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#which also raises so many questions like was he born in italy and then moved as a kid to america like so many people did during the early 19
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blogplutopools · 9 months
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about rocky and lola
(ahoy! oc x canon/self ship ahead! also, walls of text)
some of you guys wanted to know more about my oc, so here you are!
i would also like to preface this by saying: i am not an immigrant. while i am of italian descent, there are things in here that i cannot relate to because i was born in the us. please let me know if my oc is a gross representation of immigrants. i would feel awful if my character offended or misrepresented anybody. i won't be upset, i promise. please let me know
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before lola met rocky:
lola immigrated from italy to the united states in 1912, due to the rise of crime and poverty. while i would also say fascism too, but mussolini didn't start his regime until the early 1920's.
she immigrated with her father and paternal grandmother. they would move around a lot while her father scrambled to find work. they finally settled in saint charles, missouri. her father worked several jobs to stay afloat.
while lola doesn't have many memories with her father, she knew that he was doing his best as a single dad who only knew so much english.
the few things that her father and her would do when he wasn't busy, is play guitar- which is how she got into playing music. (this is important to her adulthood btw- put a pin in it)
they lived a few houses down from the mcmurray household.
during that time, lola really locked down on learning english. her nonna was more like a drill sergeant when it came to teaching her granddaughter a different language. in some instances, she'd wake lola up in the middle of the night for quizzes. lola wouldn't say anything about it though. you don't talk back to nonna.
lola would also do insane amount of chores for nonna, and she'd take advantage of this full force.
this might make it seem like her nonna was uncaring and cruel, she really wasn't. she is more of a cool disney grandma than anything else. she's just looking out for her granddaughter the best way she knows how.
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after lola met rocky:
after a while, rocky and lola bumped into each other when they were 11 and became friends.
'bumped into each other' is a cuter way of describing their first interaction. in reality, lola found rocky stuck in a bush and helped him out. it was awkward. but they warmed up to each other!
lola understood most english, however didn't understand rocky's grandiloquent way of speaking.
while rocky wanted to be courteous and speak in a way easier for her to understand, lola wouldn't allow him too. she wanted him be himself. that, and she also didn't want to be 'dumbed down' in a sense. she wanted to understand more english, and was adamant about it.
rocky inadvertently helped her with a lot of vocabulary, simply just listening to him and and asking him questions if she couldn't put the pieces together.
this also made her love his poetry, especially when they became teenagers.
rocky enjoyed listening to her speak in italian. with his fondness of romanticism and the renaissance period, he thoroughly enjoyed just listening to lola. it would be his very few instances of calmness.
he also thought her accent was adorable (who can blame him though? children speaking in italian is really cute)
music is when rocky and lola had the most fun. they would play music for hours, teach each other how to play their instruments, create instruments with glasses and cartons.
they were both just shining balls of creativity, and being together sparked it even more
( a little side note, but i headcanon rocky as an ENFP, and lola as an INFP )
rocky was, of course, much more adventurous. he'd drag lola into situations all the time. this would get her into a lot of trouble depending on how dangerous the 'adventure' was.
lola never got angry at him however. if anything, she was glad it happened.
there were only a few instances were lola ever raised her voice at rocky, but they were for good reasons.
lola was iffy about aunt nina. while she tried to understand why she acted the way she did, she just never understood her disdain towards rocky.
lola never disliked nina, she was very nice to her when she was by herself. but she also didn't like her in a way either.
rocky never opened up about his past until later in life, so she didn't know much about why he didn't have parents or why he was living with his aunt's. and frankly, she didn't want to pry.
lola knew, in a small way, what it was like to not be raised by your parents, so she didn't want to make him feel anymore alienated than he already did by asking questions.
she just understood, and rocky appreciated her so much for that.
for a brief synopsis of their childhood friendship: rocky helped lola come out of her shell and take risks, while lola helped rocky enjoy the littler things in life and taking things slow.
i'll talk about their relationship as teenagers in a later post, because this one is just so long as it is.
i imagined lola singing this and i started smiling like an idiot
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Not just football
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When we arrived in Udine it was raining, or rather drizzling. It is still December, Argentina and Leo Messi are not yet world champions, and Serie A, like most other leagues, is experiencing an irritating lull. Even the Dacia Arena is unusually silent, suspended in a metaphysical void that makes the places around it all the more material. One becomes aware of the painstaking work done by the people of Udine and the ownership, which, in addition to having the second most-owned facility in Serie A, has built the entire headquarter made up of training fields, gyms, and offices where all those who make the 'bianconera' club, one of the most modern clubs in Italy, meet every day. But for three seasons now, the Dacia Arena has been the home of Gerard Deulofeu, the protagonist of the seventh episode of More Than. Born in Catalonia and raised in the Masia - Barcelona's academy - Deulofeu has been wearing the Bianconeri jersey since 2020 and ever since that year he wears the very important number 10 on his back.
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The first jokes we exchanged are related to the World Cup, the final in fact was to be played in a few days. "I hope Messi wins the World Cup, he deserves it, however, France is really strong," he tells us as we move between the black armchairs of the Friuli and he wears one of the first looks. Gerard Deulofeu is still struggling with an injury, the second to his knee, that is keeping him from playing football: his last match in fact ended at the Maradona Stadium after only 25 minutes of play. But from the way he looks at the field, the turf described as one of the best in Europe, it is clear how determined and eager the Spanish striker is to pick up where he left off. Gerard Deulofeu grew up among the blades of grass at the Spanish academy with a different awareness than his teammates, "when I was 12 years old I was very strong and I already knew I could do it, I was always playing with the older guys. I knew I could become a great soccer player. After that it's not easy, it's different playing in the academy and then on the first team of course, but I knew from that age there that I would break through and make this sport my job." A stubbornness and predestination that perhaps comes from his last name, which means "made by God" in Catalan, and that led him, the only one in his class, to make it to the first team. "Imagine a whole generation where almost no one has made it. It's clear that it's very difficult, there's a lot to do and I myself am very proud of where I've arrived."
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Compared to his early days, Gerard Deulofeu has now become a veteran and has experienced from inside the changes that football is currently going through. "Football has changed, so much has changed. The footballer today has a different visibility, he is on TV every day, and the arrival of social media has completely transformed the way we communicate. Today we have a very big responsibility, there are new generations who are watching you day by day, and we who are in the elite of football have to set the right example to understand also how many sacrifices there are behind, coming to this level." In short, people today are looking for a sophisticated and elegant character on which to build a narrative, far from the stereotype of the player who has dominated the magazines for years. And this transformation has not only taken place on the surface but also in the Udinese striker's thoughts and head. In response to my question about what football represented for him, a question as simple as "it is complicated for someone who has made the sport his job", Gerard Deulofeu thinks about it for a moment before giving an answer I would not have expected to hear: "Football? Many people would tell you it's everything, but for me it is not. Before it used to be everything, now it is an important part of my life, but over the years I have managed to differentiate and there are many other important things. I am "loco" about football, I look at all the statistics, the numbers, however, you get to a point where you have to detach, you have to have a side life. In my opinion, focusing on family and having the right people next to you is everything, those are goals I try to pursue day by day."
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We are used to perceiving a footballer as someone devoted only to the ball, unable to think of anything else, whereas Deulofeu, while still calling himself "loco"- using Spanish to explain himself best - has learned to balance all aspects of his life, both on and off the pitch. From the very first exchange of banter in our conversation, one notices how concrete and well-ordered Gerard Deulofeu is, almost the opposite of how he moves in the green rectangle, where he brings out imagination and strokes of genius. A pragmatism that is also evident in his social profile, where the Catalan player uses a different approach from the norm, not just commenting or celebrating matches, goals, and records. "I like to show another side of myself on social media. For example, after matches I directly want to interact with the people, explain how it went, what I felt and communicate my feelings. I don't like to write '3 more points or a great match,' I want to explain everything because I love football, I like to experience the matches and I think people are interested in that too". In addition to the usual tactical analysis, the business side of the Udinese striker, something rarely seen in a footballer, immediately stands out: "I want to show this passion of mine, several proposals are coming. I don't have a clear goal yet but I'm always looking for a well-organized project, I think that's the important thing".
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However, with his arrival in Italy in 2017 at the court of AC Milan, Deulofeu discovered what will eventually become a new passion of his, fashion. "Obviously in Italy, fashion is something else. I remember my 6 months with AC Milan, I was living at the hotel, and fashion week was incredible. I also remember with pleasure several Milan players who had a unique and sophisticated style. Abate, for example, was one of those who always dressed well." Indeed, arriving in the 'Bel Paese' changed his relationship with certain garments, and he ended up giving more and more attention to this aesthetic aspect. Now, he explains to me, he is aware of how every garment made in Italy is renowned for the quality of the fabrics and the elegance of their construction: "In recent years I have developed a much closer relationship with fashion. Every day I wake up and try different looks, it depends on how I feel when I get up, what my feelings are. Before, I remember that I always used to wear sweatpants, for training and really all day long, however now I like to choose all the clothes and think about the possible combinations. I believe that putting on a certain outfit helps you to make the day better. Although as you have seen I am a terrible model (laughs)."
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It's a passion that everyone is aware of by now, so much so that as we're in the final stages of the shooting, several staff members of the technical staff look out to see Gerard Deulofeu in definitely not institutional outfits. He too is sure to be the one with the most style in the team, it's "hard to find another," he tells us. But the passion he discovered and perhaps rediscovered in Italy has its roots in Spain, where he used to meet up with his two close friends Marcos Llorente and Marino: "when I can, I go around a lot with them to stores or even tailors to have clothes tailored for us. They helped me change my wardrobe. However, if I have to tell you a name, the most stylish footballer I have been with is definitely Sergio Ramos, he's always dressed impeccably." Gerard Deulofeu seems to have found his dimension in Italy among his many side projects and especially on the pitch, where with time he has become the driving force of a young team that is always tough to play against. In addition, he is doing so with a new number on his shoulders, which in football is synonymous with quality, imagination, and leadership: "the number 10 here has only been worn by great footballers so it is a great responsibility. I know that when I get on the pitch, I am Udinese's number 10, so I have to be a leader on the pitch and especially on offense. Now I don't want to talk mid-season, because I prefer to talk at the end of the season since this number needs facts. I know what I'm up against." And it couldn't be otherwise in a setting like the one in Friuli, where everyone is a fundamental part of a bigger mechanism, in a lifestyle that for years has never ceased to amaze: "I feel very happy here, it's been two years and my level on the pitch is also feeling the effects. Being happy on a team for me has so much value, I don't want to think about the future because otherwise I don't live the present, and being here the present is very good. I don't go out too much, I stay with my family, I'm always thinking about the game, always focused," always keeping in mind how football is not everything.
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“A marquis weds a poor girl on the condition that she obey him utterly and never complain. On her wedding day he has her stripped naked and then dressed in rich robes. Griselda keeps her word so well that the marquis decides he must test her. When a son and a daughter are born, he lies to her, telling her they must be killed because his people resent them as base. She asks only that they be decently buried. He hides the children and has them raised far away. Years go by. He pretends to divorce her, sending her home to her father's hut. As she leaves, he again strips her of her clothes, and she begs for a smock to hide her nakedness. 
Still unsatisfied, he soon brings her back to the palace to wait on his new bride during his wedding feast. The bride is his own daughter, now grown. Griselda complies, asking only that he treat his new wife more gently than he has her. At the last moment, the marquis relents. Reunited with her children, Griselda swoons, then revives. Dressed again in her rich robes, she embraces her loving husband. Her fame brings her eternal hosannas. But not from everyone. The name of Griselda has also been used as a shorthand for female submissiveness so close to stupidity as to be indistinguishable from it. 
"The Wise Government of a Gentlewoman" from Painter's Palace of Pleasure (1666), a tale loosely based on a story by Marguerite de Navarre, turns sardonic laughter against the patient wife. When a gentlewoman's home is threatened with ruin because of her husband's nightly trysts with a maidservant, the wife chooses to go on the offensive. When her attempts to shame him don't work, she lights a fire in the maid's room and smokes him out in the middle of the night. The narrator urges wives in a similar fix to take action: "For what Griselde could suffer her wedded husband, assembled in bedde, in depth of sleep, to rise and runne a straie like a wylde horse, neying after the straied female kind of that sort?"
This is not to deny that Griselda's story was potent and ubiquitous. On the contrary: her fable spawned a multitude of jests and tales that do not even name her. Some stories that draw on Griselda do, however, question the idea of total wifely submission. As if acknowledging the dangers of the tale as masculinist fantasy, some jests warn husbands not to try acting like the marquis at home: 
A young man lately married to a wife thought it was good policy to get the mastery of her in the beginning, and came to her when the pot was seething .... [H]e suddenly commanded her to take the pot from the fire which [she] answered and said that the meat was not ready to eat. And he said again: "I will have it taken off for my pleasure." This good woman, loath yet to offend him, set the pot beside the fire as he bad. And, anon after he commanded her to set the pot behind the door. And she said thereto again: "Ye be not wise therein." But he precisely said it should be so as he bad, and she genteely again did his commandement. 
This man yet not satisifed, commanded her to set the pot ahigh on the hen roost. "What!" quod the wife again, "I trow ye be mad." And he fiercely then commanded her to set it there or else, he said, she should repent. She somewhat afraid to move his patience, took a ladder and set it to the roost, and went herself up the ladder, and took the pot in her hand-praying her husband then to hold the ladder fast for sliding, which he so did. And when the husband looked up and saw the pot stand there on high, he said thus: "Lo, now standeth the pot there as I would have it." The wife, hearing that, suddenly poured the hot pottage on his head and said thus: "And now been the pottage there as I would have them." By this tale men may see it is no wisdom for a man to attempt a meek woman's patience too far, lest it turn to his own hurt and damage.
Refracted and diffused through thousands of popular texts and performances, the legend of patient Griselda is specially marked as an irritant to women. As Wiltenburg points out in her study of the street literature of England and Germany, "Authors of both countries noted that this story annoyed real-life women, who had no intention of following Griselda's example; but it was recommended to them nevertheless." Yet according to Peter Burke, popular imagery beat into everyone's head the dictum that women had to know their place, as is clear not only from the popular (masculine) images of the woman as villain, such as the shrew, but even from the images of the heroine. 
For women, martyrdom was virtually the only way to sanctity .... equally passive were two heroines who often took the place of saints in Protestant countries: chaste Susanna ... and patient Griselda, who were celebrated in German plays, in English puppet-plays, in Swedish ballads, and Danish chapbooks .... Judith slaying the tyrant Holofernes seems to have been an exception among heroines. Taking Wiltenburg's matter-of-fact comment about Griselda's annoyingness as my guide, I want to discompose the overly static picture painted by Burke. First, it is necessary to peel away some of the layers of indignation and interpretation she has evoked since appearing on the literary scene. 
Her story's power to shock and disturb women in particular has only intensified over time, according to Judith Bronfman, who has studied its interpretive history from its beginnings in fourteenth century Italy to the present day. English reception of the legend begins with Chaucer, whose Clerk of Oxenford presents the story of "paciente Grisildis" to his Canterbury pilgrims. His "may be the most disliked of all the Canterbury Tales," but it is Griselda, not her husband, who arouses the most distaste today-suggesting that our age despises a passive victim even more than a dynamic sadist. To many feminist scholars, Griselda furnishes a crux for analyses of gender ideology and functions as a paradigm of the violent subjugation and silencing of early modern women.
Reactions to her story can be highly charged; Lisa Jardine finds that "her resignation is terrifying.” The fear and outrage Griselda provokes may have kept us from realizing there were cracks in her myth during the early modern period. Scholars have seldom noted signs of mocking criticism toward Griselda in tales and plays that seem engineered to praise her. When Griselda is divested of her rich robes of literariness and her alluring aura of religious and psychic enigma, she strikes more than a few observers as foolish. To the jesting women who mock her, she is not the Christly Fool of Saint Paul, the witty Folly of Erasmus, or the keen jester of Lear but the garden-variety fool whose deeds are dismissed as silly. 
To writers, Griselda's patience was shopworn and ripe for parody. Printers tried to dress up the old tale, familiar from ballads, puppet shows, and sermons, by stressing her glamorous social mobility. By 1619, Griselda was being used as a lesson in how to marry a millionaire: one pamphlet touted itself as "shewing how Maides, By Her Example, In Their Good Behavior May Marrie Rich Husbands; and Likewise Wives By Their Patience and Obedience May Caine Much Glorie." Didactically tooled and rhetorically productive, Griselda continues to be a conversation piece. She may have begun her literary life in gland as a secular saint; but by the sixteenth century, she had become a household word idealized in sermons and conduct books but treated by jests as an impossibility, like "the silent woman," a close relative.”
- Pamela Allen Brown, “Griselda the Fool.” in Better a Shrew than a Sheep: Women, Drama, and the Culture of Jest in Early Modern England
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voltaire to versace 01 | thomas jefferson
title: voltaire to versace 01
pairing: professor!thomas jefferson x reader
words: 7.3k
warnings: implied sex, heavily suggestive content but nothing explicit, hella teasing, dolley madison payne
desc: from francis bacon to foucault, descartes to dante, your political philosophy seminar doesn’t promise to be a blowout — and yet, one mysterious stranger and a risqué evening later, your burberry-clad professor gives you the feeling it won’t be quite the snoozefest you’d expected.
WASHINGTON D.C. — HOME to the White House, the Lincoln Memorial, a metro that no longer catches on fire, and most importantly, one Y/N L/N's new university. Coming in as a transfer student in the second semester of her junior year wasn't exactly her ideal scenario, but walking across a stage in a cap and gown sixteen months later certainly was — a degree is a degree.
She'd spent the previous two semesters abroad, traveling throughout Europe and trying to figure out her next step. She hadn't yet paid her junior year tuition, and on one fateful night in northern Italy, she transferred to the University of Westphalia on a whim (that whim being a generous financial aid package and a pre-existing housing offer, but that was neither here nor there). It'd been a jarring few months, spending the Christmas season packing up her entire life to not only leave Europe — a process that came with many heartbroken nights of hotboxing a friend's apartment and mourning the loss of her societal nap times — but also finally abandoning her hometown in favor of moving to the east coast.
The change may have left a lump in her throat, but it lifted a weight from her shoulders; she felt light on her feet despite the heavy D.C. snow. Much of the credit for that had to fall to her dearest Dolley Payne, the light of her life, the wind beneath her wings, the old best friend who'd found herself a dirt-cheap apartment just outside of campus and offered that Y/N come be her roommate. How could she resist a proposal like that?
However, that was also how she found herself a drink and a half deep and putting back on her boots at nine o'clock the night before classes started.
"Are you sure going out right before the first day back is a good idea?" Though Y/N was eyeing Dolley skeptically, she just rolled her eyes, pulling on her coat and scarf.
"Relax, it's not like we're going clubbing," she assured her, but when Y/N raised a dubious eyebrow, she continued, "Come on! You literally moved in last night. What kind of best friend would I be if I didn't take you out at least once before everything's back in college mode?"
Dolley nudged Y/N playfully as she pulled on her coat, and the latter sighed. "I'm a new student here, Doll. I don't think showing up hungover to my first class is a particularly good look."
"You don't even have class until 3 PM!" she argued, and though she pursed her lips, Y/N had to admit Dolley had a point. "Relax, I won't even get you drunk. I just need you to come see the cute little speakeasy on fourth street. It's my favorite spot."
"'Speakeasy'?" Y/N questioned, buttoning up the front of her coat, and Dolley nodded enthusiastically.
"Mhm. You've gotta know somebody to know about it," she said. "It's a pretty open secret in this neighborhood, but it's one of the only bars that isn't always crowded."
"It's a Sunday night; how many people are really going out drinking?"
Dolley gave her a tired glance. "You'd be surprised."
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AND WHEN THEY stumbled upon the bar not twenty minutes later, surprised she was.
"This is really the place?" Y/N was looking around skeptically, struggling to believe that the dirty, dank alley she'd been led into was was the entrance to Dolley's favorite spot in town. Had Dolley decided to murder her now that her name was on the lease, if only for the insurance payout? Had she been dealing with the mafia? Maybe she'd changed more in the past year or so than Y/N thought.
"Do I ever steer you wrong?" Dolley asked, eliciting a heavy sigh from the other woman.
"Too often to try and count."
"So then it's long overdue that I get it right." She finally stopped in front of a nondescript, weathered metal door in the back of a mildly battered building, and Y/N all but skidded to a halt, having been expecting to keep walking a while longer. She was hesitant to follow when the door Dolley opened revealed a set of stairs going up, but taking a step forward revealed the warm light filtering down toward them, carrying alongside it traces of jazz music and animated chatter. "See? I know what I'm talking about sometimes."
"Sometimes," Y/N repeated, unconvinced.
When they emerged just moments later, Y/N decided fairly quickly that she liked it. It was quaint, old-fashioned, but a warm, charming space.
"So?" Dolley asked, and though she gave a noncommital shrug, Y/N was smiling. "Let's get a drink or two in you and maybe you'll give it the credit it deserves." And maybe, just maybe, Dolley had hit the mark once again.
Two drinks and an hour later, the both of them were seated at the bar, giggling and slumped over one another but far from drunk. As it turned out, a year apart left them with a surprising amount to talk about, from Y/N's hostel horror stories to Dolley's nightmare of a former roommate -- both of which left them endlessly grateful that they were going to be living together from then on. Their coats were draped over the backs of their seats, and the energy spilling over from their spirited conversation was born more of a sugar high than of any real intoxication -- both their drinks were heavy with fruit juice and mixers, if only for the sake of sobriety.
"...but that was when the cops showed up."
Y/N's eyes widened. Dolley had only finished detailing about a semester and a half of her freshman year, and she was still at least fifteen minutes into sharing her first run-in with UW's notorious midterm rager. "You can't just stop the story there!"
"But there's no more to tell! No one stuck around to get arrested. We were on the steps of the library, for heaven's sake."
"So you just left? How'd you get away?"
"Oh," Dolley giggled, a hand resting on Y/N’s knee as she leaned toward her in her short fit of laughter. "Well, I just ran for it, and very nearly got myself hopelessly lost. A grad student ended up letting me hide out in the library until it all cleared up."
"A grad student, huh?" Y/N wiggled her eyebrows suggestively. "And you spent the whole night locked in there with them?"
"Oh, you know it's not like that! I was nineteen, don't you start making drama where there isn't any."
"But Doll, you know that's my specialty," Y/N whined, and Dolley laughed. "Anyway, were they cute, though?"
"All I'll say is that if I were trapped in a library with them tomorrow, I'd feel lucky to be on birth control."
Dolley's sly grin made Y/N gasp teasingly, leaning back to eye the other woman as though she'd just instigated a scandal. "Dolley Payne! I am ashamed at your lack of self restraint."
"You wouldn't be if you were on the receiving end of it."
"You offering?" Y/N raised an eyebrow, taking a sip of her drink.
"I mean, my roommate just moved out, so there's no one at my apartment right now," Dolley said mildly, giving a slight shrug. "Any chance you wanna spend the night?"
When she winked, Y/N couldn't help but laugh outright. "Mm, I'll definitely consider it," she said, sarcasm heavy in her voice, and despite her dry tone, Dolley once again burst into a fit of giggles, her hysterics more contagious than Y/N would've liked to admit. Perhaps her roommate couldn't hold her alcohol quite as well as as she thought.
Dolley leaned back toward the bar for a refill, and Y/N's eyes began to wander in her absence. The room was packed with leather furniture, tufted couches and armchairs; it had a fireplace along one wall and a pool table in the corner at which two men seemed to be escalating quite a heated argument. The sight amused her, if only in the least, but she turned away with her small smile, taking another sip of her drink. That was when her gaze landed on the man directly to her left where she sat facing Dolley, his arm draped over the back of the couch and his stare fixed on her friend. Y/N raised an eyebrow.
"Hey, don't look now, but the hottie at your three o'clock is totally checking you out."
"'Three o'clock'?" Dolley repeated, brow furrowed, "Y/N, it's past ten, what are you--"
"Military directions, Doll; just--" Y/N cut herself off with a scowl, glancing back to her side. "Don't be too obvious about it. He's directly to your right." When Dolley's head whipped around toward the man, subtlety be damned, Y/N sighed, pinching the bridge of her nose. However, the other woman's eyes widening gave her pause. "What, d'you know him, or something?"
With the way Dolley was biting her lip and fiddling with the rim of her glass, it was strikingly obvious that there was more to the story. "...Sort of," she replied vaguely.
"Which means what, exactly?" Despite Y/N's newly uncovered intrigue, Dolley's eyes didn't leave the man in question, and her best friend scowled. "Spill. Now."
"That's James," she finally answered, wearing a wide grin. "He's a friend."
"I need details here!" Y/N demanded. "Based on how he's looking at you, I'm not sure I buy that he's just 'a friend.'"
"He's a PhD candidate. We've crossed paths in the school of economics a couple of times, and he's a big sweetheart. But you didn't hear that last part from me." Y/N raised an eyebrow at her words, and Dolley continued, "And I might've slept with him, like, once or twice."
"How is that the last thing you think to mention? You've been holding out on me," Y/N said, swatting at Dolley's shoulder, but she just shrugged. "So are you gonna go over there and talk to him, or what?"
"Oh, no, I can't leave you alone here!" she protested. "This is our night to celebrate your finally moving here. I wouldn't abandon you like that."
"I can take care of myself; I promise." Y/N gave her a pointed look before nodding back toward James. "Besides, you're stuck with me all the time now. Don't pass up something like him just to spare your conscience. C'mon."
Dolley hesitated, stealing another glance to her right, and when James met her gaze, giving her a small smile, Y/N could see her face light up. "Are you sure?" Despite Dolley's hesitance, her eyes were shining, and Y/N nodded.
"Go. Have fun. Live a little."
"I'll be back for you in a bit, dear." Dolley squeezed Y/N's shoulder affectionately as she stood up, sending her a grateful look before starting off to her right.
Y/N turned back to the bar with a chuckle, finishing off her drink and asking the bartender for a glass of water, musing about what her first few days at the university would look like, her gaze absent as she looked up at the shelves of alcohol across from her. She was still sad to have left her semester of travel behind, but she'd long since decided to embrace the change this year had already begun to bring. She was living at the nation's capitol, paying next to no tuition at a prestigious university. New beginnings were bittersweet, but she was excited for her path forward.
Her thoughts had begun to gravitate toward the semester of actual classes she had before her (because apparently, to get a degree, she had to "get good grades") when she was pulled back to the room before her, the bartender setting a martini down in front of her. It looked tempting, but-- "I'm sorry; I think there's been a mistake?"
Her words seemed to catch the bartender by surprise as he stopped himself in his tracks, returned to where she was sitting. "What seems to be the problem, ma'am?"
"No problem at all, but I think this drink is someone else's," she said, pushing it back toward him with a polite smile. "I've just been having water."
"Actually, it was sent by the gentleman at the end of the bar." Her eyebrows shot up, and when she glanced to her right, she caught the gaze of a well-dressed man whose eyes were already trained on her, wearing a barely-there smile, an expectant eyebrow raised. She hadn't realized she was staring, gaze wandering from the v-neck of his sweater to where it was pulled taut around his dark forearms, until the bartender cleared his throat, and she turned back to him with a start. The man several seats over was now grinning outright, in her opinion overly self-pleased, and she deigned not to acknowledge how the way he was looking at her had her heart pounding against her ribcage. "Take it or leave it, but it's no mistake."
She bit her lip, not daring to turn to her right once more; she could already feel the blood rushing to her cheeks, creeping up her neck. "Would you please send it back to him?" She asked in a small voice. "Tell him that if he wants to talk to me, he can come here and do it himself."
To her relief, he obliged her with a surprised laugh, continuing off with the glass she'd been offered, and she thanked him quietly as he went on his way. It couldn't have been a minute later when a low voice from behind Y/N made her jump.
"Y'know, when I buy women drinks, I don't usually get 'em returned to me with stipulations."
The corners of her lips twitched upward, but she didn't look at him until he came around to stand beside her. "Then maybe you've been buying drinks for the wrong women."
"It's like that, huh?" His soft huff made her smile. "Maybe I bought a drink for the wrong woman just now."
Y/N turned to him with her brow furrowed, already opening her mouth to rebuke him, but when she saw his teasing smile, she stopped herself. "You still decided to come over, didn't you?"
"So, what, you're just too irresistible?" He rose an eyebrow, and she shrugged.
"You said it, not me."
He laughed, drumming his fingers on the back of the chair beside her, and she pursed her lips as she eyed the man. He had a full head of dark, thick curls, and his tight sweater bulged at his biceps, drawing her distracted gaze away from his winning smile. "Mind if I join you, then?"
She was leaning onto the bar, resting on her forearms as she considered him, lips pursed. "I suppose some company couldn't hurt."
"Glad to hear it." Y/N was struggling to pull her eyes away from the wide grin he wore, but as he took a seat beside her, he didn't seem to mind. "So what's a woman like you doin' drinkin' alone on a Sunday?"
"Good question," she started, lips pursed as she considered him -- because really, what was she doing? Playing ghost wingwoman for Dolley? Reminiscing on her shitty flings in Europe? Trying to sober up from the sugar content of her sickeningly sweet cocktails so she didn't throw up from something other than alcohol? "Maybe I've just been waiting for someone to finally approach me."
Her mischievous smile made his eyebrows shoot up, surprised but more than pleasantly so. "'S that right?" The noncommittal tilt of her head gave him little to go on. "Sorry to say it, but if you're lookin' to meet people, this isn't the first place I'd recommend, sweetheart."
"It seems to be working for me so far," she pointed out, raising a smug eyebrow, and the man laughed, eyes shining. "Then again, I don't even know your name. Have we really even formally met?"
"You make an excellent point," he conceded, and when Y/N took another sip of her water, his eyes flickering down to her mouth was the furthest thing from subtle. "But what's the intrigue of a mysterious stranger approachin' you at a bar if I just tell you my name, hm?"
"What, are you going to make me beg for it?" The undertone of her own words certainly wasn't lost on Y/N, not as her voice dropped to a murmur, the corners of her lips curling up into a mischievous smile. He didn't seem thrown off, either; his eyes narrowed a fraction of an inch, a fire blazing behind them that Y/N could've sworn hadn't been there even a minute before.
"Don't you start givin' me ideas," he said quietly, and she could feel her breath catch, her stomach turn, but she paid it little mind, "unless that's what you're really lookin' for."
"I don't think I know what you're implying." The innocent smile Y/N had plastered on made him raise an amused brow, despite that her voice sounded as though she'd been winded. "But it does seem awfully mean to make such a fuss over something so simple. I have to say, I almost feel like I'm being exploited."
"Hey, I came all the way over here. 'S your turn to put in some leg work now." When he bumped his elbow into hers, she hadn't expected to laugh at the brief, teasing action, but whether it was hormones or her excessive consumption of glucose, something about that night had her feeling just a bit lighter than usual.
"Alright, alright," she finally caved, dropping the coy facade. "What can I ever do to make up for the wasted martini and two meters of walking you had to overcome?"
"You can tell me where you're from, for starters." Y/N raised a skeptical eyebrow at the question, folding her arms, but he only shrugged. "What? Haven't seen you around here before; I know I'd remember if I had." She rolled her eyes when he winked but didn't cut him off. "So what's your deal, then? In town visitin' a friend? Here for some kinda election event?"
"I just moved here, actually. I'm new to the neighborhood."
"So you're livin' around here?"
"So you're already trying to stalk me?"
He laughed at her accusatory stare, her lips pursed. "Nah, 'm just from this part of town," he said, but hesitated a moment to continue as he eyed her curiously. "Can you blame me for takin' interest when I hear a pretty face like yours is gonna be out 'n' about here more often?"
"Excuse you, I'm much more than just a pretty face," Y/N said defensively, but the man just shrugged.
"Well, since you're refusin' to tell me anythin' about yourself, how am I supposed to know that?" The look in his eyes was challenging, and she let out an amused huff, trying to bury how endeared she was in a facade of exasperation.
"Alright, smart guy; you win this one," she said with a scowl, but her lips quirked as she continued, "I just settled into an apartment building a block or two over. Now have I earned your name?"
"I'm Thomas," he supplied.
"Y/N."
"Y/N," he repeated quietly, the look in his eyes softening. "So, where'd you move here from?"
"A little bit of everywhere," she responded vaguely, taking another sip of her drink, and Thomas cocked a brow.
"Care to explain?"
"I've been abroad," Y/N laughed, enjoying his look of bemusement. "I'm from Ohio, originally, but I went to Chicago for school, and I've spent the past year or so in Europe."
He nodded, pausing a moment at her words. "Really? Ohio?"
"I spent a year halfway across the world, and that's what you choose to focus on?" Her words were almost indignant, and the disbelief in her narrowed eyes made him laugh.
"'M sorry, I just..." He trailed off, his eyes wandering down her figure, and she gave him a skeptical glance, turned back to her drink. "Wouldn't have pegged you for a Midwesterner."
"There's a reason I ran for the hills the first chance I got." She snorted, taking a sip of her seltzer water as she shook her head. Her gaze was absent, drifting across the wall behind the bar, but before Thomas could question it, she'd turned back to him, eyebrows raised. "So what about you? What's your origin story? Texas? Alabama?"
"Virginia, born and raised," he answered easily, clear pride in it laced through his voice, but he glanced at her suspiciously a moment later. "I really strike you as bein' from Alabama?"
"Listen, the southern accent was all I had to go off of. I did my best," Y/N defended, trying and failing to keep a laugh out of her tone, and he scoffed.
"Sure you did, sweetheart." The sarcastic lilt to his voice came alongside a broad grin, and had his voice not been so playful, she may have written him off right there and then. As it was, though, she couldn't even bring herself to scowl at the words. Instead, she held his warm stare, trying not to concentrate on the fact that she could feel his body heat permeating his sweater just inches to her left, trying to reign in her spiking pulse. Being beyond hyper-aware of just how close Thomas was, though, it shouldn't have startled Y/N when he knocked his knee into hers. When her eyes refocused, having been lost in thought, she could see in his eyes the pleasure he was taking in how skittish he'd made her.
"Anyway, now that I'm not some cryptic intruder," he started -- he didn't seem to notice that Y/N's focus was still fixed on subduing the heat rising in her neck, "can I buy you that drink?"
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THUS BEGAN THE rest of their night. It was nearly eleven when Dolley texted her from the other side of the room, a frantic plea for forgiveness if she went home with James. (She swore, she hadn't meant to leave Y/N alone on their first night out together -- besides, Y/N seemed to have found a nightcap of her own. Forget a tall drink of water; the stranger in burgundy was a daiquiri and a half -- Dolley's words, not mine.)
And really, Y/N didn't mind. She was more than willing to walk home alone if it meant a night of just a little adventure. She ended up staying at the bar with Thomas until the owner nearly had to throw them out -- and Y/N couldn't blame them. Neither of them had had anything to drink in over an hour, so she supposed that as the clock neared midnight, they really weren't making much of a dent in the profit margin.
But it wasn't her fault, really. No one told her when she'd left her apartment that evening that, for once in her life, the person sending her a drink wouldn't be an incel with a god complex. Quite frankly, not only was that bullet dodged, but Thomas quickly proved to be more than a few inches above the low, low bar she'd set.
The night grew colder outside the windows, but the pair of them were preoccupied, busy inching closer, her hand falling upon his arm when she laughed, his legs brushing against hers as he acted as though he hadn't even noticed. They could both tell her demure front was just for show; her skin burned under his touch, layers of fabric be damned, and his gaze was electric. She'd long since thrown caution to the wind, anyway. Where the night was headed was clear only minutes after he'd sat down beside her; the air between them was charged. Sure, she'd only met him a couple hours prior, but any sort of a spark could certainly make a fire to last at least one night -- and last it did.
However, she didn't expect to have to be the one to push it that far. Brazenness seemed to be Thomas's mode of operation, so she was almost surprised when their being herded out onto the street below didn't immediately end in his hands on her skin, her body pulled flush against him. When they reached the musty alleyway, she was struggling to believe the firebrand of a man who'd bought her a drink hours before had suddenly become so mild in the night air.
But he'd bought her a drink. The ball was in her court.
"You cold, sweetheart?" Y/N glanced back over her shoulder, shivering, to see Thomas watching her with concern in his eyes. To be candid, she was fine -- winter in D.C. had nothing on the frigid bite of the air in Finland -- but she couldn't pretend how worried he looked wasn't part of what was tempting her to deal with the devil, heavy shadows clinging to his brow.
"I'm alright," she replied quietly, offering him a reassuring smile, but his creased brow didn't part.
"You sure? That coat doesn't look all that heavy."
"Really. I'm okay," she said with a light laugh, though she didn't think how she'd begun sniffling as her nose started to run was helping her case all that much. "I have a short walk home; it's no biggie."
That, however, made his eyebrows shoot toward his hairline. "You're walkin' home? Y/N, I dunno how safe that is."
"It's hardly snowing."
"I mean for you to be alone in the city in the middle of the night," he said, pausing as he reached where she stood just before the opening of the alleyway. "Can I call you an Uber?"
She turned her head to find him right by her side, perhaps an inch between the pair, his warm breath tickling her neck as he looked down at her. Her smile was hesitant. "I'm not letting you burn up some fossil fuels for a two block car ride. I can take care of myself."
"How 'bout if I walk you home?" he offered, and she let out a light sigh. "C'mon, leavin' you here alone in the middle of the night doesn't sit right with me. If somethin' happened..."
Though he trailed off, the implication in his words was obvious, and Y/N raised an eyebrow. "So you're saying that, because a stranger might follow me home, I should let a different stranger follow me home to prevent it?"
When she put it like that, Thomas couldn't help his quiet laugh at the irony of the situation. "Hey, I thought we'd agreed I'm not a stranger anymore," he protested, but Y/N looked him up and down skeptically.
"What, you paid for my drinks and called me pretty, and suddenly we're besties?"
"Now, we both know 'besties' wasn't exactly what I was goin' for," he said matter-of-factly, his smile sharp but playful, and despite how tilted the whole situation felt, she couldn't hold back her chuckle. She rolled her eyes, stuffed her hands in her pockets as she turned back to the well-lit sidewalk before them, the January snow crunching under her boots, but when she met his eyes, Thomas's expression had softened. He rose an inquiring eyebrow, and finally, she sighed.
"Yeah, you walking me home would be nice."
A grin split his light demeanor. "Alright. Lead the way, sweetheart."
"Follow me."
They took a right out of the alleyway, and as traffic continued to roar by beside them, speeding through the night, as the low buzz of the antiquated streetlights permeated the air, they fell into a comfortable silence, never falling out of step with one another. Snow was flecked across both their coats, and shadows were cast across their features, cycling back with each passing lamp.
Y/N hadn't been exaggerating when she deemed it a short walk home; it couldn't have been more than five minutes before they found themselves nearing the front steps of her building, and she looked up at him.
"Hey, thanks for tonight," she said, voice timid, and he turned to her with a wide smile.
"'S been my pleasure," he replied. "Sorry for keepin' you out so long; your roommate must be startin' to wonder."
When Y/N laughed lightly, Thomas raised an eyebrow, apparently not following whatever she'd taken away from his words. "I have a feeling she's a little too preoccupied to be worrying about me right now," she said dryly. She'd been back in town for not 48 hours, and Dolley was already going out on her own -- as supportive as Y/N was, Dolley had a habit of getting too attached too quickly. She was praying James wouldn't end up another regrettable hookup.
However, Thomas couldn't exactly hear her thoughts, something Y/N hadn't considered before tightly grabbing ahold of the rope to her mental tangent -- it was his fault, really. She couldn't be blamed for his lack of talent in mind-reading. But as he continued to watch her expectantly, as she pulled herself back to the present, she finally said, "She's spending the night with someone else tonight. Make of that what you will."
He shook his head in amusement. "Good for her."
"I'm sure her host thinks so."
A moment passed in quiet under the frigid night sky, Y/N hesitant to act but Thomas hesitant to leave. He was the one to break it.
"It was good to meet you, Y/N," he said softly, and she raised her eyebrows. Her window of opportunity was dwindling. "Hope I'll see you--"
"D'you want to come upstairs?" She hadn't meant to cut him off, but the words were spilling from her tongue before she could lose her nerve. Her heart was pounding; she wasn't fond of having to make the risky move, and the tentativeness in his raised eyebrows wasn't helping.
"Seriously?" Oh, God. Was it really such a ridiculous idea that he was struggling to believe she was asking? "I..." Thomas let out a heavy sigh when he trailed off before pursing his lips, tongue in cheek and looking everywhere but at her. "'S temptin', but... I can't do that to you."
Y/N only stared at him in disbelief. "What?"
"You've been drinkin' all night." His tone left little room for negotiation, but she was on the edge of taking offense. "I know you don’t seem drunk, but if your judgment isn't all the way there, it's not happenin'. G'night, sweetheart."
She was still standing in stunned silence when he turned to walk back the way he came, but when he started retreating in her field of vision, she called after him, "Hang on." To her relief, he looked back at her quizzically, footsteps stalling on the snow-coated sidewalk, and she took a step toward him. "I've been drinking seltzer water and fruit juice all night, Thomas," she said, and his eyes widened almost imperceptibly. "So if you're not interested, you don't need to make excuses, but I'm asking you while perfectly sober."
Her stomach seemed to be trying to turn itself inside-out as she waited anxiously for him to respond; the calculated way he looked her over only exacerbated the feeling. "Have you had anything to drink tonight?"
"Next to nothing." The pause between them was heavy, both their minds racing but far from in consensus. "Your move, Thomas."
Not three seconds passed before he was striding toward her decisively, and she inhaled sharply when his arm snaked around her waist, his other hand cupping her cheek, thumb sweeping over the expanse of skin. She was flush against his chest, too surprised to even react, her hands resting at his upper chest, and her eyes widened when she felt his cheekbone brush against the crown of her head. He tilted his head down to look at her, his lips hardly a hair away from the top of her ear. She could feel his breath down her neck, setting her nerves alight. "Can I kiss you?"
Her answer was immediate. "Please."
And before she had time to think, his lips were on hers; he was tangling a hand into her hair. He wasted no time in starting to walk her back toward her building, steadying her with a firm grip on her waist as she stumbled backward.
She yelped when her heel hit the bottom step up to her building's door, and she broke the kiss, then clinging to his shoulders in an effort not to fall, struggling to hold her weight on her legs as she lifted one foot onto the first step. Both their chests were heaving, and Thomas wore a wry grin.
"I've been wantin' to do that since I sent you that martini," he murmured, dipping down to kiss along her jawline, and Y/N let out a breathy chuckle.
"So you had to wait, what, three hours?" she retorted, tone dry. "Oh, how you've suffered."
"Had to wait three hours too long," he corrected her, and before she could jab back at him, his mouth again found hers. She moaned against him when he bit down lightly on her bottom lip, responding in kind by rolling her tongue teasingly against his. It was too much and yet still, not enough. His hands were all over her; she couldn't focus on how his body felt pressed into hers as the sensation quickly overwhelmed her, and when his grip on her hip tightened, she gasped into his mouth.
"Thomas, wait, I--" She was cut off before she could get the thought out. "Thom-- Mmh--!" He kissed her ardently, reveling in her response to his touch every bit as much as she was reveling in the feeling of it. Regardless, she pulled back, looking him in the eye, and held him off with a hand on his chest. "Let's go in. I'd rather be somewhere a lot warmer and a little more..." --she traced a finger down the lapel of his designer coat with a sly smile, finally using it to pull him closer-- "...private."
"Don't have to tell me twice." He split from her, tugging her alongside him and up the stairs by her hand, and her eyes widened at his frantic movements. She didn't even flinch at first, stunned by how abrupt the action had been, but when he glanced back over his shoulder at her, her fingers already linked between his, she drew in a shuddering breath.
"Let's go."
From there, their night was a blur of heavy jeans and chunky sweaters being scattered across Y/N's bedroom, their coats discarded and long forgotten not three feet past her apartment door. Whatever gods were above seemed to have smiled on her; she and Dolley both striking it lucky on the same night felt too perfect for it to be coincidental, especially as Y/N's bedroom door slammed loudly behind them, her body pinned against its interior moments later.
Every impatient touch was ablaze, brimming with fireworks and crave as her eager hands found their way up his shirt, his curls bouncing when he pulled it over his head.
It was all reckless, every second of it, but as Y/N saw it, what was the worst that could happen? The occasional uncomfortable run-in with Thomas if they passed on the street? That was beyond worth her evening of adrenaline. She gasped when he pushed her back onto her mattress, climbing on immediately after her.
"Thomas," she moaned, threading her fingers into his curls as his lips worked their way down her neck.
"What is it, sweetheart? Hm?"
She squealed when he nipped at her sensitive skin, nails digging into his upper back, but her tense muscles relaxed as he began sucking a hickey into the same spot a moment later. "I need you. Please."
She could feel his smile against her skin, the vibrations of his light chuckle. "Well, since you asked so nicely..." He pulled back as the pads of his fingers dug into her hips, and she inhaled sharply. His eyes were shining, predatory and smug. "How could I say no?"
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COME THE NEXT morning -- or, really, the next afternoon -- Y/N was grateful to have escaped without a hangover, completely absent a headache, the light of day not even a bother as it glared past her curtains. However, the minute she tried to sit up, she realized that she certainly had a backache, and she wasn't entirely convinced her legs would be willing to work when she tried to stand.
Realization struck her a moment later; she winced as she sat bolt upright, ignoring the ache in her shoulders when she lunged for her phone. Oh, shit.
"Thomas," she hissed, shoving his snoring body through her comforter. "Thomas, wake up."
He sniffed as he shifted in her bed, trying to speak through his heavy yawn. "What's goin' on?"
"What's going on is that it's almost two o'clock." Her scowl was deep-set as she shoved the covers off of herself, paying him little mind as she began to root through her drawers for something to wear. "And you need to go. I have somewhere to be."
It hadn't occurred to her to be self-conscious as she paced through her room, but when she turned back to see Thomas's lazy stare following her still-naked body, she could feel her cheeks flare. "Get dressed."
"Alright, alright," he said, sleep still heavy in his voice as he reached for his phone where he'd discarded it on his long-abandoned jeans. She didn't see it, busy pulling on underwear and yanking on a hoodie over her the heavily-marked skin of her chest. "Fuck. I'm gonna be late."
She rolled her eyes when his own panic was finally what kicked him into gear, as he began shoving his legs back into his pants in a frenzy. "Jesus, do I need to get home," he muttered to himself, unsteadily typing something into his phone with one hand as he struggled to buckle his belt with the other. "Sorry for crashin', I--"
"It's fine; it was late as all hell," Y/N cut him off, too preoccupied to concern herself with what'd happened the night prior. She was clinging to the desperate hope that her laptop might not be dead as she dug through he drawers for its charger. "When you find all your stuff, you can just go."
"Alright. I..." He glanced to her hesitantly, pausing in his quest to put himself back together before he could flee with his dignity and whatever plans he had for that afternoon still intact. She glanced at him inquisitively in his silence. "I'll see you around, Y/N."
She offered him a small smile before he returned to trying to dig up his sweater, completely oblivious to where he could've possibly tossed it. "Let's hope so."
Those were all the words exchanged before she ducked into her bathroom, began running the shower, and wiped her smeared mascara from where it'd been running down her cheeks. Thomas left with no more pomp or circumstance.
She hardly had time to fix her appearance after she showered, doing the bare minimum before she rushed back to check on the charge her laptop had left. 74% would be enough to make it through her first lecture, right? She didn't waste a second on dwelling.
Her first class was, to her dismay, halfway across campus from her apartment. She hardly slipped into the lecture hall in time, the clock striking 2:59 PM as she took a seat toward the back, quietly greeting the person in the seat beside her as they glanced up from their phone. Maybe her rolling up less than sixty seconds before the lecture began wasn't exactly the best first impression for her, coming in as a 2nd semester junior at a new college, but she'd managed to beat Professor Jefferson, so it appeared she was safe.
It was 3:03 when he showed up; Y/N had just finished convincing the fan on her laptop to stop shrieking, had found a pen nestled into the deepest depths of her bag. She was scrolling absentmindedly through Twitter when the back doors of the lecture hall were thrown open one final time. She didn't look up at first, but his voice made her eyes widen.
"Afternoon, everybody. Hope you've all been doin' well through the long winter." His voice was upbeat as he padded down the carpeted steps toward the desk at the front of the room.
Y/N was fairly sure she was going to be sick, and unfortunately, she had no hangover to chalk it up to. Disbelief permeated her every shaky breath, the feeling trounced only by dread. Her throat had gone dry.
"For anyone who doesn't know me, I'm Professor Jefferson. I started in the political science department this last fall," he said as he reached the floor, loud voice projected through every corner of the hall, tone joking when he added, "And for anyone who's eventually gonna ask, I promise 'm well aware of how young I am."
When he turned around, Y/N's worst fears were realized -- though, she was certainly surprised at how put-together he looked, having left her apartment just one short hour earlier.
"I've spent the past few years workin' in government, but I'm glad to be back in classrooms, even if I'm on the other side of 'em." He set his briefcase down on his desk, looking the room over as he withdrew his papers, opened his laptop. Y/N was sinking progressively further and further down in her chair. "I trust you've all done the assigned readin'?"
He was met with a scattered chorus of yeses and halfhearted noises of affirmation, and he chuckled. "Well, 'm glad to hear you enjoyed 'em so much."
She wasn't sure whether his words being met with soft laughs dispersed throughout the room was because of the sarcasm sitting heavy in his words, or instead because of how contagious his bright grin was.
"Alright, alright, the enthusiasm'll get there. Feel free to pull up the syllabus on whatever you've got with you, but it'll be projected up here as we go through it." The class sounded slightly more awake by then, and while it surely wasn't everyone, Y/N felt confident enough that a decent fraction of the noise was her classmates murmuring with disbelief about how this was their professor, no doubt interspersed with jokes about suddenly taking an intimate interest in political philosophy, capped off with a wink.
But she was no one to judge. Despite being unsure whether her heart was trying to beat its way through her ribcage or if it'd altogether stopped, when Thomas leaned against the front of the desk, arms folded and ankles crossed, she couldn't bring herself to regret the events of the past sixteen hours -- were she given a chance to turn back time, it was a mistake she'd readily make again.
"I'll take any questions as we go on through it," he continued, but that time, as he scanned the crowd, Y/N's luck seemed to have run out. However, though she'd been given the luxury of a gradual realisation, the inevitable punch in the gut of recognition hit him all at once. His eyes locked onto hers, immediately going wide, his expression dropping to one of alarm, and she held his gaze warily.
His silence was a fraction of a second too long, long enough to raise questions, before his self-awareness kicked in, and he picked his jaw up off the floor. The smile he plastered on was riddled with unease. "Hope everything in the course description was clear. I have no doubt this'll be an... excitin' semester."
He played off his shock easily, falling back into his upbeat persona, but as he went on, Y/N felt lucky she'd already read the syllabus — she didn't process a single word out of his mouth. The class was three hours long, and only five minutes into the first day, she’d apparently already slept with her professor.
If this was the semester she had ahead of her, then, well... 'exciting' was certainly a word for it.
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 Johnny Ramensky, the Scottish safe cracker was born on April 6th 1905 in Glenboig, Lanarkshire.
This is the type of story that would make a great film, so settle down to enjoy the life of the man born Jonas Ramanauckas, who became known as  John Ramsay, Gentleman Johnny, and Gentle Johnny
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His father was a miner who died when Johnny was young and the young Ramensky also became a miner. It was while he was down the pit that he learned his skills with dynamite which were to prove so useful to him in later years.
Johnny drifted in and out of trouble from the age of eleven and moved to the Gorbals area of Glasgow during the Depression with his mother and two sisters. He developed an amazing physical strength and acrobatic ability but in order to obtain some money, he became a burglar, specializing in robberies involving climbing up external rone-pipes to gain entry to premises. He also developed skills in picking locks and safe-cracking with explosives.
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While his activities were criminal, he had his own code of conduct and raided business premises rather than people's homes. And when he was caught, he never resisted arrest. His philosophy seemed to be "if you are caught, you are caught - it's all part of the job".
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His life of detention began at age 18 when he was given a term in Borstal but later he served various terms in both Barlinnie and Peterhead Prisons. He eventually spent more time behind bars than outside. It's often easy to sentimentalise and sugar-coat the past, there was something about him which meant that even the police who snared him and the courts which he frequented as regularly as others visit their local supermarket, regarded him as somebody who was more interested in eluding an alarm and breaking a code than becoming rich from his forays.
Johnny was married during one of his spells out of prison and the couple had a baby daughter. But in 1934, while he was serving a sentence in Peterhead, he was told that his young wife was dead. He was refused permission to attend the funeral and Johnny's sense of justice was outraged. So he made the first of many escapes from the prison.
  In 1942, he was serving yet another jail sentence in Peterhead Prison. The army offered to give him special commando training and Johnny accepted. After all, it meant he was out of prison, earning a wage - and fighting for his country. Part of a crack commando unit, he was dropped behind enemy lines and used his skills with both explosives and burglary to good effect, stealing important German documents.
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During the war in Italy, he entered Rome with the first troops to reach the city and blew open the safes in 14 foreign embassies - all in one day!
For his commando service and dangerous exploits, he was awarded the Military Medal and given a free pardon at the end of the war. But not longer after his return to Glasgow he was back to his life of burglary and was caught and jailed again.
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In November 1955 he was sentenced to 10 years’ "preventive detention" at Peterhead Prison, which should have given him a few privileges. But he found there were none. He served over two years with exemplary conduct and still there was no move to the better conditions of "preventive detention". So Johnny responded in the only way he knew how - he escaped. Of course, he was later recaptured but he was at least given an opportunity to put his case to the prison authorities - which achieved nothing. Johnny escaped (and was recaptured) from Peterhead (Scotland's strongest jail) no less than five times including three times in 1958. Sometimes the prison warders didn't know whether he was inside or outside the prison. His fifth escape evoked wide-spread sympathy amongst the public which was illustrated by a song "The Ballad of Johnny Ramensky" by Norman Buchan (a Member of Parliament), which was printed in the Scotsman newspaper, and another musical tribute, Let Ramensky Go, was penned by none other than Roddy McMillan, the star of Para Handy.
Not long after starting a prison sentence in Barlinnie in Glasgow, Johnny was in the exercise yard and suddenly threw off his boots and shot up the wall, using cracks in the mortar as toe-holds. He reached a roof - but could get no further. Equally, the warders couldn't get him down - and Johnny was demanding to see the Chief of the Prisons Department! Attempts to reach the roof were met by a barrage of roof slates - watched by a growing audience outside the prison walls. He stayed out on the roof for five hours, eventually coming down when it started to get cold.
In 1962 Detective Superintendent Robert Colquhoun (retired), said "Like most policemen who have come in contact with Ramensky, I find him an engaging character, the kind of man who, applying his brain to another, more acceptable, type of occupation, could probably have made good." Before he had retired, DS Colquhoun received a message from Johnny (who was once more in prison). He had heard that the policeman was seriously ill. The message contained his good wishes for his speedy recovery, plus the advice that he’d been taking too much out of himself chasing Johnny around! As he grew older and the escapes continued one question was being asked: Why does he keep on doing it, at his age and in his state of health? A police officer who knew him well said "Johnny never expects to get far when he breaks out now ... he's just got to do it to prove that he still can."
Johnny remarried and started a second family during his all too short periods out of prison but persisted in his life of crime into his old age - by which time his abilities as a cat burglar were beginning to fail him. In 1972 he collapsed in Perth Prison and died shortly after in hospital. In addition to his family, the many people who attended his funeral came from both the law enforcement and the law breaking sides of society. Whatever his faults, Johnny Ramensky was respected by them all. His obituary appeared in every Scottish national newspaper.
That's not the end of Johnny Gently though, he lives on at Peterhead Prison, now a museum where Ramensky served so many years behind bars, has created a exhibition space which highlights different aspects of his career.
I couldnae find the Roddy McMillan  version of Lat Ramensky Go, but former BBC Young Traditional Musician of the Year, Claire Harings makes a great job of singing it, the lyrics below are the original version, Claire sings a slightly different version. 
Let Ramensky Go
There was a lad in Glesga town, Ramensky was his name Johnny didnae know it then but he was set for fame
Now Johnny was a gentle lad, there was only one thing wrong He had an itch to strike it rich and trouble came along He did a wee bit job or two, he blew them open wide But they caught him and they tried him and they bunged him right inside
Alley-ee alley-ay alley-oo alley-oh       Open up your prison gates       And let Ramensky go
And when they let him out he said he'd do his best but then He yielded tae temptation and they bunged him in again Now Johnny made the headlines, entertained the boys below When he climbed up tae the prison roof and gave a one-man show
Alley-ee alley-ay alley-oo alley-oh       Open up your prison gates       And let Ramensky go
But when the war was raging the brass-hats had a plan Tae purloin some information, but they couldnae find a man So they nobbled John in prison, asked if he would take a chance Then they dropped him in a parachute beyond the coast of France
Alley-ee alley-ay alley-oo alley-oh       Open up your prison gates       And let Ramensky go
Then Johnny was a hero, they shook him by the hand For stealing secret documents frae the German High Command So Johnny was rewarded for the job he did sae well They granted him a pardon frae the prison and the cell
Alley-ee alley-ay alley-oo alley-oh       Open up your prison gates       And let Ramensky go
But Johnny was in error when he tried his hand once more For they caught him at a blastin', and it wasnae worth the score
The jury pled for mercy, but the judge's voice was heard Ten years without remission, and that's my final word Ten years, my lord, that's far too long, wee Johnny cried in vain For if you send me up for ten I'll never come out again
Oh give me another chance, my lord, I'm tellin' you no lie But if you send me up for ten I'll sicken and I'll die
Alley-ee alley-ay alley-oo alley-oh       Open up your prison gates       And let Ramensky go
Now Peterhead's a fortress, its walls are thick and stout But it couldnae hold wee Johnny when he felt like walking out Five times he took a powder, he left them in a fix And every day they sweat and pray in case he makes it six
Alley-ee alley-ay alley-oo alley-oh       Open up your prison gates       And let Ramensky go
Alley-ee alley-ay alley-oo alley-oh       Open up your prison gates       And let Ramensky go
Alley-ee alley-ay alley-oo alley-oh       Open up your prison gates       And let Ramensky go..........
Here are some reports on him.......[1958:] Twelve hours after Johnny Ramensky had done his fifth and most baffling "vanishing act" in Peterhead jail yesterday it was not known whether he was INSIDE or OUTSIDE the prison. This was admitted late last night by a Scottish Home Department spokesman. Here is the sequence of events leading up to the cracksman's third escape in ten months.
Because of rain, 45 prisoners, including Ramensky, were being exercised in one of Peterhead's large prison halls. At 1.40, the exercise ended and the squad began a 50 to 70-yard march, in organised lines to the tailor's shop. At 1.43, they arrived at the shop WITHOUT RAMENSKY.
The alarm was raised. Every corner of the prison was searched. But there was no trace of the "King of Peterhead". No rope or ladder with which he could have scaled the jail's 18-foot wall was found. One theory was that Ramensky had a key to the back door of the tailor's shop, which is only ten feet from the wall. For it is believed that he had a key for the tailor's shop door on his October break-out. Out went the word to police all over the country:
 "Ramensky's free again."
Two hunts went on - in swirling snow and at temperatures below freezing point - for the 53-year-old convict who, despite ill-health, had made another freedom bid. Throughout the whole of the North of Scotland road blocks and police checks sprang up. Tracker dogs went out. A strong cordon was thrown round the immediate prison area. For on his last bid in October, Ramensky was found, after 40 hours of freedom only 200 yards from the prison. It was ill-health that beat him then. He collapsed after a child spotted him in a barn.[...]. 
Last night people living in the Peterhead area spoke of him without fear. For he is known as "Gentle John" and those beside the prison take bets on how long he will stay free. His escape in February this year lasted 24 hours, before he was caught in Peterhead's main street wearing a warder's cap and a long black coat.
One question was being asked: Why does he keep on doing it, at his age and in his state of health? A police officer who knows him well said last night: "Johnny never expects to get far when he breaks out now ... he's just got to do it to prove that he still can.
"Here is a description of the clothes worn by the wartime Commando who cracked safes behind enemy lines: Brown moleskin trousers, brown battledress tunic, brown jersey, blue and white striped shirt, black leather shoes ... and possibly wearing a cap. (Daily Record, Dec 18)
The six-day hunt for gentle Johnny Ramensky was called-off last night. And baffled police admitted: "There are still no clues." [...] The authorities believe that 53-year-old Ramensky, if still alive, is bound to make a mistake sometime, or to leave a clue somewhere. It is understood that police opinion is split over the reason for the absence of a "trail." Some feel he is dead in the sea, but others are convinced he is in the Peterhead area, possibly quite near the prison, and is being fed and sheltered. (Daily Record, Dec 23)
[1959:] Johnny Ramensky (53), the safe-breaker who made a sensational jail-break from Peterhead prison, remaining at liberty for nine days, is back in prison. He was caught at Persley, on the north bank of the River Don about three miles from Aberdeen. A police spokesman said after the capture that Ramensky was looking wonderfully well, apart from being footsore, and considering the long period he had been on the run. He was dressed in blue dungarees and a green jersey and his shoes were cracked and torn. It is understood that no police charges are impending against Ramensky on account of his escape. There have been no reports of break-ins or thefts. His fifth escape has evoked wide-spread sympathy amongst the public. During the war Ramensky was an instructor to Allied agents in blowing safes. (Weekly Scotsman, Jan 2)
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Just a little note: I’ve changed the timeline in a one off scenario for this. So if you’re confused because there are characters dead or alive/not even born before or after the timeline events. Don’t worry- you’re not going crazy. I just went crazy writing lmao. Also I was listing to ‘Ghost’ by Jacob Lee whilst writing some scenes:)
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A chilled breeze hit you, but you couldn't feel the cold. You stood on the edge of the roof of a high rise building, looking down at the blur of city lights below. Another breeze whooshed by you, the back of your shirt billowing in the breeze and ruffling your feathers. You cast a glance over your shoulder, eyeing your wings. Any second now you'd find the way. You took a deep breath, the world was quiet at such a height, peaceful even whilst the city street below were rampant. After all it was the city that never sleeps. It lived up to the name long before it was given. 
Just like that, there it was. A tiny urge, you found him, you found the way to him. Volterra, Italy. Vampire- that was a new one for you. You didn't know what he looked like but you didn't have to know. You'd know him when you saw him. You raised your arms out spread, time to go.  You leaned forward, falling off the ledge head first. You were picking up speed very fast it was only a matter of time before you'd hit the ground-but it never came. You were gone before anyone noticed. 
Your eyes ran up and down the tour guide Heidi. She was a vampire and no doubt did she intend you and the other tourists to be dinner. However, little did she know you weren't on the menu. She was beautiful a very luring trap...but you could see through her tricks. She was very beautiful but it didn't trick you like it would humans and vampires. You fell back to the end of the line and snuck away after entering the throne room doors. 
As the many more vampires lunged you pressed yourself against the wall and crouched low, not making eye contact with anyone and curling into a ball. This was never a pleasant sight but the smaller you were, the less likely you'd be attacked. The screaming, crying, growling, snarling and the noise of breaking bones left you tense. 
In minutes it was over, a steady silence filling the room. "We missed one." A light angelic voice said. You looked over to see all red eyes on you and a blonde girl smirking in glee. However they didn't hold your attention for very long. You heard a choked whimper to see a woman, alive but dying as a blonde man had his teeth latched to her shoulder. He seemed to be the only one who didn't look at you although a copper-haired woman was standing over him almost as though guarding him. Slowly you stood up straight, your eyes full of sympathy. The dying woman looked at you pleadingly. Silently begging you for help. 
Slowly you stepped over a marble bench. You slowly moved towards the blonde woman. She lay covered in blood and had to have been in her mid-forties. You knelt down beside her. "It's okay." You said lightly. "You can let go." You shook your head, keeping your voice low and quiet. "I know you're afraid." The woman's wide fearful eyes stayed on you before her she went limp, her eyes glazing over.  
The blonde man finally let go and his gaze also met yours. "Pain." The small blonde girl said with a sinister smile. You looked over at her and suddenly her expression changed to one of confusion, her eyes narrowing on you even further. A dark haired man looking between you and the blonde before speaking softly. "Jane." The blonde tore her gaze from you to the dark haired man. "Master." 
The man then turned back to you, approaching you. "You've made a very peculiar impression, little one. How have you not been noticed?" Your eyes ran up and down the man. He wasn't the one you were looking for. He seemed to notice your scrutiny before holding out his hand. "Would you do me the honour?" You held out your hand, not entirely certain of what he wanted you to do. He quickly enclosed your hand in his. He was cold, you had never been in contact with a vampire before. "I see nothing." He said faintly. "Fascinating." Your eyes narrowed on him this time. "What were you hoping to find?" You asked. "I am...a soul reader of sorts. I have the gift of seeing every thought someone had ever had. Regrettably, I see nothing of yours." "Oh, you won't." You said passively much to the vampires surprise. "Your name, my dear?" That threw you off, you were given a name but you were rarely asked for it. So naturally, you had to remind yourself of your name. It was a tendency to forget it after some time. "(Y/N)." "(Y/N)... what's your last name?" A blonde male sitting on a throne snapped. "I don't have one." You said pointedly. "Don't be ridiculous. You're family name, what is it!?" "I wasn't given one. I don't have a family. It's just me. Just (Y/N)." You paused. "Besides, it isn't ridiculous. Might I ask if you remember your last name? Being vampires, you'd be the first to forget." The dark haired man cut the blonde man off before he could shout. "You know of us?" "Yes. I've known since I saw that woman. Heidi, right? That was her name?" "How do you know of us?" The blonde man asked icily, gripping the arms of his throne tightly. "I can't be sure you'd believe me if I told you but...I can show you?" The dark haired man seemed excited by this and nodded. 
Gasps filled the room as large white wings were suddenly visible on your back. They moved slightly with your breathing, each feather pure white and overlapping one another. "Fascinating." The dark haired man said in awe. "Angelo." You cracked a small smile. "I’m looking for someone. We get callings you see, for people we have to be around. It's someone in this castle. Unfortunately, I cannot leave until my business is done with that individual." "Then introductions are in order." The dark haired man said. "My name is Aro." He turned on his heel, gesturing to the two men on their thrones. "This is Caius..." He pointed to the blonde. "...and Marcus." He glided his way towards the smaller vampires in the room. They were definitely related. "The twins; Jane and Alec." 
When you met eyes with the male, you knew immediately he was the one you were looking for, but you didn't say anything. "Demetri and Felix." Aro led you to two tall men, the smaller was blonde whilst the other had brown hair. Lastly he led you to the other blonde that had been hovering over the woman and the red headed woman. "This is Afton and Chelsea." Aro informed you of how many guards there were, he, Marcus and Caius being the leaders of what they called 'the Volturi'. The police for vampires.  
"I must inform you that I am aware of who my...'client' is." You thought over the word, not entirely sure how to out it. "Oh?" Aro tilted his head. "I must make eye contact with the person to know who it is." You nodded to Alec. "That is you." He looked stunned momentarily before tilting his head. "Why? Why him?"  Jane asked icily. "I don't know, that's up to Alec. We look over people by random chance, a handful each. Alec is one of mine seemingly." "He isn't yours!" Jane snapped. "No, you misunderstand. Alec is his own person, I don't own him nor can I harm him the idea is that I can help him." "Why would I need your help with anything?" Alec sneered. "That's up to you. I'm only here when necessary." "I don't want you and I don't want to be followed by a dead person. Bother someone else." He snapped and you chuckled with a shake of your head. "Humans think angels are people who have lived and died. It's not true. We're those who didn't get to live. We watch everyone else play the game knowing all we can do it spectate. To you, a vampire, you could consider me a ghost in the end. Life is a gift, an adventure. You're all stories to me. I'll watch the beginning of your life all the way to the end."  Aro seemed so interested by your very being that he insisted you stayed, overriding Alec's annoyance immediately. Furthermore, going as far as to tell him in a very delicate way to get over it. 
It seemed the twins were used to being told no and when you learned more about him, only then did you get a rough idea as to why you may have been called to him. He and his sister was alone and suffering from the brutality from humans- accused of witch craft beer less and burned at the stake. They're abilities made them terrifying. They were completely isolated from the world. 
Alec's aggression began to melt gradually, although he still very much didn't want you around. You could see a small bit of fear behind his eyes. He didn't understand you or what you could do. There was no trust but you were content with that. The two of you had time. 
Finally, he seemed willing to talk to you, even if it was two months later. "I don't understand. I'm trying to understand you, but I don't. I don't see the point." You sighed in response. "Why should I trust you?" Alec asked. "Because I don’t have any ill intentions." "No...why should I trust you? Why should I consider you anything other than what you are? You're a stranger." "Then consider me a stranger who could be a friend." You said softly, cracking a small smile at Alec. 
The Volturi decided to visit the Cullen's and check up on Renesmee. Much to their surprise, so had the Romanians. However, seemingly out of respect for the Cullen's, they were willing to co-exist...by avoiding one another directly. 
As expected, it didn't take long for the Romanians to start asking questions. None of which were new in the slightest.  “Why should anyone in this room believe you?” Stefan asked. “You won’t prove yourself, you won’t tell us anything- so why should we cling to any word you say?” You laughed slightly before meeting eyes with him. "Tell me, do you really need to know everything? Knowing the explanation for something doesn't change it. Humans are slowly beginning to catch on that the universe, the world, everything doesn't need to be understood to function. If I told you all the secrets there is, it wouldn't change anything but you. That isn’t always a good thing, that isn’t the point of living. Besides, you'll end up like us in the end. A lonely shadow of what could have been."
Alec noticed the way you spoke. You were always so dismissive of yourself. As though you had no value. It was bizarre to see an angel with with no regard for their own kind but thought the world of humans...and even vampires. Angels were considered superior beings yet you seem to think it was the other way about. He couldn’t stop thinking about you, you were like a puzzle that he tried so desperately to solve yet each time he thought he had, there’s a whole other perspective that told him he was wrong. Vladimir finally asked his own question. "If you have all the answers then why don't you fix the world?" Your answer was short, simple and given with a simple smile."Because it's not my place to fix the world. It's yours. The world is what you made it to be." 
One night, Harry Clearwater’s eyes drifted open and was immediately welcomed by your warm smile. He was in the hospital, that he knew but he couldn’t focus on that, or much else for that matter. You sat on a chair that Seth had previously left out whilst visiting. “Hi.” You said gently. “You don’t know me…” You quickly explained “but that’s alright. You don’t have to worry. I’m here to help you for this next part.” His clouded gaze drifted to fix on your eyes. Harry’s fingers twitched slightly and before he could move them any further, you took his hand in your own. Just as he wanted. “Don’t be afraid, Harry. Everything is okay. Nothing can hurt you. It’s time to go now.” You saw the hesitation in his eyes. “I…can’t. Seth…Leah.” His voice was cracked and barely a whisper. You leaned forward. “They aren’t children anymore. You’ve done a beautiful job raising them. You’ve done so much and been so much. Be kind to them, be kind to yourself. Don’t fight this, don’t suffer and make them watch. I’ve watched you since you were born, Harry.” You lightly shook your head. “It’s time to go.” He still seemed uncertain and you squeezed his hand in comfort. “I’ll be right here with you. I’m here to help. I was there when you were born and I’m here now. Let go.” You leaned over him, your head hovering over his heart. Harry saw a soft white glow emit from you but couldn’t trust it was real. Gradually white transparent wings moved into his line of sight as he felt himself slip away. Your eyes fluttered shut hearing his heart slow to a stop. 
You met Carlisle in his kitchen. He had just returned home from his shift and you were eager to properly meet him. He didn’t seem to know you were there for Harry Clearwater before he died. "If I didn't know better, I'd have said you were modest." You smiled at Carlisle. "I'm just doing my job." “You’re a good man, Carlisle. People like you are exceptionally rare. I’ll admit it, I’m very fond of you.” “Thank you. That’s very gracious of you. You're (Y/N), aren't you? Alec's friend?” Carlisle said softly. You looked up at him but never answered him, instead continuing. “You don’t believe me.” You smiled. “I do good deeds to repent for my sins. My kind…I do good in the hopes that I’m somehow improving who I am and what I am. That’s a selfishness. I should do good and expect nothing and think nothing in return.” Carlisle explained. “Your father taught you that.” Carlisle paused. “He’d detest what I’ve become.” You placed your hand over his, lowering your voice. “I can’t give you forgiveness. You have to forgive yourself, Carlisle. I can tell you that you’re forgiven. I could say it forever and it wouldn’t change a thing. It wouldn’t change that you haven’t forgiven yourself.” You looked down, wiping down a counter. “That’s the secret only few have caught onto. Forgiveness is very freeing but it’s only so when the person forgives themselves. You’re not your father. You didn’t always agree with him and that is your right. That is your path. You did what any loving son would. You do good and don’t expect a reward, you want to help people. You’d offer forgiveness to anyone in a second. So forgive yourself.” 
"So why do you stay? Who do you take orders from?" Vladimir asked. Your brow crinkled slightly. "I have a job to do, it's the very reason why I exist. I don't get orders from anyone." "So it is you who judges us?" You frowned slightly. "I'm not God." You said lightly. "Is there a God?" Stefan asked "Does it matter?" You shot back. "This stuff really doesn't change anything in your lives. You're supposed to decide on your life for yourself. You do what you think you should and you carry on. That's what it means to be alive. Enjoy it. Not all of us can say the same thing." 
Your attention was gained by Renesmee who was eager to catch you before you left with the Volturi. You crouched down, looking up at her. "Can I see your angel wings?" Renesmee asked lightly. You hummed, propping your elbow on top of your knee, resting your head on your hand. "I think you could...if you look hard enough." Renesmee gave you a confused look and you tucked a piece of hair behind her ear before standing up and turning to head back to the Volturi. A small gasp escaped Renesmee when she saw white dazzling wings now on your back, where they hadn't been prior. You looked over your shoulder and smiled at her. 
You returned to Volterra to be met with Marcus after attending to another death. A vampire named Laurent. "My apologies, I had somewhere to be. A send off." You said politely to Marcus who stood in the kitchen. However you were met with silence and a cold gaze. "What is it Marcus?" You asked, placing your hands on the kitchen counter as you stood beside him. “If you are all powerful, where were you when I needed you? Where were you when Didyme needed you?” Marcus asked. You looked up at him. “The assumption is that angels are powerful, in some ways we can be…” You lightly shook your head with sympathy. “…but not in the way that you think. I could never stop anyone dying. I can help them, ease their suffering if allowed but I can’t stop death. Angels see everything but can’t interact. It can be a curse but it is what it is. Angels have never left you Marcus, nor did they leave Didyme. When someone experiences pain, it’s all they can see. You didn’t see us because you weren’t looking for us and that’s the truth.” You paused. “In all honesty, i think I’d want to feel the pain in your situation. Your grief has a beauty to it because it means you felt the most precious of loves in the world. Not everyone is so lucky.” Marcus’ mouth twisted. “You can’t even say you were there for the twins-” “I was.” You said immediately. “I was there for every second of that night.” “You did nothing.” “And if I did?” You asked Marcus lightly. “Wouldn’t you find anger towards me for not giving free will? That’s the alternative. It’s easier for you to blame me, which is fine, but I hope that one day you’ll find I am not the cause of your pain or anyone else’s. I’ve already told you. I never existed as a person to be the one at fault.”
You stood in the balcony with Alec.  “You might blend in but... you’re remarkable. Really.” Alec said. You rolled your eyes playfully. “No i’m not.”  “You are and you’re my friend. No one has ever been enough to be my friend. I won’t let you slip away.”   "I'm not alive, Alec. What I think and want doesn't matter. I have a job to do and that's all I'm here for." You said simply with a light shrug. "I'm dead. I was born, I lived for a short while and then I died. You're point is?" Alec asked turning his head to look at you. You didn't answer. "You always talk about yourself like you're empty. Like you're nothing." Alec frowned slightly. "Aren't I?" You asked. "I never lived. I was never born." "But you exist." Alec pressed. "I see the beauty in you, just the way you are." You turned your head to look at Alec. "You would have been a beautiful human. A beautiful soul." Alec looked at you. "Yeah?" You asked lightly. Alec nodded. "I'm learning something." Alec began. "And what's that?" You asked quietly. "Even a ghost needs a friend...so..." Alec trailed off before putting his hand over yours. You smiled slightly. "I'm still not a ghost." "Shut up. You're better than a ghost." Alec smirked pulling you closer into his side. "You're an angel." “Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to be human. To ...live.” You said quietly and mostly to yourself. Alec reached for your hand, interlocking his fingers in between your own.  “What are you doing?” You asked quietly.  “Helping.” Alec said simply pulling you to him, his arm winding around your waist. Slowly he forced you to sway with him. “Dancing?” You whispered and Alec only hummed in response. Gently you rested your head against his. “I’ve never done this before.” You mumbled and Alec cracked a smile. “No?”  “I’m usually, the spectator.” He chuckled quietly. “Not anymore, sweet-face.” You didn’t see Alec immediately bite his lip, the name slipping out before he could catch it. 
One day, he asked the burning question that had seared his mind since he met you."Why don't you ever tell me why you came here?" "Because I don't know the answer to that." You said. "How can you come to me if you don't know why?" "I do know why I came to you. I just don't know the exact reason you want." "I want the truth! You just said you didn't know why and now you do!" Alec snapped he rose to a stand, anger in his eyes. "I know why I'm here but I don't know the exact details and it's those details that you want! I can't give you those details because it's you who is supposed to give me the reason why I'm here." "I'm not going to ask again." Alec said lowly. "Tell me what you do know! Tell me why you're here! Tell me why you just showed up here!" He yelled.  “We’re only noticed when we need to be!” You said through a stiff jaw. “What does that mean!?” Alec scowled at you. Your gaze lifted to meet Alec’s and gave him a gentle smile. “You needed me.” 
 Alec seemed to falter slightly at your words. He knew you were right. He needed someone and just like that you were in his life. Even if he didn't want to admit it. He needed a friend, and you were there days later. Suddenly your words made sense. Alec had sent you to Volterra. You came because he needed you, even if he didn't want to think so. Although that being said, being his friend was enough for him anymore. He cared about you too much for you to ever have remained as just a friend. You had become everything to him even if you thought you were nothing and he had no issue telling you otherwise. He had no other intention than to prove to you that your importance- however long it took. 
Alec held out his hand and you took it, looking at him warily. He pulled you to a stand. "I need you to know something." "What is it?" Alec shook his head. "Stay here, in this moment with me." Alec said suddenly. "Don't move." You didn't respond but confusion flickered in your eyes momentarily. "I can't be your friend anymore because I need to do something. It will very likely ruin our friendship." "Then why would you do it?" You asked quietly. "Trust me." Alec breathed before his lips met yours. His hands holding your head in place. 
You felt the time had come to finally approach Marcus. To try and help him heal, even if only slightly. Didyme’s death was easier before he knew you and now that he knew of such things as angels, he couldn’t help but think of his beloved Didyme. You knocked quietly on the door before entering. “Hey, can I talk to you?” Marcus somberly nodded.  “I feel that the knowledge of my existence has thrown you off balance. I wanted to try and fix that.”  “I think you’re wonderful.” Marcus spoke up. “As would Didyme if she were here but you change everything. I can no longer wonder where she could be- if she is somewhere. The fact that you won’t tell us where or if they go somewhere else, if my Didyme is alone like i am...it’s destroying me.” You took Marcus' hand and squeezed it. "Marcus," You said quietly. "I can only tell you one thing and it's absolutely true. Didyme died but she didn't die alone. Someone was with her for every step of the way." You cracked a small and slightly teary smile. "No one is ever alone when they die." Marcus' dark eyes stared you down. You could see the emotions flooding him but he stayed still and quiet. Suddenly, you felt his fingers wrap around your own. You figured out what had come over him. Acceptance. Acceptance which washed away the anger he held. 
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Please believe. - P
How many pages did the last book you read have? I don’t even remember the last time I opened it; but if I have to guess, it’s probably anywhere between 600–800 pages.
What do you like on your pancakes? Soaked in butter, with peanut butter and maple syrup on the side. My dad will also sometimes mix bacon into the batter, and it always turns out delicious.
Do you like small parties or large parties more? I love going to any kind of party, but I like large ones just a little bit more just because it’s easier to blend in and go unnoticed for the most part. I usually feel pressured at smaller parties.
What was the last exam you passed in? I have no idea. Maybe a history exam? I remember taking a Rizal exam right before the pandemic started and I never got the results for that since classes were canceled shortly after. I’ll never know if I actually passed that test haha.
Do you think paw prints are cute? Yesssssss.
How much would you pay a neighbour to do your lawn? We have someone in the village who does that, and my mom usually gives him a tip of I would guess around ₱100.
Ordinary pens, scented pens, gel pens or felt tip pens? Ordinary. The other ones write horribly.
Are you a people person? I’ve grown to be one over the years. I do like my alone time, but I have the most fun with a person or two or ten around me.
Do you put pepper on your scrambled eggs? No. I never use pepper myself, actually.
Who, except yourself, has the nicest pet? Angela’s, at least one of her dogs are. Hailey is super nice and she doesn’t really care what you do with her hahahaha.
What's your favourite piece of clothing? Right now, probably my IVP sneakers since they’re my newest purchase. Other than that, my mom jeans are always super reliable.
What place have you gone to that you never would again? Police stations that I had to visit to cover stories for my journalism classes. Maybe it’s other people’s passion – and I thought it was mine at one point, too – but once I found myself in places like that I slowly realized that I didn’t have the fire for journalism I once thought I had.
What do others seem to have plenty of and you have little or none? Nice photos of themselves. I’m very camera shy.
Is pink a nice colour, an okay colour or icky? I personally love pink, so.
Give me a description of a great film plotline? ...I don’t feel like it :(( I also haven’t watched/rewatched any films in a while, so my memory is a bit rusty.
What do you have in your pockets? Nothing I’m wearing right now has pockets.
Do you listen to podcasts? Not really. I’m part of the minority that finds podcasts a little boring.
Have you ever played Poker? I’d guess I’ve tried playing it one or two times, but I’ve never understood the rules and I probably just did some random moves when I did try it.
Do you have a pond in your garden? No.
How about a swimming pool? We don’t.
Do you like Poptarts? I loooooove Pop Tarts and I wish we had more flavors here :( and that they weren’t so expensive.
Do you write notes on post-it notes? Sometimes; but lately I’ve mostly just been making to-do lists on my laptop. Writing takes too much time considering how hectic my job is.
Quiet darling, shh. - Q
Do you ever use the word quaint? Very rarely. I never really get into situations where that word would be most fitting to use.
Do you know what quantum physics is? I know of the term from watching The Big Bang Theory, but I don’t know what it refers to.
Are you a quiet or loud person? Depends on the people I’m with, my general mood, and my level of comfort.
Do you usually ask a lot of questions? I never do. I feel like that’s a weakness of mine, too. My mind never wanders too far, and I’m only able to recognize good questions when someone else raises them.
What's your favourite quote from a film? “Rome. By all means, Rome.”
Favourite quote from a song? “Now I’m told this is life, and pain is just a simple compromise so we can get what we want out of it.”
Are you quick witted? In what aspect? Not always; but yeah, I guess it comes out sometimes. I’m pretty good at witty or funny comebacks, especially with people I’m comfortable with.
Do you find the word queer offensive? Er, no?
Roses are Red and Romance is dead. - R
Do you listen to the radio often? I used to, since I once drove to school everyday and I liked having the radio on - especially in the morning, since there was a morning program I was hooked to. But now that I’m at home 24/7, I don’t really tune in anymore; I don’t even have the slightest clue what songs are trending rn.
Do you prefer rain or snow? We only get rain, so.
Have you ever ran into someone and injured you or them due to it? Fortunately no, for both circumstances.
Do you listen to rap music? K-Pop groups always have their own rap sub-unit, so yeah I’ve definitely been more exposed to rap these days.
Do you find pet rats gross or nice? Why? I guess it’s cute when they’re pets, since I’m sure they’re harmless. Not so much when they’re big black filthy rats that are house pests and probably carrying a lot of diseases.
Have you ever been to a rave? No. I’d love to experience it once.
Are you somewhat of a rebel? Nah.
How about reckless? Now this hits the spot more, especially when it comes to money lol
Do you prefer red, black or purple dresses? Black, then red, then purple. I don’t wear a lot of the latter to begin with.
Do you know how to reload a gun? I don’t; I’ve never even held a real gun before.
Do you remember your first best friends Mum's name? I don’t think I ever met her mom. Our friendship was super short-lived and didn’t go beyond preschool.
Do you have a good or a bad reputation? Idk, you’d have to ask other people for this I think.
What song do you request most often on the radio? I’ve never requested a song to radio stations.
Do you prefer rice or tofu? I need rice for literally every meal, otherwise it won’t feel filling. I like tofu too, but I only have it occasionally when it comes with some dishes.
Have you ever held a rifle? Nope.
Do you know a Robert? What's he like? I have an uncle-in-law named Robert. He’s very nice, and super intelligent; he’s from New Zealand but currently lives with my aunt and their family in Vietnam. Since he’s from a different country, he has lots of fun stories and different perspectives to share at family reunions, which makes me always want to sit at whichever table he’s at so that I can be part of interesting conversations.
Do you like rollercoasters? No.
Been to Rome, Italy? Nope.
Are Roses your favourite flower? They’re one of them.
So sweetheart, lets fan. - S
Do you feel safe in your neighbourhood? Yeah, I mean that’s kind of the whole point in living in a gated village. I’d be pretty alarmed if I ever hear of a crime happening here.
Whose the Patron Saint of your Country? St. Lorenzo Ruiz. I actually didn’t know that for a fact, so thanks for the Google search and impromptu lesson!
Do you put salt on your fries? Yessssssss, I need my fries to be very salty. Unless it was already seasoned with something else, I’d find it boring if it wasn’t salty enough.
Do you think we are all born the same? In some ways, yes; in some ways, no. I know everyone is born as humans worthy of love and respect, but when it comes to factors like privilege then that’s when circumstances start to get all different.
When did you stop believing in Santa? I never bought it. I used to always get frustrated that I was never allowed to meet Santa (none of my relatives ever played as him), and that he apparently just likes to leave gifts at midnight. Not seeing a Santa made me doubt and eventually I just kinda stopped buying it by the time I was like 5.
Do you think the name Sarah is pretty? Erm, it’s fine but I find it a little common.
Is Saturday your favourite day of the week? Fridays are, but Saturdays are a very close second.
Have you ever watched Saved By The Bell? Opinions? Nope.
What about the Saw films? Opinion? I haven’t, but I know they’re my eldest cousin’s favorite so it must be a good series.
Are you easily scared? In certain ways. I hate jumpscares for one, and I easily get offended by them.
What's your secondary language, if any? English.
Name all the things you can see from where you're sitting? The entirety of my bedroom.
What's the last sentence you spoke out loud? “JAY KAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY”
Have you changed your default settings on your computer? Some of them just to change some aspects of the appearance, but I didn’t do a complete overhaul.
What year did you turn seven in? 2005.
How important is sex in a relationship how important is sex from 1-10? For me, probably like a 3 or 4.
What is your favourite shade of blue? Sky or royal.
Shade of Purple? BTS purple, I guess? Hahaha.
Favourite shape? I don’t have one.
Do you know a girl called Sharon? Nope.
How about Shari? Nope.
Do you shave your arms, legs, pubic hair and/or somewhere else? I shave, but not all of these areas.
When was the last time you were sick? May 2020 was the last time I felt like death.
What's the worst side effects you've had due to a medication? I’ve never gone through side effects from a medication.
What does your signature look like? A very lazy scribble of the first and last letters of my whole name.
Do you like silk? What do you own that is silk? It’s okay, but I never actively search for it. I have one set of silk pajamas but that’s it.
Do you sip or drink hot drinks fast? As much as possible I don’t like getting in contact with hot beverages. I wait for them to cool down considerably before I take my first sip.
How about with alcohol? Sure, I like to take them fast so that I don’t feel the nasty burn on my tongue.
Do you have sisters? How many, what ages and what're they called? Nina is turning 21 this year.
Is your grandmother older than sixty five? Both of them are, yeah.
Do you slam doors often? Nope.
Have you ever slapped someone in the face? For what reason? Yes. Because he had slapped me first. I was in so much shock that my first and only instinct was to hit back.
Do you snack a lot or just eat big meals? I like letting myself go hungry then reward myself with a very generous serving to eat in one go.
Do you smile more often, or frown? Smile.
Are you wearing socks? No, I haven’t worn any in a while.
Do you say sorry too often? Yes.
What's a sound that always soothes you? This. I always play it before turning in, or when I need to calm down.
Do you carry a lot of spare change? How much is on you now? Not so much anymore, since I’ve been increasingly going cashless.
Do you own a swimsuit of the Speedo brand? I don’t think so.
Do you like sunflowers? They have a personal meaning to me, so yes. It’s not my ultra favorite, though.
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christineeej94 · 4 years
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Neighbors ❤
Arón Piper x Reader
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a/n: I appreciate all the likes i got for my first attempt and now I want to write another one, a little bit longer and more interesting. I hope you guys gonna like it and I wait for your requests. Kisses 🌻
Content: The reader is moving to Spain, she meets Aron by chance because they live in the same block. They are starting to see each other very often and after a few weeks they become a couple.
Warnings: bad writing and some inappropriate language. 
Word count: 1732 
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When I decided that I want to move to Spain I don't know what was on my mind. It was a radical decision and now I'm in new apartment who has a beautiful view of Madrid's streets. I like to seat here, drink a cup of coffee, read a book or just admire the breathtaking view.
  I admit that this city is so mesmerizing and full of life, but I'm alone, I live my family in Italy and come here to find something. I leaved everything, my home, my family and my job at the gallery to find something now, an adventure. I'm looking for inspiration for my paintings and I think here I can find it. Today I want to spend my time on streets with my camera and take pictures of people, animals or whatever I consider that deserve to be painted. I dressed with a colorful dress and some sandals. I pinned my hair in a pony tail and I take anything I need for this walk. I locked my apartment and I start going down the stairs. When I went outside the bright sun blinded me for a few seconds so I put some sunglasses and start walking to nowhere. Today is a great day to get some inspiration and the locals are already on streets and at the local markets. I photographed some kids eating ice cream, an old couple reading a newspaper on a bench and a lady at the flower shop. Walking down to the historical center I seen three guys at a table and they were drinking a coffee. I wanted to photograph this state but the sunlight blocked my view.  They look so handsome and very masculine. I took courage and come closer to them table.
A blonde guy, a boy with black hair and another one with brown curly hair are looking curiously at me when I got in front of them.
"Hi, I'm (Y/N) and I'm a professional photographer and also a painter. May I take some photos of you?" “I promise it will be quick” They are looking at me like I am a crazy lady. Maybe I’m but that’s another story.
They smiled at me and starting to talk to each other in Spanish. I didn't understand a word and now I realize that maybe they didn't understand me in the first place.
“First, I’m Miguel” the blonde one present himself. “He is Itzan and he is Arón” Miguel pointed first the black hair guy who smiled at me, then the curly boy who looks so good.
"Nice to meet you." I smiled. "Can I start?"
They approve and I ask them if they can be natural like I was not there. The boys are really born to be models because the final result was amazing. After I finished i give them my contact data if they want the photos. Miguel and Itzan were very excited and I talked with they a little. They explained me that they are actors and it is very regular for them to be photographed.   That beautiful guy, Arón, didn't talk at all and he was already gone after a we finished. I was happy that I met these nice guys and I ensured them that if they need something, they can call me. 
When I have arrived home, it was already dark outside. I made a bowl of instant noodles and I stayed on my balcony, watching the light and enjoying my diner.  I googled for the three boys I met today and I’m surprised and shock because they are famous. All of them are acting in this series called “ ÉLITE”. I start watching the first episode when load voices and extremely load music are coming from my neighbor above me. It’s half past the midnight so it’s late for a party, especially in the middle of the week. I put a hoodie on my summary pajamas and I walked up the stairs to my neighbor’s door. I hit hard the black door and after a few minutes a tall boy with curly black hair was sitting in front of me with a beer in his hand, smirking at me.
“Can I help you, princesa?” I don’t say anything because I didn’t understand what he’s saying.
“You are shy? Come in, the party is already started” He speaks in English this time and he drags me inside. “I’m Jorge by the way”
“I’m your neighbor, (Y/N)” I finally speak and we enter in a room full of people who are dancing and drinking. “Sweetheart, I don’t live here, I’m just a guest” he explains and I want to leave, I’m not welcome here and I don’t know who own this apartment.
“Hey, Jorge, who is she” a familiar voice is heard from behind I turn around. Miguel is sitting in front of me with people I don’t know, but I recognize some faces from the “ÉLITE” first episode. Miguel looks surprised to see me there. “(Y/N)? What are you doing here?” He is happy to see me and I’m also happy to see him. He hugged me and present me to the group. “But seriously, what are you doing here?” “I live in the apartment below.” “I didn’t know you are living here, Miguel, I apologize for the inconvenience” He looks confused for a second. “I’m not living here, Arón is” he explained. “Stay, we are gonna have so much fun.” I looked down to myself and I've seen a very messy outfit which is not appropriate for this kind of party.
“Hey, is that the girl from the coffee shop?” “¡Ai, que hermosa!” Arón screams from the terrace and he’s walking like a zombie to us.
“I apologize for him, he was drinking too much, you know, he got his heart broke.” Miguel support Aron and the curly head boy is sending me kisses. “Maybe I should go home, is pretty late.” “Nice too meet you guys.” I greeted the group of people and I go home.  
All night I couldn't sleep, I only see Arón face in my mind and I can´t stop thinking of him. His beautiful eyes and his smile are so stunning. I don't know him at all but he seems a nice person and I would like to know him. But he is a star and I'm just an ordinary girl. I started my day terribly, I'm tired and I don't feel like getting out of bed too soon. Yesterday I received an email about a job at a fashion magazine and today I’ve to be there at 12 p.m. At half past 11 I was sitting in front of elevator. When I entered Arón was inside looking in his pone. First he didn’t notice me so I decide to greet him.
“Hey.” my voice sound like a strangled cat. “Oh, hey there, (Y/N) right?” I approve and I’m looking in other direction.  He intimidates me with his presence. “I’m sorry for last night, I wasn’t myself.” “It’s alright, I’m used with parties and load people” I said and we get out of elevator. “Where are you going now?” “I'm going to an interview for a job at Cosmopolitan Spain and I am pretty late.”
“Let me drop you, it’s on my way.” I accepted because I was late. In the car he asks me so much questions and we figured out that we have many things in common. “Come with me at a barbeque this weekend, it will be fun and I gonna present you to my friends” He said when he dropped me at the Cosmopolitan offices. “Sure, why not.” I blushed when he winked and smirked at me. "See ya, hermosa." "And good luck."
After two hours I was already home. I slept all day and I woke up when my phone started ringing.
“(Y/N) (Y/L/N)?” “I’m calling you from Cosmopolitan offices, congratulations, you got the job, you can start on Monday.”
I was excited when I heard the news. I can’t believe I got the job. I spend the rest of the night dancing and watching my new favorite show.
  After 3 weeks
  I open the door to let my best friend to come in. Arón puts the chips and the beers on the coffee table and sits comfortable on the couch. It's Friday so it's the "Euphoria night". We started together this series and he loves it. I don't like it that much but I adore to spend time with him. Arón it was a good friend for me from the beginning. He is teaching me Spanish and I made a lot of friends here thanks to him. We start know each other very well, but he doesn't know that I like him so bad. We flirt a lot but it’s more like a joke.
“I don’t like that guy, Nate” I commented and he laughed. “It’s a bad guy, (Y/N), you don’t like bad guys?” He smirks at me and I rolled my eyes. “I like you” He takes it like a joke and start laughing. “Pero soy un mal cabrón” he looks at me inappropriately and he smiles suggestively. I love when he is talking in Spanish. “You are such a playboy.” “Of course, that’s my middle name” He shows me his middle finger and I hit him softly in his left arm.
After a few hours we are sitting on my balcony admiring the sunset. I start to love Spain so much and I love the boy next to me who is smoking the fourth cigarette in the past 30 minutes.  He observes that I stare at him and he smiles. “I know I’m beautiful, stop looking at me like that.” “Sorry.”
 “But I don’t outdo you” he takes me in his arms and start singing his lyrics from ‘Vicio’. “What are you doing?” I laugh and he giggles. “I’m singing for my future girlfriend” He answers and I blush. My heart stops beating for a couple of seconds. “What?” I mumbling. He stopped and raised my face. “You are the most beautiful person I ever seen, you are kind and you are so talented” “And I like you like a crazy man” I can’t stop smiling after his declaration. “Do you want to be my crazy woman?” “Of course, mi amor” I answer and we kiss softly.
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blackevermore · 3 years
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Jojo Sona info dump
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Name: Chiara Maka Le'Roy Namesake: Chiara - French for Light/Brightest // Le’Roy - French (Leroy) for ‘The King’ Nicknames: Chia Pet (Mista) Chi (naturally) Age: 21 Birthday: 05/07 Zodiac Sign: Taurus Chinese Zodiac: Rabbit
Personality:  INTP-T /  Logician - short patience - stubborn - a big on the loud side - turbulent -/+ blunt and straight forward -/+ Introverted -/+ very cautious and questions things -/+ sective empathy and sympathy  + Intuitive + Enthusiastic + Friendly
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Stand: [Truth Hurts] - Mid range attacker
💥 Addictive | This stand is able to numb the motor system in the nervous system with binaural beats that makes them dance nonstop in a relax trance. When the victim is subdued the user can set off internal explosions in the Neurons causing crippling pains in targeted areas of the body when made contract with.
the learned ability would be enhancing the explosions and leading them to the heart for a very painful heart attack and up towards the brain for brain cramping migraines (this would take a lot of training due to the user suffering a blowback if not powerful enough)
Another addition of this attack for the nervous system explosions are when the user lands an attack in the same place three times can shock the nerves in that limb/area rendering it unless
💥 Teleport | The stand can move its user in a teleporting way by blocking the visual motors in the eyes for short periods of time. To the person being distracted they just see veils flying over their eyes.
💥 Playback | The user can change the tone of their voice to mind control someone as long as they stays within 30 feet of each other. The farther away the victim gets from the user the weaker the hold on them gets, once they step out of bound they can pull out of the hold but are left confused and dazed.
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Background
[Before GW]
x Born in Cameroon near the western region in a small village north of Yaounde to a well off mother who married an upcoming drug dealer. When she was born she was the youngest sister to her twin brother, this was considered a bad omen in many different tribes in Africa. Although her mother wanted to keep both of the children her father took it into his hands and decided that one of the twins would be killed in order to rebalance their "luck". Chiara was picked to be the one to die since girls aren't really seen as that important within the tribe while boys can easily be taught trade and what not. But the night Chiara was meant to die the wrong baby was picked and the boy was killed instead. The following morning was when it was discovered the mistake was made. Her mother knew that due to the mix up they would try and kill Chiara so she planned to flee from the village. But when she spoke to a voudou priest he told her that Chiara was protected by a floating spirit that refused to leave her side. The priest told her that since the spirit would leave, capture it and have the baby wear the spirit as a protect against all evils.
x The father found out the mother's plans and wanted to aid her but didn't know how but then he was told what the priest said and thought it was best to follow through with capturing the spirit. Her father took the only thing that was valuable to him which was his mother's emerald necklace and broke it apart get the gem. When they captured the spirit it didn't put up much of a fight and went willingly. What Chiara's mother didn't know was how to get the baby to wear the necklace at all time without it being broken. They thought of many things but nothing seemed to be reasonable without breaking the gem down again to make earrings but that might release the spirit. So they spoke to the priest for suggestions and the priest took the gem and magically implaneted it in the back of Chiara's neck
x Throughout her years of growing up there were always signs of bad luck that seemed to follow Chiara. She would be bullied by other students who parents told them not to talk to her and she would be yelled at by elders to get away bc they didn't watch to catch what followed her. Chiara couldn't see her "protector" but the elders could and they thought it was death hanging over the girls head.  Eventually, when Chiara was 10 her father had made it up the latter of ranks in the underground world that he sent her and her mother away to the states to live new lives. In the states  Chiara did have a better childhood but she was still treated weird for the gem in her neck.
x When she was 15 she went back to Cameroon to visit her father and was nearly killed when she was spotted in the market. The attacker blamed her for their parents' death with was the result of a bad drug deal from her father. Chia quickly returned home and grew to hate her father for what he was doing. She even developed bad self esteem for how much of a bad omen she was due to being a twin. This made her somewhat bitter towards her life.
x When she was 18 she wanted to travel to Europe for graduating high school. Her father offered to pay for the trip as long as she had someone there to watch over her. Chia didn’t think anything of it and took the offer, when she arrived in Italy she was already being waited on by two strange men who were younger than her. Bruno and Leone. She hated the idea that two 17 year olds were watching her which made her cause trouble. Leone was the first to put his foot in her ass and tell her the only reason they had to look after her was because her father was signing a deal with their boss (no off the info was shared) and Chiara ended up having a break down while in Italy. For a few days of her trip she locked herself away in her room and didn't go anywhere.
x It was Bruno who popped Abba upside the head and managed to get inside Chiara's hotel room but that lead to Bruno having to face off with her now discovered stand Truth Hurts ( not Lizzo ) who was protecting Chiara from anyone who tried to get close. After coaxing Chiara to stand down and trust him Bruno managed to comfort her and coax her out of her room with a deep heart to heart yada yada
x The last two days of her trip was her apologizing to Bruno and Abba grumpily apologising to her for cussing her out. From then on out she found new friends in the two and would often chat with them when she could. Within the next year she was traveling to Italy for vacations and meeting the new members of Bruno's gang
x In the year before the canon lore of GW Chiara enrolled in university in communications major and English minor. Bruno helped her find her passion in not only in herself her in what was around her. Her major issue was always feeling like she actually was a bad omen and her desire were to one day find her meaning and be her true self not only for herself but those around her.
x During the events of GW Bruno tried to cut ties with Chiara to protect her from being connected with him and it worked for the most part and she was really depressed because she realized she loved him. While he was gone living his upmost dangerous life she was in Italy hanging on to false hope that he was still alive (he betrayed his boss and was now wanted dead or mostly dead along with his team)
[After GW and everyone lives >:G]
x Neither Bruno or Chiara confess their feelings in words but in actions and a long kiss outside Bruno's hangout spot it obvious they are a thing and she becomes the second mom to the group and "adopts" Narancia and Giorno. It was also the first time Mista got to met her in person.
x She also becomes an activist to stop the slaughter of twins throughout Africa and with the help of Don Gio she is able to accomplish a lot more than she could by herself. She also helps stops the drug smuggling from Africa to Italy with taking over the northern part of her father’s routes and shutting them down. 
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[ Trivia!! ]
x Chiara tends to not voice it but when bad things do happen she thinks its because of her. If too many bad things happen at once she’ll distance herself from people.
x She knows her stand is hers but sometimes she talks to it like it’s her brother or a brother figure.
x She is a strong ride or die, she also feels strongly about people being abandon and having to make it on their own. She has a bad habit of babying Naracia that Bruno constantly tells her to stop doing.
x Kelpto, there was a phase in her life she was feeling rebelous and would steal things for temporary happiness. Old habits die hard and Brunp has to tell her to put things back a lot.
x She loves the fashy fashion life style and will not hesitate to spend someone else's money.
x Her pride is in her nails, which she gets done with fancy designs, if she breaks on you better fucking move.
x Has a strong attitude and when she starts counting “your red flags” and makes it to three you have crossed her patience line. 
x Should be wearing glasses but she wear contacts. On her down days she wears her glasses.
x Loves music and will play RnB on Bruno’s cleaning days
x She loves to dance, learning new dances, making dances, all of it. She was clown you in Just Dance in a heart beat. She can’t sit still and always has to move.
x She’s a kid at heart so sometimes Bruno is raising 6 kids and a grumpy teenager (Abba)
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cinemaocd · 4 years
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The Mirror and the Light raises more questions than it answers
Going into The Mirror and the Light, the third and necessarily final book in Hilary Mantel’s Thomas Cromwell trilogy, the basic plot wasn’t much in doubt. Thomas Cromwell would rise. Thomas Cromwell would fall. In the summer of 1540 he would be executed. Along the way his son would get married, while he remained single, despite wide-spread speculation that he was angling after the King’s daughter Mary Tudor. Those who Cromwell promoted would be raised as well and some would remain loyal while others would betray him. Cromwell’s fall would come some time after Henry VIII’s unsuccessful marriage to Anne of Cleves, and his role in promoting that marriage would play some part in his downfall. Cromwell’s past interactions with his two most powerful enemies, Stephen Gardiner and the Duke of Norfolk, would also have some bearing on his downfall, since they were the main figures behind his arrest.
These are the undisputed big historical facts that Mantel had to work with, or in many cases, work around. There were many other smaller facts that she had to play with as well, some of which appear in the book as delightful asides like Cromwell putting a neighbor’s house on rollers in order to settle a boundary dispute, or Cromwell importing beavers to control the streams and rivers of England. There was also some evidence that Cromwell had an illegitimate daughter, born sometime after his wife’s death. Mantel massages the timeline to make this fit into her backstory of original characters from the first two books, and cleverly ties the daughter to the seemingly random charge in his arrest that he “sheltered Anabaptists.”
Of course Mantel created a whole plot, a series of original characters, and interpretations of historical figures and events for the first two books. They were fiction, after all. Like any good writer (and Mantel is an excellent writer, always in control of her material), she left questions unanswered to hook readers into the third book. If you were expecting these plots to be tidily resolved, you will be disappointed in The Mirror and the Light. The book fails to resolve many questions, creates more plot threads and then leaves those loose as well. Does that mean the book isn’t successful? I would argue that it is precisely because she fails to resolve these puzzles and questions, that Mantel manages to walk the knife edge between genre fiction and literature with a big “L.” She is certainly aware that these characters have all been the main actors in romance novels and murder mysteries as well as history plays. Indeed that is the subtext of almost every movement of plot within the novels.
While Wolf Hall seemed to be a conversation with playwright Robert Bolt about the veracity of A Man for All Seasons, which made Thomas More the hero and Cromwell the villain; this last installment seems to be deeply concerned with T.S. Eliot’s Murder in the Cathedral, about the murder of Thomas Becket at the hands of Henry II. Cromwell digs up Becket’s bones at their resting place in Canterbury, tears down statues of Becket and even keeps the supposed remains of the martyr in his house, in case the king changes his mind. He  considers commissioning a play that shows what a terrible person Becket was for disobeying his king and bowing to Rome. Henry II was excommunicated, and Mantel dwells on the possibility that if the current Henry suffers the same fate, the whole nation could be lost to invaders given free reign by the pope to do their worst to the heretics. This is one of the reasons Cromwell is so eager to align England with Lutheran princes via the marriage with Cleves. But of course, Cromwell, as always, has half a dozen reasons for everything he does.
Eliot celebrates Becket as a champion of the separation of powers of church and state, a founding principal of modern democracies and one which was much threatened during the time Eliot wrote the play, 1935, with fascism on the rise in Europe. Of course it does not take a rocket scientist or even a political scientist to put two and two together with our own times. Cromwell would be anti-Brexit, pro NHS and anti austerity. Yet, he would also be the kind of neo-liberal who would be quietly feathering his own nest, profiting from selling off National Trust properties all the while making speeches about the enduring greatness of the British monarchy. For every eerily prescient passage about the plague and it’s random destructive path through society, there is a reminder of just how foreign a country the past is: Cromwell--a becon of rationality and enlightenment--believes the source of his fever is a snake he held in Italy. For every kindly head of an English department who is inspired by Cromwell’s leadership, there is a despicable grotesque like Steve Bannon who admires Cromwell’s ability to seize both religious and political power who sees himself, like “self made” white men everywhere, the victim of the elitism that Cromwell faced. 
But these are questions for people who get their essays in front of more eyeballs than I ever will. What do I, the Cromwell fanatic think of the new book?
I think die hard fans of the first two books will be generally pleased with this installment. We get so much more Cromwell than ever before. We are moving more slowly through his life and we are, with exception of a few enlightening flashbacks, solidly in the company of the mature, sardonic, earthy man that we we got to know in Bring Up the Bodies. In short, Cromwell at fifty is a pure joy. Mantel as with the previous installments surrounds him with a crew of lively and memorable companions. From his son who has come into his own as Sassmaster of Austin Friars, to the irrepressible Christophe, who stays with Cromwell through his confinement and walks with him to his execution, cursing the king as Cromwell could not, I love everyone in this English Reformation. Even the bad guys like Norfolk and Gardiner remain fresh. Mantel uses them thriftily, lest we tire of their antics, so that when Cromwell is blindsided by an Easter dinner with Gardiner and Norfolk it is one of the highlights of the book.
As we move closer to his doom, Cromwell has flashes of his fate, but the history fan, or even just the person who has made a close reading of Cromwell’s wikipedia entry, can see it collapsing all around him. Yet, miraculously he never wears out his welcome as other iterations of the character do. As much as I enjoyed James Frain’s Cromwell early in The Tudors his characterization gets more shrill as the story moves forward to the point where his execution is almost a relief. Cromwell is a convenient villain because so many of the facts of his life actually support that conclusion. Mantel used every trick in the book from making him the victim of child abuse, to giving Cromwell a love of animals and children to humanize him in the first two books. In the third she sharpens all of these tools, even as she readies Cromwell to make that last journey from the tower.
In the first two books, there are a number of tropes that are quite worn and flimsy. For example, the idea that it was Cromwell selected the group of petty noblemen executed with Anne Boleyn because they once participated in a masquerade mocking his former master, Cardinal Wolsey. The men were guilty of something to be sure: a kind of greedy, entitled, elitist malice, but not the crimes for which they were executed. It is a weak premise really, but Mantel made it work because of the way she showed the working of Cromwell’s mind, and the way in which she brought the reader so thoroughly into his schemes. By the time you realize that you have been spending time with a mass murderer you are so under his spell that you begin to question the entire premise of narrative fiction. Can any narrator be relied upon? Is there any such thing as a villain or a hero? Are there not elements of both in every person? Can’t the guilt for all of this blood really be laid at the feet of the often childish monarch in whose name all of this happened? Where does personal responsibility begin and end in the midst of atrocity?
All of these larger questions are floating around in the background of The Mirror and the Light and as Cromwell focuses in on the grim task of disemboweling England’s religious houses for personal and political gain, you wonder what price all of this is going to have on his soul. In Wolf Hall, Cromwell fell into a fever, (probably malaria--which had a basis in historical fact) after he managed More’s execution. Though More’s death should be seen as political triumph for him, he views it as a personal failure. Cromwell does not like saints who don’t behave like rational men. He likes men like Geoffrey Pole, who he interrogates in The Mirror and the Light. Pole gives in easily to intimidation, talks a blue streak and is pardoned and released. Cromwell suffers another bout of the fever--which he believes will ultimately take his life-- after bringing down the last and largest religious house in England, the nunnery at Shaftesbury. Now it is true that Cardinal Wolsey had an illegitimate daughter who was housed there, but Mantel takes that fact and weaves into the fabric of her story. Again it is a flimsy premise and again it works because it is surrounded by unassailable bulwark that is Cromwell’s character. Cromwell arrives at Shaftesbury with the vague plan of trying to do something for the Cardinal’s daughter before he turns her out of her home. He winds up disastrously proposing marriage to her in an almost comical scene, a proposal which she rejects with such venom that he weeps for only the second time in three books. This is a man who has lost his entire family, suffered deeply all through his childhood and adolescence and yet this is only the second time he weeps? It’s not quite logical, and like the masquerade plot, it feels all a bit creaky, yet we believe it because Cromwell.
Wolsey’s daughter also accuses Cromwell of poisoning Wolsey, a rumor which has touched Cromwell’s ears earlier in the book, from the dying lips of another bastard child, this time The Duke of Richmond, the illegitimate son of Henry VIII. The injustice of the accusation drives Cromwell’s grief more than the girl’s rejection and he becomes haunted by the idea of who is spreading this rumor. While it could be any of Cromwell’s numerous enemies, it is never fully resolved. On second or third read of this or the other books, we might find the clues that Mantel hid in the story. Similarly multiple readings of the first two books reveal clues as to who terrorized Anne Boleyn by leaving her hate mail, setting her bed on fire and murdering her dog. Mantel has not exactly solved that mystery but she puts the probable solution into the mouth of one of her least trustworthy characters, Lady Jane Rochford, the wife of the late George Boleyn. If Cromwell believes her, he doesn’t say. We are left to decide for ourselves.
In the end, Cromwell’s bout of grief-driven malaria does contribute to his downfall, as he misses a crucial session of parliament, in which Stephen Gardiner forced through a series of laws meant to reverse the Reformation. Cromwell has to stand by and watch friends and fellows in the struggle to create a bible in English, burned at the stake.  In Wolf Hall, Mantel says that a “blacksmith creates his own tools,” meaning that Cromwell created the very laws which he used to take down Katherine of Aragon and Anne Boleyn. The blacksmith imagery pays off in the final chapter of the last book, when we are reminded of Cromwell’s childhood nickname “put an edge on it” when he spies the dull instrument with which is to be executed. In The Mirror and the Light, the blacksmith is left at the mercy of his own tools. Unable to find proof of Cromwell’s heresy as a religious dissenter, Gardiner uses the law that Cromwell created to prevent any of Henry’s heirs marrying without the king’s permission. He takes idle gossip started by Cromwell’s oldest frenemy Eustace Chapuys, that Cromwell is planning to marry the Lady Mary Tudor, and uses it to fabricate the evidence used in Cromwell’s arrest. He uses the exact methods that Cromwell used to bring down Anne Boleyn: spin a rumor into fact while using the king’s momentary dissatisfaction as the window of opportunity to make ordinary ambition look treasonous.  
The scenes with Mary are both heartbreaking and hilarious, as are many of the scenes with other possible, past marriage candidates such as Bess and Jane Seymour. Just as Cromwell’s relationship with frequent correspondents Stephen Vaughn flavored the earlier books, Cromwell’s relationship with Thomas Wyatt is the closest thing to a romance that Cromwell has in The Mirror and the Light. Cromwell’s seemingly irrational loyalty to Wyatt is explained away by a deathbed promise to Wyatt’s father (there is also a convenient deathbed promise to Katherine of Aragon retconned into this book to explain the lengths he goes to to save Mary Tudor from father’s wrath). Another flimsy trope that works because of the strength of Mantel’s characterization. 
In prose that is frequently breathtaking and always interesting, Mantel saves some of her best stuff for describing the relationship between Cromwell and the king. If his friendship with the poet Wyatt is like that of a lover, his strange entanglement with Henry is like that of a spouse. In one scene Cromwell and Henry fall asleep together on a sofa. The intimacy is heartbreaking, partly because we know how it will end. When Cromwell is in his most pitched delirium of fever he realizes that Henry will use him up and spit him out. When he recovers himself, he writes The Book of Henry --treasonous advice to some imagined future privy councilor. Even if he does not consciously acknowledge  that Henry will kill him, as he has his other spouses, his fever self, his true self, seems to realize it.
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( ANNIE MURPHY + CIS FEMALE ) —  Have you seen ELINA KAZAN? This THIRTY-FOUR year old is an ART CURATOR who resides in BROOKLYN. SHE has been living in NYC for FOUR MONTHS, and is known to be CREATIVE and CAREFREE, but can also be QUIXOTIC and DRAMATIC, if you cross them.  People tend to associate them with HIGHLIGHTED PASSAGES IN A BOOK and PAINT-SPLATTERED CLOTHES  | @codstarters​
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hiya! my name’s ella. i’m SO excited to be here and bring elina to this amazing roleplay. i can’t wait to interact with all of you! so please hmu if you’d like to plot!
. basic information
NAME: elina thisbe kazan
NICKNAME: el, ellie, lina
GENDER: cis female
PLACE OF BIRTH: victoria, british columbia, canada
HOMETOWN: birmingham, england
DATE OF BIRTH: april 26, 1986
AGE: thirty-four
SEXUAL ORIENTATION: bisexual
OCCUPATION: art curator at the moma
BOROUGH: brooklyn
. background
tw: cheating
Not much is known about Elina's biological parents. Her story is no much different than those of many children in the foster system: parents who were too young to raise a kid. She was born in Victoria, British Columbia, Canada. Although she still retains her Canadian citizenship, she does not remember much of her birthplace.
She was six months old when she was adopted by the Kazans. Both of them had immigrated to Canada ten years earlier. Her father, Estevan Kazan was a Greek citizen who moved to Canada to work on his Master's degree and her mother, Katina Trusova moved from Russia seeking a better life. By the time she was adopted, her parents had been married for five years and after several failed attempts to conceive, they decided to adopt. She does speak Greek and Russian fluently. 
The Kazans lived in Vancouver for three years before Estevan was offered a job in Birmingham. The whole family relocated to England and a year later her parents adopted a baby boy and two years later a baby girl completed the family.
A happy and reckless child, Elina gave her parents several headaches. She had enough energy to light a city and no matter the number of extracurricular activities her parents enrolled her in, she simply couldn't stay still. Regardless of her endless vitality, Elina often gave nothing but satisfactions to her parents. The kind and bubbly girl turned over the years in a clever, outgoing and creative woman.
Elina never really had a plan, most of the time she just went along with the flow. One day she wanted to be an Olympic athlete and the next day she wanted to be a doctor. Her life aspirations were ever-changing. However, the only constant in her life was her love and passion for art, any kind of art. A dreamer per nature, Elina found solace in paintings, songs, films and books. They allowed her to travel to a different world and in the tough moments, art has always been there for her.
Loyal to her capricious nature, Elina tied the knot when she was just 18 years old. Harry Vandenberg was not a random choice. In fact, aside from art, he'd been the other constant in her life. Best friends since she moved to England, Elina swears that she knew she was going to marry him even at the tender age of three. It took years to go from strangers to friends to boyfriend and girlfriend and finally to husband and wife.
Elina started university shortly after the wedding. She decided to take a double program and she graduated with a Bachelor in History of Art and Classics from Oxford. While her academic life kept her busy, she often felt alone. Being in the army, Harry was often away. At first, she didn't mind the loneliness, but soon it started to take a toll on their relationship.
Throughout most of her life, Elina aimed to have a marriage like the one her parents had. In her eyes, they were the perfect couple until she found out it all had been a lie. Her parents divorce came out of nowhere but soon enough her mother explained everything. Her father had been cheating on her for the past fifteen years. Elina's whole world crumbled down upon hearing that and just like that her trust in those close to her was gone.
No one could be trusted. That was all she had taken from her parents' divorce and unfortunately she brought it into her marriage. Elina started to question Harry's faithfulness. Nothing he did or say could change her mind that her husband was not cheating. Without evidence she continued to accuse him and despite his best efforts to prove his innocence, their marriage came to and end. All those false allegations became a reality. She had pushed him away and turned him into a cheater.
Her heartache was enhanced when she saw Harry's face all over the news after his relationship with the princess came out. When it came to settle the divorce, Elina decided she didn't want anything, she just signed it and moved to Italy where she lived until four months ago.
Six months ago, she was offered her dream job: museum curator at the MOMA. She hesitated to take it since she knew Harry lived there and the last thing she wanted was to make everyone think that she was moving there for him but in the end, she couldn't deter her own dreams because of him. So, she took the job and relocated to New York four months ago. She got a nice place in Brooklyn and she hopes that the city is big enough to avoid running into her ex-husband.
. personality
Elina worships her freedom. She loves travel, adventure, meeting new people, and she longs to experience all of life. If she hates something in life that is routine. She doesn't want to lead a humdrum life and she is often doing a bunch of things as she is not tied down to one task. Her upbeat personality helps her to make friends easily and she often attracts people from all walks of life. She has a way with words and an uncanny ability to motivate others, she also loves to make people laugh and tends to be very sarcastic almost cynical. Honesty and loyalty are sacred to her and that can make her feel wary. She doesn't trust easily and chooses very careful who to trust. Elina is also an idealistic and a daydreamer. She is always in her own little world and she tends to get distracted easily.
. potential connections
siblings: she has two siblings, a brother (30) and a sister (28). they are also adopted (so the fc could be anyone). i imagine they have a good relationship, although maybe she could have had a fallout with one of them because they decided to take their father’s side in the divorce.
close friends: could be friends she made in england, italy or here in new york. she has plenty friends but this group is special because she trusts them which is a hard thing for her to do.
partner in crime: so elina is very spontaneous, they kind of person who rarely says no to adventure. unfortunately, not many people are like that but this person is just like her and they always say yes to all her plans. 
art lovers: they run into each other at art galleries, exhibitions, open mics, museums, screenings, concerts, anything that involves art. so obviously they have the same interests, so they are each other art buddy. 
university classmates/friends: she attended oxford for four years, then the royal academy of art and right now she’s doing a master’s at nyu.
before sunset plot: okay so she traveled a lot after her divorce, so i’d love a plot like the one in the movie, ya know, they met on a train and talked for hours, they walked around the cities and talked some more. there was a connection but then their ways had to be split. 
unlikely friends: despite their differences they are friends. elina is very outgoing, reckless and impulsive while your character is the opposite of that.
fwb: since her divorce, elina hasn’t been in a serious relationship, however, this is the closest she has to one. they just fall in tune with the other. it’s easy, no strings attached. (m/f)
ex-flings: she probably has hooked up with a few people, it’s casual. (m/f)
tinder date: yeah she fell into the online dating world and let’s say it did NOT go well. it was akward but in a fun way. everything that could have gone wrong went wrong. it’s a fond memory but obviously there wasn’t a second date.
neighbours: people who live either in brooklyn or in her apartment complex.
OOOF ! okay, that’s all i have for now. i didn’t proofread this so excuse the lazy english but it’s 3 am here so my brain is dead. anyway, enough rambling. i’d loooove to plot with y’all so please like this or come and hit me up with plots. tumblr messages or discord, i’m game for anything!!! :D
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Finding a Place for Third-Culture Kids in the Culture
In his new HBO series, the filmmaker Luca Guadagnino revisits a timeless yet timely question: What does it mean to be from everywhere and nowhere at once?
On a blanched, sun-baked afternoon, two teenagers, a boy and a girl, wander into a grocery store to pick up lunch. Fraser is a recent transplant from New York, and Britney a new friend who has lived her life evenly between South Korea, Germany and Italy, though you’d never know it by her American drawl or the pop music she blares through her headphones. To the viewer, the scene presents like quotidian life in the United States — but for the fact that it takes place in Veneto, Italy, on a military base where families work and attend school, their children running off every evening to dance and drink by the cerulean sea alongside their friends from town with whom they scheme and share secrets, whispered in fluent Italian. In a few years, many of them will ready themselves for a move — to another home on another military base in another country, with a supermarket configured to look exactly like this one. “They look the same so you don’t feel lost,” Britney tells Fraser. “Do you ever feel lost?” he asks. She shrugs.
The idea that a sense of belonging is challenged by the straddling of cultures is hardly a revelation; nearly every maker whose back story was shaped by more than one place has arrived at some version of that conclusion. But rarely do we hear the stories of so-called “third-culture kids” and the private, nomadic worlds in which they are raised, marked by a certain shared disorientation and the sense that home is everywhere and nowhere at once. It’s for this reason that the Italian director Luca Guadagnino will attempt to unpack one iteration of this experience — through Fraser, Britney and their five best friends — in “We Are Who We Are,” an eight-part series premiering this September on HBO that pulls back the curtain on the experiences of the children of military families abroad and other third-culture kids like them, whose place in the world now feels both more tenuous and important than ever before.
Coined by the American sociologist Ruth Useem in the 1950s, the term “third-culture kid” was conceived for expatriate children who spend their formative years overseas, shaped by the multicultural, peripatetic spheres of their parents, many of whom are diplomats, military members or others working in foreign service. They relocate frequently and enroll their children in international schools, exposing them to miniature realms cultivated by peers from nations far and wide, whose customs, languages and mores coalesce, birthing hybrid or “third” cultures that are globe-spanning, diverse, highly empathic and oftentimes difficult to translate outside these environments.
Perhaps because this life is characteristically slippery, it’s struggled to become clearly defined in the culture, even in fictional stories, suited though they are to crafting imagined worlds. Ironically, while most TCKs cite the ability to relate to nearly everyone, their own narratives suffer a relatability problem, perhaps because their youthful experiences, relegated wholly to remembrance and recollection, are in many ways too singular and strange-seeming to others. Still, there are characters that have managed to catch hold, the complexities of their placelessness often anchored to more universal quandaries: Elio Perlman, played by Timothée Chalamet in Guadagnino’s 2017 film adaptation of André Aciman’s “Call Me By Your Name” is one such example; a trilingual adolescent reared in the university orbit between the United States and Northern Italy — his father is from the former, his mother the latter — he casts his American and European identities on and off with a kind of begrudging ease, lording them over his father’s visiting graduate student, Oliver (Armie Hammer), on some days, while on others he’s consumed by a sort of languid estrangement from everyone around him, retreating into himself. Though the story is propelled forward by the unfurling of muffled desire and fleeting boyhood, it’s hard not to notice how a defined cultural identity — or lack thereof — inevitably underscores Elio’s coming-of-age, as he pursues different versions of himself in different relationships: in English with Oliver, in French and Italian with his girlfriend Marzia and in all three with his parents, code-switching in what feels like a futile attempt to stitch together facets of a fractured self.
Of course, how Elio conveys this onscreen may have more to do with Guadagnino himself, who has long constructed his complex, layered characters partly in his own image. “That’s me,” he says immediately over Zoom in August, when I read off Useem’s definition of a third-culture kid. “I was born in Palermo, and moved almost right away to Ethiopia. I spent the first six years of my life there. Then we went to Rome, then Palermo again and then back to Rome, then to Milan and to London. I feel the most important aspect of being a filmmaker is to be really aware of what forms you as much as what’s in front of you. So, I always try to keep in mind what I could have been experiencing during my youth in all these places through the prism of these complex stories I tell.”
If asked, any third-culture kid will tell you that shape-shifting — rousing one of the many selves stacked within you to best suit the place you’re in — becomes a necessary survival skill, a sort of feigned fitting in that allows you to relate something of yourself to nearly everyone you meet. As someone raised between New York and the diplobrat bubble of an international school in New Delhi, India, where friends would come and go every few years, I became adept at calibrating myself to find the points of connection between us, able to relate equally to someone from South Korea, Iceland, Japan, Italy or Jamaica, in many cases more so than to other Indian Americans whose lives, at least on paper, read closer to my own. And because our stories couldn’t be gleaned from our outward appearances, accents or possessions, we all came humble to the table, open and permeable and ready to barter the surfaces of our souls: our learnings, our languages, our cuisines, our clothing.
While all of this contributed, certainly, to feeling perennially adrift (according to multiple studies by Useem and others, much as they may try, adult TCKs never wholly repatriate culturally), it blotted the sensation of feeling like we’d “grown up at an angle to everywhere and everyone,” as the writer Pico Iyer — of Indian parentage, raised between England and California, who now lives between the latter and Japan — told me during a recent phone conversation. In his own work, Iyer has spent a lifetime examining this feeling and others that result from cultural crisscrossing, both out in the world in “Video Night in Kathmandu,” a 1988 collection of essays which examines the unlikely cultural points at which East and West meet across Asia — Japan’s affinity for baseball, say, or the Philippines’ obsession with country and western music — and then in “The Global Soul,” written twelve years later, which studied, conversely, the crisscrossings that take place within. Iyer found peace in accepting that belonging had little to do with geography, but rather a collection of personal interests, ideas and relationships accumulated over time. “Growing up with three cultures around or inside me, I felt that I could define myself by my passions, not my passport,” he says. “In some ways, I would never be Indian or English or Californian, and that was quite freeing, though people may always define me by my skin color or accent. But also, because I didn’t have that external way of defining myself, I had to be really rigorous and directed in grounding myself internally, through my values and loyalties and to the people I hold closest to me.”
Others have found freedom in the same, becoming natural shape-shifters whose value systems transcend borders to instill a sense of home. The most famous example is probably Barack Obama, whose 1995 memoir, “Dreams From My Father: A Story of Race and Inheritance,” whirls through Jakarta, Seattle, Kenya and Hawaii with unsparing analysis of what it means to belong to multiple worlds and therefore to none of them, but to find, later, that refuge lies in the space between all of them — and in the ability to unite not just your worlds but others’, too. As much as the third-culture experience is clouded by the fog of liminality, it’s informed also by the ability to define oneself on one’s own terms, difficult as that endeavor may be in the face of increasing scrutiny toward globalism and those formed by it.
The presentation of this — dazzling and dressed up — is what makes “We Are Who We Are” thrilling to watch. Its characters come alive in the blur, filling in one another’s spaces and dancing over questions of home, while bragging about where they’ve been, their exchanges captured in shimmering, slow-motion interludes scored to original music, the silky synth pop of Blood Orange. And while the show takes place in the run-up to the 2016 election, its politics remain a quiet drumbeat in the offing, its spotlight focused wholly on all the ways by which differences are, in fact, paradoxically harmonious when everyone is otherized. In fashioning themselves to evade traditional modes of identification (culturally, politically, sexually and through gender), these characters build their own castles in the sky. “When you grow up this way, there is a feeling of being lost, but to be lost is also to be open,” Guadagnino says. “It reminds us of our empathy, and of what we share if we were only to try and find it.”
This may be the ultimate lesson of third-culture kids’ stories. In the late Kobe Bryant’s 2018 book “The Mamba Mentality,” which offers a glimpse into his childhood years in Reggio Emilia, Italy, he discusses the importance of having learned how to navigate a new culture with compassion. Though he eventually settled down in America — becoming not only one of its sports heroes, but one of its cultural icons, too — he continued to make frequent trips back to Italy, where he’d speak the sort of Italian that boasted a native European bravado, a casual swagger that rode along his perfect pronunciation. And when he died in Los Angeles, he died in Reggio Emilia, too, where they mourned a version of him America never knew, except for the Italian names he had chosen for his daughters: Gianna, Natalia, Bianka and Capri.
Of course, not all depictions of third-culture life have been so uplifting. Occasionally, too, these characters are written to be spoofed and ridiculed, assigned snobbish attitudes and superiority complexes. Without proper context, it can appear as if they need too much and require a sort of excess to keep them perpetually moving, making it hard to divorce third-culture life from that of overt wealth and privilege, or an indifference to local customs. In the 2018 Netflix show “You,” the model-actress Hari Nef portrays Blythe, a third-culture poet prodigy whose parents worked for the state department and raised her between Papua New Guinea and Tokyo. When the central character, Beck — a timid, hopeful writer played by Elizabeth Lail — meets her, she looks her up and down and smirks before asking, “Jersey, right?” and runs off to take a call from her grandparents in Swedish. In the third-culture writer Stephanie LaCava’s forthcoming novel, “The Superrationals,” which dives into the torrid waters of the international art world, the protagonist Mathilde, raised between the U.S. and France, is ridiculed relentlessly by “the girls,” a catty clique of gallery insiders who dislike her for all the ways in which she’s different (“What is that name?” they ask. “Is she even French? She’s so pretentious”). And in 2010’s “Sidewalks,” a razor-sharp collection of essays about the failures of finding home in lived experiences and written ones alike, Valeria Luiselli — the author of the 2019 novel “Lost Children Archive” and the daughter of a Mexican diplomat formed by an upbringing in Costa Rica, South Korea, India and South Africa — sarcastically comments on her own selection of Mexico as “her country,” driven mostly by cynicism and “a sort of spiritual laziness than an authentic act of faith.” She admits she’s never felt true allegiance to anywhere she’s lived, knowing only that she must continue roaming.
But all these stories, of course, predate the precarious state we find ourselves in today, when borders are clamping down in domino effect, driven in part by the Covid-19 pandemic, itself a case against globalism and the speed at which interconnectedness can burn it all down, imperiling not only our ability to travel but limiting those who find selfhood in marginal spaces, whose stories underscore the urgency of seeing the world as one. And while internationalism deserves examination, what we stand to lose without it is our ability to lift one another up, to find each other in the in-between. One might look to Kamala Harris — who, born to Jamaican and Indian parents, often discusses her ability to consider multiple sides — or Obama before her. Such voices, with their chameleonic stories and sensibilities, help locate the light in the dark.
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Chapter 1 
Prologue here 
Pairing: Ezio Auditore/OC
Words: 2735
Warning: mention of death
He knew part of his palazzo in Florence had been destroyed, but he still couldn’t believe in what he saw. It looked like a warzone. The desk and chairs had been lying around, some with broken legs, papers and scrolls were scattered everywhere along with different trinkets like paperweights, coal, feathers, destroyed paintings. Glass from broken windows was shining on the grass and inside the room, there were scratches on walls and every flat surface, like someone, was cutting everything blindly with a knife. And the worst part was that entrance for his father’s secret room was opened and the mechanism broken. Even that room was a mess, the chest was knocked over, books were torn, laying around. Whoever did this have no respect for anything. It looked like there was no single thing that was left untouched. And Ezio? He felt like he was drowning in a pure anger.
Because of memories of his family and cruel fate that had touched his father and brothers he never dared to even walk near his palazzo and now here he was, for the first time in so many years, looking at the remains of his legacy. He was so upset that he wanted to throw or hit something, but everything had been already done. He could only stare for a few more seconds, feeling as though his heart was beating unnaturally fast in his chest. He felt the same dark anger that he felt on the day he killed Vieri. Now he wanted to find the person responsible for this and make them pay. 
Before he left, he decided to walk around his home with the hope he would be able to bring some things back to Tuscany. Claudia would be happy to have her dresses back. Maria would love paintings she ordered from Leonardo, right? He called two guards and ordered them to pack things he would point to them to the carriage.
Then he walked into Federico’s room, which was messy as always. Federico never made much effort to keep his place clean and that had always made the servants upset. But now drawers and cupboards were opened, trinkets on shelves knocked over, crumpled blankets were thrown on the floor with all the pillows. Someone had been looking for something and Ezio had no idea why they chose that room. Why Federico? He didn’t keep here anything important nor valuable, no money, no codex pages, no nothing. Then why this room was devastated? And why was it different than his father's room? He furrowed his eyebrow, trying to guess what the intruder was looking for, but he couldn’t find anything except noticeable differences in destruction. This room looked like it had been searched by a person, while the office looked like it had been invaded by a tornado.
But no matter those differences… Ezio was sure he had to find the one responsible and punish this person so no one in the whole of Italy would dare to cause any harm to his family ever again!
He left the guards to pack the remaining things, including all of his father belongings, especially some books that may be of importance. He was supervising all of this personally, with crossed arms, thinking about what he was supposed to do next. He couldn’t find any clues; any signs and he hadn’t heard about any Templars remaining in Florence. His enemy stayed undetected but Ezio was sure it wouldn’t take long. He had his men here – prostitutes and thieves. They had their ways of finding out everything that was supposed to stay hidden.
“Templars are becoming more and more insolent.”
Ezio to turned around surprised to see Niccolò Machiavelli, his friend and ally. He raised his eyebrow, looking at the younger man, who was staring into a broken door to Giovanni’s office.
“I thought there were no more Templars in Firenze.”
“There shouldn’t be any. But they are a disease hard to eradicate, we need to stay vigilant for our own sake.”
As always, he was focused and careful. His eyes were scanning his surroundings in search of clues, threats and knowledge hidden in the darkest and deepest spots of the city.
"I started to search for information as soon as I learnt about this misfortunate incident. Ask the guards what they had witnessed and then return to me. I expect to have some information until then." Machiavelli walked away, disappearing into the crowd of people, blending in with them. Ezio took few more minutes to make sure everything was packed properly and then he walked to the guards to question them. They were the only witnesses of this situation and, for now, his only source of intel.
None of the guards looked good, although one was in a visibly worse state than the other. His forehead was swollen, one eye dark and bruised, he had scratches around his face. The second guard had only one bruise on his temple. Both of them lowered their gaze the moment Ezio stood in front of them.
"What happened. Who did this? Tell me everything." he ordered.
"It was... it... I don't know messere. I heard a noise and went to investigate. Before I reached the room, something was thrown through the window and hit my head. I don't remember anything else," said the man with all those wounds. He looked ashamed and Ezio wondered how that could happened. The man in front of him was no weak, tiny boy. He was a large, strong man, one that people would instinctively avoid at any cost. With such grave injuries, it had to be the work of a well-trained Templar.
"I saw a woman. I also went to investigate those noises and saw Piero laying on the ground with a bleeding head. That woman ran through the door and I tried to catch her. Then she hit my head with something, a knife probably. It was hard enough for me to let go of her. She took the opportunity and run away, and because I couldn’t see her anywhere, I decided to take care of Piero’s wounds and finding someone who would deliver a message to you… messere.”
Ezio furrowed his eyebrows even more, confused and surprised. Since when had templars been using women for their own purpose? In those few years of constant fighting and hunting for Templars, he had never once met a woman on their side.
"What did she look like? Do you remember?"
"It was dark, messere. I couldn't see anything"
Ezio nodded and let the guards go back to their duties, while he went back to Machiavelli. He was talking with someone but stopped the same moment he saw Ezio.
"What did you learn?"
"It was a woman, but guards couldn't tell me more"
 He was equally surprised, because, quite simply, Templars didn't accept women into their folds. At least unless there was a woman born into the order. Though still, they preferred to move them away from all the important matters. Maybe they were afraid of treason from their side? Of them being too weak to handle such power. But if they suddenly changed their mind and trained women… she could be far more dangerous than any other Templar. Whoever she was, she knew exactly what she was looking for and how to blend in. People didn’t really pay attention to women, since they had no political power nor influence; but as for her… She was a figure they couldn’t ignore.
"What did you find out Machiavelli?"
"There was a woman in the cemetery asking the undertaker about your family. He confessed that she was interested in their deaths, the reasons behind it and the persons who did this. She also looked for their bodies and then she left." He took a deep breath, pacing around like he was thinking intensively about something. It wasn’t everything. “The undertaker is a paculiar man, he told us to stay away from that woman for our own sake. He seemed to be serious about it but couldn’t tell more. Although he shared a description of her look. You need to look for a woman about this high," he showed that she was allegedly reaching Ezio's shoulder, maybe a bit higher or lower. It was the average size for women in Florence. “She had grey, very pale eyes and red hair. She may seem average, but he said that after one look in her eyes we should know it’s her. That’s all.”
Ezio immediately sent thieves into the city, telling them to look for a woman with red hair and pale, grey eyes; that was all he could do for now.
The only thing left for him to do was to wait patiently. Ezio couldn't force himself to go back to his old home again. There were too many memories, and it wasn't the right time to drown into them. He needed a clear head and a calm conscious to survive that woman, the enemy he didn't know. Whoever she was, she was going to fall just like the rest of her Order. It didn't matter if she was new or veteran in their folds, being part of this organization meant that she contributed to the death of his family. 
Since he couldn't go back home just yet, he decided to stroll around the city, visiting some other places. But the very first place he went to was Palazzo di Vespucci, Cristina's home. He wandered around, finding only closed doors and dark windows. He sighed involuntarily. She was his first love, the woman he hoped to marry many years ago but now it was just a painful memory of another life he had lost. 
Another place he went was the roof of a church he climbed with Federico, the day before his death. He still remembered his words: "It's a good life we have, brother. May it never change and may it never change us."
He sat on the roof, looking at the city he once loved so much. Longing for the life he led here.
He never expected Firenze to become so alien and obnoxious. This wasn't his home anymore and he needed to make peace with this thought. Otherwise, he would never be able to truly move on. 
He took a deep breath, smelling all those familiar scents. Heavy perfumes of rich ladies, flowers at the riverside, the smell of wine and cooked meat. He felt like the memories flooded him, taking away his breath and leaving him vulnerable for a few long minutes. His whole life turned upside down and yet the city stayed exactly the same, exactly as he remembered it. Did he mean so little to Firenze that the city stayed untouched by his tragedy?  
When he opened his eyes again it was getting dark and he needed to rest before the next day. But since he still couldn't force himself to go home, he went straight to Paola's bordello. There he met a welcoming, warm embrace of the beautiful Paola and soon he got lost in the pleasure offered by her girls. Oblivion was very welcome in a moment like this. 
The new day welcomed him with loud knocks on his door that snatched him out of his sleep. Two women lying beside him moaned and moved, freeing him from their embrace. Ezio put on his trouser and still half naked opened the door, to see Paola with a breakfast.
“Buongiorno, Ezio. I believe you slept well.” She walked inside the room and put a tray with food on a table. Then she loudly clapped her hands, waking the girls on his bed. “Wake up, ladies, it’s time for work! Clean yourself and prepare for customers!”
None of woman protested when Paola commanded them to leave, so soon Ezio was alone, still trying to tie his shirt before breakfast. Before he knew it, Paola’s hands found his and she nimbly tied his shirt.
“Thank you, Paola, for your hospitality.’
 Almost a week passed, and there had been no trace of the woman. It were as if she never existed. Ezio grew more and more impatient, and anger built up every time he looked towards his home. He searched Florence for clues himself, concentrating mainly on observing the main quarters and squares. And on Sunday he even tried to do something that he did not expect of himself. On Sunday he went to Church for Mass, hoping that he would find a woman there, among other believers. However, he left disappointed and irritated.  
It wasn't until the next day when he was sitting on the roof of one of the taller buildings, that the news reached him. The young thief appeared on the roof; it was obvious that he had ran all the way up there because he was out of breath. However, his face was radiant and joyful as it was he who had the honour of notifying Ezio of the information he had gathered with his group.
The woman they were looking for was in Florence and she had finally made a mistake.
A dozen or so minutes ago she met the former beloved of Federico - Camilla. She introduced herself as Flora Auditore, Federico's cousin and friend, but Camilla refused to listen to her. Flora tried to convince her to talk about the eldest of the Auditore brothers but to no avail. What's more, Camilla's husband showed up after a while and Flora had to withdraw.
And now she was being followed by thieves.
Ezio was glad to hear the news and immediately ran after the young boy to join the rest of the group of thieves. He was finally approaching the goal he had been trying to achieve for a week. When he was finally led to the west side of town, near the river, he was somewhat surprised. He hadn't expected a woman this far from downtown. But she seemed to stay aloof, and now she was walking around, near the ramparts, looking on her left side, like she was searching for something there.
  “You did well. I will manage to do it myself from here, you can report to Machiavelli and tell him we will meet at Paola’s place,’ he told the thieves, letting them go. It was a one-man job and Ezio didn’t want any public attention.
He waited until he was alone and decided to follow the woman until she reached a place where he could trap her.
 Watching her from a distance, Ezio could see some details. Her hair was red like the flames that danced in the fireplace on chilly days. She looked nice in a blue dress and long braid, but Ezio wasn't about to be fooled by her charm. He waited patiently, like a hunter, a wild beast lurking on prey. And when the opportunity finally presented, he didn't hesitate. He jumped nimbly off the roof, landing noiselessly on the ground and waited for the woman to come closer so he could pull her into the alley. He was still watching her closely. It was then that he noticed that she was holding a book with silver assassin symbol on its cover in her hands.  Ezio saw it several times in his father's study, he knew this text. The discovery almost upset him, and a new wave of anger rose in his heart, obscuring his mind for a few moments.
As soon as the right moment came, Ezio grabbed her arm and, accompanied by a groan, pulled her into the alley, where he pushed her against the wall. Her back crashed against the cold bricks and a pained moan escaped her throat. Before she could react, Ezio trapped her hands above her head, squeezed her body against the wall, and pressed the blade to her throat. She felt the sharp edge pressing against her collarbone, digging into the delicate skin but not yet piercing it.
Ezio looked into her bright eyes, looking for the will to fight, the hatred he had always seen in the eyes of the Templars. But this time, all he could see was anxiety. The woman jerked involuntarily, but Ezio ran the blade over her skin, giving her a sign that he could puncture her artery at any moment.
"Now... Give me one reason why I shouldn't kill you right now, Templar," he growled at her.
"Ezio… Ezio Auditore?"
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Hey y’all! First fic being posted! I’m excited to share it, so please let me know what you think. If any hate is posted, I will delete it.
I also posted it on AFO3 here.
Chapter One of Blinding Lights
For as long as Tony Stark can remember, his world has been black and white. He’s colorblind in a form, but it does have a cure. He just has to find his Mate, which seemed easy a long time ago. He’s pretty sure that if it wasn’t for Pepper, Rhodey, and Happy, his clanmates - what’s left anyway - he’d be insane now. After one hundred and forty-eight years of walking this earth, he was already bored. Being born in Italy, spending fifty years there, coming to America, learning that his father created a Super Soldier for the war, said Super Soldier disappeared into the ice for seventy years, the whole drama about his parents dying - killed actually, and let’s not forget becoming Iron Man and being in the Avengers.
“Tony?” Pepper’s voice brings him out of his thoughts. Looking up from his now cold cup of coffee, he raises an eyebrow at his red-headed friend.
“Yes?” He asks, standing up from his couch. The walk over to the kitchen doesn’t take as long, meaning he used some of his speed. Pepper keeps up though, always has.
“We’re needed back in New York. The Avengers have mission meetings, and SI needs our attention out there.” Pepper lists off, staring at her tablet. Tony sighs, running a hand through his hair.
“I really don’t want to go to New York right now.” Tony grumbles.
“I understand that, but you’ve hidden out here long enough,” Pepper states, making Tony roll his eyes.
“Alright. When do I have to leave out?”
“Now.” Pepper comments before turning and leaving. Looking down at his clothes, jeans with oil stains and a black tank top. He was working in his lab earlier. Shrugging, he follows after Pepper, not caring about his appearance. He has clothes at the Tower. He has multiple suits in both places, not counting the suits in the house in Italy.
Happy is on the jet, grinning at Tony when he walks in. That’s new. Happy is normally already in New York when Tony has to be there.
“Okay. I have two out of three. Where’s Rhodey?” Tony questions, crossing his arms. They only seem to get together when they worry about him.
“Right here, Tones,” Rhodey says, spinning his chair around. Tony sighs and takes the last free seat. They wanted to talk about something.
“First, why are you all here? You only pull this shit when you’re worried about me. Second, when did you have time to plan all of this?” Tony asks, leaning back in his seat as the jet doors are closed.
“We’re all here because you’ve been distant lately. Pepper also found a new project for you to focus on. Also, we always have time to plan stuff like this because you never really notice us do this until the day of.” Happy responds. That honestly wasn’t the response Tony was expecting.
“What do you mean a new project?” He says, turning to look at Pepper. She smirks and starts tapping away on her tablet. The holograph of a video pops up, of somebody in an onesie swinging web. The fact that the costume needed an upgrade didn’t really bother him. What bothered him was the fact he could see the red and blue combination, very clear and bright.
“I want to know who they are.” Tony orders, making his family glance at one another.
“You’ve never had that reaction before. Tony, what do you see?” Rhodey asks, leaning forward. Tony mentally debates if he should tell them that he can see the colors on the person. He knows that he and Happy are the only two that can’t see in color. Rhodey has Sam, and Pepper has Natasha.
“I can see the red and blue.” Tony finally admits after a while of silence. Pepper and Rhodey glance at each other before looking at Tony.
“Oh shit.” Happy says.
“What do you mean ‘oh shit’?”
“Tony, the Avengers are going to try to take him away. They like the fact that they have a hold on you.” Pepper says, crossing her ankles.
“They touch what’s mine, and I will kill,” Tony growls, his eyes turning black. Pepper’s eyes turn violet, Rhodey’s eyes turn ice blue, and Happy’s eyes turn fire orange. The clan nods their heads before their eyes turn back to their human color.
“They won’t know who they pissed off.” Rhodey chuckles, leaning back in his seat. Happy rolls his eyes, knowing that this could mean war. Pepper takes the video down, before handing the tablet to Tony. The rest of the ride to New York is in silence.
The first thing Tony does when the jet lands in New York is orders Happy to take him to the compound. Pepper and Rhodey sit in silence as Happy drives. Tony runs multiple facial scans on the masked face. Pulling into the compound, Tony gets out of the car before it's completely stopped. He ignores the shocked looks from the Shield agents that walk around. Nobody knows that he's a Vampire. The King actually, but he doesn't brag about it.
Tony can hear the soft footsteps of his clan behind him. He knows he looks strange, not in his normal suit, he doesn't care about that as he heads up to the meeting room. He flings the doors open, making everyone in the room look at him.
"Tony!" Thor bellows, making Tony bite back a hiss. He honestly hates how loud the God of Thunder can be.
"That was fast," Natasha comments, walking over to Pepper, kissing her cheek.
"We had a mission. We delivered." Rhodey states, wrapping an arm around Sam Wilson.
"I was called. I came. What do you want?" Tony asks, sitting down in a free seat. Fury crosses his arms.
"There is Hydra activity close by. I wanted everyone called in to keep an eye out." The director of Shield states. Anger burns in Tony, but he makes no move to show it. He watches Steve shift in his seat. The Super Soldier his father created, with a serum created from many things, with Tony's own blood as the key. Easy to make something others can't copy when you use something that can't be copied.
"I got called out here, because of Hydra?" Tony deadpans, leaning back in his seat. He can feel his clan tense up through their link. He can feel their mates tense as well. Steve is mixed in too, the blood link there between them.
"As Iron Man, you help protect the country. The world even." Fury responds. Biting back a growl, Tony stands from his seat.
"Fine. I'll keep an eye out. I have another appointment, I'm leaving." Tony says, leaving the room. He can feel his family follow after, the Mates and Steve close behind.
"Tony, are you okay?" Steve asks, making him stop and look. His blood brother, because he's not calling him his son, looks worried. A chuckle leaves his mouth.
"I'm fine, Steve. Just a lot to do." Tony replies. Getting a nod from the blond, Tony continues to the car. He'll finish turning Steve one day, but he'll let his brother live as he does now.
Climbing into the back of the car, Tony unlocks the tablet once more. On the screen sits a new face, one in full color. He found his Mate.
"A smile? That's new." Sam says, sitting by Rhodey. Natasha laughs, her head laying on Pepper's shoulder.
"Found him?" Pepper questions, holding out her hand. Tony slowly passes the tablet over.
"Yeah. Pep, I can see color with him." Tony says, running a hand through his hair.
"Wait. You found your Mate?" Natasha questions, sitting up. At Tony's smile, the car breaks out into cheers.
"Doesn't this mean Shield is going to try to keep a hold on you, though?" Sam questions. Tony nods, a smirk on his face.
"They can try. They won't win, but it'll be entertaining to watch. The Avengers are safe, as long as nobody fights me. My Mate is my priority. Anybody that tries to take him will fail." Tony growls, his eyes shifting to black. Natasha and Sam look down, a sign of respect towards Tony. Tony clears his throat once he knows his eyes are normal, letting them lookup. The rest of the ride to the tower is silent.
When the car finally pulls up to the tower, it’s nightfall. Tony gets out first, heading straight inside to the elevator. He can feel his clan behind him, so he doesn’t slow down. The elevator that leads up to the penthouse opens when he enters the code, his clan stepping in after him. The ride up to the top was quick, making Tony glad that technology had gotten faster as it got better. Of course, Stark Industries is all top of the lines, considering he built it.
Stepping out of the elevator, Ton waves as he heads to his room to shower and change. He wanted to get some sleep, and maybe watch more videos of this Spider-Man hero. He hears the soft calls of goodnight from his family as he walks away. With a soft click, his bedroom door is closed and he relaxes. In this room, he doesn’t have to hide his pain, his anger, or any other feelings he has to control.
“FRIDAY, pull up my blueprints of the thing I started drawing up at home,” Tony says, pulling off his tank top, the arc reactor in his chest on full display. The lights dim as FRIDAY does as he asks. The holographs come to life, showing the plans that Tony has for a new version of Ultron. Yeah, he’s doing it again. He actually has a lot of things built that he shouldn’t, but he’s a bored rich guy. He’s going to cause trouble if he needs too.
“Do you need anything else, Sir?” FRIDAY says. Tony looks over the blueprints, shrugging.
“Run tests over my design. I’m taking a shower. I’ll look at them after that.” Tony states, heading to the bathroom. The shower is already running when he walks over to it. A soft chuckle escapes his mouth as he finishes stripping before he steps into the large shower. He spends as long in the shower as he can before he has to get out.
Tony dries off, walking out of the bathroom to his closet to pull on boxers and sweats. He doesn’t own a lot, but enough to get grease and oil stains on the sweats instead of his good clothes. Leaving his closet, he sees multiple test results before him. He starts going through them.
“Sir?” FRIDAY calls.
“Yes, babe?” Tony responds, trashing three of the results. He wants ones that actually listen to his orders this time around.
“Miss Potts told me to remind you that you need blood tonight. It’s been three weeks since you last fed properly.” FRIDAY says, making Tony chuckle. He should really start drinking more blood, especially now that he knows where his Mate is.
“Of course. Please let her know that I am getting a bottle. Two actually.” Tony says, walking over to his mini-fridge, pulling out a water bottle full of blood. As he drinks, he keeps going through the test results. When he finds the one he wants, a smirk appears on his face. He knows the moment Shield tries to take his Mate to keep him in their hold, he has plans to open Hell. After all, he has technology and Vampires on his side.
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His Past, His Present, His Future: Chapter 5 - Forgiveness
In which Germany has a talk with his brother, and he and Italy consider more forgotten memories.
Also, the last angsty chapter. From here on out, it’s fluff. XD
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Germany waited in the guest room in tense silence. His thoughts were moving far too quick for him to examine any of them as the phone rang once, twice, three times. Just as the fourth ring was about to finish, the phone was picked up.
“West! Tell me, why have you called your awesome brother?” Prusia greeted in German.
“When did you plan on telling me I was Holy Rome?” Germany was surprised by the steely sound of his own voice. The harshness.
There was a staticky silence.
“Who told you?” All senses of bravado were gone, replaced only with some emotion Germany was unable to place.
“Italy.”
“Of course he did. I thought I told him to keep it quiet.” Prussia spat.
“You what?” Germany’s voice was barely audible, dripping with malice. 
“Ludwig, you have understand. You were a child. How was I supposed to tell you then, huh? With all those wars going on… the last thing you needed was to hear that.”
“And now? Now that I’m all grown? When did you plan on telling me?”
“You’re only 148 years old, Ludwig, it’s a miracle you aren’t learning to walk right now.”
Germany splayed his hand on the surface of his bedside table. “I’m not a child!” He was surprised at his volume.
“Give me a break! It’s not like I’ve done this before!” Prussia said. “They don’t exactly make manuals for this kind of thing! What should I have done?!”
“You should have told me before I had to watch my best friend beat up France over my own death! My entire life changed in a span of a day! Do you even regret it?” Germany shouted.
“You think I don’t regret it now?!” Prussia bellowed.
Germany pulled the phone away from his ear.
“Not now that it’s my fault you’re so confused?” Prussia’s voice sounded unusually fragile. He sighed. “Ludwig, you are… the best thing that ever happened to me. At the time you came, I was alone, and… a little brother… you, my little brother. I had to raise you by myself. I’m the least qualified person to do that. But to see that you’ve grown up to be so good, so strong… better than me in every way not just as a country, but as a person? Ludwig, you are my greatest pride. I didn’t tell you because… I didn’t want you to lose that. Maybe once you had a stronger sense of self, maybe when you were stronger as a country. But I was scared. Totally un-awesome, huh?” Prussia declared in halfhearted humor.
  “Gilbert…” Germany sighed. He was taken aback by the surprising amount of honesty Gilbert was communicating. The two of them were never the kind of people who engaged in heart-to-heart conversations.  “God, I’m so tired. I’m just… confused. We can talk when I get back home.”
“Okay, West. I’ll be waiting. We’ll both clear our heads.”
“Okay. I’ll see you at home.”
“Bye. Oh, and West?”
“Hmm?”
“I’m proud of you. I don’t feel like I say that enough, but I am.”
A weak smile spread across Germany’s face. "That's unusually sappy."
Prussia gave a short chuckle. "Yeah, well I have to actually act like a big brother sometimes."
“I’m proud of you too, Gilbert.”
“Yeah, yeah. Take care of yourself, West.”
“See you at home, Gilbert.” He hung up the phone. He scrubbed a hand down his face. Touching as that moment was, he was still so confused. And outside the door of the guest room were all the answers he wanted. He paused for a moment before deciding that now was the time for comfy clothes. If there ever was time for them at… here he checked his watch… five p.m. in the evening, it was now. He pulled on a pair of sweatpants and a loose t-shirt. Taking a deep breath, he pulled the door open and he went into the hallway. Before he even entered the room, he heard Italy.
“How was it?”
“Why are you so nosy?” Germany asked, fully aware that he was attempting to deflect. He left the hall and got to the living room, rounding the couch and sitting down. Despite what he said, he freely gave an answer. “We’ll talk about it when I go home.”  
“Oh.” Italy nodded. “Will you be going home soon?”
Germany took a deep breath and sighed. “No. I’ll probably stay, if it’s okay with you. Home is the last place I want to be right now.”
Italy nodded again. There was a long pause in which both of their minds were reeling. “I know you probably have questions.” Italy finally admitted. “If you want, I can answer them the best that I can.”
“Okay.” There was another silence as Germany collected his thoughts. “Is this why you didn’t let me touch you yesterday? Because of what happened?”
“I… was conflicted.” Italy answered hesitantly. “On one hand I knew who you used to be. But you didn’t. For whatever reason, that scared me all over again. I usually don’t have a problem with that, of course, but figuring out that France did it… like I said, it opened an old wound for me and got those feelings back in my brain all over again.”
Germany nodded. “Does Japan know? About who I used to be?”
Italy shook his head. “I don’t think so. He was so far away from the action at the time… he was never really involved with the 30 years’ war anyhow. And he’s always been so closed off.”
Again, Germany nodded. Despite Italy’s assurances, Germany couldn’t help but remember Japan’s face when Germany had asked him about what had happened. His assurances that it wasn’t his place to tell him what happened.
“Are you going to tell him?” Italy asked.
Germany tapped his fingers on his knee. “Probably not. Maybe. I’m not sure. He wouldn’t know what to think. It may be best that I just keep it to myself.”
“You’re taking this remarkably calmly.” Italy said.
“Well I had a feeling I wasn’t like the other nations,” Germany said, leaning back in the couch. Though his exterior appeared unbothered, he was unsure. He was on uneven ground and it startled him to an alarming degree. “I was born in warfare and yet people looked at me in a certain way. Even when I was young. Like they expected something from me. I have seen the births of many countries, and none of the other nations have ever looked at them like that. I always felt like there was something they knew about me that I didn’t.”
Italy reached onto the coffee table, which Germany now noticed had two canvases. They were stacked so the images were facing each other, effectively blocking them from his view.
“What’s that?” He asked.
“Paintings from when I was little.” Italy answered, pulling them into his lap. He handled them with unusual gentleness.
Germany nodded. “You want me to see them?”
“If I were in your shoes,” Italy began, his eyes not leaving the canvas. “I would want to know everything. I would be scared, and confused… I don’t want you to feel like that. So I’m going to tell you everything and help you get your memories back.” Here he handed him the first canvas.
Germany took it, unsure of how to hold it. An irrational part of him was worried that he would ruin the paint, so he just held it by the wooden framework on the back. He looked down at the painting. On the canvas was the image of what looked like a little girl, maybe seven or eight, curled up on a chair with a velvet seat cushion and taking a nap. A little handkerchief was tied over her head, protecting her short auburn locks. She wore a dress with a matching apron. “This is you.” His heart swelled with affection as he looked at it. He briefly wondered if this feeling was from the present, or from some unremembered past.
Italy nodded. “I did it for him once during the Christmas holiday and I gave it to him. He said he would treasure it forever.”
Germany nodded, his eyes raking over the painting. He looked back up at Italy. He hadn’t appeared to have changed all that much. He had grown taller, of course, and he had some lean muscle from the workouts Germany forced him into. But age had chiseled his features, giving him cheekbones and a narrow but strong jaw. His hair still lay the same, with that silly curl that was poking out of the handkerchief standing at attention. Germany’s only wish was that he could see the eyes in this painting. So he could compare them. Part of him wondered what he would see.
“This doesn’t bring back any memories.” Germany admitted.
“I thought so.” And yet Italy looked disappointed. He outstretched his hand in a silent request for the painting, and he swapped it out for the other canvas. “This is Holy Rome.”
Germany looked at the painting. It was of a boy in a dark black cloak and a black hat, standing at attention like a soldier. It was an odd posture for a young child. His blue eyes seemed to piece Germany as he gazed through the paint and up at him. Germany was struck by just how similar the two looked. He recalled how he looked during childhood and saw that they could have been the exact same two people… but then again, he supposed they were. “This is him?”
“Yes.” Italy smiled slightly. “The day I painted that, I said I wanted to paint a soldier. A warrior. I knew he would like to hear that. Especially knowing that he would leave for the war soon… I asked him to smile for me to paint it, and he said, ‘A soldier doesn’t smile’. He wanted me to paint him like that. Standing at attention.”
Had Germany been paying attention, he would have seen Italy staring at him. He would have seen him consider the man in front of him with his hand leaning against the palm that was propped up on the back of the couch. He would have noticed the loving air that surrounded him as Italy mused that while there were many differences between the two, some core aspects remained the same.
But Germany was not paying attention. Because at that moment he felt an empty longing. An excitement as something at the base of his skull fought to be noticed. Fought to be remembered. He closed his eyes, furrowing his brow.
Long green grass rippled in the wind. It was cold for summer, but only cold enough for a thin coat. But there they were, him standing in the sunlight as he faced an easel.
“Smile, Holy Rome, I want you to see how you look when you smile!” The voice was squeaky. So much lighter than his own.
“A soldier doesn’t smile.” He answered. His voice even at his age was rather low. With a smooth timbre.  
A small face poked around the easel and grinned at him. “You’re not a soldier until you leave for the war!” Italy pointed out.
Holy Rome didn’t even have the heart to fight against the smile that rose from deep within him. He had heard about this from Ms. Hungary. An affection so deep for someone where you felt you would do anything for them. He knew it was love, but he had no idea how to communicate it. He had never been good with emotions.
“You should smile more, Holy Rome, you’re so much more handsome when you do!”
Holy Rome snapped out of it, his smile dropping. “Well you wanted to paint a soldier, so paint a soldier!” He snapped. Realizing what he said, he was disappointed in his temper yet again.
Italy giggled behind the easel, putting him at ease. A couple moments later and Italy poked her head back over. “You can come see if you want!”
Holy Rome rounded the easel. He caught sight of Italy with the paintbrush, stroking at the canvas. Before he could see the painting, the memory faded.
Germany opened his eyes to the painting again. The painting of Holy Rome. Of him.
“Germany?” Italy asked quietly.
Germany blinked, trying to make sense of what he just saw.
“Germany,” Italy tried again, laying a hand on his leg.
Germany’s gaze snapped to Italy. “I… remembered. When you made this painting.”
“You did?” Italy asked, sounding like he hardly dared to believe it.
Germany nodded.
“And?”
“It was warm. And windy. And you were wearing a dress.” And I wanted to be with you. Even back then. It was a loud thought that never escaped past his pursed hips.
Italy nodded reminiscently. “That sounds about right…”
Germany leaned forward, his forearms on his thighs, once again scrubbing his hands down his face. “This is so…”
“Complicated?” Italy supplied.
He nodded, staring ahead at the surface of the table. “You could say that.”
Germany continued his thousand-yard stare, his thoughts moving too fast for his brain. “This is just so much.” He put his forehead in his hands again. After a moment of tense silence, he heard Italy’s clothes rustling on his side of the couch. He felt a weight settle next to him on the couch and he felt a gentle, timid hand splay its fingers between his shoulder blades. For whatever reason, Germany ached for the touch. Even though their lives were both so entwined, it was like there was a chasm of unremembered history stretching out between them. Like there was a separation that couldn’t be fixed. The touch of Italy’s hand was like a reminder that he was still there. Despite what had transpired, Italy wasn’t going to leave him. Not yet.
Almost as if Italy had sensed the thought, Germany felt Italy’s arms wrap around his broad shoulders. He felt Italy burrow his face into his arm. For once, Germany didn’t feel taken aback or shy at this touch. It was like it filled a new void in his heart. The void where he thought he knew what everything was and what it meant.
“I know it is. I… I’m sorry, Germany.” Italy said, his voice muffled by the fabric of Germany’s black t-shirt.
Germany at last removed his hands from his face, letting them fall between his knees. “What for?” He asked, trying to distance himself from the situation as Italy withdrew his arms. He was never one to run away, but there was so much going on in his head. He needed to escape it somehow. Even if that meant distancing himself from the situation. “I know something new about myself. Things are starting to make sense. Why I kept you around after the first world war even when you annoyed the Scheiße out of me, why my brother treated me like I was about to break… he was worried I would remember. Maybe- maybe it was repressed memory that made me keep you around.” He was unaware of how hurtful these words were, just trying to sound like he didn’t care. Just trying to sound like he was looking at this logically.
Italy faced his lap, barely registering the hurtful words. “I’m sorry Holy Rome died. I’m sorry I kept this from you for so long. I thought it was fairer to you because… you’re not Holy Rome anymore. You’re Germany. It wouldn’t have been fair to tell you who you were once. What I… what Holy Rome and I felt for each other at the time. It’s not a fair expectation for anyone.” He finally looked up at Germany, his eyes swimming in tears. “I… I didn’t want you to- I didn’t know what to do. I didn’t want you to feel pressured, or- or like you had to be someone who you’re not. Because you’re not Holy Rome. Not anymore. You’re Germany.”
Germany straightened his back, the two considering each other. Their faces were now maybe a foot apart. Germany noticed as a ray of sunlight filtered across Italy’s eyes that they were almost honey gold in the sun. Even through tears. Germany felt such a storm of emotion. A blend of anger. Sorrow. Relief. Maybe even a little bit of happiness. But more than anything, he felt too much. And to add to that? Here Italy was apologizing for trying to protect him. He had honored the promise he made Prussia until he felt that Germany was ready. He blinked and wondered what Italy was thinking. He wondered if Italy shared the strong urge he had to lean over and close the short distance between them.
Gott, what was he thinking? He turned away. “Wipe away the tears. It’s a waste of time. You did what you did because you thought it was right, but it’s time to move on.” He stood. “We should probably think about dinner.”
Italy stood, wiping his eyes with the hem of his untucked shirt. “Okay. Yeah, you’re right. What do you want?”
Germany looked back at his friend, watching him clean himself up. He watched as Italy repaired himself to help him. To heal Germany, completely and unselfishly. Gott, it was a miracle that he ran into this man. Thinking about this, Germany felt a small smile come through. “I’m thinking pasta.”
Italy gave a watery grin as he swiped away the last tear tracks.
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