#no. i just have ocd.

[knifegremliin]

turns out the ocd has been Symptoming for a hot minute and fucking up everything and I Didn't Realize 👍

#🔪.text #and i feel Extremely Stupid about it!!! #literally there was like a giant fucking neon sign saying ''THIS IS BEING CAUSED BY OCD'' and i. was completely oblivious to it #not a fucking clue. #like buddy. dude. yes there is a reason why you are obsessing and ruminating and obsessing and fucking everything up #MAYBE BECAUSE OF YOUR OBSESSING DISORDER. #DUMBASS. #HEAD IN HANDS. #sorry i am feeling very stupid about this LMAO #literally been fucking up relationships and obsessing and thinking i'm an awful fucking person. #no. i just have ocd. #LITERALLY KEY SYMPTOM. #THE INTRUSIVE THOUGHTS MAKING YOU FEEL LIKE A BAD PERSON DISORDER #GOD. #i always say my ocd is extremely mild and i feel like i shouldn't even say i have it but. #that is. clearly Not True!!!!! #anyway. at least i've finally realized #will at least help me to not feel as awful now #nor fuck everything up as much hopefully #because at least now i know it's my ocd being a little asshole #anyway will probably delete this later lmao #i'm just feeling stupid about this ahgnjkmld

[supposedlyahuman]

tw: Examples of reblog bait/people trying to guilt others into reblogging stuff. I am not actually saying the things below, they're just examples that I have seen.

I fucking hate when people say stuff like this. Especially when it's on a generally good post with valuable information. On the one hand I want to share that information because it could genuinely help someone; on the other, I don't want to spread this type of guilt-tripping and shaming and potentially trigger someone else like me. It's a lose-lose situation. No matter what I do, I am going to feel guilty. No matter what I do, I will feel like a terrible person. It sucks and I just wish people would stop doing this. I know it's shocking, but it is actually possible to make an important and useful post without guilting everyone that sees it into sharing.

#in general i just don't reblog anything that tries to guilt me into reblogging it #there have been so many times where i consider reblogging something and then see people saying the stuff above #and i automatically move along because i can't handle interacting with that sort of thing #moral ocd #serious #my thoughts

[teaboot]

Not to be absolutely unhinged but I think that if I buy enough tiny plastic tubs to continue breaking down every possession I own into discrete categories then eventually I will live in a home where I don't constantly have a large pile of completely miscellaneous nicknacks in the middle of the floor constantly and forever until I die

Current box count is 56

#Do I tag this as autism #Is this an ADD thing #Or is this just another one of the lord's freaky gifts #Who knows #I'm having fun #I think #The spreadsheet says I'm having fun #Yippee #God I love sorting things #This isn't OCD by the way this is voluntary and enjoyable

[excali8ur]

They

#A dooble. Because. #art #tmnt #rottmnt #rottmnt leo #2012 leo #tmnt 2012 #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #teenage mutant ninja turtles #tmnt fanart #rottmnt fanart #leo #saverottmnt #Anyway it's actually unrelated to why I drew this (it was just a doodle that went too far) but I like the HC of 12 Leo having OCD #As if he doesn't have enough on his plate to deal with- #Also this doodle is kind of ambiguous but I really dislike that meme lmao #Sorry for making you the one to say it Leo but it’s you that I constantly see saying it in art svjdbdkdb

[saturnsocoolioyep]

In the same vein as "I've been taking my medication for long enough that I haven't experienced any symptoms in a while, I must not need to take it anymore! (Spoiler alert: the meds are why you haven't had symptoms)" I present to you a similarly clownish thought process- "I haven't experienced that trigger in a long time, maybe I was just exaggerating how bad it was and it'll be fine to engage with this! (Spoiler alert: take a fucking guess babes)"

#on a definitely unrelated note the contamination obsessive thoughts are in fact still there and still upsetting #turns out when you take care to avoid things that trigger and upset you... #those things still trigger and upset you even if youve avoided them for a while #😱🤯 #ptsd #cptsd #trauma #recovery #disabled #autistic adult #actually autistic #<- idk if thats a good tag or not it just came up suggested when i typed autism so #ocd #<- not dxed and not even sure if i feel comfy self dxing w ocd but i definitely have upsetting obsessive + compulsive tendencies + thoughts #that i struggle with a lot so #medication #trauma recovery #triggers #arfid #disability #neurodivergent #neurodiversity #audhd

[lazylittledragon]

Not trying to be rude or anything but you shouldn't use the word 'manic' or 'manic period' etc. unless you actually have manic/depressive episodes because it downplays how severe those disorders can actually be. They're just words but unlearning harmful terminology like that can help destigmatise mental illness and I would hope youi would want to do that.

yeah it's almost like i used those words specifically because i DO understand how severe they are

#ramble #what's that post about how some people only see ideologies and concepts and not human beings #yes we should stop throwing terminology around like nothing but also #that is not the biggest problem neurodivergent people have right now #and also you're asking me to disclose my conditions to strangers so you can decide how i'm allowed to speak #also this isn't the point but i don't know anybody who uses the word 'manic' to describe their symptoms unless they have FELT IT #because it's. so specific and you do not use it unless you know what it means #for me a manic phase doesn't mean just a little energy buzz it feels like i'm on fire #anyway please don't waste your time sending me things like this because i don't like it #go after etsy shops who sell ocd merchandise not people talking about their own struggles

[charlotte-family-apologist]

For the MK requests... maybe SubScorp sharing adoring looks (cue Takeda and Frost gagging because ew, those are their dads)? Or the Kombat Kids + Frost resting in a cuddle pile after a long mission? Whatever inspires you more!

This took forever bc this is my first time drawing Hanzo and I had to keep redrawing things 😭

#i will be getting to the rest of the requests dw #my dumbass just decided that i wanted to color them :)) #I colored the previous ask and I have to keep it consistent (ocd man...) so all reqs will probably be colored #also wanted to add that doodle #also idk how to draw beards 🤪 #kuai liang #hanzo hasashi #subscorp #kuaihanzo #frost mk #mk frost #takeda takahashi #mortal kombat #mortal kombat fanart #my art #digital art #art requests #cfa art

[batfamhyperfixation]

Tim had his spleen removed, right. This means he would not be able to withstand bacterial infection as well (a.k.a. getting sick, which happens a lot when people get injured or sleep deprived cause their immune system weakens), so for his own safety, he would likely take care of himself more than the other bats would care for themselves. He probably wouldn't get in a fight he knows he would badly lose, or win but get very injured during. Tim would be the calm and calculating one. He already is deemed as smart and a great detective, so that makes him even scarier.

He gets a reputation as a vigilant far more dangerous from his siblings, cause he perches like a bird above the fight, but if he gets involved, then the villains know they're goners. If it's Dick, Jason, Steph, Cass, even Damian and Batman himself, people don't get as intimidated, but should Tim come in, they back off so fast. In this essay I will...

#like if you are gonna fanon Tim #fanon him right #the boy is not a self-sacrificing never-sleeping always-taking-risks person #he is a repremand-bruce-when-hes-injured wordlessly-hands-you-a-bandaid stands-on-the-side-watching-the-stupid-stunt 'I told you so' bitch #he is safe and judgemental about those who aren't (his whole family) and he is a bitch about it #tim drake #tim drake robin #tim drake red robin #tim drake headcanon #when someone in the family gets sick Tim starts having panick attacks and refuses to touch them or anything they touch #when covid hit Tim literally spiraled and ran away to a safe house. he hand sanitized everything. he double masked with those quality masks #Tim was that person who screamed at people not wearing masks and if someone looks sick he will barely touch them and handsantize constantly #he always has those little travel bottles of hand sanitizer on his person #i just think Tim would have contamination ocd especially after his spleen is removed #like he doesnt like to touch people or be in crowded places because of this and he likes cleaning cause it makes him feel more in control

[nookisms]

Oops. It's a second headcanon compilation!

Don't worry, the next one will be back to our normal schedule of regular text posts and not headcanons

Masterpost

#Dark Meta Knight #Shadow Kirby #Meta Knight #Kirby #King Dedede #Daroach #marx kirby #Magolor #Bandana Waddle Dee #Bandana Dee #Marx #Kirby series #kirby headcanons #text post meme #disability headcanon #okay I wanted a particularly exhausted Dedede so I snagged him from triple deluxe #i just think Dedede would have chronic pain from. you know. getting torn in half that one time #before you come after me for Magolor's panel: I do not think ocd and intrusive thoughts make you do bad things #I just think he already had it and the Master Crown made it worse (via lingering magic from the possession) #i dunno how mental illnesses work in aliens that use magitech #I had a lot more here but I decided I'm not going to continue rambling in the tags #I can expand on any of these headcanons at any moment if you want feel free to ask #also I saved that Kirby one for last because I thought it would hit with oomph #she speks #she speks originale #she edits #yes I'm working on the masquerade I am just obsessed with making text post memes

[sqwdkllr]

anon from the Cucu and Watcher ask, I'll use 🐑as an identifier:

THANK YOU SM IM EATING IT UP SO MUCH

And nooo pls don't worry about people not liking to see it. They can block the tags if they don't like it. Feel free to do as you will :)

I personally would be very excited to see more of the definitely only enemies in future, but you do you!

- 🐑

They can do morally inhumane human experimentation together ❤️ trust

I want you to know I listened to “masochism tango” while drawing that req. felt fitting ! Anyways have more just because

#if only they had an actual ship name for ppl to be able to block out… #until one gets popularized I guess I’ll ball #it doesn’t bother me if ppl get annoyed. I just get embarrassed if ppl I FOLLOW see it #I could care less if someone don’t like it #BUT IF I SEE ANOTHER NOTIF A FAV ARTIST OF MINE LIKES ANOTHER POST OF MINE ILL EXPLODE #OCD moment when my fear says so and so could happen even though I realistically recognize that’s insane #anyways these evil freaks should kiss and make up or make out #they have a lot in common and sooo much more in contrast #ask #anon #my art

[cherryblossomriot]

I think alot about serizawa.

that he's so powerful and so sensitive, and how he's the very common Shonen anime trope of "villain with tragic backstory who just needed friends and is won over to the hero's side after the hero listens to them and shows them kindness" but like, his tragic backstory is so grounded in places others just aren't? like, he just didn't want to hurt anybody, so he hid himself away. that's so simple, yet so poignant and painful, so...normal. its such a common emotion, such a common solution. its not a healthy one or a "good" one, but its all he had...and then at some point, his self-imposed isolation became so hurtful to him that it caused him to become vulnerable to exploitation. to manipulation, and he became a weapon in a never ending cycle of violence, until someone was kind enough to listen to him, to want to help him.

and then i think about the fact that that person was just a child who had experienced the exact same struggle but was provided tools by people who loved him to help manage his problems....and it honestly makes me so emotional. because, like, it's a perfect allegory for how living with mental illness affects people.

serizawa is older than mob, so the society he grew up in didn't know how to handle his powers (mental illness/neurodivergency), but now, as times have changed and society has become increasingly more aware, it opens the pathway for people to find strength together, to have people in their lives that understand that they need kindess, they need love, that their mental illness isnt something bad or wrong.

but even more than that, they know that their differences do not make them bad people, they are not something to be shunned and hidden away, but just something to be worked through. just a unique aspect of how that person is, and it's neither good nor bad, just how they are.

and then i think about how serizawa didn't have anyone like that in his life until he was 30, and how those years of isolation and then manipulation (which caused him to do the very thing he was afraid of), how all of that could have broken him could have made him unloving, could have made him bitter. but instead, he overcame his fears, his guilt, his shame, and under all of that, he's just kind.

when i get really afraid, of myself, of the world, when i want to myself hide away and never leave my bed, my room, i think of him, and i feel so comforted, so much less alone.

what a wonderful man, written so gently, so lovingly. it's so rare to see a grown man with a stigmatized symptom of mental illness depicted in such a kind way, it makes me want to hug ONE through a phone screen.

anyway, uh. yeah katsuya. i think he's pretty neat.

#and the fact that the person to show mob kindess is reigen #and serizawa in so many fics is the one to pull reigen out of isolation #like WAGHH the PARALLELS #the full circle of it all #chomping on glass #crying screaming throwing up #mob psycho 100 #serizawa katsuya #reigen arataka #shigeo kageyama #serirei #my personal headcanon is that serizawa has ocd but thats just because i too have the oh cee dee #also the fact that ive never seen a hikokomori depicted so well in an anime like...ever? #or at all? #honestly huge props to ONE for this one #haha see what i did there #okay ill shut up now

[maplemaplemaplemaplemaple]

(lyrics are from the song Not What I Needed by Car Seat Headrest!)

happy birthday, psychonauts. i miss whispering rock as though it were a real place

ref image under cut:

this game is so gorgeous it makes me want to yell. how were they doing this in 2005 .

#i have so many sentimental feelings about this game even though ive only really known it for a year. sobbing weeping #first played it i was sort of coming to terms with myself. like i was making good ocd recovery progress and getting to see myself in sasha #was just so so lovely. and i do fixate on sasha specifically a lot but whispering rock as a whole is just so magical to me. cant do words #its probably cliche to say that something 'feels like home' but it really does. wahhhh #its 3am and i like videogame.maple #psychonauts #razputin aquato

[mothfinite]

hey cool fun fact for other selfshippers obsessed w organizing things: you can organize your f/o list in whatever way feels best for you.

if you wanna list every character you consider an f/o, even if you dont really talk abt them, thats wonderful! big f/o lists aren't a bad thing.

if you have a list of f/os that isn't public just so you can remember them all, thats perfectly fine! if you have a lot of f/os and struggle with memory issues, do what makes you comfortable.

if you just wanna list the ones youre most focused on, thats great! just because some are unlisted doesnt mean you love them any less.

if you only have one f/o but you still wanna dedicate a whole info page about them, thats amazing! you love that character so much, you deserve to show your love in whatever way you want!

there is no rules for your f/o list. you can do whatever you want forever!!!!!!

(ok to rb, pr0ship/c0mship dni)

#IDK IF THIS IS RELATABLE FOR ANYONE. i just have ocd and struggle eith things feeling too overwhelming if they dont look perfect #self ship #self ship community #self ship positivity #oc x canon #f/o community #safeship #safeship positivity #꒰ sunshowers.exe ꒱ 🪷

[arkiwii]

ok absolutely going insane about Saria so I'm going to ramble about how I imagine how she'd be in bed because you see. sex is character development.

I joke a lot on "Saria is a bottom" but in all honesty, I don't like forced roles and I think she can handle both very well. HOWEVER

at the start of the relationship, she would be topping. not just because she wants to, but because she feels like she needs to. a huge part of Saria's character is that she's pushing expectations on herself, constantly. and those expectations are that she must be the one to protect what is dear to her, that she must be strong, that she must show responsibility, that she must not let her emotions be a bias... basically who she was when she started at Rhine Lab. Rhine's Shield. a woman of diamond. being a top means that you're having power on the person you're topping. you're in control. Saria feels like she needs to do this role, because she has to please her partner and meet expectations. basically? she's being a service top.

and this is conflicted with her fear to disappoint. she's forcing a role upon herself, but she's constantly scared that she will fail. that she might hurt the other person, or not be good enough, or just not meet what they want. it's a constant obsession and because of this, she can't enjoy this position.

BUT, she loves bottoming. it may be a bit humiliating at first, but then she realizes she just loves to lay down, let herself be entirely in the hands of her partner, and enjoy herself. she doesn't have to be scared, there's no fear to have, and she perfect trusts that the other person would not hurt her, and whatever they may do, she loves it, she loves to receive, she loves her partner so so much and doesn't hold expectations for them.

and by god, she loves being pegged down, she loves feeling it, because she can just let everything out. she can scream, claw the sheets, let herself go as much as she can. all these emotions inside her can be unpacked at this moment and she doesn't have to be worried about consequences.

but I think that it doesn't mean she would never top, or that she could never. it's a whole learning, she will have to trust herself, to trust her partner, and most of all, she will have to learn to do it not because she needs to, but because she wants to. Saria loves to give, she loves her partner so much, she wants to give it to them, have them relax as she please them, and that's purely because she loves them. so when she's ready, when she managed to get rid of her own expectations, when she trusts herself and her strength, she would be ready.

I don't think it's a good thing to tell Saria "it's ok if you hurt me", because that means you're telling her that she can hurt you, and likely would, and that you would just not say it to not hurt her. that's bad, that'd feed her obsession. rather, it would be better to tell her "it's fine if you're not ready, we can wait until you are". she doesn't have the only option to be topping, it can always come later. be easy on her, and she'll be easy on herself

#i believe in ocd saria #yes that's a whole analysis on her #and THIS DOES NOT ONLY APPLY TO TRANS HEADCANONS #it's important to say it because saria's fear doesn't HAVE TO come from having a dick #most than anything it comes to her expectations and her person #that's what is important in her character #(not saying you can't headcanon her as trans im just not a fan of “i have a dick that means I'm dangerous” trope) #(nah she's a Vouivre she's constantly repressing herself) #arknights #nsft

[salsa-di-pomodoro]

Has anyone ever thought of the possibility of people in hisui getting a magazine from AFTER ingo and akari go home with either or both of them on it. Like they've already left and lo and behold in the tail end of the entire mess a magazine appears with one of them on the cover looking fresh stunning and most importantly happy. If it were Ingo i feel like he'd be all dressed up goth on the cover of like Vogue or something lmao (i don't think he wouldn't get famous if he wasn't already after coming home. Theyd want the publicity+cool extint Pokémon on the cover). If it were akari shed probably be like posing all badass like the badass teenager she is, scars in full view (she's a survivor!!!!!!). Inside is a little tidibit of their life after coming home. It would be both funny as hell to see them react to how they are in their element and like connect the dots for their strange behaviors AND bring closure to the people they left in hisui. They may never know this but the people in the past do

If anyone uses this idea tag me i may or may not read it but i want to know if you liked it enough to do something with it. I'll probably just keep daydreaming to myself about it lol

Edit: btw there's a whole section talking about everyone's battle prowess and the battle subway for the funnies. Just so you know

#ingo #ingo pokemon #subway boss ingo #submas ingo #pokemon ingo #warden ingo #akari #pokemon akari #akari pokemon #why do they have so may tags #anyway hello people this idea has plagued me mind enough for me to make a dramatic comeback to the tags #i will now disappear again for untold amounts of time #i wish i could be here #but my brain decided to do a funny and annhilate me with ten thousand ocd beams every time i see a smidge of content- #-that even vaguely implies angst. even in my mind lol (<-suffering from the horrors)(doing FAR *FAR* better than i was even just- #-a few months ago tho. just get the occasional panic moment. ig we cant have everything) #anyway goodbye gamers see you in five to ten business months #submas positivity #oh btw last thing emmet is def there with him #maybe not on the cover but in other photos inside of the magazine they all posed together #yes elesa also #i have such a clear view of this curse my undeveloped drawing abilities #jkjk im not being mean to myself lol im getting better #just imagine him on the cover posing with chandelure and sneasler and zoroark in the background and theyre all menacing #except him cause hes smiling so genuenly happy and like kind looking. something something ghosts don't have to be scary

[decepti-thots]

the thing about minimus having ocd is like. we do not talk about that man's intrusive thoughts enough. (we do bc i don't want to see the fandom pretend they know what intrusive thoughts are, but yknow) because you can't turn that into 'haha he's quirky and uptight' cute ship fodder ig. but you know that he has unhinged intrusive thoughts. i know he would be dealing with Some Shit in his brain. i am mentally giving him relationship ocd every time i ship him and it is not even slightly fun. i also know he has mentally envisioned half his coworkers' violent deaths and painstakingly explained to himself why this does not mean he ACTUALLY wants them dead, except he genuinely doesn't like drift so he spiralled about that one probably. he was like ah fuck. but i DO hate drift, what if imagining him getting improbably murdered meant something that one time, help

#i have a Vision (the vision is just Actual OCD) #it will never be realised but i have it