#this is a tiny rant sorry

[xenomorphicdna]

On the string propaganda

Heeellll yeah

Bestie is an entire PLACE

I look at those guys and let me tell you the soul of that thing ain't just in the puppet, it's in all the neurons carrying the thoughts and emotions, it's in the power rails that serve as the heart. All the memories in the memory conflux and all the numbers we see flicker across displays, the flux condensers, the puppet; a little avatar.

No way these massive machines see life the same way we do. They have their own experiences and senses and things they hold dear. A world we can't imagine, a way of living we couldn't even comprehend.

I could never tear an iterator apart to be just a puppet. Who am I to decide how's life supposed to be enjoyed or perceived?

You treat your creechurs however you want- I ain't gonna dictate that. But damn, hearing the thrums and buzzes of the linear systems rail? They are alive with so much power, these mechanical beasts are exactly what they should be.

#sorry im just a really passionate on the string believer #you cant tell me that these massive structures kilometers wide capable of things we cant even image would look at something thats #thats comparable to a speck of dust and be like #yes i would like to rid myself of practically my entire body to be that tiny #this aint no “if i were a supercomputer i'd be sad i couldnt see the sky like i do now” #thats only because you have something to compare it to #if i were to suddenly loose everything to be just some microscopic creature i'd be miserable but only because i know what im loosing #id be loosing the ability to think like i do now id be loosing the ability to enjoy the things i do now #i dont know what life is like as a microscopic creature but i wouldnt be willing to give up my life as i know it now #and i think with iterators are the same #just how different is their life from ours and what things can they see that we are missing out on? #give up everything comfortable and known and for what?? #to feel the sun? they absolutely have various temperature sensors #see the sky? those overseers were made to see things those visuals are in 4k #other animal comforts?? what about computer comforts?? #what makes a lil creature happy may not necessary make a massive supercomputer happy #sorry big rant in the tags um just wanna say this is no hate to anyone who wants their creatures off the string #these are fictional beings and you do whatever makes you happy take them off the string set them loose yess enjoy little robots running #around be happy i love reading ya alls off the string shenanigans #rain world #iterator #drawins #oc veil of dreams #rw talk #rain world oc #iterator oc

[spookythesillyfella]

oobh !! what's this ?? yess , i made some fanarts because these character designs are sick and silly >:3

★ fellas who made the designs :

@disturbia-mode – ellie :]

@francarieq – tony <3

@solchle – sketchbook :3

#WAAHAHA #THEYRE SO PRETTYY !!!!! #ISTG I LOVED EVERY SINGLE SECOND OF DRAWING THEMM !!!! #i guess i also needed a tiny break from the hv guys – im just focusing on tont backstory at this point hehe #anyway #THEYRE SOOO PRETTY SILLY #IM SORRY IF I DIDN'T DO THEM JUSTICE BUT THEY'RE SERIOUSLY SOSO COOL #AND SO ARE THE PEOPLE WHO MADE THEMM #hehehehehehhhshh #*deflating like a balloon* #dhmis #dhmis art #dhmis fanart #dhmis coffin #coffin dhmis #dhmis tony #tony the talking clock #dhmis sketchbook #sketchbook dhmis #IGNORE THAT LONG RANT I JUST WENT ON #I SHOULD NOT BE BURDENING STRANGERS WITH MY MENTAL PROBLEMS #i listened a lot to the songs “Visions” by Loving . “Kanjou wa Zaikogore” by Awa Dobuno and “Increasingly absorbed in his own World” by – #– The Caretaker #“Kanjou was Zaikogire” ** stupid fingers making stupid typos #hehe #okay #bye-bye !!! drink water !!! take care !!! #im fine i prommy :333333333

[kaidanalenkosprmanager]

THE BEST OF SHENKO 1/?

The end of the world has a way of reminding you of all the things you forgot to say do. Mass Effect: Legendary Edition (2021)

#mira makes gifs ✨ #kaidan alenko #sophie shepard #EDI #shenko #fshenko #mass effect #mass effect legendary edition #dailygaming #OTP: you're real enough for me #i learned i am physically incapable of creating less than like 20 gifs at a time #but shenko stonks are up right now!! #gif’ing my favorite bisexuals gives me joy 🥹 #even though ME2 is dry as shit for shenko content like it’s literally the sahara desert #like a whole ass 10 minutes max of cutscenes between shep and kaidan like come on #like 2 minutes in the prologue and like 8 minutes of cutscenes on horizon #and then an email and looking at the picture in your cabin before the suicide mission #i'm so sorry y'all ME2 shenko canon is absolute shit (besides kaidan being rightfully angry on horizon) which is why we ✨ignore it✨ 🥰 #but i rant about ME2 VS treatment too much so i will not write another essay about it in the tags #i will say the EDI line isn't the exact quote from the game but i think about it a lot tbf #same with the quote i borrowed from anderson too lmao (which is also a tiny bit paraphrased) #i just love EDI asking shep for relationship advice when you get to follow shep and kaidan's relationship/struggles across 3 games #and anderson's quote about all the things you forgot to do in relation kahlee to is just *chef's kiss* when you think about shenko #like whether it starts in ME1 or ME3 shenko has some really fantastic moments across the series #two characters with strong morals who realize that they're falling in love and literally start to become each other's strength?? #their soft place to land?? their support when they need it?? shenko will always have my heart #also the shenko quotes you get are the most fire thing in the world #you're real enough for me?? you make me feel human?? i want to be your strength- your soft place to land?? shenko you will always be famous #I FORGOT IM GONNA FIGHT LIKE HELL FOR THE CHANCE TO HOLD YOU AGAIN TOO LIKE?? #but i’ll stop ranting now bc i do that wayyy to much in my tags lol. have a good day wherever you are! <3

[gt-blendergod]

Have any of you scrolled on gt tumblr for so long that you accidentally got so far you’ll probably never be able to go any farther than you first did so now you’re resigned to staring at the maybe 10 gt posts that people have made since you last checked and you’ve read entire stories from years ago and feel personally connected to some of the inactive community members who you never actually met and you join a discord server to get even more gt content and you’re only slightly contented but just crave more? No? Just me?

Ok.

#g/t #giant/tiny #sorry for the rant #doomscrolling #random rant #lmfao anyways

[givemewallywestorgivemedeath]

Growing up in an extremely ultra religious, cult-like family was a mindfuck for multiple reasons but that doesn't stop unfortunately, even when you escape. For example, see: The overwhelming feeling of boiling hatred and shame for who you used to be.

The angry hatred for the past person I used to be, the version of myself that mindlessly parroted my family's beliefs and listened to their every command, constantly simmered under my skin and invaded my every thought. I was embarrassed of what I used to be- even as I made friends of different ethnicities and faiths, as I listened and explored new ideas and worlds that I never knew existed, as I started the first LGBTQ+ club at my school and volunteered with kids who deserved so much more- there was always a little voice in the back of my head.

"They would hate you if they knew what you were. They would hate the horrendous teachings that were seared into your mind, the things that you used to say and believe. You are nothing but a pretender."

And it is true that my beliefs were bigoted in all the worst ways. It is true that I believed truly heart-wrenching things without a second thought and judged others in such harsh and unfair ways. I told myself that there was no coming back from that, not really. There was nothing I could do to ever make up for it.

Then I remembered that the person who said those things wore velcro light up sneakers and collected finger puppets that the librarians handed out as awards for reading picture books. The person that held signs at pro-life rallies and anti-LGBTQ+ protests had a cherished sticker book and hunted minnows in the creek after school and adored their puffle on club penguin and was really into greek mythology and had skinned knees from climbing trees at recess and knew every Disney song by heart and was absolutely terrified of the dark.

That person was a child.

I was a child.

It took a really long time. Years and years of reflection and distance, but I've decided that I can't hate the past version of myself anymore. I feel pity and remorse, I feel anger- I feel so much fury and violent rage- at what my childhood was and I grieve what could- no, should- have been, but I no longer resent who I was.

I'm not ashamed.

I am so, so, so unbelievably proud of that little kid. For being brave enough to leave the comfort and safety of what I was told was right. For not being afraid to be wrong. For seeking out information and knowledge in a culture that praised ignorance. For questioning everything, relentlessly.

I am by no means a perfect person, I never have been and I never will, but I am proud of myself in every iteration that has ever existed because I know that I have never stopped trying to understand and learn and grow, and I never will.

If you have ever been in a similar situation and feel similar things, first of all: My condolences on your lost childhood. Second of all: Please be nice to that past version of yourself and recognize all the hard work they did to make you who you are today. That person was a survivor and an inspiration. They deserve nothing but love.

#started anti depressants recently. kinda had an epiphany. i can't hate who i was. if i met me now i wouldn't blame that tiny child #for their rancid beliefs or for being dragged to protests. because thats a CHILD. i HAVE met kids in that position and i feel nothing but #pity and anger on their behalf. so why am i holding that version of myself to a higher standard? #i could not have known what i know now at 6 or 8 or 10. the same way that i could not have written a college level essay at that age #but i did what i could. in my own 8 y/o way. i believed in love and humanity and happiness. i was just misguided in the 'hows' of it all #and i am so so so so so proud. of every single microscopic step that i took. every question i asked. every thought that i hid and protected #and pondered secretly at night until new ideas and doubts bloomed like a dandelion through the pavement #and I'm so proud that i chased that doubt. that i asked why why why why until their ears bled and their voices were raw #until their answers stopped adding up. until i sought knowledge elsewhere with a mind dehydrated and malnourished and begging for knowledge #in any form i could get. i just. if i could hug that kid? if i could right now reach out and give that terrified and lonely child a hug? #i would. a million times over. #anyway sorry for the intense personal rant I'm just going through it rn and I'm like.... actually feeling alright #its wild. did you guys know about this??? anti depressants make you NOT depressed??? shits insane fam #irl #personal

[likeapro42]

Steph: Why isn’t the statue smirking at me?

Barbra: It isn’t smirking at anyone, they’re all just imagining it.

Steph: Three of them saw it, Babs. How do you explain that?

Barbra: *points at Tim* Sleep deprivation. *points at Bruce* Paranoia. *points at Jason* Delusional Personality Disorder

#incorrect quotes #batman #batfamily #batfam incorrect quotes #stephanie brown #barbara gordon #tim drake #bruce wayne #jason todd #apparently this is from a genrator? #idk. I yoinked it from a LU post because this would happen #also Jason my beloved im sorry but you probs hallucinate the most of the batfam (from what I’ve seen) #Especially if you take the tiny ghost Robin literally and not metaphorically #which is a whole OTHER rant for another day

[wilberave]

the terrifying moment of realization when talking to a self proclaimed Leftist when you can immediately tell “oh. this person has never done an hour of community service in their life.” like. i know it’s been said before but your politics truly do not matter if you’re not interacting with your community in any way. you can vote in every single election and it will not have a fraction of the impact of 17 year old tyler who got sentenced to 20 hours of picking up litter and weeding the community garden. you can never once vote out of protest and read piles of theory and not come close to making the change that the group of 80 year old catholic ladies at St. Mary’s on the corner do with their weekly community meals and school supply drives. we live in the rotting corpse of an evil empire. ideas mean fucking nothing. the only thing that matters at all is physically extending a hand to try to help the people around you.

#getting super involved in volunteer work in my tiny ass town in rural ohio has perhaps radicalized me more than anything else #like truly it is so easy to make sure peoples lives have been tangibly improved even in some small way #just by serving and packaging meals or sorting through clothing donations #or keeping kids entertained while their parents talk to someone abt SNAP or even fucking scrubbing the sinks and toilets in a halfway house #because the residents have much bigger things to worry about than cleaning #all things i’ve done within my own town that were easy and fun and great ways to socialize and meet people near me #literally just fucking google volunteer opportunities + your city and there that’s more praxis than 90% of this fucking webbed site #god. sorry for the rant. can you tell i’ve been seeing an i fluc of Very Stupid posts recently #influx*

[bnnywngs]

there's something in wangxian fanfics that i hate and that is when any character tries to "cure" wwx's cynophobia

although i don't have a phobia, i /am/ afraid of dogs, especially the big ones, the lil babies not so much bc they're cute and i can always jump somewhere high enough they won't get me bc they're, you know, tiny

and something that i deeply hate is when someone says "you don't have to be afraid, they don't bite" like it's so simple, because, let me tell ya, IT'S NOT!!! it's not something i can decide on a whim that it's ok to pat a big ass dog's head because it's owner told me they don't bite, because it's not a switch i can turn on or off. YES i know they won't bite because they're basically smiling at me but those huge teeth, the huge mouth, just being beside it my heart beats so hard, so loud, and there's fear running through my whole body and the need to just run away or idk jump to the roof like a cat and be stuck

it's like when you're afraid of heights (I ALSO HAVE THAT BTW) and someone says "just don't look down" and haha fuck you???

anyway, what i hate in fanfics is when wwx is deeply afraid of a dog and the character begins "hey it's ok, they won't bite, look they're sitting still" like he can just stop feeling fear after that, magically, suddenly. and then they make him touch said dog, like peer pressure or something, and oh suddenly from nowhere at all wwx starts liking dogs and i hate that

it makes me fell bad i'm still afraid of dogs?? it's not easy to navigate life with this while almost everyone around you are dog lovers/parents/tutors 🥹 and most strangers can and will make you feel bad about it, like it's just a whine, a passing thing, you're just too picky

"why are you afraid, they're so docile!!" well, i almost lost my lower lip to a dog i hugged when i was 6, and then almost lost my knee to a huge one less then 10yrs later, but i'm sure you think it's nothing

pls do remember wwx almost died because of street dogs and that's the root of his fear, he probably have scars through his body from that time

anyway this is my personal opinion ✌🏽 happy holidays i guess

#personal rant #mini rant #i don't hate dogs i promise you #but if i can stay away from them i will #i have funny stories tho #jumping around to scape dogs do that to you #i crossed so many streets just because there was a dog walking towards me #wwx canonical fear of dogs #mdzs wei wuxian #wei wuxian #wwx freezes and scream #i freeze and whine #at least my close friends who have dogs always help me #and keep their dogs away from me #love them #my family used to have a tiny one #i miss him #sorry for bad english

[guaxinimraccoon]

O guax, quantos anos o Brad e o Toby tem? Tipo, em algum post dizia q o Brad tinha 15, mas ele tem 15 e mora "sozinho"? Ele ainda estuda? (Amo seus posts, é bom saber q tem uma criadora de conteúdo g/t br❤️)

AAAAAA mt obrigadaaaa ❤️❤️ é bom também saber que tem br nesse cantinho de coisa estranha kkkkkkkk

Amei sua perguntaaa, vou traduzir ela pra galera entender pq ela é importante blz?

OK SO my fellow friend here asked me how old the boys are, if Brad lives alone and if he's still in school.

As you well said, there is an old post here that says that Toby's 20 and Brad's 15, those are their ages in the current Euphoria timeline. So how Brad lives all by himself when he's so young?

Euphoria is set in the capital city of a brazillian state. That being said, Brad lives by himself in this capital in the very same house where Alex used to live and where he met Elisa. Not because of destiny lol, Alex bought the house and Brad simply went to live there bc it belongs to his father.

After Alex and Elisa tragically "broke up", he moved back to his hometown with baby Brad, bc this where his family lives and he needed some support. Alex's hometown is a small city not very far from the capital and Brad lived there with his father till the age of 15.

Brad went to live in his father's house in the capital bc he decided to study in a technical high school located in this city. That means he has academic classes and classes related to a specific job sector at the same time c:

Alex didnt come with him bc he works as a doctor in a hospital in his hometown, but he visits him as much as he can since it's not very far away.

... mostly to complain about cleaning matters.

... and to give the boys heart attacks.

So this is why Brad lives alone! Alex pays for most of his expenses, but he has a part-time job to help with the money c:

Sorry if any of this sounded confusing, it's a very specific situation and I'm bad at articulating ; u ;

#g/t #giant/tiny #size difference #toby #alex #euphoria lore #euphoria #brad #I RANTED AGAIN AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #sorry

[sysig]

Hello! Second request here, could you please draw something with Scriabin and Todd? I love their interactions and how he tries to take care of him in his own way, but is very bad at it.

Day 12 - Apology Bribe

#My art #Requestober #Vargas #Todd #Scriabin #''Don't tell dad! I'll make up for it just don't tattle!'' Lol #That is if he was the one to break it in the first place - maybe Todd came home from school and some of the kids were mean to him #And to get him not to cry he promised to buy him a new one ♪ However you want to take it haha #Personally I'm a fan of how allergic he is to saying sorry hehe ✨ He's terrible ♥ #Somehow I can only imagine him getting carried away in a rant and accidentally breaking something of Todd's tho not out of malice #Still broken tho #Todd's too good to you Scriabin! Way too forgiving! He's a sweet boy #He's also tiny haha ♪ Lookit how small! Fun sized lad #I enjoyed drawing the stickers on his ripped notebook ♪ #Little bear sticker! Adorable #Scriabin could've just buggered off after getting him a new one but he sits with him and watches him draw <3 #To watch him to make sure he doesn't tell on him to Edgar? Suuuuuure that's the reason lol #Oh Scriabin

[thenamessparkplug]

shoutout to my old 4th grade teacher for being more supportive of me one time 6 months ago than my own mother's ever been< 3333

#it was like such a tiny interaction but i also never forgot #it was during some kind of family party thing for kids parents (and siblings) to come and eat pizza and some other stuff i dont remember #and anyways my brother(who currently goes to this school) wanted to go so my whole family went #and while i was there my mom saw my old 4th grade teacher and was like “omg you should go talk to her” #and i was like yeah i should she was a really cool lady actually #so i nervously was like “hi” and didnt think shed recognize me at all #but she IMMEDIETLY was like “ITS YOU! /pos” #she then points to my shirt and asks me “hey are those your pronouns now?” #and this was back when i still wore pronoun/pride pins in general #and i was like “yeah actually!” because no adult had ever asked me about it before and i was so happy to like be recognized as a person #and she gave me a hug and told me she was proud of me and how much id grown and i /maybe/ got a little close to tears but ignore that #and my mom just stood there the whole time #she didnt say anything #she didnt smile #and this was not my first time wearing my pronoun pin my TRANS FLAG pin even #never once did she acknowledge it #also like a month later she made fun of me for it and i havent worn one since #uh yeah anyways #sorry for ranting lmao #or ig venting?? this was not my intention mb mb #trans #transgender #lgbt #lgtbq #lgbtqia #(to be clear my mom has made it very clear she will never support me on numerous occasions it wasnt like a one time thing lmao) #tw vent?? #tw vent

[sonicranger1]

Yknow I find it weird when people talk about Ink and say he can't feel emotions even when he takes his vials cuz like-

Then what's the point of the vials in the first place my dude? 😭 the whole point of their existence is to help ink feel in the first place

Please explain to me like I'm a 2 year old if I'm missing something cuz otherwise ????????

#tiny rant sorry i was just reading a short oneshot and got annoyed #ink sans #my ramblings #the math ain’t mathin #for me at least

[snudootchaikovsky]

CAN I GET FRIDAY BUT NOT SATURDAY

#AAAAAAAAAAAA SOLO ENSEMBLE COMPETITION IS SATURDAY AND MU INTONATION IS LITERALLY GIVING GOOSE #DID A RECORDING WITH AN ENSEMBLE OML 💀 MY FRIEND AND I ARE SECOND VIOLINS #(YES THIS IS THE BACH QUADRUPLE ANYGAYS) #WE LITERALLY SOUNDED LIKE A GOOSE. #GOOSE OCEAN IS REAL BIT NOT IN THE GOOD WAY 😔 #WHY IS SHIFTING. SO. JIEUFJWKKFKWJDKWNFKWMKFLWMFNWJFNEKMRLWKFJEJKRKEJR #ONE MILIMETER JSUT ONE TINY NANOMETER AND THEN I'M FLAT I SWEARRRRRRR #SORRY FOR THE RANT I'M JSUT DREADING SATURDAY

[bettyfettucine]

Sometimes, I wonder how many times I've been killed in a game of fuck-marry-kill

#disordered eating thoughts #ed bllog #disordered thoughts #depressing shit #tw depressing thoughts #sorry for being depressing #ed bullshit #34t1ng d1s0rd3r #ana is my friend #ana bllog #tw ana rant #i wanna be tiny #i will be a skeleton

[sugarsweetvirgo]

Eve: Bottling up negative emotions is bad for your health, so you shouldn't do it.

Seto: I know, that's why I bottle up all my emotions, both positive and negative, so it cancels out.

Eve: Th-that's not how that works-

Actually, the two are pretty open with each other.

#small hastag ramble #but i low-key feel kaiba is like. super mischaracterized when it comes to how he handles emotions #Id absolutely argue that Kaiba is one of the most emotional characters In the entire manga. More than Yugi is even #its just that a majority of the time his emotions are based in anger and hatred. so people see him as bottling up his feelings #when he's honestly the exact opposite. hes VERY open about how he feels and why he feels certain ways #For example Kaiba bluntly telling the gang that he's going to blow up Alcatraz because he hates his stepfather so much #or when Kaiba was very visibly disgusted by the shadow game on the piers with Yugi v Joey #or the numerous amounts of times Kaiba verbally told Atem how much he wants to defeat him. to the point of trembling with desire #Like Kaiba is incredibly open about his emotions. Except that a majority of the time his emotions are based in anger without a resolution #I just think its misinterpreted as him concealing his emotions because he doesn't show a lot of positive ones. but no. he's just that angry #especially since a majority of his actions in the manga are based on his own feelings #anyway sorry for the rant lmao the conversation just drives me nuts #I think he'd absolutely be really open to Eve about how he feels and his frustrations #Kinda using Eve as a sort of rubber duck to vent to a lot #It's also one of the reasons Eve loves Kaiba so much. because he's so brazen about his thoughts and feelings #ssv #oc #yugioh au #giant/tiny #yugiohoc #bondshipping #rant #tag rant #oc x canon #answered asks #ask

[natelia-aldelliz]

Guys... Listen I know I said I'd draw something for valentine's day but I had a bit of a rough week sooooo I'm just going to write it out instead, maybe I'll finish drawing it some day, maybe not. It's behind a show more because it's long.

(also there's talks about having sex but no actual sex, and like, general warnings about Ghost's backstory but it's very vague here).

Soap was hanging around outside, trying to bring himself to do something, anything. But the weather was nice for a February day, and the sun was out, and it was making him feel like a cat basking in the heat.

An arm wrapped itself around his shoulders, a huge body suddenly weighing on him. Ghost.

Soap hummed comfortably. This day was getting better by the minute. Any chill he might have felt from being outside in a tank top out of pure Scottish spite was instantly soothed.

Simon often times saw himself as a cold man, freezing to the touch, hidden behind a layer of ice. A proper little Elsa, Soap almost snorted out loud. The truth was that while yes, his fingers and toes' temperature was sometimes abysmal, especially in bed, the rest of him was the warmest place Johnny had ever been.

"I've got something for you in our room," Ghost whispered against his throat, making Soap shiver.

Simon had begun calling Soap's room theirs a few weeks ago and Johnny couldn't have enough of it. He was so in love it genuinely hurt sometimes to restrain himself from squeezing him to death.

"Is that so?" he purrs, knowing how Ghost likes that. If this day didn't end in sex he'd be very surprised. He'd long learned to recognize when Simon wanted sex and when he didn't, and the way he squeezed his pec in response to his voice was a very easy tell.

But then again Simon was way less subtle than he thought he was.

They made their way back to their room, and there it was, a repurposed shoebox, badly wrapped with cheap wrapping paper. Johnny couldn't be more excited, he had never received any gift from a significant other. To be fair he adored gifting but always felt awkward receiving.

But this was Simon. Something that Simon had chosen to give him.

He sat on the bed, leaving enough space behind him for Ghost to sit there so he could use him as a very comfortable backrest. When he did, he grabbed the gift and began opening it.

He knew that Ghost liked to tear the wrapping paper, liked the sound of it and liked tearing it into the smallest pieces possible after, but he himself loved carefully unwrapping it and folding it flat so he could later maybe do an origami with it or put a piece in his journal. Probably both.

This one was full of tape but he still very much enjoyed himself, considered it a challenge. He enjoyed the chase, wanted to drag it on. Ghost huffed impatiently behind him, a bit tense, probably nervous.

Inside the box was a weird old fashioned clunky thing. It was bright red, looked slightly like binoculars, definitely from the 70's, with a wheel of tiny pictures wedged in the top of it. Memories hit him all at once.

"Oh my god ah remember, my Ma had one of these when ah was a child! My sister and I loved it, it had pretty landscapes in!"

He put it against his eyes, excited to see what this one came with. At his biggest surprise, it was a picture of them. Simon had customised it.

The picture showed the back of himself a bit further away from the camera, pointing at something while in full gear, in a dilapidated town, Ghost's face in the foreground looking at the camera. It looked like Soap was talking to someone, but that person was cut by the framing.

"Wait, ah remember that mission, it's when ah saved Gaz from a landmine just to be shot seconds later," he laughed. "ah spent two fucking weeks in the hospital, ah was miserable. Ye kept joking ah should hiv left Gaz explode while staring at him, he was convinced ye actually wanted him dead!"

Then the next picture was indeed him in his hospital bed, unconscious but the state of his injuries told him he was probably just sleeping at least a few days after his admission, his life no longer in danger. In this one, Ghost was sleeping too, head in his elbow near Soap's head and his other hand holding Soap's hand.

"Who took this one?" Soap asked, moved by the tenderness of Ghost's hold on him in the picture. It would have been right after Johnny had admitted to maybe liking him more than friends, before they were officially dating.

"The hospital one?"

Soap hummed.

"Price did. Said it was for blackmail. Should have seen him, he looked like his child had just married the person of their dreams and had ridden off into a rainbow on a unicorn or some shit. Old man's sentimental as fuck, but I didn't call him on his bullshit, he's already old, that's punishment enough."

Soap giggled in response. The next few pictures were all of them together but each time he was either turning his back or asleep.

"Why the fuck am ah never looking at the camera?" he whined. He wanted some cute couple pictures, dammit!

"Couldn't have you suspecting what I was planning," Simon said, kissing his shoulder soothingly. Only then Soap noticed that he had taken his mask off at some point and turned to ask for a proper kiss, which he immediately got.

"Keep going, there's more pictures," Simon whispered against his lips when he tried to turn around to kiss him some more. His pouting only got him a smirk in response, so he got comfortable again and brought the slide viewer back against his eyes.

He was happy he did. The next picture waiting for him was just Simon in the mirror, almost in full gear, but with one gloveless hand dragging his trousers down so the camera could see the bottom of his stomach, follow along his happy trail and reaching the very top of his pubic hair. The picture cut of his head, but he could see that his mouth was uncovered and he was holding the glove with his teeth.

Soap groaned. "Steaming Jesus, love, you're so hot."

He felt Simon hide his face in the back of his neck, warmer than usual, and chuckled a bit. He loved him so fucking much.

There were four more pictures of Simon, in various suggestive poses and states of undress, some almost showing his cock but never quite committing, making Johnny feel like he was being teased.

He was getting hard though and so ready to be done with the pictures and access the real thing. But Simon was still tense behind him. In fact, he had only gotten tenser and tenser with each click.

Soap was unsure why. They never had a problem with their sexual life, Simon had already changed his mind about having sex after starting and Soap had absolutely no problem with that, was glad to hug him instead and reassure him when he had tried to apologize.

Simon knew that there was no pressure, ever, to have sex. Hell, Johnny would still be happy even if Simon decided that he never wanted to have sex again, and he had made sure to make Simon understand that.

Then he got to the last picture and immediately understood.

It wasn't a picture of either of them, just a little bit of paper, with a few words written in Ghost's awful handwriting.

Just a few words that made Johnny drop the viewer on the covers and turn around to grab Simon's face, worriedly looking in his eyes.

"Are you sure?" he asked, looking for any trace of Simon forcing himself. "Baby, ah'm happy to bottom for the rest of mah life, there's no pressure, okay?"

Simon looked at him with warmth in his eyes and his cheeks completely red, a wrapping bow added on top of his head. "I know," he said simply. "I just want to. I don't want to be haunted by memories anymore. I used to like it, and I want to like it again. With you. Just.... Be gentle, okay?"

Johnny kissed his forehead. "Ah dinnae think ah ken how no tae be gentle with ye, love."

#cod mw2 #simon ghost riley #john soap mactavish #ghostsoap #soapghost #listen i'm sure there are romantic people somewhere who think it's valentine's day everyday so how late can that be #to be fair i am terrible at deadlines i don't know why i keep giving them to myself cause i soon as i do i know i'm never doing the thing #i've also burnt out my drawing capacities for now so probably expect more writing than drawing for a bit while my poor tiny brain recovers #if anyone is wondering yes soap forgot it was valentine's day #not because he forgot about it - he just forgot to track the days and didn't know they were the 14th he had a gift ready tho #he got ghost a chocolate tablet that ghost had once complained about not being able to find anymore that's actually just me complaining irl #that my supermarket doesn't seem to have white chocolate tablets with puffed rice inside like they did when i was a child #i have no idea how that applies to anywhere else lmao maybe other supermarkets have them but i hate going to supermarkets i don't know #anyway lmao sorry my love language is ranting #soap doesn't generally like receiving gifts because he feels like he doesn't deserve them like he didn't have to work for them #and so he feels guilty when he gets one but he hasn't told anyone about that #he was happy there but if ghost gives him ''too many'' gifts he's gonna start feeling bad bc he has just as much issues as everyone else #just hides them better