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thatdragonzeek · 2 months

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Here's some Pokemon art

#archen #pikachu #houndour #foongus #eevee #pokemon #im doing the thing again where im drawing every day in march #except im not drawing only pokemon #its been a mix of this and ocs and cotl #anyways imma eventually print a bunch of these out as stickers to give to kids at work #not gonna sell sticker tho sorry #i dont have a good enough printer so they dont come out very high quality #if I one day get a better printer then i may sell stickers #for now tho i wont #and for the record no im not handing them out with the obnoxious watermark #thats just for posting

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cyberkitty1 · 10 months

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Twin AU

Major Across the Spider-verse spoilers

Part 2

inspo from : @moodysunflowerbaby <3

Mylo gets compared to his brother so much that he visibly gets annoyed whenever it happens so right off the bat when you befriend Miles before Mylo and Miles isn’t being a very good friend he just thinks youre moving on from Miles and either shoos you away or wont pay attention to you, he thinks hes the second option.

“ I wish Miles was here to help us on our science project, hes scary good at it” you say laughing and nudging his shoulder.

Mylo gives you this irritated face “yea i know hes is he my brother7. why you talkin about him anyway?” he says snapping at you.

you put your hands up defensively “ I didn’t mean to strike a nerve or anything he just helps me a lot with this stuff”

he scoffs “oh so im too stupid to do this? then go ask him to be your partner i don’t need this bs today” he says getting up and leaving. you just sit in shock; thats not even close to what you were saying?

He ignores you constantly after that but you need clarification; is he mad at you or not?

“ hey is your brother mad at me or something? we were doing a science project and he kinda got up an left. but then again it was my fault” you say the last part under your breath.

Miles shrugs “ i dont know just cause we brothers dosent mean i know whats up with him.”

you scoff “ what is up with the both of you? he’s ignoring me and youre being snappy, did something happen?” you say annoyed yet sincere.

he wipes his face with his hand “ well not everything is about you” he says grabbing his stuff “ and for the record sorry im not happy, my dad died.” he says walking away leaving you in utter shock.

why didn’t they say anything? now that you think about it; maybe you were a bad friend.

you guys haven’t talked for weeks, avoiding each other because you didn’t know what to say. you blamed yourself mostly for this and let this friendship slip your mind, but Mrs Morales had other plans.

Part 2?

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zvdvdlvr · 2 years

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ᴜɴᴛɪʟ ᴛʜᴇ ᴇɴᴅ

s.ʙʟᴀᴄᴋ

sᴜᴍᴍᴀʀʏ: sɪʀɪᴜs, & ʏ/ɴ ɪs ᴀ sᴇɴsɪᴛɪᴠᴇ sᴜʙᴊᴇᴄᴛ ᴡʜᴇɴ ʜᴇ ғɪɴᴅs ᴏᴜᴛ ʜᴏᴡ ᴛʜᴇʏ ᴍᴇᴛ ᴛʜᴇɪʀ ᴅᴇᴍɪsᴇ ᴡʜɪʟᴇ Sɪʀɪᴜs ᴡᴀs ɪɴ ᴀᴢᴋᴀʙᴀɴ.

ᴡᴀʀɴɪɴɢs: sʜɪᴛᴛʏ ᴡʀɪᴛɪɴɢ, ғʟᴜғғ ᴛʜᴇɴ ᴀɴɢsᴛ ᴛʜᴇɴ ғʟᴜғғ ᴛʜᴇɴ ᴀɴɢsᴛ. ɴᴏ ʀᴇsᴛ ғᴏʀ ᴛʜᴇ ᴡɪᴄᴋᴇᴅ, ᴇʜ?

ʀᴇᴀᴅᴇʀ ᴘʀᴏɴᴏᴜɴs: ᴛʜᴇʏ/ᴛʜᴇᴍ

and lmfaooo my mini breakdown at the end kms

a 13 year old sirius sprinted down the corridor, laughing loudly, smoke in his hand as he was chased by his lover.

laughing hysterically as he turned a corner, he relaxed against the wall and fell slowly, closing his eyes as tears streamed sown his face from how hard he was laughing.

he heard y/n fall into the wall right by the corner, trying and failing to smother the loud giggles escaping their mouth. their hand reached out to try to steady themself on sirius, who was now laying down completely.

y/n started, still choking on laughter, "that- that fucking joke-" dissolved into more laughter before continuing, " it was so fucking bad!" they shrieked.

sirius was absolutely rolling. "thats why its so funny!"

♤

sirius blinked. no way he heard right. no way, in the entire reality, was it possible for them to be dead.

this is just a cruel, cruel, joke, thought sirius.

"'m sorry pads..." remus said, sympathetically.

the sadness leaking out of remus's eyes hit sirius like a strong stunning spell.

♤

"sirius-sirius please, leave. i know how this-" teary eyed y/n pleaded to the dark haired man.

"how?! how do you know?! this will work. y/n! it will! no one will get hurt! we'll-" he insisted desperately. his dark eyes frantically searching y/n's eyes, hollow and sunken.

"darling-" y/n tried, yet sirius kept talking.

running his hands through his hair over and over again, he started pacing. "we can finish this mission, yeah? and-and then-"

y/n threw their head back. "sirius listen to me! I've thought this out, all of it."

he looked at y/n, tired, desperate. "i know, b-but-" he closed his eyes. "i cant lose you and regulus. i pushed him away, and thats my fault, but i have a choice now and i wanna-" he explained breathlessly.

"darling, im not reggie. you aren't pushing me away. I'll- how about this? we'll step back from this mission okay? okay? you with me m'love?" at the mention of Regulus' name, sirius stopped pacing and turned his back to y/n.

as y/n approached sirius, muffled cries came from sirius. only a light touch caused sirius to turn into y/n's embrace, warm and loving.

y/n exhaled shakily. "we wont go on the mission. no one gets hurt, no one dies. that okay lovie?"

sirius quivered, yet nodded.

leading him to the bedroom, y/n played with his fingers.

♤

sirius imagined so many things. y/n writhing on the ground, pleading for mercy. y/n getting impaled in the stomach looking around for a hand to grab before falling to the unwelcoming ground and all of the crimson blood leaking from their body. it was so fucking morbid, but sirius had to know what happened.

"how did it happen?" sirius asked emotionlessly, one night at dinner.

remus closed his eyes and sighed. he opened his mouth.

"please dont tell me im not ready to know." sirius said.

remus's jaw clenched. releasing a shaky breath, he nodded. "yeah, yeah. i know, you need to know, i just- it-" he took a deep breath. "they were going on an... errand... for dumbledore. on the way... they were taken." remus blinked.

remus continued, "it was a division of death eaters... they were recording things for evidence and we found the recording device. they were asked all this- they were tortured, pads. it was horrible. it was so- and they were so sarcastic the whole time, like they always were. it was almost- in the end... uhm," he blew out a big breath and wiped away his tears. "from what we gathered, they were, uh... they bled out."

sirius was crying. "what were their last words?"

remus winced. "they were, uh, told to beg. beg for their life. their last few words were, when they had given up fighting, they said 'tell him i was in his side'."

ew this is absolute shit

(unedited)

lmfao thats why this is so shitty, bc its unedited, jules, jesus fuck

#sirius black #x reader #angst angst angst #angst angst baby #harry potter #angst #female reader #male reader #sirius black imagine #sirius black x reader #sirius black x y/n #sirius black x you #sirius black angst #hehe #x gender neutral reader

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nicomrade · 7 months

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Another question about the timeline, where do you see Baku's visit to Eba's building and where does he learn the truth about Hal fit in (chapters 534-535)? I say this because during chapter 324, in a flashback that takes place after the bet against President Sakai (which happens before Baku goes to the Eba building) Baku thinks that Kyara will be a real ally when he stops being a referee, giving us the idea that Baku did plan from the beginning to lose the first Surpassing the Leader, which provokes another question, if at that time Baku didn't know that Hal would be the next leader, how could he predict that he would survive in the face of such a bet?

Sorry for English, it's not my first language.

dont worry about your english its good ^-^ its also not my first language so if u need me to rephrase something u can just ask :]

so i dont really know when baku visits eba's building exactly because its kept vague... but i agree it makes the most sense if its after the gamble vs sakai, i dont think we have a date for this? & it also has to be after nov 20th because thats when eba records the message, but before nov 23rd because thats when hal has the game vs fukurou so maybe its like this?

nov 20th (eba records the message intended for souichi)

nov 21st the gamble vs Sakai in the restaurant?

nov 22nd baku enters eba's building and finds out the truth about hal?

nov 23rd hal goes to bakus gamble in his place

i need to reread the 1998 flashbacks i might be missing some cues. the Sakai gambles (vs the son and the next day vs the father at the restaurant) could happen before nov 20th? but not too much before because i doubt eba would only record the message for souichi like 4 days after souichi got the book??? what would happen if he got here too quick and there was no message? after making the book, recording the message would probably be the first thing he does i think. im also biased towards putting baku's discovery of hal's secret as close as possible to the gamble vs fukurou cause thats the most dramatic and heartbreaking timing for things lol

for the foreshadowing about kyara becoming a real ally, the manga loves to make us question how much baku has stuff planned in advance- like, is he really SO GOOD he knew all along it would turn out like this? i think he genuinely loves risking his life and happens to have fate on his side. he DOES have plans but can he forsee things 2 years into the future? could he really know kyara would leave kakerou if baku lost surpassing the leader? i think this bit about kyara is probably one of these cases, like a stray thought he kept in his head for later, maybe he thought kyara might leave kakerou before?

and whether baku KNEW hed survive surpassing the leader or not is also one of those big questions. i think its yakou that first makes the theory, right? that baku lost on purpose and planned it all along? i think its true he did lose on purpose but only once he got there on april 9th. but that last part is my own speculation so with that in mind heres my theory for april 9th

i think after hal took his place for the nov 23rd gamble and never came back, baku was smart enough to know it meant hal died. i dont think he had any reason to think he couldve survived, somehow, so when challenging STL in 2001 when he has THIS LOOK

i think its because hes shocked to see hal (/souichi) alive. he truly believed he was dead and now hes realizing hes going to play STL with hal. and in that instant i think he makes the decision to lose on purpose because he thinks, if its hal, i will survive, he wont kill me. i think he had a more elaborate plan for the gamble but he didnt use it because he didnt expect hal being there and so instead he seizes THIS opportunity to be the funniest gambler in the history of kakerou and lose STL on purpose and still live LOL + kick in the mangas whole story (or he didnt have the heart to win against hal and kill him "again", you can choose your reading of this scene)

so baku finds out hal is a liar & a kiruma -> the next day hal takes his place in the gamble and dies -> 1.5 years later it turns out hal is alive & the leader of kakerou now??? AND HE HAS TO KILL HIM??? -> insane little plan to lose & survive and re-challenge souichi later. this is sooo messy and heartbreaking and i love it which is why its my interpretation of the events i just really love the tragedy between baku & souichi 🐝

#ask #anon #usogui timeline #usogui meta #also i couldnt find the kyara thing in chapter 324 :( i skimmed through the restaurant gamble n didnt see it either but it was real quick #i totally couldve just missed it

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foryourownbosom · 2 years

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Favorite Laukids headcannons?

hi anon ! so sorry im answering this just now, life has been chaos with uni and i havent had the time to properly respond 😔 BUT THIS IS MY FAV ASK EVER SKFJKSFGDSG ITS MY TIME TO SHINE .

ALRIGHT. i have LOTS of fav headcanons,,,, probably too many. based on the number i am ashamed to admit how much time i waste thinking about this family. so, im gonna *try* to pick some of my favourites and write them below! (beware, this is gonna be long. because of that, the headcanons are gonna be under a cut for anyone who might actually be interested in reading them 😭) to the ones who do, enjoy <3

SO OKAY my favourite headcanon of them all (and the one that i believe i kind of,,, developed the most?) is that each sibling had a specific flower name as a nickname, all chosen by eleanor. i like to think that based on the traits and personality she saw in her children, eleanor would pick a flower whose symbolism matched with the child in question. when calling them, she would adress the children by those flowers (eg. calling jack "my sunflower", nelly "my little magnolia", etc!)

in the case of polly for example (the last one born shortly before eleanor's death), polly had "sweet pea" as a name. eleanor knew she wasnt going to live much longer but still wanted to continue the tradition of nicknaming her babies, so she chose a flower whose symbolism typically means strength, departures and goodbyes. according to the symbolism, sweet peas mean "thank you for a lovely time”. eleanor wanted to, at least, thank polly for the time she could spend together with her last baby, as short as it was. (i wont get into details about every nickname bc i would ramble for too long 😭- i really wanna make a separate post or smth explaining that one day kdjgksdgd,,, but thats mainly the reason why the laukids have a specific flower for each of them when i drew the charts :"))

alright so thats the *main* headcanon i have. here are some other fav hcs that are not that,, extense KDJSKAF. they are pretty much random thoughts i collected throughout time:

one night, way past their bedtimes, nelly and patsy swore they saw ghosts on the graveyard while going outside to play. they swore to never sneak out and go out to play at night ever again

henri, john and nelly (ages 5, 4 and 3) would often make "mud stew" on poodles after it rained with literally anything they could find.

their favourite games were playing pirates, climbing, and playing hide & seek behind the oak trees

john slipped from a pretty high branch that bruised his knee. that left a big scar on his left leg that even as an adult was still visible

nelly was the first one of the girls who started playing the harpsicord, and patsy followed after her sister. nelly would teach her simple little melodies and play together sometimes. after nelly passed away, john usually sat by patsy's side when she played so she wouldn't be alone. he couldn't play of course, but he tried singing to accompany patsy on the little melodies she learned by her late sister

john had really good hearing and could replicate bird sounds with high accuracy. that caused the birds to usually come very near him and to not fly away. patsy called john a "bird whisperer" because of that

kids patsy and john once found an egg below a tree, and brought it home to take care of it. it turned out to be a carolina parakeet, and patsy named her iris. they taught her,,, french curse words. and thought it was the funniest thing ever. after a few months, they set her free

polly has the record for the sibling that broke jars and china cups the most (followed by jemmy, but he would argue that those were harry's fault)

also, now that we are on the topic of harry and jemmy: although most of the time they were inseparable partners in crime, sometimes they would fight over really small things (but to them of course, those things were. pretty big deals™) one some occasions, they were so crossed with each other that they would sit the furthest from one another at the table, and used john as their messenger for days bc they refused to speak directly to the other. they would exchange Very Serious Angry Letters across the room as if they were two opposed kingdoms, and john was in the middle delivering those letters. john always succeeded on the mission to cease the fights though, and as soon as he would fall for a prank, he annoyingly (but happily) knew jemmy and harry befriended again

jemmy once beat harry on a game of marbles (harry was considered the best player among the siblings) and harry was so frustrated he swore to never play again. (that promise lasted, of course, less than a week. and that jemmy victory was probably the reason why they didn't speak to each other for days)

when john was a toddler he once doodled over an entire set of letters of henry sr and he had to start all over again from scratch. that child had 0 awareness of space and he thought literally everything was a potential canvas to draw on-

he also probably drank paint water while using watercolors too many times ,, (artists' culture for ya)

the Main Kids (john, patsy, harry and jemmy) would often organize little plays where they created stories and whole worlds/kingdoms with their characters in it. at night, they couldn't be as loud so with the help of candles they played by creating shadows on the walls

harry stopped two of his siblings from eating,,, questionable AND dangerous things by pure luck . one, when toddler jemmy wanted to eat a worm. and two, when he stopped john from eating a poisoned berry. (the latter was originally a bit dark though so i wont elaborate much)

jemmy was almost 6 years old when he sailed with john and henry sr to europe for schooling (harry joined a bit later), so i headcanon that his first tooth fell around that time while on port, and he rushed to john and showed it to him :")

jemmy doodled the three of them (he and his two older brothers) on a piece of paper, and john almost cried. he kept the drawing safe on one of his books so it wouldn't get lost or damaged

eleanor would always sing lullabies to the kids before bed because it help them wind down. after eleanor's gone, the siblings usually asked john to sing to them because he was the one who knew and remembered the melodies the most. while abroad in europe, john promised harry and jemmy that he would keep singing them for as long as he could.

john finds comfort in the fact that, at least, the last thing jemmy heard was a lullaby from his mother, sang by john. he hoped that it brought him peace for one last time.

when john, harry and jemmy were finally joining patsy and polly in europe, little polly was euphoric and was literally asking every 5 minutes when were their brothers arriving. polly had no memory of them as they all sailed when she was a baby, so of course the excitement was over the roof. when she finally met her brothers, she was glued to them, specially john. polly asked for piggyback rides and races all the time, as well as asking his brother how to do "fencing with sticks" which he delightfully obligued to provide lessons.

polly also made everyone attend and wear dresses to her Very Fancy Tea Party™ once

polly is the #1 candy theft. harry, the #1 victim of her robbery.

during the war, john liked to stay up really late and sleep by the fireplace of headquarters, as he sometimes did that with his siblings. he would also keep things that reminded him of home

later on her life, patsy would tell stories and memoirs of her childhood with john to both frances and polly. her own children would listen as well and would wonder what it would've been like to have met him

this is all for now! if you made it this far, from the bottom of my heart, thank you. i love you dearly, truly 😭😭😭💖💖 thanks for coming to my TED talk my fingers are sore from typing a

#ask #laurens family #laurens siblings #laukids #headcanons #the laukids brainworms are at their peak tonight im afraid..........#these are like. 10% of them but i really didnt wanna make this immensely long😔#this is literally a laukids headcanon masterpost i swear JAHKDJDK #ALSO most of these headcanons are wips that i never finished bc my commitment is. non-existent. sorry🥲#hope you enjoyed!! and literally the biggest thank you anon for this question #it was my time to shine and absolutely infodump my silly little thoughts about them

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winderlylandchime · 7 months

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I’m just gonna go ahead and say sorry in advance the man lost his mind with the next ep but 3x04 1/2 ‘He would make great marketing for durex. Remember their covid ads? Funny as shit. Why is she here? Why can’t she take the kid with her to the hospital? I thought i gave Brian permission to hit this fucking kid? Yeah! Eat the chips you little bitch.‘ we got to Mel and Linds picking donors ‘FRESH SPERM?! LINDSAY HE IS 19- What are the-THEY CANT GO TO A SPERM BANK? THEYRE GONNA PICK BETWEEN THEIR FRIENDS?! Girl, what makes you think any of them want a kid at all or better yet with you? There is no way Brian would let that kid get into the ‘vette. JUSTIN! WHY ARE THEY CASUALLY SAYING HEY TO EACH OTHER? oh Justin hates this kid (Mel and Linds pick Mikey) MICHAEL?! THEY ARE PICKING MICHAEL?! MICHAEL?! MIKE? MIKEY?! Because he invited a kid to a comic book store? THAT IS LITERALLY HIS JOB! Thank god the diner doesn’t have more male waiters because she would think someone wants a kid just cause they told her the specials’ ‘WHAT IS WITH THEM MOVING IN SO FAST? I THOUGHT THAT WAS A YOU PEOPLE THING *waves at me*’. ‘Have you noticed that whenever Lindsay and Melly want something from someone they make them a meal? (mikey and Ben are taking a shower and he actually fake gagged) The only shower scenes I like are Brian and Justin’ ‘he’s going through Brian’s stuf- he has a lot of dildos, why am i acting surprised..HE STOLE HIS BRACELET! How dare you, you little shit! BRIAN HE HAS YOUR BRACELET! HE DOES NOT OWE ANY OF YOU ANYTHING ESPECIALLY NOT MONEY! I know I said hit him but this *points to the toilet scene* is WAY fucking better! Do Ethan next!’ He is once again using Shazam to make his playlist even better. ‘Usually when people start doing drugs, they become fun before they ruin their lives, this dude is just hitting the gym? Boring. Oh he’s angry and jealous of Michael isn’t he? Well that’s not healthy’ he is once again using Shazam, this is getting ridiculous. ‘OKAY BRIAN!! Oh damn, I don’t remember him being all 6 packy before. Why is a cop there?’ ‘Why is he surprised that he wont have full rights? Dude, you’re a DONOR! But don’t worry they never hold their word, they force the donors to step up one way or the other. Make sure you have life insurance. THATS WHY THERES SPERM BANKS MELANIE!’ And thee scene is coming up (my cousin thankfully reminded me to record him here bc she knew he’d lose his mind and thank fuck she did. Usually i record him for big moments but i almost forgot here) ‘HE ACCUSED HIM OF WHAT NOW?! *pauses tv* OH FUCK HIM AND FUCK WHOEVER MADE HIM! That is such a horrible and serious accusation to make cause some people, HA, some people..good one (his name), GIRLS! WOMEN! aren’t believed! And boys! Oh don’t even get me started and i know it’s ironic because im yelling at a boy BUT DIFFERENT! WE DONT EVEN GET TO COME FORWARD CAUSE WE SHOULD BE HAPPY WE GOT LAID! And if it was done by a man? Well then we are forced to be quiet because we get mocked since apparently gay is worse than rape. But Brian is gay, so of course he did that and nobody would think otherwise. Because gay means predator in their peanut shaped brain! Meanwhile PRIESTS exist! Or those weird family friends that you have to change outfits for when they come over but nobody calls that out. HOW FUCKING DARE THEY? You know what? FUCK EVERYTHING AND ESPECIALLY FUCK THAT KID! His family better know better, i have no faith in them but they owe him that! Nobody will believe this, he literally hates kids!‘ He then got up and went outside to smoke. I forgot that when the whole Florida gay ban bullshit happened, this man FLEW to florida to protest (we are nowhere near florida) so I should’ve seen this coming tbh. And when he came back inside he just went ‘I do wish they showed him being interrogated because I know for a fact my man was giving sarcasm and anger and funny insults!’ ‘Well look at that, it’s almost as if you shouldn’t move in together after like a week!’

Melanie and Lindsay’s insistence on using known sperm over donor sperm baffles me and must be because for TV reasons because it’s so bananas. LOLing at them making someone a meal… that is so true!

Ben not becoming more interesting with a drug problem IS A MOOD. And true.

His reaction to this storyline is everything. Factually, false accusations are incredibly rare and yes, it’s a double-whammy for boys. The other part of this storyline I hate? Is that Claire is right to believe her kid. So rarely do parents believe their kids and go to the police, when they should. I hate hate hate this storyline with a passion. I get why it happens (Justin still believing in Brian and doing whatever needs to be done to clear his name) but FFS CowLip why why why do you have to create a narrative around a false accusation?

YOUR BROTHER FLEW TO FL TO PROTEST? He gets all the fist-ally’s in the world! I love him.

#ask winderlylandchime #dear sweet anon #queer as folk #a straight man watches qaf us 2000 in the year of our lord 2023

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yuukei-yikes · 1 year

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What would happen in an AU where Haruka's and Takane's abilities were swapped? They entered the daze at about the same time and they both had similar wishes. I don't think Takane would have a Konoha incident and Haruka would be more open with Shintaro (assuming that's who he ran into) but beyond that: ???. (You can assume shintaro ends up okay and focus just on Harutaka moments in this AU)

I'VE DRAWN THIS BEFORE its pretty old art but still funny (neet ayano was so fucking funny to me) i remember when i drew that i was thinking the way to swap haruka and takane's roles relies a lot on the daze messing up real bad in a hilarious way. bc haruka and takanes wishes ARE kinda similar, it kinda revolves around them being like I DONT WANNA BE FUCKING SICK!!!!!! like haruka in a body that can't sleep or eat is literally his worst nightmare but hey u wont die in this body lol!!! and takane wouldn't care particularly abt being super strong but maybe awakening can apply never sleeping or something. and like u said maybe takane wouldnt have a konoha incident... like, the reason haruka cant be in his body is bc his personality is too soft for awakening? so he's sorta rejected? but takane would have a strong personality for it right?? so yeah ig she'd be aware.

but aware takane with awakening eyes kinda misses the point to meee like things would be over so fast like that. takane with a super op power would get the fuck out of kenjirous house and go to shintaro and end up finding haruka anyway. and theyd reunite fast and theres no angst like that...where would be the fun in that. and that would be a huge pain in the ass for clearing, that would rly mess up its plans. so maybe it manages to do something to make takane take the backseat in her body and let awakening drive like it does in haruka's, that way we also get konoha!! tho ig in this au awakenings name would be ene right?? lol thats so weird. but yeah bro AWARE takane with awakening?? bitch would be unstoppable clearing would not be able to handle this 😭ok lets not get into the nitty gritties lollll sory everytime i get an ask i literally get so sidetracked im sorry OK UM SO lets go by awakening is driving takanes body hc bc thats more fun i also think ene haruka would be more honest to shintaro ?? but like again shit would be over so quick like that. shintaro would be like oh thank god not all 3 are dead haruka is right here. so maybe haruka doesnt say anything at first bc shintaro looks A MESS and hes like erm. ill tell him when he feels better :) *whole year goes by* but also they'd have a similar dynamic to ene and shintaro not bc haruka wants to annoy him on purpose but its by accident LOL hes also trying to get him out of the room and hes like HEY SHINTARO LETS BUY SOME SUNSCREEN COME ONNN COME ONNN and shintaros like GET OUT OF THE SCREENNNNNNNNN also haruka abt not finding any record of him and takane disappearing/existing he'd be like o shit. okay maybe i dont tell shintaro bc am i even real u told me to focus on harutaka and i didnt even talk abt it erm erm erm haruka would probably be obsessed with hanging out with takane and wouldnt do the WOW MR FAKE thing like ene did bc hes convinced takane must be there somewhere but he grows increasingly frustrated at awakening LOL

#ask tag #headcanons

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traumasurvivorshelpingsurvivors · 9 months

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tw neglect , social anxiety / anxiety

hi i would like some advice

so i plan on moving out as soon as i can once i turn 18, it’s impossible for me to live at my “home” any longer than necessary.

im not cared for correctly my parents wont get me in any doctors appointments of any kind (eye, yearly doctor appointments, therapy, etc), theyve emotionally neglected me my whole life, they wont let me leave my house on my own i dont live in a dangerous place and its not far walks to go places here i get the hesitation since im a girl but again this is not a dangerous place and im not trying to go super far people walk here all the time. i dont know how to live on my own in any way. i can survive being alone in my room 24 hours a day but i have severe social anxiety and along with the neglect i havent been in school. i’ve always struggled with school and that was always ignored but i think it’s something more but i cant know for sure since my parents wont get me in with any doctor. as soon as i got into homeschool since i was experiencing really bad anxiety (instead of actually trying to help and get to the root of the problem they just put me in homeschool and turned a blind eye and acted like everything was fine) everything has only been festering and growing since and its debilitating now.

i dont have a driver’s license or id and not much school record since i got homeschooled 5 years ago (i would have been a senior next school year/in a couple months) i cant get a job I for one: dont have any of that i mentioned and also no idea how to socialize i dont have any friends and it just seems very hopeless. im not sure what to do. i need a job to start saving up to move but i have no way of getting one for the reasons i listed and also every time i try to do exposures for my social anxiety my parents wont let me (the walks for example). i cant live here any longer than i need to i really cant and thats not all the reasons why. i feel trapped here theres no room for me to do anything or grow at all. i just cant take it anymore i want to spend these next couple years trying to get better to leave but i have no idea how.

im not expecting anything from this i guess i just need any sort of advice or anything on how to navigate and get through my situation. how would someone handle this? not even just about the job aspect just how do i get out of this. i have no idea what to do and i dont have anyone i can talk to or go to. thank you for your time!

Hi anon, I'm very sorry to hear about the emotional and physical neglect you have, and currently are experiencing, as well as the lack of resources provided for you to become an independent adult (which seems to include both financial, as well as educational, abuse). I can deeply empathize that it likely feels like you are very much alone in all this, but sadly you are not the first, or only one, and I found several resources that might be of assistance (both for getting independence, as well as further validation).

Here’s a page that discusses the abuse that is sometimes found in homeschooling environments (which isn’t to suggest all are, but in your case, very much sounds so). If anything this page might validate some of your experiences, as well as potentially sharing them with the reddit, and/or facebook groups.

Here’s an article that discusses what financial abuse is, suggestions of how to develop a safety plan to leave, as well as resources linked at the end to find shelters/services near you that might be of assistance.

In my opinion, first focus should be about getting you into a safe environment, with trained professionals, who can help you navigate personal independence as you connect with community resources, and begin your healing journey. Though my hope is that as you practice and experience safe environments, with safe people, it might help alleviate the social anxiety (if it’s a trauma based response), or, at the very least, they might be able to assist in developing new coping skills to navigate the world with the anxiety. Either way, I promise there are people out there who care, want to help, and will - and I hope with at least some resources shared, it might be a starting point to help you connect with them.

#trauma talks #social anxiety #anxiety #neglect #abuse #resources #mod kat

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manias-wordcount · 2 years

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Have a request? Read me!

Okay so ive been running this shit for about a year and a halfish i think its time to talk about how i work. though before we start i just wanted to say im thankful for everyone who supports me or just reads a work of mine. it means the world to me and i enjoy being able to share my writings with a bunch silly and lovely people like y’all !!!

General Rules for my blog!

Please don’t ask me for any personals information lol

like actually

this includes stuff like my age, where im from, etc.

i share what i want on my own private time sooo like

dont ask teehee

Please dont make SA jokes in the comments of my stuff xD

i wish i was joking.

i understand some people use humor to cope

but thats no excuse to be joking about bringing out the rape whistle when a unpopular background character is staring at you

like i really wish i was joking but yeah

Don’t be rude in general in the comments of my stuff lmaoo

like its genuinely annoying.

it’s 10000% okay to not agree with my vision for how a story goes or how a character should react

but if that’s something you want to tell me, do not be rude about it lmaoo like where are your manners

like if you dont agree, you dont agree but neither of our word is law soo...

also dont fucking shame requesters or commenters if they’re actually doing nothing wrong

i’ve had way too many people complain or shade other’s completely reasonable requests like wtf???

but yeah practice some self-awareness before you speak your mind sometimes?

you are not the only person in the room

okay rant over teehee

Some of the stuff on my blog contains sexual material

I really try to give warnings ahead of time

but don’t be afraid to point out if there's something else that probably needs a forewarning

also my words are not gospel

shit can be dramatized (im whore) or romanticized for convenience of storytelling (im lazy) so if youre using this stuff to learn about sex uhhh

maybe dont?

Some of the stuff on my blog contains some dark themes

i also try to be transparent about those things as well

but for the record im in no way glorifying these dark themes

though as someone who is both creative and has seen/gone through so shit i do explore and work through some of these topics to myself as a person and as a writer!

Request Rules and Guidelines

i’ll write anything!! (within reason)

i think you guys can guess a bit about what “within reason” means

and i know the fact that i dont have a “NO LIST” can be inconvenient

but if you’re unsure if ill write something you want? just ask!

you can always ask in dms or in my inbox! either is fine

that means i have the right to deny anything too, of course

long story short, y’all dont pay me LMAOO

i usually wont deny something but i will if it’s...

one: requested while my requests are closed (im sorry but no more means nomore!!!)

two: goes against what i believe in some way (i doubt anyone is going to request something political or bigoted so im talking shit like the fact that i will never write anything that takes place in the state of New Jersey USA because i hate that place so much WHHAHAHAHA

three: you were mean to me AHAHAHAHAHAH

yeah this list isn’t long and very hard to get but i did want to make this transparent

before anyone starts requesting some new jersey aus..........

be respectful !!

not only am i human, im truly am doing this for free (for now, at least) and on my own time

though you should treat people who charge for their work with respect too.

its hard out there for us lil creators lmao

sometimes, less is better.

Super detailed requests can be tricky to navigate.

Again, im doing this on my free time and i average around 1K-2k words depending on what my life is looking like at the moment.

sometimes a super detailed requests require multiple parts that might not be released for a long time.

Or i struggle with getting a story im proud of putting my name while trying to respect the request.

If you want specific details to make the experience more personal to you, go for it

but do you really need to tell me what your request is in 11 full-length sentences? do you really HAHAHAH

also if i aske you to explain something, please be able to explain it bc im not a mind reader and this guess and check thing is kinda stressful

try not to rush me lol

Im checking my blog everyday.

I see your requests and i promise im (most likely) not ignoring you.

i have other hobbies, and a life too, and possibly 20 requests ahead of you.

i try to get everything out asap but sometimes that’s like 2 or more months

BUT if you’re scared that your request may not have made it through the hellsite, send another one asking if i got the request!

i’ll respond to that one if i have!

PLEASE TELL ME WHO AND WHERE THEYRE FROM IN YOUR REQUEST

like actually teehee

It stresses me when i just get a request and all that's included is the situation the requester wants and the character’s first name. Give me the full name or tell me where they’re from before i scour every single series i write for to check for repeat names

its not that big of a deal but im scared of fucking up for you guys aaaaaa

If you send me a weird or rude request as anon, im just going to delete it from my inbox for both of our sake

cough cough THINK LIKE NO PEDOPHILIA LIKE ACTUALLY

and im not gonna specify what i mean by “weird” beyond that just because it’s very much a random situation

im not naming anons but just kinda think ahead of time what you’re asking me (a stranger) to do and publish for you

maybe uhhh...check my masterlist before requesting?

i know its daunting

i know i have a lot on there

but there might literally be exactly what you’re looking for on there HAHA

if not though, absolutely go forward with requesting !!!!!!!

even if what you want is something similar to what i’ve already written, a few changes make a huge difference!

but when in doubt about characters or stories i’ve written before?

check!

if have the right to change the way i write a request (unless specifically stated otherwise)

all this means is that every request (unless a HC is specifically asked for) will start off as being written as a full length average Mania™ fic

if for any reason i decide it would be better in a different format, then i will change it (ex: fic => hc)

UNLESS YOU SPECIFICALLY ASK FOR A CERTAIN FORMAT

then ill keep true to that format no matter what happens

but yeah ! that’s it for now at least. ill update this post if theres more hehe. also if you have questions, just dm me or put it in my inbox :)

#request rules #request are open #!!!#for now #guidelines #request guidelines

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sorikkung · 2 years

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for the wip game, 'im god i do what i want' sounds so intriguing i need to know more 🤣

oh my god LOL you picked the what goes on in neverland masterdoc which i included as a wip even tho the first few chaps r posted and i haven't started chapter 4 yet cause it's still technically a wip. it's just the most chaotic bulletpoints you've ever seen bc i just write ideas how they come to me, which includes meme format. here are some highlights

i opened an empty doc at 2am one day deciding i wanted to try writing again so i could write something so incredibly self indulgent and be the change i wanted to see in the world. this is what i first wrote

he/they fuckboy!reader whos not in a frat he’s in an alt punk band and yes he has trauma but thats not the reason hes a fuckboy he just likes to fuck and being sexy

pierced, tatted, (he fucked around and bought a tattoo gun, he and kevin like tatting ppl) six pack abs, this mf gonna be more of a wet dream than the actual idols in question

sorry chanlix

his friends consist of like his 5 or so bandmates and thats it. they the type of homies who make out w each other just cause

and then here you have me realising in real time that i can write literally whatever the fuck i want with no justification needed

i wont make it an enemies to lovers au just quite, but they just like being Competitive

wait. why Cant i make it an enemies to lovers au

i know i have too many but im god i do what i want

ok so theyre competing in some battle of the bands type shit

chris and his boys r usually a good sport but they just have a problem w the mc’s punk band bc they dont even want the prize of being signed to a record label? they wanna stay underground but theyre hellbent on winning anyway just for the glory? like ayo fuck off we need this?

but they see mc perform and OOOO THEY WANNA FUCK HIM SO BADDDD

because what is enemies to lovers for if not the SEXUAL TENSIONNNN

plus mc despite not particularly liking skz is like okkkk but they’re hot so? i wanna fuck em anyway? he just lives for the face they make when theyre mad like the hot tongue in cheek thing? mc just sees that and goes ok imma be a shit for the rest of my goddamn life just so i can keep seeing that sexy ass face of urs amen

meanwhile skz r like god what a cocky asshole but also that was hot. we all unanimously agree that was hot? cool not just me. what the fuck do we do about that.

mc and chris have an unspoken competition on who can wear less and less clothes onstage without being disqualified from the rounds

then i have these very brief character blurbs and here's a highlight from felix's

still has lingering feelings for eric which is probably why he doesnt acknowledge his PHAT crush on chris. open your fucking eyes gay boy

and honestly minbin's entire blurbs are highlights within themselves

changbin: dating minho bc minbin is such an underrated pair. works at his local gym bc he was there so often they just offered him the job. actually liked trr’s music before the competition but doesnt admit it until the collab round bc oh no we’re meant to be Enemies yeah i hate those copiers boo >:(( *whispers* (minho theyre so sexy i dont know what to do w myself)

minho: u cant fuck them

changbin: oh ofc i wasnt gon-

minho: without me

changbin: 😳😳😳

minho: does not give a Singular Fuck about the competition, hes just here for a good time and enjoys fighting w trr almost as much as mc does. hes a scorpio ok he just likes being petty and having an excuse to ruin someones life for funsies bc come on. its So fun. like he does want to get signed under a record label but its not life or death bc hes happy w where they are since theyre already popular enough n he gets enough money from his cat video youtube. im transing ur gender gayboy

and ill wrap out with some assorted lines completely out of context:

[hyunjin] has an onlyfans bc he knows hes the prettyboy twink of everyones mfuckin DREAMS and decided he deserves to be paid for it.

mc, instantly: hey wooyoung, eric, can we plagiarize this

(later in the chapter outline it was repeated as "mc: i vote plagiarism")

basically mc goes “arent you tired of being nice? dont you just want to go a p e s h i t” n skz took that PERSONALLY

“sup bitches bros and nonbinary hoes,"

(we cant dance? that’s not what your ROCK HARD COCK said at the prism during your lap dance!)

and lastly these two that copy paste weirdly so have screenshots instead (first screenshot has spoilers for chapter 3 in case you plan on reading it and haven't yet)

anyway i got way too carried away here but i think im hilarious and you enabled me so now you suffer the consequences enjoy <3

#tag games #what goes on in neverland

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silentxxsoul · 2 years

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The ‘holy shit how is it the finale already???’ reaction dump:

ayyyyyye here we gooooooo!!!

I'm simultaneously excited for tonight but hella nervous of the potential cliffhanger they'll leave us with (get it, cause the rig goes down a cliff???)

(sorry)

(no im not)

can we stop talking about placentas in smoothies

oh so the real cliff hanger is gonna be early, huh? on the bright side that means we know nothing terrible happens to bobby since we know he's all healthy like at the vow renewal

I'm no firefighter but even I know yall didn't properly anchor that rig. Clipboard Buck would NEVER

Man the 118 has a shitty record with fire trucks lmao

Bobby bby don't internalize it

Buddie BFFs back on my screen doing adorable husband things

Eddie laughing at his own fix-it joke, being all sassy and shit

S6 better be the rise of Sassy Diaz, I'm just saying

MADNEY ♥♥♥♥♥♥

Hell of a miscommunication there Chim holy god

Well, that was dramatic

HENRIETTA NOT OUT LOUD LMAO

I'm gonna be sick too, don't worry

Chim in the background wincing away omg I love him

But also, this gif is worth repeating since they once again are gonna make me barf

Denny!!! He's so big!!!!

Uhm, so wait - not a henren renewal????

No complaints tho, cause Toni and Clive are fucking adorable and I love them

Someone give Karen a hug for me :(

sobbing

Maddie taking big steps for her future (starting over), we love to see it!

Buck, what was that face lmao

Ravi running interference, love it ♥

"Knowing they have your back" - Ravi ships Buddie is canon yall

JFC what was that????

Sorry, I'm still thinking about Ravi's words of wisdom and how they literally called back to Buck and Eddie's "You can have my back any day" and "Or you could have mine".

GOING FERAL OVER IT ACTUALLY

(thats literally fox trying to gaslight me into thinking I'm not seeing the buddie moments)

This rescue is giving me too much anxiety yall

I need them to be ok

Buckley sibling moments, inject them into my veinssss ♥

Buck you are literally talking about you and Eddie, you realize that right? Like you both have been at rock bottom with each other and came out on the other side tOGeTheR

But also, Maddie listen to your brother because that accurately describes you and Chim

This couple is killing me (in a good way tho)

THEY'RE SO ADORABLE STOP I LOVE THEM

THAT MEET CUTE OMG

I don't know that I've ever been this invested in a rescue couple but I do know that I love them and they must be protected at all costs

There's 15 minutes left for BT breakup and a wedding, how the fuck do they fit it in with the commercials ? ? I really think we needed another ep or two - the last couple have felt so packed and fast paced and they could have benefited from more time to wrap things up.

In my heart I want a Buddie "oh" moment during the vows but I know we wont get it, so fellow fic writers pls pls pls deliver k thanks bye

"I'm sorry you're still upset" is such a shitty non apology

THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU THIS SHOUDL HAVE ENDED A WHOLE ASS SEASON AGO

"Two days of traffic collisions and trash fires will take care of that" idk why that was so funny to me

Eddie looked so cute when Bobby opened that door ♥

I fucking love this scene so much, Eddie and Bobby needed this

"You saved my life, and my sons" brb sobbing and throwing up

BOBBY PUT IT DOWN PLS

OR POUR IT OUT

PLS

THANK YOU

EDDIE THANK YOU TOO

The 118 is such a tight knit family, they keep saving each other and half the time they don't even know they're saving each other

Toni aayyyyyye surprise vow renewal!!!!!!!!

Karen, don't worry I'll take the deviled eggs

NIA FLOWER GIRL AND DENNY WALKING HIS MOMS DOWN THE AISLE IM FUCKING SOBBING THIS IS THE BEST ENDING

Amicable ? Did not expect

Now to wait until September ahhhh

#911 fox #911 fox spoilers

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oneofus1048104 · 6 months

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@burningboxes

hey there bud. unknown here. i just wanted to say smthn. im sorry for not respecting what you wanted, and im sorry that i couldnt cut off contact with you for good and keep to what i wanted to say. i admit i do not respect what you want, but thats because due to the amount of memories we made (enabling or not) were very personal to me, and i didnt wanna let go so soon. it was way too hard to just let go and not try to get you back. ive attempted to reflect on my mistakes and it really hasnt worked. this isnt a message to get you back, this is TRULY what im gonna say to you. i wish i could make u happy by respecting what you want, but its too hard and too much for me. not cus im a 14 year old, but cus i had fun with you, and i didnt (and sometimes still dont) wanna let go of being friends. i wanted to make things right even if they never were, i wanted to try. so now you know the truth on why i stalked you so much. i hope one day when im older and when has been moved from, maybe we can be friends again (maybe not do the shit we did, but just in general). hell if we became friends again now (which ik for a damn fact most likely wont happen and ive accepted that as a fact) i wouldnt do the rp shit if u didnt want to. im really sorry that i made you so uncomfortable and i wish we could put this behind us. but its not really that easy, and letting go of a friend like you isnt easy either. no offense dude, but i dont think you get how hard it is. if you ever want to reconcile with me, on the bright side i have some potential season 4 ideas if that day ever comes. if i could restart all of this, i gladly would and id try my best to be a better person. btw for the record, my parents dont actually know what happened with you and me, and i do not want to tell them cause it wouldnt make anything better. i just wanna get help and make you proud of me. not like ur my father, but just making you smile knowing that i changed. but i havent and im deeply ashamed for not using that opportunity. i just wanna say thank you for being there for me and for everything, making me happy and making me laugh one last time before you blocked me (most likely for good). even if you didnt want to you did it for me. your law friend that talked to me before, id like to speak with him. not cus i wanna enable anything/guilt trip HIM into submission, but just to talk to him, considering i asked him to vc a pretty big amount and it made him uncomfortable. like he said hed be there for me, but he left cus of me and now i dont really have anyone that can help me. then i was dragged into some drama about your friend who works in law and his s/o, and before you say anything i couldnt really get out, i dug myself in that hole and plus, their s/o had been going through some rough shit. i just wanted a way out and i wanna go back to the point in time that you were happy with yourself + i was happy with you and vice versa. that was easier for the both of us. i wish it didnt have to be this way and i wish you could give me another chance. thank you for everything and i hope that whatever life you live you wont be scared of me anymore, you have a boyfriend/girlfriend or whatever you want that loves you, and you have a paying job that gives you a good amount of wealth for your life. goodbye my old friend, if anything ever changes id be happy to see it. i wanna be friends again alot but ik thats not possible. and im truly sorry for what i did. btw heres a bit of advice from me. if you dont want minors on the internet interacting with you, go on rule 34 or an adults only site. just my thoughts but im not ur fucking dad so.

thank you for everything. unknown out.

November 2nd, 2023 @ 11:07 PM CDT

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princevontwix · 8 months

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ngl i feel like i had wasted my summer once more and im sorry once again for letting down the few interested in NES Godzilla Rejuvenation. ill try and get myself to do shit during college, but it wont be w/as much time. dev streams prob wont happen until i get to more interesting sprite work like enemies and bosses. backgrounds maybe but dont count on it.

i know that rn ive been focusing on speedrunning but ill try and see if i can still somehow balance the two with college and discord activities in mind. i know im a broken record by this point, but i really do want to finish it and finally get out a chapter thats been long overdue for a release. i want it to fully see the light of day, especially once i release narration videos for it.

i dont care if as a fanwork its not "good", i just dont want my passion project to become my biggest failure and another regret. i want to give it every chance it can get to live; many fanstories only get to 2 chapters max and go on indefinite hiatus. i dont want it to suffer the same fate. its a task that will challenge all of me, but i dont plan on backing down. if cosbydaf can do it, then so can i. i have to, i must. its the only other thing that has provided me with a goal (besides college) and to give up/otherwise abandon it would be a self betrayal.

itll be hell, but ill make it worth it. i hope so...

#rant post #rant #ranting #vent post #vent #sorry for this sudden rant/vent #i just wanted to get this off my chest #rejuvenation means a lot to me you have no idea

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writingtomynanny · 2 years

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Good evening Nanny, today has been hard but also today has been the day ive cried the least, which i feel guilty about. I miss you so much i should be crying more today like the other days, maybe you had my back today more than i realised till now. I know you wouldnt want me to cry anyway, i need you to tell me its okay honey. I need to hear your voice again.

I was thinking tonight and its made me want to write this, you had so many more things to teach me, it hurts knowing i only got as many things as i did from you. The main things are all in the kitchen, Like putting lots of salt on broccoli, i just heard your voice say broccoli as i wrote that, thats comforting for me. You taught me how to make BOMB potato salad, the apple cider vinegar is a game changer, and the onion flakes. I wish i got to learn how to make your curried rice, that was so amazing. It wont ever be the same but i guess ill find some on the internet and try to get as close as i can. I miss more than ever helping you in the kitchen. Something that makes me so sad is picturing you just doing your thing in the kitchen, always getting steaming hot contaniers of steamed veggies out the microwave, stirring things on the stove then going back to butter the mash mashing it with the thick fork. i miss you reaching up for your spices, yelling out "Guys, teas ready" then always apologising if its not cooked right. Its always cooked right nanny, even if my schnitzel was burnt on one side once, i still told you its amazing and thanked you, because it was. Everything you made was amazing, made with so much love and efforts. I loved helping you in the kitchen. It was painful to watch you take so long on peeling the veggies, i always stepped in to help you even if you said you were fine hehe. Sorry nanny, i was obsessed with spending time with you. I wish i got to have that pumpkin soup you made, it was so so beautiful. I remember you said it was out of a woolies book, ill have to go looking and try make it myself, again wont be the same without your love and efforts making it.

I bought shoes today for the funeral, this is going to hurt so much. I dont see myself being able to hold back anything, you deserved so much more nan. I would truely give you 10 years off my life if i could darling. You deserved more time and we need you. Im going to be miserable for a long time, my heart hurts knowing you felt more hurt losing kim, i cant comprehend you feeling worse than this and its selfish for me to think this is on the same level, because it just cant be. You are so so strong nanny, i swear ive never met anyone as strong as you and my heart constantly hurts knowing the reason you were strong, you had to be for the boys even though you lost your entire world. I would give you the world if i could nan, no one deserves the world more than you.

I seen cody for the first time since today nanny, hes being strong for you. I know it will be hard if history repeats itself and im going to try my hardest to be more understanding, but i dont think i can do this on my own. You always had my back, just quickly the 891 sound just went as its just gone 12am. Reminds me of you every time. You were the one who would help me through this. Everyone else thought i was the devil but you were the only one who knew how hard it is to see and be in the presence of that, i hope hes strong this time around nanny. I cant be helping him alone.

I seen your handbag with your purse in it, i always imagine you reaching for your purse to get me your bank card for cigarettes or food shopping. Im picturing it right now, fuck nan you just dont deserve this im so sorry. You should be here, sitting on the couch with a coffee in hand, crimson next to you, fast forwarding a bit too far on the recorded tv shows your catching up on. You should be at home with us. It cant be nearly a week since you left, it just cant be. Im in denial sometimes, i just dont see it as the end. I see you here with us again and i dont know how or why i have these feelings i just do. There has to be a way your here with us. Before i fall asleep i ask you to come see me in my dreams. Its only happened once so far and it sadly wasnt seeing you, you were just in the room and Firmino was visiting you in hospital. It was a mini dream when i was asleep in the RAH carpark the day after while taking dad up there. Anyway nanny, ive been yapping for a while now so i should let you go and get some rest myself. Im getting Amanda to do my hair tomorrow so i dont have any grey hairs at the funeral. Im going to look so beautiful for you nanny, but i always look beautiful dont i, i told you i will forever believe it even if i dont feel it, because of you.

I love you so much Nan, you are gorgeous and i miss your light up the room smile.

YWNA <3

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ribbononline · 3 years

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