#literally there was like a giant fucking neon sign saying ''THIS IS BEING CAUSED BY OCD'' and i. was completely oblivious to it

[knifegremliin]

turns out the ocd has been Symptoming for a hot minute and fucking up everything and I Didn't Realize 👍

#🔪.text #and i feel Extremely Stupid about it!!! #literally there was like a giant fucking neon sign saying ''THIS IS BEING CAUSED BY OCD'' and i. was completely oblivious to it #not a fucking clue. #like buddy. dude. yes there is a reason why you are obsessing and ruminating and obsessing and fucking everything up #MAYBE BECAUSE OF YOUR OBSESSING DISORDER. #DUMBASS. #HEAD IN HANDS. #sorry i am feeling very stupid about this LMAO #literally been fucking up relationships and obsessing and thinking i'm an awful fucking person. #no. i just have ocd. #LITERALLY KEY SYMPTOM. #THE INTRUSIVE THOUGHTS MAKING YOU FEEL LIKE A BAD PERSON DISORDER #GOD. #i always say my ocd is extremely mild and i feel like i shouldn't even say i have it but. #that is. clearly Not True!!!!! #anyway. at least i've finally realized #will at least help me to not feel as awful now #nor fuck everything up as much hopefully #because at least now i know it's my ocd being a little asshole #anyway will probably delete this later lmao #i'm just feeling stupid about this ahgnjkmld

[mythicalninjas]

From anon's request: "How would the boys react to see the reader appeared out of no where in the lair. Like there is a portal that open in the middle of the lair and the reader get out of it. They don’t know the reader before. How would they react? You can do separately or all together I don’t mind."

A/N: It got too long, but hope you like it! If you find any mistakes in the paragraphs or do not understand something, feel free to tell me.

They/them pronouns used!

The Guest

It's just another random day in the underground. Eletronic sounds from improvised machines coming from Donnie's computer station, splashing of the waterfall in the enormous main space and a Hip Hop song echoing around, filling the light dump air of the air.

Leo sat on the edge of the platform where he is used to train, a heavy breathe leaving his mouth, exausted by an intensive training session he just had; several drops of sweat slide over his muscled and hot body, clothing showing dark stains here and there as outcome of his effort. But he was satisfied by his well-conclued work. The leader takes a look around to see what is currently happening in his home, as always. Donnie isn't at his computer station or neither his lab. Well, the genius must be doing who knows what somewhere. Leonardo ran his eyes around carefully to find his purple-clad brother and Bingo! Donnie is lying down, using his tablet, on his improvised bed in the giant pipe hole with purple neon wire making a circle around the edge. Rising the corner of his mouth by the view, Leo watched around again to look for his two troublemakers brothers, but couldn't find any of them. Meybe they are distrubing each other somewhere.

Sighing, Leonardo stands and jumped off the platform, walking towards the kitchen area to take a glass of water.

''Eat Me'' red neon sign above the kitchen makes him think of inappropiate things; of course, he tried to change Mikey's mind when the young brother choose it as decoration, but there was nothing the leader could do. Leo is not gonna lie, that sign suits a lot with the kitchen...

Shaking his head to wash the naughty thoughts away and opening the high cabinet door, he picks his favourite blue glass and headed to the fridge. Opening the door he ran his eyes through the small cold space and found the jar water. After pouring the cold liquid into the blue glass, he let's out a relief sigh as brings it to his mouth, finally swallowing the fresh liquid down his throat. His muscles are exausted to continue the intense training, so the blue-clad turtle decided to take a break.

Suddenly a light beam emerged from behind him.

''What the-''

Boom!

The whole lair vibrated.

He was threw against the cabinets by the shock wave. Groaning, Leo rubs behind his neck; a pair of blue ocean eyes scanned towards to where the defeaning sound came from and saw that there's a thick and dark gray fume hovering in the middle of the big space, spreading around.

"Donnie! You must be careful with your stuff!'' Leo yelled, thinking that this explosion was caused by one of Donnie's inventions.

''It wasn't me, Leo!'' Donnie protested, running beside his brother, who is already in the local of the explosion, trying so hard to see what was demaged.

''What happened?!'' Raphael shouted from a distance with Mikey walking right behind him.

Master Splinter came out of the dojo and gasped while watches the unexpected situation ''Leonardo!'' the old rat called ''Explain what just happaned here. Is everyone okay?''.

''Yes, we are, master. But I don't understand the cause of the explosion. It was so fast.''

''Do not worry, my son. The importand is that no one got hurted.''

Leo sighed relived, placing his hands on each side of his hips and just kept stand there a few seconds, watching everybody disappearing into the dense fume. The brothers walk carefully through it to find a reason of the explosin. But all they can see is the concrete ground was covered with a dark dust, for now.

Then...

Raph gasped when see a silhouette a few steps away from him, the arduous smoke difficulting his view.

The silhouette was crouched, its head lowered between its knees, and arms crossed around its body. Raph grabs his both sais and positioned them beside him, ready for the action. He slowly takes steps towards the stranger, being careful to not scare the unexpected guest.

He knew it is not Splinter because that shape is human.

As he aproaches to the mysterious form, Raph noticed that it is a person. ''What ta hell...'' he whispered. ''Hey!'' He called, but you didn't response, keeping your head down between your knees. "Hey!'' Raph called again, but has received no response yet. The brute's yell called the others attention who went quicly beside him, and got surpried by your presence.

''Who is this person?'' Mikey asked, in shock.

''I don't know.'' Leo said as take a few steps closer to you, his eyes watching you form carefully.

Donnie took a few steps foward as well, and pulled his googles down to scan you and adjusted some annulus to have a better view of your vital signals, and kneeled in front of you. ''Hey'' he called, but you kept your head lowered.

The boys looked at each other, not knowing what to do.

You're so afraid to lift your eyes to see what is happening or where you got. You knew that you're being watched by someone, but a discomfort high-pitched sound disturbs your ears, preventing you to hear them.

Donnie lift his hand and with all careful of the world he touches your shoulder.

You quickly rise your head, and shut your eyes open wide.

Gasping, your breathe got faster as you watch a big humanoid green creature a few inches away right in front of you. Without thinking twice you dragged yourself away from the weird creature who stands quickly and lift his hands in front of him as a peace sign. You could see that it is like a human, but with a green skin and so fucking tall; military green cargo pants, a pair of big boots, suspenders around his... plated chest, and that scary thing he's using above his eyes, or are those literally his eyes?!

"WFT?!" You thought.

"Hey, hey, It's okay!" The purple-clad terrapin said, but all you could see is his mouth moving.

You quickly moved your weak body away from him, but something hits your back, preventing you from escape. Slowly your eyes looked back and chills ran down your spine. A pair of sandals in a feet with two big fingers? Your eyes followed up slowly and saw that it is another creature, but this time it is using black pants over his thighs, something you couldn't describe over his lower legs and nothing on upper body. And... Is it wearing a blue cloth around his eyes?

But, out of all of it, you got surprised of how massive these things are. Where have you arrived? And what kind of aliens are they? Wait, they are aliens, right?

"Hey, it's okay. We're not gonna hurt you" Leo said with a comfort voice but you can't hear a single word from him.

You tried to get up and run away but your legs failed, bringing you to the ground. And an excruciating pain started to roll through your legs, making you groan violently.

"Wow, easy!" Donnie shouted "Leo, they're legs are injured! Keep them on the ground or they will hurt themselves even more!".

"Raph, with me!" Leo ordered but his brother didn't even moved; Raph just crossed his arms and shift his wheight from a leg to another. Leo studied your body language, he knew that if he holds you by your legs he would cause more pain on you, so he made a decision to hold you by your arms.

''Hey, hey. Easy'' he tried to grabs your arms but you fought with all your strength to shove his three-fingered hands away. Donnie noticed that Raph doesn't want to collaborate and groaned, walking towards you and kneeling.

Mikey joined his brothers and could finally grabs your arms and laying you down on your back on the ground. Even with a hell of pain you're feeling you moved your legs to kick your immobilizer but the pain hits you so hard, making you're scream.

''We need to calm them down!" Donnie warned.

''And how we're supose to do it? They're freaking out!'' Mikey said, holding you against the ground while Leo keeps his hands on your hips to keep you immobilized.

Donnie has no choice but talk to you.

''Hey'' he carefully lands his hand agaisnt your forehead to call your attention ''I know that you're scared and that you're not understanding what is happening, but you need to calm down''.

You eyes locked with his amber ones.

''Calm down...'' he repeated ''What's your name?''

You didn't get his words and made a question expression, shaking your head from a side to another as a negative response.

''Um... Do you have a name?'' Donnie asked, and quirked a brow ridge.

''I think they're not hearing ya'' Raph opined from behind ''They didn't answer my call when I called them twice in front of them'' Raph continued, shrugging.

''Really?'' Donnie looked back at his red-banded brother.

''Yeah''

That's make sense...

Donnie payied back his attention on you. How will he comunicate with you now?

Unless...

''Can. You. Hear. Me?'' he asked slowly, making sure that his lips are moving for you understand perfectly. Of course, none of them knows language signal, so moving his lips slowly is the only way to make a communication with you. He could see your eyes locked on his lips while he talks, reading carefully each words formed.

You look back at his eyes and nod negatively.

''Oh no...'' Leo murmured.

''Are they deaf?'' Mikey asked.

''I fear...'' Donnie answered, then sighed ''But I'm relieved that they can understand lip reading. Raph" He called, looking back at his brother who was just stand behind him watching you with caution "Can you bring a pen and a paper, or whatever the thing I can write down?"

''Okay." Raph nodded, making a scary and intimidating face without breaking eye contact with you. You knew that the red-clad creature has something negative about you. His deadly stare says everything.

''Hey...'' Donnie called your attention back, and repeated the same exercise as he did to communicate with you ''Keep. Calm. We. Will. Release. You."

You nodded positively.

The boys slowly take their hands off you, waiting if in case you do another resistance or an escape attempt, but you kept layied there, calm.

''I'll need you guys to help me to take them to a confortable place'' Donnie said ''Mikey, I need you to pick them on bridal style. It's the only way to carry them''.

''But how about their legs?'' the young brother questioned, worried about hurting you by accident.

''I guess it will hurt them a bit but... It's the only way. If you lift them just by their arms, they will try to stand instinctively, and it would make them suffer even more''.

"What kind of injury they have on their legs, my son?" Splinter questioned, emerging and walking beside his taller son.

Your eyes went wide.

A GIANT RAT?!

"I scanned their legs and I found out that they have some brusies and their muscles are demaged. I'm surprised the bones weren't broken." Donnie continued "I'm gonna care their injuries and soon they will walk again. But... I'm not sure when they will be healed a hundred per cent.''

The boys stood around you a minute watching you lay on the ground, thinking and speaking between them about what they must do to help you. And you took it as opportunity to study more carefully their forms. Green skin with scales here and there, tonic muscles on their arms and legs. "Holly fuck shit" you tryied to whisper but your voice cracked, indicating that your vocal chords are very weak as much as your body. For sure that traveling through the portal was pretty bad for you.

Your eyes studied them again and you rise an eyebrow. They're wearing backpacks. Wait, those are not backpacks... are... Shells... Shells?! And why are they're wearing colourful clothes around their eyes? Are they criminals or something?!

Your eyes caught the purple clad creature kneeling beside you again. You are sure that he said something like "alright". He lift his three-fingered hand, approaching it closer to your face and you couldn't help but refuse his touch shifting your head away making Mikey and Leo kneel to hold you still, but this time not too hard as before.

Donnie touches your cheek and sotfly turn your face towards his. "Easy... We. Want. To. Help. You". Then he shares a soft smile.

You have no idea what or who they are, but you knew that whatever they're planning, is for help you. Is for your own healthy and safety. At least, if these massive creatures wanted to harm you, they would have already done it, but all they have done is being careful with you; taking care of you.

You smiled back.

Donnie lets out a heavy breathe, then glanced at Mikey and nodded. Leo stood aside to give his younger brother space enough to adjust himself beside you and pick you up. You quickly turned your eyes back at the purple-clad creature like asking him to tell you what his friend will do.

He just nodded positively, smiling.

Leo positioned himself on your another side to help Mikey, taking care to lift your upper body first. Mikey reached to support your body, placing his arm behind you. And now, the most difficult part: your injured legs. ''I'm sorry if you feel pain. You have to be strong as possible.'' Mikey murmured. But before they could work on your legs, Donnie raised his hand to call their attention and soft landed it on your knee. A soft groan left your mouth but you thanked that your knees were just a bit ached ''Wait! Let's do it one step at time. After I count three, lift them fast. Ready?'' Leo and Mikey give a firm nod. ''Alright. One.'' You read his lips, and asked to yourself why he was counting. ''Two''. Your eyes lower to take a look on your legs, and saw that they're with their hands positioned like would pick you up on bridal style. Wait... Your heart beats faster. Donnie noticed that you are staring at him with wide eyes and shaking your head from a side to another desperately, but there's nothing he could do. ''Three!''

You screamed; a heavy wave of pain ran through your weak legs like a hundred knives were penetrating your meat violently. You threw your head back, your mouth open while agonizing sounds go out; it is hard even to breathe.

''Take them to the sofa. Now!'' Donnie ordered.

Mikey quickly headed towards the .... He has to admit that hearing your protesting painfully in his arms breaks his heart. Never in his life he heard someone scream like you're doing right now.

"Here..." Leo directed, adjusting the soft sheet to lay you down and a sofa pillow to support your head. Mikey bent over to place you carefully on the sofa with Donnie holding your head. "Be careful." Leo commented. It hurt a bit when your legs were landed on two pillows, but as fast as the pain started, it ended.

Finally you can inhale oxygen after a whole minute of suffocate.

"I'll grab a medicine to lower their pain. It will get them tiredness but will worth" Donnie said, turning and heading towards his lab.

Leo and Mikey positioned themselves beside you, his eyes watching over every single movement you do. You kinda felt uncomfortable with them looking at you all the time; feeling totally vulnerable under their care, but you knew that what are they're doing is for you own good.

Your eyes caught another massive form coming closer and your bones started to shiver again. The red-cladded humanoid creature is back but this time he was holding pen and a notebook.

"Hey, guys. This is all I could find at the moment" Raph said while look at the stuff he just took, then his scary stare locked on you.

Your blood freeze.

"Thanks, Raph." The leader grabs the stuff and sat on the ground right beside you. He positioned the pen between his big fingers and the notebook on his lap, and his eyes landed on yours. You couldn't help but appreciate to utmost of how beautiful his eyes are. A deep and vividly color of blue. They're like a painting... You shook your head and looked to opposite side, hiding your blush.

"They shook their head. Why? We didn't make any questions." Mikey said.

"I don't know, but let's find out" Leo continued, writing down "Are you okay?". Finishing, he reaches out his hand and gently touches your shoulder making you snap your eyes back at his. Then Leo lifts the notebook to show you the question.

You read it and shake your hand as "So so" then pointed at your legs.

Leo nodded back, understanding your message, then placed the notebook on his lap again and wrote "My brother will take care of your injuries and certificate that you'll be okay and we will help. Don't be afraid". You read it and show a positive thumb. Leo replaced the notebook back and wrote "I'll introduce us to you". You show a positive thumb again. Then Leo wrote all their names down and lifted it to you."Leonardo, Donatello, Michelangelo, Raphael, and our father, Master Splinter".

Leo got up and started to introduce them. He pointed at his name and then at him. Then he pointed at Donnie's name and then pointed towards the lab where Donnie is preparing his medical kit. Then Leo pointed at Mickey's name and then at his brother beside him. The young turtle waved, grinning. "So cute" you thought, waving back. Then Leo pointed at Raph's name and at him, an the brute just crossed his arms. "He's kinda... Rude..." You thought again. Then Leo pointed at Splinter's name and then at him who is a few steps away from you. "Wait. Father? Father? Is he they're father?!" You practically yelled mentally. Your mind was filled with many questions about this impossibility of this giant rat be father, or he must be their adoptive father. You prayed to the second option be the true.

You were brought back to reality with another soft hudge on your shoulder, making you look back at his deep blue eyes. The blue-cladded turtle took a deep breathe and made a worry face; and lift the notebook with the next phrase: "We are mutant turtles."

Your eyes went wide. Mutants? How? Since when it is possible? The boys looked at each other already expecting your shock. What kind of place you just arrived where there're mutants?! The mutants made a fear expression, waiting for your scream. But no sound has come out from your mouth.

You just got froze.

''Won't they scream?'' Raph asked, quirking a brow ridge.

''They got shocked'' Mikey simply commented.

Leo sighed and wrote down another sentence. 'Just keep calm. I'll explain everything when you get well soon". You made an effort to nod.

After a few minutes, Donnie went back holding a first aid kit under one of his his slim but muscular arms, a medicine pack between his thick fingers and a bottle of water. Leo and Mikey took a step back to give their brother some space to work on you. First of all, Donatello shows you the medicine pack, holding it in front of you; he looked at Leo and asked for the notebook and the pen, picking it. Your eyes watched every single move he does and you got the conclusion that this mutant has quick skills and much attention in his work, murmuring who knows what while work on you. "Interesting", you thought.

After finish writing, Donnie lift the notebook. "I'll give you a medicine for your pain, but it will make you tired because it has some substances which cause tiredness. If you feel some uncomfortable symptoms, warn me". You immediately rised a positive thumb. You had taken some medicines with that description many times in your life, so you're kind of used with it. But the bad news is that it makes you fall asleep quickly, a scary idea in your opinion. You have no clue what these mutants would do when you're sleeping; if they would do dirty things or something or whatever the shit you refuse to think. You pray, at least, for these mutants do not do disrespectful things.

Donnie picks a pill from the pack and gave it to you, then the bottle of water. All the five mutants are literally watching you doing it, and it made you uncomfortable. You're not used to many people staring at you like that.

After taking the medicine, Donnie mentioned to you lay down again. The nerd placed the first aid kit on the ground and open it, his hands moving some stuff away again and again, his eyes scanning the stuff in the box. What is he looking for, exactly?

Suddenly your eyes caught his facial expression turning from serious to happy. Well, what did he just find to make him smile? The other mutants—except the red one—grinned. "Why the fuck are they grinning?" You thought. Donnie returned his attention to you with his grin. Okay, you don't know if his smile is a good sign or a naughty sign.

Then you started to feel your eyes heavy.

"Fuck... Now now..." You murmued, feeling a weariness filling your body. You hate when this medicine effect affect you rapdly, and you can't fight back.

"Hey, did they say something? I swear I heard that" Mikey commented.

"Well, they can speak by the way" Raph mocks.

Slowly your vision got blur, and the last thing you remember is they debating with each other, then the darkness pulls you for a long rest.

——————Time Skip——————

The light fills the darkness of your sleepy world like a white spot growing and consuming every single space of the dark. You are not sure how much time you slept, but at least all of it was merely dream and those creatures were just an invention of your mind.

Opening up your eyes slowly, you expected to wake up in your bedroom, but, even with your vision blurring and get used by the ambient light, the place seems totally different of your comfortable bedroom. Damp walls, two thick pipes in a corner a thin one on another, and neon lights a few steps away from where you are layied down. As you can feel, it is a comfortable bed. Groaning softly you turned your head to the space illuminated by the neon flashing lights, seeing a shell with a big backpack facing you. Immediately you recognized him.

It was not a dream.

You hear quick types on a keyboard, noticing that this mutant turtle is using his... computers? He was typing who knows what about something you have no idea, and you got surprised how fast this turtle can do it. He might be a guy of technology, you presume.

Wait. Wait...

If you can hear him working, that's mean your hearing came back to normal! You let out a happy sigh, making the genius turn his head towards you. "Oh, you're awake!" He said grinning, but palmed his face remembering that you can't listen to him. The tall purple clad terrapin takes his skateboard and rolled it beside you and sat down. ''How. Are. You. Feeling?'' he asked; you couldn't help but share a soft smile and say with a weak voice ''I'm good... And I can hear you now.''

His jaw dropped, eyes going wide.

''Hey... Are you... okay?'' you asked quietly with the corner of your mouth rised.

''Oh! I'm- Yeah. I'm-'' he rubs his hand behind his neck ''I'm glad you're okay'' he murmured, sharing a shy smile. What is going on here? You started to think that the air got ''tensed'' sunddely between you. Is it good?

''So...'' Donnie started ''About your physical condition, you're getting better. The muscles of your legs are healing and your wounds are cicatrizing. The rest you've just taken helped you a lot.'' he continued ''Uh... I almost forgot: what's your name?''

''Y/N.''

''Amazing.'' he lower his head, trying to not show a light blush over his cheeks which you already noticed. ''So, uh... Who are you, where did you come from and how did you get here?'' he asked quicly without concerns, locking his amber eyes on yours again. Okay, that was expected but too fast as he did. You looked away from his gaze, fearing your answers would not convice or be plausibles for the situation. Well, there's no way out.

''You... will not believe me if I answer honestly'' you said with weak tone.

Donatello cocked his head to the side, quirking his brow ridges.

''I am from another... I don't know...'' you answered, sighing ''Also I don't remember exactly how I got into that portal-''

''Portal?'' He questioned.

''Yes. I do not remember how or who exactly put me in that portal, but all I can remember is of the explosion when that thing closed and then... an uncomfortable sound filled my ears and a sudden ache consumed my legs''.

''Oh, yeah. I noticed it too''.

You started to feel a little shame by your overreact you had when the boys tryied to help you; and you regret ''Sorry for my bad behaving. I was very scared...''

''Hey, there's no need to apologize. You were just shocked and didn't have time to think. It's totally okay.'' Donnie knew that going through a portal and end up in another place is odd and unconfortable, so he and his brothers will do everything to make you feel safe before find out a way to take you home. The nerdy shares a smile and comes closer to you, pulling his googles above his eyes to scan your vital signs. Your eyes went wide. That thing scared you when you saw it for the first time!

''Did you make these?'' you pointed at his goggles.

''Oh yeah! I did it all my own'' he said proundly.

You gliggled ''Amazing! But it scared the hell out of me when I saw it for the first time. I thought it were your eyes or something.''

Donnie chuckeld of your observation, which you're not wrong. ''Sorry, was not my intention. You're not the only one who got scared of my briliant creation.'' he grinned, adjusting some of his goggles annulus here and there, then actived his hologram from his watch and typed on it. You got surprised with his advanced technology, never in your life you have seen something like that. Which year are you?! A distant future?

Are these mutants evolued humans or hybrids?!

''Are you still hearing that unconfortable noise?''

You woke up from your thoughts ''What?''

''That noise you said about. Can you describe how it sounded?'' he asked without leave his attention from his screen.

''Um... it was like... uh... high-pitched sound.''

Donnie noded, still typing on his screen. You're just sit there watching him working on his whatever the thing it is, his three-fingered hand moving and shifting above the screen. ''I guess you got a temporary deaf by the reason of explosion, and I am surprised that it just gave you temporary damages. I thought your eardrums would suffer a rupture and your bones break... Well... I'm glad that you're okay now.''

You beamed timidly ''All thanks to you and your brothers''. It's just you or his cheeks are being filled with a dark colour? "So... before answer your questions, can I ask where am I? Is this place another dimension or something?''

Donnie's locked his eyes on you, not expecting this question ''What? Uh, no... Why? Are you from another dimension?''

You shrugged ''I donno. Where I came from is Earth. It's all can describe to you.

''Oh! Well, you can still keep calm because you're still on Earth''. He smiled playfulness.

You sigh relieved; thankfully you weren't thrown out of your planet. ''And... where exactly am I?...''

''New York City, USA. Technically under it; you're in mine and my family's home in the sewers''.

You froze. New York? Underground? Sewers? ''You got be kidden me...",

''No, I'm not. And... how about you?''

''Originally I'm from (your hometown). But... I just remember being kidnap and then... Everything went dark. The last thing I remember is flashbacks of some men putting me in that portal. Why did they do it? I don't know.'' you shrugged.

Donnie noded again, his head filled with several hypothesis about your weird past event. "And these men... what kind of clothing they were wearing?" he asked, rubbing his chin.

"Uh..." You made a question expression, not getting what does he want to know about something so random. But who are you to refuse to answer? This turtle must know something you don't. "There were some people wearing different kind of clothing. I remember some wearing white coats—like doctors—and... Others in black. All black. Even their masks...''

''Masks?''

''Yes.''

Donnie's eyes went wide. He knows exactly who wear dark clothing as in your description. Foot Clan. He stood and walked towards the exit over quick steps.

''Where're you going?''

''I'll be right back. Stay where you are, okay? Don't you dare escape.'' he pointed at you and then left, leaving you totally alone in his lab. What is he planning, by the way? Perhaps he has some knowledge about those people you have seen? Well, by his sudden shock react, he surely know.

After a few minutes, Donatello has arrived in his lab and going to where you both had a conversation. And he was not alone.

''So... what's the news?'' Mikey shares a cocky smile, picking a chair and sitting on the oposite of ot, keeping the back of this object in front of his plastron and landing his arms above the top rail. Leonardo stood right beside you and Raph a few steps away from your bed, arms crossed and looking at you with no interest, and the giant rat stood beside Mikey, who glanced at his father still with the cocky smile on his face then back at you.

"So, Y/N. Can you explain everything you know for us? We just want to help you, nothing otherwise." Leo assured, but quick steps has approached him and a sudden punch on his arm made him groan. "Help them?" Raph protested "We don't even know who they are or if they work for someone that is not by our side!". Splinter quickly acted, beating his tail behind Raphael's legs to stop "Enough! Let them speak. We will just know if they tell their story.", "But Master, if they lie?!" The brute threw his arms up in protest, but Splinter just shares an intimidating look, making his red-clad son shut up and take a step back. "I apologize, my young one. You can go ahead with your version of your story."

You took a deep breath, feeling a bit uncomfortable for being watched and sorrawnded by five mutants, but actually you don't care. They seem to be good guys—except for the hot head one. For a while, you told every single detail you remember; since your kidnapping till your arriving in this place, the people who put you in that portal, your hometown. It's so weird that all of it happened so fast which you couldn't believe that it took a while—maybe because you were put to sleep as that people did everything they want to you.

The mutants looked at each other, expressions like surprise, shock, suspicious, doubt traveled through each one. You're afraid of they all think that you're lying, well, the red one is already thinking, of course. But how about the others?

"I might think that people in black are members of Foot Clan..." Leo commented after a moment "And the people in white might be scientists. Helpers of-".

"Baxter Stockman." Donnie finished.

''You gotta be kidding me...'' you murmured, surprise that this dangerous clan are in the same universe with them. You thought you got in another dimension or wherever but you literally were transported to another place, just it. And you lived your entire life without know the existence of these mutants. You want to freak out.

''And why would those people put Y/N in that portal?'' Mikey asked ''Like, just them! Were... were you alone when you were transported, right?'' the youngest looked at you with concerns.

''Yes! As I remember, yes...''

"Well..." Leo started "From now on we have a hard work to do. Y/N, you are under our care, and you have to stay down here with us. It's for your protection".

"What?! But-"

Master Splinter takes a step forward and place one of his hands on your shoulder, looking deep into your eyes "You have no choice, my dear. But there's no need to be worry" he smiled "While you're with us, no dangerous will happen to you" then the old rat glanced at Raphael, who groaned and sighed, getting Splinter's message.

You have to be prepared for all obstacles that are coming, and you're thankful that these mutants are by your side. As Leo said before, there's hard work to execute, dangerous or not.

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[mieohmy]

𝖲𝖼𝖺𝗋𝖾𝖽𝗒 𝖢𝖺𝗍 𝖶𝗁𝗈? | 𝖫𝖾𝖾 𝖧𝖺𝖾𝖼𝗁𝖺𝗇

PAIRING: lee haechan x reader

GENRE: humor, fluff, haunted house au, friends-to-maybe-more?

WC: 1.2k

NOTES: cursing,  horror/scary things 🤡 boo maybe a Halloween drabble in January 🤠?

↳ “Don’t let go. If you do, I think I’ll die.”

✧

You weren’t going. No way. So what if you have to be stuck at home ignoring annoying doorbells from candy deprived kids who just rampaged from door to door? It was way better than going to the highest-rated horror house in the city... right? 

“Listen, I’m staying here. I’m not going to scream my brains out and get killed by a clown alright? End of discussion.”

“Come onnn, it’ll be so much fun. The fear is the best part,” Renjun tries to convince you for the nth time. “Who wants to be alone on Halloween?” 

You reply with no hesitation. ‘’Me.”

“Y/n,” he groans in frustration, “you’re not gonna die. You can just stick by Haechan’s side, no biggie.”

Renjun’s response causes you to furrow your eyebrows. “Why Haechan?” 

“Well, he won’t stop bragging about how fearless he is, so he can protect you... I guess?”

You snort, “Haechan protecting me? Why would he want to do that?” 

His eye suddenly twitches, specifically the left one, you note. “Uh- no reason. Hey guys, you ready?” he calls out to the other guys.

“Yeah, did y/n finally change their mind?” Chenle asks. 

“Of course. They’re gonna change, and then we’re leaving.” Renjun glares at you with such ferocity that you simply turn and walk to your room to get ready.

✧

You regretted going. Waiting in line was literally torture. The never-ending screams were torture. Everything was torture. 

“Guys, I don’t think I can do this anymore. Didn’t you just hear those kids screaming? It literally sounded like they were actually getting murdered.” 

“Oh don’t be a baby, it’s gonna be great getting chased by clowns,” Renjun states. 

Haechan puffs up his chest. “Or the clowns are gonna be chased by me.” There’s a moment of silence before you speak up again. 

“Seriously, how come Jisung wasn’t forced to come and I was?” 

“Cause,” Jaemin replies, “He’s a baby. Mine, specifically.” 

You roll your eyes, bottom lip jutted out in frustration. “What about me? Am I not a baby?” 

“Nah- oh heck no,” Chenle says, head shaking from side to side.

Haechan mutters under his breath, “you can be mine..” 

“Ughhhh I’m gonna die, and it’s gonna be all your guys’ fault.” You might’ve tried to escape the line and run away as fast as your legs can take you but there’s always that one person who stops you.

“No, you won’t.” Renjun shoves you toward Haechan, making you stumble into his arms. “Since you think you’re all so strong and mighty, you can take care of them.” You’re too busy grumbling to notice Haechan’s flustered expression. 

The line moves up and the horrible feeling in your stomach grows every step closer. 

When the group in front of you enters the death house, you tightly clench whoever’s arm is right next to you. “Oh my god, we’re almost in.”

Haechan lets out a strained laugh, weakly attempting to remove your iron grip from his arm. 

 And then the door opens. You feel the cool air flow out and shiver. Chenle lets out an excited woohoo! and dashes in. 

You’re frozen, staring at the darkness emitting from the door until a voice cuts in. 

“Come on, y/n. We can do it.” You look up at Haechan, a hand offered in front of you. 

And so you take it, entering the haunted house with the rest of the boys. 

It isn’t too bad -is what you thought for the first five steps into the house. 

It helped that everyone was giggling at all the lame props that didn’t seem so horrifying after all.

Horribly fake decorations? Okay. Bloodied corpse? Ehhh... 

Is that a murder chainsaw guy? Goodbye. 

You swear it was some weird vase decoration or whatever, but when it stands up and that roaring engine sound comes to life, everyone erupts in screams and scatters throughout the place.

You're not sure where you are, where everyone else is. The house feels so much scarier alone. In total, you’ve been jump scared by three zombies, one skeleton, and a coat hanger. 

You’re not even sure how you’ve been moving through this maze of a house. For real, how many doors and hallways have you walked through? 

After a creepy girl pops up right in your face, you wail, almost on the verge of tears. There’s no choice but to run away, maybe find someone else or an exit. Where is everyone? 

Turning a corner, you bump into something, immediately falling to the ground and shrieking. Wait a second. You may be hearing things, but it sounded like another scream? One was yours for sure, and you’re pretty confident that your voice didn’t suddenly become deeper...?

“Fuck- wait a sec... Oh thank goodness, y/n !!”

Whimpering, you peek an eye open to see a relieved Haechan. It was hard to recognize him, the house being so dark and all. 

“W-where’s everyone else?” 

He helps you up, not letting go of your hand afterward. “I don’t know... We all lost each other after that creepy chainsaw man.” 

You pause. “You know, for someone saying that they were so good at these horror things, you were sure scared to bump into me.” 

“W-whatever. I can barely see anything. Come on, let’s stick together. I don’t think I can handle this anymore.”

Slowly, the two of you continue through the house. You never loosen your grip on his hand. you don’t think you physically can.

After a weird clown guy literally comes out the wall(??), the two of you barely make it past, Haechan babbling random useless threats.

You bury your head into his shoulder, eyes squeezed shut. “Don’t let go. If you do, I think I’ll die.” 

If you keep saying things like that, I think I’ll be the one to die, Haechan bitterly thinks in his head. 

“Haechan... I-I think I see it!” “See what?” “Maybe my eyes are deluding me, but I think that’s the exit? Right?”

You both glance up at the giant EXIT sign in neon green positioned above a door. 

It takes a few seconds of studying and squinting before you two share a glance and vigorously push through, tumbling outside back into the normal world. 

  The sight of the black sky never seemed so reassuring before. 

“Y-y/n, we did it!! We escaped that rotten house!!” 

Laughing in joy, Haechan picks you up, spinning in circles until you can’t breathe. Maybe it was being in his arms or staring into his sparkling eyes that caused your heart to beat faster.

“GUYS!” Haechan finally sets you down at the outburst. How convenient, the rest of your group basically collapses outside the exit. 

“Please- let’s just get the hell outta here. That skeleton seriously moved, I swear. But...how did you guys escape so fast?” Renjun asks, a suspicious glint in his eyes. 

You share a smile with Haechan, growing when his hand sneaks around to fit with yours. 

“Cause we had the guts to do so.” 

“.........was that supposed to be a p-” 

“No, y/n. Don’t say anything. Don’t even give him a response.” 

Maybe haunted houses were pretty fun. With the right people, of course. 

#nct #nct dream #nct 127 #haechan #lee haechan #lee donghyuck #nct haechan #haechan x reader #lee haechan x reader #haechan scenarios #haechan imagines #nct x reader #nct 127 x reader #nct dream x reader #nct 127 scenarios #nct dream scenarios #donghyuck scenarios

[petre-chose-violence]

The crit they linked is @ enderspawn’s c!techno-critical tag.

Wait, do you mean the entire tag? Did this person went "Just read a book" on you? Like, literally they went "check out this ENTIRE TAG and maybe you'll change your mind" instead of referring to specific points and posts? Bruh. The only way this is not just an elaborate way to say "fuck off" is if the are enderspawn themselves, lmao, but even then it's a dick move

I, mean, I promised to diss these takes, so I'll do my best, but my endurance is not eternal so I will probably not cover the ENTIRE THING.

And to my followers - don't you fucking dare dogpile enderspawn. I know there is probably not enough of you to do that, and I know that a lot of you are reasonable ppl, but if I am wrong about that hear me out - please don’t do any personal attacks and stuff. That’s a no no. Don’t even go and mass disagree with their takes.

Also @ enderspawn, or someone they reblog takes from, if you are reading this, I don't want to start any beef and I have nothing against most of you personally (yet). If you want to respond to this in any way, go ahead. I’m all about having a debate with reasonable people and clowning on unreasonable ones so It’s a win-win for me either way. Also feel free to ignore this if you want, you are not obligated to talk to anybody on the internet. The reason I am doing this is because this anon asked for help, not any form of personal attack.

I am not linking any posts I am responding to because this is more of a c!Techno defense masterpost rather then a diss.

/rp

Ok, formalities out of the way, lets go.

Doomsday Betrayal

So first we have a short take on how it’s wrong to frame Tommy’s betrayal on Doomsday as a betrayal because Techno did the same on Nov 16. This is funny because imagine if I turned it around and said that denying that Tommy’s betrayal is a betrayal while calling Nov 16 that is hypocritical (I actually might do that now). Newsflash - both of these are betrayal, and newflash 2 - an act of betrayal has no inherit moral vailue, it is given to it by context. Techno on Nov 16, Tommy on Doomsday, Quackity joining Pogtopia, Tubbo joining Pogtopia, Punz joining Tommy, Sam joining Tommy, Ranboo apologizing to Techno, Fundy and Niki going against L’manburg on Doomsday - All of these could be put under the “betrayal” umbrella and are good acts at the same time.

Also the difference between these specific examples is that Techno actually contributed to Pogtopia’s cause. /hj

Anyway my take is that Tommy’s betrayal was good for him and his mental health, reconnecting with Tubbo and all that. But, especially considering the circumstances such as being surrounded by enemies and not giving Techno his stuff back, it also was a huge dick move towards Techno and he has every right to be salty.

Also “Tommy apologized” to save his ass after being caught stealing from Techno. “Tommy feels guilty” Techno has no idea.

Technoblade uses his power over people

One of the hypocrisy takes, that for someone who doesn’t like tyranny techno too often uses his power over people to get things his way. Funny because Techno has zero power over people, he can’t even intimidate them properly, the only thing he has going for him is his fighting skill, and a couple of friends as of pretty recent.

Ok, but why using his fighting skills doesn’t make him a tyrant? Because he doesn’t benefit from it. He gets nothing out of destroying tyrannies - no wealth, no power. The only thing he gets from this is a giant neon sign that says “kill this if you want to be a government” over his head. He doesn’t even demand ppl to do something, he just wants them to not 1) be tyrants 2) threaten him, his friends, his pets. There is a difference.

Technoblade doesn’t feel remorse

Except when he does.

Technoblade teamed up with a tyrant and abuser (Dream)

Lol. Yea, Techno had no idea. Going from “Tommy is alone and afraid of an enemy that is much stronger then him in every way” to “Dream abused Tommy” is actually a giant leap to make. Tommy’s “I don’t know if he [Dream] is my friend” could give it away, but again, this just as well could be a complicated relationship.

Same about tyranny bit. For all Techno knows Dream is just some guy who everyone hates for some reason. Nobody ever bothered to tell him that he was a tyrant. “I am more of a president then you” kinda sus, but they were dissing Tubbo there.

And even without that this is a stupid argument because Techno would’ve destroyed L’mnaburg either way, Dre just happened to be offering his help at the time. I mean Tommy also teamed up with Dream for the Battle of the Lake, I don’t see any crit about that.

Holy fuck this is the same post and I am already tired I will return to this after a short break (probaly) in a form of a reblog.

#dream smp #community critical #techno apologist armory #reference #bladeblr

[neonbutchery]

(150) prompts list: [FLUFF] #47 for... well, anyone! But maybe for your Shepard and Samara even though they both know they're not going to run away.

ANON... sorry for getting to you so late but i got carried away with this :') i still hope you like it!

cw for explicit descriptions of sensory overload and ableism (just in passing). shepard's autistic in this one because... i said so. and she adopted urz. thank you to @dr-ladybird for beta-ing!

you can also read this on ao3!

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Shepard needs a break. From the other side of the door she can hear the bass, thumping, and she wonders who’s currently in charge of the music. When she had left the party, Jack had been the one making the playlist—and judging by the song that’s playing, she’s still the one in charge. Everyone was having fun, dancing and drinking.

Except her.

It was all too overwhelming. The yelling, the loud music, the crowd that had gathered around her and made her feel like she had no personal space whatsoever. The very specific details she somehow remembers: the wine stain on Tali’s hood and the emergency induction port tossed on the table, the empty sushi trays, the bright lights flashing. Suddenly, her chest had been too tight and she was breathing rapidly; and she needed to get out of there.

It has happened before. It has always fucking happened before at the most inappropiate moment, and it has happened now, when she was supposed to be enjoying herself with her friends. Instead, she’s alone, in the small terrace of her apartment that looks out to a shitty alleywall, and she doesn’t know whether to cry, laugh, or keep berating herself like she always does. For a while, she thought she had it under control: she could function relatively normally in public and avoid attacks like this one. She’s able to keep calm when there are literal giant death machines invading the galaxy and killing millions every day, but it’s a party of all things that has caused an anxiety attack.

Dammit. She’s been living with sensory overload ever since she was a teenager. When she was an Alliance recruit living in noisy barracks, she used earplugs so she could fall asleep. When they were on the hunt for Saren, she spent the aftermath of the missions in her cabin, wrapped under the blankets and listening to music so she’d calm herself down. Some understood: she had confided in Kaidan before when she realized they both had similar problems. Some needed time to come around it, like when she came back from the dead under Cerberus patronage and after inventing a dozen of different excuses, she had to finally tell Miranda why she needed to be alone so often.

But now the words don't come out of her mouth. She dreads coming back to the living room and inevitably having to explain why she was missing, and the cold air of the night is better than losing control of her emotions and having to withdraw again. Shepard still feels guilty. All those people are there for her. They are her friends, some dating back to three years ago, and they abandoned their posts to spend a last night together. A night she wanted to spend dancing and laughing, not dealing with overload.

She leans back against the railing and pulls out a pen from her pocket. She had stolen it from Anderson’s office back in 2183, and has kept it on her ever since. Her finger lingers on the button at the end of the object and she starts clicking it again and again, closing her eyes. It helps keep her hands occupied and focus her mind on something else, and the rhythmic pattern of the sound is calming. Breathing in and out, remembering what a therapist had told her, Shepard tries to collect herself as she continues fidgeting.

“Shepard. Are you okay?”

She’s startled by the door opening and Samara’s voice. The asari is standing there, with a worried look on her usually inexpressive face, and Shepard guesses she knows what’s happening.

“I…”

“Do you need to be alone?”

The commander nods and Samara disappears once again, leaving Shepard on the terrace. She can’t help but feel bad about it, even though Samara knows about the fact that she needs space and is okay with it. Shepard first told her about it in one of their chats at the observation deck in the Normandy, back when they weren’t as close as they are now—but even then, she trusted her. And now, where the two are… Well, Shepard doesn’t know if they’re a thing or not, but they spent the other afternoon making out on her couch. That’s self-explanatory.

A few minutes pass and Samara returns with a glass of water, handing it to Shepard. “Drink,” she says, and Shepard does so, almost emptying it. The liquid running down her throat is refreshing and needed.

“Did you get overwhelmed?” Samara wraps an arm around Shepard’s hip and raises an eyebrow, asking if it’s okay.

“Mhm,” Shepard replies, leaning into the touch. “Sorry.”

“No need to apologize.” Samara's right: she shouldn’t demand forgiveness for something she can’t control. But she’s so used to being told she's bothering someone with her tantrums that hearing otherwise sounds weird, yet comforting.

“Yeah,” she answers, and it's the only thing she can bring herself to say. Shepard's exhausted, it's late, and while she promised herself she’d be rejoining the party, her body says otherwise. For a moment she closes her eyes and reclines into Samara’s chest, her lips curling up in a smile. The thoughts racing in her head have stopped for a brief second and she breathes, feeling the stress disappear.

She’ll come back later. For now, she’s happy, enjoying a peace she hasn’t enjoyed in a while.

“I’ve been thinking.”

“You are always thinking, Shepard.”

“I need something to keep myself entertained when I’m not impaling husks with an omni-blade,” she replies. It’s true. Sometimes, restlessness creeps up and she needs some sort of stimuli. “Funny, coming from the person who spent her free time in the Normandy meditating in front of the void.”

That gets a chuckle out of Samara, and Shepard can’t help but feel proud of making her laugh. It took a while—a lot of conversations, a trip to Omega and a hunt for a killer, and then, a reunion in Lessuss among rubble and Reaper forces, but now, she’s starting to see the person Samara truly is—someone just like her. There are too many uncertainties in the air: the invasion, Cerberus, and their own personal problems (the daughters that Samara will eventually have to bury and the broken galaxy Shepard will have to piece together); and yet, Shepard is starting to think about the fact that Samara is who she wants to spend the rest of her life—no matter how short—with.

“We could run away together. Just you and I. After the war.”

The Justicar stays silent. Shepard guesses she’s about to say something about duty, or the Code, or how they were meant to be together in another life, but not this one. But she doesn’t.

“Well, not us alone. Falere can come along if you want. And Grunt. And Urz*. If you aren’t allergic to the whole varren thing.”

Shepard nearly goes on another tangent before she bites her tongue and shuts up, silence filling the empty space again. She doesn’t want to annoy Samara more than she already has with her mad ideas.

“That sounds nice,” Samara answers. Shepard doesn’t know whether it’s the melancholy of the moment or the very small chance that she truly thinks that, but hearing her say that is comforting.

Maybe one day it will happen. Maybe they will spend the rest of their days together after this whole ordeal and live somewhere quiet. Shepard doesn’t care where: as long as Samara’s by her side, she would follow her anywhere.

Even if it’s a small terrace in the Silversun Strip, soaked by the neon signs and skycar lights, and leading to a living room where the unsung heroes of the galaxy are enjoying what might be the last party of their lives.

#my writing #mass effect fic #mass effect fanfic #shamara #shepard x samara #femshep #samara #anon asks #asks

[lovebanqtan]

Kim Seokjin As A BoyFriend

a/n= a little bit of angst, discussion of sex, and BDSM. also, I hate writing in 3rd person please forgive me if this is bad.

- You rely on each other very much.

- You never really know how much he relies on you until either, until its one of those days where Hobi be giving out that hard ass choreography, and as your standing in the corner of the dance studio, watching your loving boyfriend giving it his all and still not getting it

-You feel heartbroken.

-Hobi is being relentless on him, and finally, you snap. Even seeing poor little Jungkook breathless. 

-”Break Hobi. You got everyone worn out. Not everyone has as much stamina.” You sigh, walking up to a sulking Jin. 

-”I just don’t see what I’m doing wrong, I’m doing exactly what he’s doing and I’m getting different results.” He sighs. Pressing his sweaty body into your shoulder. 

“You are doing just fine from what I saw. Just give it 10% more and I bet you’d be perfect.” You quote him from when you were stressing over exams. Causing him to choke on his water. 

-And that's exactly what he does. Gives it 10% more and before you know it, Hoseok is jumping up and down giddy at how good practice went. Jin with his arm slung around your shoulder walking out of the studio with the rest of the boys. Each going their separate ways. 

-Besides relying on each other, he is very comforting. Even when you were still best friends. Like the time when your dog, Sammy ran away and you saw it got hit by a car, after halfway eating your weight in ice cream, you decided to call Jin. 

-He didn’t even say anything, he showed up half an hour later at the door with your favorites and a movie in hand. He understood you so well and just let you cry it out while he just talked about his day.

-You might be thinking.”Talked about his day?” Isn't that selfish?

-No. It helped because it distracted.

-”Ahh. Today, I cooked this delicious ramen, and I sat it on the table right to get a drink. And when I came back it was gone? So like what the hell? Who stole my ramen right?” 

-He made you laugh eventually.

-And when he has bad days good lord be prepared. You will have to make him talk to you. 

-”Babe, please tell me what's wrong..” I plead.

-”I swear its nothing.” he keeps scrolling through his phone, reflection of words in his eyes. 

-Okay if its nothing then why you look like you going to cry.

-”Fine then. You won’t talk to me, I won’t talk to you either.” I stand up and head toward the bedroom. 

-Packing your stuff for the night, you packed them in a drawstring bag and dragged it to the guest room. 

-”You can have the bedroom. I’ll be sleeping in the guest room till you tell me what's wrong.” I smile evilly.

- He sighs and pats the cushion next to him. Telling you everything in his day, and apparently, none of you had a good day. Which led you both to feeling bad for each other, so he cuddled you until his arms were numb.

-Also did someone says romantic?

-Kim Seokjin is the definition of romantic in your book.

-You hurt or sick? He carries you to where you need to go and makes your favorite food from your childhood.

“KIM SEOKJIN I SWEAR TO GOD PUT ME DOWN!” You screamed, waking up the whole dorm.

-You're depressed? He will cuddle you and watch Disney movies. And will totally help you eat that gallon of ice cream so you don’t feel the guilt in the hour. He’ll play with your hair, and if you go out and see anything, literally anything you want to the extremities of a tiger. He will buy it just to make you feel better. 

-You're insecure? He will make it his last dying wish to make it what you're most confident about.

-”Baby your so beautiful, I don’t know what you're talking about.” He whispered kissing your head.

-”You don’t see it? You're crazy then because all your fans do, and the people on the street do, and I don’t know why you like me.” You sobbed into his chest before turning and lying on your back. Basically choking on your cries.

-“The only one crazy here is you for listening to them, who you calling crazy. They are just jealous of you. You really think someone like me would date someone ugly.” He laughed but hearing your silence worried him. “Baby. You're beautiful, please listen.” He turned you so you would face him, and the tears streaming down your face made him want to cry too.

Wrapping his arms around your waist and pressing you against his chest. “Please believe me when I tell you you're beautiful.”

- He loves you for you and would never want you to change.

-He would probably ask to go shopping with you a lot, or just go buy himself and buy you stuff. Like, let's say your favorite artist just came out with a fragrance line. Boom! You get new jewelry every week, and honestly, you don’t know why because you only wear it to his award shows.

-The public knows about you because of you. You walked in on him filming an EatJin! which was normal behavior. Except instead of saying “hey bestie!” you said “babe can I have a bite-” and Jin was the definition of the dead inside as his views passed 30 million and all the comments were talking about you.

-But we haven’t answered the question yet...

-How is the boy in bed? 

-half of you guys just choked I know

- but for real big dick line rise up

- Jin is a major switch. So that works out most of the time.

-He can go from a major pain in the ass dom to an obedient sub.

-But when he’s a dom, he’s not that kinky on any given day, but on the 1/7 day, god bless your soul.

-Like he has a chest under your bed, just for when he’s like this. In this chest is, a bunch of silk ties (got to be gentle with your skin because now the world sees you too), blindfolds, (more specifically for him, you had brought it up and he nearly choked. but once you tried it using one of his ties, he came so quick, without you even touching him properly) a vibrator, (mostly used for your punishments?? but was given as a rewards once or twice you remember). There's more in there, you know that but you haven’t used it yet.

-On the days he’s not a BDSM master, he’s a giver in the bedroom. What I mean by this is

-Before you go to bed you have to have cum at least twice, with his fingers or his tongue and you're mad about that because he won’t let you touch him until morning. But it doesn’t mean you’ll tell him to stop. 

-If he’s hella tired after a long day at the dance studio, or recording. Or he just got back from tour. He’ll use the vibrator but make you cum five times, and you just lay there moaning with a fucked out look on your face, twitching from overstim. But even if he’s tired he’ll still take away, 

-you don’t even bring it up to him. Just laying in bed, invested in your poetry book Namjoon recommended to you. Suddenly a warm hand snakes up your thigh, and warm lips pressed to your neck. 

-How does this boy feel about PDA? 

-Now that it's like known to the world that he’s yours, and you are his. He doesn’t mind. He’ll want you to flex his hickeys to be all over Soompi. And he’ll flex his back scratches, wearing a see-through button up in his next interview. 

-Purposely turning around to ask Jungkook a question, and when the Interviewer asks what they are with a shocked as fuck look on her face. He’d blush and look at you flexing your hickeys behind the camera. And suddenly he’d gain the confidence and say. “My girl gave them to me.” And he’d smile confidently, as the interviewer looked horrified.

- He’s not afraid to kiss you in public, in fact, he asked you out in an amusement park as you were clinging to death on his arm on the Ferris wheel, and his asshole self kept rocking the bench. You cussed him out then and there.

-Smiling at your cuteness, he pulled down his mask and kissed your cold nose, in the winter air. “You're so cute, I honestly think your the only one compatible to date me.” He laughed before pulling up his mask. You were shocked and confused. You questioned your hearing. 

-It shocked you so much that you lost your grip on his arm and he continued to shake the bench causing you to call him an asshole and proceeded to grip onto his arm, until the end of the ride that he made you get on.

- After getting on the ride, you both stop at a place. That has a giant red neon sign.

“C-Co. Coco-Cola. See I’m getting nearly as good as Namjoon!” He laughs his classic windshield wiper laugh.

- Sitting down inside the warm cafe, you look him in the eye. Trying to decipher him. Was he joking? Was he lying?

-”Jin?” You ask cautiously, taking a sip of your iced coffee.

- “Yes?” Turning to you, he smiles. He has one straw in his mouth, sipping a cherry cola. 

-Before you answer, you think back. Jin is not the player type. In fact, since you in 5th grade, he’s dated, 4 girls. They either broke up with him because he refused to have sex in 7th grade with a girl who most likely had an std at that point. (good choice jin) Or he broke up with them because he lost feelings.

-You can’t really blame him. But what if he was just joking and you end up embarrassing yourself?

-”You gonna ask or keep staring at me?” he laughs again. The food has come now, my favorite American food. 

-”My bad. It's just, I can’t tell if you were being serious or not earlier, and I didn’t want to get my feelings hurt.” You turn away your face red with embarrassment.

-Suddenly he bursts out laughing in that classical windshield wiper laugh.

-“Oh my god, you're so oblivious!” He cries out between laughs, the restaurant looking at him, as he just yelled out Korean. 

-“What?” I ask.

-“When I lost feelings for Aemin, I caught feelings for you, and I thought I had been hinting all this time, especially on the Ferris wheel, but you are so dense!” He laughs hitting his knees.

-I start to laugh too. Realizing my best friend since 5th grade just confessed he liked me, and I have liked him since I can’t remember. And since you told him you liked him too. You started to be inseparable. But especially when he asked you to date him, and you started to cry happy tears. 

-You haven’t been separated since.

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[bluemoonpunch]

⭐ BTS 2019 Outlook Reading - Oracle Reading

[For the sake of not cementing anything or putting cracks in positive potentialities I wanted to focus more on their integration process and soul progression, and just sprinkle in the potentialities that seem to already be cemented in place and carry the most energy. I am hoping that doing an actual set spread will make things much cleaner and easier to gauge than with the original OT7 2018/2018 Outlook reading that I did back in July. For this reading I am going to use the Wisdom of The Oracle, the Angelarium: Oracle of Emanations, Chakra Reading Cards, and the Tarotwave decks. This is an original spread by me based on an extended from the Floater’s Club reading that is featured in my shop. This reading lasted 5 hours. ]

This reading was performed on November 30, 2018.

Pre-Reading:

There is no way in hell I’m going to go through this reading without going through key points of the original OT7 2018/2019 Outlook reading because I just read through that shit again and the amount of information in there that didn’t make any sense at all prior to the whole Soul Body Map and Healing is astounding.

As I was reading it I was in a constant state of facepalm because there was so much that I was channeling but just wasn’t understanding fully. Like I said the divine intervention was the least likely thing to occur and that divine intervention was literally the Soul Body Healing that took place about a month later. Honestly, smh.

-full reading under the cut with photos-

Just so we can keep things straight, the original outlook reading is what triggered that whole Soul Body Map thing. I think it was like a couple of days after I posted it, so about a month and a half or two months after I started seeing “The Wobble” I got the first image of the Soul Body. It was all a thing, very dramatic. If you were around for all of that, I’m sure you remember me crawling back to Tumblr dot com to let you all know that I was still alive but just hanging on by a thread after about five hours of some extremely intense energy shifting nonsense.

So, yeah, I’m going to go through some key points of the original reading to explain things from this much clearer perspective that I have now because good lord was I an idiot. I’ll include quotes and stuff from the original reading here so you don’t have to go back and re-read it, however, it is still a pretty interesting post nonetheless.

Timelines folding over — I’ve been going on about the timelines folding over for a couple of weeks now (as of November 30th) because that is literally what has started happening for the collective.

It’s why a lot of other readers are starting to get these very negative reads on BTS. Not only are the timelines folding over and bringing the past into the present moment energetically, people are also ascending, so their receptibility to those energies are getting stronger, they’re just not aware that it’s something from the past, that it’s hollow, and by posting about it they are seeding it into the current collective timeline that A LOT of the Soul Group is still on.

In the original reading, the very first card out was The Tower. It was a literal bright neon sign flashing in my face before I even started the readings telling me that the timeline I was going to be reading was one that was going to collapse. Like… why am I dumb? I mean I should have figured that since 2019 and 2020 are like big years for timeline merging and collapse, but like, what the fuck right?

But yeah, that was a bit of an obvious thing, so I should have known that everything up to 2019 was a soon to be an old paradigm, it was something that was already crumbling away specifically because it was not in alignment with what they were supposed to be doing.

However, the outside manipulation was slowing things down, it was causing problems, but whether or not the Soul Body Healing took place, it would have been taken care of. It would have all been fixed by way of the high vibrational beings, the high-frequency light beings that I mentioned towards the end of that reading. The Soul Body Healing literally just sped things up by a lot while also raising the collective vibration of the Soul Group.

So, it wasn’t really necessary, but it had an incredibly huge, massive, positive influence over the Soul Body, the Soul Group, and the guys on a conscious and physical level.

To best explain it, you could say that it was absolutely necessary within the previous timeline, the one that is currently folding over on itself and collapsing, but on the current one, it wasn’t at all. All that was necessary was for them to be able to jump timelines, which is what the Soul Body Healing did…

This would be why everything started to “jump forward." Like when I tried to do this reading at the end of September and everything I predicted for a three-month timeframe literally all happened within three days of me finishing it… do you know how mad I was about that? Omg.

It’s like as soon as the healing hit the conscious layers they started hitting the skip button and everything just ran through super fast to get them to this point that they are currently at. It was like shortcutting to the integration process that they missed before due to the previous timeline.

See, this is why I never brought up timelines in detail — it’s way too fucking complicated especially if you’re still looking at time as being linear and running side by side rather than happening within itself and all at once.

This is why I still insist on people not paying much attention to rumors or any of that low-vibe shit because that’s literally anchored into a collapsing timeline. It’s dead energy, it doesn't matter. It’s only projecting through collective perception.

Pretty much you can see it as a giant portion of the Soul Group and the general public playing hot potato with a rotting corpse. It’s cold and gross and you look silly tossing it around as though it actually means anything anymore. The only things that matter and have life are what you choose to focus on, especially now that timelines are shifting and people are projecting their reality more and more.

The Transition from Fire to Water — This was a big thing all throughout the original reading as well as within the Soul Body especially when it came to the healing process. I’ve explained it now in the Rap Line Relationship reading so I won’t go into here, but yet again, the whole Fire to Water things was another neon sign I missed when it came to what I was actually being shown.

Like, I got the gist of it with how things were going from the soul to the conscious mind, that was literally what disconnected Namjoon from the source energy, to begin with, but I don’t think I was considering all the layers of energy and consciousness.

Actually, I know I wasn’t because with that reading I was only using the Wisdom of the Oracle deck and the Rider-Wait deck, which means I was focusing on their Guides and their conscious alignment… IDIOT.

But it’s fine, I figured it out later through a month-long journey through a fucking soul map.

But yeah, the Water and Fire thing, the Divine Feminine and the Divine Masculine, shifting from one to the other, was all spelled out pretty clear there.

In the Soul Body, the Fire energy was being shoved in by way of outside manipulation and was causing even more instability. Literally, the healing was done by forcing “Water” through every single energy line in the body, spinning the energy to raise the frequency, and then reconnecting lines to where they needed to be in order to allow the restructuring to occur.

New Life and Regeneration — Literally, I was so fucking on point with that. If you’ve read through all of the solo readings for December, then you know that the “regeneration” that I talked about, the integration of the Higher Self into the conscious layers and the physical body is happening right now. They’re in that mode with the collective. They’re not all on the same level at the moment, but they are experiencing this process right now.

5 of Wands, Pressure — In the original reading within the timeframe of the first half of 2018, I talk about the signatures of that timeframe and what was going to be leading into the second half. The 5 of Wands was a card that came out in a set and this is what I wrote about it:

“This all comes to a head and clashes under The Tribe card with the 5 of Wands. This is aggression, fighting, and general conflict. There are tension and aggravation within a certain set of them that are getting more and more stressed out. A lot of pressure building up. I see this as being a physical manifestation of "The Wobble.””

This wasn’t a physical manifestation of the group’s energy, this was literally just Hoseok. The pressure building up at this time was his energy center in the Soul Body. Even the readings I did where his energy was present would have him coming out with Wands, Fire energy, in almost all of them. You can even go back to Hoseok and Yoongi’s relationship reading which I posted 5 days after the original outlook reading. And again in his Elemental Alignment reading which came out four days after the Outlook reading.

This here was something that I wrote in Hoseok’s EA reading when I pulled the 5 of Wands, the Knight of Wands, and the Ace of Wands in one go for him:

“Extremely Aggressive Energy - These were the first cards to come out while I was shuffling. Specifically, these three cards are the most WAND ENERGY of the Wand suit. Five of Wands is aggression and conflict. The Knight of Wands is like my idea of “double fire” and pertains to speed and action, all movement, no thinking. And of course, the Ace of Wands is like Elemental Fire on the level of Divinity — it holds a lot of potentials, a lot of BIG IDEAS that in this set here are just not possible. It’s just a lot, it feels very manic, it’s moving in a bunch of different directions in a small place. It’s very tense energy and very aggressive. With this I saw the image of the boxer again, trying to get this tension and aggravation out through aggressive action and inflicting pain on himself.”

Like, I swear to god, if I could go back in time and slap myself across the face and scream “WAKE UP, SHEEPLE” I would because how did I miss that? How did it take me a month to figure out that Hoseok’s energy center was where the fucking Fire energy was coming into the Soul Body?

This energy was literally his energy center, and it was starting to manifest on a conscious level, or it had been already, but it was just starting to get to a point where “pressure was building” because he, on a conscious level, was pushing it down as it was coming up as severe mood swings, stress, and anxiety — aspects of himself that he prefers to hide.

The Lovers and the 4 of Pentacles were Yoongi — In the second half of 2018 timeframe of the original reading I had pulled these cards as part of a set that would cover the last six months of the year. This is what I wrote about them:

“The Lovers - Some sort of connection with the Guides. Feeling Divinely Guided to do something, some sort of shift. First opportunity to shift or regain actual control. I saw Namjoon and Yoongi for this one so either Mr. Know-It-All-Virgo Man or Mr. Feel-It-All-Pisces Man is going to get the fucking hint and try to do something. This might be the collaborative work.

4 of Pentacles - The low vibration, earthly influence is going to step in. Literally just like the image, trapping them, controlling them for money’s sake. Really putting a stopper on whatever it is that Namjoon or Yoongi is going to do. Kind of tightening the grip, hands around the neck a lot tighter. It’s like if this happens their Guides are going to be fighting with whatever is guiding the people who are restricting them.”

Again it’s so obvious and I hate myself.

Yoongi was the one, as I’ve mentioned about a thousand times, who was the most coherent through the whole thing, he was very aware of something being wrong. He was the only one out of all of them to remain connected to the unconscious mind, and therefore stayed connected to his inner knowing, guidance, and awareness.

In the Rap Line Relationship reading, I shared images of what I had been shown just recently about how the energy was being exchanged, and there was a note on it about how Namjoon’s energy center was splitting the transmissions between the remnant and Yoongi’s unconscious mind. That was why I was seeing both Yoongi and Namjoon here.

They were working together on this, working on establishing a reconnect, but it was happening unconsciously.

The transmission Yoongi was receiving could have put ports in the music in a way where they could have been filled, but as we all know now, a lot of his work was rejected for the albums around that time. So, he was channeling, pretty much filling in for Namjoon, but in a low-vibe manipulated twist of fate, his work that carried the transmissions was getting shut down.

How interesting.

Again, I’m sure it would have fucking clicked if I had considered the layers of consciousness and energy here. I honestly can’t remember why I didn’t.

Brand deals overseas and “time to go” — Within the same time frame as the previous set I had gotten this whole thing about being so run down that the group collectively started to think about leaving or about changing things up in some way in terms of how they work. (December 20, 2018 Edit: Lol, Jin literally dropped the bomb saying that they thought about disbanding earlier this year.) It had to do with them getting sick during the tour, getting injured, being run down and all of this happening because their Guides were trying to get them so uncomfortable with that situation that they had to rethink their position and demand more.

Literally, it culminated around the contract renewal. All of them getting injured and sick or feeling overworked in that tight space of time while they were on tour is what helped them present their demands or conditions while renewing their contract, therefore putting them back (slightly) into a position of power.

The brand deals overseas that I mentioned as well were part of that as it presented more money that they would be aware that they weren’t getting a fair cut of or something like that. Something about the overseas deals making money and appropriate cuts a priority so that, in that way as well, they could take back control or a higher position in a sense.

This is what I wrote about the Time To Go card:

“The three cards in the middle are Imagine, Peace, and Time To Go. They really interested me because they came out like that on top of each other. I didn’t really understand it at first until I had laid out the other two sets and slapped them in the middle. Really, if you just read them out as they are the message is clear, “Imagine peace, time to go.” — They will be overworked and fed up with what is going on, so much so that they, as a group or as individuals, will contemplate leaving the tour, quitting the group, or something would happen to them physically that would literally just put one of them in the hospital again. Again this will be a challenge or a push from their Guides to get them to break away from the bindings that they would potentially be in at this time.”

Namjoon being a focus due to his disconnect — I dropped the ball on this one, I think. The mending aspect to Namjoon’s awareness, his “Deep Knowing” is what was actually being presented here, again, through the level of the unconscious rather than the conscious mind. That is why the focus was on him when it came to their Guides. He is literally the Crown Chakra of the Soul Body, if he is disconnected, they are all disconnected.

They were focusing on him, presenting things to him constantly to try and trigger him into reconnecting. This is why I was seeing the solo album with this set — they were using that as a means to get him re-integrate or merge with his Higher Self again through soul connection or inner awareness.

The reason I was seeing him as being the first or the one to lead the shift in awareness is that, well, he is the fucking Crown. He shifts everything, he leads everything on every level. This was not happening on a conscious level so him being the one to bring things up with the company was an absolute toss, and was more in line with what Yoongi would have been doing as he was more involved with this consciously.

The Leg Up and Go The Distance shit wasn’t something he was going to do or already doing, it was the literal timeline that they were meant to be shifting to. Literally, his Guides were very blatantly telling me that they were trying to “Mend” his “Deep Knowing” so that he could get “A Leg Up” — Jump — to the upper timeline which, as I get to, later on, is represented by Go The Distance.

This is what I wrote for this bit:

“This came out and once I laid them out I instantly saw Namjoon, so this has to do with him. I think he will be the first to really start thinking of ways out or he will be acting as the leader and bringing up his concerns with the company. The Deep Knowing and Mending are there in that energy, him understanding somewhat of what is happening and trying to fix it. This knowledge and understanding of the situation will make it difficult for him to be manipulated, giving him A Leg Up and allowing him to Go The Distance. This bit here read more as potential. Like, right now with the path they are on Namjoon will, for sure, get to this point, but the bottom two cards only stand as an option that he will have.

With this, I was also seeing solo projects or collaboration projects, focus on a solo album or a release of a solo album. I don’t know if that was specifically for Namjoon, but I fucking hope it is because RM was the best album of all time and literally no one can convince me that RM 2.0 won’t be equivalent to the second coming of Christ.

Either way, one of them is going to have some awareness or some sense of being stifled and will branch out and put a lot of energy into solo work around this time in order to speak. (I don’t have confirmation and I didn’t see or get anything about it, but I feel like this is definitely Namjoon because so far he is the only one in BTS that had full alignment with their Higher Selves in their Elemental Alignment reading. He is a highly developed soul, he’s had multiple lifetimes with all of the other guys, and he’s one of the more “Special” cases that their Guides are really focusing on — so I think he’s the one that will be doing this, but that’s just a thought from me.)”

Like, honestly, throughout this whole reading I was like right on top of things but then at the last minute, I would just veer the fuck off a cliff simply because I was focused on the conscious state.

See, this is a great example of why I always tell people that it’s good to be aware of the layers of consciousness whether you’re the one doing the reading or you’re just someone who is reading someone else’s work. Not being aware of all the layers can make what you are picking up on very cloudy and messy, and relatively inaccurate.

Keep that in mind, peeps.

The Soul Body Healing was literally right there — Right after the previous bit in the first half of 2019, the very first card I pulled for the timeframe was the 8 of Wands which I described like this:

“This bit here would be leading from the potential of one or more people in BTS having awareness of the situation and also having the balls to speak up about it to the company. Again, these are in order of how things could potentially play out.

8 of Wands - A lot of energy would swoop in, it actually feels very manic. Like, it would have all built up and the second just one of them opens the floodgates it’s game over. I was seeing connections happening here, like their Guides and their Higher Selves would have more connection to their subconscious and would then be able to give them a bigger shove in the right direction. They would really feel this happen and we as an audience might even see this, might catch it in things they say or do around this time if this is where they end up.”

This was literally the Soul Body healing, like plain and simple, this is what this is. Even the use of the term “floodgates” vibes so hard with the actual healing it’s embarrassing.

The connections were happening through the Soul group on a conscious and unconscious level which raised the vibration enough to direct the energy through to the Soul Body which allowed for the reconnection and restructuring to occur, and then for the connection and reintegration to start happening with the Higher Selves and for their Guides to be more involved.

And yeah, they really felt this happen and, no shit, we as an audience saw it happen, like what the fuck. I’m honestly so mad, I hate re-reading my posts because I’m always like “this is hard to explain” or I’ll say something and it’s just slightly off and I’m like WHY? WHY ARE YOU DUMB? YOU CAN LITERALLY SEE THIS WHY DID YOU WRITE IT LIKE THAT??

Like, honestly, the fact that my Guides literally told me that I need to study more so they can show things more clearly and so that I can understand more is probably due to this shit right here.

Collective shift and alignment with the Divine Feminine — Yin and Yang, the Divine Feminine and the Divine Masculine were a big thing in the original reading and at the time I was completely unaware of the fact that one of the biggest points to the ascension process is a collective (global collective) reconnect with the Divine Feminine.

A lot of people that talk about the shift and the ascension process were alluding to this most likely fleshing itself out more within the collective in the earlier half of 2019. The second half of 2019 is the timeframe that I pulled the Yin card out all on its own, separate from the Divine Masculine counterpart, Yang, and since everything is shifting forward for them, speeding up so that they can be ahead of their soul group and lead a smoother shift, it makes more sense of why that was there.

I was kind of on track with that, I guess, but for the most part, I was still focused on intuitive and emotional connection, which is accurate, I guess, as the “acting through soul/heart” thing is exactly how that would be presented consciously.

Alignment with the higher timeline — All throughout the original reading the “Go The Distance” card was presented as a representative of the higher timeline, the one they recently jumped to, the one that is NOT currently collapsing in on itself and making everyone who’s tied to lower frequencies get even more insane, and it’s very interesting that it's directly associated with the “divine intervention” that occurred through the Soul Body healing by way of raising vibration through the collective Soul Group.

Towards the end of the reading, the potentials were getting very spread out and weak, but the strongest ones were the last two which I wrote out like this:

“The Star - Divine Intervention. Call back to the “Go The Distance” set in the previous section with The Fates and Higher Power. Basically, something beyond their Guides, something of extremely high vibration would actually intervene and set them back to where they need to be. This would be an extreme shift. It’s very unlikely that this will happen, but in a sense, their Guides have already put out a “notice” that they are drifting and being manipulated away from their path, and if necessary they will need to be thrown the fuck back on it, which is kind of out of their realm of capability as Guides.

The Magician - Radical Rebellion. This could either be a solo thing, or this is the result of The Star. This is where they would decide they’ve had enough and basically go on strike or some shit like that. Demand more or just go against the company and low-vibe people every chance they get. Speaking out against them, making music to be released privately, leaking shit, just random things like that. They would take everything they had and use it to change their situation. Again, this is very unlikely, and I do think it really is with The Star and not something they would just do out of nowhere.”

Someone needs to shame me for this because like… I talk about independent layers of awareness and evolution of the human consciousness through ascension, yet I was severely in denial about divine intervention happening in a way that would be noticeable… and then proceeded to fucking man the ship of that divine intervention like a month later… amazing.

It was a “path of least resistance” thing as well, like the same reason my readings following the original outlook reading carried transmissions for the soul group is the same reason I was the one to get the fucking soul map in the first place.

Summation spelling shit out — The very final set of cards at the end of the reading were the most blatant and straight up way of saying, “no matter what happens, this shit is going to get cleared up.”

The ascension itself is a natural process like it’s literally evolution, it literally will happen to everyone no matter what. The stress and the issue with it were that you have all this built up energy, multiple lifetimes that were all leading to this moment in which they, as individually developed souls, would literally be the driving force behind millions of people’s ascension.

Like… would you not be pissed if you put in hundreds of years of work towards letting parts of your body that you cut off to grow into individual people so that they could change the world and shit, and then right at the last minute, in the last lifetime, everything just gets taken away and millions of people fall behind and have to take a slightly more pressurized and potentially traumatizing process towards conscious evolution.

I ask again:

WOULD YOU NOT BE PISSED?

So, in the previous timeline, the Soul Body healing was necessary not only for them to shift up, but for the soul group to maintain a heightened vibration while they were “incapacitated.”

With the current timeline, the one they are on and some of the people in the Soul Group are on, it’s almost like the Soul Body healing didn’t happen because it’s almost like the Soul Body manipulation didn’t happen. It literally doesn’t matter. It existed only to boost them up and to help the Soul Group maintain a higher vibration, and now it’s done.

Pretty much the collective station now is that you are where you are, and now everyone is just moving individually. So, if you jumped timelines already, great, if you didn’t, you will eventually. Just as it is with BTS, the ascension is just happening now. There’s no real need for anyone over a certain vibration or frequency to put effort into it or make a big fuss about it unless they want to.

For instance, I’ve been told straight up that I can stop with the blog and all the readings and stuff and just go back to living a normal human life because I’m pretty much done with what I was supposed to do, but I have the choice to stick around and help people that need it.

It’s on an individual basis now, it’s past the tipping point, so it’s more about being in that Divine Feminine flow, that receptive energy. Just in a space of allowing things to happen as they need to and not allowing yourself to literally stay in a collapsing timeline.

It’s all some shit, isn’t it, lol.

So, let’s get on with the actual reading.

Just to avoid making the same mistakes as last time, I am going to be using a lot of cards and a lot of energy analysis to be sure that I am reading the right levels at the right time. And to avoid making this any longer than it needs to I'm going to write things out as I would in my notebook, just as summaries and notes.

The Reading:

January, February, and March 2019

Overall Energy

Yesod — Root — Connection Raziel — Angel of Mystery Sahaqiel — Angel of Sky

[a move towards completion of the integration through an expansion of self-awareness and questioning the surroundings. ]

Individual Energetic Influences:

Namjoon

Higher Self: Balance Guides: Fork In The Road + Co-Create + Serendipity Conscious Levels: Eight of Cups

[reconnecting to the Higher Self, coming back into merging, being presented with a lot of decisions, another wave of mental shit very similar to what it was like when the soul body healing started to manifest on a conscious level, just a big wave of channeling, but mostly in terms of self-progression rather than transmissions, although, he could still share the experience.]

Yoongi

Higher Self: Nurturing Guides: Mending + Chaos and Conflict Conscious Levels: Death

[has to do with what I got in his solo reading in which he is being asked to take care of himself, but on both ends, he’s contradicting himself. One end is taking things easy while consciously he refuses to do it, so the guides are taking care of both sides]

Hoseok

Higher Self: ‘I Am’ Presence Guides: Come To The Edge Conscious Levels: Nine of Cups + 10 of Cups

[big emotional influx, might be a bit difficult as it kind of implies emotional purging, releasing what he has been shoving down, very open and honest, very free in terms of expression, even if it is just with himself (December 20, 2018 Edit: Literally more of what we saw when he cried during his speech, that kind of release.)]

Jimin

Higher Self: Meditation Guides: Observer + A Change In The Wind Conscious Levels: Two of Swords

[in observation of the others through his Libra-ness, the reflection, seeing them change and reflecting on himself, starting to be reintroduced to the image of himself and his own perception. A slow start mostly focused on the others.]

Jin

Higher Self: Rebirth Guides: Poised Conscious Levels: The Star

[just doing his thing, sticking with his integration as it is now, much more relaxed. He's vibing with his soul pretty hard honestly like he's in it.]

Taehyung

Higher Self: Visualisation Guides: Loyal Heart Conscious Levels: The Hierophant + Temperance

[introduction of water into the system, reconnect through the heart/soul through artistry, homeboy better start painting original shit]

Kook

Higher Self: Angels and Masters Guides: Higher Power + Deep Knowing + Regeneration Conscious Levels: Two of Cups

[speedy integration, lightning quick, the angels and masters imply the domino effect of the soul body, how everyone else will have begun integrating so it will zoom right through him as he is the "last domino to fall." The experiences of the others will fall into him. Will start to reach out to people again, try to gain back the lines lost through that mountain-building thing in his core. Will either reestablish a connection with the fans or something within his personality will be noticeably different to the audience or general public. (December 20, 2018 Edit: Lol, all those selfies and chatroom things that he's been doing recently.) Experiencing emotional connection and awareness, a rise in empathy.]

Energetic Influence By The Month

January 2019

Soul Level: ‘I Am’ Presence Guided Influence: Exchanging Gifts Conscious or Physical Manifestation: Ace of Swords + Ace of Wands

[Coming back into power and leading with their own thoughts and action. Something brand new, new energy entirely. This should be noticeable unless it is literally being exchanged as a seed and the self-awareness aspect is simply the beginning.]

February 2019

Soul Level: Inner Child Guided Influence: The Fates Conscious or Physical Manifestation: The Magician

[reconnecting to the creative influence, back in line with what they are meant to be doing, soul connection through passion and creativity. They will be creating something or something will be springing up, something that has been in the works for a while.]

March 2019

Soul Level: Relationships Guided Influence: By The Book + Happy, Happy Conscious or Physical Manifestation: Justice

[feels karmic, may be related to what comes up in February in terms of coming into their power and directing it. This could be either a break with ties they do not want or connections being made that they do want. Either way, they will be getting something that they want and this will be a “rightful place” kind of thing. This may happen behind the scenes.]

April, May, June 2019

Overall Energy

Yesod — Root — Connection Keter — The Crown — Spirituality Da’at — Null — Emptiness

[integration further progressing, collective Higher Self integration or awareness, fully being guided by the Higher Self or inner guidance. Expanded consciousness and awareness. There something about "physical touching" coming up but I have no idea what that means, maybe a sense of a closer connection through their work or... a meet and greet?? I don't fucking know lol. Something about closer connections on a conscious and physical level.]

Individual Energetic influences

Namjoon

Higher Self: Family Guides: Here and Now + Unfinished Symphony Conscious Levels: The Devil

[Bringing in something more from the past, something in the roots, something that he needs to finish. He’s seeing more of where he kept himself from being able to connect with other people rather than seeing it as something that was necessary or caused by something outside of himself. Could be emotional and mental purging. He could experience stress at this time, might be writing a lot more because of his processing.]

Yoongi

Higher Self: Grounding Guides: Time For A Nap + Yang + Between Worlds Conscious Levels: The Hanged Man

[Still trying to get him to chill out and let things pass. The Higher Self is merging with the physical body and giving that very Pisces “between worlds” and “hanged man” kind of vibes. The grounding aspect may be extremely necessary at that point, which is why Yang, a more physical based and conscious level energy is being presented in order to help things move smoother and avoid any instability. He may be at a point here where the Higher Self has no choice but to relax, or the others will be in a state where Yoongi's Higher Self is comfortable letting them handle themselves the rest of the way.]

Hoseok

Higher Self: Soul Healing Guides: Go The Distance Conscious Levels: The Sun

[Continuing on from the previous set of his now with the soul healing, bringing things to the surface with no ill intent or self-blame. It’s is the very free and open feeling that usually follows the end of an emotional purge. He even has the sun present here some of the other guys did in their solo readings. A great show of the “acting from the heat, living through the soul.” No more suppression, only open honesty with himself and others.]

Jimin

Higher Self: Balance Guides: Poised + A Leg Up Conscious Levels: Justice

[Starting to take that outer awareness and turn it inward, it’s just starting to be turned on himself. Very steady and slow progression. Just like Yoongi, it will move slow and his Guides will give him some cushioning to avoid any instability.]

Jin

Higher Self: Communication Guides: Blessed Conscious Levels: The High Priestess + The World + Wheel of Fortune + Justice

[High vibe shit, full integration, inner communication, awareness, at least on the subconscious level, of the Higher Self and of external Guidance. Actively and consciously aligning making it very, very easy for his Guides to work with him. ]

Taehyung

Higher Self: Self-Mastery Guides: No Place Like Home Conscious Levels: Glitch.EXE

[Break down of that split inner core, may be more existential as a questioning of identity could be presented to him, but it would be for the sake of bringing him back to his core. He may not seem well around this time, maybe a bit off emotionally or seem shy or reserved. He would be more aware of his "many faces" and therefore become self-conscious again with how he presents himself and how people see him.]

Kook

Higher Self: Inner Child Guides: Flexible Conscious Levels: The Chariot

[Again, following the others through the process, very malleable. I’ve mentioned somewhere before that Kook’s energy is very moldable and can be guided very easily. That’s what this is here. He’s bending and flowing along the path of the integration process with the others, he's following the paths that the others have formed through their own progression. This leads to very quick conscious expansion as well. Very quick creative output. He may work more on solo things around this time or there would be an influx of creative expression, sharing his work, wanting to talk to people more.]

Energetic Influence By The Month

April 2019

Soul Level: Rebirth Guided Influence: No Place Like Home Conscious or Physical Manifestation: Knight of Cups

[It’s more like things are settling in energetically, this can play out as things externally falling into place as well. Something quite happy and positive can come from this. Even just a break in the integration, like some "quiet time." I've seen that in personal readings where there would be a huge influx followed by a month or two of nothing at all just to allow everything to settle back in. It's a time to restructure and become familiar with the new energy so that there is a smooth foundation for the next wave.]

May 2019

Soul Level: Universal Light Guided Influence: Flexible + The Fates Conscious or Physical Manifestation: Ten of Cups

[This is like an extension of the previous month. Whatever is positive within the King of Cups is expanded on and “sparked up” into the 10 of Cups by way of pure alignment on all levels between all seven of them with the layers of consciousness and guidance. This would be the next wave. Literally, it's like the Knight of Cups was the "appetizer," just something to give them a taste of those cups, and here is the full course meal of that Divine Feminine energy, the receptive energy.]]

June 2019

Soul Level: Clarity Guided Influence: Message In A Bottle Conscious or Physical Manifestation: The Empress + Wheel of Fortune

[That alignment brings about some level of understanding or inner knowing amongst the seven of them. It’s something that will cause them to consciously want to shift their foundations, change things, move with the Higher Self and their Guides. Moving closer towards their purpose collectively. This is like the conscious integration of the 10 of Cups, it's how they sync up and start to move with each other again. Something big could come from this with public perception as well as they could release something or do something with their work that has a positive impact.]

July, August, September 2019

Overall Energy

Azrael — Angel of Death Netzah — Right Leg — Endurance Keter — The Crown — Spirituality

[Implimenting change on a physical level, riding the ascension, potentially experiencing difficulties adapting. Purging connections to old timelines, rapid ascension. This could be stressful again. Really feeling a lot of migraines as the Crown Chakra for all of them would literally be opening, they would all start channeling the way Namjoon does, just taking in energy, which may overload some of them. They could seem tired here.]

Individual Energetic Influence

Namjoon

Higher Self: Inner Child Guides: Clean It Up Conscious Levels: Knight of Wands

[Moving inward towards his passions, starting to remove self-doubt and self-criticism. Acting on his passions, acting from the heart, speaking up more. Bolder movements. Breaking down certain structures either on the conscious level or in his own perception.]

Yoongi

Higher Self: Spiritual Awakening Guides: Yin Conscious Levels: Ace of Wands

[Connecting on a much deeper level to the Divine Feminine, connecting to Divine Inspiration. Just like Namjoon, he will be much more likely to act on his passions, speak up. This may be more internal though. Namjoon and Yoongi will be in sync again.]

Hoseok

Higher Self: Soul Healing Guides: Building Blocks Conscious Levels: Judgement

[Becoming more critical of the ego, dismantling the ego through self-analysis. Expansion in self-awareness. He could also seem disconnected from the others, or just quieter in general as he would be in a state of contemplation, very much vibing with The Hermit in a way. Very in his head around this time. It might not be noticeable to the public unless he's at a point where he would share it, but I don't think he would be.]

Jimin

Higher Self: Dreams Guides: Mending Conscious Levels: Three of Swords

[Becoming aware of subconscious blocks. Repressed memories coming to the surface, being guided to “face his demons” on a superficial level. This can be very stressful, but it is part of the process of cutting ties with past trauma, struggles, and lower frequencies altogether. Subconscious purging, following Hoseok's trigger with self-reflection and the collapse of negative perception. Jimin may have a harder time with this depending on whether Kook and Hoseok are in positions to help him through it.]

Jin

Higher Self: Play Guides: Here and Now Conscious Levels: Queen of Pentacles + Ten of Cups

[Extremely comfortable. Resting period following the integration, very similar to where Yoongi is meant to be right now in terms of the Higher Self being asked to or allowed to chill out and relax while everything settles. On all levels, things will be very smooth and “by the moment.” He’d be in a great position to help any of the others that were struggling at this time. Lol, he can help Jimin.]

Taehyung

Higher Self: Peace Guides: Come To The Edge Conscious Levels: The Tower

[This seems to be one of those “hands off the wheel” kind of moments in which Guides and the Higher Self will literally take a step back and allow the individual on their own to consciously break through some of their own blocks. Based on the presence of The Tower, I assume that’s exactly what will be happening here. With Come To The Edge, it’s literally like they’re setting him up for exposure therapy, but allowing him to have complete and total control over the situation. This could be an extension of his previous state, may be much more stressed out with it as his own reality that he built up, that house made of faces, is pretty much getting smashed down and he has to actually look people in the eye without anything to hide behind. That's very scary for him, but the presence of Peace is the cushion that he'll have just like everyone else.]

Kook

Higher Self: Visualization Guides: Treasure Island Conscious Levels: Two of Wands

[An “introduction” to rapid manifestation through independent pursuits. Coming into his own being after sticking to the paths that are laid by the other guys. Either planning or executing a solo project of some kind, trying to expand on it and grow it as much as possible. Wanting to see it expand past his expectations. Feeling more like an "adult" or feeling more separate from the others in a positive way. Some of those anchors that he has in Jimin and Taehyung may start to break away so that he isn't literally being dragged through everyone else's path, he can start pursuing his own. Depending on how this comes up, he could carry himself differently, maybe talk more in interviews. He'll really try to present that image of "independent adult."]

Energetic Influence By The Month

July 2019

Soul Level: Creativity Guided Influence: Observer Conscious or Physical Manifestation: Knight of Wands

[In line with what Namjoon and Yoongi are experiencing here in this time frame in terms of taking inspiration and starting to implement it more, act on it without any fear. The aspect of observation I think comes from the members that are not at that level yet, that frequency output will trigger another shift in them to help them keep progressing.]

August 2019

Soul Level: Angels and Masters Guided Influence: Regeneration Conscious of Physical Manifestation: The Chariot

[Collective integration most likely following that state of observation on the collective level between the seven of them. It causes them to align and shift together all at once, leading to a more rapid movement on the physical level. A lot of changes could occur around this time, or just a lot of hubbub, in general, surrounding them as a result of this.]

September 2019

Soul Level: Rebirth Guided Influence: Loyal Heart Conscious or Physical Manifestation: The Hanged Man

[that rapid movement gets halted through another shift internally, something that gets them all on the exact same or similar frequencies that are close enough to have them aligned at the soul. Depending on the person they could waver a bit, be a bit off physically or mentally, could be tired or seem to be not very clear or focused.]

October, November, December 2019

Overall Energy

Keter — The Crown — Spirituality Gevurah — Left Hand — Judgement Phanuel — Angel of Truth

[Air of finality, higher levels of consciousness and clarity. Ushering in a “new age” or a “new era” of things. Very open in terms of accepting inner and external guidance on all levels. Could potentially experience another timeline jump or have completed their jobs here in a sense, or at least what was meant to be done as a group.]

Individual Energetic Influences

Namjoon

Higher Self: Determination Guides: Unfinished Symphony Conscious Levels: Ace of Wands

[Being directed towards bringing something to completion, fulfilling his individual purpose. Separating from the group to return to his original ideas and plans.]

Yoongi

Higher Sefl: Universal Light Guides: Fork In The Road Conscious Levels: Two of Pentacles

[Being presented with the opportunity to fulfill personal life purpose or soul fulfillment. For Yoongi, especially on a soul level, it seems to be difficult for him to separate himself from the group as he feels like he can’t trust them to progress fully or stay on track on their own, so if he's still in that position where he's comfortable with where the others are at and they are in sync, he'll be in the same boat as Namjoon. He'll be in a position to relax or step towards his personal soul purpose and fulfillment, whatever that may be. He seems to have more choice with it than Namjoon, or less of a plan than Namjoon.]

Hoseok

Higher Self: Spiritual Awakening Guides: To Be Fair + Between Worlds Conscious Levels: Six of Cups

[Cuttting ties with past timelines as well as past lifetimes collectively, a final clearing out of lower frequencies. Very wavy energy. Could be doing the same as the others and disconnecting from their "contract" with their group soul purpose, especially if it is completed at this point in time. The To Be Fair and Between Worlds here really feels like this kind of "payout" for the physical and mental struggle and pain he endured through the process. Like, he'll have room to move through things independently as that receptibility will either loosen or become so open that it's not even noticeable to him anymore.]

Jimin

Higher Self: Inner Child Guides: Loyal Heart Conscious Levels: Wheel of Fortune

[Bringing forth the Inner Child, the soul’s passion and living through the soul after dismantling the internal blocks. A noticeable change, maybe noticeable confidence boost. Very free, not so timid. Louder even. There's a lot of comforts here, he may still want to stay connected to the group or connected to the group work, but there is a shift with how he connects to them consciously. It's a release of that co-dependence.]

Jin

Higher Self: Psychic Development Guides: Go The Distance Conscious Levels: Ace of Swords

[Just as with the rest of them he will be seeking out his personal life purpose and soul fulfillment. Very similar to Jimin in the sense that he will be more open, more self-serving, very confident with his decisions and movements. Very excited to see what he does around this time.]

Taehyung

Higher Self: Inner Strength Guides: Flexible Conscious Levels: The Hanged Man

[Still a bit behind but progressing. Being shoved in the right direction towards inner connection. Not afraid to see his own true self, but maybe still a bit hidden away when it comes to other people, especially the public. Being put in positions where he can slowly step out of his core and express through the soul like everyone else. This can come through solo ventures as well or separation from the group dynamic, sort of forcing him to be around more people in a vulnerable position.]

Kook

Higher Self: Life Purpose Guides: The Fates Conscious Levels: Ace of Cups

[Something quite big, something to do with what he was planning or setting out to do in the previous timeframe. Alignment and even direct fulfillment of his personal life purpose, which brings around a very high level of fulfillment on a conscious level. A real break out of his dependency on the other guys on a conscious and soul level. Very nice.]

Energetic Influence By the Month

October 2019

Soul Level: Universal Light Guided Influence: Happy, Happy Conscious or Physical Manifestation: The World

[Alignment with the self towards self-fulfillment, fulfillment of soul purpose on an individual level, opens the door for collective fulfillment. Incredibly bright times. The presence of The World as the physical manifestation suggests completion of the group soul purpose. There is finality, the bringing in of the "Universal Light," the Sun energy, the projected higher frequency.]

November 2019

Soul Level: Communication Guided Influence: Peace Conscious or Physical manifestation: The Fool

[Complete integration, expanded awareness, ascension at equal levels. The “new era.” The Fool card is the first in the deck, number 0, and it would follow the ending of a cycle with The World, the final major arcana. This shit really is like a new fucking era entirely omg.]

December 2019

Soul Level: Divine Wisdom Guided Influence: Higher Power Conscious or Physical Manifestation: The Sun

[...the fucking SUN bitch... the SUN. Collective integration on equal levels, projecting and manifesting on a conscious level. The Sun, living through the Heart, living through the Soul. Collective consciousness being tapped into. High Vibe. Incredibly beautiful energy. Something magical. Absolute completion of the group purpose, full integration, potentially shifting the collective to a higher timeline.]

That is all, thank you for reading! And have a happy New year! :)

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[sweet-teeth-mfs]

Ooo how about a list of Namjoon's headcannon kinks?

Oh ANON. Why would you….?

RIGHT. LETS DO THIS. 

So I made the argument that this guy is the best dom, and yes this is still true but let me tell you…headcannon!RM is a versatile creature, just like the man himself*. 

Loves taking people out but only if there is good food, something to drink and preferably somewhere to talk, chill and have fun. 

Lowkey hates being in public though, as he feels he has to be ‘on’, so might be the type to hit a party and then leave for somewhere more off the grid.

Would be the type to talk to you constantly whilst wandering around town, noticing shit that no one else does - like crazy street signs. 

But after getting you home? 

In my mind there’s a two way split - you either enter the door marked RM IS HERE TO OWN YOU / or the door marked / RM WANTS TO PLAY

Playful RM: Loves to dance with you as he charms you, plays you records in the apartment, shows off his figurines, hums along whilst he flirts with you, casually throwing you suggestive winks, the occasional kiss that hints at more, slightly rubbing against you when your bodies cross paths, will drape his arms over you to completely engulf your body before he picks you up and carries you around…and he morphs into… 

Dom RM: Will pin you to the wall in a HEARTBEAT the second you get into the house. Will then proceed to - yes dear reader - carry you bodily to the bedroom. Loves to hold you up off the ground. Feels like a giant when he does so. 

Tying you up? Maybe, but what he’s definitely into is making you suffer. 

When I say suffering I don’t mean angst.

I mean this babe will eat you out for HOURS.

Will literally be like - here’s the deal - hardcore wanting you to be pleasured beyond your own capacity to even compute that shit. He’d get to a point where it was a source of pride. 

Like, he’s the best and he’s made sure EVERYONE ELSE KNOWS IT. 

Like he will try and MAKE SURE EVERYONE KNOWS IT by making you moan as loud as possible. 

He’d never make fun of you for your volume tho, instead he’d lowkey want to record that shit and subtly sample it into his music, I mean, keep it for himself on lonely days….

He’d coax the best sounds out of you until you are literally begging him repeatedly to OH GOD RM STOP FOR GODSSAKE $£^$£^FML

Then, and only then, would he consider himself physically, and get right down to fucking you good and proper. 

Which means any way you want really, (he’s quite open) but he’d love to watch you - so he’s probably got all manner of neon/nightlight/candles to illuminate your body in the dark. Even if its just the light from the city outside the windows he’d try and find an angle so he could light your body up. 

Cause he loves to watch you cum

RepeatedlyI better stop…. 

*FYI This is my first headcannon thing so be kind. 

#anon asks #WHY #lists #answered #Edie’s opinion #fuck that noise of RM only being a mean dom #headcanon

[radiant-flutterbun]

A Little Lost and Lonely

The Murder Trio Part 4

Previously

        Nullity was the first to leave. Without bothering to communicate with her siblings she sought out Inkdrop and asked her to take her back home to her girlfriend's house. Nos left not too long after that. They went back to their mother's house.

       Only Nepenthe remained in Sornieth. She wanted to track Naperone's trail. But Sepulchral stopped her.

        “Guerra is already on his trail,” He pointed out “I think he wants to kill him himself.”

         “But I was supposed to!” Nepenthe growled “I was supposed too…”

         “Maybe you were wrong.”

          Nepenthe glared at Sepulchral “I'm the Goddess of Revenge! What better destiny than to take revenge on my father by taking his life? He's ruined plenty. It only makes sense to take his to make up for everything that he's done.”

           “Listen Nep, I'm not trying to defend Naperone. I know he's a bad guy and I hate everything he's done too but… I don't know it's just worrying that this is all you care about.”

            Nep’s feathers rose along her neck as she growled once more “I thought you of all people would understand why this is so important to me! I guess I was wrong. About you, and my siblings.” She sulked away from Sepulchral and slumped in a lonely corner of the clan’s lobby.

           A black nocturne with hot pink spikes, and a nose ring approached her.

           “Hey,” he said and held out a paw “Name’s Eumoirous, I'm the God of Shared Interests and I don't believe we've properly met before.”

           Nep stared at his outstretched paw for a moment and did nothing “You're Sepulchral's friend.” She said.

           Eumoirous put his paw back down “Yeah. Why?”

           “He told you to come talk to me, didn't he?”

           “No. I came over because you looked like you needed some company. But if you don't want any that's fine. I'll leave.” He began to turn around when Nep looked up at him.

           “Wait! Please… please stay.”

         “Alright,” Eumoirous sat down next to her and they were both silent for a moment “Hey, you wanna come over to my place? I live in the Land of Love. You ever been there?”

          “No and it sounds awful.”

         “Oh it is. My sister has decorated it with pastel colors and flowers. It's absolutely appalling.”

         “Why do you want to invite me?”

         “Because I think you need a friend other than Sepulchral.”

         Nepenthe puffed up again “I have friends! There's… there's… I guess Nullity was my friend,” she frowned “Whatever. I don't need any other friends. I lived most of my life alone. I can live the rest of it alone too.”

         Eumoirous shrugged “Alright. You wanna live an eternity alone. That's cool. You do you.” he began to get up again when Nepenthe grabbed his arm and yanked him back much harder than she intended.

       “Wait! Fine. I'll go. But only to see how stupid those flowers look.”

       Eumoirous smiled “Alright. Let's find Inkdrop.”

       ***

      Inkdrop dropped the two gods off next to the palace gates.

The Land of Love was exactly as Eumoirous described it. Full of pastel colors and fields of flowers. Hummingbirds and butterflies darted from flower to flower, and all of the buildings resembled dollhouses. The palace was no different. It was pastel pink and built like some sort of giant Barbie doll mansion.

Now away from Sornieth both Nepenthe and Eumoirous were in their true humaniod forms. Nepenthe stood taller than Eumoirous with freckled dark ochre skin and long black curly hair. She had the same dark red eyes as her dragon form, and thick muscular arms. Her feline ears were tufted with black fur and at the end of her long tail with a neon green pitch fork symbol.

Eumoirous was not only shorter than Nepenthe, but was skinnier with no muscle and he had pale white skin. He had neck length black hair that fell over his face, covering one of his purple eyes. Nepenthe could tell his hair was dyed because his natural brown roots were starting to show. Like Nep, Eumoirous’s ears were also tufted. Unlike Nep his face and ears were covered in piercings included his classic nose ring and snake bites. He was dressed in all black and on the tip of his tail was a pink heart.

“Well you weren't lying,” Nepenthe said “This place is horrid.”

Eumoirous snorted “Tell me about it! But hey, at least it makes my sister happy. C’mon, I’ll show you around.”

Eumoirous led Nepenthe inside the pastel pink mansion. The inside wasn’t much different. It was pink with lacey furniture and more flowers. Eumoirous took Nepenthe onto the second floor, where a black door stood out among the pink. Signs were plastered onto the door that included a skull and crossbones, a ‘do not enter’ sign, and a Green Day American Idiot album poster.

“Is that your room?” Nep guessed.

“That it is,” Eumoirous confirmed and opened it, revealing black painted walls that were mostly covered with posters of various things. From a quick glance Nepenthe spotted Undertale, The Walking Dead, and Panic At the Disco Posters. Snugly fitted in the corner of his room was a single bed with messy skull print covers. In the front of his room was a desk that held up a holographic computer with a monitor that was two feet across. The room had several windows but it was dark from the heavy blinds that blocked out the sunlight. From large speakers in the room My Chemical Romance played.

“As much as I love MCR, I’m going to turn it off just this once,” Eumoirous said “Because I brought you here for a reason. You’re lost, Nep.”

Nepenthe frowned “You brought me here cause you pity me?”

“No. That’s not what I said. Look, Sepulchral is your only friend isn’t he?”

“... So what?”

“I’m not trying to make fun. It’s just, as great as Sepulchral is he’s not always around when you want him to be. He’s been my best friend since we were kids, and i’ve learned that even though he wants to always be there for me, he just can’t. And that’s ok. But you can’t rely on him for everything.”

“I don’t. Because I don’t rely on anyone.”

“Yeah and that’s not good either. There’s no shame in wanting to be close to people. What I’m saying is… I don’t really have any friends other than Sepulchral either. And I’m not the best with people but… I don’t know. I just thought maybe i’d be able to help you with something I have trouble with myself.”

“So… You brought me here because you wanted to be friends?”

“I guess? If… If you want to be?”

“I don’t know you.”

Eumoirous’s ears flattened “So… that’s a no?”

“No it’s just… I don’t know what to think of you yet. But… yeah. Sure. I’ll try to get to know you. Why not? It’s not like anyone else wants to talk to me.”

Eumoirous perked up “Cool! Cool… um so. Let’s get to know each other better I guess? What sort of things do you like to do?”

“What do I like to do?”

“Yeah. Like any hobbies? Interests?”

“... I’m good at hunting. I can track and kill animals and cook them and skin them.”

“I know you had to do that stuff while living on your own but like… Do you actually like to do that?”

Nepenthe blinked “Like… Do I enjoy killing things so that I don’t suffer myself?”

“Yeah. I mean that’s cool if you enjoy hunting. Lots of mortals do. There’s a few moral and ethical concerns that could be debated about the practise when it’s just done for sport but that’s a whole ‘nother conversation.”

“I would never kill an innocent creature for sport. Only out of necessity.”

“I see… So. You don’t really enjoy hunting, do you?”

Nepenthe bit her lip “No… No I guess not.”

“So what else to you like? Like… any goals you’re aiming to accomplish?”

“I wanted to kill my father.”

“But that can’t be all that you wanted to do with your life.”

“I… I can worry about that after I kill him. Him being eliminated from existence is the only thing that matters now.”

“So, you literally don’t care about anything else?”

“Naperone is a monster. Of course killing him is everything that matters.”

“I already know he’s a monster. He took my mother away from me and tortured her.”

“... That’s right. You are Oxytocin’s son.”

“Yeah. So I already know just how much of a monster Naperone is,” Eumoirous sniffled “Knowing how much Oxytocin was suffering because of him, and knowing there was nothing we could do for her… It hurt. It fucking hurt so much. But you know what I did? What my sister did? What Reflection did? We lived. We continued to live and do the things that made us happy, because that’s what Oxy would have wanted. Sure maybe they were just distractions from the horrible situation Naperone put our family in, but it was something. What I’m saying is, I think you need to find some distractions too.”

“But don’t you want Naperone dead for what he did? Don’t you think he deserves it?”

“Of course I do. If it were up to me, I’d make him experience everything he made my mother feel. But you know what? It’s not up to me. Naperone is somewhere on the dragon planet. I wouldn’t know how to find him or capture him. So I just have to accept that and move on. My mother is safe now. She’s damaged, but repairable, and as long as she’s safe she will heal. So rather than focus on some impossible revenge, I’d rather support my loved ones. I’d rather just continue to live my life, and not let Naperone taint it anymore.”

“So I should just… let it go? Let Naperone go?”

“Yeah.”

“But I can’t do that.”

“And why not?”

“... Because… Because I don’t know what else to do.”

“Then, why don’t I help you? I’m the God of Shared Interests after all. It’s literally my job to track the interests of mortals and how they use these interests to connect with each other. It’s how the mortals find purpose to their limited lives. It’s how they distract themselves from demon influences. It’s how they live,” Eumoirous gestured to the posters plastered on his walls “It’s worked for me. These are some of my favorite things that mortals have created. Playing horror games, reading fanfiction, listening to punk rock, they’ve all worked as excellent distractions from the awful reality that is the world. They helped me be me. They helped me find happiness even when the Goddess of Joy herself was miserable.”

“So… You want to help me find another interest other than wanting to kill my father?”

“Yeah. I think it’ll be good for you.”

“But what’s in it for you?”

“Uh… Friendship?” Eumoirous smiled awkwardly.

“I still don’t understand why you’d want to be friends with me.”

Eumoirous shrugged “Why not? You don’t seem like a bad person. Maybe a little lost, but that’s ok. I mean if you don’t want to be friends that’s cool too but… I don’t know. I’ve never been very good making friends. I’m lucky enough to be friends with Sepulchral, but he’s a busy guy and he can’t always be there when you want him to. It’s not his fault. And i’m ok with that but. It’s lonely.”

“Well… I guess that’s one thing we have in common then,” Nepenthe said “And friends are supposed to have some things in common, right? So, I guess we’re on the right track then.”

Eumoirous smiled “Yeah! Yeah, I guess we are. So uh. You wanna figure out what sort of things you like? You don’t seem like the type who’d like video games, or My Chemical Romance very much. Or maybe you do, but I think I know something you will definitely like. So you don’t like hunting because that involves killing something, but what about target practise? You’ll be using what you already know from hunting, but without killing anything! We have some targets out back. Believe it or not, i’ve got a pretty good aim at a crossbow. So why don’t we go outside and do that with our favorite weapons?”

Nepenthe shrugged “Sure. Why not?” She summoned her spear.

“Ok great!” Eumoirous summoned his crossbow and led Nepenthe outside where the targets were. There were already a few arrows lodged into some of them.

Nepenthe aimed her spear, and she threw it. It just nearly missed the middle.

“Wow! Good shot!” Eumoirous said, clearly impressed.

“Feels weird to aim at something that’s not alive.”

“Yeah. I think i’d feel weird to hit something that’s alive,” Eumoirous said “I’m lucky. I’ve never had to use my crossbow on anything, or anyone.” He aimed and shot. His arrow didn’t hit to middle, but it wasn’t too far off.

“You certainly know how to use that though,” Nepenthe commented.

“Yeah. I like to practise with it. But I think I’d be too scared to actually try to hurt anyone with it. Even if they’re a monster.”

“So you wouldn’t even hit Naperone with it?”

“I would if I have to. But I wouldn’t be happy about it. Don’t get me wrong. I want Naperone to be in pain. I’m just a coward.”

“I don’t think that’s it,” Nepenthe said as she retrieved her spear and threw it again, this time it hit the target dead in the center.

“Holy shit. Good job!” Eumoirous cheered “But what do you mean?”

“You’re not a coward. You’re gentle.”

Eumoirous was in the middle of shooting his crossbow again, but Nepenthe’s words made him jerk back and the arrow missed the target completely “Sorry, what?”

“You’re gentle.”

“What? No I’m not!”

“Oh. Sorry. I didn’t mean it to be an insult.”

“I’m not gentle. I’m tough. I’ll admit I’m a coward. But I’m a cool tough coward! I’m not sweet or gentle! Not like… Not like Niossa.”

“Of course you’re not sweet and gentle like Niossa. You’re sweet and gentle like Eumoirous. And that’s not a bad thing.”

Eumoirous’s ear flicked “But I… I don’t know. Sorry. I just don’t want to be seen that way. That’s the way my sister is supposed to be. That’s how I was expected to be. Because gentleness… That’s typically a pretty feminine coded thing, you know? It’s not that men can’t be gentle or that women have to be gentle… But… I’m… I’m a trans guy. And I don’t want to be associated with typically feminine things if I can help it. I know it’s stupid. Maybe it’s wrong. But I just don’t like it, ok?”

“Ok. I’m sorry. I really didn’t mean to offend you. But if you don’t like it, I won’t call you that. But gentleness really isn’t something to be ashamed of, and it doesn’t invalidate your gender.”

“I know. You’re right, but. I’d really rather not talk about this.”

“Fine. Subject dropped then.”

The two continued their target practise, neither saying anything.

Finally, Eumoirous spoke “So uh. You having fun? Or you wanna go do something different?”

“Yeah. This is pretty nice. It’s relaxing too. But I’d like to try something new. I want to listen to this My Chemical Romance you keep talking about.”

Eumoirous’s eyes widened “Uh… I don’t know… It's just this edgy angsty music mortal teens listen too…”

“But you seem to like it.”

“Yeah, But I like a lot of dumb stuff so…”

“Hey you’re my friend. So I’d like to try out some of the things you’re interested in.”

Eumoirous grinned “I’m your friend?”

Nepenthe smiled back “Yeah. Yeah you are.”

“Then yeah! C’mon I’ll go find my favorite song and we can listen to it together! And… And if you want we can play some horror games. Only if you want to though!”

“I think I’d like that.”

Eumoirous smiled “Awesome!” He took a step forward.

“Oh and Eu?” Nepenthe stopped him.

“Yeah?”

“Thank you. I think… I’m a little less lost now. And a little less lonely.”

“No prob. I’m glad to help. I really am.”

“Now lead the way! I want to hear your favorite song! And then I want to play your favorite games. Even if I don’t like them, I’ll still be happy to learn more about the things you like.”

“Yeah! And if you do like them, then that’ll be really cool!”

The two gods entered the dollhouse looking palace yet again and made their way to the second floor with Eumoirous’s bedroom. Once inside Eumoirous turned his music back on, and Nepenthe found herself excited to hear it. She was excited to share the moment listening to her new friend’s favorite songs. Maybe the music wasn’t exactly her taste, but it was clearly important to Eumoirous, and that fact made it enjoyable to listen to.

Nepenthe and Eumoirous spent the night playing horror games and listening to various albums of My Chemical Romance, Panic! At the Disco and Fall Out Boy. And not for a single moment did Nepenthe think about her father. She was too busy having fun.

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