#and if i move that’s bad

[cyanomys]

#polls #polls and research #pointless poll #united states #midwest #hell #location #moving #america #look im sorry if youre insulted by me grouping some states but there are 12 Midwestern states and only 10 options allowed #i just took a trip across the country and my limited perspective is that Ohio is Not So Bad #i grew up in Missouri 🫠 #why yes i am blazing this post #i enjoy whoring my ideas to the masses to satisfy my curiosity

[seths-rogens]

you ever just feel so sad for no reason :|

#boutta vent in the tags #plz don’t reblog #i spend so much time reading stories about love and romance #and watching all my close friends get into relationships #(i kid you not 5 close friends this year alone) #and yet i’m still here by my fucking self #with no real understanding of how romance and relationships even work #i cant discern between platonic and romantic feelings #which has been such a problem in the past to the point of inducing panic attacks #and physical touch makes absolutely no fucking sense to me #because i take up too much space ???? but i don’t ??? but i do??? #and when someone’s touching me i’m both overly aware of the points of contact but also the fact that I Am Touching Them #and if i move that’s bad #but i can’t not move #because i have a tic disorder #and the tics i have are physical and very obvious #i have a muscle spasm tic #and it always comes out stronger when i’m touching someone #and yet despite all this there is a loneliness within me that i think only love could fix #which sounds all prosaic but like seriously #my friends are wonderful and i love them so much #but despite how much time i spend with them #and how much i know they care about me #it doesn’t fix that feeling #i’m just so tired of being left behind in all these experiences #the only times i’ve kissed people i’ve been drunk #so i can’t even say i’ve experienced kissing properly #and i just feel so sad all the time

[inkskinned]

hey btw if you're in the USA at  2:20 p.m. ET on Wednesday, Oct. 4, they're testing the emergency broadcast system. your phone is probably going to make a really loud noise, even if it's on silent. there's a backup date on the 11th if they need to postpone it.

if you're not in a safe situation and have an extra phone, you should turn that phone completely off beforehand.

additionally, if you're like me, and are easily startled; i recommend treating it like a party. have a countdown or something. be surrounded by your loved ones. take the actions you personally need to take to make yourself safe.

i have already seen mockery towards any person who feels nervous about this. for the record, it completely, completely valid to have "emergency broadcast sounds" be an anxiety trigger. do not let other people make fun of you for that. emergency sounds are legitimately engineered to make us take action; those of us with high levels of anxiety and/or neurodivergence are already pre-disposed to have a Bad Time. sometimes it is best to acknowledge that the situation will be triggering for some, and to prepare for that; rather than just saying "well that's stupid, it's just a test."

"loud scary sound time" isn't like, my favorite thing, but we can at least try to prevent some additional anxiety by preparing for it. maybe get yourself a cake? noise cancelling headphones? the new hozier album? whatever helps. love u, hope you're okay. we are gonna ride it out together.

#watching ppl go from being like ''support neurodivergent ppl~~!" #to being like ''if this is going to give u a panic attack ur fuckken stupid'' #like..... gets me #yeah man. i know im going to be triggered by it . in the old fashioned term. it is GOING to give me a panic attack. it's pretty much certai #and i shouldn't have to tell u about what i have survived for you to be okay with that. #you can just trust that i ALSO don't want me to react to it. i'm not gonna be having a FUN time. #dismissing that bc you think it's stupid.... like is the whole problem. #these sounds are workshopped by entire teams of people to get you to pay attention and move quickly. #they arent meant to be fun and exciting. #OBVIOUSLY it's gonna set ppl off. #but yeah there's something so fuckken demeaning about ppl being like. well that trigger isn't valid bc u haven't undergone X #dude i have ptsd bc i was abused as a child. like plain and simple. the fact im 30 and afraid of the dark tells you how bad it was. #i shouldn't have to ask u for permission to be mentally ill. #the reason it's a fucking disorder and not a fucking choice is that I DO NOT CONTROL IT. #like how is it any different from when ppl are like ''oh public speaking isn't that scary'' like FOR YOU #for YOU this isn't scary. now if i could fucking eat my own amygdala...

[bowenoke]

irl i don't normally tell people my pronouns unless they directly ask, but this has led to a very silly occurrence i call DLC pronouns. my gender is a sidequest you can unlock in the dialogue tree if your character has a high enough lgbtqia+ stat . or if my pride keyring falls out of my pocket.

#i generally think it is good to be out and proud as long as you are not in danger and i try not to give in to the urge to make myself more #digestable to people i dislike anyways #but sometimes you find a good job with good coworkers and bad management and getting to move up in the company means comprimise #capitalism sucks for everyone though because there is no corporate culture without average people comprimising themselves

[dazais-crab-addiction]

Tonight I learned that my 20 yr old partner has never played chess and doesn't know how to play chess. This is mind boggling to me. They claim its not weird for people to not know anything about chess so I. I need to see. Please.

Okay so, I made a mistake in not elaborating the meaning of the options. You do not have to be good or know what you are doing in the slightest to pick that you have played before. The middle three options are for your understanding of the game having never played it at all. The reason there's a percentage on the last option is because my partner made a tumblr so they could pick it because they think they are hilarious.

#crab says words #chess #tumblr polls #i learned how to play in elementary school and so did all my siblings #i use to play chess with random people constantly in highschool #im really bad at chess but its still fun to play ya know #i just am so shocked they literally knew nothing other than “the horses can move in an L shape” #i taught them how to play and made then play with me so dont worry i fixed the situation 😌 #pls reblog this 🥺 #i take it back!! my notifications will never recover!!! pls stop reblogging this!!!!!!

[girlyteengirl16]

healing is taking too long what if i just kill myself

#trauma #i wanna kms #mentally tired #i want to die so bad #mentally unstable #recovering is hard #healing #i can’t move on #mental abuse #tw depressing stuff #tw depressing thoughts #i want to be okay

[obsob]

friends forever

✹print shop✹

#mine #original #does this mean plushies r friends or does this mean replicating the feeling of friends w plushies...u decide #today was house moving day for my partner we bought out the entirety of asda #my knees hurt. so bad. but :3 we hve comfy quiet house euheuehuhehe #i hope everyone has a nice evening !!! #tomorrow i will. rest

[treasureplcnet]

i need to see more of echo being annoying so badly . you don’t grow up with fives and get assigned to the 501st without developing little shit instincts

#the bad batch #tbb #star wars #echo tbb #tech tbb #omega tbb #hunter tbb #crosshair tbb #wrecker tbb #my art #also cleaning and coloring this is how i coped with s2 finale godspeed lets all hope for some s3 news from the sw celebration #this is also two seperate comics if thats not obvious. i think it is. but its whatever #also the echo and crosshair in my mind is so real everyone else move over

[markscherz]

Look at this friend I made on my way home the other day! What a glorious creature! So gracile and smooth! Truly a peak being. What a privilege it is to share this time in Earth’s history with creatures like this.

#field herping #Herpetology #nature #wildlife #animals #newt #salamander #Lissotriton #Lissotriton vulgaris #newt newt motherf***ers #friend shaped #this is a bad place for this friend to be #I see freshly dead newts on this path EVERY DAY #hundreds killed per year #so every time I find one I gently move it away #my habit of saying ‘hello friend’ to every animal has been adopted by my two-year-old #and it is magical #he literally says ‘helo fren!’

[writeouswriter]

People sorting ao3 solely by stats and only clicking on fics with a certain amount of kudos or comments, you will not survive the winter, nor the summer, nor at all, *brings out knife,* run

#ao3 #fanfiction #because if everyone thinks like that then so many fics that might be great get buried and fall into the void #someone has to read it with no hits or kudos #not to mention sometimes people just have wildly different tastes so you don't know unless you look at it yourself #i put a bunch of exclusion filters and then go by summary and tags and open all the ones that sound interesting to me #if they're bad well easy enough to move on #but lotta good ones hidden in there with not a comment in sight and i must change that #knife tw #? #tw knife mention

[heartfulselkie]

Lady Noire sure is a delightful creechur

#been moving art stuff around so I've rediscovered a bunch of sketches and drawings i never finished/posted #i don't think i shared this one before? #if i have then oops there go my bad memory again #i really need to draw more kwami swap stuff #i love it so much #misternoire #lady noire #mister bug #miraculous ladybug #miraculous ladybug fanart #miraculous fanart #selkie draws

[clownsuu]

Bro, people on TikTok keep saying that they're “nostalgic for the old days of Welcome Home!” and that “Welcome Home was dead but it's coming back now!”

Like dude, Welcome Home has been here for a little less than a year, there's nothing to be nostalgic about, at least not YET.

Fucking hell man, I feel like a Boomer trying to talk to some Gen Alpha kids, they're all thinking that fandoms are suppose to be short-lived, jesus christ.

I don’t blame them too much, since they are not quite used to fandoms naturally descending and are quick to panic that it’s “completely dead”

Specially since the fandom had such a huge flux of community, art and discussions happening everywhere all at once and for it to slowly die down- naturally people will move on to other things and opinions are bound to change while the younger more naive individuals will wonder what’s wrong and create general assumptions that are not entirely accurate

#I find it humorous if anything #People burn out from talking about something for so long- like shid I’m doing that now lmAO but I still love the fandom #I feel bad for those who had a rough time and left the fandom- I wish them the best of luck #welcome home #welcome home wally #wally darling #welcome home mob au #A process some still can’t understand- the feeling of others moving on

[shevr]

workout mix

#this was fun to draw but hhghrghrgh again i spent too much on it im so bad at just making satisfying doodles fast #like i wanna draw stuff as warmup thats fun to do & also ideally looks kinda nice bc THEN i need to try to get other more serious work too #but at the moment i just spend too long on the warmup & then fail to move on to something else hhhhhh #i'll get better i'll get faster i'm not dead yet #anyway yeah she's listening to you're gonna go far kid. you know why. my little pony rainbow dash you're gonna go far kid [explicit]. #shevr #my lines #mlp

[uncanny-tranny]

It's always, like, mildly annoying when people see a het trans couple and go "all that work just to be straight?" like... one, you don't know if they're straight and two, trans people don't owe you a queer sexuality to "make up" for the fact we're trans. Transhet people aren't a subtype of trans people, they're members of the trans community, and the queer one if they so desire!

#trans #transgender #lgbt #lgbtq #ftm #mtf #nonbinary #and i don't really vibe with the word microaggression but it's very that #like it just comes across like people think trans folks owe them queerness and cabaret preformances y'know? #and we cannot *be* if it means the way we are being isn't this carefully curated version people have of transness + queerness #and it can kind of warp your desires and understanding of yourself because you *want* community and to be seen and to be allowed to just be #this isn't universal and the 'you' is impersonal. i am aware this is a broad range of experiences and not everybody can/does relate #my overall point is that it's probably not the best move to act like this toward trans people #maybe i read too much into this but it's just something i have seen over and over and over and over . . . again #shoutout to the real ones (heterosexual and/or straight trans people or people in straight-presenting relationships 👍) #back to playing the lelda of zelda (is it bad that i don't even call her zelda anymore i just go 'THERES LELDA!!!') #it sounds wrong to call her zelda now 😭 #the LEG OF ZEG. SWORD SKORD???? BREATH OF THE WEATH!! -my brain 24/7/365

[podcastwizard]

cashier: ok that'll be $20

me (visibly sweating): ah, yes, of course! a perfectly reasonable price for a grilled cheese and a small smoothie! that was exactly the price i expected you to say when i ordered a single grilled cheese and a smoothie and my vision is NOT getting blurry as we speak! i am a perfectly normal temperature and my speech patterns are natural and even because this is the countenance of an individual who expected to pay 20 american dollars for a single grilled cheese and a smoothie!

cashier: where's all that blood coming from

#this is my fault moving to la #if anyone tells me to just bring food from home and stop eating out i KNOW #i'm BAD ABOUT THAT but i'm TRYING

[sunlitsoil]

there is always tomorrow

#lovecore #hopecore #webweaving #the presence of love is beautiful in itself #you got this #self care #self love #recovery #healing #hopepunk #recovery is not linear it is okay to have bad days you have the entirety of your life to have a better day #i wish anyone reading this a good life #i love you #you are loved #and i hope you will find happiness in the small things #i’ve been struggling a lot recently but i always remind myself the good set in store for me and look up places in the city i’ll move to #and it motivates me a bunch so i hope u all find things to strive towards mwah