#I know that I'm intelligent. But most of the time it feels like theres a literal mountain inside my head blocking my path

[thedreadpoetroberts]

You can be really smart and still have a learning disability.

You can be really smart and still have a learning disability.

You can be really smart and still have a learning disability.

#my brain is full of garbage #and I keep thinking about the several people who have said to my face that I'm too smart to have learning disabilities #or that I'm too normal to be autistic #and you know the sad thing is that I am not even that smart #I am overwhelmingly average with a penchant for pattern recognition and a special interest in grammar and vocabulary #i sound smart #i am. in fact. an idiot #but the point still stands #I don't learn well in typical settings and it takes me longer to grasp a lot of simple concepts #or i will miss entire chunks of information while trying to get through a project before my interest in it dies and mess up multiple times #or I will do a math problem six times without realizing that my brain decided that 68 was actually 89 #I have a dozen more examples between school and teaching myself new skills or just trying to plan out my bills #I know that I'm intelligent. But most of the time it feels like theres a literal mountain inside my head blocking my path #and I have to either climb it or dig through it or go around it #and all of those are very hard and take a long time and I have to trick myself into thinking it's fun so that I actually get through it #anyway #i dunno #I'm falling asleep #Just wanted to get some of the garbage out of my head

[wastelandhell]

I absolutely love your character Val! I'm a newer follower so I don't know much about him, but I love whenever you draw him. could you tell me more about his story? or how he ended up with Danse or even what their dynamic with each other is?

Ah thank you <3 I used to post more "lore" stuff on here and theres a bunch if you go way back in his tag, but in the last year I've just been kind of posting a lot of out-of-context and au stuff with no connection.

Him and Danse are both very opinionated men, and those opinions rarely align. They spend about as much time arguing as they do getting along, their relationship through most of the game is equal parts mutual pining and divorced.

They are finally able to acknowledge their feelings for each other shortly before "The Nuclear Option", but mutually split afterwards while Danse tries to find himself and Val focuses on establishing a stable home for Shaun. They reconnect about a year later when the commonwealth is in less of a state of crisis, and are finally able to pursue their relationship.

You know what, I haven't posted anything about him in a while, who's ready for a

This is not going to be very edited or formatted because I am a clown so. Sorry in advance.

A brief overview?

His "real" name is Vasili Gavriilovich Andonov but he goes by Valerie Anderson wherever he can, and does his best to hide his russian ancestry. He prefers people call him Val, though most of the brotherhood soldiers refer to him as Andonov. He hates people referring to him as Vasya or using his patronymic name, though thankfully there aren't a lot of people in the commonwealth who use russian naming conventions.

He's an autistic, bisexual, depressed alcoholic who indulges in stimulants a bit more than he should. He's surprisingly good at playing guitar, especially slide blues with his steel resonator guitar. He loves aircraft and built/painted scale models before the war. He's very lonely, even when around people who like him he never feels like he belongs. His birthday is Jan 12th, which is coincidentally a sort of holiday for the cryonics community.

He'll spend a lot of time looking inward and ruminating, and can identify a lot of his personal problems, but is not very good at "fixing" them. So he just kind of mopes around and wallows in self-loathing and self-pity. He's very gullible, and hates people messing with him. While he struggles a lot socially he is very intelligent, and is a genius with anything with an engine. Before the war he worked on vertibirds for the us military. His support of the brotherhood has nothing to do with their ideals; just that they keep him fed, paid, and let him work on aircraft. He's not particularly concerned with "saving" the commonwealth, he just wants to hurt the people who have hurt him.

Gameplay-wise, he's a melee/power armour build, with his highest stats INT and END. He can built so many weird and wonderful things that either explode or he can beat you to death with. Maybe both. His LCK and CHR are pretty miserable, nobody likes him and things are constantly going wrong. Playing a melee character in survival with MAIM is... a task.

Some sort of timeline?

He's the son of Russian immigrants who met in the US, His father Gavriil was an angry alcoholic who worked for the government and his mother Lidiya was a stay-at-home mom and a fervent christian. He had a sister, Kseniya, who was almost his opposite; a very polite and reserved child.

Valerie was small as a kid; being ginger, autistic, queer, and an immigrant made him a frequent target of his peers. Paired with his fathers physical and emotional abuse at home this made him a very angry and defensive person.

He spent most of his time away from home, preferring to spend his time in the woods around their home or just walking around town. He started smoking when he was 12 and drinking when he was 14, stealing from his father. As he got older he missed more and more school, spending his time committing petty crimes and getting into trouble.

While his father was more directly hostile his mother was equally overbearing in her own way. Val would identify himself as agnostic and having no belief in god, but for all of her preaching he still harbors a lot of “catholic guilt”, and fears that when he dies he will go to hell.

As he got older he quickly sprung from a small kid to a tall, muscular teenager. While he never learned to get along with his peers he learned to adapt an imposing, aggressive and masculine personality to defend himself.

When Val became too large for his father to easily push around he turned his anger towards Kseniya, whom Val was fiercely protective of. This only raised tensions at home, and Val and his father would get in frequent physical altercations. He contemplated leaving when he was 16 and could drive, but didn’t want to abandon his sister.

Eventually things came to a head when both of them had been drinking and Valerie came home late. Their fight got particularly nasty, and Val broke a bottle over his fathers head. He was immediately out cold, and Val was left shocked, covered in his fathers blood, believing he had just killed him. This would haunt him for the rest of his life.

Kseniya was home at the time, and ran in when she heard the yelling. Val tried to convince her to come with him, but she was shocked and terrified and refused to leave. Fearing retribution, and before he could really process what he had done, Val took any cash he could and the keys to his fathers car and fled.

He sold his fathers car and got something less traceable, which he lived out of for the next several years while he jumped around state to state. He picked up the occasional day job, but mostly supported himself by stealing cars and running drugs.

After he left is when he began going by Valerie Anderson. At first it was out of fear that he was wanted under his legal name, but he soon realized how much better people treated him if he had an “american” name.

When he was 20 he was eventually picked up for a minor offense, but given the political climate at the time he was offered the opportunity to join the military rather than face charges. As much as Val hated the government he was still very afraid of being connected to his fathers murder, and jumped at the chance to avoid any legal issues.

In his time in the military he discovered a love for aircraft, and pursued it doggedly. He got his GED, and went on to earn a masters in aerospace engineering. He never bothered with friends or relationships, he put all of his time into education and work. Lived and breathed for aircraft.

While Val enjoyed his job he continued to struggle with his mental health and substance abuse. He would frequently get into fights, eventually he got into a bar fight bad enough he nearly killed someone, getting the scars on his face at the same time.

While he was in trouble with the law he would end up working with his new attorney, Laura Walsh. She was elegant, graceful, composed, brilliant, persuasive, someone who always got what she wanted. And had terrible taste in men. Before the case was even over they started hooking up.

Their relationship was strictly friends-with-benefits, neither of them really cared for the other as a person and it was just sex. Over time, despite their best efforts, they came to see past the carefully crafted personas that they both presented to the world and fell in love with the people behind them.

He was 29 when they met, and they married less than 3 years later. They were moved to Boston for Val’s work, and it seemed like they would be staying for a while so they tried to establish themselves. Val tried to quit drinking around this time but struggled to face reality sober for the first time, and frequently slipped back.

Laura had always wanted children but Val was initially very against the idea. He still held a lot of unaddressed trauma from his own childhood and did not feel that he could ever be a good father.

Eventually Laura convinced him otherwise, and he agreed, again making an effort to clean himself up. When she fell pregnant his anxiety led to him having a breakdown at work, afterward he admitted himself to an inpatient rehab and spent 6 weeks there. From here until the start of the game was probably the best time of his life; sober, medicated and attending regular therapy sessions.

While Val was worried about his capacity to be a father, as soon as Shaun was born he lost that. That kid was his life, he did everything for him. He stayed on a break from work while Laura returned to practice, being a stay-at-home dad and throwing himself into domestic life. He even built a robot housekeeper!

His sister tracked him down somewhere around here and they began communicating through the post. She reveals that his father survived the attack, and was still alive, though she hadn’t spoken to him in years. They were planning to meet in person in the winter, though obviously that didn’t happen.

He was 33 when he went into the vault, and the main fo4 plot takes ~3 years to complete, but I think I’ve made this post long enough and I am too drunk and tired to keep typing. Safe to say hijinks ensue.

tl;dr hes an orange cringefail loser, and im hopelessly in love with him.

#asks #val #if you actually read all of that thank you. and im sorry. #id love to say english isnt my first language but it is. im just terrible at writing. #fallout

[fuxuannie]

╭₊˚ ๑︰𝐟𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐬 𝐚𝐬 𝐩𝐫𝐨𝐦𝐢𝐬𝐞 𝐛𝐲 𝐥𝐚𝐮𝐟𝐞𝐲 𝐥𝐲𝐫𝐢𝐜𝐬 . . . ♡

:★: characters : (all seperate) miles morales , al haitham , yoru , diluc

:★: warnings : none, bittersweet soft fluff

:★: a/n : i'm veryvery crazy normal over these characters,,, mostly 4 my own sake hehehe

:★: tags : bittersweet fluff, (some) one sided pining, mutual pining, reader is usually the one not reciprocating, i love gekko so bad, self indulgent

. . . . ♡

╰┈➤ HONESTLY I DIDN'T THINK ABOUT HOW WE DIDN'T SAY GOODBYE, JUST SEE YOU VERY SOON.

MILES looks at you softly, downcasted eyes as he knows you can't stay with him. "This is it, right?" You say, voice practically a whisper as you looked down at the colors of your dimension radiating from the machine.

"Yeah.. at least it was fun, wasn't it?"

"Very."

The silence kills both of you, knowing that this was the last time you'd see him.

"Goodb-"

"I'll see you around, Morales."

You put your hand out for a handshake, smiling sadly as you refused to view it as leaving forever, even if it was.

He firmly grabs your hand, but tugs on your arm to pull you in for a hug. Most likely the first and last one you'll ever have from him. "I really hope so."

╰┈➤ IT HURTS TO BE SOMETHING, IT'S WORSE TO BE NOTHING WITH YOU.

YORU hated relationships, he found them to be a waste of time. Why give yourself a weakness for your enemies to abuse? And so when he found himself falling inlove, he was so scared.

He was terrified of the fact he was willing to throw away that whole mindset just for you.

It didn't help that he was softening up to you. A smile not often seen by people was always evident in your presence, his gaze growing mellow when it staring at you. But he didn't want to ever lose you, he was so scared of being with you because of the day you'll leave his life forever.

He wants to be with you, he really does, but that kind of pain is one he's not sure he's ready to face.

╰┈➤ NO MATTER HOW LONG I RESIST TEMPTATION, I WILL ALWAYS LOSE.

AL HAITHAM believed it was important to prioritize his work above all else, not that he was a workaholic - but because he knows he has to.

So imagine the utter frustration hes under because he can't get any work done, his mind clouded with thoughts of his very small interactions with you within the day. How you said good morning, helped him carry his papers to his office and aswell as getting him a cup of coffee this morning.

He knows exactly why he's like this, but refuses to accept it as a fact. He refuses to acknowledge his feelings as something real, mostly because he's accepted that he'd be single until he may eventually pass.. but plans change, right?

╰┈➤ I'VE DONE THE MATH, THERES NO SOLUTION. WE'LL NEVER LAST.

DILUC was an intelligent man, smarter than most. So when he sees you seemingly spending more time than usual with a certain Cavalry Captain, it didn't take long to see the signs.

He didn't blame you, nor was he upset his brother, but more to himself. He knows that his Kaeya is much more popular and well-liked, many viewed Diluc as rather boring or too serious for his own good.

So he'll enjoy what time he has with you, after all.. it won't be long till you realize Kaeya feels the same. "Master Diluc?" Adeline calls for him, only to see him asleep on his desk. Hunched over with letters scattered everywhere and every single one signed with your familiar initials.

#˚₊· ͟͟͞➳❥ bailu's candy stash #yoru x reader #yoru valorant x reader #miles morales x reader #al haitham x reader #diluc x reader #genshin impact x reader #genshin x reader #atsv x reader #spiderman atsv x reader #spiderverse x reader

[gffa]

Can I ask your opinion on something? It's about Jason and the way hes written in a lot of batfamily comics, because I can't shake the feeling that in a lot of stories he's in theres is this rather... condescending attitude towards Jason. They are always writing him as this angry impulsive idiot who can't deal with a case or have plan of his own and basically needs Bruce and the others to save him.

For example, take Cheer, a lot of people been calling the best story Jason had, but it still repeats so much of the annoying tropes that Jason gets: He's written tob e really impulsive and dumb and prone to mistakes that the others would never make, and who Bruce to explain him to not attack drug addicts, and them you have to flashbacks that are there to retroactively insert instances of him being a "bad robin" who would torture a random person for no reason and killed someone before he even became robin. And whole story gives the idea that the only reason Jason can be good in anyway is because Bruce stopped from going bad.

then In the failsafe arc when Bruce is praising Tim he has to make a mention about how Jason hated training as a robin, which is not the first time Bruce has compared Jason negatively to prop Tim.

And now in The Gotham War, Jason gets brainwashed by Bruce with that failsafe thing. And it's treated as this big awful thing... until one issue has passed, and then Jason's already resisting the symptons long enough to try to save someone but not enough to actually succeed at by himself, and Bruce saves him by giving him a piggyback ride that treats Jason like child. And Bruce leaves without fixing what he did.

Like compare Jason now with the way he was before the New52 in stories like Under the Hood or the Lost Days. Jason back them as more often than not a villain, but he was a good villain, he was intelligent and competent in a way he is simply not anymore, and makes so mad that nonee these modern stories seem to actually respect him as a character and just make really made and it just ruins most Batfam media for me.

Take this for what it is--someone who is not as deeply into Jason's character as others are and who is more of a general fan (and specifically a fan of my own Blorbo)--but my feeling with Jason's character is that DC doesn't really know what they want to do with his character and so he gets written as incredibly inconsistently by various comics because of it. So often when I look at the bigger scope of his appearances, it's not clear if he's supposed to be a villain, a villain on the way to being reformed, an antihero, a misunderstood hero, or what. And that also tends to influence his relationship with Bruce on a narrative level, how much Bruce is "right" or "wrong" about Jason or even often how he acts around the other Batfam members, especially if he gets an author who is a fan or if he's just there to be the impulsive hothead who needs others to step in. To some degree, that's just how comics are--every character is written as the dumb idiot sometimes when they're not in their own book. I often Suffer as a Dick Grayson fan or a Tim Drake fan or a Barbara Gordon fan, when I pick up another character's book for them. There can be great appearances in non-titular characters' books! But a lot of the time, when I'm reading, I have to look at the title and go, okay, Blorbo's not going to be treated as well as they should because this isn't their book. And I think that's a big chunk of what happens with Jason, one that gets exacerbated because it's not really clear what his role in the group is meant to be.

(Like, there is a VERY noticeable difference in the way Jason is written in Task Force Z--a book designed to center around him--versus when he shows up in a cameo in another book. Or there is a VERY noticeable difference in the way Dick is written when he cameos in a Batgirls book versus who he's written in his own central title. Comics, you know?) So, you're not wrong that Jason gets written weirdly a lot, but I don't see it as totally unique to his character, because it's somewhat just kind of part of the landscape of comics and somewhat just that Jason gets it more intensely than other characters because he never really had the solidification of who/what he was supposed to be in the comics, like even when Tim is written really badly and they refuse to let him evolve, at least you understand what his role is in the family, so a lot of authors have a baseline for how he should be treated. (And I don't know how well he actually does/doesn't sell comics, which is often a big influence in how a character will get treated in stories they appear in, like Bruce is probably DC's single biggest seller, so he's always going to have a baseline of being intended to be cool and heroic--mileages vary on how that comes off, but I think the intention is there, even when writing him as fucking up sometimes--like Jason is tremendously popular in fandom, but does that actually translate to selling comics? I have no idea.) I think it's fair to say that, look at almost any character in the Batfam, and they'll have a period where a lot of fans feel like they're being written the way you're describing Jason being written right now--I could probably find you people who would say similar things about Dick, Tim, Damian, and Babs right now, too, that they're being written as incompetent and like they need someone to hold their hand just to cross the street without messing it up. But also that you're not wrong that Jason is probably getting the worst of it and it's one of those things that I often have just had to learn to roll with when it comes to comics or else just walk away. (Sooooo many times I had to nearly walk away from comics because I dislike what's happening at a certain point and, often times, I have had to walk away. I walked away from DC because of it. I walked away from X-Men comics because of it. I walked away from Thor comics because of it. It's only recently that I came back to DC to give them another chance and, honestly, I'm only staying because I'm getting what I want for my Blorbo. That's kinda how comics often are, if you're here for a Blorbo, rather than here for the entire roster. /says without judgement, as I know what I am too)

#lumi.txt #dc #batfam #jason todd

[clownboymcchucklefuck]

Colored Gaze: Simon is the LI that knows everything about MC.

Yall buckle up for this one its a little all over the place💀

It has been mentioned a few times that there is a LI in Colored Gaze that knows everything about MC and although I've nearly lost my mind trying to figure out who it is, I think I have the answer.

We can go ahead and check Zachary off the list to being the LI. It was said that during the demo is the first time Zachary has met us and that one of the other ones have known us ever since they moved into town. Putting our options to Seth or Simon.

I'll be honest, I was going to make this theory about Simon AND Seth and anaylze the proof between the two but looked at the bigger picture and decided to change it to just Simon since he has the most proof. 

Now this is where reading all 972 posts on the C.C comes into play.

It has been hinted at many times that Simon has known MC longer than just in the demo so there's already a bit of proof that Simon is that LI since he's known them for longer than anybody else.

Theres a few more but it literally takes me 20 minutes just to find one post so take this. 💀

That post can also align with this post:

Take note that both of them include "love them no matter what" and I'm pretty sure these were posted close to each other which could give more clues of it being Simon to.

This post is kinda what confirmed that it was Simon for me and I can even use the process of elimination for this.

It can't be Zachary because its been stated that Zachary has never met MC before the demo, the demo was the first time Zachary ever saw MC.

It can't be Seth because if pushed to the point by MC then he'd [SPOILERY THING I WILL NOT MENTION]. Seth is also the only LI that would be okay with breaking up with MC.

I would also like to take a flash to the past (?) and bring up this art that was posted on the tumblr and twitter:

Now honestly, and what I think most people may have assumed is that this was just a little wholesome drawing of Simon, right? Well I think there's more to it and the main thing that caught my attention was the art style to me. 

It kinda reminds me of the devs old artstyle:

So I think this was one of the old drawings of the actual first time Simon ever saw MC.

I could just be analyzing the art to much so I'll give you some other stuff to think about.

You might need some more proof that Simon has known MC longer than just the demo so I raise you this; Simons job. We all know Simon works as a delivery driver so it's more than likely he's seen MC before around town since they all live in a small town.

Seth Argument:

But alas the most confusing part of this for me is that Seth also has some proof for being the LI that knows everything about MC which makes things more difficult.

If I remember somewhere on the C.C somebody asked how the boys would react to finding out MC works for the government/FBI and Seth's mentioned something about "He would be surprised that he didn't find that out while researching MC" and me and Kam have theorized before that Seth might have something to do with the government so he might have access to more information than the normal person. I'll talk more about this in my Seth theory but Seth's intelligence could help him with alot of things such as stuff like finding out information about people.

Seth also has some proof from the C.C as well:

"I already knew what I signed up for beforehand" implying that he might know stuff about MC before dating them.

There was also another ask where somebody asked for the boys reaction to MC texting them that they were at the hospital with the police and to eat dinner without them and Seth's answer really caught my attention because it mentioned that he already knew what hospital MC was at. This could be implying he's the LI or that he's just a stalker.

Simon's Song Playlist:

There's obviously hints to what the LI's are like especially since the dev even said there are hints to how the LI feels about MC or how they met. 

Simons playlist was kinda hard to decipher not gonna lie but I did notice alot of songs and lyrics about being a hopless romantic so yeah, Simon is a hopeless romantic for MC.

There's also this part that caught my attention too:

Now this gives obvious vibes and references to Simon first meeting/seeing MC for the first time.

There were also a few that had a little possessive lyrics and some about what I assume is Simon wanting MC to trust him. And of course some ones implying that Simon was hiding a deep secret. :)

Hints from the demo:

Theres also of course this scene that caught my attention along with another one because I be making sure I pay attention to those subtle hints 💪

Simon was obviously about to say something but was then interrupted by MC's phone call. My first initial guess was something like "I love you" maybe and then after he would probably correct himself or say he didn't mean it like that. That could work because bro is no thoughts head empty (?) and since he's a hopeless romantic would probably say something like that on accident without thinking.

Shoutout to @mysticnebula for saving my sanity and screen recording this scene for me 💪

Something I noticed is that during Seth's route in the demo it mentions that MC forgets to put on their name tag whenever they get ready. However in this scene Simon already calls MC by their name before looking at the clipboard or them telling him their name which gives even more proof to him knowing them before the demo takes place.

There's also of course the walk home scene that it is beyond a doubt that Simon (?) Is the one following us.

We all thought that Zachary was the one at the window but this basically confirms that its NOT Zachary. And it can't be Seth either because even in the route that we don't meet Seth we still get followed and we still see somebody watching us from outside the window. Technically, Simon is the only one you have to deal with throughout the demo if you choose the right options.

It would also make sense for Simon to be the only one that knows where we live because of his job. Or it could just be him (?) following us home.

Theres obviously going to be alot more hints in the next update so we'll just have to wait for that. Until then we can only go off of these little clues and hints here and there :)

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This theory may be a little all over the place because this is the first time my Host alter is writing and posting the theory but I hope its good 😭

TAG TIME: Simon belongs to @clrdgaze @dont-wannadothis-anymore

#Also my Google docs stopped working after I hit my goal of 1k smh 😒 #Posting this 15 mins early because I love yall <3 #ONCE AGAIN IM SORRY FOR IT BEING MESSY BUT I REALLY HOPE YOU GUYS LIKE IT #yandere vn #yandere visual novel #yandere #male yandere #visual novel #coloredgaze #colored gaze #clrdgazevn #coloredgazevn #yandere male #coloredgazesimon #coloredgazevnzachary #coloredgazeseth #Simon 🌵

[ackermannrot]

Levi with a taller S/O headcanons

this has been stuck in my head for like, well ever. I'm a good bit taller than levi, and whenever I read a fic where it mentions the reader being his height, or even smaller and thats part of why he likes her, i die a little inside agshjdgaksjdf. Nothing against my short queens, but I just needed a little Tall girlie love 😭 so here are some little things I imagined that would come of Levi dating someone who is even a little bit (or a lot lol) taller than him.

He doesn't like to show it, but he's definitely somewhat insecure about his height compared to yours. It's nothing to do with you- there isn't a single thing about you he would change. However, if he could change himself...

He doesn't do anything consciously to compensate for this, but if you played close enough attention you could see that he was definitely altering his movements. He was a skilled and intelligent captain, and was simply adapting to his environment.

He likes to manhandle you- despite the height difference, his incredible strength makes it come easy to him, and it's something he would be doing either way.

He can (and does) pick you up and throw you over his shoulder without breaking a sweat, usually when you're being particularly annoying (affectionate).

He likes to pull you down to his level, continuing the manhandling, he'll grab you by whatever he can get his hands on- the back of your neck, fingers on your chin, the collar of your shirt, even your hair. He slips his hands around you and pulls you down swiftly, grip firm and commanding, and presses his lips to yours.

He uses his surroundings- stopping a step or two above you so that he can kiss you at your level, remaining standing when you're sitting (especially when theres only one seat available, obviously) so that he can press a kiss to the top of your head, he even leaned down from his horse to kiss you once, you think he just likes being the one to lean down lol.

Granted, most of this is behind closed doors or when no one else is around, Levi is not a big PDA guy, but he's certainly not ashamed nor afraid to do so if the spirit moves him. He's the fucking captain, he'll do as he pleases regardless of who happens to be nearby.

When it comes to cuddling, he likes being able to wrap around one another in some way- lowering yourself when its time to sleep and resting your head on his chest. He enjoys wrapping himself around you as the big spoon, clinging onto you like a backpack and entangling your legs.

He would never admit it, and if you ever tried to tell anyone he would deny it, but he also enjoys being the little spoon. The way you engulf his frame, every soft inch of you pressed up against him as close as can be, and it wasn't often Levi got to be the one to feel protected.

Speaking of protecting, he does that, often and intensely. If anyone didn't know who he was, they may find his small frame stepping between you and a threat (perceived or real) almost funny, but most know that if Captain Levi steps between you and something else, squaring his shoulders, it was no laughing matter.

All this said- he fucking loves every inch of you. The fact that you're as tall and gorgeous as you are and you wanna be with him? Astounds him every day.

He honestly loves it this way, theres so much more of you to love, to explore, he could spend hours running his lips down every exquisite inch of you- and he does.

You're like a greek goddess, his goddess- towering above him and sculpted perfectly- and he is eager to worship every inch.

#levi ackermann #levi ackermann x reader #aot #aot hcs #attack on titan #levi x reader #levi ackermann x y/n #levi ackermann x you #levi ackermann fanfic #levi ackermann headcanons #levi ackermann hc #levi aot #snk #shingeki no kyojin #levi ackermann fluff #levi ackerman x reader #levi ackerman #levi ackerman x you #levi ackerman x y/n

[gagsolineoilrefinery]

brian headcanons? pretty please

Smiles so big and wide at you yes absolutely I love that little freak

putting under a read more for convenience's sake

- I'm 100% a Bug Brian truther, that man is an insect you can't convince me otherwise, I like to think he can make weird little chittering noises and climbs up walls with his hands and feet for enrichment

- He's trans and has no last name because he didn't care enough to pick a new one so he went with none, acts all mysterious about it because he thinks it makes him look cool

- This man needs glasses so fucking badly but after a litany of "nerd" comments growing up he refuses to wear them, has attempted contacts but cant get them in his eyes for the life of him

- He would genuinely rather die than go to the factory, he does all his needed repairs on himself unless he's forced to (usually by Ben or William)

- He gets along with his co workers in, his own way when he's forced to interact with them. He does not understand how to behave "appropriately" around other people, he's my favorite rude autism icon (he is going to insult your intelligence at any given opportunity with what he sees as good intentions and does not understand why everyone hates him)

- I'm also a Bellthinker truther I think that british man should kiss that bug right on the brain dome and make him so flustered his systems soft reset

- Every time theres a meeting that he's in the second he's at the front of the room the entire mood changes because everybody knows he's gonna have a whole presentation planned thats no less than 1 hour long, and he will yell at you if you try to stand up for any reason

- I like to think living in the heart of toontown (right in the playground no less) definitely has some side effects on him, the silliness is rubbing off on him more than he realizes, most obviously things like his brain exploding comically when he starts baby raging

- Im sorry this man is absolutely a cog reddit user (coggit? idk) you can't change my mind, hes a power mod and proud of it, keeps getting talked to for using it on company time though

- He's very attatched to the Desk Jockeys but absolutely hates to admit it, I like to think its a Dr. Robotnik with Scratch and Grounder type dynamic (thinking especially like that one scene where Robotnik says "I don't even know why I bother to repair you guys, I suppose I'm too sentimental" shit like that)

- With his dynamics with the other toontown central managers, I think he actually feels very guilty about the incident that happened with Buck- but instead feigns a petty hatred for him so nobody will ask him about it and he doesn't have to admit how monumentally he fucked up

- He's on relatively chill terms with William, they're both angry big mouthed autistic people who do not know how to shut up so they mesh pretty well, I think they like to fight eachother to let off steam and then makeup immediately after, Brian isn't too fond of the whole oil leakage problem thing though because it makes a mess of his basement but he doesn't exactly hold it against him since he knows he can't help it

- When he can spare the time he loves poking around in the systems of his co workers just to see how they operate out of morbid curiosity and to see how he can make the jockeys more efficient, he's on that medic tf2 shit, not many of them let him do it though (understandably so)

- Probably went to whatever the cog equivalent of medical school was but lost his medical license after The Buck Incident™️

(And I think thats probably good for now because I am dangerously treading the line of infofumping about my AU sorry I have so many thoughts about this creature)

#sludgetalkz #answered asks #prethinker #brian ttcc #fuck it yknow what this is getting character tags. look at my thoughts boy

[pokespefangirl]

(For the Pokéstar Studios AU)

Hey this is the same anon, I'm super happy that you liked the idea! Sincerely, I am extremely stoked, thank you so much!

This concept has been running through my mind nonstop ever since that ask and I have a few more ideas. Not to pressure you to add this in the fic or force these ideas on you, yet again I'm just having fun sharing these.

Anyways, Blake and Black brother-in-law moments REAL?! Whitley and White sister-in-law moments TRUE!? Ugh i'm eating up these hypothetical scenarios.

White most likely assigns Black to be Blake's bodyguard whenever he decides to go out, since he has celebrity status and all. The same thing goes for Whitley, though I see Blake accompanying her a lot too. So Black has to thirdwheel, not knowing it's Blake enacting vengeance for all those time he was the thirdwheel when it was just White, Black, and him at the BW Agency.

Also more of how I think Blake would be as an actor, though in this scenario he never received super spy training, he probably got super intense media training from White. They're both coming up with insane, genius, absolutely unhinged strategies to manipulate the media, Light Yagami monologuing typa bamboozlery. And Whitley and Black are just having a pleasant chat, side eyeing them every thirty seconds or so.

I imagine Blake's acting style to be refined, perfect, infallible that it's almost too much. Since he doesn't understand emotions, he studies, studies, studies, and studies. Writing down what his character would do, analyzing every line of dialogue, down to the body language and speech patterns etcetera. That's how he's able to nail so many different characters. AKA Christian Bale ahh acting style.

Now for Whitley, she's the opposite, she's new and unrefined, full of flaws. But full of emotion, her performances reaches out and captures. Delivering the feel needed for the scene and character.

And it really fascinates Blake, how she's so in tune with her emotions, making him kinda obsessed with her reactions...

That's it for now, I haven't even touched the surface for Blake and White's sibling dynamic but I sort of don't want this to be novel-length. Yet again, I am so happy that you accepted that ask! I really look forward to what you're cooking up, take as much time as you need!

Lil Bonus:

Blake: *trying to spook/fluster Whitley* Great job on set, your acting needs a little more work but you've got potential.

Whitley: Oh! Um, thanks...

Blake: You should learn how to be more confident, we don't want people to think you're easy to take advantage of...those rumors in Pokéwood are not to be taken lightly. *attempts to rizz* don't worry I'll-

Whitley: OH NO, w-were you a victim!?

Blake: Wh-what of course not-

White: *Bonks him on the head* Of course not! I made SURE that never happened to him, and I will DEFINITELY do the same for you!

ANON YOU ARE DRIVING ME ABSOLUTELY CRAZY W HAPPINESS W ALL OF THESE GREAT FANTASTIC Amazing Awonderf IDEAS, OFC I NEED TO ADD ALL OF THEM NOW <3 NEED TO GO TO SCHOOL SOON SO I'LL ADD MORE LATER BUT FOR NOW I WAS THINKING

Blake is studying Whitley right?!!! Almost out of a curiosity as to how she feels and experiences all these emotions?? So naturally!! Especially her beautiful eyes that get teary whenever shes thinking about something sad! He could study her all day!!

To add to that: Blake never had pets or cared for animals bcs you know... sociopath and all, but he starts seeing Whitley feeding a stray cat!! ANd EVENTUALLY (WHEN THERES SOME ANGST POINT) HE STARTS FEEDING THE LITTLE KITTEN HIMSELF just from seeing Whitley when he's walking by all alone!!

And you're so right he'd craft his image with the convoluted intelligence of Light Fucking Yagami lmaoo that's so good!!

AND UK WHITE IS THE MOST AMBITIOUS GIRL LIKE SHE'S MAKING SURE BLAKE IS TOPPING ALL THE RATINGS AWARDS WHATEVE, BUT her YOUNGER BRO ALSO ANNOYS HER SOMETIMES W HIS HEINOUS SOCIOPATHY AND SHE HAS TO DO DAMAGE CONTROL LMAOO (mostly it's him being with all sorts of ladies before being w Whitley and unintentionally breaking their hearts cus they didn't interest him for too long)

AND BLACK IS SUCH A FIERCE BODYGUARD BUT ALSO WHOLESOME!! LIKE HE WILL KILL FOR HIS BROTHER IN LAW!! BUT OFC OFC HE'LL GIVE THE FANS FREE FOOD AND GIFT BASKETS ON HIS BEHALF TOO AND HELP THE FANS GET BLAKE'S AUTOGRAPH especially he'll help anybody whose disabled bcs it's the right thing to do!! God he's so good

so yeah Whitley!! Whitley is pure!! Unfiltered!! And blake doesn't know what that's like aside from his family everybody else in Hollywood tend to be shallow and judgemental and fake!! But Whitley s not afraid to cry, to smile, to laugh, she's not afraid of what ppl think and guess what!! Blake needs that bcs he's been hiding his sociopathy all along! Bcs his career would be over if anybody revealed his diagnoses!!

Initially it started out as fun that he studied Whitley and tried to get emotions out of her!! Initially he just joked she was becoming an addiction! Just something to have!! But then things started to get real and he began to experience!!

Something big!! Something else!! Nobody had ever kept him that interested in his life!! Jumping from person to person!! Director to Director!! Everybody was fed up with him but then came in Whitley!! And this man just cannot let her go!!

And ya know Black is ready to defend his whole family!! He's outside of his work hours still doing his job cus that's what he should do!! Is Prez okay?? Where should we go next?? Lemme be with you Prez i cant risk anything happening to u not on my watch imma be the best bodyguard ever!! And Blake's just standing there like- "Bet"

ANYWAYS I SAID I DIDN'T HAVE MUCH TIME BUT I GUESS I HAD TO RESPOND HAHAHA, thank you so much this whole au and concept is honestly making my day and i can't wait to finish it!!

#pokespe #corruptedshipping #anon asks #trainer whi two #trainer lack two #trainer blake #trainer whitley #agency shipping #trainer white #trainer black #Blake thinks hes empty inside but Whitley tells him otherwise! #Tells him hes not an emotion zombie!! That all those things some people who knew his secret and judged him for were lies!! #Tells him he's real!! He doesnt feel the way others feel or think the way others think but shes there for him!! She understands him!! #alternate universe: pokestar studios

[joshriku]

Hi!!! I just read how do you sleep at night, your WandaJericho fic, and I'm having so many feels right now!!! Wanda's decision to getting a break from her relationship with Jericho made me like, oh wanda!

Her getting constantly anxious that nothing big is happening after their semi breakup was so sad. Girl is having grief in her romantic and maternal life since Vision's disassembling. It happens in reality too, when you are having constant drama and trauma in your life, you can't just suddenly adapt to peace. And you just start creating the drama and the unstable ness, whether you want it or not. Self Sabotage, or craving drama, you name it.

But the consequences that come with it—what always happens when she loves too much, the things that get ruined, the life she tries so hard to keep under control—it’s all so paralyzing. It’s as paralyzing as this touch. Oh dear!

And Jericho was so supportive! He was extremely right to be hurt, but I think he must have gotten an inkling later(maybe pietro?) about why is she behaving like that. I loved their Astral plane conversations, and "simply souls waving each other hello." This is so good!!

Also pietro!!! I loved how he just knew why Wanda is behaving like this. Self Sabotage indeed. The twin sense must have gotten activated. He is actually more emotionally intelligent about people he loves and cares, so that wasn't a surprise when he knew what wanda didn't want to admit yet. Also I knew it when he said he likes Jericho! Honorable mention Wanda's thought on how easy is to fight with pietro. Hope next years mini does twins justice.

Also Happy New Year!!

🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 happy new year!! firstly thank you so much for such a lovely ask it really means a lot that you'd take the time to let me know you liked my writing, i really appreciate it!!!! 🥺🫶 already made my 2024 a great year!!

second AHHHHHH THANK YOU.. I LOVE WANDAJERICHO SO MUCH. ever since SW #9 when they reveal they're inexplicably exes / still have feelings but with "no strings" i've been like. oh?? what?? 😭 at first i was like, oh thats funny they dont strike me as characters who'd do No Strings Attached thing. but then i gave it more thought and started thinking of ways they COULD be and wanda essentially growing uneasy and anxious over a relationship that was going so well, when she is so used to things going wrong, came to me and i was like ohhh yes... thats it... now we got it 🫵 i can see her cutting things out before them getting "ruined". i really wanted it to be like, this relationship is *fine* and thats whats freaking her out!!

when i wrote this i wrote jericho with the intention that he knew exactly why she did it, but knowing it didnt change that she did hurt him, and the whole crutch of this story being that theyre both unequivocally very in love with each other still. still the case does remain that jericho is also very committed to his duties in the academy, esp after everything they went through - something wanda would also know firsthand. i think all those student deaths/the death of doctor strange/mandatory other marvel events would take its toll on anyone tbh i can see them trying to put at least a pause on everything while they try to fix the world. As Usual. i didnt write jericho immediately taking back wanda too because, yknow, it takes two to tango! BUT THEYRE SO GONNA WORK IT OUT. BECAUSE THEY LOVE EACH OTHER THATS THE WHOLE POINT.. THEY NEVER STOPPED..IN MY HEAD. CAUSE I SAID SO AND THEYRE MY EMOTIONAL SUPPORT SHIP...

and AHH THANK YOU.. pietro in that fic was my favorite part 🫶 he loves wanda and hes really good friends with jericho of course hed have a deeper understanding of whats going on! i think pietro is a lot more emotionally intelligent than what most writers give him credit for. and if theres anyone who knows about self sabotaging or recognizing it on someone itd be him, and ESPECIALLY on wanda. defo one of my fave scenes to write in that fic 🥹 MAXIMOFF TWINS MY BELOVED..

Anyway this was a really long reply just to say that thank you SO much and this ask made my whole year and i am really grateful that you liked my fic!!!!!!! i liked writing it too!!! 💛💛💛

#asks #OO IM SO NORMAL IM BEING SO NORMAL... #wandajericho.. wandajericho save me

[sery-chan-13]

Soy Tuya, Je Suis à Vous

[Chishiya Shuntarou × Reader]

Hispanic reader. Because I'm bored and want rep. So fuck whoever is upset about it lol. Also, personal headcanon, Chishiya knows French. Idk why. So... yeah!

Theres a bit of like... domestic fluff at the end? Idk if that's the right word for it.

Translations at the end.

Warnings: Swearing, and i think thats it? Omg

"Yo, 'Shiya, ready for tonight's game?" You shouted, a big smile on your face. He looked up at your smiling face and nodded.

You were quite the boisterous woman, and always had something to say. You had a short fuse, intelligent mind, and a smart mouth. Perfect combo.

You always had a comeback for something.

"Eh. You?" He answered. "I'm gonna be ok. As long as its diamonds. Porque estos juegos me están hodiendo..." you muttered, swinging your legs in the pool water.

"(N/N) - Chan!"

"Kuina!"

You got up quickly, running over to her.

You hugged her and kissed both her cheeks. Hooking your arms together, you walked over to Chishiya.

"Ne, Shuntarou, does this bathing suit look good? People keep staring," you asked, tilting to the side, trying to see if there was a stain.

He did not want to be the one to answer that question.

The men in Japan were most definitely not used to seeing women such as yourself. You had a.. different body from what most girls had in Japan.  And he was not about to tell you, 'No, (Y/N), it's not that the bathing suit looks bad, it's just that you have tits and a nice ass, so if anything you look hot."

"Don't ask him that. What does he know about fashion?" Kuina teased. He let out a small huff, half in agitation half in relief. You giggled, sitting besides him again. You kissed his forehead. And he pulled back quickly. "Never do that again," he stated scrunching his nose, looking away from you. Hopefully you could see how red his ears were.

He wanted you to do it again. He wanted so badly to say that you had missed and kiss you. But really kiss you.

Which he hated. He hated that you made him feel like this. Because now he was worried about you all the time. If you two were in different games and he got back first, he would sit and wait. Same if you got back first. You sat and waited. When you were together, he went out of his way to keep you safe and close.

He never knew he could feel like that. He had never ever felt even a spark of empathy for anyone until you came into the picture. You dragged Kuina into said picture, because of course, your best friend became his friend.

"You and I are together for games tonight," you murmured to the stoic blonde man. He hummed. "And Niragi... oh, but Ann is coming to ugh she's so hot. And Tatta is going as well. Downside, Niragi,"  you said, getting excited about your friends coming with you, a small part dreading it. What if there could only be one winner? "As long as it's not hearts," he said. You nodded. "Any of the other ones for us will still be hell. I mean... some of the people in our group that I don't know must be drinking heavily..." you observed pointing them out. Exactly as you said, they were drunk.

"Kuina, you must be glad you don’t have a game tonight, no?" You asked, turning your attention to her. She smiled. "Of course. But this means you have to come back, both of you. Be safe," she said. The horn sounded, and Chishiya and yourself got up from the side of the pool, walking to the main lobby. Many people ran past you, bumping past you, making you huff.

"Hey Chishiya..."

"Hm?"

"Te amo."

He looked up at you. He knew fully well what that meant. But he said nothing back. You knew he knew what you had said. It didn’t hurt you, you knew how Chishiya was.

Although, his fingers brushed against yours in the hall while Hatter talked. A small way of saying I'm sorry.

He wanted to do it so badly... so he did. Slowly, he grabbed your hand, intertwining his fingers with your own. In the crowded hall, no one would be able to see, he decided.

It took you by surprise. But you made sure not to make a face. You knew someone was always watching. As long as you kept your hands hiden, no one would know.

The second you were all released for the games, however, his hand left yours immediately. You both looked up at Hatter, Aguni, and Niragi. They were all looking down at surprisingly, you two.

Not surprising to Chishiya.

"That is why I say no PDA... fuckers are always watching," he muttered, tilting his head. He waved up at them with his usual Cheshire grin, and started to head out, you following quickly behind him.

You sat in the backseat with Chishiya next to you. "Odió éste sitio... quiero quemar este maldito lugar hasta los cimientos," you muttered,  playing with the drawstring of your gray sweatpants.

He looked down at you. He had been picking up its and bits of of Spanish. He understood little things you said. Or used context clues.

He knew French, he knew Japanese(obviously, its his own language), he knew English, and he knew Korean. He wished he had payed more attention in Spanish class. Of course he passed with flying colors, but he never cared enough to learn it. He wouldn't need it, he had said. No one that I'll interact with in Japan speaks it.

He didn't plan on leaving the country. He just didn't care.

Now he wished he had. He wished he could say everything he wanted to say in a language only you two knew.

You on the other hand were never one for linguistics. You knew Spanish and Japanese since you were little. You had to learn the language of your family, and the language of the country you lived in. Then you learned English in school. Due to speaking Spanish, you were able to understand a little bit of Portuguese, Italian, and French. But not too much. Only a few word here and there.

You two got back from the game unscathed. It was a 2 of Diamonds. Child's Play at this point.

He took you up to your shared room, laying next to you on the bed.

You lay your head on his chest, listening to his heartbeat, and grabbed his cold hand, intertwining your fingers in his own."Eres tan listo... para un hombre que no sabe lo que digo," you said, a small smile playing on your lips.

"Et tu es une femme très intelligente pour ne pas savoir ce que je dis," he spoke with a smirk.

"Mm... I don't care if I can only understand a little French, talk to me like that all the time," you groaned, sitting up next to him. He smirked, pulling you on top of him.

"Tu es tellement magnifique. Tout à moi... tu es à moi, ma belle chérie."

You smiled, bring your face closer to his own.

"Y tú eres mío... mío solamente, eres perfecto para mí. Mi amor, murirre para ti, o contigo en este puto mundo," you muttered against his skin. You pressed a kiss to his jaw, and he looked at you through lazy eyes. He grabbed your hips, and sat up, leaning against the backboard of the bed. You smiled.

You lived for moments like this with your usually cold boyfriend. He hated affection in public. You wanted to give him all your attention

But in private he could care less.

You ran your hands through his blonde hair, another kiss pressed to his jaw.

"Gods (Y/N)... you drive me crazy you know that right?" He muttered, kissing your colarbone.

You hummed, loving the attention you were getting.

"Shuntarou... Te Amo. Eres mi único." You mumbled, bringing your lips to his.

"Translate that for me darling... don't want to think, " he muttered, kissing you.

How cute it was for him to say that, you thought. You'd tease him later about it.

You pulled away slightly, "I love you. You're my one and only."

"And you are mine. Je t'aime (Y/N)."

There was something you didn't need a translation for.

I made myself melt ❤ hope you enjoyed

Porque estos juegos me están hodiendo... - because these games are fucking me(Spanish slang translated to my native dialect btw, these words mean different things depending on the country/region)

Te amo - I love you

Odió éste sitio... quiero quemar este maldito lugar hasta los cimientos - I hate this place... I wanna burn this fucking place to the ground. (OR till its is nothing but ashes)

Eres tan listo... para un hombre que no sabe lo que digo - You're so clever... for a man who doesnt know what im saying. (Listo is like the more... insulting? way of saying clever. It just means that you know more, and are aware and cocky about it. I think it fits him perfectly.)

Et tu es une femme très intelligente pour ne pas savoir ce que je dis - And you are so clever for a woman who doesnt know what I'm saying. (Again, I translated from Spanish to French, so i used lista. Cocky arrogance of knowing more than the other)

Tu es tellement magnifique. Tout à moi... tu es à moi, ma belle chérie - You are so fucking gorgeous. All mine... you are mine, my beautiful darling. (I took these from google translate. If its wrong argue with that.)

Y tú eres mío... mío solamente, eres perfecto para mí. Mi amor, murirre para ti, o contigo en este puto mundo - And you are mine. Only mind, you are perfect for me. My love, I'd die for you, or with you in this fucking world.

Te Amo. Eres mi único - I love you. You are my one and only.

Hope this helps!

#alice in borderland #fluff #chishiya #×reader #i love him sm

[vethbrenatto]

People immediately jumped to the “oh this is fcgs evil murder bot side!” but theres so much to unpack in those 2 minutes that proves that this is probably not the case at all starting with the stress points. The more stressed fcg is the closer they get to that breaking point. Them being practically abandoned by dancer pushed them past it. (This is abit of a long ask sorry)

There’s a few things we know about this state: fcg didn’t wake up and started attacking for no reason chet did hit him and in the state that he was in they saw him as a threat. Also something that alot of people seemed to overlook is the fact that fcg only retaliated against those who hurt him first, he could’ve yelled at the entire party but they didn’t. Ashton did grab fcg but didn’t cause them any harm and fcg didn’t retaliate at Ashton at all.

This is more on the theory side of things but the whole saying there insecurity things at them was probably a way to get the party to run away from him, saying things that they don’t like to hear would drive them away from them so that they wouldn’t get hurt anymore.

the funny yet sad thing is the party probably could’ve talked him down, they weren’t saying or doing anything to those who didn’t hurt him so if they just let fcg be grappled and stay there maybe they would’ve been able to talk to them. Also the violence made it much worse, since fcg seemed way more stressed out the more they got hurt.granted there was a lot more going on so not gonna blame anyone but hopefully one of them /probably Ashton/ will want a much different approach the next time this happens or just say it in preparation

hi same person who wrote the massive fcg anon sorry if that was abit long i just have alot of thoughts about this character and wanted to hear your own thoughts! /also im not the biggest fan of the "oh fcg turned evil" thing /

i'm assuming these asks go together! and no worries, i don't mind hearing people's takes as long as it's not like "you should have this opinion about this"

personally, i kind of disagree with this. i think FCG in the state they were in couldn't have been talked down- mechanically, it seems like they had been triggered in some sense and the only thing that would've stopped them was probably a successful save, being knocked out (like they were), or possibly a calm emotions (this was also tried, but only after FCG was knocked out).

i think you're right it's obviously deeper than "murderbot" because FCG's personality that we've gotten to know doesn't seem to be malicious, but the stress points and the backstory of FCG being triggered by other's negative emotions and absorbing their pain (a metaphor for unhealthy coping mechanisms) to me doesn't make it... not murderbot? it's just a reflavoring and recontextualizing.

also i think i agree that I don't think FCG means the things he said, he said them to be the most hurtful he could. it seems like from the narrative we're being give, those negative emotions he's swallowing from others fester in him, so that's obviously what comes out when he "turns"

to me at this point i think the most interesting thing that could happen (other than this all being a fakeout- that FCG wasn't the one-eyed monster, which i think is 10x better a twist than him being one, but i also don't think that's going to happen) is going to be learning FCG's Aeorian roots. what about their time with Dancer led to this "malfunction"? did she just program him to be a helper bot and being of his advanced intelligence he, just like a real person, couldn't live for just other people's emotional wellbeing. he has to learn to live for himself and consider his own feelings and now that i'm typing that out, it does feel like that is probably the most predictable outcome of all this and it kind of bores me dfgfjdklgkl so um. i hope something else happens? idk

#ask #anonymous #cr spoilers

[sans-au-war-ii]

What kind of flowers are those on Nightmare (if you have anything in mind)

and why are they there? :<D

Actually I thought about this for a while. And the answer is that they are Azaleas (huge nerding about flower symbolism incoming)

https://www.flowermeaning.com/azalea-flower-meaning/

[Here's the link to where I'm getting all this from btw]

Looking at their symbolism it says that Azaleas represent remembering ones home with fondness - Insomniac (Omniverse Nm) wishes to return back to the days of what I'm calling FlowerDream for now (but unfortunately he knows that is impossible)

They also represent taking care of oneself and family (Insomniac and his gang found family = true)

Then they represent Temperance and emotional evenness because Insomniac is a more balanced character who is trying to keep the Positivity-Negativity balance in check while "Rem...?" (Rem is Ov Dream) tries to eradicate those who they think wil cause negativity (think Swapdream but a manipulative asshole with shapeshifting and mind control and also technically every power ever. Not fun right?)

Then theres Passion, hes just very dedicated to stuff (especially finding his missing friend. His only friend back in FD).

Elegance and wealth are obvious enough but we also have Femininity which is hard to explain in my own words so I'll show you the behavior listed in the Wiki

These are all things Insomniac (or at least Insomnia - which is what I call Passive Insomniac) used to do.

Btw I might also get this out of the way: the relationship between Insomnia and Insomniac. They are the same person (and they behave quite similarly. Insomniac is just more closed-off and violent). And if you get to the part where I explain why they are there you'll see that it's because there is no corruption (... only deadly flower poison)

Getting back on track, Abundance (especially of beauty and intelligence) he's pretty smart (he still reads books here, but not as much because he is busy training or hanging out with his friend most of the time - which reminds me, Insomnia is around 13 when he first meets his friend, who was 14 at the time. He gets "corrupted" when he becomes around 17) and for the beauty part... well, hes beautiful to his friend (who I wont name yet I think)

The last thing on the list is that they are a death threat, but only if sent in a black vase.

I wanted to reflect on this by making it so his skull turns black after the "corruption" (why does this feel wrong to say?)

Oh and they are there because the local village bullies beat the life out of 'Friend' and they basically 'died' (but not really. They just needed a while for their amalgam-goop to get back together. They told Insomnia too and that made him less distraught after losing his best friend. Still traumatized, but he wants to live so that he can go back to them).

So then the bullying got worse and worse until the bullies forced Insomnia to eat the Flowers of Negativity which - you guessed it- are Azaleas, but what you didn't guess is that they are full of toxins and can cause death if ingested in large qualities (they are mostly harmless to humans due to getting broken down in the digestive tract but Insomnia is a Skeleton monster and those do not have a digestive tract to break down azaleas with. The food just kinda gets absorbed like that)

Anyways Insomnia pukes a fuckton, his friend's ghost is fucking traumatized and his skull changes color

So obviosly Insomnia starts puking and then dies but he doesn't. See while he considered just giving up he realized that His Friend was probably going to be looking for him. So he just refused to die (hey man hes the guardian of negativity of course he can do that)

So hes alive, covered on half his skull by thick vines and Azaleas, but alive.

This is where my writing gets messy

And also hes pissed off. First they come for his friend, now they make him suffer a painful death? (Keep in mind that it only took him around 30 mins to think about whether or not to die - all that time he was suffering on the ground - which means that the bullies were still there)

Insomnia was full of rage and without thinking he "activated" his powers and vines sprouted from the ground and impaled the bullies

[Basically Nightmare but Tendrils instead of Tentacles]

And as he gained more and more Lv from slaughtering the villagers of that nowhere town he comes to his senses and realizes that he has gone too far and he decides to make amends by swearing to protect the balance (wow hes really speedrunning character development isn't he? And who woulda thought that it only took 2 hours of looking for and slaughtering the people who either treated you like shit or did nothing about you being treated like shit).

Meanwhile Rem and his close friend (gf???) Mercy (who has a Copy soul- which I'll explain when I get the time because I'd have to get in depth about BTs and DTD and none of you even know what that stands for) escaped to Rem and Insom's pocket dimention (because we all just have one of those) - the Dreamscape.

However Mercy does a Murder (not literally, this is just in reference to These Two being the names that result in the "on the nose" comment when you name the fallen human) and seals Rem in the Dreamscape and shapeshifts into a more "regal and smarter version of him", as she puts it [and before you ask me how - Copy Soul Logic]

Anyways the story then follows as Insomniac and "Friend" dance around in circles while looking for eachother and also "Friend" found Rem and is trying to help him escape and put an end to all of this.

Hope this helps!

#I should also add that FlowerDream is Dreamtale if it was represented by flora in general (especially flowers) #there's two main flowers you need to know about right now: the flower of negativity (azaleas) and the flower of positivity (idk actually) #Insomnia and Rem protect these two flowers and are by them #if that makes sense #basically they follow the symbolism to a T (as you can read here w Insom) #also the way these flowers work is instead of eating them their pollens have special effects (that Insom and Rem can sorta influence) #also sorry for going on a rant but I NEEDED to get all of this garbage out of my system #long boy #not a poll

[evilneo]

Mal, you have quite the name hoard! If you don't mind me asking, how did you find them? Do you have any tips or sources for other people trying to figure out their own names?

my name list if anyones wondering! :)

RIGHT SO. i have an easier time getting attached to names that arent traditionally names, yknow? like phrases from songs, concepts etc. also character names. my top tip is if something resonates with you, whether it be a phrase or a song, look for something you can call yourself. you can name yourself an entire phrase if you want fuck it we ball ! also if you think MY name hoard is impressive you should see some of my friends and partners <3 one of them has 80+ names and its SO SWAGFUL (HI BINGO! SHOUT OUT!)

how I found my names:

Neo: the funny guy! his autism resonated with me. i wanted to feel as free to express myself as they do :)

Artificial Intelligence: in headspace, I'm a robot alter and i thought id be funny :) what solidified it as My Name was one of my friends said that i could shorten it to Artie and itd be cute so i do <3 AIs resonate with me anyway bc of like. autism and my schizo-spec swag :p

Evil + Antagonist + Malice + Vice: all of these names mean like. the same thing. The Evil.... I was having a rough time with it at the time of picking these names and thats how i coped 👍 and im still like. really attached to them :3c

Malware: mashup of the above 2 reasons ALSO an autism moment. I love you y2kvr <3

Spam: i will be real with you. Smapton. our autism and psychosis icon <3

Video: OOOOHHHH YEAH BABY. THE SONG! I have a lot of personal attachments to the song Video Killed The Radio Star and like. its a good fucking song.... i need more song names TBH

honourary mentions of names i dont use anymore n why:

Gordon: OH YEA BABY! AUTISM! started using it bc i do have an attachment to the guy. stopped using it bc theres 11 Gordon Freeman fictives in my system and most of them still use it as a name to SOME extent. also i know 1000000 Gordon fictives.... it got too confusing KSGSJSKSK

Tommy: similar reasons to Gordon except it wasnt in my system JSSJSK

Moth: this was like my second chosen name and ppl irl still call me this JSBSHSVSHSVSJS i picked this bc i thought it was kinda cool and also i wanted a 4 letter long name. sorry for being a hs fan when i was 14 </3

Ash: FIRST CHOSEN NAME when i was like 11 AOAUG. named myself this to match an ex FP/boyfriend. DONT DO THIS 👍 BAD IDEA!

#asks #anon #💾vhs

[kemimariesworld]

12 house profection year journal entry #4

I'm currently sitting with a lot of insights. Some of them are ones that continue to rise over and over. Like the fact that I am different. That fact is a guiding principal in my life and I've worked hard to transform this negative core belief into a positive one. Being in my 12th house year, I am realizing a lot and while many may turn inwards towards solitude, this year thus fas is encouraging me to step outward with my true inner self. I've come to a sad reality that I have hid so many worthwhile parts of myself for majority of my life. The eccentric beauty and differences within me have been kidnapped by a quiet tone and societal standard driven attitude.

The Pattern App says "its possible people have no sense of just how unique you are because its so repressed. As a result, you may feel alienated and blocked from being yourself." And holy shit.

I'm coming into this awareness that many people know me as a quiet, introverted, to self person because I've held a repressed mask over myself since I was young. Some people just see me as a spiritual guide they can go to. Others see me as someone they only come to for advice. I haven't fully allowed myself to be alllllll sides of me. I've niched down and my platform has allowed me to easily do so, hiding behind my content and continuously doing what others desired from me. January 2022 hit me hard last year because "all of a sudden" (it was spiritual), I no longer wanted to do what I do. There was something missing and I couldn't understand until December 2022, the very last minute. But last year was the beginning of this unravelling of who I thought I was. This happens to me often, actually. Every time I think I know and I finally settle into something, spirit kicks me out. I'm coming to realize that I am not meant to settle or be one way forever. I am meant to grow and continuously change. I am not meant to get complacent. I got very comfortable stepping into the work I was doing, but looking back, I would've stayed exactly where I was at... doing the same shit and I wouldn't have stopped to intentionally question my own desires. As this 12 house year commences, I'm finally becoming aware of what ive hidden and thats eccentric, unique me. A me that my partner has brought out of me and reminded me of.

The Pattern App classifies this as "unconventional outsider" and "intelligent outsider." It's true. My entire life I have felt like an outsider. Starting from age 8, I always felt like I needed to prove myself. I thought taking the traditional routes and being the absolute perfect best at them would make me valuable. I held onto meritocracy and grind culture. I did it all, and even in trying to stick the standard... I didn't. I graduated with a Bachelors at 20. I started receiving college credit at 16. Started college at 17. I gave birth at 18. Even when I tried to be traditional, I still did it differently. However, I was always motivated by criticism, doubt, and feelings of inadequacy. This perfectionism led me to be an overachiever. As the pattern says, "theres always the pressure to be better and do more." Yet, it was never good enough. "This is the most painful part of the process: discovering that even when you exceed expectations, it won't fill the void and relieve the pressure you feel. Nothing external will deliver the self love youre looking for-- only you can give that to yourself." I never felt seen and I haven't felt seen until this past year. I never felt seen because I never even saw myself. I hid myself. People only saw what I can DO for them and I trapped myself there for a long time. For majority of my life, I shut down my eccentric brilliance and traded it to essentially dominate social standards and all of the spaces I enter, because I thought that would make me worthy, desirable and valuable. I thought that's how I could be seen and recognized.

But my path is to cultivate a sense of self worth that doesnt rely on outside validation and that means I have to operate from a place of my true, different self. I am coming to terms with the idea that being different and expressing myself in such a way... means there is no knight in shining validation coming. That comes from being me and loving me. I've been doing the self love work for a while and I truly do love myself. I'm at a new place now though: expressing my true self and taking up space. Not repressing myself. Not shutting down. not hiding behind anything. The self that I love? I can display. I do not have to compartmentalize myself just because I feel like others will be harsh, critical and judgmental.

My self judgment tells me that I'm too out of the box. It tells me I'm too much. It tells me I'm too weird for others. It tells me that even though I love these things about me, others will probably hate it so just don't share. When I do share, I often feel like people judge me harshly and hit me with criticism immediately. I'm not often validated in my eccentricity and differences.

When I was younger, I wanted to be a creative artist but was quickly told that doesn't make money, and I have to choose to do something else with my life. I'm happy that the Universe proved those people wrong and moved me towards my inner child dreams without me even realizing it. Regardless, I constantly feel like I'm running against limits and it really shuts me down from being me.

People dont understand the way I think or appreciate the perspectives and then later on, people jump onto the bandwagon and get it. It happens in every space i'm in. My first year speaking on spirituality, I was met with resistance and hex groups from others in the community. But when I started growing on spiritual twitter, everyone suddenly wanted to be friends. People, typically of authority in a space, shut me down before they open up, so i've always felt shutdown when I do or say things. Courage is the only thing that keeps me going. I also know that I have an innate strength to be 100% fearless in a way many people just don't have and I think it's important that I show others that they can too. I see myself as an example. If no one else will, I will. That aries rising keeps me going.

I think for the past 22 years, I've let others validation and what they say I "should" be doing really take hold of my motivations. PSA: just because others applaud, doesn't mean you have to keep yourself in the box they congratulate you for being in. Do what you want, not just what others say youre good at.

The past 4 years, the grips of those boundaries have slowly withered away. Now, in this 12th house year, things are getting very real and its all dissolving. I'm at a place where I am fully letting go of others ideas. I am seeing the beauty in everything I've hidden.

Emotions definitely overwhelm me when I think about how I've shut myself down. It feels good to be realizing my true motivations and desires, but it's also sad, because I feel like I gave so many years away to negative doubts and beliefs. Imagine if we nurtured differences and divergencies? I always start crying thinking about the lies in which I've told myself and the boxes I've kept myself in these past 11 years. I've truly believed that my inner eccentric is different and bad. It's not true though.

"If you cling to the status quo, you'll likely continue to meet resistance or feel unfulfilled. You're supposed to explore your uniqueness and do things differently. You're the exception to the rule - ignore any judgment and find the courage to break free. You're meant to stand outside of whats considered normal."

Sometimes I read that last line over and over. This is something I've been in therapy for. I am meant to stand outside of whats considered normal.

That eccentric part of me was cast out and improperly treated. I want to nourish the differences within me and seek freedom at all costs. I am coming to terms with:

-the idea that I can't do what everyone else does because im not like everyone else. That is okay.

-the idea that anytime I go the standard, traditional route, the universe will kick me off of it.

-the idea that I'm not supposed to be easily digestible and understood. Coming to terms with the idea that you will never be fully understood is HARD and it can feel so lonely, but the tea is: you will be fully understood by yourself as long as you listen.

-the idea that holding onto traditionalism tightly will only cause me hell which means it's essential that I choose the unconventional path that my heart desires. Choosing that path means I must undergo the pressures, criticism, and judgments of everyone around me. Although I want to be accepted and loved, Saturn and Uranus say my existence and truth is supposed to challenge the shit everyone does. I am meant to enact change and show things that can be done. That never comes with ease. People like whats comfortable, not whats different. People dont like change.

So I'm coming to terms with so many ideas around my worth, my eccentricities, and sitting with the hard truth that if I want to live my most freeing and joyful life, I have to value my truth more than I value others criticisms and I cannot let those judgments get me down. (Thankfully, I've been blessed with a twitter platform which has most definitely taught me this first point.) I have to walk with my freedom instead of holding onto the pressures of others. I have to show myself and finally let myself take up space.

I see everything shifting everyday as I make intentional, conscious decisions to validate all the parts of me which are different. I validate my out of the box desires, my unpredictability, my intense impulses and drive, my desire to live on an island by myself, my exceptional drive and ability to make shit happen, my detached energy, my lack of texting response bc I'm actually present in daily life, my disconnect from pop culture, etc. I want things and I love things that most people don't want nor like and I am okay with it. How I define and view this world is very different. Even my choice to move out of the country is such a big jump for me that I've always wanted to make. My views of sex, gender, femininity, masculinity, luxury, healing, literally everything... is so fucking different. I am okay with that. I can share from that place.

I'm no longer pretending i'm like everyone else because that just leaves me feeling more alienated.

I am coming to terms with the idea that my existence is disruptive to the status quo and that is okay. No matter what, I can't conform. The universe is showing me that... its not going to work anymore. My goal is to pursue freedom and joy, release the pressures and ideas others have for the direction of my life.

I am realizing all these things about myself... all the boxes I've been in for so damn long. It makes me cry. I'm grieving. I'm shocked. It feels like I'm rescuing myself and its emotional. I'm finally allowing myself to step out into myself. Every time I face resistance or pushback, I feel a deep calling within, validating my goals and desires. I am able to receive others criticisms and ideas without internalizing them or thinking I need to shift anything. I am trusting in me. I am choosing me finally and I feel very good.

#astrology #12th house #12th house protection year

[therapy-ghost]

Hi, thanks for wanting to do the pair-up exchange. Can I have the fandoms DC, Marvel and the Walking Dead?

𝑭𝒆𝒂𝒕𝒖𝒓𝒆𝒔: I'm about 5'5, pale skin, blue/grey eyes, blonde around my face and brown then black at the ends of my hair. I have many many piercings, and I'm covered in tattoos. I'm curvy/plus size and am body positive.

𝑯𝒐𝒃𝒃𝒊𝒆𝒔: Reading, writing, collecting rings, journaling, tarot. I'm also collecting as many books as I can because I want to have my own library where people can take whichever book they wish.

𝑷𝒆𝒓𝒔𝒐𝒏𝒂𝒍𝒊𝒕𝒚: INFJ, Chaotic Good, Gryffindor, Aquarius Sun, Capricorn Moon, Aries Rising, Pisces Venus (this last one might help with the match especially). I'm a passionate person and have strong opinions. I will always stand up for what I believe in, no matter how scared I feel. I think I'm quite witty and intelligent, although I do get overwhelmed quite easily. I'm incredibly open-minded and progressive. I love to laugh and make others laugh too. I'm sensitive, and intuitive and can pick up on other people very easily. I have strong gut-feelings and kinda ... understand a person's vibe? Like I can sense someone's aura but not see their colour.

𝑨𝒆𝒔𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒕𝒊𝒄: I love cottagecore, I'm very witchy but also a little grunge and gothic at the same time.

𝑳𝒊𝒌𝒆𝒔: Learning - especially witchcraft, watching tv, day-dreaming, listening and discovering new music, I love being at home, writing and then taking a reading break. I adore baths and constantly buy items from Lush.

𝑫𝒊𝒔𝒍𝒊𝒌𝒆𝒔: (other than the usual injustices of sexism, racism, and homophobia), I strongly dislike spiders and will scream whenever I see one. I don't like close-minded people, or those who make fun of others. I hate passive-aggressiveness, large crowds and loud sudden noises.

𝑳𝒊𝒍 𝒇𝒖𝒏 𝒇𝒂𝒄𝒕𝒔 𝒂𝒃𝒐𝒖𝒕 𝒎𝒆:

・Have shaved my head. Asked my stepdad for his clippers and went into the bathroom and ...hacked at my hair. It was very liberating, I think every woman should do it at least once in her lifetime

・I adore animals - I have a cat and dog! I want more but my cat is too much of a princess and won't allow any other animal in the house

・Bought a tattoo gun from the internet and I tattoo myself. I do the majority of my own piercings as well. I like to learn how to do things like that. I've kinda learned how to do hair and do mine, my mum's and my nunna's.

Hello and thank you for doing this match up exchange with me!

For Dc I match you up with: Starfire

To be clear; this is the 'im a dumb teen girl' teen titans go starfire; this is the gorgeos, smart, strong goddess star fire from like teen titans vs the justice league.

at this point she knows alot about earth, but theres still alot she would like to know; so that could be a fun activity for you two.

you remind her of raven in a way with the witch craft.

I feel like she would also love lush(I love it two) And she would find either the snow fairy or happy hippie the best smelling(my personal headcanon)

would not like to idea of a tattoo but would love for you to give her a simple piercing.

and will love you to do something simple to her hair; nothing to crazy.

Cottage core matching outfits.

for Marvel(MCU) I match you with: Bucky barnes

he is with the tattoos

after the whole winter soldier thing, he needs someone to be there for him and you seem good

he will help you with spiders to be honest; but it will be a fight.

the grunge and the cottage core witch is a cool aesthetic to see in couples in my opinion.

he is a bit passive agreesive but will only do it when youre not around.

also hates crowds so indoor dates is nice.

I see a dog as a pet; he is an animal person and dogs are nice companies to have around to free your mind from anything and everything for most people.

and For the walking dead, I give you: Beth Greene(durring the prison)

She is a true Pisces to be honest so it was destined.

she would love your style but would also be a bit confused with it.

Maggie would also adore you and is happy for her sister.

she would like you to cut her hair and put it up for her; she likes the way you do it.

when the virus starts; you and her would be the ones with judith.

she would honestly enjoy tarrot cardss during this time cause if its a good reading then this will make her more hopeful forr the future.

she is also a very passionate person so standing by each other in opinions is common.

thanks for being patient, i hope you enjoyed

#match up exchange #The walking dead #Marvel #Dc

[mydemonsdrivealimo]

Two good looking guys... I'm sure they have other admirers from time to time. Who gets hit on more, who's the bigger flirt, and who gets more jealous? And what does jealous Jensen and/or Bryce look like?

oh definitely

Who gets hit on more?

bryce for sure, mostly because hes more approachable out of the two. jensens rbf does him no favors in that department, and bryce tends to receive it better

Who's the bigger flirt?

bryce is, and generally his personality is more flirty with everyone, but lets just say jensen can give as good as he gets. jensen is good at flirting. while bryce has a generally flirty demeanor and it doesnt always land, jensen doesn't flirt often, but if he does, it works.

Who gets more jealous?

neither of them get truly jealous, never to the point where it would be a problem, but bryce is more quick to do something about it, i suppose. jensen knows bryce gets hit on often, and knows damn well he'll come back to him no matter what, so he really isn't too worried about it nor does he feel the need to step in often. if someone is really laying on the charm, then jensen might make himself known, but for the most part it's not a big deal to him (i mean he knows how hot bryce is, its part of the deal lmao). besides casual flirting at a bar or something, jensen has been admired by others at work (patients, coworkers, etc) especially for his intelligence. its also very known that jensen is a borderline workaholic, so most people assume hes single, and bryce is more than happy to prove them wrong. it doesnt take bryce long to make it known throughout the hospital that he and jensen are a Thing

What does jealous Jensen and/or Bryce look like?

jensen tends to be more rude, blunt, and generally bitchy towards whoever he's jealous of when it comes to bryce. lbr, jensen can be pretty fucking scary when he wants to, and he isnt above using that to his advantage (he also isn't above using his good looks, either)

bryce takes a more active approach, usually inserting himself right in the middle of a conversation and very obviously grabbing jensen's hand, waist, giving him a kiss on the cheek, etc. he can be grumpier about it longer for sure, but obviously knows theres no real threat or anything so it doesnt last long

also i made this post about it the other day and i think it sums it up nicely asdfghjk

#thank you <3 #i love and appreciate all your asks asdfghjk #open heart #bryce lahela #open heart choices #jensen valentine #open heart mc #choices open heart #bryce lahela × jensen valentine #asks answers