#not just freezing/ stress

[flock-talk]

Rebuilt the foundations for shutting the door today, added more speed to the door closure, and began introing shutting the door with me standing in different locations - this was tricky for him and needs more time

safe to say he's pretty excited about the whole process 😂

#keep moving him out of the carrier to reset the process #and ensure he's opting in #and actually comfortable with what happening #not just freezing/ stress #and he just bolts straight back like #HEY lady I want treats ASAP stop moving me out of here!!!!!! #newt #newt video #training #training video #carrier #carrier training

[canisalbus]

I hope you have a lovely day today. ❤️

Thank you! You too! 🧡

#I've been doing some gradual spring cleaning over past couple of weeks #feels nice I've got a lot of my closets and cabinets organized already #but today I've been just hella tired and shiftless and achey and it's already half past seven #so I guess I'll leave cleaning the freezer for tomorrow #a cool thing happened earlier this week I managed to buy a carved water buffalo skull for 20€ #they're usually pretty pricey several hundred euros at minimum #been stressing about summer getting closer #and whether I should partake in art fight this year or not #it's fun but I always end up overwhelmed #really thrilled that it's no longer freezing outside and there's so much light it's really boosting my energy levels #eagerly waiting for the bike lanes to thaw #answered #anonymous

[septemberkisses]

oh lord please give me the strength to bear these cold winter months and study for my end sems at the same time. amen.

#literally just 20 days till my exams aaargh- #and i need to get on my assignments as wellll #plus the cold aint helping #like im literally always freezing #student life #college is stressful #college #university #student #academia #chaotic academia #dark academia #nostalgia #classic academia aesthetic #chaotic thoughts #musings #midnight rambles #mine #miya's envelopes

[actual-changeling]

listen i love snake crowley so much and it's perfect in so many ways but i cannot stop thinking about crowley as a black cat.

he still sprawls and inconveniences everyone trying to walk past him even when sitting on a chair. obviously he has the same eyes—his eyes—that glint like a sky full of stars in the dark. a tiny, pink, distantly heart-shaped spot on his otherwise dark nose. short, sleek fur that is soft and shimmers in the sun, and his claws are sharp as anything and a pearling white.

crowley keeps his tattoo, more or less, but instead of a snake it's the tail of a little cat that likes to lounge on top of his ear.

he loves sunbathing in the bookshop or finding small spaces on the shelves to squish himself into, and if you think he cannot scare away customers as a cat—he absolutely can. someone tries to buy a book and next thing they know a cat that really should not be that big is threatening to sink their claws into their hand and growling loud enough to feel it in your chest. (it's also easier to follow aziraphale around outside as a cat, it draws significantly less attention than a big snake slithering on the sidewalk)

sometimes he hangs around aziraphale's neck like a shawl and his angel has to make sure he balances him out at all times or he will get four paws clinging to him and digging their claws into his clothes so he doesn't fall. but he also gets crowley curling up in his lap while he reads, one hand holding the book, the other lazily stroking and petting him.

when he loses control a little while in human form he purrs (usually around aziraphale and boy is that embarrassing) or hisses, gets incredibly sharp nails, fangs, etc. he always walks super quietly and aziraphale threatens to put a bell on him when one time he unintentionally sneaks up on him and makes him spill his cocoa.

just. ngk. crowley as a cat relaxing on aziraphale's lap and pressing his head into his hand just to spontaneously switch back and suddenly there's a demon demanding attention and gently nuzzling into his neck.

#alex talks good omens #good omens #ineffable husbands #crowley #aziraphale #good omens season 2 #go2 #aziracrow #crowley x aziraphale #things get awkward one time when crowley is sunbathing in his armchair and cleaning himself #and aziraphale walks in on him on his back #all twisted and fluffy black fur #with his teeth trying to scratch an itch on the back of his hindleg #y'know the little gnawing thing cats do when they clean themselves #and they just freeze and stare at each other #and crowley gets so nervous and stressed out he ends up throwing up a hairball onto the carpet and then disappears for two weeks

[andoutofharm]

frank gets asked about mcr and visibly contemplates if it would be socially acceptable for him to just leave the call

#everything about it is so so so so funny ok he starts CHUGGING his drink then he FREEZES then stumbles through an answer #then immediately knocks over his phone #poor guy people should just not ask like. he’s not gonna answer!!! dont stress him out!!!

[avpdpossum]

this tiktok is so funny to me as someone whose primary mental health struggles are avpd and dissociation.

“mental illness is what happens when you’re the person who breaks the generational avoidance of pain and emotions” bestie my mental illnesses are must avoid everything disorder and nothing feels real disorder. if this was supposed to make me better at confronting and dealing with pain, it failed miserably.

like yeah, true, mental illness is often a result of generations of pain being passed down, but it’s less in a “we are the spiritual leaders chosen to break this generational curse” way and more in a “my parents treated me like shit because it was all they knew and it fundamentally changed the way my brains works” way (sometimes with a side of “my family’s brains all work differently in a way that i inherited because there’s some genetic component to it”).

dealing with generational pain and breaking my family’s cycle of avoidance isn’t something that i was ~born to do~; my mental illnesses don’t make me somehow uniquely suited to that task. it’s actually something that’s infinitely harder for me to do because of the ways my mind has been affected by those things, but which i have to do anyway because i’m too aware of it now to just let it continue unchallenged.

but sure, his version works too…as long as you pretend that mood and anxiety disorders are the only mental illnesses.

#maybe it’s inspiring to some people but i just had to laugh #im not a shaman or a healer im a possum. if shit gets stressful i freeze and do not unfreeze until the bad thing is gone #poss.speaks #avpd #actually avpd #actually avoidant #avoidant pd #avoidant personality disorder #cluster c #dissociation #depersonalization #derealization #dpdr #actually dpdr

[starrywill]

hey . why dont rabbits like horror movies

if something spooks them enough, theres a good chance they will just drop dead on the spot.

#this sounds like a joke #but it isnt. #rabbits are just incredibly fragile #because if theyre scared or being held #in nature‚ theyre already dead by that point #so their bodies simply arent meant to withstand stress #thats why you have to carry bunnies in‚ like‚ a football tuck #otherwise youll probably fucking break their spine #and you also should wait for them to be very comfortable around you #because otherwise theyll freeze. which looks cute and like theyre being obedient‚ but theyre having‚ like‚ the bunny equivalent of- #-a panic attack #which can cause a heart attack and kill your bun

[ruzhuzhu]

i'm back

#my house burnt down but partially #my flat was intact #just freezing cold cuz it's-25 degrees c outside #it's okay now #but the stress was horrible #i will think about it for a few months #anyway... #my favorite calamity boss #yharon #the dragon of rebirth #terraria #terraria calamity #calamity mod #ruth's art

[squidkid15]

Assorted core Mac & his 'true form' doodles.

We're putting him through it.

#lmk #lego monkie kid #lmk macaque #lmk sun wukong #lmk mk #lmk core au #doodles #he'll be fiiiiine #just sucks when your stress manifests as freezing cold trauma from being half encased in ice #i think he needs therapy

[queenbananya]

I FINISHED IT.

Cactus Bloom (51427 words) by Queenbananya Chapters: 11/11 Fandom: Buddy Daddies (Anime) Rating: Mature Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Kurusu Kazuki/Suwa Rei, Kurusu Kazuki & Suwa Rei & Unasaka Miri Characters: Kurusu Kazuki, Suwa Rei, Kugi Kyuutarou, Unasaka Miri Additional Tags: Pre-Canon, catching up to end of canon, Getting Together, Bathing/Washing, Healing, in the form of caring for Rei, Haircuts, ace spec Rei, POV Kurusu Kazuki, Fluff, Dancing, Slow Dancing, Non-Sexual Intimacy, Light Angst, Non-Consensual Drug Use, on a random person/small scene, Literal Sleeping Together, Canon-Typical Violence, Slow Burn, Mild Sexual Content, Canon Compliant Summary:

Kazuki fell first. He also fell harder.

Or, KazuRei throughout the years.

#buddy daddies #kazurei #qb's fic tag #ahh today has been so stressful #I'd been looking forward to sitting down to update this fic but no #had to deal with work bs #then gas leaks at home #and now I have no hot water and it's freezing outside #and I'm paranoid feeling like I still smell gas #when it's just cat litter #please let it be cat litter #I'm going to treat myself to a 1000 calorie ice cream when all this is resolved #anyway I'm really happy with this chapter #I had some plans for a post-canon sequel back when I'd just started writing this but unlikely to happen at this point

[husband]

URGENT!!

We're expecting another freeze in texas so very low temps and no power like last year.

We need money for firewood, gas, candles, batteries, pet food, and water before Thursday when it's supposed to start up.

Most of the money will be going Into food and terracotta heater set ups for my animals who I have already set up all in one room.

Paypal.me/howlp

Anything helps and best wishes to my fellow texas residents during this time.

#prattle #i lost a couple reptiles and entire fish tanks to last years freeze so you can imagine the stress im under rn #i also have to buy at least one or two avian safe candles for my birds terra cotta heater #and those are like $30 each #im low on dog and cat food i just need enough for some small bags #i hate living in texas so much #i know this is short notice but im pretty sure im finding out about this around the same time as every other resident lol #i wasnt expecting a freeze till march

[possiblytracker]

coughs loudly. scheduling this post for slightly later today so i have time to get lunch and not chicken out before it goes up

firstly i gotta apologise for dropping off the face of the earth. in hindsight it was creeping up on me for a long time I just didn't think anything of it/had enough stuff going on to ignore it for a while, but ive been wrestling with pretty abysmal mental health that just kinda hit me like a truck back in august. i wont get too much into it but things just ground to a halt and in the span of a week or so it legitimately felt like i stopped being a Person- i just stagnated, felt like i lost the ability and will to do anything or enjoy things or create like i used to, all my energy went into keeping it together in front of my family, and it made me way too anxious and ashamed and guilty to want to show my face. like who would want to put up with my stupid bullshit, right (wrong! that idea just made me unbelievably worse and i regret it extremely, but my anxiety was going extremely unchecked at this time). i don't think i've ever been that depressed before and i didn't at all know how to handle it or begin to claw my way out

fortunately, a combination of getting exercise + touching grass regularly and new enrichment/hyperfixations to latch onto like an orphaned duckling are very recently kicking some life back into me so to speak. who wouldve thought. and now where i used to still feel stomach-turning dread and paranoia thinking about getting back on tumblr and discord a week or two ago, it finally feels like i can handle dipping my toes back in. i'm making this post first bc i know most of my friends will see it, and that feels less taxing than explaining myself a bunch of different times over and over and dragging it out, but ofc i will try and get back into conversation when and as i can (askbox and discord is still best to reach me if you wanted). i'm just really sorry, and I hope you can forgive me, for making you worry or otherwise

i'm not sure what to do from here (i'm considering maybe moving main blogs to a clean slate eventually? this one will still be here i couldnt bear to get rid of it, i've just had it since i was 16 there's Baggage attached) but i'll be trying to ease my way back into relative normalcy before doing anything big ofc. in the meantime i will be vaguely floating around here again. see you around and thank you for your time..

#cryingcat.png #god i hope tumblr doesnt send out a stupid notifcation to all followers that i posted i dont know what the time limit for that is but augha #here i am tho either way #vent/ #i have missed people the entire time it is very hard to describe how stupid and cowardly it feels knowing i Could come back at any time #but also being utterly paralysed and afraid to do so. like surely i could just suck it up and i Tried but i am so so mentally unwell #i need to work on how fucked up my freeze/flight response to stress is really bad it ruins my life but i am still too unemployd for therapy #so my broke ass just has to deal with unpacking my own shit for 2 months/j #anyway the point is even tho i am getting better somewhat irl ive still been struggling to pluck up the courage to come back online #but i can't keep it up forever and completely shut down just bc it makes my anxiety superficially feel 'safer' #so here i am. feeling slightly less full of dread. bc i at very least owe it to everyone to let you all know im not dead or something idk #and i also owe it to myself to not be miserable on purpose forever!! #now i just have to get everything unmuted and wait for this to post see you on the other side

[shvdowsdrowned]

Idc if this doesn't make sense I'm so fucking pissed rn: I was walking my dog and this lady in her car stopped next to us and she was like "aw he's so cute I gotta get a picture of this" and I'm like okay whatever so I tried to hide my face with my sweater and move away from my dog so I wouldn't get in the pic n she was like "it's your dog cmon stand by her" and I said "no I don't want my picture taken???". At this point my dog has been barking the whole time so the lady was like "can you tell him to stop?" and I said "no she just does that" and the lady goes "hey you work at McDonald's don't you?", I said "no i dont" n she's like "yes you do" as if I was lying (which I wasn't. I'm fucking unemployed) and idk if she got the picture or not but she was like "thank you god bless you" and drove off. Yeah if god fucking blessed me I wouldn't have ran into you thanks for ruining my day you fuck

#I HATE OLD PEOPLE THEY HAVE NO RESPECT WHATSOEVER #im so pissed im so fucking pissed #i dont think she got a good picture bc my dog kept barking and i kept moving trying to hide my face so i hope it didnt turn out #thank you jesse my love for being difficult when people try to talk to me i love you so much 💜💜💜💜 #when i tried to put distance between me n jesse she immediately looked at me and started moving with I LOVE HER SO MUCH #i wish i had just fucking left idk why I didnt. i was too stunned to do anything i guess #im starting to realize that my default is to freeze in any stressful situation i hate that so much 😭😭😭

[justisco]

going on holiday tomorrow and despite going abroad basically every year since the age of 2, i have insane travel anxiety and have nearly cried several times today

#this is also due to the fact i'm hormonal #i'm not scared of flying or anything like that #just the whole concept of travelling/airports/forgetting stuff stresses me out so much #my house is also fuckin freezing which is making me emosh too

[katyobsesses]

I think my glee obsession is returning in full force

#this is a nice feeling #i didnt have gleecast anywhere on my Spotify wrapped last year for the first time in... years!!! #but here i am listening to all the songs on repeat most of today #and reading glee fic #and looking at my currently abandoned fics #and having Thoughts™️ and headcanons and just... #special interest obsession shit #its calming and happy and sksgxkdk #also my reading brain is back which is SUCH a relief! #its been like 3 months of only being able to read a book in audiobook form #like my sister write this whol prophecy for our dnd campaign and i could not for the life of me understand it not matter how hard i tried #but last session i finally clicked #and im READING A PHYSICAL BOOK TOOOOOOOO #i just feel more settled because of it its nice #i think i really didnt like the weird weather the uk was having- it being HOT AS BALLS and then freezing like the next week #and then christmas and stress over bemefits happened #but now yhats mostly set... i think.. ish... its still confusing and scary #but ay least i have words i can read to escape it #katy liveblogs life #i am using tumblr like a diary rn ignore me 😂

[theres-whump-in-that-nebula]

Can anyone recommend a good brand of grippy sock/tight slipper? No; not for that reason. I’m kinda eh mentally but not necessarily in crisis (yet)…

The fake hardwood floors in this apartment are literal sensory hell to walk on. I can’t take my socks off and walk barefoot on them for two seconds without getting the worst fucking joint cramps in my hands and feet I’ve ever felt in my life. It’s like insta-gout, just add naked toes; but I don’t actually have gout (thank god)… it’s SOLELY from the texture of the floor. I’ve been wearing the same vampire bat socks for four days because I can’t bear to remove them unless my feet have been soaked in hot water before.

Also, the vampire bat socks for your amusement because the little guy is cute:

#sensory processing disorder #I’ve never used that label before but I’m just gonna call it for what it is. I rub wire sanding discs and steel scourers like worry stones #and run the back of my nails on the walls when I walk down hallways despite it being a very bad example for the children #I chew on my hands and scratch my face and neck constantly. I grind my nails into my fingertips. #I constantly touched little old ladies’ fancy clothes and jewelry and played with babies’ fingernails as a kid #I have to touch everything within arm’s reach at the store to test it for quality even if I don’t want it #I don’t like turning on air vents for the bathroom and kitchen or playing certain instruments because they’re too loud #I flick my nails and wring my hands and sniff random items and purposefully eat bland foods so I can feel the texture better #I’ve taken home fresh dinner rolls from the buffet and used them as slow-rising stress balls for two hours before eating them #and I thought walking up a shag carpet staircase in bare feet was a bad texture #These floors are downright SADISTIC #ugh ugh ugh when I get a real house there will only be ceramic tile on the floors #yes in the bedrooms as well. I don’t care. Freeze your feet off.