By keeping a tray full of no prepare necessary food, in the fridge it can be used to aid neurodivergent or fatigued people.
By putting food like, cheese and crackers, or whatever is a safe food for you personally on the tray, it can be taken easily to the couch or bed to be eaten from whenever you are hungry.
This prevents executive dysfunction or fatigue and any reason preventing you from eating. You need to care of yourself because everyone needs food to stay alive including you.
You deserve to eat even when on a bad brain day and are unable to prepare a meal for yourself.
If not having a full meal doesn't satisfy you, a snack may even give you the energy to make a full meal afterwards!
Gender Autism or Autistic of Gender: describing someone who experiences autism as a result of one's gender; for when one experiences gender in an autistic way, or autism in a gender way; or someone whose gender has autistic traits.
Despite its definition, this is for autistics only (as if it was a reclaimed term). I didn't think autigender transcripted my feelings just as saying "gender autism".
Pls I just want a vocal stim/ echolalia where it’s just a word, like ‘epitome’ or just something neat sounding why am I walking around my house going “she yoinky on my sploinky.” Or “she ebbin on my neezer till I scrooge.” WHY
more things i did as a kid that i realize now are probably bc of autism:
having a “word of the month” i overused (bonus points: i picked it up from a TV show or smth)
stimming with this putty my dad had for physical therapy
in pre-k i would only wear mixmatched pink and purple socks of a specific brand. the colors had to go on specific feet that i dont remember anymore (i wanna say pink on left purple on right)
didnt do stations with everyone else in pre-k bc i wanted to dance to the music the teacher played instead (i was stimming)
ROUTINES ROUTINES ROUTINES
ate the same packed lunch from elementary til i graduated high school (im bringing them to work now LOL)
lined up all my stuffed animals on my bed
noise sensitivity
wearing the same shoes all of middle school and just buying new pairs when mine wore out (got called a weirdo for this one)
had to take stuffed animals with me everywhere or i didnt feel safe/secure
theres more but this is all that ive been thinking abt the past few days
I should have known better than to dig through my old stories from when I was a teenager. There's so much trauma packed into them.
So I tried to unwind with a nice little video game (a new dating sim/visual story) since I'm having a high support needs day (high pain, poor mental health, increased confusion, anger, etc.) Anyway, I wasn't expecting the little platformer game. Usually not a problem.
Except today I'm not able to do hand-eye coordination well.
Today I'm not able to problem solve well. Today I'm barely able to get out of bed and am at a 12/10 on the pain scale, have negative spoons, and have the patience of my poor traumatized toddler self whose parents told them at age 10 they were a mistake (accident while on birth control) long after the divorce and whose parents should have never been together to start with.
Today, I had a meltdown because I tried to play a free to play video game, I couldn't edit the settings to make it disability-friendly, and struggled for 15 minutes with a task that in not unsimilar to a level in Mario Maker/Flappy Bird. I cried, screamed, and hit things. I wanted to hit my laptop/self-sabotage. But I didn't. I rage screamed (accidentally left the windows open, oops), tried to control the hitting to pillows only, and sat with my feelings.
I am tired of being exhausted all the time. Reparenting myself when my teenage self hates all adults and doesn't trust them is hard. Being kind to myself when everyone else treats me like scum is hard. Melting down over something I wanted to do to cope but suddenly can't do and can't change that is hard. But I will continue to fight for myself and others because no one deserves to be silenced.
My story matters. I owe it to myself to remember, even if it's hard. I can be kind to myself and not push myself.