#actually avpd

[astrangerthatlovesyou]

“It’s okay to not be okay”

Unless it impacts your work performance…

Or your grades

Or how you act

Or if it causes you to say no

Or if you’re harder to be around

Or if you need time alone

Or if you talk about it

Or show symptoms

“It’s okay to not be okay”

Unless you have trauma

Unless you have one of those “scary” mental illnesses

Unless it inconveniences me

Unless you’re undiagnosed

Unless you cry or scream or make a scene

Unless you don’t keep that shit to yourself

Unless you make me uncomfortable

Unless I can’t infantilize or fetishize you

Unless you have hallucinations

Unless you have psychosis

Unless you get angry

Unless I think you’re cringe

Unless you can’t preform hygiene tasks

Unless you’re disabled, or trans, or gay, or not white, or fat, or AFAB, or intersex, or a man… so I guess anyone

“It’s okay to not be okay”

As long as nobody ever finds out.

Our society has a severe issue with performative activism, and mental health is a huge example of this. Every time someone considers reaching out, they run through this list mentally. This is why true activists and resources need to be loudly supportive of all the things on this list. Take the subtext out of your support.

#repitition #tw repition #second person pov #second person tw #tw cursing #cw cursing #cursing #avpd #avoidant personality disorder #personality disorder #actually avpd #pd #pdid #did #mental illness #mental health advocate #ptsd #cluster c personality disorder #mental illness advocacy

[familiarplacedisc]

#cluster a #cluster b #cluster c #pd meme #bpd #npd #aspd #actually dpd #actually avpd #schizospec #actually mentally ill

[kujokomi]

please stop associating the term neurodivergent with JUST autism and adhd. like please. there are so many ways to be neurodivergent and it’s not fair to assume that it’s just about autism adhd.

#inclusivity would be GREAT #dyscalculia #dyslexia #alexithymia #dyspraxia #auditory processing disorder #sensory processing disorder #tourettes #CAN YALL SEE THESE OTHER ONES TOO!!! #nova rants #actually avpd #synesthesia #neurodivergent #aphantasia #im only tagging some stuff but feel free to add more #hyperlexia

[fairiencarnate]

Living with avoidant behaviours means that for you to see me and be able to judge me, good or bad, inherently it means I am trying. Maybe not by yours, but by my standards I am succeeding too.

I don't think people understand how earth shatteringly terrifying it is to look for new jobs or meet new people with a panic disorder or social phobia. It puts me in a mindset where I have to actively remind myself that ending my life to escape the perceived danger is counterproductive, I am that out of my mind with panic. I know it doesn't make sense but knowing that doesn't stop the visceral fear from being so real. I wish people knew I don't want to be this way and I am actively fighting against it at all times even when it looks to others like I'm hiding away. The fact that I am still here, the fact that I answer messages sometimes and visit my family, the fact that I apply for jobs and leave the house to run errands at all is testament to how hard I'm trying.

If I stopped trying and gave in to my default state I would be shrivelled and pasty, dehydrated and sick from being too numb to feed myself, curled half-conscious and unshowered in grimy bed sheets, covered in nervous-picking sores, popping pills or drinking myself into slumber. I would not speak to a soul, not even immediate family. I wouldn't post at all. You would not know I exist.

For you to see me and be able to judge me, inherently means I am trying. Because I'm here and I'm not just awake. I'm the scariest thing I can be - perceivable.

#personal #avpd #actually avpd #actually avoidant #avoidant personality disorder #chronic anxiety #anxiety disorder #social anxiety disorder #social phobia #agoraphobia

[adoraboy-moved]

"people with (disorder) not bad cause not feel empathy, can still feel compassion/sympathy/etc.!" but what about people who not feel those? i dunno, am just think, maybe not bad because choose not be bad people. even if bad, still deserve understanding, yknow ? to get better.

#she looks just like a dream 🤍 talking #npd #autism #aspd #(really just tagging disorders w/out empathy) #bpd #ppd #avpd #hpd #uhhh think that it. not know... #actually npd #actually autistic #actually avpd #actually bpd #actually #actually hpd

[willows-woes]

gang, am i onto something?

[Note: the definitions are simplified, I wouldn't be able to fit the full criteria into each circle and that's not the full point anyway-- the point is to show key differences and similarities. I am not a professional and my observations may be incorrect.]

#npd #bpd #avpd #narcissistic personality disorder #borderline personality disorder #avoidant personality disorder #tags for reach #actually bpd #actually npd #actually avpd #actually borderline #actually narcissistic #actually avoidant #psychology #psychiatry #venn diagram #im not actually a psych major or anything #i'm an autistic minor who loves psychology

[avpdpossum]

me: i know they’re you’re friends and they’re really nice but that just makes them even scarier because i really want them to like me and would be genuinely devastated if they didn’t so it’s just easier to never engage with them and endlessly wish i was friends with them without ever risking being rejected by them even if that means i never actually get to be their friend. like sure, strangers are scary too, but they’re easier because i’m not super invested in whether they like me or not. the people i already like? those are the most terrifying people ever. you know what i mean?

my boyfriend, who doesn’t have avpd: no. no i do not know what you mean. that is literally the exact opposite of how my social anxiety works. i can’t even imagine how that would feel.

#they get regularly baffled by my avpd shit #bc our bad-at-people-ness as socially anxious autistics looks similar on the surface #but when you dig into it ive got all sorts of weird avpd shit going on that they can’t understand #poss.speaks #personal #avpd #actually avpd #actually avoidant #avoidant pd #avoidant personality disorder #cluster c

[bunnighost]

#lonely #sad #loneliness #unimportant #worthless #useless #unlovable #traumacore #vent edit #actuallytraumatized #avpd #actually avpd

[rottingskunkc0rpse]

#avpd #avpd things #actually avpd #cptsd #traumacore #ventcore #vent edit

[astrangerthatlovesyou]

Having AvPD is like: I’m so open, everyone knows everything about me. That’s terrifying, everyone must hate how much I share. God I feel so exposed I feel sick. And the last time you opened up to someone was October of 2021 when you told your mom you were a little stressed.

#avpd #avoidant personality disorder #personality disorder #actually avpd #pd #avpd things #cluster c personality disorder #avpd problems #cluster c #actually avoidant #actually cluster c #avoidant #avoidant pd #pro self diagnosis #self dx safe #endo safe #pro endo #mental health #avpd feels

[avoidantblob]

reaching peak avoidant by avoiding the account i made to vent about my avoidant personality disorder because i think other avoidant people looking in the avoidant personality disorder tag will think that i’m weird. this is great. i’m going to get a good grade in avpd, something that is both normal to want and possible to achieve

#actually avoidant #actually avpd #avoidant pd #avoidant personality disorder #avpd

[meganekkobunny]

#my edit #avpd #avoidant personality disorder #actually avoidant #actually avpd #2000s anime #jiraiblogging #lainpilled #femcel #weebcore #neet #neetcore #hikikomori #hikicore

[haithamssillylittlelife]

"i have x disorder and i don't think it's disabling, therefore it's not a disability"

that's cool and all but please remember all disorders are spectrums, and some people might experience it in a disabling way even if you don't. not everyone experiences their disorder in the way you do.

#npd #bpd #avpd #actually npd #actually bpd #actually avpd #personality disorders #actually cluster b #cluster b #eupd #autism #actually autistic

[i-may-be-paranoid]

really this is what my previous 2-panel vent comics boil down to. that and emotional manipulation trauma

#originals #avpd #actually avoidant #actually avpd #actually autistic #audhd #autihd

[avpdrecovery]

someone on the avpd subreddit said avpd is like being locked in a prison cell, but you‘re your own guard. so true.

#avpd #avoidant personality disorder #actually avpd #avoidant

[amongmoths666]

I don't feel like I exist like other people do. People *sometimes* acknowledge I exist but I never truly feel connected to them. I feel like I'm just a ghost watching other people live their life and connecting while I remain alone. I don't know how to get out of my lonely space and I'm not sure I entirely want to. I've felt so lonely my whole life that I find comfort in knowing I'm lonely and no one can hurt me. Equally, I want to meet new people, be able to connect, and break this endless self isolation cycle but I have no idea where to fucking start.

Maybe that's my new year resolution, to fix this empty feeling of mine

#sam's rambles #avpd #avoidant personality disorder #actually avoidant #actually avpd #autism #actually autistic #actuallymentallyill #actually traumatized #loneliness #self isolation #vent #mental health #i want to get better #i'm so lonely