#I get the ethical concern. i do NOT get the whole 'but it doesnt have a sooooouuuuuuuul' moral panic

[silkysong]

On the topic of not accepting a gift of ad-free subscription.

I'm honestly confused by the take that you wouldn't be willing to accept a gift sub for Tumblr. I totally understand the frustration with the advertisements that don't respect block lists (especially when it's due to a medical issue like the flashing lights), but I do not understand the distaste for purchasing a skip on the ads.

Tumblr as a platform is free but does have costs associated with its operation. It would be awesome if it could be free and not have ads, but unfortunately server space and bandwidth cost money.

Why not subscribe (or in this case accept the gift) if it 1) improves your experience, and 2) supports the site in a way that doesn't require them to bow to advertisers.

I see the same sort of thing with YouTube. Instead of encouraging premium people use adblockers and force creators to curb their content to match the algorithm and advertisers wants (sponsored videos, unnecessary censoring, etc). It confuses me to no end.

And I also get it that some people can't justify the cost. But in this case that isn't a concern as someone could have given you that without cost to yourself.

So I'm genuinely curious as to the why, especially when you've made heavy use of the platform already (and it's appreciated, I've really enjoyed seeing your posts on different media!).

i dont have to justify my personal choices on this. i dont want people to give money to tumblr to fix a problem that shouldnt have been one in the first place. but since im already here, im gonna do it anyway

my problem isnt with advertisements as a whole, i know websites need them to stay afloat, i dont need to be told all about this since ive seen the odds and ends of this field since my teenage years. BUT it doesnt make it okay to put the safety of a very very large part of the population behind a paywall. they could spam me with 100 static ads and i wouldnt bat an eye, but they use very aggressive flashing advertisements that are NOT necessary. at all. there is no excuse for that. its a literal health hazard, and for what? for people to be hospitalized (or in worst case scenario, but a very real one, die from a seizure) because tumblr needs to make a profit?

second of all, youtube and tumblr are not comparable in this sense. the money from these tumblr advertisements dont go to any creators. if anything, theyre personally profiting off the vast culture and inside jokes that the community has built over the past 15 years, and in return the community gets. nothing. more shitty features that pose a risk to people, like the recent kokobot advertisements, while the company itself is deep in allegations regarding the ethics of their practices, or the very severe privacy risk of tumblr live, and so on. if it can be avoided, i would rather not give these clowns a single dime, to be brutally honest

#ask

[oh-my-damn]

Will you be voting for the republican candidate????///

Thanks for jumping to conclusions. Im well aware of the US govt and how works considering literally have degrees in Poli Sci and PA. Literally said I wouldnt vote for ANYONE involved that includes republicans who are by far even more in favor of what is going on. Just because I said im not voting democrat doesnt mean im voting republican or not voting. There are third party candidates who sometimes are far better than the two parties we have yet because of the whole vote for lesser of the two evils we continue the two party system reason why we cant change anything in this country. I voted for Biden once because of this belief but he's proven he's just as evil as the republican candidates, he's just as warmongering as them. If Sanders an Independent had run as a third party candidate he could have gotten something moving but he didn't because of the he pushback by democrats. Doesn't matter to me if those third party candidates don't have a chance of winning, if this country is going to make any reasonable and ethical changes, those candidates need a following. I cant just sit here in this country and be thankful I have my rights and freedom because of a democrat president while that same president literally sends tax money I contributed to fund murder of innocents across the world, that'd be like voting for Bush. Also considering I come from a Blue state me voting independent is not going to change the outcome of the electoral votes.

Okay I have so many arguments I don't even know how to fucking gather my thoughts

I can boil my thoughts into one thing though

It makes me angry.

Because I know I, and the rest of the world, will suffer depending on what americans choose in the upcoming election.

you say I was "drawing to conclusion" while in the same fucking sentence proving what i was saying????

DO NOT ABSTAIN.

ABSTAINING WILL MEAN REPUBLICANS WIN.

You, and the rest of the entire united fucking states, need to get out of the mindset that "youre voting for a person"

You are LITERALLY not.

You are voting for either democratic or republican rule.

I understand what you're saying about wanting to vote a third part, and I would agree, if it wasn't for the fact that I know how the american system works.

It may have an impact in my system; but it does not in yours.

The way you guys are moving, even democrats are too liberal for the republicans, despite the fact that even your LIBERALS don't come remotely close to what we would consider DEMOCRATS in my country.

Do you want to make a difference? For the WORLD and not just your own petty opinons? As a person who has an actual influence on a superpower of the world?

VOTE. DEMOCRAT.

I do not care who the candidate is. All I care about are civil protection rights.

You seem fairly clever, so I'm going to assume I don't have to lecture you on what would happen if a republican president came into power in the current climate.

But I have seen a concerning amount of videos of people saying they will abstain - and apparently thinking that will make a difference??

IT WILL NOT.

ALL IT WILL DO IS VOTE REPUBLICANS INTO POWER.

VOTE. DEMOCRAT.

#mandy answers #United states #the us #politics #democrat #liberal #republican #election #biden #obama #wellfare

[snekdood]

The biggest scam in leftist spaces is "leftists" selling other leftists fear, fear of everything around them and anyone who disagrees with them- you're not supposed to be so scared of other ppls opinions that you avoid them. You should be confident because you know you're right, you know reality has a leftwing bias, theres no reason you should be scared of rwingers when their whole ideology falls apart the more you ask them questions. Unless theyre physically threatening you, you should stand your ground. Do more research on your beliefs to be more firm in your position. You dont have to have a special intellectual debate or anything but you do need to be able to counter misinformation when it pops up in social situations and not get frustrated and leave. Because whoever sticks behind to hear the dipshit speeing misinfo will sit there and digest what he says w/o much pushback, and since we know how manipulative republicans are, when/if they do pushback the rwinger is just going to try to convince them to his side by appealing to their stances and trying to twist them into how whatever hes saying totally doesnt conflict with what they want. Since you cant trust average ppl to know shit, and even if you feel you can safely where you live, still, nonetheless, you need to counter them and assume everyone surrounding them doesnt know better. You can be scared in these situations, but you need to have courage and you shouldnt back down or retreat. Ik this post is supposed to be how ppl avoid anyone with different opinions but lets be honest. The reason left leaning ppl avoid anyone w even slightly different opinions is bc theyre worried theyre gonna be right wing opinions and have so little faith in themselves, their knowledge of their own beliefs and their ability to defend them that its easier to just run away from anyone who might potentially be sharing rightwing opinions/is rightwing. I also think the reason a lot of leftists online avoid having these conversations is because since they have so little faith in their ability to defend their beliefs, theyre worried theyll be subtley convinced to the rightwingers position. And like we know, theyre incredibly manipulative, so its a fair concern, but thats why you have to educate yourself, you especially in this day and age need to know their dogwhistles so you can point them out, everyone should be keeping up w them imo. Theres websites that has them all listed. Because otherwise if you just hide away and trust random "leftists" online to know everything for you... You're actually still likely to fall into rightwing beliefs. Because you dont know how many of those "leftists" are secretly comservatives try to slowly bring people over to their side, like by overtime eroding their ethics or the value of basic human decency... You need to be educated enough about these topics and honestly be socially and emotionally educated enough to be able to detect when someones manipulating you, rather than assume everyone w a slightly different opinion than yours might or wants to.

#i understand these situations can be scary but sometimes you're the person with the most knowledge on the subject and have #a better ability at countering people. if you think its too unsafe obviously you dont have to stick around but yeah #idk i just see a lot of leftist content creators who spoon feed their audience fear by demonizing and having them shun whoever #The Bad Leftist Of The Day Is and then all of their followers block them in fear of whatever they may do #instead of confront and look at the information critically enough and divorced from their own biases enough to form their own #opinion and perspective on the situation + come to understand everyone elses perspective involved #like some of yall will have this leftist guy you follow and trust way too fuckin much. he tells you to unfollow and block someone in like a #2 sentance explanation about how they committed every sin and then just block them and scurry away in fear. no checking to even see #if its true or anything you just trust this person online youve probably only ever messaged and havent even had a whole #personal conversation with. and decide theyre trustworthy enough to decide for you who is and isnt a hood enough person. #and this fear ppl perpetuate to eachother genuinely has some people unable to leave their own houses bc theyre so convinced everyone around #them is transphobic enough to want to physically hurt them and like idk. unless you're in really red states where your neighbors are #all yelling at you all the time i think ur okay yknow #FEAR is a rightwing tactic to politics. it shouodnt be ours. we dont need to rule or teach people through fear. #we have all the facts and information we need. #yes this is about b*dbunny lol

[words-for-holland]

Quarantine Series: Burnt Out

Pairing: Tom Holland x Reader

Summary: Y/N has to work from home during Quarantine, but when she gets extremely busy it’s up to Tom to find a way to help her relax .

A/N: This is my second attempt at this piece. Last time I created this it was super long but it got deleted 😩

Check the Rest: Burnt Out | A New Look | Secret Cuts & Kisses | Breaking Friendships |The Birthday Week | Movie Night | Silence is Golden?|

All Y/N ever wanted was an opportunity to work from home. Then again, who wouldn't want that opportunity? All she could think about was how nice it’d be to work in the comfort of her own home, not have to dress up in business professional clothing, and most importantly be surrounded by the people she cared for the most. But as the saying goes, “Be careful for what you wish for.”

When a global pandemic decided to take over 2020, Y/N certainly got her wish. Her company was forced to work from home until further notice, but what she didn’t expect was the amount of work she would be given. Y/N was pulled from project to project with deadlines thin as paper, and was expected to pick up the extra work of those that were no longer with the company. There was no time to catch a breath, and there certainly was no time to spend with her beloved boyfriend, Tom. This only made Y/N more depressed and made the Holland boys only more concerned.

“Mate, you got to get her to take a break. She’s gonna overdo it.” Harrison commented to his best friend, as they watched Y/N type away like a zombie from the kitchen.

“You think I don’t know that?!” Tom responded with a defeated sigh. “Every time I ask her, she always brushes it off and claims shes fine. Don't get me wrong, Im proud of her and admire her work ethic, but damn its sucking the life out of her.”

Both Harrison and Tom continued to observe Y/N with a cup of tea on hand, wondering how long it would take before she snapped. Tom hated seeing her like this. To him this wasn’t fair. It’s not fair that her 8 hour shift now became a 15 hr shift. Its not fair that she had to work 3 weekends straight, and it certainly wasn’t fair that her company took precious time away to be together. It was hard enough already that he couldn’t spend time with Y/N like a normal boyfriend would because of filming. Now, that he has the opportunity to make up for the lost time, it’s taken away.

“What if you surprised her?” Harrison quipped.

Tom looked up at his best friend with curious eyes. It took a few minutes to sink in, until the brightest idea figuratively smacked him in the face. “Yeah...yeah!” he responded, a smile forming “And I think I know exactly how to do it.”

As Tom was working through the thought process of his brilliant plan, his younger brother entered the kitchen, looking for his usual afternoon snack. “Hey, does anyone know where —. Oh no...” Harry groaned as he looked up at Tom and Harry. “Whatever it is that you two are planning...Leave me out of it.”

“Come on, mate. You dont even know what were planning.” Harrison defended

“Believe me, I know enough and any plan that involves you in it, is likely to fail 99.9% of the time.” Harry opened up his bag of crisps as he continued to list out the other 99 possible reason why they should have left Y/N alone like she wanted. “Cmon guys, you know how she gets. When she doesnt want to be bothered, she doesnt want to be bothered.”

“You’re right Harry, but she’s so stressed, she’s homesick, and one day she’s going to overdo it. Id be a shit boyfriend, if I let it happen.” Tom reasoned. “Look, Im not trying to do anything crazy here. I just want to give her that sense of comfort and see her relax.”

Harry looked at his brother and then at Harrison, both displaying their best puppy dog eyes, in hopes that he’ll join in. “The face doesnt work on me...but I’ll help for Y/N’s sake.”

Meanwhile, Y/N continued her work in the living room, her eyes firmly glued to the computer screen. After being dragged into the kitchen and the Holland plan, Tuwaine slowly made his way to Y/N. “Hey Y/N.” he happily greeted. “I think it’s time for you get some fresh air, don’t you think?”

Y/N looked up, her glasses slightly shifting forward down her nose. “You know theres this thing called being stuck in Quaratine right?” she responded, continuing to code her project.

“I think the real question is do you really want to work here when there’s just nothing but CONSTANT NOISE !” Tuwaine yelled out, hoping the others would catch on.

“What?!” Tom yelled back. It took him some time to realize what Tuwaine meant by his statement. “Oh...Right!” Quickly, Tom grabbed whatever pot or pan he could grab his hands on and dropped them on the counter. Harrison and Harry gave Tom the strangest look. “What? I gave him some noise?”, he shrugged.

“See?” Tuwaine smiled back at Y/N. “You wouldnt want to distract that working brain of yours with all this going on, right?” Y/N furrowed her eyebrows as Tuwaine as she looked at him and the closed off kitchen. Did they think she was born yesterday? Of course she knew they were up to something. None of the boys were subtle enough to keep everything hush hush.

Y/N shook her head and decided to just go with it. The faster she complied, the faster they’d leave her alone, which only meant more time to finish her work. Tuwaine helped carry her laptop, mouse, and charger to the porch as he led her outside. “See, arent you glad your outside, breathing in fresh air with no distractions?”, Tuwaine spoke out.

Y/N took her time to admire the view. “Wow”, she whispered under her breath. Y/N couldnt remember the last time she set foot outdoors. Seeing the sunlight hit the flower beds, the gentle breeze rustle through the grass; it was beautiful. Of course, the moment was short lived with a simple ding, which only multiplied by the second.

Y/N dripped her head back, trying to rub out the frustration from her face. “Yes, well it was fun while it lasted. Duty calls.”

“Im sure they wouldnt mind if you just took five minutes for yourself at least.” Tuwaine commented, feeling bad about the amount of work he saw popping up on your screen.

“Yeah well that’s Corporate for you. Doesnt matter if you’re 500 km away or if a virus is hurting the population. If you’re not working, you’re useless.” Y/N shrugs. It wasn’t like her company was completely evil, this was just how business worked.

“I know Y/N, and we all see that you care deeply about your work but we’re all so worried about you too. We want you to be mentally okay as well. I know Tom is worried about you the most...He misses you, you know.”

Y/N’s heart dropped the second she heard him say it. She knew that all of this was gonna take some time away from Tom, but she hadn’t realized how much he would be missing her, even though they’re living under the same roof. “Yeah I miss him too, more than anyone will know. Believe me.” Y/N pondered for a moment as she stared at the work in front of her. Perhaps five minutes couldn’t hurt. “Maybe I will take that break after all.”

“Really?”, Tuwaine was surprised she had agreed so quickly, and at the same time he panicked. Tom and the others were not ready for Y/N’s surprise yet. “On second thought, Im wrong. You should keep going and try to finish up that project of yours or else you’ll never be done.”

“Excuse me?” Y/N asked as she tried to close her laptop. “You just spent a whole half hour trying to convince me to stop working, and now you want me to go back and work?”

“Yeah..I mean what do I know, right?” He laughed nervously. Tuwaine looked back at the door, for some sort of signal. Come on man it’s not like your preparing a break for the Queen of England.

“Listen Tuwaine, if I go back there and you boys break anything in that house...I swear— I’ll”

“Y/N!” Tom interjected as he stepped out to the porch. He wrapped his arms behind her waist, giving her a gently kiss on the top of her head. “How’s work, my pretty girl?” He looked back at Tuwaine and mouthed a thank you to him as he left the love birds alone.

Y/N turned around to face Tom, taking in his features and running her hands at the nape of his neck. “Busy, but what else is new? I’ve been missing you a whole lot”

“Me too, darling. Anyway, Im really hoping you can take a break from all this because I’ve got something special for you.”

“Oh no, babe. You know you didnt have to anything for me. Really Im fine..I-“

“I wanted to. In fact the boys wanted in on it too. So this is really from all of us, if you think about it.” Tom grabbed Y/N’s hand as he led her back in to house. “Come.”

As they both enetered the house hand in hand, Tom led Y/N into the kitchen, where the rest of the boys waited with diner burgers in hand and warm homemade chocolate chip cookies on the side of table. What seemed like a simple meal was a cure for any bad day..at least for Y/N it was. It represented a sense of home for her, while being far from Jersey. Even though she hadnt realized it, Tom and the boys knew she needed it. “Wow” Y/N breathed “I...I dont know what to say.”

“Dont say, just eat” Harrison laughed. “In all honesty this was Tom’s idea. We just wanted to make sure you had the support you need.”

“Yeah you deserve this, so please enjoy it.” Harry added. With that, everyone dug in and bonded over a family dinner, sharing laughs and stories. Tom leaned toward Y/N whispering in her ear, “I have a few more surprises after this.”

The next few surprises did not disappointment. He set up a nice warm bath for the two of them to relax and enjoy each others compny. A few subtle kisses, laughter, and silence was shared between the two. Y/N leaned back into Tom’s chest, feeling the water gently flow back and forth. Breathing in and out, she had forgotten how good this felt. Being close to Tom, was a different experience, one that no one could ever do justice. This was what she really needed.

After the bath, Tom led her into their shared bedroom. For a moment, Y/N stopped him as she pulled his head down to hers, giving him the kiss he rightfully deserved. Her lips crashed with his, his hands gently holding the sides of her tiny face. He picked her up as she wrapped her legs around his waist and situated themselves on the bed. Reluctantly, they both pulled away, catching their breath. Their foreheads touching and noses gently rubbing the others. “I love you. I love you more than you could possibly know.” Y/N whispered to him

“And I love you. I just want to give you the world because you deserve it all. My hardworking pretty girl.” Of course all good things must come to an end.

After a great well spent break was shared between Y/N and Tom, she was back on the work grind. Only this time she was working in their room as Tom was reading a script for his next upcoming project. The more Y/N coded, the sleepier she was getting. It onyl took a few minutes before she started leaning into Tom and her eyes started to flutter. Her breaths became slower and she was out like a light.

Tom turned to look at Y/N, smiling to see the sight of her finally at peace. He removed her glasses and set them by her table side. Tom made sure to clock her out of work abd checked to see if her work was saved. Just as he was about to turn off her laptop, another message popped up. “Great”, he muttered, rolling his eyes at the fact her team is still working at this hour. He couldnt help but read it though. Just how badly did they need her anyway?

We all know how hard you’re working and going above and beyond to get these projects out the door. For that, we thank you! On behalf of the company we’d like you all to take a day off on us!

Tom smiled, relieved that shell finally get some time for herself. Feeling triumphant, he shut off her laptop and set it aside. Crawling back into the bed and covering themselves under the blanket. His arms wrapped her waist once again. “Goodnight, my love. Im so proud of you.” he whispered.

#tom holland #tom holland x reader #tom holland imagine #peter parker x reader #peter parker

[raisinchallah]

not to be extremely controversial on jumblr or anything but i really do think the entire like line of thinking i see here a lot in various flavors of extremity of christianity being inherently antisemitic in a way that in some way damns it as a religion or various levels of it has stolen from judaism and thats also like unforgivably bad well... i just think are wildly unproductive and downright concerning ways of thinking about religion as a whole because it inherently places judaism as a somehow more ethical and “better” religion in comparison and doesnt actually address the ways that dominant religions can wield power and the way religion is a common tool of nationalism or i think actually engage with like the modern institution of christianity as well as like.... the fact its a truly massive religion with far more variation than i think u can begin to consider like idk where people are getting this feeling of religious superiority for judaism as somehow a more original or ethical or better religion when you are approaching it from a historical viewpoint that obviously it borrowed from and emerged from other religions around it like i literally just gotta point and laugh at this point when people talk about christianity stealing jewish theological texts like man... youre like a thousand years late here but i think in general its frankly mental and far more worrisome when people genuinely seem to act like christianity is unique as far as being utilized for truly terrible things like it sure does have a grander impact on the world than judaism its far far larger but like please can we look at the call coming from within the house judaism is at this very moment being used in violent and horrible ways there is always a complicated dynamic of any religious majority in any country and like idk its genuinely mental to me sometimes the way people wanna just frame it as like there is something theologically wrong with christianity when frankly a lot of stuff is more like... political rather than the contents of religious books and im like can we have the tiniest modicum of self reflection you would not like it if we put various jewish texts and literal modern interpretations under a similar microscope and like i swear if people learned about various oppressed christian minorities i really do wonder if their fucking heads would explode like idk this makes very little sense but i swear i really do feel insane how people try to frame judaism online sometimes like lets not let our heads get too big here my god this is really a totally nonsensical ramble and like i know people may interpret it as me being like christians did nothing wrong but its more i am concerned about the version of a religion we are constructing to make ourselves seem more ethical as like a way to dodge self reflection or actual understanding of the complicated historical and political forces that have shaped these realities over time.....

[joy1579]

Hey! So... When I started to play Mystic messenger I was a teenager, so I was wondering how the boys and Jaehee would react discovering that MC was a teenager too (platonic of course) I loved your headcanons btw ♥️

gah its been forever and a day since i was a kid. and even then i was like really bad at being a kid heh what do teenagers do? all i did was hide in the library and avoid socializing oops. whatever i had a lot of fun writing this! honestly i think they would all be very protective of you since the RFA really feels like one big family!

Jumin

He is proud of you and wants to provide you with future opportunities because that’s how he cares about people, by giving them a means to earn money and have purpose. Also he is very interested in what you can teach him about pop culture.  

-        Age doesn’t matter to him too much. Maturity does and you had proven your maturity by helping the RFA faithfully and well

-        In fact, he is very proud of how well you did and mentions that your professionalism at such a young age shows great potential should you apply to C&R (you know him well enough to take it for the compliment it is intended to be)

-        His presence practically drips with “proud dad preparing for his daughter’s future” vibes and considering the 11-year age gap you suppose you couldn’t ask for much better

-        That is until he hears you chatting on the phone and using slang he’s never heard before

-        Now he’s curious and asking questions. You show him some him some vines you have saved and teach him a bit about pop culture leading to an unlikely but very fun friendship

-        You and he tease zen a lot by having Jumin use made up slang and you pretending its super cool and zen’s just not with it. Also imagine getting Jumin to do a secret handshake just to piss Zen off. It ends with the “nyah” pose

Yoosung

Acts like your best friend that you enjoy teasing. He wants to be a good role model but that shiz is hard. You two bond a lot over stories about school and the struggles of exams.

-        He is very relieved to not be the youngest anymore because now maybe everyone will stop treating him like a baby. (spoiler alert they won’t. Ever.)

-        He worries that he’s supposed to act like a big brother. He doesn’t know how to do that! He’s always been the baby brother, or the youngest member, or the newest intern. How does one be responsible?

-        Tries and fails to intimidate guys away from you to “protect” you (but zen said it was his duty to keep you safe! He said all men are wolves MC!)

-        “If all men are wolves why isn’t he worried about you Yoosung?” “huh? Hey wait yeah! Does he not think I’m a man?!” “ go get em tiger. give zen a piece of your mind”

-        He helps you with homework a lot but no cheating! He tells you about the time he cheated to pass a class only to get to the next level class and understand NOTHING it took a lot of tutoring and studying and work to fix that mess. Best to learn it now while it’s still learnable.

-        He refuses to teach you LOL “don’t end up like me MC! Be better!” you learn it anyway and end up playing with him frequently. The rest of the RFA blame him for this much to his dismay.

Saeyoung

he wants to protect you in his own frankly silly way. still meme’s it up but doesnt want anyone “corrupting” you. actually he kind of treats you the way he would treat saeran.

-        He fights with V for the first time when V suggests leaving you in Rika’s apartment (with a bomb) but reluctantly comes around and does what V says

-        Stays a meme lord and is psyched if you can manage to out meme him

-        Definitely teases you about your age a lot (Yoosung is secretly glad to not be the ONLY one getting teased for being young)

-        “guys we have to protect the baby she has her whole life ahead of her”

-        Is the most adamant about not swearing, drinking or smoking around you

-        “y’all need Jesus there are CHILDREN here”

-        You may have to call him out on this behavior because seriously wtf you know for a fact hacking isn’t the most ethical or legal occupation and he’s gonna lecture you?!?

-        He may joke around but he up’s his protection game up about 10 notches because for real you have your whole life ahead of you

Zen

he basically adopts you okay. he wants to be your cool big brother friend and be everything his family never was for him. he takes care of you and stands up for you every chance he can.

-        He finds out very early on because the second he starts flirting seven shuts that shit down telling him your too young for that. He asks how young and is shocked but recovers pretty fast

-        You know the protective big brother trope? Yeah that’s him

-        He’s your ride or die friend too. Need a ride to school? He’s there on his bike, some dick is harassing you? He’s there to scare the punk off, and even though he doesn’t want to fight a kid he will if he has too

-        If its girls who are harassing, you he picks you up to give your rep a bit of a boost (it never hurts to be seen with such a handsome guy after all and if he shows up on his bike he’s also got the badass vibe going on)

-        He has ALWAYS wanted a little sister and now he’s adopted you. You’re his little sis now and he’s wrapped around your finger. He swears he’ll be a better brother than his brother was

-        He is so proud of all your accomplishments and is determined to encourage your dreams the way his parents never did (he might be living his family wishes vicariously through you but hey he treats you good so it’s cool)

Jaehee

-        She’s a bit worried about you taking on such a big responsibility as the RFA guest liaison at such a young age. What if your grads drop? Or you family gets upset? What if you had to also work a part time job and this interfered your young you need to be able to rest and live your life. (when you point out that she should do the same she brushes you off)

-        Not much changes honestly, she’s always been the RFA’s mom after all.

-        She gets a little stricter about language and “inappropriate” topics

-        She definitely encourages you to study and do well in school (and avoid any job’s Mr. Han offers you)

-        She still down to be your friend though! She’s all ears when you need to vent about school and you are always ready to lend an ear back when Jumin is giving you a hard time

-        You swap girl power ballads and she helps you set up a Zen fan club at your high school

Saeran

-        Look he didn’t intend to kidnap and actual kid and he’s honestly a bit panicked when he finds out your age you looked older than that he swears

-        Thankfully your mature enough and smart enough to do what’s needed of you and he supposes as long as you don’t have a family searching for you it should be okay

Ray

-        He’s a little more reserved but honestly not much changes he’s still innocent and devoted he calls you princess and tries to spoil you as much as he can he may not see you as a romantic interest but your still his obsession.

-        He likes that you trusted him even more since your young and therefor more vulnerable. You’re his family now, a better family than he’s ever had.

-        If you are the princess, he is your knight in the strictest definition. Which is to say he is devoted to protecting and serving you out of dedication and reverence rather than romance.

Unknown

-        He’s more verbally aggressive than physically aggressive

-        He doesn’t try as hard to seem intimidating because he thinks of you as a child, and he doesn’t have to prove how tough he is to a child it’s obvious after all.

-        Also his visits are simultaneously shorter and more frequent. Shorter because he tends to get flashbacks easier (since he sees you as a child despite you being a teen) and more frequent because they are less satisfying since he doesn’t let himself be physically aggressive.

Vanderwood

(IDK why but I feel like he probably had an actual family with a girlfriend/wife and possibly a very very young daughter before the agency. Maybe she left him and that’s why he’s so impressed by MC’s dedication in the secret ending. Or maybe they’re both dead because broken hearts make more money than whole ones. Either way I think a teen MC would remind him of his possible family and so he would be hell bent on separating you from the danger and drama of literally everything that happens in the game.)

-        He’s legitimately (and rightfully) concerned about you when he see’s you on seven’s CCTV feed

-        protective and angry dad mode activated

-        threatens to tazer seven into oblivion if he lets something (or causes something to) happen to you

-        “what the hell are you doing she’s a civilian AND she’s got her whole life before her, you and I might have thrown away our lives but she didn’t! whatever’s going on you had better fix it NOW”

-        He is not speaking with you. No way no how. Every word he says to you puts you more in danger and he is not having your life on his conscious

-        That being said the second you’re in danger he is all in on ANNIHILATING whatever has put you in danger

#mysme #mystic messenger #mm #jumin #jumin han #yoosung #yoosung kim #seayoung #seven #luciel #zen #hyun ryu #jaehee #jaehee kang #saeran #ray #unknown #vanderwood

[paragonrobits]

so one thing to be clear: I don’t hate Katara in the Southern Raiders, or hate her by any means; she’s probably my favorite overall character in the show

do not mistake ‘criticizing’ with ‘actively hates/dislikes’; people are allowed to adore a character and do things besides sing their praises continously.

The thing about Southern Raiders is that we see Katara at her worst here, and it’s concerning; she’s vicious, flat out telling Sokka he didn’t love their mother as much as she did, and it’s important to remember that bloodthirsty desire for vengeance is extremely atypical for Katara. This is the same girl who doesn’t hold Fire Nation citizens accountable for the sins of the Fire Nation; she helps random FN villages in need, she gets cuddly with Fire Nation babies, and she doesn’t have any real nationalistic attitudes. She has every reason in the world to hate the people of the Fire Nation, but she doesn’t seem to see it that way.

The whole thing about the episode is Katara being off her keel and prepared to do something that, if someone else was doing it, she’d think was reprehensible. And the question is about her having personal closure, and no longer viewing Zuko as a stand-in for the Fire Nation’s evil, the oppression of her people, and the murder of her mother.

Because that’s what the episode is about; Katara facing herself and acknowledging why she wants to kill the man (or perhaps, if there is even a real purpose to it), and forgiving Zuko for his crimes against them.

I wouldn’t say she and Aang are in conflict in this episode, but they do have a conflict of values; people say Aang was unsupportive here but it’s important to remember: he’s not Water Tribe. He’s an Air Nomad, and a monk; he comes from a completely different culture, with its own ethics and attitudes towards this sort of thing, that Katara doesnt really feel the same way.

They’re not kids from one country in a civil war: they are all from different civilizations, with their own values, moral codes, and ways of looking at the world. Imagine if you dumped an Roman civilian, a Zulu warrior, a  Kanienʼkehá꞉ka explorer, and an Irish musician in the same spot through time, space and also language barriers; you’d get similar viewpoint differences as you do between Zuko, Katara and Aang here.

Katara wanting revenge is very unusual for her and concerning, and I’ve personally read it not as a ‘revenge is bad’ moral, but that she feels that killing him will help her cope with her mother’s loss, but in the end, if she did it or not, it wouldn’t change anything. Her mom would be dead and she wouldn’t feel any different. Even her sparing of him is framed not as mercy, but she’s too disgusted to bother with him.

It’s not that Aang is 12. The problem is that he has a very different viewpoint on revenge than she does, and the real focus of the episode is on her 

#atla #katara #aang #zuko #the southern raiders

[stars-scales-and-baseball-caps]

(sorry for more reptile posting)

Again there are a lot more important things going on, so in complaining about this I definitely don’t want to insinuate this is somehow like. Equivalent to bigotry cause it’s not. But since I have a little more personal experience I feel like it’s ok to add to the conversation whereas for things that I’m not as educated on/not an authority on I’m better off reblogging posts than making my own

Anyway I’m just. Extremely annoyed at legislation that’s constantly being considered to ban pet reptiles. Unless it’s genuinely a really invasive species (eg. the West’s complete disregard for Hawaii’s island ecosystems) or an animal you cannot ethically or safely take care of as a pet (eg. tigers), then it feels like people who sign off on reptile bans just don’t give a shit about researching the animals they’re banning.

Like for instance, you cannot argue that a python (not talking about burmese pythons in the everglades, obvs) or tegu is a threat to safety and then not give a shit about feral cat colonies and how they affect conservation, disease, and animal welfare. Or fail to even acknowledge the concept of dog attacks.

Back when I had rats, I got a few people who’d say they would hurt them or that they were evil creatures, but that’s generally seemed to change now, which is really nice (while obviously still acknowledging that it is NOT safe to let wild rats and mice into your home ‘cause disease). But for snakes and stuff, I think a lot of people are still playing catch-up. People still say they would have attacked my snake if I wasn’t holding it/“restraining it”. That’s fucking rude.

And like, it would still make me an asshole if I forced someone to touch my snake, just like I’d be an asshole if I forced someone to hold a spider if they were afraid. My problem genuinely is not people who have phobias, they’re absolutely fine. I’m still too afraid to touch a spider myself. But the severe lack of willingness to understand reptiles whatsoever on the part of people with any kind of legislative power— like it’s genuinely having a real-world effect.

People still purposefully attack native snakes with shovels or run them over with cars, and whenever I look up a database for biology, those are the pictures I see. It’s too obvious these campaigns are run by fear of the unknown or, freaking, fear of lawsuits and not actually trying to improve people’s safety or preserve native ecosystems.

And for pets— obviously a pet is a privilege so again I’m not arguing this is somehow analogous to discrimination, but it doesn’t make any sense to me that someone can ban common pet reptiles in a home or even for a whole city with the argument that it’s for everyone’s best interest, but then not have any plan for the people who already have those reptiles and what they should do with them. Rehoming is stressful for people AND the animals, and if everything else about a pet owner’s care is fine, then how is forcing them to rehome because of a landlord who doesn’t give a shit about research good for the animal? Many reptiles have good enough memory to be target trained, we can stop pretending they’re pet rocks.

I don’t understand how the fuck an apartment can be ok with a cat, a dog, or even a rabbit but then draw the line at a snake that’s not even thicker than your big toe. And that’s not even touching on how landlords abuse “pet deposits” to force renters to pay more, regardless of genuine property damage (which caged animals contribute little to).

It’s just another arbitrary way to ban people from living in a home when it’s already hard enough to find homes within your price range or close to your job, and it DOESNT actually improve animal welfare or prevent environmental damage, so it’s fucked up. If you’re a landlord, and you’re overly concerned with making it harder for poor people to have healthy hobbies, making sure they only ever invest in surviving and not actually living to the point that you contribute to chronic pet neglect by forcing people to rehome pets that they otherwise care for just fine and even saved up money for, then you need to get the fuck over yourself. You don’t care about animals, you don’t care about the environment, and you can’t even argue you care about your own property or else you would’ve had to spend time actually researching what taking care of that animal looks like. Your ever-so-slightly valid fear of escapes or fires could easily be dissuaded with just a little bit of human to human dialogue. Do you know how their teeth actually work? Do you actually know what a padlock or a thermostat is????

#this post is all over the place #I started with a more general idea and then just started complaining about landlords at the end asdfgh #might delete this #I’m just kinda stressed and just needed to talk about something #and talking about snakes is easy #chit chat #tw: animal death

[nadiawrites14]

okay um oc masterpost or whatever??? because i guess i need to give some context

alright alright alright this is the first time im doing this im nervous and bad at summarizing things so please forgive me </3 so my main/centrlal oc story thingy is called liaisons which has been a wip name for 2 years and it is basically the result of a weird adventure into politics and a hyperfixation on super specific political/geographical areas and history so um sadly i am a bootlicker 

i don’t trust politicians or the government therefore i will make ocs who are the government. anyways describing the basic plot under the cut

some background to begin. this is just a huge alternate universe where everything that goes wrong goes wrong and i think thats epic. anyhow liaisons for now is divvied up in 4 different parts each focusing on 3 mcs and their geopolitical circles. also i have a 20 page outline that im still not even done with

the backdrop for the whole thing is that northern ireland suddenly ups and leaves and secedes back into ireland with a lot of assistance from ireland that the british establishment was beautifully unaware of. basically everyone was unwilling to go to war though so they just said whatever i guess. but then scotland said ‘hey, i can do that too’ and decided to hop off the sinking ship that was the uk. obviously this made the establishment CONCERNED and they tried to rope them back in through a war, the crown prince became a hybrid dictator and declared martial law, and the uk was basically havoc and death for 6 months without any intervention from the eu/un/nato etc bc nobody could be bothered rlly. the war ended with the execution and banishment of the royal family and most of the nobility, while a few escaped underground, and MP ben hunter from brighton became the new prime minister after playing a huge role in the whole overthrowing the war establishment

unfortunately he’s a piece of shit. cue plot!

part i. political tensions are high in england with ben supporting the eu and wishing to stay in to the dislike of the population and parliament. he’s making a lot of pretty bad choices actually but nobody’s checking him. meanwhile in france there’s a pretty brutal presidential race going on and the current president mr. henri toussaint is massively corrupt and doesnt do shit and is just the WORSt guy possible. so his challenger is this epic lady named liv gardet-akoma and shes pretty popular and also very sexy and epic and hates the establishment. her kid nephew who used to live in africa is also in her care now because his parents died </3 and hes a prodigy who wants to overthrow the government </3 so mr toussaint’s daughter angeline hates her dad and hes mistreated her and kept her at a low level government position when shes clearly more capable so she endorses liv instead. and this is a big deal bc shes also an influencer and model with a ton of followers. that’s kind of what’s going on there, and liv is just learning how to navigate the weird climate and deal with some scandals going on in belgium and monaco and how she fits into the whole scheme of things, especially alongside ben who is out of his mind and thinks hes the hot shit. important side note angie becomes liv’s vp and is approached by ben to help with a secret project (hint: it’s secret and it’s really bad!!! hes bad!!!!!) and she accepts, and starts to fall for ben’s deputy lloyd who is just a dumb bitch with an oxford degree

part ii. ms gustava nielsen is probably the biggest opponent to everything ben stands for, shes the prime minister of sweden, loves the monarchy, and thinks that bitch needs to be held accountable for his actions. so she and all her friends who also have monarchies in their countries or support her decide to dip from the european union and start their own confederacy. because she needs support she goes to the balkans and meets a bunch of idiots. dont worry though they’ll be important later in part 3. she especially hits it off with mr. laszlo who is the president of north macedonia although he isnt really into all of that alliance thing. he has opponents on all sides of him and isnt looking to aggravate that further. gustava learns a lot and debates on how to best handle this with a lot of people opposing her and threatening her. ben and her go at it and debate for a while, and they keep playing hot potato with like 7 different eastern countries until BOOM nobody expects the american government and ben and gustava and everyone has to do remedial on that. gustava is just dealing with a lot of dumbassery and questioning the honesty and ethicality of her position which is brought into further uncertainty when a string of assassinations and political discomfort occurs. but don’t worry it all gets worked out in the end and everyone is happy (for now)

*intermission music* 

[mostweakhamlets]

Maybe a totally unpopular opinion but: if they do a big twist I wanna see Ainsley become the Surgeon 2.0 and I think I can make a case for why/how it could work

Long post sorry lol but I think:

1) It'd be so cool to see more female serial killers on TV. Because like, yeah I know murder is bad and serial killers are bad people, but everyone is interested in fictional killers. That's how we end up with shows like this. I want to see more women in completely immoral roles.

2) Ainsley is way more vulnerable to being manipulated by Martin than Malcolm is imo. He makes her laugh that one time, she puts herself in situations where she's vulnerable (the whole interview), and I noticed in episode 11 she calls him "dad" after having called him "Dr. Whitly" in previous episodes ("Please, call me dad." She does, Martin! You got her to!)

Disclaimer: I don't really remember if Malcolm ever calls him dad, but in the last episode, he refers to him as "Martin Whitly." It might not just be her, but it's what I picked up on.

3) When she films the stabbing during the interview!!! I understand: lapse of judgement and adds a lil more to her character but like... come on. Let decisions like that be a lasting thing in her character. Maybe she doesnt quite get when it's time to be sympathetic and not worry about personal/professional gain.

4) Journalism isn't exactly an ethical field when you look into it

5) Ainsley doesn't have the support system Malcolm does. He has Gil. She doesn't seem to have the same relationship with him (correct me if I'm wrong) and if so, she never got a replacement dad and her mom is kinda shit in the emotional support department/is more concerned for Malcolm. Ainsley's basically a support system for Jessica and gets very little in return.

On top of that, she has coworkers (see: point 4) who make jokes about looking up hot serial killers and who encourage her to get sensational stories no matter the cost (who lets someone interview their dad who killed 33 psople?) No one's looking out for her, really.

If Martin were aware of all of this, it would be such a good opportunity for him to get in there. He could amp up the "I'm a good father" thing and pretend to be sympathetic. Michael Sheen has said before how approachable Martin makes himself by being cuddly. Martin (and Sheen in general) is such a Dad Type. If Ainsley let's her guard down around him (if she sees him again), he could easily make himself to be a sympathetic ear. And how fucked up would that be? After a tough week, the only person who listens to her and offer some advice is her dad? Usually that's fine, but not when your dad is Martin Whitly!

6) I'm tired of the teasing plotline of "ooh is Malcolm too much like his father? How much did his father groom him?" I want him to move on from Malcolm. He should know that's a lost cause. I want the writers to move on Malcolm. We know he's going to end up okay.

#long post #sorry I got carried away!!! #prodigal son #i just have a lot of feelings about this

[goldtips]

okay so ya girl is back at it again. this was originally going to be a reply to someone but well. it got out of hand. i shat all over babylon the anime a while ago and honestly kind of feel bad. there are definitely things that the show does that makes it stand out, esp as a seasonal anime bc you dont expect dir. to spend much time on them!!!! like if we’re comparing this to shows like fanservice anime or any .. mediocre seasonal isekai then ofc this show is better lmfao. the only reason i shit on it is because i expected this anime to be Better ;;;;;;;

mind, i’m not rescinding my statement - as far as i’m concerned, babylon is still a hella frustrating anime because it tries to showcase humans as nihilistic, utilitarian robots that don’t seem to consider the topic of suicide emotionally even though thats supposedly humanity’s defining trait ??? and it deals with the topic of suicide with the care of elephants gallivanting in the fucking savanna :))) the whole show has also been pretty lacklustre in terms of characterization, trying way too hard to be intellectual and feed edgy plot points instead of giving any development - the plot feels reactionary overall and placid rather than exciting. also, the fact that the anime started as a mystery / politico-legal sort of show just makes the transition from that to abstract theory even more forced...........

HOWEVER im promised im going to stop shitting on babylon so lets talk about what the anime does right shall we. more specifically,,, the biblical imagery!!! is great !!!! : D

the show is called babylon. in the old testament (ot), babylon is humanized as a “brutal, callous and proud” woman who “believed that she would reign over the earth forever.” in the new testatment the phrase “she who is at babylon” refers to the new world culture currently at war with the covenant community. in such that rome, as a mistress or whore of the new world, is seeking to seduce and subvert people of god, enticing men to fall “drunk with the wine of her fornication.”

yes,,,, a whore who uses sex to entice innocent men into complying with new culture? who believes herself to be akin to god and also in this context, above the law and morality - im gonna say its not too far a stretch to say that magase was intended to symbolise the whore of babylon.

however, that’s not all - links can be made between the enactment of the suicide laws and the seduction of new culture. who exactly is leading the front? kaika itsuki ( 齋 開化 ), who’s name literally means culture. that aint a coincidence. also, that weirdly-placed reference to roman law / norms during the suicide debate as a way to convince the masses to revert / adopt roman ideology??? also not a coincidence. :))))

in addition, there are two other major biblical events related to babylon:

the book of revelations; and

the tower of babel.

its safe to say that both narratives are being pushed atm.

revelations:

in revelation 17, the spirit of babylon decends upon earth through the whore. she arrives on the back of a beast with 7 heads, “arrayed in purple and scarlet”, “drunk with the blood of the saints, the blood of the martyrs of Jesus.” “seven heads are seven mountains, on which the woman sitteth.” the revelations also prophesizes that she will be defeated by a beast, but it is unclear as to which. there are two beasts in book of revelations. the first beast comes "out of the sea" given authority and power by the dragon/serpent. the second beast comes "out of the earth" directing people to worship the first beast, a "false prophet".

in a similar vein, nomaru had secretly vouched for itsuki’s, providing itsuki with the necessary resources for him to rise up in ranks and become the new mayor. the kanji for ryuichiro nomaru ( 野丸 龍一郎 ) contains both the kanji 野 and 龙 which respectively mean field (i.e. earth) and dragon. they are key references to the beasts of revelation

plus according to nomaru, it was also purely because of magase that the political struggle turned out the way that it did, meaning that she is ultimately the one controlling the entire operation. this mirrors the way she is sitting on the heads of the beast (i.e. the proverbial brains of the campaign that itsuki is heading) 

we also see that when magase uses her powers her eyes and hair glow in a sort of purple/burgundy color to support the imagery as well! 

the book of revelations is the final chapter of nt. it is merely an allegory of struggle between good and evil and doesnt refer to actual people or events. kinda like the show huh. nyyy way, we see that the protag john the apostle writes down what is revealed to him through visions to send it to the 7 churches :))

kinda like how zen keeps on seeing magase through visions and has to document !! his findings and report back to admin? ik this isnt exact but there’s a bit where he has to write down her confession and it really struck me as weird until this bit popped up, maybe that was included to as a way of tying in :))

tower:

according to the myth, there were plans to build a city and tower high enough to reach heaven - god who observes this confounds their speech so that they can no longer understand each other. why? because “now nothing will be restrained from them, which they have imagined to do.”

while not entirely similar, we see recurring themes in babylon that deal with miscommunication and new ideology. the conflict mirrors the myth in that unity of language (or ideology in this case) and its subsequent discordance once differentiated. 

the interrogation scene in ep 4 deals with reconciling differences. magase asks whether those with different values should be accepted, despite them being contrary to norm. all this time, society has been developing an ideal set of norms - the entire country shares the same values and priorities with no deviation. growth has stagnated. in similar fashion to how god commands for many languages to be created, magase sows the seeds of doubt towards long-standing assumptions and moral values in order to create discordance and push japan into a state of new development

in the new campaign, itsuki proposes to apportion shiniki city from japan and instill new values. this confounds the population and sends them into disarray - the tower that they have created is crumbling, in similar likeness to the parable of babel.

SO TL;DR this show has a really cool starting concept i cant lie?????  i for one am not shitting on its supernatural elements (even though the flow was a little inorganic) in hindsight there’s no point in expecting a show called babylon not to delve into supernatural/biblical elements lol :)))

as a right hoe for imagery and philosophy/ethics, this gave me high hopes but the execution of everything else was way below average. why bring in a discussion about suicide that’s poorly researched + try to be edgy abt it and have the citizens to have support it so easily???? ruins the immersion so much

if the anime really wanted to focus on philosophy there should be some mention of ethical theory to justify his point. like, being aimlessly philosophical only ends up being flowery and pseudo-bullshit lmao. one of hte reasons why i was so frustrated with magase and zen’s discussion in the interrogation room. like woman what was your fucking point. its only wasting screentime if you don’t get anything from the conversation. the philosophy was so fucking unnecessary - babylon could have been executed as an in-depth political/psychological anime instead. WITHOUT THE SUICIDE.

this and the lack of good characters really bummed me out. i think that the show was expecting me to connect to some of the characters before they were fucking killed off but i didn’t end up giving a single shit about any of them so. :) the whole show feels more about the shock factor and gore than about interesting plot.

concept 10/10, execution 1/10

#DAMN i had more to say apparently #babylon anime #babylon meta #babylon symbolism #babylon #im honestly tempted to write more about the interrogation scene #this post is more fair at least #i am biased but at least i appreciate the biblical imagery #haha #:)) #babylon anime meta

[angrylizardjacket]

and then there was light [4] {Roger Taylor}

A/N: 5060 words. part 4? part 4. it’s a bit of a darker one and before you ask, there will be a part 5, you know i wouldn’t end it on a cliffhanger and do you dirty like that.

[part 1] [part 2] [part 3]

The moment Roger steps foot into the meeting about the design of the shows for the upcoming American legs of the ‘Night at the Opera’ world tour, he’s pretty sure he’s already mentally checked out. Freddie’s doing all the talking, to literally no-one’s surprise; the man has big ambitions for his own costumes, and knows the other guys will pipe up about their own needs when they get to meet with just the costume designer. John Reid brings up the technical requirements, Roger’s got the ‘galileo’s from Bohemian Rhapsody playing on repeat in his head as he stares into the middle distance, and it’s Deaky who sits forward.

“We’ve got a pretty solid idea for the lights; Freddie and I have been consulting with a designer in America; she’s freelance, used to work for EMI, she’s reliable.” He assures, and Roger’s thinking ‘hey that sounds familiar’ but Reid seems satisfied and they’re already moving on to the staging and sound equipment needed. 

Roger doesn’t connect the dots at first; it’s been almost four years since that fateful American tour, and they’ve had other tours come and go since, and as far as the others are concerned, they’re pretty sure he hasn’t spared you a thought since arriving home at the end of that tour. But he does, even if he doesn’t mean to.

The tour after you’d quit working for EMI, someone drops a parcan side of stage, and his heart is in his throat when he realises he was waiting to hear you yell ‘okay that one wasn’t my fault’ or something similar. All he hears is a faint apology, and a call from someone to get a broom. The scheduling’s different this time around, he can’t even have a cigarette in an empty theatre without some stagehand buzzing back and forth, or a band member trotting across the stage as they practice. It would be so much easier to lay on the stage if the rest of them were confined to one place while they played, like he was behind the drums. It’d be boring as shit, he would be the first to acknowledge that, but it would mean he would get stepped on less during lunch, and that’s a sacrifice he’s willing to make with the toe of Freddie’s shoe poking at his waist.

Nothing serious had come his way in that time, or rather, he’d never found anyone who could hold his attention for more than a week or two. People became dreadfully boring when all they wanted to do was faun over him and fuck him; not that it wasn’t fun at first, it was always fun at first, but there was a lack of variety, a sinking sensation that these people were more attracted to the idea of him that left a sour aftertaste.

But now he’s here, new company, new album, second leg of the new tour, new chance to sample all different women across this great nation. He’s already a little tipsy from his multiple jack and coke’s on the plane when they land, and he’s passed out on the tour bus before it even gets to the first tour stop. Once in Conneticut, he’s dragged from the bus, and informed that as soon as the tech crew had finished their meeting, they could start loading in their instruments. 

“How long have they been here?” Brian asks the stage hand, and the guy shrugs. 

“A couple of hours; the Floor Tech wanted the drum risers set up before she gave the brief.” He tells them as he lead the band in to the theatre, where most of the crew were milling about on stage. 

“She always did have a flare for the dramatic.” John says with a grin where his eyes were trained on the stage, and Freddie hums in agreement, which only serves to confuse Roger further until he sees an all too familiar figure climbing the drum risers with a clipboard in hand.

“Alright guys, can I have your attention, please?” Even after all these years, the sound of your voice hits Roger square in the chest. “I wanna make this as quick and painless as possible, so after today we can bump in and bump out without any hassles.” You addressed the crowd with an easy confidence from your place at the top of the drum risers, tapping your nails against the back of the clipboard in your hands, wearing the overalls he’d seen you in so many times before.

“You can call me Spotlight; I’m the Head Floor Tech for the tour, as well as lighting designer; those of you on my lighting team, you’ve got a copy of the lighting plan, and I’ll be talking to you about how we’re gonna run it after this. Next time, I’ll get some help from the stage hands to set up the drum risers, I had a few people help me today to get them set up early, but that’s just because I like being tall.” With a sharp grin you pause as a titter of laughter spreads around the group, “stage management team, you’re in charge of making sure side of stage is set up with anything the band needs, and that it’s clear of unnecessary clutter and people, and running cabling for the sound guys; they’ll tell you what they need.”

After a beat, you look around the gathered crowd, and nod firmly, a gesture which a few of them return.

“If you have any questions, remember; find your Light.” You point directly at yourself. “We break for lunch at one, but until then we’ve got a lot to get through; let’s get rockin’.” Grinning brightly, you hop down from the risers into the crowd of crew members, ushering a bunch, each holding a sheet of paper, off to the side, as the others scattered like cockroaches under light.

“What the fuck is she doing here?” Roger finally finds his voice where he’s still standing, a little dumbstruck, alone in the aisle of the theatre where the others had left him behind.

“Didn’t you hear her speech? Spotlight’s our lighting designer.” Freddie calls over his shoulder, eyes wide and innocent, as if he hadn’t set this all up without thinking to mention it to Roger.

“Our what now?” He splutters, jogging a little to catch up to the other band members as they made their way towards the stage. He’s not quite sure what he’s doing, or what will happen when he gets their; the last thing you’d said to him was that you were stupid to think he was above his reputation, while you were in tears, and then it had been three years of nothing. He’s not going to run, at least he’s pretty sure he’s not; he’s self aware enough to know he was in the wrong last time you spoke, that he was an asshole, but he’s not going to be a coward. Not again.

“That was quite the speech.” John waits patiently until the crew who made up the lighting team had dispersed before addressing the familiar face at the centre. You turn, eyes bright and smile brighter, casually making your way towards him and the rest of the band.

“Yeah, I really feel in my element, you know?” It’s with an easy familiarity that you pull John into a hug, giving him a firm squeeze. “Good to finally see you again.” And then you’re hugging Freddie, and then Brian, and you stop short in front of Roger. It’s a stalemate, neither one wanting to be the first to look away, but both unsure of what to do. In the end, you don’t even offer him a handshake, just nod, and you turn back to the others.

“How’s Pippin been?” Freddie asks, and you’re about to answer, but Roger cuts in.

“Hang on, can someone fill me in here? Lovely to see you, by the way, just a little confused as to how you got here.” He says, and you’re lost for words, just blinking rapidly, trying to process the whole situation.

“Did you not tell him I was working with you guys?” Your words come out incredulous as you turn your gaze upon John and Freddie, who seem just as bewildered as you.

“I thought he’d cotton on when I mentioned an American designer who used to work for EMI.” John mused, turning his gaze on Roger, who frowned, thinking back to the initial meeting he’d just mentioned.

“I did,” Brian piped up, before casting a smile at John and Freddie that was just a little bit confused, “though I wasn’t a part of this little setup.” He tried to reassure the drummer.

“In my defense,” Roger started, before his gaze dropped, “I wasn’t paying attention, design isn’t exactly my forte.” He admitted, and you had to shake your head at that, exasperated and already a exhausted.

“Pippin’s good.” You go back to John’s initial question. Pippin isn’t so much a person as it is a touring version of a Broadway musical that had opened a year ago, to great success.

It turns out a written letter of recommendation from both the lead singer, and bass player of Queen goes rather far in the industry. After taking some time for yourself, you call up EMI to beg them not to fire you, however it turns out you needn’t have; both John and Freddie had given glowing reports of your work ethic and skill, and the man on the other end of the line is just eager to know when you were next available. 

The moment you’re on site next, they tell you you’ve been promoted to Floor Tech; they hand you a roll of gaff tape and a drill and a whole new set of responsibilities, heaped onto your usual load. You don’t even remember who had been performing, the tour had only lasted a month, all you know is that they were calling you Spotlight from the moment you’d arrived; apparently it was what Freddie had called you, and John had to clarify.

John is the first to contact you again, through EMI of course, and he becomes something of a comfort when you consider taking your career beyond the company that kept you firmly in the one position on tour. Freddie calls you less often, and never about business; it’s John who gives you the courage to leave EMI, and he’s the one who helps set up as a freelance theatre and event crew member. 

People had been head hunting you from tour to tour, beyond even EMI, some smaller acts even giving you the full Lighting Designer role. They expect you to sit back, let a stage hand or an assistant to take care of it, but every time you watch someone else focus a spot, your fingers itch to be doing it yourself. Dedicated to a fault, Roger had once called you, you think about it every time you climb an unsteady ladder, and think perhaps that he’s right.

The moment Pippin announces it’s tour, and puts out calls for crew, you’re first in line for the job, putting your hat in the ring for lighting, but happy enough to take any crew role. Not that you don’t love working with bands, but there’s a certain finesse that comes with theatre lighting that you can’t get anywhere else in the world. After two years, and the support of both John and Freddie, you find yourself as the assistant Lighting Designer, as well as Head Floor Tech, and once you step foot onto the tour bus, everything else becomes history.

Speaking of history, later in the day, after the rest of the crew have broken for lunch, you’re wedged under the drum risers, running some cables, when you hear someone climb up them, taking a seat at the drums.

“If you play one beat-” You’re cut off by Roger’s yell of surprise, as he’s so startled he almost falls off his chair.

“Holy shit, who is that?” He’s breathing heavily, voice panicked, and for a moment you take pleasure imagining clutching his hand to his chest like a delicate, little grandmother.

“Take a wild stab in the dark,” you mutter, unwedging yourself from beneath the structure, raising an eyebrow as you look at him. Almost immediately he’s frowning, and you’re thrown back to the moment almost three years ago where you’d been here before, looking up at him from behind the drum risers after you’d changed out the light mid-show. Clearing your throat loudly, you break the moment, getting to your feet and making your way to the side of the stage.

“What are you doing here?” He calls, watching idly as you go about counting out fly lines until you get to the one you’d been looking for. You’d gotten here early to go through the fly-line procedure with the Duty Tech for the venue, and now you lowered the LX bar it was attached to with ease after making sure there was no-one in the way. Your focus made something in his chest tighten, and he feels like he’s being taken back in time; you’re beautiful when you work, passionate and skilled, meticulous, that hadn’t changed. Roger has to look away.

“My job,” and you just sound tired when you say it, already securing the meticulously placed lights onto the bar you’d just lowered, going along and fixing them to the metal in a neat line. An uncomfortable silence spreads between you, punctuated only by the scrape of metal against metal, and the rattle of the safety chains.

“What are you doing here?” You don’t even try to hide the snippiness from your voice, not even turning to look at his as the accusatory words hang in the air.

“I’m having a smoke in what I thought was going to be relative peace, it’s something I do, okay?” Voice defensive, you hear the rustle of cardboard and hear the click of a cigarette, your annoyance growing with each passing moment.

“No, it’s what I do. It’s what I did three years ago, you just started showing up. You stole my relative peace.” You snapped, turning to him, a blazing fury in your eyes at his words, before your lip curled in disgust, “And you don’t even do anything with it.” You scoffed, and he went quiet, sulking behind his drum kit. Sensing he wasn’t got to talk back you turn back to your work.

The moment you turn away, he sees the way you heave a sigh, angry tension draining from your shoulders, a little hunched as you concentrated. Your hands shake a little as you fiddle with the safety chains. There’s still that confidence there, the ease with which you moved about the stage, but unlike around other people, when it was just Roger - though he suspected you were pretending he wasn’t there - you just looked... weary.

After that first town, he keeps his distance for a few stops, though the other band members look to keep you company on occasion. But then... he’s there again. Quiet this time, he just watches where you hold yourself like royalty at the top of a rickety ladder, so sure of yourself. He’d forgotten the sight of you in your element, and it hits him like a truck.

“Take a picture, it’ll last longer.” You snap when you chance a glance down and see his awestruck expression looking up at you. The shock comes when he actually looks abashed, averting his gaze, picking up his drumsticks and tapping out a rhythm that you’re pretty sure you recognise.

You’re both too stubborn to give the other one the peace of the theatre at lunch, however, while you’re content with stewing in silence as you worked, Roger, to no-one’s surprise, is not.

“How’ve you been?” He brings himself to ask. You stop where you’re replacing a gel on one of the drum riser lights, taking a long moment to consider your words carefully.

“Busy.” Tired. The subtext comes through loud and clear, despite your short answer, and once you’d finished with the light, you stand, before taking a moment to stretch your back out from behind hunched over.

“Working a lot?” I can tell. He answers after a long pause, almost sympathetic, and you know he’s not really responding to the words you’d said out loud.

“Yeah, non stop.” No subtext, just responding at face value, before your eyes up to the mostly finished rig. Afternoons were for last minute fixes and focusing, there wasn’t much left you could do, unless you were willing to ask for Roger’s help.

“When did your last thing end?” He asks, and you click your tongue as you turn on your heel, burned out gel in your hand, heading for a bin.

“Two days before this one.” You admitted. When you’re met with silence, you turn, and Roger’s frowning at you, almost disbelieving.

“You’re not still sleeping on the tour bus, are you?” He asks, and you roll your eyes before you tell him your accommodation is paid for this time around. You’re the first to leave, for the first time since everything had started, you leave halfway through to actually eat lunch, leaving Roger to himself.

When he’s drunk after the show, leaning against some local pub, with a girl leaning against him, heavy enough that the two of them would have tipped over if it wasn’t for the counter, he can’t get you out of his mind.

“I didn’t ruin her career.” His eyes go wide as the words, with something akin to revelation, escape him, and the girl makes a noise of confusion, her fingers ghosting over his chest, but he can’t even bring himself to enjoy it.

“I didn’t ruin her career!” He announces, excited and pleased in his inebriated state, sitting himself so forcefully on the arm of Freddie’s chair that he spills part of his drink. Freddie makes a noise of confusion, looking up at the blonde, and Roger gesticulates enough to spill more of his drink, ignoring Freddie’s yelp. “Spotlight! She said I’d ruined her career!” 

“When?” Freddie asks, just as John pops out from seemingly nowhere.

“Well you certainly didn’t help it. That was me.” Roger doesn’t care that John’s drunk, the way bassist says it, so serene and matter-of-fact, makes it sting just a little bit worse. His mood instantly flips.

“Can you piss off? Go be her best friend somewhere else.” Roger snapped, and he knew he’d regret being so sharp with John the following morning, but it seemed John himself knew that Roger was in a mood, and obligingly fucked off, seemingly not taking it to heart.��“When we broke up, she accused me of ruining her career.” And he realises too late, when Freddie’s eyes go wide with realisation, that he’s said too much.

“Is this where you tell me exactly what went down between you two?” He asked, tapping Roger’s leg with excitement. The blonde, however, stood abruptly, glower on his face.

“No. Fuck off.” 

Roger spends almost fifteen minutes banging on the door of the tour bus before he remembers that you’re not in there, and falls into bed alone, fully clothed.

“The fuck did you say to Freddie last night?” The moment he steps foot onto the stage at lunch, you’re waiting for him, already livid. He’s tempted to turn and walk right back out the door. “Apparently he doesn’t know the real reason that I went home last ti- !” 

“Of course he doesn’t!” Roger snapped back, on the defensive without a moment’s hesitation. “It makes me look like a fucking wanker and he’d kick my ass; he adores you!” And that was enough to shock you into silence, grip loosening on the gaff tape in your hands. “They all do.” He said, and your expression turns unreadable.

“I know.” You finally said, a new, strange quality to your voice, it’s something akin to shock, but not quite, and Roger doesn’t know what to say next. “What about you?” You finally ask, voice a little defensive. It hurts to see you look at him with such a judgemental eye, though he’s well aware he deserves it.

“Doesn’t matter, does it? I could apologise a thousand times and you’d still be pissy.” He huffs, and you cross your arms, cocking your hip.

“At least once would be nice.” You level a cold glare at him and his gaze snaps back at yours, surprised. “You never once apologised, you know that?” And your voice is low, hurt and honest. “Are you even sorry for what happened?”

“It was three years ago-” He sighs, but you cut him off, shifting your weight to your other foot, swallowing thickly.

“So that’s a no. Glad to see where you stand.” And you turn to cross the stage to where you’ve already got the ladder set up, but he makes his way to you in three long strides, making to grab at your upper arm. The moment he does, however, you whirl around, slapping him, hard. “I told you to never fucking touch me; did you think I forgot?” And he sees why you were so eager to leave; there’s tears in your eyes, so close to breaking and streaming down your cheeks, your lip trembling. Something about your voice is so raw, it hurts worse than the slap.

“I am sorry.” And he sounds so fucking sincere, but you just glare at him, unashamed where the tears have begun to track down your cheeks. 

“You had your chance to say sorry; you had your chance to beg for forgiveness, but you told me I could leave; so I did, and so did your fucking opportunity.” But you can’t bring yourself to step back, frozen in place where he’s less than a foot away. Every fibre of your being is betraying you, wanting to be around him, close to him, after what he did.

“I’m sorry what happened between us;” his voice is so level, carefully controlled, you know he’s think hard about what he’s about to admit, “I fucked up, I know that; I’m sorry. It was three years ago but I’m still sorry. I’ve been sorry for a long time now.”

“Since it happened?” You asked, and he didn’t drop your gaze, answering without flinching or hesitation.

“Since I started worrying I’d lose you; I know what I’m like, I knew what I’d end up doing.” He admitted, and the words clearly didn’t have his intended impact as you stumble back, free hand clutching your chest.

“And yet you still-” And quietly, so quietly you’re not even sure he hears it, the words come out as more of a defeated whimper than anything else; “How could you not tell I was in love with you?” 

He’s in shock, and you barge past him, leaving as you can no longer contain your aching heart, and you head to the hotel you were staying at down the road, taking the rest of the lunch break to cry.

When you return, the rest of the crew has filtered in, Roger looks guilty, and Freddie and John look about ready to commit violent homicide, which was unsurprising for Freddie, but there was something comforting about Deaky wearing the expression too. In less than a week, the whole crew knows, and wherever you go, you feel yourself followed by pitying stares, which won’t go away, no matter how hard you throw yourself into your work.

“You’re working yourself into the ground.” Roger tells you a week later, watching the way your arms tremble as you focus a light, and it takes you a moment to blink blearily at him. “Don’t forget the security chain.” He adds, and you scowl, before looking at the light itself, and hurriedly affix the security chain to the rig. You insist that you’re fine, making your way down the ladder to scoop up another parcan, but you almost immediately drop it. 

“I just need some food.” You try to insist, your hands shaking as you leave the light where it is.

You don’t come out after shows, and it’s not gone unnoticed. The rest of the crew think you’re just dedicated, personable for the most part but prone to bouts of standoffishness.

“Oh you should have seen her on our first tour,” Freddie muses to an enraptured crowd at an afterparty, a few crew members listening with a bright-eyed attention, “that woman risked life and limb for our show.” And he sounds so proud when he says it, but something twists uncomfortably in Roger’s gut.

Cracks don’t show around other people, Roger’s noticed; you’re smile’s bright enough and your voice is loud enough that they don’t see the way your hands shake. Or how tired your eyes are. But then there are moments, you stand as if in the eye of the storm, gaff tape and drill in hand, watching as people follow your instructions without question, and you look up to see Roger tweaking his drums, and the two of you share a look. It’s a little indecipherable, he’s concerned and you’re just... tired. He wants to offer to help, but as soon as the moment arrives, it’s passed, and you’re off to the next task.

The air between the two of you has lost it’s angry tension; after saying your peace, after hearing his apology, there’s no fight left. Just a lingering disappointment, a quiet like the moment after a world-weary sigh. You don’t have to pretend around Roger, you both know he’d see through it if you’d tried.

“You should come get a drink after; you look like you need it.” Roger laughs, but there’s no humour in it. Without missing a beat, you decline, you don’t even bother coming up with an excuse. 

“I’m worried about you.” The tour is almost three weeks in, and you’re asleep against the proscenium arch when he walks in. You wake with a start at the sound of his voice, reaching out for the light you’d been fiddling with before you’d passed out. When you look to him with confusion, he repeats himself slowly. “I’m worried about you; are you sleeping okay?” 

“As if that’s any of your business.” You snapped back, and Roger kept quiet. It only takes him a day to figure out that sleep isn’t really a luxury you allowed yourself; you were the last out every night after bump out, sometimes staying until two in the morning, and from what the crew said, you were always the first up, running through check lists, accident reports, and going over anything that needed maintenance. 

When Freddie asks you to come out with them after a gig, you find it difficult to say no, he helped get you this job after all, but you’re there for barely half an hour before Roger sees you slip out the side door, drink untouched.

John asks if you’re okay one afternoon when you drop a stack of gel frames without warning, jumping almost a foot in the air and looking like you’re about to break into tears from shock, but seems content when you explain you’re just tired. Tired doesn’t even begin to cover how overworked you are.

The night you finally decide to relax a little, bump out having been miraculously fast, you’ve got the next day off. The others cheer you on as you down drink after drink, the alcohol hitting you hard and quickly, and the world gets blurry as you find yourself on the dance floor. It’s easy to drink too much, because for the first time in a long time, you’re relaxed, not worrying about the pretty, dickhead blonde who worries about you when he really shouldn’t. 

You’re drunk enough to admit to yourself that part of you likes the attention he’s giving you, it feels like vindication for the heartache you went through all those years ago. Part of it’s not even vindictive, part of you just likes the way he looks at you, the way his smile made your heart beat just a little faster; you call that part a fucking traitor and have another drink.

You don’t remember leaving the bar, but you come back to your body when you’re leaning against a streetlight for support, halfway through telling someone to fuck off.

“Ya’ not my caretaker, Roger,” you sneer, “you don’t need to look after me or whatever this is. Go help groupies home or to hotel or whatever.” You spit, and push off from the light, turning on your heel, almost topple over, and right yourself.

“Light, that’s the wrong way.” He calls, exasperated, and you turn again, this time actually crashing to the ground and grazing your hand on the way, before you get to your feet. He’s come over to try and help you, but you swat him away.

“You don’t get to call me that.” You stalk ahead of him in the direction he had come from, back toward the hotel, and he follows only a few steps behind.

“Fine, Y/N; you’re legless, let me help.” And after a moment of intense eye contact, in which you try to weigh up your options, you begrudgingly loop your arm through his.

“You’re still on my shit-list.” You inform him, and he hums in acknowledgement. “Why are you doing this?” You follow it up with.

“I’m not the asshole who fucked you over three years ago, and I’m not gonna let you get yourself killed for this show.” He said through gritted teeth, and you just smiled, a little dreamily.

“But what a way to go.” And he came to an abrupt stop. It took you a moment to realise, and looking back, you tugged on his arm to keep him moving. He just frowned at you, a little concerned. “Fuck, I didn’t mean it.”

“If I have to fire you to get you to take a break-” He threatened, and you scoffed, expression turning bitter.

“I’ll drop a light on you.”

“You’ll drop a light on me by accident before then anyways!” He crowed, and your expression fell, contemplative. “Just let me help; what do I have to do to make you actually rest? What do I have to do to prove myself?”

#roger taylor #roger taylor imagine #roger taylor x reader #bohemian rhapsody #borhap #bo rhap #borhap imagine #bohemian rhapsody imagine #freddie mercury #john deacon #brian may #and then there was light #ben hardy #ben hardy imagine #the angry lizard writes

[palukoo]

so a couple months ago i relistened to w359 and made a 18000 word document while doing so containing iconic quotes, my reactions, feelings, et cetera. heres some highlights with varying amounts of context. (theres lowkey spoilers for the whole series btw)

""""i empathize too much""""

crazy how i still vividly remember walking outside [my old job] and to starbucks while listening to the spider ep... trauma

i mean i dont love it but it makes me feel things

GABRIEL THATS TOO ON THE NOSE

"let me have my badass space chick victory cocktail"

god like i AM team what wrong with handcuffs but I WOULD NOT HESITATE to kill hilbert for hera

the girlssss are fightinggg

THE SAD W359 MUSIC IS KILLING ME

like memoria who maxwell who jk jk

i love you renee minkowski marry me

local idiot's heart is in the right place

HARPOOOOOOONSSSS

lovelace lovelace lovelace loveLACE LOVELACE

"maybe she's some kind of clone thing" EIFFEL... this is day 1!!!

i hate these self sacrificial idiots

no no no not this music again ill cry

yall are so emotionally stunted it fucking hurts but damn if you dont care

literally how are they still alive

i want to hug her so much omg

alan rody shut the FUCK up im crying

rip zach valenti's throat

face the death reality via math

jacobi being a piece of shit

maxwell said lets kill hilbert rights

this is a kepler hate blog

minkowski thinking her emotions dont matter to the mission oh ho ho

"youre gonna straighten up" cutter they cant theyre not straight

maxwell and jacobi show up and blow up lads

"and you should really be more careful with your queen" KEPLER WHAT DOES THAT MEAN

wolf 359 stop making me stan these literally terrible people

FUNZO FUNZO FUNZO

i am caring about men tonight lads

theyre both awful sure go ahead have history

hilbert you interrupted their emotional moment they wouldve had a MOMENT

hera said im gay

ohhhh nooo interpersonal conflict makes me sad

hug minkowski rn

FRIENDSHIP IS MAGIC jacobi and maxwell are iconic

minkowski how did you not kill him

how much do yall use the words "good enough" and "cant"

"are you an alien" GOD the Hints

"one of our... sexier jobs" vs "this is gonna said less sexy after that"

eiffel stop cockblocking them

y'all's choice of pronouns IS illuminating

PROTECT HERA AT ALL COSTS

aw eiffel... minkowski... communication is KEY

oh yeah THATS what the psi wave regulator is for.... SURE

hilbert read the room

JACOBI you can't just describe minkowski like that without giving me a heart attack

how many times have all these bitches almost died

SORRY ANYTHING THEY SAY I LOSE IT

oh minkowski finally flipped (VALID)

oh wait that fact isnt fun at all and im literally crying

LIKE sometimes you save someone's life at great personal risk only to kill her a little while later

minkowski cries to “back to before” from ragtime

i feel to many things about the gals here idk what to tell you i love them thats the problem

its gay and it hurts!

lovelace laughing at people who can and will kill her... hot

OH WERE STARTING LOVELACES SELF SACRIFICE ALREADY

they let lovelace say FUCK

OH WAIT NO I FORGOT ITS WORSE

THANKS FOR MURDERING ME WITH YOUR TEARY ANGRY VOICE

ouchie anyways gay or no but also gay

hilarious and sad at the same time?

MAXWELL dont be a bitch... i expect this from jacobi and honestly i actually expect this from maxwell too but i dont like it

NO NOT THIS MUSIC

BROTP BROTP BROTP

i cant say anything else im too busy crying

UGH I COULD WRITE ESSAYS ON MY THOUGHTS ABOUT THIS THE MESSAGE THE TAKEAWAY BROADLY THE PERSONAL EMOTIONAL ANGUISH THE DESIRE TO HUG HERA ITS

im mad but thank you... all of you... explain... 

stop stop stop im literally so tense gone straight from sobbing to freeze instinct

GOD I HATE ALL THESE SURVIVALS GUILT IDIOTS

OH theyre all about uncertainty... the what ifs... okay... ouch ouch ouch

give everyone awards for bolero

eris are you gay

she said gay rights and AI rights

like i know i know we been knew but goddard really is so awful

Hera stop narrating Lovelace’s ongoing existential crisis

HOW IS THIS NOT GAY (I know how it’s not gay but. Let me have this)

KEPLER stop giving Lovelace insecurities and existential crises

Team back off lovelace for the win

like not to be dramatic but her arc is beautiful

oh boy thats my girlsssss

THATS FLIRTING MINKOWSKI

god i love that concern for your gf keep it up minkowski

COMMUNICATION? WITH THIS CREW? BOLD

GOD angrey hera is great

you know hera is having the time of her life witnessing it

eiffel you just ruined their romantic moment

minkowski is gonna kill them

a much better gayer more altruistic light

WE’RE ALWAYS TALKING ABOUT COMMUNICATION

WAIT I WAS BEING CANON DAMN I THOUGHT I WAS BEING CREATIVE AND PERHAPS OOC BUT IM IN THE CLEAR I GUESS

god hera has needed to snap at eiffel for so long

i can already feel myself about to get hit with the tears... the emotions

that shit hits different renee

The implications that Goddard like destroyed global warming omfg

it’s the moral grayness babeyyy

when it hits you with minkowski's shaky sigh first thing you know its gonna hit different

MINKOWSKI i need you to. love yourself as much as i love you

GOD the mutual concern they always have for each other is touching whether or not you think its gay. i think its gay

HERA WOULD YOU ASK A COW TO NOT BE A COW

oh of COURSE they cut coms first

lovelace is man, butterfly is quote, it says "is this flirting"

jacobi i need you to chill

but jacobiiiii thats lovelaces schtick

oh eiffel... you fucking idiot who gets really lucky sometimes

this game of chicken where theyre both chickens and kepler doesnt know any of that and each of them only know half

minkowski said im an ethics teacher now

who taught minkowski empathy in high stress situations?

yeah so i stay hitting the nail on the head

“kepler SHUT UP” is what brings everyone together

this is, como se dice.... kinda gay

this statement does not bode well for that

“Maybe less talking to yourself” he says to himself

ugh, to be Pop Culture Man™️

RACHEL i love you even tho I also hate you

Rachel if you make one more hand joke I’ll lose my mind

HER NAME!!!! IS HERA!!!! And I love her!!

i have a vivid mental image of post-series eiffel doing stand up like chris fleming style 

"my crew has made it very clear through a series of looks and gestures that one more slip up and i am out, thats it, so im taking this job very seriously"

"minkowski is very overprotective in a weird, erratic way, like when your seat belt randomly locks and its like i appreciate what youre trying to do but im going 4mph in a drive way."

"so when something like this happens you have to at least consider going away for a long time and living on a cursed space station"

"you know how when maxwell and hera are talking ive never felt less needed, you know, like ‘cause you guys would be totally happy alone on a rock in the middle of a lake"

"this is the kind of body you look at and go he'd probably be ok in space without a space suit"

the whole "theater kids" video is actually him going off about minkowski

minkowski is too swole for her own good

jacobi im gonna need you to take the redemption arc more seriously

i love my crazy crazy bitches

this FUCKING music

GOD HOW DOES PRYCE JUST ALWAYS GET WORSE

she just like mutilated that man he is doa absolutely destroyed one hit ko

can you tone down the gay, sweetie

you did it you broke rachel and Goddard down to their bare essentials

GOSH shes so AWKWARD 

so damn jacobi was just IMMEDIATELY ride or die for maxwell

this is too much for my poor baby heart

pryce & carter literally are just like lets do eugenics, lets do genocide

when hera says ill pull a yall and sacrifice myself for minkowski and lovelace 

god like cant believe KEPLER got a redemption arc (well not arc but you know)

ah yes the most tragic scenes all take place at once :)

I HAD TO STOP LISTENING TO BRAVE NEW WORLD CAUSE IT MADE ME TOO CRAZYYYY

THE SCRIPT SAID IT NOT ME

i love space moms!

this fucking music ALAN RODY IM SUING FOR DAMAGES

like the document also does have a lot of like deep thoughts and meta and parallels and discussion of motivations but this is just fun random things i said

#wolf 359 #w359 #i think im funny #im not gonna do character tags lol #my post #gotta love my trend of telling the music to fuck off

[bi-dazai]

Could you talk more abt double black’s romance coding if you don’t mind?

it’s just kind of a fun thing!! but anyway the fact is that there’s a lot of double entendre in all of their interactions, history, etc, to the point that as an author myself and also with the knowledge of particularly how the real life dazai osamu deconstructed heterosexual relationships…the character dazai’s relationship with the character chuuya also having such a…homoerotic edge in their dynamic, particularly in the way every fucking scene, line of dialogue, and visual imagery theyre portrayed in is very, VERY easy to pull a romantic double meaning out of…it’s just that to me as an author and by the way skk is written…like thats exactly how i would write a complex broken romantic relationship. 

the way i always put it is try to imagine if one of them was a girl - particularly chuuya, because chuuya absolutely fills in the “jilted lover” to the “cool anime husbando” stereotype. there would be absolutely no doubt that the two have canon sexual tension if one of them was a girl. like it would be known and talked about p openly that, yeah, they used to date/there is a romantic/sexual aspect to their partnership, if one of them was a girl! 

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to me also there are two types of ships - ships that are just fun dynamics and pairings (shinsou/kaminari, atsushi/akuutagawa, mori/the firey pits of hell where paedophilies burn); and ships that have plenty of canon romantic potential, double entendre, and/or romantic dynamic that i could actually see happening in canon (think kirishima/bakugou, korra/asami, lance/keith from voltron before s7). dazai and chuuya absolutely fall very easily into that second category. to me, dazai/chuuya is more than just “oh wouldnt it be cute if they dated”, it’s more “every time these two characters interact every single thing they say and do is a double entendre”. 

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the scene where they first interact is literally one of the most sexually tense things in anime ive seen in ages. the way they talk about each other and worry about each other in the double black episode is much more complex and heartfelt than the way kunikida and dazai are written to talk about/to and worry about each other. kunikida and dazai have been shown to be friends and also put trust in one another, yet still hate each other. but kunikida and dazai don’t interact with the sexual tension and romantic double entendre that dazai and chuuya have. for me as an author, that would be a perfect comparative technique to highlight dazai and chuuya’s nature as something more than just a running joke of  “every partner dazai has hates him”. in fact, if that even were a running joke you would know, because bsd loves to play up running jokes. but both of dazai’s partners hating him isnt meant as a joke, it’s meant as a point. literally dazai and kunikida and dazai and chuuya could have had a much more similar dynamic, with minimal differences but not so many/so dramatic in order to create a strong, bsd-style running gag and also a platonic dynamic between them. but by having kunikida hate dazai it literally stands as a comparative point against how chuuya hates him - because chuuya doesnt hate dazai in the same way kunikida does.

kunikida’s frustration with dazai is definitely more of a gag on the comparison between kunikida’s and dazai’s work ethic and personalities. chuuya’s frustration is constantly played down with the numerous times chuuya actually seeks out dazai’s affection AND is concerned for his wellbeing:

like idk if u know abt the whole sheep backstory with chuuya…but it would be perfectly reasonable to write chuuya as absolutely despising dazai. chuuya’s forced partnership with dazai is a representation of everything the port mafia did to him and his friends with sheep. yet chuuya is written as seeking out dazai’s positive attention and checking he’s okay? and this scene isnt about the port mafia and the agency - it’s about chuuya and dazai. oh, and again, some more comparison - akutagawa seeks out dazai’s positive attention, but it’s pointedly different from the way chuuya seeks it out. with chuuya it seems more about a comment on the complexity of how he feels not about dazai (as akutagawa does) but how he feels towards dazai (if you get what i mean??). akutagawa’s need for dazai to validate him is a primary motivator in the plot and in his character. compared to this, plus comparing the way kunikida and dazai interact in battle, slipping in the way chuuya and dazai express concern for each other when they interact in battle is….interesting. the warmest port mafia executive to dazai other than chuuya is kouyou, and that’s only because she is entrusting him with her surrogate daughter’s life - another primary plot point. compared to all this, it seems…somewhat domestic and pointless to have these little moments. 

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my final main argument for canon skk underlying romance coding is some of the visual “double entendre”. while dazai and chuuya havent exactly ever said or done anything explicitly romantic (such as kiss, admit explicit romantic feelings for each other, etc), a lot of the visual coding and the dialogue (particularly in the anime) is…pretty easy to interpret as romantic and sexual. i mean:

(dont mind the subtitles for this first one, what matters is the imagery)

(double entendre - how often do you use this in fiction outside of lovers quiffs?)

(like it isnt every day you see two anime dudes between each others legs lol)

(double entendre in this line) (also dazai doesn’t “reunite” with any other port mafioso. except maybe akutagawa, who has a dynamic just as complex but much less…”angry lover” dynamic and reunion with dazai. oh yeah. another comparison.)

like im just putting this entire scene from dead apple because it was so heavily visually romantically and sexually double entendre…like again. if one of them was a girl. dead apple is…a lot.

(also sorry for shitty quality on some of the images)

anyway some of this i know sounds like a reach but it’s honestly me just theorising from my own perspective as an author! this show is v complex and well-written, and so far there havent rly been any bits that are just…on accident?? everything is very purposeful. and a lot of the ways that kafka asagiri writes dazai and chuuya’s dynamic, dialogue, interactions, etc, are very much real writing techniques that i would use to write in a romantic pairing, especially a same-sex romantic pairing that i might not be able to be too explicit about and have to find ways to get around that. like im obvsly not saying that this is all canon and real and ive found a way into asagiri’s head, but ive just…noticed a lot of things and i think they arent rly…discussed too much in the bsd fandom?? which is disappointing cos soukoku is a rly well written and complex relationship and pairing that needs more meta!

#long post #double black #bsd #Anonymous

[addie-lover-of-stories]

Star Wars Randomness

Okay, so I was thinking and I could not get this out of my head, so welcome to the madness of my mind.

So let me say this first. I love Star Wars. Star Wars was my childhood, hell, we had a life sized Yoda in my nursery. I lived and breathed Star Wars for a definite part of my childhood. This is nothing against those movies, because I still love them, but Star Wars was not very well thought out

Lets just. Lets just talk about the destruction of Alderaan for a minute here. Now, I'm not looking at the moral and ethical reasons for Alderaan's destruction here for why it's a terrible idea. I'm fully okay with Sidious as a Sith not giving a flying flip about any of that. No. He had a very large number of reasons why it was a perfectly stupid idea without any of that.

First off, Alderaan is a well to do planet. We know it's pretty damn wealthy as a planet full of artisans that also has a large hand in intergalactic trade. Not only that, but it is also a peaceful planet and one that at least seemed completely loyal to the emperor since the empire was formed.

Now, Darth Sidious is a politician. There is no way, no chance, no how, that Sidious wouldn't realize what a horrible horrible idea it was to destroy Alderaan.

Firstly from an economic stand point, removing such a huge economic entity would totally screw every one. There would be shortages throughout the galaxy, and trade routes, alliances, economic deals throughout the galaxy would all suffer. Sidious as a politician has to know this, and he must realize the impact that would have on his own supplies, armies, ships, etc. Sure Alderaan might not directly supply these things, but you can be damn sure that it's destruction would impact this. It's a whole planet full of people, producers, consumers, and trade.

Secondly, Sidious just destroyed a whole planet that to the rest of the galaxy seemed completely loyal to him! You can not tell me that no one would be jumping ship after that! Politically, its the stupidest move he could make, and his PR for it is horrible. If you are going to destroy a planet, and you're trying to keep the public on your side, its destruction would not be without warning signs. It would be treated like the Jews during the Holocaust, turning them into something evil, to be hated and destroyed. If you just suddenly turn and destroy a planet that seems completely loyal to you, the rest of the galaxy is going to look at that, look at you, and nope the hell out of there, secede, and join the rebellion. There's no way in hell that the rebellion would be the tiny handful of fleets, if that, from the movies. It would be at the very LEAST half of the flipping galaxy or more, like with the separatists(who were also unhappy with the government) in the prequels! And you can't tell me that all of the imperial army was totally okay with that action either. Again, its like the Holocaust. The majority of Germany's army did not know what was really going on in concernment camps but there are several stories of how when soldiers found out about what was happening they immediately deserted. There's no way that a good number of the imperial army would not jump ship after seeing something as horrifying as seeing the people you work for/with destroy an entire planet without any remorse whatsoever, and there's no way the Empire could have spun that or hidden that so that it isn't completely obvious what they did.

And again, all of this is stuff that as a politician, and an incredibly good one at that, Sidious would know. It's especially stupid since the reason they have to destroy the planet is mainly to get ONE SINGLE prisoner to talk and tell them where a base of a group that at best would be a minor inconvenice to the empire given the scale of both sides in the movies.

Not only that, but there were so many other ways that Sidious could have gone about it it's not even funny. Hell, with something the size of the Death Star all he needs to do to royally screw over any planet with water is park next to it. We know that the moon affects our oceans (which with the sudden introduction to a completely new gravity source that bigger you know would be causing tidal waves and tsunamis) as well as other natural disasters, and we know that the Death Star is the size of a moon. You want to really mess with a planet? Randomly introduce a new moon! Bam! They suddenly have a bunch of devastating natural disasters they can't predict and their only way of fixing it is to make you go away and even then they'll be messed up for years while the planet stabilizes again. If there's anything that will make them give in to your demands quickly, it's that. Plus just by parking there, you're also an automatic blockade and they can't get any aid, supplies, or trade, and their economy is screwed till you move on, especially with all those natural disasters!

So really, Lucas really didn't think that out much when he destroyed Alderaan. There are so many ways in which that action doesnt make an sense.

#star wars #random #rant #sorry for the rant #darth sidious #Alderaan #death star #sith #sithlord #politics #economy #economics #stupid #this is so dumb #seriously #this is stupid #empire #rebellion #rebel alliance #a new hope #sidious is an idiot #he should totally know better #destroying alderaan is not a good idea #jedi

[ganymedesclock]

Why do you think Shiro sided with Lotor so much during this season, doing potential reckless things just to help him? Others have theorizes it's because of Haggar, but I don't think that's it.

I mean, I’ve made it clear in prior posts that I don’t think Haggar is actually doing anything to protect Lotor or directly influence Shiro’s behavior- she’s just observing, and indirectly influencing him via making him feel seriously under the weather, which is driving his snappy behavior.

As far as Shiro getting along with Lotor... I think part of it is that Shiro and Lotor are contemporaries in a way that Lotor isn’t with the other paladins.

Mentally, they’re not the same, but fit the same profile- the charisma and cognitive, strategic inclinations of the Black Paladin.

And unlike Zarkon, who fell from that position- who distorted or turned on many of those roles and is thus, just close enough to Shiro’s ethics to be incredibly personally reprehensible to Shiro- Lotor is, in effect, still Worthy, and if his character arc is doing anything, it’s him rising towards further worthiness rather than falling away from it. Oriande mostly accepted Lotor- he’s just got one last key to put in the lock.

Shiro slots in easily with Lotor not because Lotor knows how to play him like a fiddle as much as the natural perspective Lotor takes on things is very close to Shiro’s own. They can understand each other very easily. They were doing this before- in s3e6 Shiro was the one who rightfully mentioned to Keith on several occasions that they couldn’t just run headfirst at Lotor himself- he’s playing the long game so they need to focus mainly on the pieces he’s trying to take for himself.

As far as the recklessness, that doesn’t have nearly as much to do with Lotor as much as it does Shiro believing something is right. Again, something he’s done before- remember in s2e3 with Ulaz, Shiro didn’t stop pushing the issue until Allura caved, and once he’d defeated Zarkon in Black’s astral realm, he bashed ahead with allying with the Blade even though Allura still had some very deep misgivings about it.

Shiro’s strength of personality, role as team strategist, and resolve put him in a place that, push come to shove, in a major disagreement within the team, unless something changes his mind he will basically steamroll them to accomplish what he thinks needs to be done. He’s always been a little pushy- in the early episodes towards Lance in particular Shiro is rather harsh with him on multiple occasions, even shoving him when he’s flirting with Nyma- because Lance isn’t sticking to what Shiro sees as Proper Paladin Conduct.

It’s easy to overlook Shiro’s pushiness as compared to Zarkon’s in s3e7, because Shiro also believes very strongly in fairness, and not talking over people if he doesn’t think there’s a good reason for it. He doesn’t have a sense of entitlement or an assumption that he can just go ahead and not listen to people.

It’s worth noting that, again, both Zarkon and Shiro in s3e7 and s5e4 bash ahead with what they think is right against their team’s disagreement. 

But Zarkon in s3e7 lies to the team and manipulates them into danger. He doesn’t care if they don’t want to be in this car going this direction, he’ll convince them they’re driving in a different direction and then lock the doors and floor the gas.

Shiro in s5e4? The only people he takes to the Kral Zera are himself and Lotor. He believes this needs to be done, and the paladins won’t follow him- so he doesn’t even consider trying to wheedle or lie to them. He’ll go alone, he’ll risk himself personally for his ideas rather than demand that kind of risk from people who didn’t even want to be here.

But Shiro’s always been willing to take some risks, because overwhelmingly, when confronted with a threat on the horizon... Shiro wants to meet it headfirst. Staying on Naxzela when the pillars were rising in s4e6 or smuggling Lotor the black bayard / sneaking out to take Lotor to the Kral Zera in s5e2 and s5e4 aren’t reflecting new behavior.

In s3e6 his strategy to let Voltron take a direct hit in the interest of shooting down the cargo ship is very much how he would act with himself in the cockpit, and what he projects onto Keith as how he thinks a proper black paladin needs to act.

In s2e5 his idea to protect the castle was to use the Black Lion specifically as bait and fight through the ensuing pain / psychic attack, basically grabbing Zarkon’s undivided attention.

In s2e7 he waited until most of them weren’t even on the castle and the one other person there was distracted before he tried to connect with Black, when he knew Zarkon was maliciously exploiting that exact connection- and when Black appeared to kidnap him away from the castle he never once tried to call Allura for help.

In s1e10 he refused to run to the escape pod and would have gotten both of them captured.

Shiro’s always been a little bit risky because his problem-solving has always been a little bit aggressive. This even trickles through in his ruthlessly pragmatic and frankly intimidating on-foot fighting style- he’ll shoot you with a gun, he’ll drop steel drums on you, he’ll smack you around with his metal hand or slash you to ribbons with its laser cutting edge. There’s a thread of predatory animal mindset to Shiro- an inclination to press the attack when put under pressure.

In s5e2 Shiro is not going to abdicate control of the situation to Zarkon. And the person who seems the most reasonable to his sensibilities- who’s agreeing with him- is Lotor. But at the same time, Shiro doesn’t want to risk Sam. So he goes through with the swap- but he smuggles Lotor the black bayard to guarantee that Zarkon’s about to get a whipsword in his back.

And in s5e4, Shiro’s focus is Ranveig, Gnov, Janka, Sendak- the whole motley crew of dangerous galra who stand to take the throne. Unless the paladins back a candidate themselves, they’re going to lose whoever snaps up the reigns, and Lotor is the obvious lesser evil, especially because Shiro already feels vindicated that in s5e2 Lotor didn’t seize the Black Bayard and run off with it.

Both times, it’s a little less about trusting Lotor and a little more about there being, in Shiro’s eyes, an obvious threat- and Lotor is similarly motivated, similarly concerned, in that both of them would move in that direction independently if the other wasn’t there.

So it’s less “Shiro abnormally trusts Lotor” and more “local Black Paladin figures enter Same Hat death spiral”

#voltron legendary defender #vld #Shiro #Lotor #season 5 spoilers #readmore #fullmetaldude1