in this you are most likely a servant, so all of them at first. Although when you become her lover Alcina is more lenient.
You can roam the castle, except for specific areas and outside.
Patience: How patient are they with their darling?
Alcina is really patient when it comes to you. Her daughters are not, though....
Quit: If their darling dies, leaves, or successfully escapes, would they ever be able to move on?
She feels she can't truly lose you. If you died she'll find a way to bring you back by asking Mother Miranda.
If you escaped then she'd never rest until she finds you. Her daughters miss you, too... how could you leave your new family?
Regret: Would they ever feel guilty about abducting their darling? Would they ever let their darling go?
No and no.
Stigma: What brought about this side of them (childhood, curiosity, etc)?
She's become more delusional and animalistic after her mutation from Mother Miranda, so I'd say that.
Tears: How do they feel about seeing their darling scream, cry, and/or isolate themselves?
She'd try to comfort your tears or fits. She's patient with you, often standing in the doorway of the room she gave you or the one you two share.
When you're calm enough she'll approach you, embrace you in her hold, then whisper little promises in your ear about things getting better soon.
Most of which are probably lies.
Unique: Would they do anything different from the classic yandere?
She likes to drink her darling's blood (?)
Vice: What weakness can their darling exploit in order to escape?
Not many. Alcina doesn't show many weaknesses. If you be obedient she'll allow you more freedom in the castle, but she'd never let you out.
Wit’s end: Would they ever hurt their darling?
Yes but she'd tend to your wounds after. An example would be she would drink your blood from an inflicted bite or wound then have you patched up. She'd then let you rest before feeding again.
Xoanon: How much would they revere or worship their darling? To what length would they go to win their darling over?
She isn't a worship yandere. She'd go to great lengths to keep you in the castle and her territory, however.
She may even get her daughters to help her keep you.
Yearn: How long do they pine after their darling before they snap?
She watches you as a servant for a few months, then she decides to keep you as a pet/lover. She doesn't really snap, honestly.
Zenith: Would they ever break their darling?
Possibly, yeah.
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aha-chuu · 8 months
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I'm still thinking about Fontaine and the previous Hydro Archon, Furina & Neuvillette.
Because, like, we know Nahida is the youngest Archon, being born during the Cataclysm when Rukkhadavata died. Which means Furina must be older than 500 and must have existed at the same time as the previous Hydro Archon (I'll call her "Amrita" for simplicity's sake). Now I kind of think that Furina was a part of Amrita, since we know from the Oceanids that water can combine and disperse and maintain consciousness between these states. But that feels pretty similar to the Nahida situation so I'm not sure if Hoyo would do that.
In which case I'm free to headcanon that Furina was Amrita's problematic little protegee. Just a full on spoiled kiddo under the Archon's care, who got flung into authority unexpectedly after the cataclysm (explaining why she sucks so bad at it).
And if Furina did have a student-teacher relationship with Amrita, then it makes sense that the dissolving prophecy would be purposefully be left to her as a "conundrum" to be solved. Like Amrita realised Furina was a spoiled brat and wanted to leave a lesson to be learned behind.
Which then I think we need to talk about how Neuvillette fits into this dynamic. He's referenced as being at least a few hundred years old, and he's been around in Fontaine longer than Melusine records, since its rumoured that he's their creator when it was actually Elynas. So he probably also knew Amrita; yet I doubt he knew her for all that long.
In addition, it's pretty obvious that Neuvillette is the Hydro Dragon.
So here's my thought: Amrita is the Hydro Archon. She is pretty beloved by the people, but she doesn't believe a single person can ever be truly "fair and just" - one leader will always be coloured by bias. So she either splits off her consciousness to create Furina, or selects her from some other group as a student. She begins training Furina in the ways of balance and justice. During this same period, the Hydro Dragon is reborn in Fontaine as Neuvillette.
Now, whether Neuvillette is born to a human family or simply in human form doesn't really matter. I enjoy the idea of an egg appearing in the court and hatching out a tiny baby with elf ears, so let's say that's what happened.
Amrita recognises him as one of the dragons and becomes captured by a new idea - the dragons had previously been usurped on Teyvat, and Amrita is interested in fairness above all else. Rather than herself and Furina becoming Fontaine's dual leaders, it would be much more just for an archon and a dragon to rule together. It had all the benefits of defeating bias, while opening the country up to a new perspective.
So Amrita takes Neuvillette as a student too. Furina is still around and continues to be treated as Amrita's charge, yet she loses the responsibility of leadership before ever finishing the training. Neuvillette is instilled with the measure and countenance of a Justice, while Furina is allowed to watch along, worshipped as the Archon's companion.
She was there first, but Neuvillette is the "golden child". Furina resents the lack of attention.
Amrita still desires Fontaine to have co-leaders. When she must head towards her death during the Cataclysm, she leaves both Furina and Neuvillette in charge. When given this opportunity, Furina selfishly pronounces herself as the Archon upon Amrita's death. It's this act of treachery that drives away the Oceanids.
Neuvillette, being younger and less experienced, does not stand up to Furina. He is dedicated to carrying out justice, not leading the nation.
Furina quickly realises that she does not know what she is doing. She basks in the attention at first, but then crumples under the pressure. And so, she gives Neuvillette the title of "Chief Justice". In name, Furina remains the authority over Fontaine. However, in reality, all of the responsibility is placed upon Neuvillette's shoulders.
It was only in Amrita's prophecy, therefore, that Furina would be "left alone weeping" after her people dissolved. In every other matter, Neuvillette could deal with it. But for this utmost challenge to face the Nation, Furina alone carries the burden.
Neuvillette never gets the chance to exist outside of his role, but that helps clarify his connection to the people. He's their reliable Chief Justice, and that gives him an avenue to understand them through. Meanwhile, Furina does everything to remain popular, understanding her people only far enough to ingratiate herself to them. When it comes to how the people of fontaine will all dissolve, however, it's a problem she investigates behind closed doors, terrified of being seen struggling with her single duty to her nation.
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honeyandthmoon · 3 months
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ranting about wonder woman's daughter (spoilers ahead)
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I gave tom king the benefit of the doubt so many times and i liked some of his most controversial stories... i have lots of his books in my shelf, but that's just insane to me, wonder woman is my favorite one, this is just garbage.
retconning the contest/trial just to have diana punch her mother? to have lizzie punch diana?
it still sucks for me that his idea was to create the sovereign, a "joker/lex luthor" type of menace as if she doesn't already had villains powerfull enough to give her a hard time. it still sucks that he decided to give diana a daughter even if fury still exists (somewhere in the multiverse). and it's not her first child in recent years too! who remembers that one justice league story from a few years ago when they gave her a son that she supposedly abandoned because he was a boy? oh in the same storyline where hyppolita became a mindless monster (also called the sovereign!). that's just recycling of bad ideas. but he probably didn't even knew about that. probably just a bad coincidence. and that's me again giving him the benefit of the doubt.
it still sucks that lizzie is not her biological daughter. it still sucks that she's called wonder woman's daughter when diana herself doesn't see herself as a mother. it still sucks that she's called wonder woman's daughter when diana didn't even raise her? what is up with those weird stories of jon and damian raising her? wonder robin? a mural of batman and superman in themyscira? with batman front and center? IN THEMYSCIRA???
if she's not her biological daughter and was saved by diana and trained as an amazon, what differs her from donna? and why aren't donna and cassie part of her upbringing? why are the supersons responsible for this child?
what's the point of giving diana a daughter if you strip her of every aspect of motherhood?
I defended g willow wilson against people online who hated her run, i thought she was so great, even if she didnt knew much about her at the beginning but she at least was able to reconcile diana and veronica (sort of) and bring her back to themyscira, continue previous plots from the rucka's run and bring ares back (bonus point for putting steve always shirtless and in need of saving)
i was even one of the few that actually enjoyed becky cloonan and michael's run. the stories sure could've been better planned but they got the spirit, build a strong wonderfam in activity and set the ground for a more modern structure of amazons in this new context. they gave me etta and diana acting truly as friends, they gave me three founding mothers for themyscira, they gave me doctor psycho stories (he is really fun to read).
I defended james robinson (!), he at least knew diana was strong enough and had her defeat darkseid and free the gods by herself
i've been reading wonder woman for years. i still have some runs i hadn't had the chance to read fully but basically everything in the past 20 years + perez era formed my love for this character. i hate how out of character she is right now. they should bring back that one rule if you wouldn't do this to batman or superman you shouldn't do it to wonder woman, that's truly disappointing.
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trash-king18 · 11 months
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disclaimer: before i say anything else, this was inspired by another persons post and i have been trying desperately to find it to ask for permission to post this. so if the creator finds this or someone knows what i’m talking about please tell me so i can tag them for credit or take it down if they want. Part 1 is almost entirely inspired by what i read but the rest is my work.
summary: reader is 26 and puerto rican from Brooklyn on her earth, she and Miguel are coworkers and they have an intense working relationship. plot takes place a couple months before the events of Across the Spider Verse
cw: 18+ minors dni, swearing, suggestive, angst, miguel is seemingly not in his right mind because of the spider dna and gets a little rough.
note: reader is spanish speaking, translations in italics under any and all spanish. however i picked up my spanish from puerto rican girls i played volleyball with in highschool and am trying to learn (because i’m going to be a tia soon!! and i want to make sure mis sobrinos y sobrinas grow up with the language) so if you’re fluent and things are wrong lo siento/sorry and feel free to correct me
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this is my first time writing or posting anything, be nice🫶🏼
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you and Miguel always had a different connection than everyone else at HQ. in the endless universes a surprising few spider people spoke spanish or were even not white. you were often spotted bickering ~en español~, and you enjoyed being the only one he allowed to talk back to him. you wouldn’t say you were friends, Miguel didn’t have friends, but you had more leeway with him than everyone else.. except probably lyla 
everyone thought he was just broody but to you he was a broody overgrown man child with a superiority complex and you never failed to take an opportunity to tell him off. 
“déjalo ya”
knock it off
he rolls his eyes turning his head away from you in every direction like a toddler that doesn’t want to eat the food on the spoon. 
he gets cranky on extraction days
“do i need to do the airplane”
he scowls at you 
right now you’re in the exam room in the back of your lab, there’s nothing much in there just the exam chair and the specialized vials you use for extracting and storing his venom. it was soundproofed and locked from the inside, per miguel’s request. 
he was a very private person. when he brought you onto the team to create an injection to help keep him.. subdued he was very specific that it be kept between you two 
“you’re extra grumpy today, what’s wrong jefe”
boss
“no te preocupa”
it doesnt concern you 
you turn to look at him skeptically but his eyes are hard set and while he allows you to tease him within these four walls, emphasis on allows, you know better than to push especially when he hasn’t had an injection in a while
“ahora vamos, let’s get this over with”
cmon now
“do we have to do this today i’m really very busy”
“si! now open”
you push the viles up towards his face hoping he’ll just cooperate. but as per usual, no such luck 
he pushes your hands away over and over 
you sigh in exasperation 
“seriously?”
you feel like you’re trying to get your nephew to eat his peas 
he just looks at you smirking slightly, he thinks he’s won. 
“eso es suficiente por hoy.”
that’s enough for today
he starts to get up, but if there’s one thing that always works when your sobrinos are acting up it’s letting your inner tia out 
“Miguel O’hara! usted no es un bebé, así que deja de actuar como uno! ahora siéntate.”
you are not a baby so stop acting like one, now sit 
he stops in his tracks and sits back down. he looks sort of shocked, you’ve never actually yelled at him, you don’t think anyone’s yelled at him in years, but he is particularly frustrating today. 
he grumbles under his breath like a boy who got scolded by his mama 
“lo siento” 
im sorry
you turn around to put gloves on since your sure he’s going to make you do this the hard way. you expect you’ll have to hold them in place so he doesn’t try and take them out early 
“eres insoportable”
you’re unbearable 
“what was that?”
you breath out. 
“nothing”
your back is still turned so you can’t see his bemused half smile
you turn back around with the viles in your hand again and he’s no longer smiling. you can never tell if he hates doing this because its uncomfortable, it wounds his pride, or he hated being vulnerable but you assumed all the above. but he’s a grown man, a very large very attractive, grown man. who also happens to be the most disagreeable person you’ve ever met. 
“you gonna cooperate now?”
“i make no promises”
he smirks 
you scowl and it drops off his face immediately 
apologetic was a new look on him, it was sort of hot. 
too bad it didn’t last.
“seriously though, Y/N, i have a lot to do right now I really don’t have time for this”
“well if you’d actually do it yourself like i asked we wouldn’t have to do this”
he looks at you unimpressed. he knows and you know that as soon as he wants to get up he will and there’s nothing you can do. but he has one bottle of the suppressant left and he’s not the only one feeling stubborn today. 
as soon as you try to get him to bite the vials again he starts resisting you.
“Y/N stop”
you ignore him 
“Y/N.” he warns you 
“just sit still”
“No! will you—“
you cut him off by climbing on top of him and trying to force his hand off to the sides. it worked.. for a second 
until he grabs your wrists and just stares at you in shock. 
“really?”
“I-“ you stutter his red eyes are staring into you 
his hands still gripping your wrists but you steady yourself
“abrir”
open up 
“no.”
you put on your best tia voice again
“~Miguel~”
he raised his brow at you 
he relents and let’s go of your hands 
but he doesn’t open his mouth 
you wait expectantly but he turns his head away again
you give him an annoyed look he looks at you out of the corner of his eye but doesn’t turn back 
“don’t make me pry your mouth open”
“id like to see you try”
“you know what spider boy i’ve had enough of your attitude today”
you start to climb off 
“just get out of my chair”
but your surprised when he stops you, you feel his hands on your hips. 
you look back at him and practically growl 
“what now”
now it’s his turn to be surprised. he doesn’t let go of you but you feel his hands loosen. 
“I- im sorry”
never in a million years did you think you’d hear  miguel o’hara apologize to anyone but he seems genuine. 
“i just.. i don’t- i don’t like-” 
“save it. i don’t care about your feelings and i’m not here to help you work through your emotional constipation i just want to get this done.”
he stares at you and you fully expect him to just pick you up off him and leave… but he just starts laughing. another thing you didn’t expect to hear. it’s a full laugh leaving his fangs exposed 
you just sit there staring at him confused 
“guess i’m not the only grumpy one today huh”
but instead of making a sarcastic quip you took the opportunity and leaned forward with one gloved hand and peal his upper lip up and put the viles on his fangs before he can react. 
he mumbles trying to talk with the viles in his mouth 
“que diablos!”
what the hell
he tried to pull your arm away from his face but you swat his hand away 
he grumbles a series of curses but you hold the viles in place 
“cállate.”
shut up
you use your thumb to tug his lower lip down slightly to make sure his lower fangs are in good condition. he finally sits still but you can feel his hot breath, you know he’s not happy. 
but you couldn’t care less. 
as you wait for the venom to finish dripping from his fangs you become aware of how compromising a position the two of you are in. his hands are resting on your thighs and youve propped yourself on his chest with your hands 
not to mention the lowlights in the room because of his headaches. 
his eyes are closed, he refuses to look at you. 
the tension is thick and you desperately want to get off but you don’t trust him not to pull the viles off so you pretend to check the wrest of his teeth.. which are perfect of course. 
he shifts under you and you can’t help but notice the creases in his forehead. you almost feel bad. 
he’s not like the other spider people, he’s literally half spider. which gives him heightened senses and insane reflexes, but sometimes it also means his emotions and actions can get out of his control. that’s what the suppressor was for, helped him keep hold of the reigns but you know he didn’t like having to do it this way. 
unfortunately for him, his venom was the base for it and you couldn’t make it without it. 
finally the vials were filled and you go to take them off. he cracks his jaw while you seal them. you place them in the pocket of your lab coat. 
“now. was that so bad?”
he rolls his eyes
you sense that you may have pushed too far this time so you move to get up but he holds you in place. 
“just so we’re clear—“
his eyes darken 
“don’t. do that again”
your breath catches. you nod and start to shift but he holds you in place 
“and Y/N”
you look at him warily 
he grabs your chin and leans in so his mouth is right next to your ear
“never call me spider boy”
you say nothing 
he smiles against your ear 
“comprendida?”
understand 
you let out a shaky breath 
“si”
he holds you like that
“miguel?”
“shhh”
he hushes you as he slowly moves down and ghosts over the skin of your neck with his lips 
he opens his mouth and gently runs his fangs over your skin 
you let out a light breathy moan before you can stop yourself 
your face flushes but he doesn’t let go 
“are you going to bite me… spider boy”
he growls against your skin 
you know it’s stupid but even after seeing him at his worst and most untamed you have a hard time believing he would hurt you intentionally 
but still you shouldn’t have teased you were just in shock that this was actually happening. 
“i told you—“
“not to call you that? you may be my boss miguel o’hara but i will not let you tell me what to do”
his grip on your chin tightens slightly but it’s not bruising  
his hand holds the crease of your thigh 
he chuckles deeply 
“would you like to test that”
he pulls back to look at you 
“niña bonita”
pretty girl 
he looks at you through his eyelashes with those scarlet eyes his hair falling into his face and fangs just slightly peaking out over his lips 
he starts to question himself internally 
but you just whisper 
“eres tan hermoso Miguel”
you’re so beautiful 
now he’d never admit it but hearing you say his name always made him feel some type of way. like he wanted to hear you say it.. over and over
and the entire time you we’re on top of him he was fighting to keep his breathing under control 
he’s still holding your chin 
he holds the scowl on his face
inside though he’s just fighting to keep control 
he can smell everything, your vanilla perfume, the sanitizer, the latex, but underneath everything he just smells you. your scent is intoxicating right now,  he had grown used to it, you had been physically close before. but not like this, not when he was like this. 
his brow furrowed in frustration. he hasn’t gone this long without an injection in a long time and it was starting to cloud his head. 
You search his eyes, but they’re closed off as ever. his breath is slowly getting heavier 
you snap him out of it suddenly when he hears his name the second time 
you had spoken softly at first but even though he was looking right at you he didn’t seem to hear you 
“Miguel?… i’m going to get an injection ready..ok?”
you look over him warily 
he just keeps looking at you but he slowly comes back to himself. and you finally notice a tiny spark of something under the annoyance and frustration. 
he’s nervous. 
you knew he hated when he couldn’t control himself, it was the whole reason you had this job. But you had never actually seen it manifest as anything other than a sour attitude. 
“O’hara puedes oírme?”
can you hear me
he blinks hard and drops your face. he clears his throat abruptly 
“si”
“i’m gonna get an injection”
he catches your wrist, it’s quick but gentle 
“no”
he’s staring into your eyes intensely 
“save it until the new batch is ready, i’m going to need it.”
“you need it now”
“ay will you just listen to me for once for once por favor”
he holds your wrist and moves so that you have to look at his eyes. you know he’s right, which is infuriating 
you huff 
“fine.”
his lip quirked slightly, satisfied that you actually listened for once
you sit there for a moment in awkward silence before he finally drops his soft hold on your wrist and you awkwardly clamber off, a difficult task considering how… large he was. 
you go to the counter and start to get the viles ready. 
he doesn’t move from the chair  just watches you work. 
you can feel his eyes on you. 
“uhm i’ll have the next round ready by tomorrow morning, so you’re good to go.”
you don’t hear him get up, of course. you never understood, half spider or not, how such a large man could move without being seen or heard. 
you just feel his presence behind you. 
he doesn’t say anything. 
“seriously o’hara out of my lab”
he could tell you were frustrated with him, which wasn’t unusual but now it lacked the usual playfulness. 
he finally speaks. 
“it’s late.”
“i’m aware”
he sighs in frustration 
“i mean— it’s late. you should go home.”
“im good.”
you know as frustrating as you insist on being i am  still your boss and i am telling you to go home. this can wait until the tomorrow.
you turn around
“that’s not up to you.”
“oh it’s not?”
“no. you brought me here to develop this serum but you also did it because deep down you don’t trust yourself not to do something you’ll regret”
he grabs you again and snarls in your face. 
too far. 
and yet today you don’t care something, maybe not an entirely innocent something, just wanted to egg him on more than usual. 
“see?”
“no trates de decirme por qué hago lo que hago”
do not try to tell me why i do what i do 
you just stand there inches away from one another. he towers over you. you don’t back down and he doesn’t let go. he’s seething, you’re done with his bullshit 
but you’re trapped. not just by his body but his eyes. you feel like a bug caught in his web. 
your eyes dart to his lips and back. 
he notices, you know he can feel your heartbeat quicken, he can probably sense the flush on your kneck. 
and your certain he feels the chills creep down your spine as he leans in closer. 
you whisper 
“que estás haciendo?”
what are you doing 
he leans in more so your lips are almost touching before answering 
“no lo sé”
i don’t know 
you lean into it just enough that your lips ghost over one another. your arm slips up so your hand can grab the back of his neck. 
your lips chase one another gently but never quite touch. 
you’re so close. it’s taking every last ounce of restraint not to just pick you up and indulge every thought racing through his mind. but he knows he can’t, not right now, not like this. 
he pulls back so suddenly you almost fall over 
“go home, you can finish tomorrow.”
“i- wha- o’hara what the fuck?”
he storms out of your lab without another word leaving you breathless and confused. 
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ahqkas · 9 months
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001. THE MAIDEN VOYAGE OF RMS TITANIC
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❛ i can't help but feel somewhat like my body marred my soul. handmade beauty sealed up by two man-made walls ❜
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PAIRING! simon ‘ghost’ riley x fem!reader
SYNOPSIS! Onboard the RMS Titanic, social boundaries blur as a high-class woman's gaze meets that of a man from the lower echelons. In an instant, their eyes lock, kindling an unexpected fascination that lingers until their next encounter
WORD COUNT! 2.6k
WARNINGS! nothing major, the plot is building !! mean mother and bad relationship w her, brief mention of death
NOTES! ahhh so excited for this series even though idk if someone's interested enough to read the whole thing ,, enjoy the journey and thank u for sticking around if u do !!
SERIES M.LIST! NEXT PART!
© ahqkas - all rights reserved. even when credited, these works are prohibited to be reposted, translated or modified
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The sky is nothing but a canvas of light, letting the artist use their talent and imagination to create something unique for a human's eye to catch and cling onto, like a child to its mother. The sight was something natural, yet it still warmed hearts of people around. Even though the eye is plain and the beauty of the nature is too brilliant to be seen by it, it still manages to capture a lot of attention and curious gazes of those who show enough interest and let themselves be pulled in. Just like the beauty of the glorious ship, Titanic.
The world is simple, but the beauty of it is complex and difficult to crack.
The giant of a boat robbed many of their breaths away and caged them with her unforgettable appearance like a simple flower in the meadows. She was constructed of thousands and hundreds with the deepest care to make her look as appealing as she was pictured to be, to steal away hearts with all of her glory. The luxurious ship was meant to be an eye catcher, so that's what they made her to be. Many men even died in the process of her building, but their sacrifice was worthy the heart shaped stares she was bringing upon herself. They put their tears, their blood, and their sweat into perfection and now she was swaying on the gentle waves in the deck of Southampton, England, waiting to outshine the stars themselves. The unsinkable ship, as they said. The ship of dreams.
The distant singing of seagulls wavered through the air along with the chorus of chaotic goodbyes of people who already boarded the ship to their loved ones below, shouting about how they're gonna miss them or how they'll bring a gift from New York once they return home to their awaiting embrace. Lingering words and held breaths painted a canvas of poignant parting, heartbeats echoing their farewell. It was messy but sweet at the moment, the promise of returning in the air as the last warning of departure was echoing in the air from the captain.
Goodbyes were bittersweet yet freeing sometimes, and you wished you could say your goodbye to the life you've been living since the day you were born. The cause of your anguish was simply because of your social status, standing between the snob and rich people like you belonged in the place like them.
You didn't.
You weren't like your mother, who only respected and liked people with the same social status like her (the high class, or better said the first class) and you certainly weren't like her in the way she couldn't even look in an eye to a person with a lower class than her. She spoke of them lowly, like their hands have never touched gold and silver like hers did every day. She thought of them lowly, like she was something more than them in the society.
You weren't like your fiancé, König, who you could learn to love in the depths of your big heart if it wasn't for his constant actions to please your mother. He wasn't really that bad but he wanted to fit in and that changed his way of thinking and acting. He started agreeing more with your mother on things he didn't before and the way he did things resembled hers in some way. You couldn't like him anymore after he changed and that left you fluttering your wings in the golden cage your mother trapped you in with her mindset.
However, you were like your father. He was an old man, but he wore his heart on the sleeve of his expensive suit and the words he let out of his mouth were carefully thought through before he let them reach the ears of others. There was nothing but kindness in his blue eyes full of wisdom and he made sure you'd take all the good from him once he was long gone. John was the opposite from your mother, he didn't think differently of other people and treated them all with the same kind of respect until they did something to change his mind. You couldn't put a finger on the thought of how your courteous father ended up with someone as nasty as your mother. It seemed like everyone who walked upon the planet got their piece of love, the question was in which form you'd receive it and if you accepted it.
The voice of your mother, fake sweetness dripping from it like the sticky ice cream had streamed down your tiny hand once the sun shined bright and the warmth of the weather was too much for the cold treat, reached your ears and it sounded like a chalk on a board. Many would say the singing from the gulls was annoying and unpleasant to ears, but you supposed they haven't heard your mother's voice yet.
"At least act like you want to be here, [Name]. You're a lady so act like it. Smile."
Her judgmental words always knew how to get into your heart. No matter how thick walls you built around the muscle to protect it, her cruelty found its way to pierce a path and get through. The words of almost inhumanity made your poor heart bleed, then heal enough for you to forget how mean she can be before they attacked again and that process repeated and repeated without any signs of stopping.
'Who said I even wanted to be here.'
You could only thought in your head because according to her, it was unlady like to speak your mind up and another lecture from the woman you called your mother would only bring you a headache.
'With you from all the people.'
König placed his hand on the small of your back in a silent plea to keep moving forward and you did so, slowly continuing in your path of exploring the ship. His touch brought you comfort in the young days where you've been in love and all over him but those days were long gone. If only he didn't betray your trust like that. And again, you could only blame your mother for that. You saw him nod his head at your mother's words and the urge to push his hand away was stronger than before.
John was walking in front of you with your mother's arm in the crook of his elbow, his other hand resting lovingly at the top of hers, thick fingers occasionally brushing against her knuckles from time to time. He was a gentle man and when he loved, he loved hard and to no end. A personality trait you always admired in the old man.
The man looked over his shoulder at you and König, his eyes twinkling with amusement and excitement while he sent you a wink before he turned his attention to your mother once again. "Give her a break, my love. This was all a sudden opportunity so understand she's a bit . . . well, let's just enjoy the trip."
The old man was all over the opportunity of being on the surface of the giant Titanic and he made clear everyone around him knew it. His love for big ships and ocean was as old as his love for your mother and the excitement he held in himself now was like a child's on Christmas. You didn't want to ruin this moment for him so you forced tight smiles at the people you passed by as you walked on the wooden floor. You had to admit though, even you were robbed of your breath when you saw the unsinkable ship for the first time.
The corset of your dress felt like it was tightening with every step you took and the thought of suffocating there on the spot was welcomed into your restless mind. It would be better than the play pretend game you were showing to people around you and most importantly, you'd be free to fly away from the cage and never return back.
You wanted to turn around, say you didn't feel well or that you forgot to unpack the paintings you took with you, come up with something to convince your parents and fiancé to leave you for a moment so you could clear your head.
A friendly breeze welcomed your uneasy mood as it calmed and ran along your skin like a gentle touch of fingers drawings shapes on your face. You closed your eyes with minimal effort as they felt heavy and let yourself enjoy the simple moment of nature. The salt air entered your nostrils while the wind caressed your skin, your thoughts finally shutting off as the voices and footsteps of your family became more and more distant.
It was just you and your heart now.
Your head moved on its own the moment you felt shivers run down your spine, making you shudder and tense your fingers as they gripped onto the railing you and König were leaning against. The feeling reminded you of an innocent animal, watched by a sinful carnivore. A prey stalked by its predator. Your eyes opened by an instinct and connected with ones that made you feel that way.
And your breath was taken away just like before when you saw Titanic for the first time this day.
Within the Titanic's elegance, an enigmatic stranger appeared in your sight. Shadows clung to him, whispers of intrigue trailing his steps as he returned your stare. Curiosity beckoned, locking gazes and weaving a connection impossible to break and it’s not like you wanted to end whatever was happening.
You weren't a stranger to unwanted attention, you received it all the time as a little kid who danced ballet for the selfish eyes of your mother and you received it even now years later when people saw you with the large man of your fiancé by your side. The attention was all but wanted and you had the urge to hide from that but his attention on you felt somehow different. You didn't feel the tinge of egocentric gaze from him and you certainly didn't feel like he thought any better or worse of you. You were simply just a stranger to him, one that seemed to catch his eyes.
It's probably because it wasn't a look of judgement on his masked face, but rather one of curiosity and intrigue and you welcomed the sudden attention in. The owner was a man, a large one, though he wasn't as big as König, it was clear he was still towering over most of those people amongst him from the C-Deck. Even from the distance you could sense the mystery he was giving off and that made you curious yourself. He wore a dark colored jacket with the hood over his head as he was leaning against a railing like you, his wandering gaze never leaving your form. The weather was fine, warm enough for you to feel good in the short sleeved dress, so the hood threw you off a little but what caught your attention the most was the mask. The skull patterned clothing was hiding his nose, jaw and lips from your gaze as you drank in the appearance of the stranger. He was intriguing and if you could, you'd crack the mystery of him.
You couldn't see well in the distance he was standing in but you were pretty sure his dark eyes never left your figure, even as you turned your head away from him and broke the eye contact. The contact was intense, something you've never experienced before and to your surprise, you wanted more of it even though it sent shivers down your spine. It was like he was pulling you in and you didn't fight against it.
König sent you a concerned glance from the corner of his bright eyes as he stood next to you with his arms crossed on the ship's railing. "You okay? It seemed like you zoned out for a bit here, Schatz."
You turned your head towards him, ignoring the way you still felt his eyes on you before giving your fiancé a tight smile that wasn't convincing at all. "I'm fine. Just tired, I suppose."
"You should rest. We have a dinner planned tonight and your mother will throw a fit when you show up all distracted."
He was right, of course he was, and you didn't like the way he was talking about her. It was like he already made his mind up about his soon to be mother-in-law and the picture of her was pink and sweet. Just the opposite of what she truly was.
You feared she had König wrapped around her finger.
"Okay," you mustered a dismissive reply to his concerns, your head turning oh so slightly in the direction of the masked stranger and your breath hitched in the back of your throat when you caught him looking at you again, his eyes trained on you like you'd disappear if he blinked. The gaze he was offering you felt like he was appreciating you and you felt truly wanted for the first time in your entire life.
What a strange man.
The stranger below was staring off at the A-Deck, his brown eyes drinking your appearance in as you walked away with the large man from Simon's sight and he fought off a disappointed sigh that threatened to spill from his covered lips. You were enchanting like that, a gentle breeze fluttering the short sleeves of your dress with a peaceful expression on your pretty face as you appeared in his life. A sight indeed.
A Scottish man next to Simon waved his hand in front of his friend's face, his own sporting an expression full of cheekiness as he grinned. He wasn't dumb and he saw the way Simon was looking into the distance of the deck above, his eyes trained on one woman in particular. Simon has never acted like this, no matter how the women were attractive or how many drinks he had that night.
"Aye, mate, I think we're losing you there."
Simon Riley was simply down bad, as the Scottish man would say.
A nudge to Johnny's ribs caused for his teasing eyes to pull towards their another friend, Kyle Garrick or rather Gaz as he preferred to be called, as he shook his head in a manner to mock Simon's sudden interest. "You can forget about her right here, pal. She's clearly off limits, one way or another."
All three of them knew to what exactly was Gaz indicating. You were standing amongst rich people and the expensive dress you were wearing that shined in the sunlight with its brightness was of an enough proof. You didn't and wouldn't talk to people like them, whenever you decided on it yourself or because your high status didn't allow such action without having eyes turned on you. And then there was the person next to you, the huge mountain of a man who seemed to care about you with such delicacy Simon was almost pissed off. Of course you'd be taken.
"People like her aren't friendly with people like us."
Simon knew Gaz was right but his mind and heart still wanted to reach for you, to get to know the persona he suddenly became intrigued with.
"Whatever."
But his thoughts were filled with you to the brim, the image of your face imprinted behind his eyes like the finest painting ever painted. It was clear he wouldn't forget about you in some time. And maybe it was for the better.
You didn't know that simple indirect interaction would have a huge effect on your life, both his and yours.
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not you ranting 💀 it’s misogynistic to make Harry regulus child when Lily is the mom not regulus GODDAMN.
bro..,.. they’re not real. go touch some grass
listen ive seen people being misogynistic towards lily in order to favor jegulus. it does happen and i wont deny it, however i will simply just stay away from it and not interact. im way more interested in evolving lilys character and give her her own narrative instead of just using her to hate a mlm ship and claim to be feminist about it. like it’s fandom. make your own goddamn peace and create a space that you fucking enjoy. yall are not trying to defend lily when yall do this you’re just trying to be anti jegulus and using her to do it
no one is saying that regulus is ’the mom’ but like. people can do whatever the fuck they want. if people dont want to write lily but they want to write jegulus being harrys parents then by fucking god let them. who CARES. i wont interact with it and it doesnt interest me but oh my fucking god it’s fandom. people are out here writing mpreg and a/b/o and tentacle porn and incest and whatever the fuck else. this is simply not a problem. none of it is. its fandom and its free and its for fun
(i never see any of you complaining about tonks glaring absence in wolfstar teddy fics……..)
just don’t interact if it bothers you. i have things i wont interact with and topics i find problematic, so i stay the fuck away from it. no one is profiting and no one has to fucking read it. its not being advertised and its not being goddamn taught in schools
i will always defend lily and my priority is simply evolving her characters and giving her a narrative that just simply isn’t being a mom or a wife. like bro im in the middle of writing a lily character study canon divergence fic where she simply wasnt home when voldemort came and she doesnt save harry with the power of ’motherly love’. it will be morally grey and highly disturbing and a lot of people wont want to read it. however i want to write it to rebel against her doomed narrative in canon as a dead wife and mother. she wont necessarily be likeable or someone to root for but thats what i want to explore in my goddamn fanfiction
yall are acting as if some people writing regulus being harrys parent actually has a broad negative impact on the political climate or some shit as if its not just a silly little thing people do online bc it makes them happy. GO OUTSIDE…. TURN OFF YOUR PHONE…..????
and as i said. i simply wont interact with lily bashing but that’s just me. that’s my preference. i will consider interacting with this trope if lily just simply isnt involved. HOWEVER. THATS JUST ME. PEOPLE DO WHATEVER THE HELL THEY WANT.
it’s fandom. it’s not real. no one is profiting. there are no editors involved except for lovely people who will sometimes beta. it’s not professionally done. it’s free. it’s an outlet to be silly and fun and explore dynamics. these are fictional characters that do not exist
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Round 2, Match 59: Fukuzawa Yukichi vs. Optimus Prime
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Submitted kids:
Fukuzawa Yukichi: The entire detective agency (in order of acquisition— Ranpo, Yosano, Kunikida, Dazai, the Tanizaki siblings, Kenji, Atsushi, Kyoka)
Optimus Prime: Bumblebee, then depending on continuity, Cliffjumper, Smokescreen, Arcee, Sideswipe, Sunstreaker, the Aerialbots, Sari Sumdac, Jack Darby, Miko Nakadai, Raf Esquivel, and possibly others
Propaganda under the cut!
Fukuzawa Yukichi:
1. “At about 32 he used to be an bodyguard for hire who only works alone then he met this 14 year old (Ranpo) who had no parents and was kicked out of the police academy. He ended up feeding him (I think Ranpo was homeless at this point not 100% sure tho. He is also a genius estimated iq as high as 200) and said he would help him free of charge (bodyguard) if he called. He ended up getting called and investigated something with him. Ranpo saw the world very plainly and cried to Fukuzawa about how scary it is. Fukuzawa helped Ranpo realize that not everyone is pretending not to know things they literally don't know what he does (big issue with Ranpo partly what he was crying about too i think. They have an entire episode (i think it's the first one in the 4th season) devoted to their backstory together which is black, white, and gray when it's from Ranpo's perspective until Fukuzawa helps him realize this and it turns colored. Fukuzawa ends up deciding he wants to create a detective agency (working with others!) with Ranpo not yet tho we still have one more kid first. Later when Fukuzawa's doing a bodyguard job he along with Ranpo end up rescuing a girl (Yosano!) from the man he was guarding (future mafia boss currently a doctor). Yosano ends up becoming a doctor for the detective agency when it's created. After it's created he ends up taking in another 14 year old (Kenji).
He also loves cats and has shoujo anime-esque cherry blossom flashbacks with his old childhood friend who asked him if he wanted to go to fight in war with him, Fukuzawa denied his request. They also have a like 15 min soft-lighting conversation while watching their memories of their childhood together in the latest ep.”
2. “This man literally created a whole detective agency for this one really smart boy (Ranpo) and taught him that he wasn't the one in the wrong but everyone else when he couldn't understand people. Then, he saves Yosano from the trauma this other guy was inflicting on her and brings her to the Agency. The Agency basically becomes the place where all his kids are. His special ability lets those in the Agency control their abilities so Atsushi and Kyouka don't have to be afraid of their out of control abilities anymore. He cares so much for all of them and during the Cannibalism arc when his life is literally on the line, they do everything in their power to save him.”
3. “My guy just CANNOT stop adopting kids. He went from lone wolf assassin to Dad of Many. His first (adopted) child, Ranpo, basically forced him to adopt him (he was like “I’m a teenager with no family or home. You GOTTA adopt me. Because I say so.”) From there he kept accidentally adopting every orphan he came across. Honestly the detective agency is more like a glorified orphanage except they let their kids carry guns.”
4. “A former Goverment assassin who stopped once he realized he was starting to enjoy killing people, Fukuzawa is looking for a job when he bumps into Ranpo, a genius capable of figuring out any mystery, who can’t understand how the world works. Taking Ranpo under his wing Fukuzawa tries a white lie that Ranpo has a special ability and manages to let Ranpo interact with the world without fear for the first time in years since he can know understand the problem wasn’t everyone acting like they couldn’t figure out things but that no one was as smart as him. They found the Armed Detective Agency specifically to use Ranpo’s abilities to help people and to have jobs.
He then saves Yosano from Mori, his ex something who after using her special ability to heal any injury as long as the person is about to die during the War, wanted to use it take control of their local mafia. Instead Fukuzawa and Ranpo rescue her and let her recover from her trauma and come into herself.
He then goes on to provide a place for Kunikida to fulfill his ideals, Dazai a place to do good after his own past in the mafia, Kenji a place to help people, Tanizaki and Naomi (siblings that don’t seem to have any guardians) work to support them, and Atsushi a place to work on his own trauma by protecting people. Fukuzawa later let’s Kyouka, another defection from the mafia, stay and work at the agency so she can help people and not have to kill them anymore. The entire Armed Detective Agency live in dorms that Fukuzawa provided. He also is very protective, putting everything on the line to help members of the Agency escape any danger he knows of. Like when Atsushi is kidnapped he bribes Ranpo to find him and sends Kunikida to rescue him. He sees any danger to the agency and its members as something for him to stop.”
Optimus Prime:
“#VOTE OPTIMUS HE'S THE DAD OF ALL TIME AND HAS ISSUES”
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Victoria (12)
Victoria is a Latin name whose meaning signifies "victory". Even though it is a name, this asteroid in the natal chart can potentially signal the area of our lives in which we can access victory and what energy should we embrace in order to reach it. This doesn't have to be always about money though'. This post will talk about all of this while considering the house and sing this asteroid falls in.
As always, take this with a grain of salt, I apologize for any mistake, please don't copy or repost this post without giving proper credits to the owner, and please enjoy it.
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Victoria in Aries/1st house: you have the face and energy of a victorious person. Even if you don't feel like it. The only way for these natives to reach successes in their life is to believe in themselves. To not be afraid of taking risks. To be proud of who they are, where they come from, and where they want to be in the future. Of following your passions even if it seems impossible or as if you are not capable enough. You can do it. You've got this. Take risks. Learn from your experiences when there is setbacks, delays, or bad results. And, especially, don't look down on yourself.
Victoria in Taurus/2nd house: these natives may have, as the last group, a problem with their self-esteem. Especially when you compare your earnings or material success to those who are close to you. Don't you worry. Victory in achieving a stable life in terms of material success is yours as long as you work hard for it. You may need to put some carefully planned steps in order to create the future you want for yourself. Don't rush. Don't tell anybody of your plans, ideas, or proyects since many of them could try to steal it. Victory will come with caution, organization, and confidence.
Victoria in Gemini/3rd house: the possibles victories of these natives may come once they feel comfortable with their knowledge and are not afraid to share their opinions, ideas, or projects to others. It is pretty possible that these natives have creative ideas, a sharp mind when it comes to businesses, knowledge, or a talent for writing even if they are not concious of it or feel like it's nothing of significance. On the contrary the things you think, know, and write could have a lot of potential for you in the future, but there needs to be a developing of your communication style with, maybe, a little bit of study too.
Victoria in Cancer/4th house: these natives could feel very connected to every victory they reach in their lives. It's like as if there is an emotional connection between their victories and themselves. Anyways, for those of you who have this sign or house, victories will come once you fully understood your emotions. Once you connect with your escense, your private self, your emotions, what makes you happy, and take care of it, you'll notice more victories in your life. Or maybe you will notice more how victorious you are. With yourself. With your family. Maybe one day you will be victorious in creating a family or meeting your soul tribe.
Victoria in Leo/5th house: these natives will reach victory once they connect ane let their inner child, their passions, hobbies, along with their romantic side, be free. How confident this person feels with themselves when they stand out or let their uniqueness come to light, it's something that will depend on each case but, if you feel like this, know that it's okay. It's okay to feel scared sometimes to show who you really are at a child like level. Many times, we think we must mature and act as an adult all the time but, in real life, connecting with the inner child is something good and precious. It help us to connect with our vulnerable and creative self which, in turn, it helps us see the world not as it is but what it can be. What can be done in it. And reaching that level is, in my opinion, a huge victory.
Victoria in Virgo/6th house: these natives will reach victory in attaining a healthy balance within the working life and the health department (mental and physical) after they take conscious of how precious our bodies are, they are our companion from the day we incarnate until we die, and it needs a proper care (physical and mental) in order to live a long and healthy life. Sometimes is difficult due to the constant stress we may suffer from day to day life, but maybe finding an activity that makes you feel relaxed, writing down your problems in a book, doing exercise, or something like that could help.
Victoria in Libra/7th house: these natives will reach victory by learning to connect with others in a healthy way. It may involve some lessons, easier or harder depending on the case, but, at the end of the day you will learn a lot about different things such as recognizing what people or attitudes you tolerate or not, who is better to form a relationship with or who is in your life just to be a nasty person. Some people are meant to be part of our lives and some of them not, you will learn that, but, despite if there is bad people in the world, there is still also good ones. And you will master how to recognize them if you master your lessons.
Victoria in Scorpio/8th house: for those of you who have this asteroid in this house or sign, you will achieve victory by diving into your intimate side. Not quite the emotional side such as with Cancer/4th house theme, but your sexual side, your innate power, and your hidden traumas. Also accepting that life is a constant change in which, in some cases, there will be loss or a death of the self, and those changes brings an opportunity of expansion, transformation, and grow. Understanding this will bring victory along with the knowledge of yourself and your intimate or sexual power.
Victoria in Sagittarius/9th house: for those of you who have this asteroid in this house or sign, your victory will come after a long time of discovering, learning, and maybe travelling too. Gaining knowledge through experience, travell, studying, or meeting new people can grant these natives the victory when it comes of understanding different cultures, e victory of understanding other people's point of view, and victory in expanding your beliefs thanks to the experiences you'll face that will help you grow over time.
Victoria in Capricorn/10th house: I'm not going to lie guys, there is a huge probability that your victories will come after a lot of working, karmic lessons, and cycles. Others will view you as someone succesful whom had to deal with some obstacles but ended up being victorious. This can become true in the future for some, but, in general, what this asteroid can bring is a victory in breaking karmic cycles so you can start anew. Free of chains, of karmic debts, of karmic partnerships, fears, restrictions, and attitudes. You can achieve victory on that.
Victoria in Aquarius/11th house: these individuals will reach victory after they accept their uniqueness, the uniqueness of other living beings (not only humans), and how that should be respected by others. You have intelligence guys; an intelligence that comes from knowing, sometimes intuitively, the energy of the colective, along with an intelligence of creative new ways of improving the energy of the world and breaking old patterns. By trying to understand and care for the colective, not only will you reach victory on this area, but also others will notice your victories or those will help the colective in some way.
Victoria in Pisces/12th house: victory for these natives will come in their own time and place, and once they start connecting with their spiritual side, their unconscious, and their psychic abilities. If you are interested in astrology, tarot, reiki, and other spiritual practices, with enough effort you will reach victory in becoming successfull in that area or discovering who you really are in spirit. Maybe you will master the law of attraction. Another thing to consider is the possible fact that your spirit guides communicates with you through your subconscious, providing guidance of what you should do in order to achieve victory or, on another hand, you have plenty of victories but maybe you are not so conscious about them.
This is all I have for you. I hope you enjoyed it. Send you a lot of love and light.
Tower Girl Anon.
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Belly Dance Downloads Week 26 or So
Here is an itemize list of what I'm experiencing:
1. Stimulation of greater blood flow circulation in abdomen and greater blood flow circulation means more blood flow to my heart and brain. In other words belly dance, taken seriously as alchemy, makes us more loving and smarter. If you tend to get cramps during your monthly cycle, belly dance will help support you in having less cramps or none at all.
2. More strengthening and flexibility in my abdomen muscles and diaphragm--which means that belly dance improves our breathing efficiency and the flames of our vitality. We become healthier and more alive and creative through the slow stretch and phatness happening in our center.
3. A release of deeply rooted, entangbled abdominal tensions which allows for better digestion. Deeply rooted tension and the accompanying trapped energy are some root causes for larger or hardened belly sizes which discourages the natural free flow of energy throughout the whole body and the body experiencing waves of real relaxation. Belly blockages are incredibly common which disables one's heart from opening up or inhibits the person from living life with more more trust and faith and less triggers. With all the pole and aerial, my belly started to feel too hard for my liking and my skin had been breaking out on and off for a few months. Later, I realized that it wasn’t just muscle in my belly but old stuck contracted energy. When we belly dance, no matter our belly size, we help clear stuckness and other physical and energetic debris in our digestive track and thereby soften/relax our belly tissues and make our skin even more beautiful naturally. Skin care and digestive care go hand-in-hand.
What I am now noticing is that I have more awareness and sensation of my internal organs. Because of the constant personal attention and decompression through belly dance and its gyrations and shakes at the belly and hips, the female center of reality that stores OLD emotion and inner child wounds, I can feel my liver, lungs, and even my kidneys at the back being shaken up, and not only feel them, but drop down them into a communicative intimacy with them. I don't have this need to look "good" when I belly dance or have everything right or in order because I truly just enjoy being inside myself, inside my body, soft gazing or eyes closed, laughing and smiling, and tuning into the musical hip drops and pelvic shimmies. I feel incredibly sexy and sensuous for no reason at all— a kind of liberation and freedom that they don’t teach in feminism.
Being disconnected from our female bodies not only causes us to tell lies to ourselves -mainly because we don't know our true selves-- therefore we create our lives to be a living hell unknowingly.
The Soil of Truth
You can't create your life unless you know yourself. That's why there is nothing more important than you being connected to your body--not a deadline, not a lover, and certainly not being pregnant or having a child, but obviously any kind of child neglect is not what I'm talking about. Nothing is truthful if you don't have a relationship with your body, alongside your relationships with others. Now your body starts to feel warm and safe, instead of like a dangling carrot.
We must grow ourselves beyond the lies we were taught about being women, being self-less and self-sacrificing, and begin to feel safe, warm, anointed, aroused, or excited to simply get to know our bodies and the soft power, the feminine power, this womb power that lives within---this spaciousness where there are no worries or anxieties, and we are held, covered, and just know--things. We are no longer in our minds scared and anticipating other people's reactions of us BEING who we are, living our lives as we craft them to be. We just begin to align: dream, act, and live, LIVE, because we are far more in the center of our bodies, awakened in our bodies, than hanging in the limits of our programmed minds. --India Ame'ye, Author tension
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