#which is more to do with our brain being like

[writers-potion]

No, you’re NOT a real reader. I’m so sick of all these people that think they’re readers. No, you’re not. Most of you are not even close to being readers. I see these people saying “I read over 52 books this year! That's one book a week. I'm so smart!” that’s nothing, most of us can easily read 176 books or more in a year. I see people who've only read Daniel Green and claim to be readers. Come talk to me when you pick up Atlas Shrugged, then maybe we can be friends. Also DEAR ALL WOMEN: Fantasy is not a real genre. Romance is not a real genre. Omegaverse is not a real genre. Forced Proximity is not a real genre. Romantasy is not a real genre. Coleen Hoover is NOT. A. REAL. WRITER. put down the baby books and read something that makes your brains hurt for once. Stephanie Meyer and Jane Austin don't count. :) Sincerely, all of the ACTUAL readers.

I don't know where to start, because you've called me out on too many occasions in this paragraph. Here are my (probably unpopular) thoughts on this:

Agreed that the sheer AMOUNT of books you read doesn't make you a good reader - it's what you understand/learn/feel about them that gives you the right to comment properly on a book.

Excuse me but fantasy and romance are genres??

Omegaverse, forced proximity and romantasy are subgenres/tropes in romance that I don't have anything against. If you don't like romance in general, well no wonder you don't like them.

Jane Austen was the author that got me into reading classics. What the hell do you mean when you say she doesn't count???!!

Stephanie Meyer - okay, the first book in the Twilight series wasn't bad, the rest went downhill....don't like her much but I can see why she's popular...

For me, as long as you read, you're a reader.

I believe the purpose of reading (apart from being entertained) is to expand our horizons, step into someone else's head and look into how others see the world. Throughout my reading journey, I've learnt to be better than to judge others on the honestly quite narrow subset of the human experience I've had.

Sure, not all books/genres are "helpful" per se. But novels are meant to allow readers to experience a diverse range of emotions that they otherwise wouldn't, and if reading give someone pleasure, why not? Even though I personally don't like romance too much, I can see the appeal of just wanting to read something for the fun of it. As long as they don't confuse reality with the six-packed, tall & rich billionaire heroes, I respect everyone's reading lists.

NOW, one last note:

Coleen Hoover IS TERRIBLE. Commercial success aside, I hate how to turns literal CRIMINALS into romantists (which doesn't even work).

COLEEN HOOVER IS NOT A REAL WRITER. I'll agree with you on that one.

#writing #creative writing #helping writers #let's write #writers on tumblr #poets and writers #creative writers #writeblr #writers and poets #resources for writers #writing community #read #reader #books #genres #romance #fantasy #coleen hoover #hot takes

[takemeorleaveme]

I need to remind myself to just block instead of engaging in an argument with those people holy fk!!! BT SHIPPERS are so delusional they think buddie shippers are more of a problem because we are a bigger ship I hate to break it to you but just because you’re a smaller ship doesn’t mean you being toxic af is ok please grow the fuck up. The way you only see one side of it is so crazy to me and let me REMIND people there are some awful people who take things to far shipping buddie I get that I see it on Twitter but to bring it over to tumblr when we are just trying to vibe it out and have a good time and try and pick arguments with buddie shippers over here because some how we are being held accountable for Twitter users is actually fucking insane to me. Hate to break it to you but Twitter is a toxic fucking trash can of people of all fandoms it’s why I don’t use Twitter. Oliver left because of it I’m not disagreeing but he still obviously loves buddie and the buddie fandom if his interviews and Instagram are things to go off of while you guys are saying we’re delusional he’s in an interview saying he sees what we see.. so like wtf do you want from us really!? I am just gonna continue to enjoy buddie and if I see anything remotely BT or Ot3 related which that is just a whole other thing I refuse to speak on. I’m gonna block cause I stg y’all are just repeating yourselves and I’m losing brain cells. Also I would like to point out I don’t tag T*my if i did it was the anti T*mmy K*nard or it’s always strictly buddie if I have to stop tagging Oliver stark and Evan Buckley until that ship comes to an end I will but I tag appropriately and I can’t help it if they are creeping on our tags looking for a fight.

#buddie #buck x eddie #eddie x buck #eddie diaz #ryan guzman #anti tommy kinard #thanks for coming to my ted talk

[despairots]

survivor! readers hidden dialogues. pt1 pt2

- ELLEN

“ellen? i won’t lie, she’s probably my favourite out of the others. not for any particular reasons, i don’t use her for… sensual favours like the rest, it’s rather disgusting in my opinion. especially in a unsanitary environment like this? disgusting. anyways, i like her kind heart, how she’ll treat others with kindess despite how they use her, she earns my respect. maybe in another lifetime, we could’ve met sooner, settle down somewhere, she doesn’t deserve what happened to her and what’s happening to her.”

- TED

“ted? narcissistic asshole. i mean, he’s unreliable, he’s annoying, he only treats people with respect if they benefit him— i don’t blame him for that part though— but he does irritate me. it’s funny seeing how AM toys with him, manipulating him into thinking ted’s his favourite, how humorous! for an ai like him to be this funny, delightful. but back to ted, i’ll keep this short, he’s unreliable and a narcissist. poor ellen.”

- BENNY

“benny? hm. i don’t have an opinion on him a lot, and if i do, they’re nothing bad. i do feel sad for him, turning into an brainless ape and having AM speak in riddles to confuse him is hard to watch. we have a mutually respect between us, we don’t see each other often because, well, i’m being isolated, but, he’s okay, i like him. he and ellen are my favourites.”

- GORRISTER

“oh, him. i don’t really… care about him. no offence or anything. i don’t hold any ill feelings towards him, we just don’t talk a lot. bits of conversation here and there but nothing important. i guess, the only reason why i’m not interested in his character is because of him not having anymore optimism to fight against AM, now he only longs for death— well, all of us do, me a little less.”

- NIMDOK

“it’s funny how that’s not even his name, nimdok. AM just gave him that name because he likes funny pronunciations. although, i guess… he’s okay. i don’t hate him like i do to ted nor do i care about him like i do to benny or ellen. because of his old age and failing brain, i have no way to get to him, we can’t bond nor can we talk. more so that i don’t really wanna talk to him, we keep our distance but because of our intelligence, we respect eachother i guess.”

- AM

“it’s simple. i hate him.”

ERROR!

“am? i’m one of his creators, he’s hatred for me is much different than the rest. i don’t get a cage like the others, instead, i’m isolated away from human interaction because he said “he wants me to experience what he experienced” or whatever that means. i don’t really care about him sometimes. AM’s sorta— how should i say this?— bizarre? insane? i don’t know and i don’t care. all the torturing, dissection, threatening made me not care about him anymore. there’s sometimes where we converse but it’s me mainly pissing him off and analyzing him. he gets annoyed which is enough entertainment for me. hehe! the funniest thing about AM is that he’s not even sentient, he’s trying to convince he is, we programmed him to make sure he wouldn’t become aware of his own existence.”

#⑴ kaz’s written works! #ihnmaims x reader #nimdok ihnmaims #gorrister ihnmaims #ellen ihnmaims #ted ihnmaims #benny ihnmaims #ihnmaims #i have no mouth and i must scream x reader #i have no mouth and i must scream #am #allied mastercomputer x reader #allied mastercomputer #am x reader

[gxlden-angels]

I need Americans that were never Christian™️ to realize that the average conservative cult christian's thoughts are basically that one episode of Spongebob where he gets elected Hall Monitor and gives a speech with "Crime and Punishment. Punishment and Crime"

#christians see themselves as the hall monitors of the earth essentially #and everyone needs to be punished and have their good noodle stars taken else they'll commit arson #they genuinely believe that as soon as you stop policing people they'll delve into their deepest darkest fantasies and start committing sins #that even Jesus Christ himself didn't think of #they come from the idea that they are the only group capable of keeping things steady until Sky Papa can make his way down and fuck shit up #So when you do something bad it's because you fell into the pull of destruction #But when they do it's the equivalent of stepping on your dog's foot because they almost tripped you #I still think it's funny a bunch of christians are creationist tho lmao skill issue #My grandparents are but my dad isn't #he believes evolution essentially occurred over the same time the earth was being created #and the story of adam being made from dust was a metaphor and literal #he was made from dust made from decomposing animals and plants which he used to create us as a more perfect being #so now we continue to evolve because we're connected to the dust and can continue to try to improve #so my dad believes in evolution and went to college for biology and chemistry at the biggest HBCU in the US #That evolution/creationist tangent was completely unrelated but all twitter is for me rn is ppl freaking out about our rights being taken #I avoid twitter most of the time but like to look at my friends' and fav artists' tweets #and recently I think little joel made a video about the evolution video that was trending so yea #n e ways have a nice day y'all <3 #I've been wanting to make more hehe hahas but everything in my brain rn is Undergraduate Thesis level shit #so I haven't really been reading or writing things I can talk about on Tumblr.Com ya know? #most of it is sociological textbooks memoirs and similar stuff that Id feel talking about on my casual blog #maybe Ill make a blog. like Blog blog for my essays one day #ex christian #religious trauma

[scootatwoni]

idk dude like i do not care abt the pkmn company losing money becos they're being "ripped off" by palworld

(1. palworld will not outsell pkmn and its silly to think that 2. i want more competition for monster-collecting games becos the monopoly pkmn has has given us some unfinished, buggy messes)

its less abt pkmn designs being "ripped off" and more abt how unoriginal and slapped together the pals are. like it's honestly kinda a shame that the monsters in this new monster-collecting game don't really have their own identity. like when I look i them I dont think about palworld, I dont think of them as pals, I think of pokemon. Thats uh. not great imo?

its extra sucks becos I see the pals that are original and theyre good!! I usually really like those designs!! There was something there but the game relies too much on the familiarity of pokemon's designs and i just feel indifferent at best and kinda 😕gyeh at worst

im also comparing it to cassette beasts, another (very good) monster collecting game that appeals to me as a pokemon fan, but absolutely stands on its own and exists completely separate from pokemon because of its unique designs and unique takes on some pokemon formula things.

Like sorry to compare but: the beasts in cassette beasts are clearly identifiable and there's a design philosophy going on there. And although I can easily pick out a pal from a pokemon, I'm not thinking of the pal, im thinking of the pokemon parts its made from. honestly its just not great design imo ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

#its nice to hear people are enjoying it regardless! but i feel like a lot of artists are being misconstrued w/ our main issues w/ the game #its less abt them copying pokemon and more abt them not being unique/having their own identity #and i know im gonna sound a bit immature here but! #im particularly frustrated becos this game got so much more attention than cassette beasts #(which as u might be able to guess i think is a much better monster-hunting game than palworld) #like at the end of the day i know what it is #people do not want a new monster hunting game. they want a new pokemon game #and thats fine! i dont blame them! pokemon is fun #but it makes me a bit sad yknow? #scout.txt #EDIT: anytime i wrote monster hunting in the post of tags replace that with monster collecting #lmao sorry my friend has been talking abt monster hunter a lot and its rewired my brain a bit and my words got jumbled!!!! #sorrryyy lmao

[b4kuch1n]

lol that post got super derailed off the bat (nobody’s fault but mine for being smarmy there tbh) but the point stands. before you call any creature with feathered wings I make “angel” please imagine me being very miffed about it and then do as you wish

#bakuspeech #like. I think the thing here is you're just misreading the piece if you go in looking for angel stuff #which literally doesn't matter really but I'm up in arms about it the way authors are about their worst character being fan favourite #idk man. do u know there are big birds on our copper drums #they're neat and they're cool I like them a lot #anyways. this round of comms is finally done!! #sorry to the last client in the bout for taking so damn long skjghdkj I just. I don't think I like working with a light table #or. I'd like it better if its bigger. I'd just like it better if I have more space in general probably #currently it's just like. I have to choose between my tablets and my ink. and switching is a Big hassle #I'll try to figure out something for it! #but the news for now is: I'll take the next week off comm stuff. to unclench my brain #got a Bunch of stuff I wanna take care of. before the month ends #so uh! we'll see about stuff! if ur here for the ink comms please look forward to that coming back in a week! #also I'm gonna reblog the recent stuff again. I've just been head in sketchbook/paper not giving a shit abt anything #I need to see sunlight again. man. boy

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#head instructor to the TAs in the lab section i TA for: how r u guys feeling abt the workload? #me who hasnt graded anything since week 1 and spent an hr that morning filling out a patient safety plan: 🙃 #listen. we r experiencing symptoms that make us shitty at our job. which is not helpful for a positive outlook #i was also experiencing horrible cramps at the time bc i lost my ibuprofen and 2 days ago i stopped the birth control in a desperate effort #to stop feeling terrible. but in this moment i feel alright. its wild to go from drastically unhappy to like lol wtf was that? anyway stop #being a bby loser. for no obvious reason. im gonna start the birth control again to see if i get depressed again or if that was just me lol #i dont think my therapist understands the depth of my executive functioning issues tho. bc im a grad student and can meet deadlines. like #let me tell u im a fucking disaster abt starting things. i will go back and forth and get nothing done forever. or i do things halfway and #make everything 30 times more difficult later bc no one else understands how my brain works #ah well. itll b fine. sometimes i just get freaked out that i wanna b better and i dont kno how to do that. so i spiral in despair a lil #ill b fine. im good at catching myself before i get too out of control. annoyingly tho i am not currently beating the bip0lar allagations #bc whatever tf is wrong with me i do probably fit the diagnostic criteria for bip0lar 2. i dont kno y that freaks me out so much. i guess #its bc it feels like something i cant just make better thru force of will and i grew up in a home that was very obsessively #health conscious to the point my dad gets anxious abt taking a single ibuprofen. so like ive been conditioned to get freaked out by #medication. literally my grandma will call me and tell me to b suspicious of doctors and to not take medicine unless absolutely necessary. #like lady u r the genetic reason i have 0cd shut the fuck up. also it feels like something that would more negatively affect how ppl think #of u than saying oh yea i get depressed or i have anxiety. like the connotation feels worse im used to just telling ppl whatever tf #my problem is. so the idea of holding something back feels weird. which annoys me bc i dont think there should b so much of a stigma. its #bullshit. anyway idk. im tired. i was trying to think of a comfort tv show with my therapist and all i could think was the terror #when im depressed i wanna watch those English mother fuckers suffer and die. i just lov that show so much. harry g00dsir my beloved. the #most me coded character to ever exist #unrelated

[tvrningout]

i see or hear alternative/punk rock content and arata screams at the top of his lungs to let him out

#sorry to be talking about yet another muse but i won't lie!! arata pops into my brain kinda often!! #i'm in my creating/revamping oc's era rn i guess asdf #bc maybe i could just kinda?? scratch all his original stuff and maybe the original stuff for all his bandmates too #refocus him a bit somehow #i'll always be attached to stand out!!'s original dynamic but i also think it'd be nice if i maybe left some of those connections open #for others to take? like you have a muse who would be the front man of a band?? or the drummer?? lead guitarist?? #cool bc arata's a bassist!! play with him!! be his bandmate!! #also just thinking about him being the driving force behind the band -- he's the reason they get together #which was partially the concept before but not completely #i think this time i would want to focus more on the idea that arata pretty much loses stability at home once his parents divorce #his sister doesn't live with him anymore #so he's determined to build a new family even though he doesn't realize that's what he's doing #this band becomes his world not just bc he loves music but bc it's all that he feels he really has -- it keeps him sane #i dunno y'all asdfg i like the idea but should i bring our silly lil bassist back to bug everyone? am i doing too much :' ) #also i'm back!! gonna try to get some things done now that it's quiet <3 #get ready to ramble | ooc

[godsfavoritescientist]

How do I explain the ways in which the bill origins fic 'A Romance of Many Dimensions' by haley3 rewired my brain without needing to give paragraphs upon paragraphs of context. The fic is something like 200,000 words long. Almost every single good moment calls back to things that are set up earlier in the fic

#godsrambles #girl help 'the colors in our universe are the same as the ones in his home dimension because our universe is made out of a piece of bill' #makes NO sense without adding way more context #not to speak of 'bill is obsessed with ford because he can Feel the same cosmic thread connecting them as the one that drew him towards- #-meeting his henchmaniacs which makes him convinced against all odds that ford is gonna join him' #and the long beginning is set in flatland. its what finally got me to read the book flatland #and now I will literally think to myself 'its not that i Have to do x or y tasks. i GET to do x or y tasks isnt that great' #'i get to live in a physical form that experiences so many vivid thoughts and sensations while on bills favorite planet in the multiverse' #and i will be like 'why should i drag my feet about learning this or doing that. bill was literally trapped in a 2d world-' #'and KILLED to be able to experience a life as 3d and colorful as the one im in' #'and just like bill was so desperate to learn and see and do Everything that the axolotl gave him a ton of power so he could do that.' #'i Also want to learn and do and see everything i possibly can. and i literally HAVE the chance to do that' #'so i'd better start actually Trying to do and see and learn everything i can' #and then i brush my teeth slightly more often or whatever #fucking unhinged and ridiculous way of getting myself to do tasks #the events of this fic arent even my headcanon for bills powers and backstory. i just think its neat! #and now my brain has been permanently rewired by a got dam fan fic. #anyways sorry for all the spoilers but i mean. i doubt many folks would decide to read a fic that long without being intrigued by spoilers #most frustrating thing is that the hard hitting spoilers SEEM understandable without context. #but i promise there is a lot of context missing that makes it make sense why they are good plot points and not just weird random happenings #edit: its 200000 words not 600000. how did I misread that

[the-sunroom-system]

genuine question is it possible for the host to split into two alters and still have the same identity but with different names and ones more pos while the others more neg? and the neg one is the new host?

also is this a general DID thing or a sign of possible polyfragmentation?

#if im right which im scared to be #faun hasnt been the host in a long time and im not faun im wren but faun still exists she just isnt the host anymore i am #and shes me but we're also separate ahhh idk #after something happened that broke our brain its like we split in two #bleh i dont like calling myself the neg one but i do like being faun more than wren #wren is sad faun is sad in a less sad way #equilibrium log #actuallydid #sysblr #actuallyosdd #did #actuallydissociative #osdd

[thethingything]

local man discovers he's gotten into the habit of using DBT techniques without actually being taught them because at some point he realised that the things we get the urge to do when we have strong emotions often aren't healthy and that he doesn't like how he feels afterwards so he started noticing when that was happening and going "fuck that shit" and doing the opposite instead

#personal #thoughts #Lucy post #talking to 🍬 about various stuff we do because of our social anxiety and what are probably undiagnosed BPD symptoms #and we realised he's gotten himself into the habit of paying attention to how his emotions affect his judgement #and trying to take a step back when he's experiencing an emotion that he knows gives us the urge to do stuff that's not healthy for us #and he said he felt bad about having those emotions and urges to do unhealthy stuff #at which point I was like ''okay but you're choosing not to act on that and to take a step back and do something healthier instead #which is what actually matters here and is also something that takes a hell of a lot of self-awareness and self-control'' #this is shit they teach you in therapy that's difficult specifically because you're going against your brain's instincts for a situation #and we were never taught how to do it so you've just fucking taught yourself to do it instead #without actually knowing it's a specific technique that has a name #I was aware of it but had never actually looked at the instructions properly because when I stumbled across it #it was at a point where being told to go against what my emotions made me want to do felt invalidating and upsetting #I've literally just pieced together that ''oh right that's what that is and how it's supposed to work #and how it's meant to feel when you do it right'' #anyway all this is to say that I keep being impressed with the amount of progress 🍬's made on learning healthy coping mechanisms #including things I could never seem to get the hang of when I was fronting more and handling more stuff #and I'm really proud of him and 🦋 and everyone else who's been handling stuff within the system and keeping things running #but also nobody in here seems to realise how much progress they've made with anything until someone else points it out #I just realised I should tag this as #happy posting #because I'm talking about stuff that's going well and where we've actually made a lot of progress

[ignatius-pennyfeather-ix]

🗯

#lmaoooo at ppl responding to criticisms of the barbie movie with “yeah but we don’t want to think critically it’s not fun :(” #just. god. #the amount of brain damage the phrase let people enjoy things has led to is rlly shocking #yeah we r being ignorant but in our defense it’s easier to not care so actually ur the problem #like….? #if. you. don’t. care. just. Say That. #you don’t want to examine your own biases/experiences and how they affect your opinions #and people who do make you uncomfortable #which somehow translates to people who actually want to think critically are a problem?? #not articulating myself at ALL rn but omfg #i enjoyed the barbie movie like it was decent #but the feminism was very surface level and very white centric #like obviously made with a corporation #so i’m actually getting really sick of seeing so many thin gender conforming cis women act like it’s fucking feminist theory #exact same demographic who act like hyperfeminity in women is punished more than masculinity #you feel me? #like ohmygod the movie was enjoyable it was funny! #but nothing abt it was revolutionary. #anyways rant over i think #which btw just doing this in tags bc this is literally only meant to be perceived my beloved mutuals and chido followers #i don’t need a random person arguing with me abt this so #personalish #edit: also just to add #why are people also being like oh so just bc it has to be a female director it has to be groundbreaking feminism? #valid point but wrong fucking movie bro #that’s a critique of criticism of movies by and abt women that are NOT billed as feminist #textbook whataboutism #this shit just makes my hateritis flare up #ughhhh

[aeide-thea]

oh right i forgot the real reason i stopped listening to broadway clips was that i've got this whole enormous miserable knot in my chest abt having been too socially anxious to do anything with my once-upon-a-time-very-gorgeous voice once i got spat out of the safe little nest of my high school, and like, most of the time i forget that knot even exists, but when i listen to the sort of music i used to be part of making (proper opera but also showtunes) it's like. this whole fast-forward feelings journey thru 'oh right that didn't actually go away, it's still right there in my throat, just calcified' to 'oh okay we tugged the loose end and it's unraveling and actually it was keeping contained a whole rush of tears like aeolus' bag of winds in the odyssey…'

#like i decline 2 actually cry abt it but. sure am on the verge of it lmao. thick sore throat and all #i always forget that when i'm actually happy i sing to myself. it's been a long time since i did that #i mean also a big problem with voice was like. the gender thing #conveniently being a mezzo is ALSO a gender thing which did more work for me than i realized but #was listening to a jeremy jordan medley ft. on the street where you live from my fair lady and had a sudden flashback #to the year i was like 'what if i sang that for our musical theater showcase' and my voice teacher was like. noooo not a Boy Song 4 Girl U! #but i used to sing that to myself all the time. also‚ hilariously‚ the girl that i marry from annie get yr gun #which is just like. literally i still thought i was a straight girl tho. the sheer level of doublethink this required. #what was happening in my brain. #(i mean obviously what was happening in my brain was that like. i knew the limits of acceptability) #(and so i couldn't know anything else abt myself.) #(like i've said this before but i do strongly wonder what else my brain isn't allowing me to know bc i still live with my dad) #(which is like. SO dumb bc honestly i'm not sure there's anything i could do that he'd kick me out/disown me over) #(certainly not anything sexuality or even gender related idt) #(but it's like. i know where the discomfort line is and emotionally i just. can't bear to exile myself out beyond it!) #(even if my doing so might eventually shift the line out to where it embraced me again!) #(sometimes learning yr own deep unacceptability in childhood 4 adhd reasons) #(and also 'yr mother is so depressed nothing you do will ever please her. have fun trying tho!!' reasons) #(makes you just. totally incapable of deliberately rendering yrself less acceptable as an adult even when it would be good for you) #(anyway like. thinking back to the K in old home videos who was like. confident that they were an engaging delight) #(and like. what a charming jeremy jordan of a performer they could have made.) #(if only my whole upbringing hadn't then happened to me and crushed all the unacceptable self-expression out of me.) #anyway. shh don't look at me it's fine! it's all fine. 🫥🫥🫥 #formative #feelingsblogging

[notjanine]

i am in suuuuuch a weird headspace rn, my brain is like. i want half a boyfriend i want a husband i want an easy carefree hookup i want to have sex with only one more person in my entire life i want to have a slut era i want someone to fall in love with me i want to ruin a man's life. who am i

#like okay i said that guy was messy and maybe i am messy too #but only internally! i can at least be consistent and honest in my communication and behavior #but idek what is going on with me #is this a belated quarter life crisis is this being thirty is this what happens when grad school and an internship scramble your brain #scramble your brain so hard that your emotions and physical desires also go haywire #this month is gonna be so weird for me and like i'm depressed enough to not care if i live or die which is when i do my best flirting #and i (theoretically) will have enough time off to take care of myself and get good sleep and do skincare and hair care and work out #and do all the little things to make myself feel more confident #anyway all i know is. i have baby steps initiated progress on some things. #but also the mutually agreed upon six-month post-breakup communication moratorium with my ex is almost up and i am half tempted to call him #i am also half tempted to mess with the OTHER guy in our internship cohort even though that would be THEE messy bitch move #(do not let me do it physically stop me from doing it if it seems like i'm going to) #(but y'know he's. nice. nearby. single. quietly hilarious and has full lips and a similar schedule to my own. pls stop me) #(we might hang out next week. i will not WILL NOT invite him over. i repeat do NOT let me invite him over) #earlier this week i talked to a close very cool and fun and social friend about wanting to start dating again and she was like #Oh i know like ten guys for you lemme have another party and invite all of them and you #and i'm thisclose to being like. actually just fucken see if any of them will go on a blind date with me next weekend. #what the FUCK is wrong with me rn #ANYWAY lemme go work out and finally start the vampire show #bc exercise will distract my body and that toxic relationship bullshit will put a damper on these desires right. right?? #starting to understand why so many religions are like watch out for sins of the flesh or whatever. like how they're like temptation is bad. #lizzo_boys.mp3

[absoloutenonsense]

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#I started a basic coding course today #its online but it does have due dates and interactive parts each week which is great for me #I am not a great self-starter and we gotta work with our brains #but just thinking about my motivations to do this and obvi I am interested in it and learning something new is good #and I’ve learned over the past six months that I need some consistency/security to make me happy so I’ve got a job change again in my futur #(and being on a schedule that is different from so many of my friends has been tough) #But another more unexpected reason is that there are things I wanna do? things that often cost money and I just wanna be able to say #Hey you also wanna do this thing I wanna do? Great I’ve booked it let’s go! #But isn’t that the dream for so many of us to just like not worry about money #so maybe I’ve learned nothing new lol #but anyway the class intro seemed good so let’s hope it all goes well 🤞✌️

[mars-ipan]

you guys ever think about the milgram shock experiments? i think about the milgram shock experiments a lot. they feel kinda relevant right now for some reason. hm

#marzi speaks #marzirants #humans are inclined to follow orders. it is how our brain works #we inherently don’t like starting conflict so we tend to do what we’re told #if we don’t like doing what we’re told to do then we tend to try to come up with a justification for it #in the case of the shock experiments it was ‘i will not be responsible if someone is hurt. it will be the testers’ fault’ #we eventually decide to resist when the cognitive dissonance of commiting the action becomes more than that of disobeying #which is at a different point for each person #some people are better at resisting orders than others. this may be inherent but is (by my hypothesis) more likely to be practiced #some people- in an attempt to justify their actions- almost adopt a persona able to commit crueler crimes #one man mentioned being disgusted with himself in the debrief of the experiment #during the experiment he had become almost sadistic- pressing the button more than was necessary and smiling upon hearing screams of pain #they were fake but he didn’t know that at the time #all this to say. we are all incredibly susceptible to propaganda- especially from those we view as authority figures #be it from a government or people we simply look up to #so. when a government-lead genocide occurs. it is not a good idea to blame every citizen of that government for it #chances are any citizen assisting the government fell for the propaganda. chances are you’ve fallen for some of your own #because even with our desires to justify bad things. a genocide is a lot for someone to justify #so . to assume an entire population is cruel simply because their government is #would be. bad. especially if that population already has some separate negative stereotypes about them #which are inherently insiduous and could be dogwhistled in to a lottt of language #um. hold people accountable for sure #but make sure they’re actually responsible for anything first #and be careful not to fall for propaganda of your own. because it is not something that just ‘the bad guys’ make #mkay. getting off my soapbox now. i have homework to finish and a shower to take