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dorianblock · 3 years

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Brothers in a Civil War

The silver platter in my arms reflects the last fire

In his eyes, as I hold it out to my people, proving

Evil has breathed its last in our land, fulfilling

The prophecy I was born into, cursed

Before ever having a chance to outlive such a fate.

My shredded heart seeps from my chest, crushed

Between the shields of my parents’ armies,

The only remnant of the futile war to uphold

Their son whose fatted calf still bleeds

Onto the rug of our shared childhood.

His footprints smear blood with every step

That breaches the white marble paving our house,

Tearing down the doors of that most sacred place

To plant his red flag in the center of the monument

Against the slavery from which we were sculpted.

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dorianblock · 4 years

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Falling 4 Futbol

I've never pledged allegiance to any flag

Meaning in my heart an undying loyalty to any cause

I never rallied behind a team

For sport nor school, no color scheme did I bedrape

Voiding my wardrobe of anything but

Until I met you. I knew from those black and white stripes

Lining your blue eyes that I would allow athletics

To consume me if only to earn a place at your side.

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dorianblock · 4 years

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Why This is Different Than All Other Nights

I could not pass over the Seder of her heritage,

And arrived in my new stained glass window print

Dress that elicited a; “Wow,” from her lips

Upon my entrance, her eyes glued to my figure

Until she was forced by enmity to look away.

Her eyes found mine at the furthest point

Of the banquet as she beseeched for a companion

In the meal and, though I could not go to her side,

I watched as she blessed the Kadeish,

Her voice charming the Hebrew phrases

That neither delivered nor redeemed me

With each glass of sweet kosher wine.

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dorianblock · 4 years

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Captain

You saw the way they looked at me

Outside that grocery store on Lead

When they heard of our mutual fate.

The entire crew screaming “pobrecito”

At the top of their lungs, a fierce fire

In their eyes, does not compare to the shame

I face every day, especially tonight,

Leaving me speechless with nothing

To explain away their disappointment.

You sheepishly tried to throw me a line,

As if your new venture included me,

Which was always our plan

But was all the less confirmed

As soon as you took your new post.

How do I look them in the eye now and pretend

Everything is fine like I haven’t lost

Everything, like I have anything preventing

Me from jumping overboard?

You sailed away like it didn’t matter

Like you weren’t leaving anyone behind.

I could have been a yes man.

I could have thrown my lot in

With El Capitan, compromised

My morals and everything I stood for.

I would still be on deck under the only banner

I’ve ever felt I belonged to,

But I’m not standing anymore, I’m laying

At their mercy with my heart splattered

Across the floorboards, dripping

Down every surface our labor touched

Because I swore allegiance to you.

That’s why they don’t want me here

Reminding them of the sacrifices

They made to continue enjoying

Their cursed crew without consequence

And you are nowhere in sight

As they strip me down to nothing

Tearing more than I ever thought possible

From what little he left me

After they parced me into pieces

In their mutiny

But I’m not even your first mate

Worthy enough to go down with your ship

Or rise out of the ocean on the same wave

You now ride to victory.

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dorianblock · 4 years

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La Reigna

Hope, something that was but a word

Until I understood its significance

In my expectations which were so wide-reaching

That they began to consume my life

Experience taught me that hope

Could not be dared and would lead

To even greater disappointment than the latter

Ever did, however, I am beginning

To hope that her reign could come

And that I, having proven myself

A loyal and trustworthy attendant, might

Be included in her plans, rewarded

With the opportunity to continue

In her service where I might apprentice

Under her in that which she commands

As skillfully as a goddess or queen might

Some otherworldly element or her subjects

For to learn the multitude of my liege’s

Expertise would inevitably further

My lot in the world.

She didn't say goodbye.

I don't know what I expected

Or rather I don't know how I allowed

Myself to expect so much

As a final minute or hour

In her presence which was increasingly

Sought after now that she was restored

To her station, one I'd never stopped

Observing even with her time and attention

Oft shared with me in our

United fall from grace.

Once again we are not the same

With her upon the throne

I first prepared for her coronation.

Her ruling could grant

My greatest dream or sever me

Forever from that pursuit

And, in the same motion, her

Friendship which I found myself entirely

Reliant upon with the sudden weight

Of her absence leaving me,

As I'm sure she was, weighing

With heavy heart which I valued most,

As one was most certainly the end

Of the other, though, consumed

Entirely in that same doubt,

I feared this the last thought on her mind.

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dorianblock · 4 years

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Shik'isn I sit here at the firepit on my sorority’s plot, An alumni. Staring into the flames is the most at peace I have been since my absence here. My sisters are exhausted, fresh Cane slices lining their hands that are cracked From the brutal machete handles, the mark of our sisterhood. Behind me, it’s shadow outlined in the flames, sits our wikiup. The nomadic home of the Apache, a tribe for which I carry No blood but one for which I feel more allegiance than my native Navajo. Here is my home, surrounded by my sisters on this West Texas prairie grass of Wah Wah Taysee. It is not always facile in a sisterhood of such diversity, Embracing my two-spirit identity along with a fledgling Of our flock becoming the next Nde'isdzan Our sisterhood accepts us as they always have But right now, for this one weekend, all divides are suspended. Competition is on the morrow, but for this moment all tipis Are up, the last cane stems woven into willow branches And even plot lines are forgotten as our turquoise, camel and black Dilute into the maroon crowd. For this one night Before kickoff, as Freshmen diligently beat the hide That shall spell our victory on the next day's field, We are one.

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dorianblock · 4 years

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The Salve to My Soul In my unique hybrid plight I burn my flesh to cure My facial wounds inherent Of the unnatural changes I am forcing against God himself. As the herbs I employ to treat These blights sear my flesh, I endure smiling through the pain Knowing it is worth it in It's sure reward.

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dorianblock · 4 years

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Goodbye

The photos finally came in,

But by then it was too late.

I had blown my chances with you again.

The more I look at them the less real

They become, now a beautiful fairy tale

I will tell for the rest of my life,

Looking at pictures to convey

Some semblance of reality

Though even the images themselves

Propagate the fantasy of one night

Where everything was perfect.

It couldn’t be, though, because you smiled

And held me like never before

We said things we’d never said

And now never will again

But for one perfect night

We were free with each other

Even if the cause was the loss

Of freedom, suspended forever

I knew as I felt the night slipping

Away and you slipping into your coat

And out of my grasp. You broke

Our final embrace to tell me it was not

Goodbye, but I suppose even then

I knew it a lie, looking in your eyes

As you promised, we both did.

How could it be anything else?

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dorianblock · 4 years

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Epiphany

The smells and sounds of Christmas are filling the air

For the last time as I find myself consumed in hoping

My next holiday will be spent in the city of destiny

One that I fervently pray, along with those wise men,

I will share with someone far more brilliant than I,

Hitching myself to the brightest star.

Yet my hope seems a cruel joke to the girl

Who spent her holiday in a concrete prison,

Her life confined to two hundred square feet

By a twelve-month lease not four years ago.

She sat in the same lesbian mecca

I now yearn for, planning a wedding

Through Pinterest boards, an altar

I am on the other side of, holding photos

Commemorating the moment my pen

Is now tearing apart as I pack my bags.

It was just as she had imagined,

But she knew even then of the star crossed

Reason it could never be anything but a pretty pin,

Though she had yet to meet the bridegroom who

Ended up taking her bride’s hand and uttering her vows.

At first I wonder if they would have been lies

Coming from her lips, but then I remember

Her plans to flee that rainy city alone

On the heels of her arrival there.

Running back to the cold embrace of Colorado

Mountains where she would have confessed

In front of the entire General Convention

If necessary that which her poem brought to light

When revealed to its muse four years too late.

I reach out for her guidance now, but Seattleites

Harbor no friendly inkling as she quickly discovered,

And in the suburb of this new dream I am crafting

I cannot help but wonder if I am making

The same mistake she swore never to repeat.

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dorianblock · 4 years

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dorianblock · 4 years

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Impermanence Mine are the arms that enclosed you In His love never meaning to become What they did. It was never my intent to haunt You at night, laying waste To your dreams, making them so sweet That to wake in the same state As you fell to slumber was devastating. I never meant for my permanence to bleed Into you, christening you in my sacrosanct incense, Staining you so that no feeling you had Without me could bring happiness. For I am not permanent, meant to blink off As the sun rises, fly away to where you cannot follow But there are things that are permanent; Pretty words from my lips that reach your ears Inscribing themselves temporally on you forever Like those that your pen embossed with your heart's ink On tomes which imprinted on the lens of my eyes Revealing feelings of which we may never speak, Portraits printed on glossy paper Not to frame for public display But to keep in secret places like Buxton inserts that you can oft gaze upon In private and carry with you everywhere. Take these offering which I shed For love of you in remembrance of me.

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dorianblock · 4 years

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We oft joked about yeeting ourselves off the top of the lab on the precipice of the press box

When his words were too cruel and our hours too long at the end of the night

After the match as we trudged back to our cars carrying the heavy instruments of his marketing

Arm in arm and painted with exhaustion we meant every word

Now, though, in my complete and utter isolation, I realize I am the only one who valued my life so little

That I would gladly have jumped, if only to be with you

Which I so clearly proved in sharing this fall, though, you insist on falling alone

Yet the fealty was sworn that I go down with the ship and on my honor, I will not release that service now,

So I sit here in this office awaiting a potential new master at your insistence

Overhearing conversations so much like ours that flashbacks nearly race me out the door

I stare out at the railing wondering how much longer I can take it before I jump

Now, it is only I who will be yeeting myself with empty hands and heart

The urge coming stronger every day out of your presence or favor away from our united family.

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dorianblock · 4 years

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None have loved as I do Even Shakespeare in all his sonnets Never summated beauty as yours No romantic movie had ever, In all of cinematic history, Shared a tragedy such as ours Star crossed love does not Even begin to describe The hole in my chest That bleeds every time your face Pops up on my timeline. The most innocent and mundane post Sends me right back down to the bottom Of my glass, tinted an incriminating pink, Each reeking of the hard liquor That it takes my fragile heart To continue pumping tainted blood To an organ that has no purpose Since you took to the air Leaving my barren desert forever.

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dorianblock · 5 years

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Lady (Re)Defined

Through the spring ring clasp of your golden

Necklace, from which dangles a tantalizing warning spike,

You delimit femininity to encompass

A strength and independence

From which men like me should take heed,

And even lesser men should cower. You’ve tried

To communicate this so many times, but

The fire in your eyes and the edge of your tone

In quick response to my offer of assistance

Echoes the lessons learned through generations

Of women who fought for this chance

To be heard, listened to and regarded with respect.

As I back away, affirming the truth of your statement,

Though you require no approval from me,

I tremble at the goddess before me

Beautiful in her power and autonomy.

None could hope to possess the pulchritude

Of a modern woman, she who has lived

Alone and is, therefore, attuned

To the crudely guarded secret

Of our insignificance.

The golden chain leaves your fingertips,

Generously entrusted to the tacit virility of my care.

I cradle it in my palm, presuming the slightest

Movement could estrange such finery

For to disentangle this entire generation of progress

Would be deplorable to an extent, the victorian

Author of my alias would be ashamed by association

With such a monster as that which would seek

To harm this evolution of the human psyche,

Though, those of his time could not have dreamt of

Such a specter as that which stood before me

In all her splendor.

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dorianblock · 5 years

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Right before kickoff

Before the match, their excitement

My own heart already racing for hours

The grass spread out before me

Sparkling like new

Broken into crisp white lines

That smear with every footstep

Crushed blades beneath my feet

That's how it was, her hair blowing,

Wisping across her face

As I stood behind her

In the perfect light to catch

Her smile reflect off the sunbeams

Which beat down

On us as we stood transfixed

Soon it would all be over

The commotion would start

As the clock counted up

Not down as so many do

But in this moment of collective silence

I found a peace I've never known

One I never thought to look for here

In this world of stripes and balls

With bright and dark colors in harmony

Where I'm more at home

Than any I've ever known

I found a leader to follow

She's outlined before me

In the afternoon light like

She's been there forever

Waiting for me to find her world

Of leather stitched with polyurethane

They'll never think to look for me here

In the home I'd always belonged

If only I'd known where to look

I'm conformed of the men behind us

Sporting their gold and black shield

Behind which I found solace

And pledged my allegiance to their cause

For which I will endeavor tirelessly

As long as she'll let me

And, while I know nothing lasts forever,

I find myself hoping in the last note

That this team will.

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dorianblock · 5 years

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Anonymous Apology

Okay,

Please allow me to clarify

I have no strong dislike

Of rhyme though you probably knew

Surely I was cured of that

In my pursuit of English

So why say I do but to say

You wish I had praised your beauty

In a rhyme, of which I have

Thousands of times over

If only you knew

Of the embarrassing volumes

Bled through the ink

Of my pen in your honor

Indecent as they are

Neither would I dare insult

Your intelligence

With hidden numbers

Though these fourteen lines are carved

Across my chest in cursive meter

I am careful to bind them there

Protecting my virtue

In the vain hope that someday,

Should I devote myself

Entirely to Him, I might become

Worthy enough to learn

What manner of thing

It was when whole

That we lost.

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dorianblock · 5 years

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The Debt All Women Pay

The tulip’s leaves shrivel A sickly graying green Like those offending efflorescence Of Georgia O’Keefe. So my godmother too wilted In that most intimate of ways. Those carpels, which bore The two most precious beings, To betray like that was An unforgivable offense. They survive her in appearance, Eyes cast upwards towards heaven, A deep and knowing brown, Begging for her approval Of the gifts they send her on the wind. I lay writhing in pain Begging my maker to cause it cease. A square peg compelled into a round hole That to this day avoided Penetration of its walls, Against nature itself this advantage Seems taken, though the nurse remains Uncontested, despite her unconscious prey. This is the burden we bear From the first of our cast. God’s gift, a penance for the taste Of a fruit, forbidden, Should our race dare Become knowing, shedding the fleece Which held us captive in His flock.

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