#lin manuel miranda you are a fucking genius i love you

[felizusnavidad]

HAMILTON IS SO FUCKING GOOD

#i dont even know what to say #i really dont #i just finished it and im crying like a fucking baby rn #lin manuel miranda you are a fucking genius i love you #give this man every award he deserves it #hamilton #but sincerely can you hear me?*

[pianostarinwonderland]

Hot take of the day: Coral Sea event except TWST introduces a new character in the event and it’s not Azul’s parents or the Leech twins’ sketchy family or even Prince Rielle, but TWST Lin Manuel Miranda and he’s just lamenting over the fact that people wouldn’t listen to his music.

#twisted wonderland #twst #LISTEN LET ME BE A SOGGY KEYBOARD FOR LIN MANUEL FOR A MINUTE #him: breathes me: oooooo you’re so sexy for making the sexiest pieces of music ever #the amount of time I spent analyzing his fucking songs in Encanto and Hamilton the absolute GRIP this man has me on #AND LISTEN TWST LIN MANUEL IN CORAL SEA EVENT WOULD BE ABSOLUTELY PERFECT #HE LOVES LITTLE MERMAID AND HE EVEN SAID HIS FAVORITE SONG IS UNDER THE SEA #HE LOVES SEBASTIAN BECAUSE HE FEELS LIKE HE’S A MOOD #BOTH OF THEM JUST WANT PEOPLE TO LISTEN TO THEIR MUSIC AND LIKE RHRHRHRBRBTJT #it’s ok Mr Miranda I’m here to listen to your music 🥰🥰🥰🥰 #if Lin Manuel has 10000 fans I am one of them. if Lin Manuel has 100 fans I am one of them. if Lin Manuel has 10 fans I am one of them. #if Lin Manuel has 1 fan that fan is me. if everyone is against Lin Manuel then I am against the world. #anyway I think I’m a genius @ Yana you want to make TWST Lin Manuel so baaaaaaaaad

[pop-pop-pop-popculture]

2016-2018: OMG I LOVE LIN-MANUEL MIRANDA!!!!!! #YAYHAMLET⭐ CINNAMON ROLL???? MORE LIKE LINAMMON ROLL TOO GOOD FOR THIS WORLD. "MY SON, LOOK AT MY SON. PRIDE IS NOT THE WORD I'M LOOKING FOR!" HE'S AN ADORABLE INNOCENT PUPPY WHO MUST BE PROTECTED AT ALL COSTS 🥺😍❤️ SO TALENTED AND A FREAKING GENIUS!!!!

2023: [sees Lin-Manuel Miranda is involved in a film whether it's acting or writing a song/songs (or both)] Ugh, my God. He's everywhere! 🙄 He doesn't need to involve himself in every single project he writes music for! Lin needs to stop writing music for a little bit and stop working for Hollywood all together. #antilinmanuelmiranda #antilmm

Me: 🤨 So do we like/love Lin-Manuel Miranda or not? Pick a lane and make up your damn mind, people.

FUCKING FACTS.

• • • On a realistic note, though, he has to make money somehow. However, oddly enough, I can see where the haters (former fans or not) are coming from. I admire him and am a fan myself, but even I will admit that his consistent affiliation with Disney is overkill. I know Disney wasn't brought up, but I said that because any film produced by that company is where we see his name the most if you really think about it. Now, I don't mind him writing music for Broadway musicals and original musical films, because that is a God-given niche he possesses a natural-born talent for, and I want him to do that the rest of his life, but my man needs to unaffiliate himself with Disney and focus on auditioning for serious films. Alongside continue writing music for Broadway and original musical films. Like I said a while back, I want to see Lin-Manuel Miranda portray a cold-blooded psychopath in a psychological thriller, bulk up to portray a soldier in a fictional war film, or even star in an action movie that is 1988's Die Hard-level great. Oooh... a doctor!

I'm not picky. 🙂

(I totally went a little off-topic, I'm sorry.)

#ask #answered #2023 #pop culture #lin-manuel miranda #lin manuel miranda #celebrity

[whispsofwind]

After rebloggling countless gifs I am basically almost done with His Dark Materials s1, and I wanted to write down some quick thoughts (years late I know I know)

Under the readmore in case someone still hasn't seen it

It's overall a really well crafted series: it keeps the pace well, the characters are endearing, the writing is solid, and dear Lord the scene when they try to put Lyra into the machine gave me shivers.

I am also really interested in what they are doing with Marisa, with all this hidden ferocity and self hate and almost monkey like mannerisms, which are not a T to the book but work really well imo. And Lin Manuel Miranda is surprisingly not too distracting (usually. Oh Lee my darling).

Already including Will in S1 was a genius stroke of the adaptation process. While it does diminish a little the moment of "oh fuck there are other worlds" in the book, I feel like it's much better in terms of pacing to introduce him in s1, so that the TV only audiences won't be immediately turned off by a sudden setting change in s2. Also Will is. So. Good so far! Loves his mum and is angry and he's patient and gosh, this kid.

CGI is also usually very good, but here I begin with the nitpicking: really not enough attention is devoted to the daemons, so you really don't get how essential they are to the concept of personhood and how unsettling it is to see someone without them (that said that scene with the caged daemon repeatedly hitting their head against the cage was so heartbreaking). Also not enough attention is given to the taboo, like, that doctor sexually assaulted Lyra and Pan, but you wouldn't get it without knowing the books (and in fact I had to explain it to my boyfriend who hasn't read the books and was confused on why Pan clearly wasn't expecting to be grabbed).

My second problem with the series so far is Lyra herself - the actress is magnificent, don't get me wrong, she does amazing with what she has, but I feel like the show is really trying to make her as likeable as possible, and in particular tones down the lying quite a lot. Which, I feel like such a big part of Lyra's character is that she is this wild, selfish, lying little girl, that she is brave and impulsive and courageous and mischievous and well - everything really. The show really gets her positive sides to shine, but not the negative sides so much, and I feel like this diminishes her.

So far I am overall satisfied with it as an adaptation and loving it as a show.

Next episode is the Lyra - Iofur showdown and I can't wait to have time to watch it.

These books were so important to me as a teen, it's such a joyous experience to relive them like this <3

#hdm hbo #his dark materials

[showtoonzfan]

https://youtu.be/bJS0miHn5aQ

WARNING: MENTIONS OF SUICIDE AND TRUAMA, DO NOT READ OR CLICK THE VIDEO IF YOU CAN’T HANDLE THESE ELEMENTS

So you may have seen this person floating around the Hamilton Fandom, and why wouldn’t you? Their animatics are AMAZING! I guess I should say now that yes, Hamilton is one of the musicals I adore. I can’t really say what anyone else has already said about this musical, it’s just a phenomenal show with great music, an amazing story, and SPECTACULAR actors. And yes, Lin Manuel Miranda is a musical genius. Anyway, back to this animatic! I decided to watch this one in particular, an animatic of a song called “Help” by “Pink guy”. It showcases Hamilton depressed, only for the end to have his whole life flash before his eyes, flashing images appearing on the screen. That is my FAVORITE part in the whole video, so please check out this person’s channel and their other work, because they are an amazing artist! Now why do I come to you today? Well, I was scrolling through the comments section, and I saw one comment that stuck with me, which was this:

Why did it stick with me? It stuck with me because, well.....that’s exactly how I view Alexander, just an annoying cheating prick who couldn’t appreciate what he had and always wanted his voice to be heard and to go bigger. He’s a character I despise, yes.....I know that’s a strong word but I despise him in the musical, and I’m not saying his writing was bad, I just don’t like him as a person for obvious reasons. Let it be known that I’m not talking about the big man HIMSELF, I’m just talking about his character in the MUSICAL and nothing else. So yeah, in my eyes he’s just an unappreciative asshole who, while he wanted to do what’s best, ended up making dumbass decisions and hurt his loved ones in the process, even being responsible for the death of his son (but that’s just my opinion). However, after this comment, I have to admit one thing.

I’m guilty for ignoring all the trauma he went through when I shouldn’t.

Hamilton’s mother died in his arms when he was little, his father left, his cousin committed suicide, the war happened, John Laurens died, his battle against Jefferson and Madison (as well as Burr) drove him mad, he had an affair and published it to the world, causing his wife to move away and resent him for years, his SON died, and despite being forgiven in the end, he met his own demise when Burr killed him. I think as a society, wether it be written characters OR real life, we need to realize that no matter how bad the person themselves may be, their trauma shouldn’t be ignored, no matter what. Trauma is certainly an important thing, it can change someone, it can either warp their mind and make them worse, or it could make them learn, causing them to grow as a person over time...and most importantly, it could be both.

I know I don’t act like it, but believe me when I say that I LIKE flawed characters, especially COMPLEX characters, which I don’t like, I love. If you ever really want a character to uphold to your audience, don’t have them be perfect, because NO one is perfect. Have them fuck up, because you want to prove that this could happen to ANYONE. This appeals to Alexander. He’s not one note, he’s a whole bunch of things, and yes, he’s a very complex character and I’m so thankful for that. I don’t like what he did or how he acted one bit, but he’s a flawed character. He fucked up, and when it comes to this, I think it’s fine to have a character do this (in his situation) AS LONG as they get the consequences coming to them, and that they grow as a person and LEARN their lesson.

So.....did Alexander suffer for his actions? Yeah, I would say he did. He couldn’t be president like he wanted, his wife hated him, and his son died. Did he learn his lesson and grow as a person? Well, on that subject for me personally, I hesitate. On one hand, during the song “Best Of Wives And Best Of Women”, the LAST time him and his wife are together before he duels, we see him writing something. Eliza comes to him and tells him to come back to bed, but he says he wants to finish writing, since he states he has “a meeting at dawn”, which surprise, is the duel. What he’s writing in this scene is his farewell letter to her because he knows he’s going to die, but she doesn’t know that. She tells him she’s going to bed, but before she leaves, his last words to her are “Best of wives, and best of women”. This little moment they share in the end, the last scene they have with one another is way too short, but the moment is strong none the less, and when you think about it, I think Alexander DID finally learn to appreciate his wife, everything she did, EVERYTHING they went through.

The other hand is him sacrificing himself. In the musical, he clearly chooses to die, putting his gun up in the air and letting Burr kill him, because he knew burr was going to shoot back. However I get a little confused, because I don’t know if Alexander originally planned to shoot back, and only then decided not to in the heat of the moment, or if he planned this when he was talking to Eliza for the last time. I dunno, but one thing is clear, in the end he chose to. At first, I was like “Dude really? First your dumbass did all of this, and now when you finally get your wife back, you leave the earth to make her even MORE upset?” But then I realized that I didn’t take 2 things into consideration. One, Duels back then were kinda a must, you’d be seen as weak if you didn’t go through with it. I’ve seen so many people say “why didn’t this man just stay home”, and yeah, I said that as well, but after looking at research of what a Duel truly meant back then, it’s understandable why he did, no matter how much it pisses me off lol. The second thing is the most important thing, the key to why I NOW think Hamilton actually DID learn his lesson....

He finally threw away his shot.

Throughout the whole musical, Alexander is constantly saying “I’m not throwing away my shot”, meaning he’s not going to miss an opportunity that gets handed to him. He gets the opportunity to let his voice be heard about the revolution, he takes it. He gets the opportunity to join forces with Washington, he takes it. He gets the opportunity to lead the soldiers in war, he takes it. Just like burr says, he takes and he takes and he takes. But finally, in the end, in the very end......he didn’t fight. Throughout all the screaming and the constant urge to protect his legacy and what he stood for, he FINALLY let it all go the minute he raised his gun in the air.

He could have fought back like he did with Jefferson. He could have wanted to not let his name be tarnished, not die at the hands of someone who used to be his friend, but he didn’t. He raised his gun in the air, and told his wife to take her time. Live on. Let me just say that the monologue Hamilton performs right before he’s shot is amazing. The bullet comes to him in slow motion, and he debates to himself what to do. Should he fire his gun or let it be? Then he asks himself what a legacy is, something he kept striving for, to protect his legacy. The line that I think is the most important is “You let me make a difference”. Here, for me, it seems like he finally learned that he did what he wanted. He changed the world and let his voice be heard, and now, he can rest, and let his wife live on, who will soon carry his own name. Basically what I’m saying is, I think he learned his lesson because after trying to do so many things throughout the entire musical and NEVER giving up, he finally did. It resulted in his demise yes, but he still let it all go, creating a life his wife could live in. And yes, I think he did finally learn to appreciate his wife.

So what are my final thoughts? Well, if I’m going to be honest, I still don’t really like Alexander as a character. It’s mainly all the mistakes he makes, mainly the freaking CHEATING that pisses me off but I WILL SAY THIS. After this talk with.....basically myself, I think I’ve now learned to appreciate him and respect him (just a tad) as a character, but not just as a character, as a human being. I know that doesn’t sound....big, but believe me, it’s a huge thing when you take into consideration that I didn’t like this dude AT ALL. Like, every time I saw him on screen I wanted to wring his neck so......(also it doesn’t have to do with Lin’s acting lol, just the character.) So yeah, what I just said is saying a LOT. I will once again point out I don’t think the writing for him is bad, it’s honestly phenomenal if you asked me, it’s just the actions. But again, characters are flawed ya know? So my friends, as we come to a close, what do YOU think of Alexander’s character in the show? Do you like him? Do you think he learned his lesson in the end? Do you think he should have been forgiven? Let me know in the comments if you want! Thank you for reading as always, and I’ll see you in the next post! 👋💕

Oh.....uhm.....what do I think of the REAL Alexander Hamilton? Uhm..........not a really good person, but a man who had a huge affect on our world, so....props to him for that. But he’s still not a good person in my eyes really......okay bye.

#Youtube #alexander hamilton #hamilton musical #Hamilton #broadway #hamilton broadway #lin manuel miranda #my opinion #some theories in here #WHY COULDN’T HE SAY NO DAMMIT #eliza hamilton #Hamilton Lin Manuel Miranda #disney #Disney plus #stage show #musicals #musical talk #character rants #unrelated

[londonspirit]

Tick Tick...BOOM!

Well, he’s done it again - made something magical and joyous and incredibly wonderful as only he can do! That man’s incapable of doing anything shitty. Not that I’m complaining, but he’s setting the bars pretty fucking high every damn time!!! 

Yes, I am talking about the genius that is Lin-Manuel Miranda and his debut as director! I mean, DUH, is anyone even still surprised? He puts everything in every single thing he does so I shouldn’t be too shocked about the insane LOVE that you feel with every second of Tick Tick Boom. 

Of course he would pour his heart and soul of his beautiful caring being into it and make sure we as viewers can see it, hear it and fucking FEEL it!!! That man should be a fucking SHELL of himself after putting it all into something that’s sooooo close to his heart and yet he’s out there, being his magnificent lovely self! 

UGH! I love that man so much, and I’m so very much in love with this film. I’ve also fallen madly in love with Andrew which fucking SMASHES it. As does everyone else in this, but his Jonathan is just mind blowing!!! I don’t even have the words to describe WHAT it is, but you feel what he feels, suffer with him and are happy for him. He’s just fucking perfect and you wanna protect him from all the harm! 

Some might say I’m biased (fuck yes, I am!) but knowing what I know about Lin and his love for anything Larson, I expected it to blow me away. And he did not disappoint. 

The attention to detail, all the tiny bits and bobs -and the MASSIVE ones-, the actors, the locations, the songs… god, it’s a fucking masterpiece and I can’t stop raving on about it! 

I’ve watched it three times now and am still amazed and impressed and speechless about the whole damn thing. 

(Yes, of course I’m very much in love with all the insane cameos he managed to sneak in there (is it still sneaking when it’s  basically all his people and half of Broadways big  names???) - I squealed through all of ‘Sunday’ because that was ASDFGHJKLÖÄ!!!!) 

I cried less than 2 minutes into the film, and by the end I was just sobbing. 

Yet it wasn’t a sad film. It was full of life and joy and a deep appreciation for the struggles of artists’ lives (and I know there’s a LOT of Lin’s own life in there). It’s my new happy place and a film I’ll go back to when I’m having a bad day or hard times. (already have as right now is a bit tough for me). 

So yeah, this are just some ramblings about something that Lin fucking NAILED once again and which will live on (and I’m sure he’ll appreciate that a LOT!). Here’s hope they’ll get ALL THE DAMN AWARDS cause they all fucking deserve them!!! 

So go and watch it and fall in love with great music and the most fantastic film!!!

#personal #tick tick boom movie #ttbm #tick tick boom #tick tick boom netflix #lin-manuel miranda #lin manuel miranda #lmm

[the-immortal-dream]

Fic Masterlist

So, I've noticed that fic posts usually get lost in the sheer masses of things I reblog and that's why I'm creating this masterlist. I'm going to update this whenever I post a new fic.

JatP

For the love of April (Series) (in progress)

(mpreg, 2/3 of the canon character deaths) What if Alex was pregnant the day of the Orpheum? Eventual Willex.

The Beginning

Plans, Songs and Butterflies (not in that order)

April

The Orpheum

Like Sister like Brother

Love's worth the pain

(ep 9 au, Willex) After the Orpheum, Alex doesn't go back to the garage with Reggie and Luke. He needs to talk to Willie before it's too late.

Supernatural

to not wasting second chances

(15x18/15x19 fix-it, Destiel) If he could have just one more moment with Cas, just enough time to tell him I love you too, Dean would give up everything for that.

Dean Winchester is saved

(15x18/15x19 fix-it, Destiel) Dean hates the fact that it took him twelve years and Cas dying too many times, and one final time. He hates that, had Cas never confessed his feelings, he’d still be happily pretending he’s straight. There was a time when he cared about things like that. A few years ago, Dean would have punched anyone who even dared to suggest he was anything but straight. Now, he can’t bring himself to care, and he wonders why he ever did. Looking perfectly straight isn’t so great anymore when the love of your life is dead and in a place you can never follow him to.

Shadowhunters

Some demons have wings, and angel blood in their veins

(Bamf!Magnus, background malec) The only people who can use seraph blades are nephilim. Somehow, that is one thing every single being in the shadow world agrees on. They disagree on almost everything. Who is more powerful, who should rule, what makes a person evil, should all demon-blooded creatures be killed? There are a thousand different answers to that, depending on who you ask.

But, this one thing everyone agrees on. No downworlder can wield a seraph blade. It simply won’t light up for anyone but the nephilim.

One of the only things in the world shadowhunters and downworlders agree on. And it’s wrong.

Runes don't make a man (Series) (technically in progress, but can be read as three-shot)

(Deruned!Alec, Teacher!Alec, Malec) Alec gets deruned, meets Magnus, says fuck internalised homophobia, marries the man and becomes a history teacher. Years later, Jace and Izzy crash back into his life on their quest to get Clary's memories back. (This also has Hamilton themed titles because I love Hamilton)

It will have been worth it

In New York you can be a new man

Take a break (from your idiot brother)

Criminal Minds

Who I Am (might be a surprise to you)

(Singer!Spencer) Spencer Reid: Genius, agent and profiler.

Penny Taylor: Singer, mysterious and the object of Garcia's newest obsession.

The only problem? Spencer Reid and Penny Taylor are one and the same. And the team is about to find out as a case hits a little too close to home.

Hamilton

In the Eye of the Hurricane (in progress)

(Reincarnation AU, Lin gets elected President without his knowledge) You’d think he’d remember being Alexander the moment he picks up Ron Chernow’s biography. Or when he starts writing Hamilton. Or when he puts on the costume for the first time. Or literally at any point during the year of playing essentially himself. But no. Of course he doesn’t. He remembers while watching the voting results of the 2016 election being counted. And as he watches the white of an independent candidate moving past the line marking the majority, he thinks well, fuck. I guess 200 years of waiting paid off.

*

Or: Lin-Manuel Miranda is the reincarnation of Alexander Hamilton and realizes that fact embarrassingly late.

Umbrella Academy

Klaus Katz saves the world (Series) (in progress)

(AU, Klave, Modern Dave) Klaus meets Dave at 21 and promptly falls in love. Many happy years and learning to live with and control his powers instead of drowning them out with drugs follow. (Because Dave actually wants to help Klaus when he suggests learning control and quitting the drugs, unlike the asshat known as Sir Reginald)

How David Katz saved a life by falling in love (in progress)

How Klaus Katz saved the world by being a good sibling (planned)

#fanfic #fanfiction #jatp #julie and the phantoms #alex mercer #willex #willie #mpreg #supernatural #dean winchester #castiel #destiel #shadowhunters #malec #alec lightwood #magnus bane #deruned #bamf magnus bane #criminal minds #spencer reid #singer spencer reid #hamilton: an american musical #hamilton #alexander hamilton #lin manuel miranda #reincarnation au #umbrella academy #klaus hargreeves #klave #masterlist

[selfcareparker]

LMAOO I WAS GONNA BRING UP FALCON AND THE WINTER SOLIDER BUT I WASNT SURE IF YOU WERE WATCHING IT HSKAJ (are you liking it? i know it’s only the first episode but ya know, another one tomorrow night- well tomorrow night for me, and did you like wandavision?? i loved it!!)

oh my goodness i’m watching lion king while writing this and i haven’t seen it in a while and i am..... emotional. but anyway, i love that streaming services think that imma pay for them while they charge $50 a month. like yes of course i have that kind of money and i am going to give it to you to watch tv 🙄 that $50 is budgeted to sims thank you. (ALSO SIMS!!! i’ll get to that in a minute) now see if i don’t google levidia right this minute LMAOO, not that i’m gonna use it.. just for the research...

AND HDKSHS SEND THAT CHAOS WALKING LINK LMAO i saw it for the third time with a different one of my friends and she wasn’t the best one to see it with? she literally was on her fucking phone and i was like ok whatever her loss not mine, and idk if you’ve read the books or if you’ve seen it by now, but by the end of the whole movie, after they’ve confirmed THE THING throughout the whole movie she asked the dumbest question and i’m like diD YOU NOT WATCH THE MOVIE, and i guess she didn’t. so. this sounds so vague but i don’t wanna spoil the movie for you just in case lol.

THE STORY LMAOO, so A DIFFERENT FRIEND LOL, like my oldest bff, we had a day together and we wanted to go see chaos walking. and i honest to God thought that no one would be seeing this movie. like NO ONE. every day, i checked the theater seating and no one was there right? plus i really wanted us to have the theater to ourselves. so we sit in the wrong seats, the row in front of us, STILL THINKING WE’RE ALONE. and then these 3 older people came in AND IM ABOUT TO SCREAM FHSJSH AND IM LIKE “are we in your seats?” and they we were like uh yeah, AND IT WAS SO BAD LMAOO , we’re moving and everything would’ve been FINE but my friend’s reclined seat was going down so slow and as it’s going shes LITERALLY SAYING ALOUD “awkward awkward awkward” so she thinks forget it, lemme just get up. HER BAG GETS CAUGHT ON HER CHAIR AND HER FRIES AND THEY SPILL ALONG WITH HER HONEY MUSTARD 😭😭 ALL OVER THE FLOOR! so i’m trying not to laugh lmao but those aren’t even our seats and we just made a mess, so naturally, i get on the floor and start cleaning it up with my napkins (this is going for too long) AND MY FRIEND IS STILL SAYING “awkward awkward awkward awkward” and i’m really abt to crack up bECAUSE LIKE SHUT UP HAHAHA and we’re cleaning it and shit and the oldest lady is gonna say “yeah you’re not gonna make an old lady get on the floor, are you?” AND I WANTED TO LAUGH AND SCREAM AT THE SAME TIME BC DID WE ASK YOU TO, NO, so then i had to get the manager and she helped us clean it, we got new fries and everything was fine, it’s just a crazy story bc LITERALLY WE COULDVE AVOIDED IT AND EVERYTHING BUT THESE ELDERLY PEOPLE HAD TO COME AND SEE THIS MOVIE😭😭 at least the gentlemen was nice.. he helped us clean. but then his wife was like “i aM nOt siTTiNg tHeRe” and at first i thought she was a teenager bc of her stink attitude but her husband was nice. and it’s not like we weren’t cleaning it up, we were!!! like i was so apologetic- anyway.

about sims! do you play console or pc? wait,, you already told me you play pc bc your computer was broken, i’m glad you can play now though :’)) litetally when i read in the tags that you’re playing sims !!!! and are you hyped for bunk beds? i have cc so i’ve had them for a bit, but they were glitchy... but i’m so excited we have them now! i should really play sims today...

GURL IM SO PROUD OF YOU 🥺🥲 i know you aren’t fluent in everything and you aren’t a linguistic genius LMAO but it’s still soooo amazing :’) here i am reading the captions while ur just going hahah, yea i tried duolingo but.... i didn’t stick to it HDJSH talking to you though makes me so interested because you know all these languages, not even studying them like that, but you have this foundation and ahh it’s just super cool. LOL YOU DONT SOUND LAME HAJA IM TELLING YOU ITS SO SO COOL, i’m loving this lesson btw oh my goodness- HSKAJS YOU THOUGHT I WOULD ALREADY KNOW THAT??? HDYSJHS MY ONLY ENGLISH SPEAKING ASS??? HAHAHAHHAH i find that word (Rindfleischetikettie- i’m not gonna write the whole thing i’m sorry) very interesting... like... wow. did you have to google that or did you just know lmao

OKAH THE WATER THING HDKDJDKS UR GONNA TERRIFY ME HAHAH OH MY LORD- first of all CROATIA 😍😍 but thinking about it like that, I WOULD FREAK OUT TOO HAHSGSG i never go that deep into the water, or if i do i have my dad with me lol and i kind of hold onto him bc ive seen/heard too many things about people being dragged into the sea. but i loveee the water (i wanted to be a mermaid soooo bad ohmigosh)

I DONT UNDERSTAND HOW ONE CANNOT LIKE MUSIC ITS AWFUL !! lmao yeah i haven’t even listened to harry’s his first album, everyone says they love it more. I WAS GONNA SAY IMMA LISTEN TO ONLY ANGEL BUT THE WAY YOU DESCRIBE IT HUHAHAH also i have never listened to anything by mgk (i actually had to google who he was IM SORRY😔) i’m tempted to listen tho lol PLEASE JUSTIN BIEBER- I PROMISE IM NOT LAUGHING AT U IVE JUSY NEVER HAD SOMEONE SAY THAT B4!! like i don’t know many people who’ve liked him bUT NOW IM GONNA LISTEN & the cardboard cutout- okay. 😭😭😭

oh my goodness to see the vamps live 🤧 TO SEE ANYONE LIVE PLEASE JJDGSHAHGD and little mix is so good oh my goodness- i actually haven’t been to that many concerts.. i was at my first one, elsie fest (it’s like a broadway thing really) in uhhh october of 2019, yea i took my mom for her birthday bc she loves darren criss and i’m obsessed with glee lmao OH MY GOODNESS YOUVE BEEN TO SO MANY!!! and those are such great artists 😩😩

LMAO UR FINE, hamilton is a musical that lin manuel miranda wrote and i think generally made? i’m obsessed, but basically it was on broadway and then recorded and put on disney+ ... idk i guess it counts a film bc it’s like a movie really cuz it was recorded but in what 2018 or 2016? i don’t remembers the date that is on disney+ but it’s strange how i got into it, a lot of my friends were obsessed and i was like uhh why? and while researching it and watching it, trying to figure out why people love it... i fell in love with it LMAO but the music is FANTASTIC and lin is incredible😭 but yes yes yes i loveeeee high school musical!! my dad actually took my cousins to see it on ice or something (i absolutely forget lmao) but i don’t know how people don’t know hsm. it upsets me.

OKAY IM DOWN TO THE BOTTOM HAHAHA (it takes me so long to respond, now i’m on lion king 2 WHICH IS SO GOOD PLEASE FHHSSHHSHSH) i could respond in chunks but i kind of enjoy responding like this? it feels a bit like a letter but if this whole thing is overwhelming i’ll cut it up lol

+ yes that was me about your fic and sleep and everything lol but it was so good😭 i don’t understand how you write peter so well like you have this ability to capture his.. everything? i’m crine. all the time. over your fics. & i cannot describe my happiness for youuuu :’) i’m so happy you’re writing again 🥺🥰 the thing about how you only want to write the long peter fic but you don’t know how to continue... i feel that so so so hard, i don’t think i told you but ughh i was so blah bc of that feeling of having pent up inspiration for only one fucking thing and not being able to write it. it’s so frustrating 😭

not to add more to this but i need to vent a bit? the situation is definitely different bc with your major it obviously requires for you to ya know, know english lol, but uhm bc i’m homeschooled ive been cheating on all my work SHSHDHSJ like i google the answers but i’m still learning! it’s just..... i find it so unnecessary, like going for an audition no one is gonna say to me “i want you to chanel the knowledge within yourself of the centripetal force of the circle that is the table on this stage” like tf??? there’s literally no point. i��m gonna be getting into voice lessons again soon and i’m already doing dance, AND i’ll be doing this summer camp program (more hamilton lol) and thinking about school is only making me stress more, like i haven’t been able to rehearse dance at all this week bc of it...... so

hahaha reading your tags, lonely anon would still be accurate HAHAHHAHA // another add: yea i love ur current theme, i’ve gotten used to “seeing you” like this, but anything will look super pretty :)) ALSO HOW IS IT STILL SNOWING THERE, i swear it’s getting warmer and warmer by the day here 😭🤧

these long ass posts, my gosh🥲 lonely lovely anon <3

Omg yes it does feel like a letter sldkdj and then the few days of waiting also make more sense okay i love this ❣️💕❤️💓❤️💞🧡💜💘(wtf)sksjhz

Dear lovely anon,

ALSKSJVKD yes i‘m liking falcon and winter soldier dlkdh i haven‘t watched the second episode yet but i‘ll watch it tomorrow! but i didn‘t watch wandavision........ eidislskks i was going to but idk i wasn‘t that interested in it and watching series is already too much of a commitment (what can i say i‘m a Sagittarius—🤧 (no i’m joking i actually know NOTHING about starsigns)) didjj that i couldn‘t force myself to watch it, ALSO i hate (idk if this is an unpopular opinion) when every episode is like a whole hour. i‘m rewatching an old series today (it‘s german so i won‘t even get into it) and the episodes are 25 mins each and i‘ve already watched 8 episodes today ridlndjdjd,,, and i feel like if the episodes were an hour each i wouldn‘t have gotten past episode 2 today like idk.... even if series had the same length in total, i prefer when the individual episodes are shorter idk why tho tbh (so yeah i already wasn‘t 100% convinced about watching wandavision so i just couldn’t make myself watch a bunch of 1hour episodes— i‘ve heard that it‘s good tho- but i‘m not much of a series person so. Dldkk (have we talked about this already??? sorry i don‘t remember what i said lol and i couldn‘t find my own post anymore so dkdjsh) (WAIT I JUST CHECKED THE WANDAVISION EPIOSRDES ARENT EVEN THAT LONG??? Okay wait i might watch it now - did you like it? let me know if i should watch it— why did i think they were 60minutes???)

okay another confession i‘ve never watched the lion king????? i mean i watched it when i was a child but i was too young to actually pay attention to any kind of plot i just liked the songs lol sldkdj i‘ve been meaning to watch it for years tho 🦁 (idk it just felt appropriate to put a lion emoji lmoaoo)

OH MY GOD THE CHAIS WALKING/CINEMA STORY AHSJSKKS😭😭😭😭 NOOOOO (very fitting that there was so much chaos when you were watching a film that has chaos in the title loool) and the “awkward awkward awkward“ SAME SKSKSLSKDJ, that‘s literally me 24/7 ahajshshhshshsh. Like i was so skdjdjdkdllsldksnsnsnsb while i read what you sent me djslslsjdjdbdn why are old ladies always so grumpy btw 🥲🥲🥲 at least the man was nice tho! and wait did i read that right... you have fries (which, to me, are called chips dusuusldk) at your cinemas?? (Movie theatres sorry sksjsh) we just have popcorn and nachos and drinks i want chips too when i‘m watching a film what😭😭🥺🥺🥺🥺

Also i still haven’t watched it so thanks for not spoiling it!!! (idk when i’ll watch it i’m so bad with films and even worse with series💀💀💀- same with cherry. i literally forgot all about cherry, i was SO hyped when the trailer came out like i’ve never been so excited about a movie... and then it came out... and i still haven‘t watch it like what‘s wrong with me???? Dkdjdjdjdklsl i feel like i‘m not gonna watch it anytime soon tbh, but i wanna watch chaos walking i just have to find the time

Okay and @ your other friend who wasn‘t paying attention like why are you even watching the film then???? but ok (omg this sounds so mean i‘m sure she‘s very nice but in this situation just like❔❔❔)

SIMS ahhh, BUNK BEDS, ahhhh sdljdjdjdkdkdldksj i actually haven‘t played it since the update 🤧🤧 i made both of my sims (enisa (bestselling author already, thank you) and michael (aspiring doctor)) go to university and bro it takes so long 😭😭 and you can‘t do anything else if you want them to do well so literally the last three times i played sims i was just constantly clicking their homework and computerd to write their assignments (i play it in german so idk what its called on the sims) and do their presentations and do them all over again so that they get better or whatever for HOURS, but imma play again soon

also i‘m living my fanfiction life loool, so i made my two sims neighbours (on the same plot tho but i made two small separate houses lol, i still wanted to control both of them at the same time but i made sure they didn‘t interact before i wanted them to skdjdjdk). and first they both experimented and got some experience in the love department you know (all genders, cause i have to live my sexuality even in a pc game slskdjh— wait, i‘ve never lived my sexuality irl like i‘ve done NOTHING nothing with guys nothing with girls (🥲) but maybe that’s why i want to do it even more in the sims) and then they met at uni and realised like hey we‘re neighbours and now they‘re together (but michael accidentally had an alien baby with another woman (who was an alien which i was not aware of) cause i wasn‘t paying attention like i said woohoo not try for baby like michael why is your pull out game so weak tf LSHDDHDJDJSKKDKSKDKS okay but making out and flirting and doing all the fun stuff in the sims turns me on way more than it should PFAHAHHAHSH) so idk why i told you this but I’m creating that neighbour!au in the sims lmaoooo

i did not have to google Rindfleischetikettierungsüberwachungsübertragungsaufgabengesetz (just did it again😌 sisjshhs) but i might have mixed up the words überwachung und übertragung or i might have even forgotten a word skskks but in the end it doesn‘t matter (by linkin park- ok i‘m so sorry it‘s 2 am and i have a headache from having waveformers in my hair all day but i still wanted to reply to this now so sorry if i‘m not making any sense right nowbahahshah)

i wanted to be a mermaid too dldjdksksj like h2O and all those series convinced me i could be one like. i remember i‘d always go in the deep pool and attempt to swim like them in all the series with that wave motion i must have looked so crazy with my goggles as well dkdjsksöksj (i was like twelve but still)

so mgk has two sides one is hip hop/rap which is like ~~~~ idk he has good and bad songs, but his latest album is like punk pop snd I LOVE IT SO SO SO SO SO MUCH, so if you like punk pop I’d recommend his album tickets to my downfall (i don‘t blame yoj if you don‘t like it tho like about a year ago i would have HATED that type of music dkdkdkkd)🥴

Okay talking about music, there‘s this german rapper and he is... not a good person. he‘s literally a criminal and extremely sexist but to me he‘s still hot???????? he‘s even cute at times even tho he has tattoos everywhere and is like 6‘5 and is super aggressive but i see him and i‘m like 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰 my heart beats only for you💘💘💘💘and he released a new song today and i watched the video and i‘m wondering wtf is wrong with me 😃 (he did look particularly cute cause he was high so idk he wasn’t really aggressive in this one) 😭 so i thought i‘d share that LMAO IDK

(not saying tattoos aren‘t cute btw i LOVE tattoos imma get some soon, but you know he looks like someone your grandma would be afraid of (and in his case rightfully so💀)

okay wait i‘m getting so tired it‘s 2 am i think i‘ll have to do the rest tomorrow but i wanted to do it now😭🥺🥺 see you tomorrow

it is now 3:42 am and i couldn‘t sleep so here we go again

girl you can laugh at me for liking justin tho skskks i wanna laugh at myself idk, like i said i really really really liked him a few years go, basically my life was at least 50% justin and then he went on a break for a while and released an album last year which i hated 🥴 but this album is wow. (Still weird to me because it‘s literally the definition of pop and i don‘t ever listen to pop?) and it‘s so weird because i used to know so much about justin and had so many friends who loved him as well and now it‘s like I’m listening to someone new? Don‘t get me wrong i never KNEW justin and i never will and i‘m aware of that shahsh but yeah i used to be soooo used to him and it‘s like reconnecting with an old friend and you realise you don‘t know that friend anymore- like you don‘t know them anymore at all. I mean justin is weird nowadays 😂😂😂 so pls laugh at me tbh dskksjsjsh

awww it‘s so wholesome that you gave your mom tickets to the concert 🥺🥺🥺🥺 i gave my mum tickets for pink like 2 years ago and she loved it so much and i was like 🥰🥰🥰 (i went with her) AND OMG GLEE ok so unfortunately i barely remember glee, but i used to watch it too!!!! And it‘s actually on my list of series i wanna watch (again) so youre making me want to watch it even more (but like i said i‘m bad with series so 😩😩😩 who knows when i‘ll rewatch it)

When all this pandemic shit is over (let‘s be hopeful <3333) then you need to go to as many concerts as possible!!!!! i‘ve been to SO MANY and it‘s literally one of the things in my life i‘m the most grateful for, concerts are some of the best experiences i‘ve ever had in my life especially the ones that are in smaller concert halls where you can feeeel the vibe and everyone‘s energy (and that sounds awful thinking about it mid-pandemic 😐) anyway—

Okay omg you‘re absolutely making me want to watch hamilton right now like omg i WANT TO WATCH IT NOW but it‘s 4 am sodndkdldl

what you said about my peter fics🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺like omg i love these emojis they literally just describe how i felt when reading what you said so, yes, 🥰🥺 + thank you :) it really means a lot <3

and no omg i totally get the studying thing. like last year before i graduated .. was that last year? yes wtf omg okaykdjdj, so the last three months before i had my final exams we were just in a lockdown and we didn‘t even have online classes. We had nothing except one teacher who left our group chat (😭) because she was mad at us (?) and one maths teacher who did an online ““lesson““ once a week. he‘d ask: so does anyone have questions. us: . Him: okay, bye then. So. Yeah dndldldj. But we had one online test and it was in german and like i read the book wee were supposed to read? but the questions on the test were all unanswerable (is that a word?) and i had to google everything (got an A tho 🤪 but only because i googled everything so i was so scared that i wouldn‘t be able to get a good result on the final exam because what if i‘d gotten used to just googling everything and i couldn‘t do it by myself anymore? anyway it was all fine in the end but yeah at times i couldn‘t even study because i had so much anxiety about studying and yeah- like this whole annoying cycle. but you said you‘re still studying———- okay wait 👁👄👁 i forgot what i was going to say??????????????????????????????????????????????????? Like wtf. Is wrong with me? And i‘m reading what you wrote again and i just don‘t know what i was going to say? Like i get what you‘re saying obviously but i‘m like? Idk 4am brain ayeee, please vent more if you need to and elaborate further because right now i‘m???? Too dumb to respond to this right now wtf. I‘m so sorry lmao ddlkdjdjd what is even going on like i‘m sitting here open mouthed just like ? But btw the fact that you have Voice and dance lessons is like SO FUCKING COOL like oh my god that is sosososos cool wtf, i was thinking that when you first talked about it too

And “i want you to chanel the knowledge within yourself of the centripetal force of the circle that is the table on this stage” ODHDKSLDBDJDOFIDKDNDLDK

Yes i know about the weather dkdkdkjd but it‘s getting (a lot) warmer here too and where i live we kind of get a weird type of wind called föhn (which literally means hair dryer but idk if that‘d the reason why it‘s called that, i‘m too tired to think of whether it makes sense rn) and it gives me headachesssssss and the changing weather is also giving me headaches 😭😭😭😭 so this season right now is just headache season and i hate summer so i wish it would just snow again lmao (okay it‘s getting so late that it‘s early already snd i can hear this bird chirping so fucking loud wtf i‘m also getting a headache 🤧🤧🤧) but at least i can do my new theme soon (i hope it‘ll look good🥺 and omg thank you for what you said about my current theme- i always feel like i‘m so bad with aesthetics, i obviously like my theme but i feel like every single person on tumblr has a theme that is prettier than mine so it was very nice to hear you say that you love it👉🏼👈🏼 (i‘m so used to it by now that i actually hate it lmao so it‘s getting yeeted soon and i‘m making megan thee stallion my pfp 🤪 (if the graphics and shit works out skdjdjdj)

#lovely anon #<333 #okay its so late now i dont wanna post it now in case i‘m too tired to notice losds of mistakes #but i also wanna post it now so. #*loads #i‘m posting it #and i absolutely do not mind if you answer like this!!!! but if you ever do feel like it‘s too much or you uust want to respond to one thing #in particular sooner then pls go ahead! <3

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Crash and Burn

3 months.

That’s how long it’s been since Tony and y/n’s once close relationship had deteriorated to absolutely nothing.

3 months of longing, heartbreak, and regret, yet he only had himself to blame. She had tried, she tried so hard to make things work between them. Every time he changed his mind, every time he hesitated, she was the one who compromised to satisfy him, yet she never complained, not even once. He was too much of a coward to admit it, to admit how much he cared about her to her, and himself.

He kept coming up with reasons why they shouldn’t be together, why they couldn’t be together, why they would be better off apart, because that was what he wanted...right? He wanted this, he kept assuring himself that this was the right thing to do, that this was the only way he could keep them both safe. Everything had been fine for a while, until one late night.

Making his way downtown to a bar he knew y/n frequented with her friends, he should’ve known that he was bound to run into her, but as fate might have it, he was immensely drunk and rational thoughts had been thrown out the window quite a while back.

He should’ve known that she’d be there, laughing and chatting happily with her close group of friends, the frequent clueless guy walking up to their booth and offering to buy her a drink.

Fools. He thought to himself, they were all fools, thinking they could be with her one night and come out the next the same. That night, he unknowingly tested the theory himself.

She had caught him staring, but instead of looking away, she held his gaze, the tension between them agonizing for both parties, so it wasn’t long before one thing led to another and they were stumbling around his room in the dark. The next day when he woke up albeit hungover but more importantly sober, he realized what he had done, what he vowed to himself he wouldn’t. He told her it was a mistake, a night that couldn’t possibly happen again. Seeing as mere seconds later she stormed out of his place with tears brimming her eyes, she didn’t take it too well.

“Are you even listening to me?” Fury’s voice brought him out of his flashback.

“No, no I wasn’t,” Tony admitted, his eyebrows furrowed.

“I said that I need the team in Quebec, take London, Y/l/n and Knightly with you too,” He explained, “you leave in 4 hours , go tell y/l/n , I haven't been able to reach her comms, ” he finished and gestured for Tony to leave the room.

He sighed as he started his search for her. When he finally found her, and with her was Eli London, a fellow SHIELD agent of hers. He said something to her, making her almost burst out in laughter. Oh how Tony had dreamed of being the one to constantly be the one to make her laugh. His thoughts stopped along with his feet when Eli leaned closer to her, their lips dangerously close.

He quickly stalked towards them, anger building up inside him, yet he knew he had no right to be angry or jealous, they weren't together, he had made it clear to her that night, yet he can't help but long to be in Eli's position.

"Ahem," he cleared his throat behind them, they instantly sprung apart.

"Y/l/n, we're due in Quebec, be at the runway in 4 hours," he said and turned on his heel, starting to walk away.

"What's the mission in Quebec for?" she asked and he reluctantly turned around.

"Fury will brief us on the way, so I suggest you stop flirting and get your priorities straight, because I don't need another incident like Boston on my conscience," he spat out, venom laced his words even though he didn't mean it.

She winced at those last words, a look of hurt flashed across her eyes as memories of how she failed to save all those people because she wasn't focused washed over her. He knew that he had struck a chord he didn't mean to, "I'm sorry, I shouldn't have said that last part," he grabbed her hand before she was out of reach and apologised but it was no use, the damage had been done.

"No, you shouldn't have," she stated and pulled free from his grasp before turning on her heel and walking away, leaving him stood there dumbfounded and angry at himself for letting it slip out.

4 and a half hours had passed and yet only one of the agents had arrived. Tony was worried, he had started fidgeting with his watch, his hair, anything to take his mind of her.

"Sorry we're late, we got caught up with training," Y/N said as she and Eli rushed onto the tarmac.

"Good, I was starting to get worried about you," Tony said, locking eyes with the only person in the group her cared about.

"That's no use as you lost the right to care 2 months ago," she said and brushed past him and into the awaiting quinjet.

He walked in last, his eyes scanning the jet for empty seats when his eyes landed on the only open one, of course, he thought as he slipped into the seat next to her.

She took out the book she was planning to read on the flight over when her phone vibrated. It was a message from her brother, Jaden.

Good luck with the mission! I'm buying you dinner when you get back! Love ya!

She smiled to herself as she began to write a reply when she noticed Tony's eyes on her.

"Is that Eli?" He asked quietly.

Normally it would've been a natural question, seeing how close she and Eli had grown these past few months, especially when her relationship with Tony, whether it be professional or romantic, had crumbled.

"I don't want to do this right now, Tony," she warned, "and frankly, it doesn't concern you who texts me and who doesn't, as I'm sure you know you've made abundantly clear time and time again. And no, it wasn't Eli, it was my brother," she didn't bother giving him the chance to explain, simply putting on her ear buds and opening her book.

He let out a frustrated sigh, this wasn't how he wanted this conversation to go, he wanted to apologise to her, about everything, and tell her how deeply and overwhelmingly in love he was with her.

It was an hour into the peace and quiet when Jace, another agent, pointed out the looming weather in the distance. "It looks pretty bad," he said.

Y/n, of course, didn't hear him with the music playing loudly in her ears.

Tony turned towards her, tapping her shoulder lightly.

“What?” She growled, very obviously annoyed. He could hear the voice of Lin Manuel Miranda blasting through her earbuds.

“Definitely Hamilton” he thought to himself. She had always been obsessed with the musical, constantly trying to get him to sing along.

He opened his mouth again to speak up but everything went dark.

“Jace? Jace wake up!” Tony heard Steve say a few feet away from him as he sat up, propping himself up with his elbows.

He coughed loudly into his blackened sleeve, his throat dry and hoarse and his ear ringing.

“Tony, are you okay? Can you walk?” Natasha asked as she stood up, slightly limping.

Tony stood up, his leg working somewhat fine, “Yeah, I’m mostly fine, but my chest hurts like hell,” he explained to her.

“Guys? Guys where’s-“ Eli stopped himself to breathe as he felt an overwhelming sensation of pain run in his leg, where a large gash visibly cut across his left thigh, “fuck,” he breathed deeply, “ where’s y/n?” He questioned.

“I-I don’t know, I was still conscious a few seconds into the crash, I saw her face but then I blacked out again,” Jace confessed anxiously.

“W-wait, I-I hear something, something banging against metal,” Eli panted as he finally caught his breath.

They followed the sound to about 20 feet away from where they were before. Below a large metal piece of the plane lay y/n, a large gash on her right cheek.

“Oh god, y/n!” Tony rushed to her side, kneeling beside her, “W-What hurts?”

“You mean what doesn’t hurt?” She quipped weakly before coughing again, blood staining her cut lip.

He glared at her,letting her know that it wasn’t the time to be making jokes.

“I-I can’t feel my chest, my head is throbbing, I think my right leg is bleeding, honestly everything hurts,” she said and sucked in shallow breath, her body not allowing her to do any more.

Tony was panicking, his supposedly genius mind unable to find a coherent thought for the first time ever, “E-Eli! I need you to help me here!” He yelled at the younger agent, “On 3, we have to lift this up,” he said, his eyes trained on the metal frame that held y/n down.

Eli nodded, his hands finding a place on the frame, “1...2…”

“3!” They pushed together with all their might, desperate to do something to help y/n, but to no avail, even with their combined strength, it wasn’t enough to lift it off of her.

The other gathered around, injured but not nearly as severe as y/n.

Tony tried again, this time without Eli’s help, as he was sitting next to him, applying pressure on his own wound.

“Why are you guys just standing there? I need your help!” Tony pleaded with them, almost out of breath.

“They know...Tony, it’s too late…” her soft voice said, volume barely above a whisper.

“N-no, there was to be something we can do, I can’t let you just…I won’t let you just leave me like this! Not…” he sucked in a deep breath, “ not after I left you,” he conceded.

She reached out, taking his hand with hers, “It’s okay, Tony, I-I…” her breathe became softer, her eyes fluttering close.

“No-no,” his thoughts clouded and his vision became blurry, tears rolling down his face, “you can’t just- Fuck!” He yelled at no one in particular, “pl-

\

Tony woke up in a cold sweat, his heartbeat racing and his mind all over the place.

It was a dream.

He looked over to his bedside clock, 2:36 am

He jumped out of bed, throwing on a nearby t-shirt and ran down the hallway, rapidly knocking on her door. After 15 seconds of silence, he tried knocking again, his head hanging but he still had the slightest bit of hope.

He heard the sound of a door opening and looked up, the door still closed.

“Tony, what are you doing?” Rhodey, who was sleeping over, asked.

“W-where is she? I need to talk to her,” he said, furiously knocking on the door again. His knuckles were starting to hurt but he kept knocking as fast as he could.

“Tony…” Rhodey started, but Tony didn’t look at him, his attention trained on the door in front of him, “Tony, stop…” Rhodey said, grabbing Tony’s hand and pushing it back down.

“W-where’s y/n?” Tony asked desperately.

“Tony please, don’t do this-”

“Tell me, please. I need to talk it out with her, I know I’m wrong but I need to tell her I love her and I need to make everything right, I-”

“Tony…” Rhodey’s voice becomes softer, “the crash was 2 years ago…”

It wasn’t a dream.

Author’s note: Welp, I uh, I wrote my first one shot?? I’m not used to writing one shots so do let me know how it was!

Your favourite Tumblr (well this is new, I’m usually on wattpad lol) author,

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#marvel #tony stark #iron man #oneshot #x reader #tony stark x reader #mcu

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Doctor Who Tag

yes im a nerd...

CHILDHOOD

1. Did you like DW as a child?

I was 10 when it came back on telly with Eccleston and the first episode with the autons scared me so much my mom wouldn't let me watch it again until a couple years later, but yeah my teens I was obsessed with DW... still am at age 25

2. Your age at the time of the revival?

10

3. First DW episode you ever saw?

‘Rose’

4. Did you have any of the toys?

I still have the eleventh doctor’s screwdriver... I used to have some of the figures but there in storage now somewhere

5. Which DW character did you play on the playground?

didn't play it on the playground

6. Monster(s) that scared you most as a child?

all of them! the ones that still scare me now are the Cybermen and the Autons... genuinely cant walk past a shop mannequin without being suspicious 

7. Joke/story you didn’t get as a kid?

as a kid, any of the innuendo type jokes

8. DW opinion that has changed since you were a kid?

idk I think I still have the same opinions

9. Who introduced you to DW?

parents

10. Did you like Sarah Jane Adventures as a child?

I LOVED SJA!! I miss that show, and Elizabeth Slade :(

DOCTOR

11. Who is your Doctor?

Ten was the doctor that made me fall in love with Doctor Who 

12. Your favourite Doctor?

omg why not just ask me who my favourite child is... (I don't have kids but you know what I mean) if I had to chose my top three are ten, eleven and thirteen

13. Least favourite Doctor?

purely just because he doesn't have enough episodes... nine...

14. Best regeneration?

none of them I hate regenerations :( they make me sad, im too emotionally invested in every single one

15. Do you like “Doctor-Lite” episodes?

they're not my faves

16. Who is the most human Doctor?

I think nine maybe? or twelve?

17. Best multi-Doctor story?

the 50th anniversary special 

18. Best Doctor monologue?

“Hello Stonehenge! who takes the pandorica, takes the universe. but bad news everyone, cause guess who? HA! You lot you're all whizzing about- its really very distracting. Could you all just stay still a minute because I AM TALKING. Question of the hour is, who's got the pandorica? Answer, I do. Next question, who's coming to take it from me? Come on, look at me! No plan. No backup. No weapons worth a damn. oh and something else, I don't have anything to lose. So, if you're sitting up there in your silly little spaceship with all your silly little guns and you've got any plans on taking the pandorica tonight... just remember who's standing in your way. remember ever black day I ever stopped you and then- AND THEN- do the smart thing... let somebody else try first.”

not copied and pasted, remember that from the top of my head... its always there waiting in my mind incase I ever need an epic monologue :’)

19, What do you think TenToo/MetaCrisis Doctor is doing now?

hopefully living his best life with Rose

20. Best Doctor/companion pairing?

ten and donna 

COMPANIONS

21. Favourite companion?

Donna, Clara, Amy

22. Favourite secondary companion?

is Mickey classed as secondary? idk

23. Least favourite companion?

Ryan

24. Best TARDIS Team?

Doctor, Amy and Rory

25. Most underrated companion?

Graham, but that may just be cause I love Bradders

26. Most overrated companion?

Rose... I like her but idk, I think she gets more hype than she deserves.. don't @ me

27. Favourite companion’s family?

Rose’s mom

28. Who should have been a companion but wasn’t?

idk I cant think of anyone

29. Favourite (canon or non-canon) DW universe relationship?

Amy and Rory

30. Who did you not used to like, but really like now?

wasn't keen on Bill at first but by the end I really liked her, same with Rory

EPISODES

31. Favourite episode ever?

girl in the fireplace

32. Least favourite episode?

most of Chibnall’s episodes tbh sorry not sorry 

33. Which episodes do you skip?

the regeneration episodes

34. Best two-parter?

Human Nature - Family of Blood

35. Historical, present day or futuristic episodes?

I like them all in there own way but I think present is fave, then historical, then future

36. Episode that will always make you smile?

all of them

37. Episode that will always make you cry?

Rory and Amy’s last episode :’(

38. Best run of episodes?

ugh I cant answer this theres too many 

39. Best cliffhanger?

the end of Spyfall part one when the Master reveals who he is... I was SHOOK

40. Favourite Christmas special?

Voyage of the Damned

SERIES

41. Classic Who or New Who?

new who

42. Favourite series?

four or five

43. Least favourite series?

eleven, I just cant with the writing

44. Which series do you skip?

none

45. Favourite series opening?

eleventh hour

46. Favourite series finale?

Doomsday

47. Best series arc?

Bad Wolf

48. Thoughts on series 11/12?

I adore Jodie Whittaker and her doctor, and although I think 3 companions is too many I do love Yaz and Graham (Ryan is hit & miss). I just think theyve been massively let down by the stories/writing... they’ve tried to hard to tick certain boxes and completely missed what Doctor Who is about for a lot of people.. an escape from the real world into these outrageous unbelievable but lovable fun alien adventures 

49. How much of Classic Who have you seen?

not a lot

50. Who should have had another series?

NINE NINE NINE NINE NINE 

MONSTERS

51. Favourite monster/villain?

the master 

52. Most creative monster?

Weeping Angels, whoever came up with monsters that look like statues and only move when you're not looking at them is genius 

53. Monster(s) that scares you most?

Autons, Cybermen, the creepy dolls from Night Terrors, the ones from Waters of Mars, Weeping Angels

54. Monster you think is too easy to defeat?

idk

55. Least favourite monster/villain?

absorbaloff

56. Monster you want to return?

The Master, I really hope that isn't the last we see of Dhawan

57. In your opinion, what makes a monster good?

being genuinely scary, 

58. Daleks, Cybermen or Weeping Angels?

Weeping Angels

59. Best Dalek story?

Daleks in Manhatten

60. Best one time villain/monster?

my brain has gone blank I cant think of an answer right now 

ADDITIONAL MATERIAL

61. Torchwood or Sarah Jane Adventures?

SJA

62. Favourite Torchwood Team member?

I haven't watched it all so I couldn't say 

63. Which Torchwood death made you saddest?

again, not watched it all 

64. Do you rewatch COE or MD?

huh

65. Favourite SJA Team member?

Sarah Jane

66. Mr Smith or K-9?

K-9

67. Maria or Rani?

Rani

68. Do you read the comics/novels or listen to Big Finish?

Nope

69. If you do, your favourite additional stories?

n/a

70. Do you like DW analysis (video essays, fan theories, etc)?

yes

DESIGN/PRODUCTION

71. Favourite piece of alien tech?

the sonic, I love how it is so multipurpose except for when it comes to wood 

72. Favourite piece of Murray Gold music?

I am the Doctor - gets me pumped every time 

73. Favourite TARDIS design?

Ten’s Tardis 

74. Has the 2005 era CGI aged well?

actually yeah, I was rewatching the ‘are you my mummy’ episodes the other day and my God when the gas masks emerged from the faces... ooooooof I was like omg how 

75. Favourite Doctor outfit?

eleven or thirteen

76. Monster with the best design?

not really a design more of a costume.. I live Dhawan master’s costume. that shade of purple, oof he so stylish 

77. Best show runner?

idk

78. Best writer?

Gatiss

79. Best opening titles?

eleven’s titles where the Tardis is flying and being zapped is cool but thirteens music hits different 

80. Will DW age well/stay popular in the future?

I hope so, I feel like its lasted this long surely it can last forever.. if the writers don't fuck it up... 

IF YOU WERE IN THE SHOW

81. Time period you’d want to go with the Doctor?

whatever time means Id get to wear the most beautiful costumes

82. Planet/place you’d want to go with the Doctor?

Galifrey, pre-desctruction

83. Doctor you’d most like to travel with?

any of them, please and thank you

84. Companion you’d most like to travel with?

donna, sceso a good laugh but also I feel like she’d look after me 

85. Monster you’d like to defeat/fight?

The Master 

86. If you could go back on your own history (like Father’s Day), where would you go?

back to when I was a toddler, I wanna see what I was like 

87. If you could ask the Doctor anything, what would you ask?

theres too many to ask 

88. Historical figure you’d like to meet?

Shakespeare

89. How do you think you’d meet the Doctor?

id probably be rescued from doing something stupid and then the doc would be like you know what the bitch clearly needs supervision she's coming with me 

90. Would you travel forwards or backwards in time first?

backwards

IF YOU MADE THE SHOW

91. Historical event would you like to see in DW?

Hamilton

92. Issue you’d like to see addressed in DW?

idk 

93. Who would you completely erase from the DW universe?

Ruth

94. One unanswered DW question you’d love to know the answer to?

where is Clara now?

95. Actor/actress you’d like to see play the Doctor?

Phoebe Waller Bridge (or Lin Manuel Miranda)

96. Actor/actress you’d like to see play a companion?

Andrew Scott (yes I did just basically recast fleabag and hot priest)

97. Is DW “too political”?

series 11 got a bit like that 

98. Which characters fate would you changed?

Danny Pink

99. What about DW could be improved?

I think ive made my options about Chibnall pretty clear... 

100. If you could write an episode of DW, any ideas for what you’d do

bring back Jenny, the Doctor / Daughter adventures they would have. I’m actually writing a fic about it if you wanna read.... here

#doctor who #tag #doctor who tag #doctor who questions #survey

[dear-trashpanda]

Motherfu...

@schizophriendly-cat, i just had the weirdest, awesomest dream ever! (Sorry, you're asleep so I'm blogging at you because I don't want to wake you in case you're also having an awesome dream)

Key features:

Lin-Manuel Miranda (!!!!!)

Fox (or rather, me as Fox I guess?)

Myself

Changing between alters (first time in a dream)

Semi-lucid dreaming (also a first time)

Oh yeah, and have I mentioned Lin-Manuel Motherfucking Miranda????!!!!!!

So there isn't really all that much going on in terms of plot, but basically it's something like, he kinda kidnaps himself somewhere in a Europe tour and jumps on a ferry because he wants to go North, right now. And somehow he collides with Fox (at this point the dream has been going on for a while and Fox is at this apartment that belongs to some random acquaintance or something, anyway, enter unexpected LMM). So they hit it off and they hang out at the apartment and they talk for hours about all sorts of shit and eventually Fox goes, holy shit, TP would shit himself if he knew we are here doing this right now. Well, I mean, if you have the time, would you mind hanging out with my little brother for a while too? And LMM is like yeah sure, I'm just researching this ancient tomb about the nature of pain, but yeah, I'm down to hang out. Oh, but they are also a little drunk at this point, and I think it's getting a bit flirtatious because Fox is desperately trying to remember if he's married and whether he's openly poly or is this one of those situations where we shouldn't take advantage of the apparently fragile mental state of a world famous genius artist that we both admire, because you know, dreams be unfair like that.

But anyway, so it takes forever but Fox finally managed to pull it together enough to focus on us changing and in comes me, getting so flustered I can't speak and I just blabber like a moron, and he's just patient and kind and charming and I'm like desperately, madly in love, and we ditch the apartment and start roaming around town in the middle of the night, passionately arguing about art and linguistics and the beauty of old pocket watches with hand-painted dials... And we go into this store to buy some weird stationary because he wanted it and somehow as he pays with his card, the hotel booking papers or something falls out of his wallet and the clerk sees it and just looks at us like "you are from the *insert posh hotel name*?! ...you? " And I get flustered again but he just giggles and we leave the store and now he's telling me about how he kidnapped himself because he always wanted to go North and that nobody even knows he's here and what a relief this is, and I'm mildly worried about him but also feeling super proud because by now it's starting to dawn on me that this giant of a mind somehow genuinely enjoys spending time with me and that for some random and unknown reason he's chosen me to be his companion in this seemingly benign mental breakdown, and then it occurs to me, wait a minute, what if this is all just a dream, this is exactly the kind of shit I would dream about, but then I promptly convince myself that no, I am definitely awake, and this is actually happening.

And I make an off-hand comment about this, as in, me thinking that this must be a dream, and he just laughs and puts an arm around my shoulder in an "it's okay, kiddo" gesture, and he pulls me close and omg he smells amazing, and we are zooming through the town and going to take the tube to his hotel and then we are going swimming and I'm so fucking happy I could cry, and now I'm thinking about how maybe once the night is over I could ask for his contacts, or just try to DM him on Twitter (wtf?!) and...

...and at this point I wake up to Moose telling Artie off because she's torturing her big sister again.

#fml #best dream ever #what the fuck did i just dream #lin manuel miranda #fanboy wetdream #i mean #we talked about linguistics for hours #tp's broken #dream journal

[hannahlovestheatre]

A RANT ABOUT RENT LIVE AND HOW GOOD IT WAS

Okay so I need to stand on a soap box real quick to make a point. Please read the whole thing. I feel like Rent Live not only needs to be reviewed but is the perfect example for what I am about to say. If you have a problem with this, thank u next.

Let me ask you a question. How many people do you know named or are probably named Sarah? How about Taylor? Maybe Alex? Okay, now that you have a number in your head think about this: are they all exactly the same? Same hair color? Eye color? Body type? Do they all play soccer? Do they all love the same kind of music? Are they all the same race? Same sexual orientation? Is your answer no? It should be. They are all different yet special in their way.

Now let's look at Rent. We have Rent, the Broadway musical (which is actually a reincarnation La Boheme, an opera with a lot of other versions as well!!! It all comes full circle) ; Rent, the movie; and Rent Live. All share a name but none of them are the same. They are all special in their own way.

Rent, the Broadway musical, is one of if not the most revolutionary musical to hit the Great White Way. Without it, Hamilton and Dear Evan Hansen and The Prom and The Band's Visit and Fun Home probably wouldn't exist. It inspired artists to cross the borderlines and expressed the true meaning if love and being a part of a community, a family. It inspired composers like Lin Manuel-Miranda do even make musicals. It swept the Tonys, it won the Pulitzer prize, it ran for a very long time. It was so important that they filmed a pro shot of the final performance. However, that proshot was not a one take deal. They pre filmed some stuff to get those epic close ups, like the beginning of Out Tonight. Again, it was crucial to the world of theatre.

Next we have Rent, the movie. It was filmed as an independent film, kinda like how The Last Five Years was. They got most of the original cast to reprise their roles. Tracie Thoms and Rosario Dawson swept in to save the day. They are honestly the best Joanne and Mimi that I've seen. Tracie has played Joanne literally everywhere: in the movie, on Broadway, and at the Hollywood Bowl. And it was also a good thing for Rosario to put on her resume. The actual movie itself cut and rearranged the order of songs from the musical and doesn't focus much on being in the 90s but the present day. There's nothing wrong with that, but the creative team wanted this Rent to be it's individual being. People that see the movie might have only seem the movie and not the Broadway musical. When they see it's mostly the same cast, they got excited and were looking forward to seeing the other Rent. It's not the same Rent, but it's called Rent and is similar to that other Rent, but it's not that Rent. It's like Rent the II.

And as of yesterday we have Rent III, Rent Live. Now I get it. Technically this wasn't live as in broadcast live and everything you saw was happening in real time and that sucks but also thank God they filmed that final dress or it probably wouldn't have happened at all or at least not in the way they planned. The whole concert version they released clips of would have been what we saw for those 3 hours instead of the full out production that we deserved to see. People would have stopped watching right away if they only got to see poor Brennin in a wheelchair and the cast just sitting there in the same spot watching with the live audience they have in front of them. But ya know what? It was still live. They did'nt lip sync or animate themselves to be CGI dancers. They sang live, they moved live, they had a live audience. That's why it's called LIVE THEATRE. It is happening in front of a group of people. This was also the first live musical that had an issue that prevented them from putting on the production as is. Grease Live had some weather and audio issues but guess what? They added pre filmed video and audio to fix that!!!! Tbh, I would not be surprised if they stop broadcasting it live and make it live meaning LIVE theatre in front of a LIVE audience that you prerecorded and show the world on whatever night.

The cast was unlike the other two in the sense that it was part Broadway performers, part music artists, part actors and dancers that can sing, and one phenomenal drag queen. If you want my opinion, Valentina is tied with Wilson Jermaine-Heredia as the best Angel. For someone who has never done anything like this, she did a hell of a job and was literally perfect in the role. Vanessa Hudgens, again in my opinion is probably the best Maureen. Her Over the Moon soars over any other one I have seen from the costume to her comedic timing to her commitment to the whole damn thing. She killed it. We also got see Jordan Fisher live his lifelong dream of being the first POC Mark and he did the role justice. The way they wrote Mark's monologues and made him feel as isolated from his group as friends as we've seen him was BRILLIANT. Especially at the top of Act 2 where they incorporated Seasons of Love into the plot, something that was not done in the other Rents which was literally genius. It was where I shed my first tear. Then we have Brandon Victor Dixon who did the best I'll Cover You Reprise EVER. I thought Michael McElroy was the best before last night. I was a wreck when Brandon did it. He is definitely one of the knots that binds these things together. And then we have Tinashe, Mario, and Kiersey Clemons. These three did their roles justice as well. I think Tinashe was up to par with Rosario's Mimi but her Mimi was definitely the most believable because she played it so young, she is supposed to be 19 but also a little coy and super sexy, which she did. Mario's vocals popped off and he definitely showed how much of a jerk Benny is. And Kiersey had a rocky start in my opinion but still played a great Joanne that had the perfect amount of spunk, sass, poise, and intelligence. Oh and don't get me started on Keala Settle. That woman took me to theatre church to bless the lord of blessing us with her talent. They rewrote Paul to be a woman named Cy which to me felt so raw.

And now the censorship thing. Idk what everyone else saw but I saw the same risque and edgy components of Rent that the Rent I and Rent II. The lyric changes were obvious ONLY TO THOSE THAT KNOW OF THE OTHER RENTS IN THE FIRST PLACE. And the changes they did make were seamless. On these main broadcasting networks, you cannot say shit, fuck, dildos, expose bare asses, be overtly sexual, etc. etc. unless that creative team anticipates a lofty fee and a potential lawsuit. They were only able to cross a certain amount of lines before it got out of control. The final line was clearly mucho masturbation. They had things taken away from them and saw it as the perfect opportunity to really make this Rent the 2019 Rent that is different from the other 2 but doesn't try to be the most superior of the three we know of.

Do you see what I mean though? All of these things are called Rent but none of them are the same or trying to replace the other creations. Sarah A isn't trying be better than Sarah B who isn't trying to beat Sara, the one without an H at the end of her name and the same applies to any new adaptation of a book or movie or musical. Every time this happens, that same story is trying to be expressed to an audience that needs to hear it. This messed up world we live in now needs to see a place where people are loved and accepted and are a part of a tight knit community. Rent does exactly that.

So the next time you see that ______ Live is happening or _______ the Musical is happening or a certain musical is getting a film adaptation, don't compare the two as one entity. Call it _____ II or the Sara without an H at the end.

Thank you for coming to my TED talk.

#rent #rent live #musical #musical theatre #broadway #jordan fisher #tinashe #mario #brandon victor dixon #valentina #kiersey clemons #theatre

[keepingupwithlinmanuel]

Lin-Manuel Miranda and Co. do it again. But this time, the hip-hop show is all for laughs.

The first thing to know about “Freestyle Love Supreme” is that the guys onstage — who included Lin-Manuel Miranda the night I went — are having a blast.

The second is that you will, too.

“Freestyle Love Supreme” is the brainchild of Miranda, musical improv guru Anthony Veneziale and Thomas Kail, the Tony-winning director of “Hamilton.” It’s a delightfully wit-laced evening of comedy rap devised on the spot by a tight cadre of performers, backed by a pair of equally deft instrumentalists — a kind of hip-hop version of the popular comedian-stocked game show, “Whose Line Is It Anyway?”

...

The atmosphere in the packed theater Sunday night had a comedy-club vibe, aided by the energy and charm of Veneziale, the smooth operator who both raps and serves as a kind of major-domo. His confederates were these gifted fellows: Utkarsh Ambudkar (rapper name: UTK), Chris Sullivan (“Shockwave,” the sound effects rapper) and two special guests: James Monroe Iglehart (“J-Soul”), a Tony winner for playing the Genie in the musical “Aladdin” and now in “Hamilton,” and Miranda (a.k.a. Lin-Man).

On other nights, the cast can include Bill Sherman (“King Sherman”) or two other “Hamilton” alums: Christopher Jackson (“C-Jack,” who originated George Washington), or Daveed Diggs (“Mr. Diggs”), a Tony winner for his portrayals of the Marquis de Lafayette and Thomas Jefferson in “Hamilton.” (The keyboardists on Sunday were Arthur Lewis and Ian Weinberger.)

As the show is reinvented at every outing, and the performers so seamlessly transform even the most absurd ideas into rapped stories, the quality of the audience input may not matter that much. Although my audience most assuredly knew how to play — the concepts for one flight of hip-hop fancy were panty lines, tuberculosis and shaving. (A few of the other raps, of course, go to profane places.) It’s a measure of Ambudkar’s mad skills that uncannily on cue he came up with a coherent verse to incorporate the aforementioned disease — and a rhyme for it.

The range in theatergoers’ ages attested to the wide appeal for this kind of entertainment. And watching Miranda join the fray so gleefully made you realize how much pleasure he gets in putting himself on the line. In improv, there’s always a high potential for going out on a limb and having it splinter beneath you. Then again, how can you not give wholehearted support to such an ingratiating feat of linguistic daring? And as long as we’re asking questions: How can this show not swear an oath to spread its freestyle love beyond this small playhouse in Greenwich Village?

Lin-Manuel Miranda, the almost-EGOT and MacArthur genius, is both a great man and a nice guy. So it’s such a surprise – and not a necessarily a bad one – to hear him rap “and sometimes I shave my nuts”. Does Mary Poppins know?

Miranda is an occasional guest at Freestyle Love Supreme, the improvised hip-hop show and very joyful noise now occupying Greenwich House Theater. Freestyle Love Supreme, which he helped found post-college, has been performing since 2004. Its current core group includes Andrew Bancroft, Chris Sullivan, Anthony Veneziale and Utkarsh Ambudkar. At a late-night performance this Sunday, James Monroe Iglehart (Hamilton, Aladdin) subbed in for Bancroft and Miranda leapt onstage after the first number, eliciting so much fanboying and fangirling that his first lyrics were drowned out by audience shrieking.

After a deep groove of a mic check, accompanied by keyboardists Arthur Lewis and Ian Weinberger, the evening’s MC, Veneziale, AKA Two Touch (lightning-witted, ultra-charming, vaguely smarmy) told the audience that everything would be made up “totally on the spot” and asked them to suggest some verbs. He chose “conceive” and each rapper spit some conception-related rhymes. Sullivan, a beatboxer, mimed the miracle of birth and supplied the sounds of a crying baby. Veneziale dropped it. As long as you can tolerate a slant rhyme (second/pregnant), there were cadences to delight the brain and the heart.

Then Miranda, wearing a Chita Rivera T-shirt, entered and began to freestyle with audience-suggested words: great dane, Bentley, daughter. He rhymed shutdown with butt down. Solid. He also said fuck and fucking a lot, which was more or less adorable. Though Moana might not approve.

The show will of course vary from performance to performance and there is no guarantee that Miranda, a wellspring of joy and an all-natural mood elevator, will participate on any given day...

#lin manuel miranda #freestyle love supreme #the guardian #washington post #articles

[ladylilac]

List Ten Songs You’re Currently Obsessed With And Then Tag 10 People

I was tagged by @a-shakespearean-in-paris This will honestly pretty much just be musicals, cause I’m a nerd. So in no particular order,

Michael In the Bathroom- Be More Chill. I haven’t really talked about this but I’m in a vocal course and we had to pick solos. This song is super funny and emotional and I thought it would be perfect. In the end it didn’t get approved because apparently  and I quote “females need to sing female songs”. Still one of my faves

There’s a Fine, Fine Line- Avenue Q. What I’m actually singing for my solo.  Avenue Q is a musical about being a young adult, finding your purpose, blah blah blah... The thing that makes it cool however is that the character are puppets. Some of the puppeteers are actually from sesame street.

Don’t Tell Mama- Cabaret. Just honestly Natasha Richardson and Alan Cumming.

Satisfied- Hamilton. I’ve been obsessed with Hamilton for a while now and this is my favourite song. I got to see it in Chicago and I died, it was so incredible.

Sincerely, Me- Dear Evan Hansen. Kinky!

Found Tonight- Lin- Manuel Miranda and Ben Platt. I think that Lin is a genius and he could put out a track that’s like two seconds long and I’d be like “this is my jam”. The fact that its for March For Our Lives is amazing, and honestly your lying if you haven’t cried over Ben Platt’s voice.

Totally Fucked- Spring Awakening. I saw a production like two days ago and the songs been in my head ever since.

The Smartphone Hour (Rich Set a Fire)- Be More Chill. 

The Room Where it Happens- Hamilton

Seasons of Love- Rent. A classic

#all my mutuals were already tagged #this was much longer than I expected #basically just a musical theatre tag

[rayne-the-neutrois-nerd]

I was tagged by @thebrightestbling to do the “10 songs I can’t stop listening to” tag! Thank you love! Please note that I’m on a big musical rush right now so a lot of these are gonna be from musicals... Maybe all... I might also talk about... all of them...

1) 96,000- In The Heights (Damn! But honestly, this is my favorite song from this musical and it’s so catchy, I can’t get it out of my head.)

2) Dead Girl Walking- Heathers (I’m adding this to my “Songs I want to preform” list. It’s been less than a week watching it and I already know the lyrics pfft)

3) Candy Store- Heathers (Yeah, I have two from Heathers, but this song is amazing and shows how much of a mythic bitch Heather Chandler is and I love it?)

4) A Little Priest- Sweeney Todd (Another song I want to preform... It’s just.. Dark humor at it’s finest with a brilliant and morbid use of rhyming. It makes you laugh with these two people joking about eating people... Which is actually kind of impressive...)

5) America- West Side Story (Idfk I just enjoy this and I’ve been listening to it a lot lately.)

6) All That Jazz- Chicago (Okay, first of all. Velma Kelly? My dream role of dream roles. And this number is just, woah. Just watch it. Watch the entire musical, just put all of Chicago in this slot. It’s an amazing movie musical too just- yes.)

7) Raise a Little Hell- Bonnie and Clyde (*Clears throat* WHERE IS A FANCAM OF KIBUM SINGING THIS BECAUSE I FUCKING NEED IT NOW )

8) La Vie Boheme- Rent (To riding your bike midday past the three-piece suits. To fruits! To no absolutes. To Absolut! To choice! To the Village Voice! To any passing fad! To being an “us” for once,instead of a “them”. LA VIE BOHHEEEMMMEE)

9) I’m the Greatest Star- Funny Girl (I belted this in my living room yesterday and felt like I was on the top of the world I just love it so much and yes I am the person who actually likes Barbra Streisand, fight me.)

10) My Shot- Hamilton (...Honestly I also want to put all of it here too, but I can’t. I literally listened to the cast recording last night and just... Lin-Manuel Miranda is a fucking genius, and I’m just in love with both this and In the Heights. I’m also really enjoying videos of people deconstructing motifs and the music and just, all the tiny details, it’s amazing. I can’t wait to see what he has brewing in his next.)

All of these are from musicals... sorry;;;

uuuh... Idk who to tag... @kibuttcheeks @s-h-i-n-e-e @realjonghyun99 @jonghyun-kun @ringdingdongenthusiast and anyone I’m forgetting;;; I know I’m forgetting a few:;;;

[bangtanani]

Since I don’t have anyone to share my excitement over this and I have no one to talk to about this I’ll make a small review post here so that I can look back at my thoughts and emotions later. First of all, everyone who knows me well knows that I am a sucker for ballets, musicals, plays, concerts and all those kinds of things. The first time I heard about Hamilton was when I was a freshman at college. My roommate and her friend kept mentioning hamilton over and over again and not gonna lie, I was annoyed most of the time. They were talking about how great the music was and so on. You know that I am not American, add this to the fact that I am not great at history and you’ll get someone like me who doesn’t even know her own country’s history. It would not even be surprising if I did not know who Hamilton was but since I came to the US during my senior year of high school, and they made me take US history, I at least have heard the name Hamilton. Fast forward to present and Hamilton was added to Disney+. At this point I was interested in it and wanted to watch it because last year, when me and my friends were studying they played the whole playlist of Hamilton songs and I liked them, they were not what I expected them to be since Hamilton is a historical person I didn’t think the music would be so modern I guess. So when I found out that it was on Disney+ I really wanted to watch it. And what better time than quarantine, yay! I have to say that my cousin watched before me and she kept telling me to watch it because it was amazing. This made me want to watch it even more. And finally! The day has arrived. Last week I watched it with my mom. And I have to say how amazing it was because I can’t stop thinking about it. I can’t even imagine how good it would’ve been live and it would be my dream to watch the original cast of Hamilton live. The songs are fucking phenomenal, excuse me language. Lin Manuel-Miranda is a genius and I’ve added him to the celebrities list that I really admire and love. I think I’ve seen every interview by OG cast members in the past 3 years. Whenever I go to sleep and I am about to fall asleep I sing different songs from Hamilton and whenever I wake up, my first thought is a line from Hamilton. This should show how obsessed I am with it. It was really really good. It made quarantine more bearable. I am sad that I can’t share my joy with everyone, but I guess that’s how it’s gonna be from now on. If anyone is reading this post and you haven’t seen Hamilton, please just watch it, you’ll thank me later 💜

EDIT: i literally just watched some people’s reactions on yt and let me tell you, i think I blacked out after the first song because I don’t remember half of the musical. Not the first time it has happened

#Youtube