#because i have a tic disorder

[seths-rogens]

you ever just feel so sad for no reason :|

#boutta vent in the tags #plz don’t reblog #i spend so much time reading stories about love and romance #and watching all my close friends get into relationships #(i kid you not 5 close friends this year alone) #and yet i’m still here by my fucking self #with no real understanding of how romance and relationships even work #i cant discern between platonic and romantic feelings #which has been such a problem in the past to the point of inducing panic attacks #and physical touch makes absolutely no fucking sense to me #because i take up too much space ???? but i don’t ??? but i do??? #and when someone’s touching me i’m both overly aware of the points of contact but also the fact that I Am Touching Them #and if i move that’s bad #but i can’t not move #because i have a tic disorder #and the tics i have are physical and very obvious #i have a muscle spasm tic #and it always comes out stronger when i’m touching someone #and yet despite all this there is a loneliness within me that i think only love could fix #which sounds all prosaic but like seriously #my friends are wonderful and i love them so much #but despite how much time i spend with them #and how much i know they care about me #it doesn’t fix that feeling #i’m just so tired of being left behind in all these experiences #the only times i’ve kissed people i’ve been drunk #so i can’t even say i’ve experienced kissing properly #and i just feel so sad all the time

[eleilinnrallin]

I mentioned I have a tic disorder in passing and a friend commented that she hasn't seen them for a while, they seem to be doing better.

Cue me suddenly doubting that I have a tic disorder despite the fact I have still been having tics, just not in public places, and a big reason I'm doing better is because I'm avoiding triggers as best I can.

Brains are wild sometimes.

#tics #tic disorder #personal #honestly sometimes I wonder if it'd be worth getting diagnosed #because it's not bad enough to do anything about #but I dunno if insurance is gonna be weird if I get ADHD meds about 'oh you have to take this kind' #because I can't take stimulants #but don't have a diagnosed reason #because tics aren't diagnosed #either way one problem at a time

[transpoettryinghisbest]

If there's anyone out there who still thinks people with tics/Tourette's are faking. Please read this.

I just lost my Aunt. Out of nowhere. I've been dealing with that loss for a day and a half and all I want is to be left alone and cry and deal with my feelings.

And my Tourette's is still going. It's pulling my face to the point of pain. It's throwing my head around until I get a migraine. It's punching my chest. When I'm all alone and dealing with so much shit already.

I don't want to be like this.

Why the fuck would I fake this?

I just want to be still.

#personal #I'm scared of how the funeral is gonna go tbh #But I had to get this out there because this is not a fun disorder #It's like having a screaming toddle beat you up and never leave you alone #I'm sick to death of it #tw death mention #tw death #tw family #tw grieving #tourettes syndrome #tourettes #actually tourettic #tourettes tag #tic disorder #ticcing #ok to rb #ok to reblog

[tic-loud-tic-proud]

Please only answer if you are diagnosed specifically with Tourette Syndrome.

#thinking about this because my PT told me I am hyper mobile a month ago #and I realized just how many of my TS friends are also hyper mobile or have EDS etc #theres DEFINITELY something going on here #poll #tourette syndrome #tourettes #actuallytourettes #tic disorder #actually tourettic

[watatsumiis]

dottore with a tic disorder call that dottourettes --

#DISCLAIMER I HAVE A TIC DISORDER IM ALLOWED TO MAKE THIS GOOF #anyways. is this funny. is this anything. #i do actually write him as having some kind of tic disorder honestly. just for the funny silly #(and because i like projecting onto my faves so so much but shh) #general barks #anyways. am TRYING to work on requests rn <3 #doing me got damn best #dottore

[defectivegembrain]

Crow outside cawing at exactly the right time to sound like it's responding to my vocal tic things

#i laughed #i say vocal tic things because like #ive never been diagnosed with a tic disorder but have had things that are almost definitely tics since i was a kid #but yeah

[cloudblaze]

Big ramble ahead but, okay. It kind of bothers me when people say Cinderpelt was forced to become a medicine cat. That language would seem to imply that she was forbidden from becoming a warrior, when that just... wasn't the situation.

After breaking her leg, she couldn’t walk properly. Travel became slow and exhausting for her, and as a result, everyone was worried that she couldn’t be a warrior. Up until this point in her life, becoming a warrior was the path basically everyone took, and if she couldn’t physically handle warrior duties, she feared that she was useless. But Yellowfang appreciated her company in the medicine den. She started giving her tasks to help her feel useful, and Cinderpelt began to regain some of her self esteem. After she had been helping out in the medicine den — not as an apprentice, but as a friend — for some time, Yellowfang made it clear how valuable she was as an assistant. When she eventually offered to take her on as an apprentice, Cinderpelt was overjoyed. She loved the crabby old cat and the work she did for her, and she was very dedicated to both.

I think the idea that her life was a tragedy because she switched to medicine cat training comes not from the first arc where her story actually takes place, but from Power of Three. When you’re years removed from a narrative, it’s very easy to think back on it and recontextualize it to fit into your own mindset. And that’s exactly what Power of Three did to her. In that arc, we do have a disabled protagonist forced to become a medicine cat (which is an even more complex topic), and Cinderpelt’s reincarnation of sorts as Cinderheart for the purpose of living the life she was supposedly meant to have. It’s... a bit of a tricky issue, because the notion that her life was a waste because of her disability is... troubling, to say the least. And the interpretation that her life was a waste because she didn’t cling stubbornly to the warrior path isn’t much better.

The reason this bothers me is because I feel, based on the books she's actually alive in, that she lived a full life (or would have, had she not died young). Cinderpelt wanted to be a warrior, yes. Her entire culture glorifies being a warrior more than anything. After her injury, she had to give up on that dream and pick up another. And she was a fantastic medicine cat! Before she was even officially made Yellowfang’s apprentice, she was praised for her enthusiasm, good memory, efficiency, and trustworthiness. It’s pointed out that she’s a quick learner and good with patients, and we see this regularly too. She was very determined, always going out of her way to do the right thing, even when she wasn’t allowed to. And this, combined with her medicinal skills, allowed her to touch so many lives. Cinderpelt didn’t accomplish the things she planned for when she was little, but her potential was not lost.

I’m not claiming that Warriors isn’t ableist at times. But I notice a tendency for folks to reframe every disabled character’s life as a sad tale of someone being forced to give up their dreams and live a worse life because no one believed in them — even when that isn’t really the case. Disability is a very complicated and sensitive subject that needs to be written with more care than it often is. But for a character to face limitations due to their disability, that doesn’t necessarily mean it’s bad writing and/or the abled characters around them are terrible. For a character to lose something as big as their dream, their goals, their ability to keep up with their peers... I don’t believe that alone is unrealistic or cruel. What matters far more for me in a story is how the disabled character handles their limitations and where they go from there. Please understand, also, that sometimes handling limitations is not the same as overcoming them. Not everything can be overcome. What’s important is what you do with what you have.

I may not have a twisted leg, but I do have a neurological disorder that has impacted every area of my life at one point or another. My spasms have been severe enough to injure me many times, and for years I couldn’t learn to drive because I was too afraid (and often rightly so) that it would be unsafe with my condition. I eventually had to give up on my education and dream job because of my failing health in general. For a long while, I was afraid I could never amount to anything because I couldn’t do any of the things I’d been aiming for since childhood. But with time, my situation has changed. I aimed for more realistic goals, bearing in mind that my disorder is made far worse by stress and exhaustion. My symptoms are less severe these days because I’m no longer stressing myself out trying to force my way through a career that my disability is simply not compatible with. Things aren’t perfect. But I’m figuring out a better way to proceed.

I think you get the picture. What I’m trying to say, and what Cinderpelt’s story means to me... is that having to give up on something doesn’t mean you’ve wasted your life, it doesn’t mean that you’re worth any less, and it certainly doesn’t mean you’ve been defeated. When bad things happen, you may not be able to return to how life was before. And maybe that’s okay.

#this has been on my mind a lot recently especially after finishing dark river #because that's the book that confirms the cinderpelt / cinderheart connection #i know not everyone feels the same but that's okay #we all have our own ways of looking at the world and at fiction and that's kind of important #again i'm not claiming that this series handles disability perfectly because i know it definitely doesn't #but there are certain points where... i think people are misremembering situations #or just interpreting them really differently because they have a really different life and experiences #this is just my perspective based on my own experience #oh also i left it vague up there bc i didn't want to make this post all about my disorder but what i have is tourette syndrome #i can sometimes suppress my tics or focus them into one spot like my hand for a while but they do come out eventually #it's like trying to hold in a sneeze all day long. but with your entire body lol #so when i was in college i'd have only mild twitches during class and then come home and have painful full body tic attacks #like i said it's not as severe now as it was a couple years ago thanks to better stress management but i still have tics every single day #i know they're likely to get worse again when i start working full time so i'm looking for work that won't be impacted by that

[whatareyoudoingwithamaserati]

point of view I just had the worst appointment of my life. what the fuck is wrong with the psych system

#vent I suppose #god I am antipsych for a reason all of these bitches are so fucking ableist and the whole system is built on it!!!!!!!!!! #i Like believing in the best but I believed in the best and the appointment was full of medical gaslighting and just plain wrong information #what do you MEAN you know shit about how trauma affects the presentation of different disorders you are so fucking stupid #anyways shoutout to the lady telling me that there is NO WAY I can be autistic (exaggeration) because when I infodump I can be engaging and- #-autistic infodumos are apparently always boring and done in a monotone voice. what in the bloody fucking ableism you are so wrong #it would be funny if they didn’t spend the whole session acting like internet fakeclaimers. anyways peace love and plants #I have tics and will continue to have tics despite my ‘highly abnormal presentation’ and there is nothing you can do to change that #ice nine kills is good therapy btw there is no better feeling than singing along to welcome to horrorwood #cats.txt

[fleshdyke]

hejehge

#i cant wait to get out of this fucking house #still a few years until i can legally move out and even then i probably won’t be able to for a few more years bc of money #my dad gets mad at me for showing any emotion ever or being anything other than the perfect golden child #no one will fucking believe me that im autistic and disabled #i get fatigued from walking out of a fucking restaurant to the parking lot! look me in the eyes and tell me thats normal! #but just because im fat thats the reason for all my issues #thats why i have chronic pain and i just don’t exercise enough when they fucking know IM IN RECOVERY FOR ANOREXIA #and my dad wont stop talking about weight loss in front of me even when i ask him to stop because its triggering for me because im #just a fucking snowflake i guess #one time i asked him to stop talking about his diet or whatever when im around and he said no but i could use it myself! AND HE WONDERS WHY #IM FUCKING RELAPSING AGAIN #literally the past entire week i’ve just been repeating ‘no food is as harmful as an eating disorder’ bc its all that will fucking stop me #and he wont believe that i have tics for some reason so i have to fucking suppress them all around him if i dont want to get screamed at #and mid july of 2022 im still not vaccinated for covid. bc my dad is a conservative that doesnt give enough of a shit about me to get it #the only vaccinated person in my family is my mom and my dad didnt want her to get it either #but she says shes an adult so she has bodily autonomy #do i not fucking deserve that? do i not get bodily autonomy bc im a minor? fuck you #and i’ve told both my parents multiple times that i dont like when people touch me without permission except for my friends #ESPECIALLY ON MY FUCKING HIPS AND THIGHS AND ASS #BUT THEY DO IT ANYWAY BC THEY DONT GIVE A SHIT WHAT I WANT #i dont fucking care how shitty adulthood is i dont care aboyt the stresses it gives me i just want to be fucking out of here #i want to be out of here i want to be with people that fucking respect me like my parents don’t #i don’t want to be abused anymore i just want to feel safe in my own fucking home #and i feel like such a spoiled brat because i have everything i need given to me because im a fucking child but im complaining anyways and #logically i know i have every right to complain bc theyre not giving me privileges theyre givimg me basic human rights and even then only #some of them. i dont have fucjing bodily autonomy from the people i should be able to expect it from and i dont have respect or fucking love #the only thing keeping me fucking alive right now is the promise that one day i’ll get out of here #and its fucking terrifying knowing you’re relapsing into anorexia again but its so fucking hard to stop it #its got a fucking grip on me and its so fucking hard to get out of it #vent

[pyonzzz]

sigh. heres a reminder that endogenic systems literally cannot exist as being a system is a trauma based mental illness and claiming that systems are "naturally occuring" is actually really offensive because again being a system is caused by trauma. please dont follow me if youre an endo system or believe theyre valid. our dissociation and struggles to fit in with society arent a cute trend or something you can roleplay as because its fun and cute to have "multiple personalities" or to have your fav character living in your head rent free in more than a blorbo way. being a system has its fun moments but its not something you should want and definitely not pretend to have.

so again

dont follow me if youre endogenic or support endogenic systems.

#im not putting my filter tags on this im dead of ass rn #i wish it was common knowledge how offensive endo systems are to traumagenic systems but noooo #this is like the 2016 fad of pretending to have 'multiple personality disorder' and tics all over again #get off tik tok and get help. touch grass #no but even if you cant get a professional diagnosis because i know not everyone CAN get one #if you think youre a system that just poofed into existence? fuck off. that cant happen. that literally goes against what a system is #i hate endos stop pretending to be a system for attention youre so annoying #im sleepy and coming off a high sorry for the word vomit

[imaginarypasta]

really wish i had a gauge for what a normal expectation of privacy is :ppp

#personal #i have been told im more private (secretive) than people typically expect from others #to be clear i am specifically antsy about being like overheard by others #anyway my roommate started streaming games this summer and she assumed i would want to be out of the house for it (i do) #but multiple people when i tell them this are like ‘why??’ which like. #because i don’t want my face/voice online like that… #but like whatever she’s respectful of that idiosyncrasy so it’s fine #anyway but i also kind of want a heads up now if she’s gonna be on a discord call for an extended period of time #becauseeee she doesn’t mute unless i specifically ask and like i don’t want strangers knowing my business #and ESPECIALLY since i learned one of the friends she’s on call w sometimes streams incl. the discord channel? #and so if im on there my voice will be streamed to tens of people #which i realize isn’t a lot but also like!! i don’t want that and to me that’s perfectly reasonable #like im in my house i shouldn’t be recorded & either put on the internet or broadcasted to her friends if i can help it #like if i know then i can just stay quiet/leave the room #but i don’t know if the second part is reasonable bc everyone i ask says the first is silly #and frankly i would really like to know #not bc im talking like a whole bunch & that’s what im worried about. like i can be quiet for a few minutes #but bc i have a tic disorder & there’s something very uncomfortable about like having those sounds recorded & i would like to just go to #another room to avoid it #and yeah i have confirmation the noises are picked up when she’s on call with other people #and when i say ‘now’ maybe i should specify she was telling me before & stopped #but then like saying it like that makes me sound a little silly i think bc i seem very paranoid about being surveilled. which i am #i just don’t know if this is an instance where im being silly or it’s reasonable #ANYWAY

[eleilinnrallin]

Looking for information on how pre-existing motor tics (specifically head-jerk) would interact with a severe head injury within an hour of the injury being sustained. Does anyone have any experience with this?

All I'm finding is information on the interactions between stimulants and tic disorders or a general 'yeah tics can get worse within a few weeks/months after severe head injuries' and that's not what I need for what I'm working on.

I specifically want to know what that looks like tic-wise in the moment to a medical professional or onlooker who can recognize tics (could it trigger tics? exacerbate them? not effect them? How would a head-movement tic be influenced by a head injury?)

I'm acting in a drill where we are given fake injuries. I am currently signed up for a serious head injury. However, last time I participated, it triggered my tics, and I didn't prepare my acting to include how that would have affected my injury. This time I want to be more prepared, especially if I need to change what injury I have due to physical acting limitations.

(Even if you can't help, reblogs/boosts are appreciated! I have until March 25th to get an answer, and my research over the past two days has come up with nothing helpful.)

#acting research #I'm completely fine xD #tics #motor tics #medical #emergency medicine #tourettes #tic disorder #tic #brain injury #head injury #traumatic brain injury #injury #research #motor tic #acting #last time when I asked about ticcing during the drill they said go ahead because that's something that can happen irl #you'll have patients with preexisting conditions and you need to know how to take care of them #last time it made it so I didn't get correct treatment :/ but half of that was likely my poor acting skills #anyways I'm being a Problem Child in the drill xDxP /lh because I'm not what they expect really #tics aren't on the list of acting things or even the 'patients with pre-existing conditions exacerbated by the incident' list #which ig goes both ways because it means my exacerbated pre-existing condition gets added to an acted injury #meaning it's a level of complexity you can see in real life but the drill otherwise does not have #but at the same time it means they might not be prepared to deal with it (good for them to find out ig?) #anyways this time I want to act it right so I get proper treatment in the drill #and am not having a broken bone and internal bleeding ignored because the tics are more obvious and more easily dismissed #(fake injuries btw it was for the drill) #(but still bothersome) #(I had declining vitals cards and didn't get anything done about them :P so idk how much was my acting and how much was them) #or at least this way I'll know it's not my acting causing any negligence

[sea-puppy]

When you think you've found your place

But it's just become another noose around your neck,

To be the one to carry the burden

That we were supposed to share.

What happened to that feeling that we all despise,

The stinging looks

That lick open another cut,

How could you take the knife from their eyes

And turn it upon your fellows?

Did their blows beat down your compassion,

Have you none left for us?

//

Look me in the eye

And tell me you have more in common with them,

Lie to my face and say we are not the same.

Slice away at our bonds,

Drive us further apart

Because you cannot bear to know us,

To know people whisper when they

Hear the vulgar words echoing down the streets,

To know they think you're a freak too.

//

So you'll drag us through the gutter,

Even though you're here with us too,

You'll make an altar to the god of acceptance,

To the god of belonging,

To the god of "Don't hurt us when *they* are right here,"

To the god of "We are not like *them,* we can belong,"

To the god that will come for you after you are done with us.

Such gods do not smile kindly on those who sacrifice their own,

Who misinterpret the auguries,

Spilling blood in their name to bring peace.

//

May we have mercy on you if, someday, you find yourself

On the blade's end of your own rhetoric,

Embracing you as one of our own

Instead of pinning you to the altar you crafted with your own hands,

Spilling your blood with a cruel smile.

#this is abstract #but this is HIGH KEY about those with tic disorders that shun those with coprolalia #it is respectability politics to the nth degree #people LITERALLY say shit like “not all of us cuss...so you shouldn't not hire US #like hello?? #the problem isn't “people won't hire weird but socially acceptable people” #it's “everyone deserves basic human fucking rights like employment” #fuck you if you think not having coprolalia makes you better than us #i have it real low-key #but I'm am so fearful of it becoming worse and I'll have to start saying those words loudly and will be unable to hold down a job because #of it #I'm am so fucking sick of community infighting #poetry #poem #original #writing #tourettes #tic disorders #respectability politics #disc horse

[rhymaes]

finds out this fun new, unavoidable, & super loud cough that I have to keep doing is another tic: fuck my stupid baka life

#this shit. SUCKS. IT SUCKS #i mean its nice to kno like tic disorders are a thing & that im like. not crazy for having todo my eye twitch & neck tilt & sounds on #repeat. but the coughing? in the decade of COVID? thats just not fair. it's so loud. and i run out of air #bc i cant stop until i get it Right like haha help ! #me talking to my mom abt it thinking i need to see a neurologist because i cant control any of these things #& theyre very apparent. her: oh everyone does that haha i did that all the time growing up!:) #GIRL.

[inkskinned]

they want to talk about mental illness and acceptance and how everyone is a little ocd it's cute and quirky and their "intrusive thoughts" are about cutting their hair off and you say yours are about taking a razorblade to your eye and they say ew can you not and everyone is a little adhd sometimes! except if you're late it's a personality flaw and it's because you are careless and cruel (and someone else with adhd mentions they can be on time, so why can't you?) and it's not an eating disorder if it's girl dinner! it's not mania if it's girl math! what do you mean you blew all of your savings on nonrefundable plane tickets for a plane you didn't even end up taking. what do you mean that you are afraid of eating. get over it. they roll their little lips up into a sneer. can you not, like, trauma dump?

they love it on them they like to wear pieces of your suffering like jewels so that it hangs off their tongue in rapiers. they are allowed to arm-chair diagnose and cherrypick their poisons but you can't ever miss too many showers because that's, like, "fuckken gross?" so anyone mean is a narcissist. so anyone with visual tics is clearly faking it and is so cringe. but they get to scream and hit customer service employees because well, i got overwhelmed.

you keep seeing these posts about how people pleasers are "inherently manipulative" and how it's totally unfair behavior. but you are a people pleaser, you have an ingrained fawn response. in the comments, you have typed and deleted the words just because it is technically true does not make it an empathetic or kind reading of the reaction about one million times. it is technically accurate, after all. you think of catholic guilt, how sometimes you feel bad when doing a good deed because the sense of pride you get from acting kind - that pride is a sin. the word "manipulation" is not without bias or stigma attached to it. many people with the fawn response are direct victims of someone who was malignantly manipulative. calling the victims manipulative too is an unfair and unkind reading of the situation. it would be better and more empathetic to say it is safety-seeking or connection-seeking behavior. yes, it can be toxic. no, in general it is not intended to be toxic. there is no reason to make mentally ill people feel worse for what we undergo.

you type why is everyone so quick to turn on someone showing clear signs of trauma but you already know the fucking answer, so what's the point of bothering. you kind of hate those this is what anxiety looks like! infographics because at this point you're so good at white-knuckling through a severe panic attack that people just think you're stoic. even people who know the situation sometimes comment you just don't seem depressed. and you're not a 9 year old white kid so there's no way you're on the spectrum, you're not obsessed with trains and you were never a good mathematician. okay then.

mental illness is trending. in 2012 tumblr said don't romanticize our symptoms but to be fair tiktok didn't exist yet. there's these series of videos where someone pretends to be "the most boring person on earth" and is just being a normal fucking person, which makes your skin crawl, because that probably means you are boring. your friend reads aloud a profile from tinder - no depressed bitches i fucking hate that mental illness crap. your father says that medication never actually works.

you still haven't told your grandmother that you're in therapy. despite everything (and the fact it's helping): you just don't want her to see you differently.

#writeblr #warm up #to be clear let me state again: i think you should id however you fucking want if it helps you seek peace #but there is a HUGE difference between being like '.... im undiagnosed but i think i might be X' #and a person who is like ''omg my intrusive thoughts made me buy a birkin!!!'' #babe mine made me throw up bc they disgusted me so much <3 #mine made me hurt myself evenly. even when i wanted to stop. i have had to put my hand on the stove MULTIPLE TIMES #and again i'd rather have 10000 people get help for something they don't need help for #than have 1 kid NOT get help #but there has GOTTTTT to be a middle ground here #bc at this point it isn't ''raising awareness'' #it's . fucking misinformation. and ''what this picture says about you!!!!!'' #& yes! im mostly talkin about ppl who are actually disgusted and offended by signs of mental illness #but use it to defend THEIR actions #like babe you hate when kids start yelling in the walmart? but you YOuRSELF can yell? #you are depressed so it's fine you were cruel to your spouse? #but if your spouse spends too much time in bed she's a lazy fuck? #your partner needs to do everything for you bc of your history in trauma? but when SHE has needs she's being clingy and gross? #HUGE difference here between whom i think most of my followers are btw. like #all it takes is fucking anyyyy empathy or kindness . like. #anyway it's hard to explain im hoping we all know the person im talking about lol

[astraltrickster]

What frustrates me about disability advocacy is that...of all the people I've seen talk about it, 99% of them - even ones who are disabled themselves - have eventually proven that their support has limits. Really stupid and arbitrary ones, at that.

You support disabled people...but if you see an adult with a DIAPER BULGE in their pants in public it's ON SIGHT, get your kink out of my face! Actually, even if it's not a kink, that's still gross and, like, it's not like the diaper exists to CONTAIN waste, you're a biohazard! Just stay home!

You support disabled people...but, ugh, you're so sick of masks, they feel so icky, the CDC isn't advising them anymore so really how bad can it be, if you don't want to be permanently disabled even worse than you already are then why don't you just stay home forever?

You support disabled people...but if you see anyone using a non-conventional straw that someone's billed as "anti-aging" on TikTok you proudly declare that you'll smack them, because what do you mean it might be a motor control or sensory thing?

You support disabled people...but no one is REALLY so disabled that they can't manage their lights conventionally, clean their homes by themselves, or hold a pen for extended periods of time or at all; that's just something people make up as an excuse for Bad Tech and exploitative luxury services.

You support disabled people...but, god, control your by-definition-uncontrollable tics, they're SOOOO annoying and rude!

You support disabled people...but when someone stops masking or runs out of spoons and starts speaking in a choppy, hard-to-understand way, it's a joke.

You support disabled people...but AAC is, like, sooooo annoying and hard to understand, learn to talk like a normal person instead of pointing like a baby or whatever, geez.

You support disabled people...but you hate image descriptions and video transcriptions because they're, like, sooooo ugly and transcriptions SPOIL things. (Not to be confused with "frequently not having the spoons to translate images and videos into text, which is a skill; one which everyone should try to develop, but a skill nonetheless" - I get that, it happens to me, but if you take issue with OTHER people adding them to your posts for Aesthetic Reasons, you're...kind of a dick! I'm not sorry for saying it!)

You support disabled people...but you think teehee funny joke annotations are a much more valuable use of caption tracks than, you know, actual captions are.

You support disabled people...but you still concern-troll people with armchair diagnoses of heavily stigmatized disorders for harmless weirdness, or try to paint them as icons of some kind of horrible social ill.

You support disabled people...but you're still convinced that every asshole is mentally ill, probably A Narcissist, and what do you mean that's a loaded thing to call someone when a heavily stigmatized disorder is rudely misnamed as such too, isn't it easier to, like, change the name of the disorder throughout the whole system than it is to just stop using that word as your go-to Bad Person Pathologizing Word, which you definitely need? (Or worse, you see no problem with this clash because you're convinced it IS Bad Person Disorder...)

You support disabled people...but you see someone mumbling to themself on the bus and you get as far away from them as possible because it's "scary".

You support disabled people...but you constantly try to pull "gotcha"s about people telling you not to touch people's assistive devices.

You support disabled people...but someone being okay with their delusional disorder and talking about that is BAD and PROMOTING SELF-HARM.

You support disabled people...but your body positivity still focuses exclusively on "people can be healthy and fat at the same time!" as if people who ARE fat because of health issues and/or have health issues BECAUSE of their weight don't exist or deserve support.

You support disabled people...but you declare that advocates who want us all to have more access to things that improve your quality of life are the REAL ableists for acknowledging that those things that you currently can't do tend to improve quality of life.

You support disabled people...but your advocacy for yourself involves distancing yourself from people with more support needs than you.

You support disabled people...but you treat addiction of any kind, or use of anything with known addictive tendencies, as a moral failing.

You support disabled people...until the accommodations they need clash with your own, then it's not just a benign incompatibility that sucks just as much for them as it does for you; no, you are an innocent victim and they are a horrible ableist.

You support disabled people...until it's too inconvenient. Too weird. Too scary. Once that line is crossed, it's not a disability issue anymore, they're, conveniently, just a Bad Person.

It's fucking exhausting and I'm sick to death of it.

#disability #serious tag #bitching #and even after i posted this i keep thinking of more shit people have said #not gonna edit them in because this post is long and has already been reblogged a couple of times #but might keep track of them in the tags or add more in a reblog #because. i can keep going.